by Elinor Macartney Lane
By ELINOR MACARTNEY LANE
Author of Mills of God
A. L. BURT COMPANY, Publishers NEW YORK
COPYRIGHT, 1904, BY D. APPLETON AND COMPANY
Published May, 1904
CHAPTER I. AT
CHAPTER II. I GO
ON A CRUISE AND
FIND A HIDDEN
CHAPTER III. THE
MINE, BUT IS
CLAIMED BY ITS
CHAPTER V. I
A STRANGE CHILD
NANCY BEGINS HER
STUDY OF THE LAW
CHAPTER VII. I
CHAPTER X. NANCY
VISITS HIS GRACE
CHAPTER XII. I
MEET A GREAT MAN
THE DUKE VISITS
STAIR FOR THE
NANCY MEETS HER
HIS GRACE OF
“THE SWAP O'
CHAPTER XVIII. I
GO DOWN TO
CHAPTER XIX. THE
DANVERS GIVES US
A GREAT SURPRISE
CHAPTER XXI. THE
AND THAT WHICH
CHAPTER XXII. A
CHAPTER XXIII. A
CHAPTER XXV. THE
THE MISTS ALL
To Frank Brett Noyes Who accepted, with a kind letter, The
first story I ever wrote, This tale of Nancy Stair is dedicated,
As a tribute of affection, From one old friend to another.
For woman is not undeveloped man,
But diverse; could we make her as the man,
Sweet Love were slain: his dearest bond is this,
Not like to like, but like in difference.
Auld Nature swears, the lovely dears,
Her noblest work she classes, O,
Her 'prentice hand she tried on man,
And then she made the lasses, O.
Ye can't educate women as you can men. They're elemental creatures;
and ye can no more change their natures than ye can stop fire from
PREFACE BY LORD STAIR.
Two excellent accounts of the beautiful Nancy Stair have already
been published; the first by Mrs. George Opie, in the Scots News,
giving a detailed account of the work on the burnside, and a more
recent one by Professor Erskine, of our own University, which is little
more than a critical dissertation upon Nancy as a poet; the heart of
the matter with him being to commend her English verses, as well as
those in gude braid Scot.
With these accounts to be secured so easily it may seem
presumptuous, as well as superfluous, for me to undertake a third. I
state at the outset, therefore, that it is beyond my ambition and my
abilities to add a word to stories told so well. Nor do I purpose to
mention either the work on the burn or Nancy's song-making, save when
necessary for clearness.
For me, however, the life of Nancy Stair has a far deeper
significance than that set forth by either of these gifted authors. My
knowledge of her was naturally of the most intimate; I watched her grow
from a wonderful child into a wonderful woman; and saw her, with a
man's education, none but men for friends, and no counselings save from
her own heart, solve most wisely for the race the problem put to every
woman of gift; and with sweetest reasoning and no bitter renouncings
enter the kingdom of great womanhood.
To tell this intimate side of her life with what skill I have is the
chief purpose of my writing, but there are two other motives almost as
strong. The first of these is to clear away the mystery of the murder
which for so long clouded our lives at Stair. To do this there is no
man in Scotland to-day so able as myself. It was I who bid the Duke to
Stair; the quarrel which brought on the meeting fell directly beneath
my eyes; I heard the shots and found the dead upon that fearful night,
and afterward went blindfolded through the bitter business of the
trial. I was the first, as well, to scent the truth at the bottom of
the defense, and have in my possession, as I write, the confession
which removed all doubt as to the manner in which the deed was
The second reason is to set clear Nancy's relation to Robert Burns,
of which too much has been made, and whose influence upon her and her
writings has been grossly exaggerated. Her observation of natural
genius in him changed her greatly, and I have tried to set this forth
with clearness; but it affected her in a very different manner from
that which her two famous biographers have told, and I have it from her
own lips that it was because of the Burns episode that she stopped
If it be complained against me that the tale has my own life's story
in it, I would answer to the charge that only a great and passionate
first love could have produced a child like Nancy, and I believe that
the world is ever a bit interested in the line of people whose loves
and hates have produced a recognized genius. Then, too, the
circumstances attending her birth had more influence on her after life
than may at first be seen, giving me as they did such a tenderness for
her that I have never been able to cross her in any matter whatever.
Much of the story, of which I was not directly a witness, comes from
Nancy herself. I have sent the tale to Alexander Carmichael as well,
and in all important matters his recollections accord with mine.
There came to me but yesterday, in this queer old city, a letter
from him urging me back to Stair, closed with a stanza that was not
born to die:
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to min',
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And the days of Auld Lang Syne?
They should not, Sandy, and none know it better than we; and I long
for a grip of your hand, lad, and to feel the winds blow through the
rowans at Stair and the copper birches of Arran; to hear the blackbirds
whistle across the gowan-tops; to see the busy burn-folk through the
break in the old south wall; and with the ending of these writings my
steps are turned toward home.
CHAPTER I. AT STAIR HOUSE, NEAR
EDINBURGH, IN 1768
By reason of a breakneck ride through the Pentlands, I entered the
dining-room at Stair very late one morning to find Huey MacGrath in a
state of deepest gloom waiting to serve my breakfast.
Good morning, Huey, I said, opening The Glasgow Sentinel which had
come by the post.
Good morning, my lord, he returned, in a grudging tone.
It's a fine morning, said I.
Ye think sae! with a show of great surprise.
Why, man! I cried, can not ye see for yourself?
We've the spring rains to come yet.
They're by these ten days, I answered.
Nae, nae, he said quietly. That was jest the equinoctial, I'm
The equinoctial comes in March, man! I observed with some
Tammas was telling me yesterday that the roads to London were fair
Nonsense, said I. The summer's here, Huey.
There's a chill at the gloamin', yet. Nae, nae, he went on
earnestly, simmer's far awa',I've seen snaw's late's this!
Ye've had wonderful eyesight, I laughed, seeing the point toward
which this talk was aimed. And did ye hear nothing of tidal waves,
Huey? I asked; with impassable roads to London, and snow in June,
you've surely heard of some disasters by sea.
Ah! he cried, ye can tell of what I'm thinking, for I've seen the
signs of it in ye for a fortnight back. You're like your father before
you, and your grandfather, as weel, for the curse of wandering seems to
follow the name of Stair. With the first warm day ye have your windows
wide open; and next your beds are into a draught fit to blaw ye from
between the sheets; and then ye're up in the morning, aff on a hoorse
scouring the hills as tho' ye were gyte; and at the end your valise's
packed, the coach stopped, and ye aff amang the heathen, Gude alane
Ah, laddie! he continued, his voice changed to an affectionate
wail, dinna be gane awa'! Ye've niver seen Stair in the simmer time;
but when the elderberries and lilacs flower on the burn; and the gilly
flowers and hollyhocks are bloomin' by the north tower; when the wind
blows soft through the rowans, and the pineys' pink and white faces, as
big as cabbages, nod against the old south wall, there's no bonnier
place in Scotland than your own place of Stair.
He was so moved at the thought of my leaving him, that I answered in
In truth, Huey, I've no thought of going away.
Ah, he answered, ye don't know it, but ye have. It's been in ye
for a week back,and casting his eye out of the window, there's Mr.
Carmichael now, riding in by the Holm gate. I'll jest open the door
This was an entirely unnecessary attention on Huey's part, as Sandy
Carmichael, whose estate of Arran Towers joins my own on the west,
generally opened the door of Stair for himself, or the windows either,
for the matter of that, if the latter were more convenient entrance
from the place he happened to be.
My recollections of Sandy begin with my recollections of myself. As
lads together, indeed before we were long out of skirts, we guddled for
fish in the burn-water; went birds' nesting, raced our ponies, fought
each other behind the stables and made a common stock of our money for
the purchase of dimpies, peoys and jelly-tarts. We attended the High
School together and upon leaving it chose the same college, where Sandy
ran a merry pace, throwing his money out of the windows, as it were,
and gaining for himself the reputation of wearing more waistcoats,
drinking more whisky, making love to more women, and writing better
verses, than any other man in the University.
He was a big, athletic, clean-limbed fellow, with brown hair, a
bright face, warm eyes, and friendly genial ways which came from the
kindest heart in the world. Five years before the time of which I
write, which would be in 1763, he had married the Honorable Miss
Llewellyn from the north, a pitiable pale-colored lady, who, half
crazed by jealousy and ill health, was sending him back to unmarried
ways again. Being only sister to Lord Glenmore, who had no heirs and
was subject to seizures of a very malignant type, it was yearly
expected that the title would come to Sandy's bit of a boy, a
handsome-faced little fellow of four, who paid me long visits at
self-selected times, demanding my watch, a pipe to smoke, and horses to
Before Huey had time to reach the door, Sandy, in his riding
clothes, with his cap on the back of his head, stood looking in at me.
There was a scowl between his brows, and by this as well as other
certain signs, I knew that all was not well with him.
Will ye go on a cruise with me? says he from the doorway with no
Would it be an unseemly prying into your affairs to ask where to?
I inquired with a smile.
North or south, said he, still keeping his place by the door.
It's immaterial to me, so I escape accompanying my womenfolk to
And if I go with ye, says I, your wife will like me less than she
That would be impossible, so ye needn't worry over it, he returned
dryly. The only good word ye ever had from her was that if ye'd been a
less handsome man ye might have been a better one.
And even that could scarce be termed fulsome flattery, I observed.
Will ye go! he repeated, his mind set on the one point.
A sudden thought, bred of some news in the paper which I had just
received, came to me upon the instant.
Let us take the boat from Leith, and go north by the Orkney and
Hebrides Islands, through the Minch to the west coast. There are all
kinds of stories afloat concerning the gipsies and free traders who
live in those deep coves; we might fall in with a pirate ship
Or find a hidden treasure! he said scoffingly, as he seated
himself on the other side of the table and took some coffee, the frown
gone, and the Sandy I knew with the bright face and laughing eye back
Aye, he went on in his humorous way, I am convinced 'twill be
hidden treasure we'll find, Jock. We'll go ashore at midnight, and
under a stunted pine will be a sailor's chest. Hidden treasures are
always found in sailors' chests, ye know. And taking a three-foot bar
of iron, which every gentleman in tales carries concealed upon his
person, we, you and I,none of the others, of course,will pry this
chest opento find ducats and doubloons, and piastres, and
sous-marqueesand a map of the Spanish Main and the Dry Tortugaswith
crosses in blood. I'll tell you, ye can have my share of it now, he
cried, laughing at me.
Ye're over generous, says I, for jesting of this kind was a thing
to which I was accustomed in him.
He dropped the raillery on the moment, however, to take a note-book
from his pocket.
Whom shall we ask? he inquired in his natural voice.
Now I had one other friend, almost as dear to me as Sandy, named
Hugh Pitcairn. But while there could be no doubt of the affection each
had for me, there could be equally no doubt of the dislike they bore
each other, this feeling having grown from the first day they met in
the hockey grounds of the High School, where almost at sight of each
other they fell to fighting, until finally pulled apart by some of the
In this connection, said I, getting back at him a bit, for his
jeering at my plans, what do you think of Hugh Pitcairn?
In this connection, he returned dryly, I do not think of Hugh
Pitcairn at all.
It's strange, I went on, in the same remote tone, as though it
were a subject mentioned for the first time, that ye should dislike
It can not match the strangeness of any one's enduring his
society, he replied with heat.
Well, well, said I, putting Pitcairn out of the talk. What do you
say to Geordie MacAllister?
The very man, he cried, writing the name in the book.
And Graham Annesley, I went on.
And Donald McDonald.
He won't do at all! Sandy broke out in a determined way. He's
gone the way of all trouble, which is the way of women. He's crazed
about the Lady Mary Llewellyn and we'll have no one along who is
sighing for a woman, be she his own or another man's wife. That's what
I like in you, Jock Stair, he said, gazing at me with approval. Ye've
No? I said, with pretended amazement.
Ye'd gamble on the flight of angels
Ye're speaking of some one else, maybe, I suggested.
And ye drink more than ye should,but you're my own man where the
women are concerned; for never since I knew ye,and that's ever since
ye were born,have I seen ye look with wanting at maid, wife, or
widow, and ye're wise in that, he added in a tone whose bitterness
came from the unhappiness of his own wedded life.
To put the talk into a brighter channel, I hastened to suggest a
fourth and fifth companion for the cruise, upon which we fell to
passing judgment on the companionable men of our acquaintance, weighing
their congeniality to us and to each other until one o'clock was past
before we set about the business of delivering our invitations.
Offering to accompany Sandy on these errands, I thought I heard a
groan, and on leaving the dining-room I made sure of another, and on
the instant knew that they came from Huey MacGrath.
This expedition falling so quickly on the heels of his warning was
an odd occurrence and for some reason, perhaps in remembrance of my
recent assertion that I had no heart to leave Stair, there fell a funny
performance between us. He handed me my cap and coat, determined to
catch my eye, and I, having no desire to see the reproach which his
glance contained, was equally set to avoid it; so that I received my
cap with my eyes on my boots, my gloves with an averted head, and my
riding-stick looking out of the doorway, and mounted my horse with no
small resentment in my breast at this surveillance from a servant which
would never be borne in any spot outside of Scotland.
I'm thinking, said I to Sandy as we rode toward the town gate,
I'm thinking of discharging Huey when I come back.
That will make the fifty-third time, said Sandy, with a grin, as
he started his horse off at a gallop.
After the visits with Sandy, I kept an engagement with Hugh Pitcairn
at the Star and Garter, just around the corner from the Tron Church, at
four o'clock of the same day. It was a few minutes past the hour as I
neared the place, to find him standing by the doorway, his back to the
passers by, a French cap pulled low over his eyes, reading from a
ponderous book which he was balancing with some difficulty against the
I hope I've not kept ye waiting! said I.
Ye have kept me waiting, he answered, but with no resentment.
I've been seeing some men about a cruise, and it took more time
than I thought, I explained by way of apology.
You're off on a cruise? he asked, as we seated ourselves at one of
With the Carmichael fellow, I suppose? he asked.
I am going with Mr. Carmichael, said I.
Well, it's just no thing for you to be doing at all, he
returned; you should stay at home and look after your affairs. The
Carlyles have broken the entail, and you may be able to buy the land on
the other side of Burnwater that you've been wanting so long.
And why can't you attend to the matter? I cried. Ye handle all my
business, and do it far better than I ever could, beside, I can leave
He smiled at this in an exasperatingly superior way as though I had
used the word loosely, and went on: The estate itself is to be looked
to, and here he seemed to have learned his lesson out of Huey
As for the house, I broke in, it's taken better care of in my
absence than when I am in it; and it's money in my pocket to leave
matters with MacGrath to manage. I can not see, I said with some heat,
perhaps helped by the brandy I was drinking, why in heaven's name I
shouldn't go on a cruise if I desire to! If I'd ties of any kind, a
wife or children
This was Pitcairn's chance, and he broke my talk to take it.
Your friend Carmichael has both, and to them his first duty lies.
And any one with his wits about him can imagine the rest of the talk,
for he fell into an attitude of strong disapproval of the whole plan;
stating in a cold legal way that Sandy had already let me in for more
than one trouble; had caused me to spend large sums of money, foolishly
doing the like himself; that we were both incapable of good husbandry;
given to drinking more than was wise, and over fond of the society of
persons whom we were pleased to call men of talent, but who were, by
his judgment, doggerel-making people, of loose morals, with no respect
for fact, the conduct which became the general, or the laws of Christ.
He went over for the twentieth time Sandy's arrest for pulling off
most of the door-knockers in Edinburgh; this event having occurred when
the lad was but sixteen and home for the vacation; as well as the
scandal of his having bid the Lord President in a high and excited
voice to stick his head out of the window, and upon that venerable
gentleman complying, shouting: Now stick it in again!
At the end of this discourse he invited me to remain at home with
him and spend the evenings over a new treatise on the Laws of Evidence
which he had just brought from the University, at which I laughed in
his face and told him that I had neither the wit nor the inclination
for such an enterprise. His last words were to the effect that there
would be trouble bred of the expedition, and he closed his harangue in
the following manner, as we stood on the South Bridge, where our ways
The Carmichael man has no judgment either for your affairs or his
own. His heart may be all right, but he's got no common sense, and a
man like that is little better than a fool.
CHAPTER II. I GO ON A CRUISE AND FIND
A HIDDEN TREASURE
In spite of Hugh Pitcairn we were off the following Monday, going
out of Leith, with a clear sky, a stiff breeze, and six men of our own
feather, caring little where our destination lay, if the cards turned
well, the drink held plenty, and the ocean rolled beneath us. North we
went; north till the sea itself seemed quieter and lonelier; north
where the twilight held far into the night, to be back by two of the
morning; north by John o' Groats and the Pentland Skerries; till one
June day found us turned far down the wild west coast; a colorless
cruise behind us, with never a storm, a pirate ship, nor a sight of the
At the end of the day of which I speak we were lying in toward
shore, and I was aft with a pipe for company, when Sandy came from
behind the pile of sail-cloth against which I sat to say that the brig
would have to lay by for repairs and to inquire what I thought of going
ashore for an adventure.
Where are we? I asked.
Somewhere above Landgore. 'Tis the very place for treasure, he
added, with a laugh.
There's nothing would suit me better than a night ashore, said I
with truth, for I had had enough of the drink, the slack language, and
the rough sea life, and looked forward to the land with a pleasant
hurry of thoughts.
The moon shone bright in a sky of plain dark blue, making a path of
swaying gold toward the beach, where we could see the water curl upon
the sands like suds. A little back was a steep rise of granite rocks,
with gorse and heather growing on the sides, at the bottom of which
some gipsies, or free-traders, had built a great fire, and we heard
them singing a drunken catch in chorus, and saw them whirling round and
round the fire in a circle, as we stepped ashore from the boat.
An ugly silence fell as we approached them, and their women drew
off, thinking that we were government men, no doubt; but finding that
we had no weightier business than to get some information as to our
whereabouts, one of them gave us word that the path up the cliff led to
the Cuckoo Tavern, kept by Mother Dickenson, where we could obtain what
refreshment we needed as well as lodgment for the night. We had gone
some fifty feet when one of the men cried after us:
An' if luck's wi' ye, ye may have a glyff of the handsomest lass in
Scotland, at which a woman cuffed him with a ringing sound. There
followed a muttered curse and a roar of laughter, which was the last we
had of them.
The path up the cliff twisted and roved in such a manner to avoid
the many boulders that the inn-light proved little better than a
will-o'-the-wisp to guide us, and it was in a breathless condition that
we reached the quaint low house, which was both neat and comfortable,
seeming peculiarly so perhaps after our long voyage.
A queer old woman, with a humorous wry face, yellow and deeply
lined, sharp black eyes, and a ready manner, stood behind a small bar
and took note of us upon our entrance, with the air of one well able to
judge our rank and bearing.
The rest went off with her to inspect the chambers which she was
able to offer, laughing and chaffing each other as was their way,
leaving me alone in the main room with my back to the fire. As I stood
thus I heard a sudden noise, saw the curtain of a door at the side
raised, and a girl in a black robe with a lighted candle in her hand
looked in at me.
For twenty-seven years I had waited for a sight of that girl!
She was tall and slight, and carried herself with the careless grace
of a child; her hair was of a bronze color, parted over the brows and
rippling back into a great knot low on the head; her skin was cream,
with a faint, steady pink burning in the cheeks, but as is the way of
men, it was the eyes and lips I noted most; eyes of gray, filled with
poetry and passion; eyes which looked out under brows black and heavy
and between lashes, curled and long, giving a peculiar significance to
the glance. The lips were scarlet, the upper one being noticeably short
and full; lips mutable and inviting, lips that were made for mineand
all this I knew in the first minute that our eyes met, when, as it
seemed to me, our two souls rushed together.
At gaze with each other we stood, no word spoken between us, for a
full minute of time, when the noise of the men coming back disturbed
her; she dropped the curtain and the light of her candle disappeared, a
little at a time, as though she were walking from me down some long
I do not know how love comes to other natures than my own, and men
of notable integrity have told me how leisurely they strolled into the
condition of loving; but for me, by one questioning glance from a pair
of eyes, half gray, half blue, I was sunk fathoms deep in love, in love
that knows nothing, cares for nothing but the one beloved. Soul and
body I was signed, sealed, and delivered, hers, in that first sight I
had of her in the doorway with the candle in her hand and the crimson
curtain framing her as if she were a picture.
We had supper, of which I ate nothing; liquor, of which I drank
nothing; and merry talk, in which I took no part, Sandy jeering at me
for a dull ass, I remember, and pretending regret at not having asked
the Reverend Slowboy in my place; but his talk was of no moment to me,
for my pulse was going like a trip-hammer, my brain reeled with that
headiest wine of Nature's brewing, and I wanted to get out under the
stars and be alone.
Having some skill at singing, Geordie MacAllister urged that I
recall the catch we had heard on the beach; but finding me adamant
against such an exhibition, Dame Dickenson offered a suggestion for our
There's a ward of mine here, a young lady, who has the music, and,
seeing ye're all gentlemen, might be urged to a song.
Five minutes from the time that she was seated with us, I had heard
her voice, our eyes had held each other again, and I saw a carnation
flush bloom suddenly in her cheek as our hands touched. She brought
with her a curious old instrument, like a lute with many strings, and
upon this she struck chords to the song she sang, The Wronged Love of
Great Laird Gregory, the melody of which seems ever to be with me; and
yesterday, when I heard Nancy crooning it to herself, I cried aloud as
a woman might, for the unfulfilled in all our lives, and my dead youth,
and Marian Ingarrach.
And at her singing, the four of usor five it may be, for I can not
now rightly recall whether Sawney MacAllister came ashore that night or
notsat before her beauty as though it were a part of witchery, for
there was a bookish strangeness to it that on this wild coast, in a
nest of smugglers and free-traders, after a cruise of rough living and
deep drinking, we should be listening to the voice of a girl whose
beauty was upsetting to the senses of man and whose bearing denoted
breeding of the highest order.
She left us after a second singing, bidding us good-night in a
laughing, friendly fashion, and looking at every one, save me, full in
the eyes, as a child might have done; but when her hand touched mine,
her eyes fell before me, and I, who knew something of woman's ways,
felt with a leaping heart that she knew.
The rest were gone from the room when Sandy Carmichael, who had made
the pretense of another pipe, came back to me as I stood looking into
You saw her first! he said.
Aye, I answered, and it's all over with me!
Is it to the church door? he asked.
It's to the foot of the Throne itself, I answered. It's wherever
she leads, for I was young and phrase-making was in the blood.
Well, he says, ye're Lord Stair, and if ye choose to marry a
Choose! I cried. I have no choice. The men who stand balancing as
to whether they will or they won't, with 'Would it be wise?' or
'Acceptable to the world?' I have no knowledge of, and want none, as I
have told you often.
Well, said he, I've always called you crazy, Jock Stair, and
here he put his hand lovingly on my shoulder, but I never discovered
until to-night how crazy you are. I'm not denying there's something
fine about it; but is it sensible? Think o' Pitcairn, he said, with a
laughing devil in his eye.
Pitcairn may go to perdition, I answered with some heat.
It's not Pitcairn that's on his way there, I'm thinking, he
returned, with a droll look; but we must all learn by experience, so
gang your own gate. We're off at five in the morning. Do you go?
He saw by my manner that nothing save an earthquake could get me
from the house, and whistling, with some significance, The Deil Has
Nae Got all the Fools, he left me without a good-by word. After he had
gone I went forth into the open to be alone. The stars were shining
brightly through white clouds, which the sea winds drove across the
sky, and far down the cliff I could see the great beach fire and catch
the laughter and song of the gipsy folk and free-traders.
Tales were not wanting of the men of Stair who had lost their wits
when crossed in love; who had run away with other men's wives and had
abided with some jauntiness the world's dispraise, cleaving until death
did them part to the one woman who seemed God-made for them. I had
thought before this, in a slighting manner, of the strange doings of my
forebears; but the thing was upon me, and, come life, come death, I
knew that there was henceforward for me but one woman in the world,
Marian Ingarrach, an Irish gipsy-girl, with a beauty beyond the
natural, and a voice of music like the sounding of an old harp.
I stood under the great tree, the blood of a man and a lover pulsing
sweet and feverishly through my veins, when I saw her come out on the
balcony, over the sea door, where some posies grew, which she had come
to move back from the wind. I was not one to lose an opportunity like
this, for nature in me was strong and impulse-driven. I crossed the
space which divided us and spoke up to her.
Will you come down? I called to her; I have that which I would
say to you to-night.
She started at the sound of my voice, hesitated for a moment, and
with no answer in words disappeared from the porch, coming out of the
door near which I stood.
Her hair, in two long plaits, hung almost to her knees, and by the
moonlight I could see the flush of her cheek and the silver sheen of
her eyes as she looked up at me with questioning in her glance, and I
remember now the clutch at my throat which seemed to hold back all I
would say, as I took off my cap and stood before her.
I love you, I said headily, I love you, and I want you for my
wife, and, seeing the highness of the absurdity that my first words to
her should be a proposal of marriage, I cried,
Oh, my dear! my dear! ye'll think me daft to talk thus; but we men
of Stair go gyte in these affairs. 'Tis love at first sight with us, or
none at all; but if ye'll have me, I'll make ye Lady Stair; and what's
far more, I'll try to make you a happy woman the rest of your days.
It seems wild enough for me to be talking so, I went on, to you,
who do not even know my name, and here she interrupted me with a shy
Jock! she said, reaching forth her hand, and the door of heaven
opened, as it seemed.
How did you know? I asked.
Sure, she said, I listened for it. The other big man called you
You cared to know? I whispered, for my arm was around her by this
time, and the world had slipped away.
And you think you could learn to love me, Marian?
I felt the little body quiver in my arms, and when she spoke there
was fear in her voice.
Do you think it is right? she asked. Do you think it can be
right? It seems as though for years, for all my life, I had waited for
your coming, and I loved you the minute I saw youyou whom a few hours
agone I did not know to be a living man. Tell me, she went on
excitedly, you who are a man and of the world, can this be all good?
It is as God meant such things to fall, I answered her, and He
deal so with me as I shall deal with thee.
But, she persisted, are you sure you understand? You tell me you
are Lord of Stair, and I've no doubt of it, for truth shines from your
eyes; but what do you ken of me? I who have no name, who was left by
some gipsy folk at the inn door, and whose breedingwhat I've of
itcame from a Jacobite priest who teaches by the Cairn Mills.
There was never another voice so full of music, so caressing or so
feminine, as Marian Ingarrach's, none, not even Nancy Stair's; and as
she uttered these depreciations of herself, I exclaimed:
You are as I would have you.
And you'll not be ashamed of me?
It was in this question that I had her first teasing of me, for she
was woman, and knew as well as I of the beauty, which gave her a
queen's right to the hearts of men.
Ashamed of you, I cried. Ah, girl, dinna ye see I canna get my
breath for wantin' ye?
She stood looking at me, her chin well up and an amused and a glad
look in her eyes.
Ah, she said at length, you are the one who is worth all that a
woman has to give, and the blood of all the lawless folk of which I
come speaks for you, Jock Stair! For ye woo as a man should woo; and
I'm won as a woman should be won, because she has no will left to
And she turned her face toward mine.
I'm just yours for the asking, Jock.
I drew her to me, and we kissed each other beneath the starlit blue,
with the sea wind blowing our hair and the gipsy singing coming, in
broken bits of melody, up through the gorse and heather.
I made a song of it after, in my limping verse, which Nancy found
one day, and laughed at, I remember:
The gipsies are out, I can see their lights moving,
Race answers to race, 'neath the stars and the blue;
They are living and laughing and mating and loving,
As I stand in the midnight with you, love, with you!
CHAPTER III. THE TREASURE BECOMES
MINE, BUT IS CLAIMED BY ITS OWNER
There was no sleep for me that night, and I lay awake till the clear
day, watching the gulls fly across the window and waiting the time when
I might see her once again. Early as it was when I arose, the wee bit
lassie who brought me the hot water said in answer to my inquiry that
the other gentlemen had been gone since the daybreak, and declining her
offer of breakfasting in my room, I went down to the spence, hoping
that Marian might be there before me. I found the room empty, however,
save for Dame Dickenson, who had spread a table for me between the fire
and the window, through which I could see the waves curl on the lower
beach and the sunshine break into flying sparks over the fine blue sea.
I was never one to mince words when there was aught to be said, nor to
put off settling until another time a thing which could be fixed upon
Sit ye down, I said to the little body, who was plainly of a rank
and comprehension above the vulgar. Sit ye down! There are a few words
that I would like to have with ye.
She remained standing, but paused in her employ to give me a
wordless attention as I went on:
I am John Stair, Lord of Stair and Alton in the Mearns, and I want
to marry your ward, Marian Ingarrach.
She set the rest of the dishes before me as though not hearing my
speech, but I saw the corners of her mouth twitch a bit and, after
removing the cover of the haddie, she cast a glance over the top of my
head rather than directly at me, as she said:
Ye're a cautious body, Lord Stair.
I know what I intend to do, I answered, and there was a silence
between us for a space.
Ye're a quare man, she broke forth presently, looking at me
humorously over her glasses. Aye, a quare man! Ye come here with a
pack of riotous livers from Edinburgh, clap your eyes on my young lady
for the first time last night, and are for marryin' her off hand this
morning with no more to do over it than if marryin' was a daily
performance of yours.
I said no words, but regarded her with a smile.
Sure, she went on, looking at me with great equanimity, ye canna
soften my heart by your smilin'. Ye're a handsome man, my lord, and
ye've the strong way with ye that black men often have; but I've met in
with handsome men afore now, and the handsomer the more to be feared.
Dickenson was a dark man himself, she added, with a twinkle in her
eye. Another silence fell between us, as I watched her needles click in
and out and catch the firelight.
Perhaps, she said presently, ye'd like to have a little knowledge
of the girl you're wantin' for a wife.
It's the matter which lies nearest my heart at the moment, I
answered her; and at this her voice and face became more serious, and
she stopped her knitting, looking directly at me as she spoke.
There's little to tell, she began, little that I could take
book-oath to, I mean, for one bad night in March, eighteen years back,
I heard a wail at the door, and opening it found a gipsy-hamper with
the baby inside. She was finely dressed and there was a note pinned on
her little shirt, whichwait a bit, she said, I can show it ye. At
this she crossed the room to a wooden cupboard, unlocked the door, and
took from it a small box, the key of which she had in her bosom.
Opening this she handed me a slip of paper, upon which was written, in
a coarse male hand:
If you will keep the child money will be sent for you and her.
want her brought up a lady.
There was a roll of gold in the basket with her, forty pounds, my
lord. And the writer has kept his word. Money has been sent ever since,
sometimes from Italy, once from Russia, and then from the Far East.
That is all that I know.
But you have beliefs concerning the matter? I asked.
Yes, she said, though the truth of them could not be proved.
Twenty years ago, when I was maid at Squire Eglinton's, on the Irish
coast, near Carrickfergus, he had one daughter, a flower of a girl, who
ran away with a gipsy man she met in her father's park. The young lady
loved me and knew where my home in Scotland was. I have thought, my
lord, that mayhap she died, and 'twas the father-man who brought the
baby to my door. I have told you all but this: if Miss Eileen ever had
a daughter, it could not be more like her than Marian is.
A hundred questions came to me at once, but before one of them was
asked I had a sight of the girl herself, coming from the country side
of the house, the wind blowing her hair about her face and carrying
away swarms of white petals from the hawthorn-blooms she held in her
arms. As she was hid from my sight by the corner of the house, Sandy
Carmichael entered the room, his hands thrust far into his pockets, and
his pipe held at a curious angle between his teeth.
What! I cried in amazement. You here! I thought you were gone at
Did ye now? he asked, with raillery in his voice. Did ye think,
and he put his hand on my shoulder after his own fashion, did you
think I'd leave you, Jock, in this, your last extremity? Ye're not
married yet? he went on jokingly, I'm not too late for the wedding?
Oh, he broke out with a laugh, how have the mighty fallen!
Not yet, I answered him; but it will be no fault of mine if I'm
not a married man by night.
He changed color at this, and getting the dame on his side the two
of them urged a waitingI know not for what; and more thought, which
would have brought me to the same conclusion; but their talk and their
arguments went high over my head, for I was fixed as fate that nothing
but Marian's mind against it could move me from the wish I had. As the
three of us stood thus, the talk going back and forth, the girl came
into the room, and at sight of me went white, changing on the instant
to a glorious pink, which flushed her face all over like a rose.
Good morning, Lord Stair, she said.
I crossed the room, and took her hand and kissed it.
Marian, I said, will you marry me to-day?
She sent a hurried look around the three of us, and as a woman
discovers things, knew that they were against me in the matter. It took
her not one second to decide for me, and my being leaped toward her as
When you will, my lord, she said. I have no wishes that are not
It was a little past noon of the same day, with none to see save
Sandy Carmichael, Dame Dickenson, and Uncle Ben, that Father Pierre,
from the Cairn Mills, made Marian and myself one in a marriage such as
the gods intended when the world was young and the age of gold.
About three o'clock Sandy left us, going on horse to join his party,
which was to lay by for him at Landgore. Marian and I walked with him
far beyond the sea light, he leading his horse and telling us that it
was but the strong remembrance that he had a wife at home which
prevented his carrying her away with him. He had great joy in my
happiness, and his strong laugh rolled round and round in echoes among
the rocks as we went along together. Before we parted his mood changed
a bit, and he turned suddenly and laid his arm across my shoulder.
You'll not forget me, laddie? he said earnestly, with his head
turned a bit from me so that his eyes could not be seen.
Our hands gripped each other at the end, as though we could not
speak the word of good-by, and my dear, who knew the thoughtthat my
marriage might in some way make the friendship between us less
closetook our locked hands between her little ones and held them to
Believe me, she said, as though making a vow, that all I can ever
do to make this friendship stronger I shall do; oh, believe me in
Sandy kissed her on the cheek, she stuck a piece of pink heather in
his coat, and he mounted his horse and was off at a bolt. Twice we saw
him turn and wave his cap toward us; we called to him, and he shouted
back something in return, the meaning of which we were unable to
discover, and so went down a sudden turn of the rocks and was lost to
* * * * *
There are some parts of every life that can not be set forth. The
first sacred months of my marriage are of these. The little inn, which
was no longer in Dame Dickenson's possession, I purchased, and we made
it into a home. And the time is all of Marian! Marian standing in white
in the going down of the braeside to welcome me; Marian on my knee in
the twilight looking out seaward and starward; Marian with her brown
head and face, such as the angels have, resting on my breast in the
gold of the dawning; MarianMarianMarianI, an old man, who was
once that bonny Jock Stair, all your own, call to you. Can you come?
Will it ever be again! See! I stretch my hands, wrinkled, old, to that
far off blue, and ask you, as I have a thousand times, to send me
* * * * *
All that summer we lived in the little house, and toward autumn
there were reasons why my wife should not be troubled with new cares.
Sandy came to see us frequently; whiles I ran up to Edinburgh to tend
to needful matters. One day in March, because of some wish my dear had
half expressed, I went to town to get some of the jewels with which the
Ladies Stair had adorned themselves in days gone by. I had promised a
short absence, but there was a matter of some fastenings to be mended
at the goldsmith's, and my stay was three days. Riding backward as fast
as a postboy, I came on the porch suddenly to find a weeper, as if one
were dead, hanging upon the knocker. Dropping the box and riding-whip I
pushed the door ajar with a great shove and entered, upon Dame
Dickenson, who was coming out of her room, from which place I heard a
faint cry. Her eyes were red with weeping; she looked scared and went
white at the sight of me, and with a horrid presentiment of trouble, I
cried on the instant, in a voice which I heard myself as coming from
Where is she?
Oh, my lord, she said, and her voice broke and went off into a
shriek, did ye no meet wi' Mr. Carmichael? He's gone for ye.
I met nobody, I cried, and again there was a tiny wail as of a
new-born babe from the next room.
Oh, my lord! she cried again, springing forward and putting
herself between me and the doorway which I made to enter. Ask God for
strength to bear what's been sent ye. Say a prayer, my lord. Ask Him to
let ye remember the baby that's come to you. Pray, O my lord, she
cried; prepare yourself.
I pushed her from me and threw the door wide open.
There was a body in the room laid out for burial, with candles
burning at the head and foota slim, young, girlish body; and as
Father Pierre, who was kneeling by it, turned his face toward mine I
knew that Marian, because of me, had gone forever. Something seemed to
strike me at the back of the head and a black vapor fell before my eyes
and stopped my breathI knew that Father Pierre caught me in his arms,
a merciful unconsciousness seized me, and everything faded away.
* * * * *
When I came to myself I was in my own sleeping-room at Stair, a
night-light burning on the table, and some one on the other side of the
screen sat reading by the fire. I saw the top of the head over the
chair-rail, and knew it was Sandy Carmichael's. Five weeks longer I lay
there, and on toward midsummer, my fever having lasted four months,
Sandy proposed I should start as soon as I was able and tour the world.
It had been an old dream of mine, but with little taste for life, I set
sail from Glasgow for Gibraltar some time in August, 1769, to visit
other lands and see new lives with old sorrows like my own.
CHAPTER IV. ENTER NANCY STAIR
I had been from Scotland near five years, when two letters were
handed to me as I sat in The British Sailors' Tavern, in Calcutta; one
of which was from Hugh Pitcairn and the other from Sandy Carmichael. I
thought as I read them what characteristic epistles they were, for
Hugh's read as though I had parted from him but the day before, and
urged my return to look after some land interest which he as my
solicitor felt should have my immediate supervision.
There is another thing, he added, which should bring you home.
Huey MacGrath is ailing and I fear is sickening to die.
Sandy spoke, as was his way, of our old affection and his wish to
see me once again, and he ended by a tender reference to the baby of
mine who was growing a big girl and needed me, he said.
God knows how lonely I was when these two letters came to me, and
the thoughts of home and a child dependent upon me brought, for the
first time since my dread trouble, a sense of comfort. Huey sick unto
death was another call to my heart, and in four days' time I was
Before I stepped ashore at Leith it was Sandy who waved to me from
the quay; Sandy whose hand gripped mine so hard the fingers ached for
days; Sandy whose eyes beamed with joy as he looked at me and took me
back to Stair.
I've been living on the docks awaiting your return until the town
doubtless thinks I'm going for a sailor, he cried. Well, it's good to
have you back, Jock Stairand I believe that Huey MacGrath's illness
is little more than a longing for the sight of you.
On our ride homeward his whole talk turned about his boy Danvers, of
whom he spoke with unfettered approval and satisfaction, which came
from a strange source.
He looks like you, Jock Stair! It's heaven's truth that he's the
image of you! It seems odd that I, who am a brown man, should have a
son with an olive skin and hair like ink, but it's a fact. And he's
like ye in other ways, for he rides like a monkey and can thrash any
one of his weight in the county. Aye, he concluded, ye'll be proud of
And what of my girl? I asked.
Nancy, he said, a curious look coming into his face as he smiled;
she's one you must see to judge of for yourself. I've raised her up as
well as I could. I've spent time with her!
His determined reticence, which had some humor in it, put me on my
metal concerning the child, and the day after my arrival I sent Tam
MacColl with a written request to Dame Dickenson to fetch the little
one immediately to Stair.
Six days later Tam returned bringing a large sheet of paper, which I
have before me as I write. It was folded after a curious fashion, with
no address, and opening it I found the following:
[Illustration: I am not comming.
For the first time in five years I laughed aloud. This was something
worth. Here was an atom, not yet five, who took her pen in hand and
misspelled her firm intention to do as she chose. I folded the paper
and laid it aside, wondering what kind of offspring I had begotten, and
the following morning took horse to Landgore to see this very
determined little body for myself.
As I came in sight of the place after my long ride, strange voices
called to me from the sea, from the heather, from the great copper
birch over the house. Eyes long dead seemed looking into mine, hands
were on my hair, and there came to me, with the feeling of mortal
sickness, the terrible, sweet remembrances of an early passion and of
things to be known to none save Marian and me and the One who does most
wisely for the Great End, but bitterly to us who see but a little of
Reaching the porch, my strength left me utterly, and I leaned
against one of the wooden pillars for support. Standing thus, I saw a
child running down the braeside at the top of her speed, with no
knowledge of my presence, but coming at her fastest to reach the house.
She wore a short-waisted black frock, with a very long skirt, which
almost touched the ground. On her feet were red shoes, which twinkled
in and out of the black, as with great dexterity and lightness, she
clambered up the steps of the porch and stood before me, one of the
miracles of God before which we human folk stand abashed. For here was
Marian again. Marian to the turn of an eyelash; to the finger tips; in
the bronze chestnut curls which stood like a halo round the face; in
the supple little woman-body; in all the dear, quaint, beautiful baby
who stood before me devouring me with gray eyes, and looking at me with
a radiant, shy smile as she held a kitten tail up against her breast.
After a few seconds' regard of me, during which I could see by her
face that she was piecing some bits of knowledge together, she clapped
Jock! she cried, with a rapturous smile.
I can never tell the joy and horror of the moment, for my name was
the first word my beloved had ever spoken to me, and at the sound of it
from this, her child, my heart leaped into my throat; there came a
whirring in the top of my head and a singing in my ears, and as I sank
upon the old stone settle something like a moan escaped me.
In the next minute I knew Nancy Stair for all time. The sight of
suffering seemed to put her past herself, and, dashing toward me, she
climbed up on the seat. I could feel the warmth of her body and the
clinging of her dimpled arm as she drew my head against her naked,
palpitating little breast as though to defend me from suffering against
the whole world.
Oh, you poor fing! she cried. You poor fing! Does you hurt?
When I had in some degree recovered my self-control, the child sat
down beside me, so close that she pushed her small body against mine,
with one rose-leaf of a hand laid upon my knee in a protective fashion,
every little while giving me a pat, as a mother soothes a child.
Sitting thus, my arm around her, my soul stirred to its depths, my
eyes brooded over all her baby charms.
She was of a slender, round figure, with dimpled neck and arms. Her
head was broad, her forehead low, with noticeably black brows, and she
had a way, when perplexed, I very soon discovered, of drawing these
together, the right one falling a bit lower than the left. It was the
eyes which struck one first, however; brooding, passionate, observant,
quick to look within or without, and fearless in their glance. Mrs.
Opie states that they were black, and Reynolds painted them bright
blue; but the truth is, that they were like her mother's, clear gray,
with pupils of unusual size, and heavy lashed, especially on the under
She was still under five, but I had not been with her a quarter of
an hour before I recognized a potent and wonderful personality and knew
that there was something which this small soul had in her keeping to
give the world which others have not.
Sandy was here, I heard her sweet voice saying when I had
recovered myself. Sandy was here one day. He fetched the drey hen you
sent me. Here she patted my knee, looking up as though to assure me of
He said the rabbits were from you, she went on; and the owl got
broke that was in the box. It was too little for him.
Sandy brought me, she said finally, the child that stares so,
and she pointed, her eyebrows puckered together, at a rag-doll, with
painted cheeks and round, offensive eyes, sitting head down in a corner
of the porch.
Beyond money, I had not sent even a message to the child in all
these years of absence, and my heart filled with gratitude to that
friend who had made me a fairy-grandfather and won a child's love for
me, who was so unthoughtful and so far away.
As we sat thus, Dame Dickenson heard the sound of voices, and came
from the house to welcome me with a smile, though the tears were in her
eyes as she spoke her words of welcome.
Her life of ease and freedom from money-care had changed her
greatly, and with her black silk frock, her lace kerchief and cap, she
seemed quite like some old gentlewoman. I tried, knowing the inadequacy
of words, even while speaking, to thank her for my wonderful child,
when she interrupted me.
I should have died but for heraftershe broke off here, not
wishing to name the sorrow between us. But you've not seen the wonder
of her yet; she has the whole Cairn Mills bewitched, and if she were a
queen on her throne could not have her way more than she does now.
It was of a piece with the Dame's thoughtfulness to have prepared
for me a room which I had never known, and where no memories dwelt; a
low-raftered apartment on the land-side of the house, with a window
looking over the garden and a fire burning cheerily in the corner
chimney. Dropping off to sleep, happier than I thought it possible for
me to be again, I became aware that there was some one in the room with
me. Opening my eyes, I found Nancy, with her long white gown gathered
on her breast to keep it from the floor, standing looking at me, her
head about level with my own as it lay on the pillow.
What is it? I asked.
GetinwifJock, she answered.
What? I inquired again, for she had slipped her words all
GetinwifJock, she repeated, with an unmistakable movement of
her small hand to turn back the bed covers.
You darling! I cried, and drew her in beside me.
The tenderness I felt for her as she lay on my breast was akin to
agony. I trembled at the touch of her, and what she meant to me, and
all that I had missed. And long after she fell asleep, I lay, seeing
the past with new eyes, understanding new truths, and making myself,
please God, a better man.
I woke the next morning about eight, to find her gone, but as I was
dressing by the window I saw her below me in the garden, busy with some
hens that were clucking all about her.
Hello, Little Flower, I called to her.
 The name came to me with no thought, but for years it was
one she fancied most, and many of her early poems were signed
L.F.S., or sometimes by nothing save a queer little drawing,
rose and half daisy.
(The manuscript of the Maid with the Wistfu' Eye in the
Edinburgh collection has only this mark as signature.)
She smiled up at me, blinking in the strong sunshine, and I hastened
down to join her.
Are you willing to come back with me to Stair? I asked.
We're getting ready, Jock, she answered, putting her hand in mine.
We? I inquired. Whom do you mean?
Nancy Stair, she said, touching herself on the breast with her
small forefinger, Dame Dickenson, Father Michel, Uncle Ben, the two or
three dogs, the kittens, the one without a name, the drey hen, and the
Nancy Stair, I broke in, with some firmness in my voice, it will
be utterly impossible to take all these folk up to Stair Castle.
She looked at me and went white, as grown people do when news which
chills the blood is suddenly brought to them, and struck her little
hands together as though in pain. Turning suddenly she left me and
trotted off through a cleft in the stone wall of the kitchen garden, to
which place I followed her, with remorse in my heart for the rough way
in which I had spoken.
I found her lying flat in the grass, her face hidden in her arms,
her body trembling, but she made no sound.
What is it, dear? I asked.
I can't go, she said, without looking up, I can't go, Jock.
Why? I inquired.
She arose at this and leaned against me, her head but little above
my knee and her eyes looking straight up into mine.
Oh, don't you see? she cried. I can't go!I can't go and leave
my people, Jock!
I can see now that then was the time I should have been firm with
her, and have escaped the tyranny of latter years. Firm with her! Firm!
while Nancy stood leaning against me with her baby curls under my hand.
Firm! with eyes that held tears in them, tears which I had caused.
Take them, I cried, take the free-traders, the old wreck, the
Cairn Mills, and the new light-house, for all of me; but never let me
see that look in your face again, my little one! and I had her in my
arms, as weak a father as I had been as lover and as husband, with the
resulting that I, John Stair, Lord of Stair and Alton in the Mearns, in
company with Dame Dickenson, Father Michel, Uncle Ben, the two or three
dogs, the kittens, the Nameless One, the drey hen, and a small child
holding a dissipated-looking owl with but one whole feather in its
tail, drove up to the gateway of Stair Castle in a gipsy wagon of an
abandoned character, on the afternoon of a day in late February, in the
CHAPTER V. I MAKE THE ACQUAINTANCE OF
A STRANGE CHILD
Several days after this strange home-coming some business called me
to the far woods, where I was detained until the afternoon sun was well
on its way behind the hills. Nearing the house I discovered Nancy
huddled in a little bunch, sitting by her lee-lane in a spot of
sunshine on the west stepssuch a lovable, touchable little bundle as
she sat there, with her chin in her hand. I looked for the exuberant
welcome which I had always received, but it was wanting; and as I stood
waiting some greeting from her, she made a quaint gesture of dismissal
Jock mustn't disturb Nancy now, she said; Nancy's making verses.
There was in the atom's voice nothing but a statement of her wishes.
That I was her father and one to be obeyed never entered her curly
head, and her tone implied the belief that I would respect her lights
as she would mine. I can honestly state that I never was more dismayed
in my life. I entered the library, wondering what had happened in my
absence, and considering whether to send for Dickenson and make some
It was gone a half hour perhaps before Nancy came in through the low
window, and crossing the room to the place I sat, leaned herself
against my knee.
Listen, she said:
Jock Stair's gone away,
Where I cannot fancy.
Jock Stair's gone away,
Gone and left his Nancy.
O, Jock, I cannot say
How much I miss you,
If you were here to-day
Nancy would kiss you.
Her cheeks were roses, her eyes shone with a misty light, and the
verse so rapturous to herself that she struck her little hands together
when she had finished.
Do you like it, Jock? Is it pretty? she asked.
You blessed baby, I answered, who taught you?
They come, she said, and afterward Nancy's head-iks, and
she put her morsel of a hand to her forehead, as a grown person with
Head-iks! she said again with emphasis.
The second day after this remarkable event, Sandy, who was riding
by, called over the wall to me, as I stood with Nancy by my side.
Well, he cried, what do you think of my girl, Nancy Stair?
The same that you do yourself, I retorted. Come in and lunch with
us, won't you?
He made no answer in words, but turning his horse toward the south
gate, entered the policy, and I sent Nancy off to tell Kirstie that Mr.
Carmichael would dine with us, for I thought it no right part of a
child's rearing that she should hear herself discussed.
As she took her small body around the boxwood, lifting it up on the
toes at every stepa way she had when pleasedYou've raised up a
wonderful child for me, Sandy, I said, and I told him of the verses
she writ the day before.
Aye, he answered, I didn't tell ye of them, for I wanted that ye
should find out about her verses yourself. I've a book full of them,
and she but five. But after all's said and done, he went on, 'tis the
heart of her that's more wonderful than the head. Christmas a year back
I was walking out with her, and some shiftless beggars got in the path
and asked for money. 'In truth,' I answered, knowing what frauds they
were, 'I haven't a penny in the world!' I thought the child had let the
incident pass unnoticed, but that evening the door to my bedroom opened
and Nancy, in her white nightgown, walked in. She came to the
writing-table shyly, and after putting a large copper penny on the edge
of the table, pushed it toward me with her forefinger.
'You tan have it,' she said; 'I tan dit anover.'
There it is, the copper penny, he cried, with a laugh, though
there were tears in his eyes, showing me the end of his watch-fob from
which the bit of money hung.
The dear little thing had thought I really had not a penny in the
world and had brought her only one to sacrifice upon the altar of our
friendship. Oh, Jock Stair, and the union between us spoke in the
words, how are you and I to raise up a soul like this and keep it
unspotted from the world?
As I stated at the beginning of my story, I have no intention of
saying a word of Nancy's charities or of her verse-making save when
necessary for the clearness of my tale, but I find the time has now
come when some mention of the first must be made. It could be judged
from the anecdote already told, of her bringing her people to Stair,
that she formed strong attachments; but as time went by I found that
this affection extended to almost everything that lived. She was a
lawless little body, going around the grounds at her own pleasure, and
bringing back some living thing at every expedition to be cared for at
the house. These findings included lame dogs, rabbits, cats, and
finally she came into the library, breathless:
I got a boy to-day, Jock, she said, exactly as I might have stated
I had caught a fish. A boy, she repeated, every feature in her face
alight; Father Michel's got him.
For Heaven's sake, Nancy, I inquired, what do you intend to do
Keep him, she answered.
Going down with her to inspect this new treasure, I found a lad
eight or ten years of age, very sickly, with a hump upon his back, and
of a notably unprepossessing appearance, carrying a fiddle, and
evidently forsaken by some strolling player. She had set her mind upon
his staying, and he stayed; but finding the trouble her accumulated
possessions were giving at Stair, she showed me within the week a bit
of her power to get her own way; a thought which afterward bore such
large results for the whole of Scotland.
The former lord, my honored father, had erected under some trees far
off by the burn water several small stone houses for the servants which
my beautiful Irish mother brought with her from her own country.
Because my bachelor ways had needed little service these dwellings had
gradually fallen into disuse and disrepair, the few serving people I
required finding abundant lodgment in the attic chambers. These tiny
houses, built of gray stone, with ivy growing around the windows, had
taken Nancy's fancy from the instant her eyes first lighted on them.
The evening before her sixth birthday, as we stood together watching
the sun go down, a thought for the following day came to me.
And what do you want for your birthday, Little Flower! I asked.
The little houses, she said, leaning her head against me.
What for? I inquired, thinking perhaps that she believed them play
Dame Dickenson, Father Michel, Uncle Ben she stopped.
To live in? I inquired.
To keep, she answered quietly.
The more I thought it over the more pleased I became with the idea
that these devoted people, who gave their lives to Nancy, should be
rewarded. I was perhaps especially pleased at the thought of doing
something for Father Michel, of whom I would now be speaking.
He was at this time a young man, still under twenty-five, who had
come, none knew from what place, to live at the Cairn Mills with the
dear old priest who married Marian and me. What tragedy had been behind
him none knew, but Dickenson told me that from the time he first saw
the child his heart went out to her, and that after the meeting there
was no keeping him from the old inn, where he finally took up his
residence as one of the family.
Old Uncle Ben, whose sea tales were one of Nancy's chiefest joys,
and whose wooden leg was her greatest perplexity, I felt deserved some
recognition of his service, and, to shorten the telling, in less than a
month these houses were occupied as Nancy had desired they should
beFather Michel being given the large one, with Nancy's dwarfed boy,
Dame Dickenson the next, and Uncle Ben becoming the proud occupant of a
third. It seemed a sort of child's play to me at first, and Mrs. Opie's
statement that I built these houses at this period for the work on the
Burnside, is entirely without foundation.
Some credit has been bestowed upon me as well for the working out of
a labor problem here, but it is honor undeserved, for the thing began
in the entirely unintentional manner which I have set down, and the
working out of it came at a later date through Nancy's thinking and the
zeal and goodness of Father Michel.
 It was about this period that the Lace School was
begun, which occurred by no plan of mine, but in the
way: Sandy had had two young women from the north for house
service at Arran, and finding them unused to labor, proposed
Dame Dickenson should teach them the Irish lace making which
had learned in her own country. And in a short time there
nine or ten young girls of the neighborhood under regular
instruction in this industry.
CHAPTER VI. NANCY BEGINS HER STUDY OF
There has been some delay in bringing Hugh Pitcairn into my story,
and, as I read that which I have written, I seem to have set him down
in a scant and dry manner little calculated to do justice to his many
virtues. These virtues, however, were of the kind which made him a fine
citizen rather than a jolly companion over a bowl of brose. He was a
tall man, heavily built, with a large face, thick bristly hair, and
blue eyes set extraordinarily far apart. The bridge of his nose being
noticeably low, this peculiarity gave the upper part of his face the
appearance of being very sparsely settled. It was Robert Burns, I
remember, who made this descriptive observe concerning him. A lowland
body, but kin to the Pitcairns of the north, he had come to the High
School dependent for his education upon the generosity of a rich uncle,
and from the time he entered was easily first in all of his classes. Of
an unbending rectitude, unmerciful in his judgments, analytical,
penetrating, and accumulative, he was at an early age destined for two
thingssuccess and unpopularity. He left the High School with us, to
enter upon the study of the law with Maxwell, of Dalgleish, and rising
rapidly in his profession was at the age of thirty-three recognized as
the soundest, most learned, and bitterest tongued lawyer in Auld
Justice to his mind was a simple thing; a man had either broken the
law or he had not; if he had, he should be punished. Extenuating
circumstances was a phrase used only by the sentimental and the
guilty. I recall, as I write, his telling me with some pride and an
amused smile of a certain occasion, when he had wrung a verdict from a
jury against their sympathies, that the spectators had hissed him on
his way out of court.
He's not a man at all. He's only a Head, Sandy Carmichael said of
him once, and I find enough truth in the statement to make it worth
His conceit of himself was high, as is the case with many self-made
men, but he had a fine code of conduct for the direction of his private
affairs, was aggressively honest and fearless, and an earnest believer
in God, himself, and the Scots law.
Like other great men he had his failings, however, and he set up to
be a judge of music and poetry, for which he had as vile an ear as
could be conceived; and to hear him read from Ramsay or Fergusson was
an infliction not unnecessarily to be borne. One night, I remember, in
'86, Burns and I stopped at Pitcairn's on our way home from Creech's
and got him to read Leith Races and Caller Oysters, and Rab afterward
went out and rolled over and over in a snow-drift, roaring with
laughter, till some of the town-guard, who chanced to be going by, were
for arresting him on the charge of drunkenness.
It may be easily judged from this description that my friend Sandy
and he were at opposite poles from each other, as I have said, and as
time passed this dislike increased until it became the chiefest
vexation of my life. If I mentioned Hugh's name to Sandy, he would
maintain a disdainful silence or turn the talk with abruptness; while
if Sandy's name was spoken before Pitcairn, the great lawyer would
raise his eyebrows, shrug his shoulders, or make some biting criticism
which rendered me resentful and highly uncomfortable as well.
As soon as I was firmly fixed in my old home again, Pitcairn began
to drop in on me, as his practise had been before my marriage, and his
attitude to Nancy was a thing humorous to see. Hers to him was not
without its droll side as well, for when he was present, especially if
he talked of his cases, the child would sit on a stool, with some live
thing held in her lap, literally devouring him with her eyes as he
narrated the story of some criminal whom he had hanged or transported.
I have seen her imitate his gesture as he talked, and sigh with relief
when the jury handed in its verdict and the culprit's doom was finally
settled. It was not long, however, before she evinced a strong dislike
to being left alone with him, and if I had occasion to leave the room
where the three of us were together she would invariably follow me.
In an unfortunate moment, driving by the old court in a pony chaise,
I stopped, knowing that Pitcairn had a case on, and took Nancy in to
see him at his work. Every little while after that I would find her
disappeared from the house, and on going to the court would see her
midget pony fastened outside, and the little chestnut head and big gray
eyes looking over the back of the high bench in front; for the
officers, who knew she was my daughter, soon grew to understand her
ways and let her in without parley. I can solemnly affirm that I
thought this a most unwise way for a child to spend her time, but there
was something about Nancy herself which prevented my giving orders. I
can not say that she ever disobeyed me, and yet, I knew then, as I know
now, that had I tried to stop her she would have evaded me, and as it
turned out in the end, it was all for the best.
I who was with her day by day could feel her growing dislike of Hugh
Pitcairn, and once she came to me after a visit to the court, her
cheeks flaming, her eyes dilated, and her body literally shaking with
He cursed at Pitcairn as they dragged him out, she said, and then
bringing her little fists down on my knee, she cried with apparent
It's not the way, Jock! It's not the way!
Less than a fortnight after I was sitting over some accounts in the
east room, when Hugh Pitcairn entered unannounced.
Well, Jock Stair, he said, that daughter of yours lost me as
pretty a case to-day as I ever had.
Indeed, Hugh, I returned, I'm in no way answerable for that.
I don't know about that! he broke in. This case was one of a
young woman who had taken a purse. She established the fact that she
was a widow with two small children, one of whom was dying and needed
medicine. I thought at first that she borrowed one of the children,
they frequently do, but it was established hers. I drew attention to
the anarchy which would inevitably follow if each individual were
allowed to help himself to his neighbor's belongings, and the jury was
with me. As I was concluding, that child of yours slipped from her
place, climbed the steps on the side, and heeding judges and jury less
than Daft Jamie, went straight toward the prisoner, pulled herself up
on a chair beside the woman, and putting her arms around the culprit's
neck, as though to defend her against the devil himself, turned her
eyes in my direction and fairly glowered at me.
The spectators cheered, and a woman in the front cried, 'God bless
the baby,' while the judgeCarew it was, a sentimentalist and a menace
to the bardried the tears from his eyes openly, and the jury
decided against me without leaving the box, he thundered, as
though I were in some way responsible.
I groaned. Taking this for sympathy, he went on:
I'm glad ye feel about it as I do.
To be frank with you, Pitcairn, I answered, I don't; and it's not
for your lost case I groan, but for what is likely to come to me
because of it.
Nor was I mistaken. Just at the gloaming time, while there was still
a little of the yellow hanging in the west, I saw the figure of a woman
with a baby in her arms outlined clear against the sky on the top of
the hill, and by her side trotted the little creature who had all my
heart, leading her home.
There, said I to Pitcairn, pointing to them, that's what your
inadequacy at the law has cost me. There are three more people whom
Nancy has fetched home for me to support.
I wonder at ye sometimes, Jock Stair, he cried at this, I wonder
at ye!for in many ways ye seem an intelligent manthat ye can let a
small girl-child have her way with you as ye do.
The outer door closed as he spoke, and I heard the patter of little
She's not being raised right. She'll be a creature of no breeding.
Ye should take her
At this the door opened and Nancy came in. At the sight of Pitcairn
she stopped on her way toward me, and her black brows came together in
an ecstasy of rage. Putting her little body directly in front of him
she looked him full in the eye.
Devil! she said, and walked out of the room, leaving us standing
staring at each other, speechless, and I noted with glee that, on one
occasion at least, I saw Hugh Pitcairn abashed.
This occurrence in the court did not pass in the town unnoticed, for
Bishop Ames, of St. Margaret's, on the following Sunday preached from
the text: And a little child shall lead them, telling the story from
the pulpit; while the Sentinel of the next week spoke of Nancy with
flattery and tenderness. The publicity given to the affair alarmed me
in no small degree, and I reasoned with myself that a child who had
such fearlessness and such disrespect for established ways was a
problem which somebody wiser than myself should have the handling of.
There were three other occurrences which fell about this time which
brought this thought still more vividly to my mind, the first of these
bringing the knowledge that she had no religion. Entering the hall one
morning I met the little creature coming from the stairway, dragging an
enormous book behind her as though it were a go-cart. She had put a
stout string through the middle of the volume, and with this passed
round her waist was making her way with it toward the library.
Jock, she said, backing at sight of me and sitting down upon the
great volume as though it were a footstool, did you ever read a book
called Old Testament?
Not so much as I should, I answered, realizing with a strange jolt
of mind that it was the Bible she was dragging after her.
I got it in the attic, she said, as she climbed upon my knee, and
I thought at first it was a joke-book. And after I thought it was a
fairy-book; but as I go on, there seems more to it.
And the second of these episodes was as disconcerting:
The dwarfed boy was Nancy's peculiar care among the Burnside people,
and the question as to why he was made crookit, as she called it, was
one which I had never been able to answer to her satisfaction.
Coming in one day with a little bunch of violets for me, she stopped
before leaving the room, and said, as though telling me a funny secret:
Jamie Henderlin took Nancy's money.
What? I cried.
Yes, she said, took it out of the little bag when he thought I
was not looking.
What did you do? I inquired.
I? she turned away shyly, I made out that I didn't see him.
But, Nancy, I said, that was not really kind. As he grows older
he will steal.
Take, she interrupted firmly.
He will take from other people.
He is a dwarf, Jock, she said, with a sweet irrelevance, which had
its logic, however, in her kind heart.
That doesn't make it right.
He wanted it more than I did, she went on; I don't need it
That doesn't excuse him, either.
Perhaps, she said, if you and I, mine Jock, were made as he is we
might do something worse than he has done. People laugh at him!
He mayn't be right. I'm not saying that he is right; but I am
saying that I am not going to hurt his feelings. The Lord has
done that enough already.
And the third one, never told by Mrs. Opie, and a fortunate thing it
was for us, had to do with her skill in the use of a pen. She was still
a very little child, lying on a rug by the fire, reading out of the
Bible, as I sat at the desk looking over some accounts which would not
come right. There was the matter of a draft for five pounds, with my
own name to it, which I had certainly no remembrance of ever having
What's the matter, Jock? said Nancy, seeing my knit brow.
They won't come right, Little Flower, I answered.
She came over to me and looked at the accounts.
Nancy made one just like Jock's, she said.
What? I cried, with consternation.
NancymadeonejustlikeJock's, she repeated. A poor lady
who was very sick, she explained, was by here one day you had gone. I
made one for her.
Nancy, I said, taking her on my knee, do you know that it is a
crime to sign another person's name without his leave?
Well, it's the thing people get locked in jails for
She laughed out loud and lay back on my arm at this.
It's all mine, isn't it? she asked.
I had told this so often that I couldn't gainsay it.
Wrong to write Sandy's name, not wrong to write Jock's, she
crooned in a sort of song; and this was as far as I got with her
I told Sandy these three tales, and he roared with glee.
Her morals are all tail first, he said, though very sound! But
she'll have us in the poor farm and herself in jail if she keeps this
CHAPTER VII. I TAKE NANCY'S EDUCATION
Father Michel, Sandy, and Hugh Pitcairn were the only ones who knew
enough of the child to make their advices on the subject of an
education for her of any value, and it was the priest whom I consulted
My lord, he said, after listening to my tale, it's a peculiar
case, and one which, I openly state, is beyond me. In every bout with
her I am routed by a certain lawless sincerity of utterance, or by her
fastening her eyes upon me and asking, 'Why?' or 'Who says that?' She
is gentleness and sweetness itself; but any attempt which I have ever
made to instruct her in religion has been utterly without results.
Sometimes she goes to sleep, other whiles she laughs and questions me
in a way that makes the flesh crawl. When I told her of the crucifixion
of our blessed Lord, she fell into such a frenzy that it brought on the
aching head and fever, which you will remember caused your lordship
such alarm. We have the raising of a genius upon us, and by that I mean
one who knows more, sees deeper, feels more keenly than is given to
most or to any except the few. Miss Nancy is a fearless soul, a
passionate, loving, powerful nature, and my belief is that the only way
to control her is to let her develop her own powers in her own way. It
is a hard question, a subtle question, my lord; but I believe it is the
Sandy was in London at the time, but the same day on which I had the
talk with Father Michel I sent for Hugh Pitcairn, asking him to dine
with me and talk over the Problem of Nancy.
It's like this, Hugh, said I, as we sat over some wine of his
particular fancy, God has been kind enough to send me a wonderful
child, and I want to do what's right by her. I want her to have the
reasonable education of a man and to keep her as far as possible from
the influence of the usual unthinking female. I neither want her
instructed in false modesty, lying, nor the deception of the male sex.
It is on the male virtues that I want the accent placed; bravery,
honesty, self-knowledge, and responsibility for her words and conduct;
good manly virtues that most women know only as words of the
Hugh stared across at me, and there was a look in his eyes of being
tolerant toward crass ignorance as he answered:
There are whiles when you are more humorous than others, Jock
Stair. This is your most fanciful time yet. There's no such thing
possible, and ye can just rest by that! Ye can't make a woman into a
man by any method of rearing, for there are six thousand years of
ancestry to overcome. That's somewhat, and with the female physiology
and the Lord himself against you, I'm thinking it wise for you to have
your daughter reared like other women and to fulfil woman's great end.
And what's that? I asked.
To marry and bring children into the world, he returned, as
certainly as he would have stated the time of day.
When all's said and done and theorized over concerning the female
sex, he went on, ye just find yourself back at that. Ye can't educate
a woman as ye can a man; she's not got the same faculties to take in
the information that ye offer her. Why, he cried, ye can't give her
any sense of abstract right or wrong. In order to protect her young she
has inherited certain keen faculties and instincts which we poor male
creatures are without; but from the minute she becomes a wife or mother
she ceases in some degree to have a conscience. No, he finished, when
a woman's emotions are stirred you can't believe a word she says.
Ye've seen for yourself that Nancy's different from the girl
children ye've known, I said, with some remonstrance in my voice.
She has power, true. And magnetism, true. And great beauty, he
answered, counting these on his fingers as though they were points in
law; but give her a man's education, and what have ye done? Simply
made a dangerous contrivance of her to get her own way. I tell ye,
Jock, he said in conclusion, ye can't civilize women. They are not
intended to be civilized.
The longer I thought this talk over, the more firmly I became fixed
in the belief that Hugh knew nothing concerning the matter, and that my
own ideas on the subject were the best, and in less than a week I had
my own old school-books down, and was casting around for a tutor for
Nancy, firm in my intention of bringing her up a perfect gentleman,
as Hugh derisively stated. I fixed on Latin for her, and sound
mathematics, and later Greek and Logic, and when I showed this list of
studies to Pitcairn, I recall that he looked at me, with the usual pity
in his glance, and asked dryly:
Why not tiger shooting and the high-jump?
Sandy was from home at this time, having been called to a dying
wife, poor fellow, or I should have taken advice with him concerning a
certain old teacher of his boy Danvers, for whom I had a great liking.
While awaiting his return I took the Little Flower into my confidence,
and found her delighted that she was to be teached. There was one
point upon which she was firm, however, which was that none but Father
Michel should be her instructor, and the good man, with many a dubious
shake of his head, entered upon his work the following week.
Often after this time I would come upon them in the small
writing-room where the studies were conducted, to find the little one
standing by the father's knee, as he held the book for her, or sitting
in his lap looking up at him with a funny earnestness, as though they
were playing together, going over
rego regere rexi rectus
or some such work, and amazing us both by her capacities.
On her ninth birthday Hugh gave her the ponderous tome from which so
much of Mrs. Opie's facts have been obtained, and into this volume she
put her verses and her thoughts just as they came into her curly head,
standing upon a stool to make her high enough to reach the
writing-table with comfort. There was an unspoken understanding between
us that I was at liberty to read this book, but never in her presence.
One night after she had spent the afternoon at work upon it, I drew it
toward me, to find a new set of verses beginning:
The heifer by the milking pail,
Whose neck-cloth is so white, etc.
and underneath the following, in which the influence of the Good
Book was surely visible:
1. I must love Jock Stair first of all created things, for he
my mother's friend and mine.
2. Since the Lord has cast the poor from him I must do what I
3. I must not be afraid of any livving thing, for no gentleman
show forth fear.
4. I must not wish Huey Macrath from Stair, tho' he snuffles and
his ears are large, for he was here before I was and is very
5. I must not swear, tho' Sandy does, and to say dam is not
for a girl.
More to morrow,
L. F. S.
I was prouder of these than I have words to tell, seeing that
already she was beginning to consider conduct. And an event which
followed soon after made me plume myself still further. I had taught
her to play chess, and Danvers Carmichael being home from his English
school, Sandy and I made a merry wager of a game for a guinea a side,
each of us backing the talent of our own offspring. Nancy, who was
about half Danvers' height, drew the whites, and led off by the good
conservative opening of the king's knight, the boy replying well and
putting the pieces out after the usual fashion. Nancy unexpectedly
played her queen. Check, she said. Dand interposed a pawn. Nancy
moved a knight. Check, she said again. Dand was forced to move his
king, and in three moves I could see the game was hers. Suddenly she
retreated and began a process which never in my whole experience with
her had I seen duplicated. She trifled ineffectually with her men,
moving them hither and thither with no purpose or aim; and, to crown
all, after one of these fruitless moves, the boy cried, Mate, placing
his queen triumphantly from one side of the board to the other. Nancy's
eyes shone with pleasure.
You beat me, she cried. Sandy won the guinea, Jock.
I can not recall when a small thing annoyed me as much as this one
did, and the next morning, finding the Little Flower making verses on
the west wall, I sat down to get some explanation from her.
Nancy, I began, why did you play so badly at chess last night?
The shy look with which I was familiar came into her face.
He can't play chess, Jock, she said.
I know it, I cried; I saw that; but why did you disgrace your
father, young woman, answer me that?
Oh, she answered, with great earnestness, do you no see? He's a
man-child, and his father was looking on; and it would have been a fair
disgrace for him to be beaten at the game by me, who am only a girl,
and younger. I couldn't do it, Jock, she cried, and her cheeks flushed
with a glorious pink color. I couldn't do it. No gentleman could!
I glowed with pride at the sight of her, my hopes rose high, and I
told the story, together with her Comandmence, to Hugh Pitcairn for
his admiration and approval.
He was as unmoved, however, at the end of my narration as at the
beginning of it.
She's no a woman yet; she's just a wee bit bairn; but as soon as
she begins to sigh for joes and bawbees she'll be just like the rest.
They're all of them elemental things, he said with conviction, and ye
can't change their natures any more than ye can stop fire from
Later he began to alter his opinion of her, however, and it fell, I
think, largely through his own vanity. I have told of the scene in the
court which resulted in Jeanie Henderlin and her two children coming to
be Burn-folk, and from that time Nancy would turn back every little
while to her interest in the law. There were some compilations of
celebrated cases among my books, and for a while her talk ran of the
trials for murder and poisoning and the scuttling of ships, until I
wondered where the thing would lead. Part of these accounts were
briefed; others contained the evidence entire, indictments, questions
and answers, the judges' instructions, and the verdict rendered, all
with much legal verbiage and twisting.
One night, in her twelfth year, she asked Hugh Pitcairn some
questions concerning a poison case, which happened to be one he had
studied with interest himself, and he denounced the verdict as one
unlawful and obtained by sentiment rather than from the evidence
itself, promising to send another book to her containing his own view
of the matter. Here was a ground in which a friendship with Hugh could
take firm root, and from that time on there were heavy volumes coming
to Nancy from the great barrister constantly, and to hear her quizzed
by him concerning the law on certain points was one of the most
humorous bits of my life. I never rightly understood this trend of
Nancy's mind. In her talks with me I found it was never to discover the
naked law on a point, but how punishment might be evaded, that
interested her. If he'd said this, or had he left that unsaid, or
if the defense had proven, was the burden of her remarks, and I
thought at times that if Hugh saw the thing as I did he would find at
bottom of all her lawing only a woman's desire to discover how people
could be got out of trouble, whether deserving punishment or not.
In her fifteenth year, when I was obliged to go to London concerning
the Forfeited Estates, I had her with me; but even then the lawing
between Pitcairn and herself did not cease, for packets passed between
them constantly, and soon after our return, Nancy's being eighteen at
the time, I found that she had wrought a change in him, as well as in
the rest of us.
Jock Stair, he said to me one night, as though addressing a jury,
I told you once that it was impossible to civilize a woman, that all
education just went over their heads and affected their natures none at
all; that it was beyond them to conceive an abstract right or wrong;
that I had never seen one who had a jot of public spirit. I feel a
sense of duty in telling you I've changed. I have seen one. It's your
daughter, Nancy Stair!
THE DAFT DAYS
We came back to Scotland in July, 1786, and one day, late in the
month, Nancy came in to tell me that she intended having a birthday
party that same evening.
Whose? said I.
Mine, she answered.
It's all very well, but your birthday is not in July
I never fancied March to be born in, she replied imperturbably,
and I've changed it.
And who are you going to bid to the feast of your adopted
You, she said, and Sandy, and Jamie Henderlin, for he's back from
Germany, and I want to hear him play.
 After Jamie Henderlin became famous for his violin playing
was noised abroad that I alone was his patron. But the truth
the matter is that Sandy shared with me the expense of his
It is altogether hopeless to set in cold words the charm of her as
she stood before me that morning in her white frock, her hair in a
bunch of curls on top of her head and some posies in her hand. I have
seen many pretty women in my time, some few handsome ones, but Nancy
Stair is the only one I ever saw who deserved to be described as
beautiful. The fashion-prints of the day were full of her, and I have
one account before me, printed at the very time of which I write, 1786:
Miss Stair, it reads, is just back from London, where for two
years she has studied her voice with Trebillini.
Her beauty is bewildering; her gowns the acme of elegance and
feminine grace; her wit, her eyes, her lips, the toast of the town. Her
songs, a second printing of which is being clamored for, are being read
over the Three Kingdoms, with a letter from his Royal Majesty, George
III, on the fly-leaf commending them. When it is known that she is to
attend service at St. Giles the clubs are emptied and half the beaux of
the town may be found on their knees where they can have a view of her.
The greatest statesmen and lawyers of the day are her intimate friends,
and the crowds follow her in admiration when she drives through the
A good picture, but scant, for there is not a word in it of her
heart, the kindest and bravest that ever beat in woman's breast, nor
her great love and tenderness to all created things.
On the afternoon of this dinner I fixed my mind definitely upon a
matter upon which I had been pondering for some time. Coming in from
the bank about five, I called Nancy to me, and handed her the box I
Is it a present for me? she asked, her face aglow.
A present for you, Little Flower, from the proudest father in the
As I spoke she opened the casket and her eyes fell on the gems of
which I have already writtenthe ornaments of the ladies of Stair for
hundreds of years gone bybut for none, save one, so fair as she. I
would have sold Stair itself, if need be, to give her such joy. The
emerald necklace, which had been a year in the making, a brooch of the
same stones, with diamonds glittering in flower clusters, I found, were
the ones she liked the best, and she brought a mirror to sit beside me
as she tried them all, one by one, upon her hair, her neck, and arms,
demanding that Dame Dickenson and Huey be brought to look at her.
And a curious thing fell, that, as she was engaged with the jewels,
a note was brought from Mr. Pitcairn, which she read without interest,
Does he think I care anything about 'Lorimer vs. The Crown'
with a necklace like this? and I fell to wondering, with some dismay,
what Hugh would think concerning her masculine mind if he had heard the
We were awaiting a summons to the meal that evening when Nancy
entered; a new Nancy, and one so wondrous to behold that Sandy and I
started at the sight of her. She wore a gown of yellow crêpe
embroidered in gold, low and sleeveless, with a fold in the back, after
the fashion of the ladies of Watteau, and a long train falling far
behind. Her hair was gathered high and dressed with jewels which
sparkled as well upon her throat and hands. The thing that marked her
most, an alluring touchableness, was doubly present as she came toward
us, laughing, with a profound courtesy.
My Lord Stair and Mr. Carmichael, you who have had the raising of
me, how do you like the work of your hands?
Ye can not throw us off our guard by braw clothes, Lady, Sandy
responded, with a laugh, for we know you only too well, and to our
distress of mind and pocket. Ye're a spoiled bit, in spite of the
severe discipline your father and I have reared ye by. Here's a thing I
got from a peddler-body for ye, he ended.
She opened the morocco case which he handed her, to find a necklet
of pearls with diamonds clasping them, and the tears came into her eyes
as she kissed him for the gift.
I can not thank ye enough!never, in all my lifefor all ye've
done for me, Sandy. I love you, she says, and well you know it; and
with that we'll go to dinner. I go with Jamie, she added, slipping her
arm through his, for ye must learn that genius ever goes before wealth
and titles, and with a laugh she and Jamie Henderlin went out before
After dinner we sat outside for a while, Sandy and I smoking, as
Nancy and Jamie talked of the outer world and the celebrities of London
and Paris. The lamps from the little settlement on the burn twinkled
through the trees, while farther off the lights from the town of
Edinburgh shone soft and silvery beneath the glimmering moon. We could
hear the bleating of the sheep and the lowing of the cows in the long
lane down by the Holm and the bells of the old Tron deaving our ears by
striking the hour of eight.
There is little use, with Jamie playing to the greatest people of
the world at the moment of my writing, for me to tell the surprise and
delight we had in his music; or the new joy that Sandy felt in Nancy's
singing, it being the first time he had heard her voice for over two
Do you want to hear some of my own verses? she asked him at
length. Mr. Thomson has been kind enough to set some of them to
music. And then she sang, for the first time to my hearing, those two
songs of hers which were afterward whistled, sung, hummed, or shouted
by every one in Scotland, from the judge on the bench to the caddie on
Wed wi' Mandy
On a Monday morning,
and the set of three double verses, since published in the Glasgow
Sentinel, The Maid wi' the Wistfu' Eye, which, as I hope for
Heaven, Rab Burns told me one night at Creech's he envied her for
 Poems by Nancy Stair, Pailey Edition, pages 44, 67.
Suddenly, as she was looking over the music, she began to hum, and
Dame Dickenson and I exchanged a look of strange remembrance, as, with
no accompaniment whatever, and as though the thought had just seized
her, she poured forth her soul and her voice together in that old gipsy
tuneMarian's song, as I have always called it:
Love that is life
Love that is death,
Love that is mine
changed at the last into:
Love that is wrong,
Love that is strong,
Love that is death
and as we listened, taken out of ourselves by her beauty and the
tragedy of her voice, a figure came from the gloom into the light of
the doorway, and a gay voice cried:
Shall I be arrested for trespass, Lord Stair? and to our amazement
Danvers Carmichael stood before us.
I had never seen the lad since the day it was determined to make an
Oxford man of him, instead of following out his father's wishes and
fetching him home to our own University, and the surprise I felt at
sight of him, a grown man and a monstrous fine one, gave me something
of a jolt in my mind at the rapid passing of the years.
He was tall and handsome, with bright, brave ways, a distinguished
carriage, and a delightful speaking voice. His face was clean shaven,
showing a chin heavy but with fine lines, and lips which curved back
complacently over teeth of singular whiteness. His mouth denoted pride
as well as obstinacy, which, taken with the brooding look in the eye,
gave me the impression of a nature both jealous and passionate. One of
his greatest charms, and I felt it on the instant of our meeting, was a
gay but unassertive manner, possible only to those who have had a
secured position from birth. I noted as well a fine sense in his
relation to others, and believe that if he had come a-begging we would
have known him to be gently born. He wore high boots, a broad hat, and
a handsome riding suit of light cloth, with a cloak hanging from one
shoulder. He carried himself with jauntiness and surety; gave one's
hand a hearty grip, and, to sum it all up, was one of the finest men I
have ever seen, and a son of whom even Sandy Carmichael had a right to
be proud, in spite of the fact that he was a man of fashion and
something of a dandy. He had as well a certain romantic appearance and
a glance which made young girls drop their eyes before him and set old
ladies to talking of their first loves.
When Dand Carmichael goes up High Street I never saw a woman
looking down it, Bob Blake said of him once, which sums it all up very
Upon being asked by his father as to the suddenness of his
appearance among us, he said with a laugh:
I came with some men to Leith, and the Leith fly set me down at the
door of The Star and Garter by the Tron church about an hour ago. I
asked mine host of the inn if I could get a horse from him to ride to
Arran House; upon which he told me that there would be no use in my
going to Arran as Mr. Carmichael was from home, being bid to dinner at
Lord Stair's; that it was the eighteenth birthday of Mistress Nancy
Stair, and that Jamie Henderlin had come from Germany with his violin
the week before and was to play at Stair House after the dinner; that
the Lord Stair, who was a fond father, had but this afternoon given the
family jewels to Mistress Nancy, and that one ruby alone would buy the
inn; that Mr. Carmichael had brought a present for her of a pearl
necklace with diamonds in it of great value; that Mistress Nancy Stair,
who was the handsomest girl in three kingdoms, had a yellow gown, a
great deal of which lay on the floor, the stuff of which he understood
had come from France; that Dame Dickenson had made a birthday cake, and
there was a salmon for the dinner with egg sauce, and that eggs were
uncommon high and the tax on whisky a thing not to be borne. There were
some other trifling details he mentioned, he said with a wave of his
hand and a laugh, which have unfortunately escaped my memory.
There was much real humor in his relation of the inn gossip, and the
brightness of his presence caused a gayer air to our small festivity.
Our talk brought Nancy to the door, where she stood in a shaft of light
looking down at us.
What are you laughing about? she cried.
At the sound of her voice Danvers sprang to his feet and went toward
her with outstretched hand, but at the sight of her beauty or her
jewels, I know not which, he changed his mind and made a sweeping bow
And this, he said, is the Miss Nancy of whom I have heard so
Sandy's apt to mention me, she answered demurely.
He never did you justice, he responded, with a smile toward his
father. In all but this he's the best parent in the world, but he's
fallen short in the matter of letting me know about you.
If ye'd stayed in ye're own country ye'd have known, retorted
Sandy, from behind his pipe.
I have been away too long, Dand answered him, but the look was at
Do you stay now? she asked.
I had intended to go back at the end of the week, but I have
changed my mind. With my father's leave, I'll spend the summer
It does not take you long to change your mind, Nancy returned with
No, he said, and here he leaned forward, took her hand and kissed
it. No! It took me just one second.
I knew that she was not to be moved by any admiration which happened
to come by. She paid a gracious attention to Danvers Carmichael, it is
true, insisting, though he stoutly affirmed to the contrary, that she
knew him to be hungry, that one could not dine at The Star and
Garter, ordering a small table with some cold fowl and a bottle of wine
for him, all as though it were the thing nearest her heart. I, who knew
her, understood that if it had been a tramp body from the lowlands who
had come upon us she would have given the same thought to him and
forgotten him by morning; but to a man, London bred and unaware as yet
with whom his dealings lay, her solicitude for him might readily be
interpreted as having something more purely personal in its nature.
And this day was to be marked by another event than the home-coming
of Danvers; an event which, if it had occurred six weeks later, might
have changed the destiny of many lives, and given England another
Premier than William Pitt. Before we parted for the night, Danvers took
from his pocket a book, which he handed to Nancy with a bow.
It's not family jewels; nor yet a trifling necklace of pearls; nor
can I honestly affirm it was intended as a gift, but if you will accept
it from me as a birthday token it will make me very glad, and he
handed the volume to her.
Poetry, she said with a pleased smile, and in the Scot. Robert
Burns! Is he a new man?
He's a plowman in Ayr, somewhere, and I have it that his verses are
something fine. I've not read them myself, and the thought comes to me
a little late that they may not be the fittest reading for a young
lady, but your father will judge of it for you.
Sandy and I laughed aloud at this.
The reason these ill-natured gentlemen laughed at you as they did
was because of the lax way they have brought me up, Nancy explained.
They've let me 'gang my ain gate' since I was five. I've had no right
raising, she said, and the very sweetness of her as she said it would
have made any man keen for the rearing which produced her. So,
considering my superior knowledge of evil, I'll look the book over
myself and see if it is the kind of reading I should like to put in the
hands of Sandy and Jock.
Danvers Carmichael's eyes glowed with humor as he joined in the
laugh with us.
Under your careful bringing up they should be fine fellows, these
fathers of ours, he laughed.
I've done the best I could by them, Nancy answered demurely; but
on the whole, Mr. Carmichael, I think I have succeeded better with
When Nancy withdrew, Danvers went with her to the foot of the
stairs, holding her in talk for a few minutes, with looks of passionate
approval in his eyes.
Before we went to our rooms, for I insisted that they should remain
all night at Stair, the talk turned upon marriage in some way, and
Sandy rallied his son upon his bachelorhood.
Twenty-four years old, he said, and a bachelor still! Why, I was
a father at that time. Never mind, he continued, never mind, my lad.
Your time is coming!
In truth, I think it has come, Danvers returned, simply, and the
glance that went with the words was not toward his father, but toward
I was lying in my bed with eyes staring wide at the ceiling,
recalling Nancy's real birthday more than eighteen years gone by;
thinking of Marian; wondering if she knew the beauty of the child we
had; demanding from the Great Father of all that she should
knowshould remember Nancy and me; that she, the mother and wife,
might, in some way unknown to us, still be a part of our earthly
living; recalling Danvers with approval, dreaming perhaps that Nancy
and he, at no far date, might marry and so cement a friendship between
two middle-aged gentlemen who had foregathered with each other many
years before, when I heard a light tap at my door.
Who is it? I cried.
It's Nancy, answered the voice. May I come in?
She pushed the door ajar and entered in a long white dressing-gown,
carrying in one hand a branch of candles and in the other a book, with
her finger marking the place.
It is exceedingly hard for me to describe the beauty of her, the
uplifted look on her face and the shine of her eye, for this beauty
seemed kindled by a fire from within, and she had with it an excitement
as of one who had heard pleasant news or to whom great treasures have
just been given.
Jock, she asked, have you been sleeping?
No, said I.
Oh, listen then, she cried, for indeed it was not possible that I
should sleep without telling you what's come to me. It's this Burns
man, she went on; no one, not even Shakespeare, has spoken so. It's
as though he taught a new religion. It's kindness all through, and
charity and love; with rhymes upon rhymes, as if it were child's play
for him to make verses. It's raised me out of myself. It's what I've
always known was true. It's the liberty, equality, and fraternity of
France. It's the 'all men were born free and equal' of the colonies.
It's all, and more, that I've tried to work out on the burn-side. It's
like a great voice calling. Oh, she cried, Ramsay's nothing to him,
and Fergusson but a gusty child.
Nancy, darling, I said, have ye risen in the middle of the night
to tear down the idols of your childhood? Let me see the book, I
cried, for a bit of rhyme was a choicer draught to me than a glass of
an old vintage.
Let me read ye this, she saidI can remember now the slant white
light of a late moon coming in through the casement, the honeysuckle's
breath, and her face, half in light, half in shadow, as she read the
Epistle to Davie. As I listened I sat upright, more engrossed, wider
eyed; and when she came to those two stanzas, the greatest of their
kind ever penned, I was off my feet with her, and on my oath we sat
till the purpling flush came in the east, in an ecstasy of appreciation
of him who walked in glory and in joy behind his plow upon the
What tho', like commoners of air,
We wander out, we know not where,
But either house or hall without
Yet nature's charms, the hills and woods,
The sweeping vales, an' foaming floods
Are free alike to all
In days when daisies deck the ground,
And blackbirds whistle clear,
With honest joy our hearts will bound,
To see the coming year:
On braes when we please then, heights.
We'll sit an' sowth a tune; whistle softly
Syne rhyme till't, we'll
time till't, afterwards. to it.
An' sing't when we hae done.
Oh, Jock, she says, I've done it often; haven't you?
It's no in titles nor in rank;
It's no in wealth like Lon'non bank.
To purchase peace and rest;
It's no in makin' muckle mair
It's no in books, it's no in lear learning
To make us truly blest:
If happiness hae not her seat
An' centre in the breast,
We may be wise, or rich, or great,
But never can be blest;
Nae treasures nor pleasures
Could make us happy lang;
The heart ay's the part ay
That makes us right or wrang.
It's just grand, I said, Nancy; and there're no two ways of it.
There's about all there is of life in this little book, and it's
made my rhyming-ware cheap. Do you think, she says, coming over to
kiss me before I sent her off to bed, do you think I can ever meet wi'
If you want it, you shall, I said; unless the man himself
objects. We'll have him up to Stair; and now forget him and get some
rest, Little Flower.
She went away and left me, and I turned to sleep with that great
couplet going over and over in my head like the clatter of horses'
The heart ay's the part ay
That makes us right or wrong.
CHAPTER IX. DANVERS BECOMES BETTER
ACQUAINTED WITH NANCY
There were two reasons why Danvers was able to see Nancy almost
uninterruptedly the next two or three weeks, the first being that we
were but late returned from London, with old ties to be formed anew;
and the second, a law affair among the Burn-folk, the trouble of which
took much of Nancy's time, and eventually brought into our lives the
great Duke of Borthwicke, of whom I shall have more to say. These left
Danvers a fair field where Nancy was concerned, and no man living ever
covered his ground better or made a braver wooing. From the minute his
eye lighted upon her in the doorway it seemed as though it were all by
with him, as the country folk say, for he seemed to have no thoughts
but for her, with the world welcome to a knowledge of the fact.
Every day the conservatories of Arran were stripped for her, hampers
of fruit, and books, and notes which sent the blood rioting to her
cheeks, were over every morning; and before they could be forgotten,
Danvers was there in person, a handsome, passionate, dominating lover,
whose nature was one I could understand and whose love-making was as
headlong and impetuous as my own had been.
I remember watching him bending over her one night as they stood
together before going in to dinner, and Marian's words came back to me
at sight of him:
For ye woo as a man should woo; and I'm won as a woman should be
wonbecause she has no will to choose.
Talk of Danvers fell between Sandy and me quite naturally at this
time, and one night, when I was praising his boy to him with much
enthusiasm, he answered with a laugh:
Of course you like him! Why shouldn't you? You're of a piece, the
two of you. You are both primeval creatures, not far removed in your
love-making from the time when men lived in caves, and if they wanted a
woman they knocked her down with a club and carried her home, and the
wooing was over.
Barring the knocking down, I answered, it's not so bad a way.
That's well enough, he retorted, where women are but gentle
female animals. But take a woman with a mind or giftsuch as Nancy
Stair hasand ye'll find a complication in the affair not to be solved
with a club.
The two of us had no small sport with Danvers over his condition,
for he had fallen in love to such an extent that he would start
sentences which he forgot to finish, make the most irrelevant remarks,
or drop into a-dreaming in the midst of talk, so that his father fell
to recalling him by shouting:
View Halloo! in a very loud voice, as they do on the hunting
field, following it up by talk full of a jeering seriousness, as it
Do you think, Danvers, ineryour present state, you would be
able to get this letter to the post?
Would ye be like to fall into a sound slumber if ye started to ring
for a stable-boy, Dand?
Do you think you could charge your mind, without danger to it, with
passing me the brandy? all of which the lad bore with an amused smile
and open shamelessness.
One night, after dinner, during this time, I recall that there was a
discussion over the cutting of a roadway between our houses, and after
Sandy had thrown in the fatherly suggestion that if Danvers remained at
Arran much longer the road would be worn by his footsteps with no
expense to us, Danvers, who was awaiting Nancy to walk on the porch
with him, began:
Ye need go no further, Sandy broke in, with a laugh. You flatter
yourself! You think, he continued; you've been incapable of
thought for nearly two weeks. Neither of us would give a boddle for
your opinion on any subject save one. I'll wager, he said, coming over
to his son and putting a hand on each of his shoulders, that ye could
not count twenty straight ahead, if your salvation depended on it. And
to think that I have been raising a great fellow like you to be ordered
about by a slip of a girl. Ye're crazy, he said, going on, stark,
On the moment of his speaking Nancy came to the door with mutinous
eyes, a riot of color in her cheeks, and some filmy white stuff drawn
round her head and shoulders, and as she stood Danvers turned to us.
Look at her! he cried. How else would ye have me be?
We were out of doors one afternoon, perhaps a week later, sitting in
the shadow of the great tower. Nancy, in a frock of green, cut out at
the neck, and a bewildering big hat with pink flowers upon it, was
pouring tea for us, with Danvers Carmichael lying at full length on the
grass beside her, smoking and inventing excuses at intervals to touch
The talk drifted round to Robert Burns, and when I stated the manner
in which Nancy and I had spent the first night we had had his book,
Danvers regarded us with no small degree of amazement.
Did you, he inquired, after a pause, sit up all night reading
rhyme, the two of you?
We did, said I; and it's not the first night we have passed so,
Nancy Stair and I.
But why, he went on, couldn't you wait till the morning?
We're no made that way, I answered, with a laugh.
Well, he returned, the thing is as incomprehensible to me as if
you'd tattooed yourself; but, he added philosophically, clasping his
hands behind his head and staring up into the sky, every man knows his
own fun. There's a friend of mine who knows this Burns, he added.
What does he say of him? I inquired with interest.
Billy's hardly one to appreciate poetry, he answered, but he fell
in with Burns somewhere at a masons' meeting. He said he was a handsome
pirate, who had sent the clergy of his native place into despair; that
he made love to every woman he saw, and that his name was the scandal
of the county; but that personally he considered the man a wonder and
liked him fine.
Jock's going to have him here, Nancy said, with a pleased smile
and shining eyes.
No, no, cried Danvers Carmichael, vehemently, sitting upright. I
wouldn't do that, my lord.
Why not? Nancy inquired.
It's a matter, he said, that I could explain better to Lord Stair
than to you, Miss Nancy, and there was a consideration for her in his
tone which warmed my heart toward him.
You mean, Nancy said, with a smile, that he's not a good man and
will make love to me, mayhap, or that it might harm me in some way. You
don't appreciate the rearing I've had, I'm afraid, she said, handing
down another cup of tea to him. Lawing with Pitcairn and dealing with
all manner of roguery and villainy on the burn-side have taught me many
things. These two gentlemen have reared me up in a strange way. Once I
heard Sandy say:
'She's a filly that's got to be given her head, and she'll soon
learn the fences that it is wise to take and the ones that it is wise
to let alone.'
And were we not wise? Sandy interrupted, were we not wise? Ye
know, Mistress Stair, ye were no easy matter to bring up. Always like a
flower, gentle as a ewe lamb, seeing into everybody's heart,
verse-making till your poor little head ached, joining gipsy folk,
foregathering with tramps and criminals, wheedling the heart out of
every one of us, but under it all, fixed in a determination to have
your own way in spite of the deil himself. Ye were a pretty problem for
two lone men to handle.
Don't be believing them, Dandy, she said, turning the light of
those wonderful gray eyes down on him. Ye will not, will ye? They are
not always truthful, she said, with a side-glance toward us both.
In spite of your training? Dandy laughed.
In spite of my training, Nancy answered demurely.
As we sat thus, the bright warm day passing lazily toward the
twilight, I saw a figure come from one of the houses on the burn, and
start at the top of speed along the ford-rift, which led through the
harrowed field. As it neared the south gate I saw that it was Jamie
Henderlin, who broke into our group, his pallor and anxiety forming
abundant excuse for the interruption to our talk.
Miss Nancy, he cried, they've convicted him!
Convicted Lapraik? Nancy asked, as though it were impossible.
Yes, in an hour or less. Pitcairn had another witnessand Tod's
sentenced to transportation!
No happening which I can think of would have set Nancy Stair more
plainly before Danvers than this one, which fell directly beneath his
But, she said, and her eyes blackened as she spoke, the man is
Every one knows it, Jamie cried; but Meenie's like to go to the
grave because of the trouble, which means naught to Pitcairn or to him
called the Duke of Borthwicke.
Ah, well, Jamie, said Nancy soothingly, you must not worry over
it. There is more than one way to circumvent Mr. Pitcairn; and a few
jurymen, more or less, are nothing to fash one's soul about one way or
another. Who was the new witness?
His name was McGuirk.
A Hieland body? Nancy inquired.
In the service of the duke himself.
What did he swear to?
He swore to Tod's having threated the duke's life, and that Tod had
said to him there was a way to even the matter of the raised rent.
Ah, said Nancy, and there was a bit of admiration in her tone,
the duke's a clever man. In all his law-suiting he finds out just what
bit of testimony is needed and gets it.
If you'll excuse me, she said, rising, I'll go down and see
Meenie, who probably thinks everything in life is over.
As she went over the grass with Jamie, Danvers Carmichael turned an
astonished face toward us.
What is it all about? he asked.
It's a long tale, I answered, which, stripped of its trappings,
runs like this: Meenie is Jamie's adopted sister, and the Lapraik man
is a sweetheart of hers who owns a bit farm in the Highlands next to
For Heaven's sake, Sandy exclaimed, blowing a cloud of smoke
toward the sky, don't tell that tale again, Jock Stair.
And the Duke of Borthwicke wants the farm to add to his land, I
went on, unperturbed, and Lapraik will not sell. So one fine day he is
accused of theft by the duke's factor, some of the Montrose silver is
found under his roof, and he is arrested and convicted, as you have
just heard. Common rumor has it that the duke wants him out of the
countrythe fact that he was brought to Edinburgh to be tried shows
that there is a powerful influence pushing the thing along. Pitcairn is
the duke's man of business, which makes the handling of it easier here
where he is counsel for the crown.
It will make it an odd affair if Nancy takes the matter in hand,
considering she's Pitcairn's own pupil, Sandy suggested.
Is it true she's studied the law under Pitcairn? Danvers inquired.
Scots and English, I answered.
In the name of smitten Cæsar, he cried, for that was a word of the
time, what for?
We've never come to any settlement of it between us, but your
father holds that she studied it to circumvent it, I answered, with a
laugh. She told us once that the more law one knew the safer one could
I think, Danvers returned, rising and looking away from us to the
burnI think she needs some one to look after her.
It has dawned upon us that that was your opinion, Sandy rejoined
Lawing with Pitcairn, managing an army of poor folk on the burn,
attending to charities, settling disputesit's not right. The poor
child has a headache all the time, for it's a man's work she's doing.
Women are for better things. A woman should save her vitality.
For what? asked his father.
For wifehood and motherhood, Danvers responded.
It sounded like a leaf from Pitcairn's book, but while his whole
talk was disrespectful to us as older men, it had a rare manly quality
fine to see. In the very midst of it Nancy was with us again, and,
minding Danvers Carmichael no more than she did the wooden benches,
came over to me.
I'm going to see the Duke of Borthwicke, said she.
Is it your intention, I inquired, to send out scouts for his
grace that ye may interview him? I understand him to be a peripatetic
body, who travels a great deal in furtherance of his nefarious schemes.
He may not even be in Scotland.
He is in Edinburgh at the moment, she answered, at the 'Sign of
the Blue Thistle.' He has with him his secretary, Donovan; his valet,
and two serving-men. They have their lodgment in four rooms on the
second floor; he is bid to the ball at the Duchess of Gordon's to-night
and at eleven to-morrow leaves in his private coach for the Highlands.
The Government should employ you, Nancy Stair, Sandy broke in with
a laugh. The country is just now needing people who can pick up such
It was no great matter to do, she explained. When people whose
lives are hanging on the duke's acts have been watching him for days
they are like to know his movements. I will go to-night, before the
ball; and if you'll excuse me now, I'll try to get some rest, and with
no further word she left us.
She had scarce turned the box-hedge when Danvers Carmichael gave us
a taste of his nature and had his say with us in language free and
skirting the profane.
Suppose, he began, suppose she goes to see the duke, and suppose,
which is far from likely, that she is able to obtain an audience with
him, what is there for her to say? She can not very well just call the
man a scoundrel! And as for the Lapraik affair, if he has the rascality
to do the act, it's not likely that he will flinch at the naming of
Getting no answer to this from either of us he went on at white
heat, stating in violent and unshaded English the wrong of allowing a
girl, little more than a child, to visit a man of the duke's repute,
and giving it as his opinion that his father and I were the ones to
take the affair upon our shoulders. He even volunteered to visit the
duke himself in Tod's behalf.
And in your own tongue, asked Sandy, what would ye say when ye
Ye might just call him a scoundrel, as ye suggested Nancy's doing.
His grace might receive it better coming from a man, I said
Sit ye down, lad, Sandy said at length; sit ye down. And stop
making a windmill of your arms as ye stand on that rise, or we may
think we are all Dutch folk together; and just give over thinking ye
know all women, because ye've made love to some senseless London
fillies with no brains in their heads whatever. It's a wise man that
understands that no two women are alike. John Stair and I have seen
something of life in our time, aye, and something of women; but Nancy's
a different creature from anything in our ken. Ye might just trust a
little to our judgment of her.
If Danvers were abashed by this speech he showed it never a whit,
but stood very erect, his brows drawn into a scowl not unlike Nancy's
own, glowering first at his father and then at me. Sandy, who was, in
his mind's eye, re-rigging a schooner, went on with his
paper-and-pencil work, unconscious of his son's scrutiny. I dropped my
eyes to the Allan Ramsay, which I had opened at random, but lost
nothing of Danvers's conduct, and liked him for it. He had known but
the women who needed protection, and his attitude to my mind bespoke
the chivalrous gentleman.
Will she go alone? he inquired abruptly.
She will probably take Father Michel.
And might I inquire without discourtesy who Father Michel is?
He is a priest who came up with us from Landgore, and the best man
I ever knew, said I. 'Tis he who attends to the burn people.
And will he tell her what to say to his Grace of Borthwicke?
She will not need to be told, I answered. Indeed, Dandy
Carmichael, this is not the first time she has gone on such errands.
And does she get her way?
She has never failed yet.
It's true, Danvers went on, that I've met none of her kind, but
if she go to the Duke of Borthwicke, as man to man
She will not go as man to man, Sandy broke in with a smile. She
will go as woman to man. There's a mighty differ.
You see, Dandy, said I, trying to smooth the talk a bit, although
she's my own, there's sure no harm in my saying that she is an
extraordinary creature. That she has great beauty a blind man could
see; but that's the least of her, for she has the heart and the
principles of the purest and the best. But, oh, laddie, in her dealings
with men she has the knowledge of the deil himself. Mayhap she'll cry a
bit, or flout the duke, or laugh at his ways. She'll do the thing which
she finds his mood and the hour suit, and she'll come away with the
pardon in her hand, and say ever after that the duke is maligned and
that at heart he is a very good man. And she'll believe it, too.
Dinner without Nancy was a tasteless affair, and we spent little
time at table, having the pipes and wine brought into the library. As
we sat there the sound of Jamie's violin came sobbing up from the
Burnside as he played for his stricken sister in the old low house
where three hearts were praying for Nancy Stair. Sitting there with a
silence, save for the music, between us, we heard a door open on the
floor above and the sound of light footsteps on the stair. She came to
the doorway, looked in to see if we were alone, and then, with neither
shyness nor self-consciousness, came in to show us how she looked.
I've put on my best frockthe one the girls made for me on the
burnin the lace work, she said.
It was cobwebby stuff over white satin, the neck, cut in the free
fashion of the time, showing her dimpled shoulders and the turn of the
breast. She had dressed her hair in a bunch of curls, high on the head,
and over her forehead she wore the circlet of diamonds which my
great-grandfather had given to that French ancestress of ours with the
uncommendable but frank conduct. Around her neck was the famous
necklace of diamonds and emeralds, and at the bosom a cluster of
diamonds winked and twinkled at every breath. She stood for one minute
near me, her eyes like misty gray stars shining over the bloom of
roses, her slender arms bared, and one slight hand, shining with rings,
laid on the table.
Do I look pretty, Jock? she said, as I raised the little hand to
my lips and kissed it, with what a passion of love only he can know
whose nature is a tempestuous loving one like mine, and whose only
daughter is his sweetheart and his wife.
Well, she said, satisfied with my expressions, the coach is at
the door, and then, holding out her hand to Danvers, Will ye not wish
me luck, Mr. Carmichael?
Danvers Carmichael had spoken no word and made no sign since her
entrance until he was thus directly addressed, and the three of us
turned suddenly toward him as he stood by the chimney-piece. A look of
unfettered admiration of her was in his eyes as he answered:
There's no one wishing you that more than I, Miss Nancy.
Father Michel's grave face looked at us serenely from the coach
window for a minute, and we stood on the steps watching them drive away
and listening to the horses' hoofs growing fainter and fainter along
the outer road.
Before they had died away entirely Danvers turned toward me.
Lord Stair, he said, may I call myself so much at home as to ring
for a groom? I want my horse. I'm going to ride after her.
What for? Sandy inquired.
To protect her, he answered.
Well, observed Sandy, dryly, ye may as well go and be on hand in
case there's need of help. Nancy, he added with a laugh, won't need
it. But you may be called in to protect the duke.
CHAPTER X. NANCY VISITS HIS GRACE OF
At the time of which I write John Montrose, Duke of Borthwicke,
Ardvilarchan, and Drumblaine, was the most noticed man in the Three
Kingdoms, and held by many to be the greatest scoundrel in the politics
of Europe. He was a picturesque and stately devil, tall, clean shaven,
with fine features and damnable light blue eyes with a baffling gleam
in them. He had a singular grace in the use of his body, especially in
the movement of his hands, which were markedly expressive and
attractive; and whether drawn to him or not, one could deny neither his
potency nor his distinction of bearing, which was one of race as well
as breeding. The first view I ever had of him was in Parliament House,
where I noted on the instant the magnificent carriage of his head and
chest, his extraordinary pallor, and the strange eyes, reflecting the
light from without rather than revealing anything within.
In London, Edinburgh, and Dublin, the tide of gossip overflowed with
his name and carried in its current tales of his greatness, his
cruelty, his lawless loves and his quick forgettings. It was libeled
against him that he had magnetic power over all with whom he came in
contact, bending them to his will by the sheer dominance of his
presence. There was, I recall, a story rife that upon my Lord Thurlow's
opposition to the bill for the restoration of the forfeited estates
becoming known, it was the Duke of Borthwicke who was sent to treat
with him concerning it, and immediately after this visit the bill
passed the House of Lords with small opposition.
It was whispered as well that Pitt himself was afraid of his Grace
of Borthwicke, and was no match for the man, who had a peculiar power
by reason of being unhampered either by truth or precedent. Blake, who
was the duke's secretary in '84, told me at the club one night, that on
one occasion his grace had needed some statistics to clinch an
argument. After investigation the statistics were found to disprove his
point. Upon this being presented to him, he remarked dryly, Alter the
Ugly tales were abroad in all classes of society concerning his life
in India, his conduct in the Highlands, and his moral idiocy, but he
held them under with a strong hand, and more than one hinted that he
had eyes for the premiership.
Dressed for the evening, the duke was alone in his sitting-room,
attending to his private correspondence, when he heard a rap at the
Enter, he called, in a careless voice, thinking it one of his men.
Nancy lifted the latch and came forward into the room.
The Duke of Borthwicke will pardon my intrusion, will he not? she
asked, as well as my lack of courtesy? I was afraid his grace might
refuse to see me if I were announced to him in the ordinary manner.
Montrose had been writing at an oaken table, on either side of which
was a bracket of lights. At the sound of the voice he turned, and, at
the sight of Nancy, he rose and stood looking at her as though she were
Many times since, in her description of this interview, she told me
that she received from him an impression as though he stretched forth
his hand and touched her. She said, as well, that the erectness of his
body and the fulness of his chest gave him the air of a conqueror who
was invincible, while the pallor of his face and the glitter of his eye
set him still further apart from anything usual.
It seemed a full minute that they stood thus taking notes openly of
each other before she spoke again.
I am Nancy Stair, she said quietly.
Ah, the duke returned, coming forward with a smile, the
I make verses, Nancy answered.
Which have given me more pleasure than I have the power to tell,
the duke responded with a bow.
It is praise indeed, coming from John Montrose, who is no mean poet
himself, Nancy said with a smile.
I, the duke returned, am no poet, Mistress Stair; but I have a
'spunk enough of glee' to enjoy the gift of others.
One might think who overheard us, my lord duke, Nancy broke in
with a laugh and the light of humor in her eyes by which she could make
another smile at any time, that we were collegians having a critical
discussion. It was not concerning poetry that I came to you to-night,
your grace. It was to ask a favor.
Pitcairn said you would come, the duke answered her blandly,
taking out his watch and looking at it with a smile. He said you would
come before you went to the Duchess of Gordon's rout. He even named the
exact time within a quarter of an hour.
Mr. Pitcairn is a very wonderful man, Nancy returned.
He's a poor hand at description, responded the duke, with a heat
of admiration for her in his tone.
It depends somewhat, said Nancy, upon what he has the describing
of. And in this speech the way women know how to belittle an enemy is
clearly to be seen. He can describe a barn to a farmer, a road to a
surveyor, or a church to an architect, so that they fall into an
ecstasy of admiration of his parts. When it comes to a woman it's a
different matter. Mr. Pitcairn doesn't know a woman. He's not, rightly
speaking, a man. As Mr. Carmichael says, 'He's just a head.'
It's a curious head, the duke answers, a curious head and a very
A clear head to prosecute; never to defend, Nancy responded;
which leads me to the cause of my visit. I have come to ask for the
pardon of Timothy Lapraik.
The duke dropped his eyelids, and a strange light shone from under
You compliment me, Mistress Stair, in thinking I have the power to
undo that which was settled by the law of your country and a jury tried
and true. I took no part in the affair; the prosecution was not mine;
in a word, the thing is perhaps beyond my power, had I the desire to
get him a pardon, which, however, I have not.
All this time neither had made any motion toward sitting down, but
stood regarding each other, alert and watchful. It was Nancy Stair who
took the first move. Coming over to the duke she put one of her hands
on his breast and stood looking up at him out of those gray eyes of
whose power she was not unconscious.
My lord, she said, I, who have had the handling of people much of
my life, have learned to recognize power when I see it, and I see it in
you. There's just naught you can't do that you set your mind to.
None ever claimed that in his relation with women the duke was
afflicted with Pitcairn's trouble, and a blue heat came in his eye at
her touch of him.
You're not afraid of me, Nancy Stair?
She looked up at him from under her eyelids and laughed.
Not the least bit in the world, your grace.
And ye think, mayhap, that just because ye're a beautiful
womanaye, the most beautiful woman I have ever seenthat ye can come
to me and ask favors, thinking that I shall expect nothing in return?
What I have heard of you would lead me far from such conclusion,
Nancy answered, with a smile.
He looked at her in silence, with an amused expression in his face.
I like you, he said at length, and a dare-devil look came into his
eyes, a look which showed at once his strength and his weakness. I
like your fearlessness as well as your honesty. I can mate your
frankness by my own. I have long desired to know what is said of me,
and have a mind to make a compact with you, if you will. I hear lies on
every side. They are the stuff of which my daily bread is baked. Come,
he cried, a bargain between us. The naked truth which ye have heard
concerning me in return for the pardon of Timothy Lapraik.
It's a bargain between us, your grace.
There will be no slurring over, no soft adjustments?
You need have no fear. If you knew me better you would not ask
that, Nancy answered with a smile. You shall have the unsoftened
truth, so far as it is mine to speak.
The duke motioned her to a seat by the fire and stood opposite to
her, changing the candles on the shelf above to throw the light full
upon her face as she sat before the fire.
'Tis an awkward position you put me in, Nancy laughed.
'Tis grace itself compared to the awkwardness of mine, the duke
returned with a dry smile.
The first thing I ever heard of you, she began, was that you were
known by common repute as the 'Lying Duke of the Highlands.'
The duke bowed.
I have heard from high and low that you have neither the code of a
gentleman nor the common honesty of business affairs. It is even argued
that you have not the moral perception to see your own lack in such
The duke looked at her steadily for a moment again and his lips
curled back into a smile.
You are openly accused of thefts in Indiaof defrauding the
ignorant natives of their lands.
The duke made a little outward motion with his hand, as though to
intimate that these charges were already known to him.
It is saidand this seems to me one of the worst chargesthat you
assail the names of those whose places you desire for yourself or your
friends, under cover, and in ways impossible for them to circumvent.
The duke shrugged his shoulders as if this charge were one of small
But 'tis of your treatment of women that the worst stories of you
are abroad, and 'tis said that your conduct toward them is that of a
brute rather than of a man. There is a tale of one woman, the wife of a
baronet, who left her husband for you, and whom ye after deserted to
poverty and disgrace.
She paused a moment and turned to recapitulate.
Liar, she said.
The duke bowed slightly.
The duke bent his head a bit lower.
Defrauder, blackmailer, and betrayer of women.
The duke rose and made a profound salutation, and Nancy regarded him
with a smile.
I do not think of any other thing, she concluded; and then, as
though there was still hope for him, I have never heard your grace
accused of open murder.
'Tis strange, the duke answered her with a queer look. I have
enough of the artist in me to see that the open murder would have been
finely climactic. There is but one of these charges that I desire to
deny to you, looking at the fire through his eyeglass as he spoke; I
don't lie, he said, adding, with the shadow of a smile, I don't have
to. And may I ask, Mistress Stair, do you believe these things of me?
Nancy rose and looked into the fire.
I like you, she answered.
In spite of my crimes?
Because of your power, she responded.
They stood for a moment regarding each other steadily before another
word was spoken.
Ah, my lord, she said, I must be going, and there was a shade of
regret in her voice, which Borthwicke was not the man to let pass
unnoticed, I have kept my word.
True, the duke answered, you have kept your word.
You will keep yours to me? she asked, extending her hand.
By this time to-morrow Lapraik shall be a free man, the duke
answered, holding the extended hand in his.
Thank you, she said, and another silence fell between them as they
stood thus, nearer together, dominated by magnetic attraction so strong
that a full minute passed unnoted by either.
It is my turn to ask favors, the duke said headily. The rose in
Shall I fasten it on your coat? she asked.
So for a moment more they stood almost touching each other, his
breath moving the curls of her hair as she reached toward him.
Good night, he said, extending his hand again.
Good night, she said, putting hers into it.
You have your people with you?
It is better then I should not come down?
Much better, she answered, after a second; and then, turning to
him: You are coming to the Duchess of Gordon's?
I had intended to remain away till I saw you. What do you think I
shall do now? his grace asked.
How should I know, my lord duke? Nancy inquired, with a smile.
What do you think I am going to do now? he repeated with
I think you will come to the Gordons', Nancy answered in a low
I may kiss your hand? the duke asked; and, as he did so, the act
having in it more of a caress than a salutation, Believe me, he said,
I could not stay away.
* * * * *
After Nancy and Dandy had left us, Carmichael and I sat smoking, and
by reason of the talk falling along some interesting lines we arrived
at the Gordons' long past the time set for our party to meet. Nearing
the house we heard the music of the fiddles filling the air with glee
and sadness, and saw the caddies darting hither and thither, the
link-boys with their torches, and the flare of lights on the dazzling
toilets of the ladies descending from their chairs and coaches. My own
position in Edinburgh society was stated to me quite by accident, as I
entered, by a group of young dandies at the ballroom door, who made way
for me with a pronounced salute and whispered:
'Tis her father.
Jane Gordon welcomed me with a gay and genuine friendship, and as
Sandy and I made our salutations to her I saw Nancy at some little
distance from us, literally surrounded by fatuous cipher-faced youths,
who stood in some awe before her misty beauty and reputed power. There
was pride in me that the girl was mine, a pride which Sandy Carmichael
shared with me, and as Hugh Pitcairn crossed the long room to salute
her gravely but with marked respect, I saw that there was at least one
emotion which they held in common.
Standing by the great window soon after my arrival, a bit removed
from a group of talking persons to whom I was giving but scant
attention, I became conscious that some one was addressing me, and
turned to find the Duke of Borthwicke, his hand laid lightly on my
shoulder, his countenance of baffling serenity, and his voice mellow
and of a conciliating quality. He wore gray satin of an elegant finish,
but neither embroidery nor jewels, and, notwithstanding his position
and power, conveyed the impression in some adroit way, subtler than I
can set forth, that he deprecated his temerity in addressing so austere
a person as myself. I had seen women use this essence of flattery, but
it was the first time I ever found it employed by a man.
Will my Lord Stair allow me to introduce myself to him? he
inquired, with a smile, extending his hand. I am John Montrose, and
there are many reasons why we should determine to be good friends.
We are both Highland folk, I answered.
Which is one excellent reason, he interrupted; yet there are
several more moving than that. Your father, Lord Stair, and mine were
out together in the forty-fives, on which side I need scarcely mention;
and again, your grandfather and mine both loved and fought for the
beautiful Nancy Hamilton, and, but for the preference of the lady
herself, she might have been my own grandmother. These things call for
a friendly feeling between us, Lord Stair, but that which drives me
forward most to your acquaintancy is the admiration I have for the
writings of your daughter, Mistress Nancy, whose lines ring through my
head more often than I care to tell, and whose poems have been upon my
writing-table ever since they were published.
In this pleasant way we fell to talk of Nancy, of her gifts, her
beauty, her loving tenderness for all things, her strange up-bringing,
her people on the Burnside; and to a doting father such as I was the
time flew quickly by.
I noted at length that there was some stir in the circle around her,
and watched her cross the room with her Grace of Gordon and Danvers
Carmichael in attendance, to the musicians' place in the great window.
I have wondered at times if folk who dwell on the temptations male
creatures have think ever of those which come to women of great
attractiveness to men. The thought came to me as Nancy took her place
beside the harp and violins, which were to accompany her singing, and I
sent a prayer to Heaven to keep my child unspotted from the world,
uttering it none the less fervently because his Grace of Borthwicke,
with lids veiling the fire of his eyes, was looking at her.
Twice she sang, her songs being of her own land, one of the
highlands, with the perfume of the gorse and the heather in the lilt of
it, and the second, by demand of Sandy, the gipsy song which had been
handed down from woodland mother to woodland child for hundreds of
years; a song which sent Nancy's lawless blood to her cheeks and set
her heart beating with an inherited remembrance of raids and
sea-fights, and lawless loves; which made her eyes misty with tears and
unawakened passion; the song which I had learned to dread, Marian's
Love that is Life,
Love that is Death,
Love that is mine
And as she finished, carried off her feet by her own feelings, she
looked toward us for a moment; but it was neither upon me nor Danvers
Carmichael that the look fell; for, as one who knows she will be
understood, her glance turned to his Grace of Borthwicke, whose eyes
told a tale so openly that he who ran might read. I was more disturbed
by this occurrence than I cared to admit, and after the supper, when
Nancy, attended still by Danvers Carmichael, came back to us, I was
glad to hear her say that she wished to go home. His Grace of
Borthwicke being still near us, it fell upon me to present Danvers
Carmichael to him, an introduction which Dandy acknowledged by a
perfunctory bow and scant courtesy, and the duke by turning his eyes
for one second in Dandy's direction and repeating his name as
McMichael in the exasperating manner of one who neither knows nor
cares who the person is who has been presented to him; and although at
the time of the murder the lawyers tried to have it that the
acquaintance between these two men was of London breeding, I can vouch
for it, from my own knowledge and the testimony of Danvers Carmichael
to me on our way home, that this was the first time he and the duke
ever set eyes on each other.
In just the manner in which I have set it forth, in the compass of a
few days, the three most important factors in Nancy's life came to the
working out of it, Robert Burns, though but by book; Danvers
Carmichael, a gentleman; and that splendid devil, John Montrose, Duke
of Borthwicke, Ardvilarchan and Drumblaine in the Muirs.
CHAPTER XI. DANVERS CARMICHAEL MAKES
Whether the conduct of the Duke of Borthwicke brought a climax to
the affairs between Danvers and Nancy I can not state for a surety, but
the next morning as I sat alone on the south porch the boy came upon me
with some suddenness.
Lord Stair, he said, it is with my father's knowledge and
pleasurable consent that I come to ask your permission to have Nancy
for my wife, if she can fancy me as a husband.
He turned very white as he spoke, but his bearing was manly and
brave as that of his father's son should be, and my heart went out to
Sit ye down, laddie, I said, sit ye down. We'll have a smoke
together and talk it over. I'm not denying that I like you for the two
best reasons in the world. The first, for yourself; and the second,
that ye're your father's son. And to pretend that a wedding between you
two children would not give me the greatest pleasure in life would be
idiot foolishness. I feel it my duty to you, however, as well as to my
girl, to talk the thing over plainly. Have you any notion now, I
asked, as to Nancy's feeling toward you?
None whatever, he answers, gloomily enough.
You've not questioned her in any way
I'm a man of honor, Lord Stair, he responded, a bit in the air.
Well, then, said I, it will do no harm to set some of the
obstacles before you that you may be allowed to deal with the situation
Ye must see, Dandy, that Nancy Stair is different from other women
and has been raised in a strange way. I'm no saying it's either a good
way or a bad. I am saying that it's far from the accepted way women are
bred up generally. It's no mere talent she hasfor in a woman that's
not harmful and frequently helps to entertain the children, as they
come along; but with a girl, raised by men, whose name is ringing
throughout the kingdom, who baffles every one by unfailing love and
kindness, who has only the religion of making things better for others;
a bit of a coquette, with such magnetism that one wants to touch her as
one does a flowerI tell ye frankly, Danvers, as Pitcairn says, she's
a dangerous contrivance of the Almighty's, and a man had best think
many times before he takes her to his bosom as a wife.
It's a singular state of affairs, Danvers answers, with a short
laugh, and one for which, I venture, even Nancy could find no bookish
parallel. You tell me that you'd like me for a son-in-law, but warn me
against your own daughter as a wife; while my father takes the other
view of it: that he would like Nancy for his daughter, but thinks I'm
far from being the one suited to her as a husband. Parents are not
usually so dispassionate, he added, somewhat bitterly. I felt for the
lad, and took a step along a side path.
Ye're both over young as yet, I said, and it's been less than a
month since ye've known each other. And it was here that I had a taste
of his fine temper, for he turned upon me in a sudden heat that made
him splendid and natural to the eye.
I have not heard that my Lord Stair was over-deliberate in his own
wooing, he said.
I laughed aloud as he glowered at me, and put my hand on his
shoulder, for I liked his impetuous ways and his deil's temper.
There, there, I said, gang your own gate. I but wanted ye to know
what ye might expect in a wife. She'll contradict ye
I don't want a wife who is an echo of myself, he retorted.
I wouldn't give a groat for a woman who wasn't, he responded.
She is so extravagant, I went on, that I never let even Sandy
know her bills.
He made no answer to this whatever, as though it were a matter
She will forget you for days at a time while she's rhyme-making, I
went on. She will be interested in other men until the day she dies
his eye darkened at thisand to sum it up, I don't know any woman
more unsuited to you; but if she will have you, you've my consent, and
I reached out my hand to him. God bless you, I cried, and before our
hands had parted Sandy came around the turn of the path.
You've done just what I knew you'd do, Jock Stair, he said,
glowering first at his son and then at me, and ye know as well as I
the foolishness of it. Take a man like this lad, who has been spoiled
by an overfond mother, and a woman like Nancy, who has had her own way
since birth, marry them to each other, and you've a magnificent basis
for trouble. Why don't you marry your cousin Isabel? You'd thoughts of
it before you left London! he ended, in a futile way.
I'm going to marry Nancy Stair, if she'll have me, Danvers
Well, well, she may not have you, Sandy replied, soothingly. And
as she's under the lilacs you may care to join her.
Nothing passed between Danvers and Nancy on the subject of marriage
that morning, and I found at luncheon a probable explanation of the
fact by reason of her absorption in the labor training idea and the
building of an extension on the Burnside.
Between this scheme, her talk of Robert Burns, her interest in his
Grace of Borthwicke, and an absolute and unnatural silence concerning
Danvers, I was in some anxiety, and could come to no conclusion
whatever concerning the state of her feelings. I mentioned Danvers'
good looks, and she quoted me back The Cotter's Saturday Night. I
praised his conduct, and she answered with The Epistle to Davie. It
was the name of Burns that was constantly upon her lips; she set his
verses to the music of old songs, singing them softly to herself in the
gloaming, and I could see had made a god of him by her own imaginings.
That Burns book was a bad investment for you, I said to Danvers
Why, says he, it's naught but a book!
True, I answered, but the maker of it is a manand she's
idealized him into a god. Ye just brought trouble for yourself when you
brought that volume among us, I cried.
To the best of my recollection it was about a week after my talk
with Danvers concerning a marriage between them that the three of us
sat at the dinner together, and there never was a more bewitching or
dangerous Nancy than we had with us that night. A tender, brilliant,
saucy, flattering Nancy, who moved us male creatures about as though we
Jock, tell about the old minister and the goose, she said.
There's no one can tell that story like you.
Danvers, do you recall the anecdote of Billy Deuceace and the
opera-singer? It's one of the best jokes I ever heard. And it was
after the laugh that followed this narration that Danvers said, with
some abruptness, I thought:
We had bad news to-day. The Honorable Mrs. Erskine and her daughter
are coming to Arran. My father invited them over a year ago, and had
forgotten all about it when their letter of acceptance came.
Is it Isabel Erskine whom your father advises you to marry? Nancy
It is the very same, Dandy answered with a careless laugh; and
I'm warning you you are to have a rival in the same house with me!
Is she pretty?
She's well enough, he replied indifferently.
I believe, said Nancy, looking through her wine-glass far off
somewhere, that she'll suit you better than I.
She treats me better.
She doesn't write verses? this with a glance from under her
She does not.
Nor think her own way always the best?
She's very sweet and yielding, as becomes a woman, Danvers
She's just without sin at all, Nancy continued with apparent
Entirely, Danvers returned solemnly, but with a laugh shining
through his long black lashes.
Then I'd better not meet with herI, who have so many failings.
Have you failings? Dandy asked, and the teasing tone left him.
I've yet to find them.
And at this Nancy broke into a laugh so funny and contagious that
the two of us joined with her.
Have I failings? she repeated. That I have! And so many 'twould
be a day's work to name them.
Sometimes, she began, I make light of other folks' religion when
I disagree with itand that's little short of scandalous. And I
belittle the people whom I don't likeand there's no breeding in that;
and where a friend is concerned I'm like the Stewarts, 'Back to back,
and a claymore in each hand,' and
Ye're right in that, Danvers and I broke in like a chorus.
And sometimes, she went on, and the humor she found in these
revelations concerning herself was a droll thing to see, sometimes I
use bad language
We men broke into a roar of laughter at this.
Once, I remember, she said, with the gleam in her eye, I danced
till three in the morning at Peggy MacBride's wedding, and getting out
of the coach twisted my arm till I thought I'd broken it. About four of
the same morning I rose with a raging tooth, and crossing the room for
laudanum, I struck the elbow of the injured arm against a chest of
drawers, and before I thought I said
What? Danvers cried, his face lit up with merriment.
Nothing will ever make me tell, she said firmly, nothing!
Whatever it was, it was moderate. You haven't a vocabulary
sufficient for that situation, Nancy Stair, I laughed.
Then, too, I'm no respecter of family, she went on, as though set
for complete absolution. It's mayhap because my own mother was an
Nancy! Dandy cried with amazement.
She was so, Nancy insisted, and the present lord's grandfather
was a strange old cummer who ran away with another man's wife
Nancy! I expostulated, Nancy, you mustn't talk in that way of
Why not? she inquired.
It's a thing ye can't explain, my dear; but it just isn't done,
Is it not? she asked, and there was a look in her eyes of amused
amazement. Is it not? You see, I, in my poor blind way, can not
understand why the naming of a thing is worse than the being of itbut
if ye say it is, I'm amiable. I'll give out that my forbears were all
kings and queens of the Egyptians, and that I ate my haggis when I was
a child from the seat of the throne. It makes no difference to me, for
I'm something more than the Laird of Stair's daughter.
Meaning the future Countess of Glenmore, mayhap? I suggested.
I'm not meaning any such thing, and it's perhaps not becoming for
me to explain what I do mean; but whether I say it of myself or 'tis
said of me in the Glasgow Sentinel, it makes little differ, for I have
the verse-making, and 'tis more to me than lands or titles.
Aye, she said, after a pause, with a laugh as though making fun of
her conceit of herself, I have the genius
At the end of the meal, before she left us, bewildered by her
vivacity and charm, she stopped at the door.
Am I nice? she asked.
Very, said Danvers and I.
And will ye give me, she asked, as a child might have done, the
thousand pounds for Father Michel?
I will not, I answered, the yielding in me showing through the
Danvers saw his chance and took it with the spur.
I will, he said, going toward her to open the door, but it looked
more as though he meant to take her in his arms, I will, Nancy.
She looked at him with a softness in her eyes.
Thank you, Danvers, she said, and the glance made me think that,
even did I allow such a manifest impossibility, he could never have
invested money in any way to bring him a richer return.
It was a task beyond me to get sensible talk from him with Nancy
waiting in the moonlight, a moonlight fragrant with honeysuckle and
climbing roses; and I bade him to be off to her; and I opened the
papers which had come by a late post.
I heard a merry talk between them as Huey came in to say that the
white night-flowers were in bloom by the fountain, and I went off with
him to have a look at them. As I came back I turned into the path which
led to the porch, intending to tell them of these wonderful blooms,
when I saw the two of them on the steps, standing near together, and
Danvers's arms were around the girl he loved, and he was looking down
into her eyes with rapture in his fond, handsome face, and I heard him
When, when, when?
When do you want it? she asked.
When do I want it! Now, to-night, and he drew her lips to his.
Wife! he said.
* * * * *
When I reentered the library I found it occupied by Sandy, who had
walked across country from his own place with some news concerning the
whisky tax. As we sat in dispute over it, upward of an hour later, I
heard Nancy go to her room without coming in to wish us a good night,
and a second later Danvers Carmichael stood in the doorway. It was good
for us older men to see the lad, and at the sight of him I was out
under the stars of Landgore; the sound of gipsy singing, the salt from
the sea, and the odor of blown hawthorn were in the room, and I was
young again with Marian Ingarrach folded in my arms. The brooding look
was gone from his eyes and his face bore a strange illumination. He had
added something to, rather than lost any of the cocksureness of his
manner; but the happiness of him, combined with the love and passion of
his ardent nature, made him a singularly handsome creature as he came
Will you not congratulate me? he said, looking from one to the
other of us.
Is she willing to marry you? his father asked, with exaggerated
If she finds none whom she fancies more, she said she would marry
me within the year
Well, well, there's some hope for you, Sandy went on. She may
meet in with some one else.
You've my pity, I laughed, but I took his hand in mine with the
His joy radiated itself to us, and his talk was just as it should be
for his years. He patronized us a bit for being older and out of the
way of it all, spoke of Nancy as though she were the only woman since
Eve, and discussed a betrothal ring as though it were a thing for
empires to rise and fall by.
She fancies rubies; she cares for gems, you know, he said, as
though the information was new to us instead of having been anciently
and expensively bought.
He must have the best ruby in Scotland, he went on. He wished he
could attend to the matter himself. But, he stood with his thumbs in
the arms of his waistcoat as he spoke, with a conscious smilebut no
fellow would be such a bally ass as to dash to London for a ring under
present conditions. There were the four thousand pounds his
grandmother had given him. They might all be spent for this. There was
a fellow named Billy Deuceace, an Oxford man, with taste in such
matters. He would write him concerning it to-night, he said.
Faith, said Sandy, drolly, you talk as if married life were all a
ring. Ye'll find it different when your wife has the genius and is
taken up wi' other men.
And Danvers faced the two of us here by a statement which has never
left me from the night he uttered it till the minute of my setting it
I am far from believing, he said, that genius is a thing which
rightly belongs to women. 'Tis to me but an issue on one side. And the
woman who has enough of her husband's kisses and his babies at her
breast has little time to write verses or think of other men.
With these words still ringing in my ears I rapped at Nancy's door
on my way to bed, to find her sitting by a glaring light with the
everlasting Burns book in her hand. I was a bit dashed in spirit by her
occupation, for it seemed unnatural that a girl should be spending the
time immediately after her betrothal in such an employ, and I affected
a gaiety I was far from feeling.
Is it to Nancy Stair or the possible Countess of Glenmore that I
She stood by the table, her finger still marking her place in the
Dandy told you, then? she asked.
Told us! I echoed. It's my opinion he'll tell the town-crier
to-night and have it in all the prints of the realm within the week.
He told you just what the understanding was?
I repeated what he had said, and she nodded at the end in
You see, she said, coming toward me and putting her head on my
shoulder, I'm not sure of myself. My mind's ill redd up for marriage
with any one. I've had too much freedom, perhaps; and while one side of
my nature, probably the strongest one, loves Danvers Carmichael, I am
drawn to the writer of these lines, this Burns man, in a way I can not
tell; and at the very foot of the matter I am mightily taken up with
the power of John Montrose. It's no highly moral, is it? she asked,
with an amused smile, to feel ye could be in love with twothree men
at once? But my nature's many sided, and on one of these sides I find a
most 'treacherous inclination' toward his Grace of Borthwicke.
CHAPTER XII. I MEET A GREAT MAN
With knowledge so vast and with judgment so strong
No man with the half of them e'er could go wrong;
With passion so potent, and fancies so bright,
No man with the half of them e'er could go right.
I passed as miserable a night as my worst enemy could have wished
and was up at the dawning for a jaunt in the open. The gowans so white
and bonny were swinging their dewy heads in the morning wind; the
sea-fog was lifting skyward, and whether the message came from them I
can not say, but a mystical white word floated between me and my
troubled thoughts of Nancya word which means the changing of baser
metal into pure gold, the returning of the balance to nature, the fine
adjustment of spirit to mind and bodythe great word Motherhood. Nancy
as a mother. My Little Flower with a floweret of her own might be the
solution of a happy marriage for her more than compensating for the
independence and adulation which she had always had.
As I tramped along I came to a definite thought concerning the Burns
poems as well, which was that I would set fire to them, as if by
accident, that very day, and have them by and done with. And as for the
man himself, it would, I thought, be no hard matter to keep him out of
our lives; in which conclusions I left out just two thingsthe throw
of Fate, which none of us can reckon upon, and my own rhyme-loving
nature and fondness for being entertained.
It was Fate's throw with which I had to reckon first. I had come in
my musings to a side-path which led from the old Abbey to the
foot-bridge, when I heard the sound of a man's singing:
As I cam in by Glenap,
I met wi' an ancient woman,
Who told me to cheer my heart up
For the best of my days were comin'.
The singer was sitting upon a fallen tree, beside a smoking fire,
with the women, children, aye, and the very dogs, gathered about him as
though he carried a charm. He was a thick-set man, dark and swarthy,
with a pair of eyes literally glowing. His hat was cocked upon the back
of his head, and he had his plaid thrown around him in a certain manner
known to himself alone. He was eating and drinking with these
gipsy-folk, for he'd a bannock in one hand and a mug of hot drink in
the other, but at sight of me he set them down and came forward to
greet me; and my amazed eyes rested on Robert Burns himself, as though
raised up by some of his own witches to fit into my thoughtsRobert
Burns whom I had met at Mauchline before he was famous, the year
He inquired if I were stepping townward, and on the instant I asked
him to breakfast with me at the Star and Garter, and this, you will
remember, within five short minutes of my resolve to burn his book and
keep him out of our lives.
It was charged against me later that I was lax in this Burns affair
and, because of my own infatuation for men of parts, took too little
thought for the temptation to which I exposed my daughter. I answer the
accusation by telling the circumstances exactly as they fell, and he
who reads may judge the truth of these charges for himself. As we came
to the door of the inn, I asked Creech and Dundas, who happened to be
passing, to join us at the breakfast, and a merry feast it was, and one
for the three of us to hold as a lifelong memory, for only those who
had the honor to know Burns could understand that the best of him was
in his talk. In the year of which I write all the eyes of Edinburgh
were fixed upon him, and his toasts, his epigrams, his love affairs
were the scandal of the town and his own countryside. There was some
flouting of him at this very meal, I recall, by Creech, who was deep in
his affairs, concerning a Mauchline lassie who had thrown his love back
at him with some violence and scandal; but he was not in the least
dashed either by the event or the naming of it, and, seizing a glass,
he called out, with the jolliest laugh in the world:
Their tricks and crafts hae put me daft,
They've ta'en me inand a' that,
But clear your decks! and here's 'The Sex,'
I like the jades for a' that,
the applause which greeted this sally bringing the servants to the
window, though, in fact, when it was known that Burns was in the house
there was no keeping them out of the room.
I do not feel, even at this late day, that I need an excuse for the
admiration I have of Burns, the greatest poet, in my judgment, who ever
lived. I knew his faults, if faults they were, but, before God, I knew
his temptations as well, and can speak with greatest thankfulness of
one he put behind him.
Pastor Muirkirk, of the New Light, in one of his more relaxed
moments, said to me:
The Lord cast seven devils out of the man in the scriptures because
his nature was big enough to hold seven devils. Most of us, laddie, he
went on, are not big enough to hold half a devil, which explains the
thought I have of Burns to a nicety, for it was surely the very bigness
of his nature, the instant sympathy with all who lived, which brought
many of the troubles to him for which he has been greatly blamed. But
this can be said of him: that no man I ever knew, from the highest lord
in the land down, presented himself to the world in a saner or more
balanced manner. I have known him to breakfast with tramps at an
ale-house in the morning, walk arm in arm with a duke down High Street
in the afternoon, and leave him perchance to dine with some poor
country acquaintance up from Ayr for a day's buying.
It was after Creech and his friend had left us that Burns turned
There is a matter upon which I am undecided whether it is good
taste for me to speak to you, Lord Stair, he said, but there is such
sincerity of admiration at the root of it that ye'll can just be
forgiving me if I trespass on your sense of the proprieties. 'Tis of
your daughter, Mistress Stair. I was carried off my feet by her singing
at the charity ball, and the verses she writes are as unstudied as the
song of a lark. But she will never write a poem that is so great as
herself. All her accomplishments seem to me but a set of warbles or
trills to the true song of her great womanhood. 'Where she is,' he
quoted prettily, 'man will be more than his wont, because of her
And at these words my resolutions were clean forgotten in my pride
in his praises of her.
She wants to know you, Mr. Burns. Your book is by her day and
night, I cried, at which he looked flattered, but said he was for Ayr
that afternoon, and the pleasure of an acquaintance with her must be
put by until some later date.
I told him at this that a friend had invited us down to his part of
the country for the fair, where we might meet again, on which he took a
slip from his pocket, putting his Edinburgh address on one side of it,
It is in the house of Mrs. Carfrae, Baxter Close, Town market:
first scale-stair on the left hand going down; first door on
and on the other:
To Mistress Nancy, Mistress Stair,
At Mauchline race or Mauchline fair,
I shall be glad to meet you there.
We'll give one night's discharge to care,
If we forgither,
And have 'a-swap-of-rhyming-ware,'
With ane anither.
And it was this swap o' rhyming ware which brought about the
tragedy toward which I draw.
CHAPTER XIII. THE DUKE VISITS STAIR
FOR THE FIRST TIME
On my return to Stair I found Nancy on the south steps with a letter
in her hand. In her white frock, with her hair bobbing in a bunch of
curls on the top of her head, she looked scarce older than the day I
had found her there making verses years agone.
You went away, she said, with reproach in her tone.
Guess whom I fell in with, I answered.
She hesitated a minute.
Robin, said I.
Robin who? she inquired.
Who but Robin Burns?
Oh, did ye? she cried, her face aglow on the instant; did ye,
Jock? Why didn't ye bring him back with ye?
He's for Ayr this afternoon, I answered; but he sent a word to
ye, and I gave her the card in Burns' own hand.
That's funny, she said, putting it in the bosom of her gown, and
she went on after a bit of musing, if he swap his rhyming ware for
mine it will be a losing bargain for him.
Before I had time to answer, Dandy Carmichael came in view with a
troop of dogs at his heels, and at sight of him I recalled an
arrangement made the evening before to have a tea drinking on the lawn,
and that he was bidden to luncheon to help with the cards of
The rest of the day was spent with pen and ink and address books,
and this jostle of circumstance put the Burns meeting out of my mind
entirely, nor did I mention it to Danvers one way or another, which
turned out to be a more unfortunate occurrence than I can tell.
On the day set for the festivity Danvers came early, with the Arran
grooms behind him carrying flowers from the conservatories for the
decoration of the great hall, and all of the morning the house was
filled with gay young voices and merry preparations for the
entertainment of friends. Stands of scarlet droopers were set on the
porch, the hot-house flowers being placed against the tapestry and the
old armor; bowls of drink were brewed and set to cool, and two o'clock
found Dame Dickenson in sober black silk, with a canny eye for the
refreshments, and myself in black as well, and a state of what might be
described as pleasurable anxiety.
Dandy's last words to Nancy before leaving to bring the Erskines
back with him were these: You are to look your very best; I desire the
Hon. Mrs. Erskine struck mute with admiration, and when she came down
the stairs I could but think that she had taken his counsel to heart,
whether because she was to meet her rival, as she laughingly called
Isabel Erskine, or by reason of the expected presence of his Grace of
Borthwicke, I was far from deciding.
She wore a huge black hat and a black lace gown, with a kerchief
tied in front and falling near to the ground. Her gloves were black as
well, coming almost to the shoulder, her only touch of color being a
cluster of roses in the knot of lace upon her bosom.
How handsome you are, Jock Stair, she said, coming toward me. How
handsome you are! I did well when I selected you for a father, she
finished with a laugh.
The Arran party were among the first to arrive, and in spite of the
restless character of the entertainment I found time for a short talk
with Isabel Erskine, a modishly attired, fair girl, with round blue
eyes and many meaningless phrases, for which I saw no necessity. She
had one sincere emotion in her life, however; one which she took small
pains to conceal, and this was an infatuation for Danvers Carmichael.
It was he who presented the two young women to each other, and I
noted with pride the bearing of my daughter at this meeting, for she
was genuinely glad to meet Miss Erskine, and with much gentleness and
gravity explained the reasons which had prevented her from coming over
the day before to pay her respects. Isabel, who was not at her ease,
responded that Danvers had told them how busy every one was at Stair,
and that the omission of a visit on Nancy's part was, under the
circumstances, but natural.
That Isabel Erskine did not like Nancy I knew on the instant I saw
them together, and that Nancy was unaware of it, and would have cared
nothing about her dislike had she known of it, was a thing of which I
was equally certain.
The pretty picture of the gaily gowned ladies with their furbelows
and parasols in shifting groups under the beeches, the sunlight falling
through the leaves in broken golden shapes upon the shining silks and
satins of the dresses, the merry chatter of the younger folk and the
more demure coquetry of the older ones, are still a pleasant picture in
my memory of that far-by day.
Upon a demand from some of the guests to see the lace school, and
the labor teaching as well, Danvers took it on himself to act as
conductor of these merry inquisitive parties, and the wonder and
interest of the ladies in the school was remarkable to see; and I
recall now that Mrs. Opie made her first visit to the burn that
afternoon, and within a month had planned her written work concerning
It was nearly four before the Duke of Borthwicke arrived, Hugh
Pitcairn and Sir Patrick Sullivan coming with him, unannounced, through
the west entrance.
His grace looked younger than he did at the time of our last
meeting: but his eyes were the same; misty, unholy, and bland. He wore
gray cloth of the same accented plainness, and from the time of his
entrance stood with his head uncovered in an attitude of great
deference to the women-folk; a bearing which accorded poorly with the
tales afloat concerning the manner of his private life.
To us, who for the most part knew London but by name, the bearing of
this celebrated personage was a matter for interest and study, and if
it were in my power to set him forth as he showed himself to us that
day there would be none of fair judgment who could blame Nancy for her
conduct toward him afterward I can affirm that never from the moment
that his eyes fell on her did he remove them from her face. He was
accosted by several gentlemen in his progress toward us, but it was
with a fixed glance of absorbed admiration of her that he answered
them, curtly, as I thought, and as one who brooks no interruption.
Crossing the space toward us he came alone, the forward poise of the
body, and more than all the power of his head and chest, fixing the
idea I already had of a splendid kind of devil who would make
ill-fortune for any who crossed him.
It is a great pleasure to see you again, he said, bowing low
You have been away a long time, she answered.
The longest month that I have ever spent, he returned.
The Highlands were not merry? she asked.
I had no heart for them.
No? she said. I am sorry.
I should rather, were it mine to choose, that you were glad to have
me find them dull, he answered.
Would that be quite friendly? she inquired, with a smile of
I am scarce asking for friendship, he returned, and there was no
mistaking the intent of either word or eye.
By the way, he continued, I have ridden half over Scotland and
laid by four horses to be here this afternoon; for which, he added,
with the little outward wave of his hand which became him so well, I
am claiming no merit; for is there a man who knows you who would have
A look passed between them, a look which I was at a complete loss to
understand, as she answered, with a laugh:
I think Mr. Pitcairn might successfully have struggled with the
temptation of laming horses to see me.
But, the duke retorted, as you told me yourself on that memorable
night we first met, 'Pitcairn's not rightly a man; he's just a head.'
In many ways, responded Nancy, and her eyelids drooped at her own
audacity, in many ways he reminds me of you, your grace!
The duke smiled back at her with a little drawing together of the
eyelids, which I had learned to know so well.
I have, he said, nearly a fortnight to spend in Edinburgh, in
which I shall make it the effort of my life to show you the difference
CHAPTER XIV. NANCY MEETS HER RIVAL
It was the morning after the outdoor party that Danvers came into
the breakfast-room with a pleasant excitement showing in his face.
I've a present for you, he said, going over to Nancy, who had not
left the table.
For me? she asked.
For youthough I'm far from sure that you deserve it, for if
there's a man in Edinburgh this morning whom ye haven't in love with
ye, he's blind. However, he laughed, we'll waive that, and he took a
box from his pocket and held it above his head.
Will ye kiss me for it? he cried.
I will not, said she decisively.
Then you sha'n't have it, he said with great determination, moving
as though to put it in his pocket.
I'll go and write some letters, then, she remarked calmly,
starting toward the door.
Afraid of losing her society for the morning, mayhap, he put the box
on the table and pushed it toward her.
It was a small silver case, strong and firm, with a smaller box of
white velvet inside, in which lay a ruby ringa gem for which men
commit crimes and women sin; a gorgeous, sparkling, rosy stone, sending
rainbow spots upon the wall, and rendering Nancy radiant and speechless
as she slipped it on her finger.
Is it for me, Dand? she asked, almost in a whisper.
For whom else would it be, Little Girl? he answered, and the
delight he had in her pleasure was a beautiful and husband-like thing
But why! she asked. Can I take it from him, Jock Stair? she
said, turning to me suddenly.
A woman can surely take a gift from her future husband with no
impropriety, I answered.
That's true, she said; but you see there is no betrothal between
us, and at the year's end I might have to send it back for some other
woman to wear, which would go far toward bringing me to my grave. I am
afraid I can't take it yet, Danvers.
Wear it, he answers. If ye can't wear it as my betrothed wife,
wear it in sign that I love you. Lord Stair hears that I hold it as
token of nothing save my own love for you. If it gives you pleasure,
Nancy, it's all I ask. At which she did the thing least expected of
her by putting her head suddenly down on her hands and bursting into a
flood of tears.
Oh, she cried, these things are just putting me out of my mind. I
wish I was in Heaven, where there is no marrying or giving in
There was one point gained, however, for she wore the ring; and with
it upon her finger Danvers could never be kept long from her thoughts.
At luncheon of this same day, old Janet McGillavorich, from
Mauchline, whom Nancy ranked the chiefest of all her female friends,
surprised us by a visit. She was a far-removed cousin of Sandy's, who
was constantly back and forth between her own home and Edinburgh by
reason of her everlasting lawing.
It seems that her father had left her some property, and by the
advices of Hugh Pitcairn she had turned this to great advantage, owning
bits of land all over Scotland, from Solway side to John o' Groats.
She was a masculine-looking female, with hair of no particular shade
parted over a face very red in color, and with high cheekbones and
small gray eyes set at an angle like the Chinese folks. She was above
sixty years of age at this time, with a terrible honesty of conduct,
great violence of language, and carried things with a high hand
wherever she went.
Having heard of Nancy from Hugh Pitcairn four or five years before
this, she had demanded to make her acquaintance, upon which Hugh
fetched her over to tea one afternoon, and from that time forth she
bore an unending grudge against me, that Nancy was not her own.
And so ye write, she had asked at this first interview; I never
read anything ye wrote, but I'm glad to meet in with any woman who has
an aim 'beyond suckling fools and chronicling small-beer.' But ye must
be careful what ye write, my dear, she went on, or ye'll have the
whole female population of Scotland clattering after ye. Be orthodox,
and never trifle with tales concerning the seventh command. Stick to
rhymes like 'fountain and mountain' and 'airy and fairy,' and such like
things; for ye'll find that the women who tell tales that would make ye
blush, who lead dissolute, unthinking lives, who deceive their
husbands, and smell themselves up with Lily-of-the-Valley-water when
they go to the kirk, will be the hardest upon ye if ye stray from any
accepted thought. They require the correctest thinking in print ye
I never saw Nancy more pleased with any human being than with this
fire-eating old lady; and when Janet finished her discourse by the
statement, God be praised! I never read poetry. Shakespeare sickened
me of that. This thing of not saying right out what you mean turns my
stomach. Padding out some lines to make them a bit longer, and chopping
off ends of words to make others shorter, ought to be beneath any
reasoning creature. Nancy put her head on the table and laughed until
I was afraid she would make herself ill.
It was after the luncheon, while Janet was still with us, that the
Hon. Mrs. Erskine and her daughter came to pay us a visit of
congratulation on the success of our entertainment. Danvers had gone
off to walk, and so it fell upon the three of us to receive these
visitors in the music-room, where we were having tea.
The elder lady, whom Sandy insisted had come to Edinburgh to marry
me, was an intentional female, with much hair, much rouge, and a pallor
heightened by rice-powder, which gave her a very floury and unclean
appearance. Her eyes were an indescribable color, resembling the pulp
of a grape, and near-set, a thing which I have never been able to abide
in man, woman, or child. Her nose was long and peaked, and her mouth
dropped at the corners. But it was the strange set of her whole figure
which struck my notice again and again. For she was, to use a lumbering
expression, all in front of her spine, with neither backward curve to
her head, nor her shoulders nor hips, which gave her a peculiarly
unpliable appearance. Her voice was high and of a singular penetrating
quality, and she had an over-civil manner to us, as of one who has
something to gain. Her gown, of blue, had many strange kinds of
trimming which seemed both needless and inexpressive, and what with the
rouge and the chains and hangings around her neck, she reminded me of
nothing so much as a grotesque figure for a Christmas-tree decoration.
When it be added to all of this that she had a fearful habit of
emphasizing certain words in a senseless and flippant style, and of
waving a lace kerchief constantly, after the manner of a flag, it may
be imagined with what joy I relished her society.
Ah! she said, you are alone after the party. What a success it
was! A positive triumph, positive! Isabel and I had been told how
delightful Edinburgh society was, but we were not prepared for the
gaiety we found. It was charming! Positively charming! And how
beautiful you looked, my dear, she went on, turning to Nancy. Of
course we'd heard of youevery one in any society at all has heard of
you, you know; but you've such style, my dearpositively the
I know you're pleased to hear how your daughter is adored, aren't
you, Lord Stair? It's what I say to the dear duchess (the Duchess of
Mont Flathers, you knowwe're just like sisters!). 'Maria,' I say to
her, 'of course I am pleased to have Isabel the rage, as she isit's
only natural, she being my daughter, that I should feel so.' I am
enchanted at all the attention she receives, and at the way men rave
over her. It's a mother's feeling. One night, I recall, when Danvers
Carmichael had positively compromised Isabel by his attentions, for
he's always after her, the dear duchess said to me:
'Anne, this is going too far!' And I said:
'Dearest, it may be; but I have no heart to stop them. They both
look so happy.' And the duchess replied:
'Anne, your feelings do you credit; and I think it's so sweet and
womanly to be so honest about it.'
'We naturally like to have our children beloved,' I answered,
That's just what I say all of the time! she went on, as though
some one might stop her by a speech of his own. Just what I say, Lord
Stair; both to Alexander Carmichael and his son. How beautiful, how
very beautiful the friendship between you is. And between your children
as well! Danvers is quite like a brother to your daughter, isn't he?
I really believenow don't contradict me, she said, waving her
handkerchief at her daughter, I really believe that Isabel was
inclined to be jealous yesterday. Danvers has always been so devoted to
heralways, since she was quite a little, little girl; and I am
afraidjust a tiny morsel afraidthat it was hard for her to share
Not that you were to blame, dearest, she said, turning to Nancy,
not the very least bit in the world. It was quite plain who claimed
your time! Quite plain! His Grace of Borthwicke is positively the most
fascinating creature I ever sawpositively. We never can get him in
London at all; so I never took my eyes from him; and all the town
bowing before himand he absolutely on his knees before you, my dear!
Pardon me for mentioning itforgive me, won't you?but what a
beautiful, exquisite ring! Look, Isabel! Quite like an engagement ring.
Now could itI wondercould it, peering at it and then at Nancy
through her glassesNancy, whose eyes had the significant darkness in
them which I have mentioned so often.
It is not an engagement ring, she answered quietly.
And here Janet, who had watched the Hon. Mrs. Erskine in much the
same manner as she would have regarded a foolish old cat, came into the
Since you think so highly of Danvers, Mrs. Erskine, ye must say a
good word for him to Nancy Stair. He's my choice for her to marry, she
said, looking around with a bland smile.
And does he want to marry her? Mrs. Erskine asked, abashed by this
He told me that he had asked her three times a day ever since they
met, and I, for one, hope that she'll think twenty times of him to once
she thinks of that devilish John Montrose.
I cared nothing for the silly old Mrs. Erskine, but my heart bled
for her daughter, who became a piteous white at the turn the talk had
taken, and put her handkerchief to her face, affecting a cough. Nancy
saw this and her heart spoke.
Dandy Carmichael, she says, talks to you, Mrs. MacGillavorich, to
please yeyou lay too much stress by what he says.
But the italicizing lady was routed, and as Janet watched her
departure from the window she said:
Mark my words, John Stair! she's fetched that girl here to marry
her to Danvers Carmichael. I've not known Anne Erskine all these years
for nothing. The old cat! she cried.
CHAPTER XV. CONCERNING DANVERS
CARMICHAEL AND HIS GRACE OF BORTHWICKE
It was from the time of the garden party on that Danvers Carmichael
and his Grace of Borthwicke were, to speak rudely, walking into each
other at every turn of Stair, and it is a task beyond me to tell the
strain which came into our affairs with the entrance of Montrose.
Subtle, subtle, subtle! It was the word which followed him
everywhere, and it was as difficult to manage him as to handle
quicksilver. He flattered with a contradiction; saw nothing unmeant for
him to see; bent to the judgment of him with whom he talked; was supple
in speech; modest, even to the point of regarding himself as a somewhat
humorous failure; told long stories with something of a stagelike
jauntiness, of fights in his boyhood, in India, in the House of
Lordsand by his own telling was ever the one worsted, the one upon
whom the laugh had turned.
For myself, I confessed openly then, as I do now, that I found him
the most diverting person I have ever met, and took such pleasure in
his company that upon me should rest much of the dirdum of having him
There were two things, however, which annoyed me no little
concerning his frequent visits to my home. The first of these was the
attitude toward him of Father Michel. I was coming out of the new
chapel with his grace one morning when we encountered the good father,
and I was struck with amazement to see the duke grow suddenly white and
give a start backward, with a quick indrawing of the breath which made
a choking sound in his throat, and that Father Michel on the instant
seemed as a stone man, save for the eyes, which, if I were anything of
an interpreter, showed a live hate and an old-time grudge. During this
meeting, which was brief to abruptness, Father Michel spoke no word,
but bowed low at the first silence which fell between us, taking his
way down the braeside upon such business as he had in hand, and no
questions were asked after his departure concerning either his origin
or his labors, for the duke was ever one who knew the protective power
After this encounter between them I played a clumsy detective in
proving that the two avoided each other and that there had been some
interwovenness of interests in the past. Several times when I asked
Father Michel to join us at table he gave me flimsy excuses, and once
the duke pleaded indisposition when I proposed that he should accompany
Father Michel on an inspection of some stained glass which Nancy was
having put in the altar windows of the new chapel.
In many ways, therefore, I became fixed in a belief that there was
hatred in Father Michel for John Montrose, and a distaste for the good
father in the Duke of Borthwicke, such as a man might cherish against
one whom he has greatly wronged.
The second trouble, however, was more acute, for it involved the
duke's treatment of Dandy Carmichael. While we were of a party Montrose
was civil enough, but when the two of them were thrown together the
duke would relapse into an insulting silence, such as one carries in
the presence of servants; would require to be spoken to twice before
answering a question, as though his thoughts were far away; would even
hum to himself as though entirely alone; or put the cap to his
insolence by taking a book from his pocket and reading, sometimes even
marking the rhythm of a verse aloud. So from day to day there was
growing a hatred for the duke in Danvers by reason of his jealousy and
the accumulative discourtesy which he was obliged to endure.
As for Nancy's conduct to the two of them, if it seemed strange to
me, who was her father, it was but natural that it should require some
explanation to those less partial to her, and she had the whole town
talking over which was the favored suitor. She rode with his grace in
the morning, played at billiards with Danvers in the afternoon, perhaps
to be off in the evening with McMurtree of Ainswere, who was maudlin in
his infatuation for her and whom she pronounced the best dancer out of
There were seasons when I could have sworn that she had no thought
save for Danvers. I have known her to watch for his coming, to grow
restless if his visits were a bit later than expected, to regard him
with happy and glowing eyes, and to rest in his presence in a way that
flattered him and drew him to her with such a passion of love showing
in his fine face that I had joy in the mere sight of him. But these
times would pass, and mayhap in a week or less she would be at the
Latinity with the duke, heated in her enthusiasm for him, encouraging
him in his tale-telling, with gleaming eyes and audacious rejoinders.
At these times Dandy fell back for company upon his cousin Isabel, and
I have met them frequently riding or driving together, she with a
happy, radiant face, and he with the brooding devil in his eye and a
sullen look in the smile with which he greeted me.
In his frequent absences from Edinburgh the duke never allowed
Nancy's thoughts to wander from him long. A book by special post, an
exquisite volume of Fergusson, hand-printed, some foreign posies in a
pot, an invitation to come with a party of his English friends to the
Highlands, and he added:
I am sending the list of the guests to your Royal Highness, and if
there be some who are not to your liking, I pray you cross them off.
Following here, he went on, the custom usual when one invites Royalty
to one's home, playing all the moves which a man knows who has wooed
and won many times, but, as it seemed to me, with a real feeling in the
At this sort of thing Dandy was a poor rival by reason of his pride,
and matters were at something like a gloomy standstill between him and
Nancy when I called Sandy into consultation.
Tragedy will come of it, I tried at length; but by my hope of
Heaven I know no way to handle the affair. Deny the duke the house, and
what have ye done to a girl of spirit? Urged her into his arms, and
Sandy's talk was all on Nancy's side, however, which made the
situation a bit easier for me.
You see, it's thiswise with most women, said he. Give them a
husband to dandle them, and some children for them to dandle
themselves, and a house to potter round, with some baubles to wear when
they're young, and some money in the bank when they're old, and they go
along with small agitation of mind until the grave. Not that I'm
discounting their value. They're a good conservative element to
society, and God intended them for the reproduction of the race, and
perhaps they're kept stupid in their minds so that they will not rebel
against their manifest destiny.
It's not like this with Mistress Stair! For she has a grasp of
things, and the fearlessness of an unbroken colt, and a mind for the
big thoughts of life, and you and I have led her forward in her
In the matter of Danvers she is following out the strongest law
that we know. 'Tis the natural attraction of the sexesof the young
for the young; but her mind calls for something besides. And 'tis here
the duke appeals to her more. Aye! it's all a difficult business, he
concluded, and fate will have to settle it after all, as I've said
many a time.
One day when the Little Flower was by me with her sewing I put the
matter to her with what deftness I could. Her answers were brief, but
directly aimed at the text. She said in effect that marriage was a
serious affair, and that she had been bred up with so much liberty that
it made the embarking on such an expedition more perilous to her than
to most women. She also set forth that in nearly every other enterprise
in life one might take a preliminary jaunt, and finding the business
little to one's liking, might give it over and start without prejudice
in some other.
In this one affair alone, she ended, the one of most moment in
all of our existence, there is no retracing one's steps with honor if
it be found that one has taken the wrong road.
For these reasons she averred it her privilege to look around her
with all the intelligence she had in order to make no mistake, both for
herself and her future husband.
For I'm thinking, she said, there would be trouble afoot if I
found, after marriage, the love of which I am capable given over to a
man who was not my husband.
Besides which, she laughed, I'm not certain whom I am going to
marry. There's Robert Burns, now, she cried. How would you like to
have a plowman for a son-in-law, Jock Stair, my daddy O? and she
started off to the Burnside, singing as she went; which was all I could
get from her on the subject, one way or another.
It was near the end of September that there began the serious
trouble between the duke and Danvers. I was come around from Zachary
Twombly's mill, where I had been to pay the hop-pickers, riding alone
through the Dead Man's Holm, intending to enter the garden by the break
in the south wall. Doubts of the wisdom of the way this child of mine
had been reared were going over and over in my mind. I had indeed aimed
to make her the finely elemental thing which I conceived a real woman
to be; but I found with some perturbation of spirit that the plan would
have served better for the general happiness if the men with whom she
had to deal had been less accustomed to the conventional woman. They
were forever drawing conclusions from her actions which would have held
with sound logic had they been applied to any other woman, but with
Nancy they were frequently as little to the point as if they had been
drawn from the conduct of a Chinese lady.
Thinking these things over, I came by the group of pear-trees, at
which point I heard voices on the other side of the wall, and raising
myself in the stirrups looked over into the garden.
It was a sunny, warm corner, and a low table, with some chairs, had
been placed there, together with a basket of lace-work which Nancy had
evidently been overlooking. She was not to be seen, however, although
her flowered hat hung on the back of a chair near by.
Sitting before the table was Danvers Carmichael, the cards spread
before him, making a solitaire, and at a little distance, holding the
bridle of his gray horse, stood the Duke of Borthwicke, who, I judge,
had interrupted by his entrance a morning talk between Danvers and
Nancy. There was a peculiar gleam in the eyes of Montrose, and a jaunty
self-possession which became him well, as he stood and looked down at
the man whose temper he had surely tried to the breaking point.
'Tis a lonesome game you play, Mr. Carmichael, he said, with a
significance in his tone which the printed words can not convey.
There are times when I prefer lonesomeness to the only company
available, Danvers returned, and he raised his eyes from the cards and
looked Montrose full in the eye as he said it.
Ah, the duke murmured, and there was a shadow of a smile around
his lips, 'tis fortunate to be so pliable. For myself I prefer to play
a game with a partner. In fact, the solitariness of my life has been
such that I have thought to change it. To be frank with you, I am
thinking of marriage.
The Three Kingdoms will be interested, Danvers returned suavely.
Again the duke smiled. You compliment me, he said, with a bow. It
all depends on the lady now. There is for me no longer any power of
choice; for I think none could see her but to love her, and here he
raised his hat with something of a theater's gallantry. It is Mistress
Stair, of course, of whom I speak.
Dandy Carmichael was on his feet in a minute.
It is but fair to you, your Grace of Borthwicke, to tell you that
Mistress Nancy Stair is already bespoken.
Indeed? said the duke. And whom shall I believe? The lady herself
She has promised that if she sees none within the year whom she
likes better she will be my wife.
Ah, returned the duke, and again there was a smile. Am I to
gather, then, that Mr. Carmichael considers himself so attractive that
he believes it impossible the lady should find, in a whole year, one
whom she could prefer?
There was in the tone that which no man of spirit could have borne,
least of all Danvers Carmichael, who knew that for two months the path
of the duke had been leading up to this, and there was no hesitation in
him. He held several of the unplayed cards in his hand and he struck
the duke across the mouth with them.
Since you are wanting a quarrel, I'll give you cause for one, he
said, and I joyed to hear him say it.
Borthwicke took his kerchief from his pocket and drew it across his
My friends will wait upon you, he said.
They will be welcomed, Danvers answered, and as the words were
spoken I saw Nancy come from the porch door holding a book in her hand,
and I rode hastily to the main entrance rather than to place further
present embarrassment upon them by having them fear that I had
overheard the quarrel between them.
If the duke showed any change whatever in his manner of greeting me
it was to appear a bit more frank and careless than ordinary, his voice
a trifle smoother, and his countenance more open than I had ever noted
it before. He asked me to ride to town with him to look at some old
prints which he was for purchasing, and, as we rode off together,
turned toward me as a schoolboy might have done, inquiring:
Did you ever have an old song go over and over in your head,
without rhyme or reason, Lord Stair?
Many's the time, I answered.
This morning, he continued, I woke with one of these attacks,
which are o'er frequent with me, and a bit of a rhyme of one of my
father's serving-men has been ranting through my brain all the day,
and here he broke forth and sang:
I hae been a devil the most of life,
O, but the rue grows bonny wi' thyme,
But I ne'er was in hell till I met wi' my wife,
And the thyme it is withered and rue is in prime.
'Tis an up-country tune, I answered in words, but my thought was
one of wonderment that a man who had just planned and set on foot the
taking of another's life should be so gay and could talk so
interestedly on trivial affairs.
Whatever other faults may be mine, indirectness of speech nor a
slothful gait when something has to be done were never accredited to
me, and I determined to let the duke know exactly what I had heard, as
well as my opinion of him in the business which he had stirred up.
Turning toward him, with no introduction to the matter whatever, I
Your grace, I am a man old enough to be your father; something of a
philosopher and a dreamer, who has let the current of this world's
affairs swim by him unnoted for many yearsanother, more dependent on
present issues, might hesitate to speak to a man of such power as
yourself in the manner which I have planned to do; but I would forever
lose my own self-respect, which I state honestly is of far greater
value to me than any opinion which you or another may have of me, if at
this time I failed to be open with you. I was an unintentional observer
of the scene which just occurred between you and Mr. Carmichaelone in
which, to my thinking, you showed to monstrous poor advantage.
If he had denied, or stormed, or affected a hurt honor at the words,
they would have but fallen in with the idea I had of him. He did none
of these; but, turning, said to me openly and as one in no wise
I hate the man for the best reason on earth, Lord Stair.
And is it your way to try to kill all you hate?
Oh, no, he answered, it is not often necessary.
I can not set down the ease with which he spoke, for it seemed to me
that I was listening to some theatric person behind the foot-lights
making a speech to the pit rather than to a man who was as earnest as a
man could well be.
The truth at the root of the whole trouble is that Mr. Carmichael
and I have the misfortune to love the same woman.
I have wanted for some time to have a private talk with you, Lord
Stair, he continued. If your time is at your command, will you do me
the honor to have a bottle of wine with me at the Red Cock, where we
can talk with something more of ease?
Ten minutes from that we were seated by a window of the inn, the
duke on one side of a table with a bottle of his own, I on the other
with a bottle of mine, while he, with a frankness impossible to a less
gifted person, was dazzling me by his wisdom and his wickedness.
I wish it were possible for me to put down the gesture, the grace of
language, the lightness of touch, the deliberate choice of one word
over another, with which this talk was flowered; but I can, at least,
state that it had to me a living kind of deviltry in it that raised me
out of my surroundings, as a play or great music might have done, or
the clash of some great event.
I was a poor boy, the duke began, at fourteen, a poor Highland
body with estates in a begging condition, and a sickly framea stoop
and haggled lungs, but something, something within me that would
not down, that would accept no defeat. I made this body of mine over. I
trained myself until I could endure hardship like the Indians and bear
pain like a stoic. It took four years of my life for this, and it was
upon its completion that I began to mend the fortunes of the family. I
looked out into the world with more cynical eyes than generally do the
observing boys of my age, and found self-interest to be the lever which
moves the human thing we call man. Man! he cried, with a laugh.
Lord! there aren't ten men in England to-day, or do you think I would
be where I am? There was shamelessness, even a touch of villainy in my
creed; but it was, after all, admirably adapted to the folk with whom I
had to deal. But with my fortune and my increase of power my ambition
rose higher and higher. I could handle men at my will; but I began to
ask myself questions as to the use of doing it at all. I was honest
with myself, and I saw, I think, clearly that I got my power by using
the worst in men.
Well, my lord, I met your daughter, and it seemed to me I found she
had a better power than my own. As I have said, my ambition is
boundless. I desire always the best. I believe she is a fine
philosopher, she can win at my own game. Oh, he interrupted himself,
I would not be setting it out to you that it's my head alone she's
touched, for I am as daft in my love for her as any schoolboy could be,
but I'm just telling you that, both from my ambition and my love, I
want her for my wife.
The first thing, he went on, which I have to face beside yourself
is this Carmichael man. If I had met him in any other relation in life
I should have forgotten him within a fortnight; but he has been forced
upon my noticethere are things about him I can not understand.
They are his principles, perhaps, I suggested dryly.
The duke laughed aloud.
That was worthy of Mistress Stair herself, he said, his eyes
filled with laughter.
It all comes to this in the end, John Montroseif you know
anything of women. If ye kill Dandy Carmichael you need never expect to
see Nancy's face again. The boy is one of her first remembrances, and
his father is almost as dear to her as I am myself. What kind of place
are you making with her to kill one who, by all old ties, has become
I've no intention of killing him, he said. I intend to let him
have a thrust at me with his sword, and then get him sent from the
country for it.
I saw his plan in a minute.
And suppose I tell Nancy what ye've just told me? I cried.
He leaned across the table and touched me lightly on the shoulder.
That is my power, he said, my knowledge of people. I know your
code, Lord Stair, and though I were the greatest scoundrel on earth,
'tis not in you to betray the confidence which I have reposed in you,
even to help a friend.
CHAPTER XVI. NANCY STAIR ARRANGES
I rode back to Stair, having accomplished nothing whatever with the
duke, sick at heart and baffled completely by the shameless honesty of
the man. Whiles I made up my mind to ride on to Arran and tell Sandy of
the whole matter, and next to find Dand and see what common sense might
do with him, though his deil's temper argued against any satisfaction
being obtained by this move.
As I turned into the policy I was met by one of the grooms, who rode
in some haste with a letter in the band of his hat. Instinct told me
that his errand was relative to the trouble brewing, and I immediately
jumped at a conclusion, which was that Nancy had heard of the quarrel
and had sent for one or other of her fire-eating friends to come to
With no small interest, therefore, I watched the man close the Holm
gate and set off at a breakneck speed toward Edinburgh, where the duke
At the dinner I asked Nancy what she had been doing in my absence.
I read some Fergusson and some of the rhymes of that idiot King
James VI, and then I went over Mr. Pitcairn's indictment of Mungo
Armstrong. Jock, it is written with the fairness of the judge himself.
It is great work! He's a wonderful man, Pitcairn! which occupations
surely showed no great perturbation of mind.
After the meal she told me that she had sent for the duke
concerning some matters, and I lay on the leather couch in the hall,
the very same bit of furniture, by the way, which we called Pitcairn's
sofa, which made a bitter time for us all later, and fell asleep.
I was recalled to consciousness by singing in the grounds, and
although the whole town knew the song, it was the first time I had ever
heard itThe Duke's Tune, it was called far and wide:
at the last note of which, Borthwicke himself, jaunty, bareheaded,
and smiling, stood before Nancy in the window-way.
How is your Royal Highness to-night? he cried gaily.
My Royal Highness, she replied, with a little laugh, is not in a
happy frame of mind. Things have gone very wrong with me to-day.
Indeed? returned his grace. Things may be changed by human
endeavor. I myself, very lightly, have been able to change a few. It
is perhaps superfluous for me to mention that my time and abilities are
at your service always.
If that be true, my troubles have disappeared entirely, Nancy
returned. They were all of your breeding. I have been thinking of your
grace the day long.
I am honored, he said.
Perhaps you should know my thoughts before you say that. They were
not complimentary in the extreme, she said, looking directly at him
with very honest eyes.
You might, and there was the caressing tone in his voice of which
I have already spoken, tell me wherein I displease you. It would be
the effort of my life to change.
He came directly toward her at this, o'er close, it seemed to me,
and stood looking down into her eyes, which were fixed upon his.
You mean it? she asked.
By the love I bear you, the best thing my life has ever knownI
mean it to the last letter. In fact, I spoke of it this afternoon to
your father, Lord Stair. You've made a change in me. I'm not promising
too much, but I am intending a reform of myself. Let me put it to you,
not too earnestly, lest nothing come of it, but so you can get the
drift of my thoughts.
I have come to believe that your creed of love and helpfulness to
every one is a stronger one than mine. It is not a proven thing to me
yet, but I think one gets more in a subtler way than I can name from
living by it. My head has got me so far in the working out of it. My
Your heart will help you the most, said Nancy. And it is there I
am hoping for help from you. And here, perhaps to avoid the avowal
which she felt might be coming, she took a tangent:
Will your new wisdom carry you so far as to write a letter for me,
one with your signature at the bottom?
It will, his grace answered, without a second's hesitation seating
himself at the writing-table.
It is for you to dictate it, he went on, with the paper spread
before him, pen in hand.
My dear Mr. Carmichael, Nancy began.
His grace started to his feetthis was far from anything for which
he was prepared. So for a space they regarded each other steadily, and
then I saw Nancy put her soft little hand over the one of the duke's
which rested on the table; and his smile and movement of the shoulders,
as though he surrendered everything at her touch, was one of the
bravest bits of love-making I have ever seen.
He seated himself again, and Nancy, standing at his side, went on:
I am writing to you to-night to ask your pardon for the entirely
unworthy course which I have pursued toward you during the past six
Again the duke paused, and I could see his jaw set as he regarded
the words, which were bitter enough to his palate.
The matters which led to the quarrel between us were of my own
breeding, and I wish to apologize to you for them. Sign it, said
I am willing, the duke answered, with an odd smile; but, little
girl, a man doesn't insult another man and then crawl out of the
consequences of his act by letter. Have I your permission to effect
this thing in a bit more masculine way? I promise a retraction of my
conduct, and that I shall be humble enough
And there will be no duel?
There will be no duel, Borthwicke answered, and, subtle creature
that he was, he saw by the look in Nancy's face how much his yielding
had gained for him with her, and seized the occasion.
I have done this for you, as I might do any other thing for you
which you might ask me, for there's one thing I want more than my life
itself. Oh, he cried, and he reached out his arms toward her, can you
love me, Nancy Stair? Do you think you can love me?
There was a pause, during which I could hear the duke's deep
breathing, before she answered him.
And that's just the thing I can't tell, she said, for I don't
know myself. You know the understanding that I have with Danvers
Carmichael. I am fond of him, perhaps fonder of him than any other; but
there is no disguising the fact from myself that at times you attract
The duke laughed aloud in spite of the strain of the moment.
You are an honest little soul, he cried, with genuine
I try to be, she answered.
Well, well, he went on, temporizing, a year is a year. We shall
see. But in the meantime, my sins are forgiven me?
Entirely, she answered.
There is usually some token of forgiveness, is there not? he went
on, as he stood, erect, hypnotic, and compelling, looking down at her.
She did the thing for which he was least prepared, by putting her
hand lightly on his forehead for an instant.
Te absolvo, she said, after the manner of the church.
And although one could see that he was disappointed, he smiled at
her, and the smile had something in it of pleasure, too, for he of all
men was surely the one to believe that the fruit which could fall
without shaking was ever too mellow for him, and enjoyed, to mix a
metaphor, the pleasures of the chase.
Although the trouble seemed to pass by in this happy fashion, I had
so little faith in his Grace of Borthwicke that, the morning for which
I knew the duel had been set, I rose early and rode by the Old Bridge
Road to see if anything concerning it were on foot.
Finding nothing but the silence of the morning and a few country
folk on the way to market, I rode on to the town, where to my
astonishment I came into the midst of a party just leaving the Star and
Garter with evidences of conviviality plain upon them. The first I saw
were Billy Deuceace and Sir Patrick Sullivan, and behind them Danvers,
Dr. McMurtrie, Stewart of MacBrides, and his Grace of Borthwicke, all
of them seemingly upon the best of terms with each other and
themselves, leaving me to ride back to breakfast at Stair with the
first appetite I had had for hard upon a week.
In the afternoon of that same day I met Billy Deuceace, and after
some questioning, which showed the knowledge I had of the matter, he
It was a compact between us that the affair should die in silence,
but I think I can say to you, Lord Stair, in honor, that his grace
behaved most handsomely in the mattermost handsomely, he repeated.
When the silver moon of harvest lights up All Halloween And lovers
meet together For a roamin' time; Young Jock met in wi' bonny Jean
Where naebody aboot was seen, Aff among the heather In the gloamin'
FACSIMILE. Poems by Nancy Stair, Pailey Collection.]
CHAPTER XVII. THE SWAP O' RHYMING
The day following this event I was called into the Mearns to look
after some property which by reason of an entail had been thrust into
my hands. Nancy had planned to accompany me, but the post brought her
news that a German cousin of royalty, who was making a tour of the
country, was intending a visit to the lace-making place on the
Burnside, and Father Michel's word being for her presence at Stair, she
gave over the trip, and watched me set off with Hugh Pitcairn, a bit
saddened, I thought, at the pleasure of the jaunt being taken from her.
A fine lassie! Hugh said, looking back at her from the coach
window, who will do what's right, as she sees it, whether she gains or
loses by it herself. A woman whose word can be believed as another's
oath; who has a thought for the general good, apart from her own
emotions; with something of the old Roman in her sense of justice. Ah,
he went on in his egotism, she shows training. All women should be
taught the lawsomething might be made of them then.
I was employed in looking over some unread mail which I had with me
while Hugh was laying these flattering unctions to his soul, and came
at this point upon a letter from one Hastings, an American from the
village of Boston in North America, offering in a kind sure way to
marry my daughter Nancy if he could have my consent. He was a
flat-faced, bigoted Anglo-Saxon, and a creature seemingly designed to
drive a woman of any wideness of judgment into a frenzy, and I grinned
with delight as I handed the letter to Hugh for his perusal.
He read it stolidly and returned it to me, uncommented upon, but
further down the road I could see he was turning Nancy's affairs over
in his mind, for he broke out, with some disjointedness:
I have always held it a wise arrangement of nature to make women of
notable mentality of a dry and unseductive nature, and pretty women
fools; for if one person held beauty and charm as well as power and
grasp, there is no telling but she could overthrow governments and work
a wide and general mischief. We've much to thank God for, he
continued, that Nancy Stair is as she is.
The third day of my stay at Alton I received a special post which
put me into some fret of mind. The letter was from Nancy, and is set
MY VERY DEAREST:
I miss you and am lonesome; for the lady is not coming about
lace-making, although she sent a command for many pounds' worth
work, and Father Michel is much pleasured by that.
I have just had a letter from Janet McGillavorich. 'Seeing that
write,' she says, 'ye may be interested in a plowman-poet that
have down here, whose name has made some noise in this part of
country. His name is Burns, an Ayr man, and the gentry are a'
makin' much of him. Well, any time ye've the fancy, ye can look
of the spence window and see heedless Rab Burns, his eyes
like twa stars, coming over the braeside, drunk as a laird,
out, 'How are thy servants, blessed, O Lord,' having spent the
night Gude alane kens wheer. God kens and most of the
too, when you come to think about it, for the lad has a
shamelessness for his misdeeds, and what he forgets to tell
(and that's little enough) he goes home and writes out for all
parish to read. So if ye'd like a crack wi' him, just come
down, now your father's left ye, and I'll have him till dinner
you, and you can bob at each ither to your heart's content.'
Isn't it strange, Jock, that a thing I have wanted so long
just happen by, as it were? And so I'm off for Mauchline
with Dickenson, whose silence bespeaks a shrewish disapproval,
will write how Mr. Burns and I get on at some soon date.
Give my love to Mr. Pitcairn, and tell him the prints are full
his new book.
Danvers Carmichael has not been here since the time you know
and the Duke of Borthwicke is on some sudden business to the
With my heart held in my hands toward you,
Your own child,
[Signed: Nancy Stair]
In a green tabby velvet, laced with silver, and a huge feathered
hat, Nancy set out from Stair about eight in the morning with Dame
Dickenson in the Stair coach, driven by Patsy MacColl. By a change of
horse at Balregal, she arrived at Mauchline just as the lamp-lighter
was going his rounds, and the coach was turning by the manse when a
serving-man, evidently heavy with the business, came toward the
Are ye for Mrs. McGillavorich? cries he.
Ay, Patsy answered.
Well, I'm put here to tell ye that her house fell into the cellar
of itself the morn, and she's at the 'King's Arms,' where 'tis her wish
your young lady should be fetched at once.
Amazed at this sudden announcement, Patsy drove a short distance
farther, where, as directed by the stranger, he stopped before a small
two-story dwelling, unpretentious, but exceedingly clean and
respectable in appearance, where Mrs. Todd, the landlady, showed Nancy
into the living room.
It was a quaint old chamber, with wooden walls, beamed ceiling and a
great stone fireplace, the lugs coming out on each side to form a seat,
with candles lighted in a row upon the mantel-shelf. There was a spinet
in one corner; a set of shelves filled with shining cups and saucers
between the low white-curtained windows; while a fire from huge logs
filled the chimney place and threw a dancing light over the polished
floor, half hidden by a thick home-spun carpet, and as was the custom
of the time, lighted candles had been set between the drawn white
curtains to guide any uncertain traveller to his destination.
When Nancy entered, blinded by the sudden light, it was her thought
that the apartment was empty, but here the devil had taken his throw in
the game, for sitting in the far corner at a small table, with a jug
and writing materials between them, were two men, the darker of whom
would every little while scribble something off, handing that which he
had written to the other, who would roar aloud and clap him on the
shoulder, and both would drink again.
Nancy stood irresolute before the fire, not knowing what to do, when
the darker man came forward from his place, as though to offer
assistance, but at sight of her he drew back in amazement, and as Mrs.
Todd bustled into the room at the moment, with many courtesies, to
escort her up to Mrs. McGillavorich, no word passed between the two;
but the man stood watching after her as she ascended the winding
We're in a frightful state, my dear, Mrs. McGillavorich cried to
her from the landing. A frightful state. But the house went down too
late to let ye know that for your own comfort ye'd best stay at home.
We'll make ourselves comfortable here; and I've ordered a chicken pie
for you, which is browned to a turn, and a jelly stir-about; and this
evening we'll have a merry time, for they say Burns is in the house
Ah, she went on, peering from the window, ye got here just in the
nick of time; for the wind's roaring from the west, and when a storm
comes from that direction it's like to set by us for a long time.
After the supper, served in her own apartment, was by with, the
strange old lady went on:
And now we'll go down to the spence, where ye can meet Mr. Burns.
And because your father's a kent man in these parts and your own name
sounding through the country as well, I'll give out that ye're my
niece, and it's in that way ye can be known.
So, attended by Dickenson, carrying her many wraps and comforters,
with Nancy following, Mrs. McGillavorich entered upon Burns and his
companion, whom they found drinking and writing exactly as Nancy had
I'd like to make you known to my niece, Miss McGillavorich, said
Mrs. Janet, advancing toward him. From Edinburgh, she added.
He threw a hasty unconvinced glance at Nancy, but bowed low as one
used to gentle ways.
I am new come from Edinburgh myself, he said, after presenting his
friend, whom he named Mr. Hamilton. It's a braw town. Have ye lived
there long? he asked.
Some years, Nancy answered; although I was not born there.
There are fine country places all about it, too, he continued,
out the Pentland way.
Yes, she answered; I've seen them.
And do you know many people in the city? I've met in with some
notable folk on my sojourn there. The Monboddos, the Glencairns, and
the Gordons are grand people.
I've heard their names, Nancy returned, in a non-committal way.
They've been kind to me, he went on, with a bit of conceit in his
manner, most kind. The ladies especially, he added.
So? said Nancy. That must be very comforting to you, she added,
with a twinkle in her eye.
It is, was the unexpected answer, given with a droll look. And I
like to hear them sing my songs. Have ye heard Bonnie Dundee? It's not
No, she answered, but I could catch it. I sing a little. Could ye
sooth it to me, Mr. Burns?
Nay, nay, said Janet, no music or singing yet; not till Mr. Burns
has given us something of his own. We'll have Dickenson brew us a bowl
of lemon punch, and we'll draw the curtains and gather the fire, and
Mr. Burns will line us the Cotter's Saturday Night, the sensiblest
thing writ for a long time, before ye sing us a song, my dear.
And the old lady being set, there was nothing to do but to abide her
way of it; and thus by the fire, with the elements raising a din
outside, the five of them listened to the great man, who was not too
great, however, to turn the whole battery of his compelling personality
upon Nancy Stair, nor to look at her from the uplifted region in which
he dwelt during the recital to see what effect he had upon her, for he
had already learned his power over ladies of quality.
God knows if any of those, even Burns himself, who were gathered
about the fire that night dreamed that, as I believe now, those lines
would echo down the ages, nor that the time was coming when that
evening might be a thing to boast upon and hand the memory of to
children and to children's children as a precious heirloom:
November chill blaws loud wi' angry sugh:
The shortening winter-day is at its close;
The miry beasts retreating frae the pleugh,
The black'ning trains o'craws to their repose:
And at the end, fed perhaps by the adulation of their faces, as well
as their spoken words, he laid some open flattery to himself upon the
way he'd been received in town and at the noise his name was making
there at the time, and stirred Nancy's sense of humor, which, Heaven is
a witness, needed little to move it at any time.
A'weel, a'weel, she said at length, I make verses myself, Mr.
Say you so! he cried; and that's a surprise to me! Would you word
us one of your poems? he asked, laughingly.
I sing mine, she says, going over to the spinet.
And that's finer still! he cried.
They're not like yours, an apology in her voice; just off-hand
rhymes like, that come to my head on the moment. If you could sooth me
Bonnie Dundee now, I might rhyme something to it, and the minute he
began, she said:
Oh! I know that'tis an old tune, like thisand striking a chord
or two, she was off before the rest had any guess of her intention,
with a merry devil in her eye and her face glowing like a flower in the
At 'The King's Arms' in Mauchline, Rab Burns said to me,
'I'm just back from Edinbro' as you may see,
Where all the gay world has been bowin' to me,
For I am the lad who wrote Bonnie Dundee!
And just for a smile or a glance of my eye
The lassies are ready to lie down and die;
So don't give yourself airs, but just bow before me,
For I am the lad who wrote Bonnie Dundee!'
Now a'weel, Mr. Burns, I have somewhat to say
I've sweethearts as many as you any day;
And I've eyes of my own, as you've noticed, maybe,
If you've glanced from the author of Bonnie Dundee!
And Duncan of Monteith my suitor has been,
And Stewart of MacBride's, who has served to the Queen.
And if any one bows, it will sure not be me,
For I don't give a groat who wrote Bonnie Dundee!
The laugh which followed this found Burns at her side, every passion
in his inflammable nature alight.
Aye, he cried, ye have the verse makin'. But the e's are easy.
Why didn't ye try the Doon. 'Tis as celebrate.
Sure, she answered, there are rhymes begging for that. Tune,
soon, rune, June
And loon, Burns threw in, daffing with her. Ye wouldn't be
It was not my intention to be leaving the author of the piece out
of it, she threw back at him, laughing, at which Burns gave her a
You'd better mend your manners, he cried, gaily, or some day I'll
take my pen in hand to you, and then, may the Lord have mercy on
your soul! adding low, Mistress Nancy Stair!
Some consternation followed upon this, for it was unknown by any of
them that he had seen Nancy in Edinbro', and after the talk was
readjusted a bit to the news, the five of them, with Mrs. Todd
listening on the other side of the door, sat till hard upon one
o'clock, with uplifted minds, insensible to time or weather.
The extreme disorder caused by the wind, for the storm had risen, at
length recalled them to themselves, and Mrs. Todd, who worshiped the
great poet, came in.
You must lie here to-night, Mr. Burns, she said hospitably; and as
the poet lighted Nancy up the stair:
Good night, he cried, good night! and then, because there was a
devil in the man whenever he looked at a pretty woman, I'll have no
sleep to-night. I'm in some far-up region where poems are made and
where all the women are like you!
For three days the horrid weather kept them housebound; three days
in which Nancy and Robert Burns lived in dangerous nearness to each
other, considering her youth, her temperament, and the passion of
admiration which she held for him; three days of poetry and folk-tales
and ballad-singing, with the man's dangerous magnetism at work between
It was on the afternoon of this third day that a girl passed the
window near which Burns sat, and beckoning to him, he slammed out into
the storm, with no prefacing word to his act whatever, leaving Nancy
staring after him in amazement, as she said to Mr. Hamilton:
Do you not think his manners are strange?
The Edinburgh people say that he had them straight from his Maker,
Mr. Hamilton answered, evading an opinion of his own.
It's no saying much for the breeding of the Almighty, she
answered, off-hand, with a smile, and she held silence concerning the
matter, although it was near upon four days before Burns entered the
inn door again, his face pale and haggard, his eyes sunken, and lines
of dissipation upon his handsome face, which every one by courtesy
passed over uncommented. He brought a volume of Shenstone with him,
which he laid before Nancy as a gift.
I am bringing you one of the great of the earth, he said, gloomily
regarding the book, and Nancy, who read his thoughts and wanted from
the heart to cheer him, said:
I whiles wonder at you, Mr. Burns, and the way you go about
admiring every tinker-peddler who tosses a rhyme together. Ye've no
sense of your own value at times. Do you know, she went on, fair
glorious to see in her enthusiasm glowering down at himDo you know
that when this man Shenstone's grave is as flat to the earth as my
hand, and his name forgot, people will be building monuments to you and
raising schools for your memory. Why, she cried, in an ecstasy, 'tis
you that have made our old mother Scotland able to hold up her head and
look the whole world in the face when the word 'Poetry' is called.
Ye think so? he asked, the tears big in his eyes, his gloom put
behind him. It's music to hear ye praise me so, and he rose and
leaned against the mantel-shelf, his face irradiated by its usual
Perhaps, he began with some hope, when I say farewell to rakery
once and for all, I may make something fine yet. Most men, Mistress
Stair, shake hands with that irresponsible wench called Pleasure, but I
have dallied too long, I fear, in her intoxicating society. Aye! he
finished, Wisdom's late upon the road!
 It is strange to note that there is scarce a word spoken
Burns in all of Lord Stair's manuscript which can not be
directly or indirectly in the poet's prose or
Let's make a poem of it! It sounds like one! she cried, moving
toward the spinet.
Take your own gate, says Burns, laughing; I'll follow!
I'll take the first lines, she said gayly. 'Twill throw the brunt
of the rhyming on you.
You're o'er thoughtful, Burns laughed back at her, and Nancy began
rhyming to an old tune the thought they had passed between them, with
Burns ready with his rhymes before her lines were entirely spoken:
At break o' day, one morn o' May,
While dew lay silverin' all the lea;
A lassie fair, wi' gowden hair
Came laughing up the glen to me.
Her face was like the hawthorn bloom,
Her eyes twa violets in a mist,
Her lips were roses of the June,
The sweetest lip's that e'er were kissed.
'O, what's your name and where's your hame?
My sweetest lassie, tell me true.'
'My name is Pleasure,' sir, she said,
'And I hae come to live with you.'
She took my face between her hands,
And sat her down upon my knee.
She put her glowing lips to mine,
And oh, but life was sweet to me.
Wi' mony a song we roved along
My arm all warm about her waist.
The hours drunk wi' love's golden wine
Unheeded ane anither chased.
Ah! Nancy cried here, That's the Burns touch! I could never have
Her hair's gay gold, in many a fold,
Unheeded on my shoulder lay.
Her heart beat on my very own,
And life and love were one that day.
When noon was highest up in air,
An ancient man came on the road.
And when he saw my loving fair,
His eyes wi' fiercest anger glowed.
'And who is this,' he cried to me,
'That you have ta'en wi' you to dwell?'
'Her name is Pleasure,' sir, said I,
'And oh, I'm sure she loves me well.'
'Rise up,' he cried, 'no more defer
To leave a wench not over nice.'
'She's Pleasure till ye wed wi' her,
Her name she changes then to Vice.'
I got me up from where I lay,
And turned me toward the darkened land.
'Adieu,' she said, wi' no dismay,
And waved toward me her lily hand.
* * * * *
The time was set, and then we met,
Old Wisdom came, and now we part.
'Ye gang your gate, ye'll soon forget,
Nor think,' said she, 'twill break my heart.'
'There's something strong within ye both,
That's makes ye tire of such as me.
'But I'm as I was made,' she quoth,
'And how much better, sirs, are ye?'
There's a deal of philosophy in that, cried Hamilton. I must have
And it was from his paper that I got the lines as I set them above.
CHAPTER XVIII. I GO DOWN TO
Of all this rhyming gaiety, it will be remembered, I had no
knowledge at the time, being still at Alton, chafing under the business
in hand, and awaiting each post, as the days went by, with a beating
heart and the expectancy of some unworded trouble.
The twelfth day passing without news, I cut the end of my business
off altogether, and started for Stair, it being my thought that Nancy's
visiting would be ended and that I should find her there awaiting my
return. The home-coming was a dreary one, the house darkened and
unsociably redd up, and I sat alone to a dinner, served me by Huey, in
a depth of gloom and melancholy which he had never reached before,
debating whether to write to Mauchline or to go down myself the
While turning the matter over in my mind, Mr. Francis Hastings's
name was brought in to me, and the humor of the situation struck me
with some force, for here was a girl partially engaged to two men, off
visiting a third, with a fourth clamoring at the door to be her
Come in, I cried heartily to the large-faced young man when he
appeared at the doorway. I'm glad to see ye, Mr. Hastings. Will ye
have a glass with me? and I pushed the decanter toward him.
You doubtless know my errand, Lord Stair, he said, refusing the
brandy by a shake of the head. You had my letter?
Some time since, but I put off answering it, thinking I
hesitated; the truth being that the matter had passed clean from my
mind after reading the epistlethinking a talk would be better.
Have you any objections to me? he asked, coming straight to the
I had a great many, but it was scarce possible to name them under
the circumstances, and I shuffled a bit.
To be frank, said I, there are obstacles.
What are they? he asked, and the conceit in his tone conveyed the
thought that for the honor of an alliance with him obstacles should be
Well, said I, there's Mr. Danvers Carmichael, who is perhaps the
chief one; and his Grace of Borthwicke, another; and Duncan of
Monteith, and McMurtree of Ainswereand others whose names I could set
And does she love any of these? he asked.
She has not taken me into her confidence, I answered; but my
honest advice to you is to forget all about her.
I think, he said, testily, with your permission, I shall ask her
Yes, yes! Do! And as I thought of all that would probably come to
him for his audacity I urged it still further: Do, by all means! I
He had scarce gone from the house, and I was still laughing a bit
over the affair, when Huey, with a changed face and an excited voice,
came back to me from the kitchen.
There's a man, hard ridden, in the doorway with a letter which he
will give to none but your lordship, said he, adding the thing which
told the reason for his pale face and hurried voice: He's from
A premonition of evil came over me, and as the fellow handed me the
billet a sudden chill and shaking seized my body, so that I was forced
to put the letter upon the table to keep the writing steady enough for
me to see. It was from Janet McGillavorich, short to exasperation, and,
with no set beginning, read as follows:
Nancy is taken ill and lies delirious at the King's Arms in
Mauchline. We have a doctor here, but I have become alarmed,
is now the fourth day that she has been unconscious. I think it
better to let you know just how matters stand, and to ask that
come down yourself immediately upon receipt of this and bring
McMurtrie with you.
If it be recalled that I had at this time no knowledge of the
accident to Janet's old house, could surmise no reason for Nancy's
lying at a public inn, and was in an agony of fear for her life, the
wretched state of my mind can well be understood; but I was still
capable of quick action, and within an hour Dr. McMurtrie, the end of
his dinner carried in a bag, and myself were upon the Mauchline road.
The crawling of the coach through the darkness, the insane waits for
horses, the many necessary but time-consuming details told upon my
distraught mind to such an extent that when I descended at the door of
the inn I felt an old and broken man. The memory of another ride which
I had taken was heavy upon me, my teeth chattered, the horror showing
in my face so plainly that Dame Dickenson read my thought on the
instant, and coming forward, plucked me by the sleeve.
She's better, she said, and at the sound of the words I put my
head on the table and wept like a child.
Our presence being made known to Mrs. McGillavorich, she came down
immediately, with a white face and tired, sleepless eyes.
She's having the first sleep in three days, she said, and the old
doctor thinks the worst is by. But ye'd best not disturb her. Let her
bide quiet now.
Dr. McMurtrie and I took turns by the bedside that day and night,
but she knew neither of us, lying, in her waking moments, with scarlet
cheeks and wide, delirious eyes, singing snatches of songs, weaving
meaningless words together, and crying over and over again, It's of no
useno useno use, in a kind of eldritch sing-song which wrung my
She's had some kind of a shock, Dr. McMurtrie said, one that
she'll be some time getting over, I fear.
As to the cause of the trouble the whole house was as mystified as
I know as little of the reason of her illness as you do
yourselves. Janet said, after she had narrated the doings at the inn.
On Tuesday, a little after noon, she came to me saying that she'd been
in such an excited state, she was off alone to collect herself by a
walk, and while she was out she passed a girl who was putting some
linen on the bleach-green; Nancy spoke to her concerning some lace with
which the garments were trimmed, and as they talked Rab Burns passed
them, with four or five of his cronies, and the girl broke into a
passion at sight of him, shaking her fist after him and calling him
foul names as he went down the lane.
At this, another girl, who was soon to be a mother, came weeping
from the house, and Nancy emptied her purse to them before they parted.
When she came in, Janet went on, her face was white and set, her
eyes seeing nothing, and when Rab Burns sent up his name to her that
night she said to the maid, 'Tell Mr. Burns that Miss Stair will not
see him!' and sat by the window, staring into the starlight, where I
found her at five the next morning with the fever upon her and her wits
I have had much sorrow in my time, but the agony of suspense and
suspicion with which the next few days were filled pales every grief of
my life that went before this time. Was it possible, I asked God, that
my wee bit, wonderful lassie, my Little Flower, had bloomed to be
trodden under foot by a plowman of Ayr?
McMurtrie drove me from the house at times for rest of mind as well
as exercise, and one night, at the week's end, having walked farther
than usual, I entered an ale-house in the Cowgate for something to
quench my thirst. There was a man standing by the window, and at sight
of him, for it was Robert Burns, and the time was not yet come for me
to say to him what might have to be said, I drew back, thinking myself
unseen, and closed the door. I had gone but a few steps in the darkness
when I felt a hand clapped on my shoulder, and turning, found Burns
himself beside me.
Come back, he cried, come back; I want a word with ye, Lord
Stair. You've come down, he cried, to take your daughter from the
company of those unfit for her to know. And you're right in it. But the
thought that ye showed toward me when you went out to avoid my company
is wrong; wrong, as I must face my Maker in the great last day! I've
had my way with women; but in this one case I've taken such care of her
as ye might hae done yourself!
She's found the truth of me, and our friendship is by with forever!
I know that well.
But tell her from me, will ye not, that such righting of a wrong as
can be done I am determined to do, and that the lassie she kens of is
to be my wife as soon as she chooses. Tell her, and here the tears
stood big in his eyes, that I am sorrier than I can ever say that her
mind has been assoiled by my wicked affairs and here he broke forth
into a sudden heatGod Almighty! he cried, if a woman like that had
loved me, Shakespeare would have had to look to his laurels. Aye! and
Fergusson, too. The Lord himself made me a poet, but she might have
made me a man!
 Lord Stair mentions here that he afterward had from this
girl (Mrs. Nellie Brown), the following description of the
first meeting with the sister, Jean Armour:
D'ye see Sam McClellan's spout over the gate there? Weel, it
just whaur Rab and Jean first foregathered. Her and me had
there for a gang o' water, an' I had fill't my cans first an'
come ower here juist whaur you an' me's stan'in. When Jean
fillin' her stoups, Rab Burns cam' up an' began some nonsense
ither wi' her, an' they talked an' leuch sae lang that it
made me mad; to think, tae, that she should ha'e a word to
wi' sic a lowse character as Rab Burns. When she at last cam'
ower, I gied her a guid hecklin. 'Trowth,' said I, 'Jean, ye
to think black-burnin' shame o' yersel. Before bein' seen
wi' Rab Burns, woman, I would far raither been seen
a sodger.' That was the beginnin' o' the unfortunate
The marriage between the two was acknowledged to the world in
CHAPTER XIX. THE QUARREL BETWEEN
DANVERS AND NANCY
We were back at Stair for nearly a fortnight, with Nancy quite
herself again, before she took me into her confidence regarding the
Burns experience. Leaning against the wall by the stair-foot with her
hands behind her, a way she'd had ever since she was a wee bit, the
talk began, with no leading up to it on either side.
Jock, she said, suddenly, and a quaint look came over her face,
I've never told you what made me ill at Mauchline.
I've been waiting, I answered.
It was a bad time for me, she continued.
I know that, Lady-bird, said I.
Part of me died, she said, and on this a thought flashed by me
which, I have often held, that in some way her language expressed more
than she knew.
I've been filled up with conceit of myself, she went on, and I
got punished for it.
There was never a woman living with less! I cried, so sodden in my
affection for her that I could not stand to hear her blamed, even by
Maybe I didn't show it, she said with a smile, but I've always
held, 'in to mysel',' that the gifted folk were God's aristocrats, and
the day I told Danvers Carmichael and you my esteem of lords and titles
and forbears I said just what I thought, though both of you laughed at
me, for I reasoned that any one whom the Almighty took such special
pains with must have the grand character as well. And so I made of all
the people who write and paint and sing a great assembly, like Arthur's
knights, who were over the earth righting wrongs and helping the weak.
Then came the Burns book; and there are no words to tell the glory of
it to me. All the great thoughts I had dreamed were written there, and
before the power of this man, who took the commonest things of life and
wrote them out in letters of gold, I felt as one might before the gods.
It was of Burns I thought in my waking hours, and 'twas of him I
dreamed by night; and I thanked God to be born in his country and his
time, so that I might see one, from the people, who had, in its highest
essence, the thing we call genius.
But always, always, she interrupted, smiling, with the conceit of
myself which I mentioned before. Because God had given me a little
gift, I believed that I was in some degree a chosen creature, a bit
like the Burns man himself.
The first time I talked with him at the inn I felt his power, his
charm; but there was something in his ways to which I had never been
accustomed in mena certain freedom, which I put by, however, as one
of the peculiarities of his gift.
Well, she said, coming over and burying her face in my breast, it
took me but two weeks to discover that the thing we call genius has no
more to do with a person's character than the chair he sits in; that a
man can write like a god and live like the beasts in the fields. Can
speak of Christian charity like the disciples of old, and hold the next
person who offends him up to the ridicule of the whole parish! That he
can write lines surpassingaye! she cried, surpassing
Polonius's advice to his son, and leave them uncopied on an ale-house
table to go off with the first loose woman who comes by, and be carried
home, too drunk to walk, the next morning, roaring out hymns about
And after I met the Armour girl, and found the harm that Burns had
brought to her, my idol fell from its clay feet, and I was alone in a
strange country, with my gods gone, and my beliefs in shreds around me.
But I have made my readjustments. I am humbled. I see how little
value verse-making holds to the real task of living, and I am a better
woman for what I have been through. I have learnedalmost losing my
mind over the lesson, she interjected, with her own bright smilethe
value of the solid virtues of life; and I've come to the conclusion
that it is harder to be a gentleman than a genius. God makes one, but a
man has the handling of the other upon himself. Danvers Carmichael,
she continued, looking up at me, is a gentleman. His word is his bond.
He considers others, respects woman and honors her; controls his
nature, and has a code of conduct which he would rather die than break.
Ah! she said, I have had a bitter time; but it's taught me to
appreciate that in the real things of lifethe things for which we are
here, love, home, and the rearing of childrengenius has about as much
part as the royal Bengal tiger. It's beautiful to look at, but
dangerous to trifle with, and,here she smiled at her own earnestness
for a second as she started up the stairsand here endeth the first
lesson, my Lord of Stair!
I was in no way sorry as to her conclusions about the value of
verse-making, for I had seen that her continual mental excitement was
sapping her vitality; and I closed my eyes to sleep that night with a
feeling of gratitude to my Heavenly Father that the Burns business was
by with forever.
* * * * *
Toward noon of the next day I discovered my mistake. Smoking by the
fire in the chimney corner of the hall, I heard a clattering of horses'
hoofs on the gravel outside, and from the window saw Danvers Carmichael
throw the reins to his groom, run up the steps of the main entrance,
and ask for Miss Stair in a voice strangely unlike his usual one. I
knew that Nancy was sitting with some lace-work in her own
writing-room, and hoped much from their meeting, and that her recent
experience, which made her set a new value on Danvers, would bring
about a more complete understanding between them.
Ah, Dandy! said Nancy, her voice having a ring of pleasure in it.
When did you return from Glasgow?
Late yesterday, he answered. I dined at the club in town and rode
home about ten. I'm thinking of leaving Arran for a time, he said,
Why didn't you stop? she asked, with some surprise.
I was in no mood for visiting last night.
You were ill, or worried? Nancy inquired anxiously.
Worried, ill, he answered. Ill, and ashamed, and miserable, in a
way, please God, most men may never know.
What is it, Dandy? and I saw that at his vehemence she put her
work on the table and moved toward him.
Oh! he cried out, it's you! It's you! In the month before I went
away I had to endure God only knows what bitterness because of you! And
on my return last night I hear at the club that ye've been off in
Ayrshire visiting Robert Burns! Did ye have a pleasant time? he asked,
glowering down at her from his great height, handsome and angrier than
I had ever seen him before.
The tone rather than the words struck fire immediately, and Nancy's
eyes took a peculiar significance, boding little good to the one with
whom she was having dealings.
Very pleasant, she answered, in a voice of ice, picking up her
work and reseating herself.
Before I went away, Danvers continued, there was little in the
way of humiliation which I had not endured at your hands! I've seen ye
play fast and loose with half the men in Edinbro'aye, in the whole of
Scotland, it seems to me! I have heard your name coupled more often
than I can tell with that of the greatest scoundrel in Scotland, and
have held silence concerning it; and when things came to that pass that
none could endure it and I struck him; how was the affair settled. By
your sending for him!for him! he fairly screamed, while I, your
betrothed husband almost, was left in ignorance that ye knew of the
matter at all.
And at the time of the meeting in the Holm, what does the damned
scoundrel do but come forth with his friends and apologize for his
conduct with seeming generosity, naming the whole business the result
of a crusty temper of his own, apologizing handsomely, and in a
devilish open way, ending by saying:
'One who is dear to me has shown me my faults, and I am doing her
bidding, as well as fulfilling my own sense of justice, in asking your
pardon!' And at the mention of you he took off his hat and spoke as one
who performs an obligation to another who has a right to demand it.
You can perhaps see the light in which I was placed! Even my own
friends went over to the duke's side, and I was forced to shake his
damned hand and join him at the Red Cock for breakfast or show a surly
front by my refusal. I was made a laughing stock for the whole party.
Put in the wrong in every way; and even Billy Deuceace, a man of
penetration, was so deceived by this, that afterward he bade me, with a
laugh, 'fight about women who were in love with me and not with other
During this rehearsal of his wrongs Nancy sat quietly embroidering,
not looking at the speaker nor seeming to note the voice at all.
I said nothing of the affair to you, he continued; I thought to
let the thing go by, and went off to Glasgow, hoping to forget it
before we met again. And what do I come back to? To learn that half the
town has it that you've visited an inn in another county and spent your
days, aye, and I suppose they say your nights, too, with Rab Burns,
whom decent folk will not let their daughters know. At tales like this
the affair takes on another complexion. I do not want a wife for
myself, nor a mother for my children, whose name has been bandied about
He was so beside himself with rage and jealousy and the further
present annoyance of Nancy's inattention, that he raised his voice at
the end to a tone of harshness, such as none had ever used to Nancy
Stair, and which she was the last woman to stand patient under. She did
the thing by instinct which would enrage him most, putting a thread to
her needle, squinting up one eye as she did so, in a composed and usual
manner, and letting a silence fall before she said, in a level and
Sit down, Dandy, and stop shouting. There's no use getting the
town-guard out because you chance not to want me any longer for a wife.
You don't have to have me, you know!
He seemed somewhat dashed by this, and there was a pause, during
which he took a paper from his pocket and cast it on the table before
No, he says, and that's very true; but for your own sake as the
Lord of Stair's daughter, I'd write no more verses like these. God! he
cried, to think of that white-faced American having a thing like that
What's the matter with the writing? she said, looking down at it
as though its literary merit were the thing he questioned. Mr.
Hastings, she explained, had an old song called the Trail of the
Gipsies, and he rather flouted me because I set such store by it, but
had it lined and sent me with some flowers. On the minute of their
coming, and with the thought of how little the Anglo-Saxon comprehends
any race save his own, I wrote these lines. I see no harm in them!
As Nancy read the poem over she looked up with the same curious
 A thousand thanks for the verses,
And the thoughts that they bring from you,
But it's only a gipsy-woman
Who can feel how the trail holds true.
You of the Pilgrim fathers,
With your face so proud and pale,
And the birth born pain of a fettered brain,
What can ye know of the trail?
By the lawless folk who bore me,
By their passion and pain, and loss,
By their swords which strove and their Lights o' Love,
I've a right to the gipsy cross.
* * * * *
Poems by Nancy Stair. Edinburgh Edition, 1796.
What's the matter with it? she asked again.
The matter with it? he repeated after her. It's a thing no lady
should ever have thought, and no woman should ever have written.
Ye think so? she said, and there was an amused tolerance in her
voice as of discussing a mature subject with a child, adding in a tone
as remote as if speaking of the Tenant Act, Your opinions are always
Interesting to you they may or may not be, but it's just come to
this: A young woman who continues the relations you do with the
greatest scoundrel on earth; who writes verses immoral in tone to one
man and visits another for weeks in an ale-housebut, and here he
broke off suddenly, you may know no better with your rearing.
Miss Erskine will perhaps have been telling you what it is
customary for young ladies to do, Nancy suggested, in a dangerous,
I do not need telling. It's a thing about which right-thinking
people will agree without words, he answered; and it was here that
Nancy spoke in her own voice, though heated by anger, and with the
words coming faster than ordinary.
And that's maybe true, she said; but there are other things to be
considered. It has always been in my mind that most marriages are very
badly made up, she said. That in this greatest of all affairs between
a man and a woman people lose their wits and trust to a blind kind of
attraction for each other. I have thought to use my head a bit more in
the matter. The very fact that you are misunderstanding me now as you
do goes far to prove how foolish a marriage between us would have
Heavens! he cried, you talk of marriage as though it were a
contract between two shop-keepers to be argle-bargled over. It's an
affair of the heart, not of the head. Ye've never loved me, he said
bitterly, or ye'd know that.
That may be true, Nancy answered, mutinously. I have tried to be
fair to you, however, and not to let you have a wife who didn't know
her own mind. I am, as you reminded me, different from other women in
many ways. I like many
I've noted that, he interrupted with scant courtesy.
And I'm afraid I shall continue to like them for one thing or
another till the end; and you're of a jealous turn, Danvers, she said,
I have been, he said. Where you were concerned I haven't a
generous thought. I take shares in my wife with no man. I have been
jealous of the sound of your voice, the glance of your eye. What I have
had to endure because of this ye must surely have seen! When a woman
loves a man she has no thought for another
It's may be so, Nancy broke in, but it's as entirely beyond me as
flying. If I loved you with all there is of me, and another came by
with a bit of a rhyme, or a new tale, or a plan quite of his own
thinking, the chances are many that you'd be clear out of my mind while
'Tis fortunate, as you say, he interrupted, that we discover this
before 'tis too late. I think it's a peculiarity that will go far to
making the husband you take for yourself a very unhappy man.
He will perhaps understand me better than you do, Nancy answered
Oh, he cried at this, can't you see that a woman surrenders
herself when she loves? She gives as gladly as a man takes, and is
happy to have him for her lord and master. Not that he wishes to rule
her, for 'twould be the thought of his life that her every desire
should be filled, but she must be willing to yield.
Ye'd have made a grand Turk, Nancy broke in, and there was a glint
of humor in her tone as she spoke the words.
I think, Danvers answered, you'll find me asking only what most
men expect to get.
If that be true, the chances are heavy that I shall live and die
unwed, she said with a laugh.
Oh, no! he cried, in a cutting voice. I dare say your mind's made
up as to what you intend to do! Perhaps when you're the Duchess of
Borthwicke his grace will enjoy your visiting other men and writing
lines like these, and he dashed his fist on the paper again.
Nancy had by this time come to the far end of her patience, and she
was on her feet in a minute.
Listen to me, she said. I went to Ayrshire at the written asking
of Janet McGillavorich to come to her own home. The morning I started
for Mauchline the rear of her house fell into the cellar, making it
extremely dangerous to remain in any part of the dwelling. I went to
the inn only because she was there, and she stayed with me until my
father came and took me away. I saw Robert Burns alone but once,
entirely by accident, in the broad light of day.
As for the rhyme, and she looked down at the paper for a moment,
regarding it as a thing of no importance whatever, it was not I who
spoke in the lines, but a gipsy girl of my imaginings. Ye've had little
personal experience with the thing called gift
He must have thought there was some flouting of him in this, for he
broke in heatedly:
And I thank God for it, he cried, for it seems to be a thing
which makes people betray trusts, lose all thought for others, raise
hopes which they never intend to fulfil, unbridle their passions,
forget their sex, and ride away to the deil at their own gate.
None could have foreseen the effect this speech had upon Nancy; the
thought it contained falling so parallel to her own talk of the night
before; but it's one matter to say a thing of one's self and an
entirely different affair to have it said concerning one, and in a
minute her anger fairly matched his own.
Ye've insulted me, Danvers, she said, many times in this talk,
both in word and look; insulted me in my father's house, where you've
been welcome, boy and man, ever since ye were born; insulted me, too,
in a way I'm not like to forget.
She stood very tall and straight, her cheeks aflame, the lace on her
bosom trembling with the quickness of her breathing, and her work
dropped on the table before her as she slipped from her finger the ruby
ring and pushed it toward him.
Go away or stay at Arran, as you please! Ride or tie as best suits
your mind, for in the way of love everything is gone between us for all
time. And where ye go, she went on, ye who pride yereself so on your
birth and breeding, just recall the fact that of all the men of gift
whom I have known, and they have been many, not one has ever forgotten
himself before me as you have done to-day, nor insulted the daughter of
a friend in her own house!
He made no move to take the ring, and it lay twinkling on the table
between them as Nancy turned to leave the room.
Good-by, he said, turning white, and then (and I thought a heart
of stone might be touched by the compliment under such circumstances)
Oh, he cried, as though the words were forced from him, you are so
The country's full of pretty women, any one of whom will be likely
to marry you, when you order her to! Nancy returned with an
I'll try it and see. I think I will not go away from Arran. I may
do something that will surprise you, he added.
There's nothing ye could do that would surprise me, unless it were
something sensible, and ye're not like to do that, she retorted, and
without another word she left him standing alone, and he flung himself
out of the house, disappearing across the lawn, in the direction of
Arran, with a white face and a brooding devil in his eyes that showed
his mind obstinate and unrelenting, and in a mood to do any foolish
thing that came by.
CHAPTER XX. DANVERS GIVES US A GREAT
A fortnight passed with no news of the Arran folks whatever, when
one morning Sandy appeared at the door of the small dining-room where
we were breakfasting, his sudden appearance recalling that memorable
day when he asked me on the cruise which brought my girl to me. In the
first glance I had of him I saw trouble; twice before he had worn such
a look, once at his mother's death, and again when his wife had left
him, taking the boy to London, and he knew the separation to be final.
His face was very pale, the pallor showing strangely through his tanned
skin, and his mouth was set, and twitching at the corners as beyond his
Are ye ill, Sandy? I cried, going toward him hurriedly.
No, he answered, sitting down at the table and hiding his face in
his hands; but I've had a blow! I've had a blow! he repeated. It's
Danvers, he went on, when he could speak. He went off to Lanure
yesterday and married Isabel Erskine!
Married Isabel Erskine! I cried, like a parrot.
Married Isabel Erskine! repeated Nancy, who stood staring at him
as if she doubted his saneness.
Married Isa I was beginning again, in a highly intelligent
manner, when Huey MacGrath suddenly dropped the tray of dishes he was
bringing in and carried his hands to his face, beginning to moan and
cry like a woman, for it had been the wish of his heart to have these
two children, who in some way he believed to be his own, married to
The disturbance was a good thing for all, for it broke the unnatural
tension between us, and after MacColl had assisted Huey into the
pantry, where I could see him standing, listening at the doorway, Sandy
It was all that talking, grape-eyed woman! It was for that she
fetched her daughter to Arran. It's been going on right under my eye,
and I too blind and taken up with my own affairs to see it The poor
laddie, he cried. The poor fool laddie!
Understanding that a discussion of the marriage in her presence was
an impossibility, Nancy left us, with a white face, on some pretense of
business at the Burnside, and Sandy and I talked it out between us.
Midnight found us going back and forth over the matter and arriving at
the same point, that the chances of happiness for a man wedded to one
woman and in love with another are just nothing at all. I could feel
that there was one question in Sandy's mind which he could scarce bring
himself to ask, and I took the suggestion of it upon myself.
It will bring many changes to us, I said, and to none more than
Do you think she cares for him? Sandy asked, putting his thought
To be frank with ye, Sandy, said I, it's a matter I've been far
from deciding. I believe that the visit to Mauchline changed her more
than any other event in her life. Before it she'd idealized gift and
the possession of it. When she came back she was changed in a way.
'It's a great thing to be a gentleman; I think it's more in the end
than being a genius, Jock,' she said, and by this, as well as other
speeches of hers, I am convinced that her mind had turned toward
Danvers, and if he had come to her with any kindness at all, things
would have been settled between them; but he burst in storming, poor
fellow, like a crazy loon, and a fine quarrel they had of it, with this
marriage as a resulting.
There's one small good comes out of it all, which is that the
paste-covered woman gets out of Arran to-day, Sandy ended. It's a
thing she had not counted upon, but Danvers wrote that they were off to
the Continent, and it's not respectable for her to stay alone with me,
and she packs for Carlisle to-morrow.
Of the next five months there is little to tell which bears directly
upon my tale, except to make some mention of the intellectual reform
of the Duke of Borthwicke, a name he put himself upon his altered
conduct. News we had of him in plenty, and if rumor could be relied
upon, he was a changed man. The first note of his new behavior was
struck by his relieving the poor tenant-bodies on his Killanarchie
estates from their rentals for three years because of the losses from a
cattle blight. And before the sound of this had died away another bit
was added to the tune of his reformation by his coming out strong
against the crown for the repeal of the tax on Scotch whisky. And the
full song of his praises began to be sung in public when he, being one
of the Scotch Sixteen in the English House of Peers, declared for the
inadequacy of representation which Scotland had in the House of
Commons, and moved for an election of fifty-four, after the English
 Scotland had but 16 Peers and 48 Representatives in
Parliament at this time.
His letters to Nancy and myself at this time were of a piece with
him, for he spoke with quaint sarcasm of that which he termed his
change of heart, and of the curious pleasure he obtained from marking
his life out along another line. He wrote with detail as well of a new
Paisley industry which he had started on one of his estates, asking
Nancy's advice concerning a teacher for the lace-work, it being his
purpose to have the young women round Borthwicke Castle turned toward
making a livelihood after this manner. During all of this time his
letters came frequently, and Nancy read them with much pleasure and
many comments, but her private feelings toward the writer of them she
confided to none.
There was a talk which set Nancy's state of mind with some
clearness, however, which fell between us directly after the offer of
marriage made to her by McMurtrie of Ainswere.
Dearest, she said, I am beginning to see with my mind that every
woman flies in the face of the Almighty not to take into her life's
reckoning the instinct of her sex for love and motherhood. It seems to
me that a great love must be the best thing of all; but I'm just here,
I don't dare to marry because I'm afraid of myself; and I don't dare to
stay unmarried for fear of that great and unrelenting thing called
Nancy, said I, with an earnestness that came straight from the
heart, if ye feel like that, your hour has not yet struck. For when
the great love comes, it's not a question of what you want, but what ye
can't help; and I wouldn't think anything more about it, for ye'll know
when it comes, my dear, I cried; ye'll know when it comes!
There was an odd scrap of business, trifling in itself, and yet
leading to great trouble, which fell about this time, and I set it down
as of interest to those who note the way fate uses all as instruments.
Nancy, Sandy, and I had planned a jaunt to Ireland. There had been
no intention whatever of taking Huey with us, for he was the last
person on earth to take upon a pleasure outing, as he regarded all
strangers as rogues and villains, and the Irish people as heathen
papists, worshiping idols in the few moments unoccupied in breaking
each other's heads with shillalahs. He had for me and mine a devotion
at once touching and uncomfortable; but as he grew older he interfered
in all manner of matters beyond his province, offered advices absurd
and impertinent, and never once in the whole sixty years of our
acquaintance can I recall his agreeing entirely with a statement made
by any body except Nancy. If he couldn't contradict one flatly, and the
uncongenial part of acquiescence was forced upon him by his love of
truth, he held a grudging silence or affected an absent mind, or no
interest in the matter whatever.
As the years went by and his health became feebler he followed me
about until he was like to drive me to Bedlam, and I used to discharge
him from my service about once a fortnight. I had never realized how
highly absurd our relations were until Nancy drew them to my attention.
Ye can't go to Alton on Thursday, Jock, she said.
Why? I inquired.
'Tis your day for discharging Huey, she answered with a laugh,
making up a funny face at me.
I would not set any one to thinking that I had a lack of affection
for my old serving-man, for I had seen his old age provided against in
a manner to prove my care; but I knew that he loved me in spite of my
conduct rather than because of it, and with no hope whatever of my
The plans for our Irish trip were being discussed one day when Nancy
found him weeping bitterly over the silver he was counting, when he
told her that his grief came from fear lest we should get murdered or
kidnapped in that strange country without him to look after us, and
that the whole matter was taking the very life out of him.
The little one's heart was so touched by his sorrow and his age that
she came back to Sandy and me with tears in her eyes, saying that if
Huey couldn't go she would stay at home herself.
As he was too old and broken to travel with safety to himself, and
as Nancy remained fixed as death, the Irish trip was not taken; by
which, but for the whim of this old serving-man, we might have been
from Scotland and avoided the bitter trouble which began at the
Allisons' rout given in honor of the home-coming of Danvers and his
CHAPTER XXI. THE ALLISONS' BALL AND
THAT WHICH FOLLOWED IT
As I have written, save for Huey MacGrath, we should have been away
from Scotland at the time of the Allisons' ball, and by this absence
should have missed the visit of the Duke of Borthwicke concerning the
Light-House Commission, which fell at the same time.
His grace's letter to Nancy just previous to this return was filled
with a droll cataloguing of all the good deeds which he was doing, in
the manner of an exact invoice.
I hope you will not be forgetting any of these, not even the
smallest, he concluded this epistle, for it is because of these I am
going to ask you a favor, a great favorthe greatest favor on earth.
For the two or three days before this merrymaking Nancy was in a
strange mood, of which I could make nothing, her gaiety being more
pronouncedly gay, and her silences continuing longer than I had ever
noted them. She spent much of her time in her own room, trying on and
having refitted a wonderful gown which Lunardi had sent up from London
by special carrier the week before. I knew women well enough to
understand that she wished to outshine even herself in this first
meeting with Danvers since his marriage, perhaps to show him that she
wore no willows on his account, or perchance to make him a bit
regretful of what he had missed.
On the evening of the rout the duke dined at Stair, purposing to go
with us to the ball and to be set down at his tavern on our way home.
Nancy, in a short-waisted black frock, sat with us at the meal, merry
as a child, chattering of the coming party and her braw new claes, as
she called them, as if there were no trouble in the world, or as if she
were exempted from it, if it existed. She spent an hour or more upon
her dressing, returning to us a lovelier, fairer, more radiant Nancy
than she had ever seemed before, even to my infatuated fatherly eyes.
Nor was this thought mine alone, for I saw the start of surprise which
Montrose gave at sight of her, and heard the sudden breath he drew as
she came toward us from the hall.
Her skin, always noticeably white and transparent, seemed this night
to have a certain luminous quality. Her cheeks were flushed, her gray
eyes shone mistily under the black lashes and blacker brows, and the
scarlet outline of her lips was marked as in a drawing. She wore a gown
of palest rose, covered with yellow cob-webby lace, which was her
grandmother's, the satin of the gown showing through the film which
covered it like morning light through mist, as I told her, to be
poetical. The frock was low and sleeveless, the bodice of it ablaze
with gems, and there was another thing I noticed with surprise and
admiration. She wore her hair high, though loose and soft about the
brows, and in the coil of it a large comb set with many precious
stones. This jewel, originally designed to wear at the back of the
head, she had turned forward, making a coronet over her brows,
beautiful in itself, becoming in the extreme, and I noted that his
Grace of Borthwicke let his eyes rest upon it with a peculiar pleasure.
He rose at her entrance and bowed very low, with pretended
servility, resuming his usual manner before he said, with significance:
The coronet becomes you, Nancy Stair.
And she looked back at him, with a low laugh, with no
self-consciousness in it, however, as she answered:
There is none more competent to judge of that than yourself, your
We arrived late at the ball, to find the rooms already crowded, and
the Arran party, with Sir Patrick Sullivan, gathered in a group by the
large window of the music-room.
Jane Gordon held me in talk a minute as I passed her, and for this
reason his grace offered his arm to Nancy, and as the two of them
passed together a hush fell on the people at the sight of them, and I
could see by significant glances and the jogging of elbows that
Edinburgh folks would take the news of a betrothal between them with
small surprise. Gordon told me later that some one suggested this in a
veiled fashion to his Grace of Borthwicke, who might easily have turned
the matter aside or noted it not at all, but that he laughed openly,
If it had lain with me, my engagement to Mistress Stair would have
been announced the evening I saw her first. 'Tis the lady herself who
refuses me, an attitude which, from one of his rank, was surely
gentlemanly in the extreme.
As soon as I was disengaged from the Gordons I made my way toward
the Carmichael family with joy in my heart to see my lad once more. He
greeted me with affection, folding my hand in his as a loving son might
do, rallying me on my good looks, patting me on the shoulder, and
showing by every sign an honest fondness for me which touched me
deeply. I could have wished that he looked better himself. He had lost
no flesh; he carried himself with a jauntiness and elasticity which
comes from strength, but the expression of his mouth was changed and
his eyes had a restless, uninterested expression which showed him
unsettled and unhappy.
Isabel looked ill at ease. She had lost her color, had taken on much
flesh, and it seemed, as I observed her more, that it was from the
father rather than the son that she obtained what comfort she had, for
it was to Sandy she turned in all of the talk, and it was his arm upon
which she leaned. Her manner to me was constrained, but not lacking in
cordiality, and when I proposed that they should join our party she
assented willingly enough. Because of this suggestion it fell that we
met Nancy walking toward us on the duke's arm, and at the sudden sight
of her Danvers Carmichael turned white and set his jaw as one who
endures a physical hurt in silence.
And the rest of the evening was of a piece with life, wherein none
can tell what latent qualities of our neighbor may be brought suddenly
to the fore, upsetting every plan which we have made for years.
Whether Danvers lost every thought of behavior through his present
unhappiness, or for the first time recognized what he had missed;
whether the presence of his Grace of Borthwicke in such devoted
attendance upon Nancy roused his jealousy, none could know, but he
seemed to throw obligations to the wind, and bore himself as one who
has a mind to drink his fill of present pleasure, no matter how
extortionate the reckoning may be.
So it fell that from the first word spoken between Nancy and Danvers
it was he who, by sheer recklessness, took the upper hand with her, the
duke being pushed back, as it were, upon Sir Patrick or myself for
I did not think to forget any of your loveliness, Miss Stair,
Danvers said as Nancy's hand met his, but I find I had; or mayhap
you've added to it during my absence. A thing which I had held to be
'Tis in France we learn such speeches, Nancy answered, lifting her
Wherever you are such speeches would be the natural talk, Danvers
replied, and though he used a jesting tone in the words, his passion
for her was so inflamed that the impression of the words was of great
earnestness, and weat least I speak for myselfwere given a feeling
of looking at love-making not intended for our eyes.
The entire evening was a most uncomfortable time, filled for me with
fear of coming trouble as I noted Sandy's knit brows and his efforts to
keep Isabel from the dancing-room where Nancy and Danvers were walking
together through one quadrille after another, until the gossip of the
town was like to take hold of the matter. It was a curious thing that
in my anxiety I should turn for help against Danvers to the duke
Your grace, I said, trying to keep the tone a merry one, you are
neglecting the lady you escorted here to-night, are you not? and he
laughed in a dry way before he answered:
In faith I think that it is the lady who is neglecting me. I'll
stop it, he added. There was no perhaps or if possible in his
It would be best, I think, for all concerned, I answered at a
sight of Isabel's pale face and Sandy's anxious eyes.
Upon the instant Montrose started toward the place where Nancy
stood, a little apart from a group of gay people, so that her talk with
Danvers could be in the nature of a private one, if desired. As the
duke made his way toward her I followed a little in the rear. He was,
as always, smiling, calm, master of himself and of others, and as he
came toward her he asked, in a low tone of penetrating quality, which
by intention conveyed both affection and the rights of ownership:
You are not tiring yourself? and turning to Danvers, he added,
You must help Lord Stair and myself to take care of her, Mr.
Carmichael. She has not been well of late.
I can set the words out, but the solicitation, such as a lover, nay,
a husband might have shown, are impossible to convey with any nicety;
and at his coming, Nancy, who had had one experience of the clash of
tempers between these two men, temporized the affair by saying:
My father and his grace are surely right. I have not been well of
late, and find it indeed time for me to say 'Good night.'
* * * * *
Toward morning I was awakened by the noise of a loosened blind, and
slipping into a dressing-gown went through the passage to fasten the
latch. Passing Nancy's room I heard a moan, and, startled out of
myself, listened to hear another, and still another, as though a heart
were breaking. There was a light in the room, and through a small
window in the door, the curtain of which was drawn a bit aside, I saw
the little one whom I would gladly die to save from any pain, lying
face down upon the floor, her arms stretched out, the hands clutched
tightly together, and her whole body shaking as in mortal illness.
Nancy, Nancy, let me in! Open the door to me, I cried.
She started to a sitting position, tried to arrange her disordered
hair and gown, and I saw her cast a look in the mirror as she came
toward the door, to see how far she could make me believe that nothing
unusual was the matter with her.
What is it? I asked, my heart bursting with love and sympathy as I
drew her to my breast.
She turned her eyes toward me, eyes which held the despair in them
which only women know.
Oh, she cried, clutching me to keep from falling, didn't you
I saw nothing, I answered.
I can't speak it, she says; but another of life's lessons has
come to me to-night. Do you remember the time I told you that I had
learned something with my head? I learned it with my heart to-night,
and it's like to kill me. Oh, what have I done? she cried, what have
I ever done to deserve such punishment as this?
Tell me, Nancy, I said. There is nothing in God's world that
can't be helped by sympathy.
I can't tell you. I can't put words to it. See! she said, standing
a bit apart from me. Look at me! Do you know a girl more to be envied?
Handsomer? Richer? More gifted? Think, too, of the advantages that I've
had with Father Michel and Hugh Pitcairn to teach me! Think of the stir
my songs have made! And at the end what am I?
Ah! she went on, take any woman, any woman, educate her in
the highest knowledges known, keep her with men, and far from her own
sex, and at the end of it, what is she? A creature who wants the man
she loves and babies of her own, and at these last words she broke
into another storm of weeping which drove me wild with dread.
Nancy, I cried, think of your recent illness. For my sake try to
control yourself more. There is the poor head to be thought of always.
It's been this head of mine that's been my undoing, Jock, she
answered, between her sobs. All the trouble has come from that.
MacColl was off for Dr. McMurtrie before daybreak, and I sat holding
Nancy's hand waiting for his coming, with Pitcairn's ancient statement
going round and round clatter-mill in my brain:
Ye can't educate a woman as ye can a man. With six thousand years
of heredity, the physiology of the female sex, and the Lord himself
against you, I'm thinking it wise for you to have your daughter reared
like other women, to fulfil woman's great end, and pondering over the
fact that the great lawyer and Nancy herself seemed to have come to
exactly the same conclusion.
I was alarmed by her pallor and exhaustion, but McMurtrie assured me
that a sleeping potion would set her far along the road to recovery;
and at breakfast, after Nancy had fallen into an induced sleep, unknown
to himself he gave me what I felt to be the key to the whole bitter
suffering she was enduring, suffering, I feared, which came from a love
learned too late.
Your friend Sandy will be a grandfather soon, I see, said the old
doctor, beaming at me over his glasses as he drank his tea.
This was the beginning of a troubled time for all of us, and one
which a partial biographer of Danvers Carmichael would like to slur
over or leave untold entirely, for it seemed that neither reason nor
self-respect could do anything with him in his thirst for Nancy's
society. As soon as she was about again he was over at Stair, the
excuse being some presents which he had brought us from the strange
lands he had been visiting; his constant thought of her, even upon his
bridal tour, being plainly shown by these: a ring from Venice, of
wrought gold with aquamarines, some Spanish embroideries, quaint
carvings; and finally he put the cap upon his extravagance by producing
from an inner pocket a girdle of Egyptian workmanship, too valuable by
far for her to accept from him.
Surely, Dandy, I broke in at this, ye must see that Nancy, no
matter what the old-time affection between us may be, can not take such
gifts from you?
Why not? he answered, looking straight at me.
It might be misinterpreted, I began, lamely.
By whom? he inquired.
Not by us, I replied, but by others.
And what others are to know? he demanded. I am not going to make
the matter of a gift public business.
There was something in me which made it impossible to mention his
wife to him, but Nancy said, with gentleness and great wisdom, as it
seemed to me:
They are beautiful, and I would love to have them from you,
Danvers; and some time, when Isabel and I become great friends, I'll
ask them of you, maybe; but I can not take them now.
The next morning brought him back, with some strange translations
and stranger foreign prints, where he knew my weakness; and I sat with
the two of them, laughing and criticising the pictures or the writings
until the luncheon time came, when it was impossible to turn a friend
out of one's house, and I urged him myself to stay with us, by which it
was near three when he set back to Arran Towers.
On the following morning he came again, with a flimsy excuse
concerning a mare he was thinking of purchasing; and so, by this and by
that, he managed to spend most of his time at Stair, and in Nancy's
society, seemingly unconscious of a wife he left at Arran for Sandy to
I grew so anxious that I lost sleep, my appetite went from me; I
would waken in the morning with a load on my breast as of guilt, and
the thought before me of having a situation to handle which by a
mistake of mine might be turned to a tragedy.
Walking from the burn with Father Michel one day we saw Danvers
Carmichael striding through the Holm gate toward Stair House, and the
glance that passed between us told me without words that the holy
father's thought was mine, which was that two people near Edinbro' Town
were playing very close to the fire.
I've had some thought to speak to him of his conduct, Father
Michel said, but it would have more effect coming from you, my lord.
As I entered the house, with a purpose half formed, I found Danvers
in the hall talking to Dickenson, by whom Nancy had sent word that one
of her headaches was upon her, and that she was, by reason of it,
unable to see any one.
The concern in Danvers's manner, the unconscious exhibition of
tenderness in his voice, stiffened my half-formed resolution, and I did
just what the impulse bade me.
Step into the library here, Danvers, said I. I want a word with
He gave me a questioning look, following me with no words and stood
waiting for me to speak after I had cautiously closed the door.
It's just come to this, Dandie, I said, you must stop coming to
this house as ye do! Until ye had a wife there was never one who
entered the door more welcome, but as long as I have Nancy Stair to
think about, ye'll just have to end these visits entirely. With the
matter of an old love between you, an affair known to the whole town as
well, your conduct is fair impossible, and, what is more,
And here again a difficult thing in him to handle appeared; never in
his life had he known fear and a lie was a stranger to his lips, for
his birth, gear, and rearing had given him a secured position in which
he did as he chose, with excuses to none, and a be-damned-to-you
attitude to all who found fault with him, and it was with the candor
and shamelessness resulting from these that my dealings lay.
Misunderstoodhow? he repeated after me like an echo.
Well, said I, the gossips will be having it that ye're in love
with my daughter still.
Lord Stair, says he, whether the gossips speak it or not is of
little moment to me, but it's the truth before God! There was never
another woman in the world like her, and from the moment I set eyes
upon her I've loved her and wanted her for my wife. I love her more now
since I have known what I missed; what I missed! he repeated, his face
working in a kind of agony and his eyes swimming with tears. Oh, he
continued, what a wreck I have made of my life!
There's no need, by the same token, I cried, to make a wreck of
another's as well. Ye've a wife at home, a wife who loves you and whom
you swore to love and honor. I have my daughter's reputation to think
of, and the end of the whole matter is you'll just have to make your
visits less frequent.
He had never come to me for sympathy before when he had not found
it, and the sorrow in his face melted me more than was wise.
Say once a fortnight, or such like, I said weakly. Considering
the relations between your father and me, visits so spaced might pass
unnoticed. But I tell you honestly, Danvers Carmichael, when a man
loves a woman whom he can't have, there is nothing for it but a good
run and a far one. You'd better stay away altogether, laddie. It's the
He left me with no further word, and I hoped that he had come to my
way of thinking, when Satan himself took a hand in the affairs between
Nancy and himself.
CHAPTER XXII. A STRANGE MEETING
Upon the day following that on which I denied Danvers the house, a
letter came to us from a hamlet on the west coast, near Allan-lough,
saying that Janet McGillavorich was sick unto death and desired that
Nancy should come to her immediately.
It was a tedious journey, and while I sorrowed for the cause of it,
I was glad to have her away from Stair for a while, and hastened her
departure with Dickenson on the afternoon coach of the same day upon
which the letter arrived. Even with this speed it was far into the
second day before she came to the house in which Janet was lying; a
house which seemed to have straggled back from the sea and stood
lonesomely by itself in a small fenced garden having a gate-and-chain
opening to the graveled path. It was a double-storied dwelling of pink
brick, with small-paned windows and ivy creeping over it everywhere,
even upon the wooden cap of the doorway, which hung over the two broad
stone steps of the entrance.
There was no time to knock before the door was opened to Nancy by
the old woman who had been for many years Janet's maid, companion, and
housekeeper, whose eyes were red with weeping and whose whole bearing
denoted the greatest anxiety.
She's took worse, she said. It's thought she will not last the
Will she know me? Nancy asked.
Oh, aye! She's her wits about her still. She knew Mr. Danvers, the
old wife replied.
Mr. Danvers, Nancy repeated after her. Is Mr. Danvers here? And
at the words Danvers himself came forward to greet her.
Are you cold? he inquired, in the whispering tone used when
sickness is near. This has been a dreadful trip for you to take. You
must have some hot tea at once. And, as the old woman bustled away to
Were you sent for, Danvers? asked Nancy.
He nodded acquiescence, answering:
The two of us are named in the will, the tears coming to his eyes
as he spoke of Janet's kindness.
Tea had scarce been brewed when the old doctor came from above to
say that Mrs. McGillavorich had heard of Nancy's arrival and wanted to
see her immediately, adding, with some philosophy:
It excites her so not to get her own way, that it couldn't excite
her more to have it; so just go up, my dear, go right up!
In this way, at the time of their lives when each was least prepared
for trial and bitterly unhappy, it fell that Danvers and Nancy were
thrown together in an intimacy impossible under other circumstances;
relieving each other in the watching, sitting together by the bedside
through the long hours of the night, or walking back and forth in each
other's company to the little village on needful errands for the small
household. In the tiny dining-room Nancy served at one side of the
table while Danvers carved at the other, the suggestiveness of such an
arrangement sending disordered longings to the hearts of both.
One dreadful night when Janet, who was barely conscious, clung to
Nancy's hand, although the girl's head ached miserably and she had had
no sleep for forty-eight hours, she showed by a sign to Danvers her
intention to remain by the bedside in the great arm-chair. Her
weariness and suffering made his heart yearn over her, and he leaned
forward from the place he sat to put his hand upon her aching brow. His
soothing touch, or perhaps a cause more subtle still, comforted her,
and she fell asleep, to find the gray light of morn and Danvers,
motionless beside her, having sat all those weary hours with his arm in
a position which it must have tortured him to maintain. On the instant
of her awakening she said, in a whisper:
Your poor arm, Danvers! Your poor arm!
And the strain of his mind showed in the answer:
I would lose an arm altogether for what I have had to-night.
At the end of the fifth day Janet was so far recovered that she was
able to sit up for a while against the pillows, and from this on her
convalescence was a rapid one, although the tenth day had gone by when
she told Danvers, with her customary frankness, to be off about his
business. The evening before his departure, Nancy and he sat in Janet's
room, fearful of being alone together for even a minute, and past
eleven they parted for the night, in the old lady's presence, speaking
their farewells in gay voices, with many assurances of meeting again in
Edinburgh at some near time.
I went to my room, Jock, Nancy said, when she told me this tale,
locked and bolted the door, and built a great fire in the chimney, for
I was shivering from head to foot. And I thought of you! Only of you!
Your love for me! The touch of your kind hands! Your dear gray
head!and before every other thing in life was the thought to do
nothing to shame you, nor to cause a pain to that true heart of yours.
And then I got down on my knees at the bedside like a little child and
prayed to God.
'O God,' I cried, 'take this pain from my heart, for I can no
longer endure it. It's killing me. It's killing me, here, all alone!
away from Jock Stair! And if You will do this thing I will never ask
another of You in all my days!' Trying to make a compact with my
Maker, she finished, like a foolish child
She heard the clock strike four, and knowing the hour near when he
must leave, crept to the window to see if enough light had come for her
to have a sight of him as he went down the path. While she stood
peering out into the darkness, she heard a rap at the bedroom door.
Who is it? she cried.
It's IDanvers Carmichael! came a voice, low but very distinct;
at sound of which she unbarred the door and slipped into the hallway.
He had made himself ready for his departure; his great coat, with
the cape drawn up, already on, his cap upon his head, and a lighted
lantern beside him, casting an eerie gleam along the black passage. He
was white to the lips, his eyes sunken and reckless, and at sight of
him Nancy cried in alarm:
What is it, Danvers? What is it?
Oh, my girl! said he. It's just this! I can't go away and leave
you here! I can never go and leave you any more! The thought of it
chokes me! I love you, love you, love you! he went on, with all there
is of me. Last year I offered you love and honor. This year it's love
and dishonor, maybe, but love still, love that is greater than shame or
death. Will ye come away with me? There are other lands than ours and
other laws. Bigbie's lugger is lying at the foot of the hill with sail
up for Glasgow, and from there the world lies open for us.
Oh, best beloved, he went on, think of it! Does it mean anything
to you?to be alone together, forever more? Do you know what it is to
waken with outstretched arms, longing for another, to
I have suffered, Danvers, Nancy interrupted him. I made mistakes,
bitter mistakes, my head being so engaged with other matters that I
lost the chart of woman's nature. And when I saw she paused at
this, for it was something she could not bring herself to speak out;
but words were unneeded between them, for his eyes sought hers
hungrily, and they stood at gaze with each other for a space before
And to think it's not youto think it's not you! he repeated,
with a moan like an animal in pain. God! he went on in his raving, I
can not and will not stand it longer! Why is a love like this given to
a man? Do we choose? Have I had any choice in the matter? Whoever it
was who designed the peculiar hell of my own nature can take the
consequences of it. Speak to me, Nancy! he cried; speak to me! Do not
stand there looking at me like a statue! For God's sake, speakfor it
seems as though I should kill you and myself, and so make an end.
His grief had so worked upon him by this time that Nancy was beside
herself with fear for him, although she spoke quietly and in as natural
a voice as she could summon.
I'll go with you, Dandie, she said; I'll go with you. Wait for
me, reentering her room; just wait for me!
It took her but a moment to get some stout walking-boots, a dark
skirt, and the scarlet Connemara cloak which she had worn on many of
their walks together, and pulling the hood of it over her head, she
stepped softly back into the hallway.
I am ready, she said, slipping her hand into his; I am ready. Let
There was no further word spoken between them. In silence they
walked, hand in hand, along the frozen passage and down the twisting
stairs, closing the house door noiselessly behind them. Outside it was
very dark, save in the far east, where there was a rim of white showing
in the sky like a line on a slate. The cold was biting, and a wind
which had not reached the ground blew through the tree-tops with a
rushing sound and sent a scurry of leaves before them on their path.
Danvers had prepared himself by a lantern, and there seemed something
significant of the business in hand in his determination to leave it
behind; it was in the blackness of midnight, with a silent country
stretching away from them in every direction and the stillness of the
dead, that the two walked the narrow path and turned into the lane
which led by a cut over the rise toward the Dumfries road. At the
coming out of the close-way a chill wind struck them, and Nancy, taken
suddenly from the warmth of bed, drew back and shivered, at which
Danvers put his arm around her, throwing part of his cape over her.
Still in silence, they walked until they came to the brow of the hill,
at which place the path divides, one part of it winding across the
bridge to the stage road, and the other dropping down by a clump of
sailors' homes, west, to the sea. Enough light had come by this time to
see the boats lying at anchor in the cove and to distinguish Bigbie's
lugger from the rest, as she bobbed up and down, her sails spread and
ready to be off. At the sight of this boat Danvers turned suddenly, as
if recalled to his senses, and faced Nancy, as they stood at the
parting of the ways.
God forgive me! he cried. Oh, God forgive me, but I can't do it!
I can't take ye. Not though you begged me on your knees; not though I
knew you'd die without me. Oh, can you ever forgive the words I've said
to you this morning? Will ye think rather that I'd choose to see ye
dead than gone with me in the way I've asked? That I'd rather die
myself than take ye; and that I love you, love you enough to give you
up! And it's I, he went on in a bitter self-scorn, who have prated of
honor, and the conduct of gentlemen, who have made a beast of myself
before the best woman who ever lived! Who through selfishness have
tried to make her life a blacker ruin than I've made my own! Can you
forget it, Nancy? Can you ever forgive me for it?
Dandie, she said softly, ye needn't worry about that. I knew you
wouldn't take me! I knew 'twas just that you were carried beyond
yourself by your sorrows that made you talk as you did at the bedroom
door. Look! she said, opening the throat of the Connemara cloak and
showing him the neck of her thin white dressing blouse, one doesn't
start to the Americas in clothes like that. I knew what you were and
understood; knew that, given your way, you would choose the best, as
you have done! she cried, with the tears in her eyes. Ye've stood
before temptation! You've done the thing that's right when it was hard
to do! and I'm proud to have seen you as I have this morning.
They were both crying by this time as they stood with hands clasped,
on one side the calls of the sailors coming up the slope, on the other
the echoes of a horn rolling along the frozen ground from the coach
which came to carry Danvers away.
I may kiss you before I go? he asked, with a longing in his tone
pitiable to hear.
If ye think it's right, she answered. If ye think that when ye
look back to this time in the years to come you will be happier to
remember that ye kissed me, than to think you kept the vows you swore
before God, ye may kiss me if ye choose!
The choice was made in silence, and he dropped her hands, picked up
the valise which had fallen by his feet, and turned to go. At sight of
this resolution Nancy burst into tears.
Oh, she cried, God bless you! God bless you, dear! And give you
peace! as, without touching even her hand, Danvers Carmichael fared
forth alone, along the stage road which lay lonesome and frozen in the
shadow of the night.
CHAPTER XXIII. A FALSE RUMOR CAUSES
While these events were going forward at Allan-lough I sat in an
ignorant complacency at Stair, pleased with the advices of Janet's
convalescence, and with no knowledge whatever of Danvers Carmichael's
whereabouts save that he was from Arran Towers. My lack of knowledge
concerning his movements occurred by reason of a new trouble which
broke out at this time between his father and Hugh Pitcairn concerning
a watercourse which crossed the adjoining lands of both, somewhere back
in the country. The water was of no use to Sandy, and equally valueless
to Hugh; but the fact that one of them wanted it heightened its value
to the other, and talk went back and forth, with Sandy deaving my ears
concerning his rights on Monday, and Hugh going over the same ground,
looking the other way, on Tuesday, until I was driven from Stair and
avoided both, spending my time at the clubs, the coffee-houses, or with
Creech and his queer old books.
Coming down the steps of his shop on the morning of the twelfth of
FebruaryI recall the date because it was the beginning of all the
troublous times at StairI encountered James Gordon, looking both
worried and perplexed.
John, said he, you are the very man to help me from an
embarrassing position. My wife and daughter have been taken with a
fever; our town-house is small, and I have invited Borthwicke to stay
with us during the meeting of the Lighthouse Commission
Let me have him at Stair, I cried. Nancy is from home, I am
leading a bachelor life, and you will be showing a kindness to send me
such good company as John Montrose.
In this entirely unplanned manner the duke became my visitor, and I
found him a merry companion, easy, accessible, agreeable; praising my
wines, naming my house the most attractive place in Scotland, and my
daughter the most wonderful woman in the world; and I wandered abroad
no more, but stayed at home, like a cream-fed cat by the fireside, his
grace making the time gay with his tales, his wit, and his worldly
wisdom. He urged me to accompany the commission to the northern coasts,
and one day, when I was debating whether to join in this expedition or
to go down to the West and visit Nancy, the girl settled the question
for me herself by appearing at Stair, and at the first sight of her my
heart sank within me. She had become much thinner, there was the pallor
of sickness in her face, and a weakness both in voice and body as she
clung to me, telling me her joy at seeing me again and that she would
never leave me more. The news of Borthwicke's presence in the house she
received with some surprise, which showed neither pleasure nor regret,
going immediately to her rooms, however, making her long journey an
excuse for dining alone.
It was after luncheon on the following day that old Dr. McMurtrie
came into the library and addressed me, with some heat and scant
John, said he, looking at me over his glasses, I am going to make
myself disagreeable. I am going to be that damned nuisance, a candid
friend; but somebody's got to speak to you, for you're just letting
that girl of yours kill herself.
I stared at him in speechless wonderment.
She's killing herself, he went on, relentlessly. And when it's
too late you'll see the truth of it. No girl's body is equal to the
excitement she's had for years, ever since she was a baby, in fact,
with her charities and her Burn-folking and her verse-writing. It's all
damned nonsense, he summed up, succinctly, and it's for you to stop
Instead of helping her get out a second edition of poems, he went
on, ye'd show more sense if you put your mind to considering the
problem of how much work a woman can do in justice to the race. Every
female creature is in all probability the repository of unborn
generations, and should be trained to think of that solemn fact as a
man is taught to think of his country.
Some women, I answered, testily, are forced to work daily at
laborious tasks to support families
And others, he interrupted, squeeze their feet and give each
other poison; but they are not my patients, and Nancy Stair is. And I
think you'll find that the women who work, as ye say, do most of it
with their bodies, not with their heads or their nerves, and it's in
work of this kind the trouble of female labor lies. Nancy should save
her vitality. She should store it up for wifehood and motherhood.
She'll be a spent woman before she has a husband, and your
grandchildren puny youngsters as a resulting. Think it over, John, he
concluded; think it over.
He was scarce out of the house when Nancy appeared from the garden,
coming over to the place I sat to put her hand on my shoulder.
I'm thinking of marrying John Montrose, Jock, she said, with no
Ye have my own gentle way of breaking news to people, Little
Flower, I said; and then: Do you love him, Nancy? Or, what is more to
the point, are you in love with him?
Neither, she responded; but I have grown to believe in him, in
spite of his past, and love may come, and here she clasped her hands
together and her eyes widened with pain as she said: I have had a
great temptation, Daddy. A great temptation, and I want to put away any
chance of it ever coming to me again. I could be true to another always
when I might not
Nancy, I interrupted, drawing her down on my knee, there is no
greater mistake a woman can make than to think that marrying one man
will help her to forget another; for there is just one thing worse than
not having the man you want, and that is having the man you don't want.
And if you're not in love with Montrose, you'll never get my consent to
the wedding, not if he were the Prince himself.
On the morning following these talks the duke, who was still with
us, sent excuses to the breakfast-room that he had passed an uneasy
night and would rest until noon; and his valet, who brought this
message, ended by saying:
His grace is not well. His grace should have a doctor, for he had
the bleeding from the lungs again last night, although it would be
worth my place if he knew I mentioned it to your lordship.
In our foggy country a little throat trouble is no great matter, but
I ordered my horse for town, meaning to get McMurtrie out, as if by
accident, to see what attentions the duke might require; and riding in
some haste by the Bridge end, found a group of men, with papers in
their hands, discussing some bit of news with much interest. As I drew
near them, Dundas waved the journal at me and called out:
Our congratulations, John.
I reined in my horse, asking the very natural question, upon what I
was to be congratulated, when Blake handed me a copy of The Lounger,
indicating a certain paragraph for me to read. The notice began:
We understand that the long-expected betrothal between his Grace of
Borthwicke and Mistress Nancy Stair, only daughter of Lord Stair, is
announced, the penny-a-liner going on with much wordiness to state the
time and place fixed for the coming marriage, and even the shops in
London from which the trousseau was to come.
Gentlemen, I cried, upon my honor there is not a word of truth in
all of this, and, securing a copy of the miserable sheet, turned back
to Stair to discover from Nancy whether to deny the announcement by
direct statement or let the rumor die in silence.
I entered the house by the side door which leads to the music-room,
outside of which I paused, astonished at the sound of angry and excited
voices within the apartment. As I listened, wondering if some new
trouble was upon us, I recognized Danvers Carmichael's tone, and almost
upon the instant of this recognition, heard him cry out:
I will save you the promising, for I swear he shall never live to
His Grace of Borthwicke being within possible earshot of this
altercation, I decided to leave Danvers to Nancy's management, and
hurried up the winding stairs to hold the duke's attention until
Danvers had left the house.
Looking down into the main hall as I ascended the stair I saw Hugh
Pitcairn rise from a couch upon which he had been lying and cross to
the far window with some suddenness of manner, and knew by instinct
that he had realized the talk was not intended for his ears, and had
hastily changed his position, like the man of honor that he was.
Finding that the duke had not left his apartment in my absence I
crossed to my own room, where I was not alone above five minutes before
Nancy joined me.
Mr. Pitcairn is below, waiting for the duke to affix some
signatures, she said; and then:
Danvers Carmichael has been here, too. He saw an announcement in
The Lounger that I was betrothed to his Grace of Borthwicke, and came
by to tell meas you did yourself, she ended, with a smile, that the
wedding would have to take place without his approval.
CHAPTER XXIV. THE MURDER
Up to this point there are many events which I have drawn with
blurred edges by reason of the distance of time; but from this to the
end of my story I have the pettiest details of it in mind, many of them
with a horrid distinctness.
On the evening of the twenty-third the Armstrongs held a dance in
honor of the marriage of their daughter Jean with one of John Graham's
lads, and a number of young folks were bid to dinner before this
festivity should begin, Nancy being one of the number. His Grace of
Borthwicke and I were asked for the dancing, a courtesy which he
declined by reason of his indisposition, as well as from the fact that
he was to start for the Highlands in the morning. Almost immediately
after our dinner he excused himself to me, saying that an important
letter must be got off on the early post. And his breeding was shown in
the fact that he allowed no doubt to remain with me that this was any
invented excuse to avoid my society, for he stated to whom the epistle
was destined, and the need for its immediate sending, a point of
conduct which seemed to me gentlemanly in the extreme.
It's a letter to Pitt, he said.
Ye are great friends now, are ye not? I asked.
He is the nearest friend I have in all the world, he answered. We
are both rhymesters, he added with a smile. But this letter is a
business one, for I have advices from France for which he is waiting,
and they must be sent in cipher because of the trouble brewing in that
country. If I do not get the letter off to-night he may not receive it
for a fortnight, as he accompanies his Majesty to the country on
Why not send it by special carrier? I asked.
It's not important enough for that, he answered lightly, as he
crossed to Nancy's writing-room, which had been given to his use as an
office during her absence at Allan-lough.
Left with the evening on my hands, I set out for Creech's with no
weightier purpose than to divert myself and have some merry talk over a
bowl of punch; but, as I entered, Blake, who was throwing dice with
Dundas at the other end of the room, called to me to ask if I had heard
whether Mr. Pitcairn was better.
Is he ill? I asked in surprise, as it was but the morning before
he was at Stair.
He was carried from the court this afternoon, he answered, and at
the words I took up my coat and started for Pitcairn's house to see if
there was some help that I could offer. I found him wrapped in flannels
in front of a great fire in his own chamber, in as vile a frame of mind
as I have ever seen any human being, bearing his indisposition as
unphilosophically as I might have done myself, and I spent a highly
uncomfortable, dry, and sober evening with him, escaping from his
society somewhere at the back of the midnight with a feeling of relief
and the intention of getting something to drink. Going down,
unattended, I pulled the house-door hard after me to close it for the
night, when Pitcairn called me from the window above to ask that I stop
by the chemist's and hurry along a draught for which he was waiting.
A light and tricksey snow had begun to fall while I was in the
house; snow which blew in gusts, now from one side, now from another;
snow which came crosswise, to be caught by the high wind and carried up
to the tops of the houses; and over all and around all the fog of the
sea and beaten bells sounding far away, as of ships in trouble or as
warnings from the shore.
I pulled my hat over my eyes, turned the collar of my great-coat
around my ears, and took to the middle of the road, looking round
warily from side to side to make sure that I was followed by none, for
the town had been greatly excited during this winter by statements in
the public prints of mysterious disappearances. Folks had been suddenly
missed from their own doorways, of whom no subsequent traces could be
found; visitors entering the city were lost sight of; Irish haymakers
on their road to the agricultural districts of the lowlands had
disappeared from their companions as if by magic, and suspicions of a
dreadful nature were abroad.
 Benson's Noted Trials.
It was a uncanny night, black as chaos; and with my mind excited by
these horrid tales, I hurried along to the chemist's, whose man was
outside putting up the shutters. I stated my errand to the doctor, who
said he would carry the medicine himself, as Mr. Pitcairn's house lay
on the road to another patient with whom he had promised to pass the
night. This occurrence seems of small moment, and I but set it down to
show how slight a thing may turn many lives, for it was this very dose
of rhubarb and jalap which brought about much of the trouble toward
which we were drawing.
Starting again toward Stair I came directly upon some of the
town-guard, who, with flaming torches held aloft, were carrying a
couple of drunken wretches to the gaol. Turning to look after them I
became aware that a man had stepped from the shadow and was walking
beside me, going in the same direction, but at a much quicker gait than
my own. By the uncertain flare of the torches I saw that he was tall,
carried himself with distinction, and, what seemed markedly strange on
such a night, wore no covering whatever upon his head. I felt that he
noted me not at all, and as the gloom swallowed him up, saw him throw
out his hand with a significant gesture, as of one who has neither hope
It was this motion which made my heart give a sudden leap and set it
throbbing light and quick in my throat, for the belief came to me that
the stranger was none other than Danvers Carmichael, though any
reasonable explanation for his being abroad alone at such an hour and
going toward Stair was far from clear to me. My first thought was to
call out to him, but a bit of caution held me back, and upon thinking
it over I made sure that my eyes and the fog had combined to deceive
me, and I put the thing out of my mind altogether and hurried on toward
home. Nearing the house I kept close to the high stone wall for
protection against the wind, thinking to enter the grounds from the
lower carriage-way, but the gates were closed, and I was forced to the
main gate, the irons of which were swung far back.
As I turned into the path my eye was caught by a wide cone of light
which came from the window of the room in which I had left his Grace of
Borthwicke. Looking more attentively, I saw to my amazement that the
window nearest the writing-table was wide open, and I thought to go
directly to this place, for there was a low porch outside from which an
entrance to the house could be effected. I had started across the lawn
when I heard a pistol shot, followed by a pause, and then another,
quick upon the heels of the first, which had seemed to come from the
house. But the second, whether because of my confusion of mind or the
blowing of the wind, appeared to have been somewhere behind me, and
with a thought for my own safety I stepped under some frozen vines
which hung above the gateway. As I did so, a small figure, coming from
I know not what direction, passed through the cone of light. It ran low
to the ground and light, and with incredible swiftness disappeared
somewhere in the rose-garden by the south wall. Then a silence fell,
and for a few seconds I stood waiting to hear a disturbance in the
house, but finding naught happening I ran up the path in a
preternatural hurry of spirits, and set the knocker of the main door
clanging so that it might disturb the dead.
Even with all this racketing it was full five minutes before Huey
MacGrath stuck his head, with a white nightcap upon it, from the attic
window, holding a lighted candle high in his hand as he peered into the
I'll have ye arrestit! he called down.
Whist, Huey! I cried. It's I, the laird himself. There're
burglars in the house!
Ye've no been drinkin'? he shouted back, questioningly.
Didn't ye hear the shots? I asked.
I heard nothing, he answered in an unconvinced manner.
Do you want to be murdered in your bed? I called up to him,
rather than come down to see what's going about?
There's just naething the matter at all, he returned. Ye've been
drinkin'. Is Rab Burns with ye? he asked, resting his elbows
imperturbably on the window-ledge.
His conduct, in my excited state, enraged me to the extent of using
language which acquainted him with my wishes if not with my sobriety,
and I noted him withdraw his head hastily, and the light grow bright
and dim, and bright again, in his turning of the stairs, before the
bars were let down and the door opened to me.
There's just naething the matter at all, was his greeting. Aye,
ye will have been drinkin'!
Although he carried such a brave front I saw that he had taken the
precaution to bring an old blunderbuss with him, and two of the
serving-men, who appeared from a rear stairway in a sleep-befuddled
As we stood in the silence of the great dark hall a fear came over
me that I had up-turned the house to no purpose, but underneath it lay
the premonition of a great trouble, a feeling so strong that I was
unable to put it by. The doors on both sides of the hall were closed,
and there was no light save one small gleam which trickled from the
keyhole of Nancy's writing-room. Advancing to the door I rapped boldly
upon it, and waited for the duke to bid me enter; no voice answered,
nor was any sound to be heard save the tick, tick, tick of a great
clock that stood near. Again I beat upon the door, and called Montrose
loudly by name, and with baited breath listened to the tick-ticking of
the clock, and nothing else.
He's fell asleep, Huey suggested, and upon this, thinking the door
locked, I threw my weight against it, precipitating myself into the
room with unnecessary violence, to find the duke sitting at the desk,
his head thrown back upon the cushions, and one hand on the arm of the
great chair in an attitude of peaceful slumber. But there came to me a
dread of the sleep which could keep a man of his temperament
unconscious while the house was being pulled about his ears. As I drew
nearer to him the wind from the opened casement blew the curtains far
into the room and rustled the papers on the table, the light of which
was pushed back and the papers redd up, as if the business of the
evening were by with.
I stepped softly to the sitting man and touched him on the shoulder,
and, as I did so, fell back with a loud cry, while a voice with which I
seemed to have nothing to do cried out:
He's been murdered! He's shot! He's dead!
I can not recall what other words this personless voice cried out,
but I know that I stood staring at this man who but a few hours before
had been so hated, feared, aye, and admired; staring at his dreadful
pallor, his inhuman repose, and his inscrutable smile, as he sat before
me with the blood trickling down the side of his face from a
bullet-hole just over the temple.
In the first sight I had of him I knew that he was dead; the feeling
of death was around him; there was death in the air, in the awful
serenity of the pale face, in the hands which lay motionless and
relaxed, as if surrendering all; in the faint smile, as though Death
himself had come before the great man's vision and had been regarded
calmly before his work was done; and while the four of us were
standing, drunk with fear at this awful sight, there came to us the
sound of carriage-wheels and gay voices, and before the power of action
was with any of us, Nancy stood in the doorway, her eyes filled with
laughter, her scarlet lips curved backward in a smile as she came
forward to the place where I stood.
Are ye giving a ball while the mistress of the house is from home?
she inquired, gayly; and, as the queerness of our actions struck her:
What is it? she cried; and again, What is it?
To save her, some power of thought came back to my disordered mind.
Come away, Nancy! Come away with me! I cried; but before I could
reach her she had moved forward toward the dead, her head lowered, her
eyes widened with terror, and at sight of the blood clapped her hands
over her eyes to shut out the horrid sight, and went white, and but for
me would have fallen.
The telling of this takes longer than the acting of it, for it was
less than a minute before she called, with some authority in her tone:
Send them away, Jock. Send them all away! Leave me alone with him.
I motioned the men from the room. It was the common belief that his
grace was Nancy's accepted lover, and there seemed nothing strange in
her request to be alone with him. As I came back she held me by the
Have you found anything she began. Do you know of anybody?
Nothing has been found, I answered, and a look passed between us
which told me that my dread was her own.
Jock, darling, she went on, stay here! but don't see
anything you may have to tell of afterward, and a vision of the
hatless man in the snow came back to me at her words.
Fetch me some water, she went on, and let none come in but you.
I stood holding the door ajar while the water for which she asked
was being brought; but though my back was toward her I knew she made a
hasty move between the open window and the desk, and as I drew near
again she pointed out a pistol lying directly under the duke's left
hand, at sight of which I fell back with a cry of dismay, for it was
one of a brace which I had given Danvers Carmichael on his birthday two
How this could have escaped my sight at the first look I had of the
dead was a thing I could not understand, for it lay well in the light,
and by its reflections would naturally be an object to hold the eye,
and even in my confusion of mind I felt certain that it had been placed
there since my first entrance to the room.
Turning to Nancy for some explanation, I found her conduct of a
piece with the rest of her life, for every power of her mind was
focused on present action, and there was something unnatural, beyond
belief, and not like a feminine creature, in the manner with which she
stood regarding each object in the room, and at sight of this
self-control McMurtrie's talk came back to me.
I will not have you here, I cried, putting my arm around her to
lead her away. It's horriblehorrible to think of such a trial for
you, to which she paid no heed whatever, drawing herself from me in
silence, to cross to the open window and peer out into the night.
Thank God! she cried, it's snowing in clouds. It will be a foot
deep by morning! But we must make an effort to search the grounds. We
must seem to leave nothing undone, and the thought being conceived, it
was executed on the instant.
Why do you stand doing nothing? she cried, throwing the door back
and confronting the huddled servants. Get your lanterns out, and the
coach-lamps as well; the murderer may not be far gone. Search the
carriage-way toward the town, she called twice, and even in the
confusion I knew she was sending them as far from the road to Arran as
Father Michel, Jamie Henderlin, and some other of the burn people
had arrived by this time, but it was Nancy who thought for all of us,
refusing to go to her rooms, and insisting upon taking a part in the
search with us. Aside from the strain upon her, I was grateful in my
soul for this determination, for laws and courts and country
notwithstanding, my mind was fixed to do everything possible to prevent
suspicion falling on the son of Alexander Carmichael, who, I began to
fear, would be accused of a hand in the affair.
During the rest of the night, through all the talk and the searching
of the grounds, there were two lines of thought in my mind, the one
planning, explaining, and excusing Danvers, the other seeming to assist
in present conduct and to suggest immediate courses of action.
It was Nancy herself who was first upon the little balcony of the
window by which the dead man was still sitting. Father Michel, Huey
MacGrath, and I followed, and going down the steps I struck my foot
against some light object, kicking it far ahead of me, and on the
instant Nancy sprang forward, leaned over and picked up something in
What is it? I cried.
She held out to me the piece of lace she had worn as a head covering
to the danceheld it far out, so that all could see what it was, but
made no response in wordsand after the fruitless search was finished
consented to go to her room. As I stood by her door, undecided whether
or not to tell her of the hatless man I had met in the snow, she
suddenly threw her arms wide apart and dropped unconscious at my feet.
I lifted her up, wild with this new anxiety, and as I did so the lace
unrolled, and from it fell a cap, with snow upon it, a man's cap with a
strangely embroidered band which Nancy had worked for Danvers
Carmichael the summer before. At sight of it I could have cried out as
a woman does, for I knew it to be the object I had struck with my foot
under the window, and the last hope for Danvers Carmichael seemed to
vanish from my mind at sight of it.
Her consciousness was not long in returning, and before it came back
I had wrapped the cap in the lace again, trusting her woman's wit to do
the wise thing concerning it.
Leave me alone, Jock, she said suddenly, as to my amazement she
went to the wash-hand-stand, filled the basin with cold water, and
dipped the whole top of her curly head into it.
There must be no trifling with headaches to-night! she explained.
I've others to think of than myself. Pray for me, dearest! she cried,
putting her hands on my breast and looking up pleadingly in my eyes.
Pray for your little girl, as she sits here all alone. Pray that I may
have presence of mind! and God knows the awe I felt as I saw the
courage and spirit in that slim girlish body.
Nancy, said I, for I felt that without words, we were banded
together for the protection of a life dear to both of us, with your
knowledge of the law but before I could finish she interrupted me:
Yesterday in my presence Danvers Carmichael threatened the duke's
life not once but many times, with Pitcairn lying just outside the
door. The law! she cried. It's not the law I'm afraid ofit's Hugh
CHAPTER XXV. THE TRIAL
The great duke lay in state in St. Giles, and the Highlands emptied
themselves into Edinburgh demanding justice. The lady-mother of the
dead was there, broken-hearted, and Percival Montrose, to whom the
title fell; and I had a fine taste of the fealty of Gaelic-folk, for
kinsfolk and clansfolk took the duke's undoing as a personal affront,
and put their own matters by to get some one hanged for it.
The streets, especially those around the courts, were thronged with
the late duke's following; unkempt, hot-eyed, bare-legged gillies were
grouped at every corner, glowering under their tartan bonnets; I found
a huddle of them squatted behind some alders on the Burnside, and came
upon another set by the carriage-way, who glared at me as I passed them
as if I had had some part in the undoing of their clansman.
During this time Nancy lay ill, for which, strange as it seems, I
praised God, for the sickness saved her from the horrors of the
coroner's inquest, McMurtrie coming to my aid in the matter by
declaring it worth her life to be dragged into the affair. There was
nothing more definite elicited from this tribunal, constituted largely
of men under heavy obligations either to Sandy or myself, than Death
at the hands of a person or persons unknown, but the relief which came
with the verdict was of short duration.
How rumor is bred none can tell, but on the day following the
coroner's findings there was a waif-word wandering about that Danvers
Carmichael knew more than he had told of the duke's taking off; and
whether bred by servants' gossip or the talk of the fool chemist-doctor
who had taken the medicine to Pitcairn on the night of the murder and
encountered Danvers hatless in the snow, I can not say; but by the
evening there rose a strong demand for his arrest, and two officers
appeared at Arran and took the lad into custody.
Nancy, who had not left her room from that dreadful night, but who
had recovered herself enough to sit up a little at a time, received the
news in silence, asking if it were possible for me to get the exact
testimony given before the coroner for her to see; and going through
it, sitting in the bed, with flushed face and feverish eyes.
It's not so bad, she said, as she put it aside; not so bad. Will
ye ride out and ask Mr. Pitcairn to come to me? she asked.
Pitcairn? Ye'll not be wanting Pitcairn, I answered. It's
Magendie we are having up from London for the defense.
IwanttoseeMr.Pitcairn, she said slowly.
I don't understand at all, I answered. When you refuse to see
Sandy, who, in his own great distress, has never forgot you for a
moment, I don't see why you should be sending for Pitcairn.
I want to see neither Sandy nor any of the Arran people, she
And you've no word of comfort for Danvers? I asked.
None, she returned. I have not one word of comfort or anything
else to send to Danvers Carmichael, and I'd like to have it generally
Although I saw him not, I knew that Pitcairn came to Stair that
afternoon; but, before God, by no message carried by me; and the
following morning I visited him in his offices, finding him at a desk
in the inner room looking frozenly out under his dome-like forehead in
a way to suggest that his natural greeting would be: What are you
prepared to swear to?
Hugh, said I, ye've doubtless heard of the trouble young Mr.
Carmichael is in here I waited.
He nodded, as one might who had but a certain number of words given
him at birth and was fearful that the supply might run out.
It has occurred to me, I went on, that your old friendship for me
and my old friendship for Sandy being common knowledge, ye might show a
fine courtesy by standing aside in the case and letting Mr. Inge take
it altogether. Such a thing can be done, I know, for when the
Lord-President himself had Ferrars to try, who was a known man to him,
he asked to be relieved from presiding.
I attended to the duke's affairs when he was living. I shall attend
to them now that he is dead, he replied stolidly. There is an ethical
side to the matter as well, for I believe him to have been killed by
the young he caught himself at this, with a correction. I have my
beliefs in the case, he amended. But ye can rest by this, if a man is
innocent of a crime in this country he can prove it. It is a
prosecution, not a persecution, that will be conducted by the
And here a lighter vein seemed to take him, for he added:
And so, Jock Stair, you would come to me to use an old friendship
to buy the laddie off! Ye're a nice citizen; a fine, public-spirited
Hugh Pitcairn, I answered, if you were in trouble, and it needed
the last shilling I had in the world to help ye, you'd find me beside
ye, with it held out in my hand; and it seems a little thing I am
asking of you, and not for myself either
Your daughter's a better man than you, he broke in on me. It was
a fine thing she dida fine, public-spirited thing!
Ye've trained her well in the lawing, I said, leading him on a
bit, for Nancy had held the silence of the dead concerning the murder
since the day of his visit, and I had no knowledge of what he meant.
Mark you, he said, and there was almost a glow upon his face, the
first day that she was able to sit up after her illness Nancy Stair
sent for me. 'Mr. Pitcairn,' said she, 'a most unwelcome task has come
to me, and I am needing your advice.' And on this she went over the
talk, part of which I had overheard, between herself and the young
Carmichael, with neither heat nor fallacy of emphasis, as accurately as
I might have done myself, he ended, as though higher praise were
There's a girl for ye! he cried. I've set but little store by her
verse-making; or her charity work, which is sentiment; but by the
lawing the very female quality of her mind has been changed, for she is
able to put a duty to her country before her own feelings. Ye might
take a lesson from your daughter in that, Jock Stair! he finished.
I rode back to Stair on a gallop and went straight to Nancy's room.
What is this ye've done? I cried. What is this thing that ye've
done against the man who has loved ye ever since his eyes lighted upon
you, and whom your own indecision has helped to the place he now
There was a look of reproach in her eyes as she sat looking up at
me, but her words were quiet enough.
What do you mean? she asked.
I've been having a talk with Pitcairn I began.
For Heaven's sake! she cried, springing to her feet. It was the
thing I wanted least. What did you tell him? Oh, what did ye tell him?
she asked excitedly.
I told him nothing, I answered.
You think you didn't, dearest, she answered; but it's not in your
nature to keep a secret. 'Tis because you're a fine gentleman, with
never a thought in your life that needs hiding; but it's bad in law!
Stay away from Hugh Pitcairn, dearest. Stay away from him!
Nancy, said I, and my flattered vanity softened my tone, I don't
understand your conduct at all; for, as far as I can see, you seem to
have done all ye could to get Danvers Carmichael hanged
Seemed, Jock, she said, only seemed! Ye might trust me a bit
And you're called for the prosecution
Naturally, she returned, unmoved.
And here I just stared at her for a minute, and turned with a bit of
temper showing in my conduct and left the room.
The same evening I was further blindfolded by a visit from Mr.
Magendie, the London lawyer, who by Nancy's thought (although I did not
recognize her suggestion in the matter at the time, so deftly was it
made) had been brought up to Edinburgh for Danvers's defense. I found
this renowned gentleman of a slight, wiry build, below the medium
height, with a distinguished head, covered with thick silver hair, hawk
eyes, and a nose which turned downward like a beak. There was a Sabbath
calm in his manner; his voice was gentle and suave, and his most
pertinent statements came as mere suggestions. He had, I noticed, the
very rare quality of fixing his whole attention on the one to whom he
listened, and of putting his own personality somewhere aside as he held
up the speaker to the strong light of a mind trained for inspection. I
found after the interview that I had told him almost everything that I
had said, done, or imagined since my birth, and at remembrance of it,
recalled Nancy's inquiries concerning my talk with Hugh, and prayed
Heaven I had not been equally indiscreet before that block of steel.
It was as the London man was leaving the house that the blindfolding
of me was begun anew by Huey MacGrath entering with a note, saying that
Nancy would like to have Mr. Magendie come to her sitting-room on the
second floor. I paced up and down the lower hall, perplexed in mind and
sick with dread of the horror hanging over us, yet with something in my
heart which told me that, in spite of Hugh's statements, Nancy Stair
was with uswith Sandy, and Danvers, and myself.
Near one o'clock of the morning I heard Nancy's voice, at the turn
of the stair, saying good night to the London man.
People think he's ice, she cried, and I knew it was Pitcairn of
whom she spoke; but try a bit of flattery with him. Not on his looks,
for he cares less for them than for the wind that blows, but on his
abilities. Tell him that all knowledge of the Scots law will end at his
death, and that you're flattered to be on the same case with him; tell
him that Moses but anticipated him in the Ten Commandments, and that,
before the time of Leviticus, he was. He will rest calm under it. He
will show naught; but in his soul he will agree with you, and think
that a man who has such penetration concerning himself must have a
judgment worth consideration about others.
I heard Magendie laugh aloud, and when I joined him saw that his
eyes had brightened during the interview, as though he had been
drinking, and that he carried himself with some excitement.
It will be a great case, my lord! a great case! he said, with
enthusiasm. And it's a fine daughter ye have! A great woman! God! he
cried, seizing my hand, if she'd go on the case with me, I'd undertake
the defense of Judas!and I'd get a verdict, too! he added, with a
laugh, as he went out into the night.
On the morning set for the trial, to add to our distressed state of
mind, a tempest arose. There was rain driven into the town from the
hills, and rain driven into the town from the sea, and banks of leaden
clouds were blown back and forth over the trees, which were bent double
by the Bedlamite wind. The grounds of Stair lay like a pond, the road
ran like a river, and the broken bits of trees hurled everywhere made
going abroad a dangerous business. As I entered the breakfast-room Huey
threw a look at my attire.
You'll not be thinking of going out? he demanded, rather than
I'm thinking of nothing else, said I.
Ye'll get killt, he cried, and at the words my eyes lighted with
some amazement upon his own odd costume, for he was prepared to serve
my breakfast in corduroys and thigh-boots.
Why are you dressed like that? I inquired.
You wouldn't be wanting me to stay at home when there's trouble to
Mr. Danvers, would you? he demanded fiercely. I, who have known him
since he was a week old, and have had favors from him thousands of
times! And now, he went on as though I had done him some personal
injury, when there's sorrow by him, ye'd have me keeping the
chimney-lug, wi' a glass and a story-book, mayhap, and him needing
friends as he sits wi' that deevil Pitcairn glowerin' at him. Nay!
Nay! he continued, Huey MacGrath's not like that! I'll be there! he
cried, his conceit and loyalty carrying a singular comfort to me. I'll
be there, early and late, and they'll see they have me to contend wi'!
Ye can't stay in the court. You'll be sequestered until after
you've testified. Ye know the law for that, Huey.
They'll sequester me none; he returned, grimly; and if Dunsappie
the macer tries it I'll have him read out of the church, for I know of
him that which makes me able to do it!
There's Mr. Pitcairn, who knows ye well, said I.
I'm not counting to see him, he returned with a squinting of his
eye. I'll stay where he is nae looking; but I'll get a glyff of the
laddie himsel', and he'll know I'm there, and will feel better for it,
though I'm only an old serving man!
I'm sure he will, Huey, I said, touched to the heart; I'm sure he
will; and I'll tell him of your coming if he misses a sight of you, I
added, as I saw the poor fellow's face working with sorrow and anxiety;
but his spirit and loyalty undaunted by all the courts of judiciary
that ever sat.
We were preparing to be off together when Nancy came down to us,
pale and heavy-eyed.
Jock, said she, if Mr. Magendie had the word he hoped for from
Father Michel, it would be wise for him to have as many Romanists in
the jury as he can get. They have reason to know the priest's
goodness. And then: Jock, darling! she cried, throwing her arms
around my neck and weeping as though her heart would break, there's a
trial coming between us; and ye'll see me misjudged by the world, and
by Sandy as well, who has been like an own father to me! And by
him!him, too! You'll all be ashamed of me; but when I'm called,
mayhap to-morrow or the next day, and the little hands fastened
themselves around my bare throat, don't distrust me. Beloved, don't
distrust me! Don't believe I'm bad, or wanting in loyalty to the dear
ones of my life. Don't believe it, though ye hear me say it myself. I
can abide all that's come to me, but to have something between us! and
she buried her face in my bosom, moaning like a hurt child.
Nancy, said I, for the sight of any suffering of hers made me like
a crazy man, you've held yourself aloof from me, and have given out by
your conduct that your sympathies are all for the prosecution; but in
spite of it, if an angel from Heaven were to call you guilty of
disloyalty to a friend I'd give him the lie, though I were damned for
it! I cried.
Mine Jock, she said, mine Jock! and, comforted by the very
violence of my language, she stood quietly by the window watching Huey
as he waded through the river of water underneath which the road toward
Sandy had remained in town over night to be with his boy at the
earliest possible moment, and we sought him at the coffee-house where
he had slept. He had his friends with him, but there were none to whom
he paid attention save to me, holding my hand in his, and breathing
deep in a kind of relief as I stood by him.
I asked him how Danvers bore himself, and he answered, with a
courage and fortitude beyond belief, and that Magendie gave him
comforting assurances. Of Nancy no word was spoken between us, for the
hurt he had received from her conduct put an edge upon his suffering
keener than he could bring himself to name, and there came upon me, at
the sight of this pain, the impulse to tell him my own suspicions in
the matter, but caution for the cause held me back.
Fierce as the morning was, the court-room was packed when we
entered. I had asked and received permission to sit beside Sandy until
such time as the empaneling should begin; and as we took our seats in
that dread place I had a taste of the terror of the law which daunts my
spirit to this day. It's one thing to read of murders by one's
fireside, speculating over the evidence like a tale, and another to sit
face to face with the charges and the life of one most dear dependent
on the issue. And such was the awe inspired by the dreadful
surroundings that when Carew, the Lord-President, in the wig and
scarlet robes of criminal jurisdiction, preceded by the macers, took
the bench, my body shook as though in mortal illness, from fear of the
august power he represented, and this despite the fact that I'd drunken
deeper than was wise with him many times in my early days and knew him
to be sodden in his affection for Nancy from the time she had taken the
case out of his hands for Jeanie Henderlin. When Danvers, who was by
far the most composed of any of us, was brought in, I arose, laying my
hand on his shoulder as we talked, determined that the whole town
should know where my beliefs and sympathies lay.
There was little difficulty in getting the fifteen jurymen, and, as
I was taken away to be sequestered, a thing happened which I tell for
the love I have of human nature. There was a commotion at the door of
the court-room, and I heard the macer's tones threatening some one, and
then a clear voice crying:
If you don't let me in I'll break every bone in your body, and
Billy Deuceace, hard-ridden and disheveled, elbowed his way to the
railing itself and held out both hands to Danvers.
Couldn't get here any sooner, old man, he cried. Have ridden all
night! Just came up to say it's all damned nonsense, you know! he
finished, and I felt that a happier beginning could scarce have
occurred for us.
I was not in the court-room when the case opened, and by this reason
am forced for information to the papers recording the case, which forms
one of the causes célèbres of Scottish legal history. Even at
this distance of time, at sight of these old files I feel again the
helplessness and miserable sinking of heart which I felt the first time
I read the indictment of Pitcairn against the boy whom I loved, no
matter what he had done; and I write it again, no matter what he had
The trial of Danvers Carmichael for the murder of John Stewart
Aglionby Montrose, Duke of Borthwicke, Ardvilarchan, and Drumblaine in
the Muirs, Lord of, etc., before the Lord-President Carew, beginning
Tuesday, March tenth, 1788.
Counsel for the Crown
For the Prisoner
taken in shorthand by John Gurney of London.
After addressing the bench, the case was opened for the prosecution
by Mr. Pitcairn, as follows:
GENTLEMEN OF THE JURY:
The crime imputed to the prisoner at the bar is that of wilful
murder, effected by means and in a manner most abhorred. Such
accusation naturally excites the indignation of honest minds
against the criminal. I will not endeavor to increase it, and
your duty to resist it and to investigate and determine the
wholly upon the evidence which will be placed before you.
On the night of the twenty-third of February, 1788, John
Aglionby Montrose, Duke of Borthwicke, was found, between the
of midnight and one of the morning, dead in a desk-chair, in a
chamber on the ground floor of Stair House, near Edinburgh, by
Stair and his serving-men, Huey MacGrath, John Elliott, and
MacColl. The window by the late duke it will be proven was wide
open, forming an easy entrance from outside; a pistol, the
of the accused, was found lying by the chair upon which the
sat, and a wound above the temple of the deceased was
made by a bullet similar to those used in the pistol before
It will be proven by testimony of such a character and from
source as to render it singularly forcible, that on the morning
the day previous to the night of the murder the accused had
threatened the duke's life, applying vile and scurrilous names
the deceased; repeating these threats several times and in
It will be proven that there had existed for the accused one of
the most powerful incentives to murder known, in the fact that
late duke and he loved, and had loved for some time past, the
lady, Nancy, daughter to Lord Stair; that both had addressed
marriage, and that in September last the quarrel between them
so high that a meeting was arranged between the late duke and
accused; and there will be testimony to show that the duel was
averted by the late duke's apologizing to Mr. Carmichael, a
urged upon him by the lady herself.
It will be proven that in October past, after a bitter quarrel
with Miss Stair, the accused espoused in a hasty (and in a
of his rank and station), unseemly manner, his mother's cousin,
Miss Isabel Erskine; that since that time he has been little in
presence, leaving her alone at the time when a woman most needs
comfort and support of a husband's presence, and paying marked
attentions, both in public and private, to the first lady of
It will be proven that on the day preceding the murder there
published in an Edinburgh paper called The Lounger the news
engagement of marriage had been contracted between the late
Stewart Aglionby Montrose, Duke of Borthwicke, Muir, etc., and
Mistress Nancy Stair, only daughter of John Stair, Lord of
and Alton in the Mearns.
It will be proven that immediately upon reading this the
came directly to Stair, and after entering unannounced into the
room where the lady was sitting, asked her if the tale were
calling the late duke a thiever from the poor, a seducer of
a man drenched in all manner of villainy, and one whom he would
rather see her dead than married to. That he had declared that
still loved and had always loved her, that his marriage was but
result of a crazy jealousy, and besought her to promise him
she would never marry the duke. It will be proven by two
witnesses that upon her refusing to do this, the accused had
out, 'I will save you the promising, for I swear he shall never
live to marry you.'
It will be proven by a physician of repute that within ten
of the time of the murder the accused was seen, hatless,
very fast or running away from Stair House toward his own home
Arran, and this along a very secluded and unusual path.
In conclusion, testimony will be brought to show that the day
before the murder the accused made an agreement with a boatman
Leith to keep a boat ready for him at an hour's notice, either
Ireland or France.
It may be urged that this testimony, even if fully established,
purely circumstantial, for that none saw the accused commit the
fatal deed. To this I would answer:
The true question is, not what is the kind of evidence
cause, but what is the result of it in your minds.
If it fail to satisfy you of the guilt of the prisoner, if your
minds are not convinced, if you remain in doubt, you must
him, be the evidence positive or presumptive, because the law
regards a man as innocent so long as any reasonable doubt of
guilt exists. But if, on the contrary, you are convinced of the
fact, if there is no chance for a reasonable doubt to exist, it
imperatively your duty to yourselves, to your country, and to
God to convict, even if the evidence be wholly presumptive.
I set this extremely dry document down exactly as it is recorded in
the files for two reasons: first, that it contains all of the charges
against Danvers, and to show how black the case stood against him when
I say that all Pitcairn said he would prove he proved to the last
After my own testimony was taken, the nature of which is already
known, I was granted the privilege of sitting beside Sandy and his boy,
the three of us being joined daily by Billy Deuceace, whom I love to
the minute of this writing for his devotion to my lad.
Nancy's appearance in court was naturally looked upon as the most
exciting point of the trial, and the morning she was to be called the
crowd was dense to suffocation, the court-officers busy, dashing to and
fro, trying to keep some orderliness among the women, who jostled each
other and gave vent to loud exclamations of annoyance in their efforts
to get places from which the best view might be obtained. It is curious
to note the way some trivial vexation will linger in the mind, for in
recalling this scene it is the annoyance I had from Mrs. MacLeod, mine
landlady of the Star and Garter, that stands out clearest in my memory
of that dreadful waiting time.
She sat well to the front, giving herself important airs, and I
could hear her going back and forth in whispers over the story of
Nancy's visiting the duke at her house to obtain the pardon of Timothy
Lapraik. Wagging her head to and fro, applying her smelling-salts
vigorously, and assuming the manner of an intimate sufferer in the
cause, she exasperated us to such an extent that Billy Deuceace was for
throwing her out of a window.
When Nancy entered every eye in that immense throng was fixed upon
her, and as she stood, so fair to see, in her black hat and gown,
waiting to take the oath, Mrs. MacLeod's feelings overcame her
entirely, and she cried out, in a loud voice: Ah, the beauty! 'Tis her
that should hae been a duchess! immediately falling into strong
hysterics, upon which the macers summarily ejected her, to our great
satisfaction, and Billy Deuceace all but cheered.
Danvers's bearing changed at the mere sound of Nancy's name, and the
look of adoration that he cast upon her as she came near him was as
unwise a piece of conduct as could well be imagined, and one which
would have gone far toward convincing an onlooker of his willingness to
die or to murder for her protection, if necessary. The look had no
weight with the one for whom it was intended, however, for she let her
eyes pass over rather than encounter his, turning from him, with what
might easily seem a bit of disdain, to the business in hand.
As I gazed at her I noted with astonishment that the little
creature's face seemed to have taken on something of Pitcairn's
expression, and from the first moment to the clear end it was toward
Pitcairn she gazed, her eyes tutored by his, her passionless, unheated
manner his own, her adjustments and discrimination in words showing her
legal training, while he sat as a maiden schoolmistress might who
listened to the reciting of a favorite pupil. As she went on with her
tale; omitting nothing of the duel; dragging in details of the quarrel
which seemed unnecessary; stating that for some time past Mr.
Carmichael's attentions to her had been pronounced to such an extent
that she had shunned all company for fear of meeting him; damaging him
in every way, as it appeared, while the poor fellow turned a piteous
color, putting his hand over his eyes, and, for the first time in his
great trouble, I saw his lips tremble and his body quiver with emotion.
I could scarce endure the sight of this, and to show my feelings threw
my arm across his shoulder, at which movement a murmur went through the
crowd, no doubt at the oddity of the situation, that I should be so
strongly marked on the one side and Nancy as strongly set on the other.
Danvers's conduct changed, however, before her testimony was
finished, a thing which I was glad to see, for he brought himself
together with fine bravery and courage, but with a bitterness showing
in his face as of one who has been betrayed.
There were two things in Nancy's testimony to which I looked forward
with dread. The first was the story of the cap, and the second the
finding of the pistol which I was morally certain she had moved. The
first of these was not mentioned at all, by which I knew that Pitcairn
had had that incident concealed from him, and the pistol episode, about
which I had been questioned at length, swearing that the first sight I
had of the weapon was when it lay within a foot of the duke's hand, was
answered like this:
Question.In what position was the pistol when you
Answer.I can not swear to that. My impression is that
with the barrel toward the window. As I pointed it out to my
father, Lord Stair, I made a movement to go toward it, but he
me back, going himself to inspect it. From the distance at
then stood it seemed to be directly under the duke's right
with the barrel toward the window.
It was after a full morning's hearing, during which it seemed there
was nothing more she could have said for Danvers's undoing, that she
was excused, to be followed by the villainous boatman, whose testimony
showed all too clearly that Danvers had made ready a means of escape.
The prosecution rested with the testimony of this man, without one
ray of hope for Danvers Carmichael that I could see, unless some of the
jurymen were enlightened enough to refuse a conviction in a capital
case on any evidence which was circumstantial or conjectural. Motive,
abundant motive, had been proven; nearness to the crime at the time of
the murder; the ownership of the weapon, a black spot for the defense
to wipe out; and last, the means planned for an escape in case of
discovery, as testified to by the boatman of Leith.
CHAPTER XXVI. THE DEFENSE
On the day that Magendie took the case I had a taste of another kind
of lawing than Pitcairn's, for the London man, to speak in a common
phrase, oiled everybody. He poured oil over Carew; he drenched Hugh
Pitcairn in it; smoothed the jury with it, and I learned to the full
the legal value of the unantagonistic mind. After this he turned a
light on the case from the other side, giving it an entirely different
appearance, holding up the slateful of charges against Danvers, and
sponging them carefully off one by one, until I was amazed at his
There were three important gentlemen, conversant with the duke's
habits, to prove that the duke's lung trouble had accustomed him to
fresh air, that he slept with all of his windows raised, and that it
was his custom to have the window open near him, no matter what the
weather. And following came Huey, with the statements that both of the
pistols had been at Stair House since before Mr. Danvers's marriage,
and that he had put one of them, with a new hagged flint, in the desk
at which his grace was writing, within a few days of the murder. Father
Michel followed, saying that Danvers had spent the evening of the
murder with him, trying to persuade him to go on a sail for a few days,
leaving his house about midnight in a composed and quiet frame of mind,
with his cap in his hand, it being his custom to go about in all kinds
of weather in that manner, a habit contracted at the English school
where he was educated. And before any one could stop him, Father
Michel, who I knew was tutored to the illegal conduct by Magendie, said
I consider it my duty to state, with no betrayal of my sacred
offices, that I know, by the confessional Mr. Carmichael to be innocent
of this foul deed.
Pitcairn was roaring objections in a minute, with Carew sustaining
him, as was but legally decent; but it mattered little, for the jurors
had heard, and I knew that the holy man's words would stick in their
minds at verdict time.
Following Father Michel came two respectable serving-men from Arran,
declaring that early the morning after the murder Mr. Danvers had sent
them to Leith to say that he no longer wanted the boat, and that they
had found its owner, the one who had testified for the prosecution, in
such a state of intoxication that they could not make their errand
clear, and left the message with his errand-boy, who was produced to
verify the truth of their statements. And after him came Nancy Stair
again, recalled for the defense, to swear to a letter sent to the duke
by her the morning of the day of his demise, which read as follows:
MY DEAR, DEAR FRIEND:
That I love you, you know; but that I can love you with that
fondness which a wife should have for a husband is forever an
impossibility to me. Perhaps after a time we may be friends
I have always admired your power. Of late I have admired your
goodness as well.
You say you will have no courage to go on without me, and I
with all my heart I could love you as you desire, but my
all gone from me, and to one who never will know.
'Courage to go on!' If I have it, can not you who are so much
stronger have it as well?
Affectionately your Friend,
And after, Jamie Henderlin swore that it was he who ran across the
grounds, on his way home from a wedding, and that he had heard the
shots and mentioned them to his mother on his arrival at the Burnside,
thus identifying the small figure I had seen running through the shaft
of light, and wiping away the last black mark on the slate against
Mr. Magendie asked permission at this point to address the court,
saying that the defense had been reserved by Mr. Carmichael's wish, and
that the manner of the duke's taking off had been a known thing to both
of them for more than a week, but that Mr. Carmichael had stood his
trial in order that every charge against him might be cleared away. And
after raising public expectation to its highest, and ridiculing the
idea that a man of intelligence should murder another and leave a
weapon heavily marked with his own name by the side of the dead; or
that because a man had uttered some threats of again challenging one
whom he had already met upon the field of honor, he should be accused
of being a midnight assassin, there was called the last witness for the
The entrance of this distinguished statesman, whose friendship for
the great Pitt kept him constantly in the public eye, caused little
less than a sensation. As he took the oath, I had a near view of him;
his dignified bearing, his age, and his notable integrity showing at
every turn, the tones of his voice filling the court with a peculiar
resonance while he deponed as follows:
I come, he said, as a messenger from Mr. Pitt, who regrets that
his Majesty's affairs, connected with the troublous times in France,
prevent his leaving London. I have his deposition, however, and the
case has been fully set before me by him, so that I feel I am in a
position to tell the whole truth of this disastrous affair and to set
Mr. Carmichael before the world as a free man.
There existed between Mr. Pitt and the late Duke of Borthwicke, as
the world knows, a peculiar friendship. On the third morning after the
duke's death there came to Mr. Pitt a packet, taken from Stair House
and mailed about five of the morning upon which the duke died, directed
in the duke's hand, containing three things:
FirstThe findings of the Lighthouse Commission.
Second.Some information from the French, a document of twenty-two
pages, writ in a cipher known to but five persons in the United
Kingdom, which paper alone convinced Mr. Pitt of the authenticity of
the document; and last, a personal letter, the original of which Lord
Rothermel begged to read before it be given to the jury:
MY EVER DEAR PITT:
When you receive these papersthe last intelligences I shall
send youI, the writer of them, shall be no more.
A great disappointment, one which I have not the heart to
together with a return of my old trouble, for I have had three
bleedings from the lungs within a month, have cured me of the
of living, and, by a mere movement of the trigger, I end the
It is a fancy of mine to take my leave of this earthly stay
surrounded by the little dear belongings of the one I love.
There will be much talk back and forth concerning me. I pray
bespeak me, if you will, a brave, insolent, selfish, and
unscrupulous man of many villainies, some wit and foresight, a
disrespecter of humanity, athirst for power, and a hater of
but one who, at the end, was capable of a great love for a
I send some verses, which are of my own making to-day. As
Shakespeare says, 'Ill favored, but mine own,' and so good
long good night.
TO NANCY STAIR
I stand upon the threshold going out
Into the night.
The mists of old misdeeds crowd all about
And blind my sight.
But thro' the many worlds to come, my feet
No more shall roam.
The light from thy dear face at last my sweet
Will bring me home.
To you always, my dear Pitt,
I was dimly conscious of the uproar which arose in the court-room,
for I was away in a by-gone time, a vision before me, clear as a
picture, of a sunny room, myself at a writing-desk overlooking
accounts, and a small curly haired child poring over a book on the rug
at my feet
Nancy made it just like Jock's!
Nancy made it just like Jock's!
I can recall the fear that seized me as the duke's letter was being
examined by those familiar with his writings; the chill I felt as
Blake, who knew his hand the best, was summoned to inspect it; my
terror as he hesitated, with all the time that sing-song refrain going
over and over in my head, so loud that I was afraid that everyone in
the court would hear it; and then, far away and little, like a
wood-call, Nancy made it And when Blake and Dundas identified the
writing, and O'Sullivan, the duke's own secretary, declared that not
only would he be willing to swear to his belief of the duke's hand, but
to the spirit of the document as well, I put my head on the back of
Danvers's chair to hide the tears which rolled down my cheeks, tears of
relief, but springing from a very different cause than the one
attributed for them.
There was more summing up and going back and forth, but the tension
of the trial was over for all except me and one otherone wide-eyed
little creature, sitting in her black gown, with Dickenson beside her,
on the other side of the court-room; a slender girlish figure before
whom my soul was on its knees.
I imagined her work, after she asked me to pray for her, upon that
awful night. I thought of fifty things on the second, as it seemed.
Visions came to me of Nancy dipping her head in the basin of water,
Nancy by the mail-bag in the early dawning before the officers had
come, and to that Nancy made it just like Jock's, there came, with
terror to my soul, another jumble of wordsAccessory after the fact.
I knew that the jury consulted but a few minutes before the whole of
Edinburgh was shaking hands with Danvers, assuring him of their
never-shaken trust in his innocence, saw Pitcairn putting his papers
into the black-leather case, was conscious that Billy Deuceace was
laughing as he talked to some women, with his hand on Danvers's
shoulder. I say that I was aware of these things, but so remotely that
they seemed part of a dream, for my real thought was to get to Nancy,
to take her away, to shield her from I know not what; and leaving the
Carmichael party, I made my way to the place where she was awaiting the
As we stood together near the doorway, Sandy and Danvers, with their
friends, passed us on their way from the court-room, and my heart bled
as I saw the look Nancy gave them, the look of pleading and affection,
which Sandy avoided by talking to the one beside him; but Danvers, and
none could blame him, considering his belief that she had done her
utmost to get him hanged, looked full at her, his eyes showing scorn of
her. I felt the slight body quiver, saw her sway back and forth for a
little, and then, with a sob like a wounded child, she lost
consciousness entirely. Hugh Pitcairn stayed by her until she was
enough recovered for me to put her in the coach, and rode back to Stair
with us, watching her all the time with an expression of alarm and
tenderness, which drew him very near to me.
CHAPTER XXVII. THE MISTS ALL CLEARED
On toward midnight I was awakened by Dickenson clamoring at my door,
telling me that Nancy lay delirious, with a high fever, calling for me.
Making what haste I could, I reached the poor child, to find her
tossing from one side of the bed to the other, uttering hoarse cries,
with neither intelligence in her glance nor recognition of either my
presence or my voice. McMurtrie's attitude, after his examination,
drove me wild with fear. It's like to be a long case, he said. I
want ye to get Dr. Cameron from Glasgow. I'll stay by ye, he added;
I'll just move into the house, for, under God, it's not my intention
to let Nancy Stair leave us yet.
Weeks and weeks went by, during which it seemed as though I neither
slept nor ate, listening to the moaning, or, what was far worse, broken
talk of her work, of her cares, scraps of forgotten rhymes, bits of
Latin verse, law references cited letter for letter, until I needed the
doctor myself, who threatened to put me from the house unless I showed
a more reasonable behavior.
On in the third week of Nancy's fever I heard that Danvers's wife
was ill, but this was nature, and I gave no more thought to the matter.
On the afternoon of the day on which the news was brought me the Arran
folks sent again to know if Dr. McMurtrie could be spared them, and we
sent him over immediately. On his return I asked him, in a perfunctory
way, how he had found things, and he returned an evasive answer; but
upon my insisting for the truth, he told me that Isabel had given birth
to a child the night before, but that it had died before morning, and
that she herself was in a most desperate state.
My heart went out to all this suffering, but death so near increased
my anxiety for my own child, and when the news was brought me on the
following morning that Isabel had passed away during the night, the
fear for Nancy rose high in me, and I became like a crazed creature,
wandering from one room to another, with half-begun prayers to God upon
my lips and a feeling of utter helplessness heavy on my soul.
Nine weeks of this I endured, nine weeks of such dread that I should
choose death in preference to living the time again, when one morning
in early spring Dr. Cameron, who had been watching by the bedside all
night, came to me. I think, my lord, he said, that the worst is by
with. Ye need worry no more, and at the words I buried my face in my
hands, as I sat at the table, and wept like a child.
On the day following this announcement, Sandy, who had refused to
leave me in my great anxiety, took his boy off to visit the New
Republic founded across seas, and Dr. McMurtrie, who kept his residence
at Stair, for I would listen to no word of his leaving us yet, watched
the dear one on her journey back from the valley of the shadow. It was
late summer before she was able to be about at all, and Hallowe'en was
celebrated by her first riding out.
As she grew stronger there were two changes I noted in her conduct,
the first of these being her unwillingness to see Hugh Pitcairn, whose
solicitude for her during her illness had knit us together by cords
never to be broken. If she knew he was in the house she would retire to
her own room, or if advised of his coming would go abroad to visit or
drive, in every way showing a clear avoidance of his society. And the
second matter was in connection with the Burn School. This work had
been the chief thought of her life before her illness, but upon her
recovery she refused to visit the place, would walk or ride far around
by the Dead Man's Holm to avoid meeting in with either teachers or
pupils; and when Father Michel brought work to her to have it examined
she would overlook it listlessly, and put it by immediately on his
departure, to be referred to no more. I knew more of the reasons for
this conduct than she suspected, her talk in the fever being all of one
thing, and the intuition of my love helping me far in discovering the
truth. I believed that McMurtrie had learned some matters as well as
myself, for twice, when he was telling me something concerning her, he
broke off with entire irrelevancy to say: The little deevil; the
plucky little deevil! with tears in his eyes, and ending with, God!
I'd like to tell Pitcairn, and a roar of laughter.
More than a year had gone by before her color and brightness came
back to her, and one gay spring morning, when the Nanciness of her
had shown itself by some audacious rejoinder, I ventured on a remark,
which I hoped would lead to an open talk with me, concerning the affair
of the trial.
Nancy, said I, with nothing but the impulse of the moment to guide
me, would a child of mine commit a forgery?
She looked up at me quickly, as though to judge my intention, before
she answered, A child of yours did.
But you were too little to know the force of your conduct then, I
continued. Would a child of mine do such a thing now?
A curious gleam passed over her face before she answered, looking
straight into my eyes as she did so, Don't worry about that, Jock,
she said; she didn't have to!
We will suppose, she went on, with an exact imitation of Pitcairn,
only suppose, you understand, that a bit of evidence was needed in a
certain trial to clear one who was very dear; and we will suppose, only
suppose, you remember, that there was a girl who had skill enough to
seem to obtain it. We will suppose, still, that the girl said to
herself, 'If I am on the other side from the great Pitcairn, I shall
have no chance against his cross-examination, but if I seem to be on
his own side he may be thrown from his guard, and I may suggest the
questioning I want followed.' Take the testimony! she cried, in her
natural voice, rising and standing by the chimney-place. Take the
testimony which I gave and go through it word by word, and you can find
neither forgery nor perjury. I had been well taught in the letter of
the law. I was Pitcairn's own pupil, Jock!
It was less than a week from this time that I came in from a ride,
happier than I had thought to be again in this life, when a sight met
my eyes which threw me clear from my reckoning. Going past the door of
Nancy's sitting-room, I looked in, and at first sight thought my eyes
had deceived me, for standing in the middle of the room was Hugh
Pitcairn, and Nancy's head was on his shoulder. I saw that she was
crying, and that the great lawyer himself, who was far from unmoved,
patted her shoulder every once in a while, saying, There, there!
staring out of the window and blinking hard to keep the tears back.
I went on to my own chamber and sat down in a heap on the side of
the bed, as I used to do at college, repeating, Good Heavens! over
and over to myself, until interrupted in the performance by Huey, who
came in to gather the fire. Where is Mr. Pitcairn, Huey? said I.
He's went, he replied, and on the words a fear seized me lest Nancy
should retire into one of her silences, and I should be left in a state
of raging curiosity through the night. Upon inquiry I found that she
was sleeping, and went down to the library, where I had but just
settled myself when Hugh Pitcairn appeared before me, a legal document
in his hand, having been for a walk to recover himself, I supposed. He
looked more wooden than I had ever seen him, and, in the language of
the country, I knew he would make me pay for the emotion he had shown
I've news for you, he said.
Hugh, I answered, if they're pleasant, ye're welcome; but if they
are not, I tell ye frankly, I've been stretched to breaking in the past
year, and can not stand much more.
It's not ill, he answered. It concerns the death of the Duke of
Here was dangerous walking for me, and I waited.
Do you recall, he inquired, the French woman at the Burnside who
taught the Marseilles work?
A poor distraught body who ran from her own shadow? said I.
Although she spoke the French tongue, it seems she was Irish by
birth. Her namehe coughed a little behind his hand as though to give
me timeher name was Barnet.
I had heard the name before, but where? I saw that Hugh was waiting
for me to place it, but any significant connection it might have I
found myself unable to recall.
It was heard of, ten or twelve years past, in connection with that
of the late Duke of Borthwicke, he threw in for my assistance, and the
tale of an old-time scandal came back to me at his words.
She left her husband for him. They went to France together, did
they not? I asked.
It was so stated at the time, Pitcairn answered.
And she knows something of the duke's death?
Knew, Pitcairn corrected. She died at noon to-day. It is her
confession that I have in this paper, John. It was she herself who shot
the duke, and the interwovenness of affairs is marked in this. She was
an early love of Father Michel's, before he entered the priesthood, and
came to him for work after her children died.
Poor woman, said I, she was half crazed, and, God forgive me for
saying so, had many excuses for her act.
Father Michel sent for me at ten. McMurtrie was there, and she told
us the tale, after signing the paper, which I bring to you to use as
you think best. You will be glad to have Carmichael see it, perhaps.
Hugh, said I, for a shadow had lain between us ever since the
trial, despite his devotion to Nancy, I didn't think ye acted well by
me at the time of the trial.
I got no further in this speech, for upon the instant he flew into a
sudden heat, which made any temper, Sandy's or mine, or both of them
put together, seem but a child's displeasure beside it.
Acted well to ye! he cried. Acted well to ye! Do you know what I
did for you at that time, Jock Stair, or rather for that bit lassie of
yours, who has so wound herself about my heart that her illness has
made me a broken man? I didn't give over the case when ye asked me, for
I believed Danvers Carmichael a guilty man; but I meant to be as
lenient to him as consistent with exact duty. Ye'll learn perhaps that
in law, a friend prosecuting is better than a friend defending! Do you
think I did not know what was done at that trial? Oh! not at the first,
for she tricked and befooled me to the clear end of the prosecution;
but when the letter was read I knew it had been changed, and did for
that bit of a girl what the rest of the world might have tried to get
me to do in vain. I was afraid for herfor her! do you
understand?for, on my soul, I thought him guilty in the way she did,
a sudden duel perhaps, for the young man has a look of honesty not
compatible with murder. But when I thought of what might come to her as
accessory after the factaccessoryafterthefactdo you
understand?I shivered before a Scotch justice for the first time in
But the thing that galls me, he went on, and his pride spoke, is
that yon London-man, Magendie, may never know I had the truth
concerning the affair. With Ferrars vs. Lorrimer, Annesly vs. Ingraham,
and Cobham, Greenly, and Spencer vs. the Crown at my tongue's end,
did he think I'd let a case of resting on letter-evidence like his pass
as I did without some weighty reason for my silence?
 Famous Forgeries, Benson.
But the queer thing of it is that I feel a better man somehow for
having done my duty loosely; for, John, I had at home, when that letter
was produced in court, one sent by messenger, dated a half-hour later
by the duke himself, asking me to meet him the following morning to
overlook some papers before he signed them, which, had I produced,
would have ended the whole defense.
She's just upset all my creeds and conduct. I could no more have
hurt her as she sat looking at me with those big soft eyes of hers than
I could have murdered a baby. What did I tell you years agone? he
cried, turning upon me with some fiercenessThat ye can't do anything
with women folks. Inherited mother instincts make them protect
anything, and when it comes to one they love, they'll falsify, not
knowing that they're doing it, and justify the lies by Scripture, if
But when a man comes to die it's his mother he calls for; 'tis the
touch of her hand he wants, and her breast to lean against as when he
was a wee bit bairn, for he knows the worth of a heart that is all for
him, right or wrong, through sickness, disgrace, and death. And in the
long nights I watched by the child's bedside I learned more, Jock
Stair, than any intellectual work could ever bring me, for the love I
had for her, and the thought of woman's love as mother, wife, and
daughter, raised me more, made me a finer man, a more uplifted one than
I have ever been, even when it made me soft about my duty. It seems a
bit muddled, but it's a solemn truth.
I knew you'd find it out, Hugh Pitcairn, and you'd have known what
ye've been trying to tell me years ago if you'd had a wife and children
of your own. You're such a splendid fellow, I cried, it's a pity you
I've been wishing I had, he said simply.
And why not? I cried; you're a young man yet.
He shook his head at this, but made no answer in words, and left me
with some abruptness and no further speech.
Now that the confession was in my hands I knew not what course to
pursue, and fell to wondering how much reviewing it might cause of the
testimony which had cleared Danvers Carmichael, and what possible
trouble from that might come home to Nancy's door. It was but nine
o'clock; a thought seized me before I reached the house, and I sent
MacColl to Arran Towers with a request that Mr. Danvers come to me
immediately. It had been over a year since he had crossed my threshold,
and although he was back in the country above three months, with
Nancy's conduct still unexplained, friendly intercourse between the
houses was impossible.
There's a welcome been waiting for you o'er long, I said to him as
he entered the room, and here the fine directness of him answered me:
I've never had for you a thought not of the kindest; but your
daughter's conduct to me; Lord Stair, has rendered and before he
finished I put out my hand to stay him.
I wouldn't go on if I were you, Danvers! I wouldn't say that which
I might come to regret. Ye haven't known all, and ye may have
misjudged, and here I began at the other end.
The one who killed the Duke of Borthwicke has confessed the deed. I
have the confession here! I said, touching the paper I had from Hugh
Pitcairn as it lay on the table.
The one who killed the duke! Danvers cried, in amazement. The man
confessed himself a suicide.
Danvers, I went on, I am afraid that letter was not written by
the duke, not all written by the duke. It was on separate
sheets, if you remember, the first one naturally without signature. It
is this part which I believe to have been partly written by another.
If ever there was a mystified face it was Danvers's as he stood
trying to make something of my words.
Let me tell you the whole story, I went on, a bit at a time, and
when I bungle it in the telling stop me till ye get it clear, for the
future between us is just hanging on the tale I tell.
The night of the murder I saw ye, Danvers, going back to Stair,
bareheaded, in the snow, upon what errand I knew not; and when Nancy
and I went down the steps of the little porch, she picked up something
and hid it in the lace of her cloak; but in her room that night, when
she fainted, I saw it was your cap, all of which she held silence
concerning. And the next morning I was sent off to Pitcairn to worm it
from him if he had heard you threatening the duke the day before, and
discovered that not only did he hear that, but knew as well, from the
fool chemist, that you were seen running away from Stair on the very
heels of the murder, and if a blacker case was ever set for a woman to
clear away I have yet to hear of it.
I came up from Father Michel's through your grounds, hoping to
catch a sight of her by the light in the writing-room. When I was far
toward home I discovered that I had lost the cap she gave me, and
turned back for it, but the snow was so deep I thought it useless,
Upon this I told the story, a piece at a time, going backward and
forward over all that has been set down, and the effect of it upon the
lad is impossible to describe. When I told of Nancy's finding his cap
he put his hands over his eyes, and sat with his face covered until the
clear end of the telling, when he looked up at me with a great sadness,
which had joy in it as well.
Where is she, Lord Stair; may I see her? he asked.
I'll go up with you and see, I answered, as I held him by the arm
for a minute. Will you be good to her? I asked.
Good to her! he cried. If she'll have me!if the rest of my
life's service can atone in any way for all the misery I've caused
herit's hers for the taking.
God bless you, I said; God bless and keep you both.
The door of the sitting-room stood a bit open, and I entered to find
Nancy in a loose white wrapper in a great-chair by the fire.
I've some company for you, Little Flower! I began, and my voice
choked me so that she looked at me in surprise.
Who is it? she asked.
It's one who has been too long gone, I answered her, but by this
time reason and convention were blown to the four winds of heaven, for
at sound of that beloved voice the door was thrown open and Danvers was
on his knees before her, his face buried in her hands.
My girl! he cried, my girl! Can ye forgive me for all the
misjudgments I made of you? Can you forget all the sorrow and misery I
have brought into your life? Can you just let the past be by with and
take me to your heart, for 'tis the only place I've ever known
happiness or peace in all my life? I'm not worthy of you, he went on,
no man ever born was that; but say you care enoughthat you think
And here the woman spoke:
Good or badand I think you the finest man I ever knewworthy of
me or not, I'd rather be your wife than anything this world could
bring. Oh, ye've been so long away, Danvers, she said, with a sob, so
God! he cried, the word sounding like a prayer, as he gathered her
in his arms, kissing her lips, her eyes, her hair; and, the time being
made for them, I went quietly from the room.
An hour passed, two; and when midnight was tolled, I knew that
Nancy's health must be thought of, and crossed the hall to pack Danvers
off home. I found him, glorified, at one side of the chimney-shelf, and
Nancy, like a beautiful crumpled rose, at the other; Nancy, with eyes
showing the memory of Danvers's kisses; conscious to the finger-tips,
all woman, who had been learning for the past two hours from her
lover's passionate caresses the Meaning of Life.
Be off home with you, Danvers Carmichael, I cried. Ye'll have
this child of mine ill again!
I am not going home, he said determinedly. She is not well, and
she needs some one to sit up with her.
I laughed in his face. With Dickenson in the next room, Joan Landy
sleeping at the foot of the bed, and McMurtrie and myself across the
hall, she scarce suffers from lack of attention, I answered, and here
he took another course.
Oh, he cried, think of what I have been throughthink of all the
bitter days and nights of separation from her! Think how near I came to
losing her altogether. Think of the hell of the last two years, and let
me stay, he cried, pleadingly; and here the young rascal put his hand
on my shoulder.
Father, he cried.
The word made me wax in his hand, and I compromised. Ye can have
the rooms next to mine and stay with us to-night, I gave in.
I shall stay till the wedding. I'm going to live here, he returned
with a laugh, at which I carried him off to my own rooms, though he
went back twice to Nancy's door to say something he'd forgotten.
I knew that forgotten thing. I had gone back often to say it
myself. What lover has not? But at the third announcement of his
forgettings I lost patience with him.
Danvers Carmichael! Many's the time in our college days that I have
thrown your father down and sat on him to keep him from some piece of
deviltry, and despite my years, I fear I'll have to treat ye the same
way, I cried, upon which we ordered the pipes and some brandy, and sat
till the clear day was come, talking the past over, going back and
forth over our many mistakes, and making happy plans for the future,
with Nancy the centre of every plan.
A month later the marriage took place in the little chapel on the
Burnside, on a morning so fair and bright and joyous that it seemed
made for such a happening. All the old friends were thereJanet and
Hugh, Dame Dickenson and Uncle Ben, the girls from the lace-school,
Jeanie Henderlin with the Lapraiks, and Huey MacGrath, who cried
without intermission from the time he arose in the morning until late
in the day, when, overcome by the punch, he was found asleep with his
head on the Hall Bible.
Jamie played the violin, and as Nancy and I entered the church,
Danvers and Billy Deuceace were waiting for us at the railing. It was
such a misty, glorified, radiant Nancy I had upon my arm, that Danvers
waited no longer after the first look, his impatience being such that
he left Billy Deuceace, and, coming down the aisle, took her from me
before we were half-way to the altar. Somewhat set back by the
suddenness of this, I turned to Sandy, who was nearSandy, with a face
as glad, as overjoyed as my ownwho, seeing the position I was left
in, joined me, and we walked together to the altar-rail and stood
shoulder to shoulder as our two children were united until God do them
Looking down the years to come we saw other Sandy Carmichaels and
other Jock Stairs together in the bare old playground we had known; saw
splendid men and women, born of our son and daughter, making the world
better and stronger for our having lived, and the joy within me was so
strong that the tears stood in my eyes and trembled down my face.
Turning suddenly, I found Sandy as moist-eyed as myself, and while the
service was being read I reached toward him, and we stood, hands
gripped, until the end, in memory of our dead youth and of our
friendship that could never die.
* * * * *
And like an old man who tells a tale limpingly, and covers the
ground again to make its points clear to the listener, I set down a
scene some five years later in the grounds of Stair. We were all there,
Nancy and Danvers, Sandy, Pitcairn, and myselfand two Newcomers, the
most spoiled and petted children, it is my belief, upon the entire
I had a letter from Pailey to-day, Nancy, said I, proposing a
third edition of your poems.
 The last published poems written by Nancy Stair
(afterward Countess of Glenmore) were:
And will ye go Love's Way with mewritten directly after
visit to Allan-Loughand
Here awa! There awa! Daffy-Down-Dilly O! one of the
bits of loving child rhyme in all the Scots tongue, composed
after the birth of her first child, Danvers Carmichael, Jr.
She shook her head.
That's by with forever, Jock; I shall never write again, she
No more verse-making? I inquired.
Never any moreunless it be to say to women this.
She stood, with her hands folded before her, a beautiful fulfilled
Nancy, looking down at us with sweetest earnestness, her children
leaning against her as she spoke.
I should write: I, Nancy Stair-Carmichael, have learned that
verse-making and verse-singing and the publicity that goes with them do
not make me a finer woman; I have learned that my woman's body is not
strong enough for the mental excitement of that existence, and to be a
daughter, a wife and a mother, as well, and that God in his goodness
sent a certain great poet into my life to show me that gift is nothing
And I would reason with all these dear other women like this:
Suppose I write certain verses! Where will my lines be two hundred
years from now? Forgotten words of unimmediate things. But suppose my
heart spoke to me, and knowing I could do but one work well, I put all
childish ambition aside to become the mother of men, that centuries
from now thousands of my children may be fighting for the right of
present issues and hastening that Divine Outcome for which God made us
And I would say to them: the night I knew another woman was to be
the mother she paused abruptly, for she had been so carried away
by her own thought as to forget where this might lead. She was a great
woman, but to the end of her life could never bring herself to name the
fact that Danvers had had another wife.
That night, she continued, slurring the statement over, I learned
more about life than the classics ever taught me.
And I would write, as well, something about the trial, to say to
them that when Danvers's life was at stake I had no thought but to save
him. Right or wrong, innocent or guilty, the only thing I wanted was
that he might be free.
And by this thing I found the unfitness of women to handle public
affairs, for the tender hearts, which make good wives and mothers and
daughters, unfit us for the judicial conduct needed in public
mattersand I'm glad they do, she finished, with a smile.
It's not, Danvers amended, as he stood with his arm about her,
that women have not the ability to do anything they want, for he was
ever chivalrous, but that God in his wisdom gave them a great and
special work, and they should be kept strong and safe and holy for its
But it is not given to all women to choose what they shall do,
And few of them are gifted creatures, anyhow, said Hugh.
And one life can never be as another, said I; but the older baby,
who looked up just then, said, Mother.
And that one word tells the whole story, cried Nancy, with a
passion of tenderness in her voice, laying the child's head against her