The Dust Flower
by Basil King
THE DUST FLOWER
Printed in the U. S. A.
It is not often that you see a man tear his hair, but this is
exactly what Rashleigh Allerton did. He tore it, first, because of
being under the stress of great agitation, and second, because he had
it to teara thick, black shock with a tendency to part in the middle,
but brushed carefully to one side. Seated on the extreme edge of one of
Miss Walbrook's strong, slender armchairs, his elbows on his knees, he
dug his fingers into the dark mass with every fresh taunt from his
She was standing over him, high-tempered, imperious. So it's come
to this, she said, with decision; you've got to choose between a
stupid, vulgar lot of men, and me.
He gritted his teeth. Do you expect me to give up all my friends?
All your friends! That's another matter. I'm speaking of half a
dozen profligates, of whom you seem determinedI must say it,
Rash; you force me to itof whom you seem determined to be one.
He jumped to his feet, a slim, good-looking, well-dressed figure in
spite of the tumbled effect imparted by excitement. But, good heavens,
Barbara, what have I been doing?
I don't pretend to follow you there. I only know the condition in
which you came here from the club last night.
He was honestly bewildered. Came here from the club last night?
Whywhy, I wasn't so bad.
Standing away from him, she twirled the engagement solitaire as if
resisting the impulse to snatch it off. That would be a question of
point of view, wouldn't it? If Aunt Marion hadn't been here
I'd only had
Please, Rash! I don't want to know the details.
But I want you to know them. I've told you a dozen times that if I
take so much as a cocktail or a glass of sherry I'm all in, when
another fellow can take ten times as much and not
Rash, dear, I haven't known you all my life without being quite
aware that you're excitable. 'Crazy Rash' we used to call you when we
were children, and Crazy Rash you are still. But that's not my point.
Your point is that that infernal old Aunt Marion of yours doesn't
She's not infernal, and she's not old, but it's true that she
doesn't like you. All the more reason, then, that when she gave her
consent to our engagement on condition that you'd give up your
He raced away from her to the other side of the room, turning to
face her like an exasperated animal at bay.
The room was noteworthy, and of curiously feminine refinement.
Expressing Miss Marion Walbrook as it did, it made no provision for the
coarse and lounging habits of men, Miss Walbrook's world being a
woman's world. All was straight, slender, erect, and hard in the way
that women like for occasions of formality. It was evident, too, that
Miss Walbrook's women friends were serious, if civilized. There was no
place here for the slapdash, smoking girl of the present day.
The tone which caught your eye was that of dusky gold, thrown out
first from the Chinese rug in imperial yellow, but reflected from a
score of surfaces in rich old satinwood, discreetly mounted in ormolu.
On the French-paneled walls there was but one picture, Sargent's
portrait of Miss Walbrook herself, an exquisite creature, with the
straight, thin lines of her own table legs and the grace which makes no
appeal to men. Not that she was of the type colloquially known as a
back number, or a person to be ignored. On the contrary, she was a
pioneer of the day after to-morrow, the herald of an epoch when the
blundering of men would be replaced by superior intelligence.
You must know these facts with regard to Miss Walbrook, the aunt, in
order to understand Miss Walbrook, the niece. The latter was not the
pupil of the former, since she was too intense and high-handed to be
the pupil of anyone. Nevertheless she had caught from her wealthy and
public-spirited relative certain prepossessions which guided her points
Without having beauty, Miss Barbara Walbrook impressed you as
Someone, and as Someone dressed by the most expensive houses in New
York. For beauty her lips were too full, her eyes too slanting, and her
delicate profile too much like that of an ancient Egyptian princess.
The princess was perhaps what was most underscored in her character,
the being who by some indefinable divine right is entitled to her own
way. She didn't specially claim her way; she only couldn't bear not
Rashleigh Allerton, being of the easy-going type, had no objection
to her getting her own way, but he sometimes rebelled against her
manner of taking it. So rebelling now, he tried to give her to
understand that he was master.
If you marry me, Barbe, you'll have to take me as I amdisgusting
habits and all.
It was the wrong tone, the whip to the filly that should have been
But I suppose there's no law to compel me to marry you.
Only the law of honor.
Her whole personality was aflame. You talk of honor!
Yes I talk of it. Why shouldn't I?
Do you know anything about it?
Would you marry a man who didn't?
I haven't married any oneas yet.
But you're going to marry me, I presume.
Considering the facts, that's a good deal in the way of
presumption, isn't it?
They reached the place to which they came once in every few weeks,
where each had the impulse to hurt the other cruelly.
If it's so much presumption as all that, he demanded, what's the
meaning of that ring?
Oh, I don't have to go on wearing it. Crossing the room she pulled
it off and held it out toward him Do you want it back?
He shrank away from her. Don't be a fool Barbe. You may go too
That's what I'm afraid ofthat I've gone too far already.
In what way?
In the way that's brought us face to face like this. If I'd never
promised to marry you I shouldn't now have toto reconsider.
Oh, so that's it. You're reconsidering.
Don't you see that I have to? If you make me as unhappy as you can
before marriage, what'll it be afterward?
And how happy are you making me?
Holding the ring between the thumb and forefinger of the right hand,
she played at putting it back, without doing it. So there you are!
Isn't that another reason for reconsideringfor both of us?
Don't you care anything about me?
You make it difficultafter such an exhibition as that of last
night, right before Aunt Marion. Can't you imagine that there are
situations in which I feel ashamed?
It was then that he spoke the words which changed the current of his
life. And can't you imagine that there are situations in which I
resent being badgered by a bitter-tongued old maid, to say nothing of a
girl He knew how crazy he was, but the habit of getting beyond
his own control was one of long standingto say nothing of a girl
who's more like an old maid than a woman going to be married.
With a renewed attempt at being master he pointed at the ring which
she was still holding within an inch of its finger. Put that back.
I think not.
Then if you don't
Plunging his hands into the pockets of his coat, he began tearing up
and down the room. Look here, Barbe. This kind of thing can't possibly
Which is what I'm trying to tell you, isn't it?
Very well, then; we can stop it.
Certainlyin one way.
The way of getting married, with no more shilly-shallying about
On the principle that if you're hanging over a precipice the best
thing you can do is to fall.
He continued to race up and down the room, all nerves and frenzy.
Don't we care about each other?
She answered carefully. I think you care about me to the extent
that you believe I'd make a good mistress of the house your mother left
you, and which, you say, is like an empty sepulcher. If you didn't have
it on your hands, I don't imagine it would have occurred to you to ask
Well, that's all right. Now what about you?
You've already answered that question for yourself. She stiffened
haughtily. I'm an old maid. I haven't been brought up by Aunt Marion
for nothing. I've an old maid's ways and outlooks and habits. I
resented your saying it a minute ago, and yet it's true. I've known for
years that it was true. It wouldn't be fair for me to marry any man. So
here it is, Rash. Crossing the floor-space she held out the ring
again. You might as well take it first as last.
He drew back from her, his features screwed up like those of a
tragic mask. Do you mean it?
Do I seem to be making a joke?
Averting his face, he swept the mere sight of the ring away from
him. I won't touch the thing.
And I can't keep it. So there!
It fell with a little shivery sound to a bare spot on the floor,
rolling to the edge of a rug, where it stopped. Each looked down at it.
So you mean to send me to the devil! All right! Just watch and
you'll see me go.
She was walking away from him, but turned again. If you mean by
that that you put the responsibility for your abominable life on
Abominable life! Me! Just because I'm not one of the white-blooded
Nancies which your aunt thinks the only ones fit to be called men
But he couldn't go on. He was choking. The sole relief to his
indignation was in once more tearing round the room, while Miss
Walbrook moved to the fluted white mantelpiece, where, with her foot
resting on the attenuated Hunt Diedrich andirons she bowed her head
against an attenuated Hunt Diedrich antelope in bronze.
She was not softened or repentant. She knew she would become so
later; but she knew too that her tempers had to work themselves off by
degrees. Their quarrels having hitherto been rendered worth while by
their reconciliations, she took it for granted that the same thing
would happen once more though, as she expressed it to herself, she
would have died before taking the first step. The obvious thing was for
him to pick up the ring from off the floor, bring it to her humbly
while her back was turned on him, and beseech her to allow him to slip
it on where it belonged; whereupon she would consider as to whether she
would do so or not. In her present frame of mind, so she told herself,
she would not. Nothing would induce her to do anything of the kind. He
had betrayed the fact that he knew something as to which she was
desperately sensitive, which other people knew, but which she had
always supposed to have escaped his observationthat she was like an
She was. She was only twenty-five, but she had been like an old maid
at fifteen. It had been a joke till she was twenty, after which it had
continued as a joke to her friends, but a grief to herself. She was
distinguished, aristocratic, intellectual, accomplished, and Aunt
Marion would probably see to it that she was left tolerably well off;
nevertheless she had picked up from her aunt, or perhaps had inherited
from the same source, the peculiar quality of the woman who would
probably not marry. Because she knew it and bewailed it, it had come
like a staggering blow to learn that Rash knew it, and perhaps bewailed
it too. The least he could do to atone for that offense would be to beg
her, to implore her on his bended knees, to wear his ring again; and
she might not do it even then.
The dramatic experience was worth waiting for, however, and so with
spirit churning she leaned her hot brow against the thin, cool flank of
Hunt Diedrich's antelope. She knew by the fierce grinding of his steps
on the far side of the room that he hadn't yet picked up the ring; but
there was no hurry as to that. Since she would never, never forgive him
for knowing what she thought he didn't knowforgive him in her heart,
that was to saynot if she married him ten times over, or to the
longest day he lived, there was plenty of time for reaching friendly
terms again. Her anger had not yet blown off, nor had she stabbed him
hard enough. As with most people subject to storms of hot temper,
stabs, given and received, were all in her day's work. They relieved
for the moment the pressure of emotion, leaving no permanent ill-will
She heard him come to a halt, but did not turn to look at him.
So it's all over!
As a peg on which to hang a retort the words would serve as well as
any others. It seems so, doesn't it?
And you don't care whether I go to the devil or not?
What's the good of my caring when you seem determined to do it
He allowed a good minute to pass before saying, Well, if you don't
marry me some other woman will.
Very likely; and if you make her a promise to reform I hope you'll
keep your word.
She won't be likely to exact any such condition.
Then you'll probably be happier with her than you could have been
Having opened up the way for him to make some protest to which she
could have remained obdurate, she waited for it to come. But nothing
did come. Had she turned, she would have seen that he had grown white,
that his hands were clenched and his lips compressed after a way he had
and that his wild, harum-scarum soul was worked up to an extraordinary
intensity; but she didn't turn. She was waiting for him to pick up the
ring, creep along behind her, and seize the hand resting on the
mantelpiece, according to the ritual she had mentally foreordained. But
without stooping or taking a step he spoke again.
I picked up a book at the club the other day.
Not being interested, she made no response.
It was the life of an English writing-guy.
Though wondering what he was working up to, she still held her
Gissing, the fellow's name was. Ever hear of him?
The question being direct, she murmured: Yes; of course. What of
Ever hear how he got married?
Not that I remember.
When something went wrongI've forgotten whathe went out into
the street with a vow. It was a vow to marry the first woman he met
who'd marry him.
A shiver went through her. It was just such a foolhardy thing as
Rashleigh himself was likely to attempt. She was afraid. She was
afraid, and yet reangered just when her wrath was beginning to die
And he did it! he cried, with a force in which it was impossible
for her not to catch a note of personal implication.
It was unlikely that he could be trying to trap her by any such
cheap melodramatic threat as this; and yet
When several minutes had gone by in a silence which struck her soon
as awesome, she turned slowly round, only to find herself alone.
She ran into the hall, but there was no one there. He must have gone
downstairs. Leaning over the baluster, she called to him.
But only Wildgoose, the manservant, answered from below. Mr.
Allerton had just left the 'ouse, miss.
While Allerton and Miss Walbrook had been conducting this debate a
dissimilar yet parallel scene was enacted in a mean house in a mean
street on the other side of the Park. Viewed from the outside, the
house was one of those survivals of more primitive times which you will
still run across in the richest as well as in the poorest districts of
New York. A tiny wooden structure of two low stories, it connected with
the sidewalk by a flight of steps of a third of the height of the whole
façade. Flat-roofed and clap-boarded, it had once been painted gray
with white facings, but time, weather, and soot had defaced these neat
colors to a hideous pepper-and-salt.
Within, a toy entry led directly to a toy stairway, and by a door on
the left into a toy living-room. In the toy living-room a man of
forty-odd was saying to a girl of perhaps twenty-three,
So you'll not give it up, won't you?
The girl cringed as the man stood over her, but pressing her hand
over something she had slipped within the opening at the neck of her
cheap shirtwaist, she maintained her ground. The face she raised to him
was at once terrified and determined, tremulous with tears and yet
defiant with some new exercise of will power.
No, I'll not give it up.
He said it quietly enough, the menace being less in his tone than in
himself. He was so plainly the cheap sport bully that there could have
been nothing but a menace in his personality. Flashy male good looks
got a kind of brilliancy from a set of big, strong teeth the whiter for
their contrast with a black, brigand-like mustache. He was so well
dressed in his cheap sport way as to be out of keeping with the
dilapidation of the room, in which there was hardly a table or a chair
which stood firmly on its legs, or a curtain or a covering which didn't
reek with dust and germs. A worn, thin carpet gaped in holes; what had
once been a sofa stood against a wall, shockingly disemboweled. Through
a door ajar one glimpsed a toy kitchen where the stove had lost a leg
and was now supported by a brick. It was plain that the master of the
house was one of those for whom any lair is sufficient as a home as
long as he can cut a dash outside.
Quiveringly, as if in terror of a blow, the girl explained herself
breathlessly: The castin' director sent for me just as I was makin'
tracks for home. He ast me if this was the on'y suit I had. When I
'lowed it was, he just said he couldn't use me any more till I got a
The man took the tone of superior masculine knowledge. That wasn't
nothin' but bull. What if he does chuck you? I know every movin'
picture studio round N'York. I'll get you in somewheres else. Come now,
Letty. Fork out. I need the berries. I owe some one. I was only waitin'
for you to come home.
She clutched her breast more tightly. I gotta have a new suit
Well, I'll buy you a new suit when I get the bones. Didn't I give
you this one?
She continued, still breathlessly: Two years agoa marked-down
misses' it was even thenall right if I was on'y sixteenbut now when
I'm near twenty-threeand it's in rags anyhowand all out of
styleand in pitchers you've gotta be
They'se plenty pitchers where they want that characterto pass in
a crowd, and all that.
To pass in a crowd once or twice, yes; but when all you can do is
to pass in a crowd, and wear the same old rig every time you pass in
He cut her protests short by saying, with an air of finality: Well,
anyhow I've got to have the bucks. Can't go out till I get 'em. So
With lips compressed and eyes swimming, she shook her head.
Better do it. You'll be sorry if you don't. I can pass you that tip
If you was laughed at every time you stepped onto the lot
There's worse things than bein' laughed at. I can tell you that
Nothin's worse than bein' laughed at, not for a girl of my age
Watching his opportunity he caught her off her guard. Her eyes
having wandered to the coat she had just taken off, a worn gray thing
with edgings of worn gray squirrel fur, he wrenched back with an
unexpected movement the hand that clutched something to her breast,
thrust two fingers of his other hand within her corsage, and extracted
It took her by such surprise that she was like a mad thing, throwing
herself upon him and battling for her treasure, though any possibility
of her getting it back from him was hopeless. It was so easy for him to
catch her by the wrists and twist them that he laughed while he was
You little cat! You see what you bring on yourself. And you're
goin' to get worse. I can tell you that straight now.
Still twisting her arms till she writhed, though without a moan or a
cry, he backed her toward the disemboweled sofa, on whose harsh,
exposed springs she fell. Then he sprang on her a new surprise.
How dare you wear them rings? They was your mother's rings. I
bought and paid for 'em. They're mine.
Oh, don't take them off, she begged. You can keep the money
Sure I can keep the money, he grinned, wrenching from her fingers
the plain gold band he had given her mother as a wedding ring, as well
as another, bigger, broader, showier, and set with two infinitesimal
white points claiming to be diamonds.
Though he had released her hands, she now stretched them out toward
him pleadingly. Aw, give 'em back to me. They'se all I've got in the
world to care aboutjust because she wore 'em. You can take anything
else I've got
All right, then. I'll take this.
With a deftness which would have done credit to a professor of
legerdemain he unbuckled the strap of her little wrist-watch, putting
the thing into his pocket.
I give that to your mother too. You don't need it, and it may be
useful to me. What else have you got?
She struggled to her feet. He was growing more dangerous than she
had ever known him to be even when he had beaten her.
I ain't got nothin' else.
Oh, yes, you have. You gotta purse. I seen you with it. Where is
The fear in her eyes sent his toward her jacket, thrown on the chair
when she had come in. With an Ah! of satisfaction he pounced on it.
As he held it upside down and shook it, a little leather wallet
clattered to the floor. She sprang for it, but again he was too quick
So! he snarled, with his glittering grin. You thought you'd get
it, did you? He rattled the few coins, copper and silver, into the
palm of his hand, and unfolded a one-dollar bill. You must owe me this
money. Who's give you bed and board for the last ten year, I'd like to
know? How much have you ever paid me?
Only all I ever earnedwhich you stole from me.
Stole from you, did I? Well, you won't fling that in my face any
more. He handed her her coat. Put that on, he commanded.
What for? She held it without obeying the order. What's the good
o' goin' out and me without a cent?
Put it on.
Her lip quivered; she began to suspect his intention. I do' wanta.
Oh, very well! Please yourself. You got your hat on already.
Seizing her by the shoulders he steered her toward the door. Now
Though she refused to march, it was not difficult for him to force
This'll teach you to valyer a good home when you got one. You'll
deserve to find the next one different.
She almost shrieked: You're not going to turn me out?
Well, what does it look as if I was doin'?
I won't go! I won't go! Where can I go?
What I'm doin' 'll help you to find out.
He had her now in the entry, where in spite of her struggles he had
no difficulty in unlocking the door, pushing her out, and relocking the
door behind her.
Lemme in! Lemme in! Oh, please, lemme in!
He stood in the middle of the living-room, listening with pleasure
and smiling his brigand's smile. He was not as bad as you might think.
He did mean to let her in eventually. His smile and his pleasure sprang
purely from the fact that his lesson was so successful. With this in
her mind, she wouldn't withstand him a second time.
She rattled the door by the handle. She beat upon the panels. She
Still smiling, he filled his pipe. Let her keep it up. It would do
her good. He remembered that once when he had turned her mother out at
night, she had sat on the steps till he let her in at dawn before the
police looked round that way. History would repeat itself. The daughter
would do the same. He was only giving her the lesson she deserved.
Meanwhile she was experiencing a new sensation, that of outrage. For
the first time in her life she was swept by pride in revolt. She hadn't
known that any such emotion could get hold of her. As a matter of fact
she hadn't known that so strong a support to the inner man lay within
the depths of human nature. Accustomed to being cowed, she had hardly
understood that there was any other way to feel. Only within a day or
two had something which you or I would have called spirit, but for
which she had no name, disturbed her with unexpected flashes, like
those of summer lightning.
While waiting for the camera, for instance, in the street scene in
The Man with the Emerald Eye, a fresh thing had said, with a wink
at her companions, Say, did you copy that suit from a pattern in
Letty had so carefully minded her own business and tried to be nice
to every one that the titter which went round at her expense hurt her
with a wound impelling her to reply, No; I ordered it at Margot's. You
look as if you got your things there too, don't you? Nevertheless, she
was so stung by the sarcasm that the commendation she overheard later,
that the Gravely kid had a tongue, didn't bring any consolation.
Without knowing that what she felt now was an intensified form of
the same rebellion against scorn, she knew it was not consistent with
some inborn sense of human dignity to stand there pleading to be let
into a house from which she was locked out, even though it was the only
spot on earth she could call home. Still less was it possible when,
round the foot of the steps, a crowd began to gather, jeering at her
passionate beseechings. For the most part they were children, Slavic,
Semitic, Italian. Amid their cries of, Go it, Sis! now in English and
now in strange equivalents of Latin, or Polish, or even Hebraic origin,
she was suddenly arrested by the consciousness of personal humiliation.
She turned from the door to face the street. It was one of those
streets not rare in New York which the civic authorities abandon in
despair. A gash of children and refuse cut straight from river to Park,
it got its chief movement from push-carts of fruit and other foods,
while the wash of five hundred families blew its banners overhead.
Vendors of all kinds uttered their nasal or raucous cries, in
counterpoint to the treble screams of little boys and girls.
Letty had always hated it, but it was something more than hatred
which she felt for it now. Beyond the children adults were taking a
rest from the hawking profession to comment with grins on the sight of
a girl locked out of her own home. She was probably a very bad girl to
call for that kind of treatment, and therefore one on whom they should
spend some derision.
They were spending it as she turned. It was an experience on a large
scale of what the girl in the studio had inflicted. She was a thing to
be scorned, and of all the hardships in the world scorn, now that she
was aware of it, was the one she could least submit to.
So pride came to her rescue. Throwing her coat across her arm she
went down the steps, passed through the hooting children, one or two of
whom pulled her by the skirt, passed through the bearded Jews, and the
bronzed Italians, and the flat-nosed Slavs, passed through the women
who had come out on the sidewalk at this accentuation of the daily din,
passed through the barrows and handcarts and piles of cabbages and
fruit, and went her way.
Exactly at this minute Rashleigh Allerton was standing outside Miss
Walbrook's door, glancing up and down Fifth Avenue and over at the
Park. It was the hour after luncheon when pedestrians become numerous.
For his purpose they could not be very numerous; they must be
reasonably spaced apart.
And already a veritable stream of women had begun to flow down the
long, gentle slope, while a few, like fish, were stemming the current
by making progress against it. None of them was his affair. Young,
old, short, tall, blond, brunette, they were without exception of the
class indiscriminately lumped as ladies. Since you couldn't go to the
devil because you had married a lady, even on the wild hypothesis that
one of these sophisticated beings would without introduction or
formality marry him, it would be better not to let himself in for the
absurdity of the proposal. When there was a break in the procession, he
darted across the street and made his way into the Park.
Here there was no one in sight as far as the path continued without
a bend. He was going altogether at a venture. Round the curve of the
woodland way there might swing at any second the sibyl who would point
his life downward.
He was aware, however, that in sibyls he had a preference. If she
was to send him to the devil, she must be of the type which he
qualified as a drab. Without knowing the dictionary meaning of the
word, he felt that it implied whatever would contrast most revoltingly
with Barbara Walbrook. Seeing with her own eyes to what she had driven
him, her heart would be wrung. That was all he asked for, the wringing
of her heart. It might be a mad thing for him to punish himself so
terribly just to punish her, but he was mad anyhow. Madness gave him
the satisfaction which some men got from thrift, and others from
cleverness. He would keep the vow with which he had slipped out of Miss
Walbrook's drawing room. It was all that life had left for him.
That was, he wouldn't pick and choose. He would take them as they
came. He had not stipulated with himself that she must be a drab. It
was only what he hoped. She must be the first woman he met who would
marry him. Age, appearance, refinement, vulgarity were not to be
considered. Picking and choosing on his part would only take his
destiny out of the hands of Fate, where he preferred that it should
Had any one passed him, he would have seemed the more perturbed
because of his being so well-dressed. He was one of the few New Yorkers
as careful of appearances as many Londoners. With the finish that comes
of studied selection in hat, stick, and gloves, as well as all small
accessories of the costliest, he might have been going to or coming
from a wedding.
He was imposing, therefore, to a short, stout, elderly woman with
whom he suddenly found himself face to face as the path took a sharp
sweep to the south. The shrubs which had kept them hidden from each
other gave place here to open stretches of lawn. When Allerton paused
and lifted his hat, the woman naturally paused, too.
She was a red-faced woman crowned with a bonnet of the style
introduced by Mrs. Langtry in 1878, but worn on this occasion some
degrees off center. On her arm she carried a flat basket of which the
contents, decently covered with a towel, might have been freshly
laundered shirts. Being stopped by a gentleman of Allerton's
impressiveness and plainly suffering expression, her face grew motherly
Madam, I wish to ask if you'll marry me?
Even a dull brain couldn't fail to catch words hammered out with
this force of precision. The woman didn't wait to have them repeated.
Dropping her basket as it was, she took to flight. Flight was the word.
A modern Atalanta of Wellesley or Bryn Mawr might have envied the
chamois leaps which took the good creature across the grass to the
protection of a man with a lawn-mower.
Allerton couldn't pause to watch her, for a new sibyl was advancing.
To his disgust rather than not, she was young and pretty, a nursemaid
pushing a baby-cart into which a young man of two was strapped. While
far more likely to take him than the stout old party still skipping the
greensward like a mountain roe, she would be much less plausible as a
reason for going to the evil one. But a vow was a vow, and he was in
His approach was the same as on the previous occasion. Lifting his
hat ceremoniously, he said with the same distinctness of utterance,
Madam, I wish to ask if you'll marry me?
The girl, who had paused when he did, leaned on the pusher of her
go-cart, studying him calmly. Chewing something with a slow, rotary
movement of the lips and chin, she broke the action with a snap before
quite completing the circle, to begin all over again. Oh, you do, do
you? was her quiet response.
If you please.
She studied him again, with the same semi-circular motion of the
jaw. She might have been weighing his proposal.
Say, is this one of them club initiation stunts, or have you just
got a noive?
Am I to take that as a yes or a no?
And am I to take you as one of them smart-Alecks, or a coily-headed
He saw a way out. I'm generally considered a curly-headed nut.
Then it's me for the exit-in-case-of-fire, so ta-ta. She laughed
back at him over her shoulder. Wish you luck with your next.
But fate was already on him in another form. A lady of fifty or
thereabouts was coming up the path, refined, sedate, mistress of
herself, the one type of all others most difficult to accost. All the
same he must do it. He must keep on doing it till some one yielded to
his suit. The rebuffs to which he had been subjected did no more than
inflame his will.
Approaching the new sibyl with the same ceremoniousness, he repeated
the same words in the same precise tone. The lady stood off, eyed him
majestically through a lorgnette, and spoke with a force which came
I know who you are. You're Rashleigh Allerton. You ought to be
ashamed with a shame that would strike you to the ground. I'm a friend
of Miss Marion Walbrook's. I'm on my way to see her and shall not
mention this encounter. We work on the same committee of the League for
the Suppression of Men's Clubs. The lamentable state in which I see you
convinces me once more of the need of our work, if our men are to
become as we hope to see them. I bid you a good afternoon.
With the dignity of a queen she passed on and out of sight, leaving
him with the sting of a whiplash on his face.
But the name of Miss Walbrook, connected with that of the League
which was her pet enthusiasm for the public weal, only served as an
incitement. He would go through with it now at any cost. By nightfall
he would be at police-headquarters for insulting women, or he would
have found a bride.
Walking on again, the path was clear before him as far as he could
see. Having thus a few minutes to reflect, he came to the conclusion
that his attacks had been too precipitate. He should feel the ground
before him, leading the sibyl a little at a time, so as to have her
mentally prepared. There were methods of getting acquainted to which
he should apply himself first of all.
But getting acquainted with the old Italian peasant woman, bowed
beneath a bundle, who was the next he would have to confront, being out
of the question, he resolved to side-step destiny by slipping out of
the main path and following a branch one. Doing so, he came into less
frequented regions, while his steps took him up a low hill burnished
with the tints of mid-October. Trees and shrubs were flame-colored,
copper-colored, wine-colored, differing only in their diffuseness of
hue from the concentrated gorgeousness of amaranth, canna, and
gladiolus. The sounds of the city were deadened here to a dull rumble,
while the vibrancy of the autumn afternoon excited his taut nerves.
At the top of the hill he paused. There was no one in sight who
could possibly respond to his quest. He wondered for a second if this
were not a hint to him to abandon it. But doing that he would abandon
his revenge, and by abandoning his revenge he would concede everything
to this girl who had so bitterly wronged him. Ever since he could
remember they had been pals, and for at least ten years he had vaguely
thought of asking her to marry him when it came to his seeking a wife.
It was true, the hint she had thrown out, that he had felt himself in
no great need of a wife till his mother had died some eighteen months
previously, and he had found himself with a cumbrous old establishment
on his hands. That had given the decisive turn to his suit. He had
asked her. She had taken him. And since then, in the course of less
than ten weeks, if they had had three quarrels they had had thirty. He
had taken them all more or less good-naturedlytill to-day. To-day was
too much. He could hardly say why it was too much, unless it was as the
last straw, but he felt it essential to his honor to show her by actual
demonstration the ruin she had made of him.
Looking about him for another possibility, he noticed that at the
spot where the path, having serpentined down the little hillside,
rejoined the main footway there was a bench so placed that its occupant
would have a view along several avenues at once. Since it was obviously
a vantage point for such strategy as his, he had taken the first steps
down toward it when a little gray figure emerged from behind a group of
blue Norway spruces. She went dejectedly to the bench, sitting down at
an extreme end of it.
Wrought up to a fit of tension far from rare with him, Allerton
stood with his nails digging into his clenched palms and his thin lips
pressed together. He was sure he was looking at a drab. All the
shoddy, outcast meanings he had read into the word were under the
bedraggled feathers of this battered black hat or compressed within the
forlorn squirrel-trimmed gray suit. The dragging movement, the hint of
dropping on the seat not from fatigue but from desperation, completed
the picture his imagination had already painted of some world-worn,
knocked-about creature who had come to the point at which, in his own
phrase, she was all in.
As far as this described Letty Gravely, he was wrong. She was not
all in. She was never more mentally alert than at that very minute.
If she moved slowly, if she sank on the seat as if too beaten down by
events to do more, it was because her mind was so intensely centered on
her immediate problems.
She had, in fact, just formed a great resolution. Whatever became of
her, she would never go back to Judson Flack, her stepfather. This had
not been clearly in her mind when she had gone down his steps and
walked away, but the occasion presented itself now as one to be seized.
In seizing it, however, the alternatives were difficult. She was
without a cent, a shelter, a job, a friend, or the prospect of a meal.
It was probable that there was not at that minute in New York a human
being so destitute. Before nightfall she would have to find some
nominal motive for living or be arrested as a vagrant.
She was not appalled. For the first time in her life she was
relatively free from fear. Even with nothing but her person as she
stood, she was her own mistress. No big dread hung over herthat is,
no big dread of the kind represented by Judson Flack. She might jump
into the river or go to the bad, but in either case she would do it of
her own free will. Merely to have the exercise of her own free will
gave her the kind of physical relief which a human being gets from
stretching limbs cramped and crippled by chains.
Besides, there was in her situation an underlying possibility of
adventure. This she didn't phrase, since she didn't understand it. She
only had the intuition in her heart that where the world is all before
you, where to choose your place of rest, and Providence your guide,
Providence becomes your guide. Verbally she put it merely in the
words, Things happen, though as to what could happen between
half-past three in the afternoon and midnight, when she would possibly
be in jail, she could not begin to imagine.
So absorbed was she in this momentous uncertainty that she scarcely
noticed that some one had seated himself at the other end of the bench.
It was a public place; it was likely that some one would. She felt
neither curiosity nor resentment. A lack of certain of the feminine
instincts, or their retarded development, left her without interest in
the fact that the newcomer was a man. From the slight glance she had
given him when she heard his step, she judged him to be what she
estimated as an elderly man, quite far into the thirties.
She went back to her own thoughts which were practical. There were
certain measures which she could take at once, after which there would
be no return. Once more she was not appalled. She had lived too near
the taking of these steps to be shocked by them. Everything in life is
a question of relativity, and in the world which her mother had entered
on marrying Judson Flack the men were all so near the edge of the line
which separates the criminal from the non-criminal that it seemed a
natural thing when they crossed it, while the women....
But as her thoughts were dealing with this social problem in its
bearing on herself, her neighbor spoke.
Funny to watch those kids playing with the pup, isn't it?
She admitted that it was, that watching children and young animals
was a favorite sport with her. She answered simply, because being
addressed by strange men with whom she found herself in proximity was
sanctioned by the etiquette of her society. To resent it would be
putting on airs, besides which it would cut off social intercourse
between the sexes. It had happened to her many a time to have engaging
conversations with chance young men beside her in the subway, never
seeing them before or afterward.
So Allerton found getting acquainted easier than he had expected.
The etiquette of his society not sanctioning this directness of
response on her part, he drew the conclusion that she was accustomed to
meeting fellows halfway. As this was the sort of person he was
looking for, he found in the freedom nothing to complain of.
With the openness of her social type she gave details of her
biography without needing to be pressed.
You're a New York girl?
I am now. I didn't use to be.
What were you to begin with?
Momma brought me from Canada after my father died. That's why I
ain't got no friends here.
At this appeal for sympathy his glance stole suspiciously toward
her, finding his first conjectures somewhat but not altogether
verified. She was young apparently, and possibly pretty, though as to
neither point did he care. He would have preferred more past, more
mystery, more drama, but since you couldn't have everything, a
young person utterly unfit to be his wife would have to be enough. He
continued to draw out her story, not because he cared anything about
hearing it, but in order to spring his question finally without making
her think him more unbalanced than he was.
Your father was a Canadian?
Yes; a farmer. Momma used to say she was about as good to work a
farm as a cat to run a fire-engine. When he died, she sold out for four
thousand dollars and come to New York.
No, to have a good time. She'd never had a good time, momma hadn't,
and she was awful pretty. So she said she'd just blow herself to it
while she had the berries in her basket. That was how she met Judson
Flack. I suppose you know who he is. Everybody does.
I'm afraid I haven't the pleasure.
Oh, I don't know as you'd find it any big pleasure. Momma didn't,
not after she'd give him a try.
Who and what is he?
He calls hisself a man about town. I call him a bum. Poor momma
And wasn't happy, I suppose.
Not after he'd spent her wad, she wasn't. She was crazy about him,
and when she found out that all he'd cared about was her four thousand
plunkswell, it was her finish.
How long ago was that?
About four years now.
And what have you been doing in the meanwhile?
Keepin' house for Judson Flack most of the timetill I quit.
Oh, you've quit?
Sure I've quit. She was putting her better foot forward. Now I'm
He glanced at her again, having noticed already that she scarcely
glanced at him. Her profile was toward him as at first, an irregular
little profile of lifts and tilts, which might be appealing, but was
not beautiful. The boast of being in pictures, so incongruous with her
woefully dilapidated air, did not amuse him. He knew how large a place
a nominal connection with the stage took in the lives of certain
ladies. Even this poor little tramp didn't hesitate to make the claim.
And you're doing well?
She wouldn't show the white feather. Oh, so so! II get along.
You live by yourself?
II do now.
Don't you find it lonely?
Not so lonely as livin' with Judson Flack.
A faint implication that she might look to him for help stirred her
fierce independence. Gee, yes! I'mI'm doin' swell.
But you wouldn't mind a change, I suppose?
For the first time her eyes stole toward him, not in suspicion, and
still less in alarm, but in one of the intenser shades of curiosity. It
was almost as if he was going to suggest to her something off the
level but which would nevertheless be worth her while. She was used to
these procedures, not in actual experience but from hearing them talked
about. They made up a large part of what Judson Flack understood as
business. She felt it prudent to be as non-committal as possible.
I ain't so sure.
She meant him to understand that being tolerably satisfied with her
own way of life, she was not enthusiastic over new experiments.
His next observation was no surprise to her. I'm a lawyer.
She was sure of that. There were always lawyers in these
subterranean affairsshyster was a word she had heard applied to
themand this man looked the part. His thin face, clear-cut profile,
and skin which showed dark where he shaved, were all, in her judgment,
signs of the sinister. Even his clothes, from his patent leather shoes
with spats to his dark blue necktie with a pearl in it, were those
which an actor would wear in pictures to represent a shark.
She was turning these thoughts over in her mind when he spoke again.
I've an office, but I don't practise much. It takes all my time to
manage my own estate.
She didn't know what this meant. It sounded like farming, but you
didn't farm in New York, or do it from an office anyhow. I guess he's
one of them gold-brick nuts, she commented to herself, but he won't
put nothin' over on me.
In return for her biography he continued to give his, bringing out
his facts in short, hard statements which seemed to hurt him. It was
this hurting him which she found most difficult to reconcile with her
gold brick theory and the suspicion that he was a shark.
My father was a lawyer, too. Rather well known in his day. One time
ambassador to Vienna.
Ambassador to Vienna! She didn't know where Vienna was or the nature
of an ambassador, but she did know that it sounded grand, so she looked
at him attentively. It was either more gold brick or else....
Then something struck hersmote her would be perhaps the more
accurately descriptive word, since the effect was on her heart. This
man was sick. He was suffering. She had often seen women suffer, but
men rarely, and this was one of the rare instances. Something in her
was touched. She couldn't imagine why he talked to her or what he
wanted of her, but a pity which had never yet been called upon was
astir among her emotions.
As for the minute he said no more, her next words came out only
because she supposed them to betray the kindly interest of which he was
Then I suppose he left you a big fat wad.
Yes; but it doesn't do me any good. I mean, it doesn't make me
happywhen I'm not.
I guess it'd make you a good deal less happy if you didn't have
Perhaps so; I don't think about it either way. He added, after
tense compression of the lips; I'm all alone in the worldlike you.
She was sure now that something was coming, though of what nature
lay beyond her speculative power. She wondered if he could have fallen
in love with her at first sight, realizing a favorite dream she often
had in the subway. Hundreds of times she had beguiled the minutes by
selecting one or another of the wealthy lawyers and bankers, whom she
supposed to be her fellow-travelers there, seeing him smitten by a
glance at her, following her when she got out, and laying his heart and
coronet at her feet before she had run up the steps. If this man were
not a shyster lawyer or a gold brick nut, he might possibly be doing
It's about a girl, he burst out suddenly. Half an hour ago she
kicked me out.
Did she know you had all that dough?
Yes, she knew I had all that dough. But she said that since I was
going to the devil, I had better go. He drew a long breath. Well, I'm
goingperhaps quicker than she thinks.
Will you do yourself any good by that?
No, but I'll do her harm.
I'll show her what she's made of me.
She can't make anything of you in half an hour or in half a
yearnot so long as you've got your wad back of you. If you was to be
kicked out with your pay-envelope stole, and your mother's rings pulled
off your fingers, and her wrist-watch from your wrist, and even your
Is that what's happened to you?
Sure! Half an hour ago, too. Judson Flack! But why should I worry?
Something'll happen before night.
He became emphatic. Yes, and I'll tell you what it will be. You put
your finger on it just now when you said she couldn't make anything out
of men in half an hour. Well, it's got to be something that would take
just that timean hour at the mostand fatal. Now do you see?
She shook her head.
He swung fully round on her from his end of the bench. Think, he
As if with a premonitory notion of what he meant, she answered
coldly: What's the good o' me thinkin'? I've got nothin' to do with
You might have.
I can't imagine what, unless it'd be Realizing what she had
been about to say, she broke off in confusion, coloring to the eyes.
He nodded. I see you understand. I want you to come off somewhere
and marry me.
She took it more calmly than if she hadn't thought him mad.
Butbut you said you'd bebe goin' to the devil.
His look, his tone, conveyed the idea, which penetrated to her mind
but slowly. When it did, the surging color became a flush, hot and
So here it was again, the thing she had been running away from. It
had outwitted and outrun her, meeting her again just at the instant
when she thought she was shaking it off. She was so indignant with the
thing that she almost overlooked the man. She too swung round from
her end of the bench, so that they confronted each other, with the
length of the seat between them. It was her habit to put things
plainly, though now she did it with a burning heart.
This is the way you mean it, isn't it?you'd go to the devil
because you'd married me.
The half-minute before he answered was occupied not merely in
thinking what to say but in noticing, now that he had her in full-face,
that her large, brown irises seemed to be sprinkled with gold dust.
Otherwise her appearance struck him simply as blurred, as if it had
been brightly enough drawn as to color and line, only rubbed over and
defaced by the hand of misery.
I don't want you to get me wrong, he explained. It's not a
question of my marrying you in particular. I've said I'd marry the
first girl I met who'd marry me.
The gold-brown eyes scintillated with a thousand tiny stars. Say,
and am I the first?
No; you're the fourth. He added, so that she should be under no
misconception as to what he was about: You can take me or leave me.
That's up to you. But if you take me, I want you to understand that
it'll be on a purely business basis.
She repeated, as if to memorize the words, A purely business
Exactly. I'm not looking for a wife. I only want a woman to
marrya woman to whom I can point and say, See there! I've
And that'd be me.
If you undertook the job.
The job ofof bein' laughed atjeered at
I'd be the one who'd be laughed at and jeered at. Nobody would
think anything about you. They wouldn't remember how you looked or know
your name. If you got sick of it after a bit, and decided to cut and
run, you could do it. I'd see that you were well treatedfor the rest
of your life.
She studied him long and earnestly. Say, are you crazy?
I'm all on edge, if that's what you mean. But there's nothing for
you to be afraid of. I shan't do you any harm at any time.
You only want to do harm to yourself. I'd be like the awful kind o'
pill which a fellow'll swaller to commit suicide. She rose, not
without a dignity of her own. Well, mister, if I'm your fourth, I
guess you'll have to look about you for a fifth.
Where are you going?
He asked the question without rising. She answered as if her choice
of objectives was large.
Which means nowhere, doesn't it?
Oh, not exactly. It meansit meansthe first place I fetch up.
The first place you fetch up may be the police-station, if the
things you said just now are true.
The police-station is safe, anyways.
And you think the place I'd take you to wouldn't be. Well, you're
wrong. It'll be as safe as a church for as long as you like to stay;
and when you want to golots of money to go with.
Facing away from him toward the city, she said over her shoulder:
There's things money couldn't pay you for. Bein' looked down on is
She was about to walk on, but he sprang after her, catching her by
Look here! Be a sport. You've got the chance of your lifetime.
It'll mean no more to you than a part they'd give you in picturesjust
a rôleand pay you a lot better.
She was not blind to the advantages he laid before her. True, it
might be what she qualified as bull to get her into a trap; only she
didn't believe it. This man with the sick mind and anguished face was
none of the soft-spoken fiends whose business it is to ensnare young
girls. She knew all about them from living with Judson Flack, and
couldn't be mistaken. This fellow might be crazy, but he was what he
said. If he said he wouldn't do her any harm, he wouldn't. If he said
he would pay her well, he would. The main question was as to whether or
not, just for the sake of getting something to eat and a place to
sleep, she could deliberately put herself in a position in which the
man who had married her would have gone to the devil because he
had married her.
As he held her by the sleeve looking down at her, and she, half
turned, was looking up at him, this was the battle she was fighting.
Hitherto her impulse had been to run away from the scorn of her
inferiority; now she was asking herself what would happen if she took
up its challenge and fought it on its own ground. What if I do? was the
way the question framed itself, but aloud she made it.
If I said I would, what would happen first?
We'd go and get a license. Then we'd find a minister. After that I
should give you something to eat, and then I'd take you home.
Where would that be?
He gave her his address in East Sixty-seventh Street, only a few
doors from Fifth Avenue, but her social sophistication was not up to
the point of seeing the significance of this. Neither did her
imagination try to picture the home or to see it otherwise than as an
alternative to the police-station, or worse, as a lodging for the
And what would happen to me when I got to your home?
You'd have your own room. I shouldn't interfere with you. You'd
hardly ever see me. You could stay as long as you liked or as short as
you liked, after the first week or two.
There was that about him which carried conviction. She believed him.
As an alternative to having nowhere to go, what he offered her was
something, and something with that spice of adventure of which she had
been dreaming only a few minutes earlier. She couldn't be worse off
than she was now, and if it gave her the chance of a hand-to-hand
tussle with the world-pride which had never done anything but look down
on her, she would be fighting what she held as her worst enemy. She
braced herself to say,
All right; I'll do it.
He, too, braced himself. Very well! Let's start.
The impetuosity of his motion almost took her breath away as she
tried to keep pace with him.
By the way, what's your name? he asked, before they reached Fifth
She told him, but was too overwhelmed with what she had undertaken
to dare to ask him his.
The strong cockney negative was also an exclamation. It came from
Mrs. Courage, the cook-housekeeper, who stood near the kitchen range
making the coffee for breakfast. She was a woman who looked her name,
born not merely to do battle, but to enjoy being in the midst of it.
Jane, the waitress, was the next to speak. Nettie Duckett, you
ought to be ashymed to sye them words, you that's been taught to 'ope
the best of everyone.
Jane had fluttered in from the pantry with the covered dish for the
toast. Jane still fluttered at her work, as she had done for the past
thirty years. The late Mrs. Allerton had liked her about the table
because she was swift, deft, and moved lightly. A thin little woman,
with a profile resembling that of Punch's Judy, and a smile of cheerful
piety, she yielded to time only by a process of drying up.
Nettie Duckett was quick in her own defense, but breathless, too,
from girlish laughter. I can't 'elp syin' what I see, now can I? There
she was 'arf dressed in the little back spare-room. Oh, the commonest
thing! You wouldn't 'a wanted to sweep 'er out with a broom.
Pretty goin's on I must sye, Jane commented. 'Ope the best of
everyone I will, but when you think that we was all on the top
Pretty goin's off there'll be, I can tell you that, Mrs. Courage
declared in her rich, decided bass. Just let me 'ave a word with
Master Rashleigh. I'll tell 'im what 'is ma would 'ave said. She left
'im to me, she did. 'Courage,' she's told me many a time, 'that boy'll
be your boy after I'm gone.' As good as mykin' a will, I call it. And
now to think that with us right 'ere in the 'ouse.... Where's Steptoe?
Do 'e know anything about it?
Do 'e know anything about what? The question came from Steptoe
himself, who appeared on the threshold.
The three women maintained a dramatic silence, while the old
butler-valet looked from one to another.
Seems as if there was news, he observed dryly.
Tell 'im, Nettie, Mrs. Courage commanded.
Nettie was the young thing of the establishment, Mrs. Courage's own
niece, brought from England when the housemaid's place fell vacant on
Bessie's unexpected marriage to Walter Wildgoose, Miss Walbrook's
indoor man. Indeed she had been brought from England before Bessie's
marriage, of which Mrs. Courage had had advance information, so that as
soon as Bessie left, Nettie was on the spot to be smuggled into the
Allerton household. Steptoe had not forgiven this underhand movement on
Mrs. Courage's part, seeing that in the long-ago both she and Jane had
been his own nominees, and that he considered the household posts as
gifts at his disposal. I'll 'ave to make a clean sweep o' the lot o'
them, he had more than once declared at those gatherings at which the
English butlers and valets of upper Fifth Avenue discuss their complex
of interests. Forty years in the Allerton family had made him not
merely its major-domo but in certain respects its head. His tone toward
Nettie was that of authority with a note of disapprobation.
Speak, girl, and do it without giggling. What 'ave you to tell?
Though she couldn't do it without giggling Nettie repeated the story
she had given to her aunt and Jane. She had gone into the small single
back bedroom on the floor below Mr. Allerton's, and there was a
half-dressed girl 'a-puttin' up of 'er 'air.' According to her own
statement Nettie had passed away on the spot, being able, however, to
articulate the question, What are you a'doin' of 'ere? To this the
young woman had replied that Mr. Allerton had brought her in on the
previous evening, telling her to sleep there, and there she had slept.
Nettie's information could go no further, but it was considered to go
So what do you sye to that? Mrs. Courage demanded of
Steptoe; you that's always so ready to defend my young lord?
Steptoe was prepared to stand back to back with his employer. I
don't defend 'im. I'm not called on to defend 'im. It's Mr. Rashleigh's
'ouse. Any guest of 'is must be your guest and mine.
And what about Miss Walbrook, 'er that's to be missus 'ere in the
course of a few weeks?
Steptoe colored, frostily. She's not missus 'ere yet; and if she
ever comes, there'll be stormy weather for all of us. New missuses
don't generally get on with old servants like usthat's been in the
family for so many yearsbut when they don't, it ain't them as gets
A bell rang sharply. Steptoe sprang to attention.
There's Mr. Rashleigh now. Don't you women go to mykin' a to-do.
There's lots o' troubles that 'ud never 'ave 'appened if women 'ad been
able to 'old their tongues.
But I suppose, Steptoe, you don't deny that there's such a thing as
I don't deny that there's such a thing as right, Mrs. Courage, but
I only wonder if you knows more about it than the rest of us.
In Allerton's room Steptoe found the young master of the house half
dressed. Standing before a mirror, he was brushing his hair. His face
and eyes, the reflection of which Steptoe caught in the glass, were
like those of a man on the edge of going insane.
The old valet entered according to his daily habit and without
betraying the knowledge of anything unusual. All the same his heart was
sinking, as old hearts sink when beloved young ones are in trouble. The
boy was his darling. He had been with his father for ten years before
the lad was born, and had watched his growth with a more than paternal
devotion. 'E's all I 'ave, he often said to himself, and had been
known to let out the fact in the afore-mentioned group of English upper
servants, a small but exclusive circle in the multiplex life of New
In Steptoe's opinion Master Rash had never had a chance. Born many
years after his parents had lived together childlessly, he had come
into the world constitutionally neurasthenic. Steptoe had never known a
boy who needed more to be nursed along and coaxed along by affection,
and now and then by indulgence. Instead, the system of severity had
been applied with results little short of calamitous. He had been sent
to schools famous for religion and discipline, from which he reacted in
the first weeks of freedom in college, getting into dire academic
scrapes. Further severity had led to further scrapes, and further
scrapes to something like disgrace, when the war broke out and a Red
Cross job had kept him from going to the bad. The mother had been a
self-willed and selfish woman, claiming more from her son than she ever
gave him, and never perceiving that his was a nature requiring a
peculiar kind of care. After her death Steptoe had prayed for a kind,
sweet wife to come to the boy's rescue, and the answer had been Miss
When the engagement was announced, Steptoe had given up hope. Of
Miss Walbrook as a woman he had nothing to complain. Walter Wildgoose
reported her a noble creature, splendid, generous, magnificent, only
needing a strong hand. She was of the type not to be served but to be
mastered. Rashleigh Allerton would goad her to frenzy, and she would do
the same by him. She was already doing it. For weeks past Steptoe could
see it plainly enough, and what would happen after they were married
God alone knew. For himself he saw no future but to hang on after the
wedding as long as the new mistress of the house would allow him, take
his dismissal as an inevitable thing, and sneak away and die.
It was part of Steptoe's training not to notice anything till his
attention was called to it. So having said his Good-morning, sir, he
went to the closet, took down the hanger with the coat and waistcoat
belonging to the suit of which he saw that Allerton had put on the
trousers, and waited till the young man was ready for his
Allerton was still brushing his hair, as he said over his shoulder:
There's a young woman in the house, Steptoe. Been here all night.
Yes, sir; I knowin the little back spare-room.
Who told you?
Nettie went in for a pincushion, Mr. Rash, and the young woman was
a-doin' of 'er 'air.
What did Nettie say?
It ain't what Nettie says, sir, if I may myke so bold. It's what
Mrs. Courage and Jane says.
Tell Mrs. Courage and Jane they needn't be alarmed. The young woman
is Steptoe caught the spasm which contracted the boy's facethe
young woman ismy wife.
Quite so, sir.
If Allerton went no further, Steptoe could go no further; but
inwardly he was like a man reprieved at the last minute, and against
all hope, from sentence of death. Then it won't be 'er, was
all he could say to himself, 'er being Barbara Walbrook. Whatever
calamity had happened, that calamity at least would be escaped, which
was so much to the good.
His arms trembled so that he could hardly hold up the waistcoat for
Allerton to slip it on. But he didn't slip it on. Instead he wheeled
round from the mirror, threw the brushes with a crash to the toilet
table, and cried with a rage all the more raging for being impotent:
Steptoe, I've been every kind of fool.
Yes, sir, I expect so.
You've got to get me out of it, Steptoe. You must find a way to
I'll do my best, sir. The joy of cooperation with the lad almost
made up for the anguish at his anguish. What 'ud it beyou must
excuse me, Mr. Rashbut what 'ud it be that you'd like me to save you
Allerton threw out his arms. From this crazy marriage. This
frightful mix-up. I went right off the handle yesterday. I was an
infernal idiot. And now I'm in for it. Something's got to be done,
Steptoe, and I can't think of any one but you to do it.
Quite so, sir. Will you 'ave your wystcoat on now, sir? You're
ready for it, I see. I'll think it over, Mr. Rash, and let you know.
While first the waistcoat and then the coat were extended and
slipped over the shoulders, Allerton did his best to put Steptoe in
possession of the mad facts of the previous day. Though the account he
gave was incoherent, the old man understood enough.
It wasn't her fault, you must understand, Allerton explained
further, as Steptoe brushed his hat. She didn't want to. I persuaded
her. I wanted to do something that would wring Miss Walbrook's
heartand I've done it! Wrung my own, too! What's to become of me,
Steptoe? Is the best thing I can do to shoot myself? Think it over. I'm
ready to. I'm not sure that it wouldn't be a relief to get out of this
rotten life. I'm all on edge. I could jump out of that window as easily
as not. But it wasn't the girl's fault. She's a poor little waif of a
thing. You must look after her and keep me from seeing her again, but
she's not badonlyonlyOh, my God! my God!
He covered his face with his hands and rocked himself about, so that
Steptoe was obliged to go on brushing till his master calmed himself.
Do you think, sir, he said then, that this is the 'at to go with
this 'ere suit? I think as the brown one would be a lot chickertone
in with the sort of fawn stripe in the blue like, and ketch the note in
your tie. He added, while diving into the closet in search of the
brown hat and bringing it out, There's one thing I could say right
now, Mr. Rash, and I think it might 'elp.
What is it?
Do you remember the time when you 'urt your leg 'unting down in
Yes; what about it?
You was all for not payin' it no attention and for 'oppin' about as
if you 'adn't 'urt it at all. A terr'ble fuss you myde when the doctor
said as you was to keep still. Anybody 'ud 'ave thought 'e'd bordered a
hamputation. And yet it was keepin' still what got you out o' the
trouble, now wasn't it?
Well, now you're in a worse trouble still it might do the syme
again. I'm a great believer in keepin' still, I am.
Allerton was off again. How in thunder am I to keep still
I'll tell you one wye, sir. Don't talk. Don't do nothink.
Don't beat your 'ead against the wall. Be quiet. Tyke it natural.
You've done this thing. Well, you 'aven't committed a murder. You
'aven't even done a wrong to the young lydy to whom you was engyged. By
what I understand she'd jilted you, and you was free to marry any one
you took a mind to.
Nominally, perhaps, but
If you're nominally free, sir, you're free, by what I can
understand; and if you've gone and done a foolish thing it ain't no
one's business but your own.
Yes, but I can't stand it!
O' course you can't stand it, sir, but it's because you can't stand
it that I'm arskin' of you to keep just as quiet as you can. Mistykes
in our life is often like the twists we'll give to our bodies. They'll
ache most awful, but let nyture alone and she'll tyke care of 'em. It's
jest so with our mistykes. Let life alone and she'll put 'em stryght
for us, nine times out o' ten, better than we can do it by workin' up
into a wax.
Calmed to some extent Allerton went off to the club for breakfast,
being unable to face this meal at home. Steptoe tidied up the room. He
was troubled and yet relieved. It was a desperate case, but he had
always found that in desperate cases desperate remedies were close at
See that the poor thing gets some breakfast, had been Allerton's
parting command, and having finished the room, Steptoe went down the
flight of stairs to carry out this injunction.
He was on the third step from the landing when the door of the back
room opened, and a little, gray figure, hatted and jacketed, crept out
stealthily. She was plainly ready for the street, an intention
understood by Beppo, the late Mrs. Allerton's red cocker spaniel, who
was capering about her in the hope of sharing the promenade.
As Steptoe came to a halt, the girl ran toward him.
Oh, mister, I gotta get out of this swell dump. Show me the way,
for God's sake!
To say that Steptoe was thinking rapidly would be to describe his
mental processes incorrectly. He never thought; he received
illuminations. Some such enlightenment came to him now, inducing him to
say, ceremoniously, Madam can't go without 'er breakfast.
I don't want any breakfast, she protested, breathlessly. All I
want is to get away. I'm frightened.
I assure madam that there's nothink to be afryde of in this 'ouse.
Mr. Allerton is the most honorable he pronounced the initial h
young man that hever was born. I valeted 'is father before 'im and
know that 'e wouldn't 'urt a fly. If madam'll trust meBesides, Mr.
Allerton left word with me as you was to be sure to 'ave your
breakfast, and I shouldn't know how to fyce 'im if 'e was to know that
you'd gone awye without so much as a hegg.
She wrung her hands. I don't want to see him. I couldn't.
Madam won't see 'im. 'E's gone for the dye. 'E don't so often heat
at 'ome'ardly never.
Of the courses before her Letty saw that yielding was the easiest.
Besides, it would give her her breakfast, which was a consideration.
Though she had nominally dined on the previous evening, she had not
been able to eat; she had been too terrified. Never would she forget
the things that had happened after she had given her consent in the
Not that outwardly they had been otherwise than commonplace. It was
going through them at all! The man was as nearly off his chumpthe
expression was hersas a human being could be without laying himself
open to arrest. After calling the taxi in Fifth Avenue he had walked up
and down, compelling her to walk by his side, for a good fifteen
minutes before making her get in and springing in beside her. At the
house opposite he had stared and stared, as if hoping that some one
would look out. During the drive to the place where they got the
license, and later to the minister's house, he spoke not a word. In the
restaurant to which he took her afterward, the most glorious place she
had ever been in, he ordered a feast suited to a queen, but she could
hardly do more than taste it. She felt that the waiter was looking at
them strangely, and she didn't know the uses of the knives and forks.
The man she had married offered her no help, neither speaking to her
nor giving her a glance. He himself ate but little, lost in some mental
maze to which she had no clue.
After dinner he had proposed the theatre, but she had refused. She
couldn't go anywhere else with him. Wherever they moved, a thousand
eyes were turned in amazement at the extraordinary pair. He saw
nothing, but she was alive to it allmore conscious of her hat and
suit than even in the street scene in The Man with the Emerald Eye.
Once and for all she became aware that the first standard for human
valuation is in clothes.
In the end they had got into another taxi, to be driven round and
round the Park and out along the river bank, till he decided that they
might go home. During all this time he hardly noticed her. Once he
asked her if she was warm enough, and once if she would like to get out
and take a walk along the parapet above the river, but otherwise he was
withdrawn into a world which he kept shut and locked against her. That
left her alone. She had never felt so much alone in her life, not even
in the days which followed her mother's death. It was as if she had
been snatched away from everything with which she was familiar, to find
herself stranded in a country of fantastic dreams.
Then there was the house and the little back room. By the use of his
latchkey they had entered a palace huge and dark. Letty didn't know
that people lived with so much space around them. Only a hall light
burned in a many-colored oriental lamp, and in the half-gloom the rooms
on each side of the entry were cavernous. There was not a servant, not
a sound. The only living thing was a little dog which pattered out of
the obscurity and, raising his paws against her skirt, adopted her
He was my mother's dog, Allerton explained briefly. He likes
women, but not men, though he's never taken to the women in the house.
He'll probably like you. His name is Beppo. I'll show you up at once.
The grandeur of the staircase was overpowering, and the little back
spare-room of a magnificence beyond all her experience outside of
movie-sets. The flowers on the chintz coverings were prettier than real
ones, and there was a private bath. Letty had heard of private baths,
but no picture she had ever painted equaled this dainty apartment in
which everything was of spotless white except where a flight of
blue-gray gulls skimmed over a blue summer sea.
The objects in the bedroom were too lovely to live with. On the
toilet table were boxes and trays which Letty supposed must be
priceless, and a set of brushes with silver backs. She couldn't brush
her hair with a brush with a silver back, because it would be
journeying too far beyond real life into that of fairy princesses. On
opening the closet to hang up her jacket the very hangers were puffed
and covered with the sweetest flowered silks, so she hung her jacket
on a peg.
But she wasn't comfortable, she wasn't happy. Alice had traveled too
far into Wonderland, and too suddenly. Unwillingly she lay down in a
bed too clean and soft for the human form, but she couldn't sleep in
it. She could only tremble and toss and lie awake and wish for the
morning. With the dawn she would be up and off, before any one caught
sight of her.
For Allerton had used words which had terrified her more than
anything that had yet happened or been saidthe other women in the
house! Not till then had she sufficiently visualized the life into
which he was taking her to understand that there would be other women
there. Now that she knew it, she couldn't face them. She could have
faced men. Men, after all, were simple creatures with only a
rudimentary power of judgment. But women! God! She pulled the eiderdown
about her head so as not to cry out so loudly that she would be heard.
What mad thing had she done? What had she let herself in for? She
didn't ask what kind of women they would bemembers of his family or
servants. She didn't care. All women were alike. The woman was not born
who wouldn't view a girl in her unconventional situation, and
especially in that rigonce more the expression was her ownwithout
a condemnation which Letty could not and would not submit herself to.
So she would get up and steal away with the first gleam of light.
She got up with the first gleam of light, but she couldn't steal
away. Once more she was afraid. Unlocking the door, she dared not
venture out. Who knew where, in that palace of cavernous apartments,
she might meet a woman, or what the woman would say to her? When Nettie
walked in later, humming a street air, Letty almost died from shame.
For one thing, she hadn't yet put on her shirtwaist, which in itself
was poor enough, and as she stood exposed without it, any other of her
sex could see.... She had once been on the studio lot when a girl of
about her own age, a supe like herself, was arrested for thieving in
the women's dressing-rooms. Letty had never forgotten the look in that
girl's face as she passed out through the crowd of her colleagues. In
Nettie's presence she felt like that girl's look.
She had no means of telling the time, but when she could no longer
endure the imprisonment she decided to make a bolt for it. She hadn't
been thieving, and so they couldn't do anything to herand there was a
chance at least that she might get away. Opening the door cautiously,
she stole out on the landing, and there was, not a woman, but a man!
Joy! A man would listen to her appeal. He would see that she was
poor, common, unequal to a dump so swell, and would be human and
tender. He was a nice looking old man tooshe was able to notice
thatwith a long, kindly face on which there were two spots of bloom
as if he had been rouged. So she capitulated to his plea, making only
the condition that if she took the heggshe pronounced the word as he
did, not being sure as to what it meantshe should be free to go.
Certainly, if madam wishes it. I'm sure the last thing Mr. Allerton
would desire would be to detain madam against 'er will.
She allowed herself to be ushered down the monumental stairs and
into the dining-room, which awed her with the solemnity of a church.
She knew at once that she wouldn't be able to eat amid this stateliness
any more than in the glitter of last evening's restaurant. She had
yielded, however, and there was nothing for it but to sit down at the
head of the table in the chair which Steptoe drew out for her. Guessing
at her most immediate embarrassment, he showed her what to do by
unfolding the napkin and laying it in her lap.
Now, if madam will excuse me, I'll slip awye and tell Jyne.
But telling Jyne was not so simple a matter as it looked. The
council in the kitchen, which at first had been a council and no more,
was now a council of war. As Steptoe entered, Mrs. Courage was saying:
I shall go to Mr. Rashleigh 'imself and tell 'im that hunder the
syme roof with a baggage none of us will stye.
You can syve yourself the trouble, Mrs. Courage, Steptoe informed
her. Mr. Rash 'as just gone out. Besides, I've good news for all of
you. He waited for each to take an appropriate expression, Mrs.
Courage determined, Jane with face eager and alight, Nettie tittering
behind her hand. Miss Walbrook, which all of us 'as dreaded, is not
a-comin' to our midst. The young lydy Nettie see in the back spare-room
is Mr. Rashleigh's wife.
Wife! Mrs. Courage threw up her hands and staggered backward. 'Im
that 'is mother left to me! 'Courage,' says she, 'when I'm gone'
Jane crept forward, horrified, stunned. Them things can't be,
Mr. Rash told me so 'imself. I don't know what more we want than
that. Steptoe was not without his diplomacy. It's a fine thing for
us, girls. This sweet young lydy is not goin' to myke us no trouble
like what the other one would, and belongs right in our own class.
'Enery Steptoe, speak for yourself, Mrs. Courage said, severely.
There's no baggages in my class, nor never was, nor never will be.
Jane began to cry. I'm sure I try to think the best of everyone,
but when such awful things 'appens and 'omes is broken up
Jynie, Steptoe said with authority, the young missus is wytin'
for 'er breakfast. 'Ave the goodness to tyke 'er in 'er grypefruit.
Jyne Cakebread, Mrs. Courage declared, with an authority even
greater than Steptoe's, the first as tykes a grypefruit into that
dinin'-room, to set before them as I shouldn't demean myself to nyme,
comes hunder my displeasure.
I couldn't, Steptoe, Jane pleaded helplessly. All my life I've
wyted on lydies. 'Ow can you expect me to turn over a new leaf at my
time o' life?
Nettie? Steptoe made the appeal magisterially.
Oh, I'll do it, Nettie giggled. 'Appy to get another look at 'er.
I sye, she's a sight!
But Mrs. Courage barred the way. My niece will wyte on people of
doubtful conduck over my dead corpse.
Very well, then, Mrs. Courage, Steptoe reasoned. If you won't
serve the new missus, Mr. Rashleigh, will 'ave to get some one else who
Mr. Rashleigh will 'ave to do that very selfsame thing. Not another
night will none of us sleep hunder this paternal roof with them that
their very presence is a houtrage. 'Enery Steptoe was always a
time-server, and a time-server 'e will be, but as for us women, we
shall see the new missus in goin' in to give 'er notice. Not a month's
notice, it won't be. This range as I've cooked at for nearly thirty
years I shall cook at no more, not so much as for lunch. Oh, dear! Oh,
dear! What's the world comin' to?
In spite of her strength of character Mrs. Courage threw her apron
over her head and burst into tears. Jane was weeping already.
There, there, aunt, Nettie begged, patting her relative between
the shoulders. What's the good o' goin' on like that just because a
silly ass 'as married beneath 'im?
Mrs. Courage pulled her apron from her face to cry out with passion:
If 'e was goin' to disgryce 'imself like that, why couldn't 'e 'a
So Steptoe waited on Letty himself, bringing in the grapefruit, the
coffee, the egg, and the toast, and seeing that she knew how to deal
with each in the proper forms. He was so brooding, so yearning, so
tactful, as he bent over her, that she was never at a loss as to the
fork or spoon she ought to use, or the minute at which to use it. Under
his protection Letty ate. She ate, first because she was young and
hungry, and then because she felt him standing between her and all
vague terrors. By the time she had finished, he moved in front of her,
where he could speak as one human being to another.
Taking an empty plate from the table to put it on the sideboard, he
said: I 'ope madam is chyngin' 'er mind about leavin' us.
Letty glanced up shyly in spite of being somewhat reassured.
What'ud be the good of my changin' my mind whenwhen I'm not fit to
Madam means not fit in the sense that
I'm not a lady.
Resting one hand on the table, he looked down into her eyes with an
expression such as Letty had never before seen in a human face.
I could myke a lydy of madam.
At the sound of these quiet words, so confidently spoken, something
passed through Letty's frame to be described only by the hard-worked
word, a thrill. It was a double current of vibration, partly of
upleaping hope, partly of the desperate sense of her own limitations. A
hundred points of gold dust were aflame in her irises as she said:
You mean that you'd put me wise? Oh, but I'd never learn!
On the contrary, I think madam would pick up very quick.
And I'd never be able to talk the right
I could learn madam to talk just as good as me.
It seemed too much. She clasped her hands. It was the nearest point
she had ever reached to ecstasy. Oh, do you think you could? You talk
somethin' beautiful, you do!
He smiled modestly. I've always lived with the best people, and I
suppose I ketch their wyes. I know what a gentleman isand a lydy. I
know all a lydy's little 'abits, and before two or three months was
over madam 'ud 'ave them as natural as natural, if she wouldn't think
When 'ud you begin?
The bright spot deepened in each cheek. I've begun already, if
madam won't think me steppin' out o' my plyce to sye so, in showin'
madam the spoons and forks for the different
Letty colored, too. Yes, I saw that. I take it as very kind. But
she looked at him with a puzzled knitting of the browsbut what makes
you take all this trouble for me?
I've two reasons, madam, but I'll only tell you one of 'em just
now. The other'll keep. I'll myke it known to you ifif all goes as I
'ope. He straightened himself up. I don't often speak o' this, he
continued, because among us butlers and valets it wouldn't be
understood. Most of us is what's known as conservative, all for the big
families and the old wyes. Well, so am Ito a point. But
He moved a number of objects on the table before he could go on. I
wasn't born to the plyce I 'old now, he explained after getting his
material at command. I wasn't born to nothink. I was what they calls
in England a foundlin'a byby what's foundwhat 'is parents 'ave
thrown awye. I don't know who my father and mother was, or what was my
real nyme. 'Enery Steptoe is just a nyme they give me at the
Horphanage. But I won't go into that. I'm just tryin' to tell madam
that my life was a 'ard one, quite a 'ard one, till I come to New York
as footman for Mr. Allerton's father, and afterward worked up to be 'is
valet and butler.
He cleared his throat. Expressing ideals was not easy. I 'ope madam
will forgive me if I sye that what it learned me was a fellow-feelin'
with my own sortwith the poor. I've often wished as I could go out
among the poor and ryse them up. I ain't a socialista little bit of a
anarchist perhaps, but nothink extremeand yetWell, if Mr. Rashleigh
had married a rich girl, I would 'a tyken it as natural and done my
best for 'im, but since 'e 'asn'tOh, can't madam see? It'sit's a
kind o' pride with me to find some one likelike what I was when I was
'er ageout in the cold likeand bring 'er inand 'elp 'er to tryne
'erselfsoso assome dayto beat the bestthem as 'as 'ad all the
He was interrupted by the tinkle of the telephone. It was a relief.
He had said all he needed to say, all he knew how to say. Whether madam
understood it or not he couldn't tell, since she didn't seize ideas
If madam will excuse me now, I'll go and answer that call.
But Letty sprang up in alarm. Oh, don't leave me. Some of them
women will blow in
None of them women will come he threw a delicate emphasis
on the wordif madam'll just sit down. They don't mean to come. I'll
explyne that to madam when I come back, if she'll only not leave this
Good morning, Steptoe. Will you ask Mr. Allerton if he'll speak to
Mr. Allerton 'as gone to the New Netherlands club for 'is
Oh, thanks. I'll call him up there.
She didn't want to call him up there, at a club, where a man must
like to feel safe from feminine intrusion, but the matter was too
pressing to permit of hesitation. Since the previous afternoon she had
gone through much searching of heart. She was accustomed to strong
reactions from tempestuousness to penitence, but not of the violence of
Summoned to the telephone, Allerton felt as if summoned to the bar
of judgment. He divined who it was, and he divined the reason for the
Good morning, Rash!
His voice was absolutely dead. Good morning, Barbara!
I know you're cross with me for calling you at the club.
Oh, no! Not at all!
But I couldn't wait any longer. I wanted you to knowI've got it
on again, Rashnever to come off any more.
He was dumb. Thirty seconds at least went by, and he had made no
Aren't you glad?
II could have been gladifif I'd known you were going to do
And now you know that it's done.
He repeated in his lifeless voice, Yes, now I know that it's done.
Again he was silent. Two or three times he tried to find words,
producing nothing but a stammering of incoherent syllables. II can't
talk about it here, Barbe, he managed to articulate at last. You must
let me come round and see you.
It was her voice now that was dead. When will you come, Rash?
Nowat onceif you can see me.
She put up the receiver without saying more. He knew that she knew.
She knew at least that something had happened which was fatal to them
She received him not in the drawing-room, but in a little den on the
right of the front door which was also alive with Miss Walbrook's
modern personality. A gold-colored portière from Albert Herter's looms
screened them from the hall, and the chairs were covered with bits of
Herter tapestry representing fruits. A cabinet of old white Bennington
faience stood against a wall, which was further adorned with three or
four etchings of Sears Gallagher's. Barbara wore a lacy thing in
hydrangea-colored crêpe de chine, loosely girt with a jade-green ribbon
tasselled in gold, the whole bringing out the faintly Egyptian note in
They dispensed with a greeting, because she spoke the minute he
crossed the threshold of the room.
Rash, what is it? Why couldn't you tell me on the telephone?
He wished now that he had. It would have saved this explanation face
to face. Because I couldn't. Becausebecause I've been too much of an
idiot toto tell you about iteither on the telephone or in any other
How? He thought she must understand, but she seemed purposely
dense. Sit down. Tell me about it. It can't be so terribleall of a
sudden like this.
He couldn't sit down. He could only turn away from her and gulp in
his dry throat. You remember what I saidwhat I
saidyesterdayaboutabout thethe Gissing fellow?
She nodded fiercely. Yes. Go on. Get it out.
WellwellI'veI've done that.
She threw out her arms. She threw back her head till the little
nut-brown throat was taut. The cry rent her. It rent him.
He stood with head hanging. He longed to run away, and yet he longed
also to throw himself at her feet. If he could have done exactly as he
felt impelled, he would have laid his head on her breast and wept like
She swung away from him, pacing the small room like a frenzied
animal. Her breath came in short, hard pantings that were nearly sobs.
Suddenly she stopped in front of him with a sort of calm.
What made you?
He barely lifted his agonized black eyes. You,
She was in revolt again. I? What did I do?
Youyou threw away my ring. You said it was allall over.
Well? Couldn't I say that without driving you to act the madman? No
one but a madman would have gone out of this house and She clasped
her forehead in her hands with a dramatic lifting of the arms. Oh!
It's too much! I don't care about myself. But to have it on your
conscience that a man has thrown his life away
He asked meekly, What good was it to me when you wouldn't have it?
She stamped her foot. Rash, you'll drive me insane. Your life might
be no good to you at all, and yet you might give it a chance for
twenty-four hoursthat isn't much, is it?before you She caught
herself up. Tell me. You don't mean to say that you're married
Her first name is Letty. I've forgotten the second name.
Where did you find her?
Over there in the Park.
And she went and married youlike that?
She was all alonechucked out by a stepfather
She burst into a hard laugh. Oh, you baby! You believed that? The
kind of story that's told by nine of the
[Illustration: BY THE TIME HE HAD FINISHED, HIS HEART WAS A LITTLE
EASED AND SOME OF HER TENDERNESS BEGAN TO FLOW TOWARD HIM]
He interrupted quickly. Don't call her anything, BarbeI mean any
kind of a bad name. She's all right as far as that goes. There's a kind
that couldn't take you in.
There's no kind that couldn't take you in!
Perhaps not, but it's the one thing inin this whole idiotic
business that's on the levelI mean she is. I'd give my right hand to
put her back where I found her yesterdayjust as she wasbut she's
She dropped into a chair. The first wild tumult of rage having more
or less spent its force, she began, with a kind of heart-broken
curiosity, to ask for the facts. She spoke nervously, beating a palm
with a gold tassel of her girdle. Begin at the beginning. Tell me all
He leaned on the mantelpiece, of which the only ornaments were a
child's head in white and blue terra cotta by Paul Manship, balanced by
a pair of old American glass candlesticks, and told the tale as
consecutively as he could. He recounted everything, even to the
bringing her home, the putting her in the little, back spare-room, and
her adoption by Beppo, the red cocker spaniel. By the time he had
finished, his heart was a little eased, and some of her tenderness
toward him was beginning to flow forth. She was like that, all wrath at
one minute, all gentleness the next. Springing to her feet, she caught
him by the arm, pressing herself against him.
All right, Rash. You've done it. That's settled. But it can be
He pressed her head back from him, resting the knot of her hair in
the hollow of his palm and looking down into her eyes.
How can it be undone?
Oh, there must be ways. A man can't be allowed to ruin his lifeto
ruin two livesfor a prank. We'll just have to think. If you made it
worth while for her to take you, you can make it worth while for her to
let you go. She'll do it.
She'd do it, of course. She doesn't care. I'm nothing to her, not
any more than she to me. I shan't see her any more than I can help. I
suppose she must stay at the house tillI told Steptoe to look after
She took a position at one end of the mantelpiece, while he faced
her from the other. She gave him wise counsel. He was to see his
lawyers at once and tell them the whole story. Lawyers always saw the
way out of things. There was the Bellington boy who married a
show-girl. She had been bought off, and the lawyers had managed it. Now
the Bellington boy was happily married to one of the Plantagenet Jones
girls and lived at Marillo Park. Then there was the Silliman boy who
had married the notorious Kate Cookesley. The lawyers had found the way
out of that, too, and now the Silliman boy was a secretary of the
American Embassy in Rome. Accidents such as had happened to Rash were
regrettable of course, but it would be folly to think that a perfectly
good life must be done for just because it had got a crack in it.
We'll play the game, of course, she wound up. But it's a game,
and the stronger side must win. What should you say of my going to see
hershe needn't know who I am further than that I'm a friend of
yoursand finding out for myself?
Finding out what?
Finding out her price, silly. What do you suppose? A woman can
often see things like that where a man would be blind.
He didn't know. He thought it might be worth while. He would leave
it to her. I'm not worth the trouble, Barbe, he said humbly.
With this she agreed. I know you're not. I can't think for a minute
why I take it or why I should like you. But I do. That's straight.
And I adore you, Barbe.
She shrugged her shoulders with a little, comic grimace. Oh, well!
I suppose every one has his own way of showing adoration, but I must
say that yours is original.
If it's original to be desperate when the woman you worship drives
you to despair
There was another little comic grimace, though less comic than the
first time. Oh, yes, I know. It's always the woman whom a man worships
that's in the wrong. I've noticed that. Men are never impossibleall
of their own accord.
I could be as tame as a cat if
If it wasn't for me. Thank you, Rash. I said just now I was fond of
you, and I should have to be toto stand for all the
I'm not blaming you, Barbe. I'm only
Thanks again. The day you're not blaming me is certainly one to be
marked with a white stone, as the Romans used to say. But if it comes
to blaming any one, Rash, after what happened yesterday
What happened yesterday wasn't begun by me. It would never have
entered my mind to do the crazy thing I did, if you hadn't positively
and finallyas I thoughtflung me down. I think you must do me that
justice, Barbethat justice, at the least.
Oh, I do you justice enough. I don't see that you can complain of
that. It seems to me too that I temper justice with mercy to a degree
thatthat most people find ridiculous.
By most people I suppose you mean your aunt.
Oh, do leave Aunt Marion out of it. You can't forgive the poor
thing for not liking you. Well, she doesn't, and I can't help it. She
thinks you're a
A foolas you were polite enough to say just now.
She spread her hands apart in an attitude of protestation. Well, if
I did, Rash, surely you must admit that I had provocation.
Oh, of course. The wonder is that with the provocation you can
Forgive you, and try to patch it up again after this frightful gash
in the agreement. Well, it is a wonder. I don't believe that
I only want you to understand, Barbe, that the gash in the
agreement was made, not by what I did, but what you did. If you hadn't
sent me to the devil, I shouldn't have been in such a hurry to go
She was off. Yes, there you are again. Always me! I'm the one! You
may be the gunpowder, the perfectly harmless gunpowder, but it would
never blow up if I didn't come as the match. I make all the
explosions. I set you crazy. I send you to the devil.
I make you go and marry a girl you never laid eyes on in your life
So it was the same old scene all over again, till both were
exhausted, and she had flung herself into a chair to cover her face
with her hands and burst into tears. Instantly he was on his knees
Barbe! Barbe! My beloved Barbe! Don't cry. I'm a brute. I'm a fool.
I'm not satisfied with breaking my own heart, but I must go to work and
break yours. Oh, Barbe, forgive me. I'm all to pieces. Forgive me and
let me go away and shoot myself. What's the good of a poor, wrecked
creature like me hanging on and making such a mess of things? Let me
kill myself before I kill you
Seizing his head, she pressed it against her bosom convulsively. By
the shaking of his shoulders, she felt him sob. He was a poor
creature. She was saying so to herself. But just because he was,
something in her yearned over him. He could be different; he
could be stronger and of value in the world if there was only some one
to handle him rightly. She could do itif she could only learn to
handle herself. She would learn to handle herselffor his sake.
He was worth saving. He had fine qualities, and a good heart most of
all. It was his very fineness which put him out of place in a world
like that of New York. He was a delicate, brittle, highly-wrought thing
which should be touched only with the greatest care, and all his life
he had been pushed and hurtled about as if he were a football player or
a business man. With the soul of a poet or a painter or a seer, he had
been treated like the typical rough-and-ready American lad, till the
sensitive nature had been brutalized, maimed, and frenzied.
She knew that. It was why she cared for him. Even when they were
children she had seen that he wasn't getting fair treatment, either at
home or in school or among the boys and girls with whom they both grew
up. He was the exception, and American life allowed only for the rule.
If you couldn't conform to the rule, you were guyed and tormented and
ejected. Among all his associates she alone knew what he suffered, and
because she knew it a vast pity made her cling to him. He had forced
himself into the life of clubs, into the life of society, into the life
of other men as other men lived their lives, and the effect on him had
been so nearly ruinous that it was no wonder if he was always on the
edge of nervous explosion. His very wealth which might have been a
protection was, under the uniform pressure of American social habit, an
incitement to him to follow the wrong way. She knew it, and she alone.
She could save him, and she alone. She could save him, if she could
first of all save herself.
With his head pressed against her she made the vow as she had made
it fifty times already. She would be gentle with him; she would be
patient; she would let him work off on her the agony of his suffering
nerves, and smile at him through it all. She would help him out of the
idiotic situation in which he found himself. The other girl was only an
incident, as the show-girl had been to the Bellington boy, and could be
disposed of. She attached to that only a secondary importance in
comparison with the whole thingher saving him. She would save him,
even if it meant rooting out every instinct in her soul.
But as he made his way blindly back to the club, his own conclusions
were different. He must go to the devil. He must go to the devil now,
whatever else he did. Going to the devil would set her free from him.
It was the only thing that would. It would set him free from the other
woman, set him free from life itself. Life tortured him. He was a
misfit in it. He should never have been born. He had always understood
that his parents hadn't wanted children and that his coming had been
resented. You couldn't be born like that and find it natural to be in
the world. He had never found it natural. He couldn't remember the time
when he hadn't been out of his element in life, and now he must
recognize the fact courageously.
It would be easy enough. He had worked up an artificial appetite for
all that went under the head of debauchery. It had meant difficult
schooling at first, because his natural tastes were averse to that kind
of thing, but he had been schooled. Schooled was the word, since his
training had begun under the very roof where his father had sent him to
get religion and discipline. There had been no let-up in this
educational course, except when he himself had stolen away, generally
in solitude, for a little holiday.
But as he put it to himself, he knew all the roads and by-paths and
cross-country leaps that would take him to the gutter, and to the
gutter he would go.
And all this while Letty was in the dining-room, learning certain
lessons from her new-found friend.
For some little time she had been alone. Steptoe finished his
conversation with Miss Walbrook on the telephone, but did not come
back. She sat at the table feeding Beppo with bread and milk, but
wondering if, after all, she hadn't better make a bolt for it. She had
had her breakfast, which was an asset to the good, and nothing worse
could happen to her out in the open world than she feared in this great
dim, gloomy house. She had once crept in to look at the cathedral and,
overwhelmed by its height, immensity, and mystery, had crept out again.
Its emotional suggestions had been more than she could bear. She felt
now as if her bed had been made and her food laid out in that
cathedralas if, as long as she remained, she must eat and sleep in
this vast, pillared solemnity.
And that was only one thing. There were small practical
considerations even more terrible to confront. If Nettie were to appear
But it was as to this that Steptoe was making his appeal. I sye,
girls, don't you go to mykin' a fuss and spoilin' your lives, when
you've got a chanst as'll never come again.
Mrs. Courage answered for them all. To sacrifice decency to
self-interest wasn't in them, nor never would be. Some there might be,
like 'Enery Steptoe, who would sell their birthright for a mess of
pottage, but Mary Ann Courage was not of that company, nor any other
woman upon whom she could use her influence. If a hussy had been put to
reign over them, reigned over by a hussy none of them would be. All
they asked was to see her once, to deliver the ultimatum of giving
It's a strynge thing to me, Steptoe reasoned, that when one poor
person gets a lift, every other poor person comes down on 'em.
And might we arsk who you means by poor persons?
Who should I mean, Mrs. Courage, but people like us? If we don't
'ang by each other, who will 'ang by us, I should like to know?
'Ere's one of us plyced in a 'igh position, and instead o' bein' proud
of it, and givin' 'er a lift to carry 'er along, you're all for mykin'
it as 'ard for 'er as you can. Do you call that sensible?
I call it sensible for everyone to stye in their proper spere.
So that if a man's poor, you must keep 'im poor, no matter 'ow 'e
tries to better 'imself. That's what your proper speres would come to.
But argument being of no use, Steptoe could only make up his mind to
revolution in the house. The poor's very good to the poor when one of
'em's in trouble, was his summing up, but let one of 'em 'ave an
extry stroke of luck, and all the rest'll jaw against 'im like so many
magpies. As a parting shot he declared on leaving the kitchen, The
trouble with you girls is that you ain't got no class spunk, and that's
why, in sperrit, you'll never be nothink but menials.
This lack of esprit de corps was something he couldn't
understand, but what he understood less was the need of the heart to
touch occasionally the high points of experience. Mrs. Courage and
Jane, to say nothing of Nettie, after thirty years of domestic routine
had reached the place where something in the way of drama had become
imperative. The range and the pantry produce inhibitions as surely as
the desk or the drawing-room. On both natures inhibitions had been
packed like feathers on a seabird, till the soul cried out to be
released from some of them. It might mean going out from the home that
had sheltered them for years, and breaking with all their traditions,
but now that the chance was there, neither could refuse it. To a
virtuous woman, starched and stiffened in her virtue, steeped in it,
dyed in it, permeated by it through and through, nothing so stirs the
dramatic, so quickens the imagination, so calls the spirit to the
purple emotional heights, as contact with the sister she knows to be a
hussy. For Jane Cakebread and Mary Ann Courage the opportunity was
Then I'll go. I'll go straight now.
As Steptoe brought the information that the three women of the
household were coming to announce the resignation of their posts, Letty
sprang to her feet.
May I arsk madam to sit down again and let me explyne?
Taking this as an order, she sank back into her chair again. He
stood confronting her as before, one hand resting lightly on the table.
Nothink so good won't 'ave 'appened in this 'ouse since old Mrs.
Allerton went to work and died.
Letty's eyes shone with their tiny fires, not in pleasure but in
When old servants is good, they're good, but even when they're
good, there's times when you can't 'elp wishin' as 'ow the Lord 'ud be
pleased to tyke them to 'Imself.
He allowed this to sink in before going further.
The men's all right, for the most part. Indoor work comes natural
to 'em, and they'll swing it without no complynts. But with the women
it's kick, kick, kick, and when they're worn theirselves out with
kickin', they'll begin to kick again. What's plye for a man, for them
ain't nothink but slyvery.
Letty listened as one receiving revelations from another world.
I ain't what they call a woman-'ater. I believe as God made
woman for a purpose. Only I can't bring myself to think as the human
race 'as rightly found out yet what that purpose is. God's wyes is
always dark, and when it comes to women, they're darker nor they are
elsewheres. One thing I do know, and we'll be a lot more comfortable
when more of us finds it outthat God never made women for the 'ome.
In spite of her awe of him, Letty found this doctrine difficult to
If God didn't make 'em for the home, mister, where on earth would
you put 'em?
The wintry color came out again on the old man's cheeks. If madam
would call me Steptoe, he said ceremoniously, I think she'd find it
easier. I mean, he went on, reverting to the original theme, that 'E
didn't make 'em to be cooks and 'ousemaids and parlormaids, and all
that. That's men's work. Men'll do it as easy as a bird'll sing. I
never see the woman yet as didn't fret 'erself over it, like a wild
animal'll fret itself in a circus cage. It spiles women to put 'em to
'ousework, like it always spiles people to put 'em to jobs for which
the Lord didn't give 'em no haptitude.
Letty was puzzled, but followed partially.
I've watched 'em and watched 'em, and it's always the syme tyle.
They'll go into service young and joyous like, but it won't be two or
three years before they'll have growed cat-nasty like this 'ere Jyne
Cykebread and Mary Ann Courage. Madam 'ud never believe what sweet
young things they was when I first picked 'em outMrs. Courage a young
widow, and Jynie as nice a girl as madam 'ud wish to see, only with the
features what Mrs. Allerton used to call a little hover-haccentuated.
And now! He allowed the conditions to speak for themselves without
It's keepin' 'em in a 'ome what's done it. They knows it
theirselvesand yet they don't. Inside they've got the sperrits of
young colts that wants to kick up their 'eels in the pasture. They
don't mean no worse nor that, only when people comes to Jynie's age and
Mrs. Courage's they 'ave to kick up their 'eels in their own wye. If
madam'll remember that, and be pytient with them like
Letty cried in alarm, But it's got nothin' to do with me!
If madam'll excuse me, it's got everything to do with 'er. She's
the missus of this 'ouse.
Oh, no, I ain't. Mr. Allerton just brung me here
Once more there was the delicate emphasis with which he had
corrected other slips. Mr. Allerton brought madam, and told me
to see that she was put in 'er proper plyce. If madam'll let me steer
the thing, I'll myke it as easy for 'er as easy.
He reflected as to how to make the situation clear to her. I've
been readin' about the time when our lyte Queen Victoria come to the
throne as quite a young girl. She didn't know nothin' about politics or
presidin' at councils or nothin'. But she had a prime ministera kind
of hupper servant, you might sye'er servant was what 'e always called
'imselfand whatever 'e told 'er to do, she done. Walked through it
all, you might sye, till she got the 'ang of it, but once she did get
the 'ang of itwell, there wasn't no big-bug in the world that our
most grycious sovereign lydy couldn't put it all hover on.
Once more he allowed her time to assimilate this parable.
Now if madam would only think of 'erself as called in youth to
reign hover this 'ouse
Oh, but I couldn't!
And yet it's madam's duty, now that she's married to its 'ead
Yes, but he didn't marry me like that. He married meall queer
like. This was the way.
She poured out the story, while Steptoe listened quietly. There
being no elements in it of the kind he called shydy, he found it
romantic. No one had ever suspected the longings for romance which had
filled his heart and imagination when he was a poor little scullion
boy; but the memory of them, with some of the reality, was still fresh
in his hidden inner self. Now it seemed as if remotely and vicariously
romance might be coming to him after all, through the boy he adored.
On her tale his only comment was to say: I've been readin'I'm a
great reader, he threw in parenthetically, wonderful exercise for the
mind, and learns you things which you wouldn't be likely to 'ear tell
ofbut I've been readin' about a kingI'll show you 'is nyme in the
bookwhat fell in love with a beggar myde
Oh, but Mr. Allerton didn't fall in love with me.
That remynes to be seen.
She lifted her hands in awed amazement. MisterI mean,
Steptoeyouyou don't think?
The subway dream of love at first sight was as tenacious in her soul
as the craving for romance in his.
He nodded. I've known strynger things to 'appen.
Butbuthe couldn't it was beyond her power of expression,
though Steptoe knew what she meantnot him!
He answered judicially. 'E may come to it. It'll be a tough job to
bring 'imbut if madam'll be guided by me
Letty collapsed. Her spirit grew faint as the spirit of Christian
when he descried far off the walls of the Celestial City, with the Dark
River rolling between him and it. Letty knew the Dark River must be
there, but if beyond it there lay the slightest chance of the Celestial
She came back to herself, as it were, on hearing Steptoe say that
the procession from the kitchen would presently begin to form itself.
Now if madam'll be guided by me she'll meet this situytion fyce to
Oh, but I'd never know what to say.
Madam won't need to say nothink. She won't 'ave to speak. 'Ere
they'll troop in a gesture described Mrs. Courage leading the
advance through the doorwayand 'ere they'll stand. Madam'll sit just
where she's sittin'a little further back from the tyblelookin' over
the mornin' pyper like he placed the paper in her handand as
heach gives notice, madam'll just bow 'er 'ead. See?
Madam saw, but not exactly.
Now if she'll just move 'er chair
The chair was moved in such a way as to make it seem that the
occupant, having finished her breakfast, was giving herself a little
And if madam would remove 'er 'at and jacket, she'dshe'd seem
more like the lydy of the 'ouse at 'ome.
Letty took off these articles of apparel, which Steptoe whisked out
Now I'll be Mrs. Courage comin' to sye, 'Madam, I wish to give
notice.' Madam'll lower the pyper just enough to show 'er inclinin' of
'er 'ead, assentin' to Mrs. Courage leavin' 'er. Mrs. Courage will be
all for 'avin' wordsshe's a great 'and for words, Mrs. Courage
isbut if madam won't sye nothin' at all, the wind'll be out o' Mrs.
Courage's syles like. Now, will madam be so good?
Having passed out into the hall, he entered with Mrs. Courage's
majestic gait, pausing some three feet from the table to say:
Madam, things bein' as they are, and me not wishin' to stye no
longer in the 'ouse where I've served so many years, I beg to give
notice that I'm a givin' of notice and mean to quit right off.
Letty lowered the paper from before her eyes, jerking her head
Ye-es, Steptoe commended doubtfully, a lettle toowell, too
habrupt, as you might sye. Most lydiesreal 'igh lydies, like the lyte
Mrs. Allertoninclines their 'ead slow and gryceful like. First, they
throws it back a bit, so as to get a purchase on it, and then they
brings it forward calm like, lowerin' it stytelyPerhaps if madam'ud
be me for a bitthat 'ud be Mrs. Courageand let me sit there and be
'er, I could show 'er
The places were reversed. It was Letty who came in as Mrs. Courage,
while Steptoe, seated in the chair, lowered the paper to the degree
which he thought dignified. Letty mumbled something like the words the
hypothetical Mrs. Courage was presumed to use, while Steptoe slowly
threw back his head for the purchase, bringing it forward in
condescending grace. Language could not have given Mrs. Courage so
effective a retort courteous.
Letty was enchanted. Oh, Steptoe, let me have another try. I
believe I could swing the cat.
Again the places were reversed. Steptoe having repeated the rôle of
Mrs. Courage, Letty imitated him as best she could in getting the
purchase for her bow and catching his air of high-bred condescension.
Better, he approved, if madam wouldn't lower 'er 'ead quite
so far back'ard. You see, madam, a lydy don't know she's
throwin' back 'er 'ead so as to get a grip on it. She does it
unconscious like, because bein' of a 'aughty sperrit she 'olds it 'igh
natural. If madam'll only stiffen 'er neck like, as if sperrit 'ad made
'er about two inches taller than she is
Having seized this idea, Letty tried again, with such success that
Mrs. Courage was disposed of. Jane Cakebread followed next, with Nettie
last of all. Unaware of his possession of histrionic ability, Steptoe
gave to each character its outstanding traits, fluttering like Jane,
and giggling like Nettie, not in zeal for a newly discovered
interpretative art, but in order that Letty might be nowhere caught at
a disadvantage. He was delighted with her quickness in imitation.
Couldn't 'ave done that better myself, he declared after Nettie
had been dismissed for the third or fourth time. When it comes to the
inclinin' of the 'ead I should sye as madam was about letter-perfect,
as they sye on the styge. If Mr. Rash was to see it, 'e'd swear as 'is
ma 'ad come back again.
A muffled sound proceeded from the back part of the hallway, with
some whispering and once or twice Nettie's stifled cackle of a laugh.
'Ere they are, he warned her. Madam must be firm and control
'erself. There's nothink for 'er to be afryde of. Just let 'er think of
the lyte Queen Victoria, called to the throne when younger even than
A shuffling developed into one lone step, heavy, stately, and
funereal. Doing her best to emulate the historic example held up to
her, Letty lengthened her neck and stiffened it. A haughty spirit
seemed to rise in her by the mere process of the elongation. She was so
nervous that the paper shook in her hand, but she knew that if the
Celestial City was to be won, she could shrink from no tests which
might lead her on to victory.
Steptoe had relapsed into the major-domo's office, announcing from
the doorway, Mrs. Courage to see madam, if madam will be pleased to
Madam indicated that she was so pleased, scrambling after the
standard of the maiden sovereign of Windsor Castle giving audience to
princes and ambassadors.
Letty couldn't know, of course, that this announcement, made in a
menacing female bass, was due to the fact that three swaying bodies had
been endeavoring so to get round the deployed paper wings as to see
what was hidden there, and had found their efforts vain. All she could
recognize was the summons to the bar of social judgment. To the bar of
social judgment she would have gone obediently, had it not been for
that rebelliousness against being looked down upon which had lately
mastered her. As it was, she lengthened her neck by another half inch,
receiving from the exercise a new degree of self-strengthening.
Mrs. Courage is 'ere, madam, Steptoe seconded, and begs to sye as
she's givin' notice to quit madam's service
The explosion came as if Mrs. Courage was strangling.
When I wants words took out of my mouth by 'Enery Steptoe or
anybody else I'll sye so. If them as I've come into this room to speak
to don't feel theirselves aible to fyce me
Madam'll excuse an old servant who's outlived 'er time, Steptoe
intervened, and not tyke no notice. They always abuses the kindness
that's been showed 'em, and tykes liberties which
But not for nothing had Mrs. Courage been born to the grand manner.
When 'Enery Steptoe talks of old servants out-livin' their time and
tykin' liberties 'e speaks of what 'e knows all about from personal
experience. 'E was an old man when I was a little thing not so
The appeal was to the curiosity of the girl behind the screen. To
judge of how high Mrs. Courage had not been at a time when Steptoe was
already an old man she might be enticed from her fortifications. But
the pause only offered Steptoe a new opportunity.
And so, if madam can dispense with 'er services, which I understand
madam can, Mrs. Courage will be a-leavin' of us this morning, with all
our good wishes, I'm sure. Good-dye to you, Mary Ann, and God bless you
after all the years you've been with us. Madam's givin' you your
Obedient to her cue Letty lowered her guard just enough to incline
her head with the grace Steptoe had already pronounced letter
perfect. The shock to Mrs. Courage can best be narrated in her own
terms to Mrs. Walter Wildgoose later in the day.
Airs! No one couldn't imagine it, Bessie, what 'adn't seen it for
theirselveswhat them baggages'll dosmokin'and wearin' pearl
necklacesand 'avin' their own limousinesall that I've seen and 'ad
got used tobut not the President's wifenot Mary Queen of
Englandcould 'a myde you feel as if you was dirt hunder their feet
like what this oneand 'er with one of them marked down sixty-nine
cent blouses that 'adn't seen the wash sinceand as for lookswhy,
she didn't 'ave a look to bless 'erselfand a-'oldin' of 'erself like
what a empress mightand bowin' 'er 'ead, and goin' back to 'er pyper,
as if I'd disturbed 'er at 'er readin'and the dead and spitten image
of 'Enery Steptoe 'imself she isand you know 'ow many times we've all
wondered as to why 'e didn't marryand 'im with syvings put byJynie
thinks as 'e's worth as much asand you know what a 'and Jynie is for
ferritin' out what's none of 'er businesswhy, if Jynie Cykebread
could 'a myde 'erself Jynie Steptoebut that's somethink wild 'orses
wouldn't myke poor Jynie seethat no man wouldn't look at 'er the
second time if it wasn't for to laughpitiful, I call it, at 'er
aigeand me always givin' the old rip to know as it was no use 'is
'angin' round where I wasas if I'd marry agyne, and me a widda, as
you might sye, from my crydleand if I did, it wouldn't 'a been a
wicked old varlet what I always suspected 'e was leadin' a double
lifeand now to see them two fyces togetherwhy, I says, 'ere's the
explanytion as plyne as plyne can make it....
All of which might have been true in rhetoric, but not in fact. For
what had really given Mrs. Courage the coup de grace we must go
back to the scene of the morning.
Ignoring both Letty's inclination of the head and Steptoe's
benediction she had shown herself hurt where she was tenderest.
Now that there's no one to ryse their voice agynst the disgryce
brought on this family but me
Speak right up, Jynie. Don't be afryde. Madam won't eat you. She
knows that you've come to give notice
Mrs. Courage struggled on. No one ain't goin' to bow me out of the
'ouse I've been cook-'ousekeeper in these twenty-seven year
Sorry as madam'll be to lose you, Jynie, she won't stand in the wye
of your gettin' a better plyce
Mrs. Courage's roar being that of the wounded lioness she was, the
paper shook till it rattled in Letty's hand.
I will be listened to. I've a right to be 'eard. My 'eart's
been as much in this 'ouse and family as 'Enery Steptoe's 'eart; and to
see shyme and ruin come upon it
Steptoe's interruption was in a tone of pleased surprise.
Why, you still 'ere, Mary Ann? We thought you'd tyken leave of us.
Madam didn't know you was speakin'. She won't detyne you, madam won't.
You and Jynie and Nettie'll all find cheques for your wyges pyde up to
a month a 'ead, as I know Mr. Rashleigh'd want me to do....
Shame and ruin! Letty couldn't follow the further unfoldings of
Steptoe's diplomacy because of these two words. They summed up what she
broughtwhat she had been married to bringto a house of which even
she could see the traditions were of honor. Vaguely aware of voices
which she attributed to Jane and Nettie, her spirit was in revolt
against the rôle for which her rashness of yesterday had let her in,
and which Steptoe was forcing upon her.
Jane was still whimpering and sniffling:
I'm sure I never dreamed that things would 'appen like what 'as
'appenedand us all one family, as you might sye'opin' the best of
Jynie, stop, Mrs. Courage's voice had become low and firm, with
emotion in its tone, making Letty catch her breath. My 'eart's
breakin', and I ain't a-goin' to let it break without mykin' them
that's broken it know what they've done to me.
Now, Mary Ann, Steptoe tried to say, peaceably, madam's grytely
pressed for time
'Enery Steptoe, do you suppose that you're the only one in the
world as 'as loved that boy? Ain't 'e my boy just as much as ever 'e
'E's boy to them as stands by 'im, Mrs. Courageand stands by them
that belongs to 'im. The first thing you do is to quit
I'm not quittin'; I'm druv out. I'm druv out at a hour's notice
from the 'ome I've slyved for all my best years, leavin' dishonor and
wickedness in my plyce
Letty could endure no more. Dashing to the floor the paper behind
which she crouched she sprang to her feet.
Is that me? she demanded.
The surprise of the attack caught Mrs. Courage off her guard. She
could only open her mouth, and close it again, soundlessly and
helplessly. Jane stared, her curiosity gratified at last. Nettie turned
to whisper to Jane, There; what did I tell you? The commonest thing!
Steptoe nodded his head quietly. In this little creature with her
sudden flame, eyes all fire and cheeks of the wine-colored damask rose,
he seemed to find a corroboration of his power of divining character.
It seemed long before Mrs. Courage had found the strength to live up
to her convictions, by faintly murmuring: Who else?
Then tell me what you accuse me of?
Mrs. Courage saw her advantage. We ain't 'ere to accuse nobody of
nothink. If it's 'intin' that I'd tyke awye anyone's character it's a
thing I've 'ardly ever done, and no one can sye it of me. All we
want is to give our notice
Then why don't you do itand go?
Once more Steptoe intervened, diplomatically. That's what Mrs.
Courage is a-doin' of, madam. She's finished, ain't you Mary Ann? Jynie
and Nettie is finished too
But it was Letty now who refused this mediation.
No, they ain't finished. Let 'em go on.
But no one did go on. Mrs. Courage was now dumb. She was dumb and
frightened, falling back on her two supporters. All three together they
huddled between the portières. If Steptoe could have calmed his
protégée he would have done it; but she was beyond his control.
Am I the ruin and shame to this house that you was talkin' about
just now? If I am, why don't you speak out and put it to me plain?
There was no response. The spectators looked on as if they were at
What have you all got against me anyhow? Letty insisted,
passionately. What did I ever do to you? What's women's hearts made
of, that they can't let a poor girl be?
Mrs. Courage had so far recovered as to be able to turn from one to
another, to say in pantomime that she had been misunderstood. Jane
began to cry; Nettie to laugh.
Even if I was the bad girl you're tryin' to make me out I should
think other women might show me a little pity. But I'm not a bad
girlnot yet. I may be. I dunno but what I will. When I see the
hateful thing bein' good makes of women it drives me to do the other
This was the speech they needed to justify themselves. To be good
made women hateful! Their dumb-crambo to each other showed that anyone
who said so wild a thing stood already self-condemned.
But Letty flung up her head with a mettle which Steptoe hadn't seen
since the days of the late Mrs. Allerton.
I'm not in this house to drive no one else out of it. Them that
have lived here for years has a right to it which I ain't got. You can
go, and let me stay; or you can stay, and let me go. I'm the wife of
the owner of this house, who married me straight and legal; but I don't
care anything about that. You don't have to tell me I ain't fit to be
his wife, because I know it as well as you do. All I'm sayin' is that
you've got the choice to stay or go; and whichever you do, I'll do
Never in her life had she spoken so many words at one time. The
effort drained her. With a torrent of dry sobs that racked her body she
dropped back into her chair.
The hush was that of people who find the tables turned on themselves
in a way they consider unwarranted. Of the general surprise Steptoe was
quick to take advantage.
There you are, girls. Madam couldn't speak no fairer, now could
To this there was neither assent or dissent; but it was plain that
no one was ready to pick up the glove so daringly thrown down.
Now what I would suggest, Steptoe went on, craftily, is that we
all go back to the kitchen and talk it over quiet like. What we decide
to do we can tell madam lyter.
For consent or refusal Jane and Nettie looked to Mary Ann, whose
attitude was that of rejecting parley. She might, indeed, have rejected
it, had not Letty, bowing her head on the arms she rested on the table,
begun to cry bitterly.
It was then that you saw Mrs. Courage at her best. The gesture with
which she swept her subordinates back into the hall was that of the
supremacy of will.
It shan't be said as I crush, she declared, nobly, directing
Steptoe's attention to the weeping girl. Where there's penitence I
pity. God grant as them tears may gush out of an aichin' 'eart.
By the time Letty was drying her eyes, her heart somewhat eased,
Steptoe had come back. He came back with a smile. Something had
evidently pleased him.
So that's all over. Madam won't be bothered with other people's
cat-nasty old servants after to-dye.
She felt a new access of alarm. But they're not goin' away on
account o' me? Don't let 'em do it. Lemme go instead. Oh, mister, I
can't stay here, where everything's so different from what I'm used
He still smiled, his gentle old man's smile which somehow gave her
Madam won't sye that after a dye or two. It's new to 'er yet, of
course; but if she'll always remember that I'm 'ere, to myke everythink
as easy as easy
But what are you goin' to do, with no cook, and no
Standing with the corner of the table between him and her, he was
saying to himself, If Mr. Rash could only see 'er lookin' up like
thiswith 'er eyes all starryand her cheeks with them dark-red
rosesred roses like you'd rubbed with a little black.... But he
suspended the romantic longing to say, aloud:
If madam will permit me I'll tyke my measures as I've wanted to
tyke 'em this long spell back.
Madam was not to worry as to the three women who were leaving the
house, inasmuch as they had long been intending to leave it. Both Mrs.
Courage and Jane, having graduated to the stage of accommodating,
were planning to earn more money by easier work. Nettie, since coming
to America, had learned that housework was menial, and was going to be
Madam's remorse being thus allayed he told what he hoped to do for
madam's comfort. There would be no more women in the house, not till
madam herself brought them back. An English chef who had lost an eye in
the war, and an English waiter, ready to do chamberwork, who had left a
foot on some battlefield, were prepared under Steptoe's direction to
man the house. No woman whose household cares had not been eased by
men, in the European fashion, knew what it was to live. A woman waited
on by women only was kept in a state of nerves. Nerves were infectious.
When one woman in a household got them the rest were sooner or later
their prey. Unless strongly preventative measures were adopted they
spread at times to the men. America was a dreadful country for nerves
and it mostly came of women working with women; whereas, according to
Steptoe's psychology, men should work with women and women with men.
There were thousands of women who were bitter in heart at cooking and
making beds who would be happy as linnets in offices and shops; and
thousands of men who were dying of boredom in offices and shops who
would be in their element cooking and making beds.
One of the things the American people 'as got back'ards, if
madam'll allow me to sye so, is that 'ouse'old work is not fit for a
white man. When you come to that the American people ain't got a sense
of the dignity of their 'omes. They can't see their 'omes as run by
anything but slyves. All that's outside the dinin' room and the drorin'
room and the masters' bedrooms the American sees as if it was a
low-down thing, even when it's hunder 'is own roof. Colored men, yellow
men, may cook 'is meals and myke 'is bed; but a white man'd demean
'imself. A poor old white man like me when 'e's no longer fit for 'ard
outdoor work ain't allowed to do nothink; when all the time there's
women workin' their fingers to the bone that 'e could be a great 'elp
to, and who 'e'd like to go to their 'elp.
This was one reason, he argued, why the question of domestic aid in
America was all at sixes and sevens. It was not considered humanly. It
was more than a question of supply and demand; it was one of national
prejudice. A rich man could have a French chef and an English butler,
and as many strapping indoor mensome of them much better fitted for
manual laboras he liked, and find it a social glory; while a family
of moderate means were obliged to pay high wages to crude incompetent
women from the darkest backwaters of European life, just because they
And the women's mostly to blyme, he reasoned. They
suffersnobody knows what they suffers better nor mejust because
they ain't got the spunk to do anything but suffer. They've got
it all in their own 'ands, and they never learn. Men is slow to learn;
but women don't 'ardly ever learn at all.
Letty was thinking of herself, as she glanced up at this fount of
wisdom with the question:
Don't none of 'em?
Having apparently weighed this already he had his answer. None
that's been drilled a little bit before 'and. Once let woman feel as so
and so is the custom, and for 'er that custom, whether good or bad, is
there to stye. They sye that chyngin' 'er mind is a woman's privilege;
but the woman that chynged 'er mind about a custom is one I never met
She took him as seriously as he took himself.
Don't you like women, misterI mean, Steptoe?
He pondered before replying. I don't know as I could sye. I've
never 'ad a chance to see much of women except in 'ousework, where
they're out of their element and tyken at a disadvantage. I don't like
none I've ever run into there, because none of 'em never was no sport.
The inquiry in her golden eyes led him a little further.
No one ain't a sport what sighs and groans over their job, and
don't do it cheerful like. No one ain't a sport what undertykes a job
and ain't proud of it. If a woman will go into 'ousework let 'er
do it honorable. If she chooses to be a servant let 'er be a
servant, and not be ashymed to sye she is one. So if madam arsks
me if I like 'em I 'ave to confess I don't, because as far as I see
women I mostly 'ear 'em complyne.
Her admiration was quite sincere as she said: I shouldn't think
they'd complain if they had you to put 'em wise.
He corrected gently. If they 'ad me to tell 'em.
If they 'ad you to tell 'em, she imitated, meekly.
Madam mustn't pick up the bad 'abit of droppin' 'er haitches, he
warned, parentally. I'll learn 'er a lot, but that's one thing I
mustn't learn 'er. I don't do it oftenOh, once in a wye, mybebut
that's something madam speaks right alreadyjust like all Americans.
Delighted that there was one thing about her that was right already
she reminded him of what he had said, that women never learned.
I said women as 'ad been drilled a bit. But madam's different.
Madam comes into this 'ouse newborn, as you might sye; and that'll myke
it easier for 'er and me.
You mean that I'll not be a kicker.
Once more he smiled his gentle reproof. Oh, madam wouldn't be a
kicker any'ow. Jynie or Nettie or Mary Ann Courage or even mewe might
be kickers; but if madam was to hobject to anything she'd be
She knitted her brows. The distinction was difficult. He saw he had
better explain more fully.
It's only the common crowd what kicks. It's only the common crowd
what uses the expression. A man might use itI mean a real 'igh
gentleman like Mr. Rashleighand get awye with itnow and thenif 'e
didn't myke a 'abit of it; but when a woman does it she rubberstamps
'erself. Now, does madam see? A lydy couldn't be a lydyand kick. The
lyte Mrs. Allerton would never demean 'erself to kick; she'd only show
With a thumb and two fingers Letty marked off on the table the three
points as to which she had received information that morning. She must
say brought, and not brung; she must say tell, and not put wise; she
must not kick, but show displeasure. Neither must she drop her aitches,
though to do so would have been an effort. The warning only raised a
suspicion that in the matter of speech there might be a higher standard
than Steptoe's. If ever she heard Rashleigh Allerton speak again she
resolved to listen to him attentively.
She came back from her reverie on hearing Steptoe say:
With madam it's a cyse of beginning from the ground up, more or
less as you would with a byby; so I 'ope madam'll forgive me if I drop
a 'int as to what we must do before goin' any farther.
Once more he read her question in the starry little flames in her
The damask red which had ebbed surged slowly back again. It surged
back under the transparent white skin, as red wine fills a glass. Her
lips parted to stammer the confession that she had no clothes except
those she wore; but she couldn't utter a syllable.
I understand madam's position, which is why I mention it. You might
sye as clothes is the ABC of social life, and if we're to work from the
ground up we must begin there.
She forced it out at last, but the statement seemed to tear her.
I can't get clothes. I ain't got no money.
Oh, money's no hobject, he smiled. Mr. Rash 'as plenty of that,
and I know what 'e'd like me to do. There never was 'is hequal for the
'open 'and. If madam'll leave it to me....
* * * * *
Allerton's office was much what you would have expected it to be,
bearing to other offices the same relation as he to other business men.
He had it because not to have it wouldn't have been respectable. A
young American who didn't go to an office every day would hardly have
been a young American. An office, then, was a concession to public
sentiment, as well as some faint justification of himself.
It was in the latter sense that he chiefly took it, making it a
subject of frequent reference. In his conversation such expressions as
my office, or due at my office, were introduced more often than
there was occasion for. The implication that he had work to do gave him
status, enabling him to sit down among his cronies and good-naturedly
take their fun.
He took a good deal of fun, never having succeeded in making himself
the standardized type who escapes the shafts of ridicule. It was kindly
fun, which, while viewing him as a white swan in a flock of black ones,
recognized him as a swan, and this was as much as he could expect. To
pass in the crowd was all he asked for, even when he only passed on
bluff. If he couldn't wholly hide the bluff he could keep it from being
flagrantly obtrusive; and toward that end an office was a help.
It was an office situated just where you would have expected to find
itfar enough downtown to be downtown, and yet not so far downtown as
to make it a trouble to get there. Being on the eastern side of
Washington Square, it had a picturesque outlook, and the merit of
access from East Sixty-seventh Street through the long straight artery
of Fifth Avenue.
It was furnished, too, just as you might have known he would furnish
it, in the rich and sober Style Empire, and yet not so exclusively in
the Style Empire as to make the plain American business man fear he had
dropped into Napoleon's library at Malmaison. That is what Rashleigh
would have liked, but other men could do what in him would be thought
finicky. To take the cuss off his refinement, as he put it to
Barbara, he scattered modern American office bits among his luscious
brown surfaces, adorned with wreaths and lictors' sheaves in gold,
though to himself the wrong note was offensive.
But wrong notes and right notes were the same to him as, on this
particular morning, he dragged himself there because it was the hour.
His office staff in the person of old Mr. Radbury was already on the
spot, and had sorted the letters for the day. These were easily dealt
with. Reinvestment, or new opportunities for investment, were their
principal themes, and the only positive duty to attend to was in the
endorsement of dividend checks for deposit. A few directions being
given to Mr. Radbury as to such letters as were to be answered,
Allerton had nothing to do but stroll to the window and look out.
It was what he did perhaps fifty times in the course of the two or
three hours daily, or approximately daily, which he spent there. He did
so now. He did so because it put off for a few minutes longer the
fierce, exasperating, acrid pleasure of doing worse. To do worse had
been his avowed object in coming to the office that morning, and not
the answering of letters or the raking in of checks.
Looking down from his window on the tenth floor he asked himself the
fruitless question which millions of other men have asked when folly
has got them into trouble. Among these thousands who, viewed from that
height, had a curious resemblance to ants, was there such a fool as he
was? From the Square they streamed into Fifth Avenue; from Fifth Avenue
they streamed into the Square. In the Square and round the Square they
squirmed and wriggled and dawdled their seemingly aimless ways. Great
green lumbering omnibuses disgorged one pack of them merely to suck up
another. Motors whirled them toward uptown, toward downtown, or east,
or west, by twos and threes, or as individuals. Like ants their general
effect was black, with here and there a moving spot of color, or of
intermingling colors, as of flowers in the wind, or tropic birds.
He watched a figure detach itself from the mass swirling round a
debouching omnibus. It was a little black figure, just clearly enough
defined to show that it was a man. Because it was a man it had been a
fool. Because it had been a fool it had dark chambers in its life which
it would never willingly open. But it had doubtless got something for
its folly. It might have lost more than it had gained, but it could
probably reckon up and say, At least I had my fun.
And he had had none. He had squandered his whole life on a single
act of insanity which even in the action had produced nothing but
disgust. He hadn't merely swindled himself; he had committed a kind of
suicide which made death silly and grotesque. The one thing that could
save him a scrap of dignityand such a sorry scrap!would be going to
the devil by the shortest way.
He had come to the office to begin. He would begin by the means that
seemed obvious. Now that going to the devil was a task he saw, as he
had not seen hitherto, how curiously few were the approaches that would
take him there. Song being only an accompaniment, he was limited to the
remaining two of the famous and familiar trio.
Very well! Limited as he was he would make the most of them. Knowing
something of their merits he knew there was a bestial entertainment to
be had from both. It was a kind of entertainment which his cursed
fastidiousness had always loathed; but now his reckoning would be
different. If he got anything he should not feel so wastefully
thrown away. He would be selling himself first and making his bargain
afterwards; but some meager balance would stand to his credit, if
credit it could be called. When the devil had been reached the world he
knew would pardon him because it was the devil, and notwhat it was in
truthan idiotic state of nerves.
At the minute when Letty was leaping to her feet to take her stand
he swung away from the window. First going to Mr. Radbury's door he
closed it softly. Luckily the old man, an inheritance from his,
Allerton's, father, was deaf and incurious. Like most clerks who had
clerked their way up to seventy he was buried in clerking's little
round. He wouldn't come in till the letters were finished, certainly
not for an hour, and by that time Allerton would be.... He almost
smiled at the old man's probable consternation on finding him so before
the middle of the day. Any time would be bad enough; but in the high
He went to a cabinet which was said to have found its way via
Bordentown from the furnishings of Queen Caroline Murat. Having opened
it he took out a bottle and a glass. On the label of the bottle was a
kilted Highlander playing on the pipes. A siphon of soda was also in
the cabinet, but he left it there. What he had to do would be done more
quickly without its mitigation.
* * * * *
While Allerton was making these preparations Judson Flack, in
pajamas and slippers, was standing in his toy kitchen, looking
helplessly at a small gas stove. It was the hour in the middle of the
morning at which he was accustomed to be waked with the information
that his coffee and eggs were ready. The forenoon being what he called
his slack time he found the earlier part of it most profitably used for
Curse the girl!
The adjuration was called forth by the fact that he didn't know
where anything was, or how anything should be done. From the simple
expedient of going for his breakfast to one of the cheap restaurants
with which he was familiar he was cut off by the fact of an unlucky
previous night. He simply didn't have the bones. This was not to say
that he was penniless, but that in view of more public expenses later
in the day it would be well for him to economize where economy was so
obvious. He never had an appetite in the morning anyway. With irregular
eating and drinking all through the evening and far toward daylight, he
found a cup of coffee and an egg....
It was easy, he knew, to make the one and boil the other, but he was
out of practice. He couldn't remember doing anything of the sort since
the days before he married Letty's mother. Even then he had never tried
this new-fangled thing, the gas stove, so that besides being out of
practice he was at a loss.
Curse the girl!
The resources of the kitchen being few exploration didn't take him
long. He found bread, butter, milk that had turned sour, the usual
condiments, some coffee in a canister, and a single egg. If he could
only light the confounded gas stove....
A small white handle offering itself for experiment, he turned it
timidly, applying a match to a geometrical pattern of holes. He jumped
back as from an exploding cannon.
Curse the girl!
Having found the way, however, the next attempt was more successful.
Soon he had two geometrical patterns of holes burning in steady blue
buttons of flame. On the one he placed the coffee-pot into which he had
turned a pint of water and a cupful of coffee; on the other a saucepan
half full of water containing his egg. This being done he retired to
the bathroom for the elements of a toilet.
Curse the girl!
Washing, shaving, turning up his mustache with the little curling
tongs, he observed with self-pity his increasing haggardness. He
observed it also with dismay. Looks were as important to him as to an
actress. His rôle being youth, high spirits, and the devil-may-care,
the least trace of the wearing out would do for him. He had noticed
some time ago that he was beginning to show fatal signs, which had the
more emphatically turned his thoughts to the provision Letty might
prove for his old age.
Curse the girl!
It was cursing the girl which reminded him that he had allowed more
than the necessary time for his breakfast to be ready for consumption.
Hurrying back to the kitchen he found the egg gracefully dancing as the
water boiled. He fished it out with a spoon and took it in his hand,
but he didn't keep it there. Dashing it to the table, whence it crashed
upon the floor, he positively screamed.
Curse the girl!
He cursed her now licking and sucking the tips of his fingers and
examining them to see if they were scalded. No such calamity having
occurred he took up the coffee pot, leaving the mashed egg where it
lay. Ladling a spoonful of sugar into a cup, and adding the usual milk,
he poured in the coffee, which became a muddy dark brown mixture, with
what appeared to be a porridge of seeds floating on the top. One sip,
which induced a diabolical grimace, and he threw the beverage at the
opposite wall as if it was a man he meant to insult.
Curse the girl!
The appeal to the darker powers being accompanied now by a series of
up-to-date terms of objurgation, the mere act of utterance, mental or
articulate, churned him to a frenzy. Seizing the coffee pot which he
had replaced on the gas stove he hurled it too against the wall. It
struck, splathered the hideous liquor over a hideous calsomining which
had once been blue, and fell to the floor like a living thing knocked
The resemblance maddened him still more. It might have been Letty,
struck down after having provoked him beyond patience. He rushed at it.
He hurled it again. He hurled it again. He hurled it again. The
exercise gave relief not only to his lawful resentment against Letty,
but to those angers over his luck of last night which as a good loser
he hadn't been at liberty to show. No one knew the repressions he was
obliged to put upon himself; but now his inhibitions could come off in
this solitary passion of destruction.
When the coffee pot was a mere shapeless mass he picked up the empty
cup. It was a thick stone-china cup, with a bar meant to protect his
mustache across the top, a birthday present from Letty's mother. The
association of memories acted as a further stimulus. Smash! After the
cup went the stone-china sugar bowl. Smash! After the sugar bowl the
plate with the yellow chunk of butter. Smash! After the butter plate
the milk jar, a clumsy, lumpy thing, which merely gurgled out a splash
of milk and fell without breaking.
Curse the girl! Curse the girl! Curse the girl! I'll learn her to
go away and leave me! I'll find her and drag her back if she's in....
While Letty was beginning a new experience Judson Flack was doing
his best to carry out his threat. That is to say, he was making the
round of the studios in which his step-daughter had occasionally found
work, discreetly asking if she had been there that day. It was all he
could think of doing. To the best of his knowledge she had no friends
with whom she could have taken refuge, though the suspicion crossed his
mind that she might have drowned herself to spite him.
As a matter of fact Letty was asking the question if she wasn't
making a mistake in not doing so, either literally or morally. Never
before in her life had she been up against this problem of
insufficiency. Among the hard things she had known she had not known
this; and now that she was involved in it, it seemed to her harder than
everything else put together.
In her humble round, bitter as it was, she had always been
considered competent. It was the sense of her competence that gave her
the self-respect enabling her to bear up. According to her standards
she could keep house cleverly, and could make a dollar go as far as
other girls made two. When she got her first chance in a studio,
through an acquaintance of Judson Flack's, she didn't shrink from it,
and had more than once been chosen by a director to be that member of a
crowd who moves in the front and expresses the crowd psychologically.
Had she only had the clothes....
And now she was to have them. As far as that went she was not merely
glad; she was one sheer quiver of excitement. It was not the end she
shrank from; it was the means. If she could only have had fifty dollars
to go poking round where she knew that bargains could be found, she
might have enjoyed the prospect; but Steptoe could only take measures
on the grand scale to which he was accustomed.
The grand scale frightened her, chiefly because she was dressed as
she was dressed. It was her first thought and her last one. When
Steptoe told her the hour at which he had asked Eugene to bring round
the car the mere vision of herself stepping into it made her want to
sink into the ground. Eugene didn't live in the houseshe had
discovered thatand so would bring the stare of another pair of eyes
under whose scrutiny she would have to pass. Those of the three women
having already scorched her to the bone, she would have to be scorched
She tried to say this to Steptoe, as they stood in the drawing-room
window waiting for the car; but she didn't know how to make him
understand it. When she tried to put it into words, the right words
wouldn't come. Steptoe had taken as general what she was trying to
explain to him in particular.
It'll be very important to madam to fyce what's 'ard, and to do it
bryve like. It'll be the mykin' of 'er if she can. 'Umble 'ill is
pretty stiff to climb; but them as gets to the top of it is tough.
She thought this over silently. He meant that if she set herself to
take humiliations as they came, dragging herself up over them, she
would be the stronger for it in the end.
It'd 'ave been better for Mr. Rashleigh, he mused, if 'e'd 'ad
'ad somethink of the kind to tackle in 'is life; it'd 'ave myde 'im
more of a man. But because 'e adn'tDid madam ever notice, he broke
off to ask, 'ow them as 'as everythink myde easy for 'em begins right
off to myke things 'ard for theirselves. It's a kind of law like. It's
just as if nyture didn't mean to let no one escype. When a man's got no
troubles you can think of, 'e'll go to work to create 'em.
Didn't heshe had never yet pronounced the name of the man
who had married herdidn't he ever have any troubles?
'E was fretted terriblecrossed likerubbed up the wrong wye, as
you might sye,but a real trouble like what you and me 'ave 'ad plenty
ofnever! It's my opinion that trouble is to char-ac-ter what a
peg'll be to a creepin' vinesomething to which the vine'll 'ook on
and pull itself up by. Where there's nothink to ketch on to the vine'll
grow; but it'll grow in a 'eap of flop. There was a tremor in his tone
as he summed up. That's somethink like my poor boy.
Letty found this interesting. That in these exalted circles there
could be a need of refining chastisement came to her as a surprise.
The wife as I've always 'oped for 'im, Steptoe went on, is one
that'd know what trouble was, and 'ow to fyce it. 'E'd myke a grand
'usband to a woman who wasstrong. But she'd 'ave to be the wall what
the creepin' vine could cover all over andand beautify.
That wouldn't be me.
If I was madam I wouldn't be so sure of that. It don't do to
undervalyer your own powers. If I'd 'a done that I wouldn't 'a been
where I am to-dye. Many's the time, when I was no more than a poor
little foundlin' boy in a 'ome I've said to myself, I'm fit for
somethink big. Somethink big I always meant to be. When it didn't seem
possible for me to aim so 'igh I'd myde up my mind to be a valet and a
butler. It comesyour hambition does. What you've first got to do is
to form it; and then you've got to stick to it through thick and thin.
To say what she said next Letty had to break down barrier beyond
barrier of inhibition and timidity. And if I was toto form thethe
ambitionto beto be the kind of wall you was talkin' about just
That wouldn't be hambition; it'd beconsecrytion.
He allowed her time to get the meaning of this before going on.
But madam mustn't expect not to find it 'ard. Consecrytion is
always 'ard, by what I can myke out. When Mr. Rash was a little 'un 'e
used to get Miss Pye, 'is governess, to read to 'im a fairy tyle about
a little mermaid what fell in love with a prince on land. Bein' in love
with 'im she wanted to be with 'im, natural like; but there she was in
one element, as you might sye, and 'im in another.
That'd be like me.
Which is why I'm tellin' madam of the story. Well, off the little
mermaid goes to the sea-witch to find out 'ow she could get rid of 'er
fish's tyle and 'ave two feet for to walk about in the prince's palace.
Well, the sea-witch she up and tells 'er what she'd 'ave to do. Only,
says she, if you do that you'll 'ave to pye for it with every step you
tykes; for every step you tykes'll be like walkin' on sharp blydes.
Now, says she, to the little mermaid, do you think it'd be worth
In Letty's eyes all the stars glittered with her eagerness for the
dénouement. And did she think it was worth whilethe little mermaid?
She did; but I'll give madam the tyle to read for 'erself. It's in
the syme little book what Miss Pye used to read out ofup in Mr.
Rash's old nursery.
With the pride of a royal thing conscious of its royalty the car
rolled to the door and stopped. It was the prince's car, while she,
Letty, was a mermaid born in an element different from his, and
encumbered with a fish's tail. She must have shown this in her face,
for Steptoe said, with his fatherly smile:
Madam may 'ave to walk on blydesbut it'll be in the Prince's
It'll be in the Prince's palace! Letty repeated this to herself as
she followed him out to the car. Holding the door open for her, Eugene,
who had been told of her romance, touched his cap respectfully. When
she had taken her seat he tucked the robe round her, respectfully
again. Steptoe marked the social difference between them by sitting
Rolling down Fifth Avenue Letty was as much at a loss to account for
herself as Elijah must have been in the chariot of fire. She didn't
know where she was going. She was not even able to ask. The succession
of wonders within twenty-four hours blocked the working of her
faculties. She thought of the girls who sneered at her in the
studiosshe thought of Judson Flackand of what they would say if
they were to catch a glimpse of her.
She was not so unsophisticated as to be without some appreciation of
the quarter of New York in which she found herself. She knew it was the
swell quarter. She knew that the world's symbols of money and display
were concentrated here, and that in some queer way she, poor waif, had
been given a command of them. One day homeless, friendless, and
penniless, and the next driving down Fifth Avenue in a limousine which
might be called her own!
The motor was slowing down. It was drawing to the curb. They had
reached the place to which Steptoe had directed Eugene. Letty didn't
have to look at the name-plate to know she was where the great stars
got their gowns, and that she was being invited into Margot's!
You know Margot's, of course. A great international house,
Margotthe secret is an open oneis but the incognita of a
business-like English countess who finds it financially profitable to
sign articles on costume written by someone else, and be sponsor for
the newest fashions which someone else designs. As a way of turning an
impoverished historic title to account it is as good as any other.
Without knowing who Margot was Letty knew what she was. She couldn't
have frequented studios without hearing that much, and once or twice in
her wanderings about the city she had paused to admire the door. It was
all there was to admire, since Margot, to Letty's regret, didn't
display confections behind plate-glass.
It was a Flemish château which had been a residence before business
had traveled above Forty-second Street. A man in livery would have
barred them from passing the wrought-iron grille had it not been for
the car from which they had emerged. Only people worthy of being
customers of the house could afford such cars, and he saw that Steptoe
was a servant. What Letty was he couldn't see, for servants of great
houses never looked so nondescript.
In the great hall a beautiful staircase swept to an upper floor, but
apart from a Louis Seize mirror and console flanked by two Louis Seize
chairs there was nothing and no one to be seen. Steptoe turned to the
right into a vast saloon with a cinnamon-colored carpet and walls of
cool French gray. A group of gilded chairs were the only furnishings,
except for a gilded canapé between two French windows draped with
cinnamon-colored hangings. A French fender with French andirons filled
the fireplace, and on the white marble mantelpiece stood a garniture
de cheminée, a clock and two vases, in biscuit de Sèvres.
At the end of the room opposite the windows a woman in black, with
coiffure à la Marcel, sat at a white-enamelled desk working with a
ledger. A second woman in black, also with coiffure à la Marcel, stood
holding open the doors of a white-enamelled wardrobe, gazing at its
multi-colored contents. Two other women in black, still with coiffure à
la Marcel, were bending over a white-enamelled drawer in a series of
white-enamelled drawers, discussing in low tones. There were no
customers. For such a house the season had not yet begun. Though in
this saloon voices were pitched as low as for conversation in a church,
the sharp catgut calls of Frenchwomenand of French dressmakers
especiallycame from a room beyond.
Overawed by this vastness, simplicity, and solemnity, Steptoe and
Letty stood barely within the door, waiting till someone noticed them.
No one did so till the woman holding open the wardrobe doors closed
them and turned round. She did not come forward at once; she only
stared at them. Still keeping her eye on the newcomers she called the
attention of the ladies occupied with the drawer, who lifted themselves
up. They too stared. The lady at the desk stared also.
It was the lady of the wardrobe who advanced at last, slowly, with
dignity, her hands genteelly clasped in front of her. She seemed to be
saying, No, we don't want any, or, I'm sorry we've nothing to give
you, by her very walk. Letty, with her gift for dramatic
interpretation, could see this, though Steptoe, familiar as he was with
ladies whom he would have classed as 'igher, was not daunted. He too
went forward, meeting madam half way.
Of what was said between them Letty could hear nothing, but the
expression on the lady's face was dissuasive. She was telling Steptoe
that he had come to the wrong place, while Steptoe was saying no. From
time to time the lady would send a glance toward Letty, not in disdain,
but in perplexity. It was perplexity which reached its climax when
Steptoe drew from an inside pocket an impressive roll of bills.
The lady looked at the bills, but she also looked at Letty. The
honor of a house like Margot's is not merely in making money; it is in
its clientèle. To have a poor little waif step in from the street....
And yet it was because she was a poor little waif that she
interested the ladies looking on. She was so striking an exception to
their rule that her very coming in amazed them. One of the two who had
remained near the open drawer came forward into conference with her
colleague, adding her dissuasions to those which Steptoe had already
refused to listen to.
There are plenty of other places to which you could go, Letty
heard this second lady say, and probably do better.
Steptoe smiled, that old man's smile which was rarely ineffective.
Madam don't 'ave to tell me as there's plenty of other plyces to which
I could go; but there's none where I could do as well.
What makes you think so?
I'm butler to a 'igh gentleman what 'e used to entertyne quite a
bit when 'is mother was alive. I've listened to lydies talkin' at
tyble. No one can't tell me. I know.
Both madams smiled. Each shot another glance at Letty. It was plain
that they were curious as to her identity. One of them made a venture.
And is this youryour daughter?
Steptoe explained, not without dignity, that the young lady was not
his daughter, but that she had come into quite a good bit of money, and
had done it sudden like. She needed a 'igh, grand outfit, though for
the present she would be content with three or four of the dresses most
commonly worn by a lydy of stytion. He preferred to nyme no nymes, but
he was sure that even Margot would not regret her confidenceand he
had the cash, as they saw, in his pocket.
Of this the result was an exchange between the madams of
comprehending looks, while, in French, one said to the other that it
might be well to consult Madame Simone.
Madame Simone, who bustled in from the back room, was not in black,
but in frowzy gray; her coiffure was not à la Marcel, but as Letty
described it, all anyway. A short, stout, practical Frenchwoman, she
had progressed beyond the need to consider looks, and no longer
considered them. The two shapely subordinates with whom Steptoe had
been negotiating followed her at a distance like attendants.
She disposed of the whole matter quickly, addressing the attendants
rather than the postulants for Margot's favor.
Mademoiselle she want an outfitgood!bon! We don't know her, but
what difference does that make to me?qu'est ce que c'est que cela me
fait? Money is money, isn't it?de l'argent c'est de l'argent,
n'est-ce pas?at this time of year especiallyà cette saison de
To Steptoe and Letty she said: 'Ave the goodness to sit yourselves
'ere. Me, I will show you what we 'ave. A street costume first for
mademoiselle. If mademoiselle will allow me to look at herAh, oui! Ze
taillewhat you call in Eenglish the figureis excellent. Très chic.
With ze proper closes mademoiselle would have stylede l'élégance
naturellethat sees itselfcela se voitouioui
Meditating to herself she studied Letty, indifferent apparently to
the actual costume and atrocious hat, like a seeress not viewing what
is at her feet but events of far away.
With a sudden start she sprang to her convictions. I 'ave it. J'y
suis. A shrill piercing cry like that of a wounded cockatoo went down
the long room. Alphonsine! Alphon_sine!
Someone appeared at the door of the communicating rooms. Madame
Simone gave her orders in a few sharp staccato French sentences. After
that Letty and Steptoe found themselves sitting on two of the gilded
chairs, unexpectedly alone. The other ladies had returned to their
tasks. Madame Simone had gone back to the place whence they had
summoned her. Nothing had happened. It seemed to be all over. They
Ain't she goin' to show us nothin'? Letty whispered anxiously.
They always do.
Steptoe was puzzled but recommended patience. He couldn't think that
Madame could have begun so kindly, only to go off and leave them in the
lurch. It was not what he had looked for, any more than she; but he had
always found patient waiting advantageous.
Perhaps ten minutes had gone by when a new figure wandered toward
them. Strutted would perhaps be the better word, since she stepped like
a person for whom stepping means a calculation. She was about Letty's
height, and about Letty's figure. Moreover, she was pretty, with that
haughtiness of mien which turns prettiness to beauty. What was most
disconcerting was her coming straight toward Letty, and standing in
front of her to stare.
Letty colored to the eyesher deep, damask flush. The insult was
worse than anything offered by Mrs. Courage; for Mrs. Courage after all
was only a servant, and this a young lady of distinction. Letty had
never seen anyone dressed with so much taste, not even the stars as
they came on the studio lot in their everyday costumes. Indignant as
she was she could appreciate this delicate seal-brown cloth, with its
bits of gold braid, and darling glimpses of sage-green wherever the
lining showed indiscreetly. The hat was a darling too, brown with a
feather between brown and green, the one color or the other according
as the wearer moved.
If it hadn't been for this cool insolence.... And then the young
lady deliberately swung on her heel, which was high, to move some five
or six yards away, where she stood with her back to them. It was a
darling backwith just enough gold braid to relieve the simplicity,
and the tiniest revelation of sage-green. Letty admired it the more
poignantly for its cold contempt of herself.
Steptoe was not often put out of countenance, but it seemed to have
happened now. I can't think, he murmured, as one who
contemplates the impossible, that the French madam can 'ave been so
civil to begin with, just to go and make a guy of us.
If all her customers is like this Letty began.
But the young lady of distinction turned again, stepping a few paces
toward the back of the room, swinging on herself, stepping a few paces
toward the front of the room, swinging on herself again, and all the
while flinging at Letty glances which said: If you want to see scorn,
this is it.
Fascination kept Letty paralyzed. Steptoe grew uneasy.
I wish the French madam'd come back agyne, he murmured, from half
closed lips. We 'aven't come 'ere to be myde a spectacle ofnot for
And just then the seal-brown figure strolled away, as serenely and
impudently as she had come.
Well, of all!
Letty's exclamation was stifled by the fact that as the first young
lady of distinction passed out a second crossed her coming in. They
took no notice of each other, though the newcomer walked straight up to
Letty, not to stare but to toss up her chin with a hint of laughter
suppressed. Laughter, suppressed or unsuppressed, was her note. She was
all fair-haired, blue-eyed vivacity. It was a relief to Letty that she
didn't stare. She twitched, she twisted, she pirouetted, striking dull
gleams from an embroidery studded with turquoise and jadebut she
hadn't the hard unconscious arrogance of the other one.
All the same it pained Letty that great ladies should be so
beautiful. Not that this one was beautiful of faceshe wasn'tonly
piquantbut the general effect was beautiful. It showed what money and
the dressmaker could do. If she, Letty could have had a dress and a hat
like this!a blue or a green, it was difficult to say whichwith
these strips of jade and turquoise on a ground of the
purplish-greenish-blue she remembered as that of the monkshood in the
old farm garden in Canadaand the darlingest hat, with one long
feather beginning as green and graduating through every impossible
shade of green and blue till it ended in a monkshood tip....
No wonder the girl's blue eyes danced and quizzed and laughed. As a
matter of fact, Letty commented, the eyes brought a little too much
blue into the composition. It was her only criticism. As a whole it
lacked contrast. If she herself had worn this costumewith her
gold-stone eyesand brown hairand rich coloring, when she had any
colorblue was always a favorite shade with herwhen she could
choose, which wasn't oftenshe remembered as a child on the farm how
she used to plaster herself with the flowers of the blue succorythe
dust-flower they called it down there because it seemed to thrive like
the disinherited on the dust of the waysidenot but what the
seal-brown was adorable....
The spectacle grew dazzling, difficult for Steptoe to keep up with.
He and Letty were plainly objects of interest to these grand folk,
because there were now four or five of them. They advanced, receded,
came up and studied them, wheeled away, smiled sometimes at each other
with the high self-assurance of beauty and position, pranced, pawed,
curveted, were noble or coquettish as the inner self impelled, but
always the embodiment of overweening pride. Among the real gentry, as
he called them, there had unfailingly been for him and his colleagues a
courtesy which might have been called only a distinction in equality,
whereas these high-steppers....
It was a relief to see the French madam bustling in again from the
room at the back. Steptoe rose. He meant to express himself. Letty
hoped he would. For people who brought money in their hands this
treatment was too much. When Steptoe advanced to meet madam, she went
with him. As her champion she must bear him out.
But madam forestalled them. I 'ope that mademoiselle has seen
something what she like. Me, I thought the brown costumecoeur de
le marguerite jaune we call it ziz season
Letty was quick. She had heard of mannequins, the living models,
though so remotely as to give her no visualized impression. Suddenly
knowing what they had been looking at she adapted herself before
Steptoe could get his protest into words.
I liked the seal-brown; but for me I thought the second one
Madame Simone nodded, sagely. Why shouldn't mademoiselle 'ave
While this question was being put, and Steptoe was rising to what he
saw as the real occasion, Rashleigh Allerton too was having a new
experience. He couldn't understand it; he couldn't understand himself.
Not that that was strange, since he had hardly ever understood himself
at any time; but now he was, as he expressed it, absolutely stumped.
He had put on the table the bottle on which the kilted Highlander
was playing on the pipes; he had poured himself a glass. It was what he
called a good stiff glass, meant, metaphorically, to kill or cure, and
he hoped it would be to kill.
And that was all.
He had sat looking at it, or he had looked at it while walking
about; but he had only looked at it. It was as far as he could go. Now
that to go farther had become what he called a duty the perversity of
his nerves was such that they refused. It was like him. He could always
do the forbidden, the dare-devil, the crazily mad; but when it came to
the reasonable and straightforward something in him balked. Here he was
at what should have been the beginning of the end, and the demon which
at another time would have driven him on was holding him back.
Temptation had worked itself round the other way. It was temptation not
to do, when saving grace lay in doing.
An hour or more had gone by when Mr. Radbury knocked at the door,
Come in, Radbury, Allerton cried, in a gayety he didn't feel.
Have a drink.
Mr. Radbury looked at the bottle and the glass. He looked at his
young employer, who with his hands in his pockets, was again standing
by the window. It was the first time in all the years of his service,
first with the father and then with the son, that this invitation had
been given him.
Thanks, Mr. Rash, he said, with a thick, shaky utterance. Liquor
and I are strangers. I wish I could feel
But the old man's trembling anxiety forced on Allerton the fact that
the foolish game was up. All right, Radbury. Was only joking. No harm
done. Had only taken the thing out toto look at it.
Before sitting down to read and sign the letters he put both glass
and bottle back into the keeping of Queen Caroline Murat, saying to
himself as he did so: I must find some other way.
He was thrown back thus on Barbara's suggestion of a few hours
earlier. He must get rid of the girl! He had scarcely as yet considered
this proposal, though not because he deemed it unworthy of himself.
Nothing could be unworthy of himself. A man who was so little of a man
as he was entitled to do anything, however base, and feel no shame. It
was simply that his mind hadn't worked round to looking at the thing as
feasible. And yet it was; plainly it was. The law allowed for it, if
one only took advantage of the law's allowances. It would be beastly,
of course; and more beastly for him than the average of men; but
because it was beastly it were better done at once, before the girl got
used to luxurious surroundings.
But even this resolution, speedy as it was, came a little late. By
evening Letty was already growing used to luxurious surroundings, and
finding herself at home in them.
First, there were no longer any women in the house, and with the
three menSteptoe's friends being already installedshe found herself
safe from the prying and criticizing feminine.
Secondly, some of the new clothes had already come home, and she was
now wearing the tea-gown she had long dreamt of but had never aspired
to possess. It was of a blue so dark as to be almost black, with a
flame colored bar across the breast, harmonizing with her hair and
eyes. Of her eyes she wasn't thinking; but her hair....
That, however, was another part of the day's fairy tale.
When the dresses had been bought and paid for madame presumed to
Steptoe that mademoiselle was under some rich gentleman's protection.
Taking words at their face value, as she, Letty, did herself, Steptoe
admitted that she was. Madam made it plain that she understood this
honor, which often came to girls of the humblest classes, and the need
there could be for supplementing wardrobes suddenly. After that it was
confidence for confidence. Madame had seen that in the matter of
lingerie mademoiselle left to desire, and though Margot made no
specialty in this line, they happened to have on an upper floor a
consignment just arrived from Paris, and if monsieur would allow
mademoiselle to come up and inspect it.... Then it was Madame Simone's
coiffeur. At least it was the coiffeur whom Madame Simone recommended,
who came to the house, after Letty had donned a peignoir from the
consignment just arrived from Paris.... And now, at half past nine in
the evening, it was the memory of a day of mingled agony and
Having looked her over as he summoned her to dinner, Steptoe had
approved of her. He had approved of her with an inner emphasis stronger
than he expressed. Letty didn't know how she knew this; but she knew.
She knew that her transformation was a surprise to him. She knew that
though he had hoped much from her she was giving him more than he had
hoped. Nothing that he said told her this, but something in his
mannerin his yearning as he passed her the various dishes and
tactfully showed her how to help herself, in the tenderness with which
he repeated correctly her little slips in wordssomething in this
She knew it, too, when after dinner he begged her not to escape to
the little back room, but to take her place in the drawing-room.
Madam'll find that it'll pass the time for 'er. Maybe too Mr.
Rashleigh'll come in. 'E does sometimesearly like. I've known 'im to
come 'ome by 'alf past nine, and if 'is ma wasn't sittin' in the
drorin' room 'e'd be quite put out. Lydies mostly wytes till their
'usbands comes in; and in cyse madam'd feel lonely I'll leave the door
open to the back part of the 'ouse, and she'll 'ear me talkin' to the
The October evening being chilly he lit a fire. Drawing up in front
of it a small armchair, suited for a lady's use, he placed behind it a
table with an electric lamp. Letty smiled up at him. He had never seen
her smile before, and now that he did he made to himself another
comment of approval.
You're awful good to me.
He reflected as to how he could bring home to her the grammatical
Madam finds me horfly good, does she? P'rhaps that's because
madam don't know that 'er comin' to this 'ouse gratifies a tyste o'
mine for which I ain't never 'ad no gratificytion.
As he put a footstool to her feet he caught the question she so
easily transmitted by her eyes.
P'raps madam can hunderstand that after doin' things all my life
for people as is used to 'em I've 'ad a kind o' cryvin' to do 'em for
them as 'aven't 'ad nothink, and who could enjoy them more. I told
madam yesterday I was somethink of a anarchist, and that's 'ow I
amwantin' to give the poor a wee little bit of what the rich 'as to
Later he brought her an old red book, open at a page on which she
read, The Little Mermaid.
Her heart leaped. It was from this volume that Miss Pye had read to
the Prince when he was a child. She let her eyes run along the opening
Far out in the sea the water is as blue as the petals of the
cornflower, and clear as the purest glass.
She liked this sentence. It took her into a blue world. It was
curious, she thought, how much meaning there was in colors. If you
looked through red glass the world was angry; if through yellow, it was
lit with an extraordinary sun; if through blue, you had the sensation
of universal happiness. She supposed that that was why blue flowers
always made you feel that there was a want in life which ought to be
She remembered a woman who had a farm near them in Canada, who grew
only blue flowers in her garden. The neighbors said she was crazy; but
she, Letty, had liked that garden better than all the gardens she knew.
She would go there and talk to that woman, and listen to what she had
to say of Nature's peculiar love of blue. The sea and sky were
loveliest when they were blue, and so were the birds. There were blue
stones, the woman said, precious stones, and other stones that were
little more than rocks, which said something to the heart when pearls
and diamonds spoke only to the eyes. In the fields, orchards, and
gardens, white flowers, yellow flowers, red flowers were common; but
blue flowers were rare and retiring, as if they guarded a secret which
men should come and search out.
To this there was only one exception. Letty would notice as she
trudged back to her father's farm that along the August roadsides there
was a blue flowerof a blue you would never see anywhere else, not
even in the skywhich grew in the dust, and lived on dust, and out of
the dust drew elements of beauty such as roses and lilies couldn't
boast of. That means, the crazy woman said, that there's nothing so
dry, or parched, or sterile, that God can't take it and fashion from it
the most priceless treasures of loveliness, if we only had the eyes to
Letty never forgot this, and during all the intervening years the
dust flower, with its heavenly color, had been the wild growing thing
she loved best. It spoke to her. It not only responded to the ache she
felt within herself, but gave a promise of assuagement. She had never
expected the fulfilment of that promise, but was it possible that now
it was going to be kept?
With her eyes on the fire she saw the color of the dust flower close
to the flaming wood. It was the closest of all the colors, the one the
burning heart kept nearest to itself. It seemed to be, as the crazy
woman said, dear to Nature itself, its own beloved secret, the secret
which, even when written in the dust of the wayside, or in the fire on
the hearth, hardly anyone read or found out.
And as she was dreaming of this and of her Prince, Rashleigh was
walking up the avenue, saying to himself that he must make an end of
it. He was walking home because, having dined at the Club, he found
himself too restless to stay there. Walking relieved his nerves, and
enabled him to think. He must have the thing over and done with. She
would go decently, of course, since, as he had promised her, she would
have plenty of money to go withplenty of money for the rest of her
lifeand that was the sole consideration. She would doubtless be as
glad to escape as he to have her disappear. After that, so his lawyer
had assured him in the afternoon, the legal steps would be relatively
Letting himself in with his latchkey he was surprised to see a light
in the drawing-room. It had not been lighted up at night, as far as he
could remember, since the days when his mother was accustomed to sit
there. If he came home early he had always used the library, which was
on the other side of the house and at the back.
He went into the front drawing-room, which was empty; but a fire
burnt in the back one, and before it someone was seated. It was not the
girl he had found in the park. It was a lady whom he didn't recognize,
but clearly a lady. She was reading a book, and had evidently not heard
his entrance or his step.
With the shadows of the front drawing-room behind him he stood
between the portieres, and looked. He had looked for some seconds
before the lady raised her eyes. She raised them with a start. Slowly
there stole into her cheek the dark red of confusion. She dropped the
book. She rose.
It wasn't till she rose that he knew her. It wasn't till he knew her
that he was seized by an astonishment which almost made him laugh. It
wasn't till he almost laughed that he went forward with the words,
which insensibly bridged some of the gulf between them:
Oh! So this isyou!
Letty had not heard Allerton's entrance or approach because for the
first time in her life she was lost in the magic of Hans Andersen.
The sun had just gone down as the little mermaid lifted her head
above the water. The clouds were brilliant in purple and gold, and
through the pale, rose-tinged air the evening star shone clear and
bright. The air was warm and mild; the sea at rest. A great ship with
three masts lay close by, only one sail unfurled, for there was no
breath of air, and the sailors sat aloft in the rigging or leaned
lazily over the bulwarks. Music and singing filled the air, and as the
sky darkened hundreds of Chinese lanterns were lighted. It seemed as if
the flags of every nation were hung out. The little mermaid swam up to
the cabin window, and every time she rose upon the waves she could see
through the clear glass that the room was full of brilliantly dressed
people. Handsomest of all was the young prince with the great dark
Allerton's eyes were dark, and though she did not consider him
precisely young, the analogy between him and the hero of the tale was
sufficient to take her eyes from the book and to set her to dreaming.
He could not be more than sixteen years old, and this was his
birthday. All this gaiety was in honor of him; the sailors danced upon
the deck; and when the young prince came out a myriad of rockets flew
high in the air, with a glitter like the brightest noontide, and the
little mermaid was so frightened that she dived deep down under the
water. She soon rose up again, however, and it seemed as if all the
stars of heaven were falling round her in golden showers. Never had she
seen such fireworks; great, glittering suns wheeled by her, fiery
fishes darted through the blue air, and all was reflected back from the
quiet sea. The ship was lighted up so that one could see the smallest
rope. How handsome the young prince looked! He shook hands with
everybody, and smiled, as the music rang out into the glorious night.
It grew late, but the little mermaid could not turn her eyes away from
the ship and the handsome prince.
Once more Letty's thought wandered from the page. She too would have
watched her handsome prince, no matter what the temptation to look
The colored lanterns were put out, no rocket rose in the air, no
cannon boomed from the portholes; but deep below there was a surging
and a murmuring. The mermaid sat still, cradled by the waves, so that
she could look in at the cabin window. But now the ship began to make
more way. One sail after another was unfurled; the waves rose higher;
clouds gathered in the sky; and there was a distant flash of lightning.
The storm came nearer. All the sails were taken in, and the ship rocked
giddily, as she flew over the foaming billows; the waves rose
mountain-high, as if they would swallow up the very masts, but the good
ship dived like a swan into the deep black trough, and rose bravely to
the foaming crest. The little mermaid thought it was a merry journey,
but the sailors were of a different opinion. The ship strained and
creaked; the timbers shivered as the thunder strokes of the waves fell
fast; heavy seas swept the decks; the mainmast snapped like a reed; and
the ship lurched heavily, while the water rushed into the hold. Then
the young princess began to understand the danger, and she herself was
often threatened by the falling masts, yards, and spars. One moment it
was so dark that she could see nothing, but when the lightning flamed
out the ship was as bright as day. She sought for the young prince, and
saw him sinking down through the water as the ship parted. The sight
pleased her, for she knew he must sink down to her home. But suddenly
she remembered that men cannot live in the water, and that he would
only reach her father's palace a lifeless corpse. No; he must not die!
She swam to and fro among the drifting spars, forgetting that they
might crush her with their weight; she dived and rose again, and
reached the prince just when he felt that he could swim no longer in
the stormy sea. His arms were beginning to fail him, his beautiful eyes
were closed; in another moment he must have sunk, had not the little
mermaid come to his aid. She kept his head above water, and let the
waves carry them whither they would.
Letty didn't want Allerton's life to be in danger, but she would
have loved saving it. She fell to pondering possible conditions in
which she could perform this feat, while he ran no risk whatever.
The next day the storm was over; not a spar of the ship was left in
sight. The sun rose red and glowing upon the waves, and seemed to pour
down new life upon the prince, though his eyes remained closed. The
little mermaid kissed his fair white forehead and stroked back his wet
hair. He was like the marble statue in her little garden, she thought.
She kissed him again, and prayed that he might live.
Letty saw herself seated somewhere in a mead, Allerton lying
unconscious with his head in her lap, though the circumstances that
brought them so together remained vague.
Suddenly the dry land came in sight before her, high blue mountains
on whose peaks the snow lay white, as if a flock of swans had settled
there. On the coast below were lovely green woods, and close on shore a
building of some kind, the mermaid didn't know whether it was church or
cloister. Citrons and orange trees grew in the garden, and before the
porch were stately palm trees. The sea ran in here and formed a quiet
bay, unruffled, but very deep. The little mermaid swam with the prince
to the white sandy shore, laid him on the warm sand, taking care that
his head was left where the sun shone warmest. Bells began to chime and
ring through all parts of the building, and several young girls entered
the garden. The little mermaid swam farther out, behind a tiny cliff
that rose above the waves. She showered sea-foam on her hair that no
one might see its golden glory, and then waited patiently to see if
anyone would come to the aid of the young prince.
To Letty that was the heart-breaking part of the story, the leaving
the beloved one to others. It was what she and the little mermaid had
in common, unless she too could get rid of her fish's tail at the cost
of walking on blades. But for the little mermaid there the necessity
was, as she, Letty read on.
Before long a young girl came by; she gave a start of terror and
ran back to call for assistance. Several people came to her aid, and
after a while the little mermaid saw the prince recover his
consciousness, and smile upon the group around him. But he had no smile
for her; he did not even know that she had saved him. Her heart sank,
and when she had seen him carried into the large building, she dived
sorrowfully down to her father's palace.
Lifting her eyes to meditate on this situation Letty saw Allerton
standing between the portières. Her dream of being little mermaid to
his prince went out like a pricked bubble. Though he neither smiled nor
sneered she knew he was amused at her, with a bitterness in his
amusement. In an instant she saw her transformation as it must appear
to him. She had spent his money recklessly, and made herself look
ridiculous. All the many kinds of shame she had ever known focused on
her now, making her a glowing brand of humiliations. She stood
helpless. Hans Andersen dropped to the floor with a soft thud.
Nevertheless, it was she who spoke first.
I suppose youyou think it funny to see me rigged up like this?
He took time to pick up the book she had dropped and hand it back to
her. Won't you sit down again?
While she seated herself and he followed her example she continued
to stammer on. II thought I ought toto look proper for the house
as long as I was in it.
Her phrasing gave him an opening. You're quite right. I should like
you to get whatever would help you inin your profession before
youbefore you leave us.
Quick to seize the implications here she took them with the
submission of those whose lots have always depended on other people's
I'll go whenever you want me to.
Relieved as he was by this willingness he was anxious not to seem
brutal. I'dI'd rather you consulted your own wishes about that.
She put on a show of nonchalance. Oh, I don't care. It'll be
justjust as you say when.
He would have liked to say when at that instant, but a pretense at
courtesy had to be maintained. There's no hurryfor a day or two.
You said a week or two yesterday.
Oh, did I? Well, then, we'll say a week or two now.
Oh, not for me, she hastened to assure him. I'd just as soon go
Have you hated it as much as that?
I've hated some of it.
Ah, well! You needn't be bothered with it long.
Her candor was of the kind which asks questions frankly. Haven't
you got any more use for me?
I'm afraid it was not easy to put it into the right wordsI'm
afraid I was mistaken yesterday. I put you inin a false position with
no necessity for doing so.
It took her a few seconds to get the force of this. Do you mean
that you didn't need me to beto be a shame and a disgrace to you
Did I put it in that way?
Well, didn't you?
The fact that she was now dressed as she was made it more
embarrassing to him to be crude than it had been when addressing the
homeless and shabby little drab.
I don't know what I said then. I wasI was upset.
And you're upset very easy, ain't you? She corrected herself
quickly: aren't you?
I suppose that's true. What of it?
Oh, nothing. II just happen to know a way you can get over
thatif you want to.
He smiled. I'm afraid my nervousness is too deeply seatedI may as
well admit that I'm nervousyou saw it for yourself
Oh, I saw you wasyou weresick up here she touched her
foreheadas soon as you begun to talk to me.
Grateful for this comprehension he tried to use it to his advantage.
So that you understand how I could go off the hooks
Sure! My mother'd go off 'em the least little thing, tilltill she
donetill she didthe way I told her.
Then some of these days I may ask you tobut just now perhaps we'd
better talk about
When I'm to get out.
Her bluntness of expression hurt him. That's not the way I should
have put it
But it's the way you'd 'a' meant, isn't it?
He was the more disconcerted because she said this gently, with the
same longing in her face and eyes as in that of the little mermaid
bending over the unconscious prince.
The unconscious prince of the moment merely said: You mustn't think
me more brutal than I am
Oh, I don't think you're brutal. You're just a little dippy,
ain'taren'tyou? But that's because you let yourself go. If when you
feel it comin' on you'd justbut perhaps you'd rather be dippy.
If he could have called these wide goldstone eyes with their tiny
flames maternal it is the word he would have chosen. In spite of the
difficulty of the minute he was conscious of a flicker of amusement.
I don't know that I would, but
After I'm gone shall weshall we stay married?
This being the real question he was glad she faced it with the
directness which gave her a kind of charm. He admitted that. She had
the charm of everything which is genuine of its kind. She made no
pretense. Her expression, her voice, her lack of sophistication, all
had the limpidity of water. He felt himself thanking God for it. He
alone knows what kind of hands I might have fallen into yesterday,
crazy fool that I am. Of this child, crude as she was, he could make
his own disposition.
So in answer to her question he told her he had seen his lawyer in
the afternoonhe was a lawyer himself but he didn't practiceand the
great man had explained to him that of all the processes known to
American jurisprudence the retracing of such steps as they had taken on
the previous day was one of the simplest. What the law had joined the
law could put asunder, and was well disposed toward doing so. There
being several courses which they could adopt, he put them before her
one by one. She listened with the sort of attention which shows the
mind of the listener to be fixed on the speaker, rather than on
anything he says. Not being obliged to ask questions or to make answers
she could again see him as the handsome, dark-eyed prince whom she
would have loved to save from drowning or any other fate.
Of all he said she could attach a meaning to but one word:
desertion. Even in the technical marital sense she knew vaguely its
significance. She thought of it with a tightening about the heart. Any
desertion of him of which she would be capable would be like that of
the little mermaid when she dived sorrowfully down to her father's
palace, leaving him with those to whom he belonged. It was this thought
which prompted a question flung in among his observations, though the
link in the train of thought was barely traceable:
Is she takin' you backthe girl you told me about yesterday?
He looked puzzled. Did I tell you about a girl yesterday?
Why, sure! You said she kicked you out
Well, she hadn't. II didn't know I'd gone so far as to say
Oh, you went a lot farther than that. You said you were goin' to
the devil. Ain't you? I mean, aren't you?
II don't seem able to.
You're the first fellow I've ever heard say that.
I'm the first fellow I've ever heard say it myself. But I tried
to-dayand I couldn't.
What did you do?
I tried to get drunk.
She half rose, shrinking away from him. Notnot you!
Yes. Why not? I've been drunk beforenot often, but
Don't tell me, she cried, hastily. I don't want to know. It's
But I thought it was just the sort of thing you'd be
I'd be used to. So it is. But that's the reason. You'reyou're
different. I can't bear to think of itnot with you.
But I'm just like any other man.
Oh, no, you're not.
He looked at her curiously. How am Ihow am Idifferent?
Oh, other men are just men, and you're aa kind of prince.
You wouldn't think so if you were to know me better.
But I'm not goin' to know you better, and I'd rather think of you
as I see you are. She dropped this theme to say: So the other
She didn't mean it at all.
She'd be crazy if she did. But what made her let you think so?
She'sshe's simply that sort; goes off the hooks too.
Oh! So there'll be a pair of you.
I'm afraid so.
That'll be bloody murder, won't it? Momma was that way with Judson
Flack. Hammer and tongsthe both of themtill I took her in hand,
And what happened then?
She calmed down andand died.
So that it didn't do her much good, did it?
It did her that much good that she died. Death was better than the
way she was livin' with Judson Flackand it wasn't always his fault. I
do' wanta defend him, but momma got so that if he did have a quiet
spell she'd go and stir him up. There's not much hope for two married
people that lives like that, do you think?
But you say your mother, under your instruction, got over it.
Yes, but it was too late. The more she got over it the more he'd
lambaste her, and when her money was all gone
But do you think allall hot-tempered couples have to go it in
She made a little hunching movement of the shoulders. It's mostly
cat and dog anyhow. You and herthe other girlwon't be much worse
But you think we'll be worse, to some extent at least.
She ignored this to say, wistfully: I suppose you're awful fond of
I think I can say as much as that.
And is she fond of you?
She says so.
If she is I don't see how she could Her voice trailed away. Her
eyes forsook his face to roam the shadows of the room. She added to
herself rather than to him: I couldn't ha' done it if it was me.
Oh, if you were in love
The eyes wandered back from the shadows to rest on him again. They
were sorrowful eyes, and unabashed. A child's would have had this
unreproachful ache in them, or a dog's. Though he didn't know what it
meant it disturbed him into leaving his sentence there.
It occurred to him then that they were forgetting the subject in
hand. He had not expected to be able to converse with her, yet
something like conversation had been taking place. It had come to him,
too, that she had a mind, and now that he really looked at her he saw
that the face was intelligent. Yesterday that face had been no more to
him than a smudge, without character, and almost featureless, while
The train of his thought being twofold he could think along one
line, and speak along another. So if you go to see my lawyer he'll
suggest different things that you could do
I'd rather do whatever 'ud make it easiest for you.
You're very kind, but I think I'd better not suggest. I'll leave
that to him and you. He knows already that he's to supply you with
whatever money you need for the present; and after everything is
settled I'll see that you have
The damask flush which Steptoe had admired stole over a face flooded
with alarm. She spoke as she rose, drawing a little back from him. I
do' want any money.
He looked up at her in protestation. Oh, but you must take it.
She was still drawing back, as if he was threatening her with
something that would hurt. I do' want to.
But it was part of our bargain. You don't understand that I
I didn't make no such She checked herself. Her mother had
rebuked her for this form of speech a thousand times. She said the
sentence over as she felt he would have said it, as the people would
have said it among whom she had lived as a child. The cadence of his
speech, the half forgotten cadences of theirs, helped her ear and her
intuitions. I didn't make any such bargain, she managed to bring out,
at last. You said you'd give me money; but I never said I'd take it.
He too rose. He began to feel troubled. Perhaps she wouldn't be at
his disposition after all. Butbut I couldn't stand it if you didn't
And I couldn't stand it if I did.
But that's not reasonable. It's part of the whole thing that I
should look out for your future after what
I know what you mean, she declared, tremblingly. You think that
because I'mI'm beneath you that I ain't gotthat I haven't gotno
sense of what a girl should do and what she shouldn't do. But you're
wrong. Do you suppose I didn't know all about how crazy it was when I
went with you yesterday? Of course I did. I was as much to blame as
Oh, no, you weren't. Apart from your being what you call beneath
meand I don't admit that you areI'm a great deal older than
You're only older in years. In livin' I'm twice your age. Besides
I'm all right here she touched her forehead againand I could
see first thing that you was a fellow that needed to be tookto be
Oh, you did!
She strengthened her statement with an affirmative nod. Yes, I
Well, then, I've always paid the people who've taken care of
Oh, but you didn't ask me to take care of you, and I didn't take no
care. You wanted me to be a disgrace to you, and I thought so little of
myself that I said I'd go and be it. Now I've got to pay for that, not
be paid for it.
Her head was up with what Steptoe considered to be mettle. Though
the picture she presented was stamped on his mind as resembling the
proud mien of the girl in Whistler's Yellow Buskin, he didn't think of
that till later.
There's one thing I must ask you to remember, he said, in a tone
he tried to make firm, that I couldn't possibly accept from you
anything in the way of sacrifice.
Her eyes were wide and earnest. But I never thought of makin'
anything in the way of sacrifice.
It would be sacrifice for you to help me get out of this scrape,
and have nothing at all to the good.
But I'd have lots to the good. She reflected. I'd have
What have you got to remember?
With her child's lack of self-consciousness she looked him straight
in the eyes. Youfor one thing.
Me! He had hardly the words for his amazement. For heaven's sake,
what can you have to remember about me thatthat could give you any
Oh, I didn't say it would give me any pleasure. I said I'd have
it. It'd be minesomething no one couldn't take away from me.
But if it doesn't do you any good
It does me good if it makes me richer, don't it?
Richer toto remember me?
She nodded, with a little twisted smile, beginning to move toward
the door. Over her shoulder she said: And it isn't only you.
Making her nod suffice for a good-night, Letty, with the red volume
of Hans Andersen under her arm, passed out into the hall. It was not
easy to carry herself with the necessary nonchalance, but she got
strength by saying inwardly: Here's where I begin to walk on blades.
The knowledge that she was doing it, and that she was doing it toward
an end, gave her a dignity of carriage which Allerton watched with
Reaching the little back spare room she found the door open, and
Steptoe sweeping up the hearth before a newly lighted fire. Beppo,
whose basket had been established here, jumped from his shelter to paw
up at her caressingly. With the hearth-brush in his hand Steptoe raised
himself to say:
Madam'll excuse me, but I thought as the evenin' was chilly
He doesn't want me to stay.
She brought out the fact abruptly, lifelessly, because she couldn't
keep it back. The calm she had been able to maintain downstairs was
breaking up, with a quivering of the lip and two rolling tears.
Slowly and absently Steptoe dusted his left hand with the
hearth-brush held in his right. If madam's goin' to decide 'er life by
what another person wants she ain't never goin' to get nowhere.
There were tears now in the voice. Yes, but when it'shim.
'Im or anybody else, we all 'ave to fight for what we means to myke
of our own life. It's a poor gyme in which I don't plye my 'and for all
I think it'll win.
Do you mean that I shouldact independent?
'Aven't madam an independent life?
Havin' an independent life don't make it easier to stay where
you're not wanted.
Oh, if madam's lookin' first for what's easy
I'm not. I'm lookin' first for what he'll like.
Hanging the hearth-brush in its place he took the tongs to adjust a
smoking log. I've been lookin' for what 'e'd like ever since 'e was
born; and now I see that gettin' so much of what 'e liked 'asn't been
good for 'im. If madam'd strike out on 'er own line, whether 'e liked
it or not, and keep at it till 'e 'ad to like it
Oh, but when it's she sought for the right wordwhen it's so
Humiliatin' things is not so 'ard to bear, once you've myde up your
mind as they're to be borne. He put up the tongs, to busy himself with
the poker. Madam'll find that humiliation is a good deal like that
there quinine; bitter to the tyste, but strengthenin'. I've swallered
lots of it; and look at me to-dye.
I know as well as he does that it's all been a crazy mistake
I was readin' the other dayI'm fond of a good book, I
amoccupies the mind likebut I was readin' about a circus man in
South Africa, what 'e myde a mistyke and took the wrong tryleand just
when 'e was a-givin' 'imself up for lost among the tigers and the
colored savages 'e found 'e'd tumbled on a mine of diamonds. Big 'ouse
in Park Lyne in London now, and 'is daughter married to a Lord.
Oh, I've tumbled into the mine of diamonds all right. The question
If madam really tumbled, or was led by the 'and of Providence.
She laughed, ruefully. If that was it the hand of Providence 'd
have to have some pretty funny ways.
I've often 'eard as the wyes of Providence was strynge; but I ain't
so often 'eard as Providence 'ad got to myke 'em strynge to keep pyce
with the wyes of men. Now if the 'and of Providence 'ad picked out
madam for Mr. Rash, it'd 'ave to do somethink out of the common, as you
might sye, to bring together them as man had put so far apart. He
looked round the room with the eye of a head-waiter inspecting a table
in a restaurant. Madam 'as everythink? Well, if there's anythink else
she's only got to ring.
Bowing himself out he went down the stairs to attend to those duties
of the evening which followed the return of the master of the house. In
the library and dining-room he saw to the window fastenings, and put
out the one light left burning in each room. In the hall he locked the
door with the complicated locks which had helped to guarantee the late
Mrs. Allerton against burglars. There was not only a bolt, a chain, and
an ordinary lock, but there was an ingenious double lock which turned
the wrong way when you thought you were turning it the right, and could
otherwise baffle the unskilful. Occupied with this task he could peep
over his shoulder, through the unlighted front drawing-room, and see
his adored one standing on the hearthrug, his hands clasped behind him,
and his head bent, in an attitude of meditation.
Steptoe, having much to say to him, felt the nervousness of a prime
minister going into the presence of a sovereign who might or might not
approve his acts. It was at once the weakness and the strength of his
position that his rule was based on an unwritten constitution. Being
unwritten it allowed of a borderland where powers were undefined.
Powers being undefined his scope was the more easily enlarged, though
now and then he found that the sovereign rebelled against the mayor of
the palace and had to be allowed his way.
But the sovereign was nursing no seeds of the kind of discontent
which Steptoe was afraid of. As a matter of fact he was thinking of the
way in which Letty had left the room. The perspective, the tea-gown,
the effectively dressed hair, enabled him to perceive the combination
of results which Madame Simone had called de l'élégance naturelle. She had that; he could see it as he hadn't seen it hitherto. It must
have given what value there was to her poor little rôles in motion
pictures. Now that his eye had caught it, it surprised, and to some
degree disturbed, him. It was more than the show-girl's inane
prettiness, or the comely wax-work face of the girl on the cover of a
magazine. With due allowance for her Anglo-Saxonism and honesty, she
was the type of woman to whom things happen. Things would happen to
her, Allerton surmised, beyond anything she could experience in his
cumbrous and antiquated house. This queer episode would drop behind her
as an episode and no more, and in the multitude of future incidents she
would almost forget that she had known him. He hoped to God that it
would be so, and yet....
He was noting too that she hadn't taxed him, in the way of calling
on his small supply of nervous energy. Rather she had spared it, and he
felt himself rested. After a talk with Barbara he was always spent. Her
emotional furies demanded so much of him that they used him up. This
girl, on the contrary, was soothing. He didn't know how she was
soothing; but she was. He couldn't remember when he had talked to a
woman with so little thought of what he was to say and how he was to
say it, and heaven only knew that the things to be said between them
were nerve-racking enough. But they had come out of their own accord,
those nerve-racking things, probably, he reasoned, because she was a
girl of inferior class with whom he didn't have to be particular.
She was quick, too, to catch the difference between his speech and
her own. She was quickand pathetic. Her self-correction amused him,
with a strain of pity in his amusement. If a girl like that had only
had a chance.... And just then Steptoe broke in on his musing by
entering the room.
The first subject to be aired was that of the changes in the
household staff, and Steptoe raised it diplomatically. Mrs. Courage and
Jane had taken offense at the young lydy's presence, and packed
themselves off in dishonorable haste. Had it not been that two men
friends of his own were ready to come at an hour's notice the house
would have been servantless till he had procured strangers. No
condemnation could be too severe for Mrs. Courage and Jane, for not
content with leaving the house in dudgeon they had insulted the young
lydy before they went.
Sooner or lyter they would 'a' went any'ow. For this long time back
they've been too big for their boots, as you might sye. If Mr. Rash 'ad
married the other young lydy she wouldn't 'a' stood 'em a week. It
don't do to keep servants too long, not when they've got no more than a
menial mind, which Jynie and Mrs. Courage 'aven't. The minute they
'eard that this young lydy was in the 'ouse.... And beautiful the wye
she took it, Mr. Rash. I never see nothink finer on the styge nor in
the movin' pictures. Like a young queen she was, a-tellin' 'em that she
'adn't come to this 'ouse to turn out of it them as 'ad 'ad it as their
'ome, like, and that she'd put it up to them. If they went she'd stye;
but if they styed she'd go
She's going anyhow.
Steptoe moved away to feel the fastenings of the back windows.
That'll be a relief to us, sir, won't it? he said, without turning
It'll make things easiercertainly.
I was just 'opin' that it mightn't bewell, not too soon.
What do you mean by too soon?
Well, sir, I've been thinkin' it over through the dye, just as you
told me to do this mornin,' and I figger out on a table near him he
began to arrange the disordered books and magazinesI figger out that
if she was to go it'd better be in a wye agreeable to all concerned. It
wouldn't do, I syes to myself, for Mr. Rash to bring a young woman into
this 'ouse and 'ave 'er go awye feelin' anythink but glad she'd come.
That'll be some job.
It'll be some job, sir; but it'll be worth it. It ain't only on the
young lydy's account; it'll be on Mr. Rash's.
On Mr. Rash'show?
The magazines lapping over each other in two long lines, he
straightened them with little pats. What I suppose you mean to do,
sir, is to get out o' this matrimony and enter into the other as you
thought as you wasn't goin' to enter into.
And when you'd entered into the other you wouldn't want it on your
mindon your conscience, as you might syethat there was a young lydy
in the world as you'd done a kind o' wrong to.
Allerton took three strides across the corner of the room, and three
strides back to the fireplace again. How am I going to escape that?
She says she won't let me give her any money.
Oh, money! Steptoe brushed money aside as if it had no value. She
wouldn't of course. Not 'er sort.
But what is 'er sort. She seemed one thing yesterday, and
to-day she's another.
That's somethink like what I mean. That young lydy 'as growed more
in twenty-four hours than lots'd grow in twenty-four years. He
considered how best to express himself further. Did Mr. Rash ever
notice that it isn't bein' born of a certain kind o' family as'll myke
a man a gentleman? Of course 'e did. But did 'e ever notice that a
man'll often not be born of a certain kind o' family, and yet be
a gentleman all the syme?
I know what you're driving at; but it depends on what you mean by a
And I couldn't 'ardly syenot no more than I could tell you what
the smell of a flower was, not even while you was a-smellin' of it. You
know a gentleman's a gentleman, and you may think it's this or that
what mykes 'im so, but there ain't no wye to put it into words. Now
you, Mr. Rash, anybody'd know you was a gentleman what merely looked at
you through a telescope; but you couldn't explyne it, not if you was
took all to pieces like the works of a clock. It ain't nothink you do
and nothink you sye, because if we was to go by that
Good Lord, stop! We're not talking about me.
No, Mr. Rash. We're talkin' about the queer thing it is what mykes
a gentleman, and I sye that I can't sye. But I know. Now, tyke
Eugene. 'E's just a chauffeur. But no one couldn't be ten minutes with
Eugene and not know 'e's a gentleman through and through.
Obligin'good-manneredmodestpolite to the very cat 'e isand
always with that nice smilewouldn't you sye as Eugene was a
gentleman, if anybody was to arsk you, Mr. Rash?
If they asked me from that point of viewyesprobably. But what
has that to do with it?
It 'as this to do with it that when you arsk me what sort that
young lydy is I 'ave to reply as she's not the sort to accept money
from strynge gentlemen, because it ain't what she's after.
Then what on earth is she after? Whatever it is she can have
it, if I can only find out what it is.
Steptoe answered this in his own way. It's very 'ard for the poor
to see so much that's good and beautiful in the world, and know that
they can't 'ave none of it. I felt that myself before I worked up to
where I am now. 'Ere in New York a poor boy or a poor girl can't go out
into the street without seein' the things they're cryvin' for in their
insides flaunted at 'em likeshook in their fyceswhile the law and
the police and the church and everythink what mykes our life says to
'em, 'There's none o' this for you.'
Well, money would buy it, wouldn't it?
Money'd buy it if money knew what to buy. But it don't. Mr. Rash
must 'ave noticed that there's nothink 'elplesser than the people with
money what don't know 'ow to spend it. I used to be that wye myself
when I'd 'ave a little cash. I wouldn't know what to blow myself to
what wouldn't be like them vulgar new-rich. But the new-rich is vulgar
only because our life 'as put the 'orse before the cart with 'em, as
you might sye, in givin' them the money before showin' 'em what to do
Having straightened the lines of magazines to the last fraction of
an inch he found a further excuse for lingering by moving back into
their accustomed places the chairs which had been disarranged.
You 'ave to get the syme kind of 'ang of things as you and me've
got, Mr. Rash, to know what it is you want, and 'ow to spend your money
wise like. Pleasure isn't just in 'avin' things; it's in knowin' what's
good to 'ave and what ain't. Now this young lydy'd be like a child with
a dime sent into a ten-cent store to buy whatever 'e'd like. There's so
many things, and all the syme price, that 'e's kind of confused like.
First 'e thinks it'll be one thing, and then 'e thinks it'll be
another, and 'e ends by tykin' the wrong thing, because 'e didn't 'ave
nothink to tell 'im 'ow to choose. Mr. Rash wouldn't want a young lydy
to whom 'e's indebted, as you might sye, to be like that, now would
It doesn't seem to me that I've got anything to do with it. If I
offer her the money, and can get her to take it
That's where she strikes me as wiser than Mr. Rash, for all she
don't know but so little. That much she knows by hinstinck.
Then what am I going to do?
That'd be for Mr. Rash to sye. If it was me
The necessity for getting an armchair exactly beneath a portrait
seemed to cut this sentence short.
Well, if it was youwhat then?
Before I'd give 'er money I'd teach 'er the 'ang of our kind o'
life, like. That's what she's aichin' and cryvin' for. A born lydy she
is, and 'ankerin' after a lydy's wyes, and with no one to learn 'em to
But, good heavens, I can't do that.
No, Mr. Rash, but I could, if you was to leave 'er 'ere for a bit.
I could learn 'er to be a lydy in the course of a few weeks, and 'er so
quick to pick up. Then if you was to settle a little hincome on 'er she
Allerton took the bull by the horns. She wouldn't be so likely to
go to the bad. That's what you mean, isn't it?
Moving behind Allerton, who continued to stand on the hearthrug,
Steptoe began poking the embers, making them safe for the night.
Did Mr. Rash ever notice that goin' to the bad, as 'e calls it,
ain't the syme for them as 'ave nothink as it looks to them as 'ave
everythink? When you're 'ungry for food you heats the first thing you
can lie your 'ands on; and when you're 'ungry for life you do the first
thing as'll promise you the good you're lookin' for. What people like
you and me is hapt to call goin' to the bad ain't mostly no more than a
'ankerin' for good which nothink don't seem to feed.
Allerton smiled. That sounds to me as if it might be dangerous
What excuses the poor'll often seem dyngerous doctrine to the rich,
Mr. Rash. Our kind is awful afryde of their kind gettin' a little bit
of what they're longin' for, and especially 'ere in America. When we've
took from them most of the means of 'aving a little pleasure lawful, we
call it dyngerous if they tyke it unlawful like, and we go to work and
pass laws agynst them. Protectin' them agynst theirselves we sye it is,
and we go at it with a gun.
But we're talking of
Of the young lydy, sir. Quite so. It's on 'er account as I'm syin'
what I'm syin'. You arsk me if I think she'll go to the bad in cyse we
turn 'er out, and I sye that
Allerton started. There's no question of our turning her out. She's
sick of it.
Then that'd be my point, wouldn't it, sir? If she goes because
she's sick of it, why, then, natural like, she'll look somewhere else
for whatfor what she didn't find with us. You may call it goin' to
the bad, but it'll be no more than tryin' to find in a wrong wye what
life 'as denied 'er in a right one.
Allerton, who had never in his life been asked to bear moral
responsibility, was uneasy at this philosophy, changing the subject
Where did she get the clothes?
Me and 'er, Mr. Rash, went to Margot's this mornin' and bought a
bunch of 'em.
The deuce you did! And you used my name?
No, sir, Steptoe returned, with dignity, I used mine. I didn't
give no 'andle to gossip. I pyde for the things out o' some money I 'ad
in 'andmy own money, Mr. Rashand 'ad 'em all sent to me. I thought
as we was mykin' a mistyke the young lydy'd better look proper while we
was mykin' it; and I knew Mr. Rash'd feel the syme.
The situation was that in which the fainéant king accepts the
act of the mayor of the palace because it is Hobson's choice. Moreover,
he was willing that she should have the clothes. If she wouldn't take
money she would at least apparently take them, which, in a measure,
would amount to the same thing. He was dwelling on this bit of
satisfaction when Steptoe continued.
And as long as the young lydy remynes with us, Mr. Rash, I thought
it'd be discreeter like not to 'ave no more women pokin' about, and
tryin' to find out what 'ad better not be known. It mykes it simpler as
she 'erself arsks to be called Miss Gravely
Oh, she does?
Yes, sir; and that's what I've told William and Golightly, the
waiter and the chef, is 'er nyme. It mykes it all plyne to 'em
Plain? Why, they'll think
No, sir. They won't think. When it comes to what's no one's
business but your own women thinks; men just haccepts. They tykes
things for granted, and don't feel it none of their affair. Mr. Rash'll
'ave noticed that there's a different kind of honor among women from
what there is among men. I don't sye but what the women's is all right,
only the men's is easier to get on with.
There being no response to these observations Steptoe made ready to
withdraw. And shall you stye 'ome for breakfast, sir?
I'll see in the morning.
Very good, sir. I've locked up the 'ouse and seen to everythink, if
you'll switch off the lights as you come up. Good-night, Mr. Rash.
While this conversation was taking place Letty, in the back spare
room, was conducting a ceremonial too poignant for tears. There were
tears in her heart, but her eyes only smarted.
Taking off the blue-black tea-gown, she clasped it in her arms and
kissed it. Then, on one of the padded silk hangers, she hung it far in
the depths of the closet, where it wouldn't scorch her sight in the
Next she arrayed herself in a filmy breakfast thing, white with a
copper-colored sash matching some of the tones in her hair and eyes,
and simple with an angelic simplicity. Standing before the long mirror
she surveyed herself mournfully. But this robe too she took off,
kissed, and laid away.
Lastly she put on the blue-green costume, with the turquoise and
jade embroidery. She put on also the hat with the feather which shaded
itself from green into monkshood blue. She put on a veil, and a pair of
white gloves. For once she would look as well as she was capable of
looking, though no one should see her but herself.
Viewing her reflection she grew frightened. It was the first time
she had ever seen her personal potentialities. She had long known that
with half a chance she could emerge from the cocoon stage of the old
gray rag and be at least the equal of the average; but she hadn't
expected so radical a change. She was not the same Letty Gravely. She
didn't know what she was, since she was neither a star nor a lady,
the two degrees of elevation of which she had had experience. All she
could feel was that with the advantages here presented she had the
capacity to be either. Since, apparently, the becoming a lady was now
excluded from her choice of careers, stardom would still have been
within her reach, only that she was not to get the necessary half a
chance. That was the bitter truth of it. That was to be the result of
her walking on blades. All the same, as walking on blades would help
her prince she was resolved to walk on them. For her mother's sake,
even for Judson Flack's, she had done things nearly as hard, when she
had not had this incentive.
The incentive nerved her to take off the blue-green costume, kissing
it a last farewell, and laying it to rest, as a mother a dead baby in
its coffin. Into the closet went the bits of lingerie from the
consignment just arrived from Paris, and the other spoils of the day.
When everything was buried she shut the door upon it, as in her heart
she was shutting the door on her poor little fledgling hopes. Nothing
remained to torment her vision, or distract her from what she had to
do. The old gray rag and the battered black hat were all she had now to
She slept little that night, since she was watching not for daylight
but for that first stirring in the streets which tells that daylight is
approaching. Having neither watch nor clock the stirring was all she
had to go by. When it began to rumble and creak and throb faintly in
and above the town she got up and dressed.
So far had she travelled in less than forty-eight hours that the old
gray rag, and not the blue-green costume, was now the disguise. In
other words, once having tasted the prosperous she had found it the
natural. To go back to poverty was not merely hard; it was contrary to
all spontaneous dictates. Dimly she had supposed that in reverting to
the harness she had worn she would find herself again; but she only
discovered that she was more than ever lost.
Very softly she unlocked her door to peep out at the landing. The
house was ghostly and still, but it was another sign of her development
that she was no longer afraid of it. Space too had become natural,
while dignity of setting had seemed to belong to her ever since she was
born. Turning her back on these conditions was far more like turning
her back on home than it had been when she walked away from Judson
She crept out. It was so dark that she was obliged to wait till
objects defined themselves black against black before she could see the
stairs. She listened too. There were sounds, but only such sounds as
all houses make when everyone is sleeping. She guessed, it was pure
guessing, that it must be about five o'clock.
She stole down the stairs. The necessity for keeping her mind on
moving noiselessly deadened her thought to anything else. She neither
looked back to what she was leaving behind, nor forward to what she was
going to. Once she had reached the street it would be time enough to
think of both. She had the fact in the back of her consciousness, but
she kept it there. Out in the street she would feel grief for the
prince and his palace, and terror at the void before her; but she
couldn't feel them yet. Her one impulse was to escape.
At the great street door she could see nothing; but she could feel.
She found the key and turned it easily. As the door did not then yield
to the knob she fumbled till she touched the chain. Slipping that out
of its socket she tried the door again, but it still refused to open.
There must be something else! Rich houses were naturally fortresses!
She discovered the bolt and pulled it back.
Still the door was fixed like a rock. She couldn't make it out. A
lock, a chain, a bolt! Surely that must be everything! Perhaps she had
turned the key the wrong way. She turned it again, but only with the
same result. She found she could turn the key either way, and still
leave the door immovable.
Perhaps she didn't pull it hard enough. Doors sometimes stuck. She
pulled harder; she pulled with her whole might and main. She could
shake the door; she could make it rattle. The hanging chain dangled
against the woodwork with a terrifying clank. If anyone was lying awake
she would sound like a burglarand yet she must get out.
Now that she was balked, to get out became an obsession. It became
more of an obsession the more she was balked. It made her first
impatient, and then frantic. She turned the key this way and that way.
She pulled and tugged. The perspiration came out on her forehead. She
panted for breath; she almost sobbed. She knew there was a trick to
it. She knew it was a simple trick because she had seen Steptoe perform
it on the previous day; but she couldn't find out what it was. The
effort made her only the more desperate.
She was not crying; she was only gaspingin raucous, exhausted,
nervous sobs. They came shorter and harder as she pitted her impotence
against this unyielding passivity. She knew it was impotence, and yet
she couldn't desist; and she couldn't desist because she grew more and
more frenzied. It was the kind of frenzy in which she would have dashed
herself wildly, vainly against the force that blocked her with its
pitiless resistance, only that the whole hall was suddenly flooded with
a blaze of light.
It was light that came so unexpectedly that her efforts were cut
short. Even her hard gasps were silenced, not in relief but in
amazement. She remained so motionless that she could practically see
herself, thrown against this brutal door, her arms spread out on it
Seconds that seemed like minutes went by before she found strength
to detach herself and turn.
Amazement became terror. On the halfway landing of the stairs stood
a figure robed in scarlet from head to foot, with flying indigo lapels.
He was girt with an indigo girdle, while the mass of his hair stood up
as in tongues of forked black flame. The countenance was terrible, in
mingled perplexity and wrath.
She saw it was the prince, but a prince transformed by condemnation.
What on earth does this mean?
He came down the rest of the stairs till he stood on the lowest
step. She advanced toward him pleadingly.
I wasI was trying to get out.
III must get away.
Well, even so; is this the way to do it? I thought someone was
tearing the house down. It woke me up.
I was goin' this way becausebecause I didn't want you to know
what'd become of me.
Yes, and have you on my mind.
I hoped I'd be takin' myself off your mind.
If you want to take yourself off my mind there's a perfectly simple
means of doing it.
I'll do anythingbut take money.
And taking money is the only thing I ask of you.
I can't. It'dit'dshame me.
Shame you? What nonsense!
She reflected fast. There's two ways a woman can take money from a
man. The man may love her and marry her; or perhaps he don't marry her,
but loves her just the same. Then she can take it; but when
When she only renders him aa great service
Ah, but that's just what I didn't do. You said you wanted me to
send you to the deviland now you ain't a-goin' to go.
He grew excited. But, good Lord, girl, you don't expect me to go to
the devil just to keep my word to you.
I don't want you to do anything just to keep your word to me, she
returned, fiercely. I only want you to let me get away.
He came down the remaining step, beginning to pace back and forth as
he always did when approaching the condition he called going off the
hooks. Letty found him a marvelous figure in his scarlet robe, and
with his mass of diabolic black hair.
Yes, and if I let you get away, where would you get away to
Oh, I'll find a place.
A place in jail as a vagrant, as I said the other day.
I'd rather be in jail, she flung back at him, than stay where I'm
That's not the question.
It's the biggest question of all for me. It'd be the biggest for
you too if you were in my place. She stretched out her hands to him.
Oh, please show me how to work the door, and let me go.
He flared as he was in the habit of flaring whenever he was opposed.
You can go when we've settled the question of what you'll have to live
I'll have myself to live onjust as I had before I met you in the
Nothing is the same for you or for me as before I met you in the
No, but we want to make it the same, don't we? You can'tcan't
marry the other girl till it is.
I can't marry the other girl till I know you're taken care of.
Money wouldn't take care of me. That's where you're makin' your
mistake. You rich people think that money will do anything. So it will
for you; but it don't mean so awful much to me. Her eyes, her lips,
her hands besought him together. Think now! What would I do with money
if I had it? It ain't as if I was a lady. A lady has ways of doin'
nothin' and livin' all the same; but a girl like me don't know anything
about them. I'd go crazy if I didn't workor I'd dieor I'd do
It was because his nerves were on edge that he cried out: I don't
care a button what you do. I'm thinking of myself.
She betrayed the sharpness of the wound only by a deepening of the
damask flush. I'm thinkin' of you, too. Wouldn't you rather have
everything come right againso that you could marry the other
girland know that I'd done it for you freeand not that you'd
just bought me off?
You mean, wouldn't I rather that all the generosity should be on
I don't care anything about generosity. I wouldn't be doin' it for
that. It'd be because
He flung out his arms. Wellwhy?
Because I'd like to do something for you
Do something for me by making me a cad. He was beside himself.
That's what it would come to. That's what you're playing for. I should
be a cad. You dress yourself up again in this ridiculous rig
It's not a ridic'lous rig. It's my own clothes
Your own clothes now areare what I saw you in when I came
home last evening. You can't go back to that thing. We can't go back in
any way. He seemed to make a discovery. It's no use trying to be what
we were in the Park, because we can't be. Whatever we do must be in the
way ofof going on to something else.
Well, that'd be something else, if you'd just let me go, and do the
desertion stunt you talked to me about
I'll not let you do it unless I pay you for it.
But it'd be payin' me for it ifif you'd just let me do it. Don't
you see I want to?
I can see that you want to keep me in your debt. I can see that I'd
never have another easy moment in my life. Whatever I did, and whoever
I married, I should have to owe it to you.
Well, couldn't youwhen I owe so much to you?
There you go! What do you owe to me? Nothing but getting you into
an infernal scrape
Oh, no! It's not been that at all. You'd have to be me to
understand what it has been. It'll be something to think of all
the rest of my lifewhatever I do.
Yes, and I know how you'll think of it.
Oh, no, you don't. You couldn't. It's nothin' to you to come into
this beautiful house and see its lovely kind of life; but for me
Oh, don't throw that sort of thing at me, he flamed out, striding
up and down. Steptoe's been putting that into your head. He's strong
on the sentimental stuff. You and he are in a conspiracy against me.
That's what it is. It's a conspiracy. He's got something up his
sleeveI don't know whatand he's using you as his tool. But you
don't come it over me. I'm wise, I am. I'm a fool too. I know it well
enough. But I'm not such a fool as to
She was frightened. He was going off the hooks. She knew the signs
of it. This rapid speech, one word leading to another, had always been
her mother's first sign of super-excitement, until it ended in a
scream. If he were to scream she would be more terrified than she had
ever been in her life. She had never heard a man scream; but then she
had never seen a man grow hysterical.
His utterance was the more clear-cut and distinct the faster it
I know what it is. Steptoe thinks I'm going insane, and he's made
you think so too. That's why you want to get away. You're afraid of me.
Well, I don't wonder at it; but you're not going. See? You're not
going. You'll go when I send you; but you'll not go before. See? I've
married you, haven't I? When all is said and done you're my wife. My
wife! He laughed, between gritted teeth. My wife! That's my wife! He
pointed at her. Rashleigh Allerton who thought so much of himself has
married thatand she's trying to do the generous by him
Going up to him timidly, she laid her hand on his arm. Say, mister,
would you mind countin' ten?
The appeal took him so much by surprise that, both in his speech and
in his walk, he stopped abruptly. She began to count, slowly, and
marking time with her forefinger.
He stared at her as if it was she who had gone off the hooks.
What do you mean by that?
Oh, nothin'. Now you can begin again.
What you waswhat you were sayin'.
What I was saying? He rubbed his hand across his forehead, which
was wet with cold perspiration. Well, what was I saying?
He was not only dazed, but a pallor stole over his skin, the more
ghastly in contrast with his black hair and his scarlet dressing-gown.
Isn't there no place you can lay down? I always laid momma down
after a spell of this kind. It did her good to sleep and she always
He said, absently: There's a couch in the library. I can't go back
No, you don't want to go back to bed, she agreed, as if she was
humoring a child. You wouldn't sleep there
I haven't slept for two nights, he pleaded, in excuse for himself,
Taking him by the arm she led him into the library, which was in an
ell behind the back drawing-room. It was a big, book-lined room with
worn, shiny, leather-covered furnishings. On the shiny, leather-covered
couch was a cushion which she shook up and smoothed out. Over its foot
lay an afghan the work of the late Mrs. Allerton.
Now, lay down.
He stretched himself out obediently, after which she covered him
with the afghan. When he had closed his eyes she passed her hand across
his forehead, on which the perspiration was still thick and cold. She
remembered that a bottle of Florida water and a paper fan were among
the luxuries of the back spare room.
Don't you stir, she warned him. I'm goin' to get you something.
Absorbed in her tasks as nurse she forgot to make the sentimental
reflections in which she would otherwise have indulged. Back to the
room from which she had fled she hurried with no thought that she was
doing so. From the grave of hope she disinterred a half dozen of the
spider-web handkerchiefs to which a few hours previously she had bid a
touching adieu. With handkerchiefs, fan, and Florida water, she flew
back to her patient, who opened his eyes as she approached.
I don't want to be fussed over he was beginning, fretfully.
Lie still, she commanded. I know what to do. I'm used to people
who are sickup here.
Up here was plainly the forehead which she mopped softly with a
specimen from Margot's Parisian consignment. He closed his eyes. His
features relaxed to an expression of relief. Relief gave place to
repose when he felt her hand with the cool scented essence on his brow.
It passed and passed again, lightly, soothingly, consolingly. Drowsily
he thought that it was Barbara's hand, but a Barbara somehow
transformed, and grown tenderer.
He was asleep. She sat fanning him till a feeble daylight through an
uncurtained window warned her to switch off the electricity. Coming
back to her place, she continued to fan him, quietly and deftly, with
no more than a motion of the wrist. She had the nurse's wrist, slender,
flexible; the nurse's hand, strong, shapely, with practical spatulated
finger-tips. After all, he was in some degree the drowning unconscious
prince, and she the little mermaid.
He'll be ashamed when he wakes up. He'll not like to find me
It was broad daylight now. He was as sound asleep as a child. Since
she couldn't disturb him by rising she rose. Since she couldn't disturb
him even by kissing him she kissed him. But she wouldn't kiss his lips,
nor so much as his cheek or his brow. Very humbly she knelt and kissed
his feet, outlined beneath the afghan. Then she stole away.
The interlacing of destinies is such that you will not be surprised
to learn that the further careers of Letty Gravely, of Barbara
Walbrook, of Rashleigh Allerton now turned on Mademoiselle Odette
Coucoul, whose name not one of the three was ever destined to hear.
On his couch in the library Allerton slept till after nine, waking
in a confusion which did not preclude a sense of refreshment. At the
same minute Madame Simone was finishing her explanations to
Mademoiselle Coucoul as to what was to be done to the seal-brown
costume, which Steptoe had added to Letty's wardrobe, in order to
conceal the fact that it was a model of a season old, and not the new
creation its purchasers supposed. Taking in her instructions with
Gallic precision mademoiselle was already at work when Miss Tina
Vanzetti paused at her door. The door was that of a small
French-paneled room, once the boudoir of the owner of the Flemish
chateau, but set apart now by Madame Simone for jobs requiring
Miss Vanzetti, whose Neapolitan grandfather had begun his American
career as a boot-black in Brooklyn, was of the Americanized type of her
race. She could not, of course, eliminate her Latinity of eye and tress
nor her wild luxuriance of bust, but English was her mother-tongue, and
the chewing of gum her national pastime. She chewed it now, slowly,
thoughtfully, as she stood looking in on Mademoiselle Odette, who was
turning the skirt this way and that, searching out the almost invisible
traces of use which were to be removed.
So she's give you that to do, has she? Some stunt, I'll say. Gee,
she's got her gall with her, old Simone, puttin' that off on the public
as something new. If I had a dollar for every time Mamie Gunn has
walked in and out to show it to customers I'd buy a set of silver fox.
Mademoiselle's smile was radiant, not because she had radiance to
shed, but because her lips and teeth framed themselves that way. She
too was of her race, alert, vivacious, and as neat as a trivet, as
became a former midinette of the rue de la Paix and a daughter of
Madame she t'ink it all in de beezeness, she contented herself
With her left hand Miss Vanzetti put soft touches to the big black
coils of her back hair. See that kid that all these things is goin'
to? Gee, but she's beginnin' to step out. I know her. Spotted her the
minute she come in to try on. Me and she went to the same school. Lived
in the same street. Name of Letty Gravely.
Seeing that she was expected to make a response mademoiselle could
think of nothing better than to repeat in her pretty staccato English:
Name of Let-ty Grav-el-ly.
Stepfather's name was Judson Flack. Company-promoter he called
himself. Mother croaked three or four years ago, just before we moved
to Harlem. Never saw no more of her till she walked in here with the
old white slaver what's payin' for the outfit. Gee, you needn't tell
me! S'pose she'll hit the pace till some fella chucks her. Gee, I'm
sorry. Awful slim chance a girl'll get when some guy with a wad blows
along and wants her. The theme exhausted Miss Vanzetti asked suddenly:
Why don't you never come to the Lantern?
In her broken English mademoiselle explained that she didn't know
the American dances, but that a fella had promised to teach her the
steps. She had met him at the house of a cousin who was married to a
waiter chez Bouquin. Ver' beautiful fella, he was, and had invited her
to a chop suey dinner that evening, with the dance at the Lantern to
wind up with. Most ver' beautiful fella, single, and a detective.
Good for you, Miss Vanzetti commanded. If you don't dance you
might as well be dead, I'll say. Keeps you thin, too; and the music at
the Lantern is swell.
The incident is so slight that to get its significance you must link
it up with the sound of the telephone which, as a simultaneous
happening, was waking Judson Flack from his first real sleep after an
uncomfortable night. Nothing but the fear lest by ignoring the call the
great North Dakota Oil Company whose shares would soon be on the
market, would be definitely launched without his assistance dragged him
from his bed.
A woman's voice inquired: Is this Hudson 283-J?
Is Miss Gravely in?
Just gone out. Only round the corner. Back in a few minutes. Say,
sister, I'm her stepfather, and 'll take the message.
Tell her to come right over to the Excelsior Studio. Castin'
director's got a part for her. Real part. Small but a stunner. Outcast
girl. I s'pose she's got some old duds to dress it in?
Well, tell her to bring 'em along. And say, listen! I don't mind
passing you the tip that the castin' director has his eye on that girl
for doin' the pathetic stunt; so see she ain't late.
That an ambitious man, growing anxious about his future, was thus
placed in a trying situation will be seen at once. The chance of a
lifetime was there and he was unable to seize it. Everyone knew that by
these small condensations of nebular promise stars were eventually
evolved, and to have at his disposal the earnings of a star....
It seemed providential then that on dropping into the basement
eating place at which he had begun to take his breakfasts he should
fall in with Gorry Larrabin. They were not friends, or rather they were
better than friends; they were enemies who found each other useful.
Mutually antipathetic, they quarrelled, but could not afford to quarrel
long. A few days or a few weeks having gone by, they met with a nod, as
if no hot words had been passed.
It was such an occasion now. Ten days earlier Judson had called
Gorry to his teeth no detective, but a hired sneak. Gorry had
retorted that, hired sneak as he was, he would have Judson Flack in
the jug as a promoter of faked companies before the year was out. One
word had led to another, and only the intervention of friends to both
parties had kept the high-spirited fellows from exchanging blows. But
the moment had come round again when each had an axe to grind, so that
as Judson hung up his hat near the table at which Gorry, having
finished his breakfast, was smoking and picking his teeth, the nod of
reconciliation was given and returned.
Say, why don't you sit down here?
Politely Gorry indicated the unoccupied side of his own table. It
was a small table covered with a white oil-cloth, and tolerably clean.
Don't mind if I do, was the other's return of courtesy, friendly
relations being thus re-established.
Having given his order to a stunted Hebrew maid of Polish culture,
Judson Flack launched at once into the subject of Letty. He did this
for a two-fold reason. First, his grievance made the expression of
itself imperative, and next, Gorry being a hanger-on of that profession
which lives by knowing what other people don't might be in a position
to throw light on Letty's disappearance. If he was he gave no sign of
it. As a matter of fact he was not, but he meant to be. He remembered
the girl; had admired her; had pointed out to several of his friends
that she had only to doll herself up in order to knock spots out of a
lot of good lookers of recognized supremacy.
Odette Coucoul's description of him as most ver' beautiful fella
was not without some justification. Regular, clean-cut features, long
and thin, were the complement of a slight well-knit figure, of which
the only criticism one could make was that it looked slippery.
Slipperiness was perhaps his ruling characteristic, a softness of
movement suggesting a cat, and a habit of putting out and drawing back
a long, supple, snake-like hand which made you think of a pickpocket.
Eyes that looked at you steadily enough impressed you as untrustworthy
chiefly because of a dropping of the pupil of the left, through
Awful sorry, Judson, was his summing up of sympathy with his
companion's narrative. Any dope I get I'll pass along to you.
Between gentlemen, however, there are understandings which need not
be put into words, the principle of nothing for nothing being one of
them. The conversation had not progressed much further before Gorry
felt at liberty to say:
Now, about this North Dakota Oil, Judson. I'd like awful well to
get in on the ground floor of that. I've got a little something to blow
in; and there's a lot of suckers ready to snap up that stock before you
print the certificates.
Diplomacy being necessary here Judson practiced it. Gorry might
indeed be seeking a way of turning an honest penny; but then again he
might mean to sell out the whole show. On the one hand you couldn't
trust him, and on the other it wouldn't do to offend him so long as
there was a chance of his getting news of the girl. Judson could only
temporize, pleading his lack of influence with the bunch who were
getting up the company. At the same time he would do his utmost to work
Gorry in, on the tacit understanding that nothing would be done for
* * * * *
Allerton too had breakfasted late, at the New Netherlands Club, and
was now with Miss Barbara Walbrook, who received him in the same room,
and wearing the same hydrangea-colored robe, as on the previous
morning. He had called her up from the Club, asking to be allowed to
come once more at this unconventional hour in order to communicate good
She's willing to do anything, he stated at once, making the
announcement with the glee of evident relief. In fact, it was by pure
main force that I kept her from running away from the house this
He was dashed that she did not take these tidings with his own
buoyancy. What made you stop her? she asked, in some wonder. Sit
down, Rash. Tell me the whole thing.
Though she took a chair he was unable to do so. His excitement now
was over the ease with which the difficulty was going to be met. He
could only talk about it in a standing position, leaning on the
mantelpiece, or stroking the head of the Manship terra cotta child,
while she gazed up at him, nervously beating her left palm with the
black and gold fringe of her girdle.
I stopped her becausewell, because it wouldn't have done.
Why wouldn't it have done? I should think that it's just what would
Let her slip away penniless, andand without friends?
She'd be no more penniless and without friends than she was
whenwhen you she sought for the right wordwhen you picked her
No, of course not; only now thethe situation is different.
I don't see that it ismuch. Besides, if you were to let her run
away first, so that you getwhatever the law wants you to get, you
could see that she wasn't penniless and without friends afterwards.
Most likely that's what she was expecting.
His countenance fell. II don't think so.
Oh, you wouldn't think so as long as she could bamboozle you. I was
simply thinking of your getting what she probably wants to give
youfor a price.
I don't think you do her justice, Barbe. If you'd seen her
Very well; I shall see her. But seeing her won't make any
difference in my opinion.
She'll not strike you as anything wonderful of course; but I know
she's as straight as they make 'em. And so long as she is
Well, what then?
Why, then, it seems to me, we must be straight on our side.
We'll be straight enough if we pay her her price.
There's more to it than that.
Oh, there is? Then how much more?
I don't know that I can explain it. He lifted one of the Stiegel
candlesticks and put it back in its place. I simply feel that we
can'tthat we can't let all the magnanimity be on her side. If she
plays high, we've got to play higher.
I see. So she's got you there, has she?
I wish you wouldn't be disagreeable about it, Barbe.
My dear Rash, she expostulated, it isn't being disagreeable to
have common sense. It's all the more necessary for me not to abnegate
that, for the simple reason that you do.
He hurled himself to the other end of the mantelpiece, picking up
the second candlestick and putting it down with force. It's surely not
abnegating common sense just toto recognize honesty.
Please don't fiddle with those candlesticks. They're the rarest
American workmanship, and if you were to break one of them Aunt Marion
would kill me. I'll feel safer about you if you sit down.
All right. I'll sit down. He drew to him a small frail chair,
sitting astride on it. Only please don't fidget me.
Would you mind taking that chair? She pointed to something
solid and masculine by Phyffe. That little thing is one of Aunt
Marion's pet pieces of old Dutch colonial. If anything were to happen
to itBut you were talking about recognizing honesty, she continued,
as he moved obediently. That's exactly what I should like you to do,
Rash, dearwith your eyes open. If I'm not looking anyone can pull the
wool over them, whether it's this girl or someone else.
In other words I'm a fool, as you were good enough to say
Oh, do forget that. I couldn't help saying it, as I think you ought
to admit; but don't keep bringing it up every time I do my best to meet
you pleasantly. I'm not going to quarrel with you any more, Rash. I've
made a vow to that effect and I'm going to keep it. But if I'm to keep
it on my side you mustn't badger me on yours. It doesn't do me any
good, and it does yourself a lot of harm. Having delivered this homily
she took a tone of brisk cheerfulness. Now, you said over the phone
that you were coming to tell me good news.
Well, that was it.
What was it?
That she was ready to do anythingeven to disappear.
And you wouldn't let her.
That I couldn't let herwith nothing to show for it.
But she will have something to show for itin the end. She knows
that as well as I do. Do you suppose for a minute that she doesn't
understand the kind of man she's dealing with?
You mean that?
Rash, dear, no girl who knows as much as this girl knows could help
seeing at a glance that she's got a pigeon to pluck, as the French say,
and of course she means to pluck it. You can't blame her for that,
being what she is; but for heaven's sake let her pluck it in her own
way. Don't be a simpleton. Angels shouldn't rush in where fools would
fear to treadand you are an angel, Rash, though I suppose I'm
the only one in the world who sees it.
Thank you, Barbe. I know you feel kindly toward me, and that, as
you say, you're the only one in the world who does. That's all right, I
acknowledge it, and I'm grateful. What I don't like is to see you
taking it for granted that this girl is merely playing a game
Rash, do you remember those two winters I worked in the Bleary
Street Settlement? and do you remember that the third winter I said
that I'd rather enlist in the Navy that go back to it again? You all
thought that I was cynical and hard-hearted, but I'll tell you now what
the trouble was. I went down there thinking I could teach those
girlsthat I could do them goodand raise them upand have them call
me blessedand all that. Well, there wasn't one of them who hadn't
forgotten more than I ever knewwho wasn't working me when I supposed
she was hanging on my wisdomwho wasn't laughing at me behind my back
when I was under the delusion that she was following my good example.
And if you've got one of them on your hands she'll fool the eyes out of
You think so, he said, drily. Then I don't.
In that case there's no use discussing it any further.
There may be after you've seen her.
How can I see her?
You can go to the house.
And tell her I know everything?
If you like. You could say I told you in confidencethat you're an
old friend of mine.
And nothing else?
Since you only want to size her up I should think that would be
She nodded, slowly. Yes, I think you're right. Better not give
anything away we can keep to ourselves. Now tell me what happened this
morning. You haven't done it yet.
He told her everythinghow he had been waked by hearing someone
fumbling with the lock of the door, whether inside or outside the house
he couldn't tellhow he had gone to the head of the stairs and
switched on the lower hall lighthow she had flung herself against the
door as a little gray bird might dash itself against its cage in its
passion to escape.
She staged it well, didn't she? She must have brains.
She has brains all right, but I don't think
She knew of course that if she made enough noise someone would
come, and she'd get the credit for good intentions.
I really don't think, Barbe.... Now let me tell you. You'll see
what she's like. I felt very much as you do. I was right on the jump.
Got all worked up. Would have gone clean off the hooks if
There followed the narrative of his loss of temper, of his wild
talk, of her clever strategy in counting tenjust like a cold douche
it wasand the faint turn he so often had after spells of emotion. To
convince Miss Walbrook of the queer little thing's ingenuousness he
told how she had made him lie down on the library couch, covered him
up, rubbed his brow with Florida water, and induced the best sleep he
had had in months.
She surprised him by springing to her feet, her arms outspread. You
great big idiot! Really there's no other name for you!
He gazed up at her in amazement. What's the matter now?
Flinging her hands about she made inarticulate sounds of
exasperation beyond words.
There, there; that'll do, she threw off, when he jumped to her
side, to calm her by taking her in his arms. I'm not off the
hooks. I don't want anyone to rub Florida water on my browand
hold my handand cradle me to sleep
She didn't, he exclaimed, with indignation. She never touched my
hand. She just
Oh, I know what she didand of course I'm grateful. I'm delighted
that she was there to do itdelighted. I quite see now why you
couldn't let her go, when you knew your fit was coming on. I've seen
you pretty bad, but I've never seen you as bad as that; and I must say
I never should have thought of counting ten as a cure for it.
Well, she did.
Quite so! And if I were you I'd never go anywhere without her. I'd
keep her on hand in case I took a turn
He was looking more and more reproachful. I must say, Barbe, I
don't think you're very reasonable.
She pushed him from her with both hands against his shoulders. Go
away, for heaven's sake! You'll drive me crazy. I'm not going to
lose my temper with you. I'll never do it again. I've got you to bear
with, and I'm going to bear with you. But go! No, go now! Don't stop to
make explanations. You can do that later. I'll lay in a supply of
Florida water and an afghan....
He went with that look on his face which a well meaning dog will
wear when his good intentions are being misinterpreted. On his way to
the office he kept saying to himself: Well I don't know what to
do. Whatever I say she takes me up the wrong way. All I wanted was for
her to understand that the little thing is a good little
While Allerton was making these reflections Steptoe was summoned to
Is this you, Steptoe? I'm Miss Barbara Walbrook.
Steptoe braced himself. In conversing with Miss Barbara Walbrook he
always felt the need of inner strengthening. Yes, Miss Walbrook?
Mr. Allerton tells me you've a young woman at the house.
We 'ave a young lydy. Certainly, miss.
And Mr. Allerton has asked me to call on her.
Steptoe's training as a servant permitted him no lapses of surprise.
Quite so, miss. And when was it you'd be likely to call?
This afternoon about four-thirty. Perhaps you could arrange to have
me see her alone.
Oh, there ain't likely to be no one 'ere, miss.
And another thing, Steptoe. Mr. Allerton has asked me just to call
as an old friend of his. So you'll please not say to her thatwell,
anything about me. I'm sure you understand.
Steptoe replied that he did understand, and having put up the
receiver he pondered.
What could it mean? What could be back of it? How would this
unsophisticated girl meet so skilful an antagonist. That Miss Walbrook
was coming as an antagonist he had no doubt. In his own occasional
meetings with her she had always been a superior, a commander, to whom
even he, 'Enery Steptoe, had been a servitor requiring no further
consideration. With so gentle an opponent as madam she would order and
At the same time he could not alarm madam, or allow her to shirk the
encounter. She had that in her, he was sure, which couldn't but win
out, however much she might be at a disadvantage. His part would be to
reduce her disadvantages to a minimum, allowing her strong points to
tell. Her strong points, he reckoned, were innocence, an absence of
self-consciousness, and, to the worldly-wise, a disconcerting candor.
Steptoe analyzed in the spirit and not verbally; but he analyzed.
For Letty the morning had been feverish, chiefly because of her
uncertainty. Was it the wish of the prince that she should go, or was
it not? If it was his wish, why had he not let her? If, on the other
hand, he desired her to stay, what did he mean to do with her? He had
passed her on the way out to breakfast at the Clubshe had been
standing in the halland he had smiled.
What was the significance of that smile? She sat down in the library
to think. She sat down in the chair she had occupied while he lay on
the couch, and reconstructed that scene which now, for all her life,
would thrill her with emotional memories. There he had lain, his head
on the very indentation which the cushion still bore, his feet here,
where she had pressed her lips to them. She had actually had her hand
on his brow, she had smoothed back his hair, and had hardly noted at
the time that such was her extraordinary privilege.
She came back to the fact that he had smiled at her. It would have
been an enchanting smile from anyone, but coming from a prince it had
all the romantic effulgence with which princes' smiles are infused. How
much of that romantic effulgence came automatically from the prince
because he was a prince, and how much of it was inspired by herself?
Was any of it inspired by herself? When all was said and done this last
was the great question.
It brought her where so many things brought her, to the dream of
love at first sight. Could it have happened to him as it had happened
to herself? It was so much in her mental order of things that she was
far from considering it impossible. Improbable, yes; she would admit as
much as that; but impossible, no! To be sure she had been in the old
gray rag; but Steptoe had informed her that there were kings who went
about falling in love with beggar-maids. She would have loved being one
of those beggar-maids; and after all, was she not?
True, there was the other girl; but Letty found it hard to see her
as a reality. Besides, she had, in appearance at least, treated him
badly. Might it not easily have come about that she, Letty, had caught
his heart in the rebound? She quite understood that if the prince
had fallen in love with her at first sight, there might be
convulsion in his inner self without, as yet, a comprehension on his
part of the nature of his passion.
She had reached this point when Steptoe entered the library on one
of his endless tasks of re-arranging that which seemed to be in
sufficiently good order. Putting the big desk to rights he said over
Perhaps I'd better tell madam as she's to 'ave a caller this
Letty sprang up in alarm. Awhat?
A lydy what'll myke a call. Oh, madam don't need to be afryde.
She's an old friend o' Mr. Rash's, and'll want, no doubt, to be a
friend o' madam too.
But what does she know about me?
Mr. Rash must 'a told 'er. She spoke to me just now on the
telephone, and seemed to know everything. She said she'd be 'ere this
afternoon about four-thirty, if madam'd be so good as to give 'er a cup
Having invented the cup of tea for his own purpose Steptoe went on
to explain further. It's what the 'igh lydies mostly gives each other
about 'alf past four or five o'clock, and madam couldn't homit it
without seemin' as if she didn't know what's what. It'll be very
important for madam to tyke 'er position from the start. If the lydy is
comin' friendly like she'd be 'urt if madam wasn't friendly too.
Letty had seen the giving and taking of tea in more than one scene
in the movies, and had also, from a discreet corner, witnessed the
enacting of it right in the set on the studio lot. She remembered one
time in particular when Luciline Lynch, the star in Our Crimson Sins, had driven Frank Redgar, the director, almost out of his senses by her
inability to get the right turn of the wrist. Letty, too, had been
almost out of her senses with the longing to be in Luciline Lynch's
place, to do the thing in what was obviously the way. But now that she
was confronted with the opportunity in real life she saw the situation
And I won't be able to talk right, was the difficulty she raised
That'll be a chance for madam to listen and ketch on. She's horfly
quick, madam is, and by listenin' to Miss Walbrook, that's the lydy's
nyme, and listenin' to 'erself He broke off to emphasize this line
of suggestionit's listenin' to 'erself that'll 'elp madam most. It's
a thing as 'ardly no one does. If they did they'd be 'orrified at their
squawky voices and bad pernounciation. If I didn't listen to myself,
why, I'd talk as bad as anyone, butWell, as I sye, this'll give madam
a chance. All the time what Miss Walbrook is speakin' madam can be
listenin' to 'er and listenin' to 'erself too, and if she mykes
mistykes this time she'll myke fewer the next.
Letty was pondering these hints as he continued.
Now if madam wouldn't think me steppin' out of my plyce I'd suggest
that me and 'er 'as a little tea of our own likeright nowin the
drorin' roomand I'll be Miss Walbrookand William'll be Williamand
madam'll be madamand we'll get it letter-perfect before 'and, just as
with Mary Ann Courage and Jyne.
No sooner said than done. Letty was already wearing the white filmy
thing with the copper-sash, buried with solemn rites on the previous
night, but disinterred that morning, which did very well as a tea-gown.
Steptoe placed her in the corner of the sofa which the lyte Mrs.
Allerton had generally occupied when receivin' company", and William
brought in the tea-equipage on a gorgeous silver tray.
Before he did this it had been necessary to school William to his
part, which, to do him justice, he carried out with becoming gravity.
Any reserves he might have felt were expressed to Golightly by a wink
behind Steptoe's back before he left the kitchen. The wink was the more
expressive owing to the fact that Golightly and William had already
summed up the old fellow as balmy on the bean, while their part was
to humor him. Plain as a bursting shell seemed to William Miss
Gravely's position in the household, and Steptoe's chivalry toward her
an eccentricity which a sense of humor could enjoy. Otherwise they
justified his reading of the fundamental non-morality of men, in
bringing no condemnation to bear on anyone concerned. Being themselves
two almost incapacitated heroes, with jobs likely to prove soft, it
was wise, they felt, to enter into Steptoe's comedy. At half past ten
in the morning, therefore, Golightly prepared tea and buttered toast,
while William arranged the tea-tray with those over-magnificent
appointments which had been the lyte Mrs. Allerton's tyste.
From her corner of the sofa Letty heard the butler announce, in a
voice stately but not stentorian: Miss Barbara Walbrook.
He was so near the door that to step out and step in again was the
work of a second. In stepping in again he trod daintily, wriggling the
back part of his person, better to simulate the feminine. In order that
Letty should nowhere be caught unaware he put out his hand languidly,
back upward, as princesses do when they expect it to be kissed.
So delighted to find you at 'ome, Mrs. Allerton. It's such a very
fine dye I was sure as you'd be out.
Rising from her corner Letty shook the relaxed hand as she might
have shaken a dog's tail. Very pleased to meet you.
From the histrionic Steptoe lapsed at once into the critical. I
think if madam was to sye, 'So glad to be at 'ome, Miss
Walbrook; do let me ring for tea,' it'd be more like the lyte Mrs.
Obediently Letty repeated this formula, had the bell pointed out to
her, and rang. The ladies having seated themselves, Miss Walbrook
continued to improvise on the subject of the weather.
Some o' these October dyes'll be just like summer time! and then
agyne there'll be a nip in the wind as'll fairly freeze you. A good
time o' year to get out your furs, and I'm sure I 'ope as 'ow the moths
'aven't gone and got at 'em. Horfly nasty things them moths. They sye
as everything in the world 'as a use; but I'm sure I don't see what use
there is for moths, eatin' 'oles in the seats of gentlemen's trousers,
no matter what you do to keep the coat-closet airedand everything
like that. What do you sye, Mrs. Allerton?
Letty was relieved of the necessity of answering by the entrance of
William with the tray, after which her task became easier. Used to
making a good cup of tea in an ordinary way, the doing it with this
formal ceremoniousness was only a matter of revision. As if it was
yesterday she recalled the instructions given to Luciline Lynch,
Lemon?cream?one lump?two lumps? so that Miss Walbrook was
startled by her readiness. She, Miss Walbrook, was betrayed, in fact,
into some confusion of personality, stating that she would have cream
and no sugar, and that furthermore Englishmen like herself 'ardly ever
took lemon in their tea, and in her opinion no one ever did to whom the
tea-drinking 'abit was 'abitual.
It's a question of tyste, Miss Walbrook continued, sipping with a
soft siffling noise in the way he considered to be ladylike. Them that
'as drunk tea with their mother's milk, as you might sye, 'll tyke
cream and sugar, one or both; but them that 'as picked up the 'abit in
lyter life 'll often condescend to lemon.
What the rehearsal did for Letty was to make the mechanical task
familiar, while she concentrated her attention on Miss Walbrook.
It has to be admitted that to Barbara Walbrook Letty was a shock.
Having worked for two years in the Bleary Street Settlement she had her
preconceived ideas of what she was to find, and she found something so
different that her first consciousness was that of being sold.
Steptoe had received her at the door, and having ushered her into
the drawing-room announced, Miss Barbara Walbrook, as if she had been
calling on a duchess. From the semi-obscurity of the back drawing-room
a small lithe figure came forward a step or two. The small lithe figure
was wearing a tea-gown of which so practiced an eye as Miss Walbrook's
could not but estimate the provenance and value, while a sweet voice
I'm so glad to be at home, Miss Walbrook. Do let me ring for tea.
Before a protest could be voiced the bell had been rung, so that
Miss Walbrook found herself sitting in the chair Steptoe had used in
the morning, and listening to her hostess as you listen to people in a
Beautiful weather for October, isn't it? Some of these October
days'll be just like summer time. And then again there'll be a nip in
the wind that'll fairly freeze you. A good time of year to get out your
furs, isn't it? and I'm sure I hope the moths ain'thaven'tgot at
them. Awfully nasty things moths
Letty's further efforts were interrupted by William bearing the tray
as he had borne it in the morning, and in the minutes of silence while
he placed it Miss Walbrook could go through the mental process known as
pulling oneself together.
But she couldn't pull herself together without a sense of outrage.
She had expected to feel shame, vicariously for Rash; she had not
expected to be asked to take part in a horrible bit of play-acting.
This dressing-up; this mock hospitality; this desecration of the things
which dear Mrs. Allerton had used; this mingling of ignorance and
pretentiousness, inspired a rage prompting her to fling the back of her
hand at the ridiculous creature's face. She couldn't do that, of
course. She couldn't even express herself as she felt. She had come on
a mission, and she must carry out that mission; and to carry out the
mission she must be as suave as her indignation would allow of. She
was morally the mistress of this house. Rash and all Rash owned
belonged to her. To see this strumpet sitting in her place....
It did nothing to calm her that while she was pressing Rash's ring
into her flesh, beneath her glove, this vile thing was wearing a plain
gold band, just as if she was married. She could understand that if
they had absurdly walked through an absurd ceremony the absurd minister
who performed it might have insisted on this absurd symbol; but it
should have been snatched from the creature's hand the minute the
business was ended. They owed that to her. Hers was the
only claim Rash had to consider, and to allow this farce to be enacted
beneath his roof....
But she remembered that Letty didn't know who she was, or why she
had come, or the degree to which she, Barbara Walbrook, saw through
Letty repeated her little formula: Lemon?cream?one lump?two
lumps? though before she reached the end of it her voice began to
fail. Catching the hostility in the other woman's bearing, she felt it
the more acutely because in style, dress, and carriage this was the
model she would have chosen for herself.
Miss Walbrook waved hospitality aside. Thank you, no; nothing in
the way of tea. She nodded over her shoulder towards William's
retreating form. Who's that man?
Her tone was that of a person with the right to inquire. Letty
didn't question that right, knowing the extent to which she herself was
an usurper. His name is William.
How did he come here?
II don't know.
Where are Nettie and Jane?
II don't know.
And has Mrs. Courage left too?
Letty nodded, the damask flush flooding her cheeks darkly.
When? Sincesince you came?
Letty nodded again. She knew now that this was the bar of social
judgment of which she had been afraid.
The social judge continued. That must be very hard on Mr.
Letty bowed her head. I suppose it is.
He's not used to new people about him, and it's not good for him. I
don't know whether you've seen enough of him to know that he's
something of an invalid.
I know she touched her foreheadthat he's sick up here.
Oh, do you? Then I shouldn't have thought that you'd have but
she dropped this line to take up another. Yes, he's always been so.
When he was a boy they were afraid he might be epileptic; and though he
never was as bad as that he's always needed to be taken care of. He can
do very wild and foolish things asas you've discovered for yourself.
Letty felt herself now a little shameful lump of misery. This woman
was so experienced, so right. She spoke with a decision and an
authority which made love at first sight a fancy to blush at. Letty
could say nothing because there was nothing to say, and meanwhile the
determined voice went on.
It's terrible for a man like him to make such a mistake, because
being what he is he can't grapple with it as a stronger or a coarser
man would do.
But here Letty saw something that might be faintly pleaded in her
own defence. He says he wouldn't ha' made the mistake if thatthat
other girl hadn't been crazy.
Barbara drew herself up. Did hedid he say that?
He said something like it. He said she went off the hooks, just
like he did himself. She raised her eyes. Do you know her, Miss
Yes, I know her.
She must be an awful fool.
Barbara prayed for patience. Whatwhat makes you say so?
Oh, just what he's said.
And what has he said? Has he talked about her to you?
He hasn't talked about her. He's justjust let things out.
What sort of things?
Only that sort. She added, as if to herself: I don't believe he
thinks much of her.
Barbara's self-control was miraculous. I've understood that he was
very much in love with her.
Well, perhaps he is. Letty's little movement of the shoulders
hinted that an expert wouldn't be of this opinion. He may think he is,
But if he thinks he is
Letty's eyes rested on her visitor with their compelling candor. I
don't believe men know much about love, do you, Miss Walbrook?
It depends. All men haven't had as much experience of it as I
suppose you've had
Oh, I haven't had any. The candor of the eyes was now in the whole
of the truthful face. Nobody was ever in love with menever. I never
had a fellanor nothing.
In spite of herself Barbara believed this. She couldn't help
herself. She could hear Rash saying that whatever else was wrong in the
ridiculous business the girl herself was straight. All the same the
discussion was beneath her. It was beneath her to listen to opinions of
herself coming from such a source. If Rash didn't think much of her
there was something to have out with him, not with this little
street-waif dressed up with this ludicrous mummery. The sooner she
ended the business on which she had come the sooner she would get a
legitimate outlet for the passion of jealousy and rage consuming her.
But we're wandering away from my errand. I won't pretend that I've
come of my own accord. I'm a very old friend of Mr. Allerton's, and
he's asked meor practically asked meto come and find out
For what she was to come and find out she lacked for a minute the
right word, and so held up the sentence.
What I'd take to let him off?
The form of expression was so crude that once more Barbara was
startled. Well, that's what it would come to.
But I've told him already thatthat I want to let him off anyhow.
Yes? And on what terms?
I don't want any terms.
Oh, but there must be terms. He couldn't let you do it
He could let me do it for him, couldn't he? I'd go through
fire, if it'd make him a bit more comfortable than he is.
Barbara could not believe her ears. Do you want me to understand
That I'll do whatever will make him happy just to make him
happy? Yes. That's it. He didn't need to send no oneto send
anyoneto ask me, because I've told him so already. He wants me to get
out. Well, I'm ready to get out. He wants me to go to the bad. Well,
Yes; he understands all that. But, don't you see? a man in his
position couldn't take such a sacrifice from a girl in yours
Unless he pays me for it in cash.
That's putting it in a nutshell. If you owned a house, for
instance, and I wanted it, I'd buy it from you and pay you for it; but
I couldn't take it as a gift, no matter how liberal you were nor how
much I needed it.
I can see that about a house; but your own self is different. I
could sell a house when I couldn't sellmyself.
Oh, but would you call that selling yourself?
It'd be selling myselfthe way I look at it. When I'm so ready to
do what he wants I can't see why he don't let me. She added,
tearfully: Did he tell you about this morning?
She nodded. Yes, he told me about that.
Well, I would have gone then ifif I'd known how to work the
Oh, that's easy enough.
Do you know?
Will you show me?
Miss Walbrook rose. It's so simple. She continued, as they went
toward the door: You see, Mr. Allerton's mother always kept a lot of
valuable jewelry in the house, and she was afraid of burglars. She had
the most wonderful pearls. I suppose Mr. Allerton has them still,
locked away in some bank. Burglars would never come in by the front
door, my aunt used to tell her, but They reached the door itself.
Now, you see, there's a common lock, a bolt, and a chain
Letty explained that she had discovered them already.
But, you see these two little brass knobs over here? That's the
trick. You push this one this way, and that one that way, and the door
is locked with an extra double lock, which hardly anyone would suspect.
She shook the door which resisted as it had resisted Letty in the
Now! You push that one this way, and this one that wayand there
She opened the door to show how easily the thing could be done; and
the door being open she passed out. She had not intended to go in this
way; but, after all, was not her mission accomplished? It was nothing
to her whether this girl accepted money, or whether she did not. The
one thing essential was that she should take herself away; and if she
was sincere in what she said she had now the means of doing it. Without
troubling herself to take her leave Miss Walbrook went down the steps.
Before turning toward Fifth Avenue she glanced back. Letty was
standing in the open doorway, her flaming eyes wide, her expression
puzzled and wounded. It's nothing to me, Barbara repeated to herself
firmly; but because she was a lady, as she understood the word lady,
almost before she was a woman, she smiled faintly, with a distant, and
yet not discourteous, inclination of the head.
It was because she was a lady, as she understood the word lady, that
by the time she had walked the few steps into Fifth Avenue Miss
Walbrook already felt the inner reproach of having done something mean.
To do anything mean was so strange to her that she didn't at first
recognize the sensation. She only found herself repeating two words,
and repeating them uneasily: Noblesse oblige!
Nevertheless, on the principle that all's fair in love and war, she
fought this off. Either she must go or I must. That she herself
should go was not to be considered; therefore the other must go, and by
the shortest way. The shortest way was the way she had shown her, and
which the girl herself was desirous to take. There was no more than
that to the situation.
There was no more than that to the situation unless it was that the
strong was taking a poor advantage of the weak. But then, why shouldn't
the strong take any advantage it possessed? What otherwise was the use
of being strong? The strong prevailed, and the weak went under. That
was the law of life. To suppose that the weak must prevail because it
was weak was sheer sentimentality. All the same, those two inconvenient
words kept dinning in her ears: Noblesse oblige!
She began to question the honesty which in Letty's presence had
convinced her. It was probably not honesty at all. She had known girls
in the Bleary Street Settlement who could persuade her that black was
white, but who had proved on further knowledge to be lying all round
the compass. When it wasn't lying it was bluff. It was possible that
Letty was only bluffing, that in her pretense at magnanimity she was
simply scheming for a bigger price. In that case she, Barbara, had
called the bluff very skilfully. She had put her in a position in which
she could be taken at her word. Since she was ready to go, she could
go. Since she was ready to go to the bad....
Miss Walbrook was not prim. She knew too much of the world to be
easily shocked, in the old conventional sense. Besides, her Bleary
Street work had brought her into contact with girls who had gone to the
bad, and she had not found them different from other girls. If she
She could contemplate without horror, therefore, Letty's taking
desperate stepsif indeed she hadn't taken them long agoand yet she
herself didn't want to be involved in the proceeding. It was one thing
to view an unfortunate situation from which you stood detached, and
another to be in a certain sense the cause of it. She would not really
be the cause of it, whatever the girl did, since she, the girl, was a
free agent, and of an age to know her own mind. Moreover, the secret of
the door was one which she couldn't help finding out in any case. She,
Miss Walbrook, could dismiss these scruples; and yet there was that
uncomfortable sing-song humming through her brain: Noblesse oblige!
I must get rid of it, she said to herself, as Wildgoose admitted
her. I've got to be on the safe side. I can't have it on my mind.
Going to the telephone before she had so much as taken off her
gloves she was answered by Steptoe. This is Miss Walbrook again,
Steptoe. I should like to speak toto the young woman.
Steptoe who had found Letty crying after Miss Walbrook's departure
answered with resentful politeness. I'll speak to Mrs. Allerton, miss.
She may be aible to come to the telephone.
Ye-es? came later, in a feeble, teary voice.
This is Miss Walbrook again. I'm sorry to trouble you the second
Oh, that doesn't matter.
I merely wanted to say, what perhaps I should have said before I
left, that I hope you won'twon't use the information I gave
you as I was leavingat any rate not at once.
Do you mean the door?
Exactly. I was afraid after I came away that you might do something
in a hurry
It'll have to be in a hurry if I do it at all.
Oh, I don't see that. In any case, I'dI'd think it over. Perhaps
we could have another talk about it, and then
Something was said which sounded like a faint, Very well, so that
Barbara put up the receiver.
Her conscience relieved she could open the dams keeping back the
fiercer tides of her anger. Rash had talked about her to this girl! He
had given her to understand that she was a fool! He had allowed it to
appear that he didn't think much of her! No matter what he had said,
the girl had been able to make these inferences. What was more, these
inferences might be true. Perhaps he didn't think much of her!
Perhaps he only thought he was in love with her! The idea was so
terrible that it stilled her, as approaching seismic storm will still
the elements. She moved about the drawing-room, taking off her gloves,
her veil, her hat, and laying them together on a table, as if she was
afraid to make a sound. She was standing beside that table, not knowing
what to do next, or where to go, when Wildgoose came to the door to
announce, Mr. Allerton.
I've seen her. Without other form of greeting, or moving from
beside the table, she picked up her gloves, threw them down again,
picked them up again, threw them down again, with the nervous action of
the hands which betrayed suppressed excitement. I didn't believe
But you didn't disbelieve herwholly?
It's a difficult case.
I've got you into an awful scrape, Barbe.
She threw down the gloves with special vigor. Oh, don't begin on
that. The scrape's there. What we have to find is the way out.
Well, do you see it any more clearly?
He came near to her. I see thisthat I can't let her throw herself
away for me. I've been thinking it over, and I want to ask your opinion
of this plan. Let's sit down.
She thought his plan the maddest that was ever proposed, and yet she
accepted it. She accepted it because she was suspicious, jealous, and
unhappy. It'll give me the chance to watchand see, she said
to herself, as he talked.
In his opinion Letty couldn't take their point of view because she
was so inexperienced. It seemed to her a simple thing to go away,
leaving them with the responsibilities of her future on their
consciences; and it would not seem other than a simple thing till she
saw life more as they did. To bring her to this degree of culture they
must be subtle with her, and patient. They mustn't rush things. They
mustn't let her rush them. To end the situation in such a way as to
make for happiness they must end it at a point where all would be best
for all concerned. For Barbara and himself nothing would be best which
was not also best for the girl. What would be best for the girl would
be some degree of education, of knowledge of the world, so that she
might go back to the life whence they had plucked her less likely to be
a prey to the vicious. In that case, if they supplied her with a little
income she would know what to do with it, and would perhaps marry some
man in her own class able to take care of her.
Barbara's impulse was to cry out: That's the most preposterous
suggestion I ever heard of in my life! But she controlled this quite
reasonable prompting because another voice said to her: This will give
you the opportunity to keep an eye on them. If he's not true in his
love for youif there is an infatuation on his part for this
common and vulgar creatureyou'll be able to detect it. Jealousy
loving to suffer she was willing to inflict torture on herself for the
sake of catching him in disloyalty.
Expecting a storm, and bringing out what he considered his wise
proposals with great embarrassment, Allerton was surprised and pleased
at the sympathetic calm in which she received them.
So that you'd suggest?
Our keeping her on a while longer, and making friends with her. I'd
like it tremendously if you'd be a friend to her, because you could do
more for her than anyone.
More than you?
Oh, I'd do my bit too, he assured her, innocently. I could put
her up to a lot of things, seeing her every day as I should. But you're
the one I should really count on.
Because the words hurt her more than any she could utter; she said,
quietly: I suppose you remember sometimes that after all she's your
He sprang to his feet. Knowing that he did at times remember it he
tried to deny it. No, I don't. She's not. I don't admit it. I don't
acknowledge it. If you care anything about me, Barbe, you'll never say
He came and knelt beside her, taking her hands and kissing them.
Laying his head in her lap, he begged to be caressed, as if he had been
Nevertheless by half past nine that evening he was at home, sitting
by the fireside with Letty, and beginning his special part in the great
She's not my wife, he kept repeating to himself poignantly, as he
walked up the Avenue from the Club; she's notshe's not. But
she is a poor child toward whom I've undertaken grave
Because the responsibilities were grave, and she was a poor child,
his attitude toward her began to be paternal. It was the more freely
paternal because Barbe approved of what he was undertaking. Had she
disapproved he might have undertaken it all the same, but he couldn't
have done it with this whole-heartedness. He would have been haunted by
the fear of her displeasure; whereas now he could let himself go.
We don't want to keep you a prisoner, or detain you against your
will, he said, with regard to the incident of the morning, but if
you'll stay with us a little longer, I think we can convince you of our
She shot the question at him, as she lay back in her chair, the red
book in her lap. He smiled inwardly at the ready pertinence with which
she went to a point he didn't care to discuss.
Well, then, suppose I saidI? That'll do, won't it?
She shot another question, her flaming eyes half veiled. How long
would you want me to stay?
Suppose we didn't fix a time? Suppose we just left itlike that?
The question rose to her lips: But in the end I'm to go? only, on
second thoughts she repressed it. She preferred that the situation
should be left like that, since it meant that she was not at once to
be separated from the prince. The fact that she was legally the
prince's wife had as little reality to her as to him. Could she have
had what she yearned for law or no law would have been the same to her.
But since she couldn't have that, it was much that he should come like
this and sit with her by the fire in the evening.
He leaned forward and took the book from her lap. What are you
reading? Oh, this! I haven't looked at it for years. He glanced at the
title. The Little Mermaid! That used to be my favorite. It
still is. When I was in Copenhagen I went to see the little bronze
mermaid sitting on a rock on the shore. It's a memorial to Hans
Andersen. She's quite startling for a minutetill you know what it is.
Where are you at?
Pointing out the line at which she had stopped her hand touched his,
but all the consciousness of the accident was on her side. He seemed to
notice nothing, beginning to read aloud to her, with no suspicion that
Many an evening and morning she rose to the place where she had
left the prince. She watched the fruits in the garden ripen and fall;
she saw the snow melt from the high mountains; but the prince she never
saw, and she came home sadder than ever. Her one consolation was to sit
in her little garden, with her arms clasped round the marble statue
which was like the prince
That'd be me, Letty whispered to herself; my arms clasped round a
marble statuelike my princebut only a marble statue.
Her flowers were neglected, Allerton read on, and grew wild in a
luxuriant tangle of stem and blossom, reaching the branches of the
willow-tree, and making the whole place dark and dim. At last she could
bear it no longer and she told one of her sisters
I wouldn't tell my sister, if I had one, Letty assured herself.
I'd never tell no one. It's more like my own secret when I keep it to
myself. Nobody'll ever knownot even him.
The other sisters learned the story then, but they told it to no
one but a few other mermaids, who told it to their intimate friends.
One of these friends knew who the prince was, and told the princess
where he came from and where his kingdom lay. Now she knew where he
lived; and many a night she spent there, floating on the water. She
ventured nearer to the land than any of her sisters had done. She swam
up the narrow lagoon, under the carved marble balcony; and there she
sat and watched the prince when he thought himself alone in the
moonlight. She remembered how his head had rested on her breast, and
how she had kissed his brow; but he would never know, and could not
even dream of her.
Letty had not kissed her prince's brow, but she had kissed his feet;
but he would never know that, and would dream of her no more than this
other prince of the little thing who loved him.
Allerton continued to read on, partly because the old tale came back
to him with its enchanting loveliness, partly because reading aloud
would be a feature of his educational scheme, and partly because it
soothed him to be doing it. He could never read to Barbara. Once, when
he tried it, the sound of his voice and the monotony of his cadences,
so got on her nerves that she stopped him in the middle of a word. But
this girl with her uncritical mind, and her gratitude for small bits of
kindliness, gave him confidence in himself by her rapt way of
She did listen raptly, since a prince's reading must always be more
arresting than that of ordinary mortals, and also because, both
consciously and subconsciously, she was taking his pronunciation as a
* * * * *
And just at this minute her name was under discussion in a brilliant
gathering at The Hindoo Lantern, in another quarter of New York.
If you know The Hindoo Lantern you know how much it depends on
atmosphere. Once a disused warehouse in a section of the city which
commerce had forsaken, the enthusiasm for the dance which arose about
1910, has made it a temple. It gains, too, by being a temple of the
esoteric. The Hindoo Lantern is not everybody's lantern, and does not
swing in the open vulgar street. You might live in New York a hundred
years and unless you were one of the initiated and privileged, you
might never know of its existence.
You could not so much as approach it were it not first explained to
you what you ought to do. You must pass through a tobacconist's, which
from the street looks like any other tobacconist's, after which you
traverse a yard, which looks like any other yard, except that it is
bounded by a wall in which there is a small and unobtrusive door.
Beside the small and unobtrusive door there hangs a bell-rope, of the
ancient kind suggesting the convent or the Orient. The bell-rope pulls
a bell; the bell clangs overhead; the door is opened cautiously by a
Hindoo lad, or, as some say, a mulatto boy dressed as a Hindoo. If you
are with a friend of the institution you will be admitted without more
inspection; but should you be a stranger there will be a scrutiny of
your passports. Assuming, however, that you go in, you will find a
small courtyard, in which at last The Hindoo Lantern hangs mystic,
suggestive, in oriental iron-work, and panels of colored glass.
Having passed beneath this symbol you will enter an antechamber rich
in the magic of the East. In a reverent obscurity you will find Buddha
on the right, Vishnu on the left, with flowers set before the one,
while incense burns before the other. Somewhere in the darkness an
Oriental woman will be seated on the ground, twanging on a sarabar, and
now and then crooning a chant of invitation to come and share in
darksome rites. You will thus be worked up to a sense of the
mysterious before you pass the third gate of privilege into the shrine
Here you will discover the large empty oval of floor, surrounded by
little tables for segregation and refreshment, with which the past ten
years have made us familiar. The place will be buzzing with the hum of
voices, merry with duologues of laughter, and steaming with tobacco
smoke. A jazz-band will strike up, coughing out the nauseated, retching
intervals so stimulating to our feet, and two by two, in driblets,
streamlets, and lastly in a volume, the guests will take the floor.
In the way of steps all the latest will be on exhibition. You will
see the cow-trot, the rabbit-jump, the broom-stick, the washerwoman's
dip. Everyone who is anyone will be here, if not on one night then on
another, in a jovial fraternity steeped in the spirit of democracy.
Revelry will be sustained on lemonade and a resinous astringent known
locally as beer, while a sense of doing the forbidden will be in the
air. For commercial reasons it will be needful to keep it in the air,
since in the proceedings themselves there will be nothing more occult,
or more inciting to iniquity, than a kindergarten game.
Hither Mr. Gorry Larrabin had brought Mademoiselle Odette Coucoul,
to teach her the new dances. As a matter of fact, he had just led her
back to their little table, inconspicuously placed in the front row,
after putting her through the paces of the camel-step. Mademoiselle had
found it entrancing, so much more novel in the motion than the
antiquated valses she had danced in France. Mr. Larrabin had retreated
like a camel walking backwards, while she had advanced like a camel
going forwards. The art was in lifting the foot quite high, throwing it
slightly backwards, and setting it down with a delicate deliberation,
while you craned the neck before you with a shake of the Adam's apple.
To incite you to produce this effect the jazz-band urged you onward
with a sob, a gulp, a moan, an effect of strangulation, till finally it
tore up the seat of your being as if you had been suddenly struck
Mon Dieu, but it is lofely, mademoiselle gurgled, laughing in her
breathlessness. It is terr-i-bul to call no one a camelun chameau
in France; but here am I achameau!
Gorry took this with puzzled amusement. What's the matter with
calling anyone a camel? I don't see any harm in that.
Mademoiselle hid her face in confusion. Oh, but it is terr-i-bul,
terr-i-bul! It is almost so worse as to call no one ahow you say zat
word in Eenglish?a cow, n'est ce pas?une vacheand zat is
the most bad name what you can call no one.
Looking across the room Gorry was struck with an idea. Well,
there's awhat d'ye call ita vasheover there. See that guy
with the girl with the cream-colored hairfella with a big black
mustache, like a brigand in a play? There's a vashe all-righty;
and yet I've got to keep in with him.
As he explained his reasons for keeping in with the vashe in
question mademoiselle contented herself with shedding radiance and
paying no attention. Neither did she pay attention when he went on to
tell of the girl who had disappeared, and of her stepfather's reasons
for finding her. She woke to cognizance of the subject only when Gorry
repeated the exact words of Miss Tina Vanzetti that morning: Name of
It was mademoiselle's turn for repetition. But me, I know dat name.
I 'ear it not so long ago. Name of Let-ty Grav-el-ly! I sure 'ear zat
name all recently. She reflected, tapping her forehead with vivacity.
Mais quand? Mais oui? C'étaitAh! The exclamation was the sharp cry
of discovery. Tina Vanzettimy frien'! She tell me zis morning. Zat
girlLet-ty Grav-el-lyshe come chez Margot with ole manwhat he
keep ze white slaveand he command her grand beautiful trousseauTina
Vanzetti she will give me ze addressand I will tell youand you will
tell himand he will put you on to riche affairs
It'll be dollars and cents in the box office for me, Gorry
interpreted, forcibly, while the band belched forth a chord like the
groan of a dying monster, calling them again to their feet.
* * * * *
'Remember,' said the witch, Allerton continued to read, 'when you
have once assumed a human form you can never again be a mermaidnever
return to your home or to your sisters more. Should you fail to win the
prince's love, so that he leaves father and mother for your sake, and
lays his hand in yours before the priest, an immortal soul will never
be granted you. On the same day that he marries another your heart will
break, and you will drift as sea-foam on the water.' 'So let it be,'
said the little mermaid, turning pale as death.'
Allerton lifted his eyes from the book. Does it bore you?
There was no mistaking her sincerity. No! I love it.
Then perhaps we'll read a lot of things. After this we'll find a
good novel, and then possibly somebody's life. You'd like that,
Her joy was such that he could hardly hear the Yes, for which he
was listening. He listened because he was so accustomed to boring
people that to know he was not boring them was a consolation.
Is there anybody's lifehis biographythat you'd be specially
She answered timidly and yet daringly. Could wecould we read the
life of the late Queen Victoriawhen she was a girl?
Oh, easily! I'll hunt round for one to-day. Now let me tell you
about Hans Andersen. He was born in Denmark, so that he was a Dane. You
know where Denmark is on the map, don't you?
I think I do. It's there by Germany isn't it?
Quite right. But let me get the atlas, and we'll look it up.
He was on his feet when she summoned her forces for a question. Do
you read like this toto the girl you're engaged to?
No, he said, reddening. Sheshe doesn't like it. She won't let
me. But wait a minute. I'll go and get the atlas.
'On the same day that he marries another,' Letty repeated to
herself, as she sat alone, 'your heart will break, and you will drift
as sea-foam on the water.' 'So let it be,' said the little mermaid.
On the next afternoon Allerton reported to Miss Walbrook the success
of his first educational evening.
She's very intelligent, very. You'd really be pleased with her,
Barbe. Her mind is so starved that it absorbs everything you say to
her, as a dry soil will drink up rain.
Regarding him with the mysterious Egyptian expression which had at
times suggested the reincarnation of some ancient spirit Barbara
maintained the stillness which had come upon her on the previous day.
That must be very satisfactory to you, Rash.
He agreed the more enthusiastically because of believing her at one
with him in this endeavor. You bet! The whole thing is going to work
out. She'll pick up our point of view as if she was born to it.
And you're not afraid of her picking up anything else?
Anything else of what kind?
She might fall in love with you, mightn't she?
With me? Nonsense! No one would fall in love with me who
Her mysterious Egyptian smile came and went. You can stop there,
Rash. It's no use being more uncomplimentary than you need to be. And
then, too, you might fall in love with her.
Barbe! He cried out, as if wounded. You're really too absurd.
She's a good little thing, and she's had the devil's own luck
They always do have. That was one thing I learnt in Bleary Street.
It was never a girl's own fault. It was always the devil's own luck.
Well, isn't it, now, when you come to think of it? You can't take
everything away from people, and expect them to have the same standards
as you and me. Think of the mess that people of our sort make of
things, even with every advantage.
We've our own temptations, of course.
And they've got theirswithout our pull in the way of carrying
them off. You should hear Steptoe
I don't want to hear Steptoe. I've heard him too much already.
What do you mean by that?
What can I mean by it but just what I say? I should think you'd get
rid of him.
Having first looked puzzled, with a suggestion of pain, he ended
with a laugh. You might as well expect me to get rid of an old
grandfather. Steptoe wouldn't let me, if I wanted to.
He doesn't like me.
Oh, that's just your imagination, Barbe. I'll answer for him when
it comes to
You needn't take the trouble to do that, because I don't like him.
Oh, but you will when you come to understand him.
Possibly; but I don't mean to come to understand him. Old servants
can be an awful nuisance, Rash
But Steptoe isn't exactly an old servant. He's more like
Oh, I know what he's like. He's a habit; and habits are always
dangerous, even when they're good. But we're not going to quarrel about
Steptoe yet. I just thought I'd put you on your guard
He's a horrid old schemer, if that's what you want me to say; but
then it may be what you like.
Well, I do, he laughed, when it comes to him. He's been a horrid
old schemer as long as I remember him, but always for my good.
For your good as he sees it.
For my good as a kind old nurse might see it. He's limited, of
course; but then kind old nurses generally are.
To be true to her vow of keeping the peace she forced back her
irritations, and smiled. You're an awful goose, Rash; but then you're
a lovable goose, aren't you? She beckoned, imperiously. Come here.
When he was on his knees beside her chair she pressed back his face
framed by her two hands. Now tell me. Which do you love mostSteptoe
He cast about him for two of her special preferences. And you tell
me; which do you love most, a saddle-horse or an opera?
If I told you, which should I be?the opera or the saddle-horse?
If I told you, which would you give up?
So they talked foolishly, as lovers do in the chaffing stage, she
trying to charm him into promising to get rid of Steptoe, he charmed by
her willingness to charm him. Neither remembered that technically he
was a married man; but then neither had ever taken his marriage to
Letty as a serious breach in their relations.
* * * * *
While he was thus on his knees the kindly old nurse was giving to
Letty a kindly old nurse's advice.
If madam 'ud go out and tyke a walk I think it'd do madam good.
To madam the suggestion had elements of mingled terror and
attraction. But, Steptoe, I couldn't go out and take a walk unless I
dressed up in the new outdoor suit.
And what did madam buy it for?with the 'at and the vyle, and
everythink, just like the lyte Mrs. Allerton.
It was the argument she was hoping for. In the first place she was
used to the freedom of the streets; and in the second the outdoor suit
was calling her. Letty's love of dress was more than a love of
appearing at her best, though that love was part of it; it was a love
of the clothes themselves, of fabrics, colors, and fashions. When her
dreams were not of wandering knights who loved her at a
glancebankers, millionaires, casting directors in motion-picture
studios, or, in high flights of imagination, incognito English
lordsthey dealt in costumes of magic tissue, of hues suited to her
hair and eyes, in which the world saw and greeted her, not as the poor
little waif whom Judson Flack had put out of doors, but the true Letty
Gravely of romance. The Letty Gravely of romance was the real Letty
Gravely, a being set free from the cruel, the ugly, the carking, the
sordid, to flourish in a sunlight she knew to be shining somewhere.
Oddly enough her vision had come partly true; and yet so out of
focus that she couldn't see its truth. It was like the sunlight which
she knew to be shining somewhere, with a wrong refraction in its rays.
The world into which she had been carried was like that in a cubist
picture which someone had shown her at the studio. It bore a relation
to the world she knew, but a relation in which whatever she had
supposed to be perpendicular was oblique, and whatever she had supposed
to be oblique was horizontal, and nothing as she had been accustomed to
find it. It made her head swim. It was literally true that she was
afraid to move lest she should make a misstep through an error in her
sense of planes.
But clothes she understood. In the swirling of her universe they
formed a rock to which her intelligence could cling. They kept her
sane. In a sense they kept her happy. When all outside was confusion
and topsy-turvyness she could retire among Margot's cartons, and find
herself on solid ground. I should be sorry to record the hours she
spent before the long mirror in the little back spare room. Here her
imagination could give itself free range. She was Luciline Lynch, and
Mercola Merch, and Lisabel Anstey, and any other star of whom she
admired the attainments; she could play a whole series of parts from
which her lack of a wardrobe had hitherto excluded her. From time to
time she ventured, like Steptoe, to be Barbara Walbrook herself, though
assuming the role with less intrepidity than he.
It was easier, she found, to be any of the stars than Barbara
Walbrook, for the reason that the latter was the real thing. She was
living her part, not playing it. She was letter perfect, in Steptoe's
sense, not because a director moved her person this way, or turned her
head that way, but because life had so infused her that she did what
was right unconsciously. Letty, by pretending to enter at the door and
come forward to the mirror as to a living presence, studied what was
right by imitation. Miss Walbrook walked with a swift, easy gait which
suggested the precision of certain strong birds when swooping on their
prey. Between the door and the mirror Letty aimed at the same effect
till she made a discovery.
I can't do it her way; I can only do it my way.
The ways were different; yet each could be effective. That too was a
discovery. Nature had no rule to which every individual was obliged to
conform. The individual was, in a measure, his own rule, and got his
attractiveness from being so. The minute you abandoned your own gifts
to cultivate those with which Nature had blessed someone else you lost
not only your identity but your charm.
Letty worked this out as something like a principle. However many
the hints she took it would be folly to try to be anything but herself.
After all, it was what gave her value to a star, her personality. If
Luciline Lynch whom Nature had endowed with the grand manner had tried
to be Mercola Merch who was all vivacious wickednesswell, anyone
could see! So, if Barbara Walbrook suggested an eagle on the wing and
she, Letty Gravely, was only a sparrow in the street, the sparrow would
be more successful as a sparrow than in trying to emulate the eagle.
And yet there was a value to good models which at first she found
difficult to reconcile with this truth of personal independence. This
too she thought out. It's like a way to do your hair, was her method
of expressing it. You do what's in fashion, but you twist it so that
it suits your own style. It isn't the fashion that makes you look
right; it's in being true to what suits you.
There was, however, in Barbara Walbrook a something deeper than this
which at first eluded her. It was in Rashleigh Allerton too. It was in
Lisabel Anstey, and in a few other stars, but not in Mercola Merch, nor
in Luciline Lynch. It's the whole business, Letty summed up to
herself, and yet I don't know what it is. Unless I can put my finger
She was just at this point when Steptoe addressed her on the subject
of going out. That she do so was part of his programme. Madam would not
be madam till she felt herself free to come and go; and till madam was
madam Mr. Rash would not understand who it was they had in the 'ouse.
That he didn't understand it yet was partly due to madam 'erself who
didn't understand it on 'er side. To cultivate this understanding in
madam was Steptoe's immediate aim, in which Beppo, the little cocker
spaniel, unexpectedly came to his assistance.
As the two stood conversing at the foot of the stairs Beppo lilted
down, with that air of having no one to love which he had worn during
all the eighteen months since his mistress had died. The cocker
spaniel's heart, as everyone knows, is imbued with the principle of one
life, one love. It has no room for two loves; it has still less room
for that general amiability to which most dogs are born. Among the
human race it singles out one; and to that one it is faithful. In
separation it seeks no substitute; in bereavement it rarely forms a
second tie. To everyone but Beppo the removal of Mrs. Allerton had made
the world brighter. He alone had mourned that presence with a grief
which sought neither comfort nor mitigation. He had followed his
routine; he had eaten and slept; he had gone out when he was taken out
and come in when he was brought in; but he had lived shut up within
himself, aloof in his sorrow. For the first time in all those eighteen
months he had come out of this proud gloom when Rashleigh's key had
turned in the door that night, and Letty had entered the house.
The secret call which Beppo had heard can never be understood by men
till men have developed more of their latent faculties. As he lay in
his basket something reached him which he recognized as a summons to a
new phase of usefulness. Out of the lethargy of mourning he had jumped
with an obedient leap that took him through the obscurity of the house
to where a frightened girl had need of a little dog's sympathy. Of that
sympathy he had been lavish; and now that there was new discussion in
the air he came with his contribution.
In words Steptoe had to be his interpreter. That, poor little dog
as 'as growed so fond of madam don't get 'alf the exercise he ought to
be give. If madam was to tyke 'im out like for a little stroll up the
Thus it happened that in less than half an hour Letty found herself
out in the October sunlight, dressed in her blue-green costume, with
all the details to correspond, and leading Beppo on the leash. To
lead Beppo on the leash, as Steptoe had perceived, gave a reason for an
excursion which would otherwise have seemed motiveless. But she was
out. She was out in conditions in which even Judson Flack, had he met
her, could hardly have detected her. Gorgeously arrayed as she seemed
to herself she was dressed with the simplicity which stamps the French
taste. There was nothing to make her remarked, especially in a double
procession of women so many of whom were remarkable. Had you looked at
her twice you would have noted that while skill counted for much in her
gentle, well-bred appearance, a subtle, unobtrusive, native distinction
counted for most; but you would have been obliged to look at her twice
before noting anything about her. She was a neatly dressed girl, with
an air; but on that bright afternoon in Fifth Avenue neatly dressed
girls with an air were as buttercups in June.
Seizing this fact Letty felt more at her ease. No one was thinking
her conspicuous. She was passing in the crowd. She was not being
spotted as the girl who a short time before had had nothing but the
old gray rag to appear in. She could enjoy the walkand forget
Then it came to her suddenly that this was the secret of which she
was in search, the power to forget herself. She must learn to do things
so easily that she would have no self-consciousness in doing them. In
big things Barbara Walbrook might think of herself; but in all little
things, in the way she spoke and walked and bore herself toward others,
she acted as she breathed. It seemed wonderful to Letty, this assurance
that you were right in all the fundamentals. It was precisely in the
fundamentals that she was so likely to be wrong. It was where girls of
her sort suffered most; in the lack of the elementary. One could bluff
the advanced, or make a shot at it; but the elementary couldn't be
bluffed, and no shot at it would tell. It betrayed you at once. You
must have it. You must have it as you had the circulation of
your blood, as something so basic that you didn't need to consider it.
That was her next discovery, as with Beppo tugging at the end of his
tether she walked onward.
She was used to walking; she walked strongly, and with a trudging
sturdiness, not without its grace. She came to the part of Fifth Avenue
where the great houses begin to thin out, and vacant lots, as if
ashamed of their vacancy, shrink behind boardings vivid with the news
of picture-plays. It was the year when they were advertising the
screen-masterpiece, Passion Aflame; and here was depicted
Luciline Lynch, a torch in her hand, her hair in maenadic dishevelment,
leading on a mob to set fire to a town. Letty herself having been in
that mob paused in search of her face among the horde of the great
star's followers. It was a blob of scarlet and green from which she
dropped her eyes, only to have them encounter a friend of long
At the foot of the boarding, and all in a row, was a straggling band
of dust-flowers. It was late in the season, yet not too late for their
bit of blue heaven to press in among the ways of men. She was not
surprised to find them there. Ever since the crazy woman had pointed
out the mission of this humble little helper of the human race she had
noted its persistency in haunting the spots which beauty had deserted.
You found it in the fields, it was true; but you found it rarely,
sparsely, raggedly, blooming, you might say, with but little heart for
its bloom. Where other flowers had been frightened away; where the poor
crowded; where factories flared; where junk-heaps rusted; where
backyards baked; where smoke defiled; where wretchedness stalked; where
crime brooded; where the land was unkempt; where the human spirit was
soddenthere the celestial thing multiplied its celestial growths,
blessing the eyes and making the heart leap. It mattered little that so
few gave it a thought or regarded it as other than a weed; there were
always those few, who knew that it spelled beauty, who knew that it
spelled something more.
Letty was of those few. She was of those few for old sake's sake,
but also for the sake of a new yearning. Slipping off a glove she
picked a few of the dusty stalks, even though she knew that once taken
from their task of glorifying the dishonored the blue stars would shut
almost instantly. They'll wither in a few days now, she said, in
self-excuse; and anyhow I'll leave most of them. Having shaken off
the dust she fastened them in her corsage, blue against her blue-green.
They were her symbol for happiness springing up in the face of
despair, and from a soil where you would expect it to be choked. She
herself was happy to-day as she could not remember ever to have been
happy in her life. For the first time she was passing among decent
people decently; and thenit was the great hope beyond which she
didn't lookthe prince might read with her again that evening.
But as she turned from Fifth Avenue into East Sixty-seventh Street
the prince was approaching his door from the other direction. Even she
was aware that it was contrary to his habits to appear at home by five
in the afternoon. She didn't know, of course, that Barbara had so
stimulated his enthusiasm for the educational course that he had come
on the chance of taking it up at the tea hour. He could not remember
that Barbara had ever before been so sympathetic to one of his ideas.
The fact encouraged his feeble belief in himself, and made him love her
with richer tenderness.
In the gentle girl of quietly distinguished mien he saw nothing but
a stranger till Beppo strained at his leash and barked. Even then it
took him half a minute to get his powers of recognition into play. He
stopped at the foot of his steps, watching her approach.
By doing so he made the approach more difficult for her. The heart
seemed to stop in her body. She could scarcely breathe. Each step was
like walking on blades, yet like walking on blades with a kind of
ecstasy. Luckily Beppo pranced and pulled in such a way that she was
forced to give him some attention.
The prince's first words were also a distraction from terrors and
enchantments which made her feel faint.
Where did you get the poor man's coffee?
The question by puzzling her gave her some relief. Pointing at the
sprays in her corsage he went on:
That's what the country people often call the chicory weed in
She was able to gasp feebly: Oh, does it grow there?
I think it grows pretty nearly everywhere. It's one of the most
classic wild flowers we know anything about. The ancient Egyptians
dried its leaves to give flavor to their salad, and I remember being
told at Luxor that the modern Copts and Arabs do the same. You see it's
quite a friendly little beast to man.
It eased her other feelings to tell him about the crazy woman in
Canada, and her reading of the dust-flower's significance.
That's a good idea too, Allerton agreed, smiling down into her
eyes. There are people like thatlittle dust-flowers cheering up the
wayside for the rest of us poor brutes.
She said, wistfully: I suppose you've known a lot of them.
[Illustration: THE PRINCE'S FIRST WORDS WERE ALSO A DISTRACTION FROM
TERRORS, AND ENCHANTMENTS WHICH MADE HER FEEL FAINT]
As he laughed his eyes rested on a man sauntering toward them from
the direction of Fifth Avenue. I've known about two his eyes came
back to smile again down into hersor one. He started as a
man starts who receives a new suggestion. I say! Let's go in and look
up chicory and succory in the encyclopedia. Then we'll know all about
it. It seems to me, too, he went on, reminiscently, that I read a
little poem about this very blue flowerby Margaret Deland, I think it
wasonly a few weeks ago. I believe I could put my hand on it. Come
As he sprang up the steps the pearly gates were opening again before
Letty when the man whom Allerton had seen sauntering toward them
actually passed by. Passing he lifted his hat politely, smiled, and
said, Good afternoon, Miss Gravely, like any other gentleman. He was
a good-looking slippery young man, with a cast in his left eye.
Because she was a woman before she was a lady, as she understood the
word lady, Letty responded with, Good afternoon, and a little
inclination of the head. He was several doors off before she bethought
herself sufficiently to take alarm.
Who's that? Allerton demanded, looking down from the third or
I'm sure I haven't an idea. I think he must be some camera-man
who's seen me when they've been shooting the pitch she made the
correction almost in timewho's seen me when they've been shooting
the pick-tures. I can't think of anything else.
They watched the retreating form till, without a backward glance, it
turned into Madison Avenue.
Come along in, Allerton called then, in a tone intended to
disperse misgiving, and let's begin.
Ten minutes later he was reading in the library, from a big volume
open on his knees, how for over a century the chicory root had been
dried and ground in France, and used to strengthen the cheaper grades
of coffee, when Letty broke in, as if she had not been following him:
I don't think that fella could have been a camera-man after all. No
camera-man would ha' noticed me in the great big bunch I was always
Oh, well, he can't do you any harm anyhow, Allerton assured her.
I'll just finish this, and then I'll look for the poem by Mrs.
With her veil and gloves in her lap Letty sat thoughtful while he
passed from shelf to shelf in search of the smaller volume. Of her real
suspicion, that the man was a friend of Judson Flack's, she decided not
Seated once more in front of her, and bending slightly toward her,
Oh, not in ladies' gardens,
My peasant posy!
Smile thy dear blue eyes,
Nor onlynearer to the skies
In upland pastures, dim and sweet
But by the dusty road
Where tired feet
Toil to and fro;
Where flaunting Sin
May see thy heavenly hue,
Or weary Sorrow look from thee
Toward a more tender blue.
Allerton glanced up from the book. Pretty, isn't it?
She admitted that it was, and then added: And yet there was the
times when the castin' director put me right in the front, to register
what the crowd behind me was thinkin' about. He might ha' noticed me
Yes, of course; that must have been it. Now wouldn't you like me to
read that again? You must always read a poem a second or third time to
really know what it's about.
* * * * *
Meanwhile a poem of another sort was being read to Miss Barbara
Walbrook by her aunt, who had entered the drawing-room within five
minutes after Allerton had left it. During those five minutes Barbara
had remained seated, plunged into reverie. The problem with which she
had to deal was the degree to which she was right or wrong in
permitting Rashleigh to go on in his crazy course. That this outcast
girl was twining herself round his heart was a fact growing too
obtrusive to be ignored. Had Rashleigh been as other men decisive
action would have been imperative. But he was not as other men, and
there lay the possibilities she found difficult.
If the aunt couldn't help the niece to solve the difficult question
she at least could compel her to take a stand.
As she entered the drawing-room she came from out of doors, a
slender, unfleshly figure, all intellect and idea. Her vices being
wholly of the spirit were not recognized as vices, so that she passed
as the highest type of the good woman which the continent of America
knows anything about. Being the highest type of the good woman she had,
moreover, the privilege which American usage accords to all good women
of being good aggressively. No other good woman in the world enjoys
this right to the same degree, a fact to which we can point with pride.
The good English woman, the good French woman, the good Italian woman,
are obliged by the customs of their countries to direct their goodness
into channels in which it is relatively curbed. The good American
woman, on the other hand, is never so much at home as when she is on
the warpath. Her goodness being the only standard of goodness which the
country accepts she has the right to impose it by any means she can
harness to her purposes. She is the inspiration of our churches, and
the terror of our constituencies. She is behind state legislatures and
federal congresses and presidential cabinets. They may elude her lofty
purposes, falsify her trust, and for a time hoodwink her with male
chicaneries; but they are always afraid of her, and in the end they do
as she commands. Among the coarsely, stupidly, viciously masculine
countries of the world the American Republic is the single and
conspicuous matriarchate, ruled by its good women. Of these rulers Miss
Marion Walbrook was as representative a type as could be found, high,
pure, zealous, intolerant of men's weaknesses, and with only spiritual
immoralities of her own.
Seated in one of her slender upright armchairs she had the
impressiveness of goodness fully conscious of itself. A document she
held in her hand gave her the judicial air of one entitled to pass
I'm sorry, Barbara; but I've some disagreeable news for you.
Barbara woke. Indeed?
I've just come from Augusta Chancellor's. She talked aboutthat
What did she say?
She said two or three things. One was that she'd met him one day in
the Park when he decidedly wasn't himself.
Oh, it's hard to say when he's himself and when he isn't. He's what
the French would call un original.
Oh, I don't know about that. The originality of men is commonplace
as it's most novel. This man is on a par with the rest, if you call it
original for him to have a woman in the house.
Barbara feigned languidness. Well, it isthe way he has her
The way he has her there? What do you mean by that?
I mean what I say. There's no one else in the world who would take
a girl under his roof in the way Rash has taken this girl.
How, may I ask, did he take her?
Having foreseen that one day she should be in this position Barbara
had made up her mind as to how much she should say. He found her.
Oh, they all do that. They generally find them in the Park.
Exactly; it's just what he did.
I guessedit was only guessing mind youthat he also tried to
find Augusta Chancellor.
Oh, possibly. He'd go as far as that, if he saw her doing anything
he thought not respectable.
Barbara, please! You're talking about a friend of mine, one of my
colleagues. Let's return toI hope you won't find the French phrase
invidiousto our mutton.
Oh, very well! Rash found the girl homelesspennilesswith no
friends. Her stepfather had turned her out. Another man would have left
her there, or turned her over to the police. Rash took her to his own
house, and since then we've both been helping her toto get on her
Helping her to get on her feet in a way that's driven from the
house the good old women who've been there for nearly thirty years.
Oh, you know that too, do you?
Why, certainly. Jane, that was the parlor maid, is very intimate
with Augusta Chancellor's cook; and she saysJane doesthat he's
actually married the creature.
Barbara shrugged her shoulders. I can't help what the servants say,
Aunt Marion. I'm trying to be a friend to the girl, and help her to
pull herself together. Of course I recognize the fact that Rash has
been foolishquixoticor whatever you like to call it; but he hasn't
kept anything from me.
And you're still engaged to him?
Of course I'm still engaged to him. She held out her left hand.
Look at his ring.
Then why don't you get married?
Are you in such a hurry to get rid of me?
The question being a pleasantry Miss Walbrook took it with a gentle
smile. When she resumed it was with a slight flourish of the document
in her hand and another turn to the conversation.
I went to the bank this morning. I've brought home my will. I'm
thinking of making some changes in it.
Barbara looked non-committal, as if the subject had nothing to do
The question I have to decide, Miss Walbrook pursued, is whether
to leave everything to you, in the hope that you'll carry on my
I shouldn't know how.
Or whether to establish a trust
I should do that decidedly.
And let it fall into the hands of a pack of men.
It will fall into the hands of a pack of men, whatever you do with
And yet if you had it in charge
Some man would get hold of it, Aunt Marion.
Which is what I'm debating. I'm not so very sure
That I shall marry in the end?
Well, you're not married yet ... and if you were to change your
mind ... the world has such a need of consecrated women with men so
unscrupulous and irresponsible ... we must break their power some day
... and now that we've got the opportunity ... all I want you to
understand is that if you shouldn't marry there'd be a great career in
store for you....
By the end of twenty-four hours the possibility of this great career
quickened Barbara's zeal for taking a hand in Letty's education. Not
only did that impulse of furious jealousy, by which she meant at first
to leave it wholly to Rash, begin to seem dangerous, but there was a
world to consider and throw off the scent. Now that Augusta Chancellor
knew that the girl was beneath Rash's roof all their acquaintances
would sooner or later be in possession of the fact. It was Barbara's
part, therefore, to play the game in such a way that a bit of quixotism
would be the most foolish thing of which Rash would be suspected.
That she would be playing a game she knew in advance. She must hide
her suspicions; she must control her sufferings. She must pretend to
have confidence in Rash, when at heart she cried against him as an
infant and a fool. Never was woman in such a ridiculous situation as
that into which she had been thrust; never was heart so wild to ease
itself by invective and denunciation; and never was the padlock fixed
so firmly on the lips. Hour by hour the man she loved was being weaned
and won away from her; and she must stand by with grimacing smiles,
instead of throwing up her arms in dramatic gestures and calling on her
gods to smite and smash and annihilate.
Since, however, she had a game to play, a game she would play,
though she did it quivering with protest and repulsion.
Do you mind if I take the car this afternoon, Aunt Marion, since
you're not going to use it.
Take it of course; but where are you going?
I thought I would ask that protégée of Rash Allerton's, of whom we
were speaking yesterday, to come for a drive with me. But if you'd
rather I didn't
I've nothing to do with it. It's entirely for you to say. The car
is yours, of course.
The invitation being transmitted by telephone Steptoe urged Letty to
accept it. It'll be all in the wye of madam's gettin' used to
thingsa bit at a time like.
But I don't think she likes me.
If madam won't stop to think whether people likes 'er or not I
think madam 'd get for'arder. Besides madam'll pretty generally always
find as love-call wykes love-echo, as the syin' goes.
Which, as a matter of fact, was what Letty did find. She found it
from the minute of entering the car and taking her seat, when Miss
Walbrook exclaimed heartily: What a lovely dress! And the hat's too
sweet! Suits you exactly, doesn't it? My dear, I've the greatest bother
ever to find a hat that doesn't make me look like a scarecrow.
From the naturalness of the tone there was no suspecting the cost of
these words to the speaker, and the subject was one in which Letty was
at home. In turn she could compliment Miss Walbrook's appearance, duly
admiring the toque of prune-colored velvet, with a little bunch of
roses artfully disposed, and the coat of prune-colored Harris tweed. In
further discussing the length of the new skirts and the chances of the
tight corset coming back they found topics of common interest. The fact
that they were the topics which came readiest to the lips of both made
it possible to maintain the conversation at its normal give-and-take,
while each could pursue the line of her own summing up of the other.
To Letty Miss Walbrook seemed friendlier than she had expected, only
spasmodically so. Her kindly moods came in spurts of which the
inspiration soon gave out. I think she's sad, was Letty's comment to
herself. Sadness, in Letty's use of words, covered all the emotions not
distinctly cheerful or hilarious.
She knew nothing about Miss Walbrook, except that it appeared from
this conversation that she lived with an aunt, whose car they were
using. That she was a friend of the prince's had been several times
repeated, but all information ended there. To Letty she seemed
oldbetween thirty and forty. Had she known her actual age she would
still have seemed old from her knowledge of the world and general
sophistication. Letty's own lack of sophistication kept her a child
when she was nearly twenty-three. That Miss Walbrook was the girl to
whom the prince was engaged had not yet crossed her thought.
At the same time, since she knew that girl she brought her to the
forefront of Letty's consciousness. She was never far from the
forefront of her consciousness, and of late speculation concerning her
had become more active. If she approached the subject with the prince
he reddened and grew ill at ease. The present seemed, therefore, an
opportunity to be utilized.
They were deep in the northerly avenues of the Park, when apropos of
the dress topic, Letty said, suddenly: I suppose she's awfully
stylishthe girl he's engaged to.
The response was laconic: She's said to be.
Is she pretty?
I don't think you could say that.
Then what does he see in her?
Whatever people do see in those they're in love with. I'm afraid
I'm not able to define it.
Dropping back into her corner Letty sighed. She knew this mystery
existed, the mystery of falling in love for reasons no one was able to
explain. It was the ground on which she hoped that at first sight
someone would fall in love with her. If he didn't do it for reasons
beyond explanation he would, of course, not do it at all.
It was some minutes before another question trembled to her lips.
Does shedoes she know about me?
And did shedid she feel very bad?
Barbara's long eyes slid round in Letty's direction, though the head
was not turned. How should you feel yourself, if it had happened to
It'd kill me.
Well, then? She let Letty draw her own conclusions before adding:
It's nearly killed her.
Letty cowered. She had never thought of this. That she herself
suffered she knew; that the prince suffered she also knew; but that
this unknown girl, whatever her folly, lay smitten to the heart brought
a new complication into her ideas. Even if he ever did come to she
held up her unspoken sentence thereI'd ha' stolen him from her.
There was little more conversation after that. Each had her motives
for reflections and silences. They were nearing the end of the drive
when Letty said again:
What would you do if you wasif you wereme?
I'd do whatever I felt to be highest.
To Letty this was a beautiful reply, and proof of a beautiful
nature. Moreover, it was indirectly a compliment to herself, in that
she could be credited with doing what she felt to be highest as well as
anyone else. In her life hitherto she had been figuratively kicked and
beaten into doing what she couldn't resist. Now she was considered
capable of acting worthily of her own accord. It inspired a new
sentiment toward Miss Walbrook.
She thought, too, that Miss Walbrook liked her a little better.
Perhaps it was the fulfillment of Steptoe's adage, love-call wakes
love-echo. She was sure that somehow this call had gone out from her to
Miss Walbrook, and that it hadn't gone out in vain.
It hadn't gone out in vain, in that Miss Walbrook was able to say to
herself, with some conviction, That's the way it will have to be
done. It was a way of which her experiences in Bleary Street had made
her skeptical. Among those whom she called the lower orders innocence,
ingenuousness, and integrity were qualities for which she had ceased to
look. She didn't look for them anywhere with much confidence; but she
had long ago come to the conclusion that the poor were schemers, and
were obliged to be schemers because they were poor. Something in Letty
impressed her otherwise. That's the way, she continued to nod to
herself. It's no use trusting to Rash. I'll get her; and she'll get
him; and so we shall work it.
Arrived in East Sixty-seventh Street she went in with Letty and had
tea. But it was she who sat in dear Mrs. Allerton's corner of the sofa,
and when William brought in the tray she said, Put it here, William,
as one who speaks with authority. Of this usurpation of the right to
dispense hospitality Letty did not see the significance, being glad to
have it taken off her hands.
Not so, however, with Steptoe who came in with a covered dish of
muffins. Having placed it before Miss Walbrook he turned to Letty.
Madam ain't feelin' well?
Letty's tone expressed her surprise. Why, yes.
Madam'll excuse me. As madam ain't presidin' at 'er own tyble I was
It being unnecessary to say more he tiptoed out, leaving behind him
a declaration of war, which Miss Walbrook, without saying anything in
words, was not slow to pick up. Insufferable, was her comment to
herself. Of the hostile forces against her this, she knew, was the most
Neither did Rash perceive the significance of Barbara's place at the
tea-table when he entered about five o'clock, though she was quick to
perceive the significance of his arrival. It was not, however, a point
to note outwardly, so that she lifted her hand above the tea-kettle,
letting him bend over it, as she exclaimed:
Welcome to our city! Do sit down and make yourself at home. Letty
and I have been for a drive, and are all ready to enjoy a little male
The easy tone helped Allerton over his embarrassment, first in
finding the two women face to face, then in coming so unexpectedly face
to face with them, and lastly in being caught by Barbara coming home at
this unexpected hour. Knowing what the situation must mean to her he
admired her the more for her sangfroid and social flexibility.
She took all the difficulties on herself. Letty and I have been
making friends, and are going to know each other awfully well, aren't
we? A smile at Letty drew forth Letty's smile, to Rashleigh's
satisfaction, and somewhat to his bewilderment. But Barbara, handing
him a cup of tea, addressed him directly. Who do you think is engaged?
He guessed, and guessed wrong. He guessed a second time, and guessed
wrong. There followed a conversation about people they knew, with
regard to which Letty was altogether an outsider. Now and then she
recognized great names which she had read in the papers, tossed back
and forth without prefixes of Mr. or Miss, and often with pet
diminutives. The whole represented a closed corporation of intimacies
into which she could no more force her way than a worm into a billiard
ball. Rash who was at first beguiled by the interchange of
personalities began to experience a sense of discomfort that Letty
should be so discourteously left out; but Barbara knew that it was best
for both to force the lesson home. Rash must be given to understand how
lost he would be with any outsider as his companion; and Letty must be
made to realize how hopelessly an outsider she would always be.
But no lesson should be urged to the quick at a single sitting, so
that Barbara broke off suddenly to ask why he had come home. In the
same way as she had given the order to William she spoke with the
authority of one at liberty to ask the question. Not to give the real
reason he said that it was to write a letter and change his clothes.
And you're going back to the Club?
He replied that he was going to dine with a bachelor friend at his
Then I'll wait and drop you at the Club. You can go on from there
afterwards. I've got the time.
This too was said with an authority against which he felt himself
unable to appeal.
Having written a note and changed to his dinner jacket he rejoined
them in the drawing-room. Barbara held out her hand to Letty, with a
briskness indicating relief.
So glad we had our drive. I shall come soon again. I wish it could
be to-morrow, but my aunt will be using the car.
There's my car, Allerton suggested.
Oh, so there is. Barbara took this proposal as a matter of course.
Then we'll say to-morrow. I'll call up Eugene and tell him when to
come for me.
With Allerton beside her, and driving down Fifth Avenue, she said:
I see how to do it, Rash. You must leave it to me.
He replied in the tone of a child threatened with the loss of his
rôle in a game. I can't leave it to you altogether.
Then leave it to me as much as you can. I see what to do and you
don't. Furthermore, I know just how to do it.
You're wonderful, Barbe, he said, humbly.
I'm wonderful so long as you don't interfere with me.
Oh, well, I shan't do that.
She turned to him sharply. Is that a promise?
Why do you want a promise? he asked, in some wonder.
Because I do.
That is, you can't trust me.
My dear Rash, who could trust you after what?
Oh, well, then, I promise.
Then that's understood. And if anything happens, you won't go
hedging and saying you didn't mean it in that way?
It seems to me you're very suspicious.
One's obliged to foresee everything with you, Rash. It isn't as if
one was dealing with an ordinary man.
You mean that I'm to give you carte blanche, and have no will of my
own at all.
I mean that when I'm so reasonable, you must try to be reasonable
on your side.
Well, I will.
As they drew up in front of the New Netherlands Club, he escaped
without committing himself further.
If he dined with a bachelor friend that night he must have cut the
evening short, for at half past nine he re-entered the back
drawing-room where Letty was sitting before the fire, her red book in
her lap. She sat as a lover stands at a tryst as to which there is no
positive engagement. To fortify herself against disappointment she had
been trying to persuade herself that he wouldn't come, and that she
didn't expect him.
He came, but he came as a man who has something on his mind. Almost
without greeting he sat down, took the book from her lap and proceeded
to look up the place at which he had left off.
Miss Walbrook's lovely, isn't she? she said, before he had found
She's a very fine woman, he assented. Do you remember where we
It was at, 'So let it be, said the little mermaid, turning pale as
death.' You know her very well, don't you?
Oh, very well indeed. I think we begin here: 'But you will have to
pay me also'
Have you known her very long?
All my life, more or less.
She says she knows the girl you're engaged to.
Yes, of course. We all know each other in our little set. Now, if
you're ready, I'll begin to read.
'But you will have to pay me also,' said the witch; 'and it is not
a little that I ask. Yours is the loveliest voice in the world, and you
trust to that, I dare say, to charm your love. But you must give it to
me. For my costly drink I claim the best thing you possess. I shall
give you my own blood, so that my draught may be as sharp as a
two-edged sword.' 'But if you take my voice from me, what have I left?'
asked the little mermaid, piteously. 'Your loveliness, your graceful
movements, your speaking eyes. Those are enough to win a man's heart.
Well, is your courage gone? Stretch out your little tongue, that I may
cut it off, and you shall have my magic potion.' 'I consent,' said the
Letty cried out: So that when she'd be with him she'd understand
everything, and not be able to tell him anything.
I'm afraid, he smiled, that that's what's ahead of her, poor
Oh, but that she could hardly utter her distressOh, but
that's worse than anything in the world.
He looked up at her curiously. Would you rather I didn't go on?
No, no; please. II want to hear it all.
* * * * *
At The Hindoo Lantern Mr. Gorry Larrabin and Mr. Judson Flack found
themselves elbow to elbow outside the rooms where their respective
ladies were putting the final touches to their hats and hair before
entering the grand circle. It was an opportunity especially on Gorry's
part, to seal the peace which had been signed so recently.
Hello, Judson. What's the prospects in oil? Judson's tone was
pessimistic. Not a thing doin', Gorry. Awful slow bunch, that lump of
nuts I'm in with on this. Mentioned your name to one or two of 'em; but
no enterprise. Boneheads that wouldn't know a white man from a crane.
That he understood what Gorry understood became clear as he continued:
Friend o' mine at the Excelsior passes me the tip that they've held up
that play they were goin' to put my girl into. Can't get anyone else
that would swing the part. Waitin' for her to turn up again. I suppose
you haven't heard anything, Gorry?
Gorry looked him in the eyes as straight as was possible for a man
with a cast in the left one. Not a thing, Judson; not a thing.
The accent was so truthful that Judson gave his friend a long
comprehending look. He was sure that Gorry would never speak with such
sincerity if he was sincere.
Well, I'm on the job, Gorry, he assured him, and one of these
days you'll hear from me.
I'm on the job too, Judson; and one of these days
But as Mademoiselle Coucoul emerged from the dressing-room and shed
radiance, Gorry was obliged to go forward.
It was May.
In spite of her conviction that she knew what to do and how it to do
it, Barbara perceived that at the end of seven months they were much
where they had been in the previous October. If there was a change it
was that all three, Rashleigh, Letty, and herself, had grown strained
Outwardly they strove to maintain a semblance of friendship. For
that Barbara had worked hard, and in a measure had succeeded. She had
held Rash; she had won Letty.
She had more than won Letty; she had trained her. All that in seven
months a woman of the world could do for an unformed and ignorant child
she had done. Her experience at Bleary Street had helped her in this;
and Letty had been quick. She had seized not only those small points of
speech and action foundational to rising in the world, but the point of
view of those who had risen. She knew how, Barbara was sure, that there
were certain things impossible to people such as those among whom she
had been thrown.
Since it was May it was the end of a season, and the minute Barbara
had long ago chosen for a masterstroke. Each of the others felt the
crisis as near as she did herself.
It's got to end, Letty confessed to her, as amid the soft
loveliness of springtime, they were again driving in the Park.
Barbara chose her words. I suppose he feels that too.
Then why don't he let me end it?
I fancy that that's a difficult position for a man. If you ask his
permission beforehand he feels obliged to say
And perhaps, Letty suggested, he's too tender-hearted.
That's part of it. He is tender-hearted. Besides that, his
position is grotesquea man with whom two women are in love. To one of
them he's been nominally married, while to the other he's bound by
every tie of honor. No wonder he doesn't see his way. If he moves
toward the one he hurts the othera man to whom it's agony to hurt a
Does the other girl still feel the way she did?
She's killing herself. She's breaking her heart. Nobody knows it
but him and herand even he doesn't take it in. But she is.
I suppose she thinks I'm something awful.
Does it matter to you what she thinks?
I don't want her to hate me.
Oh, I shouldn't say she did that. She feels that, considering
everything, you might have acted with more decision.
But he won't let me.
And he never will, if you wait for that.
Then what do you think I ought to do?
That's where I find you weak, Letty, since you ask me the question.
No one can tell you what to doand he least of all. It's a situation
in which one of you must withdraweither you or the other girl. But,
don't you see? he can't say so to either.
And if one of us must withdraw you think it should be me.
I have to leave that to you. You're the one who butted in. I know
it wasn't your faultthat the fault was his entirely; but we recognize
the fact that he'show shall I put it?not quite responsible. We
women have to take the burden of the thing on ourselves, if it's ever
to be put right.
In her corner of the car Letty thought this over. The impression on
her mind was the deeper since, for several months past, she had watched
the prince growing more and more unhappy. He was less nervous than he
used to be, less excitable; and for that he had told her the credit was
due to herself. You soothe me, he had once said to her, in words she
would always treasure; and yet as his irritability decreased his
unhappiness seemed to grow. She could only infer that he was mourning
over the girl to whom he was engaged, and on whom he had inflicted a
great wrong. For the last few weeks Letty's mind had occupied itself
with her almost more than with the prince himself.
Do you think I shall ever see her? she asked, suddenly now.
Barbara reflected. I think you could if you wanted to.
Should you arrange it?
You're sure she'd be willing to see me?
Yes; I know she would.
When could you do it?
Whenever you like.
Yes; sooner perhaps than Barbara spoke absently, as if a new
idea was taking possession of her mindsooner perhaps than you
And you say she's breaking her heart?
A little more, and it will be broken.
By the time Letty had been set down at the door in East
Sixty-seventh Street the afternoon had grown chilly. In the back
drawing-room Steptoe was on his knees lighting the fire. Letty came and
stood behind him. Without preliminary of any kind she said, quietly:
Steptoe, it's got to end.
Expecting a protest she was surprised that he should merely blow on
the shivering flame, saying, in the interval between two long breaths:
I agrees with madam.
And it's me that must end it.
He blew gently again. I guess that'd be so too.
She thought of the little mermaid leaping into the sea, and
trembling away into foam. If he wants to marry the girl he's in love
with he'll never do it the way we're living now.
He rose from his knees, dusting one hand against the other. Madam's
quite right. 'E won'tnot never.
She threw out her arms, and moaned. And, O Steptoe! I'm so tired of
Madam's tired of?
Of living here, and doing nothing, and just watching and waiting,
and nothing never happening
Does madam remember that, the dye when she first come I said there
was two reasons why I wanted to myke 'er into a lydy?
The one I told 'er was that I wanted to 'elp someone who was like
what I used to be myself.
And the other, what I didn't tell madam, I'll tell 'er now. It
wasit was I was 'opin' that a woman'd come into my poor boy's life
as'd comfort 'im like
And she didn't come.
'E ain't seen that she's come. I said it'd be a tough job to bring
'im to fallin' in love with 'er like; but it's been tougher than what I
thought it'd be.
So that I mustmust do something.
Looks as if madam'd 'ave to.
I suppose you know that there's an easy way for me to do it?
Nothink ain't so very easy; but if madam 'as a big enough
She felt the necessity of being plain. I suppose that if he hadn't
picked me up in the Park that day I'd have gone to the bad anyhow.
If madam's thinkin' about goin' to the bad
She threw up her head defiantly. Well, I am. What of it?
I was just thinkin' as I might 'elp 'er a bit about that.
She was puzzled. I don't think you know what I said. I said I
Goin' to the bad, madam. That's what I understood. But madam won't
find it so easy, not 'avin 'ad no experience like, as you might sye.
I didn't know you needed experiencefor that.
All good people thinks that wye, madam; but when you tackle it
deliberate like, there's quite a trick to it.
And do you know the trick? was all she could think of saying.
I may not know the very hidentical trick madam'd be in want of'er
bein' a lydy, as you might syebut I could put 'er in the wye of
You don't think I could find out for myself?
You see, it's like this. I used to know a young man what everythink
went ag'in' 'im. And one dye 'e started out for to be a forgerer
likeso as 'e'd be put in jyleand be took care ofboard and lodgin'
freeand all that. Well, out 'e starts, and not knowin' the little ins
and outs, as you might sye, everythink went agin 'im, just as it done
before. And, would madam believe it? that young man 'e hended by
studying for the ministry. Madam wouldn't want to myke a mistyke like
that, now would she?
Letty turned this over in her mind. A career parallel to that of
this young man would effect none of the results she was aiming at.
Then what would you suggest? she asked, at last.
I could give madam the address of a lydyan awful wicked lydy, she
iswhat'd put madam up to all the ropes. If madam was to go out into
the cold world, like, this lydy'd give 'er a home. Besides the address
I'd give madam a sign likeso as the lydy'd know it was somethink
A sign? I don't know what you mean.
It'd be this, madam. He drew from his pocket a small silver
thimble. This'd be a password to the lydy. The minute she'd see it
she'd know that the time 'ad come.
That's somethink madam'd find out. I couldn't explyne it
It sounds very queer.
It'd be very queer. Goin' to the bad is always queer. Madam
wouldn't look for it to be like 'avin' a gentleman lead 'er in to
What's she likethe lady?
That's somethink madam'd 'ave to wyte and see. She wouldn't seem
so wicked, not at first sight, as you might sye. But time'd tell. If
madam'd be pytientwell, I wouldn't like to sye. He eyed the fire. I
think that fire'll burn now, madam; and if it don't, madam'll only 'ave
He was at the door when Letty, feeling the end of all things to be
at hand, ran after him, laying her fingers on his sleeve.
Oh, Steptoe; you've been so good to me!
He relaxed from his dignity sufficiently to let his hand rest on
hers, which he patted gently. I've been madam's servantand my
I shall never think of you as a servantnever.
The frosty color rose into his cheeks. Then madam'll do me a great
To me you're so much higher than a servant
Madam'll find that there ain't nothink 'igher than a servant.
There's a lot about service in the pypers nowadyes, crackin' it up,
like; but nobody don't seem to remember that servants knows more about
that than what other people do, and servants don't remember it
theirselves. So long as I can serve madam, just as I've served my
Oh, but, Steptoe, I shall have gone to the bad.
That'd be all the syme to me, madam. At my time o' life I don't see
no difference between them as 'as gone to the bad and them as 'as gone
to the good, as you might sye. I only seespeople.
Left alone Letty went back to the fire, and stood gazing down at it,
her foot on the fender. So it was the end. Even Steptoe said so. In a
sense she was relieved.
She was relieved at the prospect of being freed from her daily
torture. The little mermaid walking on blades in the palace of the
prince, and forever dumb, had known bliss, but bliss so akin to anguish
that her heart was consumed by it. The very fact that the prince
himself suffered from the indefinable misery which her presence seemed
to bring made escape the more enticing.
She was so buried in this reflection as to have heard no sound in
the house, when Steptoe announced in his stately voice: Miss Barbara
Walbrook. Having parted from this lady half an hour earlier Letty
turned in some surprise.
I've come back again, was the explanation, sent down the long
room. Don't let William bring in tea, the imperious voice commanded
Steptoe. We wish to be alone. There was the same abruptness as she
halted within two or three feet of where Letty stood, supporting
herself with a hand on the edge of the mantelpiece. I've come back to
tell you something. I made up my mind to it all at onceafter I left
you a few minutes ago. Now that I've done it I feel easier.
Letty didn't know which was uppermost in her mind, curiosity or
fear. Whatwhat is it? she asked, trembling.
I've given up the fight. I'm out of it.
Letty crept forward. You'veyou've done what?
I told you in the Park that one or the other of us would have to
One or the other ofof us?
Exactly and I've done it.
With horror in her face and eyes Letty crept nearer still. Butbut
I don't understand.
Oh, yes, you do. How can you help understanding. You must have seen
all along that
Not thatthat you werethe other girl. Oh, not that!
Yes, that; of course; why not?
Becausebecause II couldn't bear it.
You can bear it if I can, can't youif I've had to bear it all
these weeks and months.
Yes, but that's she covered her face with her handsthat's
what makes it so terrible.
Of course it makes it terrible; but it isn't as terrible now as it
wasto you anyhow.
But why do you withdraw whenwhen you love himand he loves
I do it because I want to throw all the cards on the table. It's
what my common sense has been telling me to do all along, only I've
never worked round to it till we had our talk this afternoon. Now I
What do you see, Miss Walbrook?
I see that we've got to give him a clean sheet, or he'll never know
where he is. He can't decide between us because he's in an impossible
position. We'll have to set him absolutely free, so that he may begin
again. I'll do it on my side. You can dowhat you like.
She went as abruptly as she came, leaving Letty clearer than ever as
to her new course.
By midnight she was ready. In the back spare room she waited only to
be sure that all in the house were asleep.
She had heard Allerton come in about half past nine, and the
whispering of voices told that Steptoe was making his explanations,
that she was out of sorts, had dined in her room, and begged not to be
disturbed. At about half past ten she heard the prince go upstairs to
his own room, though she fancied that outside her door he had paused
for a second to listen. That was the culminating minute of her
self-repression. Once it was over, and he had gone on his way, she knew
the rest would be easier.
By midnight she had only to wait quietly. In the old gray rag and
the battered black hat she surveyed herself without emotion. Since
making her last attempt to escape her relation to all these things had
changed. They had become less significant, less important. The emblems
of the higher life which in the previous autumn she had buried with
ritual and regret she now packed away in the closet, with hardly a
second thought. The old gray rag which had then seemed the livery of a
degraded life was now no more than the resumption of her reality.
I'll go as I came, she had been saying to herself, all the
evening. I know he'd like me to take the things he's given me; but I'd
rather be just what I was.
If there was any ritual in what she had done since Miss Walbrook had
left her it was in the putting away of small things by which she didn't
want to be haunted.
I couldn't do it with this on, she said of the plain gold band on
her finger, to which, as a symbol of marriage, she had never attached
significance in any case.
She took it off, therefore, and laid it on the dressing table.
I couldn't do it with this in my pocket, she said of the purse
containing a few dollars, with which Steptoe had kept her supplied.
This too she laid on the dressing table, becoming as penniless as
when Judson Flack had put her out of doors. Somehow, to be penniless
seemed to her an element in her new task, and an excuse for it.
Since Allerton had never made her a present there was nothing of
this kind to discard. It had been part of his non-committal, impersonal
attitude toward her that he had never given her a concrete sign that
she meant anything to him whatever. He had thanked her on occasions for
the comforting quality he found in her presence. He had, in so many
words, recognized the fact that when he got into a tantrum of nerves
she could bring him out of it as no one else had ever done. He had also
imparted to her the discovery that in reading to her, and trying to
show her the point of view of a life superior to her own, he had for
the first time in his life done something for someone else; but he had
never gone beyond all this or allowed her to think that his heart was
not given to the girl he was engaged to. In that at least he had been
loyal to the mysterious princess, as the little mermaid could not but
She was not consciously denuded, as she would have felt herself six
months earlier. As to that she was not thinking anything at all. Her
motive, in setting free the prince from the drag on him which she now
recognized herself to be, filled all her mental horizons. So dominated
was she by this overwhelming impulse as to have no thought even for
When a clock somewhere struck one she took it as the summons. From
the dressing-table she picked up the scrawl in Steptoe's hand, giving
the name of Miss Henrietta Towell, at an address at Red Point, L. I.
She knew Red Point, on the tip of Long Island, as a distant, partially
developed suburb of Brooklyn. In the previous year she had gone with a
half dozen other girl supes from the Excelsior Studio to blow in a
quarter looking at the ocean steamers passing in and out. She had no
intention of intruding on Miss Towell, but she couldn't hurt Steptoe's
feelings by leaving the address behind her.
For the same reason she took the silver thimble which stood on the
scrap of paper. On its rim she read the inscription, H.T. from H.S.
but she made no attempt to unravel the romance behind it. She merely
slipped the scrawl and the thimble into the pocket of her jacket, and
She took no farewells. To do so would have unnerved her. On the
landing outside her door she listened for a possible sound of the
prince's breathing, but the house was still. In the lower hall she
resisted the impulse to slip into the library and kiss the place where
she had kissed his feet on the memorable morning when her hand had been
on his brow. That won't help me any, were the prosaic words with
which she put the suggestion away from her. If the little mermaid was
to leap over the ship's side and dissolve into foam the best thing she
could do was to leap.
The door no longer held secrets. She had locked it and unlocked it a
thousand times. Feeling for the chain in the darkness she slipped it
out of its socket; she drew back the bolt; she turned the key. Her
fingers found the two little brass knobs, pressing this one that way,
and that one this way. The door rolled softly as she turned the handle.
Over the threshold she passed into a world of silence, darkness,
electricity, and stars. She closed the door noiselessly. She went down
Having the choice between going southward either by Fifth Avenue or
by Madison Avenue, Letty took the former for the reason that there were
no electric cars crashing through it, so that she would be less
observed. It seemed to her important to get as far from East
Sixty-seventh Street as possible before letting a human glance take
note of her personality, even as a drifting silhouette.
In this she was fortunate. For the hour between one and two in the
early morning this part of Fifth Avenue was unusually empty. There was
not a pedestrian, and only a rare motor car. When one of the latter
flashed by she shrank into the shadow of a great house, lest some eye
of miraculous discernment should light on her. It seemed to her that
all New York must be ready to read her secret, and be on the watch to
turn her back.
She didn't know why she was going southward rather than northward,
except that southward lay the Brooklyn Bridge, and beyond the Brooklyn
Bridge lay Beehive Valley, and within Beehive Valley the Excelsior
Studio, and in the Excelsior Studio the faint possibility of a job. She
was already thinking in the terms that went with the old gray rag and
the battered hat, and had come back to them as to her mother-tongue. In
forsaking paradise for the limbo of outcast souls she was at least
supported by the fact that in the limbo of outcast souls she was at
She was not frightened. Now that she was out of the prince's palace
she had suddenly become sensationless. She was like a soul which having
reached the other side of death is conscious only of release from pain.
She was no longer walking on blades; she was no longer attempting the
impossible. Between her and the life which Barbara Walbrook understood
the few steps she had taken had already marked the gulf. The gulf had
always been there, yawning, unbridgeable, only that she, Letty Gravely,
had tried to shut her eyes to it. She had tried to shut her eyes to it
in the hope that the man she loved might come to do the same. She knew
now how utterly foolish any such hope had been.
She would have perceived this earlier had he not from time to time
revived the hope when it was about to flicker out. More than once he
had confessed to depending on her sympathy. More than once he had told
her that she drew out something he had hardly dared think he possessed,
but which made him more of a man. Once he harked back to the dust
flower, saying that as its humble and heavenly bloom brightened the
spots bereft of beauty so she cheered the lonely and comfortless places
in his heart. He had said these things not as one who is in love, but
as one who is grateful, only that between gratitude and love she had
purposely kept from drawing the distinction.
She did not reproach him. On the contrary, she blessed him even for
being grateful. That meed he gave her at least, and that he should give
her anything at all was happiness. Leaving his palace she did so with
nothing but grateful thoughts on her own side. He had smiled on her
always; he had been considerate, kindly, and very nearly tender. For
what he called the wrong he had done her, which she held to be no wrong
at all, he would have made amends so magnificent that the mere
acceptance would have overwhelmed her. Since he couldn't give her the
one thing she craved her best course was like the little mermaid to
tremble into foam, and become a spirit of the wind.
It was what she was doing. She was going without leaving a trace. A
girl more important than she couldn't have done it so easily. A Barbara
Walbrook had she attempted a freak so mad, would be discovered within
twenty-four hours. It was one of the advantages of extreme obscurity
that you came and went without notice. No matter how conspicuously a
Letty Gravely passed it would not be remembered that she had gone by.
With regard to this, however, she made one reserve. She couldn't
disappear forever, not any more than Judith of Bethulia when she went
to the tent of Holofernes. The history of Judith was not in Letty's
mind, because she had never heard of it; there was only the impulse to
the same sort of sacrifice. Since Israel could be delivered only in one
way, that way Judith had been ready to take. To Letty her prince was
her Israel. One day she would have to inform him that the Holofernes of
his captivity was slainthat at last he was free.
There were lines along which Letty was not imaginative, and one of
those lines ran parallel to Judith's experience. When it came to love
at first sight, she could invent as many situations as there were
millionaires in the subway. In interpreting a part she had views of her
own beyond any held by Luciline Lynch. As to matters of dress her fancy
Her limitations were in the practical. Among practical things going
to the bad was now her chief preoccupation. She had always understood
that when you made up your mind to do it you had only to present
yourself. The way was broad; the gate wide open. There were wicked
people on every side eager to pull you through. You had only to go out
into the street, after dark especiallyand there you were!
Having walked some three or four blocks she made out the figure of a
man coming up the hill toward her. Her heart stopped beating; her knees
quaked. This was doom. She would meet it, of course, since her doom
would be the prince's salvation; but she couldn't help trembling as she
watched it coming on.
By the light of an arc-lamp she saw that he was in evening dress.
The wicked millionaires who, in motion-pictures, were the peril of
young girls, were always so attired. Iphigenia could not have trodden
to the altar with a more consuming mental anguish than Letty as she
dragged herself toward this approaching fate; but she did so drag
herself without mercy. For a minute as he drew near she was on the
point of begging him to spare her; but she saved herself in time from
this frustration of her task.
The man, a young stock-broker in a bad financial plight, scarcely
noticed that a female figure was passing him. Had the morrow's market
been less a matter of life and death to him he might have thrown her a
glance; but as it was she did not come within the range of his
consciousness. To her amazement, and even to her consternation, Letty
saw him go onward up the hill, his eyes straight before him, and his
profile sharply cut in the electric light.
She explained the situation by the fact that he hadn't seen her at
all. That a man could actually see a girl, in such unusual
conditions, and still go by inoffensively, was as contrary to all she
had heard of life as it would have been to the principles of a Turkish
woman to suppose that one of this sex could behold her face and not
fall fiercely in love with her. As, however, two men were now coming up
the hill together Letty was obliged to re-organize her forces to meet
the new advance.
She couldn't reason this time that they hadn't seen her, because
their heads turned in her direction, and the intonation of the words
she couldn't articulately hear was that of faint surprise. Further than
that there was no incident. They were young men too, also in evening
dress, and of the very type of which all her warnings had bidden her
beware. The immunity from insult was almost a matter for chagrin.
As she approached Fifty-ninth Street encounters were nearly as
numerous as they would have been in daylight; but Letty went on her way
as if, instead of the old gray rag, she wore the magic cloak of
invisibility. So it was during the whole of the long half mile between
Fifty-ninth Street and Forty-second Street. In spite of the fact that
she was the only unescorted woman she saw, no invitation to go to the
bad was proffered her. There's quite a trick to it, Steptoe had
said, in the afternoon; and she began to think that there was.
At Forty-second Street, for no reason that she could explain, she
turned into the lower and quieter spur of Madison Avenue, climbing and
descending Murray Hill. Here she was almost alone. Motor-car traffic
had practically ceased; foot-passengers there were none; on each side
of the street the houses were somber and somnolent. The electric lamps
flared as elsewhere, but with little to light up.
Her sense of being lost became awesome. It began to urge itself in
on her that she was going nowhere, and had nowhere to go. She was back
in the days when she had walked away from Judson Flack's, without the
same heart in the adventure. She recalled now that on that day she had
felt young, daring, equal to anything that fate might send; now she
felt curiously old and experienced. All her illusions had been dished
up to her at once and been blown away as by a hurricane. The little
mermaid who had loved the prince and failed to win his love in return
could have nothing more to look forward to.
She was drifting, drifting, when suddenly from the shadow of a
flight of broad steps a man stalked out and confronted her. He
confronted her with such evident intention that she stopped. Not till
she stopped could she see that he was a policeman in his summer
Where you goin', sister?
I ain't goin' nowheres.
She fell back on the old form of speech as on another tongue.
Where you come from then?
Feeling now that she had gone to the bad, or was at the beginning of
that process, she made a reply that would seem probable. I come from a
fella I've beenI've been livin' with.
Gee! The tone was of deepest pity. Darned sorry to hear you're in
that box, a nice girl like you.
I ain't such a nice girl as you might think.
Gee! Anyone can see you're a nice girl, just from the way you
Letty was astounded. Was the way you walked part of Steptoe's trick
to it? In the hope of getting information she said, still in the
secondary tongue: What's the matter with the way I walk?
There's nothin' the matter with it. That's the trouble. Anyone can
see that you're not a girl that's used to bein' on the street at this
hour of the night. Ain't you goin' anywheres?
Fear of the police-station suddenly made her faint. If she wasn't
going anywheres he might arrest her. She bethought her of
Steptoe's scrawled address. Yes, I'm goin' there.
As he stepped under the arc-light to read it she saw that he was a
fatherly man, on the distant outskirts of youth, who might well have a
family of growing boys and girls.
That's a long ways from here, he said, handing the scrap of paper
back to her. Why don't you take the subway? At this time of night
there's a train every quarter of an hour.
I ain't got no bones. I'm footin' it.
Footin' it all the way to Red Point? You? Gee!
Once more Letty felt that about her there was something which put
her out of the key of her adventure.
Well, what's there against me footin' it?
There's nothin' against you footin' iton'y you don't seem that
sort. Haven't you got as much as two bits? It wouldn't come to that if
you took the subway over here at
Well, I haven't got two bits; nor one bit; nor nothin' at all; so I
guess I'll be lightin' out.
She had nodded and passed, when a stride of his long legs brought
him up to her again. Well, see here, sister! If you haven't got two
bits, take this. I can't have you trampin' all the way over to Red
Before knowing what had happened Letty found her hand closing over a
silver half-dollar, while her benefactor, as if ashamed of his act, was
off again on his beat. She ran after him. Her excitement was such that
she forgot the secondary language.
Oh, I couldn't accept this from you. Please! Don't make me take it.
I'm She felt it the moment for making the confession, and possibly
getting hintsI'mI'm goin' to the bad, anyhow.
Oh, so that's the talk! I thought you said you'd gone to the bad
already. Oh, no, sister; you don't put that over on me, not a nice
looker like you!
She was almost sobbing. Well, I'm goingifif I can find the way.
I wish you'd tell me if there's a trick to it.
There's one trick I'll tell you, and that's the way to Red Point.
I know that already.
Then, if you know that already, you've got my four bits, which is
more than enough to take you there decent. He lifted his hand, with a
warning forefinger. Remember now, little sister, as long as you spend
that half dollar it'll bind you to keep good.
He tramped off into the darkness, leaving Letty perplexed at the
ways of wickedness, as she began once more to drift southward.
But she drifted southward with a new sense of misgiving. Danger was
mysteriously coy, and she didn't know how to court it. True, there was
still time enough, but the debut was not encouraging. When she had gone
forth from Judson Flack's she had felt sure that adventure lay in wait
for her, and Rashleigh Allerton had responded almost instantaneously.
Now she had no such confidence. On the contrary; all her premonitions
worked the other way. Perhaps it was the old gray rag. Perhaps it was
her lack of feminine appeal. Men had never flocked about her as they
flocked about some girls, like bees about flowers. If she was a flower,
she was a dust flower, a humble thing, at home in the humblest places,
and never regarded as other than a weed.
She wandered into Fourth Avenue, reaching Astor Place. From Astor
Place she descended the city by the long artery of Lafayette Street, in
which teams rumbled heavily, and all-night workers shouted raucously to
each other in foreign languages. One of a band of Italians digging in
the roadway, with colored lanterns about them, called out something at
her, the nature of which she could only infer from the laughter of his
compatriots. Here too she began to notice other women like herself,
shabby, furtive, unescorted, with terrible eyes, aimlessly drifting
from nowhere to nowhere. There were not many of them; only one at long
intervals; but they frightened her more than the men.
They frightened her because she saw what she must look like herself,
a thing too degraded for any man to want. She was not that yet,
perhaps; but it was what she might become. They were not wholly new to
her, these women; and they all had begun at some such point as that
from which she was starting out. Very well! She was ready to go this
road, if only by this road her prince could be freed from her. Since
she couldn't give up everything for him in one way, she would do it in
another. The way itself was more or less a matter of indifferencenot
entirely, perhaps, but more or less. If she could set him free in any
way she would be content.
The rumble and stir of Lafayette Street alarmed her because it was
so foreign. The upper part of the town had been empty and eerie. This
quarter was eerie, alien, and occupied. It was difficult for her to
tell what so many people were doing abroad because their aims seemed
different from those of daylight. What she couldn't understand struck
her as nefarious; and what struck her as nefarious filled her with the
kind of terror that comes in dreams.
By these Italians, Slavs, and Semites she was more closely
scrutinized than she had been elsewhere. She was scrutinized, too, with
a hint of hostility in the scrutiny. In their jabber of tongues they
said things about her as she passed. Wild-eyed women, working by the
flare of torches with their men, resented her presence in the street.
They insulted her in terms she couldn't understand, while the men
laughed in frightful, significant jocosity. The unescorted women alone
looked at her with a hint of friendliness. One of them, painted,
haggard, desperate, awful, stopped as if to speak to her; but Letty
sped away like a snowbird from a shrike.
At a corner where the cross-street was empty she turned out of this
haunted highway, presently finding herself lost in a congeries of
old-time streets of which she had never heard. Her only knowledge of
New York was of streets crossing each other at right angles, numbered,
prosaic, leaving no more play to the fancy than a sum in arithmetic.
Here the ways were narrow, the buildings tall, the night effects
fantastic. In the lamp light she could read signs bearing names as
unpronounceable as the gibbering monkey-speech in Lafayette Street.
Warehouses, offices, big wholesale premises, lairs of highly
specialized businesses which only the few knew anything about, offered
no place for human beings to sleep, and little invitation to the
prowler. Now and then a marauding cat darted from shadow to shadow, but
otherwise she was as nearly alone as she could imagine herself being in
the heart of a great city.
Still she went on and on. In the effort to escape this overpowering
solitude she turned one corner and then another, now coming out beneath
the elevated trains, now on the outskirts of docks where she was afraid
of sailors. She was afraid of being alone, and afraid of the
thoroughfares where there were people. On the whole she was more afraid
of the thoroughfares where there were people, though her fear soon
entered the unreasoning phase, in which it is fear and nothing else.
Still headed vaguely southward she zigzagged from street to street,
helpless, terrified, longing for day.
She was in a narrow street of which the high weird gables on either
side recalled her impressions on opening a copy of Faust,
illustrated by Gustave Doré, which she found on the library table in
East Sixty-seventh Street. On her right the elevated and the docks were
not far away, on the left she could catch, through an occasional side
street the distant gleam of Broadway. Being afraid of both she kept to
the deep canyon of unreality and solitude, though she was afraid of
that. At least she was alone; and yet to be alone chilled her marrow
and curdled her blood.
Suddenly she heard the clank of footsteps. She stopped to listen,
making them out as being on the other side of the street, and
advancing. Before she had dared to move on again a man emerged from the
half light and came abreast of her. As he stopped to look across at
her, Letty hurried on.
The man also went on, but on glancing over her shoulder to make sure
that she was safe she saw him pause, cross to her side of the street,
and begin to follow her. That he followed her was plain from his whole
plan of action. The ring of his footsteps told her that he was walking
faster than she, though in no precise hurry to overtake her. Rather, he
seemed to be keeping her in sight, and watching for some opportunity.
It was exactly what men did when they robbed and murdered
unprotected women. She had read of scores of such cases, and had often
imagined herself as being stalked by this kind of ghoul. Now the thing
which she had greatly feared having come upon her she was nearly
hysterical. If she ran he would run after her. If she only walked on he
would overtake her. Before she could reach the docks on one side or
Broadway on the other, where she might find possible defenders, he
could easily have strangled her and rifled her fifty cents.
It was still unreasoning fear, but fear in which there was another
kind of prompting, which made her wheel suddenly and walk back towards
him. She noticed that as she did so, he stopped, wavered, but came on
Before the obscurity allowed of her seeing what type of man he was
she cried out, with a half sob:
Oh, mister, I'm so afraid! I wish you'd help me.
Sure! The tone had the cheery fraternal ring of commonplace
sincerity. That's what I turned round for. I says, that girl's lost, I
says. There's places down here that's dangerous, and she don't know
where she is.
Hysterical fear became hysterical relief. And you're not going to
Gee! Me? What'd I murder you for? I'm a plumber.
His tone making it seem impossible for a plumber to murder anyone
she panted now from a sense of reassurance and security. She could see
too that he was a decent looking young fellow in overalls, off on an
Where you goin' anyhow? he asked, in kindly interest. The minute
I see you on the other side of the street, I says Gosh, I says! That
girl's got to be watched, I says. She don't know that these streets
down by the docks is dangerous.
She explained that she was on her way to Red Point, Long Island, and
that having only fifty cents she was sparing of her money.
Gee! I wouldn't be so economical if it was me. That ain't the only
fifty cents in the world. Look-a-here! I've got a dollar. You must take
Oh, I couldn't.
Shucks! What's a dollar? You can pay me back some time. I'll give
you my address. It's all right. I'm married. Three kids. And say, if
you send me back the dollar, which you needn't do, you knowbut if you
mustsign a man's name to the letter, because my wifewell, she's
all right, but if
Letty escaped the necessity of accepting the dollar by assuring him
that if he would tell her the way to the nearest subway station she
would use a portion of her fifty cents.
I'll go with you, he declared, with breezy fraternity. No
distance. They're expecting me on a job up there in Waddle Street, but
they'll wait. Pipe burstfloodin' a loft where they've stored a lot of
jutebut why worry?
As they threaded the broken series of streets toward the subway he
aired the matrimonial question.
Some think as two can live on the same wages as one. All bunk, I'll
say. My wife used to be in the hair line. Some little earner too. Had
an electric machine that'd make hair grow like hay on a marsh. Two
dollars a visit she got. When we was married she had nine hunderd
saved. I had over five hunderd myself. We took a weddin' tour; Atlantic
City. Gettin' married's a cinch; but stayin' marriedshe's all
right, my wife is, only she's kind o' nervous like if I look sideways
at any other womanwhich I hardly ever do intentionalonly my wife's
got it into her head that....
At the entrance to the subway Letty shook hands with him and thanked
Say, he responded, I wish I could do something more for you; but
I got to hike it back to Waddle Street. Look-a-here! You stick to the
subway and the stations, and don't you be in a hurry to get to your
address in Red Point till after daylight. They can't be killin' nobody
over there, that you'd need to be in such a rush, and in the stations
you'd be safe.
To a degree that was disconcerting Letty found this so. Having
descended the stairs, purchased a ticket, and cast it into the
receptacle appointed for that purpose, she saw herself examined by the
colored man guarding the entry to the platform. He sat with his chair
tilted back, his feet resting on the chain which protected part of the
entrance, picking a set of brilliant teeth. Letty, trembling, nervous,
and only partly comforted by the cavalier who was now on his way to
Waddle Street, shrank from the colored man's gaze and was going down
the platform where she could be away from it. Her progress was arrested
by the sight of two men, also waiting for the train, who on perceiving
her started in her direction.
The colored man lifted his feet lazily from the chain, brought his
chair down to four legs, put his toothpick in his waistcoat pocket, and
dragged himself up.
Say, lady, he drawled, on approaching her, I think them two
fellas is tough. You stay here by me. I'll not let no one get fresh
Languidly he went back to his former position and occupation, but
when after long waiting, the train drew in he unhooked his feet again
from the chain, rose lazily, and accompanied Letty across the otherwise
Say, brother, he said to the conductor, don't let any fresh guy
get busy with this lady. She's alone, and timid like.
Sure thing, the conductor replied, closing the doors as Letty
stepped within. Sit in this corner, lady, next to me. The first mutt
that wags his jaw at you'll get it on the bean.
Letty dropped as she was bidden into the corner, dazed by the
brilliant lighting, and the greasy unoccupied seats. She was alone in
the car, and the kindly conductor having closed his door she felt a
certain sense of privacy. The train clattered off into the darkness.
Where was she going? Why was she there? How was she ever to
accomplish the purpose with which two hours earlier she had stolen away
from East Sixty-seventh Street? Was it only two hours earlier? It
seemed like two years. It seemed like a space of time not to be
She was tired as she had never been tired in her life. Her head sank
back into the support made by the corner.
There's quite a trick to it, she found herself repeating, though
in what connection she scarcely knew. An awful wicked lydy, she is,
what'd put madam up to all the ropes. These words too drifted through
her mind, foolishly, drowsily, without obvious connection. She began to
wish that she was home again in the little back spare roomor
anywhereso long as she could lie downand shut her eyesand go to
It was Steptoe who discovered that the little back spare room was
empty, though William had informed him that he thought it strange that
madam didn't appear for breakfast. Steptoe knew then that what he had
expected had come to pass, and if earlier than he had looked for it,
perhaps it was just as well. Having tapped at madam's door and received
no answer he ventured within. Everything there confirming his belief,
he went to inform Mr. Rash.
As Mr. Rash was shaving in the bathroom Steptoe plodded round the
bedroom, picking up scattered articles of clothing, putting outside the
door the shoes which had been taken off on the previous night, digging
another pair of shoes from the shoe-cupboard, and otherwise busying
himself as usual. Even when Mr. Rash had re-entered the bedroom the
valet made no immediate reference to what had happened in the house. He
approached the subject indirectly by saying, as he laid out an old
velvet house-jacket on the bed:
I suppose if Mr. Rash ain't goin' out for 'is breakfast 'e'll put
this on for 'ome.
Mr. Rash, who was buttoning his collar before the mirror said over
his shoulder: But I am going out for my breakfast. Why shouldn't I? I
Steptoe carried the house-jacket back to the closet.
I thought as Mr. Rash only did that so as madam could 'ave the
dinin' room to 'erself, private like.
As a way of expressing the fact that Allerton had never eaten a meal
with Letty the choice of words was neat.
Well? What then?
Oh, nothink, sir. I was only thinkin' that, as madam was no longer
Allerton wheeled round, his fingers clawing at the collar-stud, his
face growing bloodless. No longer here? What the deuce do you mean?
Oh, didn't Mr. Rash know? Madam seems to 'ave left us. I supposed
that after I'd gone upstairs last night Mr. Rash and 'er must 'ave 'ad
some sort of hunderstandin'and she went.
Went? Allerton's tone was almost a scream. Leaping on the old man
he took him by the shoulders, snaking him. Damn you! Get it out! What
are you trying to tell me?
Steptoe quaked and cowered. Why, nothink, sir. Only when William
said as madam didn't come down to 'er breakfast I went to 'er door and
tappedand there wasn't no one in the room. Mr. Rash 'ad better go and
see for 'imself.
The young man not only released the older one, but pushed him aside
with a force which sent him staggering backwards. Over the stairs he
scrambled, he plunged. Though he had never entered the back spare room
since allotting it to Letty as her own he threw the door open now as if
the place was on fire.
But by the time Steptoe had followed and reached the threshold
Allerton had calmed suddenly. He stood in front of the open closet
vaguely examining its contents. He picked up the little gold band,
chucked it a few inches into the air, caught it, and put it down. He
looked into the little leather purse, poured out its notes and pennies
into his hand, replaced them, and put that also down again. He opened
the old red volume lying on the table by the bed, finding The Little
Mermaid marked by two stiff dried sprays of dust flower, which more
than ever merited its name. When he turned round to where Steptoe,
white and scared by this time, was standing in the open doorway, his,
Allerton's, face was drawn, in mingled convulsion and bewilderment.
With two strides he was across the room.
Tell me what you know about this, you confounded old schemer,
before I kick you out.
Shivering and shaking, Steptoe nevertheless held himself with
dignity. I'll tell you what I know, Mr. Rash, though it ain't very
much. I know that madam 'as 'ad it in 'er mind for some time past that
unless she took steps Mr. Rash'd never be free to marry the young lydy
what 'e was in love with.
What did she mean by taking steps?
I don't know exactly, but I think it was the kind o' steps as'd
give Mr. Rash 'is release quicker nor any other.
Allerton's arm was raised as if to strike a blow. And you let her?
The old face was set steadily. I didn't do nothin' but what Mr.
Rash 'imself told me to do.
Told you to do?
Yes, Mr. Rash; six months ago; the mornin' after you'd brought
madam into the 'ouse. I was to get you out of the marriage, you said;
but I think madam 'as done it all of 'er own haccord.
But why? Why should she?
Steptoe smiled, dimly. Oh, don't Mr. Rash see? Madam 'ad give
'erself to 'im 'eart and spirit and soul. If she couldn't go to the
good for 'im, she'd go to the bad. So long as she served 'im, it didn't
matter to madam what she done. And if I was Mr. Rash
Allerton's spring was like that of a tiger. Before Steptoe felt that
he had been seized he was on his back on the floor, with Allerton
kneeling on his chest.
You old reptile! I'm going to kill you.
You may kill me, Mr. Rash, but it won't make no difference to madam
'avin' loved you
Two strong hands at his throat choked back more words, till the
sound of his strangling startled Allerton into a measure of
self-control. He scrambled to his feet again.
Steptoe dragged himself up, and after dusting himself with his
fingers stood once more passive and respectful, as if nothing violent
If I was Mr. Rash, he went on, imperturbably, I'd let well enough
It was Allerton who was breathless. Whawhat do you mean by well
Well the wye I see it, it's this wye. Mr. Rash is married to one
young lydy and wants to marry another. He broke off to ask,
significantly: I suppose that'd be so, Mr. Rash?
Well, what then?
Why, then, 'e can't marry the other young lydy till the young lydy
what 'e's married to sets 'im free. Now that young lydy what 'e's
married to 'as started out to set 'im free, and if I was Mr. Rash I'd
You'd let her throw herself away for me?
I'd let 'er do anythink what'd show I knowed my own mind, Mr. Rash.
If it wouldn't be steppin' out of my place to sye so, I wish Mr. Rash
could tell which of these two young lydies 'e wanted, and which 'e'd be
willin' for to
How can I tell that whenwhen both have a claim on me?
Yes, but only one 'as a clyme on Mr. Rash now. Madam 'as given up
'er clyme, so as to myke things easier for 'im. There's only one clyme
now for Mr. Rash to think about, and that mykes everythink simple.
An embarrassed cough drew Steptoe's attention to the fact that
someone was standing in the hall outside. It was William with a note on
a silver tray. Beside the note stood a small square package, tied with
a white ribbon, which looked as if it contained a piece of wedding
cake. His whisper of explanation was the word, Wildgoose, but a
cocking of his eye gave Steptoe to understand that William was quite
aware of wading in the current of his employer's love-affairs.
Moreover, the fact that Steptoe and his master should be making so free
with the little back spare room was in William's judgment evidence of
Glancing at the hand-writing on the envelope, and taking in the fact
that a small square package, looking like a bit of wedding cake stood
beside it, Allerton jumped back. Steptoe might have been presenting him
with a snake.
I don't know, Mr. Rash. William 'as just brought it up. Someone
seems to 'ave left it at the door.
As Steptoe continued to stand with his offering held out Allerton
had no choice but to take up the letter and break the seal. He read it
with little grunts intended to signify ironic laughter, but which
betrayed no more than bitterness of soul.
I have come to see that we shall never get out of the impasse
in which we seem to have been caught unless someone takes a
stand. I have therefore decided to take one. Of the three of
us it is apparently easiest for me, so that I am definitely
breaking our engagement and sending you back your ring. Any
claim I may have had on you I give up of my own accord, so
that as far as I am concerned you are free. This will simplify
your situation, and enable you to act according to the
dictates of your heart. Believe me, dear Rash, affectionately
Though it was not his practice to take his valet into the secret of
his correspondence the circumstances were exceptional. Allerton handed
the letter to Steptoe without a word. As the old man was feeling for
his glasses and adjusting them to his nose Mr. Rash turned absently
away, picking up the volume of Hans Andersen, from which the sprays of
dust flower tumbled out. On putting them back his eyes fell upon the
words, which someone had marked with a pencil:
Day by day she grew dearer to the prince; but he loved her as one
loves a child. The thought of making her his queen never crossed his
A spasm passed over his face. He turned the page impatiently. Here
he caught the words which had been underlined:
I am with him every day. I will watch over himlove himand
sacrifice my life for him.
Shutting the book with a bang, and throwing it on the table, he
wheeled round to where Steptoe, having folded the letter, was taking
off his spectacles.
Well, what do you say to that?
What I'd sye to that, Mr. Rash, is that it's as good as a legal
document. If any young lydy what wrote that letter was to bring a
haction for breach, this 'ere pyper'd nyle 'er.
So where am I now?
Free as a lark, Mr. Rash. One young lydy 'as turned you down, and
the other 'as gone to the bad for you; so if you was to begin agyne
with a third you'd 'ave a clean sheet.
He groaned aloud. Ah, go to
But without stating the place to which Steptoe was to go he marched
out of the room, and back to his dressing upstairs.
* * * * *
More dispassionate was the early morning scene in the little
basement eating house in which the stunted Hebrew maid of Polish
culture was serving breakfast to two gentlemen who had plainly met by
appointment. Beside the one was an oblong packet, of which some of the
contents, half displayed, had the opulent engraved decorations of stock
The other gentleman, resembling an operatic brigand a little the
worse for wear, was saying with conviction: Oil! Don't talk to me! No,
sir! There's enough oil in Milligan Center alone to run every car in
Europe and America at this present time; while if you include North
Milligan, where it's beginnin' to shoot like the Old Faithful
Awful obliged to you, Judson, the other took up, humbly. I
thought that bunch o' nuts 'd never
So did I, Gorry. I've sweated blood over this job all winter. Queer
the way men are made. Now you'd hardly believe the work I've had to
show that lot of boneheads that because a guy's a detective in one
line, he ain't a detective in every line. Homicide, I said, was Gorry
Larrabin's specialty, and where there's no homicide he's no more a
detective than a busted rubber tire.
You've said it, Gorry corroborated, earnestly. One of the cussed
things about detectin' is that fellas gets afraid of you. Think because
you're keepin' up your end you must be down on every little thing, and
that you ain't a sport.
Must be hard, Judson said, sympathetically.
I'll tell you it's hard. Lots of fun I'd like to be let in onbut
you're kept outside.
The drawbacks of the detective profession not being what Judson
chiefly had on his mind he allowed the subject to drop. An interval of
silence for the consumption of a plateful of golden toasties permitted
Gorry to begin again reminiscently.
By the way, Judson, do you remember that about six months ago you
was chewin' over that girl of yours, and what had become of her?
To himself Judson said: That's the talk; now we're comin' to
business. Aloud he made it: Why, yes. Seems to me I do. She's been
gone so long I'd almost forgot her.
Well, what d'ye know? Last nightlemme see, was it last
night?no, night before lastI kind o' got wind of her.
Guy I know was comin' through East Sixty-seventh Street, and there
was my lady, dressed to beat the band, leadin' one of them little toy
dogs, and talkin' to a swell toff that lives in one of them houses. Got
the number here in my pocket-book.
While he was searching his pocket-book Judson asked, breathlessly:
Couldn't be no mistake?
It's nix on mistakes. That guy don't make 'em. Surest thing on the
force. He said, 'Good afternoon, Miss Gravely'; and she said, 'Good
afternoon' back to himjust like that. The guy walked on and turned a
corner; but when he peeped back, there was the couple goin' into the
house just like husband and wife. What d'ye know?
What do I know? I know I'll spill his claret for him before the
week is out.
Ah, here it is! Knew I had that address on me somewheres. He
handed the scrap of paper across the table. That's his name and
number. Seems to me you may have a good thing there, Judson, if you
know how to work it.
* * * * *
In another early morning scene the ermine was cleaning her nest; and
you know how fastidious she is supposed to be as to personal
spotlessness. The ermine in question did not belie her reputation, as
you would have seen by a glance at the three or four rooms which made
up what she called her flat.
Nothing was ever whiter than the wood-work of the flat and its
furnishings. Nothing was ever whiter than the little lady's dress. The
hair was white, and even the complexion, the one like silver, the other
like the camelia. Having breakfasted from white dishes placed on a
white napkin, she was busy with a carpet-sweeper sweeping up possible
crumbs. In an interval of the carpet-sweeper's buzz she heard the
Hello! The male voice was commanding.
Yes? The response was sweetly precise.
Is this Red Point 3284-W?
Can I speak to Miss Henrietta Towell?
This is Miss Henrietta Towell.
This is the Brooklyn Bridge Emergency Hospital. Do you know a girl
named Letitia Rashleigh?
There was a second's hesitation. I was once a lady's maid to a lady
whose maiden name was Rashleigh. I think there may be a connection
She was found unconscious on a car in the subway last night and
brought in here.
And has she mentioned me?
She hasn't mentioned anyone since she came to; but we find your
address on a paper in her pocket.
That seems singular, but I expect there's a purpose behind it. Is
that everything she had?
No; she had forty-five cents and a thimble.
A thimble! Just an ordinary thimble.
Yes, an ordinary thimble, except that it has initials on the edge.
'H.T. from H.S.' Does that mean anything to you?
Yes; that means something to me. May I ask how to reach the
This being explained Miss Towell promised to appear without delay,
begging that in the meantime everything be done for Miss Rashleigh's
She was not perturbed. She was not surprised. She did not wonder who
Letitia Rashleigh could be, or why her address should be found in the
girl's pocket. She was as quiet and serene as if such incidents
belonged to every day's work.
Dressed for the street she was all in black. A mantua covered with
bugles and braid dropped from her shoulders, while a bonnet which rose
to a pointed arch above her brow, and allowed the silver knob of her
hair to escape behind, gave her a late nineteenth century dignity.
Before leaving the house she took two volumes from her shelvesread
first in one, then in the othersat pensive for a while, with head
bent and eyes shadedafter which she replaced her books, turned the
key in her door, and set forth for Brooklyn Bridge.
Why you should hold me responsible, Barbara was saying, I can't
begin to imagine. Surely I've done everything I could to simplify
matters, to straighten them out, and to give you a chance to rectify
your folly. I've effaced myself; I've broken my heart; I've promised
Aunt Marion to go in for a job for which I'm not fitted and don't care
a rap; and yet you come here, accusing me
But, Barbe, I'm not accusing you! If I'm accusing anyone
it's myself. Only I can't speak without your taking me up
There you go! Oh, Rash, dear, if you'd only been able to control
yourself nothing of this would have happenednot from the first.
She was pacing up and down the little reception room, and rubbing
her hands together, while the twisting of the fish-tail of her
hydrangea-colored robe, like an eel in agony, emphasized her agitation.
Rashleigh was seated, his elbows on his knees, his head bowed between
his hands, of which the fingers clutched and tore at the masses of his
hair. Only when he spoke did he lift his woe-begone black eyes.
Well, I didn't control myself, he admitted, impatiently; that's
settled. Why go back to it? The question is
Yes; why go back to it? That's you all over, Rash. You can do what
no one else in his senses would ever think of doing; and when you've
upset the whole apple cart it must never be referred to again. I'm to
accept, and keep silence. Well, I've kept silence. I've gone all
winter like a muzzled dog. I've wheedled that girl, and kow-towed to
her, and made her think I was fond of herwhich I am in a wayyou may
not believe it, but I amand what's the result? She gets sick of the
whole business; runs away; and you come here and throw the whole blame
He tried to speak with special calmness. Barbe, listen to me. What
I said was this
She came to a full stop in front of him, her arms outspread. Oh,
Rash, dear, I know perfectly well what you said. You don't have to go
all over it again. I'm not deaf. If you would only not be so
He jumped to his feet. I'm excitable, I know, Barbe. I confess it.
Everybody knows it. What I'm trying to tell you is that I'm not excited
She laughed, a little mocking laugh, and started once more to pace
up and down. Oh, very well! You're not excited now. Then that's
understood. You never are excited. You're as calm as a mountain. She
paused again, though at a distance. Now? What is it you're
going to do? That's what you've come to ask me, isn't it? Are you going
to run after her? Are you going to let her go? Are you going to divorce
her, if she gives you the opportunity? If you divorce her are you going
But, Barbe, I can't decide all these questions now. What I want to
do is to find her.
Well, I haven't got her here? Why don't you go after her? Why don't
you apply to the police? Why don't you?
Yes, but that's just what I want to discuss with you. I don't
like applying to the police. If I do it'll get into the papers, and
the whole thing become so odious and vulgar
And it's such an exquisite idyll now!
He threw back his head. She's an exquisite idyllin her
There! That's what I wanted to hear you say! I've thought you were
in love with her
He remembered the penciled lines in Hans Andersen. If I have been,
it's as you may be in love with an innocent little child
She laughed again, wildly, almost hysterically. Oh, Rash, don't try
to get that sort of thing off on me. I know how men love innocent
little children. You can see the way they do it any night you choose to
hang round the stage-door of a theatre where the exquisite idylls are
playing in musical comedy.
Don't Barbe! Not when you're talking about her! I know she's an
ignorant little thing; but to me she's like a wild-flower
Wild-flowers can be cultivated, Rash.
Yes, but the wild-flower she's most like is the one you see in the
late summer all along the dusty highways
She put up both palms in a gesture of protestation. Oh, Rash,
please don't be poetical. It gets on my nerves. I can't stand it. I
like you in every mood but your sentimental one. She came to a halt
beside the mantelpiece, on which she rested an elbow, turning to look
at him. Now tell me, Rash! Suppose I wasn't in the world at all. Or
suppose you'd never heard of me. And suppose you found yourself married
to this girl, just as you arenominallylegallybut not really.
Would youwould you make itreally?
They exchanged a long silent look. His eyes had not left hers when
he said: II might.
Good! Now suppose she wasn't in the world at all, or that you'd
never heard of her. And suppose that you and I werewere on just the
same terms that we are to-day. Would youwould you want to marry me?
Answer me truly.
Why, yes; of course.
Now suppose that she and I were standing together, and you were led
in to choose between us. And suppose you were absolutely free and
untrammelled in your choice, with no question as to her feelings or
mine to trouble you. Which would you take? Answer me just as truly and
sincerely as you can.
He took time to think, wheeling away from her, and walking up and
down the little room with his hands behind his back. It occurred to
neither that Barbara having broken the engagement, and returned the
ring, the choice before him was purely hypothetical. Their relations
were no more affected by the note she had written him that morning than
by the ceremony through which he and Letty had walked in the previous
To Barbara the suspense was almost unbearable. In a minute or two,
and with a word or two, she would know how life for the future was to
be cast. She would have before her the possibility of some day becoming
a happy wifeor a great career like her aunt's.
Pausing in his walk he confronted her just as he stood, his hands
still clasped behind his back. Her own attitude, with elbow resting on
the mantelpiece, was that of a woman equal to anything.
He spoke slowly. Just as truly and sincerely as I can answer youI
She stirred slightly, but otherwise gave no sign of her impatience.
And is there anything that would help you to find out?
He shook his head. Nothing that I can think of, unless
Unless it's something that would unlock what's locked in my
And what would that be?
I haven't the faintest idea.
She moved from the mantelpiece with a gesture of despair. Rash,
you're absolutely and hopelessly impossible.
I know that, he admitted, humbly.
With both fists clenched she stood in front of him. I could kill
He hung his head. Not half so easily as I could kill myself.
* * * * *
Letty's judgment on Miss Henrietta Towell was different from yours
and mine. She found her just what she had expected to see from the
warnings long ago issued by Mrs. Judson Flack in putting her daughter
on her guard. In going about the city she, Letty, was always to be
suspicious of elderly ladies, respectably dressed, enticingly mannered,
and with what seemed like maternal intentions. The more any one of
these traits was developed, the more suspicious Letty was to be. With
these instructions carefully at heart she would have been suspicious of
Henrietta Towell in any case; but with Steptoe's description to fall
back upon she couldn't but feel sure.
By the time Miss Towell had arrived at the hospital Letitia
Rashleigh had sufficiently recovered to be dressed and seated in the
armchair placed beside the bed in the small white ward. On one low
bedpost the jacket had been hung, and on the other the battered black
There's nothing the matter with her, the nurse explained to Miss
Towell, before entering the ward. She had fainted in the subway, but I
think it was only from fatigue, and perhaps from lack of food. She's
quite well nourished, only she didn't seem to have eaten any supper,
and was evidently tired from a long and frightening walk. She gives us
no explanation of herself, and is disinclined to talk, and if it hadn't
been that she had your address in her pocket
I think I know how she got that. From her name I judge that she's a
relative of the family in which I used to be employed; but as they were
all very wealthy people
Even very wealthy people often have poor relations.
Yes, of course; but I was with this family for so many years that
if there'd been any such connection I think I must have heard of it.
However, it makes no difference to me, and I shall be glad to be of use
to her, especially as she has in her possession an articlea thimble
it iswhich once belonged to me.
At the bedside the nurse made the introduction. This is the lady
whose address you had in your pocket. She very kindly said she'd come
and see what she could do for you.
Having placed a chair for Miss Towell the nurse withdrew to attend
to other patients in the ward, of whom there were three or four.
Letty regarded the newcomer with eyes that seemed lustreless in
spite of their tiny gold flames. Having a shrewd idea of what she would
mean to her visitor she felt it unnecessary to express gratitude. In a
certain sense she hated her at sight. She hated her bugles and braid
and the shape of her bonnet, as the criminal about to be put to death
might hate the executioner's mask and gaberdine. The more Miss Towell
was sweet-spoken and respectable, the more Letty shrank from these
tokens of hypocrisy in one who was wicked to the core. She wouldn't
seem so wicked, not at first, Steptoe had predicted, but time'd
tell. Well, Letty didn't need time to tell, since she could see for
herself already. She could see from the first words addressed to her.
You needn't tell me anything about yourself, dear, that you don't
want me to know. If you're without a place to go to, I shall be glad if
you'll come home with me.
It was the invitation Letty had expected, and to which she meant to
respond. Knowing, however, what was behind it she replied more
ungraciously than she would otherwise have done. Oh, I don't mind
talking about myself. I'm a picture-actress, only I've been out of a
job. I haven't worked for over six months. I've beenI've been
Miss Towell lowered her eyes, and spoke with modesty. I suppose you
were visiting people who knewwho knew the person whowho gave you my
address and the thimble?
This question being more direct than she cared for Letty was careful
to answer no more than, Yes.
Miss Towell continued to sit with eyes downcast, and as if musing.
Two or three minutes went by before she said, softly: How is he?
Letty replied that he was very well, and in the same place where he
had been so long. Another interval of musing was followed by the simple
statement: We differed about religion.
This remark had no modifying effect on Letty's estimate of Miss
Towell's character, since religion was little more to her than a word.
Neither was she interested in dead romance between Steptoe and Miss
Towell, all romance being summed up in her prince. That flame burned
with a pure and single purpose to wed him to the princess with whom he
was in love, while the little mermaid became first foam, and then a
spirit of the air. It took little from the poetry of this dissolution
that it could be achieved only by trundling over Brooklyn Bridge, and
through a nexus of dreary streets. In Letty's outlook on her mission
the end glorified the means, however shady or degraded.
It was precisely this spiritmistaken, if you choose to call it
sowhich animated Judith of Bethulia, Monna Vanna, and Boule de Suif.
Letty didn't class herself with these heroines; she only felt as they
did, that there was something to be done. On that something a man's
happiness depended; on it another woman's happiness depended too; on it
her own happiness depended, since if it wasn't done she would feel
herself a clog to be cursed. To be cursed by the prince would mean
anguish far more terrible than any punishment society could mete out to
If you feel equal to it we might go now, dear, Miss Towell
suggested, on waking from her dreams of what might have been. I wish I
could take you in a taxi; but I daresay you won't mind the tram.
Letty rose briskly. No, I shan't mind it at all. She looked Miss
Towell significantly in the eyes, hoping that her words would carry all
the meaning she was putting into them. I shan't mindanything you
want me to do, no matter what.
Miss Towell smiled, sweetly. Thank you, dear. That'll be very nice.
I shan't ask you to do much, because it's your problem, you know, and
you must work it out. I'll stand by; but standing by is about all we
can do for each other, when problems have to be faced. Don't you think
As this language meant nothing to Letty, she thanked the nurse,
smiled at the other patients, and, trudging at Miss Towell's side with
her quaintly sturdy grace, went forth to her great sacrifice.
* * * * *
Allerton had drawn from his conversation with Barbara this one
practical suggestion. As he had months before consulted his lawyer, Mr.
Nailes, as to ways of losing Letty after she had been found, he might
consult him as to ways of finding her now that she had been lost. Mr.
Nailes would not go to the police. He would apply to some discreet
house of detectives who would do the work discreetly.
Then, I presume, you've changed your mind about this marriage, was
Mr. Nailes' not unnatural inference, and mean to go on with it.
N-not exactly. Allerton was still unable to define his intentions.
I only don't want her to disappearlike this.
Mr. Nailes pondered. He was a tall, raw-boned man, of raw-boned
countenance, to whom the law represented no system of divine justice,
but a means by which Eugene Nailes could make money, as his father had
made it before him. Having inherited his father's practice he had
inherited Rashleigh Allerton, the two fathers having had a
long-standing business connection. Mr. Nailes had no high opinion of
Rashleigh Allertonin which he was not peculiarbut a client with so
much money was entitled to his way. At the same time he couldn't have
been human without urging a point of common sense.
If you don't want toto continue youryour relation with
thisthis lady, doesn't it strike you that now might be a happy
Allerton did what he did rarely; he struck the table with his fist.
I want to find her.
The words were spoken with so much force that to Mr. Nailes they
were conclusive. It was far from his intention to compel anyone to
common sense, and least of all a man whose folly might bring increased
fees to the firm of Nailes, Nailes, and Nailes.
It was agreed that steps should be taken at once, and that Mr.
Nailes would report in the evening. Gravely was the name Allerton was
sure she would use, and the only one that needed to be mentioned. It
needed only to be mentioned too that Mr. Nailes was acting for a client
who preferred to remain anonymous.
It was further agreed that Mr. Nailes should report at Allerton's
office at ten that evening, in person if there was anything to discuss,
by telephone if there was nothing. This was convenient for Mr. Nailes,
who lived in the neighborhood of Washington Square, while it protected
Rash from household curiosity. At ten that night he was, therefore, in
the unusual position of pacing the rooms he had hardly ever seen except
Not Letty's disappearance was uppermost in his mind, for the moment,
but his own inhibitions.
My God, what's the matter with me? he was muttering to himself.
Am I going insane? Have I been insane all along? Why can't I
say which of these two women I want, when I can have either?
He placed over against each other the special set of spells which
each threw upon his heart.
Barbara was of his own world; she knew the people he knew; she had
the same interests, and the same way of showing them. Moreover, she had
in a measure grown into his life. Their friendship was not only
intimate it was one of long standing. Though she worried, hectored, and
exasperated him, she had fits of generous repentance, in which she
mothered him adorably. This double-harness of comradeship had worked
for so many years that he couldn't imagine wearing it with another.
And yet Letty pulled so piteously at his heart that he fairly melted
in tenderness toward her. Everything he knew as appeal was summed up in
her soft voice, her gentle manner, her humility, her unquestioning
faith in himself. No one had ever had faith in him before. To Barbe he
was a booby when he was not a baby. To Letty he was a hero, strong,
wise, commanding. It wasn't merely his vanity that she touched; it was
his manliness. Barbe suppressed his manliness, because she herself was
so imperious. Letty depended on it, and therefore drew it out. Because
she believed him a man, he could be a man; whereas with Barbe, as with
everyone else, he was a creature to be liked, humored, laughed at, and
good-naturedly despised. He was sick of being liked, humored, and
laughed at; he rebelled with every atom in him that was masculine at
being good-naturedly despised. To find anyone who thought him big and
vigorous was to his starved spirit, as the psalmist says, sweeter also
than honey and the honeycomb. In having her weakness to hold up he
could for the first time in his life feel himself of use.
If there was no Barbe in the world he could have taken Letty as the
mate his soul was longing for. Yet how could he deal such a blow at
Barbe's loyalty? She had protected him during all his life, from
boyhood upwards. Between him and derision she had stood like a young
lioness. How could he deny her now?no matter what frail, gentle hands
were clinging around his heart?
How can I? How can I? How can I?
He was torturing himself with this question when the telephone rang,
and he knew that Letty had not been found.
No; nothing, were the words of Mr. Nailes. No one of the name has
been reported at any of the hospitals, or police stations, or any other
public institution. They've applied at all the motion-picture studios
round New York; but still with no result. This, of course, is only the
preliminary search, as much as they've been able to accomplish in one
afternoon and evening. You mustn't be disappointed. To-morrow is likely
to be more successful.
Rash was, therefore, thrown back on another phase of his situation.
Letty was lost. She was not only lost, but she had run away from him.
She had not only run away from him, but she had done it so that he
might be rid of her. She had not only done it so that he might be rid
of her, but....
His spirit balked. His imagination could work no further. Horror
staggered him. A mother who knows that her child is in the hands of
kidnappers who will have no mercy might feel something like the despair
and helplessness which sent him chafing and champing up and down the
suite of rooms, cursing himself uselessly.
Suddenly he paused. He was in front of the cabinet which had come
via Bordentown from Queen Caroline Murat. Behind its closed door there
was still the bottle on the label of which a kilted Highlander was
dancing. He must have a refuge from his thoughts, or else he would go
mad. He was already as near madness as a man could come and still be
He opened the door of the cabinet. The bottle and the glass stood
exactly where he had placed them on that morning when he had tried to
begin going to the devil, and had failed. Now there was no longer that
same mysterious restraint. He was not thinking of the devil; he was
thinking only of himself. He must still the working of his mind.
Anything would do that would drug his faculties, and so....
It was after midnight when he dragged himself out of a stupor which
had not been sleep. Being stupor, however, it was that much to the
good. He had stopped thinking. He couldn't think. His head didn't ache;
it was merely sore. He might have been dashing it against the wall, as
figuratively he had done. His body was sore toostiff from long
sitting in the same posture, and bruised as if from beating. All that
was nothing, however, since misery only stunned him. To be stunned was
what he had been working for.
Out in the air the wind of the May night was comforting. It soothed
his nerves without waking the dormant brain. Instead of looking for a
taxi he began walking up the Avenue. Walking too was a relief. It
allowed him to remain as stupefied as at first, and yet stirred the
circulation in his limbs. He meant to walk till he grew tired, after
which he would jump on an electric bus.
But he did not grow tired. He passed the great milestones,
Fourteenth Street, Twenty-third Street, Forty-second Street,
Fifty-ninth Street, and not till crossing the last did he begin to feel
fagged. He was then so near home that the impulse of doggedness kept
him on foot. He was a strong walker, and physically in good condition,
without being wholly robust. Had it not been for the kilted Highlander
he would hardly have felt fatigue; but as it was, the corner of East
Sixty-seventh Street found him as spent as he cared to be.
Advancing toward his door he saw a man coming in the other
direction. There was nothing in that, and he would scarcely have
noticed him, only for the fact that at this hour of the night
pedestrians in the quarter were rare. In addition to that the man,
having reached the foot of Allerton's own steps, stood there waiting,
as if with intention.
Through the obscurity Rash could see only that the man was well
built, flashily dressed, and that he wore a sweeping mustache. In his
manner of standing and waiting there was something significant and
menacing. Arrived at the foot of the steps Allerton could do no less
than pause to ask if the stranger was looking for anyone.
Is your name Allerton?
Yes; it is.
Then I want my girl.
It was some seconds before Rash could get his dulled mind into play.
Moreover, the encounter was of a kind which made him feel sick and
Whom do you mean? he managed to ask, at last.
You know very well who I mean. I mean Letty Gravely. I'm her
father; and by God, if you don't give her upwith big damages
I can't give her up, because she's not here.
Not here? She was damn well here the day before yesterday.
Yes; she was here the day before yesterday; but she disappeared
Ah, cut that kind o' talk. I'm wise, I am. You can't put that bunk
over on me. She's in there, and I'm goin' to get her.
I wish she was in there; but she's not.
How do I know she's not?
I'm afraid you'll have to take my word for it.
Like hell I'll take your word for it. I'm goin' to see for myself.
I don't see how you're going to do that.
I'm goin' in with you.
That wouldn't do you any good. Besides, I can't let you.
The man became more bullying. See here, son. This game is my game.
Did j'ever see a thing like this?
Watching the movement of his hand Rash saw the handle of a revolver
displayed in a side pocket.
Yes, I've seen a thing like that; but even if it was loadedwhich
I don't believe it isyou've too much sense to use it. You might shoot
me, of course; but you wouldn't find the girl in the house, because she
Well, I'm goin' to see. You march. Up you go, and open that door,
and I'll follow you.
Oh, no, you won't. Allerton looked round for the policeman who
occasionally passed that way; but though a lighted car crashed down
Madison Avenue there was no one in sight. He might have called in the
hope of waking the men upstairs, but that seemed cowardly. Though in a
physical encounter with a ruffian like this he could hardly help
getting the worst of itespecially in his state of half
intoxicationit was the encounter itself that he loathed, even more
than the defeat. Oh, no, you won't, he repeated, taking one step
upward, and turning to defend his premises. I don't mean that you
shall come into this house, or ever see the girl again, if I can
Oh, you don't, don't you?
No, I don't.
Then take that.
The words were so quickly spoken, and the blow in his face so
unexpected, that Rash staggered backwards. Being on a step he had
little or no footing, and having been drinking his balance was the more
A second blow in the face sent him down like a stone, without a
struggle or a cry.
He fell limply on his back, his feet slipping to the sidewalk, his
body sagging on the steps like a bit of string, accidentally dropped
there. The hat, which fell off, remained on the step beside the head it
had been covering.
The man leaped backward, as if surprised at his own deed. He looked
this way and that, to see if he had been observed. A lighted car
crashed up Madison Avenue, but otherwise the street remained empty.
Creeping nearer the steps he bent over his victim, whose left hand lay
helpless and outstretched. Timidly, gingerly, he put his fingers to the
pulse, starting back from it with a shock. He spoke but two words, but
he spoke them half aloud.
Then he walked swiftly away into Madison Avenue, where he soon found
a car going southward.
Barbara was late for breakfast. Miss Walbrook, the aunt, was
scanning the morning paper, her refined, austere Americanism being as
noticeable in the dining-room as elsewhere in the house. Everything was
slender and strong; everything was American, unless it was the Persian
rug. On the paneled walls there were but three portraits, a Boston
ancestress, in lace cap and satins, painted by Copley; a Philadelphia
ancestor in the Continental uniform, painted by Gilbert Stuart; and her
New York grandmother, painted by Thomas Sully, looking over her
shoulder with the wild backward glance that artist gives to the girl
Victoria in the Metropolitan Museum. In a flat cabinet along a wall was
the largest collection of old American glass to be found in the
Barbara rushed in, with apologies for being late. I didn't sleep a
wink. It doesn't seem to me as if I should ever sleep again. Where's my
Wildgoose will bring it. As the coffee had grown cold he took that
and the cup to keep warm. What's the matter?
Wildgoose stepped in with the missing essentials. A full-fed,
round-faced, rubicund man of fifty-odd he looked a perennial
twenty-five. Barbara began to minister to herself.
Oh, everything's the matter. I told you yesterday that that girl
had run away. Well, I begin to wish she'd run back again.
Miss Walbrook, the elder, had this in common with Miss Henrietta
Towell, that she believed it best for everyone to work out his own
salvation. Barbara had her personal life to live, and while her aunt
would help her to live it, she wouldn't guide her choice. She
continued, therefore, to scan the paper till her niece should say
She said it, not because she wanted to give information, but because
she was temperamentally outspoken. I begin to wish there were no men
in the world. If women are men in a higher stage of development, why
didn't men die out, so that we could be rid of them? Isn't that what we
generally get from the survival of the fittest?
Miss Walbrook's thin, clear smile suggested the edge of a keenly
tempered blade. I've never said that women were men in a higher stage
of development. I've said that in their parallel states of development
women had advanced a stage beyond men. You may say of every generation
born that women begin where men leave off. I suppose that that's what's
meant by the myth of Eve springing from Adam's side. It was to be
noticed even then, in the prehistoric, in the age that formed the great
legends. Adam was asleep, when Eve as a vital force leaped away from
him. If it wasn't for Eve's vitality the human race would still be in
the Stone Age.
Barbara harked back to what for her was the practical. Some of us
are in the Stone Age as it is. I'm sure Rash Allerton is as nearly an
elemental as one can be, and still belong to clubs and drive in
Miss Walbrook risked her principles of non-interference so far as to
say: It's part of our feminine lack of development that we're always
inclined to look back on the elemental with pity, and even with regret.
The woman was never born who didn't have in her something of Lot's
Thank you, Aunt Marion. In a way that lets me out. If I'm no weaker
than the rest of my sex
Than many of the rest of your sex.
Very well, then; than many of the rest of my sex; if I'm no weaker
than that I don't have to lose my self-respect.
You don't have to lose your self-respect; you only riskyour
Barbara stared at her. That's the very thing I'm afraid of. I'd
give anything for peace of mind. How did you know?
Oh, it doesn't call for much astuteness. I don't suppose there's a
married woman in the world in full command of her wits. You've noticed
how foolish most of them are. That's why. It isn't that they were born
foolish. They've simply been addled by enforced adaptation to mates of
lower intelligence. Oh, I'm not scolding. I'm merely stating a natural,
observed, psychological fact. The woman who marries says good-bye to
the orderly working of her faculties. For that she may get
compensations, with which I don't intend to find fault. But
compensations or no, to a clear-thinking woman like
Like yourself, Aunt Marion.
Very well; like myself, if you will; but to a clear-thinking woman
it's as obvious as daylight that her married sisters are partially
demented. They may not know it; the partially demented never do. And
it's no good telling them, because they don't believe you. I'm only
saying it to you to warn you in advance. If you part with your reason,
it's something to know that you do it of your own free will.
Once more Barbara confined herself to the case in hand. Still, I
don't believe every man is as trying as Rash Allerton.
Not in his particular way, perhaps. But if it's not in one way then
it's in another.
Even he wouldn't be so bad if he could control himself. At the
minute when he's tearing down the house he wants you to tell him that
If he didn't want you to tell him that it would be something
equally preposterous. There's little to choose between men.
Barbara grew thoughtful. Still, if people didn't marry the human
race would die out.
And would there be any harm in that? It's not a danger, of course;
but if it was, would anyone in his senses want to stop it? Looking
round on the human race to-day one can hardly help saying that the
sooner it dies out the better. Since we can't kill it off, it's well to
To remember what, Aunt Marion?
Miss Walbrook reflected as to how to express herself cautiously. To
remember thatin marryingand having childrenchildren who will have
to face the highly probable miseries of the next generationWell, I'm
glad there'll be no one to reproach me with his being in the world,
either as his mother or his ancestress.
They say Rash's father and mother didn't want him in the
world, and I sometimes wish they'd had their way. If he wasn't hereor
if he was deadI believe I could be happier. I shouldn't be forever
worrying about him. I shouldn't have him on my mind. I often wonder if
it'sif it's love I feel for himor only an agonizing sense of
The door being open Walter Wildgoose waddled to the threshold, where
he stood with his right hand clasped in his left. Mr. Steptoe at Mr.
Allerton's to speak to Miss Barbara on the telyphone, please.
Barbara gasped. Oh, Lord! I wonder what it is now!
Left to herself Miss Walbrook resumed her scanning of the paper, but
she resumed it with the faintest quiver of a smile on her thin,
cleanly-cut lips. It was the kind of smile which indicates patient
hope, or the anticipation of something satisfactory.
The exclamation was so loud as to be heard all the way from the
telephone, which was in another part of the house. Miss Walbrook let
the paper fall, sat bolt upright, and listened.
It was like a second, and repeated, explosion. Miss Walbrook rose to
her feet; the paper rustled to the floor.
The sound was that which human beings make when the thing told them
is more than they can bear. Barbara cried out as if someone was beating
her with clubs, and she was coming to her knees.
She was not coming to her knees. When her aunt reached her she was
still standing by the little table in the hall which held the
telephone, on which she had hung up the receiver. She supported herself
with one hand on the table, as a woman does when all she can do is not
to fall senseless.
It'sit's Rash, she panted, as she saw her aunt appear. Somebody
hashas killed him.
Miss Walbrook stood with hands clasped, like one transfixed. He's
Barbara nodded, tearlessly. She could stammer out the words, but no
more. Yesall but!
* * * * *
In the flat at Red Point there was another and dissimilar breakfast
scene. For the first time in her life Letty was having coffee and toast
in bed. The window was open, and between the muslin curtains, which
puffed in the soft May wind, she could see the ocean with steamers and
ships on it.
The room was tiny, but it was spotless. Everything was white, except
where here and there it was tied up with a baby-blue ribbon. Anything
that could be tied with a baby-blue ribbon was so tied.
Letty thought she had never seen anything so dainty, though her
experienced eye could detect the fact that nothing had really cost
money. As an opening to the career on which she had embarked the
setting was unexpected, while the method of her treatment was
bewildering. In the black recesses of her heart Miss Henrietta Towell
might be hiding all those feline machinations which Mrs. Judson Flack
had led Letty to believe a part of the great world's stock-in-trade;
but it couldn't be denied that she hid them well. Letty didn't know
what to make of it. There's quite a trick to it, Steptoe had warned
her; but the explanation seemed inadequate to the phenomena.
Sipping her coffee and crunching her toast she was driven to ponder
on the ways of wickedness. She had expected them to be more obvious.
All her information was to the effect that an unprotected girl in a
world of males was a lamb among lions, a victim with no way of escape.
That she was a lamb among lions, and a victim with no way of escape,
she was still prepared to believe; only the preliminaries puzzled her.
Instead of being crude, direct, indelicate, they were subtle and
misleading. After twenty-four hours in Miss Towell's spare room there
was still no hint of anything but coddling.
You see, my dear, Miss Towell had said, if I don't nurse you back
to real 'ealth, him that gave you the thimble might be displeased with
It was not often that Miss Towell dropped an h or added one;
but in moments of emotion early habit was too strong for her.
Coming into the room now, on some ermine's errand of neatness, she
threw a glance at Letty, and said: You don't look like a
Rashleigh, do you, dear? But then you never can tell anything about
families from looks, can you?
It was her nearest approach as yet to the personal, and Letty
considered as to how she was to meet it. I'm not a Rashleighnot
reallyonly byby marriage. Rashleigh isn't my real name. It'sit's
the name I'm going by in pictures.
Miss Towell's exclamation was the subdued one of acquiescence. She
knew that ladies in pictures often preferred names other than their
own, and if Letty was not a Rashleigh it explained things. That is,
it explained how anyone called Rashleigh could be wandering about in
this friendless way, though it made 'Enery Steptoe's intervention the
more mysterious. It was conceivable that he might act on behalf of a
genuine Rashleigh, however out at elbow; but that he should take such
pains for a spurious one, and go to the length of sending the sacred
silver thimble as a pledge, rendered the situation puzzling.
Schooled by her religious precepts to taking her duties as those of
a minute at a time Miss Towell made no effort to force the girl's
confidence, and especially since Letty, like most young people in
trouble, was on her guard against giving it. So long as she preferred
to be shut up within herself, shut up within herself she should remain.
Miss Towell felt that, for the moment at least, her own responsibility
was limited to making the child feel that someone cared for her.
At the same time she couldn't have been a lonely woman with a
love-story behind her without the impulse to dwell a little longingly
on the one romantic incident in her experience. Though it had never
come to anything, the fact that it had once opened its shy little
flower made a sweet bright place to which her thoughts could retire.
The references came spasmodically and without context, as the little
white lady busied herself in waiting on Letty or in the care of her
I haven't seen him since a short time after the mistress went
Letty felt herself coloring. Though not prudish there were words she
couldn't get used to. Besides which she had never thought that
Steptoe.... But Miss Towell pursued her memories.
It always worried him that I should hold views different from his
but I couldn't submit to dictation, now, could I, dear?
Once more Letty felt herself awkwardly placed. The only
interpretation she could put on Miss Towell's words referring to moral
reformation on her hostess's part she said, as non-committally as might
be: He's a good deal of a stickler.
He's been so long in a high position that he becomeswell, I won't
be 'arshbut he becomes a little harbitrary. That's where it was. He
was a little harbitrary. With a mistress who allowed him a great deal
of his own waywell, you can hardly blame him, can you, dear?
Letty forced herself to accept the linguistic standard of the world.
I suppose if she hadn't allowed him a great deal of his own way he'd
have looked somewhere else.
That he could easily have done. He had temptations enougha man
like him. Why, dear, there was a lady in Park Avenue did everything she
could that wasn't positively dishonorable to win him away
He must have been younger and better looking than he is now, Letty
Oh, it wasn't a question of looks. Of course if she'd considered
that, why, any foolish young fellowbut she knew what she would have
Not being at her ease in this kind of conversation, and finding the
effort to see Steptoe as Lothario difficult, Letty became blunt again.
He must have had an awful crush on the first one.
It wasn't her exactly; it was the boy.
Oh, there was a boy?
Why of course, dear! Didn't you know that?
Whose boy was it?
Why, the mistress's boy; but I don't think he Letty
understood the pronoun as applying to SteptoeI don't think he
ever realized that he wasn't his very own. Straightening the white
cover on the chest of drawers Miss Towell shook her head. It was a sad
What made it sad?
A lovely boy he was. Had a kind word for everyone, even for the
cat. But somehow his father and motherwell, they were people of the
world, and they hadn't wanted a child, and when he cameand he so
delicate alwaysI could have cried over him.
Letty's heart began to swell; her lip trembled. I know someone like
Do you, dear? Then I'm sure you understand.
Partly because the minute was emotional, and partly from a sense
that she needed to explain herself, Letty murmured, more or less
indistinctly: It's on his account that I'm here.
Failing to see the force of this Miss Towell was content to say:
I'm glad you were led to me, dear. There's always a power to shepherd
us along, if we'll only let ourselves be guided.
To Letty the moment had arrived when plainness of speech was
imperative. Leaning across the tray, which still stood on her lap, she
gazed up at her hostess with eager, misty eyes. He said you'd
teach me all the ropes.
Miss Towell paused beside the bed, to look inquiringly at the tense
little face. The ropes of what, dear?
Of what it was hard to expressof what youyou used to be
yourself. You don't seem like it now, she added, desperately, but you
were, weren't you?
Oh, that! The surprise was in the discovery that an American girl
of Letty's age could entertain so sensible a purpose. Why, of course,
dear! I'll tell you all I know, and welcome.
There's quite a trick to it, isn't there?
Well, it's more than a trick. There are two or three things which
you simply have to be.
Oh, I know that. That's what frightens me.
You needn't be afraid, once you've made up your mind to it. She
leaned above the bed to relieve Letty of the tray. For instanceyou
don't mind my asking questions do you?
Oh, no! You can ask me anything.
Then the first thing is this: Are you pretty good as a
Letty was astounded. Whywhy you don't have to sew, do
Certainly, dear. That's one of the most important things you'd be
called on to do. You'd never get anywhere if you weren't quick with
your needle and thread. And then there'd be hair-dressing. You have to
know something about that. I don't say that you must be a professional;
but for the simpler occasionsafter that there's packing. That's
something we often overlook, and where French girls have us at a
disadvantage. They pack so beautifully.
Letty was entirely at sea. Pack what?
Pack trunks, dear.
For travel; for moving from town to country; or from country to
town; or making visits; you see you're always on the go. Oh, it's more
than a trick; it's quite an art; only She smiled at Letty as she
stood holding the tray, before carrying it outonly, I shouldn't have
supposed you'd be thinking of that when you act in moving pictures.
II thought I might do both.
Now, I should say that that's one thing you couldn't do, dear. If
you took up this at all you'd find it so absorbing
And you're very unhappy too, aren't you? I've always heard you
Well, that would depend a good deal on yourself. There's nothing in
the thing itself to make you unhappy; but sometimes there are other
Letty's eyes were flaming. They say they're awful.
Oh, not always. It's a good deal as you carry yourself. I made it a
point to keep my position and respect the position of others. It wasn't
always easy, especially with Mary Ann Courage and Janie Cakebread;
Letty's head fell back on the pillow. Her eyes closed. A
merry-go-round was spinning in her head. Where was she? How had she
come there? What was she there for? Where was the wickedness she
had been told to look for everywhere? Having gone in search of it, and
expected to find it lying in wait from the first minute of passing the
protecting door, she had been shuffled along from one to another, with
exasperating kindness, only to be brought face to face with Jane
Cakebread and Mary Ann Courage at the end.
Miss Towell having borne away the tray, Letty struggled out of bed,
and put on the woollen dressing gown thrown over a chair by the
bedside. This was no place for her. Beehive Valley was not far off, and
her forty-five cents would more than suffice to take her there. She
would see the casting director. She would get a job. With food to eat
and a place to sleep as a starting point she would find her own way to
wickedness, releasing the prince in spite of all the mishaps which kept
her as she was.
But she trembled so that having wrapped the dressing gown about her
she was obliged to sit down again. She would have to be crafty. She
must get this woman to help her with her dressing, without suspecting
what she meant to do. How could she manage that? She must try to think.
She was trying to think when she heard the ring of the telephone. It
suggested an idea. Some timenot this time, of coursewhen the
telephone rang and the woman was answering it, she, Letty, would be
able to slip away. The important thing was to do her hair and get her
Yes?... Yes? There was a little catch to the breath, a smothered
laugh, a smothered sigh. Oh, so this is you!... Yes, I got it....
Seeing it again gave me quite a turn.... I never expected that you'd
keep it all this time, but.... Yes, she's here.... No; she didn't come
exactly of her own accord, but II found her.... I could tell you
about it easier if you wereit's so hard on the telephone when there's
so much to saybut perhaps you don't care to.... Yes, she's quite
wellonly a little tiredbeen worked up somehowbut a day or so in
bed.... Oh, very sensible ... and she wants me to teach her how to be a
So that was it! Steptoe had been treacherous. Letty would never
believe in anyone again. She could make these reflections hurriedly
because the voice at the telephone was silent.
It was the same exclamation as that of Barbara Walbrook, but in
another tonea tone of distress, sharp, sympathetic. Pulling the
dressing gown about her, frightened, tense, Letty knew that something
had gone wrong.
Oh! Oh!... last night, did you say?... early this morning....
Letty crept to where her hostess was seated at the telephone. What
But Miss Towell either didn't hear the question or was too absorbed
to answer it. Oh, 'Enery, try to remember that God is his
lifethat there can be no death to be afraid of when
Letty snatched the receiver from the other woman's hands, and fell
on her knees beside the little table. Oh, what is it? What is it? It's
me; Letty! Something's happened. I've got to know.
Amazed and awed by the force of this intrusion Miss Towell stood up,
and moved a little back.
Over the wire Steptoe's voice sounded to Letty like the ghost of his
voice, broken, dead.
I think if I was madam I'd come back.
But what's happened? Tell me that first.
It's Mr. Rash.
Yes, I know it's Mr. Rash. But what is it? Tell me quickly, for
'E's been 'it.
Her utterance was as nearly as possible a cry. But he hasn't been
Madam'd find 'im aliveif she 'urried.
When Letty rose from her knees she was strong. She was calm, too,
and competent. She further surprised Miss Towell by the way in which
she took command.
I must hurry. They want me at once. Would you mind helping me to
The queer thing about it, miss, Steptoe was saying to Barbara, is
that I didn't 'ear no noise. My winder is just above the front door,
two floors up, and it was open. I always likes an open winder,
especially when the weather begins to get warmmakes it 'ealthier
like, and so
Yes, but tell me just how he is.
That's what I'm comin' to, miss. The minute I see what an awful
styte we was in, I says, Miss Walbrook, she'll 'ave to know, I says;
and so I called up. Well, as I was a-tellin you, miss, I couldn't sleep
all night, 'ardly not any, thinkin of all what 'ad 'appened in the
'ouse, in the course of a few months, as you might syeand madam run
awyeand Mr. Rash 'e not 'omeand it one o'clock and lyter. Not but
what 'e's often lyter than that, only last night I 'ad that kind of a
feelin' which you'll get when you know things is not right, and you
don't 'ardly know 'ow you know it.
Yes, Steptoe, she interposed, eagerly; but is he conscious now?
That's what I want to hear about.
Steptoe's expression of grief lay in working up to a dramatic climax
dramatically. He didn't understand the hurried leaps and bounds by
which you took the tragic on the skip, as if it were not portentous. In
his response to Miss Walbrook there was a hint of irritation, and
perhaps of rebuke.
I couldn't sye what 'e is now, miss, as the doctor and the nurse is
with 'im, and won't let nobody in till they decides whether 'e's to
live or die. Rocking himself back and forth in his chair he moaned in
stricken anticipation. If 'e goes, I shan't be long after 'im. I may
linger a bit, but the good Lord won't move me on too soon.
Barbara curbed her impatience to reach the end, going back to the
beginning. Well, then, was it you who found 'im?
It was this wye, miss. Knowin' 'e wasn't in the 'ouse, I kep' goin'
to my winder and listenin'and then goin' back to bed agyneI
couldn't tell you 'ow many times; and then, if you'd believe it I must
'ave fell asleep. No; I can't believe as I was asleep. I just seemed to
come to, like, and as I laid there wonderin' what time it was, seems to
me as if I 'eard a kind of a snore, like, not in the 'ouse, but comin'
up from the street.
What time was that?
That'd be about 'alf past one. Well, up I gets and creeps to the
winder, and sure enough the snore come right up from the steps. Seems
to me, too, I could see somethink layin' there, all up and down the
steps, just as if it 'ad been dropped by haccident like. My blood
freezes. I slips into my thick dressin' gownno, it was my thin
dressin' gownI always keeps twoone for winter and one for
summerand this spring bein' so early like
But in the end you got down stairs.
If I didn't, miss, 'ow could I 'a' found 'im? I ain't one to be
afryde of dynger, not even 'ere in New York, where you can be robbed
and murdered without 'ardly knowin' itand the police that slow about
follerin' up a clue
And what happened when you'd opened the front door?
I didn't open it at once, miss. I put my hear to the crack and
listened. And there it was, a long kind of snore, likeonly it wasn't
just what you'd call a snore. It was more like this. He drew a deep,
rasping, stertorous breath. Awful, it was, miss, just like somebody in
liquor. 'It's liquor,' I says, and not wantin' to be mixed up in no low
company I wasn't for openin' the door at all
But you did?
Not till I'd gone 'alf wye upstairs and down agyne. I'm like that.
I often thinks I'll not do a thing, and then I'll sye to myself, 'Now,
perhaps I'd better, and so it was that time. 'E's out, I says, and who
knows but what 'e's fell in a fynt like?' So back I goes, and I peeps
out a little bitjust my nose out, as you might sye, not knowin' but
what if there was low company
When did you find out who it was?
I knowed the 'at, like. It was that 'at what 'e bought afore 'e
bought the last one. No; I don't know but what 'e's bought two since 'e
bought that onea soft felt, and a cowboy what he never wore but once
or twice because it wasn't becomin'. You'll 'ave noticed, miss, that 'e
'ad one o' them fyces what don't look well in nothink rakisha real
gentleman's fyce 'e 'adand them cowboy 'ats
Well, when you saw that hat, what did you do?
For quite a spell I didn't do nothink. I was all blood-curdled, as
you might sye. But by and by I creeps out, and down the steps, and
there 'e was, all 'uddled every wye
His lip trembled. In trying to go on he produced only a few
incoherent sounds. Reaching for his handkerchief, he blew his nose,
before being able to say more.
Well, the first thing I says to myself, miss, was, Is 'e dead? It
was a terrible thing to sye of one that's everythink in the world to
me; but seein' 'im there, all crumpled up, with one leg one wye, and
the other leg another wye, and a harm throwed out 'elpless likewell,
what was I to think? missand 'im not aible to sye a word, and me
shykin' like a leaf, and out of doors in my thin dressin' gownif I'd
'ad on my thick one I wouldn't 'a' felt so kind of shymeful like
You might have known he wasn't dead when you heard him breathing.
I didn't think o' that. I thought as 'e was. And when I see 'is
poor harm stretched out so wild like I creeps nearer and nearer, and me
'ardly aible to moveI felt so badand I puts my finger on 'is pulse.
Might as well 'ave put it on that there fender. Then I looks at 'is
fyce and I see blood on 'is lip and 'is cheek. 'Somethink's struck
'im,' I says; and then I just loses consciousness, and puts back my
'ead, as you'll see a dog do when 'e 'owls, and I yells, 'Police!'
Oh, you did that, did you?
I'm ashymed to sye it, miss, but I did; and who should come runnin'
along but the policeman what in the night goes up and down our beat. By
that time I'd got my 'and on 'is 'eart, and the policeman 'e calls out
from a distance, 'Hi, there! What you doin' to that man?' Thought I was
murderin' 'im, you see. I says, 'My boy, 'e is, and I'm tryin' to syve
'is life.' Well, the policeman 'e sees I'm in my dressin' gown, and
don't look as if I'd do 'im any 'arm, so 'e kind o' picks up 'is
courage, and blows 'is whistle, and another policeman 'e runs up from
the wye of the Havenue. Then when there's two of 'em they ain't afryde
no more, so that the first one 'e comes up to me quite bold like, and
arsks me who's killed, and what's killed 'im, and I tells 'im 'ow I was
layin' awyke, with the winder open, and Mr. Rash bein' out I couldn't
How long did they let him lie there?
Oh, not long. First they was for callin' a hambulance; but when I
tells 'em that 'e's my boy, and lives in my 'ouse, they brings 'im in
and we lays 'im on the sofa in the libery, and I rings up Dr. Lancing,
But something in Barbara snapped. She could stand no more. Not to
cry out or break down she sprang to her feet. That'll do, Steptoe. I
know now all I need to know. Thank you for telling me. I shall stay
here till the doctor or the nurse comes down. If I want you again I'll
[Illustration: BUT BY AND BY I CREEPS OUT AND DOWN THE STEPS, AND
THERE 'E WAS, ALL 'UDDLED EVERY WYE.]
Lashing up and down the drawing-room, wringing her hands and moaning
inwardly, Barbara reflected on the speed with which Nemesis had
overtaken her. If he wasn't hereor if he was dead, she had said, I
believe I could be happier. As long as she lived she would hear the
curious intonation in Aunt Marion's voice: He's dead?after all? It
was in that after all that she read the unspeakable accusation
Waiting for the doctor was not long. On hearing his step on the
stair Barbara went out to meet him. How is he? she asked, without
wasting time over self-introductions.
It's a little difficult to say as yet. The case is serious. Just
how serious we can't tell to-dayperhaps not to-morrow. I find no
trace of fracture of the cranium, or of laceration of the brain; but
it's too soon to be sure. Dr. Brace and Dr. Wisdom, who've both been
here, are inclined to think that it may be no more than a simple
concussion. We must wait and see.
Relieved to this extent Barbara went on to explain herself. I'm
Miss Walbrook. I was engaged to Mr. Allerton tilltill quite recently.
We're still great friendsthe greatest friends. He had no near
relationsonly cousinsand I doubt if any of them are in New York as
late in the season as thisand even if they are he hardly knows
The doctor, a cheery, robust man in the late thirties, in his own
line one of the ablest specialists in New York, had a foible for social
position and his success in it. Even now, with such grave news to
communicate, he couldn't divest himself of his dinner-party manner or
I've had the pleasure of meeting Miss Walbrook, at the Essingtons'
dinnerthe big one for Isabeland afterwards at the dance.
Oh, of course, Barbara corroborated, though with no recollection
of the encounter. I knew it was somewhere, but I couldn't quite
recallSo I felt, when the butler called me up, that I should be
Quite so! quite so! You'll find Miss Gallifer, who's with him now,
a most competent nurse, and I shall bring a good night nurse before
evening. The professional side of the situation disposed of, he
touched tactfully on the romantic. It will be a great thing for me to
know that in a masculine household like this a woman with knowledge and
authority is running in and out. The more you can be here, Miss
Walbrook, the more responsibility you'll take off my hands.
May I be in his roomand help the nurseor do anything like
Quite so! quite so! I'm sure Miss Gallifer, who can't be there
every minute of the time, you understand, will be glad to feel that
there's someone she can trust
And he couldn't know I was there?
Not unless he returned unexpectedly to consciousness, which is
possible, you understand
Her distress was so great that she hazarded a question on which she
would not otherwise have ventured. Doctor, you're a physician. I can
speak to you as I shouldn't speak to everyone. Suppose he did return
unexpectedly to consciousness, and found me there in the room, do you
think he'd beannoyed?
It was the sort of situation he liked, a part in the intimate
affairs of people of the first quality. As to his being annoyed I
can't say. It might be the very opposite. What I know is this, that in
the coming back of the mind to its regular functions inhibitions are
And you mean by that?
That the first few minutes in which the mind revives are likely to
be minutes of genuine reality. I don't say that the mind could keep it
up. Very few of us can be our genuine selves for more than flashes at a
time; but a returning consciousness doesn't put on its inhibitions
So that what you see in those few minutes you can take as the
I should say so. I'm not in a position to affirm it; but the
probabilities point that way.
And if there had been, let us say, a lesser affection, something of
recent origin, and lower in every way
I think that until it forged its influence againif it ever
didyou'd see it forgotten or disowned.
She tried to be even more explicit. He's perfectly free, in every
way. I broke off my engagement just to make him free. Thethe other
woman, she, too, hashas left him
So that, he summed up, if in those first instants of returning to
the world you could read his choice you'd be relieved of doubts for the
Having made one or two small professional recommendations he was
about to go when Barbara's mind worked to another point. You know,
he's been very excitable.
So I've understood. I go a good deal to the Chancellors'. You know
them, of course. I've heard about him there.
Well, then, if he got better, is there anything we could do about
In a general way, yes. If you're gentle with him
Oh, I am.
And if you try to smooth him down when you see him beginning to be
That's just what I do, only it seems to excite him the more.
Then, in that case, I should say, break the conversation off. Go
away from him. Let him alone. Let him work out of it. Begin again
Ye-es, only she was wistful, unconvincedonly later it's so
likely to be the same thing over again.
He dodged the further issue by running up to explain to the nurse
Miss Walbrook's position in the house, and as helper in case of
necessity. By the time he had come down again Barbara's anguish was
visible. Oh, doctor, you think he will get better, don't you?
He was at the front door. I hope he will. Quitequite possibly he
will. His pulse isn't very strong as yet, butWell, Dr. Brace and Dr.
Wisdom are coming for another consultation this afternoon; only his
condition, you understand, iswell, serious.
Barbara divined the malice beneath Steptoe's indications, as he
conducted her upstairs. That was the lyte Mrs. Allerton's room; that's
the front spare room; and that's our present madam's roomwhen she's
'ereheach with its barth. I'm sure if Miss Walbrook was inclined to
use the front spare room I'd be entirely welcome, and 'ave put in clean
towels, and everythink, a-purpose.
When Rash's door was pointed out to her she tapped. Miss Gallifer
opened it, receiving her colleague with a great big hearty smile.
Great, big, and hearty were the traits by which Miss Gallifer was known
among the doctors. Healthy, skilful, jolly, and offhand, she carried
the issues of life and death, in which she was at home, with a
lightness which made her easy to work with. Some nurses would have
resented the intrusion of an outsiderprofessionally speakinglike
Miss Walbrook; but to Miss Gallifer it was the more the merrier, even
in the sickroom. The very fact of coming to close quarters with the
type she knew as a society girl added spice to the association.
For the first few seconds Barbara found her breeziness a shock. She
had expected something subdued, hushed, funereal. Miss Gallifer hardly
lowered her voice, which was naturally loud, or quieted her manner,
which, when off duty, could be boisterous. It was not boisterous now,
of course; only quick, free, spontaneous. Then Barbara saw the reason.
There was no need to lower the voice or quiet the manner or soften
the swish of rustling to and fro, in presence of that still white form
composed in the very attitude of death. If Barbara hadn't known he was
alive she wouldn't have supposed it. She had seen dead men beforeher
father, two brothers, other relatives. They looked like this; this
looked like them. She said this to herself, and not he,
because it seemed the word.
But by the time she had moved forward and was standing by the bed
Miss Gallifer's businesslike tone became a comfort. You couldn't take
such a tone if you thought there was danger; and in spite of the
hemming and hawing of the doctors Miss Gallifer didn't think there was.
Oh, I've seen lots of such cases, and I say it's a simple
concussion. Old Wisdom, he doesn't know anything. I wouldn't consult
him about an accident to a cat. Laceration of the brain is always his
first diagnosis; and if the patient didn't have it he'd get it to him
before he'd admit that he was wrong.
Barbara put the question in which all her other questions were
enfolded. Then you think he'll get better?
I shouldn't be surprised.
Would you be surprisedthe other way?
I think I shouldon the whole. Pulse is poor. That's the worst
sign. She picked up the hand lying outside the coverlet and put her
finger-tips to the wrist, doing it with the easy nonchalant
carelessness with which she might have seized an inanimate object, yet
knowing exactly what she was about. H'm! Fifty-six! That's pretty low.
If we could get it above sixtybut still! Dropping the hand with the
same indifference, yet continuing to know what she was about, Miss
Gallifer tossed aside the index of the pulse as wholly non-convincing.
I've known cases where the pulse would go down till there was almost
no pulse at all, and yet it would come up again.
So that you feel?
Oh, he'll do. I shouldn't worryyet. If he wasn't going to pull
through there would be something
Something to tell you?
Well, yesif you put it that way. I most always know with a
patient. It isn't anything in his condition. It's more like a hunch.
There's often the difference between a doctor and a nurse. The doctor
goes by what he sees, the nurse by what she feels. Nine times out of
ten the doctor'll see wrong and the nurse'll feel rightand there you
are! You can't go by doctors. A lot of guess-work gumps, I often think;
and yet the laity need them for comfort.
Making the most of all this Barbara asked, timidly: Is there
anything I could do?
Well, no! There isn't much that anyone can do. You've just got to
wait. If you're going to stay
I should like to.
Then you can be somewhere else in the house so that I could call
youor you could sit right herewhichever you preferred.
I'd rather sit right here, if I shouldn't be in the way.
Oh, when you're in the way I'll tell you.
On this understanding Barbara sat down, in a small low armchair not
far from the foot of the bed. Miss Gallifer also sat down, nearer to
the window, taking up a book which, as Barbara could see from the
jacket on the cover, bore the title, The Secret of Violet Pryde. It was clear that there was nothing to be done, since Miss Gallifer
could so easily lose herself in her novel.
Not till her jumble of impressions began to arrange themselves did
Barbara realize that she was in Rash's room, surrounded by the objects
most intimate to his person. Here the poor boy slept and dressed, and
lived the portion of his life which no one else could share with him.
In a sense they were rifling his privacy, the secrecy with which every
human being has in some measure to surround himself. She recalled a day
in her childhood, after her parents and both her brothers had died,
when their house with its contents was put up for sale. She remembered
the horror with which she had seen strangers walking about in the rooms
sanctified by loved presences, and endeared to her holiest memories.
Something of that she felt now, as Miss Gallifer threw aside her book,
sprang lightly to her feet, hurried into Rash's bathroom, and came out
with a towel slightly damped, which she passed over the patient's brow.
She was so horribly at ease! It was as if Rash no longer had a
personality whose rights one must respect.
But he might get better! Miss Gallifer believed that he would!
Barbara clung to that as an anchor in this tempest of emotions. If he
got better he would open his eyes. If he opened his eyes it would be,
for a little while at least, with his inhibitions suspended. If his
inhibitions were suspended the thing he most wanted would be in his
first glance; and if his first glance fell on her....
Waiting was becoming dreamlike. She didn't find it tedious, or
over-fraught with suspense. On the contrary, it was soothing. It was a
little trance-like, too, almost as if she had been enwrapped in Rash's
It was so strange to see him still. It was so strange to be still
herself. Of her own being, as of his, she had hardly any concept apart
from the high winds of excitement. Calm like this was new to her, and
because new it was appeasing, wonderful. It was not unlike content,
only the content which comes in sleep, to be broken up by waking.
Somewhere in her nature she liked seeing him as he was, helpless,
inert, with no power of enraging her by being restive to her will. It
was, in its way, a repetition of what she had said that morning: If he
wasn't hereor if he was dead! Longing for peace, her stormy soul
seemed to know by instinct the price she would have to pay for it. For
peace to be possible Rash must pass out of her life, and the thought of
Rash passing out of her life was agony.
While Miss Gallifer was downstairs at lunch Barbara had the sweet,
unusual sense of having him all to herself. She had never so had him in
their hours together because the violence of their clashes had
prevented communion. Seated in this silence, in this quietude, she felt
him hers. There was no one to dispute her claim, no one whose claim she
had in any way to recognize as superior. Letty's claim she had never
recognized at all. It was accidental, spurious. Letty herself didn't
put it forthand even she was gone. If Rash were to open his eyes he
would see no one but herself.
She was sorry when Miss Gallifer came back, though there was no help
for that; but Miss Gallifer was obtrusive only when she chatted or
moved about. For much of the time she pursued the secret of Violet
Pryde with such assiduity that the room became quiescent, and communion
with Rash could be re-established.
The awesome silence was disturbed only by the turning of Miss
Gallifer's pages. It might have been three o'clock. Once more Barbara
was lost in the unaccustomed hush, her eyes fixed on the white face on
the pillow, in almost hypnotic restfulness. The pushing open of the
door behind was so soft that she didn't notice. Miss Gallifer turned
It was the sense that someone was in the room which made Barbara
glance over her shoulder and Miss Gallifer look up. A little gray
figure in a battered black hat stood just within the door. She stood
just within the door, but with no consciousness of anything or anyone
in the room. She saw only the upturned face and its deathlike fixity.
With slow, spellbound movement she began to come forward. Barbara,
who had never seen the Letty who used to be, knew her now only by a
terrified intuition. Miss Gallifer was entirely at a loss, and somewhat
indignant. The little gray vagrant was not of the type she had been
used to treating with respect.
What are you doing here? she asked quickly, as soon as speech came
Letty didn't look at her, or remove her eyes from the face on the
pillow. A woman in a trance could not have spoken with greater
detachment or self-control. I cameto see.
Well, now that you've seen, won't you please go away, before I call
Of this Letty took no notice, going straight to the bedside, while
Miss Gallifer moved toward Barbara, who stood as she had risen from her
Do you know who she is? Miss Gallifer asked, with curiosity
greater than her indignation.
Barbara nodded. Yes, I know who she is. I thought
Oh, they never disappear for longnot that kind. What had I better
do? Is she anythingto him?
Barbara was saved the necessity of answering because Letty, who was
on the other side of the bed, bent over and kissed the feet, as she had
kissed them once before.
Is she dotty? Miss Gallifer whispered. Ought I to take her by the
shoulders and put her out the door? I could, you knowa scrap of a
thing like that.
Barbara whispered back. I can't tell you who she is, butbut I
wouldn't interfere with her.
Oh, the doctor'll do that. He'll not
But Letty raised herself, addressing the nurse. Is hedead?
Miss Gallifer's tone was the curt one we use to inferiors. No, he's
Is he going to die?
Not this time, I think.
Letty looked round her. Well, I'll just sit over here. She went to
a chair at the back of the room, in a corner on a line with the door.
I won't give any trouble. The minute he begins toto live I'll go.
It was Barbara who arranged the matter peaceably, mollifying Miss
Gallifer. Without explaining who Letty was she insisted on her right to
remain. If Miss Gallifer was mystified, it was no more than Miss Towell
was, or anyone else who touched the situation at a tangent. To that
Barbara was indifferent, while Letty didn't think of it.
In rallying her forces Barbara's first recollection had been, I
must be a sport. With theoretical sporting instincts she knew herself
the kind of sport who doesn't always run true to form. Hating meanness
she could lapse into the mean, and toward Letty herself had so lapsed.
That accident she must guard against. The issues were so big that
whatever happened, she couldn't afford to reproach herself.
Self-reproach would not only magnify defeat but poison success, since,
if she availed herself of her advantages, no success would ever prove
For her own sake rather than for Letty's she made use of the hour
while the doctors were again in consultation to explain the
possibilities. She would have the whole thing clearly understood.
Whether or not Letty did understand it she wasn't quite sure, since she
seemed cut off from thought-communication. She listened, nodded, was
docile to instructions, but made no response.
To be as lucid as possible Barbara put it in this way: Since you've
left him, and I've broken my engagement he'll be absolutely free to
choose; and yet, you must remember, we maywe may both lose him.
That both should lose him seemed indeed the more probable after the
consultation. All the doctors looked grave, even Dr. Lancing. His
dinner-party manner had forsaken him as he talked to Barbara, his
emphasis being thrown on the word prepared. It was still one of those
cases in which you couldn't tell, though so far the symptoms were not
encouraging. He felt himself bound in honor to say as much as that,
hoping, however, for the best.
Closing the front door on him Barbara felt herself shaken by a
frightful possibility. If he never regained consciousness that would
settle it. The suspense would be over. Her fate would be determined.
She would no longer have to wonder and doubt, to strive or to cry. No
longer would she run the risk of seeing another woman get him. She
would find that which her tempestuous nature craved before
everythingrest, peace, release from the impulse to battle and
dominate. Not by words, not so much as by thought, but only in wild
emotion she knew that, as far as she was concerned, it might be better
for him to die. If he lived, and chose herself, the storm would only
begin again. If he lived and chose the other....
But as to that she could see no reasonable prospect. She had only to
look at Letty, shrinking in her corner of the bedroom, to judge any
such mischance impossible. She was so humble; so negligible; so much a
bit of flotsam of the streets. She had an appeal of her own, of course;
but an appeal so lowly as to be obscured by the wayside dust which
covered it. What was the flower to which Rash had now and then compared
her? Wasn't that what he called itthe dust flower?that ragged blue
thing of byways and backyards, which you couldn't touch without washing
your hands afterwards. No, no! Not even the legal tie which nominally
bound them could hold in the face of this inequality. It would be too
The hours passed. The night nurse was now installed, and was reading
Keith Macdermot's Destiny. She was one of those tall, slender women
whom you see to be all bone. As businesslike as Miss Gallifer, and
quite as detached, Miss Moines was brisk and systematic. It being her
habit to subdue a household to herself before she entered on her duties
her eyes regarded Miss Walbrook and Letty with the startled glance of a
For before going Miss Gallifer had given her a hint. You'll have to
do a lot of side-stepping here. This is the famous House of Mystery.
You'll find two nuts upstairsthat's what I'd call them if they were
menbut they're womengirls, sort ofand you've just got to leave
them alone. One's a high-stepperregular societywas engaged to the
patient and now acts as if she'd married him; and the otherwell,
perhaps you can make her out; I can't. Seems a little off. May be the
poor castaway, once loved, and now broken-hearted but faithful, you
read about in books. Anyhow, there they are, and you'd best let them
be. It won't be for more thanwell, I give him twenty-four hours at
the most. I begin to think that for once old Wisdom is right.
Good-looker too, poor fellow, and can't be more than thirty-five. I
wonder what could have happened? I suppose they'll go into that at the
But Miss Moines was too systematic to have companions in the room
without marshaling them to some form of duty. They needed to eat; they
needed to sleep. Now and then someone had to go out on the landing and
comfort or reassure Steptoe, who sat on the attic stairs like a
Letty was the first to consent to go and lie down. She did so about
nine o'clock, extracting a promise that whatever happened she would be
called at twelve. If there was any change in the meantimebut that,
Miss Moines assured her, was understood in all such ride-and-tie
arrangements. At twelve Letty was to return and Barbara lie down till
three, with the same proviso in case of the unexpected. But, so to put
it, the unexpected seemed improbable, in view of that rigid form, and
the white, upturned face.
And yet, Miss Moines confided to Barbara, I don't think he's as
far gone as they think. Miss Gallifer only changed her mind when they
talked her round. A doctor just sees the patient in glimpses, whereas a
nurse lives with him, and knows what he can stand.
About eleven Miss Moines closed Keith Macdermot's Destiny,
and took the pulse. She nodded as she did so, with a slight exclamation
of triumph. Ah, ha! Fifty-eight! That's the first good sign. It may
not mean anything, but
Barbara was too exhausted to feel more than a gleam of comfort. The
lassitude being emotional rather than physical Miss Moines detected it
easily enough, and sent her to rest before the hour agreed upon. She
went the more willingly, since the pulse had risen and hope could begin
On the stairs Steptoe raised his bowed head, with a dazed stare.
Seeing Miss Walbrook he stumbled to his feet.
'Ow is 'e now, miss?
She told him the good news.
Ah, thank God! Perhaps after all 'E'll spare 'im.
Steptoe informed Letty, who right on the stroke of midnight returned
to her post. Pulse gone up two of them degrees, madam. 'E's goin' to
To Letty this was a signal. On going to rest in the little back
spare room she had thrown off her street things, worn during all the
hours of watching, and put on the dressing gown she had left there a
few nights earlier. She was still wearing it, but at Steptoe's news she
went back again. On passing him the second time she was clad in the old
gray rag and the battered hat in which it would be easier to escape.
Steptoe said nothing; but he nodded to himself comprehendingly.
A clock struck two. Miss Moines was hungry. Expecting to be hungry
she had had a small tray, with what she called a lunch, placed for
her in the dining-room. Had there been immediate danger she would not
have left her post; but with Letty there she saw no harm in taking ten
or fifteen minutes to conserve her strength.
For the first time in all those hours Letty was alone with him. Not
expecting to be so left she was at first frightened, then audacious.
Except for the one time when she had approached the bedside and kissed
his feet she had remained in her corner, watching with the silent,
motionless intentness of a little animal. Her eyes hardly ever left the
white face; but at this distance even the white face was dim.
Now she was possessed by a great daring. She would steal to the
bedside again. Again she would see the beloved features clearly. Again
she would have the amazing bliss of kissing the coverlet that covered
the dear feet. When Miss Moines returned she would be back again in her
corner, as if she had never left it. If the pulse rose higher, if there
was further hope, if he seemed to be reviving, she could slip away in
the confusion of their joy.
She rose and listened. The house was as still as it had been at
other times when she had listened in the night. She glided to the bed.
He lay as if he had been carved in stone, propped up with pillows to
make breathing easier, his arms outside the coverlet. He was a little
as he had been on the morning when she had passed her hand across his
brow. As then, too, his hair rose in tongues of diabolic flame.
She was near him. She was bending over him. She was bending not
above his feet, but above his head. She knew how mad she was, but she
couldn't help herself. Stoopingstoopingclosercloserher lips
touched the forked black mane of his hair.
She leaped back. She leaped not only because of her own boldness,
but because he seemed to stir. It was as if this kiss, so light, so
imperceptible, had sent a galvanic throbbing through his frame. She
herself felt it, as now and then in winter she had felt an electric
Her sin had found her out. She was terrified. He lay just as he had
lain beforeonly not quitenot quite! His arms were not just as they
had been; the coverlet was slightly, ever so slightly, disturbed. The
nurse would see it and know that....
There was a stirring of a hand. It was so little of a stirring that
she thought her eyes must have deceived her when it stirred againa
restless toss, like a muscular contraction in sleep. She was not
alarmed now, only excited, and wondering what she ought to do. She
ought to run to the head of the stairs and call Miss Moines, only that
she couldn't bring herself to leave him.
Then, as she stood in her attitude of doubt, the eyes opened and
looked at her. They looked at her straight, and yet glassily. They
looked at her with no gladness in the look, almost with no recognition.
If anything there was a kind of sickness there, as if the finding her
by his bedside was a disappointment.
I know what it is, she said to herself. He wantsher.
But the eyes closed again. The face was as white, the profile as
rigid, as ever.
She sped to Barbara, who was lying on a couch in the front spare
room. Come! He woke up! He wants you!
Back in the bedroom she effaced herself. They were all there
nowBarbara, Steptoe, and Miss Moines.
It's what he would do, Miss Moines corroborated, if he was coming
Letty had told part of what she had seen, but only part of it. The
rest was her secret. The little mermaid's kiss had left the prince as
inanimate as before; hers had brought him back to life!
It was the moment to run away. Miss Moines had said that having once
opened his eyes he would open them again. When he did he mustn't find
her there. They were all so intent on watching that this was her
They were all so intentbut Steptoe. She was buttoning her jacket
when she saw his eyes steal round in her direction. A second later he
had tiptoed back into the hall, and closed the door behind him.
It was vexing, but not fatal. He had probably gone for something.
While he was getting it she would elude him. One thing was certainshe
couldn't face the look of disappointment in those sick dark eyes again.
She opened the door. She shut it noiselessly behind her. Steptoe wasn't
there, and the way was free.
Barbara stood just where Letty had described herself as standing
when the eyes had given her that glassy stare. To herself she seemed to
stand there for ever, though the time could be counted in minutes. The
pounding of her heart was like a pulsating of the house.
The eyes opened again. They opened, first wearily, and then with a
fretful light which seemed to be searching for what they couldn't find.
Barbara stood still.
There was another stirring of the hand, irritated, impatient. A
little moan or groan was distinctly of complaint. The eyes having
rolled hither and thither helplessly, the head turned slowly on the
pillow so as to see the other side of the room.
He's looking for something that he misses, Miss Moines explained,
wonderingly. What do you suppose it can be?
Barbara found her at the street door, pleading with Steptoe, who
actually held her by the arm. The loud whisper down the stairs was a
cry as well as a command.
At the bedroom door they parted. With a light instinctive push
Barbara forced Letty to go back to the spot on which she had stood
earlier. She herself went to the other side of the bed, only to find
that the head, in which the eyes were closed again, was now turned that
As if aware that some mysterious decision was approaching Miss
Moines kept herself in the background. Steptoe had hardly advanced from
the threshold. Neither of the women by the bedside seemed to breathe.
When the eyes opened for the third time the intelligence in them was
keener. On Barbara they rested long, quietly, kindly, till memory came
With memory there was again that restless stirring, that complaining
moan. Once more, slowly, distressfully, the head turned on the pillow.
On Letty the long, quiet, kindly regard lay as it had lain on
Barbara. They waited; but in the look there was no more than that.
From two hearts two silent prayers were going up.
Oh, God, end it somehowand let me have peace!
Oh, God, make him live againand give them to each other!
Then, when no one was expecting it, a faint smile quivered on the
lips, as if the returning mind saw something long desired and
comforting. Faintly, feebly, unsteadily, the hands were raised toward
the dust flower. The lips moved, enough to form dumbly the one word,
The invitation was beyond crediting. Letty trembled, and shrank
But from the support of the pillow the whole figure leaned forward.
The hands were lifted higher, more firmly and more longingly. Strength
came with the need for strength. A smile which was of life, not death,
beamed on the features and brought color to the face which had all
these hours seemed carved in stone.
He'll do now, the nurse threw off, professionally. He'll be up in
a few days.
It was Barbara who gave the sign to both Steptoe and Miss Moines. By
the imperiousness of her gesture and her uplifted head she swept them
out before her. If she was leaving all behind her she was leaving it
superbly; but she wasn't leaving all. Back of her tumultuous passions a
spirit was crying to her spirit, Now you'll get what you want far more
than you want thisrest from vain desire.
Letty approached the bedside slowly, as if drawn by an enchantment.
To the outstretched hands she stretched out hers. The door was closed,
and once more she was alone with him.
But neither saw that for the space of a few inches the closed door
was opened again, and that an old profile peered within. Then, as
slowly, slowly, slowly, Letty sank on her knees, bowing her head on the
hands which drew her closer, and closer still, a pair of old lips
When the head drew back, the door was closed again.