Changing Winds
by St. John G. Ervine
CHANGING WINDS
A Novel
by
ST. JOHN G. ERVINE
New York The Macmillan Company 1917
All rights reserved
Copyright, 1917, by St. John G. Ervine.
Set up and electrotyped. Published February, 1917. Reprinted March,
twice, May, twice, July, August, September, November, 1917.
TO
THE MEMORY OF RUPERT BROOKE
The translations from the Gaelic on pages 77 and 78 were made by
the
late P. H. Pearse, who was executed in Dublin for his part in the
Easter Rebellion. The translations appeared in New Ireland, and I
am indebted
to the Editor of that review for permission to reprint them here.
THE FIRST BOOK
OF
CHANGING WINDS
There are waters blown by changing winds to laughter, And lit by
the
rich skies, all day. And after, Frost, with a gesture, stays the
winds
that dance And wandering loveliness. He leaves a white, Unbroken
glory,
a gathered radiance, A width, a shining peace, under the night.
RUPERT BROOKE.
CHANGING WINDS
THE FIRST CHAPTER
1
It would be absurd to say of Mr. Quinn that he was an ill-tempered
man, but it would also be absurd to say that he was of a mild
disposition. William Henry Matier, a talker by profession and a
gardener in his leisure moments, summarised Mr. Quinn's character thus:
He'd ate the head off you, thon lad would, an' beg your pardon the
minute after! That, on the whole, was a just and adequate description
of Mr. Quinn, and certainly no one had better qualifications for
forming an estimate of his employer's character than William Henry
Matier; for he had spent many years of his life in Mr. Quinn's service
and had, on an average, been discharged from it about ten times per
annum.
Mr. Quinn, the younger son of a poor landowner in the north of
Ireland, had practised at the Bar without success. His failure to
maintain himself at the law was not due to ignorance of the statutes of
the land or to any inability on his part to distort their meaning: it
was due solely to the fact that he was a Unionist and a gentleman. His
Unionism, in a land where politics take the place of religion,
prevented him from receiving briefs from Nationalists, and his
gentlemanliness made it impossible for him to accept briefs from the
Unionists; for if an Irish lawyer be a Unionist, he must play the
lickspittle and tomtoady to the lords and ladies of the Ascendency and
be ready at all times and on all occasions to deride Ireland and befoul
his countrymen in the presence of the English people.
I'd rather eat dirt, Mr. Quinn used to say, than earn my livin'
that way!
He contrived, however, to win prosperity by his marriage to Miss
Catherine Clotworthy, the only daughter of a Belfast mill-owner: a lady
of watery spirit who irked her husband terribly because she affected an
English manner and an English accent. He was very proud of his Irish
blood and he took great pride in using Ulster turns of speech. Mrs.
Quinn, whose education had been finished at Brighton, frequently
urged him to abandon his broad way of talking, but the principal
effect she had on him was to intensify the broadness of his accent.
I do wish you wouldn't say Aye, she would plead, when you
mean Yes!
And then he would roar at her. What! Bleat like a damned
Englishman! Where's your wit, woman?
Soon after the birth of her son, she died, and her concern,
therefore, with this story is slight. It is sufficient to say of her
that she inherited a substantial fortune from her father and that she
passed it on, almost unimpaired, to her husband, thus enabling him to
live in comfortable disregard of the law as a means of livelihood. He
had a small estate in County Antrim, which included part of the village
of Ballymartin, and there he passed his days in agricultural pursuits.
2
Mr. Quinn, as has been stated, was a Unionist, and, in spite of his
Catholic name, a Protestant; but he had a poor opinion of his Unionist
neighbours who, so he said, were far more loyal to England than England
quite liked. He hated the English accent ... finicky bleatin', he
called it ... and declared, though he really knew better, that all
Englishmen spoke with a Cockney intonation. A lot of h-droppers, he
called them, adding, God gave them a decent language, but they haven't
the gumption to talk it! The Oxford voice, in his opinion, was
educated Cockney, uglier, if possible, than the uneducated brand.
An Englishman, hearing Mr. Quinn talk in this fashion, might
pardonably have imagined that he was listening to a fanatical
Nationalist, a dynamiting Fenian, but if, being a Liberal, he had
ventured to advocate Home Rule for Ireland in Mr. Quinn's presence, he
would speedily have found that he was in error. Damn the fear! Mr.
Quinn would say when people charged him with being a Home Ruler. The
motive of his Unionism, however, was neither loyalty to England nor
terror of Rome: it was wholly and unashamedly a matter of commerce.
The English bled us for centuries, he would say, an' it's only fair
we should bleed them. We've got our teeth in their skins, an' they're
shellin' out their money gran'! That's what the Union's forto make
them keep on shellin' out their money. An' instead of tellin' the
people to bite deeper an' get more money out of them, the fools o'
Nationalists is tellin' them to take their teeth out! Never, he would
exclaim passionately, never, while there's a shillin' in an
Englishman's pocket!
Mr. Quinn, of course, treated every Englishman he met with courtesy,
for he was an Irish gentleman, and he had sometimes been heard to speak
affectionately of some person of English birth. The chief result of
this civility, conjoined with the ferocity of his political statements,
was that his English friends invariably spoke of him as a typical
Irishman. They looked upon him as so much comic relief to the more
serious things of their own lives, and seemed constantly to expect him
to perform some amusing antic, some innately Celtic act of comic folly.
At such times, Mr. Quinn felt as if he could annihilate an Englishman.
Ah, well, he would say, restraining himself, we all know what the
English are like, God help them!
It was because of his strong feeling for Ireland and Irish things
that he decided to have his son, Henry, educated in Ireland. Anyway,
he said to the lad, you'll have an Irish tongue, whatever else you
have! He sent the boy to a school in the County Armagh and left him
there until he discovered that he was not being educated at all. He had
questioned Henry on the history and geography of Ireland one day, and
had found to his horror that while Henry could tell him exactly where
Popocatepetl was to be found, and knew that Mount Everest was 29,002
feet high, and could name the kings of England and the dates of their
accession as easily as he could recite the Lord's Prayer, he had no
knowledge of the whereabouts or character of Lurigedan, a hill in the
County Antrim, and could tell him nothing of the Red Earls and the
beautiful queens of Ireland. He knew something that was true, and much
that was not, of Queen Elizabeth and King Alfred, but nothing, true or
false, of Deirdre and Red Hugh O'Neill.
What the hell's the good of knowin' about Popocatepetl, Mr. Quinn
shouted at him, when you don't know the name of a hill on your own
doorstep!
Lurigedan was hardly on his own doorstep, and Mr. Quinn himself
only knew of it because he had once, very breathlessly, climbed to its
summit, but an Irish hill was of more consequence to him than the
highest mountain in the world; and so he descended upon the master of
the school, a dreepy individual with a tendency to lament the errors of
Rome, and damned him from tip to toe so effectually that the alarmed
pedagogue gladly consented to the immediate termination of Henry's
career at his establishment. Thereafter, Henry was educated in England,
for Mr. Quinn did not propose to sacrifice efficiency to patriotism.
An' if you come back talkin' like a damned Cockney, he said to his
son as he bade good-bye to him, I'll cut the legs off you!
When Henry came home in the holidays, Mr. Quinn would spend hours in
testing his tongue.
Sound your r_s, he would say repeatedly, because he regarded
one's ability to say the letter r as a test of a man's control
of the English language. If you were to listen to an Englishman
talkin' on the telephone, you'd hear him yelpin' 'Ah yoh thah?'
just like a big buck nigger, 'til you'd be sick o' listenin' to him!
Say, 'Are you there?', Henry son!
And Henry would say Are you there, father? very gravely.
That's right, the old man would exclaim, listening with delight to
the rolling r_s. Always sound your r_s whatever you do. I'll not
own you if you come home sayin,'Ah yoh thah?' when you mean '
Are you there?' Do you mind me, now?
Yes, father.
Well, be heedin' me, then! Now, how are you on the h_s. Are you
as steady on them as you were when you were home before?
Then Henry would protest. But, father, he would say, they don't
all drop their h_s. It's only the common ones that drop them!...
They're all common, Henry ... the whole lot, common as dirt! Mr.
Quinn retorted once to that, and then began to tell his son how the
English people had lost the habits and instincts of gentlemen in the
eighteenth century ... where Ireland still is, my son! ... and had
become money-grubbers. The English, he said, lying back in his chair
and delivering his sentences as if he were a monarch pronouncing
decrees, ceased to be gentlemen on the day that Hargreaves invented
the spinnin'-jenny, and landlords gave way to mill-owners. He stopped
for a second or two and then continued as if an idea had only just come
into his head. An' it was proper punishment for Hargreaves, he said,
that the English let him die in the workhouse. Proper punishment. What
the hell did he want to invent the thing for?...
Henry looked up, startled by the sudden anger that swept over his
father, replacing the oracular banter with which he had begun his
discourse on the decadence of manners in England.
But, father, he said, you aren't against machinery, are you?
Yes, I am, Mr. Quinn replied, banging the arm of his chair with
his fist. I'd smash every machine in the world, if I were in
authority.
That's absurd, father. I mean, what would become of progress?
Mr. Quinn leaped out of his chair and strode up and down the room.
Progress! Progress! he exclaimed. D'ye think machines are progress?
D'ye think a factory is progress? Some of you young chaps think you're
makin' progress when you're only makin' changes. I tell you, Henry, the
only thing that is capable of progression is the human soul, and
machines can't develop that! He came back to his seat as he
said this and sat down, but he did not lie back as he had done before.
He sat forward, gazing intently at his son, and spoke with a curious
passion such as Henry had never heard him use before. Look here,
Henry! he said, there was a girl in the village once called Lizzie
McCamley ... a fine bit of a girl, too, big and strong, an' full of
fun, an' she got tired of the village. Her father was a labourer, an'
all she could see in front of her was the life of a labourer's wife.
Well, it isn't much of a life, that, an' Lizzie's mother had a poor
life even for a labourer's wife because McCamley boozed. I don't blame
Lizzie for wantin' somethin' better than that. I'd have despised her if
she hadn't wanted somethin' better. But what did she do? She had an
uncle in Belfast workin' in your grandfather's mill, an' she came to me
an' she asked me to use my influence with your grandfather to get her a
job in the mill. An' I did. An' by God, I'm sorry for it! I'll rue it
'til my dyin' day, I can tell you!
But why, father!
Your grandfather gave her a job in the weavin' room of his mill. Do
you know what that's like, Henry? Henry shook his head. He had never
been inside a linen-mill. The linen has to be woven in a moist
atmosphere, or else it'd become brittle an' so it wouldn't be fine,
Mr. Quinn went on; an' the atmosphere is kept moist by lettin' steam
escape from pipes into the room where the linen is bein' wovena damp,
muggy, steamy atmosphere, Henry ... an' Lizzie McCamley left this
village ... left work in the fields there to go up to Belfast an' work
in that for ten shillin's a week! An' that's what people calls
progress! I wish you could see her nowhalf rotten with disease, her
that was the healthiest girl in the place before she went away. She's
always sick, that girl, an' she can't eat anythin' unless her appetite
is stimulated with stuff like pickles. She's anæmic an' debilitated,
an' the last time I saw her, she'd got English cholera.... She married
a fellow that was as sick as herself, an' she had a child that wasn't
fit to be born ... it died, thank God!... an' then she went back to her
work an' became sicker. An' she'll go on like that 'til she dies, a
rotten, worn-out woman, the mother of rotten children when she ought to
have had fine healthy brats, an' could have had them too, if it hadn't
been for this damned progress we're all makin'!
Henry did not reply to his father. He did not know what to reply.
His mind was still in the pliable state, and he found that he was being
infected by his father's passion. But he had been taught at Rumpell's
to believe in Invention, in Progress by the Development of Machinery,
and so his mind reeled a little under this sudden onslaught on his
beliefs.
Well, said Mr. Quinn. Is that your notion of progress, Henry!
Makin' fine linen out of healthy girls?
No, father, of course not. Only!...
Mr. Quinn stood up, and caught hold of his son's shoulder. Come
over to the window, Henry! he said, and they walked across the room
together. Look out there, he said, pointing towards the fields that
stretched to the foot of the hills. That's fine, isn't it! he
exclaimed.
It's very beautiful, father, Henry replied, looking across the
fields of corn and clover and the pastures where the silken-sided
cattle browsed and flocks of sheep cropped the short grass.
It's land, Henry! said Mr. Quinn, proudly. You can do
without machines in the long run, but you can't do without that!
3
An' what do you think a mill-owner'd make of it, Henry! Mr. Quinn
said as they stood there gazing on the richness of the earth. Near at
hand, they could hear the sound of a lawn-mower, leisurely worked by
William Henry Matier, and while they waited for him to come into view,
a great fat thrush flew down from a tree and seized a snail and beat it
against a stone until its shell was broken....
I suppose he'd spoil it, father! Henry answered.
Spoil it! Mr. Quinn exclaimed. Damn it, Henry, he'd desecrate it!
He'd tear up my cornfields and meadows and put factories and mills in
their place! That's what he'd do! He turned sideways and leant against
the lintel of the window so that he was looking at his son. There was
a fellow came to see me once, he said, from London. A speculatin'
chap, an' he wanted me to put capital into a scheme he had on. Do you
know what sort of a scheme it was, Henry?
No, father!
He wanted to develop the mineral resources of the County Wicklow,
an' he wanted me to lend him money to do it. He said that some Germans
had surveyed the whole district, an' there was an immense fortune just
waitin' to be torn out of the earth.... I could hardly keep my feet off
his backside! 'Do you want to turn Glendalough into a place like
Wigan?' I said to him. 'It's all in the interests of progress,' says
he.... No, I didn't give him any of my money. I was as civil to him as
I could be, an' he never knew how near he was to his death that
day....
Mr. Quinn's anger evaporated, and he began to laugh to himself as he
thought of the difficulty he had had in restraining his rage against
the speculator and how frightened that person would have been had he
known how angry he had made him.
He was a little smooth chap, he said, with smooth hair an' smooth
clothes and a smooth voice. You could hardly tell it was hair, it was
that smooth. You'd nearly think somebody had painted it on his skull.
He couldn't make me out when I said I'd rather starve than let a
halfpenny of my money be used to make a mess of Glendalough, an' he
talked about the necessity of havin' a broad outlook on the world. I
suppose he went away an' told everybody that I was a reactionary an' a
bad landlord. Oh, I can hear him spoutin' away about me ... he got into
parliament soon after that, an' used to denounce landlords an' blether
away about progress. An' I daresay everybody that listens to him thinks
I'm a stupid fellow, standin' in the way of everything. I'm a landlord,
an' so, of course, I'm obsolete and tyrannical an' thick-headed, an'
all that, but I wouldn't treat one of my labourers the way your
grandfather treated his for the wide world. Mind you, he was a
religious man ... I don't mean that he pretended to be religious ... he
really was religious, after a fashion ... wouldn't have missed goin' to
church or sayin' his prayers night an' mornin' for a mint of
money ... an' yet there didn't seem to him to be anything wrong in
lettin' men an' women make money for him in that ... that disgustin'
way. I can't understand that. I'm damned if I can!
Something stirred uneasily in Henry's mind. He became acutely
conscious of the principal source of his father's income, and he
remembered things that had been said to him by Gilbert Farlow at
Rumpell's. Gilbert Farlow was his chief friend at Rumpell's, the
English school to which he had been sent after his experience at
Armagh, and Gilbert called himself an hereditary socialist because his
father had been a socialist before him. (He was one of the first
members of the Fabian Society, Gilbert used to say proudly.) Gilbert
had strong, almost violent, views on Personal Responsibility for
General Wrongs. He always referred to rich people as oligarchs, or
the rotters who live on rent and interest and declared that it was
impossible for them to escape from the responsibility for the social
chaos by asserting that they, individually, had kind hearts and had
never been known to underpay or overwork any one. Remembering Gilbert's
views, Henry could not help thinking that it was all very well for his
father to denounce the mill in that fashion, but after all he was
living on the money that was made in it....
But, father, he said, hesitatingly, haven't we got grandfather's
money now ... and the mill!...
No, not the mill, Henry. Your grandfather turned that into a
limited company, an' your mother sold her shares in it. I told her to
sell them!
Henry's conscience still pricked him. It seemed to him that selling
the shares was very like running away from the responsibility.
But all the same, he said, we've got money that was made out of
the mill by grandfather....
So we have, Henry, Mr. Quinn replied good-temperedly, an' we're
makin' a better use of it than he did. Some one's got to use it, an'
I'm doin' the best I can with it. You've only got to look at my land to
see how well I've used the money. It's better land than it was when I
got it, isn't it? Henry nodded his head. Even he knew that much. I've
enriched it an' drained it an' improved it in ways that'll benefit them
that come after me ... not me, but you an' your children, Henry ... an'
that's a good use to make of it. I've planted trees that I'll never
reap a ha'penny from, an' I've spent money on experiments that did me
no good but helped to increase knowledge about land. Look at the
labourers' cottages I've built, an' the plots of land I've given them.
Aren't they good! Didn't I put up the best part of the money to build
the new school because the old one was lettin' in the wind an' rain?
Henry's knowledge of sociology was not sufficient to enable him to
cope with these arguments ... there was no Gilbert Farlow at his elbow
to prompt him ... and so he collapsed.
I suppose you're right, father, he said.
Suppose I'm right, Mr. Quinn replied. Of course I'm
right!
I know well, he continued after he had fumed for a few moments,
there's people ... socialists an' radicals an' people like that ...
makes out that landlords are the curse of the world. They think we're
nothin' in comparison with mill-owners an' that sort, but I tell you,
Henry, whatever we are an' whatever we were, we're better than the
people that have taken our place. We didn't tear up the earth an' cover
it with slag-heaps or turn good rivers into stinkin' sewers. We didn't
pollute the rivers with filth an' poison the fish! He turned suddenly
to Henry and said in a quieter tone, You've never seen Wigan, have
you, Henry?
No, father.
Well, you'd think by the look of it, it was made on the seventh day
... when God rested. Landlords didn't do that, Henry, or anything as
bad as that. It was mill-owners that did it. Oh, I know well enough
that landlords were not all they ought to have been, but I'm certain of
this, that labourers on the land were healthier under landlords than
they are under mill-owners, and even if we weren't as good to the
labourers as we might have been, at least we had respect for God's
world, an' I never met a mill-owner yet that had respect for anything
but a bankbook. I've been in Lancashire an' I've listened to these
mill-owners ... I've listened to them talkin', an' I've listened to
them eatin' an' drinkin' ... an' they talked 'brass' an' they thought
'brass,' an' I'm damned if they didn't drink 'brass.' That's
characteristic of them. They call money 'brass.' Brass! Do you think
they care for the fine look of things or an old house or a picture or
books or anything that's decent? No, Henry ... all they care for is
'brass,' an' that's what's the matter with the English ... they think
too much about money ... easy money ... an' they think so much about
gettin' it that none of them have any time to think of how they'll
spend it when they do get it. An' they just fool it away! Eat it away,
drink it away! An' then they have to go to Buxton an' Matlock an'
Harrogate to sweat the muck out of their blood!
Henry reminded his father of the bloods and bucks and macaronis of
the eighteenth century ... the last of the English gentlemen.
After all, father, they weren't so very much better than the lot
you're denouncing!
Yes, they were. They had the tradition of gentlemen behind them.
They were drunkards and gamblers and women-hunters an' Lord knows what
not, but behind it all, Henry, they had the tradition of gentlemen, an'
that saved them from things that a mill-owner does as a matter of
course. An' anyway, their theory was right. They thought more of
spendin' money than of makin' it, an' that was right. It isn't makin'
money that matters ... any fool can do that ... it's spendin' money
that matters. You're less likely to make a mess of the world when
you're spendin', than when you're makin', money, an' the English'll
find that out yet. God'll not forget in a hurry the way they tore up
their good land an' made dirty, stinkin' towns out of it, an' by the
Holy O, He'll make them suffer for it. If I was an Englishman, I
wouldn't want any one to see places like Wigan an' the towns where they
dig coal an' make pottery ... I'd ... I'd be ashamed to look God in the
face when I had mind of them....
4
Late that night, long after Henry had gone to bed, Mr. Quinn came to
his room and wakened him.
What is it, father! Henry said, starting up in alarm.
It's all right, son, Mr. Quinn replied. I'm sorry I startled you.
I've been thinkin' over what I said to you this afternoon ... about
machinery. You're not to take me too seriously.
Henry, his eyes still full of sleep, blinked uncomprehendingly at
his father.
I mean, son, Mr. Quinn went on, that it'd be silly to break up
every machine in the world. Of course, it would! You must have thought
I was daft talkin' like that. What I mean is, I'd smash up all the
machines that make a mess of men an' women. That's all. I'm sorry I
disturbed you, Henry, but I couldn't bear to think of you lyin' here
mebbe thinkin' I was talkin' out of the back of my neck. I'm not very
clever, son ... I've a moidhered sort of a mind ... an' I say things
sometimes that aren't what I mean at all. You must be tired out, Henry.
Good-night to you!
Good-night, father!
Mr. Quinn walked towards the door of the room, shading the light of
the candle from the draught, but before he had reached it, Henry called
to him.
Father, he said.
Yes, Henry, Mr. Quinn replied, turning to look at his son.
You're a Socialist!
No, I'm not. I'm a Conservative, said Mr. Quinn, and then he went
out of the room, closing the door quietly behind him.
5
Many things troubled Mr. Quinn, but the thing that troubled him most
was his son's nervousness. Henry, when he was a child, would cry with
fright during a thunderstorm, and he never in after life quite lost the
sense of apprehension when the clouds blackened. He loved horses, but
he could not sit on a horse's back without being haunted by the fear
that the animal would run away or that he would be thrown from his
seat. He could swim fairly well, but he was afraid to dive, and he
never swam far out of his depth without a sensation of alarm that he
would not be able to return in safety.
Your mother was like that, Mr. Quinn said to him once. She never
was in a theatre in her life, 'til I married her. Her father was too
religious to let her go to such a place, an' I had the great job to
persuade her to go with me. I took her to see Henry Irving in Belfast
once, an' all the time she kept whisperin' to me, 'Suppose I was to die
now, where'd I wake up?' That's a fact, Henry! Your mother was terribly
frightened of hell. An' even when she got over that, she was always
wonderin' if it was safe to go to a theatre. She'd imagine the place
was sure to go on fire, an' then she'd be burned alive or get crushed
to death or somethin' like that. I nearly felt scared myself, the way
she went on! I wish you weren't so nervous, Henry!
They were at Cushendall when Mr. Quinn said this. They had ridden
over on bicycles intent on a day's picnic by the sea, and soon after
they had arrived, Mr. Quinn itched to be in the water. They had
stripped on the beach, and clambered over the rocks to a place where a
deep, broad pool was separated from the Irish Sea by a thick wedge of
rock, covered by long, yellow sea-weed. There was a swell on the sea,
and so Mr. Quinn decided to swim in the pool. This is a good place for
a dive, he said, standing on the edge of the flat rock and looking
down into the deep pool, and then he put his hands above his head and,
bending forward, dived down into the water so finely that there was
hardly any splash. He came up, puffing and blowing, shaking the water
from his eyes and hair, and swam up and down the pool, now on his back,
now on his side, and then suddenly with a shout he would curl himself
up and dive and swim beneath the water, and again come up, red and
shiny and puffing and blowing and shouting, Aw, that's grand! Aw,
that's grand! He could stand on his hands in the water and turn
somersaults and find pennies on the sandy bottom. He loved all sport,
but the sport that he loved best was swimming. He liked to sit on a
rock and let great waves come and hit him hearty thumps in the back. He
liked to bury his face in the water. He liked the feel of the water on
his body. He liked to stand up in the sunshine and watch the drops of
water glistening on his body. He liked to lie on the sea-weed or the
sand after his swim and let the sun dry him. It's great health, this!
he would say, kicking and splashing in the sea.
Come on, he shouted to Henry, after he had dived.
Henry was sitting on the sea-weed, with his arms clutched tightly
round his shins, shivering a little in the wind.
You'll catch your death of cold if you sit there instead of jumpin'
in, his father called to him. Dive, man! That's a grand place!
Henry stood up ... and then turned away from the rock. He caught
hold of the sea-weed and slowly lowered himself into the water.
That wasn't much of a dive, his father said, swimming up to him.
Henry did not answer. He swam across the pool and clambered out on
the other side and waited for his father, who followed after him.
I wish you weren't so nervous, Mr. Quinn said a second time, as he
sat down on the sea-weed beside his son.
So do I, father, Henry replied, but I can't help it. I try to
make myself not feel afraid, but I just can't. If I could only not
think about it!...
Aye, that's it, Henry. You think too much. Do you mind that bit in
Shakespeare about people that think bein' dangerous. Begod, that's
true! Thin men think, that's what Shakespeare says, an' he's right,
though I've known fat men to think, too, but anyway thin men aren't
near the swimmers that fat men are. Well, I suppose it's no use
complainin'. You can't help thinkin' if you have that kind of a mind
... only I wish it didn't make a coward of you!
A twist of pain passed over the boy's face when his father said
Coward, and instantly Mr. Quinn was sorry.
I didn't mean that exactly, he said very quickly, putting out his
hand and touching Henry's bare back. I didn't mean coward,
Henry. I know you're not that sort at all. It's just nervousness,
that's what it is!
He scrambled to his feet as he spoke, and stood for a moment or two,
slipping about on the wet sea-weed. He slapped his big, hairy chest
with his hands, and then he swung his arms over his head in order to
send the blood circulating more rapidly through his veins.
I wish I were as big and strong as you are, father! said Henry,
gazing at his father's muscular frame.
You're a greedy young rascal, his father answered. Sure, haven't
you more brains in your wee finger than I have in my whole body, an'
what more do you want! It would be a poor thing if your father hadn't
got something you haven't. Come on, now, an' I'll swim you a race to
the end of the pool an' back, an' then we must go home.
He plunged into the water and swam about, making a great noise and
splash, and deliberately looking away from his son. He was giving him
an opportunity to slip into the water without being seen to shrink from
the dive.
Are you comin', Henry! he asked, without looking back.
Yes, father, the boy replied, standing up and looking fearfully
into the water. He lifted his hands above his head and drew in his
breath. He moved forward, half shutting his eyes, and poised himself on
the edge of the rock, ready for the plunge. Then he put his hands down
again and lowering himself on to the sea-weed, slipped slowly into the
water and struck out. I'm coming, father! he said.
That's right, my son, that's right! Mr. Quinn replied, looking
round.
6
He did not speak of Henry's nervousness again, but it troubled him
none the less. He himself was so fearless, so careless of danger, so
eager for adventure that he could not understand his son's shrinking
from peril.
I used to think, he said to himself one day, that boys took their
physique from their mothers an' their brains from their fathers, but it
doesn't seem to have worked out like that with Henry. He doesn't seem
to have got anything from me.... It's a rum business, whatever way you
look at it.
THE SECOND CHAPTER
1
Mr. Quinn's horror of the English people was neither consistent nor
rigid. When the Armagh schoolmaster was found wanting, Mr. Quinn
instantly decided to send Henry to Rumpell's, a famous English school,
and here Henry soon made friends of Ninian Graham and Roger Carey and
Gilbert Farlow. Gilbert Farlow was the friend for whom he cared most,
but his affection for Ninian Graham and Roger Carey was very strong.
Henry's soft nature was naturally affectionate, but there had been
little opportunity in his life for a display of affection. His mother
was not even a memory to him, for she had died while he was still a
baby. Old Cassie Arnott had nursed him, but Cassie, at an age when it
seemed impossible for her to feel any emotion for men, had suddenly
married and had gone off to Belfast. His memory of her speedily faded.
Cassie was succeeded by Matilda Turnbull, who drank, and was dismissed
by Mr. Quinn at the end of a fortnight; and then came Bridget
Fallon.... Bridget had the longest hold on his memory, but she, too,
disappeared and was seen no more; for Mr. Quinn came on her suddenly
one day and found her teaching Master Henry to say prayers to the
Virgin Mary! She had put a scapular about his neck and had taught him
to make the sign of the cross....
Take that damned rag off my child's neck, Mr. Quinn had roared at
her, an' take yourself off as soon as you can pack your box!
And Bridget, poor, kindly, devout, gentle Bridget, was sent weeping
away.
Long afterwards, Henry had talked to his father about Bridget, and
Mr. Quinn had expressed regret for what he had said about the scapular.
I had no call to say it was a damned rag, he said, though that's all
it was. It meant a lot to her, of course, an' I suppose she was right
to try an' make a Catholic of you. But I'd hate to have a son of mine a
Catholic, Henry. It's an unmanly religion, only fit for women an' ...
an' actors! It's not religion at all ... it's funk, Henry, that's what
it is! I read 'The Garden of the Soul' one time, an' I'd be ashamed to
pray the way that book goes on, with their 'Jesus, Mercy!' 'Mother of
God, pity me!' 'Holy Saints, intercede for me!' Catholics don't pray,
Henry; they whine; and I've no use for whinin'. If I can't go to heaven
like a man, I'll go to hell like one. Anyway, if I commit a sin, I'll
not whine about it, an' if God says to me on the last day, 'Did you
commit this sin or that sin?' I'll answer Him to His face an' say,
'Yes, God, I did, an' if You'd been a man, You'd have done the same
Yourself!'
So it was that, in his childhood, no woman made a lasting impression
on Henry's affectionate nature. No one, indeed, filled his affections
except his father. Henry's love for his father was unfathomable. Their
natures were so dissimilar that they never clashed. There were things
about Henry, his nervousness, his sudden accessions of fright, which
puzzled Mr. Quinn, and might, had he been a smaller man than he was,
have made him angry with the boy, contemptuous of him; but when Mr.
Quinn came across some part of Henry's nature which was
incomprehensible to him, he tried first, to understand and then,
failing that, to be tolerant. We all have our natures, he used to say
to himself, an' it's no use complainin' because people are different.
Sure, that's what makes them interestin' anyway!
2
But Henry's affection for Gilbert Farlow and Ninian Graham and Roger
Carey was a new affection, a thing that came spontaneously to him.
There were other boys at Rumpell's whom he liked and others for whom he
felt neither like nor dislike, but just the ordinary tolerance of
temporary encounters and passing life; and there were a few for whom he
felt a hatred so venomous that it sometimes frightened him. There was
Cobain, a brutal, thick-jawed fellow who thumped small boys whenever
they came near him, and there was Mullally!... He could not describe
his feeling for Mullally! It was so strong that he could not sit still
in the same room with him, could not speak civilly to him. And yet
Mullally was civil enough to him, was anxious even to be friendly with
him. There was something of a flabby sort in Mullally's nature that
made Henry instinctively angry with him: his vague features, his weak,
wandering eyes, peering from behind large glasses, his tow-coloured
hair that seemed to have washed-out, and above all, his squeaky voice
that piped on one jerky note....
It was Gilbert Farlow who gave Mullally his nick-name. (It was the
time of the Boer War, and the nick-name came easily enough.) He isn't
a man, said Gilbert; he's a regrettable incident!
Gilbert Farlow, though he was the youngest and the slightest of the
four boys, was the leader of them. He had the gift of vivid language.
He could cut a man with a name as sharply as if it were a knife. He
invented new oaths for the delight of Ninian Graham, who had a taste
for strong language but no genius in developing it. It was he who
appointed Roger to the office of Purse-Bearer because Roger was
careful. It was he who decided that their pocket-money, with small
exceptions, should be spent conjointly, and that no money should be
spent unless three out of four consented to the expenditure. (Damn it,
is it my money or is it not? said Ninian when the rule was proposed,
and Fined sixpence for cheek! Gilbert replied, ordering Roger to
collect the sixpence which was then divided between the three who had
not murmured.) It was he who declared that Henry was too long and
Quinn, too short (though Roger said the words were exactly the same
length) and insisted on calling Henry Quinny (which Roger said was
actually longer than either of the displaced words. Well, it sounds
shorter, said Gilbert decisively).
Gilbert planned their lives for them. We'll all go to Cambridge,
he said, and then we'll become Great!
Righto! said Ninian.
If any of our people propose to send us to Oxford, there's to be a
row! Sloppy asses go to Oxford ... fellows like Mullally! Henry made a
terrible grimace at the mention of Mullally's name and Gilbert, swift
to notice the grimace, pointed the moral, Well, Quinny, if your
guv'nor tries to send you to Oxford, don't let him. Remember Mullally,
the ... the boiled worm! he continued, an' say you won't go!
But my father was at Oxford, said Roger quietly.
Your father was a parson and didn't know any better, Gilbert
replied. And that reminds me, if one of us becomes a parson, the rest
of us give him the chuck. Is that agreed?
Ninian held up both his hands. Carried unanimous! he said.
I don't know! Henry objected. I used to think it'd be rather nice
to be a parson ... standing in the pulpit in a surplice and talking
like that to people!
Gilbert got up from the grass where they were sitting. He'll have
to be scragged, he said.
Righto! said Ninian, and the three of them seized Henry and flung
him to the ground and sat on him until he swore by the blood of his
forefathers that he would never, never consent to be a clergyman. Or
give pi-jaws of any sort! said Gilbert.
Lemme go! Henry squeaked, struggling to throw them off his back.
When you've promised!...
Oh, all right, then!
They released him and he stood up and straightened his clothes and
searched his mind for something of a devastating character to say.
Funny ass! he said at last, and then they scragged him again for
being cheeky.
But he would have submitted to any amount of scragging from them
because they were his friends and because he loved Gilbert and because
they, too, in their turn submitted to being scragged.
3
When Henry had been at Rumpell's for a year, Ninian Graham asked him
to spend the Easter holidays at his home in Devonshire. I'll get my
mater to write and ask you, he said. Henry hesitated. He had never
spent a holiday away from home, and he knew that his father liked him
to return to Ireland whenever he had the chance to do so. He himself
enjoyed going home, but suddenly, when Henry had finished speaking, he
felt a strong desire to accept this invitation. I'll have to ask my
father, he replied, and added, I'd like to, Ninian. Thanks awf'lly!
He had heard his father speak so contemptuously of English people
that he was almost afraid to ask him for permission to accept Ninian's
invitation. He wondered how he would explain his father's refusal to
Ninian who was so kind.... But his fears were not warranted, for Mr.
Quinn replied to his letter, urging him to accept the invitation.
Enjoy yourself, he wrote. The English are very
hospitable when you get to know them, and the only way you can get to
know them is to go and live in their homes! But I'll expect you to come
here in the summer. You can bring your friends with you, the whole lot.
William Henry says there'll be a grand lot of strawberries and
goosegogs this year and you can all make yourselves as sick as you like
on them. He signed himself, Your affectionate Father, Henry
Quinn.
And so Henry had gone that Easter to Boveyhayne, where Mrs. Graham
and her daughter Mary lived. Ninian and he had travelled by train to
Whitcombe where they were met by old Widger and driven over hilly
country to Boveyhayne. There was a long climb out of Whitcombe and then
a long descent into Boveyhayne, after which the road ran on the level
to the end of Hayne lane which led to the Manor. Before they reached
the end of the lane, Old Widger turned to them and, pointing with his
whip in front of him, said, laughingly, Here be Miss Mary waitin' for
'ee, Mas'er Ninyan!
Ninian stood up in the carriage and looked ahead. Hilloa, Mary! he
shouted, waving his hand, and then, before Old Widger had time to pull
up, he jumped into the road and ran on ahead. Come on, Quinny! he
shouted, and Henry, suddenly shy, got out of the carriage and followed
after him.
You needn't wait for us, Widger! Ninian shouted again. We'll walk
home!
And Widger, smiling largely, drove on.
4
Mary Graham was younger than Ninian, nearly two years younger, and
very different from him. He was big in body and bone, and fair and very
hearty in his manner. When Ninian approved of you he did not pat your
back: he punched it so that your bones rattled and your flesh tingled.
All his movements were large, splashy, as Gilbert said, and, his voice
was incapable of whispers. But Mary was slight and small and dark and
her laugh was like the sound of a little silver bell. She was standing
on an earth mound at the entrance to the lane when Henry came up to
Ninian and her, and he wondered to himself how her small, shapely head
could bear the weight of the long dark hair which fell about her
shoulders in a thick, flowing pile. Ninian was chattering to her so
loudly and so rapidly that Henry could hardly hear her replies....
Oh, this is Quinny! Ninian said, jerking his thumb in Henry's
direction. His real name is Quinn, Henry Quinn, but we call him
'Quinny.' At least, Gilbert does, so, of course we do too. And he's
Irish, but he isn't a Catholic, and he says Irish people don't keep
pigs in their houses, and they eat other things besides potatoes and
... come on, Quinny, buck up and be civil!
Mary stepped down from the mound, and held out her hand to Henry.
How do you do! she said, smiling at him, and he took her hand and
said he was very well and asked her how she did, and she said she was
very well, and then she smiled again, and so Henry smiled too.
Ninian had moved on up the lane. Buck up, you two! he said. I'm
hungry! He started to run, thinking of tea, and then he suddenly
checked himself and came back. I say, Mary, he said, Quinny's
fearfully gone on wildflowers and birds and ... and Nature ... and that
sort of stuff. Show him the primroses and things, will you? I've got an
awful hunger and I want to see the mater. Oh, Quinny, these are
primroses, these yellow things, and Mary'll show you anything else you
want to see. There's a jolly lot of honeysuckle and hazelnuts in these
hedges later on. So long! He went off again, running in a heavy,
lumbering fashion because of the ascent and the broken, stony ground.
Henry stood still, waiting for Mary to make a decision. He could not
think of anything to say and so he just smiled. He began to feel hot
and uncomfortable, and it seemed to him suddenly that Mary must think
he was a frightful fool, maundering about primroses and wild violets
and bluebells, and yet not able to say a word for himself in her
presence ... standing there, grinning like ... like anything, and ...
and not saying a word.
She was standing sideways, with her head turned to look at her
brother, now disappearing round a bend in the lane, and Henry was able
to observe her more closely. He saw that she was wearing a short frock,
reaching to her knees, and he plucked up heart. She's only a kid, he
said to himself, and then said aloud to her, It's awf'lly nice here!
She turned towards him as he spoke and he saw that her face was
still smiling. Yes, isn't it? she answered. Shall we go on now, or
would you like to gather some primroses. There are lots in this lane,
or if you like to walk up to the copse, there are more there, and we
can mix them with bluebells. I think primroses and bluebells are lovely
together, don't you?
He thought it would be nicer to go to the copse, and so they moved
on up the lane.
I like these high hedges, he said. We don't have high hedges in
Ireland. In lots of places we don't have hedges at allonly stone
walls!
Mary made a grimace. I shouldn't like that, she exclaimed. I love
hedges ... best in the spring because then they're new. There's always
something living in them. I never go by the hedges without hearing
something moving inside ... birds and mice and things. Of course, it's
very stuffy in the lanes in summer because the hedges are so high and
the leaves are so thick and the air can't get through!... Look! Look!
She climbed on to the bars of a gate, and pointed, and he climbed on to
the bars beside her, and saw the English Channel, shining like a sheet
of silver in the setting sun.
Can you see the trawlers coming home? she said. Out there! Do you
see? Those are our boats ... the Boveyhayne boats. That one with the
brown sails is Tom Yeo's boat. He's awf'lly nice and his wife's going
to have a baby. He told me so, and they hope it'll be a boy because Jim
Rattenburythat's Tom Yeo's mate in the boat ... his wife had a
daughter last month, and they all think it would be awf'lly nice if
Tom's son were to grow up and marry Jim's daughter, and I think it
would, and of course it would, wouldn't it?
Would it? said Henry.
Of course it would. It would be so nice for everybody, and then the
boat could be left to Tom's son and it would belong to Jim's daughter,
too. I think that would be very nice! I do hope they've caught a
lot of fish! She jumped down from the gate and clapped her hands
together. I know, she said. We won't pluck primroses now. We'll go
home and simply swallow our tea like lightning, and then we'll tear
down to the beach and see them landing the fish. Come on, let's run!
She started off and then suddenly checked herself and said, Oh, I
think I'd better call you 'Quinny,' like Ninian. It'll save a lot of
trouble, won't it? Mother won't call you that. She'll probably call you
'Henry' or 'Harry.' If we hurry up, we'll be just in time to see the
boats beached!
She ran off, laughing pleasantly, and he followed after her.
That's the copse, she shouted, pointing to the trees on her left.
We'll soon be there!
They reached the top of the lane and crossed a narrow public road,
and then were in a broad avenue, almost arched by trees, at the end of
which was the Manor. It was a squarely-built sixteenth century house,
made of stone, taken from the Roman quarry a mile or two away on the
road to Franscombe. The first Graham to own it received it and the
lands adjacent to it from Henry the Second, and ever since that time a
Graham had been lord of the manor of Boveyhayne. Ninian was the last of
his line. If he were to die, there would be no more Grahams at
Boveyhayne. That was the fear that haunted Mrs. Graham....
Mary ran swiftly across the grass in the centre of the avenue and
pushed open the gate that led through a fine stone arch. She held the
gate open for Henry, and then they both passed up the flagged path into
the house.
Mother, mother! Mary shouted, quickly entering the drawing-room,
here's Quinny, and please can we have tea at once because the trawlers
are just coming home and we want to see them being beached and ... oh,
I say, my hands are messy, aren't they. Still, it doesn't matter! I can
wash them afterwards.
My dear! said Mrs. Graham reproachfully, and then she turned to
greet Henry who had become awkward again. How do you do, Mr. Quinn,
she said, holding her hand out to him.
Henry flushed deeply. It was the first time any one had ever called
him Mister, and he was very glad that Ninian was not present to hear.
He was quite well, he said. No, he was not a bit tired. Yes, he would
rather like to go to his room.... A maid had followed him into the
room, and Mrs. Graham asked her to show Mr. Quinn to his room, and,
flushing deeper still, he turned to go with her. As he left the room,
he heard Mary saying to Mrs. Graham, Oh, mother, you mustn't call him
Mr. Quinn. He blushed frightfully when you said that. His name is
'Quinny,' or you can call him 'Henry' if you like!
I think I'll call him 'Henry,' my dear! said Mrs. Graham.
5
It seemed to Henry that Mrs. Graham was the most beautiful woman in
the world, and he had a great longing that she would draw him to her,
as she drew Ninian, and put her arms about him and kiss him. Sometimes
he had faint memories of the way in which poor Bridget Fallon had
hugged him, and how she had cried over him once when she told him that
his soul would be damned forever because he was a black Protestant.
... He remembered that episode more vividly than any other because he
had howled with fear when she narrated the pains and torments of hell
to him. There had been a Mission at the chapel the previous week, and a
preaching friar had frightened the wits out of her with his description
of the bad place. He had told the congregation of scared servants and
frightened labourers that they would be laid on red-hot bars in hell
and that the devil would send demons to nip their flesh with burning
pincers.... Henry could not be comforted until she had promised to
rescue him from the Evil One, and when she bade him wear the scapular,
he hurriedly hung it round his neck as if he were afraid that before he
could get it on, the Devil would have him.... Well, Bridget had loved
him very tenderly, and of all the women he had ever known, she seemed
to him to be the most beautiful. But Mrs. Graham was more beautiful
than Bridget, more beautiful than Bridget could ever be. There was
something so exquisite in her movements, her smile (Mary had her smile)
and her soft sweet voice with its slight Devonshire burr, that Henry
felt he wished to sit beside her and walk with her and always be by
her. His sudden, growing love for her made him feel bold, and he lost
the shy, nervous sensation he had had when he first came into her
presence and heard her call him Mr. Quinn, and so, when Ninian and
Mary talked about the trawlers, he turned to Mrs. Graham quite
naturally, and said, Won't you come to the beach, too, Mrs. Graham?
Instantly Ninian and Mary were clamorous that she should go with them,
and so she consented....
We'll have to hurry, said Mary, because the boats come in awf'lly
quick.
My dear, I can't run, Mrs. Graham said.
It was Ninian who suggested that Widger should harness the pony and
that they should drive down to the beach in the buggy....
Yes, yes, said Mary.
And Ninian went off to tell Widger to hurry harder than he had ever
hurried before in his life.
I'll do that for 'ee, Mas'er Ninyan, sure 'nough! said Widger.
But Ninian and Mary were too impatient to wait for the buggy, and so
they set off together, leaving Henry to follow with Mrs. Graham.
Quinny'll drive you down, mater, Ninian said.
Mrs. Graham turned to Henry. You won't let Peggy run away with me,
will you? she said, pretending to be alarmed, and Mary and Ninian
burst into laughter at the thought of Peggy ... which was short for
Pegasus ... running away with any one.
He's fat and lazy, said Ninian.
He goes to sleep in the shafts, Mary added, running out of the
drawing-room on Ninian's heels.
6
Boveyhayne Bay is a little bay within the very large bay that is
guarded at one end by Portland Bill and at the other end by Start
Point. It lies in the shelter of two white cliffs which keep its water
quiet even when the sea outside is rough, and so it is a fine home for
fishermen though there is no harbour and the trawlers have to be hauled
up the shingly beach every night. Nowhere else on that coast are chalk
cliffs to be found, and the sudden whiteness of Boveyhayne Head and the
White Cliff shining out of the red clay of the adjoining cliffs is a
sign to sailors, passing down the Channel on their homeward beat, that
they are off the coast of Devonshire. Mrs. Graham talked to Henry about
the fishermen as they drove down Bovey Lane towards the village.
I love Boveyhayne, she said, because the people are so fine. They
rely on themselves far more than any other people I know. That's
because they're fishermen, I suppose, and have no employers. They work
for themselves ... and it's frightfully hard work too. People come to
Boveyhayne in the summer, but they can't spoil it because the villagers
don't depend on visitors for a living: they depend on themselves ...
and the sea. There isn't a man in Boveyhayne who is pretending to be a
fisherman and is really a cadger on summer visitors. Some of them won't
be bothered to take people out in rowing-boatsthey feel that that is
work for the old. I used to wonder, she went on, why it was that I
didn't really like the villagers in other places, but I never found out
why until I came to Boveyhayne, and it was simply because I felt
instinctively that they were spongers ... those other people ... that
they hadn't any real work to do, and that they were living on us like
... like ticks on a sheep. The Boveyhayne men are splendid men. It
wouldn't make any difference ... much difference, anyhow ... to them if
another visitor never came to the place. And that is how it ought to be
in every village in England!
Henry was not quite certain that he understood all that she was
saying, but he liked to listen to her, and so he did not interrupt her,
except to say Yes and I suppose so when it seemed that she was
waiting for him to say something.
Do you like being in England? she asked him suddenly.
Oh, yes, he answered.
Would you rather be in England than in Ireland?
He did not know. He liked being at home with his father, but he also
liked being at Rumpell's with Gilbert and Roger and Ninian, and now he
felt that he would like to be at Boveyhayne with Mrs. Graham and Mary.
Perhaps you like people better than you like places, Mrs. Graham
said.
I don't know, he replied. I hadn't thought about that.
You must come again to Boveyhayne. Perhaps, in the summer, Gilbert
and Roger will come, too!
Henry thought that that would be awf'lly jolly....
They turned down the village street and left Peggy at the foot of it
while they went down the slope leading on to the beach where the
trawlers were now being hauled up by the aid of hand winches. Henry
could see Mary and Ninian in the group of fishermen who were working
the nearest winch. They had hold of one of the wooden bars and were
helping to push it round.
We'll go down to the boats, said Mrs. Graham, and see the fish!
She put her hand on his shoulder, and he helped to steady her as
they walked across the shingle to where the boats were slowly climbing
out of the sea over wooden runners on to the high stones.
One of the boats had already been hauled up, and the fishermen,
having thrown out their gear, were now getting ready to sell their
fish. They threw out a heap of skate and dun-cows,[1] and auctioned
them to the dealers standing by.
They're still alive, Henry whispered to Mrs. Graham as he watched
the dun-cows curling their bodies and the skate gasping in the air. He
looked over the side of the trawler and saw baskets of dabs and plaice
and some soles and turbot and a couple of crabs. A plaice flapped
helplessly and fell off the heap in the basket on to the bottom of the
boat, and one of the fishermen trod on it.... They're all
alive, Henry said, turning again to Mrs. Graham.
Yes, she answered.
But ... isn't it cruel? Oughtn't they to kill them?
It would take a long time to kill all those fish, she said. Most
of them are dead already, and the others will be dead soon....
But he could not rid himself of the feeling that the fish were
suffering agonies, and he began to feel sick with pity.
I think I'll go and see Mary and Ninian, he said to Mrs. Graham,
edging away from the boat.
All right, she replied.
But Ninian and Mary were on their way down to the boats, and so he
did not get far.
Come and see them cutting up the skate and dun-cows! said Ninian,
catching hold of Henry's arm and pulling him back.
Yes, let's, Mary added.
The sick feeling was growing stronger in Henry. He hated the sight
of blood. Once he had been ill in the street because William Henry
Matier had shown a dead rabbit to him, the blood dribbling from its
mouth ... and the sight of a butcher's shop always filled him with
nausea. He did not wish to see the skate cut up, but he felt that Mary
would despise him if he did not go with Ninian and her, so he followed
after them.
The fishermen were sharpening their knives on the stones when they
came up to them, and then one of them seized a dun-cow and struck its
head on the shingle and cut it open, while another fisherman inserted
his knife into the quivering body of a skate and cut out the entrails
and the head in circular pieces.
But they're alive, said Henry.
Of course, they're alive, said Ninian, seizing a dun-cow and
smacking its head against the beach. Here you are, Jim, he added,
passing the dun-cow to a fisherman. Here's another one!
Henry could not stay any longer. He turned away quickly and almost
ran up the beach. Hilloa, Ninian shouted after him, where are you
going?
He stopped for a moment and looked back, wondering what excuse he
should make for his running away. I ... I'm just going to see if ...
if Peggy's all right!
She's all right, Ninian replied.
I think I'll just go all the same, said Henry.
But you'll miss it all, Mary called to him.
I'll ... I'll come back presently, he answered.
7
He had finished a game of cards with Mary and then Mary had gone off
to bed. She had kissed her mother and Ninian, and then she held out her
hand to him and said Good-night, Quinny! and he said Good-night,
Mary! and held the door open for her so that she might pass out.
Let's go out in a boat to-morrow, she said. We'll go to the
Smugglers' Cave....
Yes, let's, he answered.
When she had gone, Mrs. Graham called him to her. Come and sit
here, she said, pointing to a footstool at her feet. Ninian was trying
to solve a chess problem and was deaf to the whole world....
I suppose you didn't like to see the fish being gutted, Henry?
Mrs. Graham said.
He glanced up at her quickly. He had not spoken of his feeling to
any of them because he was ashamed of it. It's namby-pamby of me, he
had said to himself. He flushed as he looked up, fearing that she must
despise him for his weakness, and he almost denied that he had had any
feeling at all about it; but he did not deny it. I couldn't bear it,
Mrs. Graham, he said quickly in a low voice. I felt I should be ill
if I stayed there any longer!
I used to feel like that, she said, patting his shoulder, but you
soon get used to it. The fishermen aren't really cruel. They are the
kindest men I know!
Ninian, having failed to solve his chess problem, got up from the
table and stretched himself and yawned.
I'm going to bed, Quinny, he said. Are you coming?
Henry rose and shook hands with Mrs. Graham. Good-night, he said.
Good-night, Henry! she replied. I hope you'll sleep well. And
then she turned to kiss Ninian, who pushed a sleepy face against hers.
8
In the morning, there were fried plaice for breakfast, and Henry ate
two of them.
These are some of the fish you saw on the beach last night, said
Mrs. Graham.
Oh, yes, said Henry, reaching for the toast, and swallowing a
mouthful of the fish. And jolly nice, too!
FOOTNOTES:
[Footnote 1: Dog-fish.]
THE THIRD CHAPTER
1
He stayed at Boveyhayne until the time came to return to Rumpell's,
and the holiday passed so quickly that he could not believe that it was
really over. They had picnicked in the Smugglers' Cave and on
Boveyhayne Common where the gorse was in bloom, and Henry had plucked
whinblossoms to dye Easter eggs when he found that the Grahams did not
know that whinblossoms could be used in this way. You boil the
blossoms and the eggs together, and the eggs come out a lovely
browny-yellow colour. We always dye our eggs like that in the north of
Ireland! And on the day they picnicked on Boveyhayne Common, Mrs.
Graham took them down the side of the hill to the big farm at
Franscombe and treated them to a Devonshire tea: bread and butter and
raspberry jam and cream, cream piled thick on the jam, and cake. (But
they ate so much of the bread and butter and jam and cream that they
could not eat the cake.) And they swam every day.... Mary was like a
sea-bird: she seemed to swim on the crest of every wave as lightly as a
feather, and was only submerged when she chose to thrust her head into
the body of some wave swelling higher and higher until its curled top
could stay no longer and it pitched forward and fell in a white, spumy
pile on the shore. She would climb over the stern of a rowing-boat and
then plunge from it into the sea again, and come up laughing with the
water streaming from her face and hair, or dive beneath Ninian and pull
his feet until he kicked out....
And then the last evening of his visit came. The vicar of Boveyhayne
and his wife were to dine at the Manor that night, and so they were
bidden to put on their company manners and their evening clothes.
Ninian grumbled lustily when he heard the news, for he had made
arrangements with a fisherman to clean a skate that evening when the
trawlers came home. I bet him thruppence I could do it as good as he
could, and now I'll have to pay up. Beastly swizz, that's what it is!
he said to Henry in the stable where he was busy rubbing down Peggy,
although Peggy did not need or wish to be rubbed down. I think Mother
ought to give me the thruppence anyhow!...
After dinner, Ninian and Henry and Mary had contrived to miss the
drawing-room, whither Mrs. Graham led the Vicar and his wife, and they
went to the room which had been the nursery and was now a work-room,
and lit the fire and sat round it, talking and telling tales and
reading until the time came for Mary to go to bed.
We're going soon, too! said Ninian. We've got to get up jolly
early to-morrow, blow it! I hate getting up early!
Henry yawned and stretched out his hands to the fire. I wish I
weren't going to-morrow, he said, half reflectively.
So do I, Mary exclaimed.
She was sitting on the floor beside him and he turned to look at
her, a little startled by the suddenness of her speech.
I wish you weren't going, she said, sitting up and leaning against
him as she was accustomed to lean against Ninian. It's been great fun
this Easter!
Ninian caught hold of her hair and pulled it. He isn't a bad chap,
old Quinny, he said. Soft-hearted, a bit!
Shut up, Ninian! Henry shouted, punching him in the ribs.
But Ninian would not shut up. Blubs like anything if you kill a
rabbit or anything. He eats them all the same!
Mary put her hands over Ninian's mouth. Leave Quinny alone,
Ninian, she said. He's much nicer than you, and I do think it's
horrid of you to go gutting fish just for fun. The fishermen have to do
it, else we wouldn't get any breakfast, and of course plaice are very
nice for breakfast....
Yahhh! yelled Ninian.
Well, anyhow, she continued, Quinny's much nicer than you are.
Aren't you, Quinny?
No, he isn't, Ninian asserted stoutly. I'm ten times nicer than
he is!
No, you're not....
Henry, embarrassed at first by Mary's admiration, plucked up his
spirits and joined in.
Of course, I'm nicer than you are, Ninian, he said. Anybody could
see that with half an eye in his head!
All right, then, I'll fight you for it, Ninian replied, squaring
up at him in mock rage.
I'll box your ears for you, Ninian Graham! said Mary, and I won't
let Quinny fight you, and Quinny, if you dare to fight him, I shan't
like you any more....
Then I won't fight him, Mary. She's saved your life, Ninian, he
said, turning to his friend.
Yahhh! Ninian shouted.
I'll get up very early to-morrow morning, said Mary, as she
prepared to leave them, and perhaps mother'll let me drive to
Whitcombe with you to see you off!
No, Ninian objected, we don't want you blubbing all over the
platform!...
I shan't blub, Ninian. I never blub!...
Yes, you do. You always blub. You blubbed the last time and made me
feel an awful ass! he persisted.
Well, I shan't blub this time, or if I do, it won't be about
you.... Anyhow, I shall get up early and see Quinny off. I like
Quinny!...
Ninian pointed at Henry, and burst out laughing. Oh! Oh, he's
blushing! Look at him! Oh! Oh!!
Shut up, Ninian, you ass! said Henry, turning away.
Mary went over to him and took hold of his arm. Never mind,
Quinny, she said, I do like you. Good-night!
Then she went out and left him alone with Ninian.
I suppose, said Ninian when she had gone, we ought to go down and
say something to the Vicar!
2
That night, Henry went to bed in the knowledge that he loved Mary
Graham. I'll marry her, he said, as he stripped his clothes off.
That's what I'll do. I'll jolly well marry her!
In the excitement of his love, he forgot to wash his hands and face
and clean his teeth, and he climbed into bed and lay there thinking
about Mary. I suppose, he said, I ought to tell her about it. That
ass, Ninian'll be sure to laugh if I tell him! He sat up suddenly in
bed. Lord, he exclaimed, I forgot to wash! He got out of bed and
washed himself. Beastly fag, cleaning your teeth, he murmured, and
then went back to bed.
I know, he said, as he blew out the candle and hauled the clothes
well about his neck. I'll make Ninian look after the luggage and
stuff, and then I'll tell her. On the platform! I hope she won't be
cross about it! And then he fell asleep.
3
In the morning, they went off, Mary with them, and they stood up in
the carriage and waved their hands to Mrs. Graham until the dip in the
road hid her from their view. Ninian, who had been so disdainful of
blubbers the night before, sat down in a corner of the carriage and
looked miserable, but neither Mary nor Henry said anything to him. They
drove slowly down the Lane because it was difficult to do otherwise,
but when they had come into the road that leads to Franscombe, Widger
whipped up the horse, and the carriage moved quickly through the
village, past the schools, until they came to the long hill out of the
village ... and there Jim Rattenbury was waiting for them.
I brought 'ee a li'l bit o' fish, Mas'er Ninyan, he said, putting
a basket into the carriage.
I say, Jim! Ninian exclaimed, forgetting his misery for a while.
They thanked him for the gift and enquired about the baby Rattenbury
and wished him good-luck in the mackerel fishing, and were about to go
on when Ninian recollected his failure to keep his appointment with Tom
Yeo on the previous evening. Oh, Jim, he said, I bet Tom Yeo
thruppence I'd 'clean' a skate as good as he can, but I couldn't come
... so here's the thruppence. You might give it to Tom for me, will
you!
Jim Rattenbury waved the money away. Ah, that be all right, Mas'er
Ninyan, he exclaimed. You can try your 'and at it nex' time you comes
'ome. I'll tell Tom. 'Er'll be glad to 'ave longer to get ready for it,
'er will! He laughed at his own joke, and they laughed, too. Good
luck to 'ee, Mas'er Ninyan, Jim went on, an' to 'ee too, sir! he
added, turning to Henry.
And me, Jim, and me! Mary said impetuously.
Why, of course, Miss Mary, an' to 'ee, too!
They drove on up the hill, from which they could look down on the
village, tucked snugly in the hollow of the rising lands, and along the
top of the ridge, gaining glimpses of the blue Channel, dotted far out
with the sails of trawlers, and down the hair-pin road where the pine
trees stand like black sentinels, through Whitcombe to the station....
I wish we weren't going!... one or other of them said as they
drove on.
I'd love to have another swim, said Ninian.
Or go out in a boat, said Henry.
The carriage entered the station-yard and they got out and walked
towards the platform. There were very few people travelling by that
early train, and Henry was glad because, if he could dispose of Ninian
for a few moments, he thought he could settle his affairs with Mary.
Ninian, he said, trying to speak very casually, you and Widger
can look after the luggage and tickets, can't you!
Ninian, who had already induced one of the porters to describe a
thrilling fox-hunt in which the fox took to the river and was killed,
after a hard struggle, in the water, nodded his head and said Righto!
Let's walk up and down, Henry said to Mary, and they walked
towards the end of the platform. It's been awf'lly nice here! he
added.
Yes, hasn't it? she replied. You'll come again, won't you?
Ra-ther! he exclaimed.
How long will it be before you can come again?
I don't know. You see, my father'll expect me to go home in the
summer....
Oh!
But I might come for part of the hols. I'd like to!
Yes, she said, sliding one of her feet in front of her and
regarding the tip of her shoe intently.
They did not speak for a few moments until he remembered that time
was fleeting. It's an awf'lly nice day, he said, and licked his lips.
Yes, isn't it?...
Awf'lly nice, he continued and broke off lamely.
They could see the train coming into Coly station, and a sense of
despair seized Henry when he thought that it would soon come into
Whitcombe station and then go back again to the junction, carrying
Ninian and him with it. He could feel his nervousness mounting up his
legs until it began to gallop through his body.... He felt frightfully
dry, and when he tried to speak, he could not do anything but cough.
The train had started now from Coly station. He could see the white
smoke rising from the engine's funnel almost in a straight line, so
little wind was there in the valley.... Oh, Lord! he said to
himself....
What age are you? he suddenly demanded of her.
Fourteen, she replied.
I'm sixteen ... nearly! he continued.
Ninian's over sixteen, Mary said, and added, I wish I were
sixteen!
Why!
Oh, I don't know. I just wish I were. When I'm sixteen, you'll be
eighteen ... nearly!
So I shall. I say, Mary!...
Yes, Quinny?
He could hear the rattle of the train on the railway lines, and,
turning towards the other end of the platform, he saw that Ninian,
having settled about the luggage and finished listening to the story of
the fox hunt, was approaching them. Come on, he said, catching hold
of Mary's arm and drawing her to the other end of the platform.
But that's the wrong end, she protested.
I say, Mary!...
Yes, Quinny?
Oh, I say, Mary!...
Yes?...
I'd like to marry you awf'lly, if you don't mind!
It was out ... oh, Lord, it was out!...
Oh, I should love it, Quinny, said Mary, looking up at him and
smiling.
Would you really!
Yes. Of course, I would. Let's tell Ninian and Widger!...
Her suggestion alarmed him. Ninian would be sure to chaff him about
it.... Oh, not yet!... he began, but he was too late. Ninian had come
up to them, grumbling, I thought you two'd started to leg it to
Rumpell's....
Mary seized his arm and pressed it tightly. Quinny and me are going
to get married, she said.
Silly asses, said Ninian. Come on, here's the train in!
4
They climbed into their carriage a few seconds before the train
steamed out of the station again, and jammed themselves in the window
to look out. Ninian was full of instructions to Widger about his
terrier and his ferrets and a blind mouse that was supposed to
recognise him with miraculous ease. There was also some point about the
fox-hunt which required explanation....
Good-bye, Mary! Henry said, taking hold of her hand and pressing
it. I suppose, he whispered, I ought to give you a ring or
something. Chaps always do that!...
Mary shook her head. I don't think mother would like that, she
replied.
Well, anyhow, we're engaged, aren't we?
Oh, of course, Quinny!
It's most awf'lly nice of you to have me, Mary!
But I like you!
Do you really?
The guard blew his whistle and waved his flag and the train began to
move out of the station. He stood at the window looking back at Mary
standing on the platform, waving her hands to him, until he could see
her no longer.
What are you looking at? Ninian asked, taking down the basket of
fish which Jim Rattenbury had given him and preparing to open it.
I'm looking at Mary, he answered.
Sloppy ass! said Ninian, and then he added excitedly, Oh, I say,
plaice and dabs and a lobster ... a whopping big lobster! It's berried,
too! He pointed to the red seeds in the lobster's body. My Heavenly
Father, Quinny! he exclaimed, what a tuck-in we'll have to-night!
Eh? Henry replied vaguely.
THE FOURTH CHAPTER
1
Gilbert summoned Roger and Henry and Ninian to a solemn council.
Look here, he said, I've made up my mind about myself!
Oh! they exclaimed.
Yes. I'm going to be a dramatist and write plays!
Why? Ninian asked.
I dunno! I went to see a play in the hols, and I thought I'd like
to write one, too. It seems easy enough. You just make up a lot of
talk, and then you get some actors to say it....
I see, said Ninian.
And when I was a kid, Gilbert continued, I used to make up plays
for parties. Jolly good, they were ... at least I thought so!
Gilbert, having settled what his own career was to be, was eager
that his friends should settle what their careers were to be. Roger,
of course, he said, has made up his mind to be a barrister, so that's
him, but what about you, Ninian, and what about Quinny?
Ninian said that he did not know what he should do. Mrs. Graham was
anxious that he should become a member of parliament and lead the life
of a country gentleman who takes an intelligent interest in his estate
and his country. His Uncle George, the Dean of Exebury, oscillated
between two opinions: one that Ninian should become a parson....
Gilbert suddenly proposed a resolution, sternly forbidding their
young friend, Ninian Graham, to become a parson on any conditions
whatever. The resolution was seconded by Henry Quinn, and passed
unanimously.
... and the other that he should enter the Diplomatic Service. The
Dean had talked largely to Ninian on the subject of his career. On the
whole he had inclined towards the Diplomatic Service. He had stood in
front of the fire, his hands thrust through the belt of his apron and
talked magnificently of the glories of diplomacy. How splendid it
would be, Ninian, he said in that rich, flowing voice which caused
ladies to admire his sermons so much, if you were to become an
ambassador! Ninian, feeling that he ought to say something, had
murmured that he supposed it would be rather jolly. An ambassador!
the Dean continued. His Britannic Majesty's Ambassador to the Imperial
Court of ... of Vienna! He liked the sound of the title so much that
he repeated it: His Britannic Majesty's Ambassador!...
But Ninian had interrupted him. I don't think I'd like that job
very much, Uncle George! he said. You're supposed to have an awful
lot of tact if you're an ambassador, and I'm rather an ass at tact!
Well, then, the Church! the Dean suggested. After all, the Church
is still the profession of a gentleman!...
But Ninian had as little desire to be a priest as he had to be an
ambassador. He wished to be an engineer!
A what? the Dean had exclaimed in horror.
An engineer, uncle!
The Dean could not rid himself of the notion that Ninian was a small
boy, and so he imagined that when Ninian said an engineer he meant a
man who drives a railway engine.... The Dean was not insensible to the
value of engineers to the community ... in fact, whenever he travelled
by train, he invariably handed any newspapers he might have with him to
the engine-driver at the end of the journey, because, he said, I
wish to show my appreciation of the fact that without his care and
skill I mighterhave beenwell involved in a collision or something
of the sort! But, while the occupation of an engine-driver was a very
admirable one ... very admirable one, indeed ... for a member of the
working-class, it could hardly be described as a suitable occupation
for a gentleman. I think, he said, that engine-drivers get
thirty-eight shillings per week, or some such amount! He adjusted his
glasses and beamed pleasantly at Ninian. My dear boy, he said,
thirty-eight shillings per week is hardly ... hardly an adequate
income for a Graham!
Ninian did not like to ask his uncle George to chuck it, nor did
he care to tell him that he was making a frightful ass of himself, and
so he did not answer, and the beaming old gentleman felt that he had
impressed the lad.... It was Mrs. Graham who reminded him of the larger
functions of an engineer.
I think, she said, that Ninian wishes to build bridges and
railways and ... and things like that!
Oh! said the Dean, and his countenance altered swiftly. Oh, yes,
yes, yes! I was forgetting about bridges. Dear me, yes! I remember
meeting Sir John Aird once. Remarkable man! Very remarkable man! He
built the Assouan Dam, of course. Well, that would be a very nice
occupation, Ninian. Rather different, of course, from the Diplomatic
Service ... or the Church ... but still, very nice, very nice!
And profitable, I'm told!...
2
Anyhow, said Ninian, when he had related the story of his uncle's
views, I'm going to be an engineer, no matter what Uncle George says,
and I'm not going to be a parson and I'm not going to be a blooming
ambassador, and I'm not going into parliament to make an ass of
myself!...
Ninian's chief horror was of making an ass of himself. It seemed
that there was less likelihood of him doing this at engineering than at
anything else.
And a very good engineer you'll be, Gilbert said encouragingly.
You're always messing about with the insides of things, and I can't
see what good that habit would be to an ambassador, or a parson, and
anyhow you can't speak French for toffee, and that's the principal
thing an ambassador has to do! Well, Quinny, he continued, turning to
Henry, what about you?
I used to think I'd like to be a clergyman, Henry answered.
Oh, did you?...
And then, he went on rapidly, I thought I'd like to be an
actor!...
They rose at him simultaneously. A what? they shouted.
An actor, he repeated.
They gaped at him for a few moments without speaking. Then Ninian
expressed their views. You're balmy! he said.
Clean off your chump! Gilbert added.
It seems an odd choice, Roger said, quietly.
Henry blushed. Of course, he hurried to say, I've given up the
idea. It was just a notion that came into my head!
He went on to say that as Gilbert had resolved to be a writer, he
did not see any reason why he should not become one too. I've read an
awful lot of books, he said, so I daresay I could write one. I used
to write things when I was a youngster, just like you, Gilbert!
They gazed dubiously at Henry. A fellow who could make such choices
of profession ... a parson or an actor ... was a rum bird, in their
opinion, and they told him so. Gilbert said that the conjunction of
actor with parson showed that all Henry cared about was the
chance to show off. All you want is to get yourself up, he said. If
you were a parson, you could get yourself up in a surplice!...
He'd turn High Churchman, Roger interrupted, and trot about in
chasubles and copes!...
And if he were an actor, he could get himself up in terrific
style!... Gilbert continued.
Henry got up and walked away from them. It isn't fair, he said, as
he went, to chip me like that. I'm not going to be a parson and I'm
not going to be an actor!...
Gilbert followed him and brought him back to the council.
All right, Quinny, he said, we won't chip you any more. Only,
don't talk like a soppy ass again, will you? Sit down and listen to
me!...
He forced Henry to sit beside him and then he proceeded to plan
their lives for them.
We'll all go to Cambridge, he said. That's settled. I arranged
that before, didn't I? Well, we all go to the same college, and we all
promise to swot hard. We've got to Do Well, d'ye hear? He said do
well as if each word had a capital letter. We've got to be the Pride
of our College, d'ye hear, and work so that the dons will shed tears of
joy when they hear our names mentioned. I draw the particular attention
of Ninian Graham to what I am saying, and I warn him that if he goes on
whittling a stick while I'm talking, I shall clout his fat head for
him. I also trust that our young friend, Quinny, will make up his mind
to work hard. He's Irish, of course, and we must make allowances for
him!...
There was almost a row when Gilbert said that, and it was not
completely averted until Gilbert had admitted that the English had
their faults.
I need not say anything on the subject of hard work to our young
friend, Roger, Gilbert continued, when the peace was restored, beyond
warning him of the danger of getting brain-fever. That's all I have to
say about that. We're friends, we four, and we've got to do each other
credit. Now, when we come down from Cambridge, my proposal is that we
all live together in London. We can take a house and get some old girl
to look after us. I know one who'll do. She lives in Cornwall, and she
can cook ... like anything. Is that agreed?
Carried unanimous, said Ninian.
Good egg! Gilbert said.
3
But the plan was not carried out as Gilbert had made it. He and
Ninian and Roger Carey went to Cambridge, but Henry did not go with
them. It was Mr. Quinn who upset the plan. He suddenly gave notice to
Rumpell's that Henry would not return to the school.
You're getting to be too English in your ways, Henry, he
wrote to his son, and I want you at home for a while. There's a
young fellow called Marsh who can tutor you until you go to the
University. I met him in Dublin a while since, and I like him. He's a
bit cranky, but he's clever and he'll teach you a lot about Ireland.
He's up to his neck in Irish things, and speaks Gaelic and wears an
Irish kilt. At least he used to wear one, but he's left it off now,
partly because he gets cold in his knees and partly because he's not
sure now that the ancient Irish ever wore kilts. I think you'll like
him!...
My God, said Gilbert when Henry read this letter to him, fancy
being tutored by a chap who wears petticoats!
You ought to talk pretty plainly to your guv'nor, Quinny! Ninian
said. I don't think you ought to let him do that sort of thing. Here
we've settled that we're all going to Cambridge together, and your
guv'nor simply lumps in and upsets everything!
Henry declared that he would talk to his father and compel him to be
sensible, but his attempt at compulsion was ineffective. Mr. Quinn had
made up his mind that Henry was to spend several months at home, under
the tutelage of John Marsh, and then proceed to Trinity College,
Dublin.
Trinity College, Dublin! Henry exclaimed. But I want to go to
Cambridge!...
Well, you can't go then. You'll go to T.C.D. or you'll go nowhere.
I'm a T.C.D. man, an' your gran'da was a T.C.D. man, an' so was his da
before him, an' a damned good college it is, too! Mr. Quinn had always
called his father his da when Mrs. Quinn was alive because she
disliked the word and tried to insist on papa; and now he used the
word as a matter of habit. What do you want to go to an English
college for? he demanded. You might as well want to go to that
Presbyterian hole in Belfast!
I want to go to Cambridge, Henry replied a little angrily and
therefore a little precisely, because all my friends are going there.
They're going up next year, and I want to go with them. They're my best
friends!...
Make friends in Ireland, then! Mr. Quinn interrupted. You don't
make friends with Englishmen ... you make money out of them. That's all
they're fit for!
He began to laugh when he said that, but Henry still scowled. I
hate to hear you talking like that, father! he said. I know you don't
mean it....
Don't I, begod?...
No, you don't, but even in fun, I hate to hear you saying it. I
like English people. I'm very fond of Gilbert Farlow!...
A nice fellow! Mr. Quinn murmured, remembering how he had liked
Gilbert when he had visited Rumpell's once to see Henry.
And Ninian Graham and Roger Carey, I like them, too, and so do you.
You liked them, didn't you?
Very nice fellows, both of them, very nice ... for all they're
English!
Henry wanted to go on ... to talk of Mrs. Graham and of Mary ... but
shyness held his tongue for him.
It's a habit I've got into, Mr. Quinn said, talking of his
denunciation of the English, but don't mind me, Henry. Sure, I'm like
all the Ulstermen: my tongue's more bitter nor my behaviour. All the
same, my son, you're goin' to T.C.D., an' that's an end of it.
T.C.D.'ll make a man of you, but Oxford 'ud only make a snivellin' High
Church curate of you ... crawlin' on your belly to an imitation altar
an' lettin' on to be a Catholic!...
But I don't want to go to Oxford, father. I want to go to
Cambridge!
It's all the same, Henry. Oxford'll make a snivellin' parson out of
you, an' Cambridge'll turn you into a snivellin' atheist. I know them
places well, Henry. I'm acquainted with people from both of them. All
the Belfast mill-owners send their sons there, so's they can be made
into imitation Englishmen. An' I tell you there's no differs between
Cambridge an' Oxford. You crawl on your belly to the reredos at Oxford,
an' you crawl on your belly to Darwin an' John Stuart Mill at
Cambridge. They can't do without a priest of some sort at them places,
an' I'm a Protestant, Henry, an' I want no priest at all. Now, at
Trinity you'll crawl on your belly to no one but your God, an' you'll
do damn little of that if you're any sort of man at all!
Henry had reminded his father of the history and tradition of
T.C.D., an ungracious institution which had taught men to despise
Ireland.
Well, you needn't pay any heed to the Provost, need you, Mr. Quinn
retorted. Is a man to run away from his country because a fool of a
schoolmaster hasn't the guts to be proud of it? Talk sense, son! We
want education in Ireland, don't we, far more nor any other people want
it, an' how are we goin' to get it if all the young lads go off to
Englan' an' let the schoolmasters starve in Ireland!
Henry still maintained his position. But, father, he said, you
yourself have often told me that Dr. Daniell is an imitation
Englishman.... Dr. Daniell was the Provost of Trinity.
He is, and so is his whole family. I know them well ...
lick-spittles, the lot of them, an' the lad that's comin' after him,
oul' Beattie, is no better ... a half-baked snob ... I'll tell you a
story about him in a minute ... but all the same, it's not them that
matter ... it's the place and the tradition an' the feel of it all ...
do you make me out?
Yes, father, I know what you mean!
You'd be like a foreigner at Cambridge ... like one of them fellows
that come from India or Germany or places like that ... but at Trinity
you'd be at home, in your own country, Henry, where people with brains
are badly needed!
He went on like that until he wore down Henry's desire to go to
Cambridge. I'd rather you didn't go to a university at all, he said,
than not have you go to T.C.D.
Very well, father! said Henry, consenting.
That's right, my son, the old man said, patting his son on the
back. An' now I'll tell you that yarn about Beattie. It'll make you
split your sides!
It appeared that Mr. Quinn had dined at a house in Dublin where Dr.
Beattie was also a guest, and the don was telling tales as was his
custom, of his acquaintances in high places. The poor old clergyman had
a weakness for the company of kings and queens, and liked to tell
people of what he had said to an emperor or of what a prince had said
to him.
I was talking to my friend, the Queen of Spain, a short time ago,
Dr. Beattie had said, and I made a joke which pleased her majesty. It
was about my friend, the Kaiser, who was present at the time. The
Kaiser heard us laughing, her majesty and me, and he came over to ask
us why we were laughing so heartily, the Queen and me. The Queen was
very embarrassed because, of course, I had been making fun of the
Kaiser, but I did not lose my self-possession. I turned to the Emperor
and said, 'Sir, the Queen and I have known each other for a few moments
only, but already we have a secret between us!' The Kaiser was very
tickled by my retort ... very tickled ... and the Queen told me
afterwards that it was very adroit of me to get out of it like that.
She said it was my Irish wit!...
It was at this point that Mr. Quinn had interrupted. An' what did
your friend God say? he had demanded innocently.
Mr. Quinn sat back in his chair, when he had finished telling the
story, and roared loudly with laughter. You ought to have seen the
oul' snob turnin' red, white an' blue with rage, he shouted at Henry.
Such a take-down! My God, what a take-down! There he was, the oul'
wind-bag, bletherin' about his friend, the Queen of Spain, an' his
friend, the Emperor of Germany, an' there was me, just waitin' for him,
just waitin', Henry, an' the minute he shut his gob, I jumped in, an'
says I to him, 'An' what did your friend God say?' By the Holy O, that
was a good one! I never enjoyed myself so much as I did that night, an'
everybody else that was there was nearin' burstin' with tryin' not to
laugh. Do you mind Lady Galduff?
Yes, father!
You mind her rightly, don't you? Well, when you go up to Dublin,
you're to call on her, do you hear? Never mind about her manners. Ask
her to tell you about me an' Dr. Beattie ... the way I asked him about
his friend God. Oh, Holy O!...
He could proceed no further, for his sides were shaking with
laughter and the tears were streaming down his cheeks and his cheeks
were the colour of beetroot.
You'll hurt yourself, father, said Henry, if you laugh like
that!
4
Of course, said Mr. Quinn, after a while, the man's a great
scholar, an' I mebbe did wrong to take him down like that. But I
couldn't help it, Henry. You see, he's always makin' little of Irish
things, an' I have no use for a man like that. Not but what some people
think too much of Ireland an' too little of other places. Many's a time
I get ragin' mad when I hear some of the Nationalists bleatin' about
Ireland as if a bit of bog in the Atlantic were worth the rest of the
world put together. Do you know what, I'm goin' to say somethin'
that'll surprise you. I don't believe Irishmen'll think properly about
Ireland 'til they stop thinkin' about it altogether. We're too
self-conscious. We haven't enough pride an' we've too much conceit.
That's the truth. You daren't say a word of criticism about Ireland for
fear you'd have the people jumpin' down your throatan' that's a sign
of weakness, Henry. Do you know why the English are as strong as they
are? It's because they'll let you criticise them as much as you like,
an' never lose their temper with you. The only time I ever knew them to
be flabby and spineless was when the Boer War was on ... an' they'd
scream in your face if you didn't say they were actin' like angels.
They were only like that then, but we're like it all the
time. The fools don't know that the best patriot is the man that has
the courage to own up when his country's in the wrong!...
Mr. Quinn suddenly sat up stiffly in his seat and gaped at his son
for a few moments.
Begod, Henry, he said, I'm preachin' to you!
Yes, father, you are, Henry replied. But I don't mind. It's
rather interesting!
But the force had gone out of Mr. Quinn. The thought that he had
been preaching a sermon, delivering a speech, filled him with
self-reproach.
I never meant to start off like that, he said. I only meant to
tell you what was in my mind. You see, Henry, I love Ireland an' I want
to see her as fine as ever she was ... but she'll never be fine again
'til she gets back her pride an' her self-respect. The English people
have stolen that from us ... yes, they have, Henry! I knew Arthur
Balfour when he was a young man ... I liked him too ... but I'll never
forget that it was him that turned us into a nation of cadgers. I'm not
much of a thinker, Henry, but the bit of brain I have'll be used for
Ireland, whatever happens. You've got more brains than I have, an' I'd
like you to use them for Ireland, too.
5
This is the way I look at things, Mr. Quinn said later on. The
British people are the best people in the world, an' the Irish people
are the best people in the British Empire, an' the Ulster people are
the best people in Ireland! He glanced about him for a few moments as
if he were cogitating, and then he gave a chuckle and winked at his
son. An' begod, he said, I sometimes think I'm the best man in
Ulster! He burst out laughing when he had finished. Ah, he said,
half to himself, as he stroked his fine beard, I'm the quare oul' cod,
so I am!
All the same, he went on, speaking soberly, I'm not coddin'
entirely. The Irish have plenty of brains, but they haven't any
discipline, an' brains are no good unless you can control them. We need
knowledge and experience, Henry, more nor anything else, an' the more
knowledge we bring into the country, the better it'll be for us all.
Too much imagination an' not enough knowledge ... that's what's the
matter with us. The English have knowledge, but they've small
imagination!... I declare to my goodness, the best thing that could
happen to the two of us, the English and the Irish, would be for some
one to pass a law compellin' every Irishwoman to marry an Englishman,
an' every Englishwoman to marry an Irishman. We'd get some stability
into Ireland then ... an' mebbe we'd get some intelligence into
England.
6
Henry acquiesced in his father's wishes, but he did so reluctantly.
Gilbert's plan for their future had attracted him greatly. He saw
himself passing pleasant years at Cambridge in learning and in
argument. There was to be scholarship and company and curiosity and
enquiry. They were to furnish their minds with knowledge and then they
were to seek adventures in the world: a new order of Musketeers: Athos,
Porthos, Aramis and D'Artagnan.... He let the names of the Musketeers
slide through his mind in order, wondering which of them was his
prototype ... but he could not find a resemblance to himself in any of
them. He felt that he would shrink from the deeds which they sought....
His mind went back again to thoughts of Cambridge. At all events, in
the tourneys of the mind his part would be valiant. He would never
shrink from combat with an intellect.... He supposed it would be
possible to do at T.C.D. some of what he had proposed to do at
Cambridge, but somehow T.C.D. did not interest him. It mattered as
little to him as a Welsh University. It had no hold whatever on his
mind. He knew that it was on the level of Oxford and Cambridge, but
that knowledge did not console him. It doesn't matter in the way that
they do, he said to himself, and then he remembered something that
Gilbert Farlow had said. T.C.D. isn't Irish in the way that Oxford and
Cambridge are English. It's in Ireland, but it isn't of
Ireland! Gilbert could always get at the centre of a thing. Oxford
and Cambridge have lots of faults, Gilbert had said, but they're
English faults. T.C.D. has lots of faults, but they're not Irish
faults. Do you see what I mean, Quinny? It's ... it's like a garrison
in an unfriendly country ... like ... what d'ye call it? ... that thing
in Irish history ... the Pale! That's it! It's the Pale still going on
being a Pale long after the need for it had ceased. I don't think that
kind of place is much good to Irishmen. You'd better come to
Cambridge!...
I can't, Gilbert. My father's set his heart on my going to Trinity,
and I must go. I'd give the world to go with you and Ninian and Roger,
but I'll have to do what he wants. Anyhow, I can join you in London
when you come down, and we can spend our holidays together. I'll get my
father to ask you all to Ireland the first vac. after you've gone up,
and perhaps Mrs. Graham'll ask us all to Boveyhayne....
7
Remembering what he had said to Gilbert about Boveyhayne, he
remembered Mary Graham. He had not seen her since he had been to
Boveyhayne at Easter, but he had written several times to her, lengthy
letters, and had received short, shy replies from her; and sometimes he
had tried to induce Ninian to talk about her. But She isn't a bad
little flapper! was all that Ninian would say of his sister, and there
was little comfort to be derived from that speech. Now, standing here
in this window-corner, looking over the fields that stretched away to
the Antrim mountains, Henry felt that Mary was slipping swiftly out of
his life. It might be a very long time before he saw her again. ... How
beautiful she had looked that day when she stood on Whitcombe platform
and waved her hand to him as the train steamed out of the station! He
must marry her. Mrs. Graham must ask him to spend the next
summer at Boveyhayne so that he could meet Mary again. Anyhow he would
write to her. He would tell her all he was doing. He would describe his
life at Trinity to her. He would remind her continually of himself, and
perhaps she would not forget him. Girls, of course, were very odd and
they changed their minds an awful lot. Ninian might invite some chap
from Cambridge to Boveyhayne.... That would be like Ninian, to go and
spoil everything without thinking for a moment of what he was doing....
If only Mary and he were a few years older, they could become formally
engaged, and then everything would be all right, but Mary was so young
...
THE FIFTH CHAPTER
1
Soon after Henry had returned to Ballymartin, John Marsh came to Mr.
Quinn's house to prepare him for Trinity. He'll put you in the way of
knowin' more about Ireland nor I can tell you, Henry, Mr. Quinn said
to his son on the evening before Marsh arrived, an' a lot more nor
you'll learn at Rumpell's, or, for that matter, at Trinity.
Then why do you want me to go to Trinity? Henry asked, still
unable to conceal his disappointment at not being sent to Cambridge
with his friends.
I've told you that already, Mr. Quinn replied firmly, closing his
lips down tightly. I want you to have Irish friends as well as English
friends, and I've learned this much from livin', that a man seldom
makes friends ... friends, mind you ... after he's twenty-five.
You only make acquaintances after that age. I'd like well to think
there were people in Ireland that had as tight a hold on your
friendship, Henry, as Gilbert Farlow and them other lads have.... An'
there's another thing, he went on, leaning forward as he spoke and
wagging his forefinger at Henry. If you go to Trinity with a kindly
feelin' for Ireland, it'll be something to think there's one man in the
place that has a decent thought for his country an' isn't an imitation
Englishman. Who knows what good you might do there? He let his
speculations consume him. You might change the character of the whole
college. You ... you might make it Irish. You ... you might be the
means of turnin' the Provost into an Irishman an' start him takin' an
interest in his country. The oul' lad might turn Fenian an' get
transported or hung!...
When he had ceased to speculate on what might happen if Henry began
an Irish crusade in Trinity, he spoke again of Marsh.
You'll like him, he said. I know you will. He's a bit off his
head, of course, but that's neither here nor there. The man's a scholar
an' I think he writes bits of poetry. I've never seen any of his
pieces, but somebody told me he wrote things. I'd like well to have a
poet in the house!
Is he a Catholic? Henry asked.
His father nodded his head. An' very religious, too, I believe, he
said. Still, that's neither here nor there. I met him up in Dublin.
Ernest Harper told me about him!
Ernest Harper was the painter-poet who had influenced so many young
men in Ireland, and Mr. Quinn had come into the circle of his friends
through the Irish co-operative movement. He had made a special visit to
Dublin to consult Harper about the education of his son, telling him of
his desire that Henry should have a strong national sense ... but none
of your damned theosophy, mind!... and Harper had recommended John
Marsh to him. Marsh had lately taken his B.A. degree and he was anxious
to earn money in circumstances that would enable him to proceed to his
M.A.
That lad'll do rightly, said Mr. Quinn, and he arranged to meet
Marsh in the queer, untidy room in Merrion Square where Harper edited
his weekly paper. He has the walls of the place covered with pictures
of big women with breasts like balloons, Mr. Quinn said afterwards
when he tried to describe Ernest Harper's office, an' he talks to you
about fairies 'til you'd near believe a leprechaun 'ud hop out of the
coalscuttle if you lifted the lid!
Soon afterwards, they met, and Mr. Quinn explained his purpose to
Marsh. I'm not a Nationalist, thank God, nor a Catholic, thank God
again, but I'm Irish an' I want my son to know about Ireland an' to
feel as Irish as I do myself!
Marsh talked about Nationalism and Freedom and English Misrule, but
Mr. Quinn waved his hands before his face and made a wry expression at
him. All your talk about the freedom of Ireland is twaddle, John Marsh
... if you don't mind, I'll begin callin' you John Marsh this minute
... an' I may as well tell you I don't believe in the tyranny of
England. The English aren't cruelthey're stupid. That's what they
areThick! As thick as they can be, an' that's as thick as God thinks
it's decent to let any man be! But they're not cruel. They do cruel
things sometimes because they don't know any better, an' they think
they're doin' the right things when they're only doin' the stupid
thing. That's where we come in! Our job is to teach the English how to
do the right thing. They smiled at him. An' I'm not coddin,' he went
on. I mean every word I say. It's not Home Rule for Ireland that's
neededit's Irish Rule for England; an' I'll maintain that 'til my
dyin' day.... But that's neither here nor there. I think you're a fool,
John Marsh, to go about dreamin' of an Irish Republic ... you don't
mind me callin' you a fool, do you? ... but you love Ireland, and I'd
forgive a man a great deal for that, so if you'll come an' be tutor to
my son, I'll be obliged to you!
And John Marsh, smiling at Mr. Quinn, had consented.
That's right, Mr. Quinn said, gripping the young man's hand and
wringing it heartily. I like him, he added, turning to Ernest Harper,
an' he'll be good for Henry, an' I daresay I'll be good for him.
You've an awful lot of slummage in your skull, he continued,
addressing Marsh again, but begod I'll clear that out!
Slummage? Marsh asked questioningly.
Aye. Do you not know what slummage is?
He described it as a heap of steamy, flabby grain that is rejected
by distillers after the spirit has been extracted from it. An' it's
only fit to feed pigs with, he said, ending his description. An' the
kind of stuff you're lettin' out of you now is only fit for
pub-patriots. How soon can you come to Ballymartin. The sooner the
better!
He tried to drop the discussion of politics, but was so fond of it
himself that before he had settled the date of Marsh's appearance at
Ballymartin, he was in the middle of another discussion. His head was
full of theories about Ireland and about the world, and he loved to let
his theories out of his head for an airing. He very earnestly desired
to keep Ireland different from England. Ireland's the 'country' of
this kingdom, an' England's the 'town,' he sometimes said, or when his
mood was bitter, he would say that he wished to preserve Ireland as a
place in which gentlemen could live in comfort, leaving England to be
the natural home of manufacturers and mill-owners.
But it's no good talkin' of separatin' the two countries, he said
to Marsh, an' it's no good talkin' of drivin' the English out of
Ireland because you can't tell these times who is English an' who is
Irish. We've mingled our blood too closely for any one to be able to
tell who's what. If you started clearin' out the English, you'd mebbe
clear me out, for my family was planted here by William of Orange ...
an' the damnedest set of scoundrels they were, too, by all accounts!...
an' mebbe, Marsh, you yourself 'ud be cleared out!... Aye, an' you,
too, Ernest Harper, for all you're waggin' your oul' red beard at me.
You're Scotch, man, Scotch, to the backbone!...
Harper rose at him, wagging his red beard, and filling the air with
terrible prophecies!...
Ah, quit, man! said Mr. Quinn, and he turned and winked at Marsh.
Do you know what religion he is? he said, pointing his finger at
Harper. He's a Nonconformin' Theosophist! And he roared at his own
joke.
You can no more separate the destinies of England an' Ireland in
the world, he went on, nor you can separate the waters of the Liffey
an' the Mersey in the Irish Sea. Bedam, if you can!
Mr. Quinn liked to throw out these aphorisms, and he spent a great
deal of time in inventing them. Once he flung a company of Dublin
gossips into a rage because he declared that Dublin was called the
whispering gallery and the city of dreadful whispers because it was
populated by the descendants of informers and spies. That, he declared,
was why Dublin people were so fond of tittle-tattle and tale-bearing
and scandal-mongering. The English hanged or transported every
decent-minded man in the town, an' left only the spies an' informers,
an' the whole of you are descended from that breed. That's why you
can't keep anything to yourselves, but have to run abut the town
tellin' everybody all the secrets you know! And he charged them with
constantly giving each other away. He repeated this generalisation
about the Dublin people to John Marsh. An' I tell you what'll happen
to you, young fellow, one of these days. You'll be hanged or shot or
transported or somethin', an' half the people of this place'll be
runnin' like lightnin' to swear an information against you, as sure as
Fate. If ever you think of startin' a rebellion, John Marsh, go up to
Belfast an' start it. People'll be loyal to you there, but in this
place they'd sell you for a pint of Guinness!
He was half serious in his warning to Marsh, but ... I should be
glad to die for Ireland, Marsh replied, and it was said so simply that
there was no priggishness in it. I can think of no finer fate for an
Irishman.
Mr. Quinn made a gesture of impatience. It 'ud be a damn sight
better to live for Ireland, he exclaimed angrily.
2
Henry was in the garden when John Marsh arrived, accompanied by Mr.
Quinn. Two letters had come to him that morning from Englandone from
Gilbert Farlow and the other from Mary Graham, and he was reading them
again for the seventh or eighth time when the dogcart drove up to the
house.
My dear old ass, Gilbert wrote, why grizzle and
grouse at the
Bally Awful! That's my name now for things which can't be
helped.
I've taught it to Ninian, but he persists in calling it the
Bloody
Awful, which is low. He says that doesn't matter because he is
low.
Roger and I have had to clout his head rather severely lately
...
it took two of us to do it.... Roger held his arms while I
clouted
him ... because he has become fearfully democratic, meaning by
that, that anybody who knows more than his alphabet is an
enemy of
the poor. Roger and I are dead nuts on aristocracy at present.
We
go about saying, My God, I'm a superman! and try to look
like
Bernard Shaw. Roger only succeeds in looking like Little Lord
Fauntleroy. But all this is away from the point, which is, why
grizzle and grouse at the Bally Awful. If your papa will send
you
to T.C.D., you must just grin and bear it, my lad. I've never
met
anybody from Trinity.... I suppose people do come out of it
after
they get into it ... but if you're careful and remember the
example
of your little friends, Gilbert and Ninian and Roger, you'll
come
to no harm. And when you do come to London, we'll try to
improve
what's left of your poor mind. It would be splendid to go to
Ballymartin for the summer. Tell your papa that Ninian and
Roger
and I solemnly cursed him three times for preventing you from
coming to Cambridge, and then gave him three cheers for asking
us
to Ireland. The top of the morning to you, my broth of a boy,
and
the heavens be your bed, bedad and bejabers, as you say in
your
country, according to Punch. Yours ever, Gilbert.
P.S. What about that two bob you owe me?
Mary's letter was shorter than Gilbert's.
I think it's awfully horrid of your father not to let you go
to
Cambridge with Ninian and the others. I was so looking forward
to
going up in May Week and so was Mother. Of course, we shall go
anyhow, but it would have been much nicer if you had been
there.
You would love Boveyhayne if you were here now. The hedges are
full
of wild roses and hazelnuts and there is a lovely lot of
valaria on
our wall. Old Widger says there will be a lovely lot of
blackberries in September if everything goes well. I went out
in a
boat yesterday with Tom Yeo and I caught six dozen mackerel.
You
would have blubbed if you'd seen them flopping about in the
bottom
of the boat and looking so nice, and they were nice to eat. I
love
mackerel, don't you? Mother sends her love. Do write soon. I
love
getting letters and you write such nice ones. Your
affectionate
friend, Mary Graham. P.S. Love.
Mary always signed herself his affectionate friend. He had tried to
make her sign herself his loving sweetheart, but she said she did not
like to do that.
3
He hurriedly put the letters away, and rose to greet John Marsh who
came across the lawn to him, talking to Mr. Quinn.
This is John Marsh, Henry, Mr. Quinn said when he came up to him,
and Henry and Marsh shook hands and murmured greetings to each other.
I'll leave you both here to get acquainted with each other, Mr. Quinn
continued. I've a few things to do about the house! He went off at
once, leaving them together, but before he had gone far he turned and
shouted to Henry, You can show him through the grounds! He'll want to
stretch his legs after bein' so long in the train!
Very well, father! Henry answered, and turned to Marsh.
His first impression of his tutor was one of insignificance. Marsh's
clothes were cheap and ready-made, and they seemed to be a size too
large for him. That, indeed, was characteristic of him, that he should
always seem to be wearing things which were too big for him. His tie,
too, was rising over the top of his collar.... But the sense of
insignificance disappeared from Henry's mind almost immediately after
Marsh had offered his hand to him and had smiled; and following the
sense of insignificance came a feeling of personal shame that was
incomprehensible to him until he discovered that his shame was caused
because he had thought slightingly of Marsh, even though he had done so
only for a few moments, and had allowed his mind to be concerned about
the trivialities of clothes when it should have been concerned with the
nature of the man who wore them. Henry's mind was oddly perverse; he
had been as fierce in his denunciation of convention as ever Gilbert
Farlow had been, but nevertheless he clung to conventional things with
something like desperation. It was characteristic of him that he should
palliate his submission to the conventional thing by inventing a
sensible excuse for it. He would say that such things were too trivial
to be worth the trouble of a fight or a revolt, and declare that one
should save one's energies for bigger battles; but the truth was that
he had not the moral courage to flout a convention, and he had a queer,
instinctive dislike of people who had the courage to do so.... He knew
that this habit of his was likely to distort his judgments and make him
shrink from ordeals of faith, and very often in his mind he tried to
subdue his cowardly fear of conventional disapproval ... without
success. But John Marsh had the power to conquer people. The gentleness
of him, the kindly smile and the look of high intent, made men of
meaner motive feel unaccountably ashamed.
He was a man of middle height and slender build. His high, broad
brow was covered by heavy, rough, tufty hair that was brushed cleanly
from his forehead and cut tidily about the neck so that he did not look
unkempt. His long, straight nose was as large as the nose of a
successful business man, but it was not bulbous nor were the nostrils
wide and distended. It was a delicately-shaped and pointed nose, with
narrow nostrils that were as sensitive as the nostrils of a racehorse:
an adventurous, pointing nose that would lead its owner to valiant
lengths, but would never lead him into low enterprises. He had grey
eyes that were quick to perceive, so that he understood things
speedily, and the kindly, forbearing look in them promised that his
understanding would not be stiffened by harshness, that it would be
accompanied by sympathy so keen that, were it not for the hint of
humour which they also held, he might almost have been mawkish, a
sentimentalist too easily dissolved in tears. His thick eyebrows clung
closely to his eyes, and gave him a look of introspection that
mitigated the shrewdness of his pointing nose. There was some weakness,
but not much, in the full, projecting lower lip and the slightly
receding chin that caused his short, tightened upper lip to look
indrawn and strained; and the big, ungainly, jutting ears consorted
oddly with the serious look of high purpose that marked his face in
repose. It was as though Puck had turned poet and then had turned
preacher. One looked at the fleshy lower lip and the jutting ears, and
thought of a careless, impish creature; one looked at the shapely,
pointing nose and the kindly, unflinching eyes, and thought of a man
reckless of himself in the pursuit of some fine purpose. One saw
immediately that he was a man who could be moved easily when his
sympathies were touched ... but that he could hardly be dissuaded from
the fulfilment of his good intent. His Nationalism was like a cleansing
fire; it consumed every impure thing that might penetrate his life. It
was so potent that he did ridiculous things in asserting it.... It was
typical of him that he should gaelicise his name, and equally typical
of him that he should be undecided about the correct spelling of John
in the ancient Irish tongue. He had called himself Sean Marsh, and
then had called himself Shane and Shaun and Shawn. Once, for a
while, he transformed John into Eoin and then, tiring of it, had
reverted to Sean. But this restlessness over his name was not a sign
of general instability of purpose. He might vary in the expression of
his belief, but the belief itself was as immovable as the mountains.
4
It was said of him that on one occasion he had taken a cheque to a
bank in Dublin to be cashed. An English editor had printed one of his
poems and had paid for it ... and he was not accustomed to receiving
money for his poems, which were printed mostly in little Irish
propaganda journals! He had endorsed the cheque in Gaelic, and the
puzzled bank manager had demanded that it should be endorsed in
English.... Marsh had given him a lecture on Irish history that lasted
for the better part of half-an-hour ... and then, because the manager
looked so frightened, he had consented to sign his name in English.
5
They left the garden and walked slowly to the top of an ascending
field where an old farm-horse, quit now of work, grazed in peace. It
raised its head as they walked towards it, and gazed at them with
blurred eyes, and then ambled to them. They stood beside it for a few
moments while Marsh patted its neck with one hand and allowed it to
nuzzle in the palm of the other. I love beasts, he said, Dogs and
cats and birds and horses and cows ... I think I love cows best because
they've got such big, soft eyes and look so stupid and reproachful ...
except that dogs are very nice and companionable and faithful ... but
so are cats....
Faithful? Cats? Henry asked.
Oh, yes ... quite faithful if they like you. Why should they be
faithful if they don't? Poor, old chap! Poor, old chap! he murmured,
thrusting his fingers through the horse's worn mane. Of course, horses
are very nice, too, he went on. And birds! ... I suppose one loves
all animals. One has to be very brutal to hurt an animal; hasn't one?
Henry laughed. The Irish are cruel to animals, he said, but the
English aren't!
Marsh flushed. I've never been in England, he replied, looking
away.
Never? Henry exclaimed.
No, and I shall never go there!
There was a sudden ferocity in his voice that startled Henry. But
why? he asked.
Why?... Marsh's voice changed its note and became quiet again.
I'm Irish, he said. That's why! I don't think that any Irishman
ought to put his foot in England until Ireland is free!
Henry snapped at him impatiently. I hate all that kind of talk, he
said.
Marsh looked at him in astonishment. You hate all ... what talk?
he asked.
All that talk about Ireland being free!
But don't you want Ireland to be free? Marsh asked.
They had walked on across the field until they came to a barred
gate, and Marsh climbed on to the top bar and perched himself there
while Henry stood with his back against the gate and fondled the muzzle
of the horse which had followed after them.
I don't know what you mean when you say you want Ireland to be
free! Henry exclaimed.
Don't know what I mean!... Marsh's voice became very tense again,
and he slipped down from the gate and turned quickly to explain his
meaning to Henry, but Henry did not wait for the explanation. No, he
interrupted quickly. Of course, I don't know much about these things,
but I've read some books that father gave me, and I've talked to my
friends ... one of them, Gilbert Farlow, is rather clever and he knows
a lot about politics ... he argues with his father about them ... and I
can't see that there's much difference between England and Ireland.
People here don't seem to me to be any worse off than people over
there!
It isn't a question of being worse off or better off, Marsh
replied. It's a question of being free. The English are
governed by the English. The Irish aren't governed by the Irish. That's
the difference between us. What does it matter what your condition is
so long as you know that you are governed by a man of your own breed
and blood, and that at any minute you may be in his place and he in
yours, and yet you'll be men of the same breed and blood? I'd rather be
governed badly by men of my own breed than be governed well by another
breed....
Henry remembered Ulster and his father and all his kinsmen scattered
about the North who had sworn to die in the last ditch rather than be
governed by Nationalists. That's all very well, he said, but there
are plenty of people in Ireland who don't want to be governed by your
breed, well or bad!
They'd consent if they thought we had the ability to govern well,
Marsh went on. Anyhow, we couldn't govern Ireland worse than the
English have governed it!
Some people think you could!...
But Marsh was in no mood to listen to objections. You can't be free
until you are equal with other people, and we aren't equal with the
English. We aren't equal with anybody but subject people. And they look
down on us, the English do. We're lazy and dirty and ignorant and
superstitious and priest-ridden and impractical and ... and comic!...
My God, comic! Whenever I see an Englishman in Ireland, running
round and feeling superior, I want to wring his damned neck ... and I
should hate to wring any one's neck.
Henry tried to interject a remark, but Marsh hurried on,
disregarding his attempt to speak.
How would they like it if we went over to their country and made
remarks about them? he exclaimed. My brother went to London once and
he saw people making love in public ... fellows and girls hugging each
other in the street and sprawling about in the parks ... all over each
other ... and no one took any notice. It wasn't decent.... How would
they like it if we went over there and made remarks about that?
...
Henry insisted on speaking. But why should you hate the English?
he demanded, and added, I don't hate them. I like them!
I didn't say I hated the English, Marsh replied. I don't. I don't
hate any race. That would be ridiculous. But I hate the belief that the
English are fit to govern us, when they're not, and that we're not fit
to govern ourselves, when we are. I'd rather be governed by Germans
than be governed by the English!... Henry moved away impatiently.
Yes, I would, Marsh continued. At all events, the Germans would
govern us well....
You'd hate to be governed by Germans!
I'd hate to be governed by any but Irishmen; but the Germans
wouldn't make the muddles and messes that the English make!...
You don't know that, Henry said.
But Marsh would not take up the point. He swung off on a
generalisation. There won't be any peace or happiness in Ireland, he
said, until the English are driven out of it. Even the Orangemen don't
like them. They're always making fun of them!...
Henry repeated his assertion that he liked the English, conscious
that there was something feeble in merely repeating it. He wished that
he could say something as forceful as Marsh's statement of his dislike
of England, but he was unable to think of anything adequate to say. I
like the English, he said again, and when he thought over that talk,
there seemed to be nothing else to say. How could he feel about the
English as John Marsh, who had never lived in England, felt? How could
he dislike them when he remembered Gilbert Farlow and Roger Carey and
Ninian Graham and Mrs. Graham and Old Widger and Tom Yeo and Jim
Rattenbury ... and Mary Graham. His father had always spoken
contemptuously of Englishmen, but he had never been moved by this
violent antipathy to them which moved Marsh ... and most of his talk
against England was only talk, intended to sting the English out of
their complacency ... and he was eager to preserve the Union between
the two countries. But Marsh wished to be totally separate from
England. He was vague, very vague, about points of defence, and he
boggled badly when Henry, trying to think like a statesman, talked of
an Army and a Navy ... his mind wandered into the mists of
Tolstoyianism and then he ended by suggesting that England would attend
to these matters in self-defence. He could not satisfy Henry's
superficial enquiries about the possibilities of trade conducted in
Gaelic ... but he was positive about the need for separation, complete
and irremediable separation, from England.
We're separated from them physically, he said, and I want us to
be separated from them politically and spiritually. They're a debased
people!... Henry muttered angrily at that, for his mind was still full
of Mary Graham. They're a debased people ... that's why I want to get
free of them ... and all the debasing things in Ireland are part of the
English taint. We've nothing in common with them. They're a race of
factory-hands and manufacturers; we're a race of farmers and poets; and
you can never reconcile us. All you can do is to make us like them ...
or worse!
Henry remembered how his father had fulminated against the smooth
Englishman who had proposed to turn Glendalough into a place like the
Potteries or Wigan.
But isn't there some middle course? he said weakly. Isn't there
some way of getting at the minerals of Wicklow without making
Glendalough a place like Wigan?
Not if the English have anything to do with it, Marsh answered. I
don't know what Wigan is like.... I suppose it's horrible ... but it's
natural to Englishmen. They trail that sort of place behind them
wherever they go. Slums and sickness and fat, rich men! If they had
anything to do with developing Wicklow they'd make it stink!...
Well, I don't know, Henry said wearily, for he soon grew tired of
arguments in which he was an unequal participator. I like the English
and I can't see any good in just hating them!
They found a decent, generous race in Ireland, Marsh exclaimed,
and they've turned it into a race of cadgers. Your father admits that.
Ask him what he thinks of Arthur Balfour and his Congested Districts
Board!...
They went back to the house, and as they went, they talked of books,
and as they talked of books, Marsh's mind became assuaged. He had
lately published a little volume of poems and he spoke of it to Henry
in a shy fashion, though his eyes brightened and gleamed as he repeated
something that Ernest Harper had said of them ... but then Ernest
Harper always spoke kindly of the work of young, sincere men.
I'll give you a copy if you like, Marsh said to Henry.
Oh, thank you! Henry exclaimed. I should love to have it. I
suppose, he went on, it's very exciting to have a book published.
I cried when I first saw my book, Marsh answered very simply. I
suppose women do that when they first see their babies!...
But Henry did not know what women do when they first see their
babies.
THE SIXTH CHAPTER
1
All through the summer, Henry and John Marsh worked together, making
Irishry, as Marsh called it. They studied the conventional subjects in
preparation for T. C. D. but their chief studies were of the Irish
tongue and Irish history. Marsh was a Gaelic scholar, and he had made
many translations of Gaelic poems and stories, some of which seemed to
Henry to be of extraordinary beauty, but most of which seemed to him to
be so thoughtless that they were merely lengths of words. There
appeared to be no connexion between these poems and tales and the life
he himself ledand Marsh's point was that the connexion was vital. One
evening, Henry, who had been reading The Trojan Women of Euripides,
turned to Marsh and said that the Greek tragedy seemed nearer to him
than any of the Gaelic stories and poems. He expressed his meaning
badly, but what it came to was this, that the continuity of life was
not broken in the Euripidean plays: the life of which Henry was part
flowed directly from the life of which Euripides was part; he had not
got the sensation that he was a stranger looking on at alien things
when he had read The Trojan Women, I can imagine all that happening
now, he said, but I can't imagine any of that Gaelic life recurring.
I don't feel any life in it. It's like something ... something odd
suddenly butting into things ... and then suddenly butting out again
... and leaving no explanation behind it!
He tried again, with greater success, to explain what he meant.
It's like reading topical references in old books, he said. They
mean nothing to us even when there are footnotes to explain them!
Marsh had listened patiently to him, though there was anger in his
heart. You think that all that life is over! he said, and Henry
nodded his head.
Listen, said Marsh, taking a letter from his pocket, here is a
poem, translated from Irish, that was sent to me by a friend of mine in
Dublin. His name is Galway, and I'd like you to know him. Listen! It's
called 'A Song for Mary Magdalene.'
He read the poem in a slow, crooning voice that seemed always on the
point of becoming ridiculous, but never did become so.
O woman of the gleaming hair
(Wild hair that won men's gaze to thee),
Weary thou turnest from the common stare,
For the Shuiler[2] Christ is calling thee.
O woman with the wild thing's heart,
Old sin hath set a snare for thee:
In the forest ways forespent thou art,
But the hunter Christ shall pity thee.
O woman spendthrift of thyself,
Spendthrift of all the love in thee,
Sold unto sin for little pelf,
The captain Christ shall ransom thee.
O woman that no lover's kiss
(Tho' many a kiss was given thee)
Could slake thy love, is it not for this
The hero Christ shall die for thee?
They were quiet for a while, and then Marsh turned to Henry and
said, Is that alien to you?
No, he answered, but I did not say that it was all alien!...
Or this? Marsh interrupted, taking up the manuscript again.
Galway sent these translations to me so that I might be the first to
see them. He always does that. This one is called 'Lullaby of a Woman
of the Mountain.'
Little gold head, my house's candle,
You will guide all wayfarers that walk this country.
Little soft mouth that my breast has known,
Mary will kiss you as she passes.
Little round cheek, O smoother than satin,
Iosa will lay His hand upon you.
Mary's kiss on my baby's mouth,
Christ's little hand on my darling's cheek!
House, be still, and ye little grey mice,
Lie close to-night in your hidden lairs.
Moths on the window, fold your wings,
Little black chafers, silence your humming.
Plover and curlew fly not over my house,
Do not speak, wild barnacle, passing over this mountain.
Things of the mountain that wake in the night time,
Do not stir to-night till the daylight whitens.
That's alive, isn't it? Marsh, now openly angry, demanded. Do you
think that song doesn't kindle the hearts of mothers all over the
world?... I can imagine Eve crooning it to little Cain and Abel, and I
can imagine a woman in the Combe crooning it to her child!... The
Combe was a tract of slum in Dublin. It's universal and everlasting.
You can't kill that!
Then why has it got lost?
It isn't lostit's only covered up. Our task is to dig it out.
It's worth digging out, isn't it? The people in the West still sing
songs like that. Isn't it worth while to try and get all our people to
sing them instead of singing English music-hall stuff?...
2
It was in that spirit that Marsh started the Gaelic class in
Ballymartin. And the Gaelic games, he said to Henry, we'll revive
them too! Twice a week, he taught the rudiments of the Irish language
to a mixed class of boys and girls, and every Saturday he led the
Ballymartin hurley team into one of Mr. Quinn's fields....
There had been difficulty in establishing the mixed classes. The
farmers and the villagers, having first declared that Gaelic was
useless to themthey'd be a lot better learnin' shorthand! said John
McCrackenthen declared that they did not care to have their daughters
trapesin' about the loanies, lettin' on to be learnin' Irish, an' them
only up to devilment with the lads! But Marsh overcame that
difficulty, as he overcame most of his difficulties, by persistent
attack; and in the end, the Gaelic class was established, and the
Ballymartin boys and girls were set to the study of O'Growney's primer.
Henry was employed as Marsh's monitor. His duty was to supervise the
elementary pupils, leaving the more advanced ones to the care of Marsh.
It was while he was teaching the Gaelic alphabet to his class, that
Henry first met Sheila Morgan.
She came into the schoolroom one night out of a drift of rain, and
as she stood in the doorway, laughing because the wind had caught her
umbrella and almost torn it out of her hands, he could see the
raindrops glistening on her cheeks. She put the umbrella in a corner of
the room, leaving it open so that it might dry more quickly, and then
she shook her long dark hair back and wiped the rain from her face. He
waited until she had taken off her mackintosh and hung it up in the
cloakroom, and then he went forward to her.
Have you come to join the class? he asked, and she smiled and
nodded her head. It's a coarse sort of a night, she added, coming
into the classroom.
He did not know her name, and he wondered where her home was. He
knew everybody in Ballymartin, and many of the people in the country
outside it, but he had never seen Sheila Morgan before.
I thought I might as well come, she said, but I'm only here for a
while!
Then she did not belong to the village. Yes?... he said.
It's quaren dull in the country, she continued, an' the
classes'll help to pass the time. I wish it was dancin', but!
Dancing! They had not made any arrangements for dancing, though the
Gaels were very nimble on their feet. He glanced at Marsh
reproachfully. Why had Marsh omitted to revive the Gaelic dances?
Perhaps, he said to Sheila, we can have dancing classes later
on....
I'll mebbe be gone before you have them, she answered.
How long are you staying for? he asked.
I don't know. I'm stopping with my uncle Matthew ... it's him has
Hamilton's farm ... an' I'm stoppin' 'til he knows how his health'll
be. He's bad....
He remembered Matthew Hamilton. Is he ill? he said.
Aye. He's been sick this while past, an' now he's worse, an' my
aunt Kate asked me to come an' stop with them to help them in the
house. He's not near himself at all. You'd think a pity of him if you
seen the way he's failed next to nothin'.... Is it hard to learn
Irish?
You'd better come an' try for yourself, he replied, and then he
led her up to Marsh and told him that a new pupil had come to join the
class. There was some awkwardness about names.... Och, I never told
you my name, she said, laughing as she spoke. Sheila Morgan! she
continued. I live in County Down, but I'm stayin' with my uncle
Matthew, she explained to Marsh.
Do you know any Gaelic at all? Marsh asked.
No, she replied. I never learned it. Are you goin' to have any
dancin' classes?
Henry insisted that they ought to have had dancing classes as well
as a hurley team. The hurley's all right for the boys, he said, but
we've nothing for the girls....
But you'd want boys at the dancin' as well, Sheila interrupted. I
can't bear dancin' with girls!
No, of course not, said Henry.
Marsh considered. Who's to teach the dancing? he asked, adding, I
can't!
I'd be willin' to do that, Sheila said. Mebbe you'd join the
class yourself, Mr. Marsh?
Marsh laughed, but did not answer.
It'll be great value, she went on. There's nothin' to do in the
evenin's ... nothin' at all ... an' it's despert dull at night with
nothin' to do!...
I'll think about it, said Marsh. You can begin your Gaelic study
now, he added. Mr. Quinn'll give you a lesson!...
3
It was Jamesey McKeown who caused the decision to hold the dancing
classes to be made as quickly as it was. Jamesey was one of the pupils
in the advanced section of the Gaelic class ... a bright-witted boy of
thirteen, with a quick, sharp way. One day, Marsh and Henry had climbed
a steep hill outside the village, and when they reached the top of it,
they found Jamesey lying there, looking down on the fields beneath. His
chin was resting in the cup of his upturned palms.
God save you, Jamesey! said Marsh, and God save you kindly!
Jamesey answered.
The greeting and the reply are not native to Ulster, but Marsh had
made them part of the Gaelic studies, and whenever he encountered
friends he always saluted them so. His pupils, falling in with his
whim, replied to his salute as he wished them to reply, but the older
people merely nodded their heads or said It's a soft day! or It's a
brave day! or, more abruptly, Morra, Mr. Marsh! The Protestants
among them suspected that the Gaelic salutation was a form of furtive
Popery....
They sat down beside the boy. I suppose you'll be leaving school
soon, Jamesey? Marsh asked.
Aye, I will in a while, Jamesey answered.
What class are you in?
I'm a monitor, Mr. Marsh. I'm in my first year!...
Henry sat up and joined in the conversation. Then you're going to
be a teacher? he said.
No, I'm not, Jamesey replied. My ma put me in for the monitor to
get the bit of extra education. That's all!
What are you going to be, Jamesey? A farmer? said Marsh.
No. I wouldn't be a farmer for the world!...
But why?
The boy changed his position and faced round to them. Sure, there's
nothin' to do but work from the dawn till the dark, he said, an' you
never get no diversion at all. I'm quaren tired of this place, I can
tell you, an' my ma's tired of it too. She wudden be here if she could
help it, but sure she can't. It's terrible in the winter, an' the win'
fit to blow the head off you, an' you with nothin' to do on'y look
after a lot of oul' cows an' pigs an' things. I'm goin' to a town as
soon as I'm oul' enough!...
They talked to him of the beauty of the country....
Och, it's all right for a holiday in the summer, he said.
... and they talked to him of the fineness of a farmer's life, but
he would not agree with them. A farmer's life was too hard and too
dull. He was set on joining his brother in Glasgow....
What does your brother do, Jamesey? Marsh asked.
He's a barman.
A barman! they repeated, a little blankly.
Aye. That's what I'm goin' to be ... in the same place as him!
They did not speak for a while. It seemed to both of them to be
incredible that any one could wish to exchange the loveliness of the
Antrim country for a Glasgow bar....
What hours does your brother work? Marsh asked drily.
He works from eight in the mornin' till eight at night, an' it's
later on Saturdays, but he has a half-day a week til himself, an' he
has all day Sunday. They don't drink on Sunday in Glasgow!
Marsh smiled. Don't they? he said.
It's long hours, Jamesey admitted, but he has great diversion.
D'ye know this, Mr. Marsh! he continued, rolling over on his side and
speaking more quickly, he can go to a music-hall twice on the one
night an' hear all the latest songs for tuppence. That's all it costs
him. He goes to the gallery an' he hears gran', an' he can go to two
music-halls in the one night ... in the one night, mind you ...
for fourpence! Where would you bate that? You never get no diversion of
that sort in this place ... only an oul' magic-lantern an odd time, or
the Band of Hope singin' songs about teetotallers!...
That was the principal burden of Jamesey's complaint, that there was
no diversion in Ballymartin. If you were to go up the street now, he
said, you'd see the fellas stan'in' at the corner, houl'in' up the
wall, an' wonderin' what the hell to do with themselves, an' never
gettin' no answer!...
You never hear noan of the latest songs here, he complained again.
I got a quare cut from my brother once, me singin' a song that I
thought was new, an' he toul' me it was as oul' as the hills. It was
more nor a year oul', anyway!...
4
They came away from the hill in a mood of depression. It seemed to
Henry that the Gaelic Movement could never take root in that soil. What
was the good of asking Jamesey McKeown to sing Gaelic songs and till
the land when his heart was hungering for the tuppeny excitements of a
Glasgow music-hall? What would Jamesey McKeown make of Galway's
translations? Would
O woman of the gleaming hair
(Wild hair that won men's gaze to thee),
Weary thou turnest from the common stare,
For the Shuiler Christ is calling thee.
bind him to the nurture of the earth when
What ho! she bumps
called him to Glasgow?
We must think of something! Marsh was saying, but Henry was busy
with his own thoughts and paid no heed to him.
What, after all, had a farm to offer a quick-witted man or woman?
That girl, Lizzie McCamley of whom his father had spoken once, she had
preferred to go to Belfast and work in a linen mill and live in a slum
rather than continue in the country; and Jamesey McKeown, who was so
quick and eager and anxious to succeed, had weighed farms and fields
and hills and valleys in the balance and found them of less weight and
value than a Glasgow bar and a Glasgow music-hall. Henry remembered
that his father was more interested in the land than most menand he
resolved to ask for his opinion. What was the good of all this
co-operation, this struggle to discover the best way of making the
earth yield up the means of life, this effort to increase and multiply,
when nothing they could do seemed to make the work attractive to those
who did it?...
Marsh was still murmuring to him. I see, he was saying, that
something must be done. That girl ... what's her name?... Sheila
something?...
Sheila Morgan! Henry said.
Yes. Sheila Morgan ... she said something about dancing classes,
didn't she? We'll start a dancing class ... we'll teach them the Gaelic
dances!...
It suddenly seemed funny to Henry that Marsh should propose to solve
the Land Problem ... the real Land Problem ... by means of dancing
classes.
They'll want more than that, he said. They can't always be
dancing!
No, Marsh answered, but we can begin with that!
Marsh's depression swiftly left him. He began to speculate on the
future of the countryside when the Gaelic revival was complete. There
would be Gaelic games, Gaelic songs, Gaelic dances and a Gaelic
literature. I don't see why we shouldn't have a theatre in every
village, with village actors and village plays.... There must be a
great deal of talent hidden away in these houses that never comes out
because there is no one to bring it out.... I wish you were older,
Henry, and were quit of Trinity. You and I ... and Galway ... of
course, we must have Galway ... might start the Movement on a swifter
course than it has now!... He broke off and made a gesture of
impatience. Oh, my God, why can't a man do more! he said.
5
Henry put the question to his father, and Mr. Quinn considered it
for a while.
I don't know, he answered, what to say. You'd think people would
find more to interest them in the land than in anything else ... but
they don't. There's so much to do, an' it's so varied, an' you have it
all under your own eye ... you begin it an' carry it on and you end it
... an' yet somehow!... An' then the whole family understands it and
can take an interest in it. You'd think that that would hold them.
There isn't any other trade in the world that'll take up a whole family
an' give them all somethin' to talk about an' think over an' join in.
But I've never known a bright boy or girl on a farm that wasn't itchin'
to get away from it to a town!
But something'll have to be done, father! Henry urged. We must
have farmers!...
Aye, something'll have to be done, but I'm damned if I know what. I
suppose when they've developed machinery more an' can make transit
easier ... but sometimes I half think we'll have to breed people for
the land ... thick people, slow-witted people, clods ... an' just let
them root an' dig and grub an' ... an' breed! He got up as he spoke,
and paced about the room. No, Henry, I've got no remedy for you! The
Almighty God'll have to think of a plan, I can't!
6
Sheila Morgan did not know any of the ancient Gaelic dances, nor did
any one in Ballymartin. She knew how to waltz and she could dance the
polka and the schottishe. An' that's all you need! she said. There
were two old women in the village who danced a double reel, and Paddy
Kane was a great lad at jigs....
Perhaps later on, Marsh said, we can get some one to teach them
Gaelic dances!
And so the classes began. Marsh had announced at the Language class
that the first of the Dancing Classes would be held on the following
Thursday ... and on Thursday every boy and girl and young man and woman
in Ballymartin had crowded into the schoolroom where the class was to
be held.
There are more here than come to the Language class, Marsh
exclaimed in astonishment when he entered the room.
Dancing seems to be more popular than Gaelic, Henry replied.
I don't know how we shall teach them all, Marsh went on. I can't
dance ... and she can't possibly teach them all!
But there was no need to teach them to dancethey had all learned
to dance from their cradles, as some one said, and in a little while
the room was full of dancing couples.
Sheila Morgan had gone smilingly to John Marsh as he entered the
room. We're all ready, she said, and waited.
Oh, yes! he replied, a little vaguely.
She looked at him for a few moments, and then went on. If you were
to lead off, she suggested.
Me? But I can't dance!...
You can't dance!
No, he continued. Somehow, I've never learnt to dance! She
looked disappointed. I thought mebbe you an' me 'ud lead off, she
said.
I'm sorry, he replied. Perhaps Mr. Quinn can dance!...
Henry gave his arm to her and they walked off, to begin the slow
procession round the room until all the couples were ready.
I think Mr. Marsh is the only one in the place that can't dance,
Sheila said, as she placed her hand on Henry's shoulder.
He put his arm round her waist and they moved off in the dance. I
suppose he is, he answered.
7
He danced with her several times. Her cheeks were glowing and the
lustre of her eyes was like the sparkle of the stars. Her lips were
slightly parted, and now and then her breath came quickly. As they
swung round and round, she sometimes closed her eyes and then slowly
opened them again. He became aware of some strange emotion that he had
never known before.
I love dancin', she murmured, half to herself.
Yes, he replied, scarcely knowing that he was speaking.
I love dancin', she said again, and again he said Yes and no
more....
He led her to a seat at the side of the room and sat down on the
chair next to it. They did not speak, but sat there watching the swift
movements of the other dancers. Marsh was somewhere at the other end of
the room, looking on ... a little puzzled, a little disturbed ... but
pleased, too, because the dancers were pleased. He was wondering why
the interest in the Gaelic language was not so strong as the interest
in the waltz. A foreign dance, too ... not Gaelic at all!
But Henry had forgotten the Gaelic movement, and was conscious only
of the girl beside him and her glowing cheeks and her bright eyes and
the softness of her.... She was older than he was, a couple of years
and he noticed that she had just put up her hair. It had been hanging
loosely when he first saw her, and he wondered which he liked better,
the loose, hanging hair, or the hair bound round her head. Her slender
white neck was revealed now that her hair was up, and it was very
beautiful, but he thought that after all, his first sight of her, as
she stood in the doorway, the raindrops still on her face, and flung
back the long, loose strands of dark hair that lay about her shoulders
... he still thought that was the loveliest vision of her he had
seen....
Then he remembered Mary Graham. She, too, had long loose hair that
lay in dark lengths about her shoulders, and her eyes, too, could shine
... but she was a girl, and Sheila was a woman!... He was engaged to
Mary, of course ... well, was it an engagement? They had been
sweethearts and he had told her he loved her and she had said that she
would marry him ... and all that ... but they were kids when that
happened. Ninian had called him a sloppy ass!... This was different.
His feeling for Sheila Morgan was different from his feeling for Mary
Graham. He had never felt for any one as he felt for Sheila. He seemed
unaccountably to be more aware of Sheila than he was of Mary. He could
not altogether understand this difference of sensation ... but
sometimes when he had been with Mary, he had forgotten that she was a
girl ... she was just some one with whom he was playing a game or going
for a walk or taking a bathe in the sea. But he could not forget that
Sheila was a woman. When he had danced with her and his arm was about
her waist and her fingers were in his ... he seemed to grow up. He felt
as if something at which he had been gazing uncomprehendingly for a
long time, had suddenly become known to him. He recognised something
... understood something which had puzzled him.
Let's dance again, he said, standing up before her.
All right, she answered, rising and going to him.
I love dancing, he said to her.
Yes, she murmured in reply.
8
When the dance was over, he took her to her uncle's farm. Marsh,
overcome by headache, had gone home before the dance was ended, and
Henry felt glad of this. He waited in the porch of the schoolhouse
while Sheila put on her coat and wrap, and wondered why his feeling for
her was so different from his feeling for Mary Graham, and while he
wondered, she came to him, gathering up her skirts.
Isn't the sky lovely? she said, glancing up at the stars, as they
walked out of the school-yard into the road.
He glanced up too, but did not answer.
Millions an' millions of them, she said. You'd wonder the sky 'ud
hold them all!
Yes, he said.
Many's a time I wonder about the stars, she went on. Do you ever
wonder about them?
Sometimes.
Do you think there's people in them, the same as there is on the
earth?
I don't know, he answered.
This is a star, too, isn't it? she asked.
Yes.
An' shines just like them does?
Yes, I think so!
That's quare! She walked on for a few yards without speaking, and
her eyes were fixed steadily on the starry fields. It's funny, she
said, to think mebbe there's people up there lookin' at us an' them
mebbe thinkin' about this place what we're thinkin' of them. Wouldn't
you love to be able to fly up to one of them an' just see if it's
true?...
He laughed at her and she laughed in response. I'm talkin'
blether, she said, stumbling over a stone in the road.
Mind! he warned her, putting out his hand to steady her.
I was nearly down that time, she said. These roads is awful in
the dark ... you can't see where you're goin' or what's in the way!
No, he replied.
Her arms were crooked because she was holding her skirts about her
ankles, and as she stumbled against him a second time, he put out his
hand and caught hold of her arm, and this time he did not withdraw it.
He slipped his arm inside hers and drew her close to him, and so they
walked on in the starlight up the rough road that led to Matthew
Hamilton's farm.
It's quaren late, she said, moving nearer to him.
Yes, he answered.
There was a rustle in the trees as the night wind blew through the
branches, and they could hear the silken murmur of the corn as it bent
before the breeze. Now and then there was a flutter of wings in a hedge
as they passed by, and the low murmurs of cattle and sheep came from
the fields.
I wish it were next Thursday, he said.
So do I, she replied.
I wish we could have two dancing-classes in the week instead of
one!
So do I, she said.
But we can't manage that, he continued. You see we have two
nights for the Language class!...
You could have one night for the Language class, she said, and
two nights for dancing!
I don't think Marsh would like that, he answered.
They walked on for a while, thinking of what Marsh would say, and
then she broke the silence.
I don't see the good of them oul' language classes, she said.
Don't you?
No. I'd rather be dancin' any day!...
9
He left her at the gate that led into the farmyard.
Good-night, he said, holding out his hand to her.
Good-night! she replied.
But still he did not move away nor did she open the gate and pass
into the yard.
I shall look forward to Thursday, he said.
So shall I!
Good-night!
Good-night!
He still held her hand in his and as she made a movement to draw it
away, he suddenly pulled her to him and put his arms about her and
kissed her.
Sheila! he said.
Let me go! she whispered.
She drew away from him, and stood looking at him for a few moments.
Then she pushed the gate open and walked into the yard.
Good-night! she said.
FOOTNOTES:
[Footnote 2: Shuiler: a tramp or beggar.]
THE SEVENTH CHAPTER
1
His habit had been to work in the morning with Marsh, and then,
after light luncheon, they walked through the country during the
afternoon, climbing hills or tramping heavily through the fields or,
going off on bicycles, to bathe at Cushendall. Sometimes, Mr. Quinn
accompanied them on these expeditions, and then they had fierce
arguments about Ireland, but more often Marsh and Henry went off
together, leaving Mr. Quinn behind to ponder over some problem of
agriculture or to wrangle with William Henry Matier on what was and
what was not a fair day's work. But now, Henry began to scheme to be
alone. On the day after he had taken Sheila Morgan to her uncle's farm,
he had been so restless and inattentive during his morning's work that
Marsh had asked him if he were ill.
I'm rather headachy, he had answered, and had gladly accepted the
offer to quit work for the day.
Would you like to go out for a walk? Marsh had asked. The fresh
air!...
And Henry had replied, No, thanks! I think I'll just go up to my
room!
He had gone to his room and then, listening until he had heard Marsh
go out, he had descended the stairs and, almost on tiptoe, had gone out
of the house by a side-door, and, slipping through the paddock as if he
were anxious not to be seen, had run swiftly through the meadows and
cornfields until he reached the road that led to Hamilton's farm. He
had not decided what he was going to do when he had reached the farm.
Sheila would probably be busy about the house or she might have work to
do in the farmyard. Now that her uncle was ill, some of his labour
would have to be done by others. But he would be less in the way, he
thought, in the morning than he would be in the evening when the cows
were being milked ... though he might offer to help her to strain the
milk and churn it, if she did that, and he could scald the milk-pans
and ... do lots of things! The evening, however, was still a long way
off, but the morning was ... now! And he wished very much to be
with Sheila ... now ... this moment!
He saw her before she saw him. She had her back to him, and she was
bending over her uncle who was sitting at the door of the farmhouse,
with a rug wrapped round his legs. Henry, suddenly shy, stood still in
the loanie, looking at her and trying to think of something to say to
her which would make his appearance there at that hour natural; but
before he had thought of something that was suitable, she turned and
saw him, and so he went forward, tongue-tied and awkward.
Here's Mr. Quinn! she said to her uncle ... she had never known
him as Master Henry, and she had not yet learned to call him by his
Christian name alone.
The farmer looked up. You mane Mr. Henry, he said, and Henry,
listening to him, felt that at last he was near manhood, for people
were shedding the Master.
Good-morning, Hamilton! he said, holding out his hand to the
farmer. How're you to-day?
Middlin', sir ... only middlin'. This is the first I've been out of
the house this long while, but the day's that warm, I just thought I'd
like to get a heat of the sun, bad or no bad. It's a terrible thing to
be helpless like this ... not able to do a han's-turn for yourself!...
Ah, quit, Uncle Matt! Sheila interjected. Sure, you'll soon be
all right an' runnin' about like a two-year oul'! She turned to Henry.
He's an awful man for wantin' to be doin' things, an' it's sore work
tryin' to get him to sit still the way the doctor says he's to sit.
Always wantin' to be up an' doin' somethin'! Aren't you, Uncle Matt?
Ay, daughter, I am. I was always the lad for work!...
You're a terrible oul' provoker, so you are. You're just jealous,
that's it, an' you're heart-feard we'll mebbe all learn how to look
after the farm better nor you can!
The old man smiled and took hold of her hand and fondled it. You're
the right wee girl, he said affectionately. Always doin' your best to
keep a man's heart up!
Indeed, then, she said briskly, you gimme enough to do to keep
your heart up. You're worse nor a cradleful of childher!... Here, let
me wrap this shawl about your shoulders! Aren't you the oul' footer to
be lettin' it slip down like that?... There now!
He lay back in his chair while she folded the shawl about him, and
smiled at her. God content you, daughter! he murmured.
2
Well! she said to Henry as they moved towards the byre.
He had sat with the farmer for a while, talking of the weather and
the crops and the prospects of the harvest, and then, seeing Sheila
going across the yard, he had followed her.
Well? she said, looking at him quizzically.
He did not know what to say, so he stood there smiling at her. Her
arms were bare to the bend, and the neck of her blouse was open so that
he saw her firm, brown throat.
Well! he replied, still smiling, and Well? she said again.
She went into the byre, and he followed her to the door, and stood
peering into the dark interior where a sick cow lay lowing softly.
Is that all you have to say for yourself? Sheila called to him.
I have a whole lot to say, he replied, but I don't know how to
say it!
She laughed at that, and he liked the strong, quick sound of her
laughter. You're the quare wee fella, she exclaimed.
Wee fellow! He flushed and straightened himself.
I was passing along the road, he said stiffly, and I thought I'd
come up and see your uncle!...
Oh! she answered.
Yes. My father was wondering yesterday how he was getting on, so I
just thought I'd come over and see him. I suppose you're busy?
You suppose right!
He moved a step or two away from the door of the byre. Then I won't
hinder you in your work, he said.
You're not hinderin' me, she replied, coming out of the dark byre
as she spoke. It would take the quare man to hinder me! Where's
Mr. Marsh this mornin'?
Oh, somewhere!
I thought you an' him was always thegether. You're always about
anyway!
He felt strangely boyish while she was talking. Last night, when he
had drawn her to him and had kissed her soft, moist lips, he had felt
suddenly adult. While his arms were about her, he was conscious of
manhood, of something new in his life, something that he had been
growing to, but until that moment had not yet reached ... and now,
standing in the strong sunlight and looking into her firm, laughing
eyes, his manhood seemed to have receded from him, and once more he was
... a wee fellow, a schoolboy, a bit of a lad.... His vexation must
have been apparent in his expression, for she said What ails you? to
him.
Nothing, he replied, turning away.
It was she who was making him feel schoolboyish again. She looked so
capable and so assured, standing outside the byre-door, with a small
crock in her hands, that he felt that she was many years older than he
was, that she knew far more than he could hope to know for a long
time....
She put the crock down and came close to him and took hold of his
arm. What ails you? she said again, peering up into his face and
smiling at him.
He looked at her with sulky eyes. You're making fun of me, he
said.
She shook his arm and pushed him. G'long with you! she said. A
big lump of a fella like you, actin' the chile!... She picked up the
crock and handed it to him. Here, she said, carry that into the
house, will you, an' ask me aunt Kate to give you the full of it with
yella male, an' then hurry back. I'll be up in the hayloft, she added,
moving off.
3
He laid the crock of yellow meal down on a wooden box in the barn,
and then climbed up the ladder to the hayloft.
Wheesht, she said, holding up her hand. There's a hen sittin'
here, an' I don't want her disturbed! He climbed into the loft as
quietly as he could. They'll soon be out now, she went on, the
lovely wee things!... What did you come here for, the day?
To see you! he answered.
Then that was a lie about comin' to see my Uncle Matt?
He nodded his head.
I thought as much. Sit down here by the side of me!
He sat down on the hay where she bade him. Are you angry with me?
he asked, making a wisp of hay.
What would I be angry for?
He did not know. Last night, perhaps, when he had kissed her?
Oh, that! she said. Sure, that's nothin'!
Nothing?
Why, then, had she left him so suddenly? She must have known how
much he had to say to her....
Look at the time it was! she exclaimed. An' me havin' to get up
at five an' let the cows out.... You weren't up at no five, I'll
bet! He had risen at eight. Eight! she exclaimed. That's no hour of
the day to be risin'. If you were married to me, I'd make you skip long
before that hour!
Married to her!...
Sheila, he whispered, taking hold of her arm.
Well? she said, thrusting a hay-stalk into his hair.
I love you, Sheila! he whispered, coming closer to her.
Do you, indeed? she answered.
I do, Sheila, I do....
He raised himself so that he was kneeling in front of her. His
shyness had left him now, and the words were pouring rapidly out of his
mouth.
The minute I saw you in the door of the schoolroom that night, I
was in love with you. I was, indeed!
Were you?
Yes. I couldn't help it, Sheila, and the worst of it was I didn't
know what to say to you. And then, last night ... when we were walking
up the 'loanie' together and I was holding your arm ... you know!...
like this.... He took hold of her arm as he spoke and pressed it in
his.... I felt like ... like....
Like what?
I don't know. Like anything. You will marry me, Sheila? You
do love me?...
She withdrew her arm from his and struck him lightly with a wisp of
hay. You're in a terrible hurry all of a sudden! she said. One
minute you hardly know me, an' the next minute you're gettin' ready to
be married to me. You're a despert wee fella!
Wee fellow again!
I'm not so very young, he said.
What age are you? she asked.
I'm nearly seventeen, he replied.
She jumped up and stood over him. God save us, she said, that's
the powerful age. You'd nearly bate Methusaleh!
He stood up beside her. Now, you're laughing at me again, he
complained.
No, I'm not, she answered.
She laid her hand on his shoulder and gripped it firmly, and stood
thus, looking at him intently. Then she drew him into her arms and
kissed him. I like you quaren well, she said, holding him to her.
Do you, Sheila?
Aye, of course I do, or I wouldn't be huggin' you like this, would
I? Did you bring the yella male?
He nodded his head. It's down below, he said.
Dear, oh, dear, she sighed. I've wasted a terrible lot of time on
you, Mr. Quinn!...
Call me 'Henry,' he said.
I'll call you 'Harry,' she answered.
You can call me anything you like!...
She pinched his cheek. You're a dear wee fella, she said. He did
not mind being called a wee fella now. But you're keepin' me from my
work, she went on.
He seized her hand impetuously. Take a day off, he said, and
we'll go for a long walk together!
She laughed at him. You quality people is the great ones for talk,
she replied. An' how could I take a day off an' me with my work to
do?
Well, this evening then, he urged.
There'll be the cows to milk!...
I'll come and help you.
But sure you can't milk!
No, I can't milk, of course, but I can do anything else you want
done. I can hold things and ... and run messages ... and just help you.
Can't I? And then, when you've finished your work, we'll go and sit in
the clover field....
An' get our death of cold sittin' on the damp ground. Dear O, but
men talks quare blether!
He tried to persuade her that dew was not damping. ... Ah, quit!
she exclaimed ... and then he begged for her company in a walk along
the Ballymena Road.
I suppose I'll have to give in to you, she said. You're a
terrible fella for coaxin'!
She moved towards the trap where the head of the ladder showed, and
prepared to descend from the loft.
What time will I come for you? he asked, following her.
Half-seven, she answered, going down the ladder. I'll be well
done my work then!
He stood above her, looking down through the trap. We generally
have dinner at half-past seven, he said.
You should have your dinner in the middle of the day, like us, she
answered, and added, decisively, It's half-seven or never!
All right, he exclaimed, stooping down carefully and putting his
feet on a rung of the ladder. I'll come for you then. I'll manage it
somehow.
4
He told his father that he did not want any dinner. John Marsh had
enquired about his headache, and Henry had said that it was better, but
that he thought he would like to be quiet that evening. He said, too,
that he had made up his mind to go for a long, lonely walk. But what
about your dinner? Mr. Quinn had said, and he had answered that he did
not want any. If I'm hungry, he added, I can have something before I
go to bed.
He felt vaguely irritated with John Marsh who first pestered him ...
that was the word Henry used in his mind ... with sympathy and then
lamented that his headache would prevent him from helping that evening
at the Gaelic language class. Still, I suppose well manage, he ended
regretfully.
I don't suppose there'll be many at the class, Henry replied
almost sneeringly.
Why? said Marsh.
Oh, well, Henry went on, after last night!...
You mean that they think more of dancing than they do of the
language? Marsh interrupted, and there was so much of anxiety in the
tone of his voice that Henry regretted that he had sneered at him.
Well, that's natural, he said, trying to think of some phrase that
would mitigate the unkindness of what he was saying, and failing to
think of it. After all, it is much more fun to dance than to
learn grammar....
But this is the Irish language, Marsh persisted, as if the
Irishness of the tongue transcended the drudgery of learning grammar.
Mr. Quinn crumpled the Northern Whig and threw it at Marsh's
head. You an' your oul' language! he exclaimed. What good'll it do
anybody but a lot of professors. Here's the world tryin' to get Latin
an' Greek out of the universities, an' here's you tryin' to get another
dead language into them!
There followed an argument that developed into a wrangle, in the
midst of which Henry, flinging a consolatory speech to Marsh, escaped
from the house. You'll get all the keen ones to-night, he said.
That'll be some consolation to you!
It was too soon to go up to Hamilton's farm. The dairy work would
hardly be done, and there would be the evening meal to prepare, and he
knew that he would not be welcome in the middle of that activity. He
did not wish to return to the room where his father and John Marsh were
arguing about the Irish language, nor did he wish to go and sit in his
own room until the time came to go and meet Sheila. If Hannah were to
make some sandwiches for him, in case he should feel hungry, he would
go to the bottom fields and lie in the long grass by the brook until it
was time to meet Sheila. He went downstairs to the kitchen and found
Hannah busy with the night's dinner.
Well, Master Henry! she said.
He told her of his headache and his desire for a solitary walk, and
asked her to cut sandwiches for him.
I will with a heart an' a half, she said, when I've strained
these potatoes. Sit down there a while an' content yourself till I've
done....
He took the sandwiches from her and went off to the bottom fields.
The sky was full of mingled colours and long torn clouds that looked
like flights of angels, and hidden in the fold of one great white strip
of cloud that stretched up into the heavens, the sickle moon shone
faintly, waiting for the setting sun to disappear so that she should
shine out with unchallenged refulgence. He stood a while to look at the
glory of the sky, and munched his sandwiches while he looked. He had
always had a sensuous love of fine shapes and looks; the big bare
branches of an old tree showing darkly against a winter sky or the
changing colour of clouds at sunset, transfused at one moment to the
look of filmy gold as the sun sent his rays shining upwards, darkened
at the next, when the sun had vanished, so that they had the colour of
smoke and made a stain as if God had drawn a sooty thumb across the
sky; but now his sensuousness had developed, and he found himself full
of admiration for things which hitherto he had not observed. That
evening, when the cart-horses were led home, he had suddenly perceived
that their great limbs were beautiful. He had stood still in the lane
to watch them going by, and had liked the heavy plunging sound of their
hoofs on the rough road, and the faded look of the long hair that hung
about their houghs; but more than these he had liked the great round
limbs of them, so full of strength. He remembered that once at
Boveyhayne, Mary Graham and he had argued about the sea-gulls. She had
just loved them, but he had qualified his admiration. He liked the
long, motionless flight of the gulls as they circled through the air,
and the whiteness of their shapely bodies and the grey feathers on
their backs, but he disliked the small heads they had and the long
yellow beaks and the little black eyes and the harsh cry ... and he had
almost sickened when he saw them feeding on the entrails that were
thrown to them by the fishermen.... But now, since he had fallen in
love with Sheila Morgan, it seemed to him that everything in the world
was beautiful; and lying here in the long grass, he yielded himself to
the loveliness of the earth. He lay back and closed his eyes and
listened to the sounds that filled the air, the noise of pleased, tired
things at peace and the subdued songs of roosting birds. He could hear
shouts from the labourers in the distant hayfields and, now and then,
the slow rattle of a country cart as it moved clumsily along the uneven
roads that led from the fields to the farmyards. There was a drowsy
buzz of insects that mingled oddly with the burble of the stream and
the lowing of the cattle.... He lay there and listened to a lark as it
flew up from the ground with a queer, agitated flutter of wings,
watching it as it ascended high and higher until it became a tiny
speck, and then he sat up and watched it as it descended again, still
flying with that queer, agitated flutter of wings, until it came near
the earth, when its song suddenly ceased and it changed its flight and
fell swiftly to its nest.
He rose up from the grass and walked over to the stream and dipped
his hands into it, splashing the water on to the grass beside him. The
sunlight shone on his hand and made the wet hairs shine like golden
threads....
5
He was kneeling there at the side of the stream, looking at the wet
glow of his hand when the fear of death came to him, and instantly he
was terrified when he thought that he might die. The consciousness of
life was in him and the desire to continue and to experience and to
know were quickening and increasing. It seemed to him then that if he
were to die at that moment, he would have been cheated of his
inheritance, that he would have a grievance against God for all
eternity.... He moved away from the brook and sank back into the grass,
shaken and disconcerted. Until that moment, he had never thought of
death except as a vague, inevitable thing that came to all creatures
some time ... generally when they were old and had lost the savour of
life. He had never seen a dead man or woman and he was unfamiliar with
the rites of burial. He knew, indeed, that people die before they grow
old, that children die, but until that moment, death had not become a
personal thing, a thing that might descend on him....
He shut his eyes and tried to dose the thought of death out of his
mind, but it would not go away. He began to sing disconnected staves of
songs in the hope that he would forget that he was mortal.... There was
a song that Bridget Fallon had taught him when he was a child, and now
after many years, he was singing it again:
There were three lords came out of Spain,
They came to court my daughter Jane.
My daughter Jane, she is too young,
And cannot bear your flatt'ring tongue.
So fare you well, make no delay,
But come again another day....
But the thought of death still lay heavy on his mind, and so he got
up and left the field and hurried along the road that led to Hamilton's
farm.
Oh, my God, he cried to himself, if I were to die now, just when
I'm beginning to know things!...
He began to run, as if he would run away from his own thoughts. The
torn strips of clouds, that had looked like molten gold, were now
darkening, and their darkness seemed ominous to him. The steepness of
the loanie made him pant and presently he slackened his pace and
slowed-down to walking. His eyes felt hot and stiff in their sockets
and when he put his hand on his forehead, he felt that it was wet with
sweat.
I'm frightened, he said to himself. Scared!...
He wiped his forehead and then crumpled his handkerchief in his hot
palms.
I'm rattled, he went on to himself. That's what I am. Oh, my God,
I am scared!...
He looked about him helplessly. He could see a man tossing hay in a
field near by, and he watched the rhythmical movement of his fork as it
rose and fell.
I couldn't die now, he thought. I couldn't. It wouldn't be
fair. I wouldn't let myself die ... I wouldn't!
And as suddenly as the fear of death had fallen on him, it left him.
Good Lord! he said aloud, what an ass I am!
6
Sheila was sitting on a stool in front of the door. Her uncle had
gone to bed, and her aunt, tired after her day's work and her
attendance on the sick man, was lying on the sofa, dosing.
I wondered were you comin', Sheila said as he came up to her.
You knew I'd come, he answered.
I didn't know anything of the sort, she exclaimed, getting up from
the stool. Fellas has disappointed me before this.
Have you had other sweethearts? he asked, frowning.
She laughed at him. I've had boys since I was that high, she
replied, holding out her hand to indicate her height when she first had
a sweetheart. What are you lookin' so sore about? D'ye think no one
never looked at me 'til you came along? For dear sake!
She rallied him. Was she the first girl he had ever loved? Was she?
Ah, he was afraid to answer. As if she did not know! Of course, she was
not the first, and dear knows she might not be the last....
I'll never love any one but you, Sheila!...
Wheesht will you, or my aunt'll hear you!
I don't care who hears me!...
Well, I do then. Come on down the loanie a piece, an' you can say
what you like. I love the way you talk ... you've got the quare nice
English accent!
He followed her across the farmyard and through the gate into the
loanie.
My father wouldn't like to hear you saying that, he said.
Why? she asked. Does he not like the English way of talkin'?
Indeed, he does not. He loves the way you talk, the way all the
Ulster people talk!...
What! Broad an' coarse like me? she interrupted.
Henry nodded his head. He doesn't think it's coarse, he said. He
thinks it's fine!
Sheila pondered on this for a few moments. He must be a quare man,
your da! she said.
They walked to the foot of the loanie and then turned along the
Ballymena road.
Does he know you come out with me? she said.
Who? he answered.
Your da.
No. You see!... He did not know what to say. It had not occurred
to him to talk about Sheila to his father, and he realised now that if
it had, he probably would not have done so.
But if you're goin' to marry me?... Sheila was saying.
Oh, of course, he replied. Of course, I shall have to tell him
about you, won't I? I just didn't think of it.... Then you're going to
marry me, Sheila? he demanded, turning to her quickly.
Och, I don't know, she answered. I'm too young to be married yet,
an' you're younger nor me, an' mebbe we'd change our minds, an' anyway
there's a quare differs atween us.
What difference is there between us? he said, indignantly.
Aw, there's a quare deal of differs, she maintained. A quare
deal. You're a quality-man!...
As if that matters, he interrupted.
It matters a quare lot, she said.
They sat down on a bank by the roadside and he took hold of her hand
and pressed it, and then he put his arm about her and drew her head
down on to his shoulder.
Somebody'll see you, she whispered.
There's no one in sight, he replied.
Do you love me an awful lot? she asked, looking up at him.
You know I do.
More nor anybody in the world?
He bent over and kissed her. More than anybody in the world, he
answered.
You're not just lettin' on? she continued.
Letting on!
Aye. Makin' out you love me, an' you on'y passin' the time,
divertin' yourself?
He was angry with her. How could she imagine that he would pretend
to love her?...
I do love you, he insisted, and I'll always love you. I feel that
... that!...
He fumbled for words to express his love for her, but could not find
any.
Ah, well, she said, it doesn't matter whether you're pretendin'
or not. I'm quaren happy anyway!
She struggled out of his embrace and put her arms round his neck and
kissed him. She remained thus with her arms round him and her face
close to his, gazing into his eyes as if she were searching for
something....
What are you thinkin', Sheila? he asked.
Nothin', she said, and she drew him to her and kissed him again.
I wish I was older, he exclaimed presently.
Why?
Because I could marry you, then, and we'd go away and see all the
places in the world....
I'd rather go to Portrush for my honeymoon, she said. I went
there for a trip once!
We'd go to Portrush too. We'd go to all the places. I'd take you to
England and Scotland and Wales, and then we'd go to France and Spain
and Italy and Africa and India and all the places.
I'd be quaren tired goin' to all them places, she murmured.
And then when we'd seen everything, we'd come back to Ireland and
start a farm....
She sat up and smiled at him. An' keep cows an' horses, she said.
Yes, and pigs and sheep and hens and ... all the things they have.
Ducks and things!
I'd love that, she said, delighted.
We'd go up to Belfast every now and then, and look at the shops and
buy things!....
An' go to the theatre an' have our tea at an eatin'-house?
We'd go to an hotel for our tea, he said.
Oh, no, I'd be near afeard of them places. I wasn't reared up to
that sort of place, an' I wouldn't know what to do, an' all the people
lookin' at me, an' the waiters watchin' every bite you put in your
mouth, 'til you'd near think they'd grudged you your food!
They made plans over which they laughed, and they mocked each other,
teasing and pretending to anger, and he pulled her hair and kissed her,
and she slapped his cheeks and kissed him.
I'd give the world, she said, to have my photograph took in a
low-neck dress. Abernethy does them grand!... She stopped suddenly and
turned her head slightly from him in a listening attitude.
What's up? he asked.
Wheesht! she replied, and then added, D'ye hear anything?
He listened for a moment or two, and then said, Yes, it sounds like
a horse gallopin'.... They listened again, and then she proceeded.
You'd near think it was runnin' away, she said.
The sound of hooves rapidly beating the ground and the noise of
quickly-revolving wheels came nearer.
It is runnin' away, she said, getting up from the bank and
moving into the middle of the road where she stood looking in the
direction from which the sound came.
Don't stand in the road, Henry shouted to her. You might get
hurt.
She did not move nor did she appear to hear what he was saying. He
had a strange sensation of shrinking, a desire not to be there, but he
subdued it and went to join her in the middle of the road.
Here it is, she said, turning to him and pointing to where the
road made a sudden swerve.
He looked and saw a galloping horse, head down, coming rapidly
towards them. There was a light cart behind it, bumping and swaying so
that it seemed likely to be overturned, but there was no driver. It was
still some way off, and he had time to think that he ought to stop the
frightened animal. If it were allowed to go on, it might kill some one
in the village. There would be children playing about in the street....
I'll stop it, he said to himself, and half-consciously he buttoned
his coat.
He tried to remember just what he ought to do. William Henry Matier
had told, him not to stand right in front of a runaway horse, but to
move to the side so that he could run with it. He would do that, and
then he would spring at its head and haul the reins so tightly that the
bit would slip back into the horse's mouth.... He moved from the middle
of the road, and was conscious that Sheila had moved, too. His breath
was coming quickly, and he felt again that sense of shrinking, that
curious desire to run away. He saw a wheel of the cart lurch up as it
passed over a stone in the road, and instantly panic seized him. My
God, he thought, if that had been me!... He saw himself flung to the
ground by the maddened horse and the wheel passing over his body,
crunching his flesh and bones. He had the sensation of blood gushing
from his mouth, and for a moment or two he felt as if he had actually
suffered the physical shock of being broken beneath the cart wheel....
I can't! he muttered, and then he turned and ran swiftly to the
side of the road and climbed on to the bank, struggling to break
through the thorn hedge at the top of it. His hands were torn and
bleeding and once he slipped and fell forward and his face was
scratched by the thorns....
7
He had thrown himself over the hedge and had lain there, with his
eyes closed, trembling. He was crying now, not with fright, but with
remorse. He had failed in courage, and perhaps the horse had dashed
into the village and killed a child.... He wondered what Sheila would
say, and then he started up, his eyes wide with horror, thinking that
perhaps Sheila had been killed. He climbed up the bank, and jumped over
the low hedge into the roadway. There were some men approaching him,
coming from the direction in which the horse had come, but he did not
pay any heed to them. He began to run towards the village. A little
distance from the place where he and Sheila had stood to watch the
oncoming animal, the road made another bend, and when he had reached
this bend, he met Sheila.
You needn't hurry now, she said.
He did not hear the emphasis she laid on the word now. Are you
all right? he asked anxiously.
She did not answer, but strode on past him.
Are you all right? he repeated, following after her.
It's a bit late to ask that, she said, turning and facing him. I
might 'a' been killed for all you cared, so long as you were safe
yourself!
He shrank back from her, unable to answer, and the men came up,
before she could say anything else to him.
Did ye see the horse runnin' away? one of them said to her.
You'll find it down the road a piece, she replied. It's leg's
broke. It tum'led an' fell. Yous'll have to shoot it, I s'pose!
They supposed they would. The driver had been drinking and in his
drunkenness he had thrashed the poor beast. ... But he'll never thrash
another horse, the same lad, said the man who told them of the
circumstances. He was pitched out on his head, an' he wasn't worth
picking up when they lifted him. Killed dead, an' him as drunk as a
fiddler! Begod, I wouldn't like to die that way! It 'ud be a quare
thing to go afore your Maker an' you stinkin' wi' drink!
The men went on, leaving Sheila and Henry together. She stood
watching the men, oblivious seemingly of Henry's presence, until he put
out his hand and touched hers.
Sheila! he said.
She snatched her hand away from him. Lave me alone! she exclaimed,
and moved to the side of the road further from him.
I meant to try and stop it, he said, but somehow I couldn't I ...
I did my best!
He had followed her and was standing before her, pleading with her,
but she would not look at him. He stood for a while, thinking of
something to say, and then put out his hand again and touched hers.
Sheila, he said.
She swung round swiftly and struck him in the face with her clenched
fist.
How dare you touch me! she cried and her eyes were full of fury.
Sheila!
Don't lay a finger on me ... you ... you coward you! You were
afeard to stop it, an' you run away, cryin' like a wee ba! He tried to
come to her again, but she shrunk away from him. Don't come a-near
me, she shouted at him. I couldn't thole you near me. I'd be
sick!...
She stopped in her speech and walked away from him. He stared after
her, unable to think or move. He could feel the smart of her blow
tingling in his face, and he put his hand up mechanically to his cheek,
and as he did so, he saw that his hand was still trembling. He could
see her walking quickly on, her head erect and her hands clenched
tightly by her side. He wanted to run after her, but he could not move.
He tried to call to her, but his lips would not open....
The light was fading out of the sky, and the night was covering up
the hills and fields, but still he stood there, staring up the road
along which she had passed out of his sight. People passed him in the
dusk and greeted him, but he did not answer, nor was he aware when they
turned to look at him. Once, he was conscious of a loud report and a
clatter of feet, but he did not think of it or of what it meant. In his
mind, smashing like the blows of a hammer, came ceaselessly the sound
of Sheila's voice, calling him a coward....
8
It was quite dark when he moved away. His mouth was very dry and his
eyes were hot and sore, and his legs dragged as he walked. He was tired
and miserable and he had a frightful sense of age. That morning he had
wakened to manhood, full of pleasure in the beauty of living and
growing things; now, he was like an old man, longing for death but
afraid to lose his life. There were stars above him, but no moon, and
the tall trunks of the trees stood up like black phantoms before him,
moaning and crying in the wind. He could hear the screech-owls hooting
in the dark, and the lonely yelp of a dog on a farm.
He began to hurry, walking quickly and then running, afraid to look
back, almost afraid to look forward ... and as he ran, suddenly he fell
on something soft. His hands slipped on wetness that smelt....
In the darkness he had fallen over the body of the horse which had
been shot while he was standing where Sheila had left him. He gaped at
it with distended eyes, and then, with a loud cry, he jumped up and
fled home, with fear raging in his heart.
THE EIGHTH CHAPTER
1
He fell asleep, after a long, wakeful night, and did not hear the
maid who called him. Mr. Quinn, when he was told of the heaviness of
Henry's slumber, said Let him lie on! and so it was that he did not
rise until noon. He came down heavy-eyed and irritable, and wandered
about the garden in which he took no pleasure. Marsh came to him while
he was there, full of enthusiasm because more pupils had attended the
Language class than he had anticipated.
That girl, Sheila Morgan, wasn't there!
Oh! said Henry.
I thought she'd be certain to come. She seemed so anxious to join
the class. Perhaps she was prevented. I hope you'll be able to come
to-night, Henry!...
Henry turned away impatiently. I don't think I shall go again, he
said in a surly voice.
Marsh stared at him. Not go again! he exclaimed.
No.
But!...
Oh, I'm sick of the class. I'm sick of the whole thing. I'm sick of
Irish!...
Marsh walked away from him, walked so quickly that Henry knew that
he was trying to subdue the sudden rage that rose in him when people
spoke slightingly of Irish things, and for a few moments he felt sorry
and ready to follow him and apologise for what he had said; but the
sorrow passed as quickly as it came.
It's absurd of him to behave like that, he said to himself, and
went on his way about the garden.
Presently he saw Marsh approaching him, and he stood still and
waited for him.
I'm sorry, Henry, Marsh said when he had come up to him.
It was my fault, Henry replied.
I ought not to have walked off like that ... but I can't bear to
hear any one talking!...
I know you can't, Henry interrupted. That's why I ought not to
have said what I did!
But Marsh insisted on bearing the blame. I ought to have remembered
that you're not feeling well, he said, reproaching himself. I get so
interested in Ireland that I forget about people's feelings. That's my
chief fault. I know it is. I must try to remember.... I suppose you
didn't really mean what you said?
Yes, I did, Henry replied quickly.
But why?
I don't know. I just don't want to. What's the good of it
anyhow?...
Good of it! Henry ought to have known what a passion of patriotism
his scorn for the Language would provoke.
Oh, all right, John! he said impatiently. I've heard all that
before, and I don't want to hear it again. You can argue as much as you
like, but I can't see any sense in wasting time on what's over. And the
Irish language is over and done with. Father's quite right!
Marsh's anger became intensified. That's the Belfast spirit in
you, he exclaimed. The pounds, shillings and pence mood! I know what
you think of the language. You think, what is the commercial value of
it? Will it enable a boy to earn thirty shillings a week in an office?
Is it as useful as Pitman's Shorthand? That's what you're thinking!...
No, it's not, but if it were, it would be very sensible!
My God, Henry, can't you realise that a nation's language is the
sound of a nation's soul? Don't you understand, man, that if we can't
speak our own language then our souls are silent, dumb,
inarticulate?... don't you see what I mean?... and all the time we're
using English, we're like people who read translations. I don't care
whether it is commercially valuable or not. That's not the point. The
point is that it's us, that it's our tongue, our
language, that it distinguishes us from the English, insists on our
difference from them. Do you see what I mean, Henry? We are
different, aren't we? You realise that, don't you? We are
different from the English, and nothing will ever make us like them. My
God, I'd hate to be like them!...
Henry fled from him, and, scarcely knowing what he was doing, ran
across the fields towards Hamilton's farm. As he went up the loanie,
he remembered that Sheila had struck him in the face in her rage at his
cowardice, and he stopped and wondered whether he should go on or not.
And while he was waiting in the loanie, she came out of a field,
driving a cow before her.
2
She did not speak, though he waited for her to say something. The
cow ambled up the loanie, and Sheila, glancing at him as if she did
not recognise him, passed on, following it.
Sheila! he called after her, but she did not answer, nor did she
turn round.
I want to speak to you, he said, going after her.
I don't want to speak to you, she replied, without looking at him.
But you must!... He thrust himself in front of her, and tried to
take hold of her hands, but she eluded him. She lifted the sally rod
she had in her hand and threatened him with it. I'll lash your face
with this if you handle me, she said.
All right, he answered, dropping his hands and waiting for her to
beat his face with the slender branch.
She looked at him for a few moments, and then she threw the sally
rod into the hedge.
What do you want? she asked, and the tone of her voice was
quieter.
The cow, finding that it was not being followed, cropped the grass
in the hedge and as they stood there, facing each other, they could
hear the soft munch-munch as it tore the grass from the ground.
What do you want? Sheila said again.
I want to speak to you!...
Well, speak away!
But he did not know what to say to her. He thought that perhaps if
he were to explain, she would forgive, but now that the opportunity to
explain was open to him, he did not know what to say.
Are you turned dummy or what? she asked, and the cruelty in her
voice was deliberate.
Sheila, he began, hesitatingly.
Well?
I'm sorry about last night!
What's the good of bein' sorry?...
I meant to stop it!...
I daresay, she said, laughing at him.
I did. I did, indeed. I can't help feeling nervous. I've always
been like that. I want to do things ... I try to do them ... but
something inside me runs away ... that's what it is, Sheila ... it
isn't me that runs away ... it's something inside me!
Bosh, she said.
It's true, Sheila. My father could tell you that. I always funk
things, not because I want to funk them, but because I can't help it.
I'd give the world to be able to stop a horse, like that one last
night, but I can't do it. I get paralysed somehow!...
I never heard of any one like that before, she exclaimed.
No, I don't suppose you have. If you knew how ashamed I feel of
myself, you'd feel sorry for me. I was awake the whole night!
Were you?
Yes. I kept on thinking you were angry with me and that I was a
coward, and I could feel your fist in my face!...
I'm sorry I hit you, Henry!
It doesn't matter, he replied. It served me right. And then when
I did sleep, I kept on dreaming about it. Do you know, Sheila, I fell
over the horse last night in the dark ... they left it lying in the
road after they shot it ... and my hands slithered in the blood!...
Aw, the poor baste! she said, and she began to cry. The poor dumb
baste!
And I kept on dreaming of that ... my hands dribbling in blood....
och!...
He could not go on because the recollection of his dreams horrified
him. They had moved to the side of the loanie and he mechanically
stopped and plucked a long grass and began to wind it round his
fingers.
I think and think about things, he murmured at last.
She put out her hand and touched his arm. Poor Henry, she said.
He threw the grass away and seized her hand in his.
Then you'll forgive me? he said eagerly.
She nodded her head.
And you'll still be my sweetheart, won't you, and go for walks with
me?...
She withdrew her hand from his. No, Henry, she said, you an' me
can't go courtin' no more!
But why?
Because I couldn't marry a man was afeard of things. I'd never be
happy with a man like that. I'd fall out with you if you were a collie,
I know I would, an' I'd be miserable if my man hadn't the pluck of any
other man. I'm sorry I bate you last night, but I'd do it again if it
happened another time ... an' there'd be no good in that!
But you said you'd marry me!...
Och, sure, Henry, you know well I couldn't marry you. You wouldn't
be let. I'm a poor girl, an' you're a high-up lad. Whoever heard tell
of the like of us marryin', except mebbe in books. I knew well we'd
never marry, but I liked goin' about with you, an' listenin' to your
crack, an' you kissin' me an' tellin' me the way you loved me. You've a
quare nice English voice on you, an' you know it well, an' I just liked
to hear it ... but didn't I know rightly, you'd never marry the like of
me!
I will, Sheila, I will!
Ah, wheesht with you. What good 'ud a man like you be to a girl
like me. I'll have this farm when my Uncle Matt dies, an' what use 'ud
you be on it, will you tell me, you that runs away cryin' from a
frightened horse?
You could sell the farm!...
Sell the farm! she exclaimed. Dear bless us, boy, what are you
sayin' at all? Sell this farm, an' it's been in our family these
generations past! There's been Hamiltons in this house for a hundred
an' fifty years an' more. I wouldn't sell it for the world!
But I must have you, Sheila. I must marry you!
Why must you?
I just must!...
She turned to look at the grazing cow, and then turned back to him.
That's chile's talk, she said. You must because you must. Away on
home now, an' lave me to do my work. Sure, you're not left school yet!
She left him abruptly, and walked up to the cow, slapping its flanks
and shouting Kimmup, there! Kimmup! and the beast tossed its head,
and ran forward a few paces, and then sauntered slowly up the loanie
towards the byre.
Good-bye, Henry! Sheila called out when she had gone a little way.
Will you be at the class to-night! he shouted after her.
I will not, she answered. I'm not goin' to the class no more!
He watched her as she went on up the loanie after the cow, hoping
that she would turn again and call to him, but she did not look round.
He could hear her calling to the beast, Gwon now! Gwon out of that
now! and then he saw the cow turn into the yard, and in a moment or
two Sheila followed it. He thought that she must turn to look at him
then, and he was ready to wave his hand to her, but she did not look
round. Gwon now! Gwon up out of that! was all that he heard her
saying.
3
His father was standing at the front door when he returned home. Mr.
Quinn's face was set and grave looking, and he did not smile at his
son.
I want you, Henry, he said, beckoning to him.
Yes, father? Henry replied, looking at his father in a questioning
fashion. Is anything wrong?
Mr. Quinn did not answer. He turned and led the way to the library.
Sit down, he said, when Henry had entered the room and shut the
door.
What is it, father?
Henry, what's between you an' that niece of Matt Hamilton's?
Between us!
Aye, between you. You were out on the Ballymena road with her last
night when I thought you were in bed with a sore head.
All the romance of his love for Sheila Morgan suddenly died out, and
he was conscious of nothing but his father's stern look and the stiff
set of his lips as he sat there at his writing-table, demanding what
there was between Henry and Sheila.
I'm in love with her, father! he answered.
Are you?
Yes, father, but she's not in love with me. She's just told me so.
You've seen her this mornin' again?
Yes.
Well, I'm glad she has more sense nor you seem to have. Damn it,
Henry, are you a fool or what? The whole of Ballymartin's talkin' about
the pair of you. Do you think that you can walk up the road with a
farm-girl, huggin' her an' kissin' her an' doin' God knows what, an'
the whole place not know about it?
I didn't think of that, father!...
Didn't think of it!... Look here, Henry, Sheila Morgan's a
respectable girl, do you hear? an' I'll not have you makin' a fool of
her. I know there's some men thinks they have a right to their tenants'
daughters, but by God if you harmed a girl on my land, Henry, I'd shoot
you with my own hands. Do you hear me?
Henry looked at his father uncomprehendingly. Harm her, father! he
said.
Aye, harm her! What do you think a girl like that, as good-lookin'
as her, gets out of goin' up the road with a lad like you that's born
above her! A bellyful of pain, that's all!
I don't know what you mean, father!
Well, it's time you learned. I'll talk to you plumb an' plain,
Henry. I'll not let you seduce a girl on my land, do you hear? They can
do that sort of thing in England, if they like ... it's nothin' to me
what the English do ... but by God I'll not have a girl on my land
ruined by you or by anybody else!
Mr. Quinn's voice was more angry than Henry had ever heard it.
Father, Henry said, I want to marry Sheila!...
What?
Mr. Quinn's fist had been raised as if he were about to bang his
desk to emphasise his words, but he was so startled by Henry's speech
that he forgot his intention, and he sat there, open-mouthed and
wide-eyed, with his fist still suspended in the air, so that Henry
almost laughed at his comical look.
What's that you say? he said, when he had recovered
I want to marry her, but she won't have me!
Mr. Quinn's anger left him. He leant back in his revolving chair and
laughed.
By God, that's good! he said. By God, it is! Marry her! Oh, dear,
oh, dear!
I don't know why you're laughing, father!...
An' I thought you up to no good. Oh, ho, ho! He took out his
handkerchief and rubbed his eyes. Well, thank God, the girl's got more
wit nor you have. In the name of God, lad, what would you marry her
for?
Because I love her, father!
My backside to that for an answer! Mr. Quinn snapped. You know
well you couldn't marry her, a girl like that!
I don't know it at all!...
Well, I'll tell you why then. Because you're a gentleman an' she
isn't a lady, that's why. There's hundreds of years of breedin' in you,
Henry, an' there's no breedin' at all in her, nothin' but good nature
an' good looks!...
The Hamiltons have lived at their farm for more than a hundred and
fifty years, father!
So they have, an' decent, good stock they are, but that doesn't put
them on our level. Listen, Henry, the one thing that's most important
in this world is blood an' breedin'. There's people goes about the
world sayin' everybody's as good as everybody else, but you've only got
to see people when there's bother on to find out who's good an' who
isn't. It's at times like that that blood an' breedin' come out!...
It was then that Henry told his father of his cowardice when the
horse ran away. He told the whole story, and insisted on Sheila's scorn
for him. Mr. Quinn did not speak while the story was being told. He sat
at the desk with his chin buried in his fingers, listening patiently.
Once or twice he looked up when Henry hesitated in his recital, and
once he seemed as if he were about to put out his hand to his son, but
he did not do so. He did not speak or move until the story was ended.
I'm glad you told me, Henry, he said quietly when Henry had
finished. I'm sorry I thought you were meanin' the girl an injury. I
beg your pardon for that, Henry. The girl's a decent girl, a well-meant
girl ... a well-meant girl!... I wish to God, you were at Trinity, my
son! Come on, now, an' have somethin' to ate. Begod, I'm hungry. I
could ate a horse. I could ate two horses!... He put his arm in
Henry's and they left the library together. You'll get over it, my
son, you'll get over it. It does a lad good to break his heart now an'
again. Teaches him the way the world works! Opens his mind for him, an'
lets him get a notion of the feel of things!...
They were just outside the dining-room when he said that. Mr. Quinn
turned and looked at Henry for a second or two, and it seemed to Henry
that he was about to say something intimate to him, but he did not do
so: he turned away quickly and opened the door.
I suppose John Marsh is eatin' all the food, he said with
extraordinary heartiness. Are you eatin' all the food, John Marsh?
I'll wring your damned neck if you are!...
4
That evening, after dinner, Mr. Quinn and John Marsh were sitting
together. Henry had gone out of the room for a while, leaving Mr. Quinn
to smoke a cigar while John Marsh corrected some exercises by the
students of the Language class.
Marsh! Mr. Quinn said suddenly, after a long silence.
Marsh looked up quickly. Yes, Mr. Quinn! he replied.
Henry's in love!...
Is he?
Yes. With that girl. Sheila Morgan, Matt Hamilton's niece!
Marsh put his exercises aside. Dear me! he exclaimed.
There did not appear to be anything else to say.
So I'm goin' to send him away, Mr. Quinn went on.
Away?
Yes. I don't quite know where I shall send him. It's too soon yet
to send him up to Trinity. I've a notion of sendin' you an' him on a
walkin' tour in Connacht. The pair of you can talk that damned language
'til you're sick of it with the people that understands it!
Marsh was delighted. He thought that Mr. Quinn's proposal was
excellent, and he was certain that it would be very good for Henry to
come into contact with people to whom the language was native.
Wheesht a minute, Marsh! Mr. Quinn interrupted. I want to talk to
you about Henry. It's a big thing for a lad of his age to fall in
love!
I suppose it is.
There's no supposin' about it. It is! He's just at the age when
women begin to matter to a man, an' I don't want him to go an' get into
any bother over the head of them!
Bother?
Aye. Do you never think about women, John Marsh?
Oh, yes. Sometimes. One can't help it now and then!...
No, begod, one can't! Mr. Quinn exclaimed. Do you know this, John
Marsh, I never can make out whether God did a good day's work the day
He made women! They're the most unsettlin' things in the world. You'd
think to look at me, I was a fairly quiet sort of a steady man,
wouldn't you? Well, I'm not. There's whiles when a woman makes my head
buzz ... just the look of her, an' the way she turns her head or moves
her legs. I'm a hefty fellow, John Marsh, for all I'm the age I am, an'
I know what it is to feel damn near silly with desire. But all the
same, I can keep control of myself, an' I've never wronged a woman in
my life. That's a big thing for any man to be able to say, an' there's
few that can say it, but I tell you it's been a hell of a fight!...
He lay back in the chair and puffed smoke above his head for a
while. A hell of a fight, he murmured, and then did not speak for a
while.
Yes? said John Marsh.
I've been down the lanes of a summer night, an' seen young girls
from the farms about, with fine long hair hangin' down their backs, an'
them smilin' an' lovely ... an' begod, I've had to hurry past them,
hurry hard, damn near run!... Mind you, they were good girls, John
Marsh! I don't want you to think they were out lookin' for men. They
weren't. But they were young, an' they were just learnin' things, an' I
daresay I could have had them if I'd tried ... an' I don't think
there's any real harm in men an' women goin' together ... but we've
settled, all of us, that, real or no real, there is some sort of
harm in it, an' we've agreed to condemn that sort of thing, an' so I
submit to the law. Do you follow me?
No, not quite. Those sort of things don't arise for me. I'm a
Catholic and I obey the Church's laws!...
I know you do. But I'm a man, not a Catholic!... Now, don't lose
your temper. I couldn't help lettin' that slip out.... What I mean is
this. There's a lot of waywardness in all of us, that's pleasant enough
if it's checked when it gets near the limit of things, but there has to
be a check!
Yes? Marsh said. And in my case the check is the Church, the
expression on earth of God's will!...
Well, in my case it isn't. In my case it's my sense of
responsibility as a gentleman. We've got ourselves into crowds that
must be controlled somehow, and there isn't much room for wayward
people in a crowd. That's why geniuses get such a rotten time. Now, my
notion of a gentleman is a man who controls the crowd by controllin'
himself. D'you follow me? He knows that the crowd'll bust up an' become
a dirty riot if it's let out of control, an' he knows that he can
influence it best an' keep the whip hand of it, if it knows that he
isn't doin' anything that he tells it not to do. D'you see?
Yes, Marsh said. That's the Catholic religion!...
I know as well as I'm livin', Mr. Quinn went on, that I have
enough power over myself to know when to stop an' when to go on. That's
been bred in me. That's why I'm a gentleman. But I know that if I let
myself do things that I can control, I'll be givin' an example to
hundreds of other people who aren't gentlemen an' can't control
themselves ... don't know when to stop an' when to go on ... an' so I
don't do them. An' that's a gentleman's job, John Marsh, an' when
gentlemen stop that, then begod it's good-bye to a decent community.
That's why England's goin' to blazes ... because her gentlemen have
forgotten the first job of the gentleman: to keep himself in strict
control, to be reticent, to conceal his feelings!
But John Marsh would not agree with him. England is going to
blazes, he said, because England has lost her religion. If England
were Catholic, England would be noble again!...
Just like France and Spain and Italy, Mr. Quinn replied. Bosh,
John Marsh, bosh! I tell you, the test of a nation is this question of
gentlemen!...
The test of a nation is its belief in God ... its church, said
John Marsh.
Well, Ireland believes in God, doesn't it? The Catholic Church is
fairly strong here, isn't it? An' what sort of a Church is it? A
gentleman's church or a peasant's church? Look at the priests, John
Marsh, look at them! My God, what bounders! Little greedy,
grubbin' blighters, livin' for their Easter offerin's, an' doin' damn
little for their money. What do you think takes them into the church?
Love of God? Love of man? No, bedam if it is. Conceit an' snobbery an'
the desire for a soft job takes about nine out of ten of them.... Well,
well, I'm runnin' away from myself. What I want to say is this: the
Catholic church'll never be worth a damn in Ireland or anywhere else,
'til its priests are gentlemen. No church is worth a damn unless its
priests are gentlemen!
But what do you mean by gentlemen, Mr. Quinn?
I mean men who are keepin' a tight hold on themselves. Mortifyin'
their flesh ... all that sort of stuff ... so that they won't give the
mob an excuse for breakin' loose!
Marsh wondered why Mr. Quinn was talking in this strain and tried to
draw him back to the subject of Henry's love of Sheila.
I'm comin' to that, said Mr. Quinn, pointing his cigar at him.
Listen, John, there were two men that might have done big things in
Irelan' and Englan'Parnell an' Lord Randolph Churchill, an' they
didn't because they weren't gentlemen. They couldn't control
themselves. There isn't a house in Ulster that hasn't got the
photographs of those two men in some album....
Parnell? Marsh exclaimed.
Aye, Parnell. Him an' Randy Churchill side by side in the one
album! Lord bless me, John Marsh, the Ulster people took great pride in
Parnell, even the bitterest Orangeman among them, because he was a man,
an' not a gas-bag like Dan O'Connell. Of course, he was a
Protestant!... But he couldn't keep from nuzzlin' over a woman ... an'
up went everything. An' Randy Churchill ... I mind him well, a
flushed-lookin' man.... I heard him talkin' in Belfast one time ... he
bust up everything because he would not control himself. If he'd been a
gentleman ... but he wasn't ... the Churchills never were.... Nor was
Parnell. Well, now, I don't want Henry to go to bits like that. Henry's
got power of some sort, John ... I don't know what sort ... but there's
power in him ... and I want it to come out right. He's the sort that'll
go soft on women if he's not careful. He'd be off after every young,
nice-lookin' girl he meets if he were let ... an' God knows what the
end of that would be. There's this girl, Sheila Morgan ... you've seen
her?...
Marsh nodded his head, and said, She comes to the Language class.
Well, you know the sort she is: fine, healthy, good-lookin', lusty
girl. That sort stirs the blood in a lad like Henry. I want him to get
into the state in which he can look at her an' lave her alone! Do you
follow me?
Yes.
He's not in that state now. He's soft, oh, he's damned soft. Look
here, John Marsh, do you know what I think about young fellows? I think
they're the finest things in the world. Youth, I mean. An' I figure it
out this way, that Youth has the right to three things: love an' work
an' fun; an' it ought to have them about equally. The only use of old
people like me is to see that the young 'uns don't get the proportions
all wrong, too much love an' not enough work, or the other way round.
Henry's very likely to get them all wrong, an' I want to see that he
doesn't. Now, you understand me, don't you? I'm a long-winded man, an'
it's hard to make out what I'm drivin' at, but that can't be helped.
Everybody has a nature, an' I have mine, an' bedam to it!
What do you want me to do? Marsh asked, putting his exercises
together.
I want you to try an' put some big wish into his heart, Mr. Quinn
replied. Try an' make him as eager about Irelan' as you are. I want
him to spend himself for something that's bigger than he is, instead of
spendin' himself on something that's smaller than he is.
But why not do that yourself, Mr. Quinn?
Mr. Quinn got up from his chair and walked about the room. It's
very hard for a man to talk to his son in the way that a stranger can,
he said. An' besides I ... I love Henry, John Marsh, an' my love for
him upsets my balance!
Can't you control that, Mr. Quinn? Marsh asked.
Control it! Begod, John Marsh, if you were a father you wouldn't
ask such a damn silly question. Here, have a cigar! Henry's comin'
back!
When Henry entered the room, his father was lying back in his chair,
puffing smoke into the air, while John Marsh was cutting the end of his
cigar.
The post's come in, he said.
Anything for me? his father asked.
No. There was only one letter. For me. It's from Ninian Graham!
Nice chap, Ninian Graham, Mr. Quinn murmured.
He wants me to go over to Boveyhayne for a while.
Does he?
Yes. Gilbert Farlow's staying with them. I should like to go.
Well, we'll see about it in the morning, said Mr. Quinn. I was
thinking of sending you on a walking tour with John here. To Connacht!
You could talk to the people in Irish, Henry, John added.
Henry twirled Ninian's letter in his fingers. I'd like to go to
Boveyhayne, he said. I want to see Ninian and Gilbert again!...
But the language, Henry!...
I hate the damned language! Henry exclaimed passionately. I'm
sick of Ireland. I'm sick of!...
Mr. Quinn got up and put his hand on Henry's shoulder.
All right, Henry, he said. You can go to Boveyhayne!
5
Up in his bedroom, Henry re-read Ninian's letter, and then he
replied to it. Ninian wrote:
Blighter:
Gilbert's here. He's been here for a week, and he says you ought
to be here, too. So do I. Can't you come to Boveyhayne for a fortnight
anyhow? If you can stay longer, do. Gilbert says it's awful to think
that you're going to that hole in Dublin where there isn't even a Boat
Race, and the least you can do is to come and have a good time here. I
can't think why Irish people want to be Irish. It seems so damn silly.
Gilbert's writing a play. He has done about a page and a half of it,
and it's most awful bilge. He keeps on reading it out to me. He read
some of it to me last night when I was brushing my teeth which is a
damn dangerous thing to do, and I had to clout his head severely for
him. He is a chap. He got poor Mary into a row on Sunday. We took him
to church with us, and when the Vicar was reading the first lesson, all
about King Solomon swanking before the Queen of Sheba and showing off
his gold plate, Gilbert turned to Mary and said out loud, Ostentatious
chap, Solomon! Anybody could see he was a Jew! and Mary burst out
laughing. The Vicar was frightfully sick about it, and jawed Gilbert
after the service, and the mater told Mary the truth about herself. I
must say it was rather funny. I very nearly laughed myself. Do be a
decent chap and come over soon. You'll just be in time for the mackerel
fishing. Gilbert and Mary and I went out with Jim Rattenbury yesterday
and caught dozens.
Your affectionate friend,
Ninian Graham.
Henry's reply was:
Dear Ninian:
Thanks awfully. I'll come as soon as I can get away. I spoke to
my father to-night, and he says I can go to Boveyhayne. I'll send a
telegram to you, telling you when to expect me. I'm looking forward to
reading Gilbert's play. I hope he'll have more of it written by the
time I get to Boveyhayne. A page and a half isn't much, is it? and I
don't wonder you get sick of hearing it over and over. I shall have to
write something, too, but I don't know what to write about. We can talk
of that when we meet. It is awfully kind of Mrs. Graham to have me
again. Please thank her for me, and give my love to Mary and Gilbert,
and tell him not to be an old ass, yapping like that in church. No
wonder the vicar was sick.
Your affectionate friend,
Henry Quinn.
THE NINTH CHAPTER
1
Three days later, Henry left Ballymartin and travelled to Belfast in
the company of John Marsh. In Belfast they were to separate: Marsh was
to return to Dublin and Henry was to cross by the night boat to
Liverpool, and proceed from there to London, and then on from Waterloo
to Boveyhayne. Marsh, a little sad because the Ballymartin classes must
now collapse, but greatly glad to return to the middle of Irish
activities in Dublin, had turned over in his mind what Mr. Quinn had
said about Henry's future, and he was wondering exactly what he should
say to Henry. They had several hours to spend in Belfast, and Marsh
proposed that they should visit the shipyards and, if they had time,
inspect a linen mill; and Henry, who had always felt great pride when
he saw the stocks and gantries of the shipyards and reflected that out
of the multitudinous activities of Ulster men the greatest ships in the
world were created, eagerly assented to Marsh's proposal. Mr. Quinn had
given them a letter of introduction to a member of the great firm of
Harland and Wolff, and Mr. Arthurs, because of his friendship for Mr.
Quinn, conducted them through the yard himself.
They stayed so long in the shipyard that there was no time left for
the visit to the linen mill, and so, when they had had tea, they set
off to the Great Northern Railway station where Marsh was to catch his
train to Dublin.
Mr. Arthurs' immense energy and his devotion to his work and his
extraordinary pride not only in the shipyard but in the men who worked
in it had made a deep impression on Marsh and Henry. He seemed to know
the most minute details of the vast complication of functions that
operated throughout the works. While they were passing through one of
the shops, a horn had blown, and instantly a great crowd of men and
lads had poured out of the yard on their way to their dinner, and Mr.
Arthurs, standing aside to watch them, and greeting here one and there
another, turned to Marsh and said, Those are my pals! Thousands of
men, grimy from their work, each of them possessed of some peculiar
skill or great strength, thousands of them, pals of this one man
whose active brain conceived ships of great magnitude and endurance!
Mr. Arthurs had passed through the shipyard from apprenticeship to
directorship: he had worked in this shop and in that, just as the men
worked, and had learned more about shipbuilding than it seemed possible
for any man to learn. He knows how many rivets there are in the
Oceanic, one of the foremen in the yard said to Marsh when they
were being shown round. He's the great boy for buildin' boats!
Marsh, until then, had never met a man like Mr. Arthurs. His life
had been passed in Dublin, among people who thought and talked and
speculated, but seldom did; and he had been habituated to scoffing talk
at Belfast men ... money-grubbers ... mitigated, now and then, by a
grudging tribute to their grit and great energy and resource. Mr.
Arthurs had none of the money-grubbing spirit in him; his devotion to
his work of shipbuilding was as pure as the devotion of a Samurai to
the honour of Japan; and Marsh, who was instantly sensitive to the
presence of a noble man, felt strongly drawn to him.
I wish we could get him on our side, Henry! he said, as they sat
in the station, waiting for the train to draw up to the platform. I'd
give all the lawyers we've got for that one man!
Father thinks Tom Arthurs is the greatest shipbuilder that's ever
lived, Henry answered.
He might be the greatest Irishman that's ever lived, Marsh
rejoined, if he'd only give a quarter of the devotion to Ireland that
he gives to ships.
I suppose he thinks he's giving all his devotion to Ireland now ...
and he is really. Isn't he, John? His firm is famous all over the
world, and he's one of the men that have made it famous. It must be
very fine for him to think that he's doing big things for his country!
Marsh nodded his head. We're rather foolish about Belfast in
Dublin, he said. After all, real work is done here, isn't it? And the
chief industry of Dublin ... what is it? Absolutely unproductive!
Porter! Barrels and barrels of it, floating down the Liffey and
nothing, nothing real, floating back! I like that man Arthurs. I
wish to heaven we had him on our side!
He's a Unionist, Henry replied.
It occurred to Marsh, in the middle of his reflections on Tom
Arthurs, that he should ask Henry what he proposed to do for Ireland.
I'd like to do work as big and fine as Arthurs does, he said.
Wouldn't you, Henry?
Yes.
What do you propose to do, Henry?
I don't know. I haven't thought definitely about that sort of thing
yet. I've just imagined I'd like to do something. I'm afraid I
can't build ships!...
There are other things besides ships, Henry!
I know that. John, I'm going to say something that'll make you
angry, but I can't help that. When Tom Arthurs was showing us over the
Island, I couldn't help thinking that all that Gaelic movement was a
frightful waste of time! Marsh made a gesture, but Henry would not let
him speak. No, don't interrupt me, John, he said. I must say what I
feel. Look at the Language class at Ballymartin. What's been the good
of all the work you put into it?
We've given them a knowledge of a national separateness, haven't
we?
Have we? They were keener on the dances, John. I don't believe
we've done anything of the sort, and if we had, I think it would be a
pity!
A pity! A pity to make the Irish people realise that they're Irish
and different from the English!
Oh, you won't agree, I know, John, but I think Tom Arthurs is doing
better work for Ireland than you are, Henry retorted.
He's doing good work, very good work, but not better work than I
am. He's establishing an Irish industry, but I'm helping to establish
an Irish nation, an Irish soul!...
That's what you want to do, but I wonder whether it's what you are
doing, said Henry.
They were silent for a while, and before they spoke again, the train
backed into the station, and they passed through the barriers so that
Marsh could secure his seat.
Well, what do you propose to do for Ireland? Marsh asked
again, when he had entered his carriage.
The best I can, I suppose. I don't know yet!...
Marsh turned quickly to Henry and put his hand on his shoulder.
Henry, he said, I hope you don't mind ... I know about Sheila Morgan
and you!...
You know?...
Yes. I'm sorry about that. I don't think you should let it upset
you!
Henry did not reply for a few moments, but sat still staring in
front of him. In a sub-conscious way, he was wondering why it was that
the carriages were not cleaner....
I'm frightfully miserable, John, he said at last.
But why, Henry?
Oh, because of everything. I don't know. I'm a fool, I suppose!
You're not going to pieces just because you've fallen in love with
a girl and it's turned out wrong? My dear Henry, that's a poor sort of
a spirit!
I know it is, but I'm a sloppy fellow!...
This affair with Sheila Morgan is all the more reason why you
should think of something big to do. I wish you were coming to Dublin
with me now. Dublin's very beautiful in the summer, and we could go up
into the mountains and talk about things.
Oh, well, we shall meet in Dublin fairly soon, Henry replied,
smiling at Marsh. It had been settled that he was to enter Trinity a
little earlier than his father had previously planned.
Yes, that's true!
The hour at which the train was due to depart came, and Henry got
out of the carriage and stood on the platform while Marsh, his head
thrust through the window, talked to him.
You might write to me, he said. We ought not to drift away from
each other, Henry!...
We won't do that. We'll see each other in Dublin.
Yes, of course. You must meet Galway when you come back. He's a
schoolmaster and a barrister and a poet and heaven knows what not. He's
a splendid fellow. Perhaps he'll persuade you to take more interest in
Irish things!
Perhaps!
The guard blew his whistle, and the train began to move out of the
station.
Don't get too English, Henry! Marsh shouted, waving his hand in
farewell.
Henry smiled at him, but did not answer.
Good-bye! Marsh called to him.
Good-bye! Henry answered.
The train swung round a bend and disappeared on its way south, and
Henry, strangely desolate, turned and walked away from the station.
2
In the excitement of leaving Ballymartin and sightseeing in the
shipyard, he had almost forgotten Sheila Morgan, but now, his mind
stimulated by his talk with Marsh and his spirit depressed by his
loneliness, his thoughts returned to her, and it seemed to him that he
detested her. She had insulted him, struck him, humiliated and shamed
him. When he remembered that he had told her of his love for her and
had asked her to marry him, and had been told in reply that she wanted
a man, not a coward, he felt that he could not bear to return to
Ireland again. His mood was mingled misery and gladness. At Boveyhayne,
thank heaven, he would be free of Sheila and probably he would never
think of her again. Gilbert and Ninian would fill his mind, and of
course there would be Mrs. Graham and Mary. Mary! It was strange that
he should have let Mary slip out of his thoughts and let Sheila slip
into them. He had actually proposed to Mary and she had accepted him,
and then he had left her and forgotten her because of Sheila. He
remembered that he had not replied to the letter she had written to him
before John Marsh came to Ballymartin. He had intended to write, but
somehow he had not done so ... and then Sheila came, and it was
impossible to write to her. He wondered what he should say to her when
they met. Would she come to Whitcombe station to meet him? What was he
to say to her?...
He had treated her shabbily. Of course, she was only a kid, as
Ninian himself would say, but then he had made love to her, and anyhow
she would be less of a kid now than she was when he last saw her.... He
got tired of walking about the streets, and he made his way to the
quays and passed across the gangway on to the deck of the steamer. A
cool air was blowing up the Lagan from the Lough, and when he leaned
over the side of the ship he could see the dark skeleton shape of the
shipyard. His thoughts were extraordinarily confused, rambling about
his father and Sheila Morgan and John Marsh and Mary Graham and Tom
Arthurs and Ireland and ships and England and Gilbert Farlow and Ninian
and Roger....
I ought never to have thought of any one but Mary, he said to
himself at last. I really love her. I was only ... only passing
the time with Sheila!
Well, thank God I'll soon be in Devonshire, he went on, and out
of all this. If only my Trinity time were over, and I were settled in
London with Gilbert and the others, I'd be happy again! He thought of
John Marsh, and as he leant over the side of the boat, looking down on
the dark water flowing beneath him, he seemed to see Marsh's eager
face, framed in the window of the railway carriage. He almost heard
Marsh saying again, Well, what do you propose to do for
Ireland?...
Oh, damn Ireland, he said out loud.
He walked away from the place where he had imagined he had seen
Marsh's face peering at him out of the water, and as he walked along
the deck, he could hear the noise of hammering in the shipyard made by
the men on the night-shift. Tom Arthurs's brain was still working,
though Tom Arthurs was now at home.
That's real work, Henry murmured to himself, and a lot better
than gabbling about Ireland's soul as if it were the only soul in the
world! Poor old John! I disappoint him horribly.... He was standing in
the bows of the boat, looking towards the Lough. I wonder, he said to
himself, whether Mary'll be at Whitcombe station!
3
The peculiar sense of isolation which overwhelms an Irishman when he
is in England, fell upon Henry the moment he climbed into the carriage
at Lime Street station. None of the passengers in his compartment spoke
to each other, whereas in Ireland, every member of the company would
have been talking like familiars in a few minutes. About an hour after
the train had left Liverpool, some one leant across to the passenger
facing him and asked for a match, and a box of matches was passed to
him without a word from the man who owned them. Thanks! said the
passenger who had borrowed the box, as he returned it. No more was said
by any one for half an hour, and then the man opposite to Henry
stretched himself and said, We're getting along! and turned and laid
his head against the window and went to sleep.
We are different! Henry thought to himself. We're
certainly different ... only I wonder does the difference matter much!
He tried to make conversation with his neighbour, but was
unsuccessful, for his neighbour replied only in monosyllables, and
sometimes did not even articulate at all, contenting himself with a
grunt....
Well, why should he talk to me? Henry thought to himself. He
isn't interested in me or my opinions, and perhaps he wants to read or
think!...
Marsh would have denied that the man wanted to think. He would have
denied that the man had the capacity to think at all. Henry remembered
how Marsh had generalised about the English. They live on their
instincts, he had said. They never live on their minds! and he had
quoted from an article in an English newspaper in which the writer had
lamented over the decline and fall of intellect among his countrymen.
The writer declared that no one would pay to see a play that made a
greater demand upon the mind than is made in a musical comedy, and that
even this slight demand was proving to be more than many people could
bear: the picture palace was destroying even the musical comedy.
But are we any better than that? Henry had asked innocently, and
Marsh, indignant, had declared that the Irish were immeasurably better
than that.
But are we? Henry asked himself as the train swiftly moved towards
London.
And through his mind there raced a long procession of questions for
which he could not find answers. His mind was an active, searching
mind, but it was immature, and there were great gaps in it that could
only be filled after a long time and much experience. He had not the
knowledge which would enable him to combat the opinions of Marsh, but
some instinct in him caused him to believe that Marsh's views of
England and Ireland were largely prejudiced views. I don't feel any
less friendly to Gilbert and Ninian and Roger than I do to John Marsh
or any other Irishman, and I don't feel that John understands me better
than they do! That was the pivot on which all his opinions turned. He
could only argue from his experience, and his experience was that this
fundamental antagonism between the Irish and the English, on which John
Marsh insisted, did not exist. When Marsh declared passionately that he
did not wish to see Ireland made into a place like Lancashire, he was
only stating something that many Englishmen said with equal passion
about the unindustrialised parts of England. Gilbert Farlow denounced
mill-owners with greater fury than Mr. Quinn denounced them.... It
seemed to Henry that he could name an English equivalent for every
Irish friend he had.
There are differences, of course, he said to himself, remembering
the silent company of passengers who shared his compartment, but they
don't matter very much!
I wish, he went on, John Marsh weren't so bitter against the
English. Lots of them would like him if he'd only let them!
He looked out of the window at the wide fields and herds of cattle
and comfortable farmhouses, built by men whose lives were more or less
secure, and ... Of course! he exclaimed in his mind. That's the
secret of the whole thing! When our people have had security for life
as long as these people have had it, their houses will be as good as
these are, and their farms as rich and clean and comfortable!
One had only to remember the history of Ireland to realise that many
of the differences between the English and the Irish were no more than
the differences between the hunter and the hunted, the persecutor and
the persecuted. How could the Irish help having a lower standard of
life than the English when their lives had been so disrupted and
disturbed that it was difficult for them to have a standard of life at
all? Now, when the disturbance was over and security of life had been
obtained (after what misery and bitterness and cruel lack of common
comprehension!) the Irish would soon set up a level of life that might
ultimately be higher than that of the English.
Of course, said Henry, remembering something that his father had
said, there'll be a Greedy Interval!
The Greedy Interval, the first period of prosperity in Ireland when
the peasants, coming suddenly from insecurity and poverty to safety and
well-being, would claw at money like hungry beasts clawing at food, had
been the subject of many arguments between Mr. Quinn and John Marsh,
Mr. Quinn maintaining that greed was the principal characteristic of a
peasant nation, inherent in it, inseparable from it.
Look at the French, he had said on one occasion. By God, they
buried their food in their back-gardens rather than let their hungry
soldiers have it in the Franco-German War! Would an aristocrat have
done that, John Marsh? They saw their own countrymen who had been
fighting for them, starving, and they let them starve!...
It was the same everywhere. I never pass a patch of allotments, he
said, without thinkin' that their mean, ugly, little look is
just like a peasant's mind, an' begod I'm glad when I'm past them an'
can see wide lands again! Peasants were greedy, narrow, unimaginative,
lacking in public spirit. In France, in Belgium, in Holland and Russia,
in all of which countries Mr. Quinn had travelled much, there was a
peasant spirit powerfully manifested, and almost invariably that
manifestation was shown in a mean manner.
That's what your wonderful Land Laws are going to do for Ireland!
Mr. Quinn had exclaimed scornfully. We're to be thrown out of
our land, an' louts like Tom McCrum are to be put in our place!...
Henry had sympathised with his father then, but he felt that the
best of the argument was with John Marsh who had replied that the Irish
landlords would never have been dispossessed of their land, if they had
been worthy of it. If they'd thought as much about their
responsibilities as they thought about their rights, they'd still have
their rights! he said.
I suppose that's so, Henry said to himself, picking up a paper
that he had bought in Liverpool and beginning to read. I must talk to
Gilbert about it!
4
Ninian and Gilbert met him at Whitcombe station. As he stood on the
little platform of the carriage, he could see that Mary was not with
them, and he felt disappointed. She might have come, too!...
Here he is, he heard Gilbert shout to Ninian as the train drew up.
Hilloa, Quinny!
Hilloa, Gilbert!
Hop out quickly, will you!
He hopped out as quickly as he could and said Hilloa! to Ninian,
who said Hilloa! and slapped his back and called him an old rotter.
Widger'll take your luggage, Gilbert said, taking control of their
movements as he always did. Hang on to this, Widger, he added, taking
a handbag from Henry and throwing it into Widger's arms. Show him the
rest of your stuff, Quinny, and let's hook off. We're going to walk to
Boveyhayne. You'll need a stretch after sitting all that time, and
Ninian's getting disgustingly obese, so we make him run up and down the
road over the cliff three times so's to thin him down!...
Funny ass! said Ninian.
Mrs. Graham wanted Mary to come with us, but we wouldn't let her.
We're tired of females, Ninian and I, and Mary's very femaley at
present. She's started to read poetry!...
Out loud! Ninian growled. I'm sick of people who read out loud to
me. When Mary's not spouting stuff about 'love' and 'dove' and 'heaven
above' and that sort of rot, Gilbert's reading his damn play to me!
I'll read it to you, Quinny! Gilbert said, linking his arm in
Henry's.
They had left the station, and were now walking along the unfinished
road above the shingle. There was a heat haze hanging over the smooth
blue sea, so that sky and water merged into each other imperceptibly.
In front of them, they could see the white cliffs of Boveyhayne shining
in the descending sun. There were great stalks of charlock, standing
out of the grass on the face of the cliffs, giving them a golden head.
If Marley's on Whitcombe beach, we'll row over to Boveyhayne, said
Ninian. You'd like to get on to the sea, wouldn't you, Quinny?
Henry nodded his head.
No, said Gilbert, we won't. We'll sit here for a while, and I'll
read my play to Quinny. I carry it about with me, Quinny, so that I can
read it to Ninian whenever his spirits are low!
I never saw such a chap! Ninian mumbled.
This great, hairy, beefy fellow, Gilbert went on, seizing hold of
Ninian's arm with his disengaged hand, does not love literature!...
Ninian broke free from Gilbert's grip. Marley is on the beach, he
said, and ran ahead to engage the boat.
Well, Quinny! said Gilbert, when Ninian had gone.
Well, Gilbert! Henry replied.
How's Ireland? Still making an ass of itself?
Henry made no answer to Gilbert's question because he knew that an
answer was not expected. Had any one else spoken in that fashion to
him, any other Englishman, he would probably have angered instantly,
but Gilbert was different from all other people in Henry's eyes, and
was privileged to say whatever he pleased.
Gilbert, he said, I want to have a long jaw with you about
something!...
The English way of speaking came naturally to him, and he said a
long jaw about something as easily as if he had never been outside an
English public school.
What? Gilbert said.
Oh, everything. Ireland and things!
All right, my son!
You see!...
Wait though, said Gilbert, until we catch up with Ninian. He
ought to hear it, too. He has a wise old noddle, Ninian, although he's
such a fat 'un.... My God, Quinny, isn't he getting big? If he piles up
any more muscle, hell have to go to Trinity Hall and join the beefy
brutes and get drunk and all that kind of manly thing! They came up
with Ninian as he spoke. Won't you, Ninian?
Won't I what? Ninian replied.
Have to go to Trinity Hall if you go on being a beefy Briton.
Hilloa, Marley!
Good-evenin', sir! said old Marley.
They got into the boat, and Ninian rowed them round the white cliff
to Boveyhayne beach, where they left the boat and walked up the village
street to the lane that led to Boveyhayne Manor.
Henry wants to talk about the world, Ninian! said Gilbert as they
left the beach. We'd better have a good old gabble after dinner
to-night, hadn't we?
It doesn't matter what I say, said Ninian, you'll gabble anyhow.
Anything to keep him from reading his blooming play to me! he added,
turning to Henry.
5
He had a sense of disappointment when he met Mary. In his reaction
from Sheila Morgan, he had imagined Mary coming to greet him with
something of the alert youthfulness with which she had met him when he
first visited Boveyhayne, but when she came into the hall, a book in
her hand, he felt that there was some stiffness in her manner, a
self-consciousness which had not been there before.
How do you do? she said, offering her hand to him like any
well-bred girl.
She did not call him Quinny or show in her manner or speech that
he was particularly welcome to her.
I suppose, he thought to himself, she's cross because I didn't
answer her letter!
He resolved that he would bring her back to her old friendliness....
I expect you're tired, she said. We'll have tea in a minute or
two. Mother's lying down. She's not very well!
She would have said as much to a casual acquaintance, Henry thought.
Not well! he heard Ninian saying. What's the matter with her?
She's tired. I think she's got a headache. There was a letter from
Uncle Peter! Mary answered, and her tone indicated that the letter
from Uncle Peter accounted for everything.
Oh! said Ninian, scowling and turning away.
They went into the drawing-room to tea, and Henry had a sense of
intruding on family affairs, mingled with his disappointment because
Mary was not as he had expected her to be. It might be, of course, that
the letter from Uncle Peter had affected Mary almost as much as it
seemed to have affected Mrs. Graham, and that presently she would be as
natural as she had been that other time ... but then he remembered that
Gilbert had said that she was being very femaley at present. She
poured out tea for them as if she were a new governess, and she
reproved Ninian once for saying Damn! when he dropped his bread and
butter....
Mary's turned pi! said Ninian.
She frowned at him and told him not to be silly.
She calls the Communion Service the Eucharist, and crosses herself
and flops and bows!...
You're very absurd, Ninian! she said.
Almost unconsciously, he began to compare her to Sheila Morgan. He
remembered the free, natural ways of Sheila, and liked them better than
these new, mannered ways of Mary. How could any one prefer this
stiltedness to that ease, this self-consciousness to that state of
being unaware of self?... In Belfast, when he had left John Marsh, and
in his loneliness had thought of the way Sheila had humiliated him, he
had had a sharp sense of revulsion from her, a loathing for her, a
desire never to see her again; but now, sitting here looking at Mary
and oppressed by her youngladyishness, his longing for Sheila came back
to him with greater strength, and he resolved that he would write to
her that night and beg her to forgive him for his cowardice and let him
be her sweetheart again....
Will you have some more tea! Mary was saying to him, and he
started at the sound of her voice.
Oh, thanks! he said, passing his cup to her.
Thinking, Quinny? Gilbert exclaimed, reaching for a bun.
Eh? Oh, yes! I was thinking! he answered. What time does the
evening post go out? he said to Ninian.
Six-twenty-five, Ninian answered.
Thanks. I just want to write to Ireland!...
It'll get there just as soon if you post it to-morrow, said
Gilbert.
Mary left them. I'm going up to mother, she said, as she got up
from the tea table. She's awfully sorry she couldn't be down to
welcome you, she added to Henry who had moved to open the door for
her.
I hope she'll soon be better, he answered.
When she had gone, Ninian got up and cursed lustily.
Damn and blast him, he said.
They did not speak. They knew that Ninian's anger had some relation
to Mrs. Graham's headache and the letter from Uncle Peter, and they
felt that it was not their business to speak, even though Ninian had
drawn them into the affair.
I'm sorry, said Ninian, sitting down again. I ought not to have
broken out like that before you chaps, but I couldn't help it.
Henry coughed as if he were clearing his throat, but he did not
speak, and Gilbert sat still and gazed at the toe of his shoe.
He always upsets mother, damn him! Ninian looked up at them. My
Uncle Peter married a girl in a confectioner's shop at Cambridge. He's
that kind of ass! He never writes to mother except when he's in a mess,
and he always expects her to get him out of it. I can't stand a man who
does that sort of thing. She's an awful bitch, too ... his wife! We had
them here once!... My God!
Ninian lay back in his seat and remained silent for a while as if he
were contemplating in his mind the picture of Uncle Peter and his wife
on that awful visit to Boveyhayne. They waited for him to continue.
I used to feel ashamed to go into the village, he said at last.
The way she talked to the fishermenone minute snubbing them, and the
next, talking to them as if she were a servant-girl. They didn't like
it. Jim Rattenbury hated it, I know. She wasn't one of us and she
wasn't one of them. A damned in-between, that's what she was. And Uncle
Peter used to get drunk!... I'm awfully sorry, you chaps, I oughtn't to
be boring you like this!
That's all right, said Gilbert.
I was jolly glad when they went, Ninian went on. Jolly glad! Poor
mother had a hell of a time while they were here!
I suppose so, Henry murmured, hardly knowing what to say.
I can't understand a man marrying a woman like that, Ninian said.
I mean, I can understand a fellow ragging about with a girl, but I
can't understand him marrying her and ... and upsetting things!
It was on the tip of Henry's tongue to say something about Ninian's
belief in democracy, for he remembered that Gilbert, in one of his
letters, had declared that Ninian had become a
I'm-as-good-as-you-and-a-damn-sight-better-politician, but he did not
say it.
The girl isn't happy. Anybody can see she isn't happy, and Uncle
Peter isn't happy, and between them they make us damn miserable. That
kind of marriage is bound to fail, I think. People ought to
marry in their own class!...
Unless they're big enough to climb out of it, said Gilbert.
She isn't!
It came to Henry suddenly that he was proposing to do what Ninian's
Uncle Peter had done: marry a girl who was not of his class. He
listened to Ninian and Gilbert as they talked of this intimate mingling
of classes, and wondered what they would say if they knew of Sheila.
Gilbert and Ninian were agreed that on the whole it was foolish for a
man to marry that kind of girl. It doesn't work, said Gilbert, and he
told a story of a man whom his father had known, an officer in the
Indian army who developed communist beliefs when he retired and had
married his cook. It's a ghastly failure, said Gilbert.
I'm all for equality, Ninian said, but it's silly to think that
we're always equal now. We're not!...
And never will be, Gilbert interjected.
I don't agree with you, Gilbert. I think that things like habits
and manners can be fairly equalised!...
Minds can't!
No, of course not; but decent behaviour can, and it's silly to
start mingling classes until you've done that. You rub each other the
wrong way over little things that don't really matter, but that
irritate like blazes. I've talked about it with mother. She used to
think I was the sort of chap who'd do what Uncle Peter did. Uncle Peter
frightened me off that kind of thing!
It was absurd, Henry thought, to think that all women were like
Uncle Peter's wife. Sheila was not that sort of girl at all. She would
not make a man feel ashamed!...
He broke off in the middle of his thoughts to listen to Gilbert who
was enunciating a doctrine that was new to Henry.
There are aristocrats and there are plebs, said Gilbert, and they
won't mingle. That's all about it. I believe that the majority of the
working people are different from us, not only in their habits ...
that's nothing ... just the veneer ... but in their nature. We've been
achieved somehow ... evolution and that sort of thing ... because they
needed people to look after them and direct them and control them.
We're as different from working people as a race-horse is from a
cart-horse. Things that are quite natural to us are simply finicky
fussy things to them. I wish to God talking like this didn't make a
fellow feel like a prig!...
He broke off almost angrily.
Let's go out, he said. I want to smoke!
But it's true all the same, he went on when they got outside,
almost as if he had not broken his speech. Whether we tried for it or
not, we've got people separated into groups, and we'll never get them
out of them. Some of us are servants and some of us are bosses, and
we've developed natures like that, and we can't get away from them!
Henry reminded them of men who had climbed from low positions to high
positions. They're the accidents, Gilbert went on. They prove
nothing, and I'm certain that if you could go back into their ancestry,
you'd find they sprang from people like us, who had somehow slithered
down until the breed told and a turn up was taken!...
They argued round and round the subject, admitting here, denying
there....
Anyhow, Gilbert ended, it is true that a man who marries a
village girl makes a mistake, isn't it?
Not always, Henry replied.
Nearly always, said Gilbert.
Uncle Peter made a mistake anyhow, Ninian said.
6
He went to his room, pleading that he was tired, to write his letter
to Sheila before dinner. As he was going upstairs, Mary began to
descend, and he saw that her look was brighter.
Go back, she called to him, waving her hand as if to thrust him
down the stairs again. It's unlucky to pass people on the stairs.
Don't you know that?
He descended again as she bade him, laughing as he did so, and
waited until she had come down.
Mother's much better now, she said when she had reached his side.
She's coming down to dinner.
I'm awfully glad, he replied. He hesitated for a second or two,
standing with one foot on the last step of the stairs. I say, Mary,
he said.
Yes, Quinny! she answered, turning to him.
So she had not forgotten that she had called him by his nick-name.
I say, Mary, he said again, still undecided as to whether he
should speak his mind or not.
Yes? she repeated.
He went up a step or two of the stairs. Oh, I don't know, he
exclaimed. I only wanted to say how nice it is to be here again!
Oh, yes! Mary said, and he imagined that her tone was one of
disappointment.
I'll be down presently, he went on, and then he ran up the stairs
to his room.
I don't know, he said to himself, as he closed his door. I'm
damned if I know!
He sat down at the writing-table and spread a sheet of notepaper in
front of him. I wish I knew!... he murmured, and he wrote down the
date. Mary is awfully nice, and I like her of course, but Sheila!...
He put the pen down again and sat back in his chair and stared out
of the window. Out in the farmyard, he could hear the men bedding the
horses, and there was a clatter of cans from the dairy where the women
were turning the milk into cream. He could hear a horse whinnying in
its stall ... and as he listened he seemed to see Sheila, as he had
seen her on her uncle's farm before he had failed in courage, standing
outside the byre with a crock in her hands and a queer, teasing look in
her eyes. You're the quare wee fella! she was saying, and then, I
like you quaren well!...
He seized the pen again and began to write.
7
He had almost finished the letter when Gilbert knocked on his door
and shouted, Can I come in, Quinny?
He put the letter under the blotting paper, and called, Yes,
Gilbert! in reply.
Aren't you ready yet? Gilbert asked.
No, not yet, but I won't be long changing!
Righto! said Gilbert, going to the other window and looking across
the fields. Rum go about Ninian's uncle, isn't it? he said, playing
with the tassle of the blind.
Eh? said Henry.
There must be something low in a man who marries a woman like that,
don't you think?
Oh, I don't know. Why should there be?
Obvious, isn't it? I mean, there can't be much in common otherwise,
can there? Unless the man's a sentimental ass. It's as if you or I were
to marry one of the girls out there in the yard, milking the cows.
She'd be awfully useful for that job ... milking cows ... but you
wouldn't want her to be doing it all the time. It depends, I suppose,
on what you want to do. If you've got any ambition!...
He did not finish the sentence, but Henry understood and nodded his
head as if he agreed with him.
I must trot off, Gilbert said suddenly, going towards the door.
I'm keeping you!... He paused with his fingers on the handle of the
door. I say, Quinny, he said, do you know anything about women?
No, not much, Henry answered. Do you?
No. Funny, isn't it? he replied, and then he went out of the room.
Henry sat still for a moment, staring at the closed door, and then
turned back to the writing-table and took the letter to Sheila from
beneath the blotting-paper. He read it through and sat staring at it
until the writing became a dancing blur.... He got up, carrying the
letter in his hand, and went to the door and opened it. He tried to
call Gilbert! but the name came out in a whisper, and before he could
call again, he heard the noise of laughter and then the sound of a
young voice singing. Mary was downstairs, teasing Ninian. He could hear
Ninian, half laughing, half growling, as he shouted, Don't be an old
ass, Mary!
He shut the door and went back to the writing-table, still holding
the letter in his hand, and while he stood there, a gong was sounded in
the hall.
Lord! he said, I shall have to hurry! and he tore up the letter
and put it in the waste-paper basket.
8
They passed their time in bathing and boating and walking, and
sometimes Mary was with them, but mostly she was not. They went out in
the mornings, soon after breakfast, taking food with them, and seldom
returned until the evening. They took long tramps to Honiton and Lyme
Regis and Sidmouth, and once they walked to Exeter and returned home by
train. Mary liked boating and bathing, but she did not care for
walking, and the distances they travelled were beyond her strength; and
so it came about that gradually, during Henry's stay at Boveyhayne, she
ceased to take part in their outings. It seemed odd to him that she did
not make any reference to their love-making. She called him Quinny
and was friendly enough, but she called Gilbert by his Christian name
and was as friendly with him as she was with Henry. He felt hurt when
he thought of her indifference to him. You'd think she'd forgotten
about it! he said to himself one evening when he was sitting alone
with her in the garden, and he oscillated between the desire to ignore
her and the desire to have it out with her; but he dallied so long
between one desire and the other that Gilbert and Ninian and Mrs.
Graham had joined them before he had made a decision. He could not
understand Mary. She seemed to have grown shy and quiet and much less
demonstrative than she had been when he first knew her.
Mary's growing up, Mrs. Graham said to him one evening,
irrelevantly; and of course she was, but she had not grown up so much
that there should be all this difference between Mary now and Mary
then.
Oh, well! he generally concluded when his thoughts turned to her,
she's only a kid!
And sometimes that explanation seemed to satisfy him. There were
other times when it failed to satisfy him, and he told himself that
Mary was justly cold to him because he had not been loyal to their
compact. He had not answered her letters and he had made love to Sheila
Morgan. I suppose, he said to himself, I'd be at Ballymartin now,
making love to Sheila, if it hadn't been for that horse!
He tried on several occasions to talk to Mary about her unanswered
letter, to invent some explanation of his neglect, but always he failed
to say anything, too nervous to begin, too afraid of being snubbed, too
eager to leave the explanation over until the next day; and so he never
had it out with her.
I am a fool! he would say to himself in angry rebuke, but even
while he was reproaching himself, his mind was devising an excuse for
his behaviour. We're really too young, he would add. It's silly of
me to think of this sort of thing at all, and Mary's still a
schoolgirl!...
I'll just say something to her before I go away, he thought.
Something that will ... explain everything!
Then Mr. Quinn wrote to him to say that he was in London on
business. He was anxious that Henry should come to town so that they
could return to Ireland together. We'll go to Dublin, he wrote, and
I'll leave you there. You needn't come to Ballymartin until the end of
the first term.
He felt strangely chilled by his father's letter. This jolly holiday
at Boveyhayne was to be the end of one life, and the journey to Dublin
was to be the beginning of another; and he did not wish to end the one
life or begin the other. He could feel growing within him, an
extraordinary hatred of Trinity College, and he almost wrote to his
father to say that he would rather not go to a University at all than
go to T. C. D. It was cruel, he told himself, to separate him from his
friends and compel him to go to a college that meant nothing on earth
to him.
I shan't know any one there, he said to Gilbert and Ninian, and I
probably won't want to know any one. It's a hole, that's what it is, a
rotten hole. If the dons were any good, they'd be at Oxford or
Cambridge!...
You're not much of a patriot, Ninian said.
I don't want to be a damned patriot. I want to be with people I
like. I don't see why I should be compelled to go and live with a lot
of people I don't know and don't care about, just because I'm Irish and
they're Irish, when I really want to be with you and Gilbert and
Roger.... I haven't seen Roger since I left Rumpell's and I don't
suppose I shall see him for a long time!
Gilbert tried to mock him out of his anger. This emotion does you
credit, young Quinny! he said, and we are touched, Ninian and I.
Aren't we, Ninian! But you must be a man, Quinny! Four years hence, we
shall all meet in London, Deo volente, and we'll be able to
compare the education of Ireland with the education of England. Oh,
Lordy God, I sometimes wish we hadn't got minds at all. I think it must
be lovely to be a cow ... nothing to do but chew the damned cud all
day. No soul to consider, no mind to improve, no anything!...
Gilbert and he left Boveyhayne together, but Gilbert was only going
as far as Templecombe with him, where he was to change on his way to
Cheltenham. Ninian and Mary saw them off at Whitcombe, and when he
remembered the circumstances in which she had seen him off before,
Henry had a longing to take hold of her arm and lead her to the end of
the platform, as he had done then, and tell her that he was sorry for
everything and beg her to start again where they had left off that day
... but Gilbert was there and Ninian was there, and there was no
opportunity, and the train went off, leaving the explanation unmade.
9
Good-bye, Quinny! Gilbert said at Templecombe.
Good-bye, Gilbert! Henry answered in a low tone.
I suppose you'll write to me some day?
I suppose so. Yes, of course!...
Ripping day, isn't it? Shame to be wasting it in a blooming train!
Yes!
He wished that the train would break down so that he need not part
from Gilbert yet, but while he was wishing, it began to move. Gilbert
stood back from the carriage and waved his hand to him, and Henry leant
with his head through the window of his carriage, smiling....
Damn Trinity, he said, sitting back in his seat, and letting
depression envelop him. Damn and blast Trinity!...
THE SECOND BOOK
OF
CHANGING WINDS
I write of Youth, of Love, and have Accesse
By these, to sing of cleanly-Wantonnesse.
HERRICK.
THE FIRST CHAPTER
1
Henry Quinn climbed into a carriage at Amiens Street station and sat
back in his seat and puffed with pleasure, blowing out his breath with
a long poo-ing sound. He was quit of Trinity College at last! Thank
God, he was quit of it at last! The hatred with which he had entered
Trinity had, in his four years of graduation, been mitigated ... there
were even times when he had kindly thoughts of Trinity ... but every
letter he received from Gilbert Farlow or Ninian Graham or Roger Carey
stirred the resentment he felt at his separation from his friends who
had gone to Cambridge, and so, in spite of the kindlier feeling he now
had for the College, he was happy to think that he was quitting it for
the last time. But it isn't Irish, he insisted when his father
complained of his lack of love for Trinity. It's ... it's a
hermaphrodite of a college, neither one thing nor another, English nor
Irish. I always feel, when I step out of College Green into Trinity,
that I've stepped right out of Ireland and landed on the point of a
rock in the middle of the Irish Sea ... and the point pricks and is
damned uncomfortable!
You've got the English habit of damning everything, Henry! his
father replied at a tangent.
But Henry would not be drawn away from his argument.
The atmosphere of the place is all wrong, he went on. The Provost
looks down the side of his nose at you if he thinks you take an
interest in Ireland!
Mr. Quinn, in his eagerness to defend his College from reproaches
which he knew to be deserved, reminded Henry that the Provost had a
considerable reputation as a Greek scholar, but his effort only
delivered him more completely into Henry's hands.
But, father, Henry said, you yourself used to say what's the good
of knowing all about Greece when you don't know anything about Ireland.
I don't care about Greece and all those rotten little holes in the
Ægean ... that's dead and done with ... but I do care about Ireland
which isn't dead and done with!
It was then that Mr. Quinn found consolation. Well, anyway, you've
learned to love Ireland, he said. Trinity's done that much for you!
Trinity hasn't done it for me, Henry answered, I did it for
myself.
Lying back in his seat, waiting for the train to steam out of the
station on its journey to Belfast, Henry remembered that conversation
with his father, and his mind speculated freely on his attitude towards
Trinity. I don't care, he said, if I never put my foot inside the
gates again!
Something that Patrick Galway said to him once, when he and John
Marsh were talking of Trinity, came back to his memory. The College is
living on Oliver Goldsmith and Edmund Burke, Galway said, and added,
It's like a maiden lady in a suburb giving herself airs because her
great-grandfather knew somebody who was great. It hasn't produced a man
who's done anything for Ireland, except harm, not in the last hundred
years anyhow. Lawyers and parsons and officials, that's the best
Trinity can do! If you think of the Irishmen who've done anything fine
for Ireland, you'll find that, when they came from universities at all,
they came from Oxford or Cambridge, anywhere on God's earth but
Trinity. Horace Plunkett was at Oxford....
Eton, too! Marsh had interjected.
Yes, Eton! Galway went on. Think of it! An Irish patriot coming
from Eton where you'd think only Irish oppressors would come from! If
Plunkett had been educated in an Irish school and sent to Trinity, do
you think he'd have done anything decent for Ireland?
Yes, Henry had replied promptly. He's that kind of man!
No, he wouldn't, Galway retorted. They'd have educated the
decency out of him, and he'd have been a ... a sort of Lord Ashtown!
But Henry would have none of that. He would not believe that a man's
nature can be altered by pedagogues.
Horace Plunkett would have been a good Irishman if he'd been born
and reared and educated in an Orange Lodge, he said.
I'm not talking about natures, Galway replied. I'm talking about
beliefs. They'd have told him it was no good trying to build up an
Irish nation....
He wouldn't have believed them, Henry retorted. Damn it, Galway,
do you think a man like Plunkett would let a lot of fiddling
schoolmasters knock him off his balance?
I'm a schoolmaster, Galway answered, and I know what
schoolmasters can do! His voice changed, deepening, as he spoke. I
know what the young teachers in Ireland mean to do!
What do they mean to do? Henry had asked jokingly.
Make Irishmen, Galway answered.
If only Trinity would make Irishmen, he went on, we'd all be
saved a deal of trouble. But it won't, and when a man of family, like
Plunkett, is born with good will for Ireland, he has to go to England
to be educated. And he ought to be educated in Ireland, and he would be
if Trinity were worth a damn. I wish I were Provost, I'd teach Irishmen
to be proud of their birth!
Well, when we've made Ireland a nation, said Henry, chaffing him,
we'll make you Provost of Trinity! and Galway, though he knew that
Henry was jesting, smiled with pleasure.
When Ireland is a nation! Marsh murmured dreamily.
2
It was extraordinary, Henry thought, how little at home he had felt
in Dublin. He had the feel of Ballymartin in his bones. He had kinship
with the people in Belfast. At Rumpell's and at Boveyhayne he had had
no sensation of alien origin. He had stepped into the life of the
school as naturally as Gilbert Farlow had done, and at Boveyhayne, even
when he still had difficulty in catching the dialect of the fishermen,
he had felt at home. But in Dublin, he had an uneasy feeling that after
all, he was a stranger. In his first year at Trinity, he had been
brutally contemptuous of the city and its inhabitants. They can't even
put up the names of the streets so that people can read them, he said
to John Marsh soon after he arrived in Dublin. They're so damned
incompetent! And Marsh had told him to control his Ulster blood.
You're right to be proud of Ulster, he had said, but you oughtn't to
go about talking as if the rest of Ireland were inhabited by fools!
I know I oughtn't, Henry replied, but I can't help it when I see
the way these asses are letting Dublin down!
That was how he felt about Dublin and the Dublin people, that Dublin
was being let down by her citizens. His first impression of the city
was that it was noble, even beautiful, in spite of its untidiness, its
distress. He would wander about the streets, gazing at the fine old
Georgian houses, tumbling into decay, and feel so much anger against
the indifferent citizens that sometimes he felt like hitting the first
Dublin man he met ... hitting him hard so that he should bleed!...
I feel as if Dublin were like an old mansion left by a drunken lord
in the charge of a drunken caretaker, he said to Marsh. It's horrible
to see those beautiful houses decaying, but it's more horrible to think
that nobody cares!
Marsh had taken him one Sunday to a house where there were ceilings
that were notable even in Dublin which is full of houses with beautiful
ceilings.
If we had houses like that in Belfast, Henry had said, as they
came away, we wouldn't let them become slums!
No, retorted Marsh, unable to restrain himself from sneering,
you'd make peep-shows out of them and charge for admission!
Well, that would be better than turning them into slums, Henry
answered good-humouredly.
Would it? Marsh replied.
Would it? Henry wondered. The train was now on its way to
Belfast, and, looking idly out of the window, he could see the waves of
the Irish Sea breaking on the sands at Malahide, heaving suddenly into
a glassy-green heap, and then tumbling over into a sprawl of white
foam. Would it? he wondered, thinking again of what Marsh had said
about the Georgian houses with their wide halls and lovely Adams
ceilings. There was no beauty of building at all in Belfast, and no one
there seemed anxious that there should be: in all that city, so full of
energy and purpose and grit and acuteness of mind, there did not appear
to be one man of power who cared for the fine shape or the good look of
things; but, after all, was that so very much worse than the state of
mind of the Dublin people who, knowing what beauty is, carelessly let
it decay? He began to feel bitterly about Ireland and her indifference
to culture and beauty. He told himself that Ireland was the land of
people who do not care....
They've got to be made to care! he said aloud.
But how was it to be done?...
His sense of being an alien in Dublin had persisted all the time
that he had lived there. The Dublin people were gregarious and
garrulous, and he was solitary and reflective. Marsh and Galway had
taken him to houses where people met and talked without stopping, and
much conversation with miscellaneous, casually-encountered people bored
Henry. He had no gift for ready talk and he disliked crowds and he was
unable to carry on a conversation with people whom he did not know, of
whose very names he was ignorant. Sometimes, he had envied Marsh and
Galway because of the ease with which they could converse with
strangers. Marsh would talk about himself and his poems and his work
with an innocent vanity that made people like him; but Henry,
self-conscious and shy, could not talk of himself or his intentions to
any but his intimates. Sitting here, in this carriage, from which, even
now, he could see in the distance, veiled in clouds, the high peaks of
the Mourne mountains, he tried to explain this difference between Marsh
and himself. Why was it that these Dublin men were so lacking in
reticence, so eager to communicate, while he and Ulstermen were
reserved and eager to keep silent? He set his problem in those terms.
He identified himself as a type of the Ulsterman, and began to develop
a theory, flattering to himself, to account for the difference between
Dublin people and Ulstermen ... until he remembered that Ernest Harper
was an Ulsterman. Mr. Quinn had taken Henry to see Harper on the first
Sunday evening after they had arrived in Dublin from England, and
Harper had received him very charmingly and had talked to him about
nationality and co-operation and the Irish drama and the strange
inability of Lady Gregory to understand that it was not she who had
founded the Abbey Theatre, until Henry, who had never heard of Lady
Gregory, began to feel tired. He had waited patiently for a chance to
interpolate something into the monologue until hope began to leave him,
and then, with a great effort he had interrupted the flow of Harper's
vivid talk and had made a reference to a picture hanging on the wall
beside him. It showed a flaming fairy in the middle of a dark wood....
Oh, yes, Harper said, that's the one I saw!
You saw? Henry had exclaimed in astonishment.
And then he remembered that Harper spoke of fairies as intimately as
other men speak of their friends....
Good God! he thought, where am I? and wondered what
Ninian Graham would make of Ernest Harper.
Harper was an Ulsterman, and so was George Russell, whom people
called A. E. Marsh and Galway, now almost inseparable, had taken
Henry to hear George Russell speaking on some mystical subject at the
Hermetic Club, and Henry, bewildered by the subject, had felt himself
irresistibly attracted to the fiery-eyed man who spoke with so little
consciousness of his audience. After the meeting was ended, he had
walked part of the way home with Russell and had listened to him as he
said the whole of his lecture over again ... and he left him with a
feeling that Russell was unaware of human presences, that the company
of human beings was not necessary to him, that his speech was
addressed, not to the visible audience or the visible companion, but to
an audience or a companion that no one but himself could see. Was there
any one on earth less like the typical Ulsterman than George Russell,
who preached mysticism and better business, or Ernest Harper who took
penny tramrides to pay visits to the fairies?
No, this theory of some inherent difference between Ulstermen and
other Irishmen would not work. There must be some other explanation of
Henry's dislike of crowds, his silence in large companies, his
inability to assert himself in the presence of strangers. Why was it
that he was unable to talk about himself and the things he had done and
the things he meant to do as Marsh talked? It was not because he was
more modest, had more humility, than Marsh; for in his heart, Henry was
vain.... And while he was asking himself this question, suddenly he
found the answer. It was because he was afraid to talk about himself,
it was because he had not got the courage to be vain and self-assertive
in crowds. His inability to talk among strangers, to make people cease
their own conversation in order to listen to him, was part of that
cowardice that had prevented him from diving into the sea when he went
with his father to swim at Cushendall and had sent him shivering into
the shelter of the hedge when the runaway horse came galloping down the
Ballymena road....
This swift, lightning revelation made him stand up in the carriage
and gape at the photographs of Irish scenery in front of him.
Oh, my God! he said to himself, am I always to be tortured like
this?
4
He sat back in his seat and lay against the cushions without moving.
He saw himself now very clearly, for he had the power to see himself
with the closest fidelity. He knew now that all his explanations were
excuses, that the bitter things he had sometimes said of those who had
qualities which he had not, were invented to prevent him from admitting
that he was without courage. Any fight, mental or physical, unnerved
him when it brought him into personal contact with his opponents. He
could write wounding things to a man, but he could not say them to him
without losing possession of himself and his tongue; and so he passed
from the temper of a cool antagonist to that of an enraged shrew. He
had tried to explain the garrulity of the Dublin people by saying that
they were obliged to talk and to persist in talking because otherwise
they'd start to think! but he knew now that that was not an accurate
explanation, that it was an ill-natured attempt to cover up his own
lack of force.
And that's worse than cowardice, he said to himself, to excuse my
own funkiness by pretending that courage isn't courage!
He remembered that he had invented a bitter phrase about Yeats one
night when he had seen the poet in a house in Dublin. Yeats is
behaving as if he were the archangel Gabriel making the Annunciation!
he had said, and the man to whom he had said it had laughed and asked
what Henry thought Yeats was announcing.
A fresh revision of one of his lyrics, he had replied....
And I'd give the world, he said now, to be able to put on his
pontifical air!
He had a shrinking will; his instinct in an emergency was to back
away from things. He had not got the capacity to compel men to do his
bidding by the simple force of his personality. If he succeeded in
persuading people to do things which he suggested to them he was only
able to do so after prolonged discussion, sometimes only after
everything else had failed. At Rumpell's, Gilbert had made suggestions
as if they were commands that must instantly be obeyed ... and they had
been instantly obeyed; but when Henry made suggestions, either people
did not listen to them or, having listened to them, they acted on some
other suggestion, until at last, Henry, disheartened, seldom proposed
anything until the last moment, and then he made his proposal in a way
which seemed to indicate that he thought little of it; and when some of
his suggestions were accepted and had proved, in practice, to be good,
his attitude had been, not that of the man who is absolutely sure of
himself, but rather of the man who gasps with relief because something
that he thought was very likely to be a failure, had proved to be a
success.
Depression settled on him so heavily that he began to believe that
he was bound to fail in everything that he undertook to do, and when he
thought of the bundle of manuscript in his portmanteau, he had a sudden
inclination to take it out and fling it through the window of the
carriage. He had not spoken of his writing to any one except John
Marsh, and to him, he had only said that he intended to write a novel
some day. Once, indeed, he had said, I've written quite a lot of that
novel I told you about! but Marsh, intent on something else, had
answered vaguely, Oh, yes! and had changed the conversation, leaving
Henry to imagine that he had little faith in his power to write. He had
been so despondent after that, that he had gone back to College and,
having re-read what he had written, had torn the manuscript in pieces
and thrown it into the grate because it seemed so dull and tasteless.
He had not written a word after that for more than a month, and he
might not have written anything for a longer period had he not heard
from Gilbert Farlow that he had finished a comedy in three acts and had
sent it to Mr. Alexander. The news stimulated him, and in a little
while he was itching to write again. In the evening, he began to
re-write the story and thereafter it went on, sometimes quickly,
sometimes slowly, until it was finished. His feelings about it changed
with remarkable rapidity. He read it over, in its unfinished state,
many times, feeling at one time it was excellent, and at another time
that it was poor, flatulent stuff, without colour or vivacity.
Writing did not give pleasure to him: it gave him pain. He felt none
of that exultation in creating characters which he had been told was
part of the pleasures of an author. There were times, indeed, when he
felt a mitigated joy in writing because his ideas were fluent and words
fell easily off his pen, but even on those occasions, the labour of
writing hurt him and exhausted him. The times of pleasurable writing
were short interludes between the long stretches of painful writing,
little oases that made the journey across the desert just possible. And
then there were those periods of appalling misery when, having ended a
chapter, he wondered what he should make his people do next. He would
leave them, landed neatly at the end of some adventure or emotional
crisis, feeling that the story was going on splendidly and that his
power to write was full and strong, and then, having written the number
of the next chapter, he would reach forward to write the first word ...
and suddenly there was devastation in his mind, and My God! I don't
know what to make them do now! he would say.
He had read in a literary journal that some authors planned their
stories before they began to write them. They prepared a summary of the
tale, and then enlarged the summary. They knew exactly what was to
happen in each chapter. A character could not move or rise or sit down
or turn pale or look pleased without the author having known about it
long before the act was performed. It was as if the author could count
the very hairs on the heads of his people. Just like God! Henry had
said to himself when he had finished reading the article.... He had
tried to make a plan, and, after much labour, had completed one; but it
was useless to him, for when he came to write out the story, his
characters kicked it aside and insisted on behaving in some other way
than he had planned that they should behave. It was as if they had
taken their destinies into their own hands and insisted on living their
lives in accordance with their own wishes instead of living them in
accordance with his.... It was fortunate then that he began to read
Tristram Shandy, for when he saw how Sterne's pen, refusing to obey
him, had filled some of his pages with curly lines and dots and
confusions, had even declined to fill a chapter at all, impudently
skipping it, he realised that authors are but creatures in the hands of
some force that wills them to create things which they cannot control
and sometimes cannot understand.
Writing his book had given him one pleasure. On the day on which he
wrote the last word of it, he felt joy. Before he began to write, he
had read in Forster's Life of Dickens that the great novelist had
parted from his characters with pain. Henry parted from his characters
with pleasure. Thank God, he said, as he put down his pen, I've
finished with the brutes!
He had enjoyed reading the story in its finished state, and when he
had packed the manuscript into his portmanteau, he had felt that the
story was good, and had sat in a chair dreaming of the success it would
make and the praise he would receive for it. He tried to calculate the
number of copies that would be sold, basing his calculations on the
total population of the British Isles. There are over forty millions
of people in England and Wales alone, he said to himself, and another
ten millions, say, in Scotland and Ireland ... about fifty millions in
all. I ought to sell a good many copies ... and then there's America!
He thought that ten per cent. of the population might buy the story,
and believed that his estimate was modest until he remembered that ten
per cent. of fifty millions is five millions!...
And that made him laugh. Even he, in his wildest imaginings, did not
dream of selling five million copies of his novel.
5
He wished now that he had asked John Marsh and Patrick Galway to
read the story and tell him what they thought of it. They were honest
men, and would criticise his work frankly. At that moment, he had an
insatiable longing to know the truth, mingled with a strange fear of
knowing it. What he wished to know was whether or not he had the
potentialities of a great author in him. He knew that his story was not
commonplace stuff, but he was afraid that it might only be middling
writing, and he did not wish to be a middling writer. If he could not
be a great writer, he did not wish to be a writer at all. There were
thousands and thousands of novels in the world which did no more for
men than enable them to put their minds to sleep. Henry did not wish to
add a book to their number. There were other books, fewer in number
than those, which showed that their authors had some feeling for life,
but not enough, and these authors went on, year after year, producing
one or more novels, each of which showed promise, but never showed
achievement. The life these men pursued always eluded them. It was
impossible for Henry to join the crowd of people who produced books
which perished with the generation that they pleased. That much he
knew. But he was eager that he should not fall into the ranks of the
semi-great, the half-clever; and his fear was that his place was in
their midst.
While he was ruminating in this manner, he remembered that Gilbert
Farlow had written to him a few days before he left Dublin, and he
ceased to think of his career as a writer and began to search his
pockets for Gilbert's letter.
I'll show the manuscript to Gilbert, he said to himself. Old
Gilbert loves telling people the truth!
He found the letter and began to read it. Quinny, it began,
for Gilbert had abandoned dears because, he said, he sometimes had to
write to people who were detestable:
Quinny: How soon can you get quit of that barrack in Dublin
where your misguided father thinks you are being taught to be Irish?
Cast your eyes on the address at the head of this notepaper. It is a
noble house that Roger and I have discovered. Ninian has seen it and he
approves of it. I said I'd break his blighted neck for him if he
disapproved of it, which may have had something to do with his
decision, though not much, for Ninian has become a very muscular young
fellow and I shouldn't have liked the job of breaking his neck very
much. Roger and I have been here for a week now, and Ninian joins us at
the end of the month. He's down at Boveyhayne at present, catching
lobsters and sniffing the air, all of which he says is very good for
him and would be better for me. And you. And Roger. There is a tablet
on the front wall of the house, fixed by the London County Council,
which says that Lord Thingamabob used to live here sometime in the
eighteenth century. The landlord tried to raise the rent on that
account, but we said we were Socialists and would expect the rent to be
decreased because of the injury to our principles caused by residence
in a house that had been inhabited by a member of the cursed, bloated
and effete aristocracy. He begged our pardon and said that in the
circumstances, he wouldn't charge anything extra, but he had us in the
end, the mouldy worm, for he said that it was the custom to make
Socialists pay a quarter's rent in advance. The result was that Roger
had to stump up ... I couldn't for I was broke ... which made dear
little Roger awfully unpleasant to live with for a whole day. I offered
to go back and tell the man that we weren't Socialists at all, but
Improved Tories, but he said I'd done enough harm. It's a pity that old
Roger hasn't got a better sense of humour.
We have chosen two rooms for you, one to work in, and the other
to sleep in. We're each to have two rooms, so that we can go and be
morose in comfort if we want to; but I daresay in the evenings we'll
want to be together. I've thought out a scheme of decoration for your
roomall pink rosebuds and stuff like that. Roger asked me not to be
an ass when I told him of it. His notion is a nice quiet distemper.
Perhaps you'd better see to the decoration yourself although I must say
I always thought your taste was perfectly damnable.
By-the-way, there's a ghost in this house. It's supposed to be
the ghost of Lord Thingamabob, and I believe it is. I saw it myself
three nights ago, and it was as drunk as a fiddler. My God, Quinny,
it's a terrible thing to see an intoxicated spook. Roger wouldn't
believe me when I told him about it afterwards. He said I was drunk
myself and that he heard me tumbling up the stairs to bed. Which is a
lie. I did see it, and it was drunk. I heard it hiccough! I wouldn't
say it was drunk if it wasn't. De mortuis nil nisi bonum, Quinny, and
it would be a very dirty trick to slander a poor bogey that can't
defend itself. It looked very like its descendant, Lord Middleweight,
and it had the same soppy grin that he has when he thinks he's said
something clever. Damned ass, that chap!
Alexander sent my comedy back. He sent a note along with it and
told me what a clever lad I am and more or less hinted that when I've
grown up, I can send him another play. I suppose he thinks I'm a kid in
knickerbockers. The result of this business is that I'm going to try
and get a job as a dramatic critic. If I do, God help the next play he
produces. I'm a hurt man, and I shall let the world know about it. I'm
half-way through another piece which will take some place by storm, I
hope. It's a very bright play, much better than the muck Oscar Wilde
wrote, not so melodramatic, and tons better than anything Bernard Shaw
has written. It's all about me.
We've got an old woman called Clutters to housekeep for us. I
chose her on account of her name, and it is a piece of good luck that
she cooks extraordinarily well. There is also a maid, but we don't know
her name, so we call her Magnolia. I'm really writing all this rot to
get myself into the twitter-twitter mood. One of the characters in my
new comedy talks like a character in a book by E. F. Benson, and I have
to work myself up into a state of babbling fatuity before I can write
her lines for her.
Come to London as soon as you can.
Gilbert.
6
The prospect of settling in London in the society of his
schoolfriends pleased him. Marsh and Galway had tried to persuade him
to make his home in Dublin, pleading that it was the duty of every
educated Irishman to live in Ireland. We haven't got many educated men
on our side, Marsh said, not a hundred in the whole of Ireland, and
we need people like you! They talked of political schemes that must be
prepared for the parliament that would some day be re-established in
College Green. And they can only be prepared by educated men, Marsh
said.
Henry would not listen to them. His longing was to be with Gilbert
and Roger and Ninian in London. Dublin made very little appeal to him,
and the job of regenerating Ireland was so immense that it frightened
him. I haven't got a common ground with you people, he said to Marsh
and Galway. You're Catholic to start off with, and I'm like my father,
I think the Catholic religion is a contemptible religion. And you're
not interested in anything but Ireland and the Gaelic movement. I'm
interested in everything!
Don't you want to do anything for Ireland then? John Marsh
had asked.
Oh, yes! I'll vote for Home Rule when I get a vote, he had
replied.
I know what your end will be, Patrick Galway added in a sullen
voice. You'll become a Chelsea Nationalist ... willing to do anything
for Ireland but live in it!
Well, who would want to live in Ireland with its penny-farthing
politics! London for him! London and a sense of bigness, of wide ideas
and the constant interplay of many minds!
He would talk to his father about Gilbert's proposal. There would be
all sorts of subjects to discuss with him, that and the question of an
allowance and the question of a career....
The train ran swiftly through the suburbs of Belfast and presently
pulled up at the terminus. He descended from his carriage and called a
jarvey who drove him across the city to the Northern Counties station
where he took train again. It was late that night when he arrived at
Ballymartin.
THE SECOND CHAPTER
1
Mr. Quinn had become more absorbed in the Irish Agricultural
Co-Operative Movement, and he used the home farm for experiments in
scientific cultivation. His talk, when Henry returned home, was mainly
about a theory of tillage which he called continuous cropping, and it
was with difficulty that Henry could persuade him to talk about
Gilbert's proposal that he should join the household in Bloomsbury.
I'm glad you've come home, Henry, he said after breakfast on the
morning following Henry's return. This system of continuous cropping
is splendid, but it wants careful attention. You've got to adjust it
continually to circumstances ... you can't follow any rules about it
... and if you'll just stay here and help me with it, we'll be able to
do wonders with the home farm!
Henry did not wish to settle in Ballymartin, at all events not for a
long time.
I want to go to London, father! he said.
London! What for? Mr. Quinn exclaimed, and then before Henry could
say why he wished to go to London, he added, You'll have to settle on
something, Henry. I always meant you to take over the estate fairly
soon, to work things out with me. Don't you want to do that?
Not particularly, father!
Well, what's to become of you, then? Do you want to go into the
Army? It's a bit late!...
No, father!
Or the Navy? But you should have gone to Osborne long ago if you
wanted to do that!
Henry shook his head.
Well, what do you want to do. Are you thinkin' of the law?
I don't care about the law, father!...
I don't care about it myself, Henry. I was no good at it, an' mebbe
that's the reason I think so little of it. But we have to have lawyers
all the same. It would be a good plan now to sentence criminals to be
lawyers, wouldn't it? 'The sentence of the Court is that you be taken
from this place an' made to practise at the Bar for the rest of your
natural life, an' may the Lord have mercy on your soul!' Begod, Henry,
that's a great notion!
Henry interrupted his father's fancy. I want to write, he said.
Write! Mr. Quinn exclaimed. Write what?
Books. Novels, I think!...
Mr. Quinn put down his paper and gaped at his son. Good God, he
said, an author!
Yes, father.
You're daft, Henry!
Henry got up from his chair, and went across to his father and took
hold of his shoulder affectionately. No, father, I'm not, he
answered.
Yes, you are, I tell you. You're clean cracked!...
I've written one novel already.
Mr. Quinn threw out his hands in a despairing gesture. Oh, well,
he said, if you've committed yourself.... Where is it?
It's upstairs in my room. The manuscript, I mean. Of course, it
hasn't been published yet.
A servant came into the room to clear away the remains of the
breakfast, and Mr. Quinn got up from his chair and walked through the
open window on to the terrace.
What's it about? he said to Henry who had followed him.
Oh, love! Henry answered, seating himself beside his father.
Mr. Quinn grunted. Huh! he said, gazing intently at the gravel.
Is it sloppy?
I don't think so, father. At least, I hope it isn't!
Or dirty?
No, it isn't dirty. I know it isn't dirty, Henry said very
emphatically.
Mr. Quinn did not answer for a while. He got up from his seat and
walked to the end of the terrace where he busied himself for a few
moments in tending to a rosebush. Then he returned to the seat where
Henry had remained, and said, Will you let me read it, Henry?
Why, yes, father. Of coarse, I will, Henry answered, rising and
moving towards the house. I'd like you to read it, he added. Perhaps
you'll tell me what you think of it?
I will, Mr. Quinn replied, closing his lips down tightly.
I'll just go and get it, Henry said, and he went into the house.
Mr. Quinn remained seated on the terrace, looking rigidly in front
of him, until Henry returned, carrying a pile of manuscript. He took
the paper from him without speaking, and glanced at the first sheet on
which Henry had written in a large, clear hand:
DRUSILLA: A NOVEL
BY
HENRY QUINN.
and then he turned the page and read what was written on the second
sheet:
TO
MY FATHER
He looked at the dedication for a longer time than he had looked at
the title-page, and his hand trembled a little as he held the paper.
I thought you wouldn't mind, father! Henry said.
Mind! Mr. Quinn replied. No, I don't, Henry. I ... I like it, my
son. Thanks, Henry. I ... He got up and moved quickly towards the
window. I'll just go in an' start readin' it now, he said.
2
He returned the manuscript to Henry on the following afternoon.
I've read worse, he said.
He walked to the end of the terrace and then walked back again. Then
he shouted for William Henry Matier, who came running to him. He
pointed to a daisy on the lawn and asked the gardener what the hell he
meant by not keeping the weeds down.
Ah, sure, sir!...
Root the damn thing up, Mr. Quinn shouted at him, an' don't let
me see another about the place or I'll shoot the boots off you! I don't
know under God what I keep you for!
Now, you don't mean the half you say, sir!...
You're not worth ninepence a week!
Aw, now, said Matier, who knew his master, I'm worth more'n that,
sir!
How much are you worth? Tell me that, William Henry Matier!
William Henry rooted up the daisy, and then said that he wouldn't
like to put too high a price on himself....
You'd be a fool if you did, Mr. Quinn interrupted.
... but I'd mebbe be worth about double what you named yourself,
sir!
Eighteenpence! Mr. Quinn exclaimed.
Aye, that or a bit more. Were you wantin' anything else, sir! He
winked heavily at Henry as he turned away.
You're not worth the food you eat, Mr. Quinn said.
Aw, now, sir, you never know what anybody's worth 'til you have
need of them, Matier replied. A man mightn't be worth a damn to you
one day, an' he'd mebbe be worth millions to you the next!
There's little fear of you bein' worth millions to any one. Run on
now an' do your work if you've any work to do! Mr. Quinn turned to
Henry as the gardener went off. I suppose you'll be wantin' to live in
London for the rest of your life?
I should like to go there for a while anyway, father!
Huh! All you writin' people seem to think there's no life to be
seen anywhere but in London. As if people hadn't got bowels here as
well as in town!
I don't think that, father!...
Oh, well, it doesn't matter whether you think it or not, you'll not
be happy 'til you get to London, I suppose. You'll stay here a wee
while anyway, won't you? You've only just come home, an' it's a long
time since I saw you last!
I'll stay as long as you like, father.
Very well, then. I'll tell you when I've had enough of your company
an' then you can go off to your friends. How much money do you think
you'll need in London? Don't ask for too much. I need every ha'penny I
have for the work. You've no notion what a lot it costs to experiment
wi' land, an' I'm not as rich as you might imagine!
Henry hesitated. He had never talked about money with his father,
and he had a curious shyness about doing so now. I don't know, he
replied. Would two hundred a year be too much?...
I'll spare you two hundred an' fifty!
Thank you, father. It's awfully good of you!
Ah, wheesht with you! Sure, why wouldn't a man be good to his own
son. I suppose now you want to hear what I think of your book?
Henry smiled self-consciously. Yes, I should like to know your
opinion of it. I thought at first you didn't think much of it. You
didn't say anything!...
I'll give you a couple of years to improve it, Mr. Quinn answered.
If you can't make it better in that time, you're no good!
I suppose not.
An' don't hurry over it. Go out an' look about you a bit. There's a
lot of stuff in your story that wouldn't be there if you had any
gumption. Get gumption, Henry!
I'll try, father. Of course, I know I'm very inexperienced....
You are, my son, an' what's more you're tellin' everybody how
little you know in that book of yours. Man, dear, women aren't like
that!... Well, never mind! You'll find out for yourself soon enough.
Mind, I don't mean to say that there aren't some good things in the
book. There are ... plenty! If there weren't, I wouldn't waste my
breath talkin' to you about it. But there are things in it that are
just guff, Henry, just guff. The kind of romantic slush that a young
fellow throws off when he first realises that women are ... well,
women, damn it! ... I wish to God, you would write a book about
continuous croppin'! Now, there's a subject for a good book! There's
none of your damned love about that!...
3
He had not seen Sheila Morgan since the morning after he had failed
to stop the runaway horse. Many times, indeed, she had been in his
mind, and often at Trinity, in the long sleepless nights that afflict a
young man who is newly conscious of his manhood, he had turned from
side to side of his bed in an impotent effort to thrust her from his
thoughts. He made fanciful pictures of her in his imagination, making
her very beautiful and gracious. He saw her, then, with long dark hair
that had the lustre of a moonless night of stars, and he imagined her,
sitting close to him, so that her hair fell about his head and shoulder
and he could feel the slow movement of her breasts against his side. He
would close his eyes and think of her lips on his, and her heart
beating quickly while his thumped so loudly that it seemed that every
one must hear it ... and thinking thus, he would clench his fists with
futile force and swear to himself that he would go to her and make her
marry him. Once, when he had spent an afternoon at the Zoo in the
Phoenix Park, he had lingered for a long while in the house where the
tigers are caged because, suddenly, it seemed to him that the graceful
beast with the bright eyes resembled Sheila. It moved so easily, and as
it moved, its fine skin rippled over its muscles like running water....
I don't suppose she'd like to be called a tigress, he had thought
to himself, laughing as he did so, but that's what she's like. She's
beautiful....
And later in that afternoon, he thought he saw a resemblance between
Mary Graham and a brown squirrel that sat on a branch and cracked nuts,
throwing the shells away carelessly ... the Mary he had known when he
first went to Boveyhayne, not the Mary he had seen on his last visit.
He wondered whether Sheila had altered much, and then he wondered
what change four years had made in Mary Graham. Sheila, who had been
dominant in his mind in his first year at Trinity, had receded a little
into the background by the time he had quitted Dublin, but Mary, never
very prominent, had retained her place, neither gaining nor losing
position. It was odd, he thought to himself, that he had not been to
Boveyhayne in the four years he had been at T.C.D. Mrs. Graham had
invited him there several times, but he had not been able to accept the
invitations: once his father had been ill, and he had had to hurry to
Portrush, where he was staying, and remain with him until he was well
again; and another time he had been with Gilbert Farlow at his home in
Kent; and another time had agreed to go tramping in Connacht with Marsh
and Galway. Ninian and Gilbert and Roger had spent a holiday at
Ballymartin.... Ninian took a whole week to realise that he was in
Ulster and not in Scotland, and Gilbert begged hard for the production
of a typical Irishman who would say God bless your honour! and
Bedad! and Bejabers! and pretended not to believe that there were
not any typical Irishmen ... and went away, vowing that they would
compel Mr. Quinn to invite them to stay with him in the next vac. It
was then that Ninian decided that he would like to be a shipbuilder.
Mr. Quinn had taken them to Belfast to see the launch of a new liner,
and Tom Arthurs had invited them all to join the luncheon party when
the launch was over. The Vicereine had come from Dublin to cut the
ribbon which would release the great ship and send it moving like a
swan down the greasy slips into the river; and Tom Arthurs had
conducted her through the Yard, telling her of the purpose of this
machine and that engine until the poor lady began to be dubious of her
capacity to launch the liner. There were other guides, explaining, as
Tom Arthurs explained, the functions of the Yard to the visitors, but
Ninian had contrived to attach himself to Tom Arthurs and he listened
to him as he talked, as simply as was possible, of the way in which
great ships are built. Thereafter, Ninian had tongue for none but Tom
Arthurs, and he told him, when the party was over and the guests were
leaving the Yard, that he would like to work in the Island. Tom had
doubted whether Cambridge was the proper preparation for
shipbuilding.... I was out of my apprenticeship when I was your age,
he said ... but he said that Ninian could think about it more seriously
and then come to him when his time at Cambridge was up.
I'm thinking seriously of it now, said Ninian.
All right, my boy! Tom Arthurs answered, laughing, and slapped him
on the back. We'll see what we can do for you!
And Ninian, flushing like a girl, went away full of happiness, and
soon afterwards began to imitate Tom Arthurs' Ulster speech in the hope
that people would think he was related to the shipbuilder or, at all
events, a countryman of his.
It was odd, indeed, that Henry had not seen Mary in that time, but
it was still more odd that he had not seen Sheila. Matt Hamilton had
died soon after Henry had entered Trinity, but Mrs. Hamilton still had
the farm which, people understood, was to be left to Sheila when her
aunt died. He had not cared to go to the farm ... a mixture of pride
and shyness prevented him from doing so ... but he had hoped to meet
her on the roads about Ballymartin. Perhaps by this time, he said to
himself, she will have forgotten my funk! But although he frequently
loitered in the roads about the loanie, he never met her, and it was
not until he said some casual things to William Henry Matier that he
discovered that she was not at the farm. I heerd tell she was visitin'
friends in Bilfast! Matier said, and with that he had to be content.
Ninian and Gilbert and Roger were at Ballymartin then, and he had
little opportunity to mourn over her absence; indeed, when he
remembered that they were with him, he was glad that she was not at the
farm: their presence would have made difficulties in the way of his
intercourse with her. He would try to be alone at Ballymartin, in the
next vacation, and then he would be able to bring her to his will
again. But he did not spend the next vacation at home, and so, with
this and other absences from Ballymartin, he was unable to see her for
the whole of his time at Trinity. Neither he nor his father had spoken
of her since the day when Mr. Quinn had solemnly led him to the library
to rebuke him for his sweethearting. Mr. Quinn, indeed, had almost
forgotten about Henry's lovemaking with Sheila, and when he met the
girl and remembered that there had been lovemaking between his son and
her, he thought to himself that Henry had probably completely forgotten
her....
He wished to see her again, and his desire became so strong that he
started to walk across the fields to the loanie that led to
Hamilton's farm before he was aware of what he was about. His mind
filled again with the visions he had had of her at Trinity, and he
imagined that he saw her every now and then hiding behind a tree, ready
to spring out on him and startle him with a loud whoop, or running from
him and laughing as she ran....
4
He met her in the loanie, and for a few moments he did not
recognise her. She was sitting on the grass, in the shade of a hedge,
huddling a baby close to her breast, and he saw that she was suckling
it.
Oh, Henry, is that you? she said, starting up hurriedly so that
the baby could not suck. She drew her blouse clumsily together, but the
fretful child would not be pacified until she had started to feed it
again, and so she resumed her seat on the grass.
I didn't know you were back, she said, holding the baby up to her.
Are you here for long?
He did not answer immediately. He had not yet completely realised
that this was Sheila whom he had been eager to marry, and then when he
understood at last that this indeed was she, something inside him kept
exclaiming, But she's got a baby! and he wondered why she was feeding
it.
Are you married, Sheila? he said.
She laughed at him, and answered, That's a quare question to be
askin', an' me with this in my arms! She looked at the baby as she
spoke.
I didn't know you were married, he replied. I was coming up to
the farm to see you!
I've been married this year past, she said.
I didn't know, he murmured. No one told me!...
And suddenly he saw that her face was coarser than it had been when
he loved her. Her hair was tied untidily about her head, and he could
see that her hands, as she held the child, were rough and red, and that
her nails were broken and misshapen. Her boots were loosely laced, and
she seemed to be sprawling....
I'm all throughother, she said, as if she realised what was in his
mind and was anxious to excuse herself to him. This wee tory hardly
gives me a minute's peace, an' my aunt's not so well as she was!
He nodded his head, but did not speak.
Is it a boy or a girl? he asked after a while.
It's a boy, she said, an' the very image of his da. He's a lovely
child, Henry. Just look at him!
He came nearer to her and looked at the baby who had his little
fingers at her breast as if he would prevent her from taking it from
him. The child, still sucking, looked up at him with greedy-sleepy
eyes.
Isn't he a gran' wee fella? she went on, eyeing her son proudly.
Whom did you marry? he asked.
You know him well, she answered. Peter Logan that used to keep
the forge ... that's who I married. D'ye mind the way he could bend a
bar of iron with his two hands?...
Henry remembered. Doesn't he keep the forge now? he asked.
No, he sold it to Dan McKittrick when he married me. We needed a
man on the farm, an' he's gran' at it. There isn't a one in the place
can bate him at the reapin', an' you should see the long, straight
furrows he can plough. The child's the image of him, an' I declare by
the way he's tuggin' at me ... be quit, will you, you wee tory, an' not
be hurtin' me with your greed!... he'll be as strong as his da, an'
mebbe stronger!
Are you stayin' long? she said again.
No, he answered. I'm going to London!...
London! Lord bless us, that's a long way!
I'm going soon ... in a day or two, he went on, making his
resolution as he spoke. The sight of her bare breast embarrassed him,
and he wanted to go away quickly.
You're a one for roamin' the world, I must say! she said. You're
no sooner here nor you're away again. Mebbe you'll come up an' see my
aunt ... she was talkin' about you only last week ... an' Peter'd be
right an' glad to welcome you!
No, thanks, not to-day, he answered. I've something to do at home
... I'm sorry!...
But you said you were comin' to see me!...
I know, but I've just remembered something ... I'm sorry! He was
speaking in a jerky, agitated manner and he began to move away as if he
were afraid that she would detain him. I'll come another time, he
added.
Well, you're the quare man, she said. Anybody'd think you were
afeard of me, the hurry you're in to run away!
He laughed nervously. Of course, I'm not afraid of you, he
exclaimed. Why should I be?
I don't know! She looked at him for a few seconds, and then the
whimsical look that he remembered so well came into her eyes. D'ye
mind the way you wanted to marry me, Henry? she said.
Yes ... yes! Ha, ha!
An' now I've this! It's a quaren funny, isn't it?
Funny?
Aye, the way things go. I wonder what sort of a child I'd a' had if
I'd married you!
I really don't know!... I'm afraid I must go now!
Well, good-bye, Henry! I'll mebbe see you again some time!
She held out her hand to him and he took it, and then dropped it
quickly.
Yes, perhaps, he answered, and added, Good-bye!
He went off quickly, not looking back until he had reached the foot
of the loanie, and then he stood for a second or two to watch her.
She was busy with her baby again. He could see her white breast shining
in the sunlight, and her head bent over the sucking child.
Well, I'm damned, he said to himself, as he hurried off.
And as he hurried home, his mind set on quitting Ballymartin as
speedily as possible, he remembered the casual way in which she had
spoken of their possibly meeting again. I'll mebbe see you some time!
she had said. So indifferent to him as that, she was, so happy in her
love for her husband whom he remembered as a great big, hairy, tanned
man who beat hot iron with heavy hammers and bent it into wheels and
shoes for horses.
She takes more interest in that putty-faced brat of hers than she
does in me, he said to himself, angrily, and then, so swift were his
changes of mood, he began to laugh. Of course, she does, he said
aloud. Why shouldn't she? It's hers, isn't it?
He remembered her young beauty and contrasted it with her appearance
when he saw her in the loanie with her child. In a few years, he
thought, she would be like any village woman, worn out, misshapen,
tired, with gnarled knuckles and thickened hands. Already she had begun
to neglect her hair....
It's a damned shame, he murmured. If she'd married me she'd have
kept her looks!...
But she wouldn't marry me, he went on. I wasn't man enough for
her.... My God, I wish I was out of this!
5
Father, he said when he got home, I'd like to go to London at
once!
You can't go this minute, my son. There's no train the night!
I mean, I want to go as soon as possible!
Mr. Quinn glanced sharply at him. You're in a desperate hurry all
of a sudden, he said. What's up?
Nothing, father, only I want to get to work, and I can't work
here!...
Restless, are you? I was hopin' you'd give me a bit of your company
a while longer!...
I'm sorry, father!...
That's all right, my boy, that's all right. When do you want to
go?
To-morrow!
You've only been home a short time.... Never mind! I'll come up to
Belfast an' see you off. There's a Co-operative Conference there the
day after the morra, an' I may as well go up with you as go up alone!
Henry knew that his father was hurt by his sudden decision to leave
Ballymartin, and he felt sorry for the old man's disappointment, but he
felt, too, that he could not bear to stay near Hamilton's farm at
present, knowing that Sheila, whom he had loved and idealised, was
likely to meet him in the roads at any moment, a baby in her arms,
perhaps at her breast, and a husband somewhere near at hand.
I must go, he told himself. I must get over this....
6
Mr. Quinn and he travelled to Belfast together on the following
morning, and they spent the hour before the steamer sailed for
Liverpool in pacing up and down the deck.
You can write to me when you get to London, Mr. Quinn said, and
Henry nodded his head.
He was very conscious now of his father's disappointment, and
although he was determined to go to London, he was moved by the
affectionate way in which the old man tried to provide for his needs on
the journey.
Hap yourself well, he had said when they crossed the gangway on to
the boat. These steamers never give you enough clothes on your bunk.
I'd put my overcoat on top of the quilt if I were you!...
They stood for a time looking across the Lagan at the shipyard, and
talked about the possibility of Ninian Graham entering the shipbuilding
firm, and then they moved to the side of the boat that was against the
quay-wall. The hour at which the steamer was to depart was drawing near
and the number of passengers had increased. They could hear the noise
of the machinery as the cargo was lowered from the quay into the hold,
and now and then, the squealing of pigs as the drovers pushed them up
the gangways. A herd of cattle came through the sheds and stumbled in a
startled, stupid fashion on to the lower decks, while the drovers
thwacked them and shouted at them. There was a small crowd of people,
friends of passengers and casual onlookers, standing on the quay
waiting to see the ship go out, and some of them were shouting messages
to their friends. Henry had always liked to watch crowds at times such
as this, and often in Dublin, he had spent a while in Westland Row
Station, looking at the people who were going to England. He was so
interested in the crowd on the quay that he did not hear his father
speaking to him.
I want to speak to you, Henry, the old man said, and then
receiving no answer, he said again, I want to speak to you, Henry!
Yes, father? Henry answered, without looking up.
Turn round a minute, Henry!... He hesitated, and Henry turning
round, saw that his father was embarrassed.
What is it, father? he said.
I just wanted to say something to you, Henry. You see, you're
beginnin' another life ... out of my control, if you follow me ... not
that I ever tried to boss you....
No, father, you've never done that. You've been awfully decent to
me!
Ah, now, no more of that! I just wanted to say somethin' to you,
only I don't rightly know how to begin.... He fumbled for words and
then, as if making a reckless plunge, he blurted out, Do you know
much, Henry?
Know much? Henry answered vaguely.
Aye. About women an' things? Did you know any women in Dublin?
Oh, yes, a few! Henry answered.
Did ... did you have anything to do with them?
Anything to do with them!
Aye!
Henry began to comprehend his father's questions. Oh, I ... I
kissed one or two of them! he said.
Was that all? Mr. Quinn's voice was so low that Henry had
difficulty in hearing him.
Yes, father, he answered.
You know, don't you, that there's other things than kisses? Or do
you not know it?
Henry nodded his head.
I'm ... I'm not interferin' with you, Henry. I'm not just askin'
for the sake of askin' ... but ... well, do you know anything about
those ... things?
He moved slightly as he spoke, as if, by moving, he could take the
edge off his question.
I know about them, father. Something! Henry said huskily, for his
father's questions embarrassed him strangely.
You've never ... you've never!...
No, father!
Mr. Quinn turned away and looked over the side of the boat. He
seemed to be watching a piece of orange peel which floated between the
wall and the side of the boat. The first bell of warning to friends of
passengers was sounded, and he turned sharply and looked at his son.
I'll have to be goin' soon, he said.
That's only the first bell, father, Henry replied. There's plenty
of time yet!
Aye! Mr. Quinn glanced about the deck which was now covered by
passengers. You'll have plenty of company goin' over, he said.
Yes!
They were making conversation with difficulty. Mr. Quinn felt
nervous and a little unhappy because Henry was leaving him so soon, and
Henry felt disturbed because of the strange conversation he had just
had with his father. He had a shamed sense of intrusion into privacies.
It's very interestin' to see a boat goin' out to sea, Mr. Quinn
was saying. I used to come down here many's a time when I was a young
fellow just to watch the steamers goin' out. Did you ever stan' on top
of a hill an' watch a boat sailin' out to sea?
No, I don't remember doing that!
It's a fine sight, that! You see her lights shinin' in the dark a
long way off, but you can't see her, except mebbe the foam she makes,
an' begod you near want to cry. That's the way it affects me anyway....
Henry, if you ever get into any bother over the head of a woman, you'll
tell me, won't you, an' I'll stan' by you! He said this so suddenly,
coming close to Henry as he said it, that Henry was startled. You'll
not forget, he went on.
No, father, I won't forget!
I've been wantin' to say that to you for a good while, but it's a
hard thing for a man to say to his own son. I could say it easier to
somebody else's son nor I can to you. London's a quare place for a
young fella, Henry, but it's no good preachin' to men about women ...
no good at all. The only thing you can do is to stan' by a man when he
gets into bother. That's all, except to hope to God he'll not disgrace
his name if he's your son. You know where to write to, Henry, if you
need any help!... Hilloa, there's the second bell!
They could hear the sailors calling out Any more for the shore!
and the sound of hurried farewells and the shuffle of awkward feet
along the gangways.
Good-bye, Henry!
Good-bye, father!
You'll not forget to write now an' awhile?
I'll write to you the minute I get to London!
Ah, don't hurry yourself! You'll mebbe be tired out when you
arrive. Just wait 'til the mornin', an' write at your leisure....
Hurry up, sir! an impatient sailor said.
Ah, sure, there's plenty of time, man! Good-bye, Henry! I believe
I'm the last one to go ashore. Well, so long!
They shook hands, and then the old man went down the gangway.
Any more for the shore? the sailor shouted, unloosing the rope
that held the gangway fast to the ship. Then the gangway was cast off.
A bell rang, and in an instant the sound of the screws beating in the
water was heard. A shudder ran through the boat as the engines began to
move, and slowly the gap between the ship and the quay widened. Henry
smiled at his father, and the old man blinked and smiled back. The
passengers leant against the side of the boat and shouted farewells and
messages to their friends on shore. Mind an' write! Remember me to
every one, will you! Tell Maggie I was askin' for her! Then hats
were waved and handkerchiefs were floated like flags.... A woman stood
near to Henry and cried miserably to herself.... The ship swung into
the middle of the Lagan and began to move down towards the sea. Henry
could still see his father, standing under the yellow glare of a large
lamp hanging from the shed. He had taken off his hat, and was waving it
to his son. It seemed to Henry suddenly that the old man's hair was
very grey and thin.... He took out his handkerchief and waved it
vigorously in response. Somewhere in the steerage people were singing a
hymn:
'Til we me .. ee .. eet, 'til we me .. eet,
'Til we meet at Je . e . su's feet ... Jesu's feet,
'Til we me .. ee .. eet, 'til we me .. eet,
God be with you 'til we meet again!
The slurring, sentimental sounds became extraordinarily human and
moving in the dusky glow, and he felt tempted to hum the words under
his breath in harmony with the singers in the steerage; but two men
were standing behind him, and he was afraid they would overhear him. He
could hear one of them saying to his companion, I always say, eat as
much as you can stuff inside you, an' run the risk of bein' sick. Some
people makes a point of eatin' nothin' at all when they're crossin' the
Channel, but they're sick all the same, an' they damn near throw off
their insides. A drop of whiskey is a good thing!...
The boat was making way now, and the people on the quay were ceasing
to have separate outlines: they were merging in a big, dark blur under
the yellow light. Henry could not see his father at the spot where he
had stood when the ship moved away, and he felt disappointed when he
thought to himself that the old man had not waited until the last
moment. Then he saw a figure hurrying along the quays, waving a large
white handkerchief.... It was his father, trying to keep pace with the
boat, and Henry shouted to him and waved his hands to him in a kind of
delirium. Gradually the boat outstripped the old man, and at last he
stood still and watched it disappearing into the darkness. He was still
waving to Henry, but no sound came from him. He seemed to be terribly
alone there on the dark quay.... Henry shuddered in the night air, and
glancing about him saw that most of the passengers had gone down to the
saloon or to their cabins. He, too, was almost alone. He turned to look
again at his father, straining to catch the last glimpse of him, and
while he was straining thus, he heard the old man's voice vibrating
across the river to him. Good-bye Henry! he shouted. God bless you,
son! and Henry felt that he must leap overboard and swim back to the
shore. He waved his handkerchief towards the place where his father was
standing and tried to shout Good-bye, father! to him, but his voice
rattled weakly in his throat, and he felt tears starting in his eyes.
It's silly of me to behave like this, he murmured to himself,
rubbing his eyes with his hand.
The boat had passed between the Twin Islands and was now sailing
swiftly down the Lough towards the Irish Sea. The lights on the quay
faded into a faint yellow blur, like little lost stars, and presently,
when the cold airs of the sea struck him sharply, he turned and went
towards the saloon.
I hope to goodness it'll be smooth all the way over, he said to
himself.
THE THIRD CHAPTER
1
Roger Carey and Gilbert Farlow met him at Euston.
Hilloa, Quinny! Gilbert said, I've been made a dramatic critic,
and I'm to do my first play to-night!
Hurray! he answered, and turned to greet Roger.
We've bagged a taxi, Gilbert went on. The driver looks cheeky ...
that's why we hired him. We'll give him a tuppenny tip and then we'll
give him in charge!...
All taxi drivers are cheeky, Roger interrupted.
But this is a very cheeky one!... Hi, porter!
It was extraordinarily good to be with Gilbert and Roger again;
extraordinarily good to hear Gilbert's exaggerated speech and see him
ordering people about without hurting their feelings; extraordinarily
good to listen to Roger's slow, unflickering voice as he stated the
facts ... for Roger had always stated the facts. In all their
discussions, it was Roger who reminded them of the essential things,
refusing persistently to be carried away by Gilbert's imagination or
Ninian's impatience. People were sometimes irritated by Roger's slow,
imperturbable way of speaking ... they called him a prig ... but as
they knew him better, they lost their irritation and thought of him
with respect. But we're all prigs, Gilbert said once in reply to some
one who sneered at Roger. Ninian and Quinny and Roger and me, we're
frightful prigs. That's because we're so much brainier than most
people. Of course, Roger was Second Wrangler, and that affects a man, I
suppose, but he's terribly clever, young Roger is!...
As they drove home, Gilbert told their news to Henry.
Ninian's coming up to-morrow ... sooner than he meant to. He's very
keen on going to Harland and Wolff's, but he's afraid he's too old to
begin building ships. Tom Arthurs says he ought to have gone straight
to the Island from Rumpell's instead of going to Cambridge, and poor
old Ninian was horribly blasphemous about it all. It's funny to hear
him trying to talk like an Orangeman ... he mixes it up with Devonshire
dialect ... and thinks he's imitating Tom Arthurs. I suppose he'll have
to content himself with building railways and things like that. It's a
great pity!
I don't believe he really wants to be a shipbuilder, Roger said.
He likes Tom Arthurs, and he wants to be what Arthurs is. That's all.
If Arthurs were a comedian, Ninian would want to be a comedian, too!
It must be splendid, Henry murmured, to be able to influence
people like that!
The taxi drew up to the door of a house in one of the quieter
Bloomsbury squares, and Henry, looking out of the window, while Gilbert
opened the door of the cab, saw that the garden in the centre of the
square was very green. He could see figures in white flannels running
and jumping, and the sound of tennis balls, as they collided with the
racquets, pleased him.
Your room overlooks the square, Gilbert said, as Henry got out of
the cab.
Splendid! he replied. I shall imagine I'm in Dublin when I look
out of the window. It's just like Merrion Square!...
Well, pay the cabby, will you? I'm broke! said Gilbert.
You always are, Roger murmured.
2
Ninian joined them on the following day, very cheerless and
irritable. It was impossible for him to enter the shipbuilding firm
owing to his age, and so he had decided to enter the offices of a firm
of engineers in London. Anybody can build a damned railway, he said,
but it takes a man to build a ship. I'd love to build a liner ... one
that could cross the Atlantic in four days!
Four days! Gilbert scoffed. My dear Ninian, boats don't crawl
across the ocean! People want boats that will take them to New York in
twenty-four hours!...
And now, young fellows! he went on, it's time that we thought
seriously about our immortal souls!
Oh, is it? said Ninian.
Yes, it is, Gilbert replied.
They had dined, and were now sitting in Gilbert's room in the lax
attitude of people who have eaten well and are content.
Here we are, Gilbert went on, using his pipe as a modulator of his
points, four bright lads simply bursting with brains, and the question
is, what is to become of us? The Boy: What Will He Become? Take Roger,
for example, will he become Lord Chancellor of England, or a footling
little Registrar of a footling County Court?...
I haven't had a brief yet, Roger interrupted, so that question's
somewhat premature, isn't it?
I'm not talking about now ... I'm talking about the future,
Gilbert replied. We ought to have some notion of what we're going to
do with our lives.... As a matter of fact, he continued, your
career's fairly certain, Roger. With all that brain oozing out of you,
you're bound to become great. But what about little Ninian here? And
Quinny? And me? Ninian's a discontented sort of bloke, and he's quite
likely to make a mess of things unless we look after him. He may turn
out to be a very great engineer or he may go back to Boveyhayne and
play the turnip-headed squire!...
Always rotting a chap, Ninian mumbled.
And Quinny ... what about little Quinny? He's written a novel!...
Written a what? Ninian demanded, sitting up sharply.
Have you, Quinny? said Roger.
Henry blushed and nodded his head. It isn't good, he said. I
shall have to re-write it!
My Lord, said Ninian, fancy one of us writing a book!
Gilbert slapped him on the side of the head. You forget, Ninian,
that I've written a play!...
A play's not a book!...
My plays are books, Gilbert retorted. Well, now, he went
on, what's to become of little Quinny: a tip-top novelist with a
limited circulation or a third-rater who sells millions?
What about yourself? Ninian said.
I'm coming to myself. Will I become a great dramatist, like
Shakespeare and Bernard Shaw and all those chaps, or merely turn out
hack plays?...
And the answer is?
I don't know, but I'll tell you in ten years' time. We're a brainy
lot of lads, and I'm the brainiest of the lot!...
Oh, no, you're not, said Ninian. I've quite a respectable amount
of brain myself, but the very best brain in the room belongs to Roger.
Doesn't it, Roger?
I don't despise my brain, Ninian! Roger answered.
Observe the modest demeanour of the truly great man, Gilbert
exclaimed. You'll have to go into politics, Roger. It isn't any good
being a barrister unless you do!
I've thought of that, Roger answered. At the moment, I'm
wondering which side I'm on. I might manage to get a seat as a Liberal,
but I don't believe it would be of much use to me if I got it. I think
I shall join the Tories!...
Are you a Tory? Ninian said, I thought you were a Liberal!
No, I'm a barrister. You see, he went on, as if he were arguing a
case, the Liberal majority is too big and there are far too many
clever young men in the party. I should only be one of a crowd if I
went into the House now as a Liberal ... and of course I'm not likely
to be given a chance of standing for a seat because they've a lot of
people on the list already. But the Tories have hardly any clever chaps
left. There's Balfour and there's Chamberlain ... and then what is
there?
Nothing! said Gilbert.
A clever man of my age has the chance of a lifetime with the Tories
now, Roger continued. Look at F. E. Robinson ... and he's only a
third-rater!
Gilbert told a story of the early days of the Tory Party after the
General Election of 1900 when the Tories had been completely routed by
the Liberals. The Tory remnant was as thick-headed as it could be, he
said, and the Liberals were bursting with brains. Balfour came into
the House one night ... he'd just been re-elected ... and he sat down
beside Chamberlain. They were frightfully blue. Balfour had a look at
the Liberals, and then he turned to his own back-benches and had a look
at the Tories. Of course, it may not be true, but they say he went pale
with fright. He turned to Chamberlain and said, My God, Joseph! and
then Chamberlain turned and looked at the Tories and said, My God,
Arthur! You see, Chamberlain never noticed things until Balfour
pointed them out to him, and then he noticed them too much. They went
out of the House immediately afterwards and shook hands with each
other, and Chamberlain said 'Arthur, we're the Opposition!' And
so they were. Poor Balfour was awfully lonely after Chamberlain crocked
up. Not a soul on his own side that was fit to talk to! It was easy
enough for F. E. Robinson to make a name in a crowd like that. And they
loathe him, too. He's such a bounder! But they need a fellow to heave
mud, so they put up with him. Roger's got more brains in his little
finger than that fellow has in his whole body. Haven't you, Roger?
People don't have brains in their little fingers, Roger answered.
You should join the Tories, Roger, Ninian said. There really
isn't much difference between them. My father was a Conservative, but
my Uncle Geoffrey was a Liberal. When father was in, uncle was out. It
amounted to the same thing in the end!...
But Roger ought to be a different sort of Tory! Gilbert exclaimed.
It's no good having all his brain if he's just going to peddle around
with the same old stuff....
I don't intend to do that, said Roger.
Well, what do you intend to do?
Ninian seized a cushion and put it behind his back.
Let's have a good old argle-bargle, he said. What do you say,
Quinny?
Henry, who had not joined in the discussion, leant forward and
smiled. Oh, I like listening to you, he answered. You're all so sure
of yourselves!...
Gilbert turned on him. Well, aren't you sure of yourself? he
demanded.
No, I'm not, Henry answered. I never am!
That's queer, said Gilbert.
Damned queer, said Ninian.
Why are you so uncertain of yourself? Roger asked.
Don't you feel sure that you'll be a great novelist? Gilbert added
before Henry had time to reply to Roger's question.
I know jolly well I shall be a clinking good engineer! Ninian
said.
Henry had a shy unwillingness to discuss himself in front of the
others, although they were his closest friends. He felt that he could
not sit still while they watched him as he told them of his ambitions
and his fears.
Oh, don't let's talk about me, he said. Go on with your
argle-bargle. He was speaking hurriedly, so that he had difficulty in
articulating his words. You were saying something, Ninian, weren't you
... no, it was you, Roger, about politics!...
Oh, yes! Roger answered.
Rum chap, you are! Gilbert said to Henry in a low voice.
3
You see, said Roger, my notion is to restore the prestige of the
Tories. Somehow, they've let themselves get the reputation of being
consciously heartless. The Liberals go about proclaiming that they are
the friends of the poor, and the inference is that the Tories are the
friends of the rich!
So they are, said Ninian.
So are the Liberals! said Roger.
So's everybody! said Gilbert.
But the Tories aren't culpably the friends of the rich, Roger
continued. I mean, they don't go into parliament with the intention of
exploiting poor men for the benefit of rich men. It isn't true that
they are indifferent to the fate of poor men; but they have allowed the
Liberals to give them that character. I've always said that the Tories
have the courage of the Liberals' convictions!...
Gilbert lay back on the floor with his arms under his head. I
remember the first time you said that. It was in the Union! he
exclaimed.
I shall say it again in the House some day, Roger retorted. I'm
not trying to be funny when I say that. I think the history of the Tory
Party shows very plainly that the Tories have done very admirable
things for the working-people: Factory Acts and Housing schemes and
Workmen's Compensation Acts. Well, I want the Tory Party to remember
that it is the custodian of the decency of England. It isn't decent
that there should be hungry children and unemployed men and
badly-housed families. That kind of thing is intolerable to a
gentleman, and a Tory is a gentleman. It seems to me inconceivable that
a Tory should be willing to make money by cheating a child out of a
meal ... but there are plenty of Liberals who do that. And I'm against
all this legislation which makes some public authority do things for
people which they ought to be doing for themselves. I mean, I hate the
notion of the State feeding hungry school-children because the parents
cannot afford to feed them, when the proper thing to do is to see that
the parents are paid enough for their work to enable them to feed their
children themselves. I suppose I'm sloppy ... the Fabians used to say
so at Cambridge ... but I prefer the spectacle of a family round its
own table to the spectacle of a crowd of assorted youngsters round a
municipal school table! And I don't think we're getting the most out of
our people! Just think of the millions of men and women in this country
who really do not earn more than their keep! That isn't good enough. If
you can only just keep yourself going, then you've no right to go ...
except to hell as quickly as possible. My idea is that we waste
potentialities at present, not by squandering them, but by never using
them. All those poor people, for example, how do we know that some of
them, if given an opportunity, would not be amazingly worth while!
There must be a great deal of brain-power simply chucked away or
misused. I know that lots of people believe that men of genius work
their way up to their level no matter how low down they begin, but I
doubt that, and anyhow I'm not talking of geniuses ... I'm talking of
the average clever man ... there must be men of good average quality
lost in slums because none of us have taken the trouble to clear the
ground for them. And the ground has to be cleared! You can't grow wheat
on a sour soil. I often think when I see some hooligan brought into
Court that, given a real chance, he might have been a better judge than
the man who sends him to gaol. The Tory's job is to restore the balance
of things. It isn't only to maintain the level, but to raise it and to
keep on raising it.... I believe in the State of Poise, of equitable
adjustment, in which every man will be able to move easily to his
proper place.... There are so many obstacles now in the way of man
finding his place that, even if he has the strength to get over them,
he probably won't have the strength to fill it....
My view, perhaps, is narrower than yours, Roger, Henry said, but
I see all these people chiefly as men and women who are shut out of
things: books and pictures and plays and music and all the decent
things. I don't believe that if they had the chance they would all read
Meredith and admire Whistler and go to see Shaw's plays and want to
listen to Wagner ... that's not the point, and anyhow the middle and
the upper classes are not all marvellously cultured. My point is that
their lives are such that they don't even know of Meredith and Whistler
and Shaw and Wagner. They don't even know of the second-rate people or
the third rate. Magnolia, for instance ... I suppose she reads
novelettes, and when she grows out of novelettes, she won't read
anything. And she can't afford to go to a West End theatre.... When I
think of these people, millions of 'em, I think of them as people like
Magnolia, completely shut out of things like that, not even aware of
them....
They spent the remainder of the evening in argument, their talk
ranging over the wide field of human activity. They established a
system of continual criticism of existing institutions. Challenge
everything, said Gilbert; make it justify its existence. They tried
to discover the truth about things, to shed their prejudices and to see
the facts of life exactly as they were. The great thing is to get rid
of Slop! said Roger. We've got to convince the judge as well as move
the jury. It isn't enough to make the jury feel sloppy ... any ass can
do that. You've got to convince the old chap on the bench or you won't
get a verdict. That's my belief, and I believe, too, that the jury is
more likely to listen to reason than people imagine!
They did not finish their argument that evening nor on any
particular evening. They were spread over a long period, and were part
of the process of clearing their minds of cobwebs.
Gilbert had dedicated his life to the renascence of the drama and
had written a couple of plays which, he admitted to his friends, had
not got the right stuff in them. I don't know enough yet, he said
once to Henry, but I'm learning.... His dramatic criticism was very
pointed, and he speedily acquired a reputation among people who are
interested in the theatre, as an acute but harsh critic, and already
attempts had been made by theatrical managers either to bribe him or
get him dismissed from his paper. The bribing process was quite
delicately operated. One manager wrote to him, charmingly plaintive
about his criticism, and invited him to put himself in the manager's
place. I assure you, he wrote, I would willingly produce good work
if I could get it, but I can't. Come and see me, and I'll show you a
pile of plays that have arrived within the last fortnight. I know quite
well, without reading them, that not one of them will be of the
slightest worth! And Gilbert had gone to see him, and had been
received very charmingly and told how clever he was, and then the
manager had offered to appoint him reader of plays at a pleasant
fee!... Following that attempt at bribery came the anger of an
actor-knight who declined to admit Gilbert to his theatre, a piece of
petulance which delighted him.
The great big balloon, he said to his editor when he was told of
what the actor-knight had said over the telephone. My Lord, when I
hear him spouting blank verse through his nose!...
That's all very fine, the editor retorted ruefully, but your
criticism's doing us a lot of harm. Jefferson of the Torch Theatre
cancelled his advertisement the day after your notice of his new play
appeared!
Ridiculous ass! said Gilbert.
Well, if you say his play's the worst that's ever been put on any
stage, what do you expect him to do? Fall on your neck and say, 'Bless
you, brother!'? You might try to be kinder to them, Farlow, and do for
the love of God remember the advertisement manager. If you could get
the human note in your stuff!...
The what?
The human note. I'm a great believer in the human note.
Gilbert left the office as quickly as he could and went home. He
came into the dining-room where the others were already seated at their
meal.
You're late again, Gilbert, said Roger. Hand over your sixpence!
Roger, who was never late for anything, had instituted a system of
fines for those who were late for meals. The fine for unpunctuality at
dinner was sixpence.
I haven't got a tanner, damn it, Gilbert snapped, and I'm looking
for the human note. That's why I'm late. My heavenly father, I'm
hungry! What is there?
Sixpence for being late for dinner, said Roger quietly, and
tuppence for blasphemy!
He entered the amounts in the Ledger, and then returned to his
seat. You already owe six and threepence, he said, as he sat down,
and this evening's fines bring it up to six and elevenpence. You ought
to pay something on account, Gilbert!...
Pass the potatoes and don't bleat so much! said Gilbert. Look
here, Quinny, he said as he helped himself to the potatoes, what's
the human note, and don't you think tuppence is too much for
blasphemy?
Ask Ninian, Henry answered. He knows all about humanity!
No, he doesn't. Bally mechanic! Aren't you, Ninian? Aren't you a
damn little mechanic with a screw-driver for a soul!...
You'll get a punch on the jaw in a minute, young fellow me lad!
Ninian exclaimed, leaning over the table and slapping Gilbert on the
cheek.
Fined fourpence for threat of physical violence and ninepence for
executing the same, Roger murmured. I'll enter it presently.
Somebody should slay Roger, Gilbert said. Somebody should take
hold of his neat little neck and wring it!...
They finished their meal and sat back in their chairs, smoking and
chattering.
What's all this about the human note, Gilbert? Henry asked, and
Gilbert explained what had happened to him in the editor's room. I
stopped a bobby in the Strand and asked him about it, he said, but he
told me to move on. You ought to know what the human note is, Quinny.
You're a novelist, and novelists are supposed to know everything
nowadays!
He did not wait for Henry to explain the meaning of the human note.
I know what Dilton means by it, he said. When he talks of the
human note he means the greasy touch!
Slop in fact! said Roger.
That's it. Slop! My God, these journalists do love to splash about
in their emotions. They can't mention the North Pole without gulping in
their throats. Dilton gave me an example of the human note. There was a
bye-election in the East End the other day and one of the candidates
put his unfortunate infants into 'pearlies' and hawked them about the
constituency in a costermonger's barrow, carrying a notice with 'Vote
for Our Daddy!' on it. Dilton damned near blubbed when he told me about
it!
Rage? said Henry.
Rage! Gilbert exclaimed. Good Lord, no! The man was moved,
touched!... He blew his nose hard, and then told me that one touch of
nature makes the whole world kin! I'm damned if he didn't write a
leading article about it ... and they give him a couple of thousand a
year for organising sniffs for the million. All over England, I suppose
there were people snivelling over those brats and telling each other
that one touch of nature makes the whole world kin!... Oof! gimme the
whisky, somebody, for the love of the Lordy God! I want to be sick when
I think of the human note!
Well, of course, said Roger, the slop is there, and it's no good
getting angry about it. What I want is a Party that won't deal in it.
I've always believed that the mob likes an honest man, even if it does
call him a Prig, and I'm perfectly certain that when a Prig gets let
down by the mob it's because in some subconscious way it knows he's
only pretending to be honest ... unless, of course, it's gone off its
head with passion of some sort: Boer war jingoism and that kind of
thing. And my notion of a member of parliament is a man who represents
some degree of general feeling. If he doesn't represent that general
feeling he can only do one of two things: try to convert the general
opinion to his point of view or else, if he can't convert it, tell it
he'll be damned if he'll represent it any longer. That's the attitude I
shall adopt in the House!...
But Gilbert thought that this was a dangerous attitude to maintain.
If you maintain it too long, you'll never get an office, he said,
and so the only work you'll be able to do will be critical work:
you'll never get a chance to do anything constructive; and if you let
the Government nobble you, and give you an Under Secretaryship the
moment they see you getting dangerous, then you're done for. And
anyhow, I don't believe in independent members of parliament. A certain
number of sheep are necessary in every organisation, in parliament as
much as anywhere else. It would be absolutely impossible to carry on
Government if the whole six hundred and seventy members of parliament
were as clever and as independent as Lord Hugh Cecil. You must have
sheep and lots of 'em!...
But they needn't be dead sheep, said Roger. They needn't be
mutton, need they?
No, they needn't be mutton, but they must be sheep, Gilbert
replied.
All the politicians I've ever met, said Ninian, were like New
Zealand lamb ... frozen!
Gilbert leaped on him and slapped his back, capsizing him on to the
floor. Ninian, my son, he said, that's a good line. Do you mind if I
put it in my comedy. It doesn't matter whether you do or not, but I'd
like your consent.
Don't be an old ass, said Ninian.
Can I use that line about the New Zealand lamb?...
Yes, yes ... any damn thing ... only get off my chest! You're ...
you're squeezing the inside out of me. Get up, will you!...
I'm really quite comfortable, thanks, Ninian. If it weren't for
this whacking big bone here!...
He did not complete the sentence, for Ninian, with a heaving effort,
threw him on to the floor, where they scrambled and punched each
other....
There is a fine of eighteenpence, said Roger, for disorderly
conduct. I'll just enter it against you both!
The combatants rose and routed Roger, and when they had disposed of
him, Ninian agreed to let Gilbert use his line about the frozen meat.
I shall expect you to put a note in the programme that the epigram in
the second act was supplied by Mr. Ninian Graham, he said.
The epigram! Gilbert exclaimed. The epigram!
Why, will there be any more? said Ninian innocently.
Hostilities thereupon broke out again.
4
They sat up late that night talking of themselves and of England and
public affairs. Roger was interested in Trade Unions, and he lamented
the fact that the Tories had allowed an alliance to be formed between
Labour and Liberalism. Ask any workman you meet in the street whether
he'd rather work for a Liberal or a Tory, and I bet you what you like,
the chances are that he'll plump for the Tory. His experience is that
the Tory's the better employer, and the reason why that's so is that
the Liberal conducts his business on principles, whereas the Tory
conducts his on instincts. In principle, the Liberal concedes most
things to the workman, but in practice he doesn't: in principle, the
Tory concedes nothing to the workman, but in practice he treats him
decently. The workman knows that, but the fool goes and votes for the
Liberal, and the fool of a Tory lets him!... You know, he went on,
this Trade Union movement has got on to wrong lines altogether. Their
chief function seems to be to protect their members from ... well, from
being cheated. That's what it comes to. I don't blame 'em. They've had
to behave like that. I don't think any one can read Webb's 'Industrial
Democracy' and 'The History of Trade Unionism' without feeling that, on
the whole, employers have been rather caddish to workmen ... so I don't
blame the Unions for making so much fuss about their rights. But I'd
like to see them making as much fuss about the quality of the work done
by their members. That's their real function. It isn't enough to keep
up the standard of wages and of conditions of employmentthey ought
also to keep up the standard of work!
This led them into a wrangle about the responsibility for the blame
for this indifference to quality of work.
I suppose, said Roger, employers and employed are to blame. I
think myself it's the result of a world tendency towards hustle ... to
get the thing done as quickly as possible without regard to the quality
of it. I suppose a modern contractor would break his heart if he were
asked to spend his lifetime on one cathedral ... but people were
proud to do that in the Middle Ages. We'd build half a dozen cathedrals
while a Middle Ages man was decorating a gargoyle!
Well, we have this comfort, said Ninian, the modern builder's
stuff won't last as long as Westminster Abbey!
I hate all this bleat about the Middle Ages, Gilbert exclaimed.
I'm surprised to hear you, Roger, talking like that fat papist,
Belloc. One 'ud think to hear you talking that no one ever did shoddy
work until the nineteenth century, but Christopher Wren let a lot of
shoddy stuff into St. Paul's Cathedral. There were fraudulent
contractors then, and jerry-builders, just as there are now, and there
probably always will be people who give a bad return for their
wages!...
That's why I want to see the Tory Party resuscitated, said Roger.
I want to limit the number of such people and to make every man feel
that it's a gentlemanly thing to do your best, whatever your job is,
and that payment has nothing whatever to do with the way you do your
work!
The whole industrial system would need re-shaping, the whole social
system would need re-shaping, the Empire would need re-shaping.
This craving for cheapness has cheapened nothing but life, said
Roger, and it brings incalculable trouble with it. I mean, a ha'penny
saved now means pounds lost later. Oh, that's a platitude, I know, but
we pay no heed to it. I've never been to America, but we know quite
well that one of the most serious problems for the Americans is the
negro problem. I heard a Rhodes scholar talking about it once. He
simply foamed at the mouth. He hadn't any plan for it ... didn't seem
to realise that a plan could be made ... and you know they've only got
that problem through the greediness of their ancestors. Negroes aren't
native to America. The planters wanted cheap labour and so they
imported them ... and the end of that business is the Negro Problem!
And lynchings and a Civil War in between, Henry murmured. That's
the most hateful part of it ... the killing and the bitterness.
Great Scott! said Ninian, think of all those Yankees killing each
other so that niggers might wear spats and top hats and sing coon songs
in the music halls!... Damn silly, I call it!
We've got to make people believe that it isn't what you get that
matters, but what you do, Roger went on. All this footling squabble
between workmen and employers about a farthing an hour more or a
farthing an hour less ... isn't decent ... it isn't gentlemanly. Oh, I
know very well that the counter-jumper thinks it's very clever to trick
a customer out of a ha'penny ... but it doesn't last, that kind of
profit. We lost America because we behaved like cads to the colonists,
and we'll lose everything if we continue to play the counter-jumper
trick. It isn't very popular now to talk about gentlemen ... people
sneer at the word ... but I'd rather die like a gentleman than live
like a cad ... and that's the spirit I want to see restored to the Tory
Party. It's awfully needed in England now!
They began to lay plans for an Improved Tory Party that included an
alliance with Labour and a closer confederation of the colonies,
together with a definite understanding with America.
And what about Ireland? said Henry.
Oh, of course, Ireland must have Home Rule and be treated like a
colony. Nobody but a fool wants to treat it in any other way! said
Roger.
There are an awful lot of fools in the world, Gilbert said.
I know that, Roger retorted, but need we trouble about them?
We've got to get a group of fellows together on much the same
principle as the Fabian Society ... no one to be admitted unless he has
brains and is willing to work without payment. Look at the work
that Sidney Webb and Bernard Shaw and all those people did for
Socialism for nothing, even paying for it out of their own
pockets when they weren't over-flush ... my goodness, if we can only
get people with that kind of spirit into our group, we'll mould the
world! By the way, we ought to pinch some ideas from the Fabians! We
could meet somewhere ... here, to begin with. And when we've got a
group of fellows together with some notion of what we all want to do,
we can start inviting eminent ones to talk to us ... and heckle the
stuffing out of them!
Gilbert was able to tell them a great deal about the origin of the
Fabian Society ... for his father was one of the founders of it ... and
he told them how the Society had invited Mr. Haldane to talk to them
... and of the way in which they had fallen on him in the discussion
and left all his arguments in shreds when the meeting ended.... If we
can get Balfour or Asquith or some other Eminent Pot here, he said,
and simply argue hell's blazes out of him ... my Lordy God, that 'ud
be great!
They're not likely to come, said Ninian.
I don't know. Eminent Ones sometimes do the most unusual things!
Ninian yawned and stretched his arms. I move that this House be now
adjourned! he said.
But they ignored his sleepiness, and he would not move away from
their company.
Well, we've settled what our future is to be, said Gilbert.
What is it to be? Ninian interrupted, stifling another yawn.
Weren't you listening? We're to be Improved Tories ... and we're to
improve the Universe, so to speak. We've just settled it. All the Old
Birds are to be hoofed out of office, and we're to take their places,
and I thoroughly approve of that. In my opinion, any man who wants to
occupy a place of authority after the age of sixty should be publicly
and cruelly pole-axed. I can't stand old men ... they're so cowardly
and so obstinate and so conceited!
The great thing, said Roger, is to keep ourselves from
sloppiness. We mustn't make fools of ourselves!
The principal way in which a man makes a fool of himself, Gilbert
added, is in connexion with the female species. Is that what you mean,
Roger? Roger nodded his head. Pay attention to that, Ninian, Gilbert
went on. You have a weakness for females, I've noticed!
Ninian, suddenly forgetting his fatigue, sat up in his seat. I say,
let's jaw about women, he said.
No, Gilbert replied. We won't ... not at this hour of the
morning! But, disregarding his decision, he went on, My view of women
is that we all make too much fuss about 'em! Either we damn them
excessively or we praise them excessively. They're a cursed nuisance in
literature. All the writers seem to think that man was made for woman
or woman for man, and they write and write about sex and love as if
there weren't other things in the world besides women!
I'd like to know what else we were made for? Henry said.
We were made to do our jobs, Roger answered. I believe in what I
may call the modified anchorite ... women are too emotional and get
between a man and his work. Love is an excellent thing ... excellent
... but there are other things!...
What else is there? Henry demanded almost crossly. He felt vaguely
stirred by what was being said, vaguely antagonistic to it.
Oh, lots of things, Roger answered. Fighting for your place,
moving multitudes to do your will ... oh, lots of things!
Gilbert had read some of Henry's novel, and he now began to talk
about it.
You turn on the Slop-tap too often, he said. Quinny, my son,
you're a clever little chap, but you're frightfully sloppy. I've read a
lot more of your novel....
Yes? said Henry, nervously anxious to hear his criticism.
Slop! Gilbert continued. Just slop, Quinny! Women aren't like
lumps of dough that a baker punches into any shape he likes, and they
aren't sticks of barley sugar....
No, they aren't, Roger interrupted. Wait till you see my cousin
Rachel....
Have you got a cousin, Roger? How damned odd! said Gilbert.
Yes. I must bring her round here one evening. She's not a bad
female ... quite intelligent for her sex. Go on!
They're like us, Quinny! Gilbert continued. They're good in parts
and bad in parts. That's the vital discovery of the twentieth century,
and I've made it!...
Henry had been eager to hear Gilbert's criticism of his novel, but
this kind of talk irritated him, though he could not understand why it
irritated him, and his irritation drove him to sneers.
I suppose, he said, you want to substitute Social Reform and
Improved Toryism for Romance. Lordy God, man, do you want to put
eugenics and blue-books in place of the love of woman?
You're getting cross, Quinny!...
No, I'm not!
Oh, yes, you are ... very cross ... and you know what the fine for
it is. If you want my opinion, here it is. I am prepared to
accept eugenics and blue-books as a substitute for the love of women
... if they're interesting, of course. That's all I ask of any one or
anything ... that it shall interest me. I don't care what it is, so
long as it doesn't bore me. Women bore me ... women in books and plays,
I mean ... because they're all of a pattern: lovebirds. I've never seen
a play in which the women weren't used for sloppy emotional purposes.
The minute I see a woman walking on to the stage, I say to myself,
'Here comes the Slop-tap!' and as sure as I'm alive, the author
immediately turns the tap on and the woman is over ears and head in
slop before we're two-thirds through the first act. And they're not
like that in real life, any more than we are. We aren't continually
making goo-goo eyes, nor are they. I'm going to write a play one of
these days that will stagger the civilised world, I tell you! It'll be
bung full of women but it won't have a word of slop from beginning to
end!...
It'll be a failure, said Ninian.
Oh, from the box-office point of view, no doubt!...
No, from the common sense point of view. I'm on the side of Quinny
in this matter, and I'm as much of an authority on women as you are,
Gilbert. I've loved three different barmaids and a young woman in a
tobacconist's shop, and I say, what the hell is the good of talking all
this rubbish about men and women trotting round as if male and female
He had not created them. When I see a woman, if she's got any
femininity about her at all, I want to hug her and kiss her, and I do
so, if I can, and so does any man if he is a man. I belong to the
masculine gender and she belongs to the feminine ... and that's all
there's to be said about it. If we were neuters, we'd be characters in
your play, Gilbert....
I don't want to kiss every girl I meet, said Gilbert.
They howled at him in derision. Oh, you liar! said Henry,
forgetting his anger.
You hug women all day long, you Mormon! Ninian roared, or you
would if they'd let you!
That's why you react so strongly from love in your plays, Roger
said judicially. You can't leave them alone in real life....
I don't mean to say I haven't kissed a girl or two, Gilbert
admitted.
A girl or two! Listen to him! Ninian went on. Oh, listen
to the innocent babe and suckling. A girl or two! Look here, let's make
a census of 'em. What was the name of that girl whose brother got sent
down? Lady Something?...
Lady Cecily!...
Shut up! Gilbert shouted at them, and his voice was full of rage.
He stood over them, glaring at them fiercely....
I say, Gilbert! said Henry, what's up?
He recovered himself. I'm sorry, he said. I didn't mean to lose
my temper!
That's all right, Gilbert, Ninian murmured. It was my fault. I
oughtn't to have rotted you like that!
It doesn't matter, Gilbert answered.
5
They were silent for a while, disconcerted by Gilbert's strange
outburst of anger, and for a few moments it seemed as if their argument
must end now. Ninian began to yawn again, and he was about to propose
once more that they should go to bed, when Gilbert resumed the
discussion.
You make no allowance for reticence, he said to Henry. That's
what Roger really wants in politics ... reticence!
In everything, Roger exclaimed
I know, Gilbert went on. When I first went in to the Daily
Echo office, I saw a notice in the sub-editor's room which tickled
me to death. Elsden, the night editor, had put it up, and it said that
the word 'gutted' was not to be used in describing the state of a house
after a fire. I went to Elsden ... I like him better than any one else
in the Echo office ... and asked him what was the matter with
the word. 'Well, my dear chap,' he said, 'think of guts! I mean to say,
Guts! Hang it all, we must cover up something!' I thought he was
being rather old-maidish then, but I'm not sure now that Elsden's point
of view hasn't got something behind it. He just wanted to be decently
quiet about things that aren't pretty! I don't think it's necessary to
blurt out everything, and I'm certain that if you keep on washing your
dirty linen in public, people will end up by thinking you've got
nothing else but dirty linen. Your characters, he added, turning to
Henry, go about, splashing in their emotions as if they were trick
swimmers or ... or damn little journalists. I tell you, Quinny, love's
a private, furtive thing, a secret adventure, and open exposure of it
is a sort of profanity....
No, said Henry emphatically. Love's made nasty by secrecy! He
began to spread himself. He had been reading some of the authors of the
Yellow Book period. It seems to me, he said, that the marriage rite
is broken, incomplete. In a healthy state, the whole function would be
performed in public ... in ... in a cathedral, say. There'd be a
procession of priests in golden chasubles, and acolytes swinging carved
censers, and boys with banners, and hidden choirs chanting long
litanies....
I shall be sick in a minute! said Gilbert. You're talking like an
over-ripe Oscar Wilde, Quinny, and if you were really that sort of
animal I'd have you hoofed out of this. Get out the whisky, Ninian, for
the love of the Lordy God! This æsthetic stuff makes my inside wobble!
Ninian went to the sideboard and took hold of the whisky bottle. I
don't much like that sort of talk myself, he said. It's too
clever-clever for my taste. I shouldn't let it grow on me, Quinny, if I
were you. You'll get a reputation like bad eggs, and people'll think
you've strayed out of your period and got lost. As a matter of fact,
Gilbert, you don't really want whisky, and you're only going to drink
it for effect, so you shan't have any!
He returned to his seat, as he spoke, and sat down. Henry had a
quick sense of shame. He had spoken insincerely, for effect ... in
order to impress them with his cleverness, and their answer to him
filled him with a sense of inferiority. He felt that they must despise
him, and feeling that, he began to despise himself.
My own feeling about these things, said Ninian, is perfectly
simple. I believe in lust. I'm a lustful man myself, and so, I believe,
is Roger!...
No, I'm not, Roger exclaimed.
Well, I am, Ninian proceeded. Lust is the motor force of the
world....
No, it isn't, Gilbert interrupted. The whole of civilisation
depends upon the human stomach. If men would live without eating ...
the whole of this society would dissolve. Lust is subordinate to the
stomach, Ninian. You've never seen a starving man in a purple passion,
have you?
Ninian leant forward and tapped the table with his knuckles. I say
that lust is the motor force of the world, he said, and I think you
might let me finish my sentences, Gilbert. You are so eager to vent
your own views that you won't let any one else vent his....
What's the good of venting your views if they're wrong, damn it!
said Gilbert.
Well, let me finish venting 'em anyhow. Assuming that I'm right, I
say you should treat lust exactly as you treat the circulation of your
blood: don't fuss about it. It's a natural function, neither beautiful
nor ugly. It's just there, and that's all about it. The fellow who
dithers about it as if he'd invented a new philosophy on the day he
first slept with a woman, is a dirty, neurotic ass. So is the fellow
who pretends that there's no such thing as sex in the world. Male and
female created He them, and I can tell you, He jolly well knew what He
was up to!
Roger flicked the ash from his cigarette and coughed slightly.
I think, he said, we talk too much about these things. They pass
the time, of course, but not very profitably. Whatever the Universal
Motive may be ... I'm talking, of course, without prejudice ... it'll
express itself in complete disregard of our feelings and views. I have
had no experience of women otherwise than in the capacity of a mother,
several aunts, a nurse, a number of cousins, and also some waitresses
in restaurants....
Roger's never kissed a woman in a sexual sense in his life,
Gilbert interrupted.
I have never seen the necessity of it, Roger said.
But aren't you curious to know what it's like? After all, it's a
form of experience, Henry asked, looking at Roger with curiosity.
Having scarlet fever is a form of experience, but I don't wish to
know what it's like, Roger answered.
My God, you are a prig, Roger! said Gilbert simply.
I know that, Roger answered. That's why I don't get on with
women. They find me out. No, he continued, I've no experience of
women in that way. I daresay I shall get experience some day, but in
the meantime, I've got my job to do....
We shall have a virgin Lord Chancellor on the woolsack, said
Gilbert, and then may God have mercy on all poor litigants!
We really ought to go to bed, Ninian protested.
Not yet, Henry exclaimed.
He had recovered from his feeling of dejection, and he was eager to
retrieve the good opinion which he thought he had lost.
My own view, he said, beginning as they always began their
oracular pronouncements, my own view is that we make the mistake of
thinking in masses instead of in individuals. Everybody who tries to
reform the world, tries to make it uniform, but what we want is the
most complete diversity that's obtainable. It's the variations from
type that make type bearable!...
That's a good phrase, Quinny. Where'd you get it from? Gilbert
interrupted.
Henry flushed with pleasure. I made it up, he answered. All men
are different, he went on, and therefore the morals that suit one
person are unlikely to suit another person. Roger doesn't bother about
women. He looks upon them as a ... a sideline. Don't you, Roger? He'll
marry in due course, and he'll have one woman, and he'll have her all
to himself. Won't you, Roger?
Probably, Roger replied, but there's no certainty about these
things.
Henry proceeded. Gilbert wants lots and lots of women, but he
doesn't want to talk about it, and he wants to keep his women and his
work separate ... in watertight compartments, as it were. As if you
could do that! And Ninian wants to have a good old hearty coarse time
like ... like Tom Jones ... and then he'll repent and praise God and
lay his stick about the backsides of all the young sinners he meets!
No, I don't, ... said Ninian, but Henry, having started, would not
let himself be interrupted. I want to have lots and lots of women, he
went on hurriedly, but I don't care who knows about them. I like
talking about my love-affairs....
Well, why don't you talk about 'em? Gilbert demanded.
Henry was nonplussed. His speech became hesitant. I ... I said I'd
like to talk about them, he replied. I didn't say I would do so....
He hurried away from the subject. But chiefly, he said, I don't want
anything permanent in my life. Now, do you understand? Roger's like the
Rock of Ages ... the same yesterday, to-day and forever, but I want to
be different to-morrow from what I am to-day, and different again the
day after. Endless variety for me!
It'll be an awful lot of trouble, said Gilbert.
That doesn't matter. Now my argument is that I have a different
nature from Roger and all of you, but I'm not a worse man than any of
you are....
No, no, of course not, they asserted.
I'm just different, that's all. The man who loves one woman and
cleaves to her until death do them part isn't a better man or a worse
man than the chap who loves a different woman every year, and doesn't
cleave to any of them. He's just different. You see, he continued,
pleased with the way he was enunciating his opinions, we are of all
sorts. There are lustful men and there are men who have scarcely any
sex impulse at all, and there are coarse men and refined men, and ...
and all sorts of men, and they're all necessary to the world. I say,
why not recognise the differences between them and leave it at that!
It's silly to try and fit us all with the same system of morals when
nobody but a fool would try to fit us all with the same size hat!
You don't make any allowance for the views of women, Roger said.
Oh, yes, I do, Henry retorted quickly. There is as much variety
among women as there is among men. Some of them are monogamous and some
aren't. That's all!
Gilbert stretched his legs out in front of him and then drew them
back again. Our little Quinny's got this world neatly parcelled out,
he said. Hasn't he, coves? There he sits, like a little Jehovah,
handing out natures as if they were school-prizes. 'Here, my little
lad, here's your set of morals. Now, run away and make a hog of
yourself with the women!' 'Here, my little lad, here's your set of
morals. Now, run away and be a bally monk!'
Exactly! said Henry. That's my view!
Well, all I can say, said Ninian, is that it won't do. This may
be a tom-fool sort of a world, but it gets along in its tom-fool way a
lot better than it will in your neat arrangement of things....
Besides, Roger said, taking up the argument from Ninian, there is
a common measure in life. Oh, I know quite well that there are
differences between man and man, but there are resemblances, too, and
what we've got to do ... the Improved Tories, I mean ... is to discover
which is the more important, the resemblances of men or the differences
of men. As a lawyer, of course, I only know what's in my brief, but as
a man, I'm interested!
The question is, said Gilbert, are women a damned nuisance that
ought to be put down, or are they not? I say they are, but I like 'em
all the same, and that only shows what a blasted hole I'm in. I like
kissing them ... it's no good pretending that I don't....
Not a bit, said Ninian.
And I kiss 'em whenever I get a chance, Gilbert continued, but
all the same I'd like to be a whopping big icicle so as to be able to
ignore 'em ... like Roger!
Ninian got up, resolved on going to bed. Come on, he said,
stretching himself. Our jaw about women doesn't appear to have solved
anything!
It never will, Roger answered, rising too. We shall still be
jawing about them this day twelvemonth....
D.V., said Gilbert.
But we won't get any forrarder!
Rum things, women! said Ninian, moving towards the door, but very
nice ... very nice, indeed!
My goodness me, I am tired, Gilbert yawned. Oh, so tired! But
we've settled everything, haven't we? The empire and women and so on?
Great Scott, he exclaimed, we forgot to say anything about God!
So we did, said Ninian, and he turned back from the door.
The Improved Tories really ought to make up their minds about
religion, Gilbert went on.
Can't we leave that until to-morrow? Roger complained. We needn't
talk about Him to-night, need we? I'm frightfully sleepy!...
6
While Henry was undressing, he remembered how angry Gilbert had been
with Ninian and Roger because they had mentioned the name of a girl for
whom he had cared.
Awfully rum, that! he said to himself, sitting on the edge of his
bed.
He tried to recall her name. Lady something! he said, and then
said several times, Lady ... Lady ... Lady!... in the hope that the
name would follow. But he could not remember it.
Odd that I never heard of her before.
He put on his dressing-gown, and opened the door of his room. I'll
ask old Ninian, he said, as he went out.
Ninian, who had been yawning so heavily downstairs, was now sitting
up in bed, reading a copy of the Engineer.
Hilloa, he exclaimed as Henry entered the room in response to his
Come in!
I say, Ninian, what was the name of the girl that Gilbert was so
gone on at Cambridge? Lady something or other! He was rather sick with
you for mentioning her....
Oh, Lady Cecily Jayne!
Is that her name? Who is she?
Society female, said Ninian. Takes an interest in literature and
art in her spare time, but she doesn't know anything about either of
them. Her brother was in our college until he got sent down. That was
how Gilbert met her. She came up one May week and made eyes at Gilbert.
She wasn't married then!...
Is she married? Henry interrupted.
Oh, yes. She used to be Lady Cecily Blandgate ... her father's the
Earl of Bucklersbury. She's a big female....
What do you mean? Fat?
No. Tall, said Ninian.
Is she good-looking?
Yes, she is, and rather amusing, too, in a footling sort of way.
She's got a fearful appetite, and she thinks of herself all day long. I
know because she damn near ruined me over cream buns once.
I suppose Gilbert was in love with her?...
I suppose so. He didn't tell me and I didn't ask, but he mooned
about with her and looked awfully sloppy when he passed her things. You
know what I mean. He'd hand her a plate of bread and butter, and look
at her as much as to say, 'This is really my heart I'm handing you!' I
never saw a chap look such an ass!
Has she been married very long?
Oh, a year or two. I don't know. I'm not very interested in her.
Too much of a female for my taste. Extremely entertaining in the
evening and the afternoon, but awfully boring in the morning!...
Sounds like sour grapes, Ninian!
Oh, I've been in love with her if that's what you mean. We all
were, even old Roger. In fact, I kissed her once ... or was it twice?
She's the sort of woman a chap does kiss somehow. I couldn't think of
anything else to do when I was with her. That's why she's so dull. She
splashes her sex about as if she were distributing handbills. I'm
surprised that you don't know her. She's a very well-known female....
I've been in Ireland, Ninian....
So you have. I'd forgotten that. Of course, if you will live in a
place like that, you can't expect to be familiar with the wonders of
civilisation. Ever see the Daily Reflexion?
Oh, yes, we get that in Ireland all right!
Do you, indeed! Well, praise God from Whom all blessings flow. If
you buy a copy of to-morrow's Daily Reflexion, you'll probably
see her photograph in it, or a paragraph about her. Roger says people
pay to have themselves mentioned once a month in that sort of rag!
What's her husband like? Henry asked.
God made him, but nobody knows why. I believe chorus girls call him
'Chummie.' That's his purpose in life. I say, Henry, there's a ripping
sketch of a new kind of engine in this paper. I wish you'd let me
explain it to you....
Who is her husband? said Henry.
Who is who's husband?
Lady Cecily Jayne's!...
Lordy God, man, you're not talking about her still, are you? Her
husband is ... let me see ... oh, yes, he's Lord Jasper Jayne. His name
sounds like the hero of a servant's novelette, but he doesn't look like
that. He looks like a chucker-out in a back-street pub. His father's
the Marquis of Dulbury. He's the second son. The eldest is sillier, but
it's all been hushed up. Anything else you want to know?
I'm just interested, that's all!
Her brother ... I told you, didn't I? ... was at Cambridge with us.
He came down a year before we did. As a matter of fact, he was sent
down and told to stay down. He ducked a proctor in a water-butt and the
dons were very cross about it. He's not a bad fellow. I think we'll ask
him round here one evening. Lady Cecily's very fond of him ... she used
to come up to Cambridge to see him ... before the affair with the
proctor, of course ... and Gilbert and I took her and another female
out in a punt once!
Henry, who had been sitting in an arm-chair while Ninian told him
about Lady Cecily Jayne, got up and walked across the room.
Gilbert was very upset when you mentioned her name, he said. I
suppose her marriage was a blow to him?
Oh, I don't know. Look here, Quinny, if you're going to jaw any
more about this female, you can just hop off to your own room, but if
you'd like to hear me explaining these diagrams to you, you can
stay....
Do you ever see Lady Cecily now? Henry asked, ignoring what Ninian
had said.
Now and again. Gilbert sees her quite often....
Does he? Henry said eagerly.
Yes. At first nights. She goes to the theatre a lot. Do you want to
meet her?
There was some confusion in Henry's voice as he answered, I should
like to meet her. You see, I've never known a really beautiful
woman....
Aren't there any in Ireland?
Oh, yes. Plenty. Peasant girls, particularly! He thought for a
moment or two of Sheila Morgan, and then hurriedly went on. But I've
never known a really beautiful woman. You see, Ninian, ours is a fairly
lonely sort of house, and I've spent most of my time either there or at
T.C.D. or at Rumpell's, and somehow I've never got to know any one....
Well, you'd better ask Gilbert to take you with him to a
first-night. She's sure to be there, and you can ask him to introduce
you to her. And now, you can hoof out, young fellow!...
Henry went back to his own room and got into bed, but he did not
sleep until the dawn began to break. His thoughts wandered vaguely
about his mind, bumping up against one recollection and then against
another. He remembered Sheila Morgan and the bright look in her eyes
that evening when she had hurriedly come into the Language class out of
the rain ... and while he was remembering Sheila, he found himself
thinking of Mary Graham and the way in which she would put up her hand
and throw her long hair from her shoulders. Then came memories of
Bridget Fallon ... and almost mechanically he began to murmur a prayer
to the Virgin. Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb,
Jesus!...
He turned over on his side, pulling the bedclothes more closely
about him. Cecily Jayne, he murmured in a sleepy voice. What a
pretty name, that is!
THE FOURTH CHAPTER
1
Their days were spent in work. Ninian and Roger left the house soon
after nine o'clock, Ninian to go to the office of his engineering firm
in Victoria Street, Roger to go to his chambers in the Temple, leaving
Henry and Gilbert to work at home. In the evening, provided that there
was not a first-night to call Gilbert to the theatre, they talked of
themselves and of their future. Their egotism was undisguised. They had
set their minds on a high destiny and were certain that they would
achieve it, so they did not waste any energy, as Gilbert once said, in
pretending that they were not remarkably able. In a short time, they
gathered a group of friends about them who were, they thought, likely
to work well and ably, and it became the custom for their friends to
visit them on Thursday evening. Gilbert began the custom of asking some
one to dine with them on Thursday, and the guest was expected to
account for himself to the group that assembled after dinner. The
Improved Tories, according to Gilbert, wanted heart-to-heart talks from
people of experience. If a guest treated them to flummery, they let him
know that they despised his flummery and insisted on asking him
questions of a peculiarly intimate character. There were less than a
dozen people in the group, apart from Roger and Ninian and Gilbert and
Henry, but each of them had distinguished himself in some fashion at
his college. Hilary Cornwall had taken so many prizes and scholarships
that he had lost count of them, and when he entered the Colonial
Office, it became a commonplace to say of him that he was destined to
become Permanent Under-Secretary at a remarkably youthful age. Gerald
Luke had produced two little books of poetry of such quality that
people believed that he was in the line of great tradition. Ernest Carr
had edited Granta so ably that he was invited to join the staff of the
Times. Then there were Ashley Earls, who had had a play produced by
the Stage Society, and Peter Crooks, the chemist, and Edward Allen, who
was private secretary to a Cabinet Minister, and Goeffrey Grant,
another journalist, and Clifford Dartrey, who spent his time in
research work and had already produced a book on Casual Labour in the
Building Trades in return for the Shaw Prize at the London School of
Economics.
They called themselves the Improved Tories, although most of them
would have voted at an election for any one but a Conservative
candidate. Ashley Earls and Gerald Luke were Socialists and had only
consented to join the group because they were told that the purpose of
it was less political than sociological.
You see, Gilbert said to them, it isn't good for England to have
a Tory Party so dense as this one is, and you'll really be doing useful
work if you help to improve their quality. What is the good of an
Opposition which can do nothing but oppose? Look at that fellow, Sir
Frederick Banbury! What in the name of God is the good of a man like
that? He doesn't make anything ... he just gets in the way. Of course,
that's useful ... but he doesn't know when to get out of the way ...
which is much more useful. And there ought to be people who aren't
content either to get in the way or just get out of it ... there ought
to be people who can shove things along. But there aren't ... except
Balfour, and he's getting old and anyhow he hasn't got much health. You
see what I mean, don't you? There ought to be a strong Opposition,
otherwise the Liberals will develop fatty degeneration of the political
sense.... The trouble with a lot of these fellows is that they believe
that twaddle that Lord Randolph Churchill talked about the duty of an
Opposition being to oppose. Of course it isn't. The duty of the
Opposition is to criticise and to improve, if they can....
And so Ashley Earls and Gerald Luke joined the group of Improved
Tories, not as members, but as critics. It was they who induced the
others to join the Fabian Society. You can become subscribers ... that
won't commit you to anything ... and then you'll be able to attend all
the meetings and get all the publications. It'll be good for you!...
The supply of political guests was not of the quality they desired.
The eminent politicians were either too busy or too scornful to accept
their invitations. F. E. Robinson was impertinent to them until he
heard that Mr. Balfour was interested in their proceedings ... had even
asked to be introduced to Roger Carey ... and then he offered to
address them on Young Toryism, but they told him that they did not now
wish to hear him. They had taken Robinson's measure very quickly.
Police-court lawyer! they said, and ceased to trouble about him. Mr.
Balfour never attended the group, but they consoled themselves to some
extent by reading his book on Decadence and arguing about it among
themselves. If, however, they were not able to secure many of the
Eminent Ones, they were able to secure plenty of the Semi-Eminent, far
more than they wanted, and for half a year, they listened to
politicians of all sorts, Old Tories and Young Tories, Liberal
Imperialists and Radicals, Fabian Socialists and Social Democrats,
heckling them and being heckled by them. At the end of that six months,
Gilbert revolted against politicians.
These aren't the people who really matter, he said. They don't
start things. We want to get hold of the people with new ideas ... the
men who begin movements and the men who aren't always wondering what
their constituents will say if they hear about it!
Then followed a term with men who might have been called cranks.
Bernard Shaw declined to dine with them ... he preferred to eat at
home.... Voluptuous vegetarian! said Gilbert ... but he talked to
them for an hour on Equality and tried to persuade them to advocate
equal incomes for all, asserting that this was desirable from every
point of view, biological, social and economic. Following Bernard Shaw,
came Edward Carpenter, very gentle and very gracious, denouncing modern
civilisation in words which were spoken quietly, but which, in print,
read like a thunderstorm. Alfred Russell Wallace, whom they invited to
talk on Evolution, came and talked instead on the nationalisation of
land. He sat, huddled in a chair, very old and very bright, with eyes
that sparkled behind his glasses ... and suddenly, in the middle of his
discourse on land, he informed them that he had positive proof of the
existence of angels. My God, he'll want to make civil servants of
'em! Gilbert whispered to Henry.... Sir Horace Plunkett dined with
them one night, eating so little that he scarcely seemed to eat at all,
and he preached the whole gospel of co-operation. It was through him
that they got hold of an agricultural genius called T. Wibberley, an
English-Irishman, who reorganised the entire farming system on a basis
of continuous cropping inside an hour and ten minutes. Wibberley knew
Henry's father, and for the first time in his life Henry learned that
Mr. Quinn's agricultural experiments were of value.... Then came H. G.
Wells, smiling and very deprecating and almost inarticulate, to tell
them of the enormous importance of the novelist. They got him into a
corner of the room, when he had finished reading his paper, and
persuaded him to make caricatures of them ... and while he was making
the caricatures, he talked to them far more brilliantly than he had
read to them. G. K. Chesterton and Hilaire Belloc came to lecture and
stayed to drink. Chesterton's lecture would have been funny, they
agreed, if they had been able to hear it, but he laughed so heartily at
his jokes, as he, so to speak, saw them approaching, that he forgot to
make them. His method of speech was a mixture of giggle and whisper.
Chuckle-and-squeak! Gilbert called it. Belloc whispered dark things
about Influential Families and Hebrews and seemed to think that a man
who changed his name only did so with the very worst intentions. He and
Chesterton said harsh things about the Party System, and they babbled
beatifically about the Catholic Church.... Two big men like that
gabbling like a couple of priest-smitten flappers! said Gilbert in
disgust as he listened to them. Them and their Cathlik Church! he
added, imitating Belloc's way of pronouncing the word Catholic.
Mouldy, grovelling, fat Papists! he called them, and vowed that he
would resign from the Improved Tories if any more of that sort were
asked to address them. That was because some one had suggested that
Cecil Chesterton should also be invited to dine with them. He's simply
Belloc's echo, Gilbert protested. I should feel as if I were
listening to his master's voice. Besides, he's fatter than Belloc and
he's a damned jiggery-pokery Papist too! Why don't these chaps go and
cover themselves with blue woad and play mumbo-jumbo tricks before the
village idol! That 'ud be about as intelligent as their Popery! They
intended to ask Lord Hugh Cecil to talk to them about Conservatism, but
when they read his book on the subject they decided that such a
Conservative was utterly damnable ... and so they asked his brother,
Lord Robert, instead, and found that his point of view, although much
more human and less logical than that of Lord Hugh, was antipathetic to
theirs.
Let's get Garvin! Gilbert suggested, when they discussed the
question of a more improved Tory than Lord Robert. The Cecils are no
good ... they're too superstitious! which was his way of saying that
they were too religious. They're worse than priests: they're ...
they're laymen! I propose that we ask Garvin to come and talk to us. He
seems to be shoving the Tories all over the place! So they invited the
editor of the Observer to dine and talk with them, and he came,
a quick, eager, intense man, with large, starting eyes, who spoke so
quickly that his words became entangled and were wrecked on his teeth.
They liked him, but they were dubious of his right to represent the
Tory spirit. It seemed to them that this eager, thrusting-forward man,
who banged the table in his earnestness, might carry a political party
off its feet in his passion, but they were afraid that the feet would
trail, that the party would be reluctant to be lifted. He's Irish,
said Roger in judgment.
It isn't any good, Gilbert remarked, when Garvin had gone home,
trying to persuade the English to spread their wings. They haven't got
any. Garvin 'ud do better if he'd hold a carrot in front of them ...
they'd follow that. Quinny, he added, you ought to ask Garvin for a
job on the Observer. They say he can't resist an Irishman!
I will, Henry replied.
Oh, and there's a chance of doing book reviews on the Morning
Report! Geoffrey Grant said. I told Leonard, the literary editor,
about you, and he said he'd look at you if you went round one day!
I'll go and look at him, Henry answered.
2
While they were spending their evenings in this fashion, Henry,
working steadily in the mornings, completely revised his novel.
Gilbert, working less steadily than Henry, finished a new comedy and
sent it to Sir Goeffrey Mundane, the manager of the Pall Mall Theatre,
who utterly astounded Gilbert by accepting it.
Quinny! he shouted, running up to Henry's room with the letter
which had been delivered by the mid-day post, Mundane's accepted 'The
Magic Casement'!
What's that? said Henry, turning round from his desk.
He's accepted it, Quinny! I always said he was a damned good actor,
and so he is. My Lord, this is ripping! He says it's a splendid
comedy ... so it is ... as good as Oscar Wilde at his best
... oh, better, damn it, better ... and will I please come and see
him on Friday morning at eleven o'clock ... I'll be there before
he's out of bed!... I say, Quinny, we ought to do something, ought'nt
we? Is it the correct thing to get drunk on these occasions?
His joy was so extravagant that Henry felt many years older than
Gilbert, and he patted him paternally on the shoulder and told him to
develop the stoic virtues.
I'm most frightfully pleased, Gilbert! he said, when he had done
with the paternal manner. When's he going to put the play on?
He doesn't say. The thing he's doing now is no damn good, and he'll
probably take it off soon. Perhaps he'll produce 'The Magic Casement'
after that. Quinny, it is a good play, isn't it? Sometimes I get a most
shocking hump about things, and I think I'm no good at all....
Of course, it's a good play, Gilbert!...
Yes, but is it good enough?
I don't know. I don't suppose anything ever is. I thought
'Drusilla' was a great book until my father read it, and then I thought
it was rubbish....
It wasn't rubbish, Quinny, and the revised version is really good.
I think that, too, but sometimes I'm not sure!
Isn't it damnable, Quinny, this job of writing? You never get any
satisfaction out of it. I'd like to make cheeses ... I'm sure people
who make cheeses feel that they've just made the very best cheese that
can be made ... but I'm always seeing something in my work that might
have been done better.
Henry nodded his head. I suppose, he said, it'll always be like
that I think, he went on, Maiden is going to take my novel. I saw
Redder yesterday!... Redder was his agent ... and he says Maiden's
the likeliest person. I shan't get much. Forty or fifty pounds on
account of royalties, but it's a start!
The great thing, said Gilbert, is to get into print. I wonder how
much I'll make out of my play!
More than I shall make out of my novel, Henry answered. His talks
with Mr. Redder had modified Henry's ideas of the profits made by
novelists.
Gilbert started up from the low chair into which he had thrown
himself. I'm going to start on another play this minute! he said. My
head's simply humming with ideas! He stopped half way to the door, and
turned towards Henry again. You were working when I came in, he said.
What are you doing?
I've started another novel, Henry answered.
Oh! Done much of it?
No, only the title. I'm calling it 'Broken Spears.'
Damn good title, too, said Gilbert.
3
The book was published long before Gilbert's play was produced; for
Sir Geoffrey Mundane had taken fright at Gilbert's play. He was afraid
that it was too clever, too original, too much above their heads, and
so forth. I'd like to produce it, he said. I'd regard it as an
honour to be allowed to produce it, but the Pall Mall is a very
expensive theatre to maintain and I don't mind telling you, Mr. Farlow,
that I lost money on that last piece, too much money, and I must
retrieve some of it. Your play is excellent ... excellent ... in fact,
it's a piece of literature ... almost Greek in its form ... Greek ...
yes, I think, Greek ... remarkable plays those were, weren't they? ...
Have you seen this portrait of me in to-day's Daily Reflexion
... quite jolly, I think ... but it won't be popular, Mr. Farlow, and I
must put on something that is likely to be popular!
Gilbert found Sir Geoffrey's sudden changes of conversation
curiously interesting, but the hint of disaster to The Magic Casement
disturbed him too much to let his interest absorb him.
Then you've decided not to do the play? he said, with a throb of
disappointment in his voice.
Sir Geoffrey rose at him, fixing his eye-glass, and patted him on
the shoulder. No, no, he said. I didn't mean that.
I'll produce the play gladly ... some day ... but not just at present.
If you care to leave it with me....
Gilbert wondered what he ought to say next. Sir Geoffrey might
retain the play for a year or two, and then decide that he could not
produce it.
Perhaps, he said, you'd undertake to do it within a certain
time.... He wanted to add that Sir Geoffrey should undertake to pay a
fine if he failed to produce the play within the certain time, but
his courage was not strong enough. He was afraid that Sir Geoffrey
might be offended by the suggestion and return the play at once. He
wished that he had gone to Mr. Redder, as Henry had done, and asked him
to place the play for him. Redder'd stand no humbug, he said to
himself.
Sir Geoffrey murmured something about the undesirability of
committing oneself, and added that Gilbert should be content to wait
for a year without any legal undertaking. Of course, he said
magnanimously, if you can place the play elsewhere, don't let me stand
in your way! but Gilbert, alarmed, hurriedly said that he would be
glad to leave the play with him for the time he mentioned. I'd like
you to take the part of Rupert Westlake, he said. I don't think any
one could play it so well as you could! and Sir Geoffrey, still
responsive to flattery, smiled and said he would be delighted to create
the part.
The play which he produced instead of The Magic Casement ran for
six weeks, bringing neither profit nor honour to Sir Geoffrey, who
began to lose his head, with the result that he produced another play
which was a greater failure than its predecessor. Then came a revival
of an old play which had a moderate amount of success, and I'll do
your play next, he said to Gilbert. I shall certainly do your play
next!
It was because of these delays in the production of The Magic
Casement that Henry's novel, Brasilia, was published much earlier
than the play was performed. He had rewritten it so extensively that it
was almost a new novel, very different from the manuscript which his
father had read, and it received a fair number of reviews. The critics
whose judgment he valued, praised it liberally, but the critics whose
judgment he despised, either damned it or ignored it. Gilbert said it
was splendid. There's still some Slop in it, he said, but it's miles
better than the first version. Roger liked it. He said, I like it,
Quinny! and that was all, but Henry knew that his speech was
considerable praise. Ninian's praise was extravagant, and he was almost
like a child in his pleasure at receiving an inscribed copy from Henry.
He spent the better part of an afternoon in going to bookshops and
asking the grossly ignorant assistants why they had not got Drusilla
prominently placed in the window. The assistants were not humiliated by
his charge of gross ignorance, nor were they impressed by his statement
that the Times Literary Supplement had described the book as
remarkable. So many remarkable books are published in the course of a
season that the assistants do not attempt to remember them; and so many
friends of remarkable young authors wish to know why the works of these
remarkable young men are not stacked in the window that the assistants
have learned to look listlessly at the people who make the demands.
Ninian bought three copies of the novel, and sent one to his mother and
one to the Headmaster of Rumpell's and one to his uncle, the Dean of
Exebury. That ought to help the sales, Quinny! he said. I bought 'em
in three different shops, and I stuffed the chaps that I'd been to
other places to get it, but found they were sold out!
That'll make two copies Mrs. Graham'll have, Henry replied. I've
sent one to her to-day....
Well, she can give the other one to Mary, said Ninian.
The book was not a success. Including the number sold to the
libraries, only three hundred and seventy-five copies were sold, but
the financial failure of the book did not greatly depress Henry, for he
had the praise of his friends to console him. His father's letter had
heartened him almost as much as the review in the Times.
It's great stuff, he wrote, and I'm proud of you. I didn't
think you could improve it so much as you have done. Hurry up and do
another one!
His second book, Broken Spears, was in proof before Sir Geoffrey
Mundane decided to produce The Magic Casement, and for a while he was
at a loose end. He could not think of a subject for another story,
although he had invented a good title: Turbulence. He sat at his desk,
forcing himself to write chapters that ended ingloriously. He wrote
pages and pages, and in the evening threw them into the wastepaper
basket. My God, he said to himself one morning, when he had been
sitting at his desk for over an hour without writing a word, I believe
I've lost the power to write!
He got up, terrified, and went to Gilbert's room.
Hilloa, bloke! said Gilbert, looking round at him as he entered.
Are you busy, Gilbert? he asked.
I'm kidding myself that I am, but between ourselves, Quinny, I'm
reading Gerald Luke's last book. That chap's a poet. He's as good as
Alfred, Lord Tennyson. Listen to this!...
But Henry did not wish to listen to Gerald Luke's poems.
Gilbert, he said, I believe I'm done!
Done? Gilbert exclaimed, putting down the book of poems.
Yes. I don't believe I shall ever do another book....
Silly ass!
I can't think of anything. My mind's like pap. I keep on writing
and writing, but I only get a pile of words. That was bad enough, but
to-day I can't write at all. I simply can't write....
Haven't you got a theme?
Vaguely, yes, but the thing won't come to life. The people lie
about like logs, and ... damn them, they won't move!
Look here, said Gilbert, I'm tired of work. Let's chuck it for a
while. You're obviously off colour, and a holiday'll do you good. Let's
go out somewhere for the day anyhow. I've a first night this evening.
We'll wind up with that!
What's the play? Henry asked.
A revival. They're bringing Wilde's 'The Ideal Husband' on at the
St. James's again, Gilbert answered. Alexander's very good in it....
That's the fashionable theatre, isn't it?
Henry's knowledge of London was still very limited, and he seldom
visited the theatre, chiefly because Gilbert, who had to visit them
all, spoke of the English drama with contempt.
Yes, Gilbert replied. All the Jews and dukes go there. Suppose we
go for a row on the Serpentine, Quinny? You can pull the oars for an
hour. It'll do you no end of good, and I'll lie in the bottom of the
boat and watch you. That'll do me no end of good. Come on, let's get
out of this!
4
They came away from the boathouse, and as they walked towards Hyde
Park Corner, a motor-car drove slowly past them.
Who's that? said Henry, as Gilbert raised his hat to the lady who
was seated in the car.
Lady Cecily Jayne, Gilbert answered.
Oh!... She's very beautiful.
Think so?
Yes.
I'll introduce you to her to-night. She's certain to be at the
theatre. We ought to make certain of getting a ticket for you, Quinny.
Let's go down to the theatre and book a seat.
They came out of the Park and walked down Piccadilly to St. James's
Street and presently turned the corner of the street in which the
theatre is situated. Henry was able to secure a stall, but it was not
next to Gilbert's. It was in the last row.
Never mind, said Gilbert, we can meet between the acts. My seat's
at the end of a row, and you can easily get out of yours. If Cecily's
in a box, she'll probably ask us to stay in it. She likes to have
people about her!
Henry wanted to talk about Lady Cecily to Gilbert, but the tone of
his voice as he said, She likes to have people about her! prevented
him from doing so. It was odd, he reflected, that Gilbert had never
confided in him about her, odder still that there had been no talk of
her in the Bloomsbury house since the night on which Henry and Ninian
had discussed Gilbert's outburst of anger when her name was mentioned.
Gilbert, could be very secretive, Henry thought....
She's very beautiful, he said aloud.
Gilbert nodded his head.
Very beautiful! Henry repeated.
You're an impressionable young fellow, Quinny! said Gilbert. I
won't call you 'sloppy' again because I'm tired of telling you that,
but really that's what you are. You've only got to see a beautiful
woman for a couple of seconds and you start buzzing round her like a
bumble bee. Of course, I'm sloppy myself. We're all sloppy. Damn it,
here we are, two healthy young fellows who ought to be working hard,
and we're wasting a fine morning in gabbling about women....
Not women, Gilbert! Lady Cecily!...
Lady Cecily! Lady Cecily!... He stopped suddenly and turned to
Henry. I suppose you know about her and me? he said.
Very little, Henry answered.
Let's have some tea. Well go in here! The abrupt change
disconcerted Henry for a moment or two, but he followed Gilbert into
the tea-shop.
I can see you're ready to fall in love with her, Gilbert said, as
they drank their tea.
Don't be an old ass! Henry replied, feeling confused.
She'll ask you to come and see her, and you'll waste a lot of time
next week trying to meet her....
Henry laughed nervously. You're rather ridiculous, Gilbert, he
said. I've never seen Lady Cecily before. I'm just interested in her
because she's so beautiful. That's natural enough, isn't it?
Oh, yes, it's natural enough, and Lady Cecily will like your
interest in her beauty!
The bitterness of his tone was remarkable. Henry felt, as he
listened to him, that there were open wounds....
Don't call her Cecily until you've known her two days, Gilbert
went on. She's very particular about that sort of thing. And don't
fall too much in love. It'll take you longer to get over it than it
took me!
I hate to hear you talking like that, Gilbert. Anybody'd think you
were a dried-up old rip. You're frightfully cynical....
That's because I'm so young, Quinny. I'm younger than you are, you
know ... six months ... but I'll grow up. I will grow up,
Quinny, I swear I will, and get full of the milk of lovingkindness.
Pass the meringues. They play the devil with my inside, but I like them
and I don't care ... only Lord help the actors to-night!
I suppose Lady Cecily got tired of you, Gilbert, Henry said
deliberately. He felt angry with him and tried to hurt him. The beauty
of Lady Cecily had filled him with longing to meet and know her, and he
had a strange sense of jealousy when he thought of Gilbert's friendship
with her.
No, Gilbert answered, I don't think she got tired of me. I think
she still cares for me as much as ever she did!...
Damned conceit! Henry exclaimed, laughing to cover the jealousy
that was in him.
Oh, no, Quinny, not really. You'll understand that soon, I expect!
He pushed his tea-cup away from him, and sat back in his chair. I
suppose it is caddish to talk of her like this, he went on. One ought
to bear one's wounds in silence and feel no resentment at all ... but
somehow she draws out the caddish part of me. There are women like
that, Quinny. There's a nasty, low, mean streak in every man, I don't
care who he is, and some women seem to find it very easily. Here, let's
get out of this. You pay. I've had a sugary bun and a couple of
meringues....
5
Later in the evening they went to the theatre together. As they
walked up the steps into the entrance hall, Henry saw Lady Cecily
standing in a small group of men and women who were talking and
laughing very heartily.
There she is! he whispered to Gilbert.
Who is?
Lady Cecily!
Oh, so she is. Let's find our seats!
Perhaps you could catch her eye, Gilbert....
Catch my grandmother! said Gilbert. Come on!
But if Gilbert were not willing to catch Lady Cecily's eye, Lady
Cecily was very willing to catch his. She saw him walking towards the
stalls, and she left her group of friends and went over to him and
touched his arm. Hilloa, Gilbert! she said, holding her hand out to
him. I thought I should see you here to-night!
She spoke in louder tones than most women speak, and her voice
sounded as if it were full of laughter. There was something in her
attitude which stirred Henry, something which vaguely reminded him of a
proud animal, stretching its limbs after sleep. Her thick, golden hair,
cunningly bound about her head, glistened in the softened light, and he
could almost see golden, downy gleams on her cheeks. She held her
skirts about her, as she stood in front of Gilbert, and Henry could see
her curving breasts rising and falling very gently beneath her silken
dress. The odour of some disturbing perfume floated from her.... He
moved a step nearer to her, wondering why Gilbert did not smile at her
nor show any signs of pleasure at meeting her. It seemed to him to be
impossible for any one but the most curmudgeonly of men to behave so
ungraciously to so beautiful a woman, or to resist her radiant smiles.
She turned to him as he moved towards her, and he saw that her eyes
were grey. He heard Gilbert mumbling the introduction.
So glad! she said, shaking hands with him. He had expected her to
bow to him, and had not been prepared for the offer of her hand. He
inwardly cursed his clumsiness as he changed his gesture. I saw you in
the Park with Gilbert this afternoon, didn't I? she added.
Yes, he answered, and could say no more. Shyness had fallen on
him, and he stood before her, grinning fatuously, and twisting a button
on his waistcoat, but unable to speak. Yes, he said, after a while,
I was with Gilbert in the Park this afternoon!
Speak up, you fool! he was saying to himself. Here's the
loveliest woman you've ever met waiting for you to speak to her, and
all you can do is to repeat her phrases as if you were a newly-breeched
brat aping its parent. Speak up, you fool!...
He felt his face turning red and hot. Almost before he knew what he
was saying his tongue began to wag, and he heard himself saying, in a
stiff, stilted voice, It was very nice in the Park this afternoon!...
Oh, banal fool, he thought, she will despise you now, as if you
were a great, gawky lout....
She turned away from him, and spoke to Gilbert. I've been at
Dulbury, she said, for six weeks. That's where I got all this
brown!... She laughed and pointed to her cheeks. I'm so glad to get
back. The country bores me stiff. Nothing to see but the scenery. Oh
dear! She almost yawned at her remembrance of the country. And things
are always biting me or stinging me. I'm miserable all the time I'm
there!
Then why do you go? said Gilbert.
Jimphy wanted to go. Jimphy thinks it's his duty to show himself to
the tenants now and again. It's the only return he can make, poor dear,
for all that rent they pay!
Gilbert said Hm! and then turned to go to the stalls. It's
Jimphy's birthday to-day, she said, and he turned to her again.
That's why we're here to-night. Together, I mean. He's treating me to
a box. Come round and talk to us, Gilbert, after the first act ... and
you, too, Mr.... Mr!...
She fumbled over his name. Gilbert, as is the custom in England when
introducing people, had spoken the name so indistinctly that she had
not heard it.
Quinn! he said.
Of course, she replied. Mr. Quinn. I'm awfully stupid about
names. You'll come, too?
I should like to!
Do. Gilbert, don't forget. Jimphy's very morose this evening. He's
thirty-one to-day, and he thinks that old age is creeping over him!
All right, said Gilbert gloomily, and then he and Henry went to
their seats.
Who is Jimphy? said Henry, as they walked down the stairs into the
auditorium.
Her husband. Didn't you notice something hanging around in the
vestibule while we were talking to her?
No. There were so many people about!
Well, if you had noticed something hanging around, that would have
been Jimphy. His real name is Jasper, but Cecily never calls any one by
his real name ... except me. She can't think of a name for me!
They entered the auditorium and stood for a moment looking about the
theatre. People were passing quickly into their seats now, and the
theatre was full of an eager air, of massed pleasure, and a loud buzz
of conversation spread over the stalls from the pit where rows of young
women whispered to each other excitedly as this well-known person and
that well-known person entered.
That's 'er, that's 'er! one girl said in a frenzied whisper to her
companion.
Viola Tree? the other girl, gazing vacantly into the stalls,
replied.
No, silly! Ellen Terry! Clap, can't you?
And they clapped their hands as the actress went to her seat.
There was more clapping when Sir Charles Wyndham came in and took
his seat.
Is it Viola Tree? the girl repeated.
No, silly. It's Wyndham. Bray-vo! Seventy, if 'e's a day, an' don't
look it. My word, I am enjoyin' myself, I can tell you! Everybody's
'ere to-night. Of course, it's St. James's, of course!...
Popular criminal lawyers came in and sat next to racing marquises;
and lords and ladies mingled with actresses who very ostentatiously
accompanied their mothers. A few men of letters and a crowd of dramatic
critics, depressed, unenthusiastic men, leavened the mass of the
semi-great. The rest were the children of Israel.
Jews to the right of us, Jews to the left of us!... Gilbert said.
Anti-Semite! Henry replied.
Only in practice, Quinny, not in theory. I'll see you at the
interval!
If you nip out of your seat as the curtain goes down, said Henry,
we can both get up to her box before the rush!...
There won't be any rush.
Well, anyhow, we can get up to the box pretty quickly!
Gilbert walked away without replying, and Henry sat back in his seat
and watched the boxes so that he might see Lady Cecily the moment she
entered. His stall was in the last row, against the first row of the
pit, and the girls who had applauded Miss Terry and Sir Charles Wyndham
were still identifying the fashionable people.
I tell you it is 'im, said the more assertive of the two.
I sawr 'is picture in the Daily Reflexion the time that
feller ... wot's 'is name ... the one that 'anged all 'is wives in the
coal-cellar ... you know!...
I know, the other girl replied. 'Orrible case, I call it!
Well, 'e defended 'im. I sawr 'is picture in the Daily Reflexion
myself. Very 'andsome man, eh? They do say!...
Lady Cecily came into her box, followed by her husband, and Henry
looked steadily up at her in the hope that she would see him, but she
did not glance in his direction. He could see that she had found
Gilbert in the audience, but Gilbert was not looking at her. An odd
sensation of jealousy ran through him. He suddenly resented her
familiarity with Gilbert. He remembered that she had called him by his
Christian name, that she distinguished between him and other men by
calling him by his proper name, and not by some fanciful perversion of
it. If only she would call him by his Christian name!...
She was leaning on the edge of the box, and looking about the
auditorium.
That's Lydy Cecily Jyne! he heard the assertive girl behind him
saying.
'Oo?'
Lydy Cecily Jyne. You know!
Her husband leant back in his seat, stifling a yawn as he did so,
and Henry saw that he was a faded, insignificant-looking man whose head
sloped so sharply that it seemed to be galloping away from his
forehead; but he did not pay much attention to him. His eyes were fixed
on Lady Cecily.
A bit 'ot, she is, the girl behind him was saying. Well, I mean
to say!...
But what she meant to say, Henry neither knew nor cared. The lights
in the theatre were lowered, leaving only the bright, warm glow of the
footlights on the heavy curtain. He could see Lady Cecily's face still
golden and glowing even in the darkness.
My dear, said the girl behind him, the things I've 'eard ...
well, they'd fill a book!
Then the curtain went up and the play began.
He saw her leaning forward eagerly to watch the stage, and presently
he heard her laughing at some piece of wit in the play: a clear, joyful
laugh; and as she laughed, she turned for a few moments and gazed into
the darkened theatre. Her beautiful eyes seemed to him to be shining
stars, and he imagined that she was looking straight at him. He smiled
at her, and then jeered at himself. Of course, she can't see me, he
said.
He tried to interest himself in the traffic of the stage, but his
thoughts continually wandered to the woman in the box above him.
She's the loveliest woman I've ever seen, he said to himself.
THE FIFTH CHAPTER
1
She turned to greet them as they entered the box. Come and sit
beside me, Gilbert! she said. Mr. Quinn ... oh, you don't know
Jimphy, do you? She introduced Henry to her husband who mumbled How
do! in a sulky voice, and stood against the wall of the box twisting
his moustache. The shyness which had enveloped Henry in the vestibule
of the theatre still clung about him, and he felt awkward and
tongue-tied. Lord Jasper Jayne did not help Henry to get rid of his
shyness. There was a Who-the-devil-are-you? look about him that made
easy conversation impossible and any conversation difficult. Lady
Cecily was chatting to Gilbert as if she had been saving up all her
conversation for a month past exclusively for his ears; and Henry could
hear a recurrent phrase.... But, Gilbert, it's ages since you've been
to see me, and you know I like you to come!... that jangled his temper
and made him feel savage towards his friend....
He made an effort to be chatty with Lord Jasper. How do you like
the play? he said, as pleasantly as he could, for it was not easy to
be chatty with Lord Jasper, whose coarse, flat features roused a
sensation of repulsion in Henry.
I don't like it, he replied. Rotten twaddle!
Oh! Henry exclaimed.
There did not appear to be anything more to say, nor did Lord Jasper
seem anxious to continue the conversation; but just when it appeared
that the effort to be pleasantly chatty was likely to be abortive, Lord
Jasper suddenly walked towards the door of the box. Come and have a
drink! he said.
Henry did not wish to go and have a drink, and he paused
irresolutely until Lady Cecily suddenly leant forward and said with a
laugh, Yes, do go with Jimphy, Mr. Quinn. Gilbert and I have such a
lot to say to each other, and Jimphy's not in a good temper. Are you,
Jimphy, dear? You see, she went on, he wanted to go to the Empire,
but I made him bring me here!... Do cheer up, Jimphy, dear! Smile for
the company!...
Lord Jasper opened the door of the box and went out, and Henry,
raging inwardly, followed him. Before he had quite shut the door again,
Lady Cecily had turned to Gilbert. Her hand was on his sleeve, and she
was saying, But Gilbert, darling!... He shut the door quickly and
almost ran after Lord Jasper. She was in love with Gilbert, and Gilbert
was in love with her. A woman would not put her hand so affectionately
on a man's arm and call him Gilbert, darling! if she were not in love
with him. She had wished to be alone with Gilbert ... had practically
turned him out of the box so that she might be alone with Gilbert ...
had not waited for him to close the door before she began to fondle him
... and Gilbert had spoken so bitterly of her!...
He followed on the heels of Lord Jasper, passing through a throng of
men in the passages and on the stairs, until he reached the bar.
Whisky and soda? said Lord Jasper, and Henry nodded his head.
I hate theatres, Lord Jasper said.
Oh! Henry replied.
That seemed to be the only adequate retort to make to anything that
Jimphy said.
Yes, I can't stand 'em. Cecily let me in to-night ... on a chap's
birthday, too. She might have chosen the Empire!
You like music-halls then?
They're all right. Better than theatres anyhow. I like to see girls
dancing and ... and ... all that kind of thing!
A bell rang, warning them that the second act was about to begin.
I suppose we ought to go back, said Henry, putting his glass down.
He had barely touched the whisky and soda.
No hurry, Lord Jasper replied. No hurry. And you haven't drunk
your whisky? Cecily's quite happy with that chap, Farlow.... I don't
like him myself ... oh, I say, he's a pal of yours, isn't he? Well, it
doesn't matter now. I don't like him, and he doesn't like me. I know he
doesn't. I can always tell a chap doesn't like me because I generally
don't like him. Have another, will you?
Henry shook his head.
I think we ought to be getting back, he said, I hate disturbing
people after the curtain's gone up!
You don't want to see that rotten play, do you? Look here ... I've
forgotten your name! Sorry!...
Quinn. Henry Quinn!
Oh, Quinn! You're not English, are you?
I'm Irish.
Are you? That's damn funny! Well, anyhow, what I was going to say
was this. You don't want to see this rotten play, do you?
I do rather!...
No, you don't, Quinn. No, you don't. And I don't want to see it,
either. Very well, then, what's to prevent you and me going to the
Empire together, eh? We can come back for Cecily!...
Henry stared at Lord Jasper. But we can't do that, he protested.
Oh, yes we can. Cecily won't mind. She'll be glad. We'll go and
tell her ... and look here, Quinn, I'll introduce you to a girl I know
... very nice girl ... perfect lady ... lives with her mother as a
matter of fact ... Eh?
I'd much rather see the play!
Oh, all right, Lord Jasper said sulkily. All right!
Henry moved towards the door of the bar, but Lord Jasper made no
attempt to follow him. Aren't you coming? he said, pausing at the
door.
No, Lord Jasper replied. I don't want to see the damn play. I
shall have another drink, and then I shall go to the Empire by myself.
You better go back to Cecily and ... and that chap Farlow. She won't
notice I'm not there!
You'd better come and tell her yourself, hadn't you? Henry said.
Lord Jasper deliberated with himself for a few moments.
All right, he said. I will. I'll come presently. You tell her,
will you, that I'll come presently. P'raps you'll change your mind,
Quinn, and come with me to the Empire after you've had another dose of
this damn play. A chap doesn't want to see a play on a chap's
birthday!...
It occurred to Henry that Lord Jasper Jayne was slightly drunk. He
had swallowed the second whisky and soda rather more expeditiously than
he had swallowed the first, and no doubt he had dined well. There was a
bleary look in his eyes that signified a heated brain....
My God, Henry said to himself, that beautiful woman married to
this ... this swine!
I'm thirty-one to-day, ole f'la, Lord Jasper continued, coming
over to Henry and taking hold of his arm. Thirty-one. I'm getting on
in years, ole f'la, that's what I'm doing ... sere and yellow, so to
speak ... and a chap my age doesn't want to be bothered with a damn
play. He wants something ... something substansl!... He fumbled over
the word substantial and then fell on it. Something substansl, he
repeated. Now, if you come with me!...
I say, you mustn't talk so loudly, Henry warned him. The
curtain's gone up, and you'll disturb people....
All right, ole f'la, all right. I won't say another word!
They stumbled along the passages to the door of the box, and entered
as quietly as they could.
We thought you'd got lost, said Lady Cecily, smiling at Henry.
No ... no, he replied, we didn't get lost!
2
Gilbert was sitting in the seat where Jimphy had sat earlier in the
evening. Gilbert is going to stay here, said Lady Cecily. Won't you
stay, too, Mr. Quinn!
Won't I be crowding you?... he said.
Oh, no, she replied. Jimphy doesn't want to see the play anyhow,
and he'll be quite happy if he has some one to talk to in the bar
between the acts!...
He felt the blood rushing violently to his head, and in his anger he
almost got up and walked out of the box. That she should use him to
keep her sottish husband entertained while she made love to Gilbert,
filled him with a sensation that came near to hatred of her. Gilbert
had not spoken since they returned to the box, but it was clear from
his manner that there had been love-making.... He crushed down his
anger, and stood behind Lady Cecily while the play went on. Her bare
shoulders had a soft, warm look, in the subdued light ... he was
conscious of beautifully shaped ears nestling in golden hair ... and
the anger in him began to die. Once she moved slightly in her seat, and
looked round as if she wanted to speak. He leant over her.
Do you want anything? he asked.
My wrap, she said.
He picked up the flimsy wrap and put it about her shoulders, and she
turned to him and smiled and said, Thank you! and instantly all the
anger in him perished. He had admired her before, admired her ardently,
but now he knew that he loved her, must love her always....
There was a sound of heavy breathing, and he turned to look at
Jimphy.
Wake him up, said Lady Cecily in a whisper. Poor dear, he always
goes to sleep when he's annoyed!
He tiptoed across the box and shook the sleeper's arm.
Eh? What is it? Lord Jasper said, as he opened his eyes and gaped
about him, and then, as he became conscious of his surroundings, he
said, Is it over yet?
No. The second act isn't finished yet!
Oh, Lord! he groaned.
It'll be over in a few minutes!
Thank God! I can't stick plays ... not this sort anyhow. I don't
mind a musical comedy now and again, although I think you can have too
much of that....
Lady Cecily turned and waved her hand at her husband. Ssh, Jimphy!
she whispered. You're making a frightful row!
The second act ended soon afterwards, and Lord Jasper scrambled to
his feet ... he had been sitting on the ground at the back of the box,
yawning and yawning ... and made for the door. Come and have a drink,
Quinn! he said.
No, thanks, Henry replied.
Come on. Be a sport!
Do go with him, Mr. Quinn, please, Lady Cecily said. He's sure to
get lost or troublesome or something. Aren't you, Jimphy dear?
Aren't I what!
Aren't you sure to get lost or troublesome or something!
Lord Jasper did not reply to his wife. Come along, Quinn! he said.
Cecily thinks she's being comic!...
Henry hesitated for a moment or two. He did not wish to go to the
bar, and he was sick of the sight of Lord Jasper. He wished very much
to stay with Lady Cecily, and he felt hurt because she had urged him to
accompany her husband. He would have to do as she had asked him, of
course.... While he hesitated, Gilbert got up quickly from his seat and
went to the door of the box. I'll come with you, Jimphy! he said, and
then, almost pushing Lord Jasper in front of him, he went out, closing
the door of the box behind him. Henry stared at the door for a second
or two, nonplussed by the swiftness of Gilbert's action, and then he
turned to Lady Cecily. A look of vexation on her face instantly
disappeared and she smiled at Henry.
Come and sit here, she said, and tell me all about yourself. I
haven't really got to know you, have I? Gilbert says you're Irish!
Yes, he answered, sitting down.
How jolly! she said.
Do you think so?
Oh, yes. It's supposed to be awfully jolly to be Irish. All the
Irish people in books seem to be very amused about something. I suppose
it's the climate. They say there's a great deal of rain in Ireland....
Yes, he answered vaguely, there is some sometimes!
She questioned him about Gilbert and Ninian Graham and Roger Carey.
It must be awfully jolly, she said, to be living together like
that, you four men!
He noticed that Lady Cecily always spoke of things being awfully
jolly and wondered why her vocabulary should be so limited in its
expressions of pleasure.
We get on very well together, he replied, and it's very lively at
times. Gilbert's very lively....
Is he? she said. He always seems so ... so ... well, not lively.
I don't mean that he's solemn or pompous, but he's so ... so anxious to
have his own way, if you understand me. Now, I'm not like that! She
broke off and laughed. Oh, I don't quite mean that. I am selfish. I
know I am. I love having my own way, but if I can't have a thing just
as I want it ... well, I'm content to have it in the way that I can.
Now, do you understand?
Henry nodded his head.
Gilbert isn't like me, she continued. He says to himself, 'I must
have this thing exactly in this way. If I can't have it exactly in this
way, then I won't have it at all!' and it's so silly of him to behave
like that!
Henry looked up at her in a puzzled fashion. What is it he
wants?... I beg your pardon, I'm being impertinent!
Oh, no! she replied, smiling graciously at him. He wants ... oh,
he wants everything like that. Haven't you noticed?
No, Henry answered, I haven't.
Well, you will some day. My motto is, Take what you can get in the
way you can get it. It's so much easier to live if you act on that
principle!
Gilbert's an artist, Lady Cecily, and he can't act on that
principle. No artist can. He takes what he wants in the way that he
wants it or else he will not take it at all!
Exactly. That's what I've been saying. And it's so silly. But never
mind. He's young yet, and he'll learn!
She turned to gaze at the audience, and Henry, not knowing what else
to do and having no more to say, looked too. He could think of plenty
of fine things to say to her, but he could not get them on to his
tongue. He wanted to tell her that he had scarcely heard a word of what
was said in the first act of the play because he had filled his mind
with thoughts of her, and had spent most of the time in gazing up at
her as she sat leaning on the ledge of her box; but when he tried to
speak, his mouth seemed to be parched and his tongue would not move.
3
Do you like this play? she asked.
No, he replied.
Why? I thought everybody admired Wilde's wit. It's clever, isn't
it?
I don't like it!
But it's supposed to be awfully clever! she insisted.
It's a common melodrama with bits of wit and epigram stuck on to
it! Henry answered.
Oh, really!
The wit isn't natural ... it doesn't grow naturally out of the life
of the play, I mean. It's stuck on like ... like plaster images on the
front of a house. The witty speeches aren't spontaneous ... they don't
come inevitably!... I'm afraid I'm not making myself very clear, but
anyhow, I don't like the play. I don't like anything Wilde wrote,
except 'The Ballad of Reading Gaol,' and even that's not true. That's
really why I dislike his work. It isn't true, any of it. It's all
lies....
How awfully interesting!
Do you know 'The Ballad of Reading Gaol'? he asked.
No.... Oh, yes! I have read it. Of course, I have. Somebody lent it
to me or I bought it or something.... Anyhow, I have read it, but I
can't remember....
Do you remember the lines?...
For all men kill the thing they love,
But all men do not die.
I seem to remember something ... she said vaguely.
Well, that's a lie. All men don't kill the thing they love. Wilde
couldn't help lying even when he was most sincere!
That's awfully interesting, Lady Cecily said. Do you know I've
never thought of that before. Won't you come and see me one afternoon,
Mr. Quinn?
I should like to, he said, and as he spoke, the door of the box
opened and Gilbert entered, followed by Lord Jasper.
Lady Cecily turned eagerly to Gilbert. Oh, Gilbert, she said, Mr.
Quinn promised to come and see me one afternoon. You'll bring him,
won't you? Come on Wednesday, both of you!
I should like to, Henry murmured again.
I don't think I can come on Wednesday, Gilbert said.
Oh, yes, you can, Lady Cecily exclaimed, and if you can't, you
can come some other day. You'll come, Mr. Quinn, won't you?
Yes, Lady Cecily!...
And.... Jimphy, dear, do be nice and ask them to come to supper
with us after the play. We're going to the Savoy afterwards. I thought
it would please Jimphy to go there because he'd be sure not to like the
play....
Yes, you come along, you chaps! Jimphy said, willingly.
I can't. I'm sorry, Gilbert replied. I've got to go down to Fleet
Street and write a notice of this play!
Can't you put it off for once, Gilbert! Lady Cecily said.
Gilbert laughed. I should like to see Dilton's face if I were to do
that....
Dilton! Dilton!! Who is Dilton? she demanded.
My editor. Very devoted to the human note, Dilton is. No, Cecily,
I'm sorry, but I must go down to Fleet Street. Henry can go with you.
She paused for a moment, and then said, How long will it take you
to write the notice of the play? she asked, adding before he could
answer, Can't you do it now?
Yes, Gilbert, Henry said, you can do it now. You know the play,
and you've seen the acting in two acts....
Gilbert looked at him very directly, and when he spoke, his voice
was very firm. No, he said, I must go down to Fleet Street!
Lady Cecily was cross and hurt, and she turned away pettishly.
Oh, very well! she said shortly.
There was a slight air of restraint among them ... even Lord Jasper
seemed to feel it. It was he who spoke next.
You can come and join us at the Savoy after you've done your ...
whatyoumaycallit, can't you? he said.
Gilbert paused for a moment. He looked as if he were undecided as to
what he should say. Then he said, Yes, I can do that ... if I get away
from the office in time!
Henry was about to say, Why, of course, you can get away in plenty
of time! but he checked himself and did not say it.
Oh, that will do excellently, said Lady Cecily, all smiles again.
Then the lights of the theatre were lowered and the third act began.
4
When the play was over, they drove to Fleet Street in Lord Jasper's
motor-car. Lady Cecily had suggested that they should take Gilbert to
his newspaper office in order to save time, and he had consented
readily enough.
We might wait for you!... she added, but Gilbert would not agree
to this proposal. It isn't fair to keep Jimphy from his birthday treat
any longer, he said, and I may be some time before I'm ready!
She was sitting next to Gilbert, and Henry and Jimphy were together
with their backs to the chauffeur. She did not appear to be tired nor
had the sparkle of her beautiful eyes diminished. She lay against the
padded back of the car and chattered in an inconsequent fashion that
was oddly amusing. She did not listen to replies that were made to her
questions, nor did she appear to notice that sometimes replies were not
made. It seemed to Henry that she would have chattered exactly as she
was now chattering if she had been alone. Neither Gilbert nor Jimphy
answered her, but Henry felt that something ought to be said when she
made a direct remark.
Isn't Fleet Street funny at this time of night? she said. So
quiet. I do hope the supper will be fit to eat. Oh, Gilbert, I wish
you'd say something in your notice of Wilde's play about his
insincerity. I felt all the time I was listening to the play that ...
that it wasn't true!'
Gilbert sat up straight in his seat and looked at her.
Oh! he exclaimed.
Yes, she went on. The wit seemed to be stuck on to the play ...
it wasn't part of it!...
Gilbert leant back in his seat again. You've been talking to Henry
about Wilde, haven't you?
She laughed lightly and turned towards Henry. Oh, of course. Mr.
Quinn, I always repeat what other people say. I forget that they've
said it to me and think that I've thought of it myself!
Henry professed to be pleased that she had accepted his ideas so
completely.
But, of course, she continued, what you said was quite true. I've
always felt that there was something wrong with Wilde's plays....
I can't think what you all want to talk about a play for. I never
see anything in 'em to talk about! Jimphy murmured sleepily.
Go to sleep, Jimphy, dear. Well wake you when we get to the
Savoy....
Always ragging a chap! Jimphy muttered, and then closed his eyes.
The car turned down one of the narrow streets that lead from Fleet
Street to the Thames Embankment, and then turned again and stopped.
Oh, is this your office, Gilbert? Lady Cecily said. Such an ugly,
dark looking place! But I suppose it's interesting inside? Newspaper
offices are supposed to be awfully interesting inside, aren't they?
Are they? Gilbert replied, as he got out of the car. I've never
noticed it. Noisy holes where no one has time to think. Good-bye.
Not 'good-bye,' Gilbert! We shall see you soon at the Savoy, shan't
we?
Oh, yes. Yes. I'd almost forgotten that!
The car drove off, threading the narrow steep street slowly. They
could hear the deep rurr-rurr of the printing machines coming from the
basements of the buildings, and now and then great patches of pallid
blue light shot out of open windows. Motor-vans and horse-waggons were
drawn up against the pavements in front of the office-doors, waiting
for the newly-printed papers. Bundles of Daily Reflexions were
already printed and were being thrown on to the cars and waggons for
distribution.
Are they printed already? Lady Cecily said.
Most of them were printed at nine o'clock, Henry replied. The
ha'penny illustrated papers go all over the country before the ordinary
papers are printed at all!
How awfully clever of them! she said.
The car turned into Fleet Street and quickly drove up to the Savoy.
Thank God! said Jimphy. I shall get some fun out of my birthday
now!
Jimphy loves his food, Lady Cecily exclaimed. Don't you, Jimphy?
Don't you love your little tum-tum?...
They entered the hotel and found the table which had been reserved
for them. There was a queer, hectic gaiety about the place, as if every
one present were making a desperate effort to eat, drink and be
merry. People greeted Lady Cecily as she passed them and muttered,
'loa, Jimphy! Henry had never been to a fashionable restaurant
before, and the barbaric beauty of the scene fascinated him. The women
were riotously dressed, and the colours of their garments mingled and
merged like the colours of a sunset. There was a constant flow of
people through the room, and the chatter of animated voices and bursts
of laughter and the jingling, sentimental music played by the orchestra
made Jimphy forget how bored he had been at the theatre. The slightly
fuddled air which he had had in the bar of St. James's had left him and
he began to talk.
Ripping woman, that! he said to Henry, indicating a slight, dark
girl who had entered the restaurant in company with a tall,
flaxen-haired man. Pretty little flapper, I call her! I like thin
women, myself. Well, slender's a better word, isn't it? What you say,
Cecily?
Lady Cecily had tapped her husband's arm. Ernest Lensley's just
come in, she said. He's with Boltt. Go and bring them both here. They
can't find seats, poor dears!
Ernest Lensley and Boltt were fashionable novelists. Lensley was an
impudent-looking man with very blue eyes who had written a number of
popular stories about society women who chattered very much in the
way that Lady Cecily chattered. The heroine of his best-known book was
modelled, so people said, on the wife of a Cabinet Minister, and
thousands of suburban Englishwomen professed to have an intimate
knowledge of the statesman's family life solely because they had read
Lensley's novel. It was a flippant, vulgar book, the outcome of a
flippant, vulgar mind. Boltt had a wider public than Lensley. Boltt, a
tall, thin, stooping man, with peering eyes, had discovered the human
note of which Gilbert's editor prated continually. He was a precise,
priggish man, extraordinarily vain though no vainer than Lensley, who,
however, had an easy manner that Boltt would never acquire. He spoke in
the way in which one might expect a reduced gentlewoman, poor dear!
to speak, and there was something about him that made a man long to
kick him up a room and down a room and across a room and back again.
His heroes were all big, burly, red-haired giants, who wore beards and
old clothes and said By God, yes! when they admired the scenery, and
led a vagabond life in a perfectly gentlemanly manner until they met
the heroine.... His heroines constantly fell into situations which were
extremely compromising in the eyes of a censorious world, but they were
never completely compromised. The whole world knew, before the
conclusion of the story, that the heroine had been falsely suspected.
If she had spent the night in the hero's bedroom, she had done so with
the best intentions, under the strictest chaperonage ... usually that
of her dear, devoted old nurse, God bless her!... whose presence in the
bedroom had been hidden, until the middle of the penultimate chapter,
from the heroine's friends and relatives. The hero, of course, poor,
manly, broken giant, had been ill, suffering from a fever, and in his
delirium had called for her, discontent until she had put her cool firm
hand upon his hot brow, and the doctor had said that if she would stay
with him, she would save his life. So she had flung her reputation to
the winds and had hurried to his bedroom.... It was pretentious,
flatulent stuff, through which a thin stream of tepid lust trickled so
gently that it seemed like a stream of pretty sentiment, and it was
written with such cleverness that young ladies in Bath and Cheltenham
and Atlantic City, U.S.A., were tricked into believing that this was
Life ... Real Life....
Lensley and Boltt followed Jimphy eagerly to Lady Cecily's table.
Lensley was glad to sit with her: Boltt was glad to be certain of his
supper. Lensley enjoyed listening to Cecily's babble because he could
always be certain of getting something out of her speech that would
just fit into his next novel: Boltt liked his contiguity to members of
the governing class. They completely ignored Henry after they had been
introduced to him.
Mr. Quinn is writing a novel, too! said Lady Cecily.
Oh, yes! said Lensley.
Indeed! Boltt burbled.
Thereafter they addressed themselves exclusively to Lady Cecily and
her husband. Lensley told Lady Cecily that she was to be the heroine of
his next book. I'm studying you now, dear Lady Cecily! he said.
Jotting you down in my little book ... all your little plaguey ways
and speeches!...
How awfully exciting! she replied, and her eyes seemed to become
brighter, and she leant towards the novelist as if she meant to reveal
herself more clearly to him.
You'll be angry with me when you see the book, he said.
Dreadfully angry. You know poor Mrs. Maldon was very hurt about '
Jennifer'! Mrs. Maldon was the wife of the Cabinet Minister.
I shan't mind what you say about me, Lady Cecily said, so long as
you make me the heroine of the book. What are you going to call it?...
The Delectable Lady!
How awfully nice!...
5
Henry began to feel bored. He wished that Gilbert would come.
Gilbert would soon rout this paltry little tuppenny-ha'penny Society
novelist with his pretty-pretty chatter and his pretty-pretty blue eyes
and his air of being a knowing dog. Lady Cecily seemed to have
forgotten Henry altogether.... He turned to Lord Jasper who was trying
hard not to yawn in Mr. Boltt's face. Mr. Boltt had been a surveyor at
one period of his life, and his favourite theme of conversation was
Renascence architecture. He was now telling Jimphy of the glories of
French Cathedrals, and Jimphy, who cared even less for French
Cathedrals than he cared for English ones, was wondering just how he
could change the conversation to a discussion of the latest ballet at
the Empire and particularly of a girl he knew who was a perfect lady
and, as a matter of fact, lived with her mother. The supper party
seemed likely to end dismally, and Henry, when he was not wishing that
Gilbert would come, was wishing that he himself had not come. He could
not understand why it was that he had so much difficulty in talking
easily with strangers. Lensley was prattling as if he were determined
to discharge an entire novelful of chatter at Lady Cecily, and
Boltt's little clipped, pedantic voice recited a long rigmarole about a
glorious view in France which he had lately seen while motoring in that
country. Boltt admired Nature in the way in which any man of careful
upbringing would admire a really nice woman....
Henry had lately reviewed a book by Boltt for a daily paper, and he
had expressed scorn for it and its stuffed dummies, masquerading as men
and women ... and Boltt, who took himself very seriously indeed, had
written a letter of complaint to the editor of the paper. Henry
wondered what Boltt would say if he knew that the review had been
written by him, and an imp in him made him interrupt the long recital
of the glories of France.
The Morning Report had a good go at your last novel, Boltt!
he said.
The novelist looked reproachfully at Henry, as if he were rebuking
him for indelicacy.
I never see the Morning Report, he replied loftily.
Oh, then, I suppose you didn't see the review. I thought you
probably got clippings from a Press-cuttings agency!...
Yes, oh, yes, I do. I seem to remember that the Morning Report
was unkind. Not quite fair, I should say!
Lord Jasper began to take an intelligent interest in the
conversation. Have you published another book, Boltt? he asked
innocently.
Yes ... a ... Lord Jasper ... I have! Mr. Boltt said, and there
was some sniffiness in his tones. He was accustomed to lengthy reviews
on the day of publication, and it annoyed him to think that there was
some one in the world, some one, too, with whom he was acquainted, who
did not know that the publication of one of his books was an event.
I can't think how you writing chaps keep it up, said Jimphy. I
couldn't write a book to save my life!...
No? said Mr. Boltt, smiling in the way of one who says to himself,
God help you, my poor fellow, God help you!
I suppose it's all a question of knack, Jimphy continued. You get
into the way of it and you can't stop. Sometimes a tune gets into my
head and I have to keep on humming it or whistling it. I'm not what
you'd call a sentimental fellow at all, but that song ... you know,
about the honeysuckle and the bee ... I could not get that song
out of my head. I thought I should go cracked over it. Always humming
it or whistling it ... and I suppose if you get an idea for a yarn into
your head, Boltt, well, it's something like that!
Lady Cecily had exhausted the chatter of Mr. Lensley.
What's that! she exclaimed.
Lord Jasper is describing the processes of literature to me, Lady
Cecily, said Mr. Boltt sarcastically. I have been greatly
interested.
The man's conceit irritated Henry and he longed to disconcert him.
Yes, he said. It all began by my saying something about a review
of Boltt's last novel in the Morning Report! ...
Mr. Boltt made motions with his hands. Really, he said, Lady
Cecily isn't in the least interested in my effusions.
Oh, but I am, Mr. Boltt, Lady Cecily interrupted. What did the
paper say? I'm sure it was very flattering!...
The reviewer said that the book would probably please the vicar's
only daughter, but that it wouldn't impose upon her when she grew
up....
Oh! said Lady Cecily.
Some rival, I'm afraid! Mr. Boltt murmured. Some one who dislikes
me....
The chief complaint was that your people aren't real.... Henry
continued, though Mr. Boltt frowned heavily.
Yes. I don't think we need discuss the matter further, Mr....
Quinn!! said Henry.
He felt happier now that he had pricked the egregious fellow's
vanity.
Silly of 'em to say that, said Lord Jasper. Boltt sells a
tremendous number of books, don't you, Boltt? More than Lensley does.
And that shows, doesn't it? If a chap can sell as many books as Boltt
sells ... well, he must be some good. I've never read any of 'em, of
course, but then I'm not a chap that reads much. All the same, a chap I
know says Boltt's all right, and he's a chap that knows what he's
talking about. I mean to say, he's written books himself!
Lady Cecily was no longer interested in the history of Mr. Boltt's
novel. The meal was almost at an end, and Gilbert had not arrived. She
glanced towards the door, looking straight over Mr. Lensley's head, and
Henry could see that she was fidgeting.
Gilbert's a long time, he said to her.
She did not answer, and before he could repeat his remark to her,
Lord Jasper exclaimed, I say, you know, we ought to be getting home,
Cecily. It's getting jolly late!...
Let's wait a little longer, she said, Gilbert hasn't come yet!
But I mean to say, this place'll be closing soon.... Mr. Boltt
made a satirical remark on the ridiculously early hours at which
restaurants are compelled by law to close in England. In France, he
said ... but Lord Jasper did not wait to hear what is done in France.
He won't come now, he said. He wouldn't have time to eat any
supper if he were to come ... and it's getting jolly late, and I'm
jolly tired!
He got up from the table as he spoke. Very well, said Lady Cecily,
rising too.
The others followed her example, and Boltt and Lensley prepared to
escort Lady Cecily to the door, but she gave her hand to them and said
Good-night!
It's so nice to have seen you both, she said. No, don't trouble.
Mr. Quinn will come with me!
Lord Jasper had gone on in front to find his car, and Lady Cecily
and Henry walked down the room together until they came to the
courtyard where the car was waiting for them.
Tell Gilbert I'm angry with him, she said. He must come and see
me soon and tell me how sorry he is. You'll come, too, perhaps, Mr.
Quinn!
He found his tongue suddenly. I will, Lady Cecily, he said. I'll
come even if he doesn't. I've enjoyed to-night tremendously....
Have you, Mr. Quinn?
Yes....
I say, come along, Lord Jasper shouted to them.
Poor Jimphy's getting fractious. You can tell me how much you've
enjoyed to-night when we meet again!
He took her to the car, and watched her as she gathered her skirts
about her and climbed inside.
Can't we drop you at your house! said Lord Jasper. It won't be
any trouble to do so!
No, thanks, Henry replied. I'd rather walk home. It's such a
beautiful night!
Lord Jasper followed Lady Cecily into the car. You're a romantic
chap, Quinn! he said, and then, as an afterthought, he added quickly,
I say, we must arrange to go to the Empire together some evening.
You're the sort of chap I like....
Lady Cecily waved her hand to him. As the car moved off he saw her
beautiful face leaning against the side of the car, and he longed to
take her in his arms and kiss her. Then the car turned, and drove
quickly off. He stood for a moment or two looking after it, and
continued to stand still even when it had swung out of the courtyard
into the Strand. Then he walked slowly away from the restaurant. He had
not gone very far when his arm was touched, and, turning round, he saw
Gilbert.
6
Hilloa, he said, you're late!
No, I'm not, Gilbert replied.
Yes, you are. The Jaynes have gone!
I saw them going. I've been here for over half-an-hour, waiting for
you!
Over half-an-hour! What's up, Gilbert?
Gilbert put his arm in Henry's and made him move out of the Savoy
courtyard. Come down to the Embankment, he said. It's quieter there.
I want to talk to you!
But hadn't we better go home? We can talk on the way. It's
late....
No. I want to go to the Embankment. Damn it all, Quinny, it's a
sentimental place for a heart-to-heart talk, isn't it?
You aren't drunk, Gilbert, I suppose?
Never so sober in my life, Quinny. Besides, I don't get drunk.
People who talk about beer and whisky as much as I do, never get drunk.
Come along, there's a good chap!
Very well ... only I'm not going to stay long. I'm no good for work
the day after I've had a long night....
I won't keep you long. How did the supper-party go off?
Damnably. Two tame novelists turned up ... Boltt and Lensley!
Those asses!
Yes. Lensley 'chattered' to Lady Cecily, and Boltt bored and bored
and bored.... I took him down a bit. I rubbed in the Morning Report
review. The little toad could hardly sit still! Of course, he affected
the superior person attitude!
God be merciful to him, poor little rat! He wants to be a wicked,
hell-for-leather fellow, but he hasn't got the stomach for it! What did
Cecily say when I didn't turn up?
She looked rather cross. She told me as we came away to tell you
she was angry with you. You're to go and apologise to her as soon as
possible!
Did she?
Yes. I say, Gilbert, why didn't you turn up?
They had reached the Embankment, and they crossed to the riverside
and leant against the parapet.
Because I was afraid to, said Gilbert.
Afraid to!
Yes. Can't you see I'm in love with her?
Well, I guessed as much....
I love her so much that she can do what she likes with me, and all
she likes to do is to destroy me!
Destroy you!
Yes. If you love Cecily, she demands the whole of your life. Every
bit of it. She consumes you.... Oh, I know this sounds like a penny
dreadful, Quinny, but it's true. I've asked her to run away with me,
but she won't come. She says she hates scandal and she likes her social
position. My God, I feel sick when I see Jimphy with her ... like a
damned big lobster putting his ... his claws about her. He isn't a bad
fellow in his silly way, but I can't stand him as Cecily's husband!
I know what you mean, said Henry.
I thought that if Cecily and I were to go away together, we could
get our lives into some sort of perspective, and then I could go on
with my work and have her as well, but she won't go away with me. She
wants me to hang around, being her lover ... and I can't do that,
Quinny. It's mean and furtive, and I hate that. You're always listening
for some one coming ... a servant or the husband or some one ... and I
can't stand that. If I love a woman, I love her, and I don't want to
spend part of my life in pretending that I don't. I loathe myself when
I have to change the talk suddenly or move away when a door opens....
Do you understand, Quinny?
Henry nodded his head, but did not speak.
Once when I'd been begging Cecily to go away with me, Jimphy walked
into the room ... and I had to pretend to be talking about some
nasturtiums that Cecily had grown. I felt like a cad. That's what's
rotten about loving another man's wife. It's the treachery of the
thing, the pretending.... I've often wondered why it is that love of
that sort seems so romantic and splendid in books and so damnably mean
when it comes into the Divorce Court ... but when I met Cecily I knew
why ... it's because of the treachery and the deceit. I used to think
that it was beautiful in books because artists were able to see the
hidden beauty, and ugly in the Divorce Court because ordinary people
only saw the surface things ... but I'm not sure now.
He stopped speaking, but Henry did not speak instead. He did not
know what to say; he felt indeed that there was nothing to be said,
that he must simply listen. He watched the electric signs on the other
side of the river as they spelt out the virtues of Someone's Teas and
Another's Whisky, and wondered how long it would be before Gilbert said
something else. He was beginning to be bored by the business, and he
felt sleepy. He was jealous too, when he thought that Gilbert had
kissed Cecily and had been held in her beautiful arms....
Cecily doesn't mind about the shabbiness of it, he heard Gilbert
saying. We've talked about that, and she says it doesn't matter a bit.
All that matters to her is that she shan't be found out ... too
publicly anyhow! She called me a prig when I said that I was afraid of
tainting my work....
Tainting your work?
Yes. Perhaps it is priggish of me, but I feel that if I'm mean in
one thing I may be mean in another. I'm terribly afraid of doing bad
work, Quinny, and I got an idea into my head that if I let taint into
my life in one place, I couldn't confine it and it would spread to
other places. Do you see? If I let myself get into a rotten position
with Cecily, I might write down....
I don't see that, said Henry. Because you love a married woman,
it doesn't follow that you'll pot-boil.
No, perhaps not. But I was afraid of it. I suppose it was priggish
of me. That wasn't the only thing, however. I knew that if I did what
Cecily wanted me to do, I'd spend most of my time with her or thinking
about her. I can't work if I'm doing that, for I think of her and long
for her.... Oh, let's go home. It isn't fair to keep you here listening
to my twaddle!
But they did not move. They gazed down on the swiftly-flowing river,
and presently they heard Big Ben striking one deep note.
One o'clock! said Gilbert.
What are you going to do about it, Gilbert? Henry asked at last.
I'm going away from London. I've chucked my job on the Daily
Echo....
Good Lord, man, what for?
Well, I'm fed-up with the English theatre to begin with, and I'm
fed-up with journalism too ... and it's the only way I can get free of
Cecily. I must finish the new comedy and I can't finish it if I stay in
town and see Cecily. She won't let me finish it. She'll make me go here
and go there with her. Shell keep me making love to her when I ought to
be working. God damn women, Quinny!
You're excited, Gilbert!
Yes, I know I am. When I'm with Cecily, I'm like a jelly-fish. She
sucks the brains out of me. She doesn't care whether I finish my comedy
or not. She doesn't care what happens to my work so long as I hang
around and love her and kiss her whenever she wants me to. My brains go
to bits when I'm with her. I'm all emotion and sensation ... just like
those asses Lensley and Boltt. Quinny, fancy spending your life turning
out the sort of stuff those two men write. They've written about a
dozen books each, and I suppose they're good for twenty or thirty more.
I'd rather be a scavenger!
They walked along the Embankment towards Waterloo Bridge.
I'm going to Anglesey, Gilbert said. I shall go and stay there
until the end of the summer!
I shall miss you, Gilbert. So will Ninian and Roger!
I shall miss you three, but it can't be helped. I'm the sort of man
who succumbs to women ... I can't help it. If they're beautiful and
soft and full of love ... like Cecily ... they down me. Their
femininity topples me over, and there's no work to be got out of me
while I'm like that. But my work's of more consequence to me than
loving and kissing, Quinny, and if I can't do it while I'm Cecily's
lover, then I'll go away from her and do it!
What makes you think you could do it if she were to go away with
you?
I don't know. Hope, I suppose.
They walked up Villiers Street into the Strand, and made their way
towards Bloomsbury.
I suppose, said Gilbert, you wouldn't like to come to Anglesey
too?
Henry hesitated for a few moments. He had a vision of Lady Cecily's
beautiful face leaning against the padded side of the car, and he
remembered that she had smiled and waved her hand to him....
No, he replied, I don't think so ... not at present at any rate!
and then, added in explanation, If I go, too, the house will be broken
up. That would be a pity!
I forgot that, Gilbert answered. Yes, of course!
THE SIXTH CHAPTER
1
Gilbert did not leave London, as he had intended, for Sir Geoffrey
Mundane definitely decided to produce The Magic Casement in
succession to the play which was then being performed at his theatre.
He had already discussed the caste with Gilbert, and on the morning
after the scene on the Embankment, he telephoned to Gilbert, telling
him that he had made engagements for the play, and would like to fix a
date on which he should read the manuscript to the company. Any day'll
suit me, Gilbert had informed him, and Sir Geoffrey thereupon settled
that the reading should take place two days later. I suppose, he
said, you'd like to attend the rehearsals? and Gilbert, forgetting
his resolution to fly from Lady Cecily, said that he would. He thought
that the experience would be very valuable to him. He became so excited
at the prospect of seeing a play of his performed at a West End theatre
that he was unable to sit still, and his language, always extravagant,
became absurd. He broke every rule that Roger had invented. It'll take
all the royalties you'll receive to pay off this score! Roger said,
thrusting the fine-book before him.
Poo! said Gilbert. I'll buy up the Ten Commandments with one
night's royalty! Oh, it's going to be a success, I tell you. It'll run
for a year ... more than that ... two years!... He began to estimate
the number of performances the play would receive. Six evening
performances and two matinées every week for fifty-two weeks! Eight
times fifty-two, Roger ... you were a Second Wrangler, you ought to
know that! Four hundred and sixteen! Lordy God, what a lot! And if I
get ten pounds every time it's done ... Oh-h-h! Four thousand, one
hundred and sixty pounds! And then there'll be American rights and
provincial rights.... I'll tell you what I'll do, coves! I'll buy you
all a stick of barley-sugar each, or a penn'orth of acid-drops ...
which 'ud you like?...
It was during the rehearsals of The Magic Casement that Broken
Spears was published.
It isn't as good as 'Drusilla,' they said to Henry, when they had
read it, but it'll be more popular!
It was. The critics who had praised Drusilla were not impressed by
Broken Spears, but the critics who had been indifferent to Drusilla
praised Broken Spears so extravagantly that six thousand copies of it
were sold in six months, apart from the copies which were sold to the
lending libraries, and the sale of Drusilla, in consequence of the
success of Broken Spears, increased from three hundred and
seventy-five copies to one thousand five hundred and eighty. Mr. Quinn,
in thanking Henry for a copy of it, merely said, in direct reference to
the book, I see you've been tickling the English. Don't go on doing
it! and the effect of this criticism was so stimulating that Henry
destroyed the three chapters of Turbulence which were in manuscript
and started to re-write the book. Literary agents now began to write to
him, telling him how charmed they were with his work and how certain
they were of their ability to increase his income considerably; and a
publisher of some enterprise and resource wrote to him and said that he
would like to see his third book.
You look as if you were established, Quinny! said Roger, and Henry
blushed and murmured deprecatingly about himself.
How's the Bar? he said.
Oh, it's not bad. I got a fellow off to-day who ought to have had
six months hard, Roger answered. And a new solicitor has given me a
brief. We ought to ask him to dinner and feed him well. F. E. Robinson
always tells his butler to bring out the second-quality wine for
solicitors. Snob!
We seem to be getting on, don't we, coves? Gilbert interjected.
Look at all these press-cuttings!...
He held out a fistful of slips which had come that evening from a
Press-Cutting Agency. All about me, he said, and the play. Mundane
knows more about the preliminary puff than any one else in England. He
calls me 'this talented young author from whom much may be expected.' I
never thought I should get pleasure out of a trade advertisement, but I
do. I'm lapping up this stuff like billy-o. I saw a poster on the side
of a 'bus this afternoon, advertising 'The Magic Casement.' Mundane's
name was in big letters, and you could just see mine with the naked
eye. I hopped on to the 'bus and went for a fourpenny ride on it, so's
I could touch the damn thing ... and I very nearly told the conductor
who I was. It's no good pretending I'm not conceited. I am, and I don't
care. Where's Ninian?
Not come in yet. How'd the rehearsals go to-day? Roger answered.
Better than any other day. They're beginning to feel their parts.
It's about time, too. I felt sick with fright yesterday, they were so
wooden. Mundane might have been the village idiot, instead of the fine
actor he is ... but they're better now. Ninian's late!
Is he? He'll be here presently. By the way, my Cousin Rachel's
coming to town to-morrow. She's been investigating something or other
... factory life, I think. I thought I'd bring her here to dinner. She
may be interesting.
Do, said Gilbert, and then, as he heard the noise of the
street-door being closed, he added, There's Ninian now!
Ninian, on his way to his room, stopped for a moment or two, to
shout at them, I say, the mater and Mary've come up from Devon. I got
a wire this afternoon. I'm not grubbing with you to-night. They want to
go to a theatre, and I've got to climb into gaudy garments and go with
them....
He closed the door and ran up the stairs, but before he reached the
first landing, Gilbert called after him, I say, Ninian!
Yes, he answered, pausing on the stairs.
Bring them to dinner to-morrow night. Roger's Cousin Rachel is
coming, and we may as well make a party of it. Gaudy garments and
liqueurs. Do you think they'll stay for the first night of my play?
That's one of the reasons why they've come up, Ninian answered.
2
Rachel Wynne and Mrs. Graham and Mary dined with them on the
following evening, and it seemed to Henry when he saw Mary entering
Ninian's sitting-room that she was a stranger to him. He had known her
as a child and as a young, self-conscious girl, but this Mary was a
woman. He felt shy in her presence, and when, for a few moments, he was
left alone with her, he hardly knew what to say to her. They had been
Quinny and Mary to each other before, but now they avoided
names.... He spoke tritely about her journey to London, reminding her
of the slowness of the train between Whitcombe and Salisbury, and
wondered whether she liked London better than Boveyhayne. His old
disability to say the things that were in his mind prevented him from
re-establishing his intimacy with her. He tried to say, Hilloa, Mary!
but could not do so, and his shyness affected her so that she stood
before him, fingering her fan nervously, and answering Yes and Oh,
yes! and No and Oh, no! to all that he said. He liked the sweep of
her hair across her brow and the soft flush in her cheeks and the
slender lines of her neck and the gleam of a gold chain that held a
pendant suspended about her throat. He thought, too, that her eyes
shone like lustres in the light, and suddenly, as he thought this, he
felt that he could speak to her with his old freedom. He moved towards
her, shaping his lips to say, Oh, Mary, I ... but the door opened
before he could speak, and Rachel Wynne entered the room with Roger and
Mrs. Graham.
Yes, Quinny? Mary said, saying his name quite easily now.
He laughed nervously and looked at the others. I've forgotten what
I was going to say, he said, and went forward to greet Mrs. Graham.
My cousin, Rachel Wynne, said Roger, introducing her to him.
Rachel Wynne was a tall, thin girl, with a curious tightened look,
as if she were keeping a close hold on herself. When she held out her
hand to him, he had a sensation of discomfort, not because her clasp
was firm, but because she seemed to be looking, not through him, but
into him. He was very sensitive to the opinion of people about him,
feeling very quickly the dislike of any one who did not care for him,
and in a moment he knew that Rachel Wynne was antipathetic to him.
Henry was always rude to people whom he disliked ... he could not be
civil to them, however hard he might try to be so, but his feeling in
the presence of people who disliked him, was one of powerlessness: he
was tongue-tied and nervous and very dull, and his faculties seemed to
shrivel up. There was a look of cold efficiency about Rachel Wynne that
frightened him. She seemed to be incapable of wasting time or of
waywardness. Her career at Newnham, Roger had told him, had been one of
steady brilliance. There wasn't a flicker in it, he had said to
Henry. Rachel's always well-trimmed!
There were no ragged edges about Rachel Wynne. Her frock was neatly
made, so neatly that he was unaware of it, and her hair was bound
tightly to her head by a black velvet ribbon. She had a look of cold
tidiness, as if she had been frozen into her shape and could not be
thawed out of it; but she was not cold in spirit, as he discovered
during dinner when the conversation shifted from generalities about
themselves to the work she had lately been doing. They had been talking
about Gilbert's play, and then Mrs. Graham had turned to Henry and told
him how much she liked his novels. Her tastes were simple, and she
preferred Broken Spears to Drusilla. Of course, 'Drusilla' is very
clever! she said a little deprecatingly, and then she turned to Rachel
and asked her whether she had read Henry's novels.
No, Rachel answered. I very seldom read novels!...
He felt contempt for her. Now he knew why he had been chilled by her
presence. She belonged to that order of prigs which will not read
novels, preferring instead to read serious books. Such a woman would
treat Tom Jones as a frivolous book, less illuminating than some
tedious biography or history book. She might even deny that it had any
illumination at all.... He could not prevent a sneer from his retort to
her statement that she seldom read novels.
I suppose, he said, you think that novels are not sufficiently
serious?
Oh, no, she answered quickly. I just haven't time for
novel-reading!
That seemed to him to be worse than if she had said that she
preferred to read solid books. A novel, in her imagination, was a light
diversion in which one only indulged in times of unusual slackness. No
wonder, he thought to himself, all reformers and serious people make
such a mess of the social system when they despise and ignore the
principal means of knowing the human spirit.
That's a pity, he said aloud. I should have thought that you'd
find novels useful to you in your work. I mean, there's surely more
chance of understanding the people of the eighteenth century if you
read Fielding's 'Tom Jones' than there is if you read Lecky's 'England
in the Eighteenth Century.'
Is there? said Rachel.
Of course, there is, Gilbert hurled at her from the other side of
the table. Fielding was an artist, inspired by God, but Lecky was
simply a fact-pedlar, inspired by the Board of Education. Why even that
dull ass, Richardson, makes you understand more about his period than
Lecky does!
Perhaps, said Rachel, in a tone which indicated that there was no
doubt in her mind about the relative values of Lecky and Fielding. She
turned to Henry. I wish you'd write a book about the factory system,
she said. That would be worth doing!
He disliked the suggestion that Broken Spears and Drusilla had
not been worth doing, and he let his resentment of her attitude towards
his work affect the tone of his voice as he answered, I don't know
anything about factories!
You should learn about them, she retorted.
No, he did not like this woman, aggressive and assertive. He turned
to speak to Mary ... but Rachel Wynne had not finished with him.
I've spent six months in the north of England, she said, reaching
for the salted almonds. I've seen every kind of factory, model and
otherwise!
Oh, yes, he answered, vaguely irritated by her. He wished that she
would talk to her other neighbour and leave him in peace with Mary. As
an Improved Tory, he knew that he ought to get all the information
about factories out of her that he could, but as Henry Quinn, he had no
other desire than to be quit of her as quickly as possible.
And I think the model factories are no better than the rotten
ones, she went on.
What's that you say? Roger called to her from the other side of
the table.
She repeated her remark. I went over a model factory last week ...
a cocoa and chocolate works ... and I'd rather be a tramp than work in
it, she went on.
But isn't it rather wonderfully organised? Roger asked.
Oh, yes, it's marvellously arranged. There are baths and gymnasia
and continuation classes and free medical inspection and model houses
and savings banks and all the rest of it ... but I'd rather be a tramp,
I tell you.... You see, even with the best of employers, genuinely
philanthropic people eager to deal justly with the workers who make
their fortunes for them, the factory system remains a rotten one. You
can't make a decent, human thing out of it because it's fundamentally
vile!...
My dear Rachel!... Roger began, but she would not listen to
interruptions.
They look just as pale and 'peeked' in model factories as they do
in bad ones. They're cleaner, that's all. The firm sees that they wash,
but it can't prevent them from becoming ill, and they're all ill. They
don't look any better than the people in the bad factories. They look
worse, because they're cleaner and you can see their illness more
easily. But that isn't all. They have no hope of ever controlling the
firm ... they'll never be allowed to own the factory ... that will
always belong to the Family. The best that the clever ones can look
forward to is a little managership. Most of them can't look forward to
anything but being drilled and washed and medically inspected and
modelly housed and morally controlled.... Oh, it isn't worth it, it
isn't worth it. I'd rather be a dirty, insanitary tramp!
A kind of moral fury possessed her, and they sat still, listening to
her without interrupting her.
I saw three girls at a machine, she went on, and one of them did
some little thing to a chocolate box and then passed it on to the
second girl who did a further little thing to it and then passed it to
the third girl who did another little thing to it, and then it was
finished, and that was all. They do that every day, and the man who
took me round told me that the firm had to catch 'em young, otherwise
they can't acquire the knack of it. I saw girls putting pieces of
chocolate into tinfoil so quickly that you could hardly see their
movements; and they do that all day. And they have to be caught young
... before they've properly tasted life. They wouldn't do it otherwise,
I suppose. That's your factory system for you! And think of the things
they produce. Chocolate boxes full of sweets! There was one girl who
spent the whole of her working days in pasting photographs of grinning
chorus girls on to box-lids. I should go mad if I had to look at that
soppy grin all day long....
Mrs. Graham murmured gently, but her words were not audible. Rachel
would not have heard them if they had been.
Well, said Gilbert, what do you want to do about it?
I'm a reactionary, Rachel answered. I'm against all this ... this
progress. We're simply eating up people's lives, and paying meanly for
them. I'd destroy all these factories ... the whole lot. They aren't
worth the price. And I'd go back to decent piggery. What is the good of
a plate when it means that some girl has been poisoned so that it can
be bought cheaply?
But we must have plates? Henry said.
Why? she retorted.
Well! he rejoined, smiling at her as one smiles at a foolish
child.
Oh, I know, she went on, you think I'm talking wildly. I've heard
all about your Improved Toryism. Roger's told me about it. You all
think that you are the anointed ones, and that the bulk of people are
born to do what they're told. You won't have whips for your slaves ...
you'll have statutes. You won't sell them ... you'll socialise them.
Cogs in wheels, you'll make them! Oh, it isn't worth while living like
that. You don't even let a man do a whole job ... you only let him do a
part of one, and you're trying to turn him into an automaton more and
more every day. He's to press a button ... and that's all. Presently,
he'll be a button!...
My dear Rachel, Roger said, you don't imagine, do you, that the
whole world's going to turn back to ... piggery as you call it? We've
spent centuries in creating this civilisation....
Is it worth while? she demanded.
Yes....
Prove it, she insisted.
Well, of course, that's a job, isn't it? I can't prove it in a few
minutes....
You can't prove it, Roger, she interrupted. If all this
civilisation were worth while, you wouldn't need to prove it: it would
be obvious. We'd only have to look out of the door to see the proof.
I don't say that the factory system is satisfactory at present. It
isn't; but it can be improved....
No, it can't, Roger. It's unimprovable. I dare you to go to any
model factory in England and study it with an honest mind and then say
that it is worth while. It makes the people ill ... they get no
pleasure out of their work....
We could shorten the hours in factories, Henry suggested.
If you do that, you admit that the thing is rotten, and can only be
endured in short shifts! she retorted. And who wants his hours
reduced? A healthy man wants to work as long as he can stand up. I
don't want my hours reduced. I'll go on working until I drop ... but I
wouldn't work for two seconds if I didn't like the job! She turned
again to Henry. Why don't you write a book exposing the factory
system. It would be much more useful than all this lovey-dovey stuff.
I'd give the world for a book like that ... as good as Tolstoy's 'War
and Peace' or 'Dickens's 'Oliver Twist'!...
3
Mary had not spoken at all while Rachel harangued them on the
question of the factory system, but that was not surprising, for Rachel
had not given any of them a chance to say more than two or three words.
In Ninian's sitting-room, when Gilbert turned to her and asked her what
she thought of factories, she blushed a little, conscious that they had
all turned to look at her, and answered that she had never seen a
factory.
Never seen a factory! Rachel exclaimed, and was off again in
denunciation.
Henry went and sat beside Mary while Rachel told tales of sweaters
that caused Mrs. Graham to cry out with pain.
Mary! he said to her under his breath.
Yes, Quinny, she answered, turning towards him and speaking as
softly as he had spoken.
He fumbled for words. It's ... it's awfully nice to see you again,
he said.
It's nice to see you all again, she replied.
You're ... you're so different, he went on.
Am I? She paused a moment, and then, smiling at him, said, So are
you.
Am I very different? he asked.
In some ways. You're quite famous now, aren't you?
Famous? he said vaguely.
Yes. Your novels....
He laughed. Oh, dear no, not anything like famous!
Well-known, then.
Moderately well-known. That's all. But what's the point?
Well, that's the point, she replied. You were only 'Quinny'
before, but now you're the moderately well-known novelist, and I'm
afraid of you....
Don't be absurd, Mary!
But I am, Quinny. I read a review of one of your books in some
paper, and it called you a very wise person, and said you knew a great
deal about human nature or something of that sort. Well, one feels
rather awful in the presence of a person like that. At least, I do!
He felt that she was chaffing him, and he did not want to be chaffed
by her. He liked the Quinny and Mary attitude, and he wished that
she would forget that he had written wise books.
You're making fun of me, he said.
Oh, no, I'm not, she answered quickly. I'm quite serious!
He did not answer for a few moments. He could hear Rachel's
passionate voice saying, They get seven shillings a week ... in
theory. There are fines ... and he wondered why it was that she
repelled him. Her sincerity was palpable ... it was clear that she was
hurt by the miseries of factory girls ... but in spite of her
sincerity, he felt that he could not bear to be near her. If she'd
only talk of something else, he thought ... and then returned to Mary.
Do you remember that time at Boveyhayne? he said.
Which time? she asked.
The first time.
Yes.
He swallowed and then went on. Do you remember what I said to you
... on the platform at Whitcombe?
She spoke more quickly and loudly as she answered him. Oh, yes,
she said, we got engaged, didn't we? We were kids!...
Mrs. Graham caught the word engaged.
Who's engaged? she asked.
No one, mother, Mary answered. Quinny and I were talking about
the time when we were engaged!...
He felt a frightful fool. What on earth had possessed her that she
should treat the matter in this fashion?
Were you engaged, dear? Mrs. Graham said.
Oh, yes, mother. Don't you remember? Of course, we were kids
then!...
Why did she insist on the fact that they were kids then?
I remember it, Ninian interjected. Old Quinny was frightfully
sloppy over it. Oh, I say, I met Tom Arthurs to-day. He's going to
Southampton to-morrow. The Gigantic's starting on her maiden
trip, and he's going over with her. I wish to goodness I could go too!
Why don't you? Mrs. Graham said. It seemed to her too that if
Ninian wished to do anything that was sufficient reason why he should
be allowed to do it.
I can't get away, he answered. We're busier than we've ever been.
But I'm going to Southampton to see the Gigantic start. The
biggest boat in the world! My goodness! Tom's awfully excited about it.
You'd think the Gigantic was his son!...
Henry thanked heaven that at last the conversation had veered from
factories and his engagement to Mary. He tried to fasten it to the
Gigantic.
What are you so busy about that you can't go with Tom? he asked.
Oh, heaps of things! Old Hare's keen on building a Channel Tunnel,
and he's spent a good deal of time working the thing out!
Mrs. Graham had always imagined that the proposal to build a Tunnel
between France and England was a joke, and she said so.
Good heavens, mother! Ninian exclaimed. Old Hare isn't a joke.
The thing's as practicable as the Tuppenny Tube. People have been
experimenting for half-a-century with it. Joke, indeed! They've made
seven thousand soundings in forty years!...
Really! said Mrs. Graham.
And borings, too ... lots of them ... in the bed of the Channel.
They've started a Tunnel, two thousand yards of it from Dover, under
the sea, and there isn't a flaw in it. Hardly any water comes through,
although there isn't a lining to the walls ... just the bare, grey
chalk. I was awfully sick when I was told I couldn't go to Harland and
Wolff's, but I don't mind now. Building a Channel Tunnel is as big a
job as building the Gigantic any day, and Hare is as brainy as
Tom Arthurs!
He became oratorical about the Channel Tunnel, and he told them
stories of remarkable borings on both sides of the sea.
There's a big thick bed of grey chalk all the way from England to
France, he said, and the water simply can't get through it. They've
made experimental tubes from our side and from the French side, and
they let people into them, and it was all right. No mud, no water, no
foul air ... perfectly sound!
He quoted Sartiaux, the French engineer, and Sir Francis Fox, the
English engineer. They don't fool about with wildcat schemes, I can
tell you. Why, Fox built the Mersey Tunnel and the Simplon Tunnel ...
and the Channel Tunnel is as easy as that!
There were to be two tubes, each capable of carrying the ordinary
British railway, bored through a bed of cenomian chalk, two hundred
feet thick on an average.
We could have an extra tunnel for motor-cars, if necessary! said
Ninian. Just think of the difference there'd be if we had the Tunnel.
You could buzz from London to Paris in five or six hours without
changing, and you'd never get seasick!...
That would be nice, said Mrs. Graham.
And you'd be safer in the Tunnel than you'd be on the Channel.
There'd be a hundred and fifty feet of watertight chalk between you and
the sea!
They argued about the Tunnel. How long would it take to construct?
Oh, six or seven years! Ninian answered airily. What about War?
Supposing England and France went to War with each other?
We could flood a long section of the Tunnel from our side, and they
couldn't pump the water out from theirs, he answered. Of course, I
don't know much about it, but when you get chaps like Hare and Sartiaux
and Fox talking seriously about it, you listen seriously to them.
Anyhow, I do. Old Hare told me yesterday I was getting on nicely!...
Mrs. Graham was delighted. Did he, dear? she burbled at Ninian.
Yes, Ninian answered, he said I wasn't such an ass as he'd
thought I was. Oh, I'm getting on all right!
4
Henry sat back in his chair while they talked, and let his mind fill
with thoughts of Mary. She was listening to Ninian, not as if she
understood all that he was saying, but as if she were proud of him, and
while he watched her, he felt his old affection for her surging up in
his heart. He had described a young, fresh girl in Drusilla, and he
had fallen in love with his description. Now, looking at Mary, he
realised that unconsciously he had drawn her portrait. I must have
been in love with her all the time, he thought, even when I was
running after Sheila Morgan!
He looked at her so steadily that she felt his gaze, and she turned
to look at him. She smiled at him as she did so, and he smiled back at
her.
Isn't it interesting to hear about the Tunnel? she said.
Eh?... Oh, yes! Yes. Awfully interesting....
5
You know, said Roger when Mrs. Graham and Mary and Rachel had
gone, we really haven't talked enough about this factory system.
Rachel's wild about it, of course ... she's a girl ... but she's got
more sense on her side than we have on ours. It really isn't any good
ignoring it. It's too big to be overlooked. I think we ought to have a
course of talks about the whole thing. We could get people to come and
tell us all they know. Rachel's got a lot of information. We could pick
it out of her. And then there's that woman ... what's her name ... Mc
something ... who knows all about factories ... Mc Mc Mc ...
Mary McArthur, said Gilbert.
Yes. That's her name. I wonder if she'd come and dine with us. You
know, we haven't had any women. That's an oversight, isn't it? He
walked towards the door as he spoke. I'm going to bed now, he said.
I've got a county court case in the morning at Croydon, and I shall
have to get up early. Good-night!
Good-night, Roger! they murmured sleepily.
Oh, by the way, he added, Rachel and I are engaged. I thought I'd
tell you!
He shut the door behind him.
6
They sat up, gaping at the closed door.
What'd he say? said Ninian.
He says he's engaged to that blooming orator! Gilbert answered.
But, damn it, why? said Ninian.
And we've got the lease of this house for another two years! Henry
exclaimed. I suppose he'll want to get married and ... all that!
They were silent for a while, contemplating this strange disruption
of their affairs.
Of course, people do get engaged! said Ninian, and then he
relapsed into silence.
I've been in love myself, Gilbert said, but ... this is
excessive. We ought to do something. Can't we get up a memorial or
something?...
Ninian sat upright, pointing a finger at them. You know, chaps, he
exclaimed, Roger's ashamed of himself. He didn't tell us 'til he'd got
to the door, and then he damn well hooked it!
He's been trapped, Gilbert said. Females are always trapping
chaps!...
We ought to save him from himself! Ninian stood up as he spoke.
But supposing he doesn't want to be saved? Henry asked.
We'll save him all the same, Ninian answered.
Let's go on a deputation to him, Gilbert suggested. We will put
it reasonably to him. Well tell him that he mustn't do this thing....
Oh, Lord, coves, it's no good. This house is doomed. A female has done
it!
If it had been you, Gilbert, or Quinny, said Ninian, I'd have
thought it was natural. You're that sort! But old Roger ... well,
there's no doubt about it, God moves in a mysterious way, His wonders
to perform. Let's go to bed. I'm fed-up with everything!
7
Henry switched off the light and got into bed. He shut his eyes and
tried to sleep, but sleep would not come to him. He lay blinking at the
ceiling for a while, and then he got up and went into his sitting-room
and got out his manuscript and began to write. He wrote steadily for
half-an-hour, and then he put down his pen and read over what he had
written.
No, he said, crumpling the paper and throwing it into the
wastepaper basket, that won't do!
He walked about the room for a few minutes, and then he went back to
bed, and lay there with his hands clasped about his head.
I don't see why I shouldn't get married myself, he said, and then
he went to sleep.
THE SEVENTH CHAPTER
1
In the morning, Ninian and Roger rose early, for Ninian was going to
Southampton to see the Gigantic start on her maiden voyage to
America, and Roger had a case at a county court outside London. In a
vague way, Ninian had intended to talk to Roger about his engagement,
to reason with him, as he put it. Gilbert had pointed out that the
chief employment of women is to disrupt the friendships of men. Men,
he had said to Ninian and Henry after Roger had gone to bed, take
years to make up a friendship, and then a female comes along and busts
it up in a couple of weeks! Ninian did not intend to let Miss Rachel
Wynne break up their friendship, and he planned a long,
comprehensive and settling conversation with Roger on the subject of
females generally and of Rachel Wynne particularly. In bed, he had
invented an extraordinarily convincing argument, before which Roger
must collapse, but by the time he had finished shaving, the argument
had vanished from his mind, and his convincing speech shrivelled into a
halting, I say, Roger, old chap, it's a bit thick, you know! and even
that ceased to exist when he saw Roger, with the Times propped
against the sugar bowl, eating bacon and eggs as easily as if he had
never betrothed himself to any woman.
Hilloa, Roger! said Ninian, sitting down at the table, and
reaching for the toast.
Hilloa, Ninian! Roger murmured, without looking up.
Magnolia entered with Ninian's breakfast and placed it before him.
Anything in the Times? Ninian said, pouring out coffee.
Usual stuff. The bacon's salt!...
The time, Ninian thought, was hardly suitable for a few
home-thrusting words on the subject of marriage, so he reminded Roger
that he was going to Southampton.
Tom Arthurs has promised to show me over as much of the Gigantic
as we can manage in a couple of hours. That won't be as much as I'd
like to see, but I'll try and go over her when she comes back from New
York. Any mustard about?
You'll be back again to-night, I suppose?
Probably. You're right ... this bacon is salt, damn it!
Roger rose from the table and moved to the window where he stood for
a while looking out on the garden. It seemed to Ninian that in a moment
or two he would speak of his engagement, and so he sat still, waiting
for him to begin.
Well, said Roger, turning away from the window and feeling for his
watch, I must be off. So long, Ninian!
He went out of the room quickly and in a little while, Ninian heard
the street door banging behind him.
Damn, he said to himself, I've just remembered what I was going
to say to him!
He had finished his breakfast and left the house before Gilbert and
Henry came down from their rooms. Henry was too tired to talk much, and
Gilbert, finding him uncommunicative, made no effort to make
conversation. He picked up the Times and contented himself with
the morning's news, while Henry read a letter from John Marsh which had
come by the first post.
I'm interested in your Improved Tories, he wrote, I
think the scheme is excellent. You sharpen your wits on other people's,
and you keep in touch with all kinds of opinions. That's excellent!
Your father, and you, too, used to say we were rather one-eyed in
Dublin, and I think there's a good deal of truth in that, so I'm trying
to get a group of people in Dublin to form a society somewhat similar
to your Improved Tories. Did you ever meet a man called Arthur
Griffiths when you were here? He is a very able, but not very sociable,
man, and so people do not know him as well as they ought to ... and his
tongue is like a flail ... so that most of the people who do know him,
don't like him. The Nationalist M. P.'s detest him. Well, several years
ago he founded a society which he called the Sinn Fein Movement, and
the principle of the thing is excellent up to a point. Do you remember
any of your Gaelic? Sinn Fein means 'we ourselves,' and that is the
principle of the society. The object is to induce Irishmen to do for
themselves, things that are done for them by Englishmen. It ought to
appeal to your father. Griffiths got the idea, I think, from Hungary.
We're to withdraw our representatives from the English parliament and
start an Irish Government on the basis of a Grand Council of the County
Councils. We're to have our own consular service, our own National Bank
and Stock Exchange and Civil Service, and a mercantile marine so that
we can trade direct with other countries. And we're to nationalise the
railways and canals and bogs (which are to be reclaimed) and take over
insurance and education and so forth. All this is to be done by the
General Council of the County Councils in opposition to anything of the
sort that is done by the English Government in preparation for the day
when there is an Irish Government when, of course, the General Council
will be merged in the Government. Oh, and we're to have Protection,
too! It seems rather a lot, doesn't it? but the idea is excellent and,
if modified considerably, fairly practical. Griffiths has antiquated
notions of economics, however, and some of the things he says prevent
me from joining him. His great idea is to attract capital to Ireland by
telling capitalists how cheap Irish labour is. That seems to me to be
an abominable proposal, likely to lead to something worse than Wigan
and all those miserable English towns your father dislikes so heartily.
And probably, of all his proposals, it is the most likely to succeed.
That's why I'm opposed to him at present. I cannot bear the thought of
seeing England duplicated in Ireland. But the scheme has merit, and
Galway and I are plotting to capture the movement from Griffiths. We
think that if we could graft the Sinn Fein on to the Gaelic League,
we'd be on the way to establishing Irish independence. Our people are
becoming very materialistic, and we must quicken their spirits again
somehow. Douglas Hyde is the trouble, of course. He wants to keep the
Gaelic League clear of politics. As if you can possibly keep politics
out of anything in Ireland! We want to make every Gaelic Leaguer a
conscious rebel against English beliefs and English habits. I wish
you'd come over and join us. It'll be very hard, but exhilarating,
work. You've no notion of how sordid and money-grubbing and English the
mass of our people are becoming. It's a man's job to destroy that
spirit and revive the old, careless, generous, God-loving Irish one....
Still harping on that old nationality, Henry thought to himself,
when he had finished reading the letter.
He was in no mood for thoughts on Ireland. His mind was still full
of the idea that had come into his head the previous night. Why
should he not get married? The idea attracted and repelled him. It
would, he thought, be very pleasant to live with ... with Mary, say ...
to love her and be loved by her ... very pleasant ... but one would
have to accept responsibilities, and there would probably be children.
He would dislike having to leave Ninian and Roger and Gilbert,
particularly Gilbert, and his share in the meetings of the Improved
Tories would begin to dwindle. On the other hand, there would be Mary
... If he were to lose his friends and the careless, cultured life they
led in the Bloomsbury house, he would gain Mary, and perhaps she would
more than compensate for them....
Gilbert interrupted his thoughts.
Rum go, this about Roger, isn't it? he said.
Henry nodded his head. I hadn't any idea of it, he replied. I'd
never even heard of her until he said she was coming to dinner!
I had, Gilbert said, but I didn't think he was going to let the
life force catch hold of him. Close chap, Roger! He never gives himself
away ... and that's the sort that's most romantic. You and I are
obviously sloppy, Quinny, but somehow we miss all the messes that
reticent, close chaps like Roger fall into. You don't much like her, do
you?
Well, I'm not what you might call smitten by her, but that's
because she seems to think I'm wasting time in writing novels. She's
too strenuous for me. I like women who relax sometimes. She'll orate to
him every night, just as she orated to us, about people's wrongs....
Mind, she's clever! said Gilbert.
Oh, I don't deny that. That's part of my case against her. Really
and truly, Gilbert, do you like clever women?
Really and truly, Quinny, I don't. Perhaps that's not the way to
put it. I like talking to clever women, but I shouldn't like to marry
one of them. I'm clever myself, and perhaps that's why. There isn't
room for more than one clever person in a family, and I think a clever
man should marry an intelligently stupid woman, and vice versa. You can
argue with clever women, but you can't kiss them or flirt with them.
All the clever ones I've ever known have had something hard in them ...
like a lump of steel. Men aren't like that! They can be hard, of
course, but they aren't always exhibiting their hardness. Clever women
are.
Henry tossed Marsh's letter across the table to Gilbert.
Read that, he said, while I look through the Times!
They both rose from the table, and sat for a while in the armchairs
on either side of the fireplace.
You know, Quinny, said Gilbert, as he took Marsh's letter out of
its envelope, I often think we're awfully young, all of us!
Young?
Yes. Immature ... and all that. We're frightfully clever, of
course, but really we don't know much, and yet you're writing books and
I'm writing plays and Ninian's building Tunnels and Roger's playing
ducks and drakes with the law ... and not one of us is thirty yet.
Lord, I wish Roger hadn't got engaged. That sort of thing makes a man
think!
He read Marsh's letter and then passed it back to Henry.
Seems all right, he said. It's a pity those Irish fellows haven't
got a wider outlook. Sitting there fussing over their mouldy island
when there's the whole world to fuss over! I must be off soon. There's
a rehearsal of my play this morning....
I say, Gilbert, Henry interrupted, do you think I ought to go and
join this Irish Renascence business?
How can I tell? It probably won't amount to much. I should take an
intelligent interest in it, if I were you. Perhaps you can induce Marsh
to come over and talk to the Improved Tories about it. What are you
doing this morning?
Oh, working!
Well, so long!
So long, Gilbert. You'll be back to lunch, I suppose?
I don't think so. The rehearsals are very long now. You see, the
play's to be done on Wednesday....
2
When Gilbert had gone, Henry, having glanced through the Times, went up to his room and began to write, but he did not continue at his
manuscript for very long. The words would not roll lightly off his pen:
they fell off and lay inertly about the paper. He was accustomed now to
periods during which his mind seemed to have lost its power to operate,
and he was not alarmed by them. He knew that it was useless to attempt
to do any work that morning, so he left his room and, telling Mrs.
Clutters that he would not return to lunch, went out of the house and
wandered about the streets for a while without any purpose. It was not
until he saw the sign on a passing motor-'bus that he decided on what
he should do. Hyde Park Corner was on the sign, and he called to the
conductor and presently mounted to the roof of the 'bus and was driven
towards the Park.
I wonder, he thought to himself, whether I shall see Lady Cecily
to-day!
Lady Cecily had curiously disappeared from their lives. Gilbert,
absorbed in the production of his play, had not spoken of her again,
nor had he made any mention of his proposal to leave London and go to
Anglesey. He had resigned from the staff of the Daily Echo, and,
since he no longer attended first-nights at the theatre, he had not
seen Lady Cecily since the night on which The Ideal Husband was
revived. Henry had said to himself on several occasions that he would
go and see Lady Cecily, but he had not done so. He did not care to go
alone, and he cared less to ask Gilbert to go with him ... but to-day,
as suddenly as she had quitted his thoughts, Lady Cecily came into them
again, and, as he sat on top of the omnibus, he hoped that he would see
her in the Park. If not, he said to himself, I'll call on her this
afternoon!
He descended from the 'bus at Hyde Park Corner and hastily entered
the Park. He crossed to the Achilles monument and debated with himself
as to whether he should sit down or walk about, and decided to sit
down. If Lady Cecily were in the Park, he told himself, she would pass
his chair some time during the morning. He chose a seat near the
railings and sat down and waited. There was a continual flow of
carriages and cars, but none of them contained Lady Cecily, and when he
had been sitting for almost an hour, he told himself that he was not
likely to see her that morning. He rose, as he said this to himself,
and turned to walk across the grass towards Rotten Bow, and as he
turned, he saw Jimphy. He was not anxious to meet Jimphy again, and he
pretended not to see him, but Jimphy came up to him, smiling affably,
and said Hilloa, Quinn, old chap! so he had to be as amiable as he
could in response to the greeting.
Jimphy wanted to know why it was that he and Henry had not met again
since the night that Cecily let a chap in for a damn play, and
reminded him of their engagement to visit the Empire together.
Anyhow, he said, you can come and lunch with us. Cecily'll be glad
to see you. I said I'd come home to lunch if I could find some one
worth bringing with me, so that's all right!
How is Lady Cecily? Henry asked, as he and Jimphy left the Park
together.
Oh, I expect she's all right, Jimphy answered. I forgot to ask
this morning, but if she'd been seedy or anything she'd have told me
about it, so I suppose she's all right!
When's this play of Farlow's coming on? Jimphy asked on the
doorstep of his house.
Wednesday, Henry answered.
Cecily's made me promise to go and see it with her. What sort of a
piece is it?
They entered the house as he spoke.
It's excellent....
Is it comic?
Well, I suppose it is. He calls it a comedy, Henry said.
So long as there's a laugh in it, I don't mind going to see it. I
can't stand these weepy bits. 'Hamlet' and that sort of stuff. Enough
to give a chap the pip! Oh, here's Cecily!
Henry turned to look up the stairs down which Lady Cecily was
coming, and then he went forward to greet her.
How nice of you, she said. Has Gilbert come, too?
No, he answered, chilled by her question. He has a rehearsal this
morning!
Oh, yes, of course, she said. His play! I forgot. We're going to
see it on Wednesday. I hope it's good!
It's very good, Henry replied.
3
Jimphy left them after lunch. He was awfully sorry, old chap, to
have to tear himself away and all that, but the fact was he had an
appointment ... an important appointment ... and of course a chap had
to keep an important appointment....
We'll forgive you, Jimphy! Lady Cecily said, and then he went
away, begging Henry to remember that they must go to the Empire
together one night.
Well? said Lady Cecily when her husband had gone, how are you all
getting on?
She was reclining on a couch, with her feet resting on a cushion,
and as she asked her question she pointed to another cushion lying on a
chair. He fetched it and put it behind her back.
Splendidly, he answered. Is that right?
She settled herself more comfortably. Yes, thanks, she said. I
read your novel, she went on.
Did you like it?
Oh, yes. Of course, I liked it. I suppose you're writing another
book now! He nodded his head, and she went on. I wish I could write
books, but of course I can't. Mr. Lensley says I live books. Isn't that
nice of him? Do you put real people in your books, or do you make them
all up? Do you know, I think I'll have another cigarette!
He passed the box of cigarettes to her and held it while she made up
her mind whether she would smoke an Egyptian or a Turkish. Her delicate
fingers moved indecisively from the one brand to the other. You like
Turkish, don't you? he said, wishing that he could take her slender
hand in his and hold it forever.
Choose one for me, she said, capriciously, lying back and clasping
her hands about her head.
He took a cigarette from the box and offered it to her, but she did
not hold out her hand to take it, and he understood that he was to
place it between her lips. His fingers trembled as he did so, and he
turned hurriedly to find the matches.
Behind you, she said, and he turned and picked them up.
He lit a match and held it to her cigarette, and while he held it,
her fingers touched his. She had taken hold of the cigarette to remove
it from her lips.... He blew out the light and threw the match into the
ash-tray, and then went and sat down in the deep chair in which he had
been sitting when she asked him to get the cushion for her.
Why didn't you call before? she said, lazily blowing the smoke up
into the air.
It was difficult to say why he had not called before, so he answered
vaguely. There had been so much to do of late....
And Gilbert? He doesn't rehearse all day long, does he?
No, not all day, but he's pretty tired by the time he gets home.
Why didn't he come to the Savoy that night? she asked.
He wished she would not talk about Gilbert. He could not tell her
the real reason why Gilbert had not kept his promise to join the
supper-party and he was a poor hand at inventing convincing lies.
There was some trouble at his office, I think, he said, and he
couldn't get away until too late!...
He didn't write or come to see me! she protested.
It was probable that Gilbert forgot his duty in the excitement of
hearing that his play was to be produced....
I suppose so, she said.
She talked to him about his books and about Ireland. She had been to
Dublin once and had gone to the Viceregal Lodge ... Lady Dundrum had
taken her to some function there ... and she was eager for the
tittle-tattle of the Court. Was it true that Lord Kelpie was
indifferent to his lady?... Henry knew very little of the Dublin
gossip. I haven't been there since I left Trinity, he said, in
explanation, and the only people who write to me don't take any
interest in Court functions!
He rose to go, but she asked him to stay to tea with her, and so he
remained.
I don't suppose any one will call, she said, but in case ...
She told a servant that she was not at home to any one, and Henry,
wondering why she had done so, felt vaguely flattered and as vaguely
nervous. Her beauty filled him with desire and apprehension and left
him half eager, half afraid to be alone with her. He understood
Gilbert's fear that if he yielded to Cecily, she would destroy him.
There was something in this woman that overpowered the senses, that
made a man as will-less as a log, and left him in the end, spent,
exhausted, incapable. He saw the danger that had frightened Gilbert,
but he could not make up his mind to run away from it. There was
something so exquisitely sensual in her look as she lay on the couch,
looking at him and chattering in the Lensley style, that he felt
inclined to yield himself to her, even if in yielding he should lose
everything.
Of course, he said to himself, this is all imagination. She
doesn't want me at all ... she wants Gilbert!
She asked for another cigarette, and he took one and placed it in
her lips and lit it for her, and again his fingers touched hers, and
again he trembled with unaccountable emotion. As he bent over her,
holding the match to the cigarette, he felt the blood rushing to his
head and for a moment or two his eyes were blurred and he could not see
clearly. Then his eyes cleared and he saw that she was looking steadily
at him, and he knew that she understood what was passing in his mind.
He dropped the match on to the ash-tray and bent a little nearer to
her. He would take her in his arms, he said to himself, and hold her
tightly to him....
Won't you sit down, she said, pointing to his chair.
He straightened himself, but did not move away. His eyes were still
intent on hers, as if he could not avoid her gaze, and for a while
neither of them spoke or moved. Then she smiled at him.
You're a funny boy, she said. Won't you sit down! and again she
pointed to the chair.
His answer was so low that he could hardly hear himself speak, and
at first he thought she had not heard him. I'd better go, he said.
Not yet, she answered. You needn't go yet!
I'd better....
She put out her hand and made him sit down.
There's no hurry, she said.
He leant back in his chair, resting his elbows on the arms of it and
folding his fingers under his chin.
You look frightened, she said.
I am, he answered.
Of me? He nodded his head, and she laughed. How absurd! she
said. I'm not a bit terrifying....
He was not trembling now. He felt quite calm, as if he had resigned
himself to what must be.
No, I ... I know you're not, he said, only ...
Only what?
I don't know!
She put her cigarette down and turned slightly towards him.
Funny boy! she said. Funny Irish boy!
He smiled foolishly at her, but did not answer. He knew that if he
spoke at all, he would say wild things that could not be withdrawn or
explained away.
Funny scared Irish boy! she said, and he could see the mockery in
her eyes. Such a frightened Irish boy!...
He could hold out no longer. She had put her hand out towards him
... why he could not tell ... and impulsively he seized it and clasped
it tightly in his. His grasp must have hurt her, for she cried a little
and tried to withdraw her hand, but he would not let go his hold of it
until, kneeling beside her, he had put his arms about her and kissed
her.
I love you, he said. You know I love you....
Don't!
I loved you the minute I set eyes on you, and I wanted to meet you
again ... and then I was jealous of Gilbert because you took so much
notice of him and so little of me, and ... I love you, I love you!
She thrust him from her. You're hurting me, she said, and she
panted as she spoke.
I want to hurt you, he answered.
But you mustn't....
He did not let her finish her sentence. He pressed his lips hard on
hers until his strength seemed to pass away from him. He felt in some
strange way that her eyes were closed and that she was moaning....
He put his arms about her again, and drew her head gently on to his
breast. My dear, he said softly, bending over her and kissing her
hair.
She lay very still in his arms, so still that he thought she had
fallen asleep. Her long lashes trembled a little, and then she opened
her eyes, sighing contentedly as she did so. He smiled down at her, and
she smiled in response. Then she put her hand up and stroked his cheek
and ruffled his hair.
Funny Irish boy! she said again.
4
He climbed on to a 'bus which bore him eastwards. It was impossible,
in his state of exaltation, to go home and eat in the company of the
others. Ninian would probably be back from Southampton, unbalanced with
admiration for Tom Arthurs and the Gigantic, and then Gilbert
would tell him how Sir Geoffrey Mundane had behaved during the
rehearsal and how exasperating Mrs. Michael Gordon, the leading lady,
had been. She's brilliant, of course, he had said about her once,
but if I were her husband I'd beat her! He could not endure the
thought of spending the evening in the customary company of his
friends. They would want to talk, they would draw him into the
conversation, and he neither wished to talk nor to listen. His desire
was only to remember, to go over again in his mind that long,
passionate afternoon with Cecily.... So he had telephoned to Mrs.
Clutters telling her that he would not be in to dinner, and then,
climbing on to a 'bus, had allowed himself to be carried eastwards, not
knowing or caring whither he was being carried.
He paid no heed to the other passengers on the 'bus, nor did he
interest himself in the traffic of the streets. When the conductor
came, demanding fares, he asked for a ticket to the terminus, but did
not bother to ask where the terminus was. His mind was full of golden
hair and warm, moist lips and soft, disturbing perfume and the touch of
a shapely hand. Cecily had insisted on calling him Paddy because he
was Irish and because so many Englishmen are called Henry, and when
he had left her, she had offered her lips to him and, when he had
kissed her, had told him she would see him again soon. When Gilbert's
play is done, she said, and added, Tell Gilbert I shall expect him to
come and talk to me after the first act!
He had been jealous when she said that. You don't really care for
me, he had said. You really love Gilbert!
Of course I love Gilbert, she had answered, laughing at him and
patting his cheek, but I love you, too. I love lots of people! ...
Then, ashamed of himself, he had left her. It was caddish of him to
speak of Gilbert to her, for Gilbert was his friend and her lover. If
one were to try and take a friend's mistress from him, one should at
least be silent about it. But how could he help these outbursts of
jealousy! He cared for Gilbert far more than he cared for any man ...
but he could not prevent himself from raging at the thought that
Gilbert had but to hold out his arms and Cecily would run to be clasped
in them. I'm a makeshift, he said to himself. That's all!
But even if he were only a makeshift, that was better than being
shut away from her love altogether. I daresay, he thought, she's as
fond of me as she is of any one! and he wondered whether she really
loved Gilbert. It was difficult for him to believe that she could yield
so easily to him and love Gilbert deeply, and he soothed his conscience
by telling himself that Cecily was one of those women who are in love
with love, ready to accept kisses from any ardent youth who offers them
to her. He remembered his contribution to the discussion on women and
the way in which he had insisted on infinite variety of experiences.
Cecily was, as a woman, what he had wished to be as a man. We had to
recognise the differences of nature, he had said, but somehow he did
not greatly care to see his principle put into practice by Cecily.
There was something very fine and dashing and Byronic and adventurous
in a man with a spacious spirit, but after all, women were women, and
one did not like to think of adventuring women. He wanted to have
Cecily to himself ... he did not wish to share her with Gilbert or with
Jimphy or with any one, and it hardly seemed decent that Cecily should
wish to spread her affections over three men. And there may be others,
too! All this talk about sex-equality had an equitable sound ... his
intellect agreed that if men were to have amorous adventures, then
women should have them too; if men were to be unfaithful without
reproach, then women should be equally without reproach in their
infidelity ... but his instinct cried out against it. He wanted his
woman to himself even though he might not keep himself for her alone.
And that's the beginning and the end of the sex-question, he said.
We simply aren't willing to let women live on our level. In theory,
the man who goes to a prostitute is as bad as she is, but in practice,
we don't believe it, and women don't believe it either, and nothing
will ever make us believe it. And it's the same with lovers and
mistresses. It simply doesn't seem decent to a man who keeps a mistress
that his wife should have a lover. You can't help having instincts!...
5
The 'bus drove over London Bridge and presently he found himself in
the railway station. It was too early yet to eat, and he made up his
mind to go for a walk through Southwark. None of them had ever been in
the slums. They had set their minds against suggestions that they
should live in Walworth or Whitechapel or Bethnal Green in order that
they might get to know something of the lives of the very poor. That's
simply slush, Gilbert had said. We shouldn't live like them. We'd
have four good meals every day and baths every morning, and we'd only
feel virtuous and 'smarmy' and do-good-to-the-poor-y. My object is to
get rid of slums, not to go and live in the damn things and encourage
slum-owners by paying rent regularly. All those Settlement people ...
really, they're doing the heroic stunt for their own ends. They'll go
into parliament and say they have intimate knowledge of the way in
which the poor live because they've lived with them ... and it's all my
eye, that stuff!
The notion had made a faint appeal to Henry, but he had not
responded to it because of the way in which the others had sneered at
it and because he liked pleasant surroundings. Once, in Dublin, he had
wandered out of St. Stephens's Green and found himself in the Combe,
and the sights he had witnessed there had sickened him so that he had
hurried away, and always thereafter had been careful not to enter side
streets with which he was not familiar. Now, he felt that he ought to
see a London slum. One had to have a point of view about poor people,
and it was difficult to have a point of view about people of whom one
was almost totally ignorant.
He walked slowly up the Borough High Street, uncertain of himself
and of the district. He would want something to eat presently, and if
he were to venture too far into the slums that lay hidden behind St.
George's Church and the Elephant, he might have difficulty in finding a
place where he could take a meal in comfort. He stood for a few moments
outside the window of a shop in which sausages and steaks and onions
were being fried. There was a thick, hot, steamy odour coming from the
door that filled him with nausea, and he turned to move away, but as he
did so, he saw two sickly boys, half naked, standing against the window
with their mouths pressed close to the glass. They were eyeing the
cooking food so hungrily that he felt pity for them, and he touched one
of them on the shoulder and asked him if he would like something to
eat. The boy looked at him, but did not answer, and his companion came
shuffling to his side and eyed him too.
Wouldn't you like some of that ... that stuff! Henry said,
pointing to a great slab of thick pudding, padded with currants.
One of the boys nodded his head, and Henry moved towards the door of
the shop, bidding them both to follow him.
Give these youngsters some of that pudding! he said to the man
behind the counter: a fat, flaccid man with a wet, steamy brow which he
periodically wiped with a grimy towel.
'Ere! said the man, cutting off large pieces of the pudding and
passing it across the counter to the boys who took it, without
speaking, and began to gnaw at it immediately.
Wod you say for it, eih? the man demanded.
They mumbled unintelligibly, their mouths choked with the food.
Pore little kids, they don't know no better! Nah, then, 'op it, you
two! That'll be fourpence, sir!
Henry paid for the pudding and left the malodorous shop. The
children were standing in the shadow outside, one of them eating
wolfishly, while the other held the pudding in front of him, gaping at
it....
Don't you like it? Henry said, bending down to him.
'E can't eat it, guv'nor! the other boy said.
Can't eat it?
No, guv'nor, 'e can't. I'll 'ave to eat it for 'im....
But why can't you eat? Henry asked, turning to the boy who still
gaped helplessly at the pudding.
The child did not answer. He stared at the pudding, and then he
stared at Henry, and as he did so, the pudding fell from his hands, and
he became sick....
'Ere, wod you chuckin' it awy for? the other boy said, dropping
quickly to the ground and picking up the pudding.
He's ill, Henry said helplessly.
'E's always ill, the boy answered, stuffing pieces of the
recovered pudding into his mouth.
A policeman was standing at the corner, and Henry went to him and
told him of the child's plight.
Sick is 'e? the constable exclaimed.
Yes, Henry answered. He looked hungry, poor little chap, and so I
bought him some of the pudding they sell in that shop!
The policeman looked at him for a few moments. Well, of course, you
meant it kindly, sir! he said, but if I was you I wouldn't do that
again. If you'll excuse me sayin' it, sir, it was a damn silly thing to
do!
Why?
Why! 'Alf the kids about 'ere is too 'ungry to eat. That kid ought
to be in the 'ospital by rights. Don't never give 'em no puddin' or
stuff like that, sir. Their stomachs can't stand it. Nah, then, he
said to the sick child, you 'op 'ome, young 'un. You didn't ought to
be 'angin' about 'ere, you know, upsettin' the traffic an' mykin' a
mess on the pyvement. Gow on! Git aht of it!
The boys ran off, leaving Henry staring blankly after them. 'E'll
be all right, sir! said the policeman. It's no good tryin' to do
nothink for 'em. They're down, guv'nor, an' that's all about it. I seen
a lot of yooman nature down about 'ere, an' you can tyke it from me,
them kids is down an' they'll stay down, an' that's all you can say
about it. Good-night, sir!
Good-night! said Henry.
He moved away, feeling sick and miserable and angry.
It's beastly, he said to himself. That's what it is. Beastly!
6
His mind was occupied by violent thoughts about the two children
whom he had fed with currant pudding, and he did not observe what he
was doing or where he was going. He was in a wide, dark street where
there were tram-lines, but he could not remember seeing a tramcar pass
by. He was tired and although he was not hungry, he was conscious of a
missed meal, and he was thirsty. I'd better turn back, he said to
himself, turning as he did so. He wondered where he was, and he
resolved that he would ask the first policeman he met to tell him in
what part of London he now was and what was the quickest way to get out
of it.
It was silly of me to come here at all, he murmured, and then he
turned quickly and stared across the street.
A woman had screamed somewhere near by ... on the other side of the
street, he thought ... and as he looked, he saw figures struggling, and
then they parted and one of them, a woman, ran away towards a lamppost,
holding her hands before her in an appealing fashion, and crying, Oh,
don't! Don't hit me!... The other figure was that of a man, and as the
woman shrank from him, the man advanced towards her with his fist
uplifted....
Henry could feel himself shrinking back into the shadow.
He's going to hit her, he was saying to himself, and he closed his
eyes, afraid lest he should see the man's fist smashing into the
woman's face. He could hear a foul oath uttered by the man and the
woman's scream as she retreated still further from him ... and then,
trembling with fright, he ran across the street and thrust himself
between them. Oh, my God, what am I doing? he moaned to himself as he
stood in the glare of the yellow light that fell from the street lamp.
He felt rather than saw that the woman had risen from the ground and
run away the moment the man's attention was distracted from her, and a
shudder of fear ran through him as he realised that he was alone. He
could see the man's brutal face and his blazing, drink-inflamed eyes,
and in the middle of his fear, he thought how ugly the man's eyebrows
were ... one long, black line from eye to eye across the top of his
nose. The man, his fist clenched and raised, advanced towards him.
He's going to hit me now, Henry thought. He'll knock me down and ...
and kick me!... These people always kick you!...
He stood still waiting for the blow, mesmerised by the man's blazing
eyes; but the man, though his fist was still clenched, did not strike
him. He reeled up to him so closely that Henry was sickened by the
smell of his drink-sodden breath. Fight for a woman, would you? he
shouted at him. Eih? P'tect a woman, would you?...
Henry wanted to laugh. The man was repeating phrases from
melodramas!...
Tyke a woman's part, eih? I know you, you bloody toff! You ... you
think you're a bloody 'ero, eih, p'tectin' a woman from 'er 'usband!
He pushed Henry aside, almost falling on the pavement as he did so.
I've a goo' mind to break your bloody neck for you, see, bloody toff,
interferin' ... 'usband an' wife. See? Thash what I'll do!...
He came again at Henry, but still he did not strike. He mumbled his
melodramatic phrases, swaying in front of Henry, and threatening to
break his neck and punch his jaw and give him a thick ear, but he did
no more than that, and while he threatened, a crowd gathered out of the
shadows, and a woman, with bare arms, touched Henry's arm and drew him
away from the drunken man. You 'op it, mister, she said, or you'll
get 'urt! She pushed him out of the crowd, slapping a lad in the face
who had jostled him and said, Gawblimey, look at Percy! and when she
had got him away from them, she told him again to 'op it.
Thank you!... he began.
Don't you wyste no time, mister, but 'op it quick, she
interrupted, giving him a push forward.
But I don't know where I am, he replied.
Dunno w'ere you are!... Well, of course, you look like that! You're
in Bermondsey, mister, an' if you tyke my advice you'll go 'ome an' sty
'ome. People like you didden ought to be let out alone! You go 'ome to
your mother, sir! The first turnin' on the right'll bring you to the
trams....
He did as she told him, hurrying away from the dark street as
quickly as he could. He was trembling. Every nerve in his body seemed
to be strained, and his eyes had the tired feel they always had when he
was deeply agitated.
My God, he said, what an ass I was to do that!
7
Gilbert and Roger were sitting together when he got home.
Hilloa, Quinny! Gilbert exclaimed as he looked at Henry's white
face. What have you been up to?
He told them of his adventure in Bermondsey.
You do do some damn funny things, Quinny! said Gilbert, going to
the sideboard and getting out the whisky. Here, have a drop of this
stuff. You look completely pipped!
I don't think I should make a habit of knight-errantry, if I were
you, said Roger. Not in slums at all events!
Has Ninian come back yet? Henry asked, sipping the whisky.
He's gone to bed. The Gigantic got off all right, but there
was trouble at the start. She fouled a cruiser or something. Ninian's
full of it. He'll tell you the whole rigmarole in the morning. You'd
better trot off to bed when you've drunk that, and for God's sake,
Quinny, don't try to be heroic again. You're not cut out for that sort
of job!...
THE EIGHTH CHAPTER
1
Mrs. Graham and Mary and Rachel Wynne dined with them on the first
night of The Magic Casement. Rachel, fresh from a Care Committee,
composed mostly of members of the Charity Organisation Society and the
wives of prosperous tradesmen, was inclined to tell the world what she
thought of it, but they diverted her mind from the iniquities of the
Care Committee by congratulating her on her engagement to Roger. She
blushed and gave her thanks in stammers, looking with bright, proud
eyes at Roger; and when they saw how human she was, they forgot her
hard efficiency and her sociological angers, and liked her. Gilbert
urged her to tell them tales of the C.O.S. and the Care Committee, and
rejoiced loudly when she described how she had discomfited a large,
granitic woman ... the Mayor's wife ... who had committed a flagrant
breach of the law in her anxiety to penalise some unfortunate children
whose father was an agitator. If I were poor, Rachel said, I'd hit a
C.O.S. person on sight! I'd hit it simply because it was a C.O.S.
person! That would be evidence against it! She enjoyed calling a
C.O.S. person, it, and Henry felt that perhaps some of the difficulty
with the Mayor's wife was due to the pleasure that Rachel took in
rubbing her up the wrong way. He suggested that tactful treatment....
You can't be tactful with that kind of person, she asserted
instantly. You can only be angry. You see, they love to badger poor
people. It's sheer delight to them to ask impertinent questions.
There's a big streak of Torquemada in them. They'd have been
Inquisitors if they'd been born in Spain when there were Inquisitors!
She paused for a second or two, and then went on rapidly. I never
thought of that before. Why, of course, that's what they are. They've
been reincarnated ... you know, transmigration of souls ... and that
fat woman, Mrs. Smeale.... Mrs. Smeale was the Mayor's wife ... was
an Inquisitor before she was ... was dug up again. I can see her
beastly big face in a cowl, and hot pincers in her hands, plucking poor
Protestants' flesh off their bones ... and she's doing that now, using
all the rotten rules and regulations as hot pincers to pluck the spirit
out of the poor! Of course, she does it all for the best! So did the
Inquisitors! She doesn't want to undermine the moral character of the
poor, and they didn't want to let the poor heretic imperil his soul....
I'd like to inquisit her!...
There isn't a word 'inquisit,' Rachel! said Roger.
Well, there ought to be, she answered.
Henry pictured her, in her committee room, surrounded by hard women,
opposing herself to them, fighting for people who were not of her class
against people who were, and it seemed to him that Rachel was very
valiant, even if she were tactless, much more valiant than he could be.
Rachel belonged to the fearless, ungracious, blunt people who are not
to be deterred from their purpose by ostracism or abuse, and Henry
realised that such courage as hers must inevitably be accompanied by
aggressiveness, a harsh insistence on one's point of view, and worst of
all, a surrender of social charm and ease and the kindly regard of
one's friends. I couldn't do that, he thought to himself. It was easy
enough to sneer at such people, to call them cranks, but indisputably
they had the heroic spirit, the will to endure obloquy for their
opinions. I suppose, he reflected, the reason why one feels so angry
with such people is partly that nine times out of ten they're in the
right, and partly that ten times out of ten they've got the pluck we
haven't got! And he remembered that Witterton, a journalist whom he
had met at the office of the Morning Record, had climbed on to
the plinth in Trafalgar Square during the Boer War and made a speech in
denunciation of Chamberlain and the Rand lords, and had been badly
mauled by the mob. By God, that's courage! he murmured. That was the
sort of person Rachel was. He could see her opposing herself to mobs,
but he could not see himself doing so. Probably, he thought, he would
be on the fringe of the crowd, mildly deprecating violence and
tactlessness....
He came out of his ruminations to hear Mrs. Graham telling Rachel
how pleased she was to hear that Roger and she were engaged. My dear,
she said, I'm very glad! and then she kissed Rachel.
Come here, Roger, she added, and when he had ambled awkwardly up
to her, she took his head in her hands and kissed him too....
I've a jolly good mind to get engaged myself, said Gilbert.
Well, why don't you? Mrs. Graham retorted.
I would, only I keep on forgetting about it, he answered.
Couldn't you kiss me 'Good-luck' to my play?
I could, she replied, and kissed him.
Then they insisted that she should kiss them all, and she did as
they insisted. She was very gracious and very charming and her eyes
were bright with her pleasure in their youth and spirits ... so bright
that presently she cried a little ... and then they all talked quickly
and kicked one another's shins under the table in order to enforce
tactful behaviour.
2
They sat in one of the two large boxes of the Pall Mall Theatre.
Gilbert was nervous and restless, and after the play began, he
retreated to the back of the box and sat down in a corner.
What's up, Gilbert? Henry whispered to him. Are you ill?
Ill! Gilbert exclaimed, looking up at Henry with a whimsical
smile. Man, Quinny, I'm dying! Go away like a good chap and let me die
in peace. Tell all my friends that my last words were....
Henry went back to his seat beside Mary and whispered to her that
Gilbert was too nervous and agitated to be sociable ... some sort of
stage fright!... and they pretended not to notice that he was huddled
in the darkest corner of the box. Thank goodness, Henry said to the
others, a novelist doesn't get a storm of nerves on the day of
publication! Leaning over the edge of the box, he could see Lady
Cecily sitting in the stalls, with Jimphy by her side ... and for a
while he forgot the play and Mary and Gilbert's agitation. She was
sitting forward, looking intently at the stage, and as he watched her,
she laughed and turned to Jimphy as if she would share her pleasure
with him, but Jimphy, lying back in his stall, was fiddling with his
programme, utterly uninterested. She glanced up at the box, her eyes
meeting his, and smiled at him.
Who is it? said Mary, leaning towards him.
Oh ... Lady Cecily Jayne! he answered, discomposed by her
question.
She's very beautiful, isn't she?
Yes.
They turned again to the stage and were silent until the end of the
first act. There was a burst of laughter, and then the curtain
descended, to rise again in quick response to the applause.
Cheering a chap at his funeral! said Gilbert, groaning with
delight as he listened to the shouts and handclaps.
They turned to him and offered their congratulations.
Five curtain-calls, said Roger. Very satisfactory!
It's splendid, Gilbert, Mrs. Graham exclaimed. I'm sure it'll be
a great success!
Oh, dear, O Lord, I wish it were over! Gilbert replied.
Let's fill him with whisky, said Ninian, rising and taking hold of
Gilbert's arm, and he and Henry took him and led him to the bar where
they met Jimphy, looking like a lost rabbit.
Hilloa, Jimphy! they exclaimed, and he turned gleefully to welcome
them. Here at all events was something he could comprehend. He
congratulated Gilbert. Jolly good, old chap! Have a drink, he said,
and insisted that they should join him at the bar. Of course, he
added privately to Henry, this sort of stuff isn't really in my line
... jolly good and all that, of course ... but still it's not in my
line. All the same, a chap has to congratulate a chap. Oh, Cecily wants
you to go and talk to her. You know where she is, don't you?
He turned to listen to Ninian who was describing the accident which
had happened when the Gigantic started on her first trip to
America. She jolly near sank a cruiser, he was saying as Henry moved
away from the bar. That was the second accident. The first time, she
broke from her moorings....
He pushed his way through the crowd of drinking and gossiping men,
and entered the stalls. Lady Cecily saw him coming, and she beckoned to
him.
Who is that nice girl in the box? she asked, as he sat down in
Jimphy's seat. She sat beside you....
Oh, Ninian's sister, he replied. Mary Graham.
She's very pretty, isn't she?
Yes....
He would have said more, but it suddenly struck him as comical that
Lady Cecily should speak of Mary almost in the words that Mary had used
when she spoke of Lady Cecily. He looked up at the box and saw that
Mary was talking to her mother, and something in her attitude sent a
pang through his heart.
I do love Mary, he said to himself, but somehow ...
somehow I love Cecily too!
Lady Cecily was speaking to him and he turned to listen.
I want you to introduce me to Ninian's sister, she said.
Yes, he answered reluctantly, though he could not have said why he
was reluctant to introduce her to Mary.
After the next act, she went on, and he nodded his head.
Then Jimphy returned, and Henry got up and left her, and hurried
back to the box. The second act had begun when he reached it, and he
tiptoed to his seat and sat down in silence. Mary looked round at him,
smiling, and then looked back at the stage, and again he felt that odd
reluctance to bring Lady Cecily and her together.
3
At the end of the second act, he turned to Mary and said, Lady
Cecily wants to be introduced to you. I said I'd bring her here after
this act!
Do, Mary answered.
As he walked towards the door of the box, he remembered Gilbert and
he bent towards him and said quietly, Oh, Gilbert, I'm going to fetch
Lady Cecily. She wants to talk to Mary!...
Righto! Gilbert replied, without looking up.
Henry hesitated. You ... you don't mind, do you? he said, and then
wished that he had remained silent.
Mind! Gilbert looked up. Why should I mind?
I thought perhaps ... but of course if you don't mind, that's all
right!
He hurried out of the box, feeling that he had intruded into private
places. He had intended to be considerate and had achieved only the
appearance of prying. That's like me! he thought, as he descended the
stairs that led to the stalls. I wonder why it is that I'm full of
sympathy and understanding and tact in my books, and such a clumsy fool
in life!
He entered the stalls, and as he did so, Lady Cecily rose to join
him. Jimphy had already gone to the bar. He held the curtain for her
and she passed through. Isn't it clever? she said, speaking of the
play, and he nodded his head. The passage leading up from the stalls
was full of chattering people, but when they reached the narrow
corridor which led to the box, there was no one about....
Cecily! he said in a low voice.
Yes, Paddy! she answered, looking back over her shoulder.
He put his hands on her shoulders and turned her towards him.
Some one will see you, she said.
No, they won't, he replied, and I don't care....
He kissed her ardently. My dear! he murmured with his lips on
hers.
She pushed him from her. You are a fool, she said.
I couldn't help it!
Their voices were low lest the people in the box should hear them.
You must never do that again, she said. I'd never have forgiven
you if any one had seen us!
What are you afraid of, Cecily? he asked.
She made a gesture of despair. Haven't you any sense? she
said.
She turned to go towards the box again, but he caught hold of her
hand and held her.
Cecily, he whispered, you know I love you, don't you?
Yes, yes, she answered impatiently, snatching her hand from his,
but you needn't tell everybody about it!
And you love me, too. Don't you?
Let's go and join the others!...
He held her again. No, Cecily, he said, you must listen to me!
Well, what is it?
Cecily! He was breathing hard, and it seemed to him that he could
only speak by forcing words out of himself. Cecily ... come with me!
...
That's what I want to do, but you keep me hanging about here. If
any one were to see us!...
I don't mean that, he interrupted. You know quite well what I
mean!...
What do you mean? I don't know!...
He went closer to her, trying to waken her passion by the strength
of his. I want you to leave Jimphy and come away with me, he said.
Leave Jimphy!
Yes. You're not happy ... you're not suited to each other. Come
with me!
Like this? she said, holding out her hands and mocking him.
That doesn't matter, he urged. We'll go somewhere....
Fly to Ireland, I suppose, in evening dress! Poor Paddy, you're so
Irish, aren't you? Please don't be an idiot!
She went on towards the door of the box, and he followed after her.
Cecily! he said.
Not to-night, she answered. I want to be introduced to that nice
girl, Mary Graham, and I really must congratulate Gilbert ... I suppose
he's here ... it's such a clever play!
She opened the door of the box and went in, and, hesitating for a
moment, he went after her.
4
She stayed in the box, sitting between Mrs. Graham and Mary, until
the end of the play. The curtain had gone down to applause and laughter
and had been raised again and a third and fourth time, and then the
audience had demanded that the author should appear. Somewhere in the
gallery, they could hear the faint groan of the man who attends all
first nights and groans on principle. I'd like to punch that chap's
jaw! Ninian muttered, glancing up at the gallery indignantly. There
was more applause and a louder and more insistent shout of Author!
Author! and the curtain went up, and Gilbert, very nervous and very
pale, came on to the stage and bowed. Then, after another curtain call,
the lights were lowered and the audience began to disperse.
There was to be a supper party at the Carlton, because the Carlton
was nearer to the Pall Mall than the Savoy, and Sir Geoffrey Mundane
and Mrs. Michael Gordon had accepted Gilbert's invitation to join them.
It'll cost a hell of a lot, Gilbert said to Henry, but what's money
for? When I die, they'll put on my tombstone, 'He was born in debt,
he lived in debt, he died in debt, and he didn't care a damn. So be it!
' He extended his invitation to Jimphy and Lady Cecily.
You didn't come to Jimphy's birthday party, she objected.
Didn't I? he replied. Well, both of you come to my party ...
that'll make up for it!
Gilbert did not appear to be affected by Cecily's presence. He had
greeted her naturally, behaving to her in as friendly a way as he would
have behaved if she had been Mrs. Graham. Henry, remembering the scene
on the Embankment, had difficulty in understanding Gilbert's easy
manner. Had he been in Gilbert's place, he knew that he would have been
awkward, constrained, tongue-tied. Undoubtedly, Gilbert had savoir
faire. So, too, had Cecily. Her look of irritation with Henry had
disappeared as she entered the box. He, following after her, had been
nervous and self-conscious, feeling that the flushed look on his face
must betray him to his friends; but Cecily had none of these
awkwardnesses. She behaved as easily as if the scene with Henry had not
taken place. You'd think she hadn't any feelings, he murmured to
himself, and as he did so, it seemed to him that in that moment he knew
Cecily, knew her once and for all. She had no feelings, no
particular feelings for any one, not even for Gilbert. She was a
beautiful animal, eager for emotional diversions, but indifferent to
the creature that pleased her after it had pleased her. If Henry were
to quit her now and never return to her, she might some day say, I
wonder where poor Paddy is! and turn carelessly to a new lover; but
that would be all. Gilbert had piqued her, perhaps, but he had done no
more than that, though probably it was more than Henry could ever hope
to do, and she had yawned a little with the tedium of waiting for him,
and then had decided to yawn no more....
He fell among platitudes. Like a butterfly, he said to himself.
Just like a damned butterfly!
Well, he thought, mentally cooler because of his revelation, that is
an attitude towards life that has many advantages. One might call
Cecily a stoical amorist, an erotic philosopher. Love where you can,
and don't bother where you can't! might serve her for a motto. And,
really, that's rather a good way of getting through these plaguey
emotions of ours! he told himself. Only, he went on, you can't walk
in that way just because you think it's a good one!
He sat between Lady Cecily and Mary at supper, but he did not talk a
great deal to either of them, for Mary was chattering excitedly to Sir
Geoffrey Mundane, and Cecily was persuading Ninian that engineering had
always been the passion of her life. I quite agree, she was saying,
a Channel Tunnel would be very useful and ... and so convenient, too.
I've often said that to Jimphy, but dear Jimphy doesn't pretend to
understand these things! She had turned to him once and, in a whisper,
had said, Which of you is in love with Mary? but he had pretended to
be wooden and hard of understanding.
My dear Paddy, she said, raising her eyebrows, I believe you're
sulking ... just because I wouldn't run away with you. You're as bad as
Gilbert!
You're perfectly brutal, he said under his breath.
Aren't you exaggerating? she replied. And if I had gone off with
you, we'd have missed this nice supper. Do be sociable, there's a dear
Paddy, and perhaps I'll run away with you next Tuesday!
There was a babble of conversation about them, and much laughter,
for Gilbert, reacting from his fright, was full of bright talk, and Sir
Geoffrey, reminiscent, capped it with entertaining tales of dramatists
and stage people. It was easy for Cecily and Henry to carry on their
conversation in quiet tones without fear of being overheard.
You treat me like a boy, he said reproachfully.
You are a boy, Paddy dear, and a very nice boy!
I suppose, he retorted, it's impossible for you to understand
that I love you....
Indeed, it isn't, she interrupted. I understand that quite
easily. What I can't understand is why you wish to spoil everything by
silly proposals to ... to elope!...
But I love you, he insisted. Isn't that enough to make you
understand?
She shook her head, and turned again to Ninian.
You see, Ninian said, you bore through this big bed of chalk from
both sides....
But how do you know the two ends will meet? she asked.
Oh, engineers manage that sort of thing easily, Ninian answered.
Think of the Simplon Tunnel!...
Yes! she said, to indicate that she was thinking of it.
Well, that met, didn't it?
Did it? she replied. Oh, but of course it must have met. I've
been through it!...
There was hardly an inch of divergence between the two ends, he
went on....
Hell's flames! Henry said to himself.
5
I must see you, he said to her when the party had broken up and
she was going home. I must see you alone!
I do hope you're not going to be a nuisance, Paddy! she replied.
He put her cloak about her shoulders. Will you meet me at the
suspension bridge over the lake in St. James's Park to-morrow at
eleven?...
That's awfully early, Paddy, and St. James's Park is such a long
way from everywhere. Couldn't you come to lunch? Jimphy'll be glad to
see you. He seems to like you for some reason!
I want to talk to you alone, and we're not likely to be disturbed
in St. James's Park. You must come, Cecily!
Oh, all right, she answered. But I shan't be there before twelve.
You can take me to lunch somewhere....
Very well, he said. I'll be at the bridge at twelve, and I'll
wait for you ... only, come as soon as you can, Cecily!
I can't think why you want to behave like this, Paddy. It's so
melodramatic. Gilbert was just the same!...
He felt that he could hit her when she said that, and he turned away
from her so quickly that her cloak slipped from her shoulders.
Oh, Paddy! she exclaimed.
I beg your pardon! he answered, turning again and picking the
cloak from the ground.
You're so ... so selfish, she said. You want everything to be
just as you like it. You're just like Gilbert ... where is Gilbert?...
I must say good-night to him ... and that nice girl, Mary. I think it's
a very clever play, and she's such a nice girl, too. Oh, Gilbert, there
you are! Good-night! I've enjoyed everything so much ... a nice play
and a nice supper. Good-night, and do come and see me soon, won't you.
Why not come to-morrow with Paddy?...
Paddy? said Gilbert.
Yes, Henry Quinn. I call him Paddy. It seems natural to call him
Paddy. He's so Irish. Do come with him to-morrow, and bring all your
press cuttings with you and read them to me. Paddy wants to talk to
me....
Henry walked away from them. What sort of woman was this? he asked
himself. Was she totally insensitive? Was it impossible for her to
realise that she was hurting him?...
Good-night, Quinny!
He turned quickly to take Mary's hand.
We're going back to Devonshire the day after to-morrow, she said.
Are you? he murmured vaguely.
Yes. Good-night, Quinny!
Aren't you tired? he asked.
Oh, no, she answered. I've enjoyed myself awfully much. Here's
Ninian! He's taking us back to our hotel. Good-night, Quinny!
He hesitated for a moment or two. He wanted to suggest that he
should go with her instead of Ninian, but before he could speak he saw
Cecily moving down the room towards the street.
Good-night, Mary! was all he said.
6
Roger had taken Rachel home, and so, when Ninian had gone off with
his mother and Mary, there were only Henry and Gilbert left.
Let's go home, Quinny, Gilbert said. I'd like to walk if you
don't mind!
Very well, Henry replied.
They left the hotel and strolled across the street towards the
National Gallery.
I wish it were the morning, Gilbert said. I want to see the
newspapers!
It doesn't greatly matter what they say, does it? Henry answered.
The play's a success. The audience liked it.
I want to read the notices all the same. Of course, I want to read
them. I shall spend the whole of to-morrow reading and re-reading them.
Just vanity!
They walked past the Gallery, and made their way through the
complicated streets that lie behind the Strand, about Covent Garden,
towards Bloomsbury. They did not speak for some time, for they were
tired and their minds were too full of other things. Once indeed,
Gilbert began to speak ... I think I could improve the second act a
little ... but he did not finish his sentence, and Henry did not ask
him to do so. It was not until they were nearly at their home that
Henry spoke to Gilbert about Cecily.
Are you going to Lady Cecily's to-morrow? he said.
Eh? Gilbert exclaimed, starting out of his dreams. Oh, no, I
think not! Why?
I only wondered. She asked you, you know!
They walked on in silence until they reached the door of their
house.
I say, Quinny, said Gilbert, while Henry opened the door, you
seem to be very friendly with Cecily!
Henry fumbled with the key and muttered, Damn this door, it won't
open!
Let me try!...
It's all right now. I've done it! What were you saying, Gilbert?
They entered the house, shutting the door behind them, and stood for
a while in the hall, removing their hats and coats.
Oh, nothing, Gilbert replied. I was only saying you seemed very
friendly with Cecily!
Well, yes, I suppose I am, but not more than most people. Are you
going to bed now or will you wait up for Ninian and Roger?
I shan't sleep if I go to bed ... I'm too excited. I shall read for
a while in my room ... unless you'd like to jaw a bit!
Henry shook his head. No, he said, I'm too tired to jaw to-night.
See you in the morning. Good-night, Gilbert!
Good-night, Quinny!
Henry went to his bedroom, leaving Gilbert in the hall, and began to
undress. His mind was full of a flat rage against Cecily. She had
consented to meet him in St. James's Park, and then, almost as she had
made her promise, she had turned to Gilbert and had invited him to call
on her, in his company, at the time she had appointed for his private
meeting with her. He did not wish to see her again. She's fooling me,
he said, throwing his coat on to a chair so that it fell on to the
ground where he let it lie. I've not done a stroke of work for days on
her account, and she cares no more for me than she does for ... for
anybody. I won't go and meet her to-morrow, damn her! I'll send a
messenger to say I can't come, and then I'll drop her. It isn't worth
while going through this ... this agony for a woman who doesn't care a
curse for you!
I'm not going to be treated like this, he went on to himself while
he brushed his teeth. I'm not going to hang about her and let her
treat me as she pleases. She can get somebody else, some one who is
more complacent than I am, and doesn't feel things. I hope she goes to
the Park and waits for me. Perhaps that'll teach her to understand what
a man feels like....
But of course she would not go to the Park and wait for him. He
would send an express messenger with a note to tell her that he was
unable to keep the appointment.
I'll write it now, he said to himself and he stopped in the middle
of washing his face and hands to find notepaper. Damn, my hands are
wet, he said aloud, and picked up a towel.
Dear Lady Cecily, he wrote, when he was dry, using the
formal address because he wished to let her know that he was ill
friends with her, I am sorry I shall not be able to meet you to-day
as we arranged last night. He wondered what excuse he should make
for breaking off the appointment, and then decided that he would not
make any. I won't add anything else, he said, and he signed himself,
Yours sincerely, Henry Quinn. She'll know that I'm sick of
this ... messing about. I don't see why I should explain myself to
her!
He sealed the envelope and put the letter aside, and sat for a while
drumming on his table with the pen.
Mary's worth a dozen of her, he said aloud, getting up and going
to bed.
THE NINTH CHAPTER
1
They all rose early the next day. Ninian had been out of the house
before any of them had reached the breakfast room, and when he
returned, his arms were full of newspapers.
What's Walkley say? said Gilbert. That's all I want to know!
They opened the Times, and then, when they had read the
criticism of The Magic Casement, they murmured, Charming! Splendid!
Oh, ripping! while Gilbert, sitting back in his chair, smiled
beatifically and said, Read it again, coves. Read it aloud and
slowly!
While they were reading the notices, Henry went off to a post
office, and sent his letter to Lady Cecily by express messenger.
That's settled, he said, as he returned home, for he had been afraid
that he might change his mind. As he was shaving that morning, he had
faltered in his resolution. I'd better go, he had said to himself,
and then had added weakly, No, I'm damned if I will! Well, it was
settled now. The letter was on its way to her. She would probably be
angry with him, but not as angry as he was with her, and perhaps they
would not meet again for a long while. So much the better. Now he could
get on with his book in peace. Gilbert was right. Women do upset
things. Well, this particular woman would not upset him again....
They had read all the notices when Henry returned, and were now at
breakfast. Roger was relating the latest legal jest about Mr. Justice
Kirkcubbin, a poor old man who persisted in clinging to the Bench in
spite of the broadest hints from the Law Journal, and Ninian was
making mysterious movements with his hands.
What's the matter, Ninian? Henry asked, as he sat down at the
table.
Ninian, while searching for the notices of Gilbert's play, had seen
a sentence in a serial story in one of the newspapers.... Her hands
fluttered helplessly over his breast ... and he was trying to
discover exactly what the lady had done with her hands. She seems to
have just flopped them about, he said, and he turned to Gilbert. Look
here, Gilbert, he said, you try it. I'll clasp you in my arms as the
hero clasped this female, and you'll let your hands flutter helplessly
over my breast!
I'll let my fist flutter helplessly over your jaw, young
Ninian!...
I don't believe she let her hands do anything of the sort, Ninian
went on. She couldn't have done it. An engineer couldn't do it, and I
don't believe a female can do what an engineer can't do!
I suppose, he added, getting up from the table, Tom Arthurs is
half way across now. I wish I could have gone with him. What a
holiday!
Talking of holidays, Gilbert said, I'm going to take one, and as
you don't seem in a fit state to do any work, Quinny, you'd better take
one too, and come with me!
Where are you going? Roger asked. Anglesey?
No. I thought of going there, but I've changed my mind. I shall go
to Ireland with Quinny.
Ireland! Henry exclaimed, looking across at Gilbert.
Yes. Dublin. We can go to-night. I've never been there, and I'd
like to know what these chaps, Marsh and Galway, are up to. That
whatdoyoucallit movement you were telling me about?... you know, the
thing that means 'a stitch in time saves nine' or something of the
sort!
Oh, the Sinn Fein movement!
Yes. That's the thing. The Improved Tories ought to know about
that....
That reminds me, said Roger, of an idea I had in the middle of
the night about the Improved Tories. We ought to publish our views on
problems. The Fabians do that kind of thing rather well. We ought to
imitate them. We ought to study some subject hard, argue all round it,
and then tell the world just how we think it ought to be solved. I
thought we might begin on the problem of unemployment....
Good Lord, do you think we can solve that! Ninian exclaimed.
No, but we might find a means of palliating it. My own notion....
I thought you had some scheme in your skull, Roger! said Gilbert.
Let's have it!
Well, it's rather raw in my mind at present, but my idea is that
the way to mitigate the problem of unemployment, perhaps solve it, is
to join it on to the problem of defence. Supposing we decided to create
a big army ... and we shall need one sooner or later with all these
ententes and alliances we're forming ... the problem would be to form
it without dislocating the industrial system. My idea is to make it
compulsory for every man to undergo military training, about a couple
of months every year, and call the men up to the camp in times of trade
depression. You wouldn't have to call them all up at once ... trades
aren't all slack at the same time ... and you'd arrange the period of
training as far as possible to fit in with the slack time in each job.
I mean, people who are employed in gasworks could easily be trained in
the summer without dislocating the gas industry ... colliers, too, and
people like that ... and men who are slack in the winter, like
builders' men, could be trained in the winter. That's my idea roughly.
There'd be training going on all the year round, and of course you
could vary the duration of the period of training ... never less than
two months, but longer if trade were badly depressed. You'd save a lot
of misery that way ... you'd keep your men fit and fed and their homes
going ... and you'd have the nucleus of a large army. I don't see why
we shouldn't bring the Board of Education in. If we were to raise the
school age to sixteen, and then make it compulsory for every boy to go
into a cadet corps or something of the sort for a couple of years,
you'd relieve the pressure on the labour market at that end enormously,
and you'd make the job of getting the army ready much easier in case of
emergency. A couple of years' training to begin with, followed by a
couple of months' further training every year, would make all the
difference in the world to us militarily, and it would do away,
largely, with the unemployed!
How about apprentices? said Gilbert. If you raise the school age
to sixteen and then make all the boys go into training until they are
eighteen, you're going to make a big difficulty in the way of getting
skilled labour!
I don't think so. As far as I can make out the period of
apprenticeship is much too long. Five or six years is a ridiculous time
to ask a boy to spend in learning his job, and any trade unionist will
tell you that every apprentice spends the first year or two in acting
as a sort of messenger: fetching beer and cleaning up things. I suppose
the real reason why the period of indenture is so long is because the
Unions don't want to swamp the labour market with skilled workers.
Well, why shouldn't we reduce the period of apprenticeship by giving
the boy a military training? You see, don't you, what a problem this
is? I thought of talking about it to the Improved Tories, and when we'd
argued it over a bit, we'd put our proposals into print and circulate
them among informed people, and invite them to come and tell us what
they think of the notion from their point of view ... Trade Union
secretaries and military men and employers and people like that ... and
then, we might publish a book on it. Jaurés wrote a book on the French
Army ... a very good book, too ... so there isn't anything remarkably
novel about the notion, except, perhaps, my idea of linking the
military problem on to the unemployment problem. You and Quinny could
write the book, Gilbert, because you've got style and we want the book
to be written so that people will read it without getting tied up. Of
course, if you must go to Ireland, you must, but it seems a little
needless, doesn't it?
This business will take time, Gilbert replied. Tons of time. I
don't think our visit to Ireland will affect it much. You'll come with
me, won't you, Quinny?
Henry nodded his head. At once, if you like, he answered, hoping
indeed that Gilbert would suggest an immediate departure. If Lady
Cecily were to hear that he had left London....
To-night will do, said Gilbert.
2
Are you going to work? Gilbert said to Henry, when the others had
gone.
I think so, Henry replied. I haven't written a word for days.
You?
I'll go and have a squint at the Pall Mall ... just to make sure
that last night wasn't a dream. I'll come back to lunch. It 'ud be
rather jolly to go on from Dublin and see your father, Quinny?
Yes ... that's a notion. I'll write and tell him we're coming.
Bring back the afternoon papers when you come, Gilbert, I'd like to see
what they say about the play!
Righto! said Gilbert.
Henry sat on in the breakfast room, after Gilbert had gone, reading
the criticisms of The Magic Casement, and then, when he had finished,
he went up to his room and began to work on Turbulence. He wrote
steadily for an hour, and then read over what he had done.
This is better, he murmured to himself, pleased with what he had
written, and he prepared to go on, but before he could start again,
there was a knock on the door, and Magnolia came in.
You're wanted on the telephone, sir! she said.
Who is it?
I don't know, sir. They didn't say!
He went downstairs and took up the receiver. Hilloa! he said.
Is that you, Paddy? was the response.
Cecily!
Yes. I've just had your letter. Are you very cross, Paddy?
He felt perturbed, but he tried to make his voice sound as if he
were indifferent to her.
No, he replied, I'm not cross at all....
Oh, yes, you are, Paddy. You're very cross, and you're going to
teach me a lesson, aren't you?
He could hear her light laugh as she spoke.
I can't make you believe that I'm not cross at all, he
said.
No, you can't. Paddy! Her voice had a coaxing note as she said his
name.
Yes.
Come to lunch with me. Jimphy's gone off for the day somewhere....
I'm sorry!...
Do come, Paddy. I want you to come. I do, really!
He paused for a second or two before he replied. After all why
should he not go?...
I'm sorry, he said, but I really can't lunch with you. I'm going
to Ireland!...
Going where?
Ireland. To-night! I'm going with Gilbert!
But you can't go this minute. Paddy, you are cross, and
you're spiteful, too. If you aren't cross, you'll come and lunch with
me. You ought to come and say 'good-bye' to me before you go to
Ireland....
I've got a lot to do ... packing and things!
You can do that afterwards! Her voice became more insistent.
Paddy, I want you to come. You must come!...
He hesitated, and she said, Do, Paddy! very appealingly.
It would be weak, he told himself, to yield to her now ... she would
think she had only to be a little gracious and he would be at her feet
immediately; and then he thought it would be weak not to yield to her.
It'll look as if I were afraid to meet her ... running away like this.
Or that I'm sulking ... just petulant!
All right, he said to her, I'll come!
Come now!
He nodded his head, forgetting that she could not see him, and she
called to him again, You'll come now, won't you?
Yes, he replied. I'll come at once!
He put up the receiver and reached for his hat. I wonder what she
wants, he thought, perhaps she really does love me and my letter's
frightened her! His spirits rose at the thought and he went jauntily
to the door and opened it, and as he did so, Ninian, pale and
miserable, panted up the steps.
My God, Quinny! he exclaimed, almost sobbing, the Gigantic's
gone down!
The what?
The Gigantic's gone down! It's in the paper. Look, look! He
was unbalanced by grief as he thrust the Westminster Gazette and
the Globe into Henry's hands.
But, damn it, she can't have gone down, Henry said, she's a
Belfast boat ... she can't have gone down!
She has, I tell you, and Tom Arthurs ... oh, my God, Quinny, he's
gone down too! The decentest chap on earth and ... and he's been
drowned!
Henry led him into the house. I went out to get the evening papers
to see about Gilbert's play, he went on, and that's what I saw. I saw
her at Southampton going off as proud as a queen ... and now she's at
the bottom of the Atlantic. And Tom waved his hand to me. He was going
to show me over her properly when he came back. Isn't it horrible,
Quinny? What's the sense of it ... what the hell's the sense of it?
She can't have gone down ... Henry said, as if that would comfort
Ninian.
She has, I tell you....
Henry went to the sideboard and took out the whisky.
Here, Ninian, he said, pouring out some of it, drink that. You're
upset!...
No, I don't want any whisky. God damn it, what's the sense of a
thing like this! A man like Tom Arthurs!...
There was a noise like the sound of a taxi-cab drawing up in front
of the house, and presently the bell rang, and then, after a moment or
two, the door opened, and Mrs. Graham came hurrying into the room.
Ninian! Where's Ninian? she said wildly to Henry.
He's here, Mrs. Graham!
She went to him and clutched him tightly to her. Oh, my dear, my
dear, she said.
What is it, mother? he asked, calming himself and looking at her.
I telephoned to your office, but you weren't there, so I came here
to find you. I couldn't rest content till I'd seen you!
What is it, mother?
That ship, Ninian. If you'd been on it ... you wanted to go, and I
said why didn't you ... oh, my dear, if you'd been on it, and I'd lost
you!
He put his arms about her and drew her on to his shoulder. I'm all
right, mother! he said.
Henry left the room hurriedly. He went to the kitchen and called to
Mrs. Clutters. I won't be in to lunch, he said. Don't let any one
disturb Mrs. Graham and Mr. Graham for a while. They ... they've had
bad news!
Then he went out of the house. The taxi-cab in which Mrs. Graham had
come was still standing outside the door.
I ain't 'ad me fare yet, said the driver.
All right! said Henry. I'll pay it.
He gave Cecily's address to the man, and then he got into the cab.
3
He could hear the newspaper boys crying out the news of the disaster
as he was driven swiftly to Cecily's house. The sinking of the great
ship had stunned men's minds and humiliated their pride. This beautiful
vessel, skilfully built, the greatest ship afloat, had seemed
imperishable, the most powerful weapon that man had yet forged to
subdue the sea, and in a little while, recoiling from the hidden
iceberg, she had foundered, broken as easily as a child's toy, carrying
all her vanity and strength to the bottom....
It isn't true, he kept on saying to himself as if he were trying
to contradict the cries of the newsvendors. She's a Belfast boat and
Belfast boats don't go down....
He felt it oddly, this loss. The drowning of many men and women and
children affected him merely as a vague, impersonal thing. Yes, it's
dreadful, he would say when he thought of it, but he was not moved by
it. When he remembered Tom Arthurs he was stirred, but less than Ninian
had been. He could see him now, just as he had stood in the shipyard
that day when John Marsh and Henry had been with him, and he had
watched the workmen pouring through the gates. Those are my pals! he
had said.... Poor Tom Arthurs! Destroyed with the thing that he had
conceived and his pals had built! But perhaps that was as he would
have wished. It would have hurt Tom Arthurs to have lived on after the
Gigantic had gone down.... It was not the drowning of a crowd of
people or the drowning of Tom Arthurs that most affected Henry. It was
the fact that a boat built by Belfast men had foundered on her maiden
trip, on a clear, cold night of stars, reeling from the iceberg's blow
like a flimsy yacht. He had the Ulsterman's pride in the Ulsterman's
power, and he liked to boast that the best ships in the world were
built on the Lagan....
By God, he said to himself, this'll break their hearts in
Belfast!
The cab drew up before the door of Cecily's house, and in a little
while he was with her.
Have you heard about the Gigantic? he said, as he walked
across the room to her.
Oh, yes, she answered, isn't it dreadful? Come and sit down
here!
He had not greeted her otherwise than by his question about the
Gigantic, and she frowned a little as she made room for him beside
her on the sofa.
That great boat!... he began, but she interrupted him.
I suppose you're still cross, she said.
Cross?
Yes. You haven't even shaken hands with me!
He remembered now. Oh! he said in confusion, but could say no
more.
Are you really going to Ireland? she asked, putting her hand on
his arm.
Yes, he answered, feeling his resolution weakening just because
she had touched him.
But why?
You know why! he said.
Her hand dropped from his arm. I don't know why, she exclaimed
pettishly, and he saw and disliked the way her lips turned downwards as
she said it.
I can't bear it, Cecily, he exclaimed. I must have you to myself
or ... or not have you at all!
Perfectly absurd! she murmured.
It isn't absurd. How can you expect me to feel happy when I see you
going off with Jimphy? Can't you understand, Cecily? Here I am with you
now, but if Jimphy were to come into the room, I should have to ... to
give way, to pretend that I'm not in love with you!
I can't see what difference it makes, she said. Jimphy and I
don't interfere with each other. It's ridiculous to make all this fuss.
I don't see any necessity to go about telling everybody!...
I didn't propose that, he interrupted.
Yes, you did, Paddy, dear! You asked me to run away with you, and
what's that but telling everybody?
He felt angry with her for what seemed to him to be flippancy. I'm
in earnest, Cecily! he said. I'm not joking!
I'm in earnest, too. I don't want to run away with you ... not
because I don't love you ... I do love you, Paddy, very much ... but
it's so absurd to run away and make a ... a mountain out of a molehill.
We should be awfully miserable if we were to elope. We'd have to go to
some horrid place where we shouldn't know anybody and there'd be
nothing to do. Really, it's much pleasanter to go on as we are now,
Paddy. You can come here and take me to lunch sometimes and go to the
theatre with me when Jimphy wants to go to a music-hall, and ... and so
on!
He could not rid himself of the notion that she was chattering in
the Lensley style.
It would be decenter to go away together, he said.
She moved away from him angrily. You're a prig, Paddy! she
exclaimed. You can go to Ireland. I don't care!
He got up as if to go, but did not move away. He stood beside her
irresolutely, wishing to go and wishing to stay, and then he bent over
her and touched her. Cecily, he said, come with me!
No! she answered, keeping her back to him.
Very well, he said, and he walked across the room towards the
door. His hand was on the handle when she called to him.
Aren't you going to stay to lunch? she said.
You told me to go!...
Yes, but I didn't mean immediately. I shall be all alone.
He went back to her very quickly, and sat down beside her and folded
her in his arms.
I loathe you, he cried, with his lips pressed against her cheek.
I loathe you because you're so selfish and brutal. You don't really
care for me....
Oh, I do, Paddy I ...
No, you don't. You were making love to Ninian last night!...
So that's it, is it?...
No, it isn't. Ninian doesn't care about you or about any woman.
He's not like me, a soft, sloppy fool. You don't love me. If I were to
leave you now, you'd find some one to take my place quite easily.
Lensley or Boltt!...
They're too middle-aged, Paddy!
He pushed her away from him. Damn it, can't you be serious! he
shouted at her.
You're very rude, she replied.
I'd like to beat you! I'd like to hurt you!...
She smiled at him and then she put her arms about his neck and drew
him towards her. You don't loathe me, Paddy, she said softly,
soothing him with her voice, you love me, don't you?
Will you come away with me? Now?
No! She kissed him and got up. Let's go to lunch, she said.
He felt that he ought to leave her then, but he followed her meekly
enough.
I don't think I'll stay to lunch, he said weakly.
Yes, you will! she replied. You can take me to a picture gallery
afterwards!...
4
They did not go to a picture gallery. The spring air was so fresh
that she declared she must go for a drive.
Let's go to Hampstead! he said, signalling to a taxi-driver. Well
have tea at Jack Straw's Castle!
Yes, let's! she exclaimed.
She had tried to persuade him not to return to Ireland, but he had
insisted that he must go because of his promise to Gilbert.
Do you care for Gilbert more than you care for me? she had asked,
making him wonder at the casual way in which she spoke Gilbert's name.
It seemed incredible, listening to her, that Gilbert had been her
lover....
It's hardly the same thing, he replied.
Then, after more pleading and anger, she had given in.
Very well, she said, I won't ask you again, and don't let's talk
about it any more. Well enjoy to-day anyhow!
The taxi-cab carried them swiftly to Hampstead.
Well get out at the Spaniards' Road, he said, and walk across the
Heath. It's beautiful now!
All right, she answered.
They did as he said, and walked about the Heath for nearly an hour.
The fresh smell of spring exhilarated them, and they sat for a little
while on a seat which was perched on rising ground so that they were
able to see far beyond the common. Young bracken fronds were thrusting
their curled heads upwards through the old brown growth; and the buds
on the blackened boughs were bursting from their cases and offering
delicate green leaves to the sunlight; and the yellow whins shone like
little golden stars on their spiky stems. Henry's capacity for sensuous
enjoyment was fully employed, and he would willingly have sat there
until dusk, drawing his breath in with as much luxurious feeling as a
woman has when she puts new linen on her limbs. He would have liked to
strip and bathe his naked body in the Highgate Ponds or run with bare
feet over the wet grass ... but Cecily was tired of the Heath.
Isn't it time we got some tea? she said, getting up and looking
about her as if she were searching for a tea-shop.
I suppose it is, he answered reluctantly, and he rose too. We go
this way, he said, moving in the direction of Jack Straw's Castle.
Let's come back to the Heath, he added, after we've had tea!
But why? she asked.
Oh, because it's so beautiful.
I thought it was getting chilly, she objected.
5
I don't see why you want to go to Ireland, she exclaimed, as she
handed a cup of tea to him.
I've told you why, he said.
Oh, but that isn't a reason. And why does Gilbert want to go? He
isn't Irish.
I suppose!...
It's so absurd to go rushing about like this. I should have thought
Gilbert would want to stay in town now that his play is on. Is it a
success? I haven't looked at the papers, but then I never do. I can't
read newspapers ... they're so dull. This tea is nice. And it's much
nicer in town now than it can possibly be in Ireland. Besides, I don't
want you to go!
He let her chatter on, hoping that she would exhaust her interest in
his visit to Ireland and begin to talk of something else, but he did
not know that Cecily had greater tenacity than might appear from the
incoherence of her conversation. She held on to a subject until it was
settled irrevocably. She looked very charming as she sat opposite to
him, and he wondered how Jimphy could be so careless of her loveliness.
The sunlight shining through the window above her head kindled her hair
so that the ripples of it shone like gold, and the delicate sunburnt
flush of her cheeks deepened in the soft glow. He put out his hand and
touched her fingers. Beautiful Cecily! he said, and she smiled
because she liked to be told how beautiful she was.
But you're going to Ireland, she said.
He did not answer.
You say you'd do anything for me, she proceeded, but when I ask
you not to go to Ireland, you refuse. If you really love me!...
I do love you, Cecily!
Well, why don't you stay in town! It's so queer to go away the
moment you get to know me! She began to laugh.
What's the joke? he asked.
Oh, I've just remembered how little we know of each other. You
kissed me the first time you came to my house!
I loved you the moment I saw you ... that day in the Park when I
was with Gilbert ... I loved you then. I didn't know who you were, but
I loved you. I couldn't help it, Cecily. You were looking at Gilbert
and then your eyes shifted and you looked at me, and I loved you, dear.
I worried Gilbert to tell me about you!...
What did he say? she interrupted eagerly, leaning her elbows on
the table and resting her chin in the cup of her hands.
He told me who you were, Henry answered awkwardly.
But didn't he say anything else?... didn't he?...
I've forgotten what he said.... Then I saw you at the St. James's
... he told me you often went to first-nights, and I went specially,
hoping to see you!...
Dear Paddy, she said, and you were so shy!
And so jealous and angry because you talked all the time to
Gilbert, and ignored me. You made me go out of the box with Jimphy, and
as I went, I saw you putting your hand out to touch Gilbert, and I
heard you calling him, 'Gilbert, darling.' ...
She laughed, but did not speak.
And I was frightfully jealous. Gilbert's my best friend, Cecily,
but I hated him that night. I suppose ... oh, I don't know!
What were you going to say! she asked.
He looked at her intently for a few moments. Her grey eyes were full
of laughter, and he wondered whether she would answer his question
seriously.
Well? she said.
Do you still love Gilbert, Cecily! Am I ... just some one to fill
in the time ... until Gilbert!...
She sat back in her seat, and the laughter left her eyes.
Let's go! she said.
But he did not move. You do love him, he persisted, and you don't
love me....
Are you going to Ireland with him? she demanded.
Yes!
Very well, then! The tightened tone of her voice indicated that
there was no more to be said, but he would not heed the warning, and
persisted in demanding explanations.
If you go to Ireland with Gilbert, she said, I'll never speak to
you again!
She closed her lips firmly, and he saw the downward curve of them
again, and while he pondered on what she had said, the thought shot
across his mind that that downward curve would deepen as she grew
older. She'll get very bad-tempered!...
I mean it, she said, interrupting his thought and compelling him
to pay heed to her. I'll never speak to you again if you go away now.
But I've promised, Cecily! he protested.
She shrugged her shoulders. I don't see what that's got to do with
it, she answered.
6
They came out of the inn, and stood for a few moments before the
door.
Shall we go back to the Heath? he said.
No, she replied. Let's go home.
Very well!
He felt broken and crushed and tongueless. Cecily did not speak to
him as they walked towards the Spaniards' Road, nor did he speak to
her. The angry look on her face deterred him.
He hailed a taxi, and they got into it and were driven down
Fitzjohn's Avenue and homewards. Once she turned to him and said again,
Are you going to Ireland with him? but when he answered, I must,
Cecily, I said I would! she turned away again and did not speak until
the taxi drew up before her door.
Perhaps you'd rather I didn't come in? he said, expecting that she
would dismiss him, but she did not do so.
Jimphy may be at home, she said, and probably he'd like to see
you!
I thought he'd gone away for the day!
He may have returned.
She went up the steps of the house while he paid the driver of the
taxi-cab, and spoke to the servant who had opened the door.
He's not in, she said to Henry when he joined her.
Then I won't ...
Come in, she interrupted. I want to say something to you!
He followed her into the hall and up the stairs to the drawing-room,
where she left him while she went to her room to take off her outdoor
garments. He moved aimlessly about until she returned. She had changed
her clothes, and was wearing a loose golden silk teagown with a girdle
round it, and the gold in her hair seemed to be enriched by the gold in
her dress. She went up to him quickly, putting her hands on his
shoulders and drawing him close to her.
Paddy! she said, and her voice was very tense.
Yes? he answered.
I've never asked you to do anything for me, have I? She put her
arms round his neck and kissed him. He tried to answer her, but could
not because her lips were tightly pressed on his.
You won't go, will you? she murmured, closing her eyes and
tightening her hold on him.
He struggled a little.... Why don't you want me to go with
Gilbert? he said.
But she did not answer his question. She drew him back to her again,
whispering, I love you, Paddy, I love you. I don't love any one else
but you!
He threw his arms about her, and they stood there forgetful of
everything....
She moved a little, and he led her to the sofa where they sat down
together. She laid her head on his shoulder, and he put his arms around
her and drew her warm, yielding body close to his. He could feel the
beating of her heart....
You won't go, will you, Paddy? she whispered.
No, he answered, bending over her and kissing her.
She drew herself closer to him. Dear Paddy! she said.
7
He went up to Gilbert's room immediately after he returned home. All
the way back from Lady Cecily's, he had told himself that he must tell
Gilbert at once that he was not going to Ireland because he was in love
with Cecily and because she's in love with me! and he had repeated
his resolution many times to himself in the hope that by thinking
exclusively of it, there would be no opportunity for other thoughts to
come into his head. He shrank from the meeting with Gilbert, for his
conscience hurt him because of his betrayal of Gilbert's love and
friendship. He had palliated his conduct by saying to himself that
Gilbert had given Cecily up, but the excuse would not serve to absolve
him from the sense of unfriendly behaviour.
I'm making excuses for myself, he murmured.
That's all I'm doing. The decent thing is to go to Gilbert and tell
him everything ... or ... or I could write it. I could write a long
letter to him and get Magnolia to give it to him.... Perhaps that 'ud
be better than telling him. It'll be difficult to get a chance to say
anything to him with Roger and Ninian about....
He broke off his thoughts and spoke out loud. You're funking it,
he said. Damn you, you're funking it!
I must tell him myself, he went on. I must stand up to some one.
I can't go on funking things forever....
It was odd, he thought, that he had no feeling for Jimphy. He had
not any sense of shame because he had made love to Jimphy's wife.
Jimphy appeared to him only in a comic light. Yet Jimphy had professed
friendship for him. Of course, he said, they don't love each other!
but in this mood of self-confession which held him, he admitted that he
would have felt no contrition even if Jimphy had been devoted to
Cecily.
He's a born cuckold! he went on. I might be afraid to take his
wife from him, but I wouldn't be ashamed to do it. No one would....
He had opened the door and gone quickly up the stairs, hoping that
he would not meet any of the others. Gilbert would probably be in his
study or in his bedroom, and so he could talk to him at once and get
the thing over. He knocked on the study door, and then, receiving no
answer, opened it and looked in. Gilbert was not there. He went to the
bedroom and called Are you in, Gilbert? but there was no response. I
suppose he's downstairs, he said to himself, and he walked part of the
way down to the dining-room, stopping midway when he saw Magnolia.
Tell Mr. Farlow I want to speak to him, he called to her. Up in
my study!
He went to his room, and stood staring out of the window until
Gilbert came.
Hilloa, Quinny, what's up? Gilbert said, as he entered the study.
Henry turned to him. He could feel the pallor of his cheeks,
so nervous was he.
Gilbert, he said desperately, I want to talk to you!
Yes?...
I'm not going to Ireland with you!
Not going!... Why?
He moved mechanically towards Gilbert and stopped at the table where
he wrote. He stood for a few moments, fingering things, turning over
pieces of foolscap and tapping the table with a paper knife.
What is it, Quinny? Gilbert said again, and as he spoke, he came
up to Henry and touched him. Is it ... is it anything about Cecily?
Henry nodded his head. I thought so, Gilbert continued. He moved away
and sat down. Well, tell me about it, he said.
I'm in love with her, Gilbert!
Yes.
I ... I asked her to run away with me!...
Gilbert laughed. You have hustled, Quinny, he said. And she
wouldn't, eh?
No! Gilbert's laughter stimulated him, and he spoke more fluently.
But she's in love with me. She told me so. I've just come from her.
And she wants me to stay in town.
To be near her?
Yes. Yes, I suppose so. I had to tell you. I felt that I must tell
you. Gilbert, I'm ashamed, but I can't help it. I love her so much that
I'd ... I'd do anything for her.
Gilbert did not move nor did he speak. He sat in his chair, looking
very intently at Henry.
I can't understand myself, Henry went on. My feelings are
hopelessly mixed up. I want to do decent things and I loathe cads, but
all the same I do caddish things myself. I want to be straight, but I'm
not straight. ... It's awfully hard to explain what I mean, but there's
something in me that seems to keep pulling me out of line, and I
haven't enough force in me to beat it. I suppose it's the mill in my
blood. My grandfather was a mill-owner.
Gilbert shook his head and smiled. I don't think your notions of
heredity are sound, Quinny. Is that all you have to confess?
All?
Yes. There isn't anything else?
No. I wanted to tell you that I'm ashamed, but I must tell you,
too, that although I'm ashamed, I shan't stop loving Cecily. I
can't....
Gilbert got up and went over to him. He sat on the edge of the table
so that Henry, when he looked up, had to gaze straight at him.
You're a rum bloke, Quinny, he said. I'm always telling you that,
aren't I? But you were never so rum as you are now. It's no good
pretending that I don't feel ... feel anything about Cecily. I do. But
I've known about you and her for some while. I knew you'd fall in love
with her that day in the Park when you were excited about her beauty
and were so anxious that I should introduce you to her. Of course, I
knew you'd fall in love with her. I'm not a dramatist for nothing. So
what you say isn't news. I mean, it doesn't surprise me. Quinny, I'm
awfully fond of you, old chap, much more than I am of Ninian or Roger.
I expect it's because you're such a blooming baby. I'm not really upset
about your being in love with Cecily. That had to be. But I'm awfully
upset about you!
Me, Gilbert? Henry said, looking up in astonishment.
Yes. You haven't got much resolution, have you? Cecily has only got
to blub a little or kiss you a few times, and you're done for ... she
can do what she likes with you. You haven't got the courage to run away
from her, and you haven't the power to stand up to her and say
'Be-damned to you'!
No, I know that!
So, I think I'll just kidnap you, Quinny. I think I'll make you
come to Ireland with me....
You can't do that, Gilbert!
Can't I, by God! Gilbert's voice had changed from its bantering
note to a note of resolve. Do you think I'm going to let my best
friend make an ass of himself, and do nothing to prevent him? Quinny,
you're an ass! You're too fond of running about saying you can't help
this and you can't help that ... and spilling over! And what do you
think's going to be the end of this business? I suppose you imagine
that Cecily'll change her mind some day, and run away with you? Do you
think she'll run away with you when she wouldn't run away with
me? Damn you, you've got a nerve to think a thing like that....
I don't think that, Gilbert, Henry interjected.
Oh, yes, you do! Of course, you do! That's natural enough. I
wouldn't mind so much if I thought there were a chance that she would
run away with you, but she won't!
You wouldn't mind!...
No. Why should I? If she won't run away with me, she couldn't do
better than run away with you. And there'd be a chance then that you'd
get on with your job. You'd soon shake down into some sort of balance
if you were together, but you'll never get level if you go on in the
way you're going now. You'll run up into one emotional crisis and down
into another, and you'll spend the time between them in ... in
recovering. That's all. And your work will go to blazes. I know,
Quinny. You see, I was your predecessor....
But Cecily's proud of my work....
She was proud of mine. So she said. Look here, Quinny, buck up! How much of your new novel have you written since you knew her!
Not very much, of course, but!...
Exactly. I couldn't work either when ... when I was your
predecessor. Cecily's greedy, Quinny! She wants all of you ...
and she has the power to make you give the whole of yourself to her. If
you think that 'all for love and the world well lost' is the right
motto for a man ... then Cecily's your woman. But is it? Hang it all,
Quinny, you haven't done your work yet ... you've only begun to do it!
He got off the table and began to search among Henry's papers.
What are you looking for? Henry asked.
I want the manuscript of 'Turbulence.' Where is it?
I'll get it. What do you want it for?
He opened a drawer and took out the few sheets of the novel that
were written.
Is that all? said Gilbert.
Yes, Henry answered.
Cecily doesn't seem to inspire you, Quinny, does she, any more than
she inspired me? You haven't written a whole chapter yet.... Do you
remember what we swore at Rumpell's?
We swore a whole lot of things!...
Yes, but the most important thing? We swore we'd become Great. I
don't know that any of us ever will be Great.... I get the sensation
now and then that we're frightfully crude, even Roger, but we can
become something better than one of Cecily's lovers, can't we?
I don't know that I want to be anything else....
For shame, Quinny!
Gilbert put the manuscript back into the drawer from which Henry had
taken it.
You'll come to Ireland with me? he said.
No, Gilbert, I won't!
You will. I'll break your jaw if you don't come. I'll knock the
stuffing out of you if you don't come. We can catch the night train and
be in Dublin to-morrow morning!...
I promised Cecily I wouldn't go....
And you promised me you would go. I've packed all the things I
want, and it oughtn't to take you long to pack a trunk. I'll come and
help you after dinner ... there's the gong ... well just have time if
you hop round quickly. Ninian can telephone for a taxi to take us to
Euston!
It's no good, Gilbert....
Come on. I can smell onions, and I'd risk my immortal soul for
onions. Boiled, fried, stewed or roasted, Quinny, there's no vegetable
to beat them....
8
I'm not going, Gilbert!...
You are going!
They had finished dinner and were now in Henry's bedroom. Gilbert
had instructed Ninian to telephone for a taxi. Then, shoving Henry
before him, he had climbed the stairs to Henry's room and started to
pack his trunk.
You can't make me go!...
Gilbert took an armful of shirts from the chest of drawers and
dropped them into the trunk. Once, when I was wandering in Walworth,
he said, I heard a costermonger threatening to give another
costermonger a thick ear, a bunged-up eye and a mouth full of blood.
That's what you'll get if you don't hop round. What suits do you want!
Henry did not answer. He walked to the window and stood there,
peering out at the trees in the garden. A taxi-cab drove up to the door
and presently Ninian came bounding up the stairs to tell them of its
arrival.
Tell him to wait, said Gilbert, and Ninian hurried back to do so.
If you won't choose your suits yourself, he went on to Henry, I
shall have to do it for you. Socks, socks, where the hell do you keep
your socks?...
It seemed to Henry that he could see Cecily's face shining out of
the darkness. He could feel her arms about him and hear her beautiful
voice telling him that she loved him. I won't go, he said to himself.
I won't go!...
If you'd only help to pack, we'd save heaps of money, Gilbert
grumbled. It's sickening to think of that taxi sitting out there
totting up tuppences. Come and sit on the lid of this trunk, will you?
Henry did not move from the window. Gilbert straightened himself.
For a moment or two he could not see clearly because he was giddy with
stooping. Then he crossed the room and took hold of Henry's arm.
Come on, Quinny, he said, pulling him towards the trunk.
What's the good of fussing like this, Gilbert, when I've told you I
won't go....
Well, sit on the trunk anyhow. I may as well close the thing now
I've filled it....
9
He called Ninian, and between them they carried the luggage
downstairs to the cab.
Now then, Quinny! said Gilbert.
I'm not going, I tell you....
Get into the cab, damn you. Go on!
He shoved him forward so that he almost fell against the step of the
taxi, and Ninian caught hold of him, and they lifted him and heaved him
into the taxi.
Get in, Ninian, said Gilbert. He turned and shouted up the hall to
Roger. Come on, Roger! You'd better come and see us off!
None of them spoke during the short drive to Euston. Henry sulked in
a corner of the cab, telling himself that it was monstrous of Gilbert
to treat him in this fashion, and vowing that nothing would induce him
to get into the train ... and then, his mind veering again, telling
himself that perhaps it would be a good thing to go to Ireland for a
while. Cecily had chopped and changed with him. Why should he not chop
and change with her?... Neither Ninian nor Roger made any remark on the
peculiarity of the journey to Ireland. They had known in the morning
that Gilbert and Henry were going away that night, but it was clear
that something had happened since then, that Gilbert was more intent on
the journey than Henry.... No doubt, they would know in good time.
Probably, Ninian thought to himself, that woman Jayne is mixed up in
it....
You get the tickets, Ninian, Gilbert said when they reached
Euston. Firsts. Democracy's all right in theory, but I don't like it
in a railway carriage!
Where's the money? said Ninian.
Money! What do you want money for? All right! Here you are! You can
pay me afterwards, Quinny!
They had only a few minutes in which to get into the train, and
Gilbert, putting his arm in Henry's and hurrying him towards the Irish
mail, was glad that the wait would not be long.
It's ridiculous to behave like this, said Henry, as they shoved
him into a carriage.
I know it is, Gilbert answered. He turned to Roger. We may want
grub during the night. Get some, will you! Sandwiches will do and
hard-boiled eggs, if you can get 'em....
He turned to Henry. You're my friend, Quinny, he said, I can't
let you make a mucker of everything, can I?
Henry did not answer.
I know exactly how you feel, Gilbert went on. I should feel like
it myself if I were in your place, but if I were, Quinny, I'd be damned
glad if you'd do the same for me!
10
Good Lord! Gilbert exclaimed, as the train drove out of London, I
forgot to pack your toothpaste....
THE THIRD BOOK
OF
CHANGING WINDS
... quitted all to save
A world from utter loss.
PARADISE LOST.
THE FIRST CHAPTER
1
As the boat turned round the end of the pier and moved up the
harbour to her berth, Gilbert, eyeing the passengers, caught sight of
Henry and instantly hallooed to him. The passage from Kingstown had
been smooth, and Henry, heartened by the sea air and sunshine, pressed
eagerly through the throng of passengers so that he might be near the
gangway and so be among the first to descend from the steamer. He
called a greeting to Gilbert, and then, the boat being berthed, hurried
forward to the gangway. He could not get off the steamer as quickly as
he wished for the number of passengers on board was very large, and he
fidgeted impatiently until he was able to get ashore.
We'll send this bag on by the waggonette, Gilbert said, when they
had shaken hands and congratulated each other on their healthy looks,
and walk over to Tre'Arrdur, and we'll gabble on the way. Here, he
added, taking a letter out of his breastpocket, you can read that
while I find the man. It's from Ninian. It came this morning!...
He seized Henry's bag and hurried off with it, leaving Henry to
follow slowly or remain where he was, as he pleased, and then, before
Henry had time to do more than take the letter from its envelope and
glance carelessly at the first page of it, he came quickly back. Come
up, he said, putting his arm in Henry's. You can read it as you go
along. There's not much in it!
They left the pier and passed through the station into the street.
Holyhead, said Gilbert, is a good place to get drunk in! We won't
linger!...
They took the lower road to Tre'Arrdur Bay because it was quieter
than the upper road, and as they walked, Henry read Ninian's letter.
He seems to like South America, he said, returning the letter to
Gilbert when he had finished with it.
Gilbert nodded his head. That old Tunnel of his doesn't get itself
built, does it? But it must be great fun building a railway in a place
like that. There's a revolution on the first and third Tuesdays of the
month, and the President of the Republic and the Emperor of the Empire
are in power for a fortnight and in exile for another one. So Ninian
says. He told Roger in his last letter that he had had to kick the
emperor's backside for him for interfering with the railway
contract.... Oh, by the bye, Rachel's produced an infant. She says it's
like Roger, but Roger hopes not. He says it's like nothing on earth. He
came to see me off from Euston yesterday and when I asked him to
describe it to me, he said he couldn't ... it was indescribable. It
looks raw, he says. It must be frightfully comic to be a father,
Quinny!
I don't see anything comic about it, Henry replied. I'd rather
like to be a father myself.
Well, why don't you become one. They say it's easy enough. First,
you get a wife....
What sort of an infant is it? Is it a boy or a girl?
Great Scott! said Gilbert, I forgot to ask that. That was very
careless of me. Look out, Quinny, here's a motor, and that's Holy
Mountain on the right. We'll go up it to-morrow, if you like. It's not
much of a climb. Just enough to jig you up a bit. There's a chap in the
hotel who scoots up mountains like a young goat. He asked me to go up
Snowdon with him, but when I asked him what the tramfare was, he was
slightly snorty in his manner. How's the novel getting on?
It'll be out in September. I corrected the final proofs last month.
I think it's rather good.
Better than 'Turbulence' or 'The Wayward Man'?
Yes, I think so. I'm calling it 'The Fennels.' That's the name of
the people it's about. I've taken an Ulster family and ... well, that's
what I've done. I've taken an Ulster family and just shown it. My
father likes it much better than anything else I've done, although he
was very keen on 'Turbulence.'
How is your father?
Oh, much better, thanks, but still a bit shaky. He hates all this
Volunteer business in Ireland. You remember John Marsh, don't you, and
Galway? You saw them in Dublin that time!... Gilbert nodded his head
and so Henry did not complete his sentence. Well, they're up to their
necks in the opposition Volunteers. I saw John in Dublin yesterday for
a few minutes. He was very excited about the gun-running in Ulster!
Damned play-acting! He could hardly spare the time to say 'How are
you?' to me, he was so anxious to be off to his drilling. He hasn't
done any writing for a long time now. He's become very friendly with
Mineely!...
Is that the Labour man?
Yes. I liked him when I met him, but he's frightfully bitter since
the strike. He's got more brains than all the others put together, and
he influences John tremendously. I don't wonder at his bitterness. The
employers were brutal in that strike, Gilbert, and Mineely will
never forget it. He'll make trouble for them yet, and they'll deserve
all they get. He said to me 'They won't deal reasonably with us, so
they can't complain if we deal unreasonably with them. They set the
police on to us....'
What's he going to do then?
I don't know, but he's drilling his men as hard as ever he can. He
means to hit back. After he'd spoken about the police, he said, 'The
next time we go to them, we'll have guns in our hands. Mebbe they'll
listen to us then!' He's like John ... he doesn't care what happens to
himself. All those people, John and Galway and Mineely, have a contempt
for death that I can't understand. I loathe the thought of dying ...
but they don't seem to mind. It's their religion partly, I suppose, but
it's something more than religion. If they were poor, like the slum
people, I could understand it better. You can't frighten them by
threatening to kill them. Their life is such a rotten one that they'd
be much better off if they were dead, even if there were no heaven, and
I suppose they feel that ... and of course the Catholic religion
teaches them to despise life! But it isn't all religious fervour or the
apathy of people who're too poor to mind whether they live or die.
Marsh and Galway and Mineely are moved by a sort of nationalistic
ecstasy ... Marsh and Galway more than Mineely, I think, because
there's a bitterness in him that isn't in them. They think of Ireland
first, and he thinks of starving workmen first. They're Ireland mad.
They really don't value their lives a happorth. They'd love to be
martyrised for Ireland. It's a kind of lust, Gilbert. They get a
sensual look on their faces ... almost ... when they talk of dying for
Ireland.
It's a little silly of us English people who love life so much to
try and govern a people like that, said Gilbert.
2
Much had happened to them in the two years that had elapsed since
the day on which Gilbert carried Henry off to Dublin. The Bloomsbury
household had come to an end. Suddenly and, as it seemed to them,
inexplicably, Mrs. Clutters had died. It had never occurred to any of
them that Mrs. Clutters could die. They seldom saw her. The kitchen was
her domain, and Magnolia was her messenger. If they had any preferences
or prejudices concerning food, they made them known to Magnolia, and
Magnolia made them known to Mrs. Clutters. Ninian returning home in an
epicurean mood, might announce that he had seen mushrooms in a
greengrocer's window. Magnolia, he would say, let there be
mushrooms! and Magnolia would answer, Yes, sir, certainly, sir! and
behold in the morning there would be mushrooms for breakfast. Or
Gilbert would give their opinion of a dish. Magnolia, we do not like
scrambled eggs. We like our eggs boiled, fried, poached, beaten up in
milk, Mr. Graham even likes them raw, but none of us like them
scrambled!... and Magnolia would say, Yes, sir, certainly, sir! and
so scrambled eggs ceased to be seen on their breakfast table. Magnolia
always said, Yes, sir, certainly, sir! If they had informed her that
the Judgment Day was to begin that afternoon at three o'clock,
Magnolia, they felt sure, would say, Yes, sir, certainly, sir! and go
on with her work.... There seemed to be no adequate excuse for Mrs.
Clutters' death ... an' everythink goin' on so nice an' all! as
Magnolia said ... and yet she had died. There had been delay in serving
breakfast, and Roger, anxious to catch a train, had been impatient.
Magnolia! he shouted from the door, Magnolia!
Yes, sir! Magnolia answered in an agitated voice.
They waited for her to add Certainly, sir! but she did not do so,
and they looked oddly at each other, feeling that something unusual had
happened.
We're waiting for breakfast, Roger said in a less impatient voice.
Yes, sir, I'm comin', sir!...
Magnolia appeared at the door, very red in the face and very worried
in her looks, and placed a covered dish in front of Roger who was the
father of the four, appointed to carve and to serve.
What's this? Roger demanded when he had removed the cover.
Please, sir, it's eggs, sir! Fried eggs, sir! That's what it's
supposed to be, sir! Magnolia replied dubiously.
It's a bad imitation, Magnolia! Gilbert said. I think I'll just
have bread and marmalade this morning!
He reached for the marmalade as he spoke, and Henry, eyeing the eggs
with disrelish, murmured, After you, Gilbert!
Tell Mrs. Clutters I want her, Roger said to Magnolia.
Please, sir, she's not very well in herself this mornin'....
Not very well!
Do you mean to say she's ill? Ninian shouted.
Yes, sir. It was me fried the eggs, sir!
But ... but she can't be ill, Ninian continued.
Well, she is, sir. That's what she says any'ow. 'You'll 'ave to
cook the breakfis yourself', she says to me, an' when I said I didn't
know 'ow, she said 'Well, you must do the best you can, that's all!'
an' I done it, sir. She don't look well at all!...
How long has she been ill? Roger asked.
I don't know, sir. She didn't tell me. She was groanin' a bit
yesterday an' the day before, but she wouldn't give in. I said to 'er,
'If I was you, Mrs. Clutters, I'd 'ave a doctor an' chance it!' an' she
told me to 'old me tongue, so of course I wasn't goin' to say no more,
not after that. I mean to say, I can take a 'int as good as any
one....
We'd better send for a doctor, Roger said, interrupting Magnolia.
I'll telephone to Dunroon. He lives quite near! Then he remembered
his county court case. You'd better telephone, Quinny! I must
catch this train. Take these ... eggs away, Magnolia. We won't say
anything more about them. You did your best!
Yes, sir, I did, but I told 'er I didn't know 'ow....
All right! said Roger, passing the dish to her.
3
Dr. Dunroon suggested that they should send for Mrs. Clutters'
friends.
Is it serious, doctor? Henry asked, and the doctor nodded his
head. She's dying, he said.
Dying!
Magnolia, disregarding the conventions, had stood by, openly
listening to what they were saying, and when she heard the doctor say
that Mrs. Clutters was dying, she let a howl out of her that startled
them. The doctor turned to her quickly.
Hold your tongue, he said, or she'll hear you. Anybody 'ud think
you were dying by the noise you're making!
Magnolia blubbered away. I 'ate to 'ear of anybody dyin', she
said. I never been in a 'ouse before where it's 'appened, an' besides
she's been good to me! Her mind wandered off at a tangent Any'ow,
she said, wiping her eyes, I done me best. No one can't never say I
ain't done me best, an' the best can't do no more!
Has she got any friends, Magnolia?...
It seemed to them to be extraordinary that this woman had lived in
their house, had worked and cared for them, and yet was so much a
stranger to them that now, in this time of her coming dissolution, they
did not know where her friends were to be found, whether indeed, she
had any friends. That's very English, Henry thought; in Ireland we
know all about our servants!
Well, I think 'e's 'er 'usband, Magnolia replied. Any'ow,
'e was drunk when 'e come!...
They had assumed that Mrs. Clutters was a widow, a childless
widow....
I've seen 'im 'angin' about two-three times, an' when I said to
'er, 'Mrs. Clutters, there's your friend 'angin' about the corner of
the street, she tole me to mind me own business, an' then she 'urried
out. Of course, it 'adn't got nothink to do with me, 'oo 'e was, an'
when she tole me to mind me own business, I took the 'int....
Do you know where he lives? Gilbert asked.
No, sir, I don't. When she told me to mind me own business!...
The approach of Death had made Magnolia amazingly garrulous. She
said more to them that morning than she had said to them all the rest
of the time she had been in their service ... and mixed up with her
reminiscences of what Mrs. Clutters had said to her and what she had
said to Mrs. Clutters, there was a continual statement of her fear and
dislike of death, followed by the assertion that no one 'ad ever died
in a house she'd worked in before.
You'd think she was blaming us for it, Gilbert said afterwards.
Well, you'd better go and ask her to tell you where her husband
lives, Henry said to her, but she shrunk away from him when he said
that.
Oh, I couldn't go near no one what was dyin', she said. I ain't
used to it, an' I don't like it!
Ninian shoved her aside. I'll go, he said.
We'd better get some one to look after her, Gilbert proposed when
Ninian had gone. Magnolia's no damn good!...
No, sir, I ain't ... not with dead people I ain't!
Clear out, Magnolia! Gilbert shouted at her. Go and make the beds
or sit in the kitchen or something!
Yes, sir, certainly, sir! Magnolia answered, and then she left the
room.
I've never felt such a helpless ass in my life before, Gilbert
went on when she had shut the door behind her. I simply don't know
what to do!
We can't do anything, Henry murmured. Dunroon said he'd come in
again in a short while. Perhaps if we were to get a nurse or somebody.
There's sure to be a Nurses' Home near to. Can't we ring up somebody?
He got hold of the telephone book and began to turn over the pages
rapidly.
What are you looking for? Gilbert asked.
Nursing Homes, he answered.
That's no good. Let's send round to Dunroon's!...
He won't be there!
Some one'll be there. We'll ring 'em up!...
Dr. Dunroon's secretary was there, and she knew exactly what to do.
Oh, very well, she said in a voice so calm that Gilbert felt
reassured. I'll send some one round as soon as possible!
Ninian came down the stairs before they had finished telephoning to
Dr. Dunroon's secretary.
I'm going to fetch her husband, he whispered to Henry, and then he
left them.
4
Let's go out, Gilbert said suddenly to Henry.
The nurse had arrived, and was busy in attendance on Mrs. Clutters.
Magnolia, full of the antagonism which servants instinctively feel
towards nurses, was maintaining a grievance in the kitchen. Givin' 'er
orders, as if she was some one! she was mumbling to herself. Too
bossy, she is!...
It's no good trying to do any work to-day, Gilbert went on. I ...
I couldn't make up things with her ... up there!
They told Magnolia that they would have their meals out, and that
she need not trouble to cook anything for them, and they sent for the
nurse and explained their circumstances to her. That's all right, she
said cheerfully, I'll look after myself!
They set off towards Hampstead, but after a while they found
themselves returning to Bloomsbury. They could not keep away from the
house.... They tried to eat a meal at the Vienna Café, but they could
not swallow the food, so they paid their bill and went away. They
wandered into the British Museum, and tried to interest themselves in
Egyptology....
This female, said Gilbert, pointing to the mummy of the Priestess
of Amen-Ra, is supposed to bring frightful ill-luck to you if you
squint at her. There was a fellow at Cambridge who was cracked about
her ... used to come here in vac. and make love to her ... sit here for
hours spooning with a corpse. I often wanted to smack his face for
him!
Pose, I expect! Henry replied. I should have thought it was
rather dull to get smitten on a woman who's as dead as this one is....
They remembered Mrs. Clutters....
Let's go back and see what's happened, Gilbert said, turning away
from the case which held the Priestess....
Ninian met them in the hall. She's dead, he said. Her husband's
in the kitchen. I found him in a lodging-house in Camden Town, and I
should say he's a first-class rotter!
5
They sat together that evening without speaking. There was to have
been a meeting of the Improved Tories to talk over Roger's plan for
enlarging the Army and mitigating the problem of unemployment. They
could not get messages to people in time, and so part of the evening
was spent in whispered explanations at the door to those who turned up.
I think I'll go to bed, Ninian said, but he did not move, nor did
any of them move. It was as if they wished to keep together as long as
possible.
Magnolia, red-eyed from weeping, had come to them earlier in the
evening, declaring that she was frightened.
What are you afraid of? Roger snapped at her.
'Er! she answered.
But she's dead!...
Yes, sir, Magnolia said, that's why! I don't like goin' upstairs
be meself, sir!...
Oh, rubbish, Magnolia! Roger exclaimed.
I can't 'elp bein' afraid, sir. I know she's dead an' can't do me
no 'arm ... not that she'd want to do me any 'arm ... I will say that
for 'er ... but some'ow I'm afraid all the same, sir. I can't 'elp it!
I want to get a book out of my room, Henry interjected, so I'll
go upstairs with her!
Oh, thank you, sir, said Magnolia gratefully. I know she wouldn't
'arm me if she could 'elp it, not if she was alive any'ow, but they're
different when they're dead!... She broke down, blubbering hopelessly.
Oh, I wish I was 'ome, she moaned.
Come on, Magnolia! Henry said, opening the door for her.
That girl's getting on my nerves, Gilbert murmured when she had
gone.
Magnolia followed Henry upstairs. They had to pass the room in which
the dead woman lay, and Magnolia, when she reached the door, gave a
little squeal of fright and ran forward, thrusting past Henry....
Don't be a fool, Magnolia! he said, catching hold of her arm and
steadying her.
I'm frightened, sir! she moaned, looking up at him with dilated
eyes.
There's nothing to be afraid of. Come along!
He took her to her room and opened the door for her.
You're all right now, aren't you? he said, switching on the light.
Yes, thank you, sir!
Good-night, then!
Good-night, sir!
When she had shut the door, he heard her turning the key in the
lock, and he smiled at her precaution. That wouldn't hinder Mrs.
Clutters' ghost if she ... if she started to walk! he thought to
himself, as he descended the stairs to his room. He had switched off
the light on Magnolia's landing, but there was a light showing dimly up
the stairs from the landing beneath. It shone faintly on the door of
the room in which Mrs. Clutters' body was lying. He went down the
stairs towards the door, and then, half-way down, stopped. He could not
look away from the door ... he felt that in a moment or two it would
open, and Mrs. Clutters, in her grave-clothes, would stand in the
shadow and look at him with fixed eyes....
Don't be a fool! he said aloud, shaking his head and dashing his
hand across his eyes as if he were trying to sweep something away. I'm
nervy, that's what it is, he went on, still speaking aloud. I'm worse
than Magnolia!...
He descended the rest of the stairs, determined not to show any sign
of fear, and then, as he passed the door, he shut his eyes and hurried
by. He ran down the next flight of stairs, afraid to look back, and did
not pause in his running until he had reached the ground floor. He
stood still in the hall for a few minutes to recover himself, and then
he entered the room where the others were sitting.
They looked up at him.
All right? Ninian asked, and Henry nodded his head.
You haven't brought the book, Roger said.
No, he answered, No ... I changed my mind. I didn't really want
the book. I just said that to ... to get Magnolia out of the room!
6
Mrs. Clutters' husband insisted on seeing them after the funeral
because, he said, he wished to thank them for all they had done for
'er! He made a jerk over his shoulder with his thumb when he said
'er, and they gathered that he was indicating the direction of Kensal
Green cemetery. He was very maudlin and drunk, and Ninian thought that
he ought to be kicked.
I'm shorry, he said, to be thish con ... condish'n, gemmem, but
y'see it's like this. A gemman said to me, y'see, 'Bert,' 'e says ...
thash my name ... Bert, called after Queen's 'usban' ... Gaw' bless
'er!... Alber' the Goo' they called 'im ... not me, oh, Lor'
no!... thish gemmam, 'e says to me, 'Bert,' 'e says, 'come an' 'ave
one!' an' so o' course I 'ad to 'ave one. Thash 'ow 'twas, see!
Shorry to be in thish disgrashful state ... thish sad occas'n, gemmem.
Very shorry! I thank you! He turned to leave them, staggering
towards the door. I ain't been a good 'usban' to 'er, he went on,
again making the jerking gesture over his shoulder with his thumb.
Thash a fac'. I ain't. But I 'pologise. I'm shorry! Can't say no
more'n that, can I? Goo'-ni', gemmem!
And then he staggered out.
Somebody ought to do him in, said Ninian, going to see that he
left the house as quickly as possible.
Well, said Roger, when Ninian had returned, what are we going to
do next?
Sack Magnolia, said Gilbert.
And then? Roger went on.
I don't know, Gilbert replied.
I suppose we can get another housekeeper, Henry suggested.
Yes, we could do that, said Gilbert.
Roger got up and moved about the room for a few moments. I think I
shall get married, he said at last. I've got to get married some
time, and I might as well get married now. This ... this business seems
to provide an opportunity, don't you think?
It's a pity to break up the house, Gilbert murmured.
It'll have to be broken up some day, Roger retorted.
Ninian joined in. There's talk of a big railway contract in South
America, and I might have to go. Hare spoke of sending me. In about six
months' time....
We might let the house furnished for the remainder of the lease,
Roger went on. Perhaps some one would take the furniture over
altogether.... I could use some of it, of course, for my house when I
get married!
You've settled it then! said Gilbert.
Not exactly. I haven't said anything to Rachel yet. The idea
occurred to me in the chapel while the parson was saying the Burial
Service!
I could have hit that fellow, Gilbert exclaimed. Gabbling it off
like that! I suppose he was in a hurry to get home to tea!
They sat in silence for a while, each of them conjuring up the
vision of the cold little service in the cemetery chapel. Magnolia,
clothed in black, had sobbed loudly, while Mr. Clutters sniffed and
said A-men very emphatically, and the parson, regarding the little
group of mourners with the curiosity of a man who is bored by death and
the ritual of burial, gabbled away: NowisChristrisen
fromthedeadandbecomethefirstfruitsofthemthatsleptforsince
Bymancamedeathbymancamealso
Theresurrectionofthedead....
It means breaking up everything, Gilbert still protested.
Things are always breaking up, said Roger.
I suppose so, Gilbert replied.
Henry had not taken part in the conversation, but had lain back in
his chair, with his hands clasped behind his head, lazily listening to
what they were saying.
I don't think I'd like to go on living here, he exclaimed,
particularly if Roger and Ninian go away. Perhaps we could share a
flat or something, Gilbert?
That's a notion, Gilbert answered.
There's no reason why the Improved Tories should collapse just
because I'm going to get married, Roger asserted. This house really
isn't the most convenient place to meet. We might hire a room in a
hotel near the Strand and meet there....
7
The house was let unfurnished. The incoming tenant was willing to
take on the remainder of their lease and continue in occupation of the
house after its expiry, but he had furniture of his own, and so he had
no use for theirs. Roger took his furniture to a small house in
Hampstead, and offered to buy most of what was left, but they would not
listen to his proposals. We'll give it to you as a wedding present,
they insisted. If there's anything you don't want, well sell it!
Magnolia was presented with a couple of months' wages and a new dress,
and bidden to get another home as soon as she could conveniently do so
... and then the house was abandoned.
It's funny, said Gilbert, as they shut the door behind them for
the last time, it's funny that we hardly ever thought of that old
woman, and yet, the minute she dies, we sort of go to pieces. We didn't
even know she'd got a husband. Her name was Jennifer. I saw it on the
coffin lid!...
Their arrangements for quitting the house were not completed for a
month after the burial of Mrs. Clutters, and before they finally
settled their affairs, Ninian was told that he was to proceed to South
America with the junior partner. He was to have a couple of months'
leave ... I shall go down to Boveyhayne, he said ... after which he
would leave England for a lengthy while. And then there were three!
said Gilbert, when Ninian told them of his appointment. Three little
clever boys, he went on, going up to fame. One little clever boy got
married and then there were two!...
Until they could make some settlement of their future, they decided
to live in a boarding house in Russell Square.
We shall loathe it, Gilbert said, but that will be good for us!
8
And then Roger and Rachel got married. They walked into a
Registrar's office, with Gilbert and Ninian and Henry to bear them
company, and made their declarations of fealty to each other.
My father would have been horrified, Roger said at luncheon
afterwards. If he'd been alive, Rachel, we'd have had to get married
in a church!
Rachel smiled. I shouldn't have minded, Roger! she answered.
You'll laugh, I know, when I tell you that half-way through the
service I began to long for a surplice and the Voice that Breathed O'er
Eden. A marriage in a church is a lot prettier than one in a
Registrar's office!...
If only the Mayor of the Borough had performed the ceremony,
Gilbert lamented. In his nice furry red robes and cocked hat, joining
you two together in the name of the Borough of Holborn, he 'd have
looked rather jolly! Roger, we ought to get the Improved Tories to
consider the question of Civil Marriage. We want more beauty in it.
Rachel, my dear, I haven't kissed you yet. I look upon myself as
Roger's best man, and I ought to kiss you!
Very well, Gilbert, she answered, turning her face towards him.
You've deceived us all, Rachel, he said as he kissed her. We'd
made up our minds to hate you because you were taking our little Roger
from us, and at first we thought we were right to hate you because you
were so aggressive to us, but you've deceived us. We don't hate you. We
like you, Rachel!
Do you, Gilbert? She turned to Ninian and Henry. Do you like me,
too? she said.
I shouldn't mind marrying you myself, Ninian replied.
I don't see why Gilbert should get all the kisses, said Henry.
After all, I more or less gave you away, didn't I? I was there
anyhow!....
So she kissed Ninian and Henry too. Then, a little later, Roger and
she went off to spend a honeymoon in Normandy.
9
I feel horribly lonely somehow, said Gilbert to Henry. Ninian, in
a hurry to catch the train for Boveyhayne at Waterloo, had left them at
Charing Cross.
Henry nodded his head.
This marrying and giving in marriage is the devil, isn't it?
Gilbert went on. We ought to cheer ourselves up, Quinny!
We ought, Gilbert!
Let's go and see my play. Perhaps that'll make us feel merry and
bright!...
No, said Henry. It wouldn't. It 'ud depress us. We'd keep
thinking of Ninian and Roger. I think we ought to get drunk, Gilbert,
very and incredibly drunk....
I should feel like Mrs. Clutters' husband if I did that, Gilbert
answered. Aren't there any other forms of debauchery? Couldn't we go
to a music-hall or a picture-palace or something? Or we might discuss
our future!...
I'm sick of this boarding house we're in, Henry exclaimed.
So am I, but I don't feel like setting up house again. I'm certain
you'd go and get married the moment we'd settled into a place....
I'm not a marrying man, Gilbert, Henry interrupted.
Well, what are you, Quinny?
I don't know!
They were wandering aimlessly along the streets. They had drifted
along Regent Street, and then had drifted into Oxford Street, and were
going slowly in the direction of Marble Arch.
Quinny! said Gilbert after a while.
Yes? Henry answered.
Have you ... have you seen Cecily since you came back?
Yes. Twice!
Gilbert did not ask the question which was on the tip of his tongue,
but Henry was willing to give the answer without being asked.
She didn't appear to know I'd been away, he said.
She knew all the same!...
She just said, 'Hilloa, Paddy I' and went on talking to the other
people who were there too. I tried to outstay them, but Jimphy came in
the first time, and there was a painter there the second time, who
wouldn't budge. He's painting her portrait. I've not seen her
since....
You're glad, aren't you, that I kidnapped you, Quinny?
In a way, yes!
You got on with your book, anyhow. You'd never have done that if
you'd stayed in town, trailing after Cecily!
I can't quite make you out, Gilbert, Henry said, turning to his
friend. Are you in love with Cecily?
Gilbert nodded his head. Of course, I am, but what's the good?
Cecily doesn't love me any more than she loves you. She doesn't love
any man particularly. She's ... just an Appetite. You and I are no more
to her than ... than the caramel she ate last Tuesday. The only hope
for us is that we shall grow out of this caramel state or at all events
get the upper hand of it.... In the meantime, what are we going to do?
Work, I suppose. 'Turbulence' is nearly finished, and I'm itching
to get on with a new story I've thought of. I'm calling it 'The Wayward
Man.' ...
We might go into the country....
Or hire a furnished flat for a while....
Or do something.... Lordy God, Quinny, we're getting frightfully
vague and loose-endy. We really must pull ourselves together. There's a
bun-shop somewhere about. Suppose we have tea?
10
They took a furnished flat in Buckingham Street, and lived there
while Henry completed Turbulence and saw it through the press.
Gilbert had finished another comedy soon after the production of The
Magic Casement, and Sir Geoffrey Mundane had asked for a first option
on it. The Magic Casement was not a great popular success, but it
paid its way, as Sir Geoffrey said. It was performed for a hundred
and twenty times in England, and for three weeks in America, where it
failed lamentably. I never did think much of a republic! Gilbert said
when he heard of the play's failure.
Roger and Rachel had settled in their house in Hampstead soon after
Gilbert and Henry had taken the furnished flat, and after a while, some
of the old routine of their lives, except that part of it represented
by Ninian, went on as before. Most of Ninian's leave was spent in
quelling his mother's alarms about his journey to South America. It's
a splendid chance for me, mother! he insisted. It's jolly decent of
old Hare to give it to me!
But it's so far away, Ninian, dear, and if anything were to happen
to you!...
Nothing'll happen to me, mother ... nothing serious anyhow. Heaps
of chaps go off to places like that without turning a hair!
But I've only got you, Ninian! Mrs. Graham objected.
You've got Mary, too, and I shall come back to you!
One evening, as they walked along the road that leads to Sidmouth,
she put her arm in his, and drew him near to her.
Ninian, dear, she said very softly and hesitatingly as if she were
afraid to say all that was in her mind.
Yes, mother!
Ninian, I sometimes wish ...
Again she hesitated, and again he said, Yes, mother?
Her speech took another direction. There have been Grahams at
Boveyhayne for four hundred years, dear, and there's only you left
now.
He looked at her uncomprehendingly. Well, mother!...
My dear, we can't let it go away from us. It's us, and we're it,
and if anything were to happen to you, and a stranger were to come
here!
But, my dear mother, he interrupted, nothing's going to happen to
me, and no one's going to get Boveyhayne away from us. Why should any
one?...
She put her free hand on his sleeve. When Roger married Rachel,
she said, I wished ... I wished that you were Roger, Ninian!
You want me to get married, mother?
She did not answer, but her clasp on his arm tightened.
A chap can't marry a girl just for the sake of getting married,
mother!...
No, dear, I know, but ...
I've not seen a girl yet that I wanted particularly. You see, I've
been awfully busy at my job!... I know how you feel, mother, about
Boveyhayne, and I feel like that myself sometimes. I used to think it
was rather rot all this talk about Family and keeping on and ... and
that kind of thing, but I can't help feeling proud of ... of all those
old chaps who went before me, and ... all that, and I'd hate to break
the line ... only I can't just go up to a girl and ... and say, 'We
want some ... some babies in our house!' ...
No, dear, you can't say that, of course, but there are
plenty of nice girls about, and if you would just ... just think of
some of them, instead of always thinking of works and tunnels and
things!... Of course, I know that tunnels are very interesting, Ninian,
but ... but Boveyhayne!...
She did not say any more. She stood by the gate of a field, looking
over the valley of the Axe to the hilly country that separates Dorset
from Devon, seeing nothing because her eyes were full of tears. He
slipped his arm from hers and put it round her waist and drew her close
to him. All right, mother! he said.
My dear! she said, reaching up and kissing him.
11
They dined together on Ninian's last night in England. Rachel, with
fine understanding, insisted that they should dine alone, although they
urged her to join them.
I say, you chaps, Ninian said to them, you might go and see my
mater sometimes. She'd be awfully glad. Quinny, you haven't been to
Boveyhayne for centuries. ... If you'd go, now and then, you'd cheer
the mater up. She's awfully down in the mouth about me going!
Righto, Ninian! said Gilbert.
Mary was saying what a long time it was since you were there,
Quinny, Ninian went on.
Did she? Henry answered.
Yes. I hope you'll go down sometime.
I will, he said.
THE SECOND CHAPTER
1
Mrs. Graham invited Gilbert and Henry to spend Christmas at
Boveyhayne, and they gladly accepted her invitation, but a week before
they were due to go to Devonshire, Mr. Quinn fell ill, and Henry,
alarmed by the reports which were sent to him by Hannah, wrote to Mrs.
Graham to say that he must travel to Ireland at once. He hurried home
to Ballymartin, and found that his father was more ill even than Hannah
had hinted.
I wouldn't have let her send for you, Henry! he said,
apologetically, only I was afraid ... I mightn't see you again!
He tried to cheer his father by protesting that in a little while he
would be astride his horse again, directing the farm experiments as
vigorously as ever, but Mr. Quinn shook his head. I don't think so,
Henry! he said. I'll not be fit for much anyway. You'll have to lend
a hand with the estate, my son.
I'll help all I can, father, but I'm not much of an
agriculturist!...
Well, you can't be everything. That new book of yours ... the one
you sent me the other day!...
'Turbulence,' father?
Aye. It's a gran' book, that. I'd like well to be able to write a
book of that sort. I'm proud of you. Henry!
Henry blushed and turned away shyly, for direct praise always
embarrassed him, but he was very pleased with his father's praises
which gave him greater pleasure than the praises of any one else, even
Gilbert.
You'll stay home a while, now you're here, Henry, son, won't you?
Yes, father, as long as you like!
That's right. You'll be able to work away here in peace and
quietness. Nobody'll disturb you. I suppose you're started on another
book?
Henry told him of The Wayward Man. ...
That's a great title, he said. You're a gran' one at gettin' good
titles for your books, Henry. I was readin' a bit in the paper about
you the other day, an' I near wrote to the man an' told him you were my
son, I was that pleased. Ease this pillow under my head, will you?
Thanks, boy!
He took Henry's hand in his. I'm right an' glad to have you home
again, he said, smiling at him. Right an' glad!
2
The whole of The Wayward Man was completed before Mr. Quinn was
well enough to move about easily. Henry spent the morning and part of
the afternoon on his novel, giving the rest of the day to his father.
Sometimes, in his walks, Henry met young farmers and labourers
returning from the Orange Hall where they had been doing such drill as
can be done indoors. On Saturday afternoons, they would set off to join
other companies of the Ulster Volunteer Force in a route march. Jamesey
McKeown had begun to learn wireless telegraphy and was already expert
with flag-signals and the heliograph. Peter Logan, who had married
Sheila Morgan, had been promoted to be a sergeant.... I suppose
Sheila's a nurse? Henry said to him the first time he met him.
She's nursin' a wean, Mr. Henry! Logan replied, winking heavily.
We've a couple already, an' there'll be another afore long. She's as
punctual as the clock, Sheila. She's a great woman for fine, healthy
childher!
Well, that's what you want, isn't it? Henry said.
Aye, you're right, sir. You are, indeed. There's nothin' til beat a
lot of young childher about the house. Will you come an' see the
drill?...
Henry went to see a display in a field just outside Ballymartin. The
men marched and counter-marched, and charged and skirmished, and did
physical drill until they were tired and sweating, while their women
looked on in pride and pleasure. Sheila was there, too, and Henry went
to her and sat beside her while the military manoeuvres took place. She
made no impression on him now ... he saw her simply as a countrywoman
in the family way ... a little blowsy and dishevelled and red with
exertion.
For dear sake, Henry! she said in greeting, holding out her hand
to him.
Well, he said, when does the war begin?
Aw, now, she answered, don't ask me! Sure, I'm never done coddin'
Peter about it. But it's the grand health, Henry. You'd never believe
the differs it's made to that wee lad, Gebbie, that serves in Dobbin's
shop. I declare to my God, he had a back as roun' as a hoop 'til they
started these Volunteers, but now he's like a ramrod. He's a marvel,
that lad! Teeshie Halpin's taken a notion of him since he straightened
up, an' as sure as you're living she'll have him the minute they can
scrape a few ha'pence thegether to buy a wheen of furniture. Well, if
the Volunteers never does no more nor that, they'll have done well, for
dear knows, Andy Gebbie was an affront to the Almighty, an' him
stoopin' that way!
But are they going to fight, Sheila?...
Ah, get away with you, man! said Sheila. What in the name of all
that's good an' gracious, would they be fightin' for? Sure, they're
lettin' on, to frighten the English out of their wits! She changed the
talk to more interesting discourse. I've two childher now, she said.
So Peter was telling me, he answered.
A wee boy an' a wee girl. An' terrible wee tories they are, too!
They're about somewhere with their aunt Kate. An' how an' all are you,
Henry?
I'm very well, Sheila.
You're lookin' gran'. I hear you write books, but I never read noan
of them!
Would you like to read them? he asked.
I would, fine. Dear, oh, I often wonder how anybody can write
books. I never was no hand at writin' anything, not even a letter. But
I suppose there's a knack in it, an' once you learn it, you're all
right!
Yes, he replied, that's about it. I'll send my books to you. I'd
have sent them before if I'd thought you'd care to read them!
You might 'a' knowed rightly, I'd be glad to have them....
3
But Sheila's good-natured scorn for the Ulster Volunteer Force did
not convince Henry. One could not look at these drilling men, and feel
satisfied that they were pretending to be angry or that they did not
mean what they said, when they declared that they would die in the last
ditch rather than consent to be governed by Nationalists. Mr. Quinn
spent much time in denouncing Sir Edward Carson and his friends, but he
did not doubt for a moment that the followers would fight. He had very
little faith in the sincerity of the politicians. That fellow, F. E.
Smith, he exclaimed wrathfully, what in hell is he doin' over here,
I'd like to know? I'd like to kick his backside for him, an' pack him
back to wherever he come from! And there was F. E. Robinson, too,
bounding about Ulster like a well-polished young gentleman from the
Gaiety chorus, and delivering historical orations that filled the crowd
with amazement.
He's the great cod, that lad! Mr. Quinn said. He's worse nor
Smith. He come down here to Ballymartin, an' he made a speech all about
King James's foreign policy, and mentioned a whole lot of people that
the Or'ngemen never heard tell of. It would 'a' done well for a lecture
at the Queen's College ... you should 'a' seen the men nudgin' one
another, an' askin' who he was, an' what in the name of God he was
talkin' about! 'Why doesn't he curse the Pope an' 'a' done wi' it!' one
fellow said to another. 'That lad curse anybody!' says the other one.
'Sure, he'd near boak[3] himself if he done the like of that!' Aye,
there's a lot of bletherin' about the Volunteers, but all the same I
don't like the look o' things, an' if they're not careful there'll be
bother. It'll take the men at the top all their time to hold the bottom
ones down. It ought never to have been allowed to begin with. The
minute they started their drillin' an' palaver, they ought to 'a' been
stopped. Have you seen John Marsh lately, Henry?
I saw him when I was in Dublin a few months ago with Gilbert
Farlow. He's drilling, too!...
It's fearful, that's what it is. Fightin' an' wranglin' like that!
I wish I could get him up here a while. I'd talk to him, an' try an'
put some sense into him. Do you think would he come if I was to ask
him?
I daresay, father. Shall I write to him for you?
Aye, do, Henry. I like that fellow quaren well, an' I'd be sorry if
any harm come to him. He's the sort gets into any bother that's about!
Write to him now, will you, an' you'll catch the evenin' mail!
Henry got writing materials and wrote the letter in his father's
room. Will that do? he said, passing it to Mr. Quinn for inspection.
That'll do fine, Mr. Quinn replied, when he had finished reading
it. Matier'll take it to the letterbox!
I don't know what the world's comin' to, he went on, a little
fractiously. There's a fellow wouldn't harm a fly, drillin' and
gettin' ready to shoot people. An' Irish people, too! One lot of
Irishmen wantin' to shoot another lot!... They're out of their minds,
that's what's wrong wi' them. There's Matier ... you'd think at his
age, he'd have more sense, but nothin'll do him but he must be off of
an evenin' formin' fours. And what for? I'd like to know. I says to
him, 'William Henry, who do you want to kill?' 'The Home Rulers an' the
Papishes!' says he. 'Quit, man,' says I, 'an' talk sense.' 'I am
talkin' sense,' says he. 'You're not,' I says to him. 'D'you mean to
stan' there an' tell me you want to kill Hugh Kearney?' 'I do not
indeed,' says he. 'What put that notion in your head?' 'Isn't he a
Catholic an' a Home Ruler?' says I. I had him properly when I said
that, for him an' Hugh Kearney is like brothers to one another. 'Would
you kill him?' I says to Matier. 'No, sir, I wouldn't,' he answers me
back. 'I'd shed me heart's blood for him!' And he would, too!... I've
always been against Home Rule, Henry, an' you know well why, but I'm
more against this sort of thing than I am against that, and anyway I'm
not so sure it wouldn't be better in the long run. There's too much
Socialism in England, an' we have to put up with the results of it
because of the Union. The Socialists get this law an' that law passed,
an' we have to suffer it in Ireland because we're tied up to
England....
4
John Marsh came to Ballymartin. Henry had sent a private note to
him, urging him to accept his father's invitation. He's very ill,
he wrote, and he would like to see you. I'm afraid he may not get
better, although there's a chance....
There you are, John Marsh! Mr. Quinn said to him, as he entered
the bedroom. An' what damned nonsense are you up to now, will you tell
me?
John smiled at him. You're to get well at once, he answered. We
can't have you lying ill at a time like this!
An' aren't you an' the like of you enough to make any man ill? Come
here to me, an' let me have a look at you. I can't see you rightly in
that light.... You're lookin' pale on it, John. What ails you?
I'm tired, that's all. I shall be all right in the morning....
You're workin' yourself to death! That's what you're doin'. Sit
down there by the side of the bed till I talk to you!
John drew a chair up to the old man's bedside, and sat down on it as
he had been bidden. Henry, anxious lest his father should overtax his
strength, sat at the foot of the bed.
An' what are you drillin' for? Mr. Quinn demanded of John.
We must defend ourselves, Mr. Quinn....
Defend me granny! An' who's goin' to harm you? Henry made a motion
as if he would quieten his father, but the old man shook him off.
Leave me alone, Henry, he said, an' let me have my say! He turned
again to John Marsh. Isn't there the English Army to defend you if
anybody tries to injure you? What call have you to start another lot of
damned volunteers to be makin' ill-feelin' in the country for?
We must be prepared to defend ourselves, John insisted. We can't
trust the English....
And so they wrangled until Mr. Quinn, too tired to continue, sent
Henry and Marsh from his room.
Take him away an' talk to him, Henry! he said. He'll not be happy
'til he's in bother, that lad. Away on with you, John!...
5
It was while John Marsh was at Ballymartin, that the mutiny at the
Curragh Camp took place. The soldiers had been ordered to Ulster to
maintain order ... and their officers had refused to go.
I thought you said we could depend on the English Army, John
exclaimed to Mr. Quinn in very excited tones. This looks like it,
doesn't it? If they'd been ordered to march on us, they'd have
done it quick enough. That's why we're drilling, Mr. Quinn. We've got
to defend ourselves. Supposing the Ulster Volunteers attack us!...
They won't, Mr. Quinn snapped at him.
But supposing they do, are we to sit down and let them do it? I
tell you we daren't trust to the English. They'll promise everything
and give nothing. That's the nature of them. They're a treacherous
race!...
I wish to my God you had some sense, John Marsh, said Mr. Quinn.
Oh, I know you think I'm a madman, but you can't deny facts, and
the facts are that the English have systematically betrayed the Irish
throughout their history. If there's a war on, they go down on their
hands and knees and ask us to win it for them ... they offer us the sun
and the moon and the stars for our help ... but the minute they've got
over their fright, they start plotting to get out of their promises.
They've done it before and they'll do it again. I want our Volunteers
to be more than a defensive organisation. I want them to be an
offensive organisation. If we don't look out very sharply well find
that the English have ruined Ireland again. They've started to do it
openly now. You've heard, haven't you, about the Cunard Line and
Queenstown?... It appeared that the Cunard Line had abandoned
Queenstown as a port of call for American liners.... That means
absolute ruin for Queenstown!... Casement tried to get the
Hamburg-Amerika line to send their boats instead, and they'd agreed to
do so ... all the preparations were made to welcome the first of their
boats ... and then the scheme was abandoned by the Germans. The English
Foreign office got at them!... Oh, of course, it's only Ireland, and
Irish people and Irish interests can be neglected and ruined without a
blush so long as the English interests are safe.... More and more I'm
convinced that we've got to separate from them. They're a common-minded
people. You know they are! They're hucksters ... they think in ... in
ha'porths!...
6
The attempt to bring John Marsh to reason was a failure, and he went
back to Dublin more resolved to make the Volunteers an offensive body
than he had been when he arrived. He had seen a review of the Ulster
Volunteer Force in Belfast and the setness of the men impressed him.
They'll fight all right, he said. I don't suppose their leaders have
any stomach for fighting, but the men have plenty. By God, I wish they
were on our side!
Well, why don't you try to get them on your side! Henry demanded.
Your notion of conciliating them is to start getting ready to fight
them!
We have tried to conciliate them, Marsh replied. When Carson
formed his Provisional Government, some of us asked him to extend it to
the whole of Ireland. Do you think we wouldn't rather have Carson than
Redmond? He's got some stuff in him anyhow, but Redmond!...
He made a gesture of contempt. I've no use, he said, for a man
who looks so like Napoleon without being Napoleon!
But Carson wouldn't, he went on. It's all very well to say
'Conciliate Ulster!' but Ulster won't let us conciliate her. The Ulster
people have nothing but contempt for us, and they ram Belfast down our
throats until we're sick of it. And a lot of their prosperity is just
good luck and ... and favour. They've been well looked after by the
English, and they're near everything ... coalfields and Lancashire. Do
you think if Galway was where Belfast is, it wouldn't be as prosperous?
If they're so almighty clever as they say they are, why don't they come
and lead us, instead of clinging on to England like a pampered kid?...
Henry listened patiently to John. There must, he thought, be some
powerful motive for so much passion. He had come to look upon
nationality as a contemptible thing, a fretful preoccupation with
little affairs, but when he faced the fury of John Marsh, he could not
deny that this passion, whether it be little or big, will bring the
world to broils until it be satisfied. He did not now feel that
irritation which he had formerly felt when John derided the English or
called them by opprobrious names. He could make allowances for the
anger of the dispossessed. That kind of talk, he thought, kills
itself. Marsh has only to let himself go along enough, and he'll let
himself go altogether. He'll exhaust his abuse....
He remembered that when Gilbert and he had arrived in Dublin after
their flight from London, they had tried to discover just what Marsh
and his friends meant to do with Ireland when they had gained control
of the country ... but Marsh and his friends had no plans. They talked
vaguely of the national spirit and of self-government, but they could
not be induced to name a specific reform to which they would set their
minds. Some one had given a copy of Dale's Report of Irish Elementary
Education to Henry, and he had read it with something like horror. It
seemed to him that here was the whole Irish problem, that when this was
solved, everything was solved ... but when he spoke of it to Marsh and
his friends he found that most of them had never heard of Dale's
Report, were scarcely aware of the fact that there was an Irish
education problem. We'll deal with that after we've got Home Rule,
they would say, waving their hands in the airy fashion in which futile
people always wave their hands. And so it was with everything else.
They would deal with that after they had got Home Rule. Gilbert
and Henry had explored the Combe and the dreadful swamp of slums
reaching up from Ringsend and spilling almost into the gardens of
Merrion Square....
But don't they know about this? Gilbert asked in amazement. I
mean, haven't they any eyes ... or noses?
They'll deal with that after they've got Home Rule, Henry
answered miserably.
They had gone back to their lodgings in a state of deep depression.
Wherever one went in Dublin, one was followed by little whining
children, demanding alms in the cadging voice of the professional
beggar, and many of them were hopelessly diseased....
I thought the Irish were very religious and moral? Gilbert said
once, as they passed a group of sickly children sitting at the entrance
to a court of Baggot Street.
Why? Henry replied.
These kids are syphilitic, Gilbert answered. The place is full of
syphilis!
Dublin is a garrison town and a University town, said Henry, with
a shrug of his shoulders. There are eight barracks in Dublin ... it's
the most be-barracked city in the Kingdom.... Oh, we're terribly moral,
we Irish. As moral as ostriches. If you pick up a Dublin newspaper,
it's a million to one you'll see a reference to 'the innate purity of
the Irish women,' written probably by a boozy reporter. No, Gilbert,
you're wrong about these kids. They're not syphilitic.... Good Lord,
no! That's English misgovernment. Wait 'til they've got Home Rule ...
and those kids won't be syphilitic any more!...
They had met a man at Ernest Harper's who wore the kilt of the Gael,
and had listened to him while he bleated about the beautiful purity of
the Irish women. He was a convert to Catholicism and Nationalism and
anti-Englishism, and he had the appearance of a nicely-brought-up
saint. He looks as if he had just committed a miracle, and is afraid
he may do it again! Gilbert whispered to Henry. This man purred at
them. The priests have kept Ireland pure, he murmured. Many harsh
things have been said about them, but no one has ever denied that they
have kept Ireland pure!
I do, said Henry, full of desire to shock the Celt.
You do?...
Anybody can keep a man pure by putting him in prison. That's what
the priests have done. They've put the Irish people in gaol!...
The kilted Celt shrank away from him. He was sorry, but he could not
possibly sit still and listen to such conversation. He hoped that he
was as broad-minded as any one, but there were limits.... Very wisely,
he thought, the Church!...
Blast the Church! said Henry, and the kilted Celt had gone
shivering away from him.
That kind of person makes me foam at the mouth, Henry muttered to
Gilbert The Irish people aren't any purer than any other race. It's
all bunkum, this talk about their 'innate purity.' If you clap the
population into gaol, you can keep them 'pure,' in act anyhow, and if
the priests won't let the sexes mingle openly, they can get up a
spurious purity just like that. If a girl gets into trouble in Ireland,
she goes to the priest and confesses, and the priest takes jolly good
care that the man marries her. That's why the rate of illegitimacy is
so low. And anyhow, the bulk of the people are agricultural, and
country people are more continent than any other people. It's the same
in England, but the English don't go about bleating of their 'innate
purity.' I tell you, Gilbert, the trouble with this country is
self-consciousness....
Home Rule ought to cure that! said Gilbert.
That's why I'm a Home Ruler, Henry replied. If you chaff these
people, they get angry and want to fight. If anybody were to get up in
a public hall and say about the Irish one-quarter of the things that
Bernard Shaw says in public about the English, the audience would flay
him alive and wreck the building. They're too little to stand chaff
easily. It takes a big people to bear criticism good-naturedly.... All
the same, Gilbert, your damned countrymen are to blame for all this!
I know that, said Gilbert, but your damned countrymen seem
determined to remain like it!
8
Mr. Quinn and Henry had talked of Ireland and of John Marsh, after
John had returned to Dublin.
Sometimes, said Mr. Quinn, I think that the best thing for
Ireland would be to let the two sides fight. That might bring them
together. One damned good scrap ... and they might shake hands and
become reconciled. There was as much antagonism and bitterness between
the North and South in America as there is between the North and South
in Ireland ... and on the whole, I think the Civil War did a lot of
good!
It's a damned queer country, Henry! he went on, lying down and
drawing the bedclothes up about his neck. Damned queer!
I suppose they all know what they're up to, he continued, looking
intently at the ceiling. But I don't!
Are you comfortable, father? Henry asked, bending anxiously over
Mr. Quinn who had a grey, tired look on his face.
Yes, thank you, Henry, I'm ... I'm comfortable enough! He turned
his head slightly and gazed at Henry for a few moments without
speaking. Then he smiled at him. I tried hard to make an Irishman out
of you, Henry, he said.
I am an Irishman, father!
Aye, but a very Irishman. Many's a time I wonder what you
are. What are you, Henry? You're not English an' you're not Irish. What
are you?
I don't know, father. I'm very Irish when I'm in England, and I'm
very English when I'm here!
That's no good, Henry. All you do is to make both sides angry. You
should be something all the time!
I try to be fair, said Henry.
That'll not lead you very far. Well, well, the world's the world,
and there's an end of it!
9
Sitting in the garden that evening, looking towards the hazy hills,
Henry wondered, too, what he was. Indeed, he told himself, he loved
Ireland, but then he loved England, also. Once, when he was in Trinity,
he had trudged up into the mountains, and had sat on a stone and gazed
down on the city and, beyond it, to the sea, and while he had sat
there, a great love of his country had come into his heart, and he had
found himself irrationally loving the earth about him, just because it
was Irish earth. He had tried to check this love which was conquering
him, and he had scraped up a handful of earth and rubbed his fingers in
it. Soil, he had murmured aloud. Just soil ... like any other soil!
and then, suddenly, overpoweringly, irresistibly, something had
quickened in him, and while he was murmuring that the earth he had
scraped up was just soil, he had raised it to his lips and had kissed
it.... And as quickly as the impulse to kiss the earth came to him,
came also revulsion. That was a sloppy thing to do, he said to
himself, and he flung the earth away from him.
He had stayed there until the evening, lulled by the warm wind that
blew about the mountains, and soothed by the soft, kindly smell of
burning turf. There was an odour of smouldering furze near by, and the
air was full of pleasant sounds: the rattle of carts, the call of a man
to a dog, the whinnying of horses and the deep lowing of cows. He
turned on his side and looked seawards. The sun had set in a great
field of golden cloud, throwing splashes of light down the sides of the
mountains and turning little rain-pools into pools of fire; but now the
dusk was settling down, and as Henry looked towards the sea, he saw
lights shining out of the houses, making warm and comforting signals in
the dark. Dublin lay curled about the Bay, covered by smoke that was
pierced here and there by the chimney-stacks of factories. There,
beneath him, were little rocking lights on the boats and ships that lay
in Kingstown Harbour or drifted up and down the Irish Sea, and over
there, across the Bay, the great high hump of Howth thrust itself
upwards. A tired ship sailed slowly up to the city, trailing a long
line of white foam behind her.... He stood up and looked about him; and
again the love of Ireland came into his heart, and this time he did not
try to check it. He yielded to it, giving himself up to it
completely....
You can't help it, he murmured to himself. You simply can't help
it!...
But he loved England, too. There had been nights when he had loved
London as a man might love his mother ... when the curve of the Thames,
and the dark shine of its water against the arches of Waterloo Bridge,
and the bulging dome of St. Paul's rising proudly out of the haze and
smoke, and the view of the little humpy hills at Harrow that was seen
from the Hampstead Heath ... when all these became like living things
that loved him and were loved by him. Once, with Gilbert, he had
wandered over Romney Marsh, from Hythe to Rye, and had felt that Kent
and Sussex were as close to him as Antrim and Down. And Devonshire,
from north and south, was friendly and native to him. He had tramped
about Exmoor and had seen the red deer running swiftly from the hunt,
and had climbed a bare scarp of Dartmoor, startling the wild ponies so
that they ran off with their long tails flying in the air, scattering
the flocks of sheep in their flight. The very names of the Devonshire
rivers were like homely music to him, and he would say the names over
to himself for the pleasure of their sound: Taw and Tamar and Torridge,
the Teign and the Dart and the Exe, and the rivers about Boveyhayne,
the Sid and the Otter, the Coly, the Axe and the Yarty....
I'm not de-nationalised, he insisted. I love Ireland and England.
I'm part of them and they are part of me, and we shall never be
separate....
10
He had stayed at Ballymartin until he had completed The Wayward
Man. His father's health had varied greatly, but soon after the
publication of the new novel, it mended and, although he did not
recover his old strength and vigour, he was well enough to move about
and superintend the work on his farm.
You can go back to London now, Henry! he said to his son one
morning, after breakfast. I know you're just itchin' to get back
there, an' I'm sure I'm sick, sore an' tired of the sight of you. Away
off with you, now! And Henry, protesting that he did not wish to go,
had gone to London. Gilbert's second comedy, Sylvia, had been
produced by Sir Geoffrey Mundane and, like The Magic Casement, had
achieved a fair amount of success. But I haven't done anything big
yet, Gilbert complained to Henry. My aim's better than it was, but
I'm still missing the point. Perhaps the next one will hit it....
In London, Henry began The Fennels, but after he had written a
couple of chapters, he found himself unable to proceed with it.
I must go back to Ireland, he said to Gilbert. I want the feel of
Ulster. I can't get it into this book unless I'm there, somehow! And
so, sooner than he had anticipated, he returned to Ballymartin, where
The Fennels was finished, and there he stayed until Gilbert wrote and
asked him to join him at Tre'Arrdur Bay.
You can't get much nearer to Ireland than that, he wrote: You hop
into the boat at Kingstown and hop out of it again at Holyhead and
there you are!...
I shall be back again in a month, father! he had said to Mr.
Quinn, and then he had taken train to Belfast, where he was to change
for Dublin and thence go to Wales.
In Belfast, there was great excitement because the Ulster Volunteers
had successfully landed a cargo of guns that were purchased in Germany.
The Volunteers had seized the coastguard stations at Larne and at
Donaghadee and Bangor, overawing the police, and there had been much
jocularity. It was all done in excellent taste. Had it not been for the
death of a coastguard through heart failure, there would have been
nothing to mar the jolly entertainment....
11
I suppose John Marsh was sick about the gun-running in Ulster?
said Gilbert to Henry, as they approached the hotel at Tre'Arrdur Bay
at which they were to stay.
No, I don't think so. He seemed to think it was rather fine of the
Ulstermen to do it. You see, it's put the Government in a hole, and
that pleases him. He was very mysterious in his talk, and full of
hints!...
Are they going to run guns, too? Gilbert asked.
I shouldn't be surprised, said Henry. One of these days a gun'll
go off, and then they'll stop playing the fool, I suppose!
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THE THIRD CHAPTER
1
Roger's getting all his facts in fine trim for the book on a
National Army, Gilbert said after lunch. The thing's been much bigger
than any of us imagined, but Roger's a sticker, and he's got a lot
done!
I'd nearly forgotten about that business, Henry replied.
Roger hasn't forgotten. He's been spending a great deal of time in
Bermondsey lately, and I shouldn't be surprised if the local Tories
adopt him as their candidate at the next election. I don't suppose
he'll get in. It'll be a pity if he doesn't. Rachel's making it easier
for him. Roger says she's popular with the girls in the jam factories
... and of course that's very useful. You see, Rachel tells the girls
to tell their mothers to tell their fathers to vote for Roger when the
time comes, and the fathers'll have to do it or they'll get a hell of a
time from their women. I can tell you, Quinny, Rachel knows what's
what. She's going to ask some of the jam-girls out to tea and show them
the baby!...
Good old British Slop, Gilbert! Do you remember how we swore that
we would never have anything to do with Slop?...
We've had a lot to do with it. Roger was right. The Slop is there
and you've got to make allowances for it, and after all, why shouldn't
Rachel show her baby to the girls? Damn it all, a baby is a remarkable
thing, when you come to think of it. All that wriggle and bubble and
squeak and kick ... and Lord only knows what'll come out of it! We
ought to get married, Quinny, and father a few brats. My own notion is
to get hold of a nice, large, healthy female of the working-class and
set her up in a very ugly house in a very ugly suburb, near a municipal
park, and give her three pounds a week for herself, and an allowance
for every child she produces. I could have all the pride and pleasure
of parenthood without the boredom and nuisance of being a husband, and
the youngsters would probably be young giants. The girl wouldn't mind
how many she had, and she'd feed 'em herself. There'd be no damned
bottle and no damned limitation. And I'd put all the boys in the Navy,
and I'd make cooks out of the girls ... cooks, Quinny, not
food-murderers, and I'd call the first boy Michael John, and the second
boy Patrick James and the third boy Peter William and the fourth boy
Roger Henry Gilbert Ninian....
And what would you call the girls?
Wait a minute! I haven't done with the boys yet. And I'd call the
fifth boy Matthew. I'd call the first girl Margaret, and the second
girl Bridget, and the third girl Rachel, and the fourth girl Mary, and
I'm damned if I know what I'd call the fifth girl, so I'd let her
mother choose her name. And they'd all know how to swim, and manage a
boat, and box, and whistle with two fingers in their mouths, and the
girls' chief ambition would be to get married and have babies. They'd
have a competition to see who could have the most. And their husbands
would all be big, hearty men. Margaret would marry a blacksmith, and
Bridget 'ud marry a fisherman, and Rachel 'ud marry a farmer, and
Mary'd marry a soldier and the other one would marry a sailor. Mary's
man 'ud be a sergeant-major, a fat sergeant-major, and the other one's
'ud be a boatswain or a chief gunner. I'd have so many grandchildren
that I'd never be able to remember which were mine and which belonged
to the man next door!...
You'd want a great deal of money for that lot, Gilbert!
I suppose I would. But I think that men of quality ought to have
children by strong, healthy women of the working-class. I think there's
a lot to be said for the right of the lord, don't you? It was good for
the race ... kept up the quality of the breed! I shall have to think
seriously about this....
You'd better look out for a farmer's daughter while you're here,
Henry suggested.
What! A Welshwoman! Good God, no!! My goodness, Quinny, you ought
to bring that fellow, John Marsh, to Wales for a few months. That 'ud
cure him of his Slop about nationality. I came to Wales, determined to
like the Welsh, and I've failed. That's all. I've failed hopelessly. I
told myself that it was absurd to believe that a whole nation could be
as bad as English people say the Welsh are ... but it isn't absurd ...
of the Welsh anyhow. They're all that everybody says they are, only
about ten times worse. I've been all over this country one time and
another, and they're simply ... mean. They're a dying race, thank
heaven! They've kept themselves to themselves so much that their blood
is like water, and so they're simply perishing. They wouldn't absorb or
be absorbed ... and so they're just dying out. Your lot were wiser than
the Welsh, Quinny!
The Irish?
Yes. They absorbed all the new blood they could get into their
veins, and so, whoever else may perish, the Irish won't. This
nationality business is all my eye, Quinny. You don't want one strain
in a country. You want hundreds of strains. You want to mingle the
bloods. ... I don't believe there's a pure-blooded Irishman in Ireland
or out of it.... Oh, the Welsh! Oh, the awful Welsh! Inbreeding in a
nation is the very devil ... and it makes 'em so damned uncivil. Oh, a
shifty, whining race, the Welsh!...
2
There are many bays on that coast, and in one of these, where they
could easily get to deep water, they bathed every morning, drying
themselves in the sun when they were tired of swimming. They would haul
themselves out of the sea by clutching at the long tassels of sea-weed,
and then lie down on the bare, warm rocks while the sun dried the salt
into their skins. Once, while they were lying in this fashion, Gilbert
turned to Henry and said, Have you been to Boveyhayne at all since
Ninian went away?
No, Henry answered. I was to have gone with you that Christmas,
but my father's illness prevented me, and I haven't been since.
Why don't you go? They'd be glad to see you, and Ninian'd like it.
I must go one of these days. How is Mrs. Graham? I suppose you've
seen her lately?
She was all right when I saw her. Mary's rather nice!
Henry did not say anything, and Gilbert, having waited for a while,
went on.
I always thought you and Mary....
He broke off suddenly and sat up. It's getting a bit chilly, he
said. I think I'll dress!
There's no hurry, Gilbert, Henry answered. You didn't finish what
you were saying.
It's none of my business. I've no right to....
Oh, yes, you have, Gilbert, Henry interrupted, sitting up too. Go
on!
Well, I always thought that you and Mary were ... well, liked each
other. That was why I was so puzzled when you got fond of Cecily. I
felt certain that you'd marry Mary. Why don't you, Quinny? She's an
awfully nice girl, and you and she are rather good pals, aren't you?
I don't know, Gilbert. I think I love Mary better than any one I've
ever met, and yet I seem to lose touch with her very easily!
Oh, I shouldn't count Cecily. Cecily is anybody's sweetheart!...
But it wasn't only Cecily. There was a girl ... a farm-girl in
Antrim. I never told you about her. Her name was Sheila Morgan ...
she's married now ... and I went straight from Mary to her. Of course,
I was a kid then, but still I'd told Mary I was fond of her, and we'd
arranged to get married when we grew up ... and then I went home and
made love to Sheila Morgan!
None of these women held you, Quinny! said Gilbert.
No, that's true, and Mary has, although I seldom see her. I thought
that I could never love anybody as I loved Sheila Morgan ... until I
met Cecily ... and then I thought I should never love any one as I
loved her ... but somehow Cecily doesn't hold me now, and Mary does. I
can't tell you when I ceased to love Cecily ... I don't really know
that I have ceased to love her ... it just weakened, so gradually that
I did not notice it weakening. All the same, if I were to see Cecily
now, I should probably want her as badly as ever.
You might, Quinny, but you wouldn't go on wanting her. You see, she
wouldn't want you for very long, and my general opinion is that you
can't keep on giving if you get nothing in return ... unless, of
course, you're a one-eyed ass. A healthy, intelligent man, if he loves
a woman who doesn't love him ... well he goes off and loves some one
else ... and quite right, too. These devoted fellows who cherish their
blighted affections forever ... damn it, they deserve it. They've got
no imagination! I don't think Cecily'd hold you now, Quinny, not for
very long anyhow. I wish you'd marry Mary. You quite obviously love
her, and she quite obviously loves you.... Oh, Lordy God, I wish I
could love somebody. I wish I were a young man in a novelette, with a
nice, clear-cut face and crisp, curly hair and frightfully gentlemanly
ways and no brains so that I could get into the most idiotic messes....
Why aren't there any aphrodisiacs for men who cannot love any one in
particular, Quinny! If you'd had the sense to have a sister, I should
probably have married her. Roger's family runs to nothing but males,
and Rachel can't honestly recommend any of her female relatives to me.
If I thought Mary'd have me, I'd marry her, but I know she wouldn't. I
used to think it was awful to want to believe in God and not be able to
believe in Him, but it's a lot worse to want to love and not be able to
love. I shall have to marry an actress. That's all!
They dressed in the shelter of the rocks, and then went back to the
hotel to lunch.
I'd like to marry Mary!... Henry began.
Why don't you, then? Gilbert interrupted.
Because I feel that I must go to her absolutely undivided, Gilbert.
Do you know what I mean? I want to be able to go to her, knowing that
no other woman can sway me from her for a second. It would be horrible
to be married to her and feel something lurking inside me, just waiting
for a chance to spring out and ... and make love to some one else!
You've changed a lot, Quinny, since the days when you pleaded for
infinite variety. You wanted a wife for every mood!...
Henry laughed. We did talk a lot of rot when we first went to
London, he said, putting his arm in Gilbert's.
It wasn't all rot. My contributions to the discussion were very
sensible. I wonder what's the excitement up there! The papers are
in!...
There was a group of visitors sitting on the seats in front of the
hotel and they were reading the newspapers which had just been sent out
from Holyhead.
Let's go and ask, Henry exclaimed, and they both went on more
quickly.
Any news? Gilbert shouted as they mounted the steps leading from
the carriage-way to the terrace.
Yes. Bad news from Ireland, a visitor answered.
From Ireland! Henry said.
Yes. The Nationalists landed some guns at Howth!...
Yes, yes! Henry said excitedly.
And there was a scrap between the people and soldiers!...
The soldiers!
The visitor nodded his head. Some damned ass, he said, had
ordered the soldiers out, and ... well, there was a row. The crowd
stoned the soldiers ... and soldiers are human like anybody else ...
they fired on the crowd!...
Fired on them!
Yes. Several people were killed. It's a bad business, a damned bad
business!...
3
There was an unreasonable fury in Henry's heart. It's a clever joke
when the Ulster people do it, he said, raging at Gilbert. And
everybody agrees to look the other way, but it's a crime when the
Nationalists do it, and it can only be punished by ... by shooting. I
suppose it's absolutely impossible for the English to get any
understanding into their thick heads!...
Don't be an old ass, Henry. You're not going to improve a rotten
bad business by hitting about indiscriminately. I daresay the people
who were responsible for the thing were Irishmen. I've always noticed
that when anything really dirty is done in Ireland, it's an Irishman
who does it....
A rotten Unionist!...
Irish, all the same! The only thing that you Irish are united about
is your habit of blaming the English for your own faults and
misbehaviour. If I had the fellow who was responsible for this business
I'd shoot him out of hand. I wouldn't think twice about it. If a man is
such an ass as all that, he ought to be put out of the world quick. But
then I'm English. The Irish'll make a case out of him. They'll orate
over him, and they'll get frightfully cross for a fortnight, and then
they'll do nothing. You know as well as I do, Quinny, that the English
aren't unfriendly to the Irish, that they really are anxious to do the
decent thing by Ireland. It isn't us: it's you. We're not against you
... you're against yourselves. There are about seventy-five different
parties in Ireland, aren't there, and they all hate each other like
poison?
I wonder if John Marsh was hurt!...
I don't suppose so. There'd have been some reference to him in the
paper if he'd been hurt.
This was what he was hinting at when I saw him in Dublin, Henry
went on. He talked about 'doubling it' and said that two could play at
that game!
He was calmer now, and able to talk about the Dublin shooting with
some discrimination.
I don't know why they want to 'run' guns at all, he said. The
tit-for-tat style of politics seems a fairly foolish one.... I think I
shall go back to Ireland to-morrow, Gilbert. I feel as if I ought to be
there. This business won't end where it is now. I know what John Marsh
and Galway and Mineely are like. Whatever bitterness was in them before
will be increased enormously by this. Mineely's an Ulsterman, and he'll
make somebody pay for this. He doesn't say much ... he's like Connolly
... Connolly's the brains behind Larkin ... but he keeps things inside
him, deep down, but safe, so that he can always get at them when he
wants them!
What sort of man is he, Quinny? Gilbert asked. I didn't see him
when we were in Dublin.
He looks like a comfortable tradesman, and he's a kindly sort of
chap. You'd never dream that he was an agitator or that he'd want to
lead a rebellion. I don't believe he likes that work, either. I think
that inside him his chief desire is for a decent house with a garden,
where he can grow sweet peas and cabbages and sit in the evening with
his wife and children. He has more balanced knowledge than most of the
people he works with. Marsh and Galway have had a better education than
Mineely, but they haven't had his experience or his knowledge of men,
and so they can't check their enthusiasm. He was in America for a long
while, and he's lived in England, too. He wrote a quite good book on
the Irish Labour Movement that would have been better if he'd made more
allowance for the nature of the times. If the employers hadn't behaved
so brutally over the strike, Mineely might have become the solvent of a
lot of ill-will in Ireland; but they made a bitter man out of him then,
and I suppose it's too late now. He'll go on, getting more and more
bitter until.... Do you remember that story by H. G. Wells, Gilbert,
called 'In the Days of the Comet'?
Is that the green vapour story?
Yes. Well, we want a green vapour very badly in Ireland, something
to obliterate every memory and leave us all with fresh minds!
Miracle-mongering won't lead you very far, Quinny. It's no good
howling for a vapour to heal you. You've just got to take your blooming
memories and cure 'em yourselves, by the sweat of your brows! And, look
here, Quinny, there doesn't seem any good reason why you should dash
back to Ireland because of this business. I always think that the worst
row in the world would never have come to anything if people hadn't
done what you propose to do, rushed into it just because they thought
they ought to be there. They congest things ... they use up the air and
make the place feel stuffy ... and then they get cross, and somebody
shoves somebody else, and before they know where they are, they're
splitting each other's skulls. If they'd only remained dispersed....
But I'd like to be there!...
I know you would. We'd all like to be there, so's we could say
afterwards we'd seen the whole thing from beginning to end. That's just
why we shouldn't be there. It isn't the principals in the row that make
all the trouble, Quinny ... it's the blooming spectators!...
4
He let himself be persuaded by Gilbert to stay in Wales, and they
spent the next two or three days in tramping about the island of
Anglesey. The days were bright and sunny, and the rich sparkle of the
sea tempted them frequently to the water. There were many visitors at
the hotel, some of whom were Irish people from Dublin, but mostly they
came from Liverpool and Manchester; and with several of them, Gilbert
and Henry became friendly. There was a schoolmaster who made a
profession of mountain-climbing and a hobby of religion; and a doctor
who told comic stories and talked with good temper about Home Rule, to
which he was opposed; and a splendid old man, with his wife, who was
interested in co-operation and was eager to limit armaments; and a wine
merchant from Liverpool who had come to the conclusion that the world,
on the whole, was quite a decent place to live in; and a dreadful
little stockbroker who belonged to the Bloody school of politicians and
talked about the Empire as if it were a music-hall; and an agent of
some sort from Manchester who had reached that stage of prosperity at
which he was beginning to wonder whether, after all, Nonconformity was
not a grievous heresy and the Church of England a sure means of
salvation. And there were others, vague people of the middle class,
kindly and comfortable and inarticulate, with no particular opinions on
anything except the desirability of four good meals every day and a
month's holiday in the summer. There were daughters, too ... all sorts
and conditions of daughters! Some that were hearty and athletic, living
either in the sea or on the golf-links; and others that were full of
their sex, unable to forget that men are men and women are women, and
never the two shall come together but there shall be wooing and
marrying.... There were a few who were eager to use their minds ... and
they quoted their parents and the morning papers to Gilbert and
Henry....
Surprisingly, their feeling about the Howth gun-raid became cool. In
that exquisite sunlight, beneath the wide reach of blue sky, it was
impossible to experience rancour or maintain anger. They swam and
basked and swam again, and let their eyes look gladly on young shapely
girls, running across the grassy tops of the piled rocks, and were sure
that there could be nothing on earth more beautiful than the spectacle
of pink arms gleaming through white muslin, unless it might be the full
brown ears of wheat now bending in the ripening rays of sunshine....
And again, after dinner, they would sit in a high, grassy corner of the
bay, listening to the lap of the sea beneath them, while the stars
threw their faint reflections on the returning tide....
Exquisite peace and quiet, long days of rich pleasure and sweet
nights of rest, kindliness and laughter and the friendly word of casual
acquaintances ... and over all, the enduring beauty of this world.
THE FOURTH CHAPTER
1
Gilbert looked up from the paper as Henry came out of the hotel.
I say, Quinny, he said, I think there's going to be a war!
A what? Henry exclaimed.
A war!...
But where?
Henry sat down on the long seat beside Gilbert, and looked over his
shoulder at the paper.
All over the place! Gilbert answered. The Austrians want to have
a go at the Serbians, and the Russians mean to have one at the
Austrians, and then the Germans will have to help the Austrians, and
that'll bring the French in, and ... and then I suppose we shall shove
in some where!
Henry took the paper from Gilbert's hands. But what have we got to
do with it? he said, hastily scanning the telegrams with which the
news columns were filled.
I dunno!...
It's ridiculous.... What's there to fight about? Damn it all, my
novel's coming out in a month! What's it about?
You remember that Archduke chap who got blown up the other day?...
Yes, I remember!
Well, that's what it's about!
But, good God, man, they can't have a war about a thing like
that....
It looks as if they thought they could. Anyhow, they're going to
try! said Gilbert.
Just because an Archduke got killed? Damn it, Gilbert, that's what
they're for!...
There was a queer look of fright in the faces of the visitors to the
hotel. The boy from Holyhead had been slow in coming with the papers,
and the first news that came to them came from a man who had been into
the town that morning.
There's going to be a war, he had shouted to the group of people
sitting on the terrace.
Don't be an ass! they had shouted back at him.
Yes, there is. The whole blooming world'll be scrapping presently!
He spoke with the queer gaiety of a man who has abandoned all hope.
Just as I was getting on my feet, too! he went on. He suddenly
unburdened himself to a man who had only arrived at the hotel late on
the previous evening ... they had never seen each other before ... but
now they were revealing intimacies....
Just getting on my feet, the man who had brought the news went on.
It'll be very bad for business, I'm afraid!...
Bad. Goo' Lor', man, it's ruin ... absolute ruin! I'll be up the
pole, that's where I'll be. And I was thinking of getting married, too.
Just thinking of it, you know ... nothing settled or anything ... and
now ... damn it, what they want to go and have a war for? We
don't want one!
Then the boy with the newspapers appeared, and they rushed at him
and tore the papers from his bag....
By Jove! they said, it's ... it's true!
I told you it was true. You wouldn't believe me when I told you.
You know, it's a Bit Thick, that's what it is. I've been a Liberal all
my life, same as my father ... and then this goes and happens! What
is a chap to do?...
He wailed away, filling the air with prophecies of doom and
disaster. They could hear him, as he rushed about the hotel telling the
news, taking people into corners and informing them that it was a Bit
Thick. There was something pitiful about him ... he had climbed to a
comfortable competence from a hard beginning ... and something comical,
too, something that made them all wish to laugh. The veneer of manners
which he had acquired with so much trouble had worn off in a moment,
and the careful speech, the rigid insistence on aspirates, to speak,
took to its heels. He appeared to them suddenly, carrying an atlas.
Where the 'ell is Serbia anyway? he demanded. I can't find the
damn place on the map!
2
They stood about, gaping at each other, unable to realise what had
happened to them. One of the windows of the drawing-room was open, and
the subdued buzz of women's voices came through it to the terrace.
Monotonously, exasperatingly, one querulous voice sent a fretful
question through the bewildered speeches of the women ... But what's
it about? That's what I want to know. I've asked everybody, but nobody
seems to know! Some one made an inaudible reply to the querulous
voice, and then it went on: Serbia! That's what some one else said,
but we aren't Serbia. We're England, and I don't see what we've got to
do with it. If they want to go and fight, let them. That's what I
say!...
Gilbert and Henry sat in the middle of the group on the terrace,
listening to what was being said about them. They had thrown the
newspapers aside ... there was hysteria in the headlines ... and were
sitting in a sort of stupor, wondering what would happen next. The
buzzing voice, demanding to be told what the war was about, still
droned through the window, irritating them vaguely until the man who
had first brought the news got up from his seat, and went to the window
and shut it noisily.
Damn 'er, he said, as he came back to his seat. 'Oo cares whether
she knows what it's about or not! What's it got to do with 'er any'ow.
She won't 'ave to do none of the fightin'!
Fighting!
Henry sat up and looked at the man. Why, of course, there would be
fighting ... and perhaps England would be drawn into the war, and
then!...
A girl came out of the hotel, with towels under her arm, and called
to them. Coming to bathe? she said.
They looked at her vacantly. Bathe! said Henry.
Yes. It's a ripping morning!
They stood up, and looked towards the sea that was white with
sunshine ... and then turned away again. It seemed to Henry as if, down
there by the rocks, in a splash of sunlight, a corpse were lying ...
festering.... He sat down again, mechanically picking up a newspaper
and reading once more the telegrams he had already read many times.
Come along, the girl said. You might just as well bathe!
Gilbert looked up at her and smiled. I was just wondering, he
said, what one ought to do!
3
The banks had closed, and there was an alarm about money and a
deeper alarm about food.... Panic suddenly came upon them, and in a
short while, visitors began to pack their trunks in their eagerness to
get home. The women felt that they would be safer at home ... they
wanted to be in familiar places. I really ought to be at home to look
after my house, a man said to Henry. They're a rough lot in our town,
and if there's any shortage of food ... they'll loot, of course! I
don't like breaking my holiday, but!...
He did not complete his sentence ... no one ever completed a
sentence then ... but went indoors....
And telegrams came incessantly, telegrams calling people home,
telegrams announcing that others were not coming, telegrams containing
information of the war....
I suppose, said Gilbert, if anything comes of this, well have to
do something!...
Do something? Henry murmured.
Yes, I suppose so....
Perkins came to him, Perkins who had an agency in Manchester.
You know, he said, I don't call this place safe. It's right on
the coast ... slap-up against the sea ... and you know, if a German
cruiser was to drop a shell right in the middle of us, we'd look damn
silly, I can tell you!
We have a navy too, said Gilbert.
Yes, I know all about that, but that wouldn't be much consolation
to me if I was to get blown up, would it? You know, I do think they
ought to draw the blinds down at night so's the light won't show out at
sea. I mean to say, there's no sense in running risks, is there?
No ... no, of course not!
I think I'll go and suggest that to the proprietor. I've just been
up to Manchester to see how things are going on there. Bit excited, of
course. Nobody seems to know what to do, so they just sit down and
cancel everything. Silly, I call it. I went to my office to get my
letters, and every blessed one was cancelling an order. I mean to say,
that's no way to go on ... losing their heads like that. And you know
they'll need my stuff later on ... if we go in!
Your stuff? Henry said.
Yes. I deal in black!...
Christ! said Gilbert, getting up and walking away.
Your friend seems a bit upset, doesn't he? Mr. Perkins murmured to
Henry.
4
They went into Holyhead, and wandered aimlessly about the station.
Marvellously, men in uniform appeared everywhere. The reservists, naval
and military, had been called up, and while Gilbert and Henry stood in
the station, a large number of them went away, leaving tearful, puzzled
women on the platform. That morning the boots at the hotel had been
called up to join his Territorial regiment. He had been carrying a
trunk on his back, when the call came to him, and, chuckling, he
dropped the trunk, and skipped off to get ready. I'm wanted, he said
... and then he went off.
And still people went about, bemused and frightened, demanding what
it was about....
Well have to go in, some one said in the station. I can't see how
we can stay out!...
I can't see that at all, his neighbour replied. We've got nothing
to do with it!
If the Germans won't leave the Belgians alone!...
Perkins interrupted again. We've got a Belgian cook in our hotel,
he said. It ... it sort of brings it all home to you, that!
There were rumours that the working-people were resolute against the
war....
And so are the employers, said Perkins. I can tell you that. I've
not met anybody yet who wants a war!
And as the rumours flew about, they grew. One could see a rumour
begin and swell and change and increase.
I tell you what, said Perkins. These Germans have been damn well
asking for it, and I hope they'll damn well get it. I know a few
Germans ... Manchester's full of 'em ... and I don't like 'em. As a
nation, I don't like 'em. They ... they get on my nerves, that's what
they do!
There was talk about German organisation, German efficiency, German
militarism....
They don't think anything of a civilian in Germany. The soldier's
everything. And women ... oh, my God, the way they treat women! I've
seen German officers ... I've seen 'em myself ... chaps that are
supposed to be gentlemen ... going along the street, and shoving women
off the pavement!...
You know, said Perkins, I don't really think much of the Germans
myself. I mean to say, they got no initiative. That's what's the matter
with 'em. Do you know what a German does when he wants to go across the
street? He goes up to a policeman and asks him. And what does the
policeman do? Shoves him off the pavement!... I'd break his jaw for him
if he shoved me!
They stayed on, wondering sometimes why they stayed, and then at
midnight, a troop train steamed into the station, and a crowd of tired
soldiers alighted from the carriages and prepared to embark.
My God, it's begun! said Perkins. Where you chaps going to? he
asked of a soldier.
I dunno, the soldier answered. Ireland, I think. I 'eard we was
goin' to put down these bleedin' Orangemen that's bin makin' so much
fuss lately, but some'ow I don't think that's it. 'Ere, mate, he
added, thrusting a dirty envelope into Perkins's hand. That's my
wife's address. I 'adn't time to write to 'er ... we was sent off in a
'urry ... you might just drop 'er a line, will you an' say I'm off!...
Right you are, said Perkins.
Tell 'er I think I'm off to France, see, on'y I don't know, see!
There's a rumour we're goin' to Ireland, but I don't think so. You
better tell 'er that. An' I'm all right, see. So far any'ow!...
God! said Perkins, as the soldiers moved towards the transport,
don't it make you feel as if you wanted to cry!...
In the morning, they knew that England had declared war on Germany.
Of course, said Gilbert, we couldn't keep out of it. We simply
had to go in!
They had gone down to the bay to bathe. This'll be my last,
Gilbert muttered as they stripped, for a while anyhow!
But you're not going yet, Henry said.
I think so, Gilbert replied. I don't know how the trains are
running, but I shall try to get back to London to-night.
But why?...
Oh, I expect they'll need chaps. Don't you think they will?
Do you mean you're going to ... enlist?
Yes. That seems the obvious thing to do. They're sure to need
people, Gilbert answered.
I suppose so, said Henry.
I don't quite fancy myself as a soldier, Quinny. I'm not what you'd
call a bellicose chap. I shan't enjoy it very much, and I expect I
shall be damned scared when it comes to ... to charging and that sort
of thing ... but a chap must do his share....
I suppose so, Henry said again.
It seemed to him to be utterly absurd that Gilbert should become a
soldier, that his sensitive mind should be diverted from its proper
functions to the bloody business of war.
I've always jibbed a bit when I heard people talking about England
in the way that awful stockbroker in the hotel talks about it, Gilbert
was saying, and I loathe the Kipling flag-flapper, all bounce and brag
and bloodies ... but I feel fond of England to-day, Quinny, and nothing
else seems to matter much. And anyhow fighting's such a filthy job that
it ought to be shared by everybody that can take a hand in it at all.
It doesn't seem right somehow to do your fighting by proxy. I should
hate to think that I let some one else save my skin when I'm perfectly
able to save it myself....
But you've other work to do, Gilbert, more important work than
that. There are plenty of people to do that job, but there aren't many
people to do yours. Supposing you went out and ... and got ...
killed?...
There's that risk, of course, said Gilbert, but after all, I
don't know that my life is of greater value than another man's. A
clerk's life is of as much consequence to him as mine is to me.
I daresay it is, Gilbert, but is it of as much consequence to
England? I know it sounds priggish to say that, but some lives are of
more value than others, and it's silly to pretend that they're not.
I should have agreed with you about that last week, Quinny. You
remember my doctrine of aristocracy?... Well, somehow I don't feel like
that now. I just don't feel like it. Those chaps we saw at Holyhead,
going off to France ... I shouldn't like to put my plays against the
life of any one of them. I couldn't help thinking last night, while I
was lying in bed, that there I was, snugly tucked up, and out there ...
somewhere!... He pointed out towards the Irish Sea ... those chaps
were sailing to ... to fight for me. I felt ashamed of myself, and I
don't like to feel ashamed of myself. You saw that soldier giving his
wife's address to Perkins? Poor devil, he hadn't had time to say
'Good-bye' to her, and perhaps he won't come back. I should feel like a
cad if I let myself believe that my plays were worth more than that
man's life. And anyhow, if I don't write the plays, some one else will.
I've always believed that if there's a good job to be done in the
world, it'll get done by somebody. If this chap fails to do it, it'll
be done by some other chap.... Will you come into Holyhead with me and
enquire about trains? There's a rumour that a whole lot of them have
been taken off. They're shifting troops about....
6
Gilbert was to travel by the Irish mail the next day. He had made up
his mind definitely to go to London and enlist, and Henry, having
failed to dissuade him from his decision, resolved to go to London with
him. They had talked about the war all day, insisting to each other
that it could not be of long duration. There was a while, during the
first two or three days' fighting, when the Germans seemed to have been
held by the Belgians, that they had the wildest hopes. If the Belgians
can keep them back, what will happen when the French and British get at
them? But that time of jubilee hope did not last long, and again the
air was full of rumours of disaster and misfortune. The Black Watch had
been cut to pieces....
There was a sense of fear in every heart, not of physical cowardice,
but of doubt of the stability of things. This horrible disaster had
been foretold many times, so frequently, indeed, that it had become a
joke, and novelists had written horrific accounts of the ills that
would swiftly follow after the outbreak of hostilities. Credit would
disappear ... and all that pretence at wealth, the pieces of paper and
the scrips and shares, would be revealed at last as ... pieces of
paper. Silver, even, would be treated with contempt, and there would be
a scramble for gold. And people would begin to hoard things ... and no
one would trust any one else. There would be suspicion and fear and
greed and hate ... and very swiftly and very surely, civilisation would
reel and topple and fall to pieces.... At any moment that might happen.
So far, indeed, things were still steady ... calamity had not come so
quickly as imaginative men had foretold ... but presently, when the
slums ... the rich man's reproach ... had become hungrier than they
usually were, there would be rioting ... and killing.... One began to
be frightfully conscious of the slums ... and the rage of desperate,
starving people. One imagined the obsessing thought in each mind:
Here we are, eating and drinking and being waited upon ... and perhaps
to-morrow!...
But no one, in forecasting the European Disaster, had made allowance
for the obstinacy of man or taken into account the resisting power of
human society. As if man, having built up this mighty structure of
civilisation, would let it be flung down in a moment without trying to
save some of it! As if man, having in pain and bloody sweat discovered
his soul, would let it get lost without struggling to hold and preserve
it!...
Gilbert and Henry came into the drawing-room, where the women were
whispering to each other. Inexplicably, almost unconsciously, their
voices had fallen to whispers ... as if they were in church or a corpse
were above in a bedroom.... Four of the women were playing Bridge, but
none of them wished to play Bridge; and as Gilbert and Henry entered
the room, they put down their cards and looked round at them.
Is there any more news? one of them said, and Gilbert told them of
the rumours that had been heard in Holyhead.
They say the Black Watch have been cut to pieces, he said.
The whispering stopped.... They could hear the clock's regular
tick-tick....
Oh, the poor men ... the poor men! an old woman said, and her
fingers began to twitch....
Almost mechanically, the Bridge players picked up their cards. It's
your lead, partner! one of them said, and then she threw down her
cards, and rising from her chair, went swiftly from the room.
Oh, the poor men ... the poor men! the old woman moaned.
7
They sat on the rocks after tea and while they sat there, they saw a
great ship sailing up the sea, beautiful and proud and swift; and they
jumped up and climbed to the highest point of the cliff to watch her go
by. They knew her, for there had been anxiety about her for two days,
and as they watched her sailing past, they cheered and waved their
hands although no one on the great vessel could see them. A girl came
running to them....
What is it? she said.
It's the Lusitania, they answered. She's dodged them, damn
them!
Oh, hurrah! the girl shouted. Hurrah! Hurrah!
8
And then the strain lifted. The Lusitania had won home to
safety. The Germans, greedy for this great prize, had failed to find
her. Civilisation still held good ... if the world were to go down in
the fight, it would go down proudly, hitting hard, hitting until the
last....
THE FIFTH CHAPTER
1
It was odd, that journey from Holyhead to London, odd and silent;
for all the way from Wales to Euston they passed but one train. They
drove through the long stretch of England, past wide and windy fields
where the harvesters were cutting the corn, through the dark towns of
the Potteries, by the collieries where the wheels still revolved as the
cages were lowered and raised, and then, plunging into the outer areas
of London, they drove swiftly up to the station. In the evening, they
went to Hampstead to see Roger and Rachel, and found them reading
newspapers.
I don't seem able to do anything else, said Roger. I buy every
edition that comes out. I read the damn things over and over, and then
I read them again....
Rachel nodded her head. So do I, she said.
A girl came in, a friend of Rachel, who had been in Finland when the
war began. She had hurried home by Berlin, where she had spent an hour
or two, while waiting for a train, before England declared war on
Germany....
What were they like? Gilbert asked.
Wild with excitement. We went to a restaurant to get something to
eat, and while we were there, the news came that Russia was at war with
them.... My goodness! There was a Russian in the room, and they went
for him!... I had my aunt with me, and I was afraid she'd get hurt, so
we cleared out as quickly as we could, and when we got to the station,
we had to fight to get into the train. My aunt fainted ... and they
were beastly to us, oh, beastly! I tried to get things for her, but
they wouldn't give us anything! They kept on telling us we'd be shot,
and threatening us!... They were frightened, those big fat men were
frightened. If you'd touched them suddenly, they'd have squealed ...
like panic-stricken rabbits!...
They sat and talked and talked, and gloom settled on them. What was
to be the end of this horrible thing which no one had desired, but no
one was able to prevent.
I believe they all lost their nerve at the last, Roger said, and
they just ... just let things rip. They call it a brain-storm in
America. They lost their heads ... and they let things rip. My God,
what a thing to have happened!
They sat in silence, full of foreboding, and then the girl who had
come from Finland went home.
It's all up with the Bar, I suppose! said Roger, when he had let
her out. Whatever else people want to do, they won't want to go to
law. Having a youngster makes things awkward!...
If you should need any money, Roger, said Gilbert, you might let
me know!
And me, Roger! said Henry.
Thanks awfully! Roger replied. I won't forget. I've got some, of
course, and Rachel has a little. I daresay we'll manage. It can't last
long. A couple of months, perhaps!...
I can't see how it can last longer. It's too big, and ... oh, it
can't last longer!
Kitchener says three years!...
He wants to be on the safe side, I suppose, but my God, three years
of ... of that!...
2
Rachel got up suddenly. You haven't seen my baby yet, she said.
So we haven't, Gilbert exclaimed. Where is it?
She's upstairs asleep. You must come quietly!...
It's a girl, then? said Henry.
Rachel nodded, and led the way upstairs to the bedroom where the
baby lay in her cot.
Isn't she a darling? she said, bending over the child.
They did not answer, afraid, as men are in the presence of a
sleeping child, that they might disturb her; and while they stood
looking at the cot, Rachel bent closer to her baby, and lightly kissed
her cheek.
They moved away on tiptoe.
What do you call her? Henry whispered to Roger, as they left the
bedroom.
Eleanor, he answered. That was my mother's name. Jolly little
kid, isn't she?
Gilbert turned and went back to the bedroom. Rachel was still
bending over the baby, and she looked up at him warningly. He went up
to the cot and, leaning towards Rachel, whispered, Do you mind if I
kiss her, too, Rachel? I'm going to enlist to-morrow, and perhaps I
won't get so good a chance as this!...
She stood up quickly and put her arms round him. Oh, Gilbert! she
said, and then she drew him down, so that he could kiss the baby
easily.
3
Henry told Roger of Gilbert's intention, while Rachel and Gilbert
were in the bedroom with the baby.
Enlist? said Roger.
Henry nodded his head.
Well, of course!... Roger began, and then he stopped. I suppose
so, he said, moving towards the tray which Rachel had brought into the
room earlier in the evening. Whisky? he said.
No, thanks, Roger! Henry answered. He's going down to-morrow!
He'd better wait a few days. There's been a hell of a scrum already
to join. Queues and queues of chaps, standing outside Scotland Yard all
day. He'd better wait 'til the rush is over....
I think he'd rather like to be in the rush, Henry said.
Then Rachel came into the room, followed by Gilbert.
Roger, she said, Gilbert's going to enlist!...
So Quinny's just been telling me. Have a whisky, Gilbert?
No, thanks, old chap, said Gilbert, but if you have a
cigarette!...
I'll get them, Rachel exclaimed.
She brought the box of cigarettes to him, and while he was choosing
one, she said to Roger, I was so excited when he told me, that I got
up and hugged him!
Good! said Roger.
4
They walked home to Bloomsbury, where they had easily obtained
rooms, for the sudden withdrawal of Germans and Austrians had left
Bloomsbury in a state of vacancy. As they went down Haverstock Hill
towards Chalk Farm, an old man lurched against them.
All the young chaps, he mumbled thickly. Thash wot sticks in my
gizzard! All the young chaps! Gawblimey, why don't they tyke the ole
ones!...
Steady on, Gilbert exclaimed, catching his arm and holding him up.
You'll fall, if you're not careful!
Don't marrer a damn wherrer I do or not! He reeled a little, and
Gilbert caught hold of him again. I woul'n be a young chap, he
muttered, not for ... not for nothink. You ... you're a young chap,
ain't you? Yesh you are! You needn't tell me you ain't! I can see as
wellsh anythink! You're a young chap ri' enough. Well ... well, Gawd,
'elp you, young feller! Thash all I got to sy ... subjec!' Goo-ni',
gen'lemen! He staggered off the pavement, and went half way across the
deserted street. Then he turned and looked at them for a few moments.
Ain't it a bloody treat, eih? he shouted to them. Ain't it a
bloody treat?
Drunk, said Gilbert.
Henry did not reply, and they walked on through Chalk Farm, through
Camden Town, into the tangle of mean streets by Euston, and then across
the Euston Road to Bloomsbury. They did not speak to each other until
they were almost at their destination.
It's awfully quiet, said Henry, turning and looking about him.
I don't see any one, Gilbert answered, except that old fellow
ahead of us!...
No!
They walked on, and when they came up to the old man, who walked
slowly, and heavily in the same direction, they called Good-night! to
him. He looked round at them, an old, tired, bewildered man, and he
made a gesture with his hands, a gesture of despair. Ach, mein
freund! he said brokenly, and again he made the suppliant motion with
his hands.
Poor old devil! Gilbert muttered almost to himself.
5
They went to their rooms at once, too tired to talk to each other,
and Henry, hurriedly undressing, got into bed. But he could not sleep.
I suppose I ought to join, too! he said to himself, as he lay on his
back, staring at the ceiling. Gilbert and I could go together!...
But what would be the good of that? The war would be over quite
soon. Even Roger thought it would be over in a couple of months, and if
that were so, there would be no need for him to throw up his work and
take to soldiering. It'll be over before Gilbert's got through his
training. Long before!...
Anyhow, I can wait until the rush is over. I might as well go on
working as stand outside Scotland Yard all day, waiting to be taken
on.... Or I could apply for a commission!...
He lay very still, hoping that he would fall asleep soon, but sleep
would not come to him. He sat up in bed, and glanced about the room.
I suppose, he said aloud, they're fighting now!
He lay down again quickly, thrusting himself well under the
bedclothes and shut his eyes tightly. Oh, my God, isn't it horrible!
he groaned.
He saw again that crowd of hurried soldiers detraining at Holyhead,
thinking that perhaps they were going to Ireland, but not quite sure
... and he could see them stumbling up the gangways of the transport,
each man heavily accoutred; and sometimes a man would laugh, and
sometimes a man would swear ... and then the ship sailed out of the
harbour, rounding the pier and the breakwater, churning the sea into a
long white trail of foam as she set her course past the South Stack....
They could see the lights on her masthead diminishing as she went
further away, and then, as the cold sea wind blew about them, they
shivered and went home.... Now, lying here in this stillness, warm and
snug, Henry could see those soldiers, huddled together on the ship. He
could imagine them, murmuring to one another, I say, d'ye think we
are goin' to Ireland? and hear one answering, You'll know in
three hours. We'll be there then, if we are! and slowly there
would come to each man the knowledge that their journey was not to
Ireland, but to France, and there would be a tightening of the lips, an
involuntary movement here and there and then.... Well, o' course,
we're goin' to France! 'Oo the 'ell thought we was goin' anywhere
else? The ship would carry them swiftly down the Irish Sea and across
the English Channel ... and after that!...
Some of them may be dead already, he murmured to himself.
Torn up suddenly from their accustomed life, hurried through the
darkness along the length of England, and then, after long, cold nights
on the sea, landed in France and set to slaying....
And they won't know what's it for?
But did that matter? Would it be any better if they were aware of
the cause of the fight? One lived in a land and loved it. Surely, that
was sufficient?
In his mind, he could still see the soldiers, but always they were
moving in the dark. He could see very vividly the man who had asked
Perkins to write to his wife ... and it seemed to him that he was still
demanding of passers-by that they should write to her. Tell 'er I'm
all right, he kept on saying. So far, any'ow!...
He turned over on his side, dragging the clothes about his head, and
tried to shut out the vision of the soldiers marching through the
fields of France, but he could not shut it out. They still marched,
endlessly, ceaselessly marched....
6
When they got to Scotland Yard, there was a great crowd of men
waiting to be enlisted.
You'd better come again, Gilbert, Henry said. You'll have to hang
about here all day, and then perhaps you won't be reached!
I think I'll hang about anyhow, Gilbert answered.
He had become queerly quiet since the beginning of the War. The old,
light-hearted, exaggerated speech had gone from him, and when he spoke,
his words were abrupt and colourless. He took his place at the end of
the file of men, and as he did so, the man in front of him, a
fringe-haired, quick-eyed youth with a muffler round his neck, turned
and greeted him. 'Illoa, myte! he said with the cheery friendliness
of the East End. You come too, eih?
Gilbert answered, Yes, I thought I might as well!
Well 'ave to wyte a 'ell of a time, the Cockney went on. Some of
'em's bin 'ere since six this mornin'. Gawblimey, you'd think they was
givin' awy prizes. I dunno wot the 'ell I come for. I jus' did, sort
of!...
Some one standing by, turned to a recruiting sergeant and whispered
something to him, pointing to the guttersnipes in the queue.
Fight! said the recruiting sergeant. Gawd love you, guv'nor,
they'd fight 'ell's blazes, them chaps would!
Henry tried again to induce Gilbert to fall out of the queue and
wait until there was more likelihood of being enlisted quickly, but
Gilbert would not be persuaded.
You'll have to get something to eat, Henry urged. They'll never
get near you until this evening, and if you've got to fall out to get
food, you might as well fall out now!
I think I'll wait, Gilbert repeated. Perhaps, he went on,
you'll get me some sandwiches. Get a lot, will you. This chap in front
of me doesn't look as if he'd brought anything!
You could get a commission, Gilbert, easily, Henry said.
I don't think I should be much good as an officer, Quinny.... Go
and get the sandwiches like a decent chap!
Henry went away to do as Gilbert had bidden him, and after a while,
he returned with a big packet of sandwiches and apples.
I shan't wait, Gilbert, he said. I can't stand about all day.
I'll come back when the rush is over....
But why, Quinny?
I'm going to join, too, with you!...
You're going to join?... That's awf'lly decent of you, Quinny!
Decent! Why? It isn't any more decent than your joining is!
P'raps not, but I always think it's very decent of an Irishman to
fight for England. If there doesn't seem any chance of my getting in
to-day, I'll come back to tea. There's a fellow here says this is the
second day he's been waiting!
Henry went away. He walked along the Embankment towards Blackfriars,
and when he had reached the Temple, he turned up one of the steep
streets that link the Embankment to Fleet Street.
I'll go and see Delap, he said to himself.
Delap was the editor of a weekly paper for which Henry had sometimes
written articles. Delap, however, was not at the office, but Bundy, the
manager of the paper, who was also the financier, was there.
It's all up with us, said Bundy. We're closing down next week!
Closing down!
Yes. We're bust. Damn it, we're getting on splendidly, too. Just
turning the corner! We should have had a magnificent autumn if it
hadn't been for this....
He came away from Bundy, and walked aimlessly down Fleet Street.
Lots of other people would have had a fine autumn if it hadn't been
for this, he thought to himself, and then he saw Leadenham and
Crowborough, who worked on the Cottenham Guardian. They were
very pale and tired-looking.
Hilloa! he said, slapping Leadenham on the back.
Leadenham jumped ... startled! Oh, it's you, he said, smiling
weakly.
Yes. What's up? You look frightened! He turned to greet
Crowborough.
Well, we're all rather jiggered by this, Leadenham replied. We're
going to get something to eat. Come with us?
They went into a tea-shop and sat down. Is the Guardian all
right? Henry asked.
Oh, yes, said Leadenham wearily, as right as anything is. Nobody
in Fleet Street knows how long his job'll last. Half the men on the
Daily Circle have had the sack. Some of our chaps have gone! Fleet
Street's full of men looking for jobs. About fifty papers have smashed
up since the thing began ... sporting papers mostly. It frightens you,
this sort of thing!...
He came away from Fleet Street as quickly as possible. The nervous,
hectic state of the journalists made him feel nervous too.
I'd better get among less jumpy people, he said to himself, and he
hurried towards Charing Cross. And there he met Jimphy. He did not
recognise him at first, for Jimphy was in khaki, and he would have
passed on without seeing him, had Jimphy not caught hold of his arm and
stopped him.
Cutting a chap, damn you! said Jimphy....
Good Lord, I didn't know you!
Thought you didn't. Where you going?
Oh, nowhere. Just loafing about. Gilbert's down at Scotland Yard
trying to enlist.
Is he, begad? Everybody seems to be trying to enlist. He'd much
better try to get a commission. I'm going home now. You come with me,
Quinny. Hi, hi!... He hailed a taxi-cab, and, without waiting to hear
what Henry had to say, bundled him into it.
Lord, he exclaimed, as he leant back in the cab, it's years an'
years an' years since I saw you. Well, what do you think of this for a
bally war, eh? Millions of 'em ... all smackin' each other. I'm going
out soon! He leant out of the window and shouted at the driver, Hi,
you chap, hurry up, will you!
I don't seem able to get anywhere quick enough nowadays, he said
as he sat back again in his seat. You know, he went on, we've never
been to the Empire yet, you an' me. Damned if we have! Never mind!
We'll go when the War's over!
7
There were half a dozen women in the drawing-room with Cecily when
Henry and Jimphy entered it. In addition to the women, there were a
photographer and Boltt. The photographer had finished his work and was
preparing to depart, and Boltt was talking in his nice little clipped
voice about the working-class. It appeared that the working-class had
not realised the seriousness of the situation. The other classes had
been quick to understand and to offer themselves, but the
working-class.... No! Oo, noo! Boltt had written an article in the
Evening Gazette full of gentle reproach to the working-class, but
without effect. The working-class had taken no notice. Democracy, dear
ladies, said Boltt, with a downward motion of his fingers.
Democracy! A newspaper, a Labour newspaper, had been rather rude to
Boltt. It had put some intimate, he might say, impertinent, questions
to Boltt, but Boltt had borne this impertinent inquisition with
fortitude. He had not made any answer to it....
Hilloa, Paddy! Lady Cecily called across the room to Henry.
Aren't you at the war?
Well, no, I only got to London....
Oh, but everybody's going. Jimphy and everybody! Except Mr. Boltt,
of course. He's unfit or something. Aren't you, Mr. Boltt?
Ah, if I were only a young man again, Lady Cecily!...
But he's writing to the papers, and that's something, isn't it?
Cecily interrupted. And I'm making mittens for the soldiers. We're all
making mittens. Except Mr. Boltt, of course.
Who was the johnny who's just gone out? Jimphy demanded. Was he
the chap who sells the stuff you make the mittens out of?...
Oh, no, Jimphy, he was a photographer. We're all to have our
photographs in the Daily Reflexion....
Except Mr. Boltt? Henry asked maliciously.
No, Mr. Boltt's to be in it too. Holding wool. I've been
photographed in three different positions ... beginning to knit a
mitten, half-way through a mitten, and finishing a mitten. I was rather
anxious to be taken with a pile of socks, but I can't knit socks!...
You can't knit mittens either, said Jimphy.
It appeared that Lady Cecily's maid was allowed to undo her
mistress's false stitches and finish the mittens properly....
Well, of course, I'm not really a knitter, Cecily admitted, but I
feel I must do something for the country. I've a good mind to take up
nursing. I met Jenny Customs this morning, and she says it's quite
easy, and the uniform is rather nice....
But don't you require to be trained? Henry asked dubiously.
Oh, yes, if you're a professional. But I'm not. I'm doing it for
the country. Jenny Customs went to a First Aid Class, and learnt quite
a lot about bandaging. She can change sheets while the patient is in
bed, and she says he can scarcely tell that she's doing it. I should
love to be able to do that. She told me a lot of things, and I really
know the first lesson already. I can shake a bottle of medicine the
proper way!...
Can't we have tea or something? said Jimphy. Oh, by the way,
Cecily, Quinn says that chap Gilbert Farlow's hanging about Scotland
Yard....
Goodness me, what for? Cecily demanded in a startled voice. He
hasn't done anything, has he?
No, of course he hasn't. He's trying to enlist!
Enlist! she said.
Yes. Silly ass not to ask for a commission! said Jimphy.
Boltt burbled about the priceless privilege of youth. If only he
were a youngster once again!...
They drank their tea, while Jimphy discoursed on the war. Henry had
entered Cecily's house with a feeling of alarm, wondering whether she
would be friendly to him, wondering whether he would be able to look
into her eyes and not care ... and now he knew that he did not care.
There was something incredibly unfeeling and trivial about Cecily,
something ... vulgar. While the world was still reeling from the shock
of the War, she was arranging to be photographed with mittens that she
had not made and could not make. The portrait would be reproduced in
the Daily Reflexion under the title of Lady Cecily Jayne Does
Her Bit. ... But she was beautiful, undeniably she was beautiful. As
he looked at her, she raised her eyes, conscious perhaps of his stare,
and smiled at him....
She'd smile at anybody, he said to himself. If she had any
feeling at all for me, she'd be angry with me!
She came to him. I wish you'd tell Gilbert to come and see me, she
said, sitting down beside him.
Very well, he answered, I will!
I'm sure he'll look awfully nice in khaki. And I should love to see
him saluting Jimphy. He'll have to do that, you know, if he's a
private....
8
He got away as soon as he could decently do so, and went back to
Bloomsbury. That isn't England, he told himself, that mitten-making,
posturing crew! and he remembered the great queues of men, standing
outside Scotland Yard, struggling to get into the Army, and suffering
much discomfort in the effort.
Perhaps, he said to himself, Gilbert's at home now. I wonder if
he managed to get in!
A man and a woman were standing at the corner of a street, talking,
and he overheard them as he passed.
'Illoa, Sarah, the man said, w'ere you goin', eih?
Goin' roan' the awfices, she answered, to see if I kin get a job
o' charin'!
Gawblimey! said the man, laughing at her.
Well, you got to do somethink, 'aven't you? No good sittin' on your
be'ind an' 'owlin' because there's a war on, is there?
There was more of the spirit of England in that, Henry thought, than
in Cecily's mitten-making....
Gilbert was not at home when he reached the Bloomsbury
boarding-house. Still trying, I suppose, Henry thought.
There was a telegram for him. His father was ill again, seriously
ill was the message, and he was needed at home.
He hurriedly wrote a note to be given to Gilbert when he returned,
in case he should not see him again, but before he had begun his
packing, Gilbert came in.
It's all right, he said. I've joined. I've had a week's leave....
I'm damned tired!
My father's ill again, Gilbert. I've just had a telegram, and I'm
going back to-night!...
I'm awf'lly sorry, Quinny! Gilbert said, quickly sympathetic.
I met Jimphy at Charing Cross. He's in khaki. He took me back to
tea. Cecily's making mittens!...
She would, said Gilbert.
She told me to tell you to go and see her!
Did she, indeed?
You'll stay here, I suppose, Henry went on, until you're called
up? Gilbert nodded his head. Let me know what happens to you
afterwards, will you?
Righto!
I'll come back as soon as I can, Gilbert!
THE SIXTH CHAPTER
1
Mr. Quinn died at Christmas. The old man, weakened by his long
illness, had been stunned by the War, and when his second illness
seized him, he made no effort to resist it. He would lie very quietly
for a long while, and then a paroxysm of fury would possess him, and he
would shake his fist impotently in the air. If they wanted a war, he
shouted once, why didn't they go and fight it themselves. They were
paid to keep the peace, and ... and!...
He fell back on his pillow, exhausted, and when Henry, hurrying up
the stairs to him the moment he heard the shout, reached him, he was
gasping for breath. It's all right, son! he said when he had
recovered himself. It's all right!...
It's foolish of you, father, to agitate yourself like that, Henry
said to him, putting his arms round him and lifting him into a more
comfortable position.
I can't help it, Henry, when I think of ... of all the young
lads!... By God, they'd no right to do it!...
Hush, father!...
They'd no right to do it! You'd think they were greedy for blood
... young men's blood! He pointed to an English newspaper lying on the
floor. Did you read that paper? he said.
Yes.
Houndin' them into it, the old man went on. Yellin' for young
men! By God, I'd be ashamed ... parsons an' women an' old men that
can't fight themselves, houndin' young men into it! If they'd any
decency, they'd shut up....
All right, father!
The man that owns this paper ... whatshisname!...
It doesn't matter, does it? Lie still and be quiet!
I can't be quiet. Like a damned big monster, yellin' for boys to
eat. Has he any childher, will you tell me?...
I don't know, father!
Of course he hasn't. An' here he is, yelpin' in his damned rag
every day, 'Fee-fo-fum, I smell the blood of a young man!' Why don't
they shove him at the Front ... the very front!
You must keep quiet, father!
All right, Henry, all right!
He was silent for a few minutes, and then he began again, in a
quieter voice. I'd have put the men that made it, the whole lot of
them, in the front rank, and let them blow themselves to blazes. Old
men sittin' in offices, an' makin' wars, an' then biddin' young men to
pay the price of them! By God, that's mean! By God, that's low!...
But old men couldn't bear the strain of it, father! Henry
interjected, and he recalled some of the horrors of the trenches where
the soldiers had stood with the water reaching to their waists; but Mr.
Quinn insisted that the old men should have fought the war they made.
Who cares a damn whether they can bear it or not, he said. Let
'em die, damn 'em! They're no good! He turned quickly to Henry, and
demanded, What good are they? Tell me that now! but before Henry
could make an answer to him, he went off insistently, They're no good,
I tell you. I know well what they're like ... sittin' in their clubs,
yappin' an' yappin' an' demandin' this an' demandin' that, an' gettin'
on one another's nerves; an' whatever happens it's not them that
suffers for it: it's the young lads that pays for everything. Look at
the way the old fellows go on in Parliament, Henry! By God, I want to
vomit when I read about them! Yappin' an' yappin' when they should be
down on their knees beggin' God's forgiveness....
He spoke as if he were not himself an old man, and it did not seem
strange to Henry that he should speak in that fashion, for Mr. Quinn's
spirit had always been a young spirit.
An' these wee bitches with their white feathers, he went on,
ought to be well skelped. If I had a daughter, an' she did a thing
like that, by God, I'd break her skull for her!
I suppose they think they're doing their duty, father, and they're
young!...
There's women at it, too. I read in the paper yesterday mornin'
that there was grown women doin' it. There's nobody has any right to
bid a man go to that except them that's been to it themselves. If the
women an' the parsons an' the old men can't fight for their country,
they can hold their tongues for it, an' by God they ought to be made to
hold them....
He asked continually after Gilbert.
He's a sergeant now, father. He's been offered a commission, but he
won't take it!...
Why?
Oh, one of his whimsy-whamsies, I suppose. He says the
non-commissioned officers are the backbone of the Army, and he prefers
to be part of the backbone. You remember Ninian Graham, father?
I do, rightly!...
He's come home to join. He's in the Engineers!
Mr. Quinn did not make any answer to Henry. He slipped a little
further into the bed, and lay for a long while with his eyes closed, so
long that Henry thought he had fallen asleep; but, just when Henry
began to tiptoe from the room, he opened his eyes again, and suddenly
they were full of tears.
The fine young fellows, he said. The fine young lads!
2
And at Christmas, he died. He had called Henry to him that morning,
and had enquired about The Fennels, which had lately been published
after a postponement and much hesitation, and about the new book on
which Henry was now working.
That's right, he said, when he heard that Henry was working
steadily on it. It'll keep your mind from broodin'. How's the Ulster
book goin'?
'The Fennels'?
Ay. You had hard luck, son, in bringing out your best book at a
time like this, but never matter, never matter!...
I don't know how it's doing. It's too soon to tell yet. The reviews
have been good, but I don't suppose people are buying books at
present!
You've done a good few now, Henry!
Five, father.
Ay, I have the lot there on that ledge so's I can take them down
easily an' look at them. I feel proud of you, son ... proud of you!
He began to remind Henry of things that had happened when he was a
boy. His mind became flooded with memories. Do you mind Bridget
Fallon? he would say, and then he would recall many incidents that
were connected with her. Do you mind the way you wanted to go to
Cambridge, an' I wouldn't let you, and Do you mind the time you took
the woollen balls from Mr. Maginn's house?....
Henry remembered. Mr. Maginn, the vicar of Ballymartin, had invited
Henry to spend the afternoon with his nephew and niece and some other
children. They had played a game with balls made of coloured wool, and
while they were playing, Henry, liking the pattern of one of them, had
put it into his pocket. It had been missed, and there had been a search
for it, in which Henry had joined. He was miserable, and he wanted to
confess that he had the ball, but every time he opened his lips to say
that he had it, he felt afraid, and so he had refrained from speaking.
He felt, too, that every one knew that he had taken it, but still he
could not confess that he had it, and when they said, Isn't it queer?
I wonder where it's gone! he had answered, Yes, isn't it queer? They
had abandoned the search, and had played another game, but all the
pleasure of the party was lost for Henry. He kept saying to himself,
You've got it. You've got it!...
He had hurried home after the party was over, and when he reached
the shrubbery, he dug a hole and buried the ball in it. He had closed
his eyes as he took it out of his pocket, so that he should not see the
bright colours of it, and had heaped the earth on to it as if he could
not conceal it quickly enough ... but burying it had not quieted his
mind. He felt, whenever he met Mr. Maginn, that the vicar looked at him
as if he were saying to himself, You stole the woollen ball!.... At
the end of the month, he had gone to his father and told him of it, and
Mr. Quinn had cocked his eye at him for a moment and considered the
subject.
If I were you, Henry, he had said, I'd dig up that ball and take
it back to Mr. Maginn and just tell him about it!
Henry could remember how hard it had been to do that, how he had
loitered outside the gates of the vicarage for an hour, trying to force
himself to go up to the door and ask for the vicar ... and how kind Mr.
Maginn had been when, at last, he had made his confession!
Oh, yes, he remembered!...
You were a funny wee lad, Henry, Mr. Quinn said, taking his son's
hand in his. Always imaginin' things! He thought for a second or two.
I suppose, he went on, that's what makes you able to write books ...
imaginin' things! Ay, that's it!
They sat in quietness for a while, and then Mr. Quinn fell asleep,
and Henry went down to the library and worked again on his new novel,
for which he had not yet found a title; and in his sleep, Mr. Quinn
died.
3
Henry had finished a chapter of the book, and he put down his pen,
and yawned. He was tired, and he thought gratefully of tea. Hannah
would bring a tray to his father's room. There would be little soda
farls and toasted barn-brack, and perhaps she would have made
slim-jim, and there would be newly-churned butter and home-made jam,
which Hannah, in her Ulster way, would call Preserve. ...
He got up from the table and went into the hall.
Will tea be long, Hannah? he called down the stairs, leading to
the kitchens.
Haven't I it near ready? she answered.
He had gone up the staircase at a run, and had entered his father's
room, expecting to see him sitting up....
Hilloa, he said, stopping sharply, still asleep! and he went out
of the room and called softly to Hannah, now coming up the stairs, to
take the tray to the library. He's asleep, Hannah! he said almost in
a whisper.
He's never asleep at this hour, she answered.
And somehow, as she said that, he knew. He went back into the room
and leant over his father, listening....
Is he dead, Master Henry? Hannah said, as she came into the room.
She had left the tray on a table on the landing.
Henry straightened himself and turned to her. Yes, Hannah! he said
quietly.
The old woman threw her apron over her head and let a great cry out
of her. Och, ochanee! she moaned, Och, och, ochanee!...
4
He had none of the terror he had had when Mrs. Clutters lay dead in
the Bloomsbury house. He went into the room and stood beside his
father's body. The finely moulded face had a proud look and a great
look of peace. I don't feel that he's dead, Henry murmured to
himself. I shall never feel that he's dead!
I wasn't with him enough, he went on. I left him alone too
often....
Extraordinarily, they had loved each other. Underneath all that
roughness of speech and violence of statement, there was great
tenderness and understanding. He spoke his mind, and more than his
mind, but he was generous and quick to retract and quicker to console.
I'm an Ulsterman, he said once. Ulster to the marrow, an' begod I'm
proud of it!
But I'm Irish too, he added, turning to John Marsh as he said it,
fearful lest he should have hurt John's feelings. Begod, it's gran' to
be Irish. I pity the poor devils that aren't!...
He was a great lover of life, exulting in his strength and vigour,
shouting sometimes for the joy of hearing himself shout. And shy,
too, Henry murmured to himself, shy as a wren about intimate things!
The sight of his father's placid face comforted him. One might cry
over other people, but not over him. Henry felt that if he were
to weep for his father, and the old man, regaining life for a moment
were to open his eyes and see him, he would shout at him, Good God,
Henry, what are you cryin' about? Go out, man, an' get the fresh air
about you!...
He put his hand out and touched the dead man.
All right, father! he said aloud....
5
There was much to do after the burial, and it was not until the
beginning of the Spring that Henry left Ballymartin. He had completed
his sixth novel, and had asked that the proofs should be sent to him as
speedily as possible so that he might correct them before he left
Ireland, and while he was waiting for them, he had travelled to Dublin
for a few days, partly on business connected with his estate and partly
to see his friends. Mr. Quinn had spent a great deal of money on his
farming experiments, the more freely as he found that Henry's books
brought him an increasing income, and so Henry had decided to let the
six hundred acres which Mr. Quinn himself had farmed. At first, he had
thought of selling the land, but it seemed to him that his father would
have liked him to keep it, and so he did not do so. He settled his
affairs with his solicitors, and then returned to Ballymartin; but
before he did so, he spent an evening with John Marsh, whom he found
still keenly drilling.
But why are you drilling now? he asked. This hardly seems the
time to be playing at soldiers, John!
I'm not playing, Henry. I am a soldier!
It was difficult to remember how many armies there were in Ireland.
The Ulster Volunteers still sulked in the North. The National
Volunteers had split. The politicians, alarmed at the growth of the
Volunteer Movement among their followers, had swooped down on the
Volunteers and captured them. John Marsh and Galway and their friends
had seceded, and, under the presidency of a professor of the National
University, John MacNeill, had formed a new body, called the Irish
Volunteers. The politicians, failing to understand the temper of their
time, worked to discourage the growth of the Volunteer Movement, and
the result of their efforts was that the more enthusiastic and
courageous of the National Volunteers seceded to the Irish Volunteers.
We're growing rapidly, John said to Henry. They're flocking out
of the Nationals into ours as hard as they can. We've got Thomas
MacDonagh and Patrick Pearse and a few others with us, and we're trying
to link up with Larkins' Citizen Army. Mineely's urging Connolly on to
our side, but Connolly's more interested in the industrial fight than
in the national fight. But I think we'll get him over!
Their objects were to defend themselves from attack by the Ulster
Volunteers if attack were made, to raise a rebellion if the Home Rule
Bill were not passed into law, and to resist the enactment of
conscription in Ireland. The burden of their belief was still the fear
of betrayal. But you're going to get Home Rule, Henry would say to
them, and they would answer, We'll believe it when we see the King
opening the Parliament in College Green. Not before. We know what the
English are like....
Henry had suggested to them that they should offer the services of
their volunteers to the Government in return for the immediate
enactment of the Bill, but they saw no hope of such an offer being
accepted and honoured. The minute they'd got us out of the way, they'd
break their word, said Galway. Our only hope is to stay here and make
ourselves as formidable as we can. You can't persuade the English to do
the decent thing ... you can only terrorise them into it. Look at the
way the Ulster people have frightened the wits out of them!...
But the Ulster people haven't frightened the wits out of them. I
can't understand you fellows! You sit here with preconceived ideas in
your heads, and you won't check them by going to see the people you're
theorising about. You keep on saying the same thing over and over
again, and you won't listen to any one who tells you that you've got
hold of the wrong end of the stick!...
My dear Henry, said John, our history is enough for us. Even
since the war, the English have tried to belittle the Irish. They've
done the most inept, small things to annoy us. They'd have got far more
men from Ireland than they have done, if they 'd behaved decently; but
they couldn't. They simply couldn't do the decent thing to Ireland.
That's their nature.... I'd have gone myself!...
You?
Yes. I think the Germans are in the wrong. I think they've behaved
badly, and anyhow, I don't like their theory of life. But the English
couldn't treat us properly. We wanted an Irish Division, with Irish
officers, and Irish colours, and Irish priests ... but no! They
actually stopped some women in the South from making an Irish flag for
the Irish regiments!... What are you to do with people like that. If
they aren't treacherous, they're so stupid that it's impossible to do
anything with them, and we'd much better be separate from them!
I should have thought that Belgium showed the folly of that sort of
thing, said Henry. A little country can't keep itself separate from a
big one. It'll get hurt if it does.
Belgium fought, didn't she? John answered. I daresay we should
get beaten, too, but we could fight, couldn't we?
Henry went away from them in a state of depression. It seemed
impossible to persuade them to behave reasonably. Fixed and immovable
in their minds was this belief that England would use them in her need
... and then betray them when her need was satisfied.
He went back to Ballymartin and corrected his proofs.
I'll go over to England next week, he said to himself when he had
revised the final proofs and posted them to his publishers.
6
Mrs. Graham had written to him when his father died. My dear
Henry, she wrote, I know how you must feel at the death of
your father, and I know, too, that you will not wish to have your
sorrow intruded on. A letter is a poor thing, but, my dear, I send you
all my sympathy. I never saw your father, but Ninian has often spoken
of him to me, and I know that his loss must be almost unbearable to
you. Perhaps he was glad, as I should be glad, to slip away from the
thought and memory of this horrible war, and that may bring comfort to
you. If you feel lonely and unhappy at home, come to Boveyhayne for a
while. You know how glad we shall be to have you. It is very quiet here
now, more than a hundred of our men have gone into the Navy or the
Army, and the poor women are full of anxiety about them. Ninian has
just been moved to Colchester. I daresay he has written to you before
this. If you would like to come to Boveyhayne just send a telegram to
me. That will be sufficient. Believe me, my dear Henry, Your sincere
friend, Janet Graham.
* * * * *
He remembered Mrs. Graham's letter now, and he went to his writing
desk and took it from the notes of condolence he had received. Ninian
and Gilbert and Roger had written to him, short, abrupt letters that he
knew were full of kindly concern for him, and Rachel had written too.
There was a letter from Mary.
* * * * *
Dear Quinny, you don't know how sorry I am. It must be awful to
lose your father when you and he have been such chums. I can only just
remember my father, and how I cried when he was taken away, and so I
know how hard it must be for you. Your friend, Mary.
* * * * *
He read Mrs. Graham's note, and Mary's several times, and as he read
them, he had a longing to go to Boveyhayne again. The house at
Ballymartin was so lonely, now that his father's heavy footsteps no
longer sounded through the hall. Sometimes, forgetting that he was
dead, Henry would stop suddenly and listen as if he were listening for
his father's voice. Since his return from Dublin, he had felt his loss
more poignantly than he had before he went away. In the old days, his
father would have been at the station to meet him. There would have
been a hearty shout, and....
I must go, he said to himself, I must go. I can't bear to be here
now.
He went down to the village and telegraphed to Mrs. Graham telling
her that he would be with her two days later, and while he was in the
post office, the Belfast Evening Telegraph came in.
I'll take my copy with me, he said to the post-mistress, and he
opened it at once to read the news. There was a paragraph in a corner
of the paper, which caught his eye at once. It announced the death in
action of Lord Jasper Jayne.
My God! he said, crumpling the paper as he gaped at the
announcement.
Is it bad news, sir? the post-mistress asked.
A friend of mine, he answered, turning to her. Killed at the
Front!
Aw, dear, she said. Aw, dear-a-dear! An' there'll be plenty more,
sir. There's young fellas away from the village, sir. My own nephew's
away. You mind him, don't you, sir! Peter Logan!...
Peter Logan!
Ay, he used to keep the forge 'til he married Matt Hamilton's
niece, an' then he took to the land. Nothin' would stop him, but to be
off. Nothin' at all would stop him. I toul' him myself the Belgians was
Catholics an' the Germans was Protestants, but nothin' would stop
him....
Sheila Morgan's husband, Henry murmured.
Ay, she answered, that was her name before she was married. He's
trainin' now, an' in a while, I suppose, he'll be off like the rest of
them. Och, ochanee, sir, isn't this a terr'ble world, wi' nothin' but
fightin' an' wringlin'? Will that be all you're wantin', sir?
Yes, thanks, he said.
Poor old Jimphy! They had all been contemptuous of him ... and
now!...
Cecily would be free now! Oh, but what of that? Poor Jimphy! He had
not wished for much from life ... and sometimes it had seemed that he
had got much more than he needed....
The best of us can't do more than he did, Henry thought as he
walked home. A man can't give more than he's got, and Jimphy's given
everything!
7
He started up, and looked about the room, and while he listened, he
could hear the big clock in the hall sounding three times. He was
shivering, though he was not cold. In his dream, he had seen Jimphy,
all bloody and broken....
Oh, my God, how horrible! he groaned.
He got up and went to the window, but he could not see beyond the
high trees, which swayed and moaned and took strange shapes in the
wind. His dream still held his mind, and as he looked into the darkness
and saw the bending branches yielding and rebounding, it seemed to him
that he saw the soldiers rushing forward and heard their cries, hoarse
with war lust or stifled by the blood that gushed from their mouths as
they staggered and fell ... and as he had seen him in his dream, so he
saw Jimphy again, running forward and shouting as he ran, until
suddenly with a queer wrinkled look of amazement on his face, he
stopped, and then, clasping his hands to his head, tumbled in a
shapeless heap on the ground ... but now it seemed to him that as
Jimphy fell, his face changed: it was no longer Jimphy's face, but his
own.
My God, it's me! he cried, shrinking away from the window, and
clutching at the curtains as if he would cover himself with them. My
God, it's me!
He shut his eyes tightly and stumbled back to bed. He bruised
himself against a chair, but he was afraid to open his eyes, and he
rolled into bed, covering himself completely with the clothes, and
buried his face in his folded arms. In his mind, one thought hammered
insistently: I must live! I must live! I must live!
8
I'm run down, he said to himself in the morning. That's what's
the matter with me. I'm run down!
His father's death had affected him, he thought, far more than he
had imagined. He would be all right again after a rest in Devonshire.
It was natural that he should be in a nervous state ... quite natural.
He would go straight to Boveyhayne from Liverpool. He could catch the
Bournemouth Express, and change at Templecombe. ... That's what I'll
do, he said, and he hurried downstairs to prepare for his journey.
THE SEVENTH CHAPTER
1
He changed his mind at Liverpool. I'll go to London first, he
said, and see Roger and Rachel. I might as well hear anything there is
to hear! And so he had telegraphed to Roger who met him at Euston.
Gilbert's going out in a few days, Roger said, when they had
greeted each other.
Out?
Yes. He's going to the Dardanelles!... This job's serious, Quinny!
he added grimly. Our two months' estimate was a bit out, wasn't it? I
suppose you haven't heard from Ninian lately? He hasn't written to me
for a good while.
Not lately, Henry answered, but I shall hear of him to-morrow
when I get to Boveyhayne. I'll write and let you know!
My Big Army book's gone to pot, of course! Roger went on. At
present anyhow!...
The War's done for the Improved Tories, I suppose?
Absolutely. They've all enlisted. Ashley Earls is in the R.A.M.C.
He went in last week. He couldn't go before ... he was ill. You
remember Ernest Carr. He tried to enlist when the War began, but he was
so crippled with rheumatism that they hoofed him out. Well, he's been
living like a hermit ever since to get himself cured, and he says he's
going on splendidly. He thinks he'll be able to join before long....
I wonder if I ought to join, he went on, more to himself than to
Henry. I've thought and thought about it ... but I can't make up my
mind. I've got a decent connexion at the Bar now, and if I go into the
Army, I shall lose it. The fellows who don't go will get my work. And
if the War lasts as long as Kitchener reckons, I shall be forgotten by
the time I get back ... and I shall have to begin again at an age when
most men have either established themselves or cleared out of the
profession altogether. I want to do what's right, but I can't reconcile
my two duties, Quinny. I've a duty to England, of course, but I think I
have a bigger duty to Rachel and Eleanor. If they'd only conscript us
all, this problem wouldn't arise ... not so acutely anyhow. I suppose
the Government is having a pretty hard time, but they do seem to act
the goat rather! There's a great deal of talk about a man's duty to
England, but very little talk about England's duty to the man.
However!... He did not finish his sentence, but shrugged his shoulders
and looked away.
I don't feel happy, he went on after a while, when I see other
men joining up, but I've got to think of Rachel and Eleanor.... When I
was going to meet you, Quinny, I passed a chap on crutches. His leg was
off!... He made me feel damned ashamed. I suppose that's why they let
the wounded go about in uniform so freely; to make you feel ashamed of
yourself. That's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid I shall rush off to the
recruiting office in a burst of emotion ... and I must think of Rachel
and Eleanor!...
I don't see why you should go before I do, Roger, Henry
interjected.
Are you going, Quinny?
Henry flushed. It hurt him that there should be any question about
it.
Yes, he said.
I don't think of you as a soldier, Quinny!
I don't think of myself as one! He paused for a moment, and then,
impetuously, he turned to Roger.
Roger, he said, do you think I'm ... neurotic? Would you say I'm
... well, degenerate?
Don't be an ass, Quinny!
I'm serious, Roger. I'm not just talking about myself, and slopping
over!
You're highly strung, of course, but I shouldn't say you were
neurotic. You're healthy enough, aren't you!
Oh, yes, I'm healthy enough, but I'm such a damned coward, Roger,
and sometimes some perfectly uncontrollable fear seizes me ... silly
frights. I never told you, did I, how scared I was when Mrs. Clutters
died!... He told Roger how he had trembled outside the door of the
dead woman's room. Things like that have happened to me ever since I
was a kid. I make up my mind to join the Army, and then I suddenly get
panicky, and I can almost feel myself being killed. I'm continually
seeing the War ... me in it, crouching in a trench waiting for the
order to go over, and trembling with fright ... so frightened that I
can't do anything but get killed ... and it's worse when I think of
myself killing other people ... I feel sick at the thought of thrusting
a bayonet into a man's body ... squelching through his flesh ... My
God!...
Yes, I know, Quinny! Roger said. One does feel like that. But
when you're there, you don't think of it ... you're more or less off
your head ... you couldn't do it if you weren't. They work you up to a
kind of frenzy, and then you ... just let yourself go!
But afterwards! Don't you think a man 'ud go mad afterwards when he
thought of it? I should. I know I should. I'd lie awake at night and
see the men I'd killed!...
A passenger in the train had told a story of the trenches to Henry,
who now repeated it to Roger.
One of our men got hold of a German in a German trench, and he
bayonetted him, but he did it clumsily. There wasn't enough room to
kill him properly ... he couldn't withdraw the bayonet and stick it in
again and finish the man ... and there they were, jammed together ...
and the German was squealing, oh, horribly ... and our men had to come
and haul the British soldier out of the trench. He'd gone off his
head!...
One oughtn't to think of things like that, Quinny!
But if you can't help it? What terrifies me is that I might turn
funk ... let my lot down!...
You wouldn't. You're the sort that imagines the worst and does the
best. I shouldn't think of it any more if I were you. A month at
Boveyhayne'll pull you all right again....
It's dying that I'm most afraid of. Some of these papers write
columns and columns of stuff about 'glorious deaths' at the front, but
it doesn't seem very glorious to me to be dead before you've had a
chance to do your job ... killed like that ... blown to bits, perhaps
... so that they can't tell which is you and which is some one
else!...
Roger nodded his head. Our journalists contrive to see a great deal
of glory in war ... from Fleet Street, don't they, Quinny!
Sometimes, Henry proceeded, I think that the worst kind of
cowardice is to love life too much. That's the kind of coward I am. I
love living. I used to cry when I was a kid at the thought that I might
die and not be able to run about and look at things that I liked! And
that makes you funky. You're afraid to take risks, for fear you should
lose your life and have to give up the pleasure of living. I suppose
that's what the Bible means when it says that 'whosoever shall lose his
life, shall find it.' This hunt for security melts the marrow in your
backbone!...
Perhaps, said Roger. Where you go wrong, I think, is in imagining
that courage consists in hurling yourself recklessly on things ... in
not caring a damn. I don't think that that's courage ... it's simply
insensibility ... a sort of permanent imperceptiveness. Really, Quinny,
if you don't feel fear, there's not much of the heroic in your acts.
That kind of man isn't much braver when he's plunging at Germans than
he is when he's plunging at a motor-omnibus or getting into a 'scrum'
at Rugger. He simply doesn't see any difference. It's something to
plunge at, and so he plunges. I haven't much faith in the
Don't-Care-a-Damn Brigade. They're more anxious to get V. C's than to
get victories. Their courage is just egoism ... they're thinking, not
of their country, but of themselves. The real hero, I think, is the man
who makes himself do something that he's afraid to do, who goes into a
thing, trembling with fright, but nevertheless goes into it. Did you
ever meet Léon Lorthiois? he said quickly.
You mean the French painter who used to hang about the Café Royal?
Henry replied.
Yes. He was killed the other day in France.
I hadn't heard. Poor chap!
I think he showed extraordinary courage. He started off from London
to join the French Army ... all his friends dined him jolly well ...
and wished him good-luck, and so on, and then he went off. And a week
later, he turned up again with a cock-and-bull story about having been
arrested as a deserter. He said he'd escaped from prison and, after a
lot of difficulty and hardship, got back to England. But he hadn't done
anything of the sort. He'd funked it at the last. He got as far as
Dover, and then he turned back ... frightened. He stayed in London for
a while ... and then he tried again ... and this time he didn't funk
it! They say he was fighting splendidly when he was killed. Men have
got the V.C. for less heroic behaviour than that. He'd conquered
himself. I used to despise that fellow because he wore eccentric
clothes and had his hair cut in a silly fashion ... but I feel proud
now of having known him!
2
Mary met him at Whitcombe, and they walked home, sending his trunk
and portmanteau on in the carriage with Widger. He had anticipated
their meeting with strange emotion, feeling as if he were returning to
her after a time of misunderstanding, richer in knowledge, more capable
of sympathy. He had not seen her since the first performance of The
Magic Casement, and very much had happened to them since then. His
desire for Cecily seemed to have died. He had not troubled to visit her
in London ... he could have found time to do so, had he been anxious to
see her ... but he had not the wish. He had not written to her about
Jimphy ... he could not bring himself to do that ... and the thought
that she might wish to see him did not stir his mind. He felt for her
what a man feels for a woman he has loved, but now loves no more:
neither like nor dislike, but, occasionally, curiosity that did not
last long. She moved him as little as Sheila Morgan had done when he
saw her in the field at Ballymartin, big with child, watching her
husband drilling.
There are permanent things in one's life, and there are impermanent
things ... and you can't turn the one into the other, he thought to
himself, as the little branch railway drove down the Axe Valley. I
wanted Cecily ... and then I didn't want her. There's no more to be
said about it than that!
There were very few people waiting on the platform when the train
drew into Whitcombe, and so Henry and Mary saw each other immediately,
and when he saw her, standing on the windy platform, with her hand to
her hat, he felt more powerfully than he had ever felt it, his old love
for her surging through him. Nothing could ever divert him from her for
very long ... inevitably he would return to her ... whatever of
permanence there was in his life was centred in her. He led her out of
the station and they walked along the road at the top of the shingle
... and as they walked, suddenly he turned to her and, drawing her arm
in his, told her that he loved her.
I haven't much to offer you, Mary ... I'm a poor sort of fellow at
the best ... but I need you, and!...
She did not answer, but she looked up at him with shining eyes....
My dear! he said, and drew her very close to him.
3
They went up the path over the red cliffs and then climbed the steep
steps that led to the top of the White Cliff. The night was beginning
to gather her clouds about her, but still they did not hurry homewards.
Far out, they could see the trawlers returning to the Bay, dipping and
rising and plunging and reeling before the wind as from a heavy blow,
and then, when it seemed that they must fall, righting themselves and
moving swiftly homewards. Beneath them, the sea splashed in great thick
waves that tossed their spray high in the air, and the gulls and
jackdaws spun round and up and down or huddled themselves in the
shelter of the cliffs.
Mary! he said, putting his arm about her.
Yes, Quinny! she answered so quietly that he could not hear her
above the noise of the sea and the wind.
He raised her lips to his and kissed her.
My dear! he said again.
4
There was news of Ninian for them when they reached the Manor. Mrs.
Graham, with his letter in her hand, met them at the door.
He's coming home on leave, she said. He'll be here to-morrow
night. Then he's going out!...
She turned away quickly, after she had spoken, and they followed her
silently into the drawing-room. She stood for a while at the window,
gazing down the avenue where the oaks and the chestnuts mingled their
branches and made a covering for passers-by.
I'll just go upstairs, Henry began, but before he could leave the
room, Mrs. Graham turned away from the window and went to him.
I've put you in your old room, Henry, she said. How are you! You
don't look well!
I'm tired ... but I shall be all right presently. I'll just go
upstairs now!...
He left her hurriedly, for Mary was anxious to tell her mother of
their betrothal, and he wished her to know as quickly as possible. He
dallied in his room so that she might have plenty of time in which to
learn Mary's news. He sat on the wide window-seat and let his mind roam
over his memories. It was in this room that he had first told himself
that he loved Mary ... it was at this very window he had stood while he
resolved that he would marry Sheila Morgan, and again had considered
what Ninian and Gilbert had said about men who marry out of their
class. Almost he expected to hear the door opening as Gilbert walked
in, just as he had done then....
It's no good mooning like this, he said to himself, and then he
went downstairs again.
Mary was sitting beside her mother, holding her hand, and as he
entered she turned to look at him, and smiled so that he knew what he
must do, and so, without hesitation, he crossed the room to Mrs. Graham
and kissed her.
I'm very glad, Henry! she said. Sit down here!
She moved so that he could sit beside her, and when he had settled
himself, she put her hand on his shoulder. It's nice to have you back
again, she said.
They spent the time until dinner in desultory talk that sometimes
lapsed into lengthy silence. A high wind was blowing up from the sea,
and when they had dined, they drew their chairs close to the fire, and
sat quietly in the warmth of it. They could hear the heavy rustle of
the leaves as the trees swayed in the wind, and now and then raindrops
fell down the chimney and sizzled in the hot coals. The lamps were left
unlit, and the firelight made long shadows round the room, flickering
over the old polished furniture and the silverware and the dim
portraits of dead Grahams....
Mary moved from her chair and, placing a cushion on the floor
between Henry and her mother, she sat down and leant her head against
him. He bent forward slightly, and placed his hand on her shoulder, and
as he did so, she put hers up and took hold of it and so they sat in
exquisite peace and quietness until the rising wind, gathering itself
together in greater strength, flung itself heavily on the house and
shook it roughly. In the lull, they could hear the rain beating sharply
on the windows ... and as they listened to the noise of the storm,
their minds wandered away, and in their imagination they could see the
soldiers in France, crouching in the dark trenches, while the wind and
rain beat about them without pity; and in the mind of each of them,
probing painfully, was this persistent thought: Here we are in this
comfort ... and there they are in that!
5
When Mary had gone to bed, Mrs. Graham began to talk of her to
Henry.
I always knew that she and you would marry, Henry, she said, even
when you seemed to have forgotten about her. You ... you were very fond
of Lady Cecily Jayne, weren't you, Henry? He nodded his head. He
wanted to explain that that was over now, that it had been a passing
thing that had no durability, but he could not make the explanation,
and so he did not say anything. I thought her a very beautiful woman,
Mrs. Graham went on. If I'd been a boy I think I should have loved
her, too. Boys are like that!
She was so gentle and kind and understanding that he lost his
shyness, and he confided in her as he would like to have confided in
his mother if she had been alive.
Inside me, he said, I always loved Mary, even when I was obsessed
by ... by some one else. I can't tell you how happy I am, Mrs. Graham.
I feel as if I'd got home after a long and bitter journey ... and I
don't want to go away again ever. Just to look at Mary seems sufficient
... to know that she's there ... that I can put out my hand and touch
her....
Ninian will be glad, too, she said, speaking quickly to cover up
the difficulty he had in finishing his speech.
We've been awfully good friends, we four, he replied, Ninian and
Roger and Gilbert and I. I've always felt about them that we could go
on with our friendship just where we left off, even if we were
separated from each other for years. We're all proud of each other. I
used to think, when we first lived in that house in Bloomsbury, that
we'd never separate ... that we'd form a sort of brotherhood of work
and friendship ... Roger always preached about The Job Well Done ...
but, of course that was impossible. We were bound to diverge and
separate ... all sorts of things compel men to do that. Roger married,
and now Gilbert and Ninian are soldiers....
I feel proud and afraid, Mrs. Graham said. I'm glad that Ninian
has joined ... I think I should hate it if he hadn't ... and yet I wish
too that ... that he weren't in it. I'm not much of a patriot, Henry. I
love my son more than I love my country. I've never been able to
understand those women one reads about who offer their sons gladly. I
don't offer Ninian gladly. I offer him ... that's all. I know that men
have to defend their country, and I love England and I'm proud to be
English ... but when I've said all that, it's very little when I
remember that I love Ninian. I suppose that that's a selfish thing to
say ... but I don't care whether it is or not!... She stopped for a
moment or two, and then, with a change of voice, she said, Do you
think the war will last long, Henry?
I don't know, he replied. Nobody seems able to form any estimate.
When it began I thought it couldn't possibly last for longer than two
months, but it looks like going on for a very long time yet. We move
forward and we move back ... and more men are killed. That's the only
result of anything at present!
It's strange, she murmured, how indifferent one becomes to the
death lists. I thought my heart would break when I saw the first Devon
casualties, but now one simply doesn't feel anything ... just a vague
regret. Sometimes I think I'm growing callous. I can't feel anything
when I read that thousands of men have been killed and wounded. It's
almost as if I were saying to myself, 'Is that all? Weren't there
more?...' I'm not the only one like that. People don't like to admit
it, but I've heard people confessing ... I confess myself ... that I
get a ... kind of shocked pleasure out of a big casualty list! ... Oh,
isn't it disgusting, Henry? One gets more and more coarse every day,
less sensitive!...
Yes, he said, nodding his head and staring into the fire which was
now burning down.
And everywhere, it seemed to him, that coarsening process was going
on, a persistent blunting of the feelings, an itching desire for more
and grimmer and bloodier details. One saw it operating in kindly women
who visited soldiers in hospital or took them for drives ... an
uncontrollable wish to hear the ghastlier things, a greedy anxiety for
experiences. ... And the soldiers loathed these prying women in whom
lust had taken a new turn: the love lust had turned to blood lust, and
those who had formerly itched for men (and even those who had not)
itched now for horrors, more and more horrors.... Tell me, now, they
would say, did you kill any Germans? I suppose you saw some awful
things....
One saw this coarsening process operating on men with incredible
swiftness. Their tastes became edgeless ... they entertained themselves
with big, splashy things, asking for noise and glare and an inchoate
massing of colour, and crowds and crowds of bare girls. There was a
demand for Nakedness, not the nakedness of cleanly, natural things, but
the Nakedness that is partly covered, the Nakedness that hints at
Nakedness....
That's inevitable, I suppose, Henry thought to himself.
The sloppier journalists made a cult of blasphemy and foul speech.
The drill-sergeant was regarded as the most entertaining of humourists,
and decent men who had never done more than the normal and healthy
amount of swearing, began to believe that it was impossible to be manly
unless one bloodied every time one spoke: and swearing, which is a good
and wholesome and manly and picturesque thing, suddenly became like the
gibbering of an idiot.... One was led to believe that the
drill-sergeant spent his time in ordering men to bloody well form
bloody fours! It was immaterial to the sloppier journalists that the
drill-sergeant did not do anything of the sort ... and so the legend
grew, of a great Army going into battle, not with the old English
war-cries on their lips or with new cries as noble, but with Bloody!
for their watch-word, and Who were you With Last Night! for their
war-song....
6
I often wonder what things will be like when the war is over, Mrs.
Graham said. Men can't live like that without some permanent effect.
Their habits will be rougher, more elementary, I suppose, and they'll
value life less highly. I don't see how they can help it. You can't see
men killed in that careless way ... and feel any sanctity about life. I
think life will be harsher for women after the war than it was
before....
She remembered that Ninian's father had always declared that the
Franco-German War had brutalised Germany.
He'd lived in Germany for a long while, she said, and people
admitted that Germany had changed after the War ... grown coarser and
leas kindly!...
They talked on in this strain until the clock chimed twelve. The
storm still blew over the house, but the rain had ceased, and when they
looked out of the window, they could see a rift in the clouds, through
which the moon tore her way.
Good-night, Henry, she said, bending towards him, and he kissed
her cheek and then opened the door for her.
Good-night! he said.
7
Ninian came home on the next day, and when they had told him the
news of Henry's engagement to Mary, he was full of cheers. Good! he
said. Now I shall be able to keep you in order, young fellow. I shall
be a Relation!...
Oh, I've a note for you, he exclaimed, as they drove home. It's
from Gilbert. I met him in town. He'll be on his way out before I get
back. He'd like to have come down here, but he couldn't manage it. He
sent his love to you, Mary, and you, mother! He looks jolly fit ...
never seen him look fitter!
He handed Gilbert's note to Henry who put it in his pocket. He would
read it, he told himself, when he was alone.
We're hopping off to France next week, Ninian said. I suppose,
he added, turning again to Henry, you saw that Jimphy Jayne was
killed. Rough luck, wasn't it? I met a fellow who was in his regiment
... home on sick-leave ... and he says Jimphy fought like fifty.
Gilbert says Cecily's bearing up wonderfully!
He's seen her then? Henry asked.
Yes. She met him in the street ... and as he says, she's bearing up
wonderfully. He didn't say a great deal, but I imagine he didn't admire
the attitude much. Rum woman, Cecily! He had grown together more since
he had been to South America, and his figure, that was always
loose-looking and a little hulking, had been tightened up by his
training.
I don't like your moustache, Ninian, his mother said, looking with
disfavour at the tooth-brush on his upper lip.
Nor do I, he replied, but you have to wear something on your face
... they don't think you can fight if you don't ... and this sort of
thing is the least a chap can do for his king and country. When are you
two going to get married?
His conversation jumped about like a squib.
Oh, not yet, Mrs. Graham hurriedly exclaimed. There's plenty of
time....
I should like to get married at once, said Henry.
No, not yet, Mrs. Graham insisted. I won't be left alone yet
awhile....
There was a learned discourse from Ninian on lengthy engagements
which filled the time until the carriage drove up to Boveyhayne House,
where it was dropped as suddenly as it was begun.
Indoors, Henry read Gilbert's letter.
* * * * *
My dear Quinny, he wrote, I'm writing this in Soho with
a pen that was made in hell. Then there was a splutter of ink.
There, the letter went on, that's the sort of thing it does. I
believe this pen was brought to Soho by the first Frenchman to open a
café here, and it's been handed down from proprietor to proprietor ever
since. Ninian and I have been dining together, and as he's going down
to Boveyhayne to-morrow, I thought I might as well write to you because
I shan't see you again for a while. I'm off to Gallipoli in a day or
two. I dined with Roger and Rachel last night, and they told me that
you looked rather pipped before you went to Devonshire. I hope you'll
soon be all right again. I wish we could have met, but it can't be
helped. We must just meet when we can. It seems a very long while,
doesn't it, since we were at Tre'Arrdur together? It'll be jolly to be
there again when the war's over. You've no idea how interested I've
become in this job, far more interested than I ever imagined I should
be. And I've changed very largely in my attitude towards the War. I
'joined up' chiefly because I felt an uncontrollable love for England
that made me want to do things that were repugnant to me, and also
because I thought that the Germans had behaved very scurvily to the
Belgians; but I don't feel those emotions now particularly. I do, of
course, feel proud of England, and the sight of a hedgerow makes me
want to get up on my hindlegs and cheer, but I've got something else
now that had never entered into my calculations at all ... and that is
an extraordinary pride in my regiment and a strong desire to be worthy
of it. I've just been reading a book about it, a history of the
regiment, and it's left me with a sense of inheritance ... as I should
feel if I were the heir of an old estate. This thing has a history and
a tradition which gives me a feeling of pride and, perhaps more than
that, a sense of responsibility. ... 'You mustn't let it down' I keep
telling myself, and I feel about all the men who served in the regiment
from the time it was formed, that they are my forefathers, so to speak.
I feel their ghosts about me, not the alarming sort of spook, but
friendly, sympathetic ghosts, and I imagine them saying to me,
'Sergeant Farlow, you've got to live up to us!' I've not told any one
else about this, because I'm afraid of being called a sloppy ass ...
and perhaps it is sloppy ... but you'll understand what I feel, so I
don't mind telling you. I shall write to you as often as I can, and you
must write to me and tell me what you're doing. I wish we could have
gone out together. Sometimes I get a creepy-crawly sort of feeling that
nearly turns me inside out ... a feeling that this is good-bye for
good, but I suppose most fellows get that just before they go out. I
began another play about a month ago, and I think it will be good, much
better than anything else I've done. I wish I had time to finish it
before leaving home. This is rather a mess of a letter, and I must
chuck it now, for Ninian is getting tied up in an effort to cultivate a
cordial understanding with the waiter, and I shall have to rescue them
both or there'll be a rupture between the Allies. Give my love to Mary
and Mrs. Graham. I'd have gone to Boveyhayne to see them if I possibly
could, tell them. So long, old chap!
Yours Ever,
Gilbert Farlow.
* * * * *
He showed the letter to Mary, and as he gave it to her, he felt a
new pleasure in his love for her, the pleasure of sharing things, of
having confidences together.
Gilbert's a dear, she said, when she had finished reading the
letter. It would be awfully hard not to be fond of him!
He took the letter and put it in his pocket, and then he put his arm
in Mary's and led her to the garden where the spring flowers were
blowing. I've had great luck, he said. I have Gilbert for my friend
and I have you, Mary, to be my wife, and I don't know that I deserve
either!
Silly Quinny! she said affectionately.
8
They spent the days of Ninian's leave in visiting all the familiar
places about Boveyhayne. It seemed almost that Ninian could not see
enough of them. He would rise early, rousing them with insistent
shouts, and urge them to make haste and prepare for a long walk; and
all day they tramped along the roads, up the combes and down the
combes, over commons, through woods, lingering in the lanes to pluck
the wildflowers that grew profusely in the hedgerows, or listening to
the mating birds that flew continually about them. They walked along
the Roman Road to Lyme Regis in the east, and along the Roman Road
again to Sidmouth in the west, returning in the dark, tired and hungry;
and sometimes they went into the roadside public-houses because of the
warm, comfortable smell they had, and because they liked to listen to
the slow, burring voices of the labourers as they drank their beer and
cider and talked of the day's doings. There was a corner of the Common,
near the edge of the cliff, where they could lie when the sun was warm,
and look out over the Channel to where the Brixham trawlers lay in a
line along the horizon. Westwards, the red clay cliffs ran up and down
in steeply undulating lines as far as they could see, and near at hand,
in a wide valley beyond the gloomy combe that leads to Salcombe Regis,
they could very plainly see the front of Sidmouth. In the east, they
could look up the wooded valley of the Axe, and, beyond the
vari-coloured Haven Cliff, see the Dorset Hills that huddled Charmouth
and Bridport, and further out, like an island in mist, the high reach
of Portland Bill....
In this corner of the Common, they spent the last day of Ninian's
leave. Behind them was a great stretch of gorse in bloom, and brown
bracken, mingled with new green fronds, from which larks sprang up,
singing and soaring. They had eaten sandwiches on the Common, and in
the afternoon, had climbed down the steep side of the combe to a farm
to tea, and, then they had climbed up the combe again, and had sat in
their corner, watching the Boveyhayne trawlers blowing home; and as
they sat there, they became very quiet. In this solitude and peace, the
outrage of war seemed to have no meaning....
Ninian stirred slightly. He raised himself on his elbow and looked
about him....
Let's go home, he said quickly, getting up as he spoke. He went to
his mother and helped her to rise, and when she was standing up, he
took her arm and drew it through his, and led her towards the village;
and when they had gone up the grassy path through the bracken, and were
well on the way home, Mary and Henry followed after them.
Ninian feels things more than he admits, Henry whispered to her.
9
They made poor attempts at gaiety that night, and Ninian tried to
make oratory about Engineers. He divided his discourse into two parts:
one insisting that the war would be won by engineering feats; the other
insisting that it might be lost because of the contempt of most of the
military men for Engineers, which, Ninian said, was another word for
Brains. They don't think we're gentlemen, he said. I met a 'dug-out'
last week, and he was snorting about the Engineers ... hadn't a
happorth of brains in his skull, the ass ... and I asked him why it was
that he thought so little of them. Do you know what he said? 'Oh,' says
he, 'they're always readin' books an' ... an' inventin' things!' That's
the kind of chap we've got to endure! Isn't he priceless? I very nearly
told him he ought to be embalmed ... only I thought to myself he'd
think that was the sort of remark an engineer would make. Plucky old
devil, of course, but nothing in his head. If you shook it, it wouldn't
rattle!... He seemed to think he'd only got to say, 'Now, then, boys,
give 'em hell!' and the Germans 'ud just melt away. As I said
afterwards, it's all very well, to say 'Give 'em hell,' but you can't
give it to 'em, if you don't know what it's like!...
But the oratory failed, and the gaiety fizzled out, and after a
while Mrs. Graham, finding the silence and her thoughts insupportable,
left them and went to bed.
Come and say 'Good-night' to me, she said to Ninian as she left
the room.
All right, mother! he answered.
He tried to take up the theme of engineering again. It's no good
trying to chivy Germans in the way you chivy foxes. You've got to
think, and think hard. That's where we come in!... But it was a poor
effort, and he abandoned it quickly.
I think, he said, I'll go up and say 'Good-night' to mother. You
two'll see to things!...
Righto, Ninian, Henry answered.
Mary came and sat beside him when Ninian had gone.
I'm trying to feel proud, she said, but....
Don't you feel proud? he asked, fondling her.
No. I'm anxious. It would hurt mother terribly if anything were to
happen to Ninian, she answered.
Nothing will happen to him....
One said that just because it was comforting.
Quinny, she said, drawing herself up to him and leaning her elbows
on his knees, do you love me really and truly?...
He put his arms quickly about her, and drew her close to him, and
kissed her passionately.
But you haven't loved only me, she said, freeing herself.
He did not answer.
I've never loved any one but you, she went on. I haven't been
able to love any one but you. I've tried to love some one else ...
tried very hard!
Who was it? he asked.
No one you knew. It was after I'd seen you with Lady Cecily Jayne.
I was jealous, Quinny!...
My dear, he said, flattered by the oneness of her love for him.
But I couldn't. I just couldn't. I suppose I'm rather limited! She
made a wry smile as she spoke. I felt stupid beside her. She talked so
easily, and I couldn't think of anything to say. You must have thought
I was a fool, Quinny!
No, Mary!...
Oh, but I was. I got stupider and stupider, and the more I thought
of how stupid I was, the stupider I got. I could have cried with
vexation. Do you remember Gilbert's party ... I mean when it was over
and we were going home?
Yes.
I prayed that you'd come with mother and me. I thought
Ninian would go with mother, and you'd go with me ... but you didn't!
I remember, he answered. I wanted to go with you....
Why didn't you?
Some one came up ... I've forgotten ... something happened, and so
I didn't. I wanted to, Mary!
I thought then that you and I would never! ... Why did you ask me
to marry you, Quinny?
Because I love you, Mary....
But ... did you mean to marry me or did you just ... sort of ...
not thinking, I mean!... Oh, it's awf'lly hard to say what's in my
mind, but I want to know whether you love me really and truly, Quinny,
or only just asked me to marry you impulsively ... when you weren't
thinking?
I came here loving you, Mary. I didn't mean to tell you about it so
soon as I did ... that was impulse ... I couldn't help it ... the
moment I saw you as the train came into the station, I felt that I must
ask you at once. It would have been rather awkward if you'd said, 'No.'
I suppose I should have had to go straight back to London again!... But
I came here loving you. I've loved you all the time ... even when I
wasn't thinking of you, but of some one else. I've come back to you
always in my thoughts!...
Do you remember, she said, the first time you asked me to marry
you, Quinny?
Yes.
I've meant it ever since then. You hurt me when you went to Ireland
and didn't answer my letter....
I know! he exclaimed.
How do you know?
I just know. And when I talked to you about it, that time in
Bloomsbury when you and Mrs. Graham and Rachel came to dine with
us....
I made fun of it, didn't I? But I had to, Quinny. You'd been
unkind, and I had to make some sort of a show, hadn't I? I had to keep
my pride if I couldn't keep anything else.
We've been stupid, both of us.
You have, she retorted.
I have, he said. I've been frightfully stupid. That's what
puzzles me. I'm clear-sighted enough about the people I make up in my
books. The critics insist on my understanding of human motives, and I
know that I have that understanding. I can get right inside my
characters, and I know them through and through ... but I'm as stupid
as a sheep about myself and about you and ... living people. I suppose
I exhaust all my understanding on my books!
Well, it doesn't matter, Quinny, dear, she said. I'll understand
for the two of us!...
10
In the morning, Ninian went away. They drove to Whitcombe Station
with him and saw him off. They had been anxious about Mrs. Graham and
dubious of her endurance at the moment of parting ... but she had
insisted on going to the station, and so they had not persisted in
their persuasions. And she had held herself proudly.
Good-bye, my dear, she said, hugging Ninian tightly, and smiling
at him. You'll write to me ... often!
Every day, he replied. If I can!
It had been difficult to fill in the few moments between their
arrival at the station and the departure of the train. They said little
empty things ... repeated them ... and then were silent....
Then the train began to move, and Mrs. Graham, snatching quickly at
him, had kissed him as he was carried off. They stood at the end of the
platform, watching the train driving quickly up the valley until it
stopped at Coly. Then they heard the whistle of the engine, and saw the
smoke curling up, and again the train moved on, and then they could see
it no more.
We'll walk home, Mary whispered to Henry. She'd much better go
back by herself!
And so they left her, still smiling, though now and then, her hands
trembled.
THE EIGHTH CHAPTER
1
A month after Gilbert and Ninian had left England, Henry went to
London for a couple of days on business connected with his books. Mrs.
Graham had asked him to return to Boveyhayne instead of going to
Ireland, until he was fully well again, and he had gladly accepted her
invitation. He had written a few pages of a new book that pleased him,
and he was anxious to complete the story before he entered the Army.
Writing irked him, but he could not abstain from writing ... some demon
drove him to it, forcing him to his desk when all his desire was to be
out in the lanes with Mary or sailing about the bay with Tom Yeo and
Jim Rattenbury. There were times when he loathed this labour of writing
which came between him and the pleasure of living, so that he sometimes
saw foxgloves and bluebells and primroses and violets and wild
daffodils, not as the careless beauty of a Devonshire lane, but as
picturesque material for a description in one of his chapters. And his
beastly creatures would not lie still in his study until he returned to
attend to them, but insisted on following him wherever he went,
thrusting themselves upon his notice continually, whether the time was
opportune or not. He would walk with Mary, perhaps to Hangman's Stone,
and suddenly he would hear her saying, What are you thinking of,
Quinny? and he would come out of his silence with a start, and say,
Oh, my book, Mary! and find that he had been walking by her side,
unaware of her, unaware of anything but these abominable paper people
who deluged his mind with their being ... and when they got to
Hangman's Stone, he thought always, What a good title for a story!
But I can't leave it alone, he would say to himself, and then he
would compare himself to a drunkard, eager to be quit of his drink, but
unable to conquer his craving. And he had pride in it, too. That was
what distinguished him from the drunkard and the drug-taker. They had
no pride in their drunkenness or their drugged senses, but he had pride
in his books, and constantly in his mind was the desire that before he
joined the Army, he should leave another book behind him, that his life
should be expressed substantially in a number of novels, so that if he
should die in battle, he would have left something by which men might
remember him.
He had talked to Mary about his position, but she had insisted that
this was a decision he must make for himself. Her view, and the view of
her mother, was that a woman ought not to take the responsibility of
urging a man to endure the horror and danger of such a war as this.
Women can't go into the trenches themselves, Mrs. Graham said, and
they've no right to ask any one else to go! That was what his father
had said.
But somebody must go, and there are people who have to be told
about things, he objected.
I think, Mrs. Graham answered, I'd rather be killed than be
defended by a man who was white-feathered into doing it, and I know I
should never be happy again if I'd nagged at a man until he joined the
Army, and he was killed.... I think that some women will have haunted
minds after this War!
It's the Government's job to say who shall go and who shall stay,
Mary added. That's what they're there for, and it's mean of them to
shuffle out of their responsibility and let a lot of flappers and old
maids do their work for them!
Then their talk had taken a new turn, and in the end it was settled
that Mary and he were to be married when the new book was finished, and
then he would join the Army. There had been a difficulty with Mrs.
Graham, but Mary over-ruled her.
I won't let him go until he marries me, she said, shutting her
lips firmly and looking very resolutely at her mother.
Roger and I might go in together, Henry suggested. I had a letter
from him saying he thought he would join soon. Rachel's going to live
in the country....
She can come here if she likes, Mrs. Graham interjected. You'd
better tell her that when you go to town. She can stay with us until
the war's over....
There's the baby, of course! Henry reminded her.
I know, she answered. I'd like to hear a baby in this house
again....
2
London was strangely sensitive, easily exalted, easily depressed,
listening avidly to rumours, even when they were clearly absurd. It was
the least English of the cities, far, far less English than the
villages and country towns. London's nerves were often jangled, but the
nerves of Boveyhayne were never jangled. London jumped up and down like
a Jack-in-the-box, but Boveyhayne moved steadily on. There were times
when London was so un-English as to believe that England might be
beaten ... but Boveyhayne never imagined that for a moment. Boveyhayne
did not think of the defeat of England, because it had never occurred
to Boveyhayne that England could be beaten. Old Widger would sometimes
say, They Germans be cunning! or Us'll 'ave to 'it a bit 'arder
avore us knocks 'un out! but Old Widger never imagined for a moment
that 'un, as he always called the Kaiser, would not sooner or later
get knocked out, and so he went on with his work, pausing now and then
to say, 'Er's a reg'lar cunnin' old varmint, 'er be! almost with as
much admiration as if he were talking of a fox or an otter that had
eluded the hounds many times. But the cunningest fox falls to the
hounds in the end of some chase, and Widger did not doubt that Keyser
would fall, too. Boveyhayne, was very English in its reserves and its
dignity. London might squeal for reprisals, but Boveyhayne never
squealed. When the Germans torpedoed a merchant ship, Old Widger said,
It hain't very manly, be it, sir? and that was all. Old Widger was
not indifferent or without imagination ... but he had self-respect, and
he could not squeal like a frantic rabbit even when he was in pain. He
could hit, and he could hit hard, but he did not care to claw and
scratch and bite!...
Henry disliked London then, but he comforted himself with the
thought that it resembled all capital cities, that its population was
not a native population, but one that shifted and changed and had no
tradition. Old Widger had lived in the same cottage all his life: his
father had lived there too; and his family, for several generations
before his father, had lived and worked in Boveyhayne. They had habits
and customs so old that no one knew the meaning of them. When Widger's
wife died, Widger and his family had gone to church on the Sunday after
her burial, as all the Boveyhayne bereaved do, and had sat through the
service, taking no part in it, neither kneeling to pray nor rising to
sing nor responding to the invocations. But Old Widger did not know why
he had behaved in that fashion, nor did any one in Boveyhayne. Don't
seem no sense in it, he said, but nevertheless he did it, and nothing
on earth would have prevented him from doing it. It was the custom....
But there was no custom in London. There were no habits, no
traditions, nothing to hold on to in times of crisis or distress. There
was no one in London who had been born and had spent all his life in
one house, in a house, too, in which his father had been born and had
lived and had died. People took a house for three years ... and then
moved to another one. Locality had no meaning for them ... they hardly
knew the names of their neighbours ... they were not surrounded by
cousins ... the roads and streets had no meaning or memories for them
... they were just thoroughfares, passages along which one walked or
drove to a railway station or a shopping centre....
And while Old Widger, if the thought had been put into his mind,
would stoutly have answered, Us ain't never been beat! a Londoner
would have answered, My God, supposing we are beaten?... Victory
might be long in being won. Widger would admit that. But us ain't
never been beat he would maintain. The Londoner would admit that
victory might never be won ... and in making the admission,
de-nationalised himself. Widger, obstinate, immovable, imperturbable,
kindly, unvengeful and resolute, was English to the marrow ... and when
Henry thought of England as a conquering country, he thought of it as a
nation of Widgers, not as a nation of Cockneys.
And it is a nation of Widgers, he said to himself. The
Cockneys shout more, print more, and they squeal a lot, but the Widgers
are in the majority!
It was not until night fell that Henry's love of London was
restored. When the sky-signs were put out, and the shop-lights were
diminished, and the running flames announcing the merits of this one's
whisky and that one's tea were quenched, London became again an ancient
city that a man could love....
It's worth fighting for? Henry murmured to himself as he stood on
the terrace of Trafalgar Square, before the National Gallery, and
looked about him at the dusk-softened outlines and the rich highways of
shadows. One would not fight for the England that squealed through the
ha'penny papers ... one would gladly throttle that England ... one
would not fight for the England of the Stock Broker and the Mill Owner
... but one would fight hard, fight until death, for the England of Old
Widger and the England of this darkened, dignified and beautiful
London.
3
He had attended to his business with his publishers, and was walking
along the Strand towards Charing Cross, when he became aware of a
thrill of emotion running through the crowd that stood on either side
of the road.
What is it? he said to a bystander.
The wounded! was the answer.
He pressed forward, and stood on the edge of the pavement, and as he
did so, the ambulances came put of the station. There was a moment of
deep, hurting silence, and then came cheers and waving handkerchiefs
and sobs. ... There was a parson standing at Henry's elbow, and he
cheered as if he were intoning ... little sterilised hurrahs ... and
there was a woman who murmured continually, Oh, God bless them! God
bless them all! while she cried openly, unrestrainedly. Unceasingly,
the ambulances seemed to pass on to the hospitals, and the soldiers,
pale from their wounds and tired after their journey by sea and train,
lay back in queer disregard of the crowd that cheered them. Now and
then, one moved his hand in greeting or smiled ... but most of them
were irresponsive, dazed, perhaps hearing still the sound of the
smashing artillery and the cries of the maimed and dying, unable to
believe that they were back again in a place where there was no
fighting, where men and women walked and talked and did their work and
took their pleasure in disregard of death and a bloody and abrupt
end.... There was a private motor-car in the middle of the procession
of ambulances, and inside it was a wounded officer with his wife ...
and she did not care who looked on nor what was said, she held him in
her arms and kissed him and would not let him go....
Oh, my God, Henry murmured to himself, as the cars went by, I
can't bear this!...
He wanted to kill Germans ... it seemed to him then that nothing
else mattered but to kill Germans ... that one must put aside the
generous beliefs, the kindly intentions, one's work, one's faith,
everything ... and kill Germans; unceasingly, without relenting ...
kill Germans; that for every wound these men bore, for every drop of
blood they had lost, for every pang they had endured, for every tear
that their women had shed ... one must kill Germans.
He withdrew from the crowd. Somewhere near at hand, there was a
recruiting office. He remembered to have seen a large guiding sign
outside St. Martin's Church. He would go there!...
He had to wait until the procession of motor-ambulances had passed
by, and then he crossed the street and went to find the recruiting
office. I'm excited, he said to himself. I'm full of emotion. That's
what I am. I'm over-wrought. Those soldiers!...
In his mind, he could see the woman in the motor-car, hugging her
wounded husband ... and a soldier, lying on a stretcher in an
ambulance, with his head swathed in bandages, near a little window ...
feebly trying to wave his hand to the crowd....
It's no good being sloppy, he told himself. One can't win a war
by ... spilling over. One's got to keep one's head!
He turned the corner of the Church and saw the recruiting office,
covered with posters, in a narrow lane. He walked towards it,
slackening his pace as he did so ... and then he walked past it.
I can't go in now, he thought. I must see Roger first ... and
there's the book to finish ... and Mary!...
4
He had seen Roger and Rachel, and was now on his way back to
Boveyhayne.... Roger had agreed that he would not join without Henry.
I can't go yet, he had said. When I've saved a little more, I'll go
in. I want to leave Rachel and Eleanor as secure as I can!
There was another boom in recruiting just then, following on another
German outrage.
It'll take them some time to shape the crowd they're getting now,
Roger had said, so that we won't be hindering them if we hang back for
a while. I should have thought you'd want to go into an Irish regiment,
Quinny!
It doesn't very much matter, does it, what the regiment is? Henry
had answered. The labels are more or less meaningless now. And I'd
like to be with some one I know!
He had given Mrs. Graham's invitation to Rachel, and Rachel had sent
her thanks to Mrs. Graham. She would be glad to go to Boveyhayne when
everything was settled.
Things were clearer now. In a little while, Mary and he would be
married. Then he could go with Roger. He would have to see his lawyers
in Dublin ... there would be a marriage settlement to make and business
connected with the estate to settle ... and that done, and his book
ready for the printers, he would be free.
I wish the next two months were over, he said to himself.
He had to change at Salisbury, and while he was waiting for the slow
train to Exeter, he met Mullally. He had looked at him, vaguely
wondering who he was and why his face should seem familiar, until
recollection had come to him, and then, with a return of the old
aversion, he had turned away, hoping that Mullally had not seen or
recognised him. But Mullally had recognised him, and, unable as ever to
understand that his acquaintance was not wanted, he came to Henry and
held out his hand.
I thought it was you, he said. I wasn't sure at first, but when
you turned away ... there was something about your back that was
familiar ... I knew it was you. How are you? I haven't seen you
since you left Rumpell's, though I've heard of you, of course, and read
of you, too! You've become quite well-known, haven't you?
Henry smiled feebly, an unfriendly, unresponsive, mirthless smile,
as was his wont when he was in the presence of people whom he disliked.
I've often wondered about you, Mullally went on, unembarrassed by
Henry's obvious wish to get away from him.
Oh, yes, Henry replied, saying to himself, I wish to God my train
would come in!
Yes, I've often wondered about you, Mullally went on. And about
Farlow and Graham and Carey. You were great friends, you four, weren't
you? I'd have called you 'The Heavenly Twins' only there were four of
you, and 'quadruplets' is a difficult word for a nickname, don't you
think? I mean to say 'The Heavenly Quadruplets' doesn't sound nearly so
neat as 'The Heavenly Twins.' It's funnier, of course! What's become of
them all? I saw somewhere that Farlow'd written a play, but I didn't
see it. I've read one or two of your books, by the way. Quite good, I
thought! What did you say'd become of them?
Carey's in London ... at the Bar, Henry answered. I've just been
staying with him. He's married!...
Dear me! And has he any ... little ones?
Oh, that was like Mullally! He would be sure to say little ones
when he meant children.
He has a daughter!
Oh, indeed! He must be very gratified. And Farlow and Graham, how
are they, and what are they doing?
Farlow's in Gallipoli and Graham's in France!...
Oh, this dreadful war, Mullally exclaimed, wrinkling his features.
I'm greatly opposed to it. I've been addressing meetings on the
subject!
Have you? Henry asked with more interest than he had previously
shown.
Yes, I'm totally opposed to it. All this secret diplomacy and race
for armaments ... that's at the bottom of it all. My dear Quinn, some
members of the Cabinet have shares in armament works. It's easy enough
to see why we're at war!...
Henry could not prevent himself from laughing.
Do you mean to say you think they got up the war on purpose so's to
get bigger dividends on their armament shares?
Mullally shrugged his shoulders. I don't wish to impute motives,
he said. No, I should not care to do that. I believe in the good
intentions of my fellow man, but all the same, it's very peculiar. It
looks bad!...
You always were a bloody fool, Mullally, and you're a bloodier one
now. Good afternoon! said Henry, turning to look at the train which
was now entering the station.
He hurried to secure a carriage, and while he was settling his bag
on the rack, he heard the voice of Mullally bleating in his ear.
I'm going to Exeter, too, he said. I'll just get in with you. I
have a third class ticket, but if they ask for the excess, I can pay
it!
Oh, damn! said Henry to himself.
5
I can understand the difficulty you have in believing that people
could behave so ... so basely, Mullally said, as the train carried
them out of Salisbury.
I don't believe it at all, Henry answered, and I think that any
one who does believe it is a malicious-minded ass!
But they hold the shares ... you can see the list of shareholders
at Somerset House for yourself ... and they'll take the profits. I'm
quite willing to believe in the goodness of the average man ... in
fact, I've denounced the doctrine of Original Sin very forcibly before
now ... but I must say that there's something very suspicious about
this business. Very suspicious. And you know some of the soldiers are
really rather!...
Rather what? said Henry.
Well, I don't like saying anything about anybody, but some of them
are not all that they should be. They should set an example, and they
don't. I've heard some very startling things about the behaviour of the
soldiers. Very startling things. I don't want to say anything that may
sound unpleasant, but I suggest that you should read the Report of the
Registrar-General when it comes out. It will cause some consternation,
I can promise you. Young women, Quinn, simply can't be kept away from
the soldiers, and I've been told ... well!...
Again he shrugged his shoulders, and turned his palms upwards and
raised his eyebrows. A Member of Parliament had written to the
Morning Post about it ... a Conservative member of Parliament, not
a Liberal or a Socialist, mark you, but a Conservative....
Two thousand cases expected in one town, Mullally whispered.
Knows it for a fact. Seen the girls!...
Mullally proposed a calculation. They were to work out the number of
unmarried girls who would shortly become mothers, using the
Conservative M.P.'s letter as a basis of calculation.
Thousands and thousands, he prophesied. Hundreds of thousands.
All illegitimate. I believe, of course, that we make too much fuss
about the marriage laws, Quinn, but still ... there are limits, don't
you think? I mean, we must make changes slowly, not in this ... this
drastic fashion. But what are you to expect? When the very Cabinet
Ministers are proved to have shares in munition works, is it any wonder
that the common soldier runs riot?...
I get out at the next station, said Henry.
Do you? said Mullally. But I thought you didn't change until you
got to Whitcombe Junction?
I don't said Henry, but I get out at the next station!
I see, said Mullally.
About time, Henry thought.
6
After dinner, he asked Mary to walk to the village with him.
Isn't it late? Mrs. Graham objected.
Oh, no, he answered. It's a beautiful moonlight night, and I feel
I want to stretch my legs. I've been cooped up in the train best part
of the day. Come along, Mary!
I'll just get my coat, she said.
When they were ready, he put his arm in hers, and they walked down
the long lane, past the copse and through the pine trees, to the
village.
It's very quiet to-night, Mary said.
Extraordinarily still, he answered.
There was no one in the village street and there were no lights
shining from any of the windows, except from the bedroom of a cottage
near the sea.
They've all gone to bed very early, haven't they? he said,
glancing about the deserted street.
But it isn't early, Quinny, she replied. It's quite late. It must
be nearly ten o'clock. We had dinner much later to-night because your
train was so long in getting in!
Well, they're missing a gorgeous night, all of them, he exclaimed,
holding her tightly.
They walked to the fisherman's shelter and stood against the iron
rail on top of the low cliff. The moon had made a broad path of golden
light across the bay, from the shingle to the pinnacle on the nearer of
the two headlands, and they could see the golden water flowing through
the hole in the cliff.
I'd love to bathe now, Mary said. I'd love to swim all along that
splash of moonlight to the caves and back again....
A belated sea-gull cried wearily overhead and then flew off to its
nest in the cliffs.
The water's awfully black looking outside the moonlight, Henry
exclaimed.
Ummm! she answered.
They shivered a little in the cold air, and instinctively they drew
closer to each other. Beneath them, lying high on the shingle, were the
trawlers, lying ready for the morning when the fishermen would push
them down into the sea.
Tom Yeo and Jim Rattenbury are going to have a motor put into their
trawler, Mary said. It'll make a lot of difference to them. They'll
be able to go out even when there isn't any wind.
Henry did not answer. He had a strange sense of fear that was
inexplicable to him. He seemed to be outside himself, outside his own
fear, looking on at it and wondering what had caused it. He felt as if
something were pulling at him, trying to force him to look round ...
and he was afraid to look round.... He shuddered violently.
Are you cold, Quinny? Mary said anxiously, turning to him.
Yes, he answered quickly, wishing to account for his sudden
shivering in a way that would not alarm her. We'd better go back!...
What was the matter? Why was he so suddenly afraid and so strangely
afraid? If it had been dark, very dark, and he had been alone ... but
it was bright moonlight ... so bright that one could almost see to read
... and Mary was with him ... and yet he was afraid to look round at
the White Cliff. Something inside him, apart from him, seemed to feel
that if he looked up the long steep path over the White Cliff ... he
would see something.
Come on, Mary! he said, turning to go, and turning in such a way
that he could not see the Cliff.
They walked rapidly up the street.... That'll warm me, he
explained to Mary ... and as he walked, he was afraid to look back.
What the devil's the matter with me? he kept saying to himself
until they reached the end of the lane leading to the Manor.
You're walking too quickly, Quinny! Mary said, holding back.
I'm sorry, dear, he exclaimed, slackening his pace reluctantly.
He had never had this sensation before ... as if a fear had been
stuck on to him, a fear that was not part of his nature, a thing
outside him trying to get inside him.... He forgot that Mary had
complained of the rapidity with which he was walking, and he set off
again. The pine trees had a black, ominous look, and the sound of the
wind blowing through their needles was like continuous moaning.
Are you trying to win a race, Quinny? Mary said.
He laughed nervously. No. I'm ... I'm sorry!...
As they passed the copse, he shut his eyes, and so he stumbled over
the rough ground and almost fell.
What is it, Quinny? Mary demanded, catching hold of him.
It's nothing, he said. I'm tired, that's all....
7
He shut the door behind him quickly, and fastened the bolts. Mary
had gone into the drawing-room, and when he had secured the door, he
followed her.
Mother's gone to bed, she said, and then, going to him and putting
her hands on his shoulder, she added, What is it, Quinny? Something's
upset you. I know it has!
He looked at her for a few moments without speaking.
Tell me, please! she insisted.
He put his arm about her and led her to the armchair by the fire,
and when she was seated, he sat down on the floor beside her.
I didn't want to tell you until we got home, he said. I didn't
want to frighten you....
What was it? Was there anything there?...
I don't know what it was, Mary, but I suddenly felt frightened ...
a queer kind of fright. I was afraid to look round for fear I should
see something ... I don't know what ... on the cliff. I felt that
something wanted me to look round, and I wouldn't. I didn't dare to
look round. All the way up the street, I felt that something wanted me
to look round.... I'm not afraid now!
How queer, she said in a low voice.
I've never felt anything like it before ... half afraid and half
not afraid!...
He began to talk about Mullally. He's a toad, that fellow, he
said, an ... an enlarged toad!
I'm going to bed, she interrupted. Good-night, Quinny!
She bent her face to his.
Good-night, my dear! he said, kissing her fondly.
8
Three days later, when he had almost forgotten his fright on the
cliffs, he went down to the village to get the morning papers.
What's the news, he said to one of the villagers whom he met on
the way.
'Bout the same, sir. Don't seem to be much 'appenin' at present,
the man replied.
He went on to the news agency and got the papers, and then, hastily
glancing at the headlines for the more obvious news, he tucked the
papers under his arm and went slowly back to the Manor by another road
than the one by which he had come into the village. There was a field
with a hollow where one could lie in shelter and see the whole of the
bay and the eastern cliffs in one direction, and the Axe Valley in
another, and here he sat for a while, smoking and reading and now and
then trying to follow the tortuous windings of the Axe as it came down
the marsh to the sea.
If Ninian were here, he said to himself, he'd start making plans
to straighten it out!...
He glanced through the war bulletins, with their terrible iteration
of trenches taken and trenches lost. People read the war news
carelessly now, almost wearily, so accustomed had they become to the
daily report of positions evacuated and positions retrieved, forgetting
almost that at the taking or the losing of a trench, men lost their
lives.
There isn't much in the paper this morning, he said, and then he
turned to a page of lesser news, and almost as he did so, his eye
caught sight of Gilbert's name. His grip on the paper was so tight that
he tore it. He stared at the paragraph with startling eyes, reading and
re-reading it, as if he were unable to comprehend the meaning of the
thing he read.... Then, as understanding came to him, he gaped about
with vacant eyes.
Oh, my God! he cried, Gilbert's been killed!
9
He got up, half choking, and scrambled out of the field. A labourer
greeted him, but he made no answer. He ran up the road, and as he ran,
he cried to him |