Cabin Fever by B. M. Bower
CHAPTER ONE. THE
CHAPTER TWO. TWO
MAKE A QUARREL
TEN DOLLARS AND
A JOB FOB BUD
HEAD SOUTH AND
CHAPTER SIX. BUD
TAKES TO THE
INTO THE DESERT
MONTHS AND MILES
THE BITE OF
THE FIRST STAGES
MARIE TAKES A
FEVER IN THE
GETS A SHOCK
AND BUD NEVER
STRIKES IT RICH
MARIE'S SIDE OF
There is a certain malady of the mind induced by too much of one
thing. Just as the body fed too long upon meat becomes a prey to that
horrid disease called scurvy, so the mind fed too long upon monotony
succumbs to the insidious mental ailment which the West calls "cabin
fever." True, it parades under different names, according to
circumstances and caste. You may be afflicted in a palace and call it
ennui, and it may drive you to commit peccadillos and indiscretions of
various sorts. You may be attacked in a middle-class apartment house, and
call it various names, and it may drive you to cafe life and affinities
and alimony. You may have it wherever you are shunted into a backwater of
life, and lose the sense of being borne along in the full current of
progress. Be sure that it will make you abnormally sensitive to little
things; irritable where once you were amiable; glum where once you went
whistling about your work and your play. It is the crystallizer of
character, the acid test of friendship, the final seal set upon enmity.
It will betray your little, hidden weaknesses, cut and polish your
undiscovered virtues, reveal you in all your glory or your vileness to
your companions in exile--if so be you have any.
If you would test the soul of a friend, take him into the wilderness
and rub elbows with him for five months! One of three things will surely
happen: You will hate each other afterward with that enlightened hatred
which is seasoned with contempt; you will emerge with the contempt tinged
with a pitying toleration, or you will be close, unquestioning friends to
the last six feet of earth--and beyond. All these things will cabin fever
do, and more. It has committed murder, many's the time. It has driven men
crazy. It has warped and distorted character out of all semblance to its
former self. It has sweetened love and killed love. There is an
antidote--but I am going to let you find the antidote somewhere in the
Bud Moore, ex-cow-puncher and now owner of an auto stage that did not
run in the winter, was touched with cabin fever and did not know what
ailed him. His stage line ran from San Jose up through Los Gatos and over
the Bear Creek road across the summit of the Santa Cruz Mountains and
down to the State Park, which is locally called Big Basin. For something
over fifty miles of wonderful scenic travel he charged six dollars, and
usually his big car was loaded to the running boards. Bud was a good
driver, and he had a friendly pair of eyes--dark blue and with a humorous
little twinkle deep down in them somewhere--and a human little smiley
quirk at the corners of his lips. He did not know it, but these things
helped to fill his car.
Until gasoline married into the skylark family, Bud did well enough to
keep him contented out of a stock saddle. (You may not know it, but it is
harder for an old cow-puncher to find content, now that the free range is
gone into history, than it is for a labor agitator to be happy in a
municipal boarding house.)
Bud did well enough, which was very well indeed. Before the second
season closed with the first fall rains, he had paid for his big car and
got the insurance policy transferred to his name. He walked up First
Street with his hat pushed back and a cigarette dangling from the
quirkiest corner of his mouth, and his hands in his pockets. The glow of
prosperity warmed his manner toward the world. He had a little money in
the bank, he had his big car, he had the good will of a smiling world. He
could not walk half a block in any one of three or four towns but he was
hailed with a "Hello, Bud!" in a welcoming tone. More people knew him
than Bud remembered well enough to call by name--which is the final proof
of popularity the world over.
In that glowing mood he had met and married a girl who went into Big
Basin with her mother and camped for three weeks. The girl had taken
frequent trips to Boulder Creek, and twice had gone on to San Jose, and
she had made it a point to ride with the driver because she was crazy
about cars. So she said. Marie had all the effect of being a pretty girl.
She habitually wore white middies with blue collar and tie, which went
well with her clear, pink skin and her hair that just escaped being red.
She knew how to tilt her "beach" hat at the most provocative angle, and
she knew just when to let Bud catch a slow, sidelong glance--of the kind
that is supposed to set a man's heart to syncopatic behavior. She did not
do it too often. She did not powder too much, and she had the latest
slang at her pink tongue's tip and was yet moderate in her use of it.
Bud did not notice Marie much on the first trip. She was demure, and
Bud had a girl in San Jose who had brought him to that interesting stage
of dalliance where he wondered if he dared kiss her good night the next
time he called. He was preoccupiedly reviewing the
she-said-and-then-I-said, and trying to make up his mind whether he
should kiss her and take a chance on her displeasure, or whether he had
better wait. To him Marie appeared hazily as another camper who helped
fill the car--and his pocket--and was not at all hard to look at. It was
not until the third trip that Bud thought her beautiful, and was secretly
glad that he had not kissed that San Jose girl.
You know how these romances develop. Every summer is saturated with
them the world over. But Bud happened to be a simple-souled fellow, and
there was something about Marie--He didn't know what it was. Men never do
know, until it is all over. He only knew that the drive through the shady
stretches of woodland grew suddenly to seem like little journeys into
paradise. Sentiment lurked behind every great, mossy tree bole. New
beauties unfolded in the winding drive up over the mountain crests. Bud
was terribly in love with the world in those days.
There were the evenings he spent in the Basin, sitting beside Marie in
the huge campfire circle, made wonderful by the shadowy giants, the
redwoods; talking foolishness in undertones while the crowd sang snatches
of songs which no one knew from beginning to end, and that went very
lumpy in the verses and very much out of harmony in the choruses.
Sometimes they would stroll down toward that sweeter music the creek
made, and stand beside one of the enormous trees and watch the glow of
the fire, and the silhouettes of the people gathered around it.
In a week they were surreptitiously holding hands. In two weeks they
could scarcely endure the partings when Bud must start back to San Jose,
and were taxing their ingenuity to invent new reasons why Marie must go
along. In three weeks they were married, and Marie's mother--a shrewd,
shrewish widow--was trying to decide whether she should wash her hands of
Marie, or whether it might be well to accept the situation and hope that
Bud would prove himself a rising young man.
But that was a year in the past. Bud had cabin fever now and did not
know what ailed him, though cause might have been summed up in two meaty
phrases: too much idleness, and too much mother- in-law. Also, not enough
comfort and not enough love.
In the kitchen of the little green cottage on North Sixth Street where
Bud had built the home nest with much nearly-Mission furniture and a
piano, Bud was frying his own hotcakes for his ten o'clock breakfast, and
was scowling over the task. He did not mind the hour so much, but he did
mortally hate to cook his own breakfast--or any other meal, for that
matter. In the next room a rocking chair was rocking with a rhythmic
squeak, and a baby was squalling with that sustained volume of sound
which never fails to fill the adult listener with amazement. It affected
Bud unpleasantly, just as the incessant bawling of a band of weaning
calves used to do. He could not bear the thought of young things going
"For the love of Mike, Marie! Why don't you feed that kid, or do
something to shut him up?" he exploded suddenly, dribbling pancake batter
over the untidy range.
The squeak, squawk of the rocker ceased abruptly. "'Cause it isn't
time yet to feed him--that's why. What's burning out there? I'll bet
you've got the stove all over dough again--" The chair resumed its
squeaking, the baby continued uninterrupted its wah-h-hah! wah-h-hah, as
though it was a phonograph that had been wound up with that record on,
and no one around to stop it
Bud turned his hotcakes with a vicious flop that spattered more batter
on the stove. He had been a father only a month or so, but that was long
enough to learn many things about babies which he had never known before.
He knew, for instance, that the baby wanted its bottle, and that Marie
was going to make him wait till feeding time by the clock.
"By heck, I wonder what would happen if that darn clock was to stop!"
he exclaimed savagely, when his nerves would bear no more. "You'd let the
kid starve to death before you'd let your own brains tell you what to do!
Husky youngster like that--feeding 'im four ounces every four days--or
some simp rule like that--" He lifted the cakes on to a plate that held
two messy-looking fried eggs whose yolks had broken, set the plate on the
cluttered table and slid petulantly into a chair and began to eat. The
squeaking chair and the crying baby continued to torment him.
Furthermore, the cakes were doughy in the middle.
"For gosh sake, Marie, give that kid his bottle!" Bud exploded again.
"Use the brains God gave yuh--such as they are! By heck, I'll stick that
darn book in the stove. Ain't yuh got any feelings at all? Why, I
wouldn't let a dog go hungry like that! Don't yuh reckon the kid knows
when he's hungry? Why, good Lord! I'll take and feed him myself, if you
don't. I'll burn that book--so help me!"
"Yes, you will--not!" Marie's voice rose shrewishly, riding the high
waves of the baby's incessant outcry against the restrictions upon
appetite imposed by enlightened motherhood. "You do, and see what'll
happen! You'd have him howling with colic, that's what you'd do."
"Well, I'll tell the world he wouldn't holler for grub! You'd go by
the book if it told yuh to stand 'im on his head in the ice chest! By
heck, between a woman and a hen turkey, give me the turkey when it comes
to sense. They do take care of their young ones--"
"Aw, forget that! When it comes to sense---"
Oh, well, why go into details? You all know how these domestic storms
arise, and how love washes overboard when the matrimonial ship begins to
wallow in the seas of recrimination.
Bud lost his temper and said a good many things should not have said.
Marie flung back angry retorts and reminded Bud of all his sins and
slights and shortcomings, and told him many of mamma's pessimistic
prophecies concerning him, most of which seemed likely to be fulfilled.
Bud fought back, telling Marie how much of a snap she had had since she
married him, and how he must have looked like ready money to her, and
added that now, by heck, he even had to do his own cooking, as well as
listen to her whining and nagging, and that there wasn't clean corner in
the house, and she'd rather let her own baby go hungry than break a simp
rule in a darn book got up by a bunch of boobs that didn't know anything
about kids. Surely to goodness, he finished his heated paragraph, it
wouldn't break any woman's back to pour a little warm water on a little
malted milk, and shake it up.
He told Marie other things, and in return, Marie informed him that he
was just a big-mouthed, lazy brute, and she could curse the day she ever
met him. That was going pretty far. Bud reminded her that she had not
done any cursing at the time, being in his opinion too busy roping him in
to support her.
By that time he had gulped down his coffee, and was into his coat, and
looking for his hat. Marie, crying and scolding and rocking the
vociferous infant, interrupted herself to tell him that she wanted a
ten-cent roll of cotton from the drug store, and added that she hoped she
would not have to wait until next Christmas for it, either. Which bit of
sarcasm so inflamed Bud's rage that he swore every step of the way to
Santa Clara Avenue, and only stopped then because he happened to meet a
friend who was going down town, and they walked together.
At the drug store on the corner of Second Street Bud stopped and
bought the cotton, feeling remorseful for some of the things he had said
to Marie, but not enough so to send him back home to tell her he was
sorry. He went on, and met another friend before he had taken twenty
steps. This friend was thinking of buying a certain second-hand
automobile that was offered at a very low price, and he wanted Bud to go
with him and look her over. Bud went, glad of the excuse to kill the rest
of the forenoon.
They took the car out and drove to Schutzen Park and back. Bud opined
that she didn't bark to suit him, and she had a knock in her cylinders
that shouted of carbon. They ran her into the garage shop and went deep
into her vitals, and because she jerked when Bud threw her into second,
Bud suspected that her bevel gears had lost a tooth or two, and was eager
to find out for sure.
Bill looked at his watch and suggested that they eat first before they
got all over grease by monkeying with the rear end. So they went to the
nearest restaurant and had smothered beefsteak and mashed potato and
coffee and pie, and while they ate they talked of gears and carburetors
and transmission and ignition troubles, all of which alleviated
temporarily Bud's case of cabin fever and caused him to forget that he
was married and had quarreled with his wife and had heard a good many
unkind things which his mother-in-law had said about him.
By the time they were back in the garage and had the grease cleaned
out of the rear gears so that they could see whether they were really
burred or broken, as Bud had suspected, the twinkle was back in his eyes,
and the smiley quirk stayed at the corners of his mouth, and when he was
not talking mechanics with Bill he was whistling. He found much lost
motion and four broken teeth, and he was grease to his eyebrows--in other
words, he was happy.
When he and Bill finally shed their borrowed overalls and caps, the
garage lights were on, and the lot behind the shop was dusky. Bud sat
down on the running board and began to figure what the actual cost of the
bargain would be when Bill had put it into good mechanical condition. New
bearings, new bevel gear, new brake, lining, rebored cylinders--they
totalled a sum that made Bill gasp.
By the time Bud had proved each item an absolute necessity, and had
reached the final ejaculation: "Aw, forget it, Bill, and buy yuh a Ford!"
it was so late that he knew Marie must have given up looking for him home
to supper. She would have taken it for granted that he had eaten down
town. So, not to disappoint her, Bud did eat down town. Then Bill wanted
him to go to a movie, and after a praiseworthy hesitation Bud yielded to
temptation and went. No use going home now, just when Marie would be
rocking the kid to sleep and wouldn't let him speak above a whisper, he
told his conscience. Might as well wait till they settled down for the
At nine o'clock Bud went home. He was feeling very well satisfied with
himself for some reason which he did not try to analyze, but which was
undoubtedly his sense of having saved Bill from throwing away six hundred
dollars on a bum car; and the weight in his coat pocket of a box of
chocolates that he had bought for Marie. Poor girl, it was kinda tough on
her, all right, being tied to the house now with the kid. Next spring
when he started his run to Big Basin again, he would get a little camp in
there by the Inn, and take her along with him when the travel wasn't too
heavy. She could stay at either end of the run, just as she took a
notion. Wouldn't hurt the kid a bit--he'd be bigger then, and the
outdoors would make him grow like a pig. Thinking of these things, Bud
walked briskly, whistling as he neared the little green house, so that
Marie would know who it was, and would not be afraid when he stepped up
on the front porch.
He stopped whistling rather abruptly when he reached the house, for it
was dark. He tried the door and found it locked. The key was not in the
letter box where they always kept it for the convenience of the first one
who returned, so Bud went around to the back and climbed through the
pantry window. He fell over a chair, bumped into the table, and damned a
few things. The electric light was hung in the center of the room by a
cord that kept him groping and clutching in the dark before he finally
touched the elusive bulb with his fingers and switched on the light.
The table was set for a meal--but whether it was dinner or supper Bud
could not determine. He went into the little sleeping room and turned on
the light there, looked around the empty room, grunted, and tiptoed into
the bedroom. (In the last month he had learned to enter on his toes, lest
he waken the baby.) He might have saved himself the bother, for the baby
was not there in its new gocart. The gocart was not there, Marie was not
there--one after another these facts impressed themselves upon Bud's
mind, even before he found the letter propped against the clock in the
orthodox manner of announcing unexpected departures. Bud read the letter,
crumpled it in his fist, and threw it toward the little heating stove.
"If that's the way yuh feel about it, I'll tell the world you can go and
be darned!" he snorted, and tried to let that end the matter so far as he
was concerned. But he could not shake off the sense of having been badly
used. He did not stop to consider that while he was working off his
anger, that day, Marie had been rocking back and forth, crying and
magnifying the quarrel as she dwelt upon it, and putting a new and
sinister meaning into Bud's ill-considered utterances. By the time Bud
was thinking only of the bargain car's hidden faults, Marie had reached
the white heat of resentment that demanded vigorous action. Marie was
packing a suitcase and meditating upon the scorching letter she meant to
Judging from the effect which the letter had upon Bud, it must have
been a masterpiece of its kind. He threw the box of chocolates into the
wood-box, crawled out of the window by which he had entered, and went
down town to a hotel. If the house wasn't good enough for Marie, let her
go. He could go just as fast and as far as she could. And if she thought
he was going to hot-foot it over to her mother's and whine around and beg
her to come home, she had another think coming.
He wouldn't go near the darn place again, except to get his clothes.
He'd bust up the joint, by thunder. He'd sell off the furniture and turn
the house over to the agent again, and Marie could whistle for a home.
She had been darn glad to get into that house, he remembered, and away
from that old cat of a mother. Let her stay there now till she was darn
good and sick of it. He'd just keep her guessing for awhile; a week or so
would do her good. Well, he wouldn't sell the furniture--he'd just move
it into another house, and give her a darn good scare. He'd get a better
one, that had a porcelain bathtub instead of a zinc one, and a better
porch, where the kid could be out in the sun. Yes, sir, he'd just do that
little thing, and lay low and see what Marie did about that. Keep her
guessing--that was the play to make.
Unfortunately for his domestic happiness, Bud failed to take into
account two very important factors in the quarrel. The first and most
important one was Marie's mother, who, having been a widow for fifteen
years and therefore having acquired a habit of managing affairs that even
remotely concerned her, assumed that Marie's affairs must be managed
also. The other factor was Marie's craving to be coaxed back to smiles by
the man who drove her to tears. Marie wanted Bud to come and say he was
sorry, and had been a brute and so forth. She wanted to hear him tell how
empty the house had seemed when he returned and found her gone. She
wanted him to be good and scared with that letter. She stayed awake until
after midnight, listening for his anxious footsteps; after midnight she
stayed awake to cry over the inhuman way he was treating her, and to wish
she was dead, and so forth; also because the baby woke and wanted his
bottle, and she was teaching him to sleep all night without it, and
because the baby had a temper just like his father.
His father's temper would have yielded a point or two, the next day,
had it been given the least encouragement. For instance, he might have
gone over to see Marie before he moved the furniture out of the house,
had he not discovered an express wagon standing in front of the door when
he went home about noon to see if Marie had come back. Before he had
recovered to the point of profane speech, the express man appeared,
coming out of the house, bent nearly double under the weight of Marie's
trunk. Behind him in the doorway Bud got a glimpse of Marie's mother.
That settled it. Bud turned around and hurried to the nearest drayage
company, and ordered a domestic wrecking crew to the scene; in other
words, a packer and two draymen and a dray. He'd show 'em. Marie and her
mother couldn't put anything over on him --he'd stand over that furniture
with a sheriff first.
He went back and found Marie's mother still there, packing dishes and
doilies and the like. They had a terrible row, and all the nearest
neighbors inclined ears to doors ajar--getting an earful, as Bud
contemptuously put it. He finally led Marie's mother to the front door
and set her firmly outside. Told her that Marie had come to him with no
more than the clothes she had, and that his money had bought every
teaspoon and every towel and every stick of furniture in the darned
place, and he'd be everlastingly thus-and-so if they were going to
strong-arm the stuff off him now. If Marie was too good to live with him,
why, his stuff was too good for her to have.
Oh, yes, the neighbors certainly got an earful, as the town gossips
proved when the divorce suit seeped into the papers. Bud refused to
answer the proceedings, and was therefore ordered to pay twice as much
alimony as he could afford to pay; more, in fact, than all his domestic
expense had amounted to in the fourteen months that he had been married.
Also Marie was awarded the custody of the child and, because Marie's
mother had represented Bud to be a violent man who was a menace to her
daughter's safety--and proved it by the neighbors who had seen and heard
so much--Bud was served with a legal paper that wordily enjoined him from
annoying Marie with his presence.
That unnecessary insult snapped the last thread of Bud's regret for
what had happened. He sold the furniture and the automobile, took the
money to the judge that had tried the case, told the judge a few
wholesome truths, and laid the pile of money on the desk.
"That cleans me out, Judge," he said stolidly. "I wasn't such a bad
husband, at that. I got sore--but I'll bet you get sore yourself and tell
your wife what-for, now and then. I didn't get a square deal, but that's
all right. I'm giving a better deal than I got. Now you can keep that
money and pay it out to Marie as she needs it, for herself and the kid.
But for the Lord's sake, Judge, don't let that wildcat of a mother of
hers get her fingers into the pile! She framed this deal, thinking she'd
get a haul outa me this way. I'm asking you to block that little game.
I've held out ten dollars, to eat on till I strike something. I'm clean;
they've licked the platter and broke the dish. So don't never ask me to
dig up any more, because I won't--not for you nor no other darn man. Get
This, you must know, was not in the courtroom, so Bud was not fined
for contempt. The judge was a married man himself, and he may have had a
sympathetic understanding of Bud's position. At any rate he listened
unofficially, and helped Bud out with the legal part of it, so that Bud
walked out of the judge's office financially free, even though he had a
suspicion that his freedom would not bear the test of prosperity, and
that Marie's mother would let him alone only so long as he and prosperity
To withhold for his own start in life only one ten-dollar bill from
fifteen hundred dollars was spectacular enough to soothe even so bruised
an ego as Bud Moore carried into the judge's office. There is an anger
which carries a person to the extreme of self-sacrifice, in the
subconscious hope of exciting pity for one so hardly used. Bud was
boiling with such an anger, and it demanded that he should all but give
Marie the shirt off his back, since she had demanded so much--and for so
slight a cause.
Bud could not see for the life of him why Marie should have quit for
that little ruction. It was not their first quarrel, nor their worst;
certainly he had not expected it to be their last. Why, he asked the high
heavens, had she told him to bring home a roll of cotton, if she was
going to leave him? Why had she turned her back on that little home, that
had seemed to mean as much to her as it had to him?
Being kin to primitive man, Bud could only bellow rage when he should
have analyzed calmly the situation. He should have seen that Marie too
had cabin fever, induced by changing too suddenly from carefree girlhood
to the ills and irks of wifehood and motherhood. He should have known
that she had been for two months wholly dedicated to the small physical
wants of their baby, and that if his nerves were fraying with watching
that incessant servitude, her own must be close to the snapping point;
had snapped, when dusk did not bring him home repentant.
But he did not know, and so he blamed Marie bitterly for the wreck of
their home, and he flung down all his worldly goods before her, and
marched off feeling self-consciously proud of his martyrdom. It soothed
him paradoxically to tell himself that he was "cleaned"; that Marie had
ruined him absolutely, and that he was just ten dollars and a decent suit
or two of clothes better off than a tramp. He was tempted to go back and
send the ten dollars after the rest of the fifteen hundred, but good
sense prevailed. He would have to borrow money for his next meal, if he
did that, and Bud was touchy about such things.
He kept the ten dollars therefore, and went down to the garage where
he felt most at home, and stood there with his hands in his pockets and
the corners of his mouth tipped downward--normally they had a way of
tipping upward, as though he was secretly amused at something--and his
eyes sullen, though they carried tiny lines at the corners to show how
they used to twinkle. He took the ten-dollar bank note from his pocket,
straightened out the wrinkles and looked at it disdainfully. As plainly
as though he spoke, his face told what he was thinking about it: that
this was what a woman had brought him to! He crumpled it up and made a
gesture as though he would throw it into the street, and a man behind him
laughed abruptly. Bud scowled and turned toward him a belligerent glance,
and the man stopped laughing as suddenly as he had begun.
"If you've got money to throw to the birds, brother, I guess I won't
make the proposition I was going to make. Thought I could talk business
to you, maybe--but I guess I better tie a can to that idea."
Bud grunted and put the ten dollars in his pocket.
"What idea's that?" "Oh, driving a car I'm taking south. Sprained my
shoulder, and don't feel like tackling it myself. They tell me in here
that you aren't doing anything now--" He made the pause that asks for an
"They told you right. I've done it."
The man's eyebrows lifted, but since Bud did not explain, he went on
with his own explanation.
"You don't remember me, but I rode into Big Basin with you last
summer. I know you can drive, and it doesn't matter a lot whether it's
asphalt or cow trail you drive over."
Bud was in too sour a mood to respond to the flattery. He did not even
"Could you take a car south for me? There'll be night driving, and bad
"If you know what you say you know about my driving, what's the
idea--asking me if I can?"
"Well, put it another way. Will you?"
"You're on. Where's the car? Here?" Bud sent a seeking look into the
depths of the garage. He knew every car in there. "What is there in it
for me?" he added perfunctorily, because he would have gone just for sake
of getting a free ride rather than stay in San Jose over night.
"There's good money in it, if you can drive with your mouth shut. This
isn't any booster parade. Fact is--let's walk to the depot, while I tell
you." He stepped out of the doorway, and Bud gloomily followed him.
"Little trouble with my wife," the man explained apologetically. "Having
me shadowed, and all that sort of thing. And I've got business south and
want to be left alone to do it. Darn these women!" he exploded
Bud mentally said amen, but kept his mouth shut upon his sympathy with
"Foster's my name. Now here's a key to the garage at this address." He
handed Bud a padlock key and an address scribbled on a card. "That's my
place in Oakland, out by Lake Merritt. You go there to-night, get the
car, and have it down at the Broadway Wharf to meet the 11:30 boat--the
one the theater crowd uses. Have plenty of gas and oil; there won't be
any stops after we start. Park out pretty well near the shore end as
close as you can get to that ten-foot gum sign, and be ready to go when I
climb in. I may have a friend with me. You know Oakland?"
"Fair to middling. I can get around by myself."
"Well, that's all right. I've got to go back to the city-- catching
the next train. You better take the two-fifty to Oakland. Here's money
for whatever expense there is. And say! put these number plates in your
pocket, and take off the ones on the car. I bought these of a fellow that
had a smash--they'll do for the trip. Put them on, will you? She's wise
to the car number, of course. Put the plates you take off under the seat
cushion; don't leave 'em. Be just as careful as if it was a
life-and-death matter, will you? I've got a big deal on, down there,and I
don't want her spilling the beans just to satisfy a grudge--which she
would do in a minute. So don't fail to be at the ferry, parked so you can
slide out easy. Get down there by that big gum sign. I'll find you, all
"I'll be there." Bud thrust the key and another ten dollars into his
pocket and turned away. "And don't say anything--"
"Do I look like an open-faced guy?"
The man laughed. "Not much, or I wouldn't have picked you for the
trip." He hurried down to the depot platform, for his train was already
whistling, farther down the yards.
Bud looked after him, the corners of his mouth taking their normal,
upward tilt. It began to look as though luck had not altogether deserted
him, in spite of the recent blow it had given. He slid the wrapped number
plates into the inside pocket of his overcoat, pushed his hands deep into
his pockets, and walked up to the cheap hotel which had been his bleak
substitute for a home during his trouble. He packed everything he owned--
a big suitcase held it all by squeezing--paid his bill at the office,
accepted a poor cigar, and in return said, yes, he was going to strike
out and look for work; and took the train for Oakland.
A street car landed him within two blocks of the address on the tag,
and Bud walked through thickening fog and dusk to the place. Foster had a
good-looking house, he observed. Set back on the middle of two lots, it
was, with a cement drive sloping up from the street to the garage backed
against the alley. Under cover of lighting a cigarette, he inspected the
place before he ventured farther. The blinds were drawn down--at least
upon the side next the drive. On the other he thought he caught a gleam
of light at the rear; rather, the beam that came from a gleam of light in
Foster's dining room or kitchen shining on the next house. But he was not
certain of it, and the absolute quiet reassured him so that he went up
the drive, keeping on the grass border until he reached the garage. This,
he told himself, was just like a woman--raising the deuce around so that
a man had to sneak into his own place to get his own car out of his own
garage. If Foster was up against the kind of deal Bud had been up
against, he sure had Bud's sympathy, and he sure would get the best help
Bud was capable of giving him.
The key fitted the lock, and Bud went in, set down his suitcase, and
closed the door after him. It was dark as a pocket in there, save where a
square of grayness betrayed a window. Bud felt his way to the side of the
car, groped to the robe rail, found a heavy, fringed robe, and curtained
the window until he could see no thread of light anywhere; after which he
ventured to use his flashlight until he had found the switch and turned
on the light.
There was a little side door at the back, and it was fastened on the
inside with a stout hook. Bud thought for a minute, took a long chance,
and let himself out into the yard, closing the door after him. He walked
around the garage to the front and satisfied himself that the light
inside did not show. Then he went around the back of the house and found
that he had not been mistaken about the light. The house was certainly
occupied, and like the neighboring houses seemed concerned only with the
dinner hour of the inmates. He went back, hooked the little door on the
inside, and began a careful inspection of the car he was to drive.
It was a big, late-modeled touring car, of the kind that sells for
nearly five thousand dollars. Bud's eyes lightened with satisfaction when
he looked at it. There would be pleasure as well as profit in driving
this old girl to Los Angeles, he told himself. It fairly made his mouth
water to look at her standing there. He got in and slid behind the wheel
and fingered the gear lever, and tested the clutch and the foot
brake--not because he doubted them, but because he had a hankering to
feel their smoothness of operation. Bud loved a good car just as he had
loved a good horse in the years behind him. Just as he used to walk
around a good horse and pat its sleek shoulder and feel the hard muscles
of its trim legs, so now he made love to this big car. Let that old hen
of Foster's crab the trip south? He should sa-a-ay not!
There did not seem to be a thing that he could do to her, but
nevertheless he got down and, gave all the grease cups a turn, removed
the number plates and put them under the rear seat cushion, inspected the
gas tank and the oil gauge and the fanbelt and the radiator, turned back
the trip-mileage to zero-- professional driving had made Bud careful as a
taxi driver about recording the mileage of a trip--looked at the clock
set in the instrument board, and pondered.
What if the old lady took a notion to drive somewhere? She would miss
the car and raise a hullabaloo, and maybe crab the whole thing in the
start. In that case, Bud decided that the best way would be to let her
go. He could pile on to the empty trunk rack behind, and manage somehow
to get off with the car when she stopped. Still, there was not much
chance of her going out in the fog--and now that he listened, he heard
the drip of rain. No, there was not much chance. Foster had not seemed to
think there was any chance of the car being in use, and Foster ought to
know. He would wait until about ten-thirty, to play safe, and then
Rain spelled skid chains to Bud. He looked in the tool box, found a
set, and put them on. Then, because he was not going to take any chances,
he put another set, that he found hanging up, on the front wheels. After
that he turned out the light, took down the robe and wrapped himself in
it, and laid himself down on the rear seat to wait for ten-thirty.
He dozed, and the next he knew there was a fumbling at the door in
front, and the muttering of a voice. Bud slid noiselessly out of the car
and under it, head to the rear where he could crawl out quickly. The
voice sounded like a man, and presently the door opened and Bud was sure
of it. He caught a querulous sentence or two.
"Door left unlocked--the ignorant hound--Good thing I don't trust him
too far--" Some one came fumbling in and switched on the light. "Careless
hound--told him to be careful --never even put the robe on the rail where
it belongs--and then they howl about the way they're treated! Want more
wages-- don't earn what they do get--"
Bud, twisting his head, saw a pair of slippered feet beside the
running board. The owner of the slippers was folding the robe and laying
it over the rail, and grumbling to himself all the while. "Have to come
out in the rain--daren't trust him an inch-- just like him to go off and
leave the door unlocked--" With a last grunt or two the mumbling ceased.
The light was switched off, and Bud heard the doors pulled shut, and the
rattle of the padlock and chain. He waited another minute and crawled
"Might have told me there was a father-in-law in the outfit," he
grumbled to himself. "Big a butt-in as Marie's mother, at that. Huh.
Never saw my suit case, never noticed the different numbers, never got
next to the chains--huh! Regular old he-hen, and I sure don't blame
Foster for wanting to tie a can to the bunch."
Very cautiously he turned his flashlight on the face of the automobile
clock. The hour hand stood a little past ten, and Bud decided he had
better go. He would have to fill the gas tank, and get more oil, and he
wanted to test the air in his tires. No stops after they started, said
Foster; Bud had set his heart on showing Foster something in the way of
getting a car over the road.
Father-in-law would holler if he heard the car, but Bud did not intend
that father-in-law should hear it. He would much rather run the gauntlet
of that driveway then wait in the dark any longer. He remembered the
slope down to the street, and grinned contentedly. He would give
father-in-law a chance to throw a fit, next morning.
He set his suit case in the tonneau, went out of the little door,
edged around to the front and very, very cautiously he unlocked the big
doors and set them open. He went in and felt the front wheels, judged
that they were set straight, felt around the interior until his fingers
touched a block of wood and stepped off the approximate length of the car
in front of the garage, allowing for the swing of the doors, and placed
the block there. Then he went back, eased off the emergency brake,
grabbed a good handhold and strained forward.
The chains hindered, but the floor sloped to the front a trifle, which
helped. In a moment he had the satisfaction of feeling the big car give,
then roll slowly ahead. The front wheels dipped down over the threshold,
and Bud stepped upon the running board, took the wheel, and by instinct
more than by sight guided her through the doorway without a scratch. She
rolled forward like a black shadow until a wheel jarred against the
block, whereupon he set the emergency brake and got off, breathing free
once more. He picked up the block and carried it back, quietly closed the
big doors and locked them, taking time to do it silently. Then, in a glow
of satisfaction with his work, he climbed slowly into the car, settled
down luxuriously in the driver's seat, eased off the brake, and with a
little lurch of his body forward started the car rolling down the
There was a risk, of course, in coasting out on to the street with no
lights, but he took it cheerfully, planning to dodge if he saw the lights
of another car coming. It pleased him to remember that the street
inclined toward the bay. He rolled past the house without a betraying
sound, dipped over the curb to the asphalt, swung the car townward, and
coasted nearly half a block with the ignition switch on before he pushed
up the throttle, let in his clutch, and got the answering chug-chug of
the engine. With the lights on full he went purring down the street in
the misty fog, pleased with himself and his mission.
At a lunch wagon down near the water front, Bud stopped and bought two
"hot dog" sandwiches and a mug of hot coffee boiled with milk in it and
sweetened with three cubes of sugar. "O-oh, boy!" he ejaculated gleefully
when he set his teeth into biscuit and hot hamburger. Leaning back
luxuriously in the big car, he ate and drank until he could eat and drink
no more. Then, with a bag of bananas on the seat beside him, he drove on
down to the mole, searching through the drizzle for the big gum sign
which Foster had named. Just even with the coughing engine of a waiting
through train he saw it, and backed in against the curb, pointing the
car's radiator toward the mainland. He had still half an hour to wait,
and he buttoned on the curtains of the car, since a wind from across the
bay was sending the drizzle slantwise; moreover it occurred to him that
Foster would not object to the concealment while they were passing
through Oakland. Then he listlessly ate a banana while he waited.
The hoarse siren of a ferryboat bellowed through the murk. Bud started
the engine, throttled it down to his liking, and left it to warm up for
the flight. He ate another banana, thinking lazily that he wished he
owned this car. For the first time in many a day his mind was not filled
and boiling over with his trouble. Marie and all the bitterness she had
come to mean to him receded into the misty background of his mind and
hovered there, an indistinct memory of something painful in his life.
A street car slipped past, bobbing down the track like a duck sailing
over ripples. A local train clanged down to the depot and stood jangling
its bell while it disgorged passengers for the last boat to the City
whose wall of stars was hidden behind the drizzle and the clinging fog.
People came straggling down the sidewalk--not many, for few had business
with the front end of the waiting trains. Bud pushed the throttle up a
little. His fingers dropped down to the gear lever, his foot snuggled
against the clutch pedal.
Feet came hurrying. Two voices mumbled together. "Here he is," said
one. "That's the number I gave him." Bud felt some one step hurriedly
upon the running board. The tonneau door was yanked open. A man puffed
audibly behind him. "Yuh ready?" Foster's voice hissed in Bud's ear.
"R'aring to go." Bud heard the second man get in and shut the door,
and he jerked the gear lever into low. His foot came gently back with the
clutch, and the car slid out and away.
Foster settled back on the cushions with a sigh. The other man was
fumbling the side curtains, swearing under his breath when his fingers
bungled the fastenings.
"Everything all ready?" Foster's voice was strident with anxiety.
"Well, head south--any road you know best. And keep going, till I tell
you to stop. How's the oil and gas?"
"Full up. Gas enough for three hundred miles. Extra gallon of oil in
the car. What d'yah want--the speed limit through town?"
"Nah. Side streets, if you know any. They might get quick action and
"Leave it to me, brother."
Bud did not know for sure, never having been pursued; but it seemed to
him that a straightaway course down a main street where other cars were
scudding homeward would be the safest route, because the simplest. He did
not want any side streets in his, he decided--and maybe run into a mess
of street-improvement litter, and have to back trail around it. He held
the car to a hurry-home pace that was well within the law, and worked
into the direct route to Hayward. He sensed that either Foster or his
friend turned frequently to look back through the square celluloid
window, but he did not pay much attention to them, for the streets were
greasy with wet, and not all drivers would equip with four skid chains.
Keeping sharp lookout for skidding cars and unexpected pedestrians and
street-car crossings and the like fully occupied Bud.
For all that, an occasional mutter came unheeded to his ears, the
closed curtains preserving articulate sounds like room walls.
"He's all right," he heard Foster whisper once. "Better than if he was
in on it." He did not know that Foster was speaking of him.
"--if he gets next," the friend mumbled.
"Ah, quit your worrying," Foster grunted. "The trick's turned; that's
Bud was under the impression that they were talking about
father-in-law, who had called Foster a careless hound; but whether they
were or not concerned him so little that his own thoughts never flagged
in their shuttle-weaving through his mind. The mechanics of handling the
big car and getting the best speed out of her with the least effort and
risk, the tearing away of the last link of his past happiness and his
grief; the feeling that this night was the real parting between him and
Marie, the real stepping out into the future; the future itself, blank
beyond the end of this trip, these were quite enough to hold Bud
oblivious to the conversation of strangers.
At dawn they neared a little village. Through this particular county
the road was unpaved and muddy, and the car was a sight to behold. The
only clean spot was on the windshield, where Bud had reached around once
or twice with a handful of waste and cleaned a place to see through. It
was raining soddenly, steadily, as though it always had rained and always
Bud turned his face slightly to one side. "How about stopping; I'll
have to feed her some oil--and it wouldn't hurt to fill the gas tank
again. These heavy roads eat up a lot of extra power. What's her average
mileage on a gallon, Foster?"
"How the deuce should I know?" Foster snapped, just coming out of a
"You ought to know, with your own car--and gas costing what it
"Oh!--ah--what was it you asked?" Foster yawned aloud. "I musta been
"I guess you musta been, all right," Bud grunted. "Do you want
breakfast here, or don't you? I've got to stop for gas and oil; that's
what I was asking?"
The two consulted together, and finally told Bud to stop at the first
garage and get his oil and gas. After that he could drive to a drug store
and buy a couple of thermos bottles, and after that he could go to the
nearest restaurant and get the bottles filled with black coffee, and have
lunch put up for six people. Foster and his friend would remain in the
Bud did these things, revising the plan to the extent of eating his
own breakfast at the counter in the restaurant while the lunch was being
prepared in the kitchen.
From where he sat he could look across at the muddy car standing
before a closed millinery-and-drygoods store. It surely did not look much
like the immaculate machine he had gloated over the evening before, but
it was a powerful, big brute of a car and looked its class in every line.
Bud was proud to drive a car like that. The curtains were buttoned down
tight, and he thought amusedly of the two men huddled inside, shivering
and hungry, yet refusing to come in and get warmed up with a decent
breakfast. Foster, he thought, must certainly be scared of his wife, if
he daren't show himself in this little rube town. For the first time Bud
had a vagrant suspicion that Foster had not told quite all there was to
tell about this trip. Bud wondered now if Foster was not going to meet a
"Jane" somewhere in the South. That terrifying Mann Act would account for
his caution much better than would the business deal of which Foster had
Of course, Bud told himself while the waiter refilled his coffee cup,
it was none of his business what Foster had up his sleeve. He wanted to
get somewhere quickly and quietly, and Bud was getting him there. That
was all he need to consider. Warmed and once more filled with a sense of
well-being, Bud made himself a cigarette before the lunch was ready, and
with his arms full of food he went out and across the street. Just before
he reached the car one of the thermos bottles started to slide down under
his elbow. Bud attempted to grip it against his ribs, but the thing had
developed a slipperiness that threatened the whole load, so he stopped to
rearrange his packages, and got an irritated sentence or two from his
"Giving yourself away like that! Why couldn't you fake up a mileage?
Everybody lies or guesses about the gas--"
"Aw, what's the difference? The simp ain't next to anything. He thinks
I own it."
"Well, don't make the mistake of thinking he's a sheep. Once he
Bud suddenly remembered that he wanted something more from the
restaurant, and returned forth-with, slipping thermos bottle and all. He
bought two packages of chewing gum to while away the time when he could
not handily smoke, and when he returned to the car he went muttering
disapproving remarks about the rain and the mud and the bottles. He poked
his head under the front curtain and into a glum silence. The two men
leaned back into the two corners of the wide seat, with their heads drawn
down into their coat collars and their hands thrust under the robe.
Foster reached forward and took a thermos bottle, his partner seized
"Say, you might get us a bottle of good whisky, too," said Foster,
holding out a small gold piece between his gloved thumb and finger. "Be
quick about it though--we want to be traveling. Lord, it's cold! "
Bud went into a saloon a few doors up the street, and was back
presently with the bottle and the change. There being nothing more to
detain them there, he kicked some of the mud off his feet, scraped off
the rest on the edge of the running board and climbed in, fastening the
curtain against the storm. "Lovely weather," he grunted sarcastically.
"Straight on to Bakersfield, huh?"
There was a minute of silence save for the gurgling of liquid running
out of a bottle into an eager mouth. Bud laid an arm along the back of
his seat and waited, his head turned toward them. "Where are you fellows
going, anyway?" he asked impatiently.
"Los An--" the stranger gurgled, still drinking.
"Yuma!" snapped Foster. "You shut up, Mert. I'm running this."
"Yuma. You hit the shortest trail for Yuma, Bud. I'm running
Foster seemed distinctly out of humor. He told Mert again to shut up,
and Mert did so grumblingly, but somewhat diverted and consoled, Bud
fancied, by the sandwiches and coffee--and the whisky too, he guessed.
For presently there was an odor from the uncorked bottle in the car.
Bud started and drove steadily on through the rain that never ceased.
The big car warmed his heart with its perfect performance, its smooth,
effortless speed, its ease of handling. He had driven too long and too
constantly to tire easily, and he was almost tempted to settle down to
sheer enjoyment in driving such a car. Last night he had enjoyed it, but
last night was not to-day.
He wished he had not overheard so much, or else had overheard more. He
was inclined to regret his retreat from the acrimonious voices as being
premature. Just why was he a simp, for instance? Was it because he
thought Foster owned the car? Bud wondered whether father-in-law had not
bought it, after all. Now that he began thinking from a different angle,
he remembered that father- in-law had behaved very much like the proud
possessor of a new car. It really did not look plausible that he would
come out in the drizzle to see if Foster's car was safely locked in for
the night. There had been, too, a fussy fastidiousness in the way the
robe had been folded and hung over the rail. No man would do that for
some other man's property, unless he was paid for it.
Wherefore, Bud finally concluded that Foster was not above helping
himself to family property. On the whole, Bud did not greatly disapprove
of that; he was too actively resentful of his own mother-in-law. He was
not sure but he might have done something of the sort himself, if his
mother-in-law had possessed a six-thousand-dollar car. Still, such a car
generally means a good deal to the owner, and he did not wonder that
Foster was nervous about it.
But in the back of his mind there lurked a faint dissatisfaction with
this easy explanation. It occurred to him that if there was going to be
any trouble about the car, he might be involved beyond the point of
comfort. After all, he did not know Foster, and he had no more reason for
believing Foster's story than he had for doubting. For all he knew, it
might not be a wife that Foster was so afraid of.
Bud was not stupid. He was merely concerned chiefly with his own
affairs--a common enough failing, surely. But now that he had thought
himself into a mental eddy where his own affairs offered no new impulse
toward emotion, he turned over and over in his mind the mysterious trip
he was taking. It had come to seem just a little too mysterious to suit
him, and when Bud Moore was not suited he was apt to do something about
What he did in this case was to stop in Bakersfield at a garage that
had a combination drugstore and news-stand next door. He explained
shortly to his companions that he had to stop and buy a road map and that
he wouldn't be long, and crawled out into the rain. At the open doorway
of the garage he turned and looked at the car. No, it certainly did not
look in the least like the machine he had driven down to the Oakland
mole--except, of course, that it was big and of the same make. It might
have been empty, too, for all the sign it gave of being occupied. Foster
and Mert evidently had no intention whatever of showing themselves.
Bud went into the drugstore, remained there for five minutes perhaps,
and emerged with a morning paper which he rolled up and put into his
pocket. He had glanced through its feature news, and had read hastily one
front-page article that had nothing whatever to do with the war, but told
about the daring robbery of a jewelry store in San Francisco the night
The safe, it seemed, had been opened almost in plain sight of the
street crowds, with the lights full on in the store. A clever arrangement
of two movable mirrors had served to shield the thief --or thieves. For
no longer than two or three minutes, it seemed, the lights had been off,
and it was thought that the raiders had used the interval of darkness to
move the mirrors into position. Which went far toward proving that the
crime had been carefully planned in advance. Furthermore, the article
stated with some assurance that trusted employees were involved.
Bud also had glanced at the news items of less importance, and had
been startled enough--yet not so much surprised as he would have been a
few hours earlier--to read, under the caption: DARING THIEF STEALS COSTLY
CAR, to learn that a certain rich man of Oakland had lost his new
automobile. The address of the bereaved man had been given, and Bud's
heart had given a flop when he read it. The details of the theft had not
been told, but Bud never noticed their absence. His memory supplied all
that for him with sufficient vividness.
He rolled a cigarette, lighted it, and with the paper stuffed
carelessly into his pocket he went to the car, climbed in, and drove on
to the south, just as matter-of-factly as though he had not just then
discovered that he, Bud Moore, had stolen a six- thousand-dollar
automobile the night before.
They went on and on, through the rain and the wind, sometimes through
the mud as well, where the roads were not paved. Foster had almost
pounced upon the newspaper when he discovered it in Bud's pocket as he
climbed in, and Bud knew that the two read that feature article avidly.
But if they had any comments to make, they saved them for future privacy.
Beyond a few muttered sentences they were silent.
Bud did not care whether they talked or not. They might have talked
themselves hoarse, when it came to that, without changing his opinions or
his attitude toward them. He had started out the most unsuspecting of
men, and now he was making up for it by suspecting Foster and Mert of
being robbers and hypocrites and potential murderers. He could readily
imagine them shooting him in the back of the head while he drove, if that
would suit their purpose, or if they thought that he suspected them.
He kept reviewing his performance in that garage. Had he really
intended to steal the car, he would not have had the nerve to take the
chances he had taken. He shivered when he recalled how he had slid under
the car when the owner came in. What if the man had seen him or heard
him? He would be in jail now, instead of splashing along the highway many
miles to the south. For that matter, he was likely to land in jail,
anyway, before he was done with Foster, unless he did some pretty close
figuring. Wherefore he drove with one part of his brain, and with the
other he figured upon how he was going to get out of the mess himself--
and land Foster and Mert deep in the middle of it. For such was his
After an hour or so, when his stomach began to hint that it was eating
time for healthy men, he slowed down and turned his head toward the
tonneau. There they were, hunched down under the robe, their heeds drawn
into their collars like two turtles half asleep on a mud bank.
"Say, how about some lunch?" he demanded. "Maybe you fellows can get
along on whisky and sandwiches, but I'm doing the work; and if you
notice, I've been doing it for about twelve hours now without any let-up.
There's a town ahead here a ways--"
"Drive around it, then," growled Foster, lifting his chin to stare
ahead through the fogged windshield. "We've got hot coffee here, and
there's plenty to eat. Enough for two meals. How far have we come since
"Far enough to be called crazy if we go much farther without a square
meal," Bud snapped. Then he glanced at the rumpled newspaper and added
carelessly, "Anything new in the paper?"
"No!" Mert spoke up sharply. "Go on. You're doing all right so
far--don't spoil it by laying down on your job!"
"Sure, go on!" Foster urged. "We'll stop when we get away from this
darn burg, and you can rest your legs a little while we eat."
Bud went on, straight through the middle of the town without stopping.
They scurried down a long, dismal lane toward a low- lying range of hills
pertly wooded with bald patches of barren earth and rock. Beyond were
mountains which Bud guessed was the Tehachapi range. Beyond them, he
believed he would find desert and desertion. He had never been over this
road before, so he could no more than guess. He knew that the ridge road
led to Los Angeles, and he did not want anything of that road. Too many
travelers. He swung into a decent-looking road that branched off to the
left, wondering where it led, but not greatly caring. He kept that road
until they had climbed over a ridge or two and were in the mountains.
Soaked wilderness lay all about them, green in places where grass would
grow, brushy in places, barren and scarred with outcropping ledges,
pencilled with wire fences drawn up over high knolls.
In a sequestered spot where the road hugged close the concave outline
of a bushy bluff, Bud slowed and turned out behind a fringe of bushes,
"This is safe enough," he announced, "and my muscles are kinda crampy.
I'll tell the world that's been quite some spell of straight
Mert grunted, but Foster was inclined to cheerfulness. "You're some
driver, Bud. I've got to hand it to you."
Bud grinned. "All right, I'll take it--half of it, anyway, if you
don't mind. You must remember I don't know you fellows. Most generally I
collect half in advance, on a long trip like this." Foster's eyes opened,
but he reached obediently inside his coat. Mert growled inaudible
comments upon Bud's nerve.
"Oh, we can't kick, Mert," Foster smoothed him down diplomatically.
"He's delivered the goods, so far. And he certainly does know how to put
a car over the road. He don't know us, remember!"
Mert grunted again and subsided. Foster extracted a bank note from his
bill-folder, which Bud observed had a prosperous plumpness, and held it
out to Bud.
"I guess fifty dollars won't hurt your feelings, will it, brother?
That's more than you'd charge for twice the trip, but we appreciate a
tight mouth, and the hurry-up trip you've made of it, and all that It's
special work, and we're willing to pay a special price. See?"
"Sure. But I only want half, right now. Maybe," he added with the
lurking twinkle in his eyes, "I won't suit yuh quite so well the rest of
the way. I'll have to go b'-guess and b'-gosh from here on. I've got some
change left from what I bought for yuh this morning too. Wait till I
Very precisely he did so, and accepted enough from Foster to make up
the amount to twenty-five dollars. He was tempted to take more. For one
minute he even contemplated holding the two up and taking enough to salve
his hurt pride and his endangered reputation. But he did not do anything
of the sort, of course; let's believe he was too honest to do it even in
revenge for the scurvy trick they had played him.
He ate a generous lunch of sandwiches and dill pickles and a wedge of
tasteless cocoanut cake, and drank half a pint or so of the hot, black
coffee, and felt more cheerful.
"Want to get down and stretch your legs? I've got to take a look at
the tires, anyway. Thought she was riding like one was kinda flat, the
last few miles."
They climbed out stiffly into the rain, stood around the car and
stared at it and at Bud testing his tires, and walked off down the road
for a little distance where they stood talking earnestly together. From
the corner of his eye Bud caught Mert tilting his head that way, and
smiled to himself. Of course they were talking about him! Any fool would
know that much. Also they were discussing the best means of getting rid
of him, or of saddling upon him the crime of stealing the car, or some
other angle at which he touched their problem.
Under cover of testing the rear wheel farthest from them, he peeked
into the tonneau and took a good look at the small traveling bag they had
kept on the seat between them all the way. He wished he dared--But they
were coming back, as if they would not trust him too long alone with that
bag. He bent again to the tire, and when they climbed back into the
curtained car he was getting the pump tubing out to pump up that
particular tire a few pounds.
They did not pay much attention to him. They seemed preoccupied and
not too friendly with each other, Bud thought. Their general air of gloom
he could of course lay to the weather and the fact that they had been
traveling for about fourteen hours without any rest; but there was
something more than that in the atmosphere. He thought they had
disagreed, and that he was the subject of their disagreement.
He screwed down the valve cap, coiled the pump tube and stowed it away
in the tool box, opened the gas tank, and looked in-- and right there he
did something else; something that would have spelled disaster if either
of them had seen him do it. He spilled a handful of little round white
objects like marbles into the tank before he screwed on the cap, and from
his pocket he pulled a little paper box, crushed it in his hand, and
threw it as far as he could into the bushes. Then, whistling just above
his breath, which was a habit with Bud when his work was going along
pleasantly, he scraped the mud off his feet, climbed in, and drove on
down the road.
The big car picked up speed on the down grade, racing along as though
the short rest had given it a fresh enthusiasm for the long road that
wound in and out and up and down and seemed to have no end. As though he
joyed in putting her over the miles, Bud drove. Came a hill, he sent her
up it with a devil-may-care confidence, swinging around curves with a
squall of the powerful horn that made cattle feeding half a mile away on
the slopes lift their startled heads and look.
"How much longer are you good for, Bud?" Foster leaned forward to ask,
his tone flattering with the praise that was in it.
"Me? As long as this old boat will travel," Bud flung back gleefully,
giving her a little more speed as they rocked over a culvert and sped
away to the next hill. He chuckled, but Foster had settled back again
satisfied, and did not notice.
Halfway up the next hill the car slowed suddenly, gave a snort, gasped
twice as Bud retarded the spark to help her out, and, died. She was a
heavy car to hold on that stiff grade, and in spite of the full emergency
brake helped out with the service brake, she inched backward until the
rear wheels came full against a hump across the road and held.
Bud did not say anything; your efficient chauffeur reserves his
eloquence for something more complex than a dead engine. He took down the
curtain on that side, leaned out into the rain and inspected the road
behind him, shifted into reverse, and backed to the bottom.
"What's wrong?" Foster leaned forward to ask senselessly.
"When I hit level ground, I'm going to find out," Bud retorted, still
watching the road and steering with one hand. "Does the old girl ever cut
up with you on hills?"
"Why--no. She never has," Foster answered dubiously.
"Reason I asked, she didn't just choke down from the pull. She went
and died on me."
"That's funny," Foster observed weakly.
On the level Bud went into neutral and pressed the self-starter with a
pessimistic deliberation. He got three chugs and a backfire into the
carburetor, and after that silence. He tried it again, coaxing her with
the spark and throttle. The engine gave a snort, hesitated and then,
quite suddenly, began to throb with docile regularity that seemed to
belie any previous intention of "cutting up."
Bud fed her the gas and took a run at the hill. She went up like a
thoroughbred and died at the top, just when the road had dipped into the
descent. Bud sent her down hill on compression, but at the bottom she
refused to find her voice again when he turned on the switch and pressed
the accelerator. She simply rolled down to the first incline and stopped
there like a balky mule.
"Thunder!" said Bud, and looked around at Foster. "Do you reckon the
old boat is jinxed, just because I said I could drive her as far as she'd
go? The old rip ain't shot a cylinder since we hit the top of the
"Maybe the mixture--"
"Yeah," Bud interrupted with a secret grin, "I've been wondering about
that, and the needle valve, and the feed pipe, and a few other little
things. Well, we'll have a look."
Forthwith he climbed out into the drizzle and began a conscientious
search for the trouble. He inspected the needle valve with much care, and
had Foster on the front seat trying to start her afterwards. He looked
for short circuit. He changed the carburetor adjustment, and Foster got a
weary chug-chug that ceased almost as soon as it had begun. He looked all
the spark plugs over, he went after the vacuum feed and found that
working perfectly. He stood back, finally, with his hands on his hips,
and stared at the engine and shook his head slowly twice.
Foster, in the driver's seat, swore and tried again to start it.
"Maybe if you cranked it," he suggested tentatively.
"What for? The starter turns her over all right. Spark's all right
too, strong and hot. However--" With a sigh of resignation Bud got out
what tools he wanted and went to work. Foster got out and stood around,
offering suggestions that were too obvious to be of much use, but which
Bud made it a point to follow as far as was practicable.
Foster said it must be the carburetor, and Bud went relentlessly after
the carburetor. He impressed Foster with the fact that he knew cars, and
when he told Foster to get in and try her again, Foster did so with the
air of having seen the end of the trouble. At first it did seem so, for
the engine started at once and worked smoothly until Bud had gathered his
wrenches off the running board and was climbing it, when it slowed down
and stopped, in spite of Foster's frantic efforts to keep it alive with
spark and throttle.
"Good Glory!" cried Bud, looking reproachfully in at Foster. "What'd
yuh want to stop her for?"
"I didn't!" Foster's consternation was ample proof of his innocence.
"What the devil ails the thing?"
"You tell me, and I'll fix it," Bud retorted savagely. Then he
smoothed his manner and went back to the carburetor. "Acts like the gas
kept choking off," he said, "but it ain't that. She's O.K. I know, 'cause
I've tested it clean back to tank. There's nothing the matter with the
feed--she's getting gas same as she has all along. I can take off the
mag. and see if anything's wrong there; but I'm pretty sure there ain't.
Couldn't any water or mud get in--not with that oil pan perfect. She
looks dry as a bone, and clean. Try her again, Foster; wait till I set
the spark about right. Now, you leave it there, and give her the gas
kinda gradual, and catch her when she talks. We'll see--"
They saw that she was not going to "talk" at all. Bud swore a little
and got out more tools and went after the magneto with grim
determination. Again Foster climbed out and stood in the drizzle and
watched him. Mert crawled over into the front seat where he could view
the proceedings through the windshield. Bud glanced up and saw him there,
and grinned maliciously. "Your friend seems to love wet weather same as a
cat does," he observed to Foster. "He'll be terrible happy if you're
stalled here till you get a tow in somewhere."
"It's your business to see that we aren't stalled," Mert snapped at
him viciously. "You've got to make the thing go. You've got to!"
"Well, I ain't the Almighty," Bud retorted acidly. "I can't perform
miracles while yuh wait."
"Starting a cranky car doesn't take a miracle," whined Mert. "Anybody
that knows cars--"
"She's no business to be a cranky car," Foster interposed pacifically.
"Why, she's practically new!" He stepped over a puddle and stood beside
Bud, peering down at the silent engine. "Have you looked at the intake
valve?" he asked pathetically.
"Why, sure. It's all right. Everything's all right, as far as I can
find out." Bud looked Foster straight in the eye--and if his own were a
bit anxious, that was to be expected.
"Everything's all right," he added measuredly. "Only, she won't go."
He waited, watching Foster's face.
Foster chewed a corner of his lip worriedly. "Well, what do you make
of it?" His tone was helpless.
Bud threw out his two hands expressively, and shook his head. He let
down the hood, climbed in, slid into the driver's seat, and went through
the operation of starting. Only, he didn't start. The self-starter hummed
as it spun the flywheel, but nothing whatever was elicited save a profane
phrase from Foster and a growl from Mert. Bud sat back flaccid, his whole
body owning defeat.
"Well, that means a tow in to the nearest shop," he stated, after a
minute of dismal silence. "She's dead as a doornail."
Mert sat back in his corner of the seat, muttering into his collar.
Foster looked at him, looked at Bud, looked at the car and at the
surrounding hills. He seemed terribly depressed and at the same time
determined to make the best of things. Bud could almost pity
"Do you know how far it is back to that town we passed?" he asked Bud
spiritlessly after a while. Bud looked at the speedometer, made a mental
calculation and told him it was fifteen miles. Towns, it seemed, were
rather far apart in this section of the country.
"Well, let's see the road map. How far is it to the next one?"
"Search me. They didn't have any road maps back there. Darned hick
Foster studied awhile. "Well, let's see if we can push her off the
middle of the road--and then I guess we'll have to let you walk back and
get help. Eh, Mert? There's nothing else we can do--"
"What yuh going to tell 'em?" Mert demanded suspiciously.
Bud permitted a surprised glance to slant back at Mert. "Why, whatever
you fellows fake up for me to tell," he said naively. "I know the truth
ain't popular on this trip, so get together and dope out something. And
hand me over my suit case, will yuh? I want some dry socks to put on when
I get there."
Foster very obligingly tilted the suit case over into the front seat.
After that he and Mert, as by a common thought impelled, climbed out and
went over to a bushy live oak to confer in privacy. Mert carried the
leather bag with him.
By the time they had finished and were coming back, Bud had gone
through his belongings and had taken out a few letters that might prove
awkward if found there later, two pairs of socks and his razor and
toothbrush. He was folding the socks to stow away in his pocket when they
"You can say that we're from Los Angeles, and on our way home," Foster
told him curtly. It was evident to Bud that the two had not quite agreed
upon some subject they had discussed. "That's all right. I'm Foster, and
he's named Brown--if any one gets too curious"
"Fine. Fine because it's so simple. I'll eat another sandwich, if you
don't mind, before I go. I'll tell a heartless world that fifteen miles
is some little stroll--for a guy that hates walkin'."
"You're paid for it," Mert growled at him rudely.
"Sure, I'm paid for it," Bud assented placidly, taking a bite. They
might have wondered at his calm, but they did not. He ate what he wanted,
took a long drink of the coffee, and started off up the hill they had
rolled down an hour or more past.
He walked briskly, and when he was well out of earshot Bud began to
whistle. Now and then he stopped to chuckle, and sometimes he frowned at
an uncomfortable thought. But on the whole he was very well pleased with
his present circumstances.
In a little village which he had glimpsed from the top of a hill Bud
went into the cluttered little general store and bought a few blocks of
slim, evil smelling matches and a couple of pounds of sliced bacon, a
loaf of stale bread, and two small cans of baked beans. He stuffed them
all into the pocket of his overcoat, and went out and hunted up a
long-distance telephone sign. It had not taken him more than an hour to
walk to the town, for he had only to follow a country road that branched
off that way for a couple of miles down a valley. There was a post office
and the general store and a couple of saloons and a blacksmith shop that
was thinking of turning into a garage but had gone no further than to
hang out a sign that gasoline was for sale there. It was all very sordid
and very lifeless and altogether discouraging in the drizzle of late
afternoon. Bud did not see half a dozen human beings on his way to the
telephone office, which he found was in the post office.
He called up San Francisco, and got the chief of police's office on
the wire, and told them where they would find the men who had robbed that
jewelry store of all its diamonds and some other unset jewels. Also he
mentioned the car that was stolen, and that was now stalled and waiting
for some kind soul to come and give it a tow.
He speedily had all the attention of the chief, and having thought out
in advance his answers to certain pertinent questions, he did not stutter
when they were asked. Yes, he had been hired to drive the ear south, and
he had overheard enough to make him suspicious on the way. He knew that
they had stolen the car. He was not absolutely sure that they were the
diamond thieves but it would be easy enough to find out, because officers
sent after them would naturally be mistaken for first aid from some
garage, and the cops could nab the men and look into that grip they were
so careful not to let out of their sight.
"Are you sure they won't get the car repaired and go on?" It was
perfectly natural that the chief should fear that very thing.
"No chance!" Bud chuckled into the 'phone. "Not a chance in the world,
chief. They'll be right there where I left 'em, unless some car comes
along and gives 'em a tow. And if that happens you'll be able to trace
'em." He started to hang up, and added another bit of advice. "Say,
chief, you better tell whoever gets the car, to empty the gas tank and
clean out the carburetor and vacuum feed--and she'll go, all right!
He hung up and paid the charge hurriedly, and went out and down a
crooked little lane that led between bushes to a creek and heavy timber.
It did not seem to him advisable to linger; the San Francisco chief of
police might set some officer in that village on his trail, just as a
matter of precaution. Bud told himself that he would do it were he in the
chief's place. When he reached the woods along the creek he ran, keeping
as much as possible on thick leaf mold that left the least impression. He
headed to the east, as nearly as he could judge, and when he came to a
rocky canyon he struck into it.
He presently found himself in a network of small gorges that twisted
away into the hills without any system whatever, as far as he could see.
He took one that seemed to lead straightest toward where the sun would
rise next morning, and climbed laboriously deeper and deeper into the
hills. After awhile he had to descend from the ridge where he found
himself standing bleakly revealed against a lowering, slaty sky that
dripped rain incessantly. As far as he could see were hills and more
hills, bald and barren except in certain canyons whose deeper shadows
told of timber. Away off to the southwest a bright light showed
briefly--the headlight of a Santa Fe train, he guessed it must be. To the
east which be faced the land was broken with bare hills that fell just
short of being mountains. He went down the first canyon that opened in
that direction, ploughing doggedly ahead into the unknown.
That night Bud camped in the lee of a bank that was fairly well
screened with rocks and bushes, and dined off broiled bacon and bread and
a can of beans with tomato sauce, and called it a meal. At first he was
not much inclined to take the risk of having a fire big enough to keep
him warm. Later in the night he was perfectly willing to take the risk,
but could not find enough dry wood. His rainproofed overcoat became quite
soggy and damp on the inside, in spite of his efforts to shield himself
from the rain. It was not exactly a comfortable night, but he worried
through it somehow.
At daylight he opened another can of beans and made himself two thick
bean sandwiches, and walked on while he ate them slowly. They tasted
mighty good, Bud thought--but he wished fleetingly that he was back in
the little green cottage on North Sixth Street, getting his own
breakfast. He felt as though he could drink about four caps of coffee;
and as to hotcakes--! But breakfast in the little green cottage recalled
Marie, and Marie was a bitter memory. All the more bitter because he did
not know where burrowed the root of his hot resentment. In a strong man's
love for his home and his mate was it rooted, and drew therefrom the
wormwood of love thwarted and spurned.
After awhile the high air currents flung aside the clouds like
curtains before a doorway. The sunlight flashed out dazzlingly and showed
Bud that the world, even this tumbled world, was good to look upon. His
instincts were all for the great outdoors, and from such the sun brings
quick response. Bud lifted his head, looked out over the hills to where a
bare plain stretched in the far distance, and went on more briskly.
He did not meet any one at all; but that was chiefly because he did
not want to meet any one. He went with his ears and his eyes alert, and
was not above hiding behind a clump of stunted bushes when two horsemen
rode down a canyon trail just below him. Also he searched for roads and
then avoided them. It would be a fat morsel for Marie and her mother to
roll under their tongues, he told himself savagely, if he were arrested
and appeared in the papers as one of that bunch of crooks!
Late that afternoon, by traveling steadily in one direction, he topped
a low ridge and saw an arm of the desert thrust out to meet him. A
scooped gully with gravelly sides and rocky bottom led down that way, and
because his feet were sore from so much sidehill travel, Bud went down.
He was pretty well fagged too, and ready to risk meeting men, if thereby
he might gain a square meal. Though he was not starving, or anywhere near
it, he craved warm food and hot coffee.
So when he presently came upon two sway-backed burros that showed the
sweaty imprint of packsaddles freshly removed, and a couple of horses
also sweat roughened, he straightway assumed that some one was making
camp not far away. One of the horses was hobbled, and they were all
eating hungrily the grass that grew along the gully's sides. Camp was not
only close, but had not yet reached suppertime, Bud guessed from the
well-known range signs.
Two or three minutes proved him right. He came upon a man just driving
the last tent peg. He straightened up and stared at Bud unblinkingly for
a few seconds.
"Howdy, howdy," he greeted him then with tentative friendliness, and
went on with his work. "You lost?" he added carefully. A man walking down
out of the barren hills, and carrying absolutely nothing in the way of
camp outfit, was enough to whet the curiosity of any one who knew that
country. At the same time curiosity that became too apparent might be
extremely unwelcome. So many things may drive a man into the hills--but
few of them would bear discussion with strangers.
"Yes. I am, and I ain't." Bud came up and stood with his hands in his
coat pockets, and watched the old fellow start his fire.
"Yeah--how about some supper? If you am, and you ain't as hungry as
"I'll tell the world I am, and then some. I ain't had a square meal
since yesterday morning, and I grabbed that at a quick-lunch joint. I'm
open to supper engagements, brother."
"All right. There's a side of bacon in that kyack over there. Get it
out and slice some off, and we'll have supper before you know it. We
will," he added pessimistically, "if this dang brush will burn."
Bud found the bacon and cut according to his appetite. His host got
out a blackened coffeepot and half filled it with water from a dented
bucket, and balanced it on one side of the struggling fire. He remarked
that they had had some rain, to which Bud agreed. He added gravely that
he believed it was going to clear up, though--unless the wind swung back
into the storm quarter. Bud again professed cheerfully to be in perfect
accord. After which conversational sparring they fell back upon the
little commonplaces of the moment.
Bud went into a brush patch and managed to glean an armful of nearly
dry wood, which he broke up with the axe and fed to the fire, coaxing it
into freer blazing. The stranger watched him unobtrusively, critically,
pottering about while Bud fried the bacon.
"I guess you've handled a frying pan before, all right," he remarked
at last, when the bacon was fried without burning.
Bud grinned. "I saw one in a store window once as I was going by," he
parried facetiously. "That was quite a while back."
"Yeah. Well, how's your luck with bannock? I've got it all mixed."
"Dump her in here, ole-timer," cried Bud, holding out the frying pan
emptied of all but grease. "Wish I had another hot skillet to turn over
"I guess you've been there, all right," the other chuckled. "Well, I
don't carry but the one frying pan. I'm equipped light, because I've got
to outfit with grub, further along."
"Well, we'll make out all right, just like this." Bud propped the
handle of the frying pan high with a forked stick, and stood up. "Say, my
name's Bud Moore, and I'm not headed anywhere in particular. I'm just
traveling in one general direction, and that's with the Coast at my back.
Drifting, that's all. I ain't done anything I'm ashamed of or scared of,
but I am kinda bashful about towns. I tangled with a couple of crooks,
and they're pulled by now, I expect. I'm dodging newspaper notoriety.
Don't want to be named with 'em at all." He, spread his hands with an air
of finality. "That's my tale of woe," he supplemented, "boiled down to
essentials. I just thought I'd tell you."
"Yeah. Well, my name's Cash Markham, and I despise to have folks get
funny over it. I'm a miner and prospector, and I'm outfitting for a trip
for another party, looking up an old location that showed good prospects
ten years ago. Man died, and his wife's trying to get the claim
relocated. Get you a plate outa that furtherest kyack, and a cup. Bannock
looks about done, so we'll eat."
That night Bud shared Cash Markham's blankets, and in the morning he
cooked the breakfast while Cash Markham rounded up the burros and horses.
In that freemasonry of the wilderness they dispensed with credentials,
save those each man carried in his face and in his manner. And if you
stop to think of it, such credentials are not easily forged, for nature
writes them down, and nature is a truth-loving old dame who will never
lead you far astray if only she is left alone to do her work in
It transpired, in the course of the forenoon's travel, that Cash
Markham would like to have a partner, if he could find a man that suited.
One guessed that he was fastidious in the matter of choosing his
companions, in spite of the easy way in which he had accepted Bud. By
noon they had agreed that Bud should go along and help relocate the
widow's claim. Cash Markham hinted that they might do a little
prospecting on their own account. It was a country he had long wanted to
get into, he said, and while he intended to do what Mrs. Thompson had
hired him to do, still there was no law against their prospecting on
their own account. And that, he explained, was one reason why he wanted a
good man along. If the Thompson claim was there, Bud could do the work
under the supervision of Cash, and Cash could prospect.
"And anyway, it's bad policy for a man to go off alone in this part of
the country," he added with a speculative look across the sandy waste
they were skirting at a pace to suit the heavily packed burros. "Case of
sickness or accident--or suppose the stock strays off--it's bad to be
"Suits me fine to go with you," Bud declared. "I'm next thing to
broke, but I've got a lot of muscle I can cash in on the deal. And I know
the open. And I can rock a gold-pan and not spill out all the colors, if
there is any--and whatever else I know is liable to come in handy, and
what I don't know I can learn."
"That's fair enough. Fair enough," Markham agreed. "I'll allow you
wages on the Thompson job' till you've earned enough to balance up with
the outfit. After that it'll be fifty-fifty. How'll that be, Bud?"
"Fair enough--fair enough," Bud retorted with faint mimicry. "If I was
all up in the air a few days ago, I seem to have lit on my feet, and
that's good enough for me right now. We'll let 'er ride that way."
And the twinkle, as he talked, was back in his eyes, and the smiley
quirk was at the corner of his lips.
If you want to know what mad adventure Bud found himself launched
upon, just read a few extracts from the diary which Cash Markham, being a
methodical sort of person, kept faithfully from day to day, until he cut
his thumb on a can of tomatoes which he had been cutting open with his
knife. Alter that Bud kept the diary for him, jotting down the main
happenings of the day. When Cash's thumb healed so that he could hold a
pencil with some comfort, Bud thankfully relinquished the task. He hated
to write, anyway, and it seemed to him that Cash ought to trust his
memory a little more than he did.
I shall skip a good many days, of course--though the diary did not, I
First, there was the outfit. When they had outfitted at Needles for
the real trip, Cash set down the names of all living things in this
Outfit, Cassius B. Markham, Bud Moore, Daddy a bull terrier, bay
horse, Mars, Pete a sorrel, Ed a burro, Swayback a jinny, Maude a jack,
Cora another jinny, Billy a riding burro Sways colt Maude colt a white
mean looking little devil
Sat. Apr. 1.
Up at 7:30. Snowing and blowing 3 ft. of snow on ground. Managed to
get breakfast returned to bed. Fed Monte Peter our cornmeal, poor things
half frozen. Made a fire in tent at 1:30 cooked a meal. Much smoke,
ripped hole in back of tent. Three burros in sight weathering fairly
well. No sign of let up everything under snow wind a gale. Making out
fairly well under adverse conditions. Worst weather we have
Up at 7 A.M. Fine sunny snow going fast. Fixed up tent cleaned up
generally. Alkali flat a lake, can't cross till it dries. Stock some
scattered, brought them all together.
Up 7 A.M. Clear bright. Snow going fast. All creeks flowing. Fine
Up 6 A.M. Clear bright. Went up on divide, met 3 punchers who said
road impassable. Saw 2 trains stalled away across alkali flat. Very boggy
Up 5 A.M. Clear bright. Start out, on Monte Pete at 6. Animals
traveled well, did not appear tired. Feed fine all over. Plenty water
Not much like Bud's auto stage, was it? But the very novelty of it,
the harking back to old plains days, appealed to him and sent him forward
from dull hardship to duller discomfort, and kept the quirk at the
corners of his lips and the twinkle in his eyes. Bud liked to travel this
way, though it took them all day long to cover as much distance as he had
been wont to slide behind him in an hour. He liked it--this slow,
monotonous journeying across the lean land which Cash had traversed years
ago, where the stark, black pinnacles and rough knobs of rock might be
hiding Indians with good eyesight and a vindictive temperament. Cash told
him many things out of his past, while they poked along, driving the
packed burros before them. Things which he never had set down in his
diary--things which he did not tell to any one save his few friends.
But it was not always mud and rain and snow, as Cash's meager
Up at sunrise. Monte Pete gone leaving no tracks. Bud found them 3
miles South near Indian village. Bud cut his hair, did a good job.
Prospector dropped into camp with fist full of good looking quartz. Stock
very thirsty all day. Very hot Tied Monte Pete up for night.
Up 5:30. Fine, but hot. Left 7:30. Pete walked over a sidewinder Bud
shot him ten ft. in air. Also prior killed another beside road. Feed as
usual, desert weeds. Pulled grain growing side of track and fed plugs.
Water from cistern R.R. ties for fuel. Put up tent for shade. Flies
Up 4. Left 6. Feed as usual. Killed a sidewinder in a bush with 3
shots of Krag. Made 21 m. today. R.R. ties for fuel Cool breeze all
Up at sunrise. Bud washed clothes. Tested rock. Fine looking mineral
country here. Dressed Monte's withers with liniment greatly reducing
swelling from saddle-gall. He likes to have it dressed came of his own
accord. Day quite comfortable.
Up 4. Left 6:30 over desert plain up dry wash. Daddy suffered from
heat ran into cactus while looking for shade. Got it in his mouth,
tongue, feet all over body. Fixed him up poor creature groaned all
evening would not eat his supper. Poor feed wood here. Water found by
digging 2 ft. in sand in sandstone basins in bed of dry wash. Monte lay
down en route. Very hot all suffered from heat.
Bud has sick headache. Very hot so laid around camp all day. Put two
blankets up on tent pols for sun break. Daddy under weather from cactus
experience. Papago Indian boy about 18 on fine bay mare driving 4 ponies
watered at our well. Moon almost full, lots of mocking birds. Pretty
Up 7:30 Bud some better. Day promises hot, but slight breeze. White
gauzy clouds in sky. Daddy better. Monte Pete gone all day. Hunted twice
but impossible to track them in this stony soil Bud followed trail, found
them 2 mi. east of here in flat sound asleep about 3 P.M. At 6 went to
flat 1/4 mi. N. of camp to tie Pete, leading Monte by bell strap almost
stepped on rattler 3 ft. long. 10 rattles a button. Killed him. To date,
1 Prairie rattler, 3 Diamond back 8 sidewinders, 12 in all. Bud feels
At 4 A. M. Bud woke up by stock passing camp. Spoke to me who half
awake hollered, "sic Daddy!" Daddy sicced 'em they went up bank of wash
to right. Bud swore it was Monte Pete. I went to flat found M. P. safe.
Water in sink all gone. Bud got stomach trouble. I threw up my breakfast.
Very hot weather. Lanced Monte's back dressed it with creoline. Turned
them loose away they put again.
Soon after this they arrived at the place where Thompson had located
his claim. It was desert, of course, sloping away on one side to a dreary
waste of sand and weeds with now and then a giant cactus standing
gloomily alone with malformed lingers stretched stiffly to the staring
blue sky. Behind where they pitched their final camp--Camp 48, Cash
Markham recorded it in his diary--the hills rose. But they were as stark
and barren almost as the desert below. Black rock humps here and there,
with ledges of mineral bearing rock. Bushes and weeds and dry washes for
the rest, with enough struggling grass to feed the horses and burros if
they rustled hard enough for it.
They settled down quietly to a life of grinding monotony that would
have driven some men crazy. But Bud, because it was a man's kind of
monotony, bore it cheerfully. He was out of doors, and he was hedged
about by no rules or petty restrictions. He liked Cash Markham and he
liked Pete, his saddle horse, and he was fond of Daddy who was still
paying the penalty of seeking too carelessly for shade and, according to
Cash's record, "getting it in his mouth, tongue, feet all over body." Bud
liked it--all except the blistering heat and the "side-winders" and other
rattlers. He did not bother with trying to formulate any explanation of
why he liked it. It may have been picturesque, though picturesqueness of
that sort is better appreciated when it is seen through the dim radiance
of memory that blurs sordid details. Certainly it was not adventurous, as
men have come to judge adventure.
Life droned along very dully. Day after day was filled with petty
details. A hill looks like a mountain if it rises abruptly out of a level
plain, with no real mountains in sight to measure it by. Here's the diary
to prove how little things came to look important because the days held
no contrasts. If it bores you to read it, think what it must have been to
Up at 6:30 Baked till 11. Then unrigged well and rigged up an incline
for the stock to water. Bud dressed Daddy's back. Stock did not come in
all morning, but Monte Pete came in before supper. Incline water shaft
does not work. Prospected found 8 ledges. Bud found none.
After breakfast fixed up shack--shelves, benches, tools, etc. Cleaned
guns. Bud dressed Daddy's back which is much better. Strong gold in test
of ledge, I found below creek. Took more specimens to sample. Cora comes
in with a little black colt newly born. Proud as a bull pup with two
tails. Monte Pete did not come in so we went by lantern light a mile or
so down the wash found them headed this way snake them in to drink about
80 gallons of water apiece. Daddy tied up and howling like a demon all
the while. Bud took a bath.
Bud got out and got breakfast again. Then started off on Pete to hunt
trail that makes short cut 18 miles to Bend. Roofed the kitchen. Bud got
back about 1:30, being gone 6 hours. Found trail two good ledges. Cora
colt came for water. Other burros did not. Brought in specimens from
ledge up creek that showed very rich gold in tests. Burros came in at
9:30. Bud got up and tied them up.
Bud gets breakfast. I took Sway brought in load of wood. Bud went out
and found a wash lined with good looking ledges. Hung up white rags on
bushes to identify same. Found large ledge of good quartz showing fine in
tests about one mile down wash. Bud dressed Daddy's back. Located a claim
west of Thompson's. Burros did not come in except Cora colt. Pete Monte
Bud got breakfast dressed Daddy's back. Very hot day. Stock came in
about 2. Tied up Billy Maud Cora. Bud has had headache. Monte Pete did
not come in. Bud went after them found them 4 miles away where we killed
the Gila monster. Sent 2 samples from big ledge to Tucson for assay.
Up 2.30. Bud left for Bend at 4. Walked down to flat but could not see
stock. About 3 Cora Colt came in for water Sway Ed from the south about
5. No Monte. Monte got in about midnight went past kitchen to creek on
run. Got up, found him very nervous frightened tied him up.
Bud got back 4 P.M. in gale of wind sand. Burros did not come in for
water. Very hot. Bud brought canned stuff. Rigged gallows for No. 2 shaft
also block tackle pail for drinking water, also washed clothes. While
drying went around in cap undershirt shoes.
Burros came in during night for water. Hot as nether depths of
infernal regions. Went up on hill a mile away. Seamed with veins similar
to shaft No. 2 ore. Blew in two faces got good looking ore seamed with a
black incrustation, oxide of something, but what could not determine.
Could find neither silver nor copper in it. Monte Pete came in about 1
tied them up. Very hot. Hottest day yet, even the breeze scorching. Test
of ore showed best yet. One half of solution in tube turning to chloride
of gold, 3 tests showing same. Burros except Ed Cora do not come in days
any more. Bud made a gate for kitchen to keep burros out.
The next morning it was that Cash cut the ball of his right thumb open
on the sharp edge of a tomato can. He wanted the diary to go on as usual.
He had promised, he said, to keep one for the widow who wanted a record
of the way the work was carried on, and the progress made. Bud could not
see that there had been much progress, except as a matter of miles. Put a
speedometer on one of his legs, he told Cash, and he'd bet it would
register more mileage chasing after them fool burros than his auto stage
could show after a full season. As for working the widow's claim, it was
not worth working, from all he could judge of it. And if it were full of
gold as the United States treasury, the burros took up all their time so
they couldn't do much. Between doggone stock drinking or not drinking and
the darn fool diary that had to be kept, Bud opined that they needed an
extra hand or two. Bud was peevish, these days. Gila Bend had exasperated
him because it was not the town it called itself, but a huddle of adobe
huts. He had come away in the sour mood of a thirsty man who finds an
alkali spring sparkling deceptively under a rock. Furthermore, the nights
had been hot and the mosquitoes a humming torment. And as a last
affliction he was called upon to keep the diary going. He did it,
faithfully enough but in a fashion of his own.
First he read back a few pages to get the hang of the thing. Then he
shook down Cash's fountain pen, that dried quickly in that heat. Then he
read another page as a model, and wrote:
Mosquitoes last night was worse than the heat and that was worse than
Gila Bend's great white way. Hunted up the burros. Pete and Monte came in
and drank. Monte had colic. We fed them and turned them loose but the
blamed fools hung around all day and eat up some sour beans I throwed
out. Cash was peeved and swore they couldn't have another grain of feed.
But Monte come to the shack and watched Cash through a knothole the size
of one eye till Cash opened up his heart and the bag. Cash cut his thumb
opening tomatoes. The tomatoes wasn't hurt any.
Got breakfast. Bill and harem did not come to water. Cash done the
regular hike after them. His thumb don't hurt him for hazing donkeys.
Bill and harem come in after Cash left. They must of saw him go. Cash was
out four hours and come in mad. Shot a hidrophobia skunk out by the
creek. Nothing doing. Too hot.
The sun would blister a mud turtle so he'd holler. Cash put in most of
day holding a parasol over his garden patch. Burros did not miss their
daily drink. Night brings mosquitoes with their wings singed but their
stingers O.K. They must hole up daytimes or they would fry.
Thought I know what heat was. I never did before. Cash took a bath. It
was his first. Burros did not come to water. Cash and I tried to sleep on
kitchen roof but the darned mosquitoes fed up on us and then played
heavenly choir all night.
Cash got back from Bend. Thumb is better and he can have this job any
time now. He hustled up a widow that made a couple of mosquito bags to go
over our heads. No shape (bags, not widow) but help keep flies and
mosquitoes from chewing on us all day and all night. Training for hades.
I can stand the heat as well as the old boy with the pitch-fork. Ain't
got used to brimstone yet, but I'd trade mosquitoes for sulphur smoke and
give some boot. Worried about Cash. He took a bath today again, using
water I had packed for mine. Heat must be getting him.
Cash opened up thumb again, trying to brain Pete with rock. Pete got
halfway into kitchen and eat biggest part of a pie I made. Cash threw
jagged rock, hit Pete in side of jaw. Cut big gash. Swelled now like a
punkin. Cash and I tangled over same. I'm going to quit. I have had
enough of this darn country. Creek's drying up, and mosquitoes have found
way to crawl under bags. Cash wants me to stay till we find good claim,
but Cash can go to thunder.
Then Cash's record goes on:
Bud very sick out of head. Think it is heat, which is terrible. Talked
all night about burros, gasoline, camphor balls which he seemed wanting
to buy in gunny sack. No sleep for either. Burros came in for water about
daylight. Picketed Monte Pete as may need doctor if Bud grows worse.
Thumb nearly well.
June 27. Bud same, slept most of day. Gave liver pills made gruel of
cornmeal, best could do with present stores. Burros came at about 3 but
could not drink owing to bees around water hold. Monte got stung and
kicked over water cans buckets I had salted for burros. Burros put for
hills again. No way of driving off bees.
Burros came drank in night. Cooler breeze, Bud some better slept. Sway
has badly swollen neck. May be rattler bite or perhaps bee. Bud wanted
cigarettes but smoked last the day before he took sick. Gave him more
liver pills sponge off with water every hour. Best can do under
circumstances. Have not prospected account Bud's sickness.
Very hot all day, breeze like blast from furnace. Burros refuse to
leave flat. Bees better, as can't fly well in this wind. Bud worse. High
fever very restless flighty. Imagines much trouble with automobile, talk
very technical can't make head or tail of it. Monte Pete did not come in,
left soon as turned loose. No feed for them here figured Bud too sick to
travel or stay alone so horses useless at present. Sponged frequently
with coolest water can get, seems to give some relief as he is quieter
Monte Pete came in the night hung around all day. Drove them away from
vicinity of shack several times but they returned moped in shade of
house. Terrible hot, strong gusty wind. Bud sat up part of day, slept
rest of time. Looks very thin and great hollows under eyes, but chief
trouble seems to be, no cigarettes. Shade over radishes lettice works all
right. Watered copiously at daylight again at dusk. Doing fine. Fixed
fence which M P. broke down while tramping around. Prospected west of
ranche. Found enormous ledge of black quartz, looks like sulphur stem
during volcanic era but may be iron. Strong gold heavy precipitate in
test, silver test poor but on filtering showed like white of egg in tube
(unusual). Clearing iron out showed for gold the highest yet made, being
more pronounced with Fenosulphate than $1500 rock have seen. Immense
ledge of it slightest estimate from test at least $10. Did not tell Bud
as keeping for surprise when he is able to visit ledge. Very monotonous
since Bud has been sick. Bud woke up said Hell of a Fourth turned over
went to sleep again with mosquito net over head to keep off flies. Burros
came in after dark, all but Cora Colt, which arrived about midnight.
Daddy gone since yesterday morning leaving no trace.
Miserable hot night. Burros trickled in sometime during night. Bud
better, managed to walk to big ledge after sundown. Suggests we call it
the Burro Lode. His idea of wit, claims we have occupied camp all summer
for sake of timing burros when they come to waterhole. Wish to call it
Columbia mine for patriotic reasons having found it on Fourth. Will
settle it soon so as to put up location. Put in 2 shots pulpel samples
for assay. Rigged windows on shack to keep out bees, nats flies
mosquitoes. Bud objects because it keeps out air as well. Took them off.
Sick folks must be humored. Hot, miserable and sleepless. Bud very
Cool wind makes weather endurable, but bees terrible in kitchen around
water-hole. Flipped a dollar to settle name of big ledge. Bud won tails,
Burro lode. Must cultivate my sense of humor so as to see the joke. Bud
agrees to stay help develop claim. Still very weak, puttered around house
all day cleaning baking bread stewing fruit which brought bees by
millions so we could not eat same till after dark when they subsided. Bud
got stung twice in kitchen. Very peevish full of cuss. Says positively
must make trip to Bend get cigarettes tomorrow or will blow up whole
outfit. Has already blowed up same several times today with no damage.
Burros came in about 5. Monte Pete later, tied them up with grain. Pete
has very bad eye. Bud will ride Monte if not too hot for trip. Still no
sign of daddy, think must be dead or stolen though nobody to steal same
Put in 2 shots on Burro Lode got her down to required depth. Hot. Bud
finds old location on widow's claim, upturns all previous calculation
information given me by her. Wrote letter explaining same, which Bud will
mail. Bud left 4 P.M. should make Bend by midnight. Much better but still
weak Burros came in late hung around water hole. Put up monument at Burro
Lode. Sent off samples to assay at Tucson. Killed rattler near shack,
making 16 so far killed.
"Well, here come them darn burros, Cash. Cora's colt ain't with 'em
though. Poor little devils--say, Cash, they look like hard sleddin', and
that's a fact. I'll tell the world they've got about as much pep as a
"Maybe we better grain 'em again." Cash looked up from studying the
last assay report of the Burro Lode, and his look was not pleasant. "But
it'll cost a good deal, in both time and money. The feed around here is
"Well, when it comes to that--" Bud cast a glum glance at the paper
Cash was holding.
"Yeah. Looks like everything's about played out. Promising ledge, too.
Like some people, though. Most all its good points is right on the
surface. Nothing to back it up."
"She's sure running light, all right Now," Bud added sardonically, but
with the whimsical quirk withal, "if it was like a carburetor, and you
could give it a richer mixture--"
"Yeah. What do you make of it, Bud?"
"Well--aw, there comes that durn colt, bringing up the drag. Say Cash,
that colt's just about all in. Cora's nothing but a bag of bones, too.
They'll never winter--not on this range, they won't."
Cash got up and went to the doorway, looking out over Bud's shoulder
at the spiritless donkeys trailing in to water. Beyond them the desert
baked in its rim of hot, treeless hills. Above them the sky glared a
brassy blue with never a could. Over a low ridge came Monte and Pete,
walking with heads drooping. Their hip bones lifted above their ridged
paunches, their backbones, peaked sharp above, their withers were lean
and pinched looking. In August the desert herbage has lost what little
succulence it ever possessed, and the gleanings are scarce worth the
"They're pretty thin," Cash observed speculatively, as though be was
measuring them mentally for some particular need.
"We'd have to grain 'em heavy till we struck better feed. And pack
light." Bud answered his thought.
"The question is, where shall we head for, Bud? Have you any
particular idea?" Cash looked slightingly down at the assayer's report.
"Such as she is, we've done all we can do to the Burro Lode, for a year
at least," he said. "The assessment work is all done--or will be when we
muck out after that last shot. The claim is filed--I don't know what more
we can do right away. Do you?"
"Sure thing," grinned Bud. "We can get outa here and go some place
where it's green."
"Yeah." Cash meditated, absently eyeing the burros. "Where it's
green." He looked at the near hills, and at the desert, and at the dreary
march of the starved animals. "It's a long way to green. country," he
They looked at the burros.
"They're tough little devils," Bud observed hopefully. "We could take
it easy, traveling when it's coolest. And by packing light, and graining
the whole bunch--"
"Yeah. We con ease 'em through, I guess. It does seem as though it
would be foolish to hang on here any longer." Carefully as he made his
tests, Cash weighed the question of their going. "This last report kills
any chance of interesting capital to the extent of developing the claim
on a large enough scale to make it profitable. It's too long a haul to
take the ore out, and it's too spotted to justify any great investment in
machinery to handle it on the ground. And," he added with an undernote of
fierceness, "it's a terrible place for man or beast to stay in, unless
the object to be attained is great enough to justify enduring the
"You said a mouthful, Cash. Well, can you leave your seven radishes
and three hunches of lettuce and pull out--say at daybreak?" Bud turned
to him with some eagerness.
Cash grinned sourly. "When it's time to go, seven radishes can't stop
me. No, nor a whole row of 'em--if there was a whole row."
"And you watered 'em copiously too," Bud murmured, with the corners of
his mouth twitching. "Well, I guess we might as well tie up the
livestock. I'm going to give 'em all a feed of rolled oats, Cash. We can
get along without, and they've got to have something to put a little
heart in 'em. There's a moon to- night--how about starting along about
midnight? That would put us in the Bend early in the forenoon
"Suits me," said Cash. "Now I've made up my mind about going, I can't
go too soon."
"You're on. Midnight sees us started." Bud went out with ropes to
catch and tie up the burros and their two saddle horses. And as he went,
for the first time in two months he whistled; a detail which Cash noted
with a queer kind of smile.
Midnight and the moon riding high in the purple bowl of sky sprinkled
thick with stars; with a little, warm wind stirring the parched weeds as
they passed; with the burros shuffling single file along the dim trail
which was the short cut through the hills to the Bend, Ed taking the
lead, with the camp kitchen wabbling lumpily on his back, Cora bringing
up the rear with her skinny colt trying its best to keep up, and with no
pack at all; so they started on the long, long journey to the green
A silent journey it was for the most part. The moon and the starry
bowl of sky had laid their spell upon the desert, and the two men rode
wordlessly, filled with vague, unreasoning regret that they must go.
Months they had spent with the desert, learning well every little varying
mood; cursing it for its blistering heat and its sand storms and its
parched thirst and its utter, blank loneliness. Loving it too, without
ever dreaming that they loved. To-morrow they would face the future with
the past dropping farther and farther behind. To-night it rode with
Three months in that little, rough-walled hut had lent it an
atmosphere of home, which a man instinctively responds to with a certain
clinging affection, however crude may be the shelter he calls his own.
Cash secretly regretted the thirsty death of his radishes and lettuce
which he had planted and tended with such optimistic care. Bud wondered
if Daddy might not stray half- starved into the shack, and find them
gone. While they were there, he had agreed with Cash that the dog must be
dead. But now he felt uneasily doubtful It would be fierce if Daddy did
come beck now. He would starve. He never could make the trip to the Bend
alone, even if he could track them.
There was, also, the disappointment in the Burro Lode claim. As Bud
planned it, the Burro was packing a very light load--far lighter than had
seemed possible with that strong indication on the surface. Cash's
"enormous black ledge" had shown less and less gold as they went into it,
though it still seemed worth while, if they had the capital to develop it
further. Wherefore they had done generous assessment work and had
recorded their claim and built their monuments to mark its boundaries. It
would be safe for a year, and by that time--Quien sabe?
The Thompson claim, too, had not justified any enthusiasm whatever.
They had found it, had relocated it, and worked out the assessment for
the widow. Cash had her check for all they had earned, and he had
declared profanely that he would not give his share of the check for the
They would go on prospecting, using the check for a grubstake, That
much they had decided without argument. The gambling instinct was wide
awake in Bud's nature--and as for Cash, he would hunt gold as long as he
could carry pick and pan. They would prospect as long as their money held
out. When that was gone, they would get more and go on prospecting. But
they would prospect in a green country where wood and water were not so
precious as in the desert and where, Cash averred, the chance of striking
it rich was just as good; better, because they could kill game and make
their grubstake last longer.
Wherefore. they waited in Gila Bend for three days, to strengthen the
weakened animals with rest and good hay and grain. Then they took again
to the trail, traveling as lightly as they could, with food for
themselves and grain for the stock to last them until they reached
Needles. From there with fresh supplies they pushed on up to Goldfield,
found that camp in the throes of labor disputes, and went on to
There they found work for themselves and the burros, packing winter
supplies to a mine lying back in the hills. They made money at it, and
during the winter they made more. With the opening of spring they
outfitted again and took the trail, their goal the high mountains south
of Honey Lake. They did not hurry. Wherever the land they traveled
through seemed to promise gold, they would stop and prospect. Many a pan
of likely looking dirt they washed beside some stream where the burros
stopped to drink and feed a little on the grassy banks,
So, late in June, they reached Reno; outfitted and went on again,
traveling to the north, to the green country for which they yearned,
though now they were fairly in it and would have stopped if any tempting
ledge or bar had come in their way. They prospected every gulch that
showed any mineral signs at all. It was a carefree kind of life, with
just enough of variety to hold Bud's interest to the adventuring. The
nomad in him responded easily to this leisurely pilgrimage. There was no
stampede anywhere to stir their blood with the thought of quick wealth.
There was hope enough, on the other hand, to keep them going. Cash had
prospected and trapped for more than fifteen years now, and he preached
the doctrine of freedom and the great outdoors.
Of what use was a house and lot--and taxes and trouble with the
plumbing? he would chuckle. A tent and blankets and a frying pan and
grub; two good legs and wild country to travel; a gold pan and a
pick--these things, to Cash, spelled independence and the joy of living.
The burros and the two horses were luxuries, he declared. When they once
got located on a good claim they would sell off everything but a couple
of burros--Sway and Ed, most likely. The others would bring enough for a
winter grubstake, and would prolong their freedom and their independence
just that much. That is, supposing they did not strike a good claim
before then. Cash had learned, he said, to hope high but keep an eye on
Late in August they came upon a mountain village perched beside a
swift stream and walled in on three sided by pine- covered mountains. A
branch railroad linked the place more or less precariously with
civilization, and every day--unless there was a washout somewhere, or a
snowslide, or drifts too deep --a train passed over the road. One day it
would go up-stream, and the next day it would come back. And the houses
stood drawn up in a row alongside the track to watch for these
Miners came in with burros or with horses, packed flour and bacon and
tea and coffee across their middles, got drunk, perhaps as a parting
ceremony, and went away into the hills. Cash watched them for a day or
so; saw the size of their grubstakes, asked few questions and listened to
a good deal of small-town gossip, and nodded his head contentedly. There
was gold in these hills. Not enough, perhaps, to start a stampede
with--but enough to keep wise old hermits burrowing after it.
So one day Bud sold the two horses and one of the saddles, and Cash
bought flour and bacon and beans and coffee, and added other things quite
as desirable but not so necessary. Then they too went away into the
Fifteen miles from Alpine, as a cannon would shoot; high up in the
hills, where a creek flowed down through a saucerlike basin under
beetling ledges fringed all around with forest, they came, after much
wandering, upon an old log cabin whose dirt roof still held in spite of
the snows that heaped upon it through many a winter. The ledge showed the
scars of old prospect holes, and in the sand of the creek they found
"colors" strong enough to make it seem worth while to stop here--for
awhile, at least.
They cleaned out the cabin and took possession of it, and the next
time they went to town Cash made cautious inquiries about the place. It
was, he learned, an old abandoned claim. Abandoned chiefly because the
old miner who had lived there died one day, and left behind him all the
marks of having died from starvation, mostly. A cursory examination of
his few belongings had revealed much want, but no gold save a little
coarse dust in a small bottle.
"About enough to fill a rifle ca'tridge," detailed the teller of the
tale. "He'd pecked around that draw for two, three year mebby. Never
showed no gold much, for all the time he spent there. Trapped some in
winter--coyotes and bobcats and skunks, mostly. Kinda off in the upper
story, old Nelson was. I guess he just stayed there because he happened
to light there and didn't have gumption enough to git out. Hills is full
of old fellers like him. They live off to the'rselves, and peck around
and git a pocket now and then that keeps 'm in grub and tobacco. If you
want to use the cabin, I guess nobody's goin' to care. Nelson never had
any folks, that anybody knows of. Nobody ever bothered about takin' up
the claim after he cashed in, either. Didn't seem worth nothin' much.
Went back to the gov'ment."
"Trapped, you say. Any game around there now?"
"Oh, shore! Game everywhere in these hills, from weasels up to bear
and mountain lion. If you want to trap, that's as good a place as any, I
So Cash and Bud sold the burros and bought traps and more supplies,
and two window sashes and a crosscut saw and some wedges and a
double-bitted axe, and settled down in Nelson Flat to find what old Dame
Fortune had tucked away in this little side pocket and forgotten.
The heavy boom of a dynamite blast rolled across the fiat to the hills
that flung it back in a tardy echo like a spent ball of sound. A blob of
blue smoke curled out of a hole the size of a hogshead in a steep bank
overhung with alders. Outside, the wind caught the smoke and carried
streamers of it away to play with. A startled bluejay, on a limb high up
on the bank, lifted his slaty crest and teetered forward, clinging with
his toe nails to the branch while he scolded down at the men who had
scared him so. A rattle of clods and small rocks fell from their high
flight into the sweet air of a mountain sunset.
"Good execution, that was," Cash remarked, craning his neck toward the
hole. "If you're a mind to go on ahead and cook supper, I'll stay and see
if we opened up anything. Or you can stay, just as you please."
Dynamite smoke invariably made Bud's head ache splittingly. Cash was
not so susceptible. Bud chose the cooking, and went away down the flat,
the bluejay screaming insults after him. He was frying bacon when Cash
came in, a hatful of broken rock riding in the hollow of his arm.
"Got something pretty good here, Bud--if she don't turn out like that
dang Burro Lode ledge. Look here. Best looking quartz we've struck yet.
What do you think of it?"
He dumped the rock out on the oilcloth behind the sugar can and
directly under the little square window through which the sun was pouring
a lavish yellow flood of light before it dropped behind the peak. Bud set
the bacon back where it would not burn, and bent over the table to
"Gee, but it's heavy!" he cried, picking up a fragment the size of an
egg, and balancing it in his hands. "I don't know a lot about
gold-bearing quartz, but she looks good to me, all right."
"Yeah. It is good, unless I'm badly mistaken. I'll test some after
supper. Old Nelson couldn't have used powder at all, or he'd have
uncovered enough of this, I should think, to show the rest what he had.
Or maybe he died just when he had started that hole. Seems queer he never
struck pay dirt in this flat. Well, let's eat if it's ready, Bud. Then
"Seems kinda queer, don't it, Cash, that nobody stepped in and filed
on any claims here?" Bud dumped half a kettle of boiled beans into a
basin and set it on the table. "Want any prunes to- night, Cash?"
Cash did not want prunes, which was just as well, seeing there were
none cooked. He sat down and ate, with his mind and his eyes clinging to
the grayish, veined fragments of rock lying on the table beside his
"We'll send some of that down to Sacramento right away," he observed,
"and have it assayed. And we won't let out anything about it, Bud--good
or bad. I like this flat. I don't want it mucked over with a lot of
Bud laughed and reached for the bacon. "We ain't been followed up with
stampedes so far," he pointed out. "Burro Lode never caused a ripple in
the Bend, you recollect. And I'll tell a sinful world it looked awful
"Yeah. Well, Arizona's hard to excite. They've had so dang much
strenuosity all their lives, and then the climate's against violent
effort, either mental or physical. I was calm, perfectly calm when I
discovered that big ledge. It is just as well-- seeing how it petered
"What'll you bet this pans out the same?" "I never bet. No one but a
fool will gamble." Cash pressed his lips together in a way that drove the
color from there.
"Oh, yuh don't! Say, you're the king bee of all gamblers. Been
prospecting for fifteen years, according to you--and then you've got the
nerve to say you don't gamble!"
Cash ignored the charge. He picked up a piece of rock and held it to
the fading light. "It looks good," he said again. "Better than that
placer ground down by the creek. That's all right, too. We can wash
enough gold there to keep us going while we develop this. That is, if
this proves as good as it looks."
Bud looked across at him enigmatically. "Well, here's hoping she's
worth a million. You go ahead with your tests, Cash. I'll wash the
"Of course," Cash began to conserve his enthusiasm, "there's nothing
so sure as an assay. And it was too dark in the hole to see how much was
uncovered. This may be just a freak deposit. There may not be any real
vein of it. You can't tell until it's developed further. But it looks
good. Awful good."
His makeshift tests confirmed his opinion. Bud started out next day
with three different samples for the assayer, and an air castle or two to
keep him company. He would like to find himself half owner of a mine
worth about a million, he mused. Maybe Marie would wish then that she had
thought twice about quitting him just on her mother's say-so. He'd like
to go buzzing into San Jose behind the wheel of a car like the one Foster
had fooled him into stealing. And meet Marie, and her mother too, and let
them get an eyeful. He guessed the old lady would have to swallow what
she had said about him being lazy--just because he couldn't run an
auto-stage in the winter to Big Basin! What was the matter with the old
woman, anyway? Didn't he keep Maria in comfort. Well, he'd like to see
her face when he drove along the street in a big new Sussex. She'd wish
she had let him and Marie alone. They would have made out all right if
they had been let alone. He ought to have taken Marie to some other town,
where her mother couldn't nag at her every day about him. Marie wasn't
such a bad kid, if she were left alone. They might have been happy--
He tried then to shake himself free of thoughts of her. That was the
trouble with him, he brooded morosely. He couldn't let his thoughts ride
free, any more. They kept heading straight for Marie. He could not see
why she should cling so to his memory; he had not wronged her--unless it
was by letting her go without making a bigger fight for their home.
Still, she had gone of her own free will. He was the one that had been
wronged--why, hadn't they lied about him in court and to the gossipy
neighbors? Hadn't they broke him? No. If the mine panned out big as Cash
seemed to think was likely, the best thing he could do was steer clear of
San Jose. And whether it panned out or not, the best thing he could do
was forget that such girl as Marie had ever existed..
Which was all very well, as far as it went. The trouble was that
resolving not to think of Marie, calling up all the bitterness he could
muster against her memory, did no more toward blotting her image from his
mind than did the miles and the months he had put between them.
He reached the town in a dour mood of unrest, spite of the promise of
wealth he carried in his pocket. He mailed the package and the letter,
and went to a saloon and had a highball. He was not a drinking man--at
least, he never had been one, beyond a convivial glass or two with his
fellows--but he felt that day the need of a little push toward optimism.
In the back part of the room three men were playing freeze-out. Bud went
over and stood with his hands in his pockets and watched them, because
there was nothing else to do, and because he was still having some
trouble with his thoughts. He was lonely, without quite knowing what
ailed him. He hungered for friends to hail him with that cordial, "Hello,
Bud!" when they saw him coming.
No one in Alpine had said hello, Bud, when he came walking in that
day. The postmaster bad given him one measuring glance when he had
weighed the package of ore, but he had not spoken except to name the
amount of postage required. The bartender had made some remark about the
weather, and had smiled with a surface friendliness that did not deceive
Bud for a moment. He knew too well that the smile was not for him, but
for his patronage.
He watched the game. And when the man opposite him pushed back his
chair and, looking up at Bud, asked if he wanted to sit in, Bud went and
sat down, buying a dollar's worth of chips as an evidence of his
intention to play. His interest in the game was not keen. He played for
the feeling it gave him of being one of the bunch, a man among his
friends; or if not friends, at least acquaintances. And, such was his
varying luck with the cards, he played for an hour or so without having
won enough to irritate his companions. Wherefore he rose from the table
at supper time calling one young fellow Frank quite naturally. They went
to the Alpine House and had supper together, and after that they sat in
the office and talked about automobiles for an hour, which gave Bud a
comforting sense of having fallen among friends.
Later they strolled over to a picture show which ran films two years
behind their first release, and charged fifteen cents for the privilege
of watching them. It was the first theater Bud had entered since he left
San Jose, and at the last minute he hesitated, tempted to turn back. He
hated moving pictures. They always had love scenes somewhere in the
story, and love scenes hurt. But Frank had already bought two tickets,
and it seemed unfriendly to turn back now. He went inside to the jangling
of a player-piano in dire need of a tuner's service, and sat down near
the back of the hall with his hat upon his lifted knees which could have
used more space between the seats.
While they waited for the program they talked in low tones, a mumble
of commonplaces. Bud forgot for the moment his distaste for such places,
and let himself slip easily back into the old thought channels, the old
habits of relaxation after a day's work was done. He laughed at the
one-reel comedy that had for its climax a chase of housemaids, policemen,
and outraged fruit vendors after a well-meaning but unfortunate lover. He
saw the lover pulled ignominiously out of a duck pond and soused
relentlessly into a watering trough, and laughed with Frank and called it
He eyed a succession of "current events" long since gone stale out
where the world moved swifter than here in the mountains, and he felt as
though he had come once more into close touch with life. All the dull
months he had spent with Cash and the burros dwarfed into a pointless,
irrelevant incident of his life. He felt that he ought to be out in the
world, doing bigger things than hunting gold that somehow always refused
at the last minute to be found. He stirred restlessly. He was free--there
was nothing to hold him if he wanted to go. The war--he believed he would
go over and take a hand. He could drive an ambulance or a truck--
Current Events, however, came abruptly to an end; and presently Bud's
vagrant, half-formed desire for achievement merged into biting
recollections. Here was a love drama, three reels of it. At first Bud
watched it with only a vague, disquieting sense of familiarity. Then
abruptly he recalled too vividly the time and circumstance of his first
sight of the picture. It was in San Jose, at the Liberty. He and Marie
had been married two days, and were living in that glamorous world of the
honeymoon, so poignantly sweet, so marvelous--and so fleeting. He had
whispered that the girl looked like her, and she had leaned heavily
against his shoulder. In the dusk of lowered lights their hands had
groped and found each other, and clung.
The girl did look like Marie. When she turned her head with that
little tilt of the chin, when she smiled, she was like Marie. Bud leaned
forward, staring, his brows drawn together, breathing the short, quick
breaths of emotion focussed upon one object, excluding all else. Once,
when Frank moved his body a little in the next seat, Bud's hand went out
that way involuntarily. The touch of Frank's rough coat sleeve recalled
him brutally, so that he drew away with a wincing movement as though he
bad been hurt.
All those months in the desert; all those months of the slow
journeying northward; all the fought battles with memory, when he thought
that he had won--all gone for nothing, their slow anodyne serving but to
sharpen now the bite of merciless remembering. His hand shook upon his
knee. Small beads of moisture oozed out upon his forehead. He sat stunned
before the amazing revelation of how little time and distance had done to
heal his hurt.
He wanted Marie. He wanted her more than he had ever wanted her in the
old days, with a tenderness, an impulse to shield her from her own
weaknesses, her own mistakes. Then--in those old days --there had been
the glamor of mystery that is called romance. That was gone, worn away by
the close intimacies of matrimony. He knew her faults, he knew how she
looked when she was angry and petulant. He knew how little the real Marie
resembled the speciously amiable, altogether attractive Marie who faced a
smiling world when she went pleasuring. He knew, but--he wanted her just
the same. He wanted to tell her so many things about the burros, and
about the desert--things that would make her laugh, and things that would
make her blink back the tears. He was homesick for her as he had never
been homesick in his life before. The picture flickered on through scene
after scene that Bud did not see at all, though he was staring
unwinkingly at the screen all the while. The love scenes at the last were
poignantly real, but they passed before his eyes unnoticed. Bud's mind
was dwelling upon certain love scenes of his own. He was feeling Marie's
presence beside him there in the dusk.
"Poor kid--she wasn't so much to blame," he muttered just above his
breath, when the screen was swept clean and blank at the end of the last
"Huh? Oh, he was the big mutt, right from the start," Frank replied
with the assured air of a connoisseur. "He didn't have the brains of a
bluejay, or he'd have known all the time she was strong for him."
"I guess that's right," Bud mumbled, but he did not mean what Frank
thought he meant. "Let's go. I want a drink."
Frank was willing enough; too willing, if the truth were known. They
went out into the cool starlight, and hurried across the side street that
was no more than a dusty roadway, to the saloon where they had spent the
afternoon. Bud called for whisky, and helped himself twice from the
bottle which the bartender placed between them. He did not speak until
the second glass was emptied, and then he turned to Frank with a purple
glare in his eyes.
"Let's have a game of pool or something," he suggested.
"There's a good poker game going, back there," vouchsafed the
bartender, turning his thumb toward the rear, where half a dozen men were
gathered in a close group around a table. "There's some real money in
"All right, let's go see." Bud turned that way, Frank following like a
pet dog at his heels.
At dawn the next morning, Bud got up stiffly from the chair where he
had spent the night. His eyeballs showed a network of tiny red veins,
swollen with the surge of alcohol in his blood and with the strain of
staring all night at the cards. Beneath his eyes were puffy ridges. His
cheekbones flamed with the whisky flush. He cashed in a double-handful of
chips, stuffed the money he had won into his coat pocket, walked, with
that stiff precision of gait by which a drunken man strives to hide his
drunkenness, to the bar and had another drink. Frank was at his elbow.
Frank was staggering, garrulous, laughing a great deal over very small
"I'm going to bed," said Bud, his tongue forming the words with a slow
"Come over to my shack, Bud--rotten hotel. My bed's clean, anyway."
Frank laughed and plucked him by the sleeve.
"All right," Bud consented gravely. "We'll take a bottle along."
A man's mind is a tricky thing--or, speaking more exactly, a man's
emotions are tricky things. Love has come rushing to the beck of a
tip-tilted chin, or the tone of a voice, or the droop of an eyelid. It
has fled for cause as slight. Sometimes it runs before resentment for a
real or fancied wrong, but then, if you have observed it closely, you
will see that quite frequently, when anger grows slow of foot, or dies of
slow starvation, love steals back, all unsuspected and unbidden--and
mayhap causes much distress by his return. It is like a sudden
resurrection of all the loved, long-mourned dead that sleep so serenely
in their tended plots. Loved though they were and long mourned, think of
the consternation if they all came trooping back to take their old places
in life! The old places that have been filled, most of them, by others
who are loved as dearly, who would be mourned if they were taken
Psychologists will tell us all about the subconscious mind, the hidden
loves and hates and longings which we believe are dead and long
forgotten. When one of those emotions suddenly comes alive and stands,
terribly real and intrusive, between our souls and our everyday lives,
the strongest and the best of us may stumble and grope blindly after
content, or reparation, or forgetfulness, or whatever seems most likely
to give relief.
I am apologizing now for Bud, who had spent a good many months in
pushing all thoughts of Marie out of his mind, all hunger for her out of
his heart. He had kept away from towns, from women, lest he be reminded
too keenly of his matrimonial wreck. He had stayed with Cash and had
hunted gold, partly because Cash never seemed conscious of any need of a
home or love or wife or children, and therefore never reminded Bud of the
home and the wife and the love and the child he had lost out of his own
life. Cash seldom mentioned women at all, and when he did it was in a
purely general way, as women touched some other subject he was
discussing. He never paid any attention to the children they met casually
in their travels. He seemed absolutely self-sufficient, interested only
in the prospect of finding a paying claim. What he would do with wealth,
if so be he attained it, he never seemed to know or care. He never asked
Bud any questions about his private affairs, never seemed to care how Bud
had lived, or where. And Bud thankfully left his past behind the wall of
silence. So he had come to believe that he was almost as emotion- proof
as Cash appeared to be, and had let it go at that.
Now here be was, with his heart and his mind full of Marie-- after
more than a year and a half of forgetting her! Getting drunk and playing
poker all night did not help him at all, for when he woke it was from a
sweet, intimate dream of her, and it was to a tormenting desire for her,
that gnawed at his mind as hunger gnaws at the stomach. Bud could not
understand it. Nothing like that had ever happened to him before. By all
his simple rules of reckoning he ought to be "over it" by now. He had
been, until he saw that picture.
He was so very far from being over his trouble that he was under it; a
beaten dog wincing under the blows of memory, stung by the lash of his
longing. He groaned, and Frank thought it was the usual "morning after"
headache, and laughed ruefully.
"Same here," he said. "I've got one like a barrel, and I didn't punish
half the booze you did."
Bud did not say anything, but he reached for the bottle, tilted it and
swallowed three times before he stopped.
"Gee!" whispered Frank, a little enviously.
Bud glanced somberly across at Frank, who was sitting by the stove
with his jaws between his palms and his hair toweled, regarding his guest
"I'm going to get drunk again," Bud announced bluntly. "If you don't
want to, you'd better duck. You're too easy led--I saw that last night.
You follow anybody's lead that you happen to be with. If you follow my
lead to-day, you'll be petrified by night. You better git, and let me go
Frank laughed uneasily. "Aw, I guess you ain't all that fatal, Bud.
Let's go over and have some breakfast--only it'll be dinner."
"You go, if you want to." Bud tilted the bottle again, his eyes half
closed while he swallowed. When he had finished, he shuddered violently
at the taste of the whisky. He got up, went to the water bucket and drank
half a dipper of water. "Good glory! I hate whisky," he grumbled. "Takes
a barrel to have any effect on me too." He turned and looked down at
Frank with a morose kind of pity. "You go on and get your breakfast, kid.
I don't want any. I'll stay here for awhile."
He sat down on the side of the cheap, iron bedstead, and emptied his
pockets on the top quilt. He straightened the crumpled bills and counted
them, and sorted the silver pieces. All told, he had sixty-three dollars
and twenty cents. He sat fingering the money absently, his mind upon
other things. Upon Marie and the baby, to be exact. He was fighting the
impulse to send Marie the money. She might need it for the kid. If he was
sure her mother wouldn't get any of it... A year and a half was quite a
while, and fifteen hundred dollars wasn't much to live on these days. She
couldn't work, with the baby on her hands...
Frank watched him curiously, his jaws still resting between his two
palms, his eyes red-rimmed and swollen, his lips loose and trembling. A
dollar alarm clock ticked resonantly, punctuated now and then by the dull
clink of silver as Bud lifted a coin and let it drop on the little
"Pretty good luck you had last night," Frank ventured wishfully. "They
Bud straightened his drooping shoulders and scooped the money into his
hand. He laughed recklessly, and got up. "We'll try her another whirl,
and see if luck'll bring luck. Come on--let's go hunt up some of them
marks that got all the dough last night. We'll split, fifty-fifty, and
the same with what we win. Huh?"
"You're on, bo--let's go." Bud had gauged him correctly-- Frank would
follow any one who would lead. He got up and came to the table where Bud
was dividing the money into two equal sums, as nearly as he could make
change. What was left over--and that was the three dollars and twenty
cents--he tossed into the can of tobacco on a shelf.
"We'll let that ride--to sober up on, if we go broke," he grunted.
"Come on--let's get action."
Action, of a sort, they proceeded to get. Luck brought luck of the
same complexion. They won in fluctuating spells of good cards and
judicious teamwork. They did not cheat, though Frank was ready if Bud had
led him that way. Frank was ready for anything that Bud suggested. He
drank when Bud drank, went from the first saloon to the one farther down
and across the street, returned to the first with cheerful alacrity and
much meaningless laughter when Bud signified a desire to change. It
soothed Bud and irritated him by turns, this ready acquiescence of
Frank's. He began to take a malicious delight in testing that
acquiescence. He began to try whether he could not find the end of
Frank's endurance in staying awake, his capacity for drink, his good
nature, his credulity--he ran the scale of Frank's various
qualifications, seeking always to establish a well-defined limitation
But Frank was utterly, absolutely plastic. He laughed and drank when
Bud suggested that they drink. He laughed and played whatever game Bud
urged him into. He laughed and agreed with Bud when Bud made statements
to test the credulity of anyman. He laughed and said,"Sure. Let's go!"
when Bud pined for a change of scene.
On the third day Bud suddenly stopped in the midst of a game of pool
which neither was steady enough to play, and gravely inspected the
chalked end of his cue.
"That's about enough of this," he said. "We're drunk. We're so drunk
we don't know a pocket from a prospect hole. I'm tired of being a hog.
I'm going to go get another drink and sober up. And if you're the dog
Fido you've been so far, you'll do the same." He leaned heavily upon the
table, and regarded Frank with stern, bloodshot blue eyes.
Frank laughed and slid his cue the length of the table. He also leaned
a bit heavily. "Sure," he said. "I'm ready, any time you are."
"Some of these days," Bud stated with drunken deliberation, "they'll
take and hang you, Frank, for being such an agreeable cuss." He took
Frank gravely by the arm and walked him to the bar, paid for two beers
with almost his last dollar, and, still holding Frank firmly, walked him
out of doors and down the street to Frank's cabin. He pushed him inside
and stood looking in upon him with a sour appraisement.
"You are the derndest fool I ever run across--but at that you're a
good scout too," he informed Frank. "You sober up now, like I said. You
ought to know better 'n to act the way you've been acting. I'm sure
ashamed of you, Frank. Adios--I'm going to hit the trail for camp." With
that he pulled the door shut and walked away, with that same circumspect
exactness in his stride which marks the drunken man as surely as does a
He remembered what it was that had brought him to town-- which is more
than most men in his condition would have done. He went to the pest
office and inquired for mail, got what proved to be the assayer's report,
and went on. He bought half a dozen bananas which did not remind him of
that night when he had waited on the Oakland pier for the mysterious
Foster, though they might have recalled the incident vividly to mind had
he been sober. He had been wooing forgetfulness, and for the time being
he had won.
Walking up the steep, winding trail that led to Nelson Flat cleared a
little his fogged brain. He began to remember what it was that he had
been fighting to forget. Marie's face floated sometimes before him, but
the vision was misty and remote, like distant woodland seen through the
gray film of a storm. The thought of her filled him with a vague
discomfort now when his emotions were dulled by the terrific strain he
had wilfully put upon brain and body. Resentment crept into the
foreground again. Marie had made him suffer. Marie was to blame for this
beastly fit of intoxication. He did not love Marie--he hated her. He did
not want to see her, he did not want to think of her. She had done
nothing for him but bring him trouble. Marie, forsooth! (Only, Bud put it
in a slightly different way.)
Halfway to the flat, he met Cash walking down the slope where the
trail seemed tunneled through deep green, so thick stood the young
spruce. Cash was swinging his arms in that free stride of the man who has
learned how to walk with the least effort. He did not halt when he saw
Bud plodding slowly up the trail, but came on steadily, his keen,
blue-gray eyes peering sharply from beneath his forward tilted hat brim.
He came up to within ten feet of Bud, and stopped.
"Well!" He stood eyeing Bud appraisingly, much as Bud had eyed Frank a
couple of hours before. "I was just starting out to see what had become
of you," he added, his voice carrying the full weight of reproach that
the words only hinted at.
"Well, get an eyeful, if that's what you come for. I'm here-- and
lookin's cheap." Bud's anger flared at the disapproval he read in Cash's
eyes, his voice, the set of his lips.
But Cash did not take the challenge. "Did the report come?" he asked,
as though that was the only matter worth discussing.
Bud pulled the letter sullenly from his pocket and gave it to Cash. He
stood moodily waiting while Cash opened and read and returned it.
"Yeah. About what I thought--only it runs lighter in gold, with a
higher percentage of copper. It'll pay to go on and see what's at bed
rock. If the copper holds up to this all along, we'll be figuring on the
gold to pay for getting the copper. This is copper country, Bud. Looks
like we'd found us a copper mine." He turned and walked on beside Bud. "I
dug in to quite a rich streak of sand while you was gone," he volunteered
after a silence. "Coarse gold, as high as fifteen cents a pan. I figure
we better work that while the weather's good, and run our tunnel in on
this other when snow comes."
Bud turned his head and looked at Cash intently for a minute. "I've
been drunker'n a fool for three days," he announced solemnly.
"Yeah. You look it," was Cash's dry retort, while he stared straight
ahead, up the steep, shadowed trail.
For a month Bud worked and forced himself to cheerfulness, and tried
to forget. Sometimes it was easy enough, but there were other times when
he must get away by himself and walk and walk, with his rifle over his
shoulder as a mild pretense that he was hunting game. But if he brought
any back camp it was because the game walked up and waited to he shot;
half the time Bud did not know where he was going, much less whether
there were deer within ten rods or ten miles.
During those spells of heartsickness he would sit all the evening and
smoke and stare at some object which his mind failed to register. Cash
would sit and watch him furtively; but Bud was too engrossed with his own
misery to notice it. Then, quite unexpectedly, reaction would come and
leave Bud in a peace that was more than half a torpid refusal of his mind
to worry much over anything.
He worked then, and talked much with Cash, and made plans for the
development of their mine. In that month they had come to call it a mine,
and they had filed and recorded their claim, and had drawn up an
agreement of partnership in it. They would "sit tight" and work on it
through the winter, and when spring came they hoped to have something
tangible upon which to raise sufficient capital to develop it properly.
Or, times when they had done unusually well with their sandbank, they
would talk optimistically about washing enough gold out of that claim to
develop the other, and keep the title all in their own hands.
Then, one night Bud dreamed again of Marie, and awoke with an
insistent craving for the oblivion of drunkenness. He got up and cooked
the breakfast, washed the dishes and swept the cabin, and measured out
two ounces of gold from what they had saved.
"You're keeping tabs on everything, Cash," he said shortly. "Just
charge this up to me. I'm going to town."
Cash looked up at him from under a slanted eye. brow. His lips had a
twist of pained disapproval.
"Yeah. I figured you was about due in town," he said resignedly.
"Aw, lay off that told-you-so stuff," Bud growled. "You never figured
anything of the kind, and you know it." He pulled his heavy sweater down
off a nail and put it on, scowling because the sleeves had to be pulled
in place on his arms.
"Too bad you can't wait a day. I figured we'd have a clean-up
to-morrow, maybe. She's been running pretty heavy---"
"Well, go ahead and clean up, then. You can do it alone. Or wait till
I get back."
Cash laughed, as a retort cutting, and not because he was amused. Bud
swore and went out, slamming the door behind him.
It was exactly five days alter that when he opened it again. Cash was
mixing a batch of sour-dough bread into loaves, and he did not say
anything at all when Bud came in and stood beside the stove, warming his
hands and glowering around the, room. He merely looked up, and then went
on with his bread making.
Bud was not a pretty sight. Four days and nights of trying to see how
much whisky he could drink, and how long he could play poker without
going to sleep or going broke, had left their mark on his face and his
trembling hands. His eyes were puffy and red, and his cheeks were
mottled, and his lips were fevered and had lost any sign of a humorous
quirk at the corners. He looked ugly; as if he would like nothing better
than an excuse to quarrel with Cash--since Cash was the only person at
hand to quarrel with.
But Cash had not knocked around the world for nothing. He had seen men
in that mood before, and he had no hankering for trouble which is vastly
easier to start than it is to stop. He paid no attention to Bud. He made
his loaves, tucked them into the pan and greased the top with bacon
grease saved in a tomato can for such use. He set the pan on a shelf
behind the stove, covered it with a clean flour sack, opened the stove
door, and slid in two sticks.
"She's getting cold," he observed casually. "It'll be winter now
before we know it."
Bud grunted, pulled an empty box toward him by the simple expedient of
hooking his toes behind the corner, and sat down. He set his elbows on
his thighs and buried his face in his hands. His hat dropped off his head
and lay crown down beside him. He made a pathetic figure of miserable
manhood, of strength mistreated. His fine, brown hair fell in heavy locks
down over his fingers that rested on his forehead. Five minutes so, and
he lifted his head and glanced around him apathetically. "Gee-man- ee,
I've got a headache!" he muttered, dropping his forehead into his spread
Cash hesitated, derision hiding in the back of his eyes. Then he
pushed the dented coffeepot forward on the stove.
"Try a cup of coffee straight," he said unemotionally, "and then lay
down. You'll sleep it off in a few hours."
Bud did not look up, or make any move to show that he heard. But
presently he rose and went heavily over to his bunk. "I don't want any
darn coffee," he growled, and sprawled himself stomach down on the bed,
with his face turned from the light.
Cash eyed him coldly, with the corner of his upper lip lifted a
little. Whatever weaknesses he possessed, drinking and gambling had no
place in the list. Nor had he any patience with those faults in others.
Had Bud walked down drunk to Cash's camp, that evening when they first
met, he might have received a little food doled out to him grudgingly,
but he assuredly would not have slept in Cash's bed that night. That he
tolerated drunkenness in Bud now would have been rather surprising to any
one who knew Cash well. Perhaps he had a vague understanding of the deeps
through which Bud was struggling, and so was constrained to hide his
disapproval, hoping that the moral let-down was merely a temporary
He finished his strictly utilitarian household labor and went off up
the flat to the sluice boxes. Bud had not moved from his first position
on the bed, but he did not breathe like a sleeping man. Not at first;
after an hour or so he did sleep, heavily and with queer, muddled dreams
that had no sequence and left only a disturbed sense of discomfort behind
At noon or a little after Cash returned to the cabin, cast a sour look
of contempt at the recumbent Bud, and built a fire in the old cookstove.
He got his dinner, ate it, and washed his dishes with never a word to
Bud, who had wakened and lay with his eyes half open, sluggishly
miserable and staring dully at the rough spruce logs of the wall.
Cash put on his cap, looked at Bud and gave a snort, and went off
again to his work. Bud lay still for awhile longer, staring dully at the
wall. Finally he raised up, swung his feet to the floor, and sat there
staring around the little cabin as though he had never before seen
"Huh! You'd think, the way he highbrows me, that Cash never done wrong
in his life! Tin angel, him--I don't think. Next time, I'll tell a
pinheaded world I'll have to bring home a quart or two, and put on a show
Just what he meant by that remained rather obscure, even to Bud. He
got up, shut his eyes very tight and then opened them wide to clear his
vision, shook himself into his clothes and went over to the stove. Cash
had not left the coffeepot on the stove but had, with malicious
intent--or so Bud believed--put it away on the shelf so that what coffee
remained was stone cold. Bud muttered and threw out the coffee, grounds
and all--a bit of bachelor extravagance which only anger could drive him
to-- and made fresh coffee, and made it strong. He did not want it. He
drank it for the work of physical regeneration it would do for him.
He lay down afterwards, and this time he dropped into a more nearly
normal sleep, which lasted until Cash returned at dusk After that he lay
with his face hidden, awake and thinking. Thinking, for the most part, of
how dull and purposeless life was, and wondering why the world was made,
or the people in it --since nobody was happy, and few even pretended to
be. Did God really make the world, and man, just to play with--for a
pastime? Then why bother about feeling ashamed for anything one did that
was contrary to God's laws?
Why be puffed up with pride for keeping one or two of them
unbroken--like Cash, for instance. Just because Cash never drank or
played cards, what right had he to charge the whole atmosphere of the
cabin with his contempt and his disapproval of Bud, who chose to do
On the other hand, why did he choose a spree as a relief from his
particular bunch of ghosts? Trading one misery for another was all you
could call it. Doing exactly the things that Marie's mother had predicted
he would do, committing the very sins that Marie was always a little
afraid he would commit--there must be some sort of twisted revenge in
that, he thought, but for the life of him he could not quite see any
real, permanent satisfaction in it--especially since Marie and her mother
would never get to hear of it.
For that matter, he was not so sure that they would not get to hear.
He remembered meeting, just on the first edge of his spree, one Joe De
Barr, a cigar salesman whom he had known in San Jose. Joe knew Marie--in
fact, Joe had paid her a little attention before Bud came into her life.
Joe had been in Alpine between trains, taking orders for goods from the
two saloons and the hotel. He had seen Bud drinking. Bud knew perfectly
well how much Joe had seen him drinking, and he knew perfectly well that
Joe was surprised to the point of amazement--and, Bud suspected, secretly
gratified as well. Wherefore Bud had deliberately done what he could do
to stimulate and emphasize both the surprise and the gratification. Why
is it that most human beings feel a sneaking satisfaction in the downfall
of another? Especially another who is, or has been at sometime, a rival
in love or in business?
Bud had no delusions concerning Joe De Barr. If Joe should happen to
meet Marie, he would manage somehow to let her know that Bud was going to
the dogs--on the toboggan--down and out--whatever it suited Joe to
declare him. It made Bud sore now to think of Joe standing so smug and so
well dressed and so immaculate beside the bar, smiling and twisting the
ends of his little brown mustache while he watched Bud make such a
consummate fool of himself. At the time, though, Bud had taken a perverse
delight in making himself appear more soddenly drunken, more boisterous
and reckless than he really was.
Oh, well, what was the odds? Marie couldn't think any worse of him
than she already thought. And whatever she thought, their trails had
parted, and they would never cross again--not if Bud could help it.
Probably Marie would say amen to that. He would like to know how she was
getting along--and the baby, too. Though the baby had never seemed quite
real to Bud, or as if it were a permanent member of the household. It was
a leather- lunged, red-faced, squirming little mite, and in his heart of
hearts Bud had not felt as though it belonged to him at all. He had never
rocked it, for instance, or carried it in his arms. He had been afraid he
might drop it, or squeeze it too hard, or break it somehow with his man's
strength. When he thought of Marie he did not necessarily think of the
baby, though sometimes he did, wondering vaguely how much it had grown,
and if it still hollered for its bottle, all hours of the day and
Coming back to Marie and Joe--it was not at all certain that they
would meet; or that Joe would mention him, even if they did. A wrecked
home is always a touchy subject, so touchy that Joe had never intimated
in his few remarks to Bud that there had ever been a Marie, and Bud,
drunk as he had been, was still not too drunk to held back the question
that clamored to be spoken.
Whether he admitted it to himself or not, the sober Bud Moore who lay
on his bunk nursing a headache and a grouch against the world was ashamed
of the drunken Bud Moore who had paraded his drunkenness before the man
who knew Marie. He did not want Marie to hear what Joe might tell There
was no use, he told himself miserably, in making Marie despise him as
well as hate him. There was a difference. She might think him a brute,
and she might accuse him of failing to be a kind and loving husband; but
she could not, unless Joe told of his spree, say that she had ever heard
of his carousing around. That it would be his own fault if she did hear,
served only to embitter his mood.
He rolled over and glared at Cash, who had cooked his supper and was
sitting down to eat it alone. Cash was looking particularly misanthropic
as he bent his head to meet the upward journey of his coffee cup, and his
eyes, when they lifted involuntarily with Bud's sudden movement. had
still that hard look of bottled-up rancor that had impressed itself upon
Bud earlier in the day.
Neither man spoke, or made any sign of friendly recognition. Bud would
not have talked to any one in his present state of self-disgust, but for
all that Cash's silence rankled. A moment their eyes met and held; then
with shifted glances the souls of them drew apart--farther apart than
they had ever been, even when they quarreled over Pete, down in
When Cash had finished and was filing his pipe, Bud got up and
reheated the coffee, and fried more bacon and potatoes, Cash having
cooked just enough for himself. Cash smoked and gave no heed, and Bud
retorted by eating in silence and in straightway washing his own cup,
plate, knife, and fork and wiping clean the side of the table where he
always sat. He did not look at Cash, but he felt morbidly that Cash was
regarding him with that hateful sneer hidden under his beard. He knew
that it was silly to keep that stony silence, but he kept telling himself
that if Cash wanted to talk, he had a tongue, and it was not tied.
Besides, Cash had registered pretty plainly his intentions and his wishes
when he excluded Bud from his supper.
It was a foolish quarrel, but it was that kind of foolish quarrel
which is very apt to harden into a lasting one.
Domestic wrecks may be a subject taboo in polite conversation, but Joe
De Barr was not excessively polite, and he had, moreover, a very likely
hope that Marie would yet choose to regard him with more favor than she
had shown in the past. He did not chance to see her at once, but as soon
as his work would permit he made it a point to meet her. He went about it
with beautiful directness. He made bold to call her up on "long distance"
from San Francisco, told her that he would be in San Jose that night, and
invited her to a show.
Marie accepted without enthusiasm--and her listlessness was not lost
over forty miles of telephone wire. Enough of it seeped to Joe's ears to
make him twist his mustache quite furiously when he came out of the
telephone booth. If she was still stuck on that fellow Bud, and couldn't
see anybody else, it was high time she was told a few things about him.
It was queer how a nice girl like Marie would hang on to some cheap guy
like Bud Moore. Regular fellows didn't stand any show--unless they played
what cards happened to fall their way. Joe, warned by her indifference,
set himself very seriously to the problem of playing his cards to the
He went into a flower store--disdaining the banked loveliness upon the
corners--and bought Marie a dozen great, heavy-headed chrysanthemums,
whose color he could not name to save his life, so called them pink and
let it go at that. They were not pink, and they were not sweet--Joe held
the bunch well away from his protesting olfactory nerves which were not
educated to tantalizing odors--but they were more expensive than roses,
and he knew that women raved over them. He expected Marie to rave over
them, whether she liked them or not.
Fortified by these, groomed and perfumed and as prosperous looking as
a tobacco salesman with a generous expense account may be, he went to San
Jose on an early evening train that carried a parlor car in which Joe
made himself comfortable. He fooled even the sophisticated porter into
thinking him a millionaire, wherefore he arrived in a glow of
self-esteem, which bred much optimism.
Marie was impressed--at least with his assurance and the
chrysanthemums, over which she was sufficiently enthusiastic to satisfy
even Joe. Since he had driven to the house in a hired automobile, he
presently had the added satisfaction of handing Marie into the tonneau as
though she were a queen entering the royal chariot, and of ordering the
driver to take them out around the golf links, since it was still very
early. Then, settling back with what purported to be a sigh of bliss, he
regarded Marie sitting small and still and listless beside him. The glow
of the chrysanthemums had already faded. Marie, with all the girlish
prettiness she had ever possessed, and with an added charm that was very
elusive and hard to analyze, seemed to have lost all of her old
Joe tried the weather, and the small gossip of the film world, and a
judiciously expurgated sketch of his life since he had last seen her.
Marie answered him whenever his monologue required answer, but she was
unresponsive, uninterested--bored. Joe twisted his mustache, eyed her
aslant and took the plunge.
"I guess joy-ridin' kinda calls up old times, ay?" he began
insidiously. "Maybe I shouldn't have brought you out for a ride; maybe it
brings back painful memories, as the song goes."
"Oh, no," said Marie spiritlessly. "I don't see why it should."
"No? Well, that's good to hear you say so, girlie. I was kinda afraid
maybe trouble had hit you hard. A sensitive, big-hearted little person
like you. But if you've put it all outa your mind, why, that's where
you're dead right. Personally, I was glad to see you saw where you'd made
a mistake, and backed up. That takes grit and brains. Of course, we all
make mistakes--you wasn't to blame--innocent little kid like you--"
"Yes," said Marie, "I guess I made a mistake, all right."
"Sure! But you seen it and backed up. And a good thing you did. Look
what he'd of brought you to by now, if you'd stuck!"
Marie tilted back her head and looked up at the tall row of eucalyptus
trees feathered against the stars. "What?" she asked uninterestedly.
"Well--I don't want to knock, especially a fellow that's on the
toboggan already. But I know a little girl that's aw-fully lucky, and I'm
honest enough to say so."
"Why?" asked Marie obligingly. "Why--in particular?"
"Why in particular?" Joe leaned toward her. "Say, you must of heard
how Bud's going to the dogs. If you haven't, I don't want--"
"No, I hadn't heard," said Marie, looking up at the Big Dipper so that
her profile, dainty and girlish still, was revealed like a cameo to Joe.
"Is he? I love to watch the stars, don't you?"
"I love to watch a star," Joe breathed softly. "So you hadn't heard
how Bud's turned out to be a regular souse? Honest, didn't you know
"No, I didn't know it," said Marie boredly. "Has he?"
"Well, say! You couldn't tell it from the real thing! Believe me, Buds
some pickled bum, these days. I run across him up in the mountains, a
month or so ago. Honest, I was knocked plumb silly--much as I knew about
Bud that you never knew, I never thought he'd turn out quite so--" Joe
paused, with a perfect imitation of distaste for his subject. "Say, this
is great, out here," he murmured, tucking the robe around her with that
tender protectiveness which stops just short of being proprietary.
"Honest, Marie, do you like it?"
"Why, sure, I like it, Joe." Marie smiled at him in the star- light.
"It's great, don't you think? I don't get out very often, any more. I'm
working, you know--and evenings and Sundays baby takes up all my
"You working? Say, that's a darned shame! Don't Bud send you any
"He left some," said Marie frankly. "But I'm keeping that for baby,
when he grows up and needs it. He don't send any."
"Well, say! As long as he's in the State, you can make him dig up. For
the kid's support, anyway. Why don't you get after him?"
Marie looked down over the golf links, as the car swung around the
long curve at the head of the slope. "I don't know where he is," she said
tonelessly. "Where did you see him, Joe?"
Joe's hesitation lasted but long enough for him to give his mustache
end a twist. Marie certainly seemed to be well "over it." There could be
no harm in telling.
"Well, when I saw him he was at Alpine; that's a little burg up in the
edge of the mountains, on the W. P. He didn't look none too prosperous,
at that. But he had money--he was playing poker and that kind of thing.
And he was drunk as a boiled owl, and getting drunker just as fast as he
knew how. Seemed to be kind of a stranger there; at least he didn't throw
in with the bunch like a native would. But that was more than a month
ago, Marie. He might not be there now. I could write up and find out for
Marie settled back against the cushions as though she had already
dismissed the subject from her mind.
"Oh, don't bother about it, Joe. I don't suppose he's got any money,
anyway. Let's forget him."
"You said it, Marie. Stacked up to me like a guy that's got just
enough dough for a good big souse. He ain't hard to forget --is he,
Marie laughed assentingly. And if she did not quite attain her old
bubbling spirits during the evening, at least she sent Joe back to San
Francisco feeling very well satisfied with himself. He must have been
satisfied with himself. He must have been satisfied with his wooing also,
because he strolled into a jewelry store the next morning and priced
several rings which he judged would be perfectly suitable for engagement
rings. He might have gone so far as to buy one, if he had been sure of
the size and of Marie's preference in stones. Since he lacked detailed
information, he decided to wait, but he intimated plainly to the clerk
that he would return in a few days.
It was just as well that he did decide to wait, for when he tried
again to see Marie he failed altogether. Marie had left town. Her mother,
with an acrid tone of resentment, declared that she did not know any more
than the man in the moon where Marie had gone, but that she "suspicioned"
that some fool had told Marie where Bud was, and that Marie had gone
traipsing after him. She had taken the baby along, which was another
piece of foolishness which her mother would never have permitted had she
been at home when Marie left.
Joe did not take the matter seriously, though he was disappointed at
having made a fruitless trip to San Jose. He did not believe that Marie
had done anything more than take a vacation from her mother's
sharp-tongued rule, and for that he could not blame her, after having
listened for fifteen minutes to the lady's monologue upon the subject of
selfish, inconsiderate, ungrateful daughters. Remembering Marie's
attitude toward Bud, he did not believe that she had gone hunting
Yet Marie had done that very thing. True, she had spent a sleepless
night fighting the impulse, and a harassed day trying to make up her mind
whether to write first, or whether to go and trust to the element of
surprise to help plead her cause with Bud; whether to take Lovin Child
with her, or leave him with her mother.
She definitely decided to write Bud a short note and ask him if he
remembered having had a wife and baby, once upon a time, and if he never
wished that he bad them still. She wrote the letter, crying a little over
it along toward the last, as women will. But it sounded cold-blooded and
condemnatory. She wrote another, letting a little of her real self into
the lines. But that sounded sentimental and moving-pictury, and she knew
how Bud hated cheap sentimentalism.
So she tore them both up and put them in the little heating stove, and
lighted a match and set them burning, and watched them until they
withered down to gray ash, and then broke up the ashes and scattered them
amongst the cinders. Marie, you must know, had learned a good many
things, one of which was the unwisdom of whetting the curiosity of a
After that she proceeded to pack a suit case for herself and Lovin
Child, seizing the opportunity while her mother was visiting a friend in
Santa Clara. Once the packing was began, Marie worked with a feverish
intensity of purpose and an eagerness that was amazing, considering her
usual apathy toward everything in her life as she was living it.
Everything but Lovin Child. Him she loved and gloried in. He was like
Bud--so much like him that Marie could not have loved him so much if she
had managed to hate Bud as she tried sometimes to hate him. Lovin Child
was a husky youngster, and he already had the promise of being as tall
and straight-limbed and square- shouldered as his father. Deep in his
eyes there lurked always a twinkle, as though he knew a joke that would
make you laugh-- if only he dared tell it; a quizzical, secretly amused
little twinkle, as exactly like Bud's as it was possible for a two-year-
old twinkle to be. To go with the twinkle, he had a quirky little smile.
And to better the smile, he had the jolliest little chuckle that ever
came through a pair of baby lips.
He came trotting up to the suit case which Marie had spread wide open
on the bed, stood up on his tippy toes, and peered in. The quirky smile
was twitching his lips, and the look he turned toward Marie's back was
full of twinkle. He reached into the suit case, clutched a clean
handkerchief and blew his nose with solemn precision; put the
handkerchief back all crumpled, grabbed a silk stocking and drew it
around his neck, and was straining to reach his little red Brownie cap
when Marie turned and caught him up in her arms.
"No, no, Lovin Child! Baby mustn't. Marie is going to take her lovin'
baby boy to find--" She glanced hastily over her shoulder to make sure
there was no one to hear, buried her face in the baby's fat neck and
whispered the wonder. "--to find hims daddy Bud! Does Lovin Man want to
see hims daddy Bud? I bet he does want! I bet hims daddy Bud will be
glad--Now you sit right still, and Marie will get him a cracker, an' then
he can watch Marie pack him little shirt, and hims little bunny suit, and
hims wooh-wooh, and hims 'tockins--"
It is a pity that Bud could not have seen the two of them in the next
hour, wherein Marie flew to her hopeful task of packing her suit case,
and Lovin Child was quite as busy pulling things out of it, and getting
stepped on, and having to be comforted, and insisting upon having on his
bunny suit, and then howling to go before Marie was ready. Bud would have
learned enough to ease the ache in his heart--enough to humble him and
fill him with an abiding reverence for a love that will live, as Marie's
had lived, on bitterness and regret.
Nearly distracted under the lash of her own eagerness and the fear
that her mother would return too soon and bully her into giving up her
wild plan, Marie, carrying Lovin Child on one arm and lugging the suit
case in the other hand, and half running, managed to catch a street car
and climb aboard all out of breath and with her hat tilted over one ear.
She deposited the baby on the seat beside her, fumbled for a nickel, and
asked the conductor pantingly if she would be in time to catch the four-
five to the city. It maddened her to watch the bored deliberation of the
man as he pulled out his watch and regarded it meditatively.
"You'll catch it--if you're lucky about your transfer," he said, and
rang up her fare and went off to the rear platform, just as if it were
not a matter of life and death at all. Marie could have shaken him for
his indifference; and as for the motorman, she was convinced that he ran
as slow as he dared, just to drive her crazy. But even with these two
inhuman monsters doing their best to make her miss the train, and with
the street car she wanted to transfer to running off and leaving her at
the very last minute, and with Lovin Child suddenly discovering that he
wanted to be carried, and that he emphatically did not want her to carry
the suit case at all, Marie actually reached the depot ahead of the
four-five train. Much disheveled and flushed with nervousness and her
exertions, she dragged Lovin Child up the steps by one arm, found a seat
in the chair car and, a few minutes later, suddenly realized that she was
really on her way to an unknown little town in an unknown part of the
country, in quest of a man who very likely did not want to be found by
Two tears rolled down her cheeks, and were traced to the corners of
her mouth by the fat, investigative finger of Lovin Child before Marie
could find her handkerchief and wipe them away. Was any one in this world
ever so utterly, absolutely miserable? She doubted it. What if she found
Bud--drunk, as Joe had described him? Or, worse than that, what if she
did not find him at all? She tried not to cry, but it seemed as though
she must cry or scream. Fast as she wiped them away, other tears dropped
over her eyelids upon her cheeks, and were given the absorbed attention
of Lovin Child, who tried to catch each one with his finger. To distract
him, she turned him around face to the window.
"See all the--pitty cows," she urged, her lips trembling so much that
they would scarcely form the words. And when Lovin Child flattened a
finger tip against the window and chuckled, and said "Ee? Ee?"--which was
his way of saying see--Marie dropped her face down upon his fuzzy red
"bunny" cap, hugged him close to her, and cried, from sheer, nervous
Bud Moore woke on a certain morning with a distinct and well- defined
grouch against the world as he had found it; a grouch quite different
from the sullen imp of contrariness that had possessed him lately. He did
not know just what had caused the grouch, and he did not care. He did
know, however, that he objected to the look of Cash's overshoes that
stood pigeon-toed beside Cash's bed on the opposite side of the room,
where Bud had not set his foot for three weeks and more. He disliked the
audible yawn with which Cash manifested his return from the deathlike
unconsciousness of sleep. He disliked the look of Cash's rough coat and
sweater and cap, that hung on a nail over Cash's bunk. He disliked the
thought of getting up in the cold--and more, the sure knowledge that
unless he did get up, and that speedily, Cash would be dressed ahead of
him, and starting a fire in the cookstove. Which meant that Cash would be
the first to cook and eat his breakfast, and that the warped ethics of
their dumb quarrel would demand that Bud pretend to be asleep until Cash
had fried his bacon and his hotcakes and had carried them to his end of
the oilcloth-covered table.
When, by certain well-known sounds, Bud was sure that Cash was eating,
he could, without loss of dignity or without suspicion of making any
overtures toward friendliness, get up and dress and cook his own
breakfast, and eat it at his own end of the table. Bud wondered how long
Cash, the old fool, would sulk like that Not that he gave a darn--he just
wondered, is all. For all he cared, Cash could go on forever cooking his
own meals and living on his own side of the shack. Bud certainly would
not interrupt him in acting the fool, and if Cash wanted to keep it up
till spring, Cash was perfectly welcome to do so. It just showed how
ornery a man could be when he was let to go. So far as he was concerned,
he would just as soon as not have that dead line painted down the middle
of the cabin floor.
Nor did its presence there trouble him in the least. Just this
morning, however, the fact of Cash's stubbornness in keeping to his own
side of the line irritated Bud. He wanted to get back at the old hound
somehow--without giving in an inch in the mute deadlock. Furthermore, he
was hungry, and he did not propose to lie there and starve while old Cash
pottered around the stove. He'd tell the world he was going to have his
own breakfast first, and if Cash didn't want to set in on the cooking,
Cash could lie in bed till he was paralyzed, and be darned.
At that moment Cash pushed back the blankets that had been banked to
his ears. Simultaneously, Bud swung his feet to the cold floor with a
thump designed solely to inform Cash that Bud was getting up. Cash turned
over with his back to the room and pulled up the blankets. Bud grinned
maliciously and dressed as deliberately as the cold of the cabin would
let him. To be sure, there was the disadvantage of having to start his
own fire, but that disagreeable task was offset by the pleasure he would
get in messing around as long as he could, cooking his breakfast. He even
thought of frying potatoes and onions after he cooked his bacon. Potatoes
and onions fried together have a lovely tendency to stick to the frying
pan, especially if there is not too much grease, and if they are fried
very slowly. Cash would have to do some washing and scraping, when it
came his turn to cook. Bud knew just about how mad that would make Cash,
and he dwelt upon the prospect relishfully.
Bud never wanted potatoes for his breakfast. Coffee, bacon, and
hotcakes suited him perfectly. But just for meanness, because he felt
mean and he wanted to act mean, he sliced the potatoes and the onions
into the frying pan, and, to make his work artistically complete, he let
them burn and stick to the pan,-- after he had his bacon and hotcakes
fried, of course!
He sat down and began to eat. And presently Cash crawled out into the
warm room filled with the odor of frying onions, and dressed himself with
the detached calm of the chronically sulky individual. Not once did the
manner of either man betray any consciousness of the other's presence.
Unless some detail of the day's work compelled them to speech, not once
for more than three weeks had either seemed conscious of the other.
Cash washed his face and his hands, took the side of bacon, and cut
three slices with the precision of long practice. Bud sopped his last
hotcake in a pool of syrup and watched him from the corner of his eyes,
without turning his head an inch toward Cash. His keenest desire, just
then, was to see Cash when he tackled the frying pan.
But Cash disappointed him there. He took a pie tin off the shelf and
laid his strips of bacon on it, and set it in the oven; which is a very
good way of cooking breakfast bacon, as Bud well knew. Cash then took
down the little square baking pan, greased from the last baking of bread,
and in that he fried his hot cakes. As if that were not sufficiently
exasperating, he gave absolutely no sign of being conscious of the frying
pan any more than he was conscious of Bud. He did not overdo it by
whistling, or even humming a tune--which would have given Bud an excuse
to say something almost as mean as his mood. Abstractedness rode upon
Cash's lined brow. Placid meditation shone forth from his keen old
The bacon came from the oven juicy-crisp and curled at the edges and
delicately browned. The cakes came out of the baking pan brown and thick
and light. Cash sat down at his end of the table, pulled his own can of
sugar and his own cup of sirup and his own square of butter toward him;
poured his coffee, that he had made in a small lard pail, and began to
eat his breakfast exactly as though he was alone in that cabin.
A great resentment filled Bud's soul to bursting, The old hound! Bud
believed now that Cash was capable of leaving that frying pan dirty for
the rest of the day! A man like that would do anything! If it wasn't for
that claim, he'd walk off and forget to come back.
Thinking of that seemed to crystallize into definite purpose what had
been muddling his mind with vague impulses to let his mood find
expression. He would go to Alpine that day. He would hunt up Frank and
see if he couldn't jar him into showing that he had a mind of his own.
Twice since that first unexpected spree, he had spent a good deal of time
and gold dust and consumed a good deal of bad whisky and beer, in testing
the inherent obligingness of Frank. The last attempt had been the cause
of the final break between him and Cash. Cash had reminded Bud harshly
that they would need that gold to develop their quartz claim, and he had
further stated that he wanted no "truck" with a gambler and a drunkard,
and that Bud had better straighten up if he wanted to keep friends with
Bud had retorted that Cash might as well remember that Bud had a half
interest in the two claims, and that he would certainly stay with it.
Meantime, he would tell the world he was his own boss, and Cash needn't
think for a minute that Bud was going to ask permission for what he did
or did not do. Cash needn't have any truck with him, either. It suited
Bud very well to keep on his own side of the cabin, and he'd thank Cash
to mind his own business and not step over the dead line.
Cash had laughed disagreeably and asked Bud what he was going to
do--draw a chalk mark, maybe?
Bud, half drunk and unable to use ordinary good sense, had said yes,
by thunder, he'd draw a chalk line if he wanted to, and if he did, Cash
had better not step over it either, unless he wanted to be kicked
Wherefore the broad, black line down the middle of the floor to where
the table stood. Obviously, he could not well divide the stove and the
teakettle and the frying pan and coffeepot. The line stopped abruptly
with a big blob of lampblack mixed with coal oil, just where necessity
compelled them both to use the same floor space.
The next day Bud had been ashamed of the performance, but his shame
could not override his stubbornness. The black line stared up at him
accusingly. Cash, keeping scrupulously upon his own side of it, went
coldly about his own affairs and never yielded so much as a glance at
Bud. And Bud grew more moody and dissatisfied with himself, but he would
not yield, either. Perversely he waited for Cash to apologize for what he
had said about gamblers and drunkards, and tried to believe that upon
Cash rested all of the blame.
Now he washed his own breakfast dishes, including the frying pan,
spread the blankets smooth on his bunk, swept as much of the floor as lay
upon his side of the dead line. Because the wind was in the storm quarter
and the lowering clouds promised more snow, he carried in three big
armfuls of wood and placed them upon his corner of the fireplace, to
provide warmth when he returned. Cash would not touch that wood while Bud
was gone, and Bud knew it. Cash would freeze first. But there was small
chance of that, because a small, silent rivalry had grown from the
quarrel; a rivalry to see which kept the best supply of wood, which swept
cleanest under his bunk and up to the black line, which washed his dishes
cleanest, and kept his shelf in the cupboard the tidiest. Before the
fireplace in an evening Cash would put on wood, and when next it was
needed, Bud would get up and put on wood. Neither would stoop to stinting
or to shirking, neither would give the other an inch of ground for
complaint. It was not enlivening to live together that way, but it worked
well toward keeping the cabin ship shape.
So Bud, knowing that it was going to storm, and perhaps dreading a
little the long monotony of being housed with a man as stubborn as
himself, buttoned a coat over his gray, roughneck sweater, pulled a pair
of mail-order mittens over his mail-order gloves, stamped his feet into
heavy, three-buckled overshoes, and set out to tramp fifteen miles
through the snow, seeking the kind of pleasure which turns to pain with
He knew that Cash, out by the woodpile, let the axe blade linger in
the cut while he stared after him. He knew that Cash would be lonesome
without him, whether Cash ever admitted it or not. He knew that Cash
would be passively anxious until he returned--for the months they had
spent together had linked them closer than either would confess. Like a
married couple who bicker and nag continually when together, but are
miserable when apart, close association had become a deeply grooved habit
not easily thrust aside. Cabin fever might grip them and impel them to
absurdities such as the dead line down the middle of their floor and the
silence that neither desired but both were too stubborn to break; but it
could not break the habit of being together. So Bud was perfectly aware
of the fact that he would be missed, and he was ill-humored enough to be
glad of it. Frank, if he met Bud that day, was likely to have his
amiability tested to its limit.
Bud tramped along through the snow, wishing it was not so deep, or
else deep enough to make snow-shoeing practicable in the timber; thinking
too of Cash and how he hoped Cash would get his fill of silence, and of
Frank, and wondering where ho would find him. He had covered perhaps two
miles of the fifteen, and had walked off a little of his grouch, and had
stopped to unbutton his coat, when he heard the crunching of feet in the
snow, just beyond a thick clump of young spruce.
Bud was not particularly cautious, nor was he averse to meeting people
in the trail. He stood still though, and waited to see who was coming
that way--since travelers on that trail were few enough to be
In a minute more a fat old squaw rounded the spruce grove and shied
off startled when she glimpsed Bud. Bud grunted and started on, and the
squaw stepped clear of the faintly defined trail to let him pass.
Moreover, she swung her shapeless body around so that she half faced him
as he passed. Bud's lips tightened, and he gave her only a glance. He
hated fat old squaws that were dirty and wore their hair straggling down
over their crafty, black eyes. They burlesqued womanhood in a way that
stirred always a smoldering resentment against them. This particular
squaw had nothing to commend her to his notice. She had a dirty red
bandanna tied over her dirty, matted hair and under her grimy double
chin. A grimy gray blanket was draped closely over her squat shoulders
and formed a pouch behind, wherein the plump form of a papoose was
cradled, a little red cap pulled down over its ears.
Bud strode on, his nose lifted at the odor of stale smoke that
pervaded the air as he passed. The squaw, giving him a furtive stare,
turned and started on, bent under her burden.
Then quite suddenly a wholly unexpected sound pursued Bud and halted
him in the trail; the high, insistent howl of a child that has been
denied its dearest desire of the moment. Bud looked back inquiringly. The
squaw was hurrying on, and but for the straightness of the trail just
there, her fat old canvas-wrapped legs would have carried her speedily
out of sight. Of course, papooses did yell once in awhile, Bud supposed,
though he did not remember ever hearing one howl like that on the trail.
But what made the squaw in such a deuce of a hurry all at once?
Bud's theory of her kind was simple enough: If they fled from you, it
was because they had stolen something and were afraid you would catch
them at it. He swung around forthwith in the trail and went after
her--whereat she waddled faster through the snow like a frightened
"Hey! You come back here a minute! What's all the rush?" Bud's voice
and his long legs pursued, and presently he overtook her and halted her
by the simple expedient of grasping her shoulder firmly. The high-keyed
howling ceased as suddenly as it had begun, and Bud, peering under the
rolled edge of the red stocking cap, felt his jaw go slack with
The baby was smiling at him delightedly, with a quirk of the lips and
a twinkle lodged deep somewhere in its eyes. It worked one hand free of
its odorous wrappings, spread four fat fingers wide apart over one eye,
and chirped, "Pik-k?" and chuckled infectiously deep in its throat.
Bud gulped and stared and felt a warm rush of blood from his heart up
into his head. A white baby, with eyes that laughed, and quirky red lips
that laughed with the eyes, and a chuckling voice like that, riding on
the back of that old squaw, struck him dumb with astonishment.
"Good glory!" he blurted, as though the words had been jolted from him
by the shock. Where-upon the baby reached out its hand to him and said
haltingly, as though its lips had not yet grown really familiar with the
The squaw tried to jerk away, and Bud gave her a jerk to let her know
who was boss. "Say, where'd you git that kid?" he demanded
She moved her wrapped feet uneasily in the snow, flickered a filmy,
black eyed glance at Bud's uncompromising face, and waved a dirty paw
vaguely in a wide sweep that would have kept a compass needle revolving
if it tried to follow and was not calculated to be particularly
"Lo-ong ways," she crooned, and her voice was the first attractive
thing Bud had discovered about her. It was pure melody, soft and pensive
as the cooing of a wood dove.
"Who belongs to it?" Bud was plainly suspicious. The shake of the
squaw's bandannaed head was more artfully vague than her gesture. "Don'
know--modder die--fadder die--ketchum long ways--off."
"Well, what's its name?" Bud's voice harshened with his growing
interest and bewilderment. The baby was again covering one twinkling eye
with its spread, pink palm, and was saying "Pik-k?" and laughing with the
funniest little squint to its nose that Bud had ever seen. It was so
absolutely demoralizing that to relieve himself Bud gave the squaw a
shake. This tickled the baby so much that the chuckle burst into a
rollicking laugh, with a catch of the breath after each crescendo tone
that made it absolutely individual and like none other--save one.
"What's his name?" Bud bullied the squaw, though his eyes were on the
"Don't know Ä"
"Take--Uvin--Chal," the baby demanded imperiously.
"Uvin Chal? Now what'd yuh mean by that, oletimer?" Bud obeyed an
overpowering impulse to reach out and touch the baby's cheek with a
mittened thumb. The baby responded instantly by again demanding that Bud
"Pik-k?" said Bud, a mitten over one eye.
"Pik-k?" said the baby, spreading his fat hand again and twinkling at
Bud between his fingers. But immediately afterwards it gave a little,
piteous whimper. "Take--Uvin Chal!" it beseeched Bud with voice and
starlike blue eyes together. "Take!"
There was that in the baby's tone, in the unbaby-like insistence of
its bright eyes, which compelled obedience. Bud had never taken a baby of
that age in his arms. He was always in fear of dropping it, or crushing
it with his man's strength, or something. He liked them--at a safe
distance. He would chuck one under the chin, or feel diffidently the soft
little cheek, but a closer familiarity scared him. Yet when this baby
wriggled its other arm loose and demanded him to take, Bud reached out
and grasped its plump little red-sweatered body firmly under the armpits
and drew it forth, squirming with eagerness.
"Well, I'll tell the world I don't blame yuh for wanting to git outa
that hog's nest," said Bud, answering the baby's gleeful chuckle.
Freed from his detaining grip on her shoulder, the squaw ducked
unexpectedly and scuttled away down the trail as fast as her old legs
would carry her; which was surprisingly speedy for one of her bulk. Bud
had opened his mouth to ask her again where she had gotten that baby. He
left it open while he stared after her astonished until the baby put up a
hand over one of Bud's eyes and said "Pik-k?" with that distracting
little quirk at the corners of its lips.
"You son of a gun!" grinned Bud, in the tone that turned the epithet
in to a caress. "You dog gone little devil, you! Pik-k! then, if that's
what you want."
The squaw had disappeared into the thick under growth, leaving a track
like a hippo in the snow. Bud could have overtaken her, of course, and he
could have made her take the baby back again. But he could not face the
thought of it. He made no move at all toward pursuit, but instead he
turned his face toward Alpine, with some vague intention of turning the
baby over to the hotel woman there and getting the authorities to hunt up
its parents. It was plain enough that the squaw had no right to it, else
she would not have run off like that.
Bud walked at least a rod toward Alpine before he swung short around
in his tracks and started the other way. "No, I'll be doggoned if I
will!" he said. "You can't tell about women, no time. She might spank the
kid, or something. Or maybe she wouldn't feed it enough. Anyway, it's too
cold, and it's going to storm pretty pronto. Hey! Yuh cold.
The baby whimpered a little and snuggled its face down against Bud's
chest. So Bud lifted his foot and scraped some snow off a nearby log, and
set the baby down there while he took off his coat and wrapped it around
him, buttoning it like a bag over arms and all. The baby watched him
knowingly, its eyes round and dark blue and shining, and gave a contented
little wriggle when Bud picked it up again in his arms.
"Now you're all right till we get to where it's warm," Bud assured it
gravely. "And we'll do some steppin', believe me. I guess maybe you ain't
any more crazy over that Injun smell on yuh, than what I am--and that
ain't any at all." He walked a few steps farther before he added grimly,
"It'll be some jolt for Cash, doggone his skin. He'll about bust, I
reckon. But we don't give a darn. Let him bust if he wants to--half the
cabin's mine, anyway."
So, talking a few of his thoughts aloud to the baby, that presently
went to sleep with its face against his shoulder, Bud tramped steadily
through the snow, carrying Lovin Child in his arms. No remote glimmer of
the wonderful thing Fate had done for him seeped into his consciousness,
but there was a new, warm glow in his heart--the warmth that came from a
child's unquestioning faith in his protecting tenderness.
It happened that Cash was just returning to the cabin from the Blind
Ledge claim. He met Bud almost at the doorstep, just as Bud was fumbling
with the latch, trying to open the door without moving Lovin Child in his
arms. Cash may or may not have been astonished. Certainly he did not
betray by more than one quick glance that he was interested in Bud's
return or in the mysterious burden he bore. He stepped ahead of Bud and
opened the door without a word, as if he always did it just in that way,
and went inside.
Bud followed him in silence, stepped across the black line to his own
side of the room and laid Lovin Child carefully down so as not to waken
him. He unbuttoned the coat he had wrapped around him, pulled off the
concealing red cap and stared down at the pale gold, silky hair and the
adorable curve of the soft cheek and the lips with the dimples tricked in
at the corners; the lashes lying like the delicate strokes of an artist's
pencil under the closed eyes. For at least five minutes he stood without
moving, his whole face softened into a boyish wistfulness. By the stove
Cash stood and stared from Bud to the sleeping baby, his bushy eyebrows
lifted, his gray eyes a study of incredulous bewilderment.
Then Bud drew a long breath and seemed about to move away from the
bank, and Cash turned abruptly to the stove and lifted a rusty lid and
peered into the cold firebox, frowning as though he was expecting to see
fire and warmth where only a sprinkle of warm ashes remained.
Stubbornness held him mute and outwardly indifferent. He whittled
shavings and started a fire in the cook stove, filled the teakettle and
set it on to boil, got out the side of bacon and cut three slices, and
never once looked toward the bunk. Bud might have brought home a winged
angel, or a rainbow, or a casket of jewels, and Cash would not have
permitted himself to show any human interest.
But when Bud went teetering from the cabin on his toes to bring in
some pine cones they had saved for quick kindling, Cash craned his neck
toward the little bundle on the bunk. He saw a fat, warm little hand stir
with some baby dream. He listened and heard soft breathing that stopped
just short of being an infantile snore. He made an errand to his own bunk
and from there inspected the mystery at closer range. He saw a nose and a
little, knobby chin and a bit of pinkish forehead with the pale yellow of
hair above. He leaned and cocked his head to one aide to see more--but at
that moment he heard Bud stamping off the snow from his feet on the
doorstep, and he took two long, noiseless strides to the dish cupboard
and was fumbling there with his back to the bunk when Bud came tiptoeing
Bud started a fire in the fireplace and heaped the dry limbs high.
Cash fried his bacon, made his tea, and set the table for his midday
meal. Bud waited for the baby to wake, looking at his watch every minute
or two, and making frequent cautious trips to the bunk, peeking and
peering to see if the child was all right. It seemed unnatural that it
should sleep so long in the daytime. No telling what that squaw had done
to it; she might have doped it or something. He thought the kid's face
looked red, as if it had fever, and he reached down and touched anxiously
the hand that was uncovered. The hand was warm--too warm, in Bud's
opinion. It would be just his luck if the kid got sick, he'd have to pack
it clear in to Alpine in his arms. Fifteen miles of that did not appeal
to Bud, whose arms ached after the two-mile trip with that solid little
body lying at ease in the cradle they made.
His back to that end of the room, Cash sat stiff-necked and stubbornly
speechless, and ate and drank as though he were alone in the cabin.
Whenever Bud's mind left Lovin Child long enough to think about it, he
watched Cash furtively for some sign of yielding, some softening of that
grim grudge. It seemed to him as though Cash was not human, or he would
show some signs of life when a live baby was brought to camp and laid
down right under his nose.
Cash finished and began washing his dishes, keeping his back turned
toward Bud and Bud's new possession, and trying to make it appear that he
did so unconsciously. He did not fool Bud for a minute. Bud knew that
Cash was nearly bursting with curiosity, and he had occasional fleeting
impulses to provoke Cash to speech of some sort. Perhaps Cash knew what
was in Bud's mind. At any rate he left the cabin and went out and chopped
wood for an hour, furiously raining chips into the snow.
When he went in with his arms piled full of cut wood, Bud had the baby
sitting on one corner of the table, and was feeding it bread and gravy as
the nearest approach to baby food he could think of. During occasional
interludes in the steady procession of bits of bread from the plate to
the baby's mouth, Lovin Child would suck a bacon rind which he held
firmly grasped in a greasy little fist. Now and then Bud would reach into
his hip pocket, pull out his handkerchief as a make-shift napkin, and
would carefully wipe the border of gravy from the baby's mouth, and stuff
the handkerchief back into his pocket again.
Both seemed abominably happy and self-satisfied. Lovin Child kicked
his heels against the rough table frame and gurgled unintelligible
conversation whenever he was able to articulate sounds. Bud replied with
a rambling monologue that implied a perfect understanding of Lovin
Child's talk--and incidentally doled out information for Cash's
Cash cocked an eye at the two as he went by, threw the wood down on
his side of the hearth, and began to replenish the fire. If he heard, he
gave no sign of understanding or interest.
"I'll bet that old squaw musta half starved yah," Bud addressed the
baby while he spooned gravy out of a white enamel bowl on to the second
slice of bread. "You're putting away grub like a nigger at a barbecue.
I'll tell the world I don't know what woulda happened if I hadn't run
across yuh and made her hand yuh over."
"Ja--ja--ja--jah!" said Lovin Child, nodding his head and regarding
Bud with the twinkle in his eyes.
"And that's where you're dead right, Boy. I sure do wish you'd tell me
your name; but I reckon that's too much to ask of a little geezer like
you. Here. Help yourself, kid--you ain't in no Injun camp now. You're
with white folks now."
Cash sat down on the bench he had made for himself, and stared into
the fire. His whole attitude spelled abstraction; nevertheless he missed
no little sound behind him.
He knew that Bud was talking largely for his benefit, and he knew that
here was the psychological time for breaking the spell of silence between
them. Yet he let the minutes slip past and would not yield. The quarrel
had been of Bud's making in the first place. Let Bud do the yielding,
make the first step toward amity.
But Bud had other things to occupy him just then. Having eaten all his
small stomach would hold, Lovin Child wanted to get down and explore. Bud
had other ideas, but they did not seem to count for much with Lovin
Child, who had an insistent way that was scarcely to be combated or
"But listen here, Boy!" Bud protested, after he had for the third time
prevented Lovin Child from backing off the table. "I was going to take
off these dirty duds and wash some of the Injun smell off yuh. I'll tell
a waiting world you need a bath, and your clothes washed."
"Ugh, ugh, ugh," persisted Lovin Child, and pointed to the floor.
So Bud sighed and made a virtue of defeat. "Oh, well, they say it's
bad policy to take a bath right after yuh eat. We'll let it ride awhile,
but you sure have got to be scrubbed a plenty before you can crawl in
with me, old-timer," he said, and set him down on the floor.
Lovin Child went immediately about the business that seemed most
important. He got down on his hands and knees and gravely inspected the
broad black line, hopefully testing it with tongue and with fingers to
see if it would yield him anything in the way of flavor or stickiness. It
did not. It had been there long enough to be thoroughly dry and
tasteless. He got up, planted both feet on it and teetered back and
forth, chuckling up at Bud with his eyes squinted.
He teetered so enthusiastically that he sat down unexpectedly and with
much emphasis. That put him between two impulses, and while they battled
he stared round-eyed at Bud. But he decided not to cry, and straightway
turned himself into a growly bear and went down the line on all fours
toward Cash, growling "Ooooooo!" as fearsomely as his baby throat was
capable of growling.
But Cash would not be scared. He refused absolutely to jump up and
back off in wild-eyed terror, crying out "Ooh! Here comes a bear!" the
way Marie had always done--the way every one had always done, when Lovin
Child got down and came at them growling. Cash sat rigid with his face to
the fire, and would not look.
Lovin Child crawled all around him and growled his terriblest. For
some unexplainable reason it did not work. Cash sat stiff as though he
had turned to some insensate metal. From where he sat watching--curious
to see what Cash would do--Bud saw him flinch and stiffen as a man does
under pain. And because Bud had a sore spot in his own heart, Bud felt a
quick stab of understanding and sympathy. Cash Markham's past could not
have been a blank; more likely it held too much of sorrow for the salve
of speech to lighten its hurt. There might have been a child.... "Aw,
come back here!" Bud commanded Lovin Child gruffly.
But Lovin Child was too busy. He had discovered in his circling of
Cash, the fanny buckles on Cash's high overshoes. He was investigating
them as he had investigated the line, with fingers and with pink tongue,
like a puppy. From the lowest buckle he went on to the top one, where
Cash's khaki trousers were tucked inside with a deep fold on top. Lovin
Child's small forefinger went sliding up in the mysterious recesses of
the fold until they reached the flat surface of the knee. He looked up
farther, studying Cash's set face, sitting back on his little heels while
he did so. Cash tried to keep on staring into the fire, but in spite of
himself his eyes lowered to meet the upward look.
"Pik-k?" chirped Lovin Child, spreading his fingers over one eye and
twinkling up at Cash with the other.
Cash flinched again, wavered, swallowed twice, and got up so abruptly
that Lovin Child sat down again with a plunk. Cash muttered something in
his throat and rushed out into the wind and the slow-falling tiny white
flakes that presaged the storm.
Until the door slammed shut Lovin Child looked after him, scowling,
his eyes a blaze of resentment. He brought his palms together with a
vicious slap, leaned over, and bumped his forehead deliberately and
painfully upon the flat rock hearth, and set up a howl that could have
been heard for three city blocks.
That night, when he had been given a bath in the little zinc tub they
used for washing clothes, and had been carefully buttoned inside a clean
undershirt of Bud's, for want of better raiment, Lovin Child missed
something out of his sleepytime cudding. He wanted Marie, and he did not
know how to make his want known to this big, tender, awkward man who had
befriended him and filled his thoughts till bedtime. He began to whimper
and look seekingly around the little cabin. The whimper grew to a cry
which Bud's rude rocking back and forth on the box before the fireplace
could not still.
"M'ee--take!" wailed Lovin Child, sitting up and listening. "M'ee
"Aw, now, you don't wanta go and act like that. Listen here, Boy. You
lay down here and go to sleep. You can search me for what it is you're
trying to say, but I guess you want your mama, maybe, or your bottle,
chances are. Aw, looky!" Bud pulled his watch from his pocket--a man's
infallible remedy for the weeping of infant charges--and dangled it
anxiously before Lovin Child.
With some difficulty he extracted the small hands from the long limp
tunnels of sleeves, and placed the watch in the eager fingers.
"Listen to the tick-tick! Aw, I wouldn't bite into it... oh, well,
darn it, if nothing else'll do yuh, why, eat it up!"
Lovin Child stopped crying and condescended to take a languid interest
in the watch--which had a picture of Marie pasted inside the back of the
case, by the way. "Ee?" he inquired, with a pitiful little catch in his
breath, and held it up for Bud to see the busy little second hand. "Ee?"
he smiled tearily and tried to show Cash, sitting aloof on his bench
beside the head of his bunk and staring into the fire. But Cash gave no
sign that he heard or saw anything save the visions his memory was
conjuring in the dancing flames.
"Lay down, now, like a good boy, and go to sleep," Bud wheedled. "You
can hold it if you want to--only don't drop it on the floor--here! Quit
kickin' your feet out like that! You wanta freeze? I'll tell the world
straight, it's plumb cold and snaky outside to-night, and you're pretty
darn lucky to be here instead of in some Injun camp where you'd have to
bed down with a mess of mangy dogs, most likely. Come on, now--lay down
like a good boy!"
"M'ee! M'ee take!" teased Lovin Child, and wept again; steadily,
insistently, with a monotonous vigor that rasped Bud's nerves and nagged
him with a vague memory of something familiar and unpleasant. He rocked
his body backward and forward, and frowned while he tried to lay hold of
the memory. It was the high-keyed wailing of this same man-child wanting
his bottle, but it eluded Bud completely. There was a tantalizing sense
of familiarity with the sound, but the lungs and the vocal chords of
Lovin Child had developed amazingly in two years, and he had lost the
Bud did not remember, bat for all that his thoughts went back across
those two years and clung to his own baby, and he wished poignantly that
he knew how it was getting along; and wondered if it had grown to be as
big a handful as this youngster, and how Marie would handle the emergency
he was struggling with now: a lost, lonesome baby boy that would not go
to sleep and could not tell why.
Yet Lovin Child was answering every one of Bud's mute questions. Lying
there in his "Daddy Bud's" arms, wrapped comically in his Daddy Bud's
softest undershirt, Lovin Child was proving to his Daddy Bud that his own
man-child was strong and beautiful and had a keen little brain behind
those twinkling blue eyes. He was telling why he cried. He wanted Marie
to take him and rock him to sleep, just as she had rocked him to sleep
every night of his young memory, until that time when he had toddled out
of her life and into a new and peculiar world that held no Marie.
By and by he slept, still clinging to the watch that had Marie's
picture in the back. When he was all limp and rosy and breathing softly
against Bud's heart, Bud tiptoed over to the bunk, reached down
inconveniently with one hand and turned back the blankets, and laid Lovin
Child in his bed and covered him carefully. On his bench beyond the dead
line Cash sat leaning forward with his elbows on his knees, and sucked at
a pipe gone cold, and stared abstractedly into the fire.
Bud looked at him sitting there. For the first time since their trails
had joined, he wondered what Cash was thinking about; wondered with a new
kind of sympathy about Cash's lonely life, that held no ties, no warmth
of love. For the first time it struck him as significant that in the two
years, almost, of their constant companionship, Cash's reminiscences had
stopped abruptly about fifteen years back. Beyond that he never went,
save now and then when he jumped a space, to the time when he was a boy.
Of what dark years lay between, Bud had never been permitted a
"Some kid--that kid," Bud observed involuntarily, for the first time
in over three weeks speaking when he was not compelled to speak to Cash.
"I wish I knew where he came from. He wants his mother."
Cash stirred a little, like a sleeper only half awakened. But he did
not reply, and Bud gave an impatient snort, tiptoed over and picked up
the discarded clothes of Lovin Child, that held still a faint odor of
wood smoke and rancid grease, and, removing his shoes that he might move
silently, went to work
He washed Lovin Child's clothes, even to the red sweater suit and the
fuzzy red "bunny" cap. He rigged a line before the fireplace--on his side
of the dead line, to be sure--hung the little garments upon it and sat up
to watch the fire while they dried.
While he rubbed and rinsed and wrung and hung to dry, he had planned
the details of taking the baby to Alpine and placing it in good hands
there until its parents could be found. It was stolen, he had no doubt at
all. He could picture quite plainly the agony of the parents, and common
humanity imposed upon him the duty of shortening their misery as much as
possible. But one day of the baby's presence he had taken, with the
excuse that it needed immediate warmth and wholesome food. His conscience
did not trouble him over that short delay, for he was honest enough in
his intentions and convinced that he had done the right thing.
Cash had long ago undressed and gone to bed, turning his back to the
warm, fire-lighted room and pulling the blankets up to his ears. He
either slept or pretended to sleep, Bud did not know which. Of the baby's
healthy slumber there was no doubt at all. Bud put on his overshoes and
went outside after more wood, so that there would be no delay in starting
the fire in the morning and having the cabin warm before the baby
It was snowing fiercely, and the wind was biting cold. Already the
woodpile was drifted under, so that Bud had to go back and light the
lantern and hang it on a nail in the cabin wall before he could make any
headway at shovelling off the heaped snow and getting at the wood
beneath. He worked hard for half an hour, and carried in all the wood
that had been cut. He even piled Cash's end of the hearth high with the
surplus, after his own side was heaped full.
A storm like that meant that plenty of fuel would be needed to keep
the cabin snug and warm, and he was thinking of the baby's comfort now,
and would not be hampered by any grudge.
When he had done everything he could do that would add to the baby's
comfort, he folded the little garments and laid them on a box ready for
morning. Then, moving carefully, he crawled into the bed made warm by the
little body. Lovin Child, half wakened by the movement, gave a little
throaty chuckle, murmured "M'ee," and threw one fat arm over Bud's neck
and left it there.
"Gawd," Bud whispered in a swift passion of longing, "I wish you was
my own kid!" He snuggled Lovin Child close in his arms and held him
there, and stared dim-eyed at the flickering shadows on the wall. What he
thought, what visions filled his vigil, who can say?
Three days it stormed with never a break, stormed so that the men
dreaded the carrying of water from the spring that became ice-rimmed but
never froze over; that clogged with sodden masses of snow half melted and
sent faint wisps of steam up into the chill air. Cutting wood was an
ordeal, every armload an achievement. Cash did not even attempt to visit
his trap line, but sat before the fire smoking or staring into the
flames, or pottered about the little domestic duties that could not half
fill the days.
With melted snow water, a bar of yellow soap, and one leg of an old
pair of drawers, he scrubbed on his knees the floor on his side of the
dead line, and tried not to notice Lovin Child. He failed only because
Lovin Child refused to be ignored, but insisted upon occupying the
immediate foreground and in helping --much as he had helped Marie pack
her suit case one fateful afternoon not so long before.
When Lovin Child was not permitted to dabble in the pan of soapy
water, he revenged himself by bringing Cash's mitten and throwing that
in, and crying "Ee? Ee?" with a shameless delight because it sailed round
and round until Cash turned and saw it, and threw it out.
"No, no, no!" Lovin Child admonished himself gravely, and got it and
threw it back again.
Cash did not say anything. Indeed, he hid a grin under his thick,
curling beard which he had grown since the first frost as a protection
against cold. He picked up the mitten and laid it to dry on the slab
mantel, and when he returned, Lovin Child was sitting in the pan, rocking
back and forth and crooning "'Ock-a- by! 'Ock-a-by!" with the impish
twinkle in his eyes.
Cash was just picking him out of the pan when Bud came in with a load
of wood. Bud hastily dropped the wood, and without a word Cash handed
Lovin Child across the dead line, much as he would have handed over a wet
puppy. Without a word Bud took him, but the quirky smile hid at the
corners of his mouth, and under Cash's beard still lurked the grin.
"No, no, no!" Lovin Child kept repeating smugly, all the while Bud was
stripping off his wet clothes and chucking him into the undershirt he
wore for a nightgown, and trying a man's size pair of socks on his
"I should say no-no-no! You doggone little rascal, I'd rather herd a
flea on a hot plate! I've a plumb good notion to hog-tie yuh for awhile.
Can't trust yuh a minute nowhere. Now look what you got to wear while
your clothes dry!"
"Ee? Ee?" invited Lovin Child, gleefully holding up a muffled little
foot lost in the depths of Bud's sock.
"Oh, I see, all right! I'll tell the world I see you're a doggone
nuisance! Now see if you can keep outa mischief till I get the wood
carried in." Bud set him down on the bunk, gave him a mail-order
catalogue to look at, and went out again into the storm. When he came
back, Lovin Child was sitting on the hearth with the socks off, and was
picking bits of charcoal from the ashes and crunching them like candy in
his small, white teeth. Cash was hurrying to finish his scrubbing before
the charcoal gave out, and was keeping an eye on the crunching to see
that Lovin Child did not get a hot ember.
"H'yah! You young imp!" Bud shouted, stubbing his toe as he hurried
forward. "Watcha think you are--a fire-eater, for gosh sake?"
Cash bent his head low--it may have been to hide a chuckle. Bud was
having his hands full with the kid, and he was trying to be stern against
the handicap of a growing worship of Lovin Child and all his little ways.
Now Lovin Child was all over ashes, and the clean undershirt was clean no
longer, after having much charcoal rubbed into its texture. Bud was not
overstocked with clothes; much traveling had formed the habit of buying
as he needed for immediate use. With Lovin Child held firmly under one
arm, where he would he sure of him, he emptied his "war-bag" on the bunk
and hunted out another shirt
Lovin Child got a bath, that time, because of the ashes he had managed
to gather on his feet and his hands and his head. Bud was patient, and
Lovin Child was delightedly unrepentant--until he was buttoned into
another shirt of Bud's, and the socks were tied on him.
"Now, doggone yuh, I'm goin' to stake you out, or hobble yuh, or some
darn thing, till I get that wood in!" he thundered, with his eyes
laughing. "You want to freeze? Hey? Now you're goin' to stay right on
this bunk till I get through, because I'm goin' to tie yuh on. You may
holler--but you little son of a gun, you'll stay safe!"
So Bud tied him, with a necktie around his body for a belt, and a
strap fastened to that and to a stout nail in the wall over the bunk. And
Lovin Child, when he discovered that it was not a new game but instead a
check upon his activities, threw himself on his back and held his breath
until he was purple, and then screeched with rage.
I don't suppose Bud ever carried in wood so fast in his life. He might
as well have taken his time, for Lovin Child was in one of his fits of
temper, the kind that his grandmother invariably called his father's
cussedness coming out in him. He howled for an hour and had both men
nearly frantic before he suddenly stopped and began to play with the
things he had scorned before to touch; the things that had made him bow
his back and scream when they were offered to him hopefully.
Bud, his sleeves rolled up, his hair rumpled and the perspiration
standing thick on his forehead, stood over him with his hands on his
hips, the picture of perturbed helplessness.
"You doggone little devil!" he breathed, his mind torn between
amusement and exasperation. "If you was my own kid, I'd spank yuh! But,"
he added with a little chuckle, "if you was my own kid, I'd tell the
world you come by that temper honestly. Darned if I wouldn't"
Cash, sitting dejected on the side of his own bunk, lifted his head,
and after that his hawklike brows, and stared from the face of Bud to the
face of Lovin Child. For the first time he was struck with the
resemblance between the two. The twinkle in the eyes, the quirk of the
lips, the shape of the forehead and, emphasizing them all, the expression
of having a secret joke, struck him with a kind of shock. If it were
possible... But, even in the delirium of fever, Bud had never hinted that
he had a child, or a wife even. He had firmly planted in Cash's mind the
impression that his life had never held any close ties whatsoever. So,
lacking the clue, Cash only wondered and did not suspect.
What most troubled Cash was the fact that he had unwittingly caused
all the trouble for Lovin Child. He should not have tried to scrub the
floor with the kid running loose all over the place. As a slight token of
his responsibility in the matter, he watched his chance when Bud was busy
at the old cookstove, and tossed a rabbit fur across to Lovin Child to
play with; a risky thing to do, since he did not know what were Lovin
Child's little peculiarities in the way of receiving strange gifts. But
he was lucky. Lovin Child was enraptured with the soft fur and rubbed it
over his baby cheeks and cooed to it and kissed it, and said "Ee? Ee?" to
Cash, which was reward enough.
There was a strained moment when Bud came over and discovered what it
was he was having so much fun with. Having had three days of experience
by which to judge, he jumped to the conclusion that Lovin Child had been
in mischief again.
"Now what yuh up to, you little scallywag? " he demanded. "How did you
get hold of that? Consarn your little hide, Boy..."
"Let the kid have it," Cash muttered gruffly. "I gave it to him." He
got up abruptly and went outside, and came in with wood for the
cookstove, and became exceedingly busy, never once looking toward the
other end of the room, where Bud was sprawled upon his back on the bunk,
with Lovin Child astride his middle, having a high old time with a
wonderful new game of "bronk riding."
Now and then Bud would stop bucking long enough to slap Lovin Child in
the face with the soft side of the rabbit fur, and Lovin Child would
squint his eyes and wrinkle his nose and laugh until he seemed likely to
choke. Then Bud would cry, "Ride 'im, Boy! Ride 'im an' scratch 'im. Go
get 'im, cowboy--he's your meat!" and would bounce Lovin Child till he
squealed with glee.
Cash tried to ignore all that. Tried to keep his back to it. But he
was human, and Bud was changed so completely in the last three days that
Cash could scarcely credit his eyes and his ears. The old surly scowl was
gone from Bud's face, his eyes held again the twinkle. Cash listened to
the whoops, the baby laughter, the old, rodeo catch-phrases, and grinned
while he fried his bacon.
Presently Bud gave a whoop, forgetting the feud in his play. "Lookit,
Cash! He's ridin' straight up and whippin' as he rides! He's so-o-me
bronk-fighter, buh-lieve me!"
Cash turned and looked, grinned and turned away again--but only to
strip the rind off a fresh-fried slice of bacon the full width of the
piece. He came down the room on his own side the dead line, and tossed
the rind across to the bunk.
"Quirt him with that, Boy," he grunted, "and then you can eat it if
On the fourth day Bud's conscience pricked him into making a sort of
apology to Cash, under the guise of speaking to Lovin Child, for still
keeping the baby in camp.
"I've got a blame good notion to pack you to town to-day, Boy, and try
and find out where you belong," he said, while he was feeding him oatmeal
mush with sugar and canned milk. "It's pretty cold, though ..." He cast a
slant-eyed glance at Cash, dourly frying his own hotcakes. "We'll see
what it looks like after a while. I sure have got to hunt up your folks
soon as I can. Ain't I, old-timer?"
That salved his conscience a little, and freed him of the uneasy
conviction that Cash believed him a kidnapper. The weather did the rest.
An hour after breakfast, just when Bud was downheartedly thinking he
could not much longer put off starting without betraying how hard it was
going to be for him to give up the baby, the wind shifted the clouds and
herded them down to the Big Mountain and held them there until they began
to sift snow down upon the burdened pines.
"Gee, it's going to storm again!" Bud blustered in. "It'll be snowing
like all git-out in another hour. I'll tell a cruel world I wouldn't take
a dog out such weather as this. Your folks may be worrying about yuh,
Boy, but they ain't going to climb my carcass for packing yuh fifteen
miles in a snow-storm and letting yuh freeze, maybe. I guess the cabin's
big enough to hold yuh another day--what?"
Cash lifted his eyebrows and pinched in his lips under his beard. It
did not seem to occur to Bud that one of them could stay in the cabin
with the baby while the other carried to Alpine the news of the baby's
whereabouts and its safety. Or if it did occur to Bud, he was careful not
to consider it a feasible plan. Cash wondered if Bud thought he was
pulling the wool over anybody's eyes. Bud did not want to give up that
kid, and he was tickled to death because the storm gave him an excuse for
keeping it. Cash was cynically amused at Bud's transparency. But the kid
was none of his business, and he did not intend to make any suggestions
that probably would not be taken anyway. Let Bud pretend he was anxious
to give up the baby, if that made him feel any better about it.
That day went merrily to the music of Lovin Child's chuckling laugh
and his unintelligible chatter. Bud made the discovery that "Boy" was
trying to say Lovin Child when he wanted to be taken and rocked, and
declared that he would tell the world the name fit, like a saddle on a
duck's back. Lovin Child discovered Cash's pipe, and was caught sucking
it before the fireplace and mimicking Cash's meditative pose with a
comical exactness that made Bud roar. Even Cash was betrayed into
speaking a whole sentence to Bud before he remembered his grudge. Taken
altogether, it was a day of fruitful pleasure in spite of the storm
That night the two men sat before the fire and watched the flames and
listened to the wind roaring in the pines. On his side of the dead line
Bud rocked his hard-muscled, big body back and forth, cradling Lovin
Child asleep in his arms. In one tender palm he nested Lovin Child's
little bare feet, like two fat, white mice that slept together after a
Bud was thinking, as he always thought nowadays, of Marie and his own
boy; yearning, tender thoughts which his clumsy man's tongue would never
attempt to speak. Before, he had thought of Marie alone, without the
baby; but he had learned much, these last four days. He knew now how
closely a baby can creep in and cling, how they can fill the days with
joy. He knew how he would miss Lovin Child when the storm cleared and he
must take him away. It did not seem right or just that he should give him
into the keeping of strangers--and yet he must until the parents could
have him back. The black depths of their grief to-night Bud could not
bring himself to contemplate. Bad enough to forecast his own desolateness
when Lovin Child was no longer romping up and down the dead line, looking
where he might find some mischief to get into. Bad enough to know that
the cabin would again be a place of silence and gloom and futile
resentments over little things, with no happy little man-child to
brighten it. He crept into his bunk that night and snuggled the baby up
in his arms, a miserable man with no courage left in him for the
But the next day it was still storming, and colder than ever. No one
would expect him to take a baby out in such weather. So Bud whistled and
romped with Lovin Child, and would not worry about what must happen when
the storm was past.
All day Cash brooded before the fire, bundled in his mackinaw and
sweater. He did not even smoke, and though he seemed to feel the cold
abnormally, he did not bring in any wood except in the morning, but let
Bud keep the fireplace going with his own generous supply. He did not eat
any dinner, and at supper time he went to bed with all the clothes he
possessed piled on top of him. By all these signs, Bud knew that Cash had
a bad cold.
Bud did not think much about it at first--being of the sturdy type
that makes light of a cold. But when Cash began to cough with that
hoarse, racking sound that tells the tale of laboring lungs, Bud began to
feel guiltily that he ought to do something about it.
He hushed Lovin Child's romping, that night, and would not let him
ride a bronk at bedtime. When he was asleep, Bud laid him down and went
over to the supply cupboard, which he had been obliged to rearrange with
everything except tin cans placed on shelves too high for a two-year-old
to reach even when he stood on his tiptoes and grunted. He hunted for the
small bottle of turpentine, found it and mixed some with melted bacon
grease, and went over to Cash's bunk, hesitating before he crossed the
dead line, but crossing nevertheless.
Cash seemed to be asleep, but his breathing sounded harsh and
unnatural, and his hand, lying uncovered on the blanket, clenched and
unclenched spasmodically. Bud watched him for a minute, holding the cup
of grease and turpentine in his hand.
"Say," he began constrainedly, and waited. Cash muttered something and
moved his hand irritatedly, without opening his eyes. Bud tried
"Say, you better swab your chest with this dope. Can't monkey with a
cold, such weather as this."
Cash opened his eyes, gave the log wall a startled look, and swung his
glance to Bud. "Yeah--I'm all right," he croaked, and proved his
statement wrong by coughing violently.
Bud set down the cup on a box, laid hold of Cash by the shoulders and
forced him on his back. With movements roughly gentle he opened Cash's
clothing at the throat, exposed his hairy chest, and poured on grease
until it ran in a tiny rivulets. He reached in and rubbed the grease
vigorously with the palm of his hand, giving particular attention to the
surface over the bronchial tubes. When he was satisfied that Cash's skin
could absorb no more, he turned him unceremoniously on his face and
repeated his ministrations upon Cash's shoulders. Then he rolled him
back, buttoned his shirts for him, and tramped heavily back to the
"I don't mind seeing a man play the mule when he's well," he grumbled,
"but he's got a right to call it a day when he gits down sick. I ain't
going to be bothered burying no corpses, in weather like this. I'll tell
the world I ain't!"
He went searching on all the shelves for something more that he could
give Cash. He found a box of liver pills, a bottle of Jamaica ginger, and
some iodine--not an encouraging array for a man fifteen miles of
untrodden snow from the nearest human habitation. He took three of the
liver pills--judging them by size rather than what might be their
composition--and a cup of water to Cash and commanded him to sit up and
swallow them. When this was accomplished, Bud felt easier as to his
conscience, though he was still anxious over the possibilities in that
Twice in the night he got up to put more wood on the fire and to stand
beside Cash's bed and listen to his breathing. Pneumonia, the strong
man's deadly foe, was what he feared. In his cow-punching days he had
seen men die of it before a doctor could be brought from the far-away
town. Had he been alone with Cash, he would have fought his way to town
and brought help, but with Lovin Child to care for he could not take the
At daylight Cash woke him by stumbling across the floor to the water
bucket. Bud arose then and swore at him for a fool and sent him back to
bed, and savagely greased him again with the bacon grease and turpentine.
He was cheered a little when Cash cussed back, but he did not like the
sound of his voice, for all that, and so threatened mildly to brain him
if he got out of bed again without wrapping a blanket or something around
Thoroughly awakened by this little exchange of civilities, Bud started
a fire in the stove and made coffee for Cash, who drank half a cup quite
meekly. He still had that tearing cough, and his voice was no more than a
croak; but he seemed no worse than he had been the night before. So on
the whole Bud considered the case encouraging, and ate his breakfast an
hour or so earlier than usual. Then he went out and chopped wood until he
heard Lovin Child chirping inside the cabin like a bug-hunting meadow
lark, when he had to hurry in before Lovin Child crawled off the bunk and
got into some mischief.
For a man who was wintering in what is called enforced idleness in a
snow-bound cabin in the mountains, Bud Moore did not find the next few
days hanging heavily on his hands. Far from it.
To begin with, Lovin Child got hold of Cash's tobacco can and was
feeding it by small handfuls to the flames, when Bud caught him. He
yelled when Bud took it away, and bumped his head on the floor and yelled
again, and spatted his hands together and yelled, and threw himself on
his back and kicked and yelled; while Bud towered over him and yelled
expostulations and reprimands and cajolery that did not cajole.
Cash turned over with a groan, his two palms pressed against his
splitting head, and hoarsely commanded the two to shut up that infernal
noise. He was a sick man. He was a very sick man, and he had stood the
"Shut up?" Bud shouted above the din of Lovin Child. "Ain't I trying
to shut him up, for gosh sake? What d'yuh want me to do? --let him throw
all the tobacco you got into the fire? Here, you young imp, quit that,
before I spank you! Quick, now--we've had about enough outa you! You lay
down there, Cash, and quit your croaking. You'll croak right, if you
don't keep covered up. Hey, Boy! My jumpin' yellow-jackets, you'd drown a
Klakon till you couldn't hear it ten feet! Cash, you old fool, you shut
up, I tell yuh, or I'll come over there and shut you up! I'll tell the
world--Boy! Good glory! shut up-p!"
Cash was a sick man, but he had not lost all his resourcefulness. He
had stopped Lovin Child once, and thereby he had learned a little of the
infantile mind. He had a coyote skin on the foot of his bed, and he
raised himself up and reached for it as one reaches for a fire
extinguisher. Like a fire extinguisher he aimed it, straight in the
middle of the uproar.
Lovin Child, thumping head and heels regularly on the floor and
punctuating the thumps with screeches, was extinguished-- suddenly,
completely silenced by the muffling fur that fell from the sky, so far as
he knew. The skin covered him completely. Not a sound came from under it.
The stillness was so absolute that Bud was scared, and so was Cash, a
little. It was as though Lovin Child, of a demon one instant, was in the
next instant snuffed out of existence.
"What yuh done?" Bud ejaculated, rolling wild eyes at Cash.
The coyote skin rattled a little. A fluff of yellow, a spark of blue,
and "Pik-k?" chirped Lovin Child from under the edge, and ducked back
again out of sight
Bud sat down weakly on a box and shook his head slowly from one side
to the other. "You've got me going south," he made solemn confession to
the wobbling skin--or to what it concealed. "I throw up my hands, I'll
tell the world fair." He got up and went over and sat down on his bunk,
and rested his hands on his knees, and considered the problem of Lovin
"Here I've got wood to cut and water to bring and grub to cook, and I
can't do none of them because I've got to ride herd on you every minute.
You've got my goat, kid, and that's the truth. You sure have. Yes,
'Pik-k,' doggone yuh--after me going crazy with yuh, just about, and
thinking you're about to blow your radiator cap plumb up through the
roof! I'll tell yuh right here and now, this storm has got to let up
pretty quick so I can pack you outa here, or else I've got to pen you up
somehow, so I can do something besides watch you. Look at the way you
scattered them beans, over there by the cupboard! By rights I oughta
stand over yuh and make yuh pick every one of 'em up! and who was it drug
all the ashes outa the stove, I'd like to know?"
The coyote skin lifted a little and moved off toward the fireplace,
growling "Ooo-ooo-ooo!" like a bear--almost. Bud rescued the bear a scant
two feet from the flames, and carried fur, baby and all, to the bunk. "My
good lord, what's a fellow going to do with yuh?" he groaned in
desperation. "Burn yourself up, you would! I can see now why folks keep
their kids corralled in high chairs and gocarts all the time. They got
to, or they wouldn't have no kids."
Bud certainly was learning a few things that he had come near to
skipping altogether in his curriculum of life. Speaking of high chairs,
whereof he had thought little enough in his active life, set him
seriously to considering ways and means. Weinstock- Lubin had high chairs
listed in their catalogue. Very nice high chairs, for one of which Bud
would have paid its weight in gold dust (if one may believe his word) if
it could have been set down in that cabin at that particular moment. He
studied the small cuts of the chairs, holding Lovin Child off the page by
main strength the while. Wishing one out of the catalogue and into the
room being impracticable, he went after the essential features, thinking
to make one that would answer the purpose.
Accustomed as he was to exercising his inventive faculty in overcoming
certain obstacles raised by the wilderness in the path of comfort, Bud
went to work with what tools he had, and with the material closest to his
hand. Crude tools they were, and crude materials--like using a Stilson
wrench to adjust a carburetor, he told Lovin Child who tagged him up and
down the cabin. An axe, a big jack-knife, a hammer and some nails left
over from building their sluice boxes, these were the tools. He took the
axe first, and having tied Lovin Child to the leg of his bunk for
safety's sake, he went out and cut down four young oaks behind the cabin,
lopped off the branches and brought them in for chair legs. He emptied a
dynamite box of odds and ends, scrubbed it out and left it to dry while
he mounted the four legs, with braces of the green oak and a skeleton
frame on top. Then he knocked one end out of the box, padded the edges of
the box with burlap, and set Lovin Child in his new high chair.
He was tempted to call Cash's attention to his handiwork, but Cash was
too sick to be disturbed, even if the atmosphere between them had been
clear enough for easy converse. So he stifled the impulse and addressed
himself to Lovin Child, which did just as well.
Things went better after that. Bud could tie the baby in the chair,
give him a tin cup and a spoon and a bacon rind, and go out to the
woodpile feeling reasonably certain that the house would not be set afire
during his absence. He could cook a meal in peace, without fear of
stepping on the baby. And Cash could lie as close as he liked to the edge
of the bed without running the risk of having his eyes jabbed with Lovin
Child's finger, or something slapped unexpectedly in his face.
He needed protection from slight discomforts while he lay there eaten
with fever, hovering so close to pneumonia that Bud believed he really
had it and watched over him nights as well as daytimes. The care he gave
Cash was not, perhaps, such as the medical profession would have
endorsed, but it was faithful and it made for comfort and so aided Nature
more than it hindered.
Fair weather came, and days of melting snow. But they served only to
increase Bud's activities at the woodpile and in hunting small game close
by, while Lovin Child took his nap and Cash was drowsing. Sometimes he
would bundle the baby in an extra sweater and take him outside and let
him wallow in the snow while Bud cut wood and piled it on the sheltered
side of the cabin wall, a reserve supply to draw on in an emergency.
It may have been the wet snow--more likely it was the cabin air filled
with germs of cold. Whatever it was, Lovin Child caught cold and coughed
croupy all one night, and fretted and would not sleep. Bud anointed him
as he had anointed Cash, and rocked him in front of the fire, and met the
morning hollow-eyed and haggard. A great fear tore at his heart. Cash
read it in his eyes, in the tones of his voice when he crooned soothing
fragments of old range songs to the baby, and at daylight Cash managed to
dress himself and help; though what assistance he could possibly give was
not all clear to him, until he saw Bud's glance rove anxiously toward the
"Hand the kid over here," Cash said huskily. "I can hold him while you
get yourself some breakfast"
Bud looked at him stupidly, hesitated, looked down at the flushed
little face, and carefully laid him in Cash's outstretched arms. He got
up stiffly--he had been sitting there a long time, while the baby slept
uneasily--and went on his tiptoes to make a fire in the stove.
He did not wonder at Cash's sudden interest, his abrupt change from
moody aloofness to his old partnership in trouble as well as in good
fortune. He knew that Cash was not fit for the task, however, and he
hurried the coffee to the boiling point that he might the sooner send
Cash back to bed. He gulped down a cup of coffee scalding hot, ate a few
mouthfuls of bacon and bread, and brought a cup back to Cash.
"What d'yuh think about him?" he whispered, setting the coffee down on
a box so that he could take Lovin Child. "Pretty sick kid, don't yuh
"It's the same cold I got," Cash breathed huskily. "Swallows like it's
his throat, mostly. What you doing for him?"
"Bacon grease and turpentine, " Bud answered him despondently. "I'll
have to commence on something else, though--turpentine's played out I
used it most all up on you."
"Coal oil's good. And fry up a mess of onions and make a poultice." He
put up a shaking hand before his mouth and coughed behind it, stifling
the sound all he could.
Lovin Child threw up his hands and whimpered, and Bud went over to him
anxiously. "His little hands are awful hot," he muttered. "He's been that
way all night."
Cash did not answer. There did not seem anything to say that would do
any good. He drank his coffee and eyed the two, lifting his eyebrows now
and then at some new thought.
"Looks like you, Bud," he croaked suddenly. "Eyes, expression,
mouth--you could pass him off as your own kid, if you wanted to."
"I might, at that," Bud whispered absently. "I've been seeing you in
him, though, all along. He lifts his eyebrows same way you do."
"Ain't like me," Cash denied weakly, studying Lovin Child. "Give him
here again, and you go fry them onions. I would--if I had the strength to
"Well, you ain't got the strength. You go back to bed, and I'll lay
him in with yuh. I guess he'll lay quiet. He likes to be cuddled up
In this way was the feud forgotten. Save for the strange habits
imposed by sickness and the care of a baby, they dropped back into their
old routine, their old relationship. They walked over the dead line
heedlessly, forgetting why it came to be there. Cabin fever no longer
tormented them with its magnifying of little things. They had no time or
thought for trifles; a bigger matter than their own petty prejudices
concerned them. They were fighting side by side, with the Old Man of the
Scythe--the Old Man who spares not.
Lovin Child was pulling farther and farther away from them. They knew
it, they felt it in his hot little hands, they read it in his
fever-bright eyes. But never once did they admit it, even to themselves.
They dared not weaken their efforts with any admissions of a possible
defeat. They just watched, and fought the fever as best they could, and
waited, and kept hope alive with fresh efforts.
Cash was tottery weak from his own illness, and he could not speak
above a whisper. Yet he directed, and helped soothe the baby with baths
and slow strokings of his hot forehead, and watched him while Bud did the
work, and worried because he could not do more.
They did not know when Lovin Child took a turn for the better, except
that they realized the fever was broken. But his listlessness, the
unnatural drooping of his whole body, scared them worse than before.
Night and day one or the other watched over him, trying to anticipate
every need, every vagrant whim. When he began to grow exacting, they were
still worried, though they were too fagged to abase themselves before him
as much as they would have liked.
Then Bud was seized with an attack of the grippe before Lovin Child
had passed the stage of wanting to be held every waking minute. Which
burdened Cash with extra duties long before he was fit.
Christmas came, and they did not know it until the day was half gone,
when Cash happened to remember. He went out then and groped in the snow
and found a little spruce, hacked it off close to the drift and brought
it in, all loaded with frozen snow, to dry before the fire. The kid, he
declared, should have a Christmas tree, anyway. He tied a candle to the
top, and a rabbit skin to the bottom, and prunes to the tip of the
branches, and tried to rouse a little enthusiasm in Lovin Child. But
Lovin Child was not interested in the makeshift. He was crying because
Bud had told him to keep out of the ashes, and he would not look.
So Cash untied the candle and the fur and the prunes, threw them
across the room, and peevishly stuck the tree in the fireplace.
"Remember what you said about the Fourth of July down in Arizona,
Bud?" he asked glumly. "Well, this is the same kind of Christmas." Bud
New Year came and passed and won nothing in the way of celebration
from the three in Nelson's cabin. Bud's bones ached, his head ached, the
flesh on his body ached. He could take no comfort anywhere, under any
circumstances. He craved clean white beds and soft-footed attendance and
soothing silence and cool drinks--and he could have none of those things.
His bedclothes were heavy upon his aching limbs; he had to wait upon his
own wants; the fretful crying of Lovin Child or the racking cough of Cash
was always in his ears, and as for cool drinks, there was ice water in
plenty, to be sure, but nothing else. Fair weather came, and storms, and
cold: more storms and cold than fair weather. Neither man ever mentioned
taking Lovin Child to Alpine. At first, because it was out of the
question; after that, because they did not want to mention it. They
frequently declared that Lovin Child was a pest, and there were times
when Bud spoke darkly of spankings--which did not materialize. But though
they did not mention it, they knew that Lovin Child was something more;
something endearing, something humanizing, something they needed to keep
them immune from cabin fever.
Some time in February it was that Cash fashioned a crude pair of
snowshoes and went to town, returning the next day. He came home loaded
with little luxuries for Lovin Child, and with the simpler medicines for
other emergencies which they might have to meet, but he did not bring any
word of seeking parents. The nearest he came to mentioning the subject
was after supper, when the baby was asleep and Bud trying to cut a small
pair of overalls from a large piece of blue duck that Cash had brought.
The shears were dull, and Lovin Child's little rompers were so patched
and shapeless that they were not much of a guide, so Bud was swearing
softly while he worked.
"I didn't hear a word said about that kid being lost," Cash
volunteered, after he had smoked and watched Bud awhile. "Couldn't have
been any one around Alpine, or I'd have heard something about it."
Bud frowned, though it may have been over his tailoring problem.
"Can't tell--the old squaw mighta been telling the truth," he said
reluctantly. "I s'pose they do, once in awhile. She said his folks were
dead." And he added defiantly, with a quick glance at Cash, "Far as I'm
concerned, I'm willing to let it ride that way. The kid's doing all
"Yeah. I got some stuff for that rash on his chest. I wouldn't wonder
if we been feeding him too heavy on bacon rinds, Bud. They say too much
of that kinda thing is bad for kids. Still, he seems to feel all
"I'll tell the world he does! He got hold of your old pipe to-day and
was suckin' away on it, I don't know how long. Never feazed him, either.
If he can stand that, I guess he ain't very delicate."
"Yeah. I laid that pipe aside myself because it was getting so dang
strong. Ain't you getting them pants too long in the seat, Bud? They look
to me big enough for a ten-year-old."
"I guess you don't realize how that kid's growing!" Bud defended his
handiwork "And time I get the seams sewed, and the side lapped over for
"Yeah. Where you going to get the buttons? You never sent for
"Oh, I'll find buttons. You can donate a couple off some of your
clothes, if you want to right bad."
"Who? Me? I ain't got enough now to keep the wind out," Cash
protested. "Lemme tell yuh something, Bud. If you cut more saving, you'd
have enough cloth there for two pair of pants. You don't need to cut the
legs so long as all that. They'll drag on the ground so the poor kid
can't walk in 'em without falling all over himself."
"Well, good glory! Who's making these pants? Me, or you?" Bud
exploded. "If you think you can do any better job than what I'm doing, go
get yourself some cloth and fly at it! Don't think you can come hornin'
in on my job, 'cause I'll tell the world right out loud, you can't."
"Yeah--that's right! Go to bellerin' around like a bull buffalo, and
wake the kid up! I don't give a cuss how you make'm. Go ahead and have
the seat of his pants hangin' down below his knees if you want to!" Cash
got up and moved huffily over to the fireplace and sat with his back to
"Maybe I will, at that," Bud retorted. "You can't come around and grab
the job I'm doing." Bud was jabbing a needle eye toward the end of a
thread too coarse for it, and it did not improve his temper to have the
thread refuse to pass through the eye.
Neither did it please him to find, when all the seams were sewn, that
the little overalls failed to look like any garment he had ever seen on a
child. When he tried them on Lovin Child, next day, Cash took one look
and bolted from the cabin with his hand over his mouth.
When he came back an hour or so later, Lovin Child was wearing his
ragged rompers, and Bud was bent over a Weinstock-Lubin mail-order
catalogue. He had a sheet of paper half filled with items, and was
licking his pencil and looking for more. He looked up and grinned a
little, and asked Cash when he was going to town again; and added that he
wanted to mail a letter.
"Yeah. Well, the trail's just as good now as it was when I took it,"
Cash hinted strongly. "When I go to town again, it'll be because I've got
to go. And far as I can see, I won't have to go for quite some time."
So Bud rose before daylight the next morning, tied on the makeshift
snowshoes Cash had contrived, and made the fifteen-mile trip to Alpine
and back before dark. He brought candy for Lovin Child, tended that young
gentleman through a siege of indigestion because of the indulgence, and
waited impatiently until he was fairly certain that the wardrobe he had
ordered had arrived at the post-office. When he had counted off the two
days required for a round trip to Sacramento, and had added three days
for possible delay in filling the order, he went again, and returned in
one of the worst storms of the winter.
But he did not grudge the hardship, for he carried on his back a bulky
bundle of clothes for Lovin Child; enough to last the winter through, and
some to spare; a woman would have laughed at some of the things he chose:
impractical, dainty garments that Bud could not launder properly to save
his life. But there were little really truly overalls, in which Lovin
Child promptly developed a strut that delighted the men and earned him
the title of Old Prospector. And there were little shirts and stockings
and nightgowns and a pair of shoes, and a toy or two that failed to
interest him at all, after the first inspection.
It began to look as though Bud had deliberately resolved upon carrying
a guilty conscience all the rest of his life. He had made absolutely no
effort to trace the parents of Lovin Child when he was in town. On the
contrary he had avoided all casual conversation, for fear some one might
mention the fact that a child had been lost. He had been careful not to
buy anything in the town that would lead one to suspect that he had a
child concealed upon his premises, and he had even furnished what he
called an alibi when he bought the candy, professing to own an
inordinately sweet tooth.
Cash cast his eyes over the stock of baby clothes which Bud gleefully
unwrapped on his bunk, and pinched out a smile under his beard.
"Well, if the kid stays till he wears out all them clothes, we'll just
about have to give him a share in the company," he said drily.
Bud looked up in quick jealousy. "What's mine's his, and I own a half
interest in both claims. I guess that'll feed him--if they pan out
anything," he retorted. "Come here, Boy, and let's try this suit on.
Looks pretty small to me--marked three year, but I reckon they don't grow
'em as husky as you, back where they make all these clothes."
"Yeah. But you ought to put it in writing, Bud. S'pose anything
happened to us both--and it might. Mining's always got its risky side,
even cutting out sickness, which we've had a big sample of right this
winter. Well, the kid oughta have some security in case anything did
Bud looked thoughtfully down at the fuzzy yellow head that did not
come much above his knee.
"Well, how yuh going to do anything like that without giving it away
that we've got him? Besides, what name'd we give him in the company? No,
sir, Cash, he gets what I've got, and I'll smash any damn man that tries
to get it away from him. But we can't get out any legal papers--"
"Yeah. But we can make our wills, can't we? And I don't know where you
get the idea, Bud, that you've got the whole say about him. We're
pardners, ain't we? Share and share alike. Mines, mules,
grub--kids--equal shares goes."
"That's where you're dead wrong. Mines and mules and grub is all
right, but when it comes to this old Lovin Man, why--who was it found
him, for gosh sake?"
"Aw, git out!" Cash growled. "Don't you reckon I'd have grabbed him
off that squaw as quick as you did? I've humored you along, Bud, and let
you hog him nights, and feed him and wash his clothes, and I ain't kicked
none, have I? But when it comes to prope'ty--"
"You ain't goin' to horn in there, neither. Anyway, we ain't got so
darn much the kid'll miss your share, Cash."
"Yeah. All the more reason why he'll need it I don't see how you're
going to stop me from willing my share where I please. And when you come
down to facts, Bud, why--you want to recollect that I plumb forgot to
report that kid, when I was in town. And I ain't a doubt in the world but
what his folks would be glad enough--"
"Forget that stuff!" Bud's tone was so sharp that Lovin Child turned
clear around to look up curiously into his face. "You know why you never
reported him, doggone yuh! You couldn't give him up no easier than I
could. And I'll tell the world to its face that if anybody gets this kid
now they've pretty near got to fight for him. It ain't right, and it
ain't honest. It's stealing to keep him, and I never stole a brass tack
in my life before. But he's mine as long as I live and can hang on to
him. And that's where I stand. I ain't hidin' behind no kind of alibi.
The old squaw did tell me his folks was dead; but if you'd ask me, I'd
say she was lying when she said it. Chances are she stole him. I'm sorry
for his folks, supposing he's got any. But I ain't sorry enough for 'em
to give him up if I can help it. I hope they've got more, and I hope
they've gentled down by this time and are used to being without him.
Anyway, they can do without him now easier than what I can, because ..."
Bud did not finish that sentence, except by picking Lovin Child up in his
arms and squeezing him as hard as he dared. He laid his face down for a
minute on Lovin Child's head, and when he raised it his lashes were
"Say, old-timer, you need a hair cut. Yuh know it?" he said, with a
huskiness in his voice, and pulled a tangle playfully. Then his eyes
swung round defiantly to Cash. "It's stealing to keep him, but I can't
help it. I'd rather die right here in my tracks than give up this little
ole kid. And you can take that as it lays, because I mean it."
Cash sat quiet for a minute or two, staring down at the floor. "Yeah.
I guess there's two of us in that fix," he observed in his dry way,
lifting his eyebrows while he studied a broken place in the side of his
overshoe. "All the more reason why we should protect the kid, ain't it?
My idea is that we ought to both of us make our wills right here and now.
Each of us to name the other for guardeen, in case of accident, and each
one picking a name for the kid, and giving him our share in the claims
and anything else we may happen to own." He stopped abruptly, his jaw
sagging a little at some unpleasant thought.
"I don't know--come to think of it, I can't just leave the kid all my
property. I--I've got a kid of my own, and if she's alive--I ain't heard
anything of her for fifteen years and more, but if she's alive she'd come
in for a share. She's a woman grown by this time. Her mother died when
she was a baby. I married the woman I hired to take care of her and the
house-- like a fool. When we parted, she took the kid with her. She did
think a lot of her, I'll say that much for her, and that's all I can say
in her favor. I drifted around and lost track of 'em. Old woman, she
married again, and I heard that didn't pan out, neither. Anyway, she kept
the girl, and gave her the care and schooling that I couldn't give. I was
"Well, she can bust the will if I leave her out, yuh see. And if the
old woman gets a finger in the pie, it'll be busted, all right. I can
write her down for a hundred dollars perviding she don't contest. That'll
fix it. And the rest goes to the kid here. But I want him to have the use
of my name, understand. Something- or-other Markham Moore ought to suit
all hands well enough."
Bud, holding Lovin Child on his knees, frowned a little at first. But
when he looked at Cash, and caught the wistfulness in his eyes, he
"A couple of old he-hens like us--we need a chick to look after," he
said whimsically. "I guess Markham Moore ought to be good enough for most
any kid. And if it ain't, by gosh, we'll make it good enough! If I ain't
been all I should be, there's no law against straightening up. Markham
Moore goes as it lays-- hey, Lovins?" But Lovin Child had gone to sleep
over his foster fathers' disposal of his future. His little yellow head
was wabbling on his limp neck, and Bud cradled him in his arms and held
"Yeah. But what are we going to call him?" Methodical Cash wanted the
whole matter settled at one conference, it seemed.
"Call him? Why, what've we been calling him, the last two months?
"That," Cash retorted, "depended on what devilment he was into when we
"You said it all, that time. I guess, come to think of it-- tell you
what, Cash, let's call him what the kid calls himself. That's fair
enough. He's got some say in the matter, and if he's satisfied with
Lovin, we oughta be. Lovin Markam Moore ain't half bad. Then if he wants
to change it when he grows up, he can."
"Yeah. I guess that's as good as anything. I'd hate to see him named
Cassius. Well, now's as good a time as any to make them wills, Bud. We
oughta have a couple of witnesses, but we can act for each other, and I
guess it'll pass. You lay the kid down, and we'll write 'em and have it
done with and off our minds. I dunno --I've got a couple of lots in
Phoenix I'll leave to the girl. By rights she should have 'em. Lovins,
here, 'll have my share in all mining claims; these two I'll name
'specially, because I expect them to develop into paying mines; the Blind
A twinge of jealousy seized Bud. Cash was going ahead a little too
confidently in his plans for the kid. He did not want to hurt old Cash's
feelings, and of course he needed Cash's assistance if he kept Lovin
Child for his own. But Cash needn't think he was going to claim the kid
"All right--put it that way. Only, when you're writing it down, you
make it read 'child of Bud Moore' or something like that. You can will
him the moon, if you want, and you can have your name sandwiched in
between his and mine. But get this, and get it right. He's mine, and if
we ever split up, the kid goes with me. I'll tell the world right now
that this kid belongs to me, and where I go he goes. You got that?"
"You don't have to beller at the top of your voice, do yuh? " snapped
Cash, prying the cork out of the ink bottle with his jackknife. "Here's
another pen point. Tie it onto a stick or something and git to work
before you git to putting it off."
Leaning over the table facing each other, they wrote steadily for a
few minutes. Then Bud began to flag, and finally he stopped and crumpled
the sheet of tablet paper into a ball. Cash looked up, lifted his
eyebrows irritatedly, and went on with his composition.
Bud sat nibbling the end of his makeshift penholder. The obstacle that
had loomed in Cash's way and had constrained him to reveal the closed
pages of his life, loomed large in Bud's way also. Lovin Child was a near
and a very dear factor in his life --but when it came to sitting down
calmly and setting his affairs in order for those who might be left
behind, Lovin Child was not the only person he must think of. What of his
own man-child? What of Marie?
He looked across at Cash writing steadily in his precise way, duly
bequeathing his worldly goods to Lovin; owning, too, his responsibilities
in another direction, but still making Lovin Child his chief heir so far
as he knew. On the spur of the moment Bud had thought to do the same
thing. But could he do it?
He seemed to see his own baby standing wistfully aloof, pushed out of
his life that this baby he had no right to keep might have all of his
affections, all of his poor estate. And Marie, whose face was always in
the back of his memory, a tearful, accusing vision that would not let him
be--he saw Marie working in some office, earning the money to feed and
clothe their child. And Lovin Child romping up and down the cabin,
cuddled and scolded and cared for as best an awkward man may care for a
baby--a small, innocent usurper.
Bud dropped his face in his palms and tried to think the thing out
coldly, clearly, as Cash had stated his own case. Cash did not know where
his own child was, and he did not seem to care greatly. He was glad to
salve his conscience with a small bequest, keeping the bulk--if so
tenuous a thing as Cash's fortune may be said to have bulk--for this baby
they two were hiding away from its lawful parents. Cash could do it; why
couldn't be? He raised his head and looked over at Lovin Child, asleep in
his new and rumpled little finery. Why did his own baby come between them
now, and withhold his hand from doing the same?
Cash finished, glanced curiously across at Bud, looked down at what he
had written, and slid the sheet of paper across.
"You sign it, and then if you don't know just how to word yours, you
can use this for a pattern. I've read law books enough to know this will
get by, all right. It's plain, and it tells what I want, and that's
sufficient to hold in court."
Bud read it over apathetically, signed his name as witness, and pushed
the paper back.
"That's all right for you," he said heavily. "Your kid is grown up
now, and besides, you've got other property to give her. But --it's
different with me. I want this baby, and I can't do without him. But I
can't give him my share in the claims, Cash. I --there's others that's
got to be thought of first."
It was only the next day that Bud was the means of helping Lovin Child
find a fortune for himself; which eased Bud's mind considerably, and
balanced better his half of the responsibility. Cutting out the dramatic
frills, then, this is what happened to Lovin Child and Bud:
They were romping around the cabin, like two puppies that had a
surplus of energy to work off. Part of the time Lovin Child was a bear,
chasing Bud up and down the dead line, which was getting pretty well worn
out in places. After that, Bud was a bear and chased Lovin. And when
Lovin Child got so tickled he was perfectly helpless in the corner where
he had sought refuge, Bud caught him and swung him up to his shoulder and
let him grab handfuls of dirt out of the roof.
Lovin Child liked that better than being a bear, and sifted Bud's hair
full of dried mud, and threw the rest on the floor, and frequently cried
"Tell a worl'!" which he had learned from Bud and could say with the
uncanny pertinency of a parrot.
He had signified a desire to have Bud carry him along the wall, where
some lovely lumps of dirt protruded temptingly over a bulging log. Then
he leaned and grabbed with his two fat hands at a particularly big, hard
lump. It came away in his hands and fell plump on the blankets of the
bunk, half blinding Bud with the dust that came with it.
"Hey! You'll have all the chinkin' out of the dang shack, if you let
him keep that lick up, Bud," Cash grumbled, lifting his eyebrows at the
"Tell a worl'!" Lovin Child retorted over his shoulder, and made
This time the thing he held resisted his baby strength. He pulled and
he grunted, he kicked Bud in the chest and grabbed again. Bud was
patient, and let him fuss--though in self-defense he kept his head down
and his eyes away from the expected dust bath.
"Stay with it, Boy; pull the darn roof down, if yuh want. Cash'll get
out and chink 'er up again. "
"Yeah. Cash will not," the disapproving one amended the statement
gruffly. "He's trying to get the log outa the wall, Bud."
"Well, let him try, doggone it. Shows he's a stayer. I wouldn't have
any use for him if he didn't have gumption enough to tackle things too
big for him, and you wouldn't either. Stay with 'er, Lovins! Doggone it,
can't yuh git that log outa there nohow? Uh- h! A big old grunt and a big
old heave--uh-h! I'll tell the world in words uh one syllable, he's some
"Tell a worl'!" chuckled Lovin Child, and pulled harder at the thing
"Hey! The kid's got hold of a piece of gunny sack or something. You
look out, Bud, or he'll have all that chinkin' out. There's no sense in
lettin' him tear the whole blame shack to pieces, is there?"
"Can if he wants to. It's his shack as much as it's anybody's." Bud
shifted Lovin Child more comfortably on his shoulder and looked up,
squinting his eyes half shut for fear of dirt in them.
"For the love of Mike, kid, what's that you've got? Looks to me like a
piece of buckskin, Cash. Here, you set down a minute, and let Bud take a
peek up there."
"Bud--pik-k?" chirped Lovin Child from the blankets, where Bud had
deposited him unceremoniously.
"Yes, Bud pik-k." Bud stepped up on the bunk, which brought his head
above the low eaves. He leaned and looked, and scraped away the caked
mud. "Good glory! The kid's found a cache of some kind, sure as you
live!" And he began to claw out what had been hidden behind the mud.
First a buckskin bag, heavy and grimed and knobby. Gold inside it, he
knew without looking. He dropped it down on the bunk, carefully so as not
to smash a toe off the baby. After that he pulled out four baking-powder
cans, all heavy as lead. He laid his cheek against the log and peered
down the length of it, and jumped down beside the bunk.
"Kid's found a gold mine of his own, and I'll bet on it," he cried
excitedly. "Looky, Cash!"
Cash was already looking, his eyebrows arched high to match his
astonishment. "Yeah. It's gold, all right. Old man Nelson's hoard, I
wouldn't wonder. I've always thought it was funny he never found any gold
in this flat, long as he lived here. And traces of washing here and
there, too. Well!"
"Looky, Boy!" Bud had the top off a can, and took out a couple of
nuggets the size of a cooked Lima bean. "Here's the real stuff for
"It's yours, too--unless--did old Nelson leave any folks, Cash, do yuh
"They say not. The county buried him, they say. And nobody ever turned
up to claim him or what little he left. No, I guess there's nobody got
any better right to it than the kid. We'll inquire around and see. But
seein' the gold is found on the claim, and we've got the claim according
to law, looks to me like--"
"Well, here's your clean-up, old prospector. Don't swallow any, is
all. let's weigh it out, Cash, and see how much it is, just for a
Lovin Child had nuggets to play with there on the bed, and told the
world many unintelligible things about it. Cash and Bud dumped all the
gold into a pan, and weighed it out on the little scales Cash had for his
tests. It was not a fortune, as fortunes go. It was probably all the gold
Nelson had panned out in a couple of years, working alone and with crude
devices. A little over twenty-three hundred dollars it amounted to, not
counting the nuggets which Lovin Child had on the bunk with him.
"Well, it's a start for the kid, anyway," Bud said, leaning back and
regarding the heap with eyes shining. "I helped him find it, and I kinda
feel as if I'm square with him now for not giving him my half the claim.
Twenty-three hundred would be a good price for a half interest, as the
claims stand, don't yuh think, Cash?"
"Yeah--well, I dunno's I'd sell for that. But on the showing we've got
so far--yes, five thousand, say, for the claims would be good money.
"Pretty good haul for a kid, anyway. He's got a couple of hundred
dollars in nuggets, right there on the bunk. Let's see, Lovins. Let Bud
have 'em for a minute."
Then it was that Lovin Child revealed a primitive human trait. He
would not give up the gold. He held fast to one big nugget, spread his
fat legs over the remaining heap of them, and fought Bud's hand away with
the other fist.
"No, no, no! Tell a worl' no, no, no!" he remonstrated vehemently,
until Bud whooped with laughter.
"All right--all right! Keep your gold, durn it. You're like all the
rest--minute you get your paws on to some of the real stuff, you go
hog-wild over it."
Cash was pouring the fine gold back into the buck skin bag and the
"Let the kid play with it," he said. "Getting used to gold when he's
little will maybe save him from a lot of foolishness over it when he gets
big. I dunno, but it looks reasonable to me. Let him have a few nuggets
if he wants. Familiarity breeds contempt, they say; maybe he won't get to
thinkin' too much of it if he's got it around under his nose all the
time. Same as everything else. It's the finding that hits a feller
hardest, Bud--the hunting for it and dreaming about it and not finding
it. What say we go up to the claim for an hour or so? Take the kid along.
It won't hurt him if he's bundled up good. It ain't cold to-day,
That night they discussed soberly the prospects of the claim and their
responsibilities in the matter of Lovin Child's windfall. They would
quietly investigate the history of old Nelson, who had died a pauper in
the eyes of the community, with all his gleanings of gold hidden away.
They agreed that Lovin Child should not start off with one grain of gold
that rightfully belonged to some one else--but they agreed the more
cheerfully because neither man believed they would find any close
relatives; a wife or children they decided upon as rightful heirs.
Brothers, sisters, cousins, and aunts did not count. They were presumably
able to look after themselves just as old Nelson had done. Their ethics
were simple enough, surely.
Barring, then, the discovery of rightful heirs, their plan was to take
the gold to Sacramento in the spring, and deposit it there in a savings
bank for one Lovins Markham Moore. They would let the interest "ride"
with the principal, and they would-- though neither openly confessed it
to the other--from time to time add a little from their own earnings. Bud
especially looked forward to that as a compromise with his duty to his
own child. He intended to save every cent he could, and to start a
savings account in the same bank, for his own baby, Robert Edward
Moore--named for Bud. He could not start off with as large a sum as
Lovins would have, and for that Bud was honestly sorry. But Robert Edward
Moore would have Bud's share in the claims, which would do a little
toward evening things up.
Having settled these things to the satisfaction of their desires and
their consciences, they went to bed well pleased with the day.
We all realize keenly, one time or another, the abject poverty of
language. To attempt putting some emotions into words is like trying to
play Ave Maria on a toy piano. There are heights and depths utterly
beyond the limitation of instrument and speech alike.
Marie's agonized experience in Alpine--and afterward--was of that
kind. She went there under the lure of her loneliness, her heart-hunger
for Bud. Drunk or sober, loving her still or turning away in anger, she
had to see him; had to hear him speak; had to tell him a little of what
she felt of penitence and longing, for that is what she believed she had
to do. Once she had started, she could not turn back. Come what might,
she would hunt until she found him. She had to, or go crazy, she told
herself over and over. She could not imagine any circumstance that would
turn her back from that quest.
Yet she did turn back--and with scarce a thought of Bud. She could not
imagine the thing happening that did happen, which is the way life has of
keeping us all on the anxious seat most of the time. She could not--at
least she did not--dream that Lovin Child, at once her comfort and her
strongest argument for a new chance at happiness, would in ten minutes or
so wipe out all thought of Bud and leave only a dumb, dreadful agony that
hounded her day and night.
She had reached Alpine early in the forenoon, and had gone to the one
little hotel, to rest and gather up her courage for the search which she
felt was only beginning. She had been too careful of her money to spend
any for a sleeper, foregoing even a berth in the tourist car. She could
make Lovin Child comfortable with a full seat in the day coach for his
little bed, and for herself it did not matter. She could not sleep
anyway. So she sat up all night and thought, and worried over the future
which was foolish, since the future held nothing at all that she pictured
She was tired when she reached the hotel, carrying Lovin Child and her
suit case too--porters being unheard of in small villages, and the one
hotel being too sure of its patronage to bother about getting guests from
depot to hall bedroom. A deaf old fellow with white whiskers and poor
eyesight fumbled two or three keys on a nail, chose one and led the way
down a little dark hall to a little, stuffy room with another door
opening directly on the sidewalk. Marie had not registered on her
arrival, because there was no ink in the inkwell, and the pen had only
half a point; but she was rather relieved to find that she was not
obliged to write her name down--for Bud, perhaps, to see before she had a
chance to see him.
Lovin Child was in his most romping, rambunctious mood, and Marie's
head ached so badly that she was not quite so watchful of his movements
as usual. She gave him a cracker and left him alone to investigate the
tiny room while she laid down for just a minute on the bed, grateful
because the sun shone in warmly through the window and she did not feel
the absence of a fire. She had no intention whatever of going to
sleep--she did not believe that she could sleep if she had wanted to.
Fall asleep she did, however, and she must have slept for at least half
an hour, perhaps longer.
When she sat up with that startled sensation that follows unexpected,
undesired slumber, the door was open, and Lovin Child was gone. She had
not believed that he could open the door, but she discovered that its
latch had a very precarious hold upon the worn facing, and that a slight
twist of the knob was all it needed to swing the door open. She rushed
out, of course, to look for him, though, unaware of how long she had
slept, she was not greatly disturbed. Marie had run after Lovin Child too
often to be alarmed at a little thing like that.
I don't know when fear first took hold of her, or when fear was swept
away by the keen agony of loss. She went the whole length of the one
little street, and looked in all the open doorways, and traversed the one
short alley that led behind the hotel. Facing the street was the
railroad, with the station farther up at the edge of the timber. Across
the railroad was the little, rushing river, swollen now with rains that
had been snow on the higher slopes of the mountain behind the town.
Marie did not go near the river at first. Some instinct of dread made
her shun even the possibility that Lovin Child had headed that way. But a
man told her, when she broke down her diffidence and inquired, that he
had seen a little tot in a red suit and cap going off that way. He had
not thought anything of it. He was a stranger himself, he said, and he
supposed the kid belonged there, maybe.
Marie flew to the river, the man running beside her, and three or four
others coming out of buildings to see what was the matter. She did not
find Lovin Child, but she did find half of the cracker she had given him.
It was lying so close to a deep, swirly place under the bank that Marie
gave a scream when she saw it, and the man caught her by the arm for fear
she meant to jump in.
Thereafter, the whole of Alpine turned out and searched the river bank
as far down as they could get into the box canyon through which it roared
to the sage-covered hills beyond. No one doubted that Lovin Child had
been swept away in that tearing, rock-churned current. No one had any
hope of finding his body, though they searched just as diligently as if
they were certain.
Marie walked the bank all that day, calling and crying and fighting
off despair. She walked the floor of her little room all night, the door
locked against sympathy that seemed to her nothing but a prying curiosity
over her torment, fighting back the hysterical cries that kept struggling
The next day she was too exhausted to do anything more than climb up
the steps of the train when it stopped there. Towns and ranches on the
river below had been warned by wire and telephone and a dozen officious
citizens of Alpine assured her over and over that she would be notified
at once if anything was discovered; meaning, of course, the body of her
child. She did not talk. Beyond telling the station agent her name, and
that she was going to stay in Sacramento until she heard something, she
shrank behind her silence and would reveal nothing of her errand there in
Alpine, nothing whatever concerning herself. Mrs. Marie Moore, General
Delivery, Sacramento, was all that Alpine learned of her.
It is not surprising then, that the subject was talked out long before
Bud or Cash came down into the town more than two months later. It is not
surprising, either, that no one thought to look up-stream for the baby,
or that they failed to consider any possible fate for him save drowning.
That nibbled piece of cracker on the very edge of the river threw them
all off in their reasoning. They took it for granted that the baby had
fallen into the river at the place where they found the cracker. If he
had done so, he would have been swept away instantly. No one could look
at the river and doubt that--therefore no one did doubt it. That a squaw
should find him sitting down where he had fallen, two hundred yards above
the town and in the edge of the thick timber, never entered their minds
at all. That she should pick him up with the intention at first of
stopping his crying, and should yield to the temptingness of him just as
Bud bad yielded, would have seemed to Alpine still more unlikely; because
no Indian had ever kidnapped a white child in that neighborhood. So much
for the habit of thinking along grooves established by precedent
Marie went to Sacramento merely because that was the closest town of
any size, where she could wait for the news she dreaded to receive yet
must receive before she could even begin to face her tragedy. She did not
want to find Bud now. She shrank from any thought of him. Only for him,
she would still have her Lovin Child. Illogically she blamed Bud for what
had happened. He had caused her one more great heartache, and she hoped
never to see him again or to hear his name spoken.
Dully she settled down in a cheap, semi-private boarding house to
wait. In a day or two she pulled herself together and went out to look
for work, because she must have money to live on. Go home to her mother
she would not. Nor did she write to her. There, too, her great hurt had
flung some of the blame. If her mother had not interfered and found fault
all the time with Bud, they would be living together now--happy. It was
her mother who had really brought about their separation. Her mother
would nag at her now for going after Bud, would say that she deserved to
lose her baby as a punishment for letting go her pride and self- respect.
No, she certainly did not want to see her mother, or any one else she had
ever known. Bud least of all.
She found work without much trouble, for she was neat and efficient
looking, of the type that seems to belong in a well- ordered office,
behind a typewriter desk near a window where the sun shines in. The place
did not require much concentration--a dentist's office, where her chief
duties consisted of opening the daily budget of circulars, sending out
monthly bills, and telling pained-looking callers that the doctor was out
just then. Her salary just about paid her board, with a dollar or two
left over for headache tablets and a vaudeville show now and then. She
did not need much spending money, for her evenings were spent mostly in
crying over certain small garments and a canton-flannel dog called
For three months she stayed, too apathetic to seek a better position.
Then the dentist's creditors became suddenly impatient, and the dentist
could not pay his office rent, much less his office girl. Wherefore Marie
found herself looking for work again, just when spring was opening all
the fruit blossoms and merchants were smilingly telling one another that
business was picking up.
Weinstock-Lubin's big department store gave her desk space in the
mail-order department. Marie's duty it was to open the mail, check up the
orders, and see that enough money was sent, and start the wheels moving
to fill each order--to the satisfaction of the customer if possible.
At first the work worried her a little. But she became accustomed to
it, and settled into the routine of passing the orders along the proper
channels with as little individual thought given to each one as was
compatible with efficiency. She became acquainted with some of the girls,
and changed to a better boarding house. She still cried over the
wooh-wooh and the little garments, but she did not cry so often, nor did
she buy so many headache tablets. She was learning the futility of grief
and the wisdom of turning her back upon sorrow when she could. The sight
of a two-year-old baby boy would still bring tears to her eyes, and she
could not sit through a picture show that had scenes of children and
happy married couples, but she fought the pain of it as a weakness which
she must overcome. Her Lovin Child was gone; she had given up everything
but the sweet, poignant memory of how pretty he had been and how
Then, one morning in early June, her practiced fingers were going
through the pile of mail orders and they singled out one that carried the
postmark of Alpine. Marie bit her lips, but her fingers did not falter in
their task. Cheap table linen, cheap collars, cheap suits or cheap
something-or-other was wanted, she had no doubt. She took out the paper
with the blue money order folded inside, speared the money order on the
hook with others, drew her order pad closer, and began to go through the
list of articles wanted.
This was the list:--
XL 94, 3 Dig in the mud suits, 3 yr at 59c $1.77
XL 14 1 Buddy tucker suit 3 yr 2.00
KL 6 1 Bunny pumps infant 5 1.25
KL 54 1 Fat Ankle shoe infant 5 .98
HL 389 4 Rubens vests, 3 yr at 90c 2.70
SL 418 3 Pajamas 3 yr. at 59c 1.77
OL 823 1 Express wagon, 15x32 in. 4.25
For which money order is enclosed. Please ship at once.
R. E. MOORE,
Mechanically she copied the order on a slip of paper which she put
into her pocket, left her desk and her work and the store, and hurried to
her boarding house.
Not until she was in her own room with the door locked did she dare
let herself think. She sat down with the copy spread open before her, her
slim fingers pressing against her temples. Something amazing had been
revealed to her--something so amazing that she could scarcely comprehend
its full significance. Bud--never for a minute did she doubt that it was
Bud, for she knew his handwriting too well to be mistaken--Bud was
sending for clothes for a baby boy!
"3 Dig in the mud suits, 3 yr--" it sounded, to the hungry mother soul
of her, exactly like her Lovin Child. She could see so vividly just how
he would look in them. And the size--she certainly would buy than
three-year size, if she were buying for Lovin Child. And the little
"Buddy tucker" suit--that, too, sounded like Lovin Child. He must--Bud
certainly must have him up there with him! Then Lovin Child was not
drowned at all, but alive and needing dig-in-the-muds.
"Bud's got him! Oh, Bud has got him, I know he's got him!" she
whispered over and over to herself in an ecstasy of hope. "My little
Lovin Man! He's up there right now with his Daddy Bud--"
A vague anger stirred faintly, flared, died almost, flared again and
burned steadily within her. Bud had her Lovin Child! How did he come to
have him, then, unless he stole him? Stole him away, and let her suffer
all this while, believing her baby was dead in the river!
"You devil!" she muttered, gritting her teeth when that thought formed
clearly in her mind. "Oh, you devil, you! If you think you can get away
with a thing like that--You devil!"
In Nelson Flat the lupines were like spilled bluing in great,
acre-wide blots upon the meadow grass. Between cabin and creek bank a
little plot had been spaded and raked smooth, and already the peas and
lettuce and radishes were up and growing as if they knew how short would
be the season, and meant to take advantage of every minute of the warm
days. Here and there certain plants were lifting themselves all awry from
where they had been pressed flat by two small feet that had strutted
heedlessly down the rows.
The cabin yard was clean, and the two small windows were curtained
with cheap, white scrim. All before the door and on the path to the creek
small footprints were scattered thick. It was these that Marie pulled up
her hired saddle horse to study in hot resentment.
"The big brute!" she gritted, and got off and went to the cabin door,
walking straight-backed and every mental and physical fiber of her braced
for the coming struggle. She even regretted not having a gun; rather, she
wished that she was not more afraid of a gun than of any possible need of
one. She felt, at that minute, as though she could shoot Bud Moore with
no more compunction that she would feel in swatting a fly.
That the cabin was empty and unlocked only made her blood boil the
hotter. She went in and looked around at the crude furnishings and the
small personal belongings of those who lived there. She saw the table all
set ready for the next meal, with the extremely rustic high-chair that
had DYNAMITE painted boldly on the side of the box seat. Fastened to a
nail at one side of the box was a belt, evidently kept there for the
purpose of strapping a particularly wriggly young person into the chair.
That smacked strongly of Lovin Child, sure enough. Marie remembered the
various devices by which she had kept him in his go cart.
She went closer and inspected the belt indignantly. Just as she
expected--it was Bud's belt; his old belt that she bought for him just
after they were married. She supposed that box beside the queer high
chair was where he would sit at table and stuff her baby with all kinds
of things he shouldn't eat. Where was her baby? A fresh spasm of longing
for Lovin Child drove her from the cabin. Find him she would, and that no
matter how cunningly Bud had hidden him away.
On a rope stretched between a young cottonwood tree in full leaf and a
scaly, red-barked cedar, clothes that had been washed were flapping
lazily in the little breeze. Marie stopped and looked at them. A man's
shirt and drawers, two towels gray for want of bluing, a little shirt and
a nightgown and pair of stockings--and, directly in front of Marie, a
small pair of blue overalls trimmed with red bands, the blue showing
white fiber where the color had been scrubbed out of the cloth, the two
knees flaunting patches sewed with long irregular stitches such as a man
Bud and Lovin Child. As in the cabin, so here she felt the
individuality in their belongings. Last night she had been tormented with
the fear that there might be a wife as well as a baby boy in Bud's
household. Even the evidence of the mail order, that held nothing for a
woman and that was written by Bud's hand, could scarcely reassure her.
Now she knew beyond all doubt that she had no woman to reckon with, and
the knowledge brought relief of a sort.
She went up and touched the little overalls wistfully, laid her cheek
against one little patch, ducked under the line, and followed a crooked
little path that led up the creek. She forgot all about her horse, which
looked after her as long as she was in sight, and then turned and trotted
back the way it had come, wondering, no doubt, at the foolish faith this
rider had in him.
The path led up along the side of the flat, through tall grass and all
the brilliant blossoms of a mountain meadow in June. Great, graceful
mountain lilies nodded from little shady tangles in the bushes. Harebells
and lupines, wild-pea vines and columbines, tiny, gnome-faced pansies,
violets, and the daintier flowering grasses lined the way with odorous
loveliness. Birds called happily from the tree tops. Away up next the
clouds an eagle sailed serene, alone, a tiny boat breasting the currents
of the sky ocean.
Marie's rage cooled a little on that walk. It was so beautiful for
Lovin Child, up here in this little valley among the snow- topped
mountains; so sheltered. Yesterday's grind in that beehive of a
department store seemed more remote than South Africa. Unconsciously her
first nervous pace slackened. She found herself taking long breaths of
this clean air, sweetened with the scent of growing things. Why couldn't
the world be happy, since it was so beautiful? It made her think of those
three weeks in Big Basin, and the never-forgettable wonder of their
love--hers and Bud's.
She was crying with the pain and the beauty of it when she heard the
first high, chirpy notes of a baby--her baby. Lovin Child was picketed to
a young cedar near the mouth of the Blind ledge tunnel, and he was
throwing rocks at a chipmunk that kept coming toward him in little
rushes, hoping with each rush to get a crumb of the bread and butter that
Lovin Child had flung down. Lovin Child was squealing and jabbering, with
now and then a real word that he had learned from Bud and Cash. Not
particularly nice words--"Doggone" was one and several times he called
the chipmunk a "sunny-gun." And of course he frequently announced that he
would "Tell a worl'" something. His head was bare and shone in the sun
like the gold for which Cash and his Daddy Bud were digging, away back in
the dark hole. He had on a pair of faded overalls trimmed with red, mates
of the ones on the rope line, and he threw rocks impartially with first
his right hand and then his left, and sometimes with both at once; which
did not greatly distress the chipmunk, who knew Lovin Child of old and
had learned how wide the rocks always went of their mark.
Upon this scene Marie came, still crying. She had always been an
impulsive young woman, and now she forgot that Lovin Child had not seen
her for six months or so, and that baby memories are short. She rushed in
and snatched him off the ground and kissed him and squeezed him and cried
aloud upon her God and her baby, and buried her wet face against his fat
Cash, trundling a wheelbarrow of ore out to the tunnel's mouth, heard
a howl and broke into a run with his load, bursting out into the sunlight
with a clatter and upsetting the barrow ten feet short of the regular
dumping place. Marie was frantically trying to untie the rope, and was
having trouble because Lovin Child was in one of his worst
kicking-and-squirming tantrums. Cash rushed in and snatched the child
"Here! What you doing to that kid? You're scaring him to death --and
you've got no right!"
"I have got a right! I have too got a right!" Marie was clawing like a
wildcat at Cash's grimy hands. "He's my baby! He's mine! You ought to be
hung for stealing him away from me. Let go-- he's mine, I tell you.
Lovin! Lovin Child! Don't you know Marie? Marie's sweet, pitty man, he
is! Come to Marie, boy baby!"
"Tell a worl' no, no, no!" yelled Lovin Child, clinging to Cash.
"Aw--come to Marie, sweetheart! Marie's own lovin' little man baby!
You let him go, or I'll--I'll kill you. You big brute!"
Cash let go, but it was not because she commanded. He let go and
stared hard at Marie, lifting his eyebrows comically as he stepped back,
his hand going unconsciously up to smooth his beard.
"Marie?" he repeated stupidly. "Marie?" He reached out and laid a hand
compellingly on her shoulder. "Ain't your name Marie Markham, young lady?
Don't you know your own dad?"
Marie lifted her face from kissing Lovin Child very much against his
will, and stared round-eyed at Cash. She did not say anything.
"You're my Marie, all right You ain't changed so much I can't
recognize yuh. I should think you'd remember your own father-- but I
guess maybe the beard kinda changes my looks. Is this true, that this kid
belongs to you?"
Marie gasped. "Why--father? Why--why, father!" She leaned herself and
Lovin Child into his arms. "Why, I can't believe it! Why--" She closed
her eyes and shivered, going suddenly weak, and relaxed in his arms.
Cash slid Lovin Child to the ground, where that young gentleman picked
himself up indignantly and ran as far as his picket rope would let him,
whereupon he turned and screamed "Sunny-gun! sunny-gun!" at the two like
an enraged bluejay. Cash did not pay any attention to him. He was busy
seeking out a soft, shady spot that was free of rocks, where he might lay
Marie down. He leaned over her and fanned her violently with his hat, his
lips and his eyebrows working with the complexity of his emotions. Then
suddenly he turned and ducked into the tunnel, after Bud.
Bud heard him coming and turned from his work. Cash was not trundling
the empty barrow, which in itself was proof enough that something had
happened, even if Cash had not been running. Bud dropped his pick and
started on a run to meet him.
"What's wrong? Is the kid--?"
"Kid's all right" Cash stopped abruptly, blocking Bud's way. "It's
something else. Bud, his mother's come after him. She's out there
now--laid out in a faint."
"Lemme go." Bud's voice had a grimness in it that spelled trouble for
the lady laid out in a faint "She can be his mother a thousand
"Yeah. Hold on a minute, Bud. You ain't going out there and raise no
hell with that poor girl. Lovins belongs to her, and she's going to have
him. ... Now, just keep your shirt on a second. I've got something more
to say. He's her kid, and she wants him back, and she's going to have him
back. If you git him away from her, it'll be over my carcass. Now, now,
hold on! H-o-l-d on! You're goin' up against Cash Markham now, remember!
That girl is my girl! My girl that I ain't seen since she was a kid in
short dresses. It's her father you've got to deal with now--her father
and the kid's grandfather. You get that? You be reasonable, Bud, and
there won't be no trouble at all. But my girl ain't goin' to be robbed of
her baby--not whilst I'm around. You get that settled in your mind before
you go out there, or--you don't go out whilst I'm here to stop you."
"You go to hell," Bud stated evenly, and thrust Cash aside with one
sweep of his arm, and went down the tunnel. Cash, his eyebrows lifted
with worry and alarm, was at his heels all the way.
"Now, Bud, be calm!" he adjured as he ran. "Don't go and make a dang
fool of yourself! She's my girl, remember. You want to hold on to
yourself, Bud, and be reasonable. Don't go and let your temper--"
"Shut your damn mouth!" Bud commanded him savagely, and went on
At the tunnel mouth he stopped and blinked, blinded for a moment by
the strong sunlight in his face. Cash stumbled and lost ten seconds or
so, picking himself up. Behind him Bud heard Cash panting, "Now, Bud,
don't go and make--a dang fool--" Bud snorted contemptuously and leaped
the dirt pile, landing close to Marie, who was just then raising herself
dizzily to an elbow.
"Now, Bud," Cash called tardily when he had caught up with him, "you
leave that girl alone! Don't you lay a finger on her! That's my--"
Bud lifted his lips away from Marie's and spoke over his shoulder, his
arms tightening in their hold upon Marie's trembling, yielding body.
"Shut up, Cash. She's my wife--now where do you get off at?"
(That, o course, lacked a little of being the exact truth. Lacked a
few hours, in fact, because they did not reach Alpine and the railroad
until that afternoon, and were not remarried until seven o'clock that
"No, no, no!" cried Lovin Child from a safe distance. "Tell a worl'
"I'll tell the world yes, yes!" Bud retorted ecstatically, lifting his
face again. "Come here, you little scallywag, and love your mamma Marie.
Cash, you old donkey, don't you get it yet? We've got 'em both for keeps,
you and me."
"Yeah--I get it, all right." Cash came and stood awkwardly over them.
"I get it--found my girl one minute, and lost her again the next! But
I'll tell yeh one thing, Bud Moore. The kid's' goin' to call me grampaw,
er I'll know the reason why!"